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[lorelaisgf]

'hard to love?'

is it the disposition of one's will to suddenly leave their close ones hanging in the middle of nowhere, without any semi-colon or comma but with a full-stop, and wallow in your own thoughts of misery that is brought up by the over-thinking of the past nights that makes us hard to love?

or is it the doubt, raging all throughout our mind, that is fed with nothingness but the insecurity of not being enough to make our loved ones feel lovable that makes it hard to love?

or whether it is the trust that is broken by people whom we really thought were the 'one' but ended up shattering it all. It takes time to build back the walls of trust but does that really make me hard to love?

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[lorelaisgf]

Who knocked?

Tippity-tap, a quiet sound at midnight

I looked up and thought of my friend, whom I had called.

But I opened it and saw no one, so I wondered who knocked?

Tippity-tap the sound came twice

I stood up again but stopped out of fright

as it was 2am at night.

Hearing a familiarity in the voice,

I got up without thinking twice.

But just to make sure I was right, and saw no one in my sight

only to leave me thinking who knocked?

Tippity-tap, the knock came thrice

this time more aggressive with a disturbing vibe.

This time I opened it without any fright, only to see a bloody puddle

before my eyes,

and stare with a gaping mouth at the demeaning figure, standing

still with a big wicked smile to realize who had knocked.

I turned to run, back inside

only for it to clutch me with its claws from behind and scoop me

to the dark side.

Red eyes glowed and crooked hands rose

as I looked up with the same wicked smile

to knock on the next door twice.

(rough draft)

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[lorelaisgf]

🌷 🧷 take a dip in my daydreams

August • She/her • INTJ •

⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ 🧷🪐 just tap into my mind and soul

𝐒𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐮𝐬 𝐎𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

𝐀𝐥𝐞𝐤𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐨𝐳𝐨𝐯𝐚 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

𝐍𝐢𝐤𝐨𝐥𝐚𝐢 𝐋𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐬𝐨𝐯 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐮𝐢𝐥 𝐎𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭

[lorelaisgf]

HAPPY HOLI Y'all!!

Reblog to wish all your desi mutuals 💙❤️❤️🧡💜💚🩶🤍🩵

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[lorelaisgf]

I feel so happy when someone reblogs my poem with this...thank u sm :')

#happy happy happy #happy #i am happy #thank u

[lorelaisgf]

Hey Stranger

Where once you used to share the triumph with me, for the victories I brought.

What happened to those triumphs now?

To whom do you share now?

Does it scream strangers to you?

What happened to those shared smiles and woeful thoughts, to whom do you express it?

Does it scream strangers to you?

I entrusted my faith in you, hoping to find my mentor within you, on the lone road that I chose to travel.

But how you left me stranded, alone,

long before I'd known you were gone. 

Wouldn't it had been nice to let me know the reason to leave out of spite, so that

I would stop the cries and put an end to my tries.

My mama says, I am a big girl after all

so, I can walk the lone road on my own to try my new falls.

But I wonder if you'd still share the same

triumph for my victory years later or would it still scream strangers to you as if it

would do me a favor.

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[lorelaisgf]

Good morning guy, I couldn't sleep properly :') I am not even sleepy 😭 2 baje sone gayi abhi it's 7...I woke up around 6:15.

Bhai kal maths ka exam hai :') I want to write but I can't. I have already written one poem (half written) kal I will post.

But maths hai uske pehele :')

[lorelaisgf]

my e-diary

19.02.2024

15.3.2024

20.3.24

#e diary #e journal #journal

[lorelaisgf]

Me during 8am lectures

[lorelaisgf]

Hiii update!! I went out today...I had fun. I ate a lot lol didn't buy much cuz I had already spend money on food but still went around had fun.

(the temple I visited )

(The cafe I visited. I actually ate a lot of things, but I forgot to take pictures 😔 🥹)

(never missing out on book stores :))))

(lastly some ice cream on the way back to my college..it spoiled my dress though :')

I felt so good. Usually I used to see 'solo dates' on reels etc. So I always hoped once I am a little older I will go out on my own. Today I did. Although it was a short trip, but it truly made my day. Neither I was tired once I reached my hostel, nor my social battery had died down. All I can say that it is worth trying out new things/places on your own (but you gotta be careful).

Ps: thank u for all the suggestions:') u guys are so sweet :'))

tomorrow I am gonna go on a solo date ;) I will be posting the updatesss :))))

CANN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU ARE OUTING ALONE?? like where I am going is a market place+has pretty cafes

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[lorelaisgf]

My Poems

✓ Inferno

[• it's a poem about how some people work really hard and other people like to take the credit for it. ]

✓ Would you write me a song?

[ • a poem about the guy I like. Basically, it tells how I see him or feel about him, and if he does it in the same way. I mentioned artists like Taylor and Lana who write about people they love, and how I drew a comparison between them and me, that I would write a song for you too but would he do the same. ]

✓ My sweet Agony

[ • a poem about the same guy. In this poem I am basically screaming for his attention, even a little bit of it is nice. And in the end I am apologising (to him) if I was ever annoying him. ]

✓ If I die Young

[ • I wrote this when 2 years ago. It's a pretty self explanatory poem as in what it tries to convey. So I am not going into details to explain it, but let's just say the year 2021-2022 wasn't good at all for me. ]

✓ What a blissful sin

[ • a poem about him (again). This is a short poem compared to the other ones. Here I was just trying to gatekeep his beautiful features and appreciate his smile, laugh, looks]

✓ Hey Stranger

[ • it's a poem about my mentor, or atleast someone I looked up to. Well, now we have parted ways and we for a long time don't have any contact with each other as he promised we would. So this poem is written expressing my grief and an answer]

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[lorelaisgf]

tomorrow I am gonna go on a solo date ;) I will be posting the updatesss :))))

CANN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU ARE OUTING ALONE?? like where I am going is a market place+has pretty cafes

#desi girl #desi academia #desi tag #desi tumblr #desiblr #desi aesthetic #girlcore #girlblogging #tumblr girls #solo travel #solo date #date #going out

[lorelaisgf]

fatima aamer bilal, from i mother it the absence of her, iii. i am not a person that can be loved for a very long time excerpt from moony moonless sky.

[lorelaisgf]

What a blissful sin

what a blissful sin to watch you smile under the broad daylight,

but would it be a sin, if I caught you laughing without any penny to

offer you while I enjoy your limelight.

what a blissful sin to hear the deep, throaty chuckle that you'd make,

would it be a sin if I kept it a secret, hid it away from others,

for God's given sake.

what a blissful sin to catch you making funny looks, but would it

be a sin if I just leaned back and chuckled to myself quietly, because

that's all I could.

(context: he is quite a serious guy, so it's pretty rare to hear him laugh or see him smile, that's why I wrote this to appreciate his rarity)

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[lorelaisgf]

If I die young (wrote it around 2022)

If I die young, my clock will stay struck till 12 am.

There will be no morning or night to which my

mother will come to wake me up or tuck me in. 

If I die young, don’t let my father carry the burden

of guilt,

help him get over it, only to omit,

the pain that would wash within him. 

Regret, a hard pill to swallow, even the water

wouldn’t be enough to help it wash away. 

If I hadn’t been selfish enough, I would have still

laid on the soft mattress, instead of logs around me.

A shelter above me, instead of flames surrounding me.

My mother waiting for me to come home, instead of standing 

infront of the pyre. 

I could’ve lived and learned, 

instead of dying so young. 

Only if my clock could take an anti clock turn,

I would’ve still stayed young. 

(I found this old poem in my diary, and with a lot of debate back and forth I am posting this as this poem is quite sensitive to me)

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[lorelaisgf]

small update- I trying to make my own ornithopter. It's way harder than I thought, but as of now, I am going for the design. let's see. It's not in my curriculum, but I found it interesting so I am planning to make it.

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