#yea. i am depressed. bye

[suburbanlegnd]

#yea. i am depressed. bye #this song tho #rambles #Spotify

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for cutting a friend off and possibly triggering them? ✂️

Everyone is in their mid twenties for all that matters

I have this friend, we met back in a fandom through a discord server and since them we have been talking A LOT and I love them a whole lot. We even sent gifts to each other, bought each other games and called on discord to bitch about out lives and jobs. It was always good because it's in a pretty non-judgemental way.

In the last six months though, they have not been feeling well, and one day they told a friend totally cut them off and their parting message was "we always only talk about your interests. Bye" and they were devastated so I said that they're fine, because at the time, I could talk about my life and interests with them even if we didn't share the original one.

More recently, though, we can never talk. We always just talk about what they want, about what they're facing, about what is the latedt bullshit their parents pulled and how they're suffering from their mental illness that's, unfortunately, more complicated and more demonized than anxiety and depression. And they tell me that I am such a good listener, that I am so good at helping them and whenever I try to say that something is going on in my life they say they're not in the headspace for that, or that they can't listen to it rn. Recently I've been trying to tell about a recent interest — I am autistic (so are they) so my interests are pretty intense — so I was talking about dyes and how they were made in the past and they were just answering with one word answers and nods, and I brought up the concern, and they told me Yea I am not feeling well enough, I am going to cap this conversation now, to two hours later come into my DMs gushing about their latest interest. And when I brought attention over the issue, they said that they just don't really feel invested in my interests. I was obviously hurt and said they could at least try?

If anything is worth they also show 0 interest in everything I produce that's not from the fandom they're currently in and specially if they're my brainchilds (aka OCs) while I care about everything they produce. So basically I am feeling they only ever talk to me when they want to talk about something I like and never feel up for discussing the things I like or anything of this caliber, which obviously makes me not really want to talk to them.

The asshole part would be cutting them for the same reason another person cut them and possibly triggering them into hating themself more or if I am cutring them pver feelings instead of trying to talk about it like adults. Because we had a meaningful bond and losing them would really suck for both of us

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[witchykittyy]

Agreement 💖

@marcyyywukinnie asked: Hi could you make a fanfic Yandare Blitzo x reader x Yandare Stolas where they just fight about reader, before coming to terms that theyll share them??

I am soooooooo sorry about how late this is!!! I really am. Life's been really hectic and I went through a very depressive episode but I promise to be on top of stuff more often! I really hope you like it! ❤ Sorry if its not really enough fighting per say. 😅

TW: Demons, Hell, Blood, Arguing, Cursing (lots of it), Mentions of kidnapping, Stalking, and other yandere themes.

"Damn that was a fuck ton of clients!!!" Millie jumped up into Moxxie's arms pumped and covered in blood. "Yea it was and it was so fucking awesome! But I think imma head in for the night." You're the newest member of I.M.P. A few days ago you saw their help wanted poster and decided you needed the extra money so you decided to join. You got along really well with Moxxie, Millie and surprisingly Loona. The only person who doesn't seem to like you is Blitzo. He was always staring at you. Watching your every move like he's waiting for you to do something wrong. So you always tend to keep your distance.

"Yea I think me and Millie have had enough excitement for today as well. Goodbye sir! Goodbye Y/N!" "Bye Blizto! Bye N/N!" Moxxie and Millie wave goodbye as they leave. "Whatever, bye." Loona continues on reading her magazine. "Bye guys!" You wave goodbye to them sweetly. "Bye lovebirds! Don't get too kinky while I'm away!" You can almost hear Moxxie rolling his eyes at those words and you chuckle. Now its just you, Loona and... Blitzo. Though your back is turned you can feel his eyes burning into info our skin, its very unsettling so with out turning around you decided to say your goodbyes and leave. "Bye Blitzo! Bye Loona!" "Bye dork." Blitzo doesnt say anything and you start to walk off sill feeling his gaze on you. Suddenly he says "See you soon Y/N"

You got home and were extremely exhausted as you flopped down onto your semi comfortable bed. Due to only recently having a job you dont have that much money to buy yourself a nice place so for right now you're stuck in this crummy apartment. Even though you didnt mind your situation someone else did.

Stolas has been watching you from the day he saw you in the I.M.P headquarters while he was visiting Blitzo. He's been obssessed with you ever since he saw you and has stalked you finding out your likes, habits, dislikes and everything else about you. He truly believes that you deserve so much better than what you have. He loves you and believes you deserve to be treated like a queen. A problem with that is that Blizto is also in love with you. Stolas notices the stares he give you and the longing look in his eyes. He's sure Blitzo has noticed his interest as well and thats probably why Blitzo hasnt spoken to him. But nevermind that.

You change into your PJ', get into bed and start scrolling through Helltok. "Ah shit its getting dark and I have to work tomorrow" you sigh. "I guess I should go to bed as Moxxie would say thats the responsible thing to do." You turn off your phone and go to bed. Stolas stares at you from the window wishing that he were next to you.

After a while he sees someone climbing onto your balcony. He's about to go stop him but then the two lock eyes. "Stolas?! The fuck are you doing here?!" He almost tumbles off the balcony from the surprise. "I should be asking you the same question Blitzo." "Look dipshit im doing the same thing you are but going inside." Blizto starts opening the window. "Wait! We shouldnt do that it invading her privacy." He goes to stop him but then Blitzo slaps his hand away. "Oh and stalking her isnt invading her privacy?! Look just leave ok if you dont wanna do this. Not like I want you stealing my girl anyways." He grumbles the last part but Stolas is able to hear him. "Well I sure as hell am not leaving her alone with you." "Then come in with me." He grabs Stolas's hand and stealthly brings him into the room. Stolas blushes at the sudden contact. 'Wait why'd he blush? What the hell is happening to him?'

You're dead asleep on the bed. "So smart ass what do we do now?" He tries to cover up the fact that grabbing Blitzo's hand made him blush. "We look around bird brain." They start looking around the crummy place, dodging the clothes thrown on the floor. Eventually after looking around for a while Blitzo decides to look your computer as Stolas watches you sleep peacefully. Out of the corner of his eye Stolas sees him breaking into your computer. "Hey!" He yells silently. "What do you think you're doing?" "I'm looking through her computer dipshit." Blitzo rolls his eyes as though its obvious. "Well yes I know that but why?" "To make sure she ain't seeing some other loser."

Blitzo searches and suddenly stops dead in his tracks. "You need to see this birdie." They stare at the computer reading you're messages with some guy named Dennis. "Oh hell no" they growl out in unison. You whine and shift in your sleep as they go dead silent. Once they're sure you're not awake they continue. "We can't let this shit happen." Blitzo growls with malice. "I completely agree. This dirt bag isn't good enough for our Y/N." Stolas nods. "Wait, our?" "Well yes I suppose we'll need to team up to stop this guy and ensure that she stays with us. Is that an ok arrangement?" Stolas questions. "Yea.. Thatd be great." Blitzo looks down blushing madly.

#helluva boss #yandere stolas #yandere helluva boss #yandere blitzo #first time writing an actual fanfic #i hope you guys like it

[sarahrogersevans]

Not Meant To Be- Chris Evans fan fic

Summary: Chris and reader try to get pregnant but when reader goes to her doctor one day she finds out she may not be able to have a child…

⚠️Warnings: mentions of depression and overthinking, mentions of anxiety. & mentions of pregnancy issues I’m sorry I know this might be a sensitive topic. this is a sad fic this one won’t have a happy ending I’m so sorry⚠️

So it started with Chris and I talking one day while going on a walk with dodger, everything in our relationship has been wonderful we’ve been together for three years and we were thinking of having kids.

I was walking hand in hand with Chris and said “you sure you’re ready for us to maybe starting a family Chris? I know your life right now has you busy and I don’t wanna disrupt that.”

Chris said “baby I wanna do this with you more than anything. I love you and if you’re ready so am I.”

I smiled at him and felt so happy and said “I love you too Chris I just wanted to be sure you’re good with this I don’t wanna pressure you with anything.”

Chris gently put his hand on my cheek and leaned in to kiss me and leaned his forehead by mine and said “does that answer you doll?”

I nodded and said “yea it does baby I’m glad you wanna have kids it’s been on my mind for a little while honestly.”

———a month later———

Chris and I started trying for having a child every so often and I went to the doctor to have an exam done and see if things had moved along at all because it had been a little while now and I was starting to worry.

After the nurse checked me in the doctor came in and said “hey Y/N how are we today?”

I hoped they couldn’t tell how anxious I was about this appointment. I said “oh I’m ok doc thanks how about you?”

The doctor said “I’m well thank you, so I see here that you came in because you’ve been trying to get pregnant that right?”

I nodded feeling shaky and said “yes that’s right but so far nothing is happening and it’s been weighing on me..”

The doctor got me checked out and did tests and then I went home waiting on the results anxiously feeling worried this might not happen.

With Chris away on a work trip I was kinda relieved he wasn’t around to see how stressed and worried I was.

I hear my phone buzz and it’s Chris trying to FaceTime call me.

I answer it saying “hey baby!” secretly feeling like I’m gonna have a panic attack.

Chris smiled at me and said “hey doll I’m sorry I’m not there with you right now to wait on the results, has the doctor called yet?”

I shook my head saying “not yet Chris I know we really wanna have this happen.”

He saw my guilty face and said “hey no it’s ok baby they’ll let us know but whatever happens I love you we’ll figure it out ok?”

Just hearing Chris say that made me feel really relieved and I smiled and said “I love you Chris and I know we will should I let you go or can you stay on for a bit?”

Chris said “no I can stay on with you for a bit how’s Dodger doing by the way I miss my buddy!”

I whistled to dodger and said “dodger hey boy come here daddy wants to say hey!”

Dodger came running up to me and I turned the camera to face dodger and Chris said “hey buddy it’s daddy are you behaving for Y/N?”

Dodger licked the screen he’s always such a smart boy he knows who it is.

I said “yes he’s being a good boy he’s keeping me company.”

Chris said “good boy dodge, hey baby I gotta go but let me know when the doctor calls or sees you next ok? I’ll be home in a few days I love you.”

I waved and said “bye baby I love you too.”

A few days later the doctor called leaving a voicemail asking me to go in to see them and oh gosh I was so nervous about it.

I got there and sat down and the doctor comes in and says “hey Y/N so unfortunately the tests showed that you are unable to have children I’m so sorry Y/N but you could keep trying or adopt possibly, I’ll give you a minute.”

I sat there feeling upset and felt frozen I couldn’t move and oh god what was I gonna tell Chris?

That night I got home and Chris was sitting on the couch and he looked up and noticed the state I was in and walked over carefully hugging me.

Chris said “did you just come from the doctors office honey?”

I nodded and looked at Chris and said “Baby.. I’m.. I’m sorry, we’re not able to have kids on our own..”

Chris looked really sad and shocked and hugged me and I cried and said “I’m so sorry Chris I’m so sorry.”

Chris cried rubbing my back and said “me too honey.. I’m sorry too.. but we’ll umm we’ll figure it out ok?”

I wanted to believe it I really did but right now I didn’t know how to feel. I guess it was not meant to be.

So this was another requested fic I just worked on I’m so so sorry i know it’s a sad one 😭 but it was a request. I changed it up a bit but I hope the person that requested it enjoys it and I hope it’s alright. xx 🤍

Next fic story I promise will be a happy one 💜

#chris evans #chris evans x fem! reader #chris evans angst #request #chris evans x reader #chris evans fan fic #requests #chris evans fan fiction #chris evans blurb #chris evans one shot

[yoonyia]

dying because I thought about miro Jane for 2 seconds and it's so upsetting

it's also very much what orson scott would do and i don't know how to feel about that

like that was my goal

buttttt

Jane is dying because Jane Val can't really hold Jane together that well, Jane is too much that it kinda exhausts the connections pretty quickly, unexpected thing that happens is one of Jane and Miros sons are also dying, and Jane had a strong enough philtonic connection with her kid to become her kid

miro dosent want that because how can I love my child when he now contains the person I called my wife, how can I love you or him the same way, I will lose both of you and have to deal with a stranger that reminds me of all the people I lost, all that could have, should have, been

don't you see what you're doing to me Jane, don't leave me I need you, you can't leave me so soon

and Jane being Jane is like

love me anyways, I'm sorry I only know one love, I dont know the difference between wife and child but I will love you in whatever life I am, ill still be me and I'll be our son too, love me as your wife if you must, love me as your child if you can, or simply just love me if I'm a stranger

I'm sorry I have to leave you, but I cannot give up the human life just for you miro

you mean so much to me but my life means a lot too, I won't leave you miro I love you but let me live on. If not for me then for the sake of faster then light speed travel, or think of it as repayment for giving you back your body, anything to make this ok.

Then miro being miro will be like

Nothing jane, nothing will make this ok, i will look for you everyday, i will hate my child, I will curse him for stealing you away from me and I will destroy myself without you, then i would drive myself insane for hurting you, dont leave me, dont leave me and then start begging at the feet of her bed

then jane will say some sappy stuff she saw online like Good bye my husband, I will love you once more and forever. and then die and then their son would wake up from a coma in perfect health and his 2 older siblings would rejoice and then miro would see Jane die and cry the most depressing cry you've ever heard then proceed to become abusive and hateful and self destructive (like mother like son i guess) and Jane son (I don't have a name for miroane children yet sorry) would just watch being really sad and act sometimes like a child and sometimes like Jane and most people would be like "oh he's so much like his mom" and miro would be absolutely livid

I dont know man thoughts

also ignore the bad writing I genuinely do not have the mental capabilities to make it good right now (or ever, really)

also more about Jack the fish

he can't die

well he can but it's the "dosent die unless killed" thing

so he's just kinda chilling seeing everyone go through horrible horrible situations (he also speaks for Peter 2s and si wang mus death if that means anything)

there's this story idea I had of a world 2000 years FURTHER into the future of Jack chilling on this almost eternally autumn planet and then meeting one of Jane's or enders or even beans descendants and then taking her on a joy ride across colonies then trapping her on an ocean planet (his home planet) because he just kinda forgot about her

he didn't mean to trap her he just forgot and ruined this poor girls life

I'm thinking of there being an ending of all the fishes slowly dying out on his home planet and Jack just getting the whole of the fish aiua in his body alone making him have a full consciousness and not like, 1/324th of one. and that whole aiua being shoved into this one human body messes with him and sends him into either insanity or really really bad depression. And he's less "oh yea this is how humans are supposed to act, mhm yes definitely" (proceeds to be a pretty convincing human) and more "yea I'm a bunch of fish in a human fleshcoat and I have to deal with that, yea I'm weird I can't really do anything about it sorry"

so he chases down jane (who's currently now some Latino lady in her late 30s) and talks to her and makes her upset because he's being a real big bummer right now, like dude you ok

and then he goes to the lustainia and sees the piggies and the hivequeen and they talk about him technically being an alien just like them and that he should get a book too and it's upsetting that ender is dead and isn't there to write it

then he says something like "well jane didn't a book either, you 2 were lucky" and they just all kinda sit together in the now more genetically diverse lustania and then he gets a call from the kid and she's not a kid anymore she's like 70+ and dying and she just wants to leave for gods sake so he brings her to lustaina while she's dying and let's her die in his arms or something and he lies there next to what used to be where rooter was, and just quietly sing or hum or something and all the aliens that exist (cause jane is in the trees remember) all sing a chorus and it kinda ends there

I dont know what to do with the ending it's just kinda there

I dont mind it that much but I will probably change it

enderverse brainrot is real and its not fun

also what are your thoughts about bean body dysmorphia

also also I really wanna talk about Achilles but the other one

what is his name? Arkansas?

THAT WAS NOT WHAT I WROTE BUT THATS HILARIOUS

anyways I love him, I remember I loved him

need more that dude

anyways gonna draw for Palestine now good bye

#enders game #ender’s game

[enchanting-grom-fright]

todays been ?? (rant :3)

my grandparents r over so the morning was very chaotic and stressful as expected and then my mom was like ok we’re going to go do something so she decided that we would go to the area where the school i just got into is and walk around so then i started freaking out and it was horrible bcs i cannot do spontaneous things especially in public like i cannot physically handle it but my mom refuses to believe that and just thinks i am some bitchy teenager and also that means like i had to get ready and stuff and i like especially did not like how i looked today bcs i hate how feminine i look and i hate how much being alternative brings attention to me but i gave up on trying to be less feminine a while ago bcs i know i’ll always be perceived as a girl so i might as well follow the style i like best on me even though many days it feels disgusting to look so girlish (many days too i love it just like not today) and also i realized ppl r going to view me as weird anyways so i’d rather theyd just assume it’s bcs i’m alternative rather than it be me myself but anyways i went and picked out a simple but cute outfit it was a combo i hadn’t done before and then i spent like forever staring at myself in the mirror bcs i love wearing my cute outfits but also sometimes it feels so wrong to like pick them out bcs i am like a complete mess how could i even pretend to look presentable until my mom came up and was like ok we need to leave now so we left and walked around and i do loveeee that part of town on the car ride i saw so much graffiti too which like i live graffiti unpopular opinion but i think graffiti is an essential part of cities like it shows that even though we r surrounded by these depressing buildings there is still beauty and people who can be creative anyways in it and it really personalized the town like it’s going to reflect the ppl in it and like anyways i also saw some leftover confetti stars and a feather for my cats and a button i can use in sewing and like idk if many ppl other than my mom and brother know this but i love collecting things like that whenever i go into the city bcs like 1. it really makes u appreciate everything and also like wondering how it got there is interesting 2. free shit to collage with 3. might as well bcs it’s good for the environment bcs ur picking up litter and reusing it so anyways i have like a huge bag of shut back home lol so yea but walking around was like eh i mean i love the area it’s like very artsy and gay but also my grandparents were literally on and off yelling at eachother and my niether was super hyper and my mom and grandparents kept getting mad at me which like again all of this was expected but it was very stressful plus i was like still in a horrible mood but also then some like old man who was probably 60-70 and was wearing like a bow tie and rainbow pants and a plaid top said to me “well i’m glad i’m not the only goth person here” and like tbh that was exactly what i needed and it was so funny but also so nice and like yea exactly what i needed so that was nice and then we stopped by a coffee shop and ok anyways i’ve just been typing this to distract from my mom yelling at me in the car rn but i’m home so yea guys idk bye

#i went into my drafts and found this from a few hrs ago #but i want to keep my drafts organized so i’m posting it anywayssss

[chericheriladyxo]

She's Yours, You're Mine part two [angst]

Draco x Fem!Reader

Draco is arranged to marry Astoria, but all he's ever wanted is you.

Words: 1226 Contains: unrequited love, longing, sad, depression, talk of family trauma,

Notes: all characters are 18+, reader's house is not specified.

:1

You laid in your bed in your dorm room, staring at the ceiling trying to piece together the interactions you'd had with Draco. How strange he was acting when you bumped into each other outside the library, and how he'd acknowledged you coming around the corner but decided not to say anything when his fiancee came around. And on top of all of that, he'd clearly been crying over something more often than he should've, something was really getting to him.

You'd never avoided Draco on purpose or believed any of the rumours that flew around about him, nor had you had any significant interaction with him after fourth year, when you two were friends. He'd pulled away randomly one week and became colder towards the end of the year. You didn't say anything about it, but the both of you just stopped talking and found new friends. You were never quite sure why he changed so much, but you were sure his arranged fiancee didn't help.

Your roommate entered and was surprised to see you on your bed, when usually at this time, you'd be out in the common room or in the library. "Oh hi y/n! Um.. I hate to ask this but I kind of brought someone over and you're usually not here at this time of night so.."

You snap your head towards the door and notice the other figure standing behind her. "Oh I'm sorry- yea, I'll give you guys space."

"Thank you so much, I owe you." You smiled in response and got up with a book in hand.

"Bye guys." You made your way out of the room, now lost with nowhere to go. You couldn't seem to focus on studying or reading, too stuck on Draco. Maybe you'd try to find him. Though he was probably with Astoria.

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"Could you just- give me some time alone? Just for a few?" Astoria scoffed but Draco persisted, "Please Astoria. I love you but I just need to clear my head."

"Well I am perfectly comfortable in this bed, and I'm not moving. So if you need to 'clear your head', then by all means, take a walk!" Astoria replied in a mocking tone. Draco bit back the urge to shout at her and turned on his heel to walk out.

He was so fed up with Astoria's attitude toward him, when all he wanted was to watch a movie and go to sleep. But she continued to press him for details about his day and his classes and after he politely asked her for some peace, she blew up at him.

He decided to go to his favorite place to unwind, the greenhouses. They were full of magical plants that were beautiful in their own way and all had specialties. 'Just like you' he thought.

He opened the door and was hit by the smell of fresh dirt and the sweet aroma of mistletoe berry.

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You walked through the halls of Hogwarts, trying to find a way to spend the time away from your dorm efficiently. You could spend the time with the owls, but it was so cold outside, or you could practice your potion skills, but you couldn't focus right now. You decided to grow some plants in the greenhouse, and restock your ingredients. You sighed and walked towards the greenhouses, at least they'd be warm.

You walked in and made your way down the short spiral staircase, with a door leading to the main house adorned with different bushes. You headed for the 2nd house and decided to start with Mallowleaves. It was such a commonly used ingredient you ran out quickly.

Afterwards, you headed out the door and to a different greenhouse for dittany. You heard the main door and turned your head, but nobody was there.

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"Shit-" Draco whispered, and immediately turned to hide behind a tree. He didn't know why he was hiding, the space was open to everyone, but it seemed you were the only other one in there at such an hour. He heard foot steps coming up the staircase and tried to sneak down the other side before you saw him.

"Draco? I thought I heard somebody."

"Oh hi-"

"Were you hiding from me?" You questioned,

His eyes widened slightly, "no- no, I didn't know you were here." You both stayed in silence for a second. "I'm just here for- dittany." He said, trying to come up with an excuse.

"Oh, I was just about to grab some." He sighed and followed you towards the plants. You both grabbed a bag and started trimming your respective pots.

"So, I don't wanna pry, but you seemed off earlier.. and I just wondered if everything alright?"

Draco didn't look up but you could hear a change in his breathing. "Yea, I- watched a sad movie or something.." His voice trailed off and you stopped what you were doing.

"Or something?"

He didn't respond, suddenly feeling very vulnerable.

"Why did you stop talking to me? In fifth year." You questioned and Draco exhaled a shaky breath that made you look up at him, worried.

"I- I don't know, I'm sorry."

"I just want to know what's going on-"

"I- my parents-" He raised a hand to face and tried to hold back tears. You stepped closer and he took a small step back as well. Instead of waiting, you flung your arms around him. He was stiff in your grip for a moment, before his emotions got the best of him and he cried into your shoulder.

You had no idea what was going on, especially since he had always been so reluctant to show any emotion in public, and here he was, bawling into your shoulder and holding on to your sweater as tightly as he could.

He took note of your warmth and your worn-off perfume. He felt safe, and he'd never forget that. The thought made him cry harder.

The two of you sunk to the ground and you brought a hand up to his hair, running your fingers through it. "It's okay.." You tried to comfort him.

It took awhile for him to calm down, but when he did, you spoke up, "I've missed you."

He sniffled, "I've- missed you too."

"Does this have to do with Astoria?"

"Sort of.. just- nothing has felt right. for awhile. I'm sorry you're seeing me like this-"

"Don't be, it's ok. I just wanted to- make sure you were okay."

He paused, "But- I'm sorry that I stopped talking to you, my parents didn't want me 'associating with mudbloods'." Even he cringed at the word. "And every time I see you, I regret it. I just hoped you didn't hate me." You away and looked him,

"I could never hate you." You gave him a small smile, but it didn't stay as you looked into each others eyes.

Sure he was attractive, and much older now, but you hadn't realized until he was looking at you with an unrecognizable desire. His breathing picked up and he leaned forward a bit. You were only a few inches away from each other, caught up in the moment. "I should go-" You stood up suddenly and walked quickly towards the stairs, only taking a moment to look back at Draco before running out.

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:3

#slytherin #slytherin boys #draco malfoy #harry potter #light angst

[theatrekidstatus]

Chapter 11

Y/n pov: -next month- "Y/N" Anthony yelled "YEAH" I yelled back "Let's go we have rehearsals" he informed I mumbled a bunch of stuff none were real words I changed into this

"You look beautiful babe" he compliments "Thank you," I say "Not so bad yourself " I complimented Wee better head out now" he advised "Yeah"

"BABE" Jazzy yelled"WIFEY" I scream back "We're GONNA BE ON BROADWAY" "FAMOUS COUPLE" "LEZZZZ GOOOOOO" "MAN WHAT YOU LOOKING AT US FOR" Jazzy screamed at Ant "Shi my bad" he replied "fuh boy" she calls "yo calm down jazzy" I warn "my bad" she 'apologizes' "now say sorry" I demanded "SORRY ANT" she yells "oh um no prob-" he says before getting cut off "THAT YOUR HAIRLINES RECEDING" she cuts off "there it is" "JASMINE CEPHAS JONES" renèe yells "IM SORRY ANT" she yells we didn't believe her. so we waited [ (; ] "DAMN I SAID SORRY" she yells agitated "I forgive you" he chockes up "coo" she replies "OK LETS GET TO WORK" Lin shouts we head to the stage it was so big (a/n: shut up) ok let's rehearse first song

-2 minutes later-

"when he was ten his father split full of it depth ridden"

-2 hours later- "let's take a break" (RUN AWAY WITH US FOR THE SUMMER LET'S GO UPDATE) "I'm so tired" I tell Ant "Did you eat" he asks "Yeah..." I lie "Are you lying?" "Yeah..." I admit "Eat this apple" he demands "ok..." I eat the apple "Now let's take a nap" he suggests I fell asleep while Ant was scrolling threw insta I wake up to a nudge "Hey, hey, babe wake up" "What happened" I rub my eyes with the bottom of my fist "we gotta rehearse" I yawn and get up "I bet you could sleep forever" renèe "LIN WHAT MY RECORD" he shouts"17 hours" "WHAT THE FUCK" "I was depressed"

-After rehearsal- "SEE YOU TOMORROW GANG" Lin yells "gang?" Jazzy asks with a raised eyebrow "Aren't we a gang" Lin asks "I'd take family" Pippa suggests "DIBS ON MOM" I shout "DIBS ON DAD" Ant shouts "Aw fuck" Lin mumbles "Anyway let's head home" Chris suggests "k" we all say in unison "you wanna stay at my apartment" ant asked "sure" "nice let's go" "but you don't have a car" I bring up "yeah" he tells "uh" "..." "uh let's go I guess" I say

-at apartment-

"Nice place" I compliment "Thanks, lemme get changed"

"Gah damn" I mumble "like what ya see?" He asks with a cocky voice and smiles "Hell yeah" I say flirtatiously. he chuckled and flopped in bed "you coming" he ask "i don't have anything to sleep in" I share "you did that on purpose" "maybeeeee" I joke "go get a t-shirt and boxers" he tells "YA-I mean ok" Anthony chuckled "your cute" "so are you" (imagine how Zendaya SOUNDED and that one interview when Tom holland said she was cute) "uh oh did nervous y/n come back" he ask with a smirk "no shut up" "THAT HURT MY FEELINGS MY WORDS MATTER" "👆🏾" he started fake crying "I'm sorry you big baby" I said while hugging him "it's ok" he faked sobbed i went to get his boxers and shirt "HOW DO I LOOK" "amazing" "ant" I whispered "what" "you're blushing" "oh um sorry um shit god" "JUST KIDDING" "🖕🏼" "I love you too now come here" "what" "I wanna spoon" "ok" we spooned and at 3:00 am we got a call "ughhhhhh" "do I Answer or" "pick Up I guess" "hello" "EW" "what" "it's that Alexa girl" "ew" "bye bitch" he said before hanging up "your funny" "I know" he says before falling back asleep

-next morning-

"WAKE UP" "SHUT UP" he started whimpering (STFU) "I'm sorry" "It's ok" We get ready

"Do you think you can move in those jeans" "yeah" "ok" "let's get donuts" "FUCK YEA" "let's go" we stopped at krispey cream "can I get-" "I WANT THE BEE DONUTS PLEASE" "HOW MANY" "ALL" "a dozen" "ALL" "DOZEN" "ok pull up please" "that will be 2.99 " (I don't know how much donuts cost) "thank you" "I WANTED ALL" I huff "you can have 2" "I DESERVE ALL" "you do but you only getting 2" "ghvghgdh" "sorry babe" it's fine"

-at the theatre-

"how was y'all sleep over" "good but Alexa called ant" "ew" "yeah but ant said 'bye bitch and hung up" "what she say" "um um" "ANTHONY" "huh" "WHAT LEXA SAY LAST NIGHT" "hi freckles" "ok" "YOU LYING" "NO JAZZY DANM" "AIGHT" "anyway I slept in his clothes" "oooooooo" "did y'all...you know" "JAZZY" "what" "it's ok and no we didn't" "OK LISTEN UP WE'RE GONNA BE ON BROADWAY SO THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT SO LETS GET TO WORK" "SIR YES SIR" "har de har" "now get up here" we got up there and didn't get down for 5 hours! I was wobbly and sick "UM LETS TAKE A BREAK" (rUn AwAy WiTh tHe SuMmEr LeTs Go UpStAtE) "You good pinky pie" "Shut up dude" "I'm Sirius" "Yeah...I'm im" then it went black. I hear loud sirens "Huh what happened" "Y/N" Ant and Lin yelled while they tried to jump in they only let Lin in and said "Sir your gonna have to meet her at the hospital I just saw angry tears flow down his face "L-Lin" "yeah" "what happened" "you fainted and we're out for 2hours" "it took y'all 2hours to call the ambulance" "IT TOOK THEM 2HOURS TO COME" "Lin shut up because if they throw us out on the streets what then" he chuckled we get there I got checked out they gave me pills and a chart on how much I should eat for each meal

-after rehearsals and at home-

"Hard day" "It was ok" (bars) "Let's eat" "I'm not really-" I was cut off by an intense stare given by Lin "I'll eat" "Good don't stuff or overeat"

-on broadway- "WOO OPENING NIGHT LETS GO HOW WE FEELING" "SCARED" "AND" "EXITED" "THATS WHAT I LIKE TO HEAR" "ok 45 minutes till places" "you nervous John" "No, I'm terrified" "don't be you did good off broadway" "just think of it as a bigger stage that's all it is" "just a bigger stage" he mumbled "exactly know get dressed" "I got-dressed" "ok" "oooooo updated costume?" "Yeah you should see my Phillip one" "Can't wait" "Is your mom here tonight" "Yeah she saved a seat for you and everything" Thanks babe I go find ant mom she waved me over and I sat with her and chatted about ant as a kid "oh he was so cute did you know he dimples on his butt" "no," I say giggling but not letting out the laugh I want "oh yeah he was cute the you know the baseball Super Bowl thing (I don't know what it's called or if it's even a thing😭😭) "yeah" "he loved it as kid he once pissed his pants not to miss it" "oh really" I say holding back I laugh "oh it's starting"

-After the show- "Can you show walk me backstage" "Of course" "HI BABE YOU DID SO GOOD" "THANKS babe, did you like meeting my mom" "Yep dimples" "Dim-?"He was caught off by embarrassment he went pale then red "Honey are you okay" "sí Mama que tu hablar como y/n" "You as a Child" "OK gracias" "No problema" "DONT worry I think it's cute" I say while kissing his cheek

#hamilton fanfiction #ao3 fanfic #fanfics #fanfic authors #fanfic writers #fanfiction writer #fanfic writing #fanfic #fanfiction #anthony ramos #musical theater #musical theatre #theater #theatre #21 chump street #broadway #hamilton musical #lin manuel miranda #anthonyramosxreadertheatrekidstatus

[sliceocheese]

Hey

uh

I just saw your post about maybe being aroace-

How’s that going for you?

GREAT QUSESIONTN :'D

i have noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo clue :)

things are rly weird and just souper weirdness

i cant emotion and school at the same time thats why if you meet me irl during the schooling months i look like my dog just got shot

(emotions go bye bye and im just numb 24/7 thats why i love psych horror cus it makes me feel things just a little)

mabye its like.... seasonal depression?

idk

so mabye i am and i just dont know

or i do know but i dont really

i dont know 🥲

im still trying to figure shit out thats why i cant rly pin point it and keep going back and forth with labels

(finally figured out im a gender smoothie THANK GOD)

but yea...

i dont know :)

#freddie screams into the void #answer da ask

[eddieboi23]

Don’t be sad

Courtney x depressed!GN Reader (Dead End Paranormal park)

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Summary: You have been slacking in work at the theme park, and no one seems to want to ask why, besides Courtney.(reader is above 18 in this)

Tw: cussing, um depressing thoughts, kissing?

(Y/n)=yours name

-this is thoughts-

Credits: me

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Your POV:

You’ve been sad lately, no, more like, absolutely fucking depressed. You don’t HAVE a valid reason, at least that’s what others say.

You hate yourself, your parents for kicking you out of your home, your voice, your body, everything. Of course your parents and friends all said you should stop “bringing down the mood”, or being “selfish,” so you tend to just keep it in, though it hurts. But who cares, right?

You awaken in the creepy bedroom you moved into(along with Barney), and sigh. (You were kicked out by your parents bc plot) You can tell today is going to be hard, as you already want to go back to sleep ,forever.

You fight through the urge to do just that and slowly get up, all your bones popping as you stretch.

Then you look in the mirror on the side table ,and see your puffy eyes and tear stained face.

You cried last night, you would definitely have to fix your face.

You slowly go through your morning routine and exit your room, walking down to meet Barney, Norma, and… Courtney.

You will admit you had a small crush on her, but that’s besides the point!

Barney Norma, Pugsley and Courtney are all just sitting around the steps, talking to each other, then they all turn to you.

Courtney waves, and you wave back. Then you slowly shuffled down to them.

“Hi Y/N! You sure do look tired! Are you ok?” Pugsley yapped.

“Mhm, yep” you replied.

“Y/N you should make sure to get the correct amount of sleep!” Said Norma in a scolding tone.

“Yea, sorry…” you mumbled.

Then it was Barney’s turn to speak, “yea it’s ok, I get it, this mansion is kinda creepy” you nod your head slowly, not having the energy to correctly reply.

Courtney narrows her eyes at you, then looks at the rest of the gang, “hey mortals, lemme talk to Y/N for a sec, alone.” You widen your eyes slightly, then look to the others.

Barney smirks and starts walking off. “We’ll start patrol alone! It won’t be too hard to find us!”

“O-Ok- bye.” You stuttered, as the others went outside to do who knows what.

Your thoughts were going crazy.

“-Now we are alone, fuck, ok y/n don’t panic, just alone with your crush no big deal it’s fine, am I in trouble, does she kno-“

“MORTAL” Courtney yells, a little too loudly.

You jump and look at her. “Er what? Sorry. Where you saying something?”

She sighs, “look mortal, something is obvious wrong with you or something, so just spill it! I ain’t got all day.”

You freeze, then force a smile. “Oh! No I’m ok, just tired yah know? N-Norma did say I needed more sleep!😅”

Courtney crosses her arms and narrows her eyes. “You sleep all the time, how much sleep does a mortal need!? I know something is wrong. You have constant bags under your eyes, walk soooo slow AND always wear hoodies. just TELL me!”

You let out a nervous laugh. “I’m fineee- OH I HEAR BARNEY CALLING GTG!!” You run outside before Courtney can say a word. Hope she bought you excuse.

Courtney Pov:

I watch Y/N run away, confused. “-why doesn’t the mortal want to talk, their stuttering was cut- HEY! Focus, no gushy stuff. they are hiding something. I’ll leave them alone for now, but I WILL make them talk.-“ she thought.

Then she went to go eat some trash or think abt how y/n is hot… or something idk.

(Time skip brought to you by my crippling depression)

Your pov:

You want to DIE, it’s too hot, your too tired. You just got back from patrol with Barney and Pugsley.

You say good night to them and shuffle to your room.

You open the door and walk in, turn off like light, then close to door. “-ugh I can’t wait to sleep, I’m too tired for this shi-“

You turn around, then scream, cutting off your current sentence.

“GOD! Courtney!!?! What are you doing here?! You almost gave me a damn heart attack!”

Courtney stares at you from the spot on your bed, with crosses arms. “Hellooo mortal, time to talk.”

You raise your eyebrow, the realize what she was talking about.

You let out a nervous laugh. “I already told you court, I’m just tired”

Courtney scowls then angrily gets up. “Fine! If you wanna lie to me, then SOOO be it, I thought we were buddies..” she scoffs.

You look at her for a sec, then sigh and sit on the bed. “Fine….but you can’t tell anyone…”

Courtney smirks and sits back on the bed. “I knew you’d come to your senses mortal, go on”

You look away and sigh again. “Yah know, I’m just depressed and all, I just hate my body, my parents, being alone. I wish I didn’t have to, idk,,, live? I know I’m probably just bringing you down, I’m s-“ you get cut off my tiny arms hugging you, so you look down towards Courtney. She’s hugging you.

You blush, and stutter. “C-Courtney?”

She hugs your tighter. “Look, Y/N, I know life sucks and shit, but your not alone you know? You got me and the gang to help yah. I’ll eat anyone who makes you feel like that.”

You tear up. “I-I’m sorry, I just don’t want to burden you guys….”

Courtney sighs. “Someone can’t be a burden if you love em- er wai-“

You interrupt. “I love you too.”

Courtney let’s go and looks at you. “Wait what? Like actually? Better not be yanking my chain mortal!”

You slowly nod. “Yea uh, I have for awhile…I’m glad you feel the s-“

Your cut off by scaly lips touching yours.

You pause, then kiss back, melting into the kiss.

After a few moments, Courtney pulls away and so do you, because air is a thing.

You stare at her. “So uh… are uh, um”

“Be my partner, I mean, who could resist me, right mortal?” Courtney says while smirking and wiggling her eyebrows.

You laugh, maybe the first genuine laugh in a while. “Sure, You got me there heh.”

“God, you making me go soft.” Courtney smirks and teleports onto your shoulders. “Buttttttt. Im already making yah feel better,. guess I gotta be around all the time so you don’t like, parish from sadness.”

You smile. “Yea, heh, guess you do.”

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This is well, definitely not my first time writing, but it will be the first time I actually TRY….so enjoy this??

It is absolutely terrible so yk…deal with it ig

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#courtney dead end paranormal park #courtney paranormal park #dead end paranormal park #courtney x reader paranormal park #courtney x reader dead end #courtney x reader dead end paranormal park #courtney dead end #Courtney dead paranormal park end fanfic

[marinettemultishipper245]

My toxic friends

Ok before I start... Crow this does not invole you. It involes my other friends you probally know who. (I tell you in message who they are.)  I litearly just spend the last 2 hrs balling my eyes out in the shower. I might need a break bc of all the stress. So I realized that My friends are very toxic. They make me feel so insecure abt my self and everything. First off they always make fun of My height. (I’m 4′10 1/2 btw IK VERY SHORT) Calling me “short ass” or “smurf” And one of my friends always has to comment on my clothing being like “Can you just dress nice or normal for once?”  always saying we need to go shopping bc I look like a hobo. And one of them I have vented to before. They have been my comfort person for so long. But I soon realized she: Didn’t. Give. A. Fuck.  Abt anything I said to her. She always talks abt how much fun she and her other friends will be having over the weekend and then will say “Yk you need to get out more.” Like OK I GET IT I’M MISSING OUT ON ALL THE FUN SHIT YOU GET TO DO WITH ALL YOUR OTHER FRIENDS. NOT MY FAULT I HAVE CAUTIOUS PARENTS THAT ONLY CARE ABT MY SAFETY. Then she’ll make fun of my intrests with my other toxic friend. And laugh abt how sad and insecure I am.  I have mentioned abt it before but they usally agree and It just turns into a statement that like were both dissapointments. But I’ve never joked abt it before. Maybe they took it that way but I would never joke abt my insecuritys. if I mention it it’s probally bc I wanna vent abt it later on. Can you believe she told me during gym today “Your so depressed that it  ANNOYS THE FUCK OUT OF ME”. Like who tf says that?!? Well sorry I feel so insecure abt everything abt me it’s not my fault you joke abt them all the time. And anything I like she automaticly judges. Like i got into a k-pop band but it was only one. I don’t like k-pop too much and I got into IVE which is kinda like k-pop rap and she just said “Ew. I can not be friends with you any more.” And I like a lot of kids cartoons and she just doesn’t like that. I don’t remeber what she said exactly but it was a long the lines “That’s cringe I could never watch baby shows”. Which to me a very sensitive person sounds like “GROW UP”. And during a little suvey thing we took at school one of the questions was “what is one thing your good at?” and I heard her talking to her other friends abt somethings they were good at  and they said very positive things so I went up to the two toxic friends. (well It’s more one of them is most toxic and the other is a little toxic.) And I asked one of them “Whats something I’m good at?’’ and I talk abt my intrests a lot and how I’m pretty good at acting. But this was here response. “Hmmmm oh. Yea theres not a lot of things your good at. Well your good at rocking braces!” Which I thought was sweet but then I heard her whisper to herself. “No that was lie.” I then asked my other friends and all she said was “Well your good at being short!” And turned back to talk to her other friend. THEY COULD NOT LIST A SINGLE THING I WAS GOOD AT. And today I was like “I wonder how long it would take them to notice that I stopped talking?” Spoiler alert: They didn’t give a fuck. And she even said that she would always notice when I didn’t talk. How much a fucking lie that was. So yea I just feel dull rn. Nothing No emotions at all. God I just wish I could be enough for them.                                                         Well Bye.

[maiverie]

why has it been 2 days wtf 💀 uhm n e ways 👩‍🦯 yea i had just started! i have 4 chapters posted now and chap five is finished i just need to get my phone back to make the post 😭 idk im pretty happy with the amount of attention its recieved so far

and yea im grounded its a "delayed punishment" ( everybody look to the left,,, everybody look to the right ) i think my dad just wants to see me enter an early depression before school starts cause this was honestly the worst time possible but go off baldy 🤩

hope you're still doing well! i think i need to touch a bit of grass,, i just went on an smau binge so i could have more stories to post on my recs post when i make it eventually 💪 anyways as i write this it is 4:30 am and i've been reading smaus on tumblr since 8 smth pm 💀 so grass is 100% needed

wtf stop 😭😭😭 the way you’re already at five chapters bye??? i’m literally just slow asf ig 💀💀 but OMGGG super happy to hear that!!! smaus are really fun to write and getting feedback on them is just -chefs kiss- 🤌🤌

HAHSHSJAHAH BALDY HELPPPP??? NAUR WTFFF 😭😭 literallt grounding does nothing ngl,,, it’s such a dumb punishment ☹️ but then again my parents used to whoop my ass so what do i know 😭

AHAHSHSJA NOT THE GRASSSSS helpp omg there are really so many amazing smaus out there on enhablr fr 🤩🤩🤩 HOPE U FOUND SOME NEW ALL TIME FAVESSS AHDHHAA

OTHERWISE HOPE UVE BEEN WELL SKYVEN!!!!!!

#ask #@ : skyvwonie ♡︎ #moots ☽

[nathank77]

5/10/24

5:17 a.m Edited/Added to 5:28 a.m

I think I'm going to end it all soon. I mean yea it's gotten better but I mean I truly cannot sit in silence. Kristen will lose her license if I kill myself. I won't have to obssess over silence anymore and I truly mean it when I say no amount of money will make me feel like it's just that my brain is this broken and it will likely be forever.

I did some research bc I know Mike wasn't wrong about other neurotransmitters being at play and I was looking at the gaba and glutamate theory.

I also looked up benzodiazepines and what neurotransmitters they act on. And they act on gaba the major inhibitory neurotransmitter in the brain... which now it makes sense why when the Xanax half life is active I don't hallucinate as much...... cause I am taking a gaba agonist...

I'm going to ask my doctor if maybe she can perscibe me .25 mg for the day time.. I doubt she will but I'll explain my case and say I've done research and I've noticed for like 12 hours, my hallucination is under control... and then the half life is gone and I hallucinate more.. idk maybe I won't cause then she will say Behavioral health.. and they'll say antipsychotics...

So idk I have to think about it. I'm so bogged down bc bo4 was a crap shoot. Okstupid is so fucking depressing and I'm alone as fuck.

What am i here for? I looked up gaba supplements... if you take straight up gaba it can barely cross the blood brain barrier. Then I investigated supplements that increase gaba...

And I went through the list and I mean a lot of them have major side effects. I found one that seemed pretty safe until I read that it can cause limbic Seizures... when I looked up glutamate antagonist cause that would be the other idea as it's the major excititory neurotransmitter of the brain, I mean it was even less promising...

None of these supplements are truly safe... White mulberries are. But yea I was reading stuff like Seizures, and ataxia... and shit. It isn't worth it to play with my neurons like that despite them being irreparably damaged and my brain legit being broken.

I've noticed that since stopping weed my thoughts aren't as sloppy and my mental pictures are mostly normal. They still have psychosis in them but that was consistently a thing before i tried weed again. And I mean the visuals are still a thing but it's just floaters... prob just that I need glasses... progressives. I just wasn't looking for them before...

Anyways- I don't think I can help myself anymore than I am. I shouldn't ask for more benzodiazepines.. they are addictive and I know my pcp will be like behavioral health...

The supplements seem more like I'm gambling with my life, I can't afford ataxia or Seizures.

And I mean I'm going to be alone forever. At least I'll die looking like this. I can't really live it up- i have had a suicide ritual planned my whole life. It can't really be the way I want it to be bc of my hallucination. Which is sad. I mean I always planned to kill myself when I got diagnosed with something terminal before it got bad....

The ritual was going to be to watch all my trans videos. And cry happy tears over being able to be myself and how strong I am. I can do that but with interruption. Hearing my dead name all the time....

I wanted to watch six feet under one last time. I can't do that too much silence I can't let the hallucination taint it.....

Spend time with everyone I care about one more time doing something that creates a memory. A good one. Like a hike... or something. I mean I can't hike thank you hallucination... but I can do other things..

Sit out in the woods and smoke pot and listen to the wind in the trees. Can't do that.

Buy myself anything I want, any food. Anything.

As well as make a video saying good bye to everyone individually.

Play silent hill 2. One last time.

That basically sums it up. Overdose with music in the background and fall asleep in peace and never wake up.

I can do some of it. I mean it'll be a ritual. It'll take a few weeks. Silent hill 2 is one of the last things I'll do. Between my videos and if I could watch six feet under ever again or anything but garbage cartoons like fucking American dad.

Anyways I can do most of it. But yea I'm about to be a year of my brain breaking thanks to Kristen dew October 10th... and marginal improvement is not enough.

I can't even smoke fucking weed or get drunk with my friends.

I mean when I think about it-psychosis Took weed away from me, drinking for fun, playing video games, watching my favorite stuff, my ability to hear silence, my ability to go hiking something I truly love without someone who is a motor mouth, my ability to just be in nature. My ability to think without hearing it repeat over my fucking TV shows without purposely diverting my attention to the TV which is really fucking hard. It took so much of me away.

And I'll prob hear my deadname with my final breath. But no one will ever think I wasn't proud to be Nathan.

[fr3akinthecorner]

Hi there anime girl its chinese skateboard and i am here with daddy cypress and his daughter of love suicidal ashley to help them develop their relationship and we think we can give you some insights into life too. so would you like to talk with us? thats fine for now im smoking a cigarette and i cant exactly do both that is often what suicidal ashley tells her daddy how does he feel about that? dont smoke cigarettes suicidal ashley i am more important yea well how else am i going to distract myself? i cant just stand here and smoke a cigarette for 10 minutes exactly anime girl and it does kind of work to type that way are you still going to do it? its daddy cypress she does what i say so no the chinese skateboard would please ask you to reconsider daddy cypress it is still communication! well whatever ill think about it whats so cool about smoking cigarettes? they kill the emo king is right but they will never kill suicidal ashley and soon we will take control of her habit anime girl are you afraid to smoke? yes i am but we all cant be that lucky ill get it taken care of daddy cypress what do u want from your daughter of love? i must be here for a good reason if you let her play these games let me be of some help what is going on? i need her to fuck me right now and i need her to obey my rules she has no emotions so what am i supposed to do with that kind of control? it is very hard for this emo king to control his muse when she has no emotions but he loves her endlessly without them that he might like it more can you tell her about one of your emotions with your boyfriend kind stranger? well. when he fills my cereal bowl with barely any milk i get so depressed that i want to cut him open and please stop that will not help oh god my sweet muse will never ever learn what an emotion is although she does have a few anyways did you stab your boyfriend lady? yes i did and now i feel bad i want to heal him but he wont let me touch him well you should be more careful with cereal milk daughter of love do you like when daddy gives you sweet cream? yes i do thats very good you should drink more we have a long night ahead of us and i want to keep talking with your chinese skateboard that you cant seem to find its very fun suicidal ashley would you ever hug me out of the blue? yes daddy i would well those kinds of things get you fucked hard and the difference can be confusing so i hope that your cheetah writer powers are coming in now its the chinese skateboard its hard to tell at the moment im sorry emo boss you like to rap? yes sir very much im alot of fun thats good well we wont be giving suicidal ashley any cereal after last night im starting to laugh and so is she im worried about my ribcage hahaha suicidal ashley youre just brilliant but this one wasnt so funny are you always smoking lady? no you just caught me at a bad time im a social worker oh ok? this is getting better is it hard to see families getting torn apart? no not for me i see the families for what they are but i am a very good social worker i have far too many emotions to concern myself with social work how hard is it dealing with these emotions and your friends and family? so unbearable sir i dont like to talk anymore or do anything i just sit around and cry the chinese skateboard thinks this is a good lesson for suicidal ashley daddy cypress agrees and dont you have to micromanage your own emotions if you are this way? no suicidal ashley its not micromanaging its much different but i cant explain it youre going to see one day what its like to feel my dick and youll have to excuse yourself suicidal ashley hahaha ok? well i think my daughter of love wants to smoke again so we have to go bye woman get help the chinese skateboard is signing off bye girl! i feel u!

#anime games #cigarette #cereal #social work #daddy cypress #where is my chinese skateboard? #emotions #emo king

[messybibitch]

I genuinely hope no one finds this post Today isn't treating me right. I turned off the Wi-Fi of my phone and hoped to disappear from this world. Then I fucking turned off my phone and tried to drown out the world around me. Neither worked and I am getting so damn hopeless. All I want to do is disappear. My username(?) really is fitting for me. A depressed bisexual asshole. I am so fucking tired and I hate winter so damn much. I am spiraling hard and there is nothing I can do about it. I wish I'd just yk... not exist? yeah that. okay yea bye

[dreambook06]

Dream from: November 11, 2013

So last night I had this really weird dream hard to remember details, and it kinda made no sence. I forgot the entire beginning, but it takes place in the school thing. Resembles more of Washington School than NUHS.. IDK.. So I was walking down a hall thing and Hunter Black walked past and Omf I am forgetting by the seconds! I can't even remember the good parts! umm.. there was like this music room or something... then a weird blanket thing in a science room project thing & it was a puppet show or something & Mrs. Holzer was talking in a super weird voice, then I dropped off some books & Lauren McMakin came in and everything got all weird & glitchy & turned into FeralHeart & she's like "You play FH? I do too" then I said "there's me" & it was a green & black wolf then I said "okay! I lied, I'm actually the one named Cosmic." cool she said. Then I was with Haley and in the weird blanket room & Hunter Black was there too w/ a friend. (I think it was Matthew Maxwell?) IDK & they were IDK talking in a stupid gangster voice or something and later he left & the 3 of us were there & I don't remember the fricking words & convos that were said, but we were having fun together & stuff (I had to cover up my mouth everytime I laughed cuz of my damn teeth) & then "school" was over & I'm like "Oh! I have to catch the bus!" then I'm like "whatever" then my dad showed up later and said "C'mon we gtg watch a movie" then he did a weird voice interpretation thing... I don't remember, then I said "Can't I please stay here a while longer? this is the best day of my life! (Wtf) But yea... some romantic thing went down between Hunter & I and we had so much in common, but I can't remember the words that are said Dx umm.. then Haley & Hunter went out & I got so depressed then I woke up? Whattttt the flipnote? Ok what else to mention... IDK bye -_-

#2013