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Dream from: June 16, 2023

Weird dream 7pm

Third ear growing out hidden in his hair looks like a bunny ear folded back

“You didn’t notice it all this time?” “I felt a bit of a lump there but I didn’t know it was anything important” he pulls his hair away to reveal the big white bunny ear in the middle of his head WTF

Then In bed somewhere on a trip Teagan is sleeping nearby bed he comes into bed with me we talk and flirt he gets up to grab a cd on shelf and puts hand on t’s legs over the blanket to reach and comes back eventually Teagan makes a noise and he is jumped out of his skin bc he didn’t know she was there next morning he gets up quickly dressed aggressively grabs his phone and I ask what’s wrong where are you going he said something like due to last nights events I have decided to end my life. I cry out what no grab him so tinghtly burst into tears it’s not a big deal I’m sorry I thought you knew she was there otherwise I wouldn’t told you .she didn’t mind you accidentally did that it’s all fine. But he pushed through my hold on him and was almost out the door to go kill himself and I immediately burst awake in a panic holy fuck my absolute worst fear in life him feeling depressed or like that or in general the thought of anything bad happening to him beyond my control fickkk so terrifying

#2023

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Dream from: May 2023

My siblings and I, and some NPCs, were physically in a Mario Kart race, and I looked aroud myself to see that all 12 racers were Bowser, and muttered aloud "All Bowsers.." Then I drove fast in between two Bowsers who were holding hands as they raced in their separate karts, laughing to myself as I split them apart. Then I awoke

#2023

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Dream talk: May 17, 2016

I've been having the most bizarre & unexplainable dreams. Much to vague an unexplainable to write about, it's so psychological. If feels like another world, not real life, yet real. Like how the world feels to an infant/child versus an adult… Just the moods & deja vu & associations, recurring things that make sense yet they don't. I don't even understand, sorry future me.

#2016

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Dream from: May 2016

Ok so here's one of them. Happened around Apr 7, I guess. I kinda don't remember now. Basically it gave me 2007 childhood life vibes… a faux 2007 life feeling… I discovered these drawers it was a long box/drawer & flat and inside were tons of my old Pokémon drawings & other undiscovered stuff from my childhood and it felt so real and I was like trying to gather them all up but I never could and I was trying to take pics of them I think & it felt real & when I woke up I was like "shyttt". oh crap. I just forgot my dream from a few nights ago now… damn. what was it? ahhh! oh my god what was it? WTF!!! Seriously? I had it a second ago! Oh yeah I remember omg. Ok it actually happened just last night I think. ok this is just a part of the dream, the end/last segment of it… There was so much more I forgot. so. I like found this video recording that was from another dream and I was watching the playback which was slightly different the next time watched it… What was it of? My bedroom. More detail soon. So yeah & it was like super HQ then I realized there were 2 more recordings of it & they showed even better angles of the bedroom & I was like freaking out because it was my childhood bedroom! I checked the video info & the date created said November 2005. How my bedroom looked wasn't very true to reality, but it was like a combo of everything that had ever been in my bedroom. It was so strange, then somehow, later I physically ended up in my bedroom in the year 2005 (again, nothing like 2005, I didn't even hame my own room till 2006) and everything was set "exactly as I'd left it" seemingly frozen in time. Every toy on the ground… Pokémon merchandise… pictures… for some reason the wall behind the door was old & rusty. It was surreal though. It felt like I was there. I guess I had a camera & I was recording it & I forgot to turn on the record button so I had to redo it & I was going to take pictures of every little crevice of the room. Apparently I had a set amount of time I was to be there, then I felt I'd teleport back to the present. I ended up leaving the room… & just ugh too vague… Dad was out there and I like told him after he saw me looking at a picture on display that I'm from the future. I guess I was like "Ignore me I can't say or do anything that will interfere with time" I just wanted to look at what I saw. In a glass shelf… Bottom row… It was a collection of photographs & stuff with me wearing my grey Pokémon shirt.. in a big gym, at girlscouts, and one w/ Grandma Evie or something.. w/ holding a drawing of a pink Skitty. They were like mid 2007. Then the dream basically ended but there was more before… like I think I went in the computer room too… Saw mom who told me/gave me something like super important… not sure if I saw myself or sis.. Dad was like sad when he saw me. I figured it's bcuz he saw how ugly I turned out. just too much idk… The bedroom was insane though. ok next dream ugh. Arm hurts. This one happened late Mar or early April 2016. lol. Quick summary: Washington Gymnastics & weird bog mulder(?) world, childhood & grandma house secret passage way….. It collides with past dream scenes. Here goes… So this totally felt like a real place from my childhood. I somehow ended up in this huge gym… omg reminded me of 2 more dreams ahh!… (Note to self: dream w/ tunnel to other places, costume hangout thing, unsafe tunnel, wall, hiding spot behind a gymnastics/grandma house attic, bedroom w/ just a bed 7 darkness, back door to yard, escape)

This is so overwhelming you don't know. So the huge gym.. I guess I kinda looked/was my current self. I was in there alone & remembered how I used to go up on this podium thingy.. a brown "horse" one, & swing? And this trampoline thing so I played on them? But then people came in for a gymnastics practise & were like "How'd you get in here" & I told them how this was from my childhood & they were understanding & let me stay. Then somewhere along the dream I turned into 2-3 year old me. Then kid like Garret was there & we played. There was that runway trampoline thing on the side too. The "swing" was those 2 rings u hold, btw-u like glide across a line idk. It was way more amazing & fun than it seems. U have to see all this. Reality was distorted though so maybe it wasn't. Then a while later the dream kinda changed. Dad was there & linda in the backroom/area behind where we were playing & actually it might've been dad who allowed me to play on the equipment. It felt so priviliged that I was the coach's daughter. The gymnasts were playing w/ me & impressed by my jumping or whatever & I was so cute & blonde. Then somewhere along the dream like when I went to the backroom area, very spacious, many long posters on the wall, a door in the way back. Separated from the gym by little kitchen counter-like things, very crowded with bags of toys & antiques & stuff & some how the dream turned into this super vaguer weird thing… I don't even know. Had a twilight zone last man on earth episode feel to it… people captured in bags… taken to a house… Idk trying to escape… grandma carmen blew bag… VAGUE!!! I can't even say more on that. It was like time travel trying to et through that backroom door & escape this guy who was killing people capturing em in begs? Then later in the dream it was at Grandma C's house. Only not. More later maybe I'll draw stuff to accompany all this in my notebook.

#2016

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Dream from: January 7, 2016

I had a really scary dream that night, woke up later n darkness with 2 glowing lights across from my bed  on the shelves resembling the eyes of the scary thing in my dream - even the same colors! I don't know how that got incorperated into the dream or if I falsely remembered that aspect of it once I woke up. The dream is blurry now, but basically near the end of it I was going into a next door house, I think it was Brian's, and um... I can't really explain but later I realized something was watching me from Brian's house and I guess he had been watching me my entire life, with a camera or gun or something and then later I looked at my old photos and began to realize that he was in the background on every single one, hidden and very scary-looking. Each time I found him in the photos, that one sound effect used in the Puss in Boots movie when it shows that Humpy Dumpty was always there played internally. It was way freaking scarier then when reality & logic is obscured & senselessness seems real. (oh gosh my handwriting sorry.) So when I awoke it was so scary to open my eyes and when I did once in a while I saw those lights & buried my head under my covers. It was hard to breathe. My Ginger had fallen off the bed & it was too scary to reach down for fear of feeling... someone else. or a hand grabbing my wrist from under the bed. The face on the man was very scary, by the way. Indescribable & I can't even think of it now.

#2016

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Dream from: August 17, 2015

5 more days until the dreaded day. On the night I wrote my previous entry, I had a strange dream. I barely remember any of it now, but I'll say what I can remember. So basically it was the first day of school and it felt like real life. I think I hid in the bathroom until 1st hour, but I don't remember. No specific "classmate" were seen in this that I recall, except for Haley. For 1st hour I was on this Lab table & I think the room looked exactly like our basement.. but at the same time it looked like a lab, idk. So it was weird, it was a 1 on 1 teaching I can't remember barely anything now but I felt it all like real life, as I would act in a 1 on 1 lecture. He kept reaching me the same thing over & over idk what it was, it was easy. When he instructed me to like open my folders or whatever, it felt so life-like. But then the teacher was actually Bill Nye for some reason. Then an announcement came on for all people to head outside & I met Haley there and the interaction was lifelike & not awkward. Now I remember like nothing except for Senora Denny talking to me at or near an office & she said something like "You know I'm female transgender? right?" It was so freaking bizarre & got more bizarre from there on out but it's sooo vague. So yup. A week or so ago I had a weird Jackie Kennedy dream too. I tried to sketch it as soon as I woke up. Gotta "go to school" in 2 hrs. NO!!!!!!

#2015

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Dream talk: June 3, 2015

This morning I didn't get up until 6:50... even though my alarm went off at 5:30... It's weird though, like as I'm making breakfast I briefly still have my dream fresh in mind, vague, distant parts. Fading slowly, then a few minutes later, it's all vanished. Gone. Only to be remembered by a specific reminder if I go into deep thought for a long time. It hurts my brain, though.

#2015

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Dream talk: May 29, 2015

I had an absolutely bizarre & insanely weird dream last night, but it’s too vague now to recall in real life, like it’s there, deep in my memory, I can feel & remember it ever so vaguely in my subconscious, but I can’t directly understand or comprehend it. It’s impossible to explain what I mean with words. One of the weirdest sensations/feelings in the world is when you wake up like during a dream- Forcefully or an alarm or something. You, for a few moments, are stuck between the dream and reality, until your senses take hold of you. It doesn’t happen too often to me, but when it does, it’s bizarre! You still have everything from the dream fresh in mind as if it were real life, then, within seconds, half of the memories usually vanish. Lost forever. I usually recall some of it while I’m in the shower, but it fades away once I step out. Some times an old dream randomly comes back to me months or even years later. Some dreams, however, I always remember. I just do. Sometimes I have a memory flashback and remember something that seems somewhat familiar like a dream, yet I feel like it may have happened in real life, long ago. I hate memories like that because they’re bittersweet & frustrate me… I have more to say, but I’ve lost my trail of thought now. Now. In this moment. This moment which can never be reenacted in exactness. These moments are eternity. Every fleeting fragment of so-called TIME.

#2015

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Dream from: April 2015

Gah, last night I remembered a lot of weird distant dreams but I was too weary to write them down (and while I was in the shower) so I was just thinking "oh well, I'll remember and write them down in the morning" No. I forgot. all of them excep tthis weird Tarzan dream ugh. Everytime.

#2015

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Dream from: February 15, 2015

God dang dreams. The heck... why do you do this to me? okay so here is my dream. It's 8:16 am in the morning, Monday, no school. I just woke up. The whole time, this dream felt like a strange real life, Sorry about handwriting, tired. ok here we go because I'm already starting to forget what happened. So basically, I got out/appeared in some random field thing with mountains in the near distance, and there was a small-ish school. It looked like a thrift shop on outside. kind of and it was red. ok so then I went inside/it cutscened to me being inside. And I don't remember what happened then, as this was or must've taken place early on in my slumber... But.. oh yeah apparently I was a boy basically like Malcolm from malcolm in the middle and I was getting... no wait I got framed or something... I was reported by someone that I was in the back of a limo drinking beer or something and throughout this part of the dream it's just me trying to prove I'm innocent. Later on, now me in more real life form - so apparently there's going to be an indoor school carnival or fair thing tomorrow which is irrelevant as I ended up not going but I remember it for some reason... then this is kinda out of order and skipping around but ok: So we (random school people) were in a room (gymnasium?) and there's a huge window in front of where we're standing being lectured or something and then Santa flies past the window and I shout "Santa" loudly. I feel embarassed but I remember my "thing to live by #2 + #1" and soon Santa flies closer to the window and everyone shouts "santa!" so yeah wtf. There was also something about stars at night but I forgot (oh btw 2 nights ago I stargazed again, finally. pretty cloudy. I got a few tears but not much) so later... dang I remember a lot of things but they're too obscure to really remember and soon fade from my mind shoot! Remember - not quite in order!

ok so I guess I decided to go swimming wtf in a locker room pool & it was a small pool like 50 ft deep and oh yeah back up - first I was "spawned" in the next scene already deep underwater in a different pool as I struggled to get up. I think I was in the form of a jellyfish. weird & too blurry from my memory... I remember chucking a jellyfish back down once I reached the surface though. wat. Anyway, so I was at the edge of a pool oh yeah and naked for some reason (maybe it was supposed to be a bath, idk) and I just stood there throwing this pink blob (toy or creature? idk) thing which was squishy into the water, watching it sink and then resurface, springing out of the water, repeat. Few more times then on last time I didn't throw it down hard enough so it resurfaced slowly and didn't pop up so I couldn't reach it and left. Then walking out of the door (oh yea the pools were all in a row like rr stalls.) I didn't have clothes so I used my hands as best as possible. Idk where my clothes went wtf. So I was struggling. There was a person to my left and door leaving the room was open with people walking by in the hallway. A guy comes out too, same thing happened to him, so we're panicing, everywhere we look a person so we run, covering up, Trying to hide or something idk but we're just running down the way, then down to an arcade, I guess it is? Idk bg details. well we pass by Kerstin rae Kelly and she's like "cosette!" as I use the boy's body to cover myself up lol it was freaking weird and felt real... I really didn't want to go onto detail here let me just say I used him to cover up my backside well anyway then we hide underneath a blanket on the ground. There was a "game" under the blanket with animal pic on it and a number next to the animal... So the boy was like pick an animal to represent yourself" I picked a monkey and said because I'm ugly. He said lower numbers = cuter animals and the gibbon monkey thing had a 40. so I picked a lion which was a 300. wtf? So later I was just like "Whatever I can't take it anymore!" and left the hiding spot running super fast out a back door around the school house. I couldn't find my way back to the entry because of the growth everywhere and it looked the same everywhere you turn. ok.

Then cutscene. idk the rest oh yeah, and the boy then chased me (or I think so (I never saw him only heard him) so idk) up the stairs, now apparently a pag and shouted something at me, a pig pun using the word "hog" so wtf ok. Later on... more reality here, and this felt super real. The time of day jumps around a bit but this is the stuff I remember most... but forgetting as we speak so I have to hurry up!!! Now all these characters are from real life but entire school is way different. So... This involves Ms. Kral. I don't remember very beginning of this segment, but I was already in a sad mood because next year, Ms. Kral wasn't going to be my teacher. So hours later I was supposed to go to history class I guess, but apparently Ms. Kral was supposed to be teaching it and I opened the door, late, and take a nearby seat and there's a man in there yelling at Ms. Kral about not doing a good job with her students, some of which were Dominic, Peyton... etc. So he's saying stuff like "This place is worse than a prison cell" "You have our students in a prison!" "What Is wrong with you?" etc. Something about firing her n stuff. Mrs. Gordon is bending town taking to a student & glaring angrily at Mrs. Kral. Ms. Kral has little tears in her eyes. I could tell cause I was seated to the left of where she was standing. So the man (who looked like, or was, this sped teacher who works across the hall from her in real life) and he was just saying a ton of things, really well worded, and it was a yelling volume but the way he said them was under control.

then Ms. Kral just made a straight face and waited for him to finish then angrily tried to defend herself which came out all clumsy and she stumbled over her words and took a step towards him (nothing like real Mrs. Kral, who always has great and well-worded responces and comebacks) So guy got angry and quickened her "removal from students going into 10th grade" for 2 days. Weird punishment but: Dream logic. So later... I don't remember ok quickly back up: When the guy is insulting Kral he insults her brother, whose last name is "line", I think, and that's what caused the little tears. She quietly whispered his name, in a prayer-like manner because he's dead. she had his name written on the inside of her book bag she carries around. "line" wtf. Anyway so later on we're crying, back in her classroom. Or maybe that came later. first I think there was this guy who gave me a poster with Drago from Bakugan on it & I said "wow thanks!" Then wade from real life walks by And the guy gives this sphere thing to wade who was gone so the guy asks me to deliver it to him and I eventually give it to him. I make it to Ms. Kral's room and she's giving wade this space suit made of bones or something so he can float around easier wtf because he has trouble walking, which oddly enough is a recurring object from another dream.

Later... Memory dwindling shoot. Well during lunch I'm somewhere crying and somehow the time goes to 8:00 and I go to Ms Kral's room which looks like a living room and Brian is on the couch and I feel so sad that tomorrow she won't be my teacher (apparently she was my teacher 7 hours a schoolday, unlike real life) and I was so upset, I acted as if she was dying or something and I treated her like she was my own mother. It was just way different in the dream... memory fading... (it's 9:26 morning) well this goes on for a long time, this sorrow & pain feeling, and in real life I slightly come out of the dream and tears are on my eyes, I feel a tear form... back in the dream mode: There is way more to the Ms. Kral scenes than this btw, I just don't remember. So she's trying to comfort her student, telling them (including me) the'll be alright. I'm sobbing. She was the best, kindest, most interesting teacher in the school. We were only being relocated across the hall but it seemed like a big deal. So next morning, early, some ppl and I go into the new room and stuff and apparently there's 1 more day until it officially starts. so I sit down sad. my head just loses senses... idk.. Teacher at chalk board, I don't like him. Btw past night Brian and I just ended up sleeping the night on that couch w/ ms. kral and next morning when we woke, she was crying a lot and there were smashed ceramics and stuff on the floor... she was upset. So anyway, then later ms. kral was at the table with me/us and we were just talking about stuff. she was trying to reassure us it'd be okay. She stayed there for a long time.

Later this girl sitting behind me was looking at a calender or multiplication table and said "I have been counting numbers for hours" or "I can count for hours" and Ms. Kral and dominic were just like... They just accepted the challenge of counting nonstop. Next morning I came back (even tho it was the same day) & Ms. Kral was still siting there counting. I was like "have you been counting all night?" wtf. So later she's helping a student with HW and a book is open and she says "That's the tyrannosaurus constellation" and it's a picture of a carnotaurus. wtf.... then later she must leave back to her own class room  & crying ensued (Dik where the heck the other teacher went. And when she leaves I'm just like on the floor crying on the corner, lifeless, just lying.... Teacher comes back a kid took my spot so I had to sit in front of this big mirror in the room. I was wearing my black jacket. I cross my arms put my head down and sob.... There was way more to the scene than this... but like I said forgetting by the seconds! ugh. Like we had these weird hall pass things or something or he put a lock on our electronics when we asked to go to the BR so we couldn't use them- oh wait that happened the next day. Lots of other things happened when Kral was in the classroom, but all I can really remember was the crying. so next day I'm late and I thought tone was gonna sound any min. so I like slid into the classroom, running in weightless leaps down the hall, I smash the door open, crashing into it, I jump into a chair which apparently is on wheels so I end up slowly spinning around on the chair and moving... It keeps going... I just freeze. I get a look around the classroom while spinning in same position. Everyone is just silent, the teacher has stopped lecturing.

You'd think it'd stop spinning by now. wtf so I end up getting off it and sulk awkwardly to the chair in the farthest back. all eyes on me. The room is packed for some reason, like 40+ students. Haley's there and sitting in the front. The teacher says "That's not your spot" I move over more to a seat with 2 shoes on it (wtf) He says it's taken so I move a spot to the left which only has 1 show on it and sit. My vision is blurry and I don't care about anything. I feel so sad I miss miss kral... And then I wake up. Real life. My cheeks are wet and my eyes are all teary. I remembered reality... dumb old classroom, I only see Kral 1.5 hours a day, but reality... at the end of this year, Kral will never be my teacher again realisation of that fact kicks in and more tears emerge. And here I am. Sorry that dragged on fro so long. It was way different in the actual dream and more dramatic/emotional. It must've been, because I got real life tears!!! I should just start a dream journal I've been having insane dreams lately and have my whole life. I should at least draw the locations & scenes out, sketch then as best as possible. Yes that is what I'll do. okay. the sketching part at least. ok it is 10:00 my wrist hurts!!!

#2015

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Dream from: May 2014

So another thing I need to write about are the weird and intricate dreams I've been having. Of course I've forgotten most of them by now, but I vaguely remember two of them. I'm a lazy writer so I won't go into too much detail. Anyways, the two I remember both involve two different boys at school, neither Hunter Black, kinda scary. oh yeah, I haven't told you about dominic yet! He's a new kid from 3 weeks ago. He used to be in our school system long ago + moved to Arizona... He's back now, and I kinda like him. He's a lot like Brian. Brian called his hairstyle "From the 1950's" Hunter, Brady, and Levi (Hunter Ranweiler) called him a faggot behind his back. He better be straight. God gross. I still like Hunter Black more, but, not to be shallow, but he got a little-too-short haircut recently. I have no chance anyways. I can always dream. Anyway so here's the first dream:

I will now briefly describe the 2 dreams just to get them out of the way, even though they have no importance. In one dream there were these "pens"/stalls + like Dominic was a person in one and I dunno I fell for him I guess, then the dream turned into me chasing his apparently little sister around a giant school, like around the entire property + parking lots... It felt real + super fact. The second dream basically was just Brady and me having a weird laughing attack moment in history + we fell out of our desks laughing on the ground. Yeah.

#2014

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Dream from: March 2014

Besides that I have been having the weirdest most bizarre dreams. I can vaguely remember. I will quickly say some, very few, of the things that happened. I would keep a "Dream Journal," but I'm so tired and too demotivated to write when I wake up, and if I wait any longer, I forget what the dream was even about! So. There was this giant anamatronic T-rex... It was like at the top of a glass building in some "scenes" and other it was at the top of a drop ride like the Tower of Terror, and it also appeared above a stage... my mind kept changing the location. And apparently when it was on the drop ride, people would try to touch it or jump into its mouth... so one time I jumped in its mouth I think, and then I fell out eventually or something, and fell way down, a great distance, and I could feel myself falling! I felt the butterflies! It was real! There is much more to get into but it's too indescribable. Later I was... I guess at a weird room that apparently Tim Burton lived in and I was good friends with him and visited often, even when he wasn't home. So when he came home, I said casually, "Hey Tim! What's up?" And that's all I remember. Then I was near a bay with sand and bushes and rocks and many palm trees, and it was just a little area, but Haley and Cassidy Plaatz was there, and I looked at the ground and said "This is where they first discovered the Triceratops." Don't ask me, just don't. All this was in one dream. Then the next day I had a dream that I was living as a reality with all the logic and stuff of real life, so not really anything random or unrealistic occurred. It apparently took place the day Haley wasn't at school, even though I had the dream after that day had passed. Well basically all that happened was the one Anne Frank kid sat by me at lunch and we became really good friends. It was really fun but I cannot remember at all what we did and talked about. I had more dreams too, but I cannot remember, besides last night I read Mom's bedside diary that she apparently had, and stopped myself from reading it, because I shouldn't have.. It was weird though because it all sounded like things she'd write about.

#2014

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Dream from: Mid 2006

Anyways, the weekend passed, and I will now talk about some of my dreams, as much as I don't want to write about some of my weirder ones, I must, for future's sake. Okay. One of my oldest dreams I can remember is from 2006, when I had my own room in Teagan's old nursery room and I had a loft bed, hmm maybe it was 2007... anyways. It was a really awkward dream and I'm kinda ashamed to write it down... But I must, and I will try to put it as simply as possible. So. I was a horse, okay? Wait - rewind. First I was near this weird boulevard or alleyway type thing. And Cosmo and Wanda were there. Then I wishes to be a horse and then I remember being in this horse pen/stall thing and there were other horses around me and I would urinate wherever I wanted, so I did, and that is just freaking awkward and I cannot remember the rest of the dream too well, but then I remember like leaving and roaming over a hill... I don't know, but many weird dreams like that have occurred over the years, other times involving me being a dog & fire hydrants and trees and many more weird things I don't want to go into detail on. And this has been a reoccuring thing over my real life too... I don't really want to go into detail for fear someone other than me may read this....

#2006

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Dream from: January 2014

speaking of Hunter, I had a weird dream where on my paper I wrote "People I have a crush on" and HB's name was in it and Mrs. Holzer said, "Hunter Black? He always steals my pencils! why do you like him?" I said "oops, I meant to tear that out." wtf, am I rite? Lol weeeirrdddd....

#2014

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Dream from: December 12, 2013

Okay. So I'm lying in bed and it's 8:25 (in the morning) I'm so tired, but I have to write down this dream before I forget. Okay, it's kinda hard to visualize it already, and I remember absolutely no dialogue, so yeah... so I'm a wolf (like the kind in FH) and some weird thing happens.. Like IDK but I pass by Hunter Black and he's a wolf or something!? wut? But yea but then later I go to this fur con thing w/out a fursuit, but it was like just a small gathering inside a snow globe w/ a Christmas tree in the corner, and I felt really awkward but then I bumped into Hunter Black there & we sat by the tree & talked (can't remember dialogue) Yea, I think during that time we were both in wolf "form".. And apparently then he found out he liked me (not loved yet) so we stayed together & then we went in this waiting line & it was like by a table or a rail or something you could lean on, and from my POV Hunter was to my right and there were like 2 wolves around the table too, and IDK why, but like Hunter moved close and our sides were touching really close like I could actually feel his presence and body heat - it felt so real I swear to god!! And the whole time, we were pressed together & he didn't even pull away, (my face was so red & boiling) there was like a conversation with one of the other wolves who was either Teagan, Pilar, or some random wolf. And I don't remember how the conversation led to it, but then the wolf said something like "So aren't you deeply head over heels in love with Hunter Black?" and I froze and shily moved my head to the left so Hunter couldn't see how much I was blushing and I felt him move closer. But after that "scene" cut out, it was like that never happened and resumed from of the line. - So then we had a sleepover/or just to hang out at my house and like (in the dream it looked nothing like my house) we were sitting on my bed w/ my 2 sis (Idk what we were doing) drawing I think? Wtf. Then my Ipod was playing on shuffle and the song Tarzan & Jane turned on, and I'm like, "Change it" So I went over & turned it till Hunter said stop & it was "Don't Stop Believing" (he said "I like that song") then after it, I'm like Do some heavy metal or something! & he's like Okay! then the scene cut out & he was like grabbing something like a pop from the fridge and I heard my dad say something like "I don't trust/like that boy, he looks weird" or something so yea. Then I went in there & asked "whats wrong with him?" Angry-ish Then I think I said "I am in love with him." Then apparently Hunter over heard & then that portion of my weird-arse dream was pretty much over... The rest involved some weird forgotten rooms of "my house" me & Teagan exploring them, driving some albino starving people w/ fangs who have been living in those rooms to IDK where, and lota weird krap & suicide wtf? Too late to write, & it's not that important... So weird dreams are so so so insanely weird.

(The weird rooms part of the dream had a PMD layout from the overworld view, and weirdly enough, the stuff inside the rooms was reminocent from other dreams, nostalgic childhood items, and RL events! except the albino fang ppl.... they looked like Smeagle)

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Dream from: November 11, 2013

So last night I had this really weird dream hard to remember details, and it kinda made no sence. I forgot the entire beginning, but it takes place in the school thing. Resembles more of Washington School than NUHS.. IDK.. So I was walking down a hall thing and Hunter Black walked past and Omf I am forgetting by the seconds! I can't even remember the good parts! umm.. there was like this music room or something... then a weird blanket thing in a science room project thing & it was a puppet show or something & Mrs. Holzer was talking in a super weird voice, then I dropped off some books & Lauren McMakin came in and everything got all weird & glitchy & turned into FeralHeart & she's like "You play FH? I do too" then I said "there's me" & it was a green & black wolf then I said "okay! I lied, I'm actually the one named Cosmic." cool she said. Then I was with Haley and in the weird blanket room & Hunter Black was there too w/ a friend. (I think it was Matthew Maxwell?) IDK & they were IDK talking in a stupid gangster voice or something and later he left & the 3 of us were there & I don't remember the fricking words & convos that were said, but we were having fun together & stuff (I had to cover up my mouth everytime I laughed cuz of my damn teeth) & then "school" was over & I'm like "Oh! I have to catch the bus!" then I'm like "whatever" then my dad showed up later and said "C'mon we gtg watch a movie" then he did a weird voice interpretation thing... I don't remember, then I said "Can't I please stay here a while longer? this is the best day of my life! (Wtf) But yea... some romantic thing went down between Hunter & I and we had so much in common, but I can't remember the words that are said Dx umm.. then Haley & Hunter went out & I got so depressed then I woke up? Whattttt the flipnote? Ok what else to mention... IDK bye -_-

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Dream from: January 2017

kinda reiterating what i said last time, but one of the best feelings/sensations ever is when i wake up in the morning after a good night’s sleep, still in a sleepy haze, maybe i had a good dream (if i end up remembering it. oh yeah i just remembered last nights… it was our 2006 disneyland vacation but it wasn’t… it was so bizarre way too hard to explain. it had many aspects of other dreams i’ve had that i thought i’d forgotten until now. reoccurring characters and locations and stuff. basically i was recording with the camcorder through the rides but it was this whole other world nothing like real life and all the rides were just off and unreality and aaahh. then the target store and the toys there were kinda timeless and i was walking through there with this person who was in my other dreams. they are some kind of unreal version of babyblanket2001 from a dream at least a year ago. btw i was basically my 6-year-old self the whole time or i was no one really. there were so many more deep things than this! then i got these earth balance macaroni and cheese from the top shelf at target and then there was this huge building. btw the macaroni was character shaped like the penguins from madagascar 2 for some reason. and then ‘babyblanket2001’ and some other person were on the top of the building and i handed them the macaroni and said look at this then i went back down etc etc. then the other person ended up throwing a knife and it went through their shoulder what the heck! it is so different in the dream, how it went down, trust me. then etc etc.

i’m on a ride front seat guy says not to record, then the ride keeps going and it’s like a toboggan sled ride and we’re on the middle of nowhere in the snow or sidewalk or something and then mom cuts the cheese and i’m lik you know there are other people on this ride then she looks behind her and me and pilar roll off behind the sled this all these craks open in in the ground and apparently there are all these other characters who are detailed and deep who we’ve befriended along the way and one kid falls in and this is basically exactly like a previous dream i’ve had… etc. then they try to get him out and apparently now it’s set at a huge house where they’re set up stuff to try to get him out and SO MUCH AAAHH. and there are lots of people and they’re in allthe rooms having a sleepover and stuff and one guy’s like is anybody going to help me get them out! etc.etc. then it’s like paige’s house but it’s not idk it’s like a mix of houses i’ve seen on smugmug.com and there are all these fun unexplainable rooms and in every room there are people doing stuff and aaahhhh and then there’s a basement and it’s like mason’s old basement in real life…etc. whatever irrelevant aaahh so much stufff then one of the last things minus so much i left out because it’s too overwhelming, is dad gets mad about something to do with teeth like he’s sick of saving our teeth so he gets all angry and goes in his bedroom and takes the tooth case and throws the teeth all over the bed one by one. when he’s done i go in there and carefully try to collect them all and put them back and i clone them so i have a copy for myself if he throws them away next time. then he sees i photo i took on my camera of all the teeth in a pile and i don’t remember his reaction but i actually did take a picture of them in real life a few weeks ago. etc etc..

then i woke up, the last thought on my mind were the jc syd sleepover, remembering the layout of the house and jaycey’s bedroom, and here i am, ready to write about it now. just kidding i got demotivated again, this took too long to write (5 mins), and the magic of waking up grogginess has subsided), but there’s just this feeling i temporarily get, that very quickly comes and goes, for a few minutes at most, in the mornings, maybe i stand up or walk down the hall, maybe there’s idle noise in the background from outside, but something about this little haze makes me briefly forget , just barely, who i currently am and what year it is. for those tiny moments, it almost feels like it’s 2008 again. like it’s 2007 again. i feel as if i’m still in those better years for just a short while, and i remember very clearly what it was like to be alive and living in those moments. suddenly it’s as if 2011 and beyond has never taken place yet and here i am. 7-8-9- years old. it never has a pre-2007 feeling though. i don’t think i’ll be able to ever feel that again in real life. i REMEMBER how it felt, but i can never feel it truly again, i don’t think.

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