#writing adults-ONLY fiction

[dduane]

BTW… re: Smut

... off my comment to this post the other day...

I'm an entertainer. Writing's a form of entertainment. (And not just for the readership: for me, too.) To be aroused by art one's experienced is (almost by definition) to be entertained, I'd say. If someone's jerking off to my erotica, then all I can do is lean back in the typing chair, smile a bit, and think, Good! I got the job done. :)

(...with the tags: #and no I'm not going to let on where the smut is#why would i deny anyone the delights of the search#and of being repeatedly mistaken#while possibly finding smut writers who're better at it than i am#:) ...)

...and then noting (with affectionate amusement) some responses:

Well, troops, better get busy filling in that bingo box. 😄

Also: I have to say (while stressing that I absolutely appreciate the humor behind "shocked, shocked, scandalized...") that the dissonance is, temporally speaking, a bit ill-founded. Because while I may be best known for the Young Wizards works these days... by no means did they come first. This did.

A soft chuckle in the darkness. “Lorn, remember that first time we shared at your place?” “That was a long time ago.” “It seems that way.” “—and my father yelled up the stairs, ‘What are you dooooooooing?’ “—and you yelled back, ‘We’re fuckinnnnnnnnnnng!’” “—and it was quiet for so long—” “—and then he started laughing—” “Yeah.”

Granted, from the here-and-now POV of readers with access to the hot-'n'-spicy shipfic or PWP on AO3, this sort of thing (and the numerous other lights-often-off or dialogue-only sexytiems passages in the traditionally published Middle Kingdoms works) would be seen as pretty small beer: soft, non-edgy stuff. Yet in 1979 apparently there were those who found the sex and sexualities on display in The Door Into Fire arresting enough that the book got me nominated for the Astounding Award (for best new author in the field) two years in a row.

There's no question that the broadly inclusive tone set by the Middle Kingdoms books went on to affect and underlie the YW universe in very basic ways. (There've been some scholarly works written by academics who've picked up on this, so [much to my relief] this perception hasn't been just me imagining it.) But I'll grant you that those who don't know the MK novels wouldn't be in a position to make the connection. (shrug) This is just one of those things that comes of having a lot of fragmented readerships who don't know about each other... a side effect of having done a lot of different things during a career. I can also understand how not knowing about the MK works could leave people who know me only, or primarily, as someone writing for a younger readership, a little bit disoriented (or maybe concerned) when the issue of me writing openly sexual material rears its head. But that wouldn’t be a change of direction. It’d be, to some extent, more a return to form.

Anyway: I consider erotica—and its more casually-dressed (or undressed...) cousin, smut—to be perfectly legit forms of literary expression; ones that can soar to unexpected heights if you're willing to put in the work. The sexy-stuff-writing muscle requires periodic exercise if it's to remain viable and/or useful. So I exercise it. And being a 70-year-old person who sometimes creaks audibly when she walks has done absolutely nothing to decrease my interest in the subject—the brain being, after all, the biggest sex organ, and the one least vulnerable to the depredations of time. If anything, nearly fifty years of experience (and three and a half decades of marriage to @petermorwood) have added... let's just say nuance. 😏

Now this whole concept will doubtless horrify some of the "Eww, You're Too Old To Be Writing This Kind Of Thing, Go Get A (Home) Life" types. To which all I can say is, "...Well, good!" By and large, such folks are not my readers anyway. And as for any of them who are, and can't deal…? They need to understand that (pointing off to one side) those people over there—the various kinda-straight and pansexual and bisexual humans, and the gender-fluid fire elemental, and the otherly-gendered Dragon, and the mostly-gay ones enthusiastically shouting "We're fuckinnnng!" down the stairs—are Nita's and Kit's godparents. Without the members of that extremely mixed marriage and their increasingly extended family, there might be no Young Wizards series... not least because it was the splash made by the first of the Middle Kingdoms books that got the Errantryverse crowd in through a major publisher's door. And the series’s continued (modest but still noticeable) success through the second and third volumes kept the writing of new YW books going for a good long while.

...So. For those who may have had questions: HTH. 😀

(And now back to the unending search for a more graceful synonym for “testicles”.)

#Young Wizards #Middle Kingdoms #writing young adult fiction #writing adult fiction #writing adults-ONLY fiction #all sisters under the skin

[threadsun]

i too have a lot of worries about swwsdj being made more 'digestible' for people not accustomed to the yandere genre or hate anything not absolutely morally (christian) good, but thats not what i got from the patron post (this time lmao). but it sounded more like instead of going all out from the word go, sauce just wants to ease into the horror over the course of the story (actually did really like the snippet we got suggesting jack was just as scared we werent real)

Oh my problem with the new post wasn't the slowing down of things. It's the way they keep addressing the no route. The way they act as though there was never any intention of anything but full consent all around. Either it's bullshit or there's more problems going on than we realise. Either way, the idea that horror isn't meant to make people uncomfortable or be too real is bullshit. And the fact that they can't admit they originally intended some dubcon but want to change that, and instead double down on "that was never the intention" is concerning. Especially since if they did admit that there was possibly the intention of dubcon/coerced consent at one point, even if they still change it, the (christian) morality folks will jump on them and eat them alive. So I recognise that they're in a tough spot here, but I think the why and how of them being in that spot is important to talk about to hopefully help get them out of it. To acknowledge that there's people watching them like a hawk waiting for them to fuck up so they can pounce.

And this especially goes with the mentions of how much things have changed since other people started getting involved in the project. Because it confirms that these changes we've been seeing are directly because of the people who have been cosying up to Sauce to try to get their two cents in. The same people who cried when Jack used the word "slutty" and throw hissyfits whenever people talk about Jack being a bad person.

I don't mind the demo being reworked to be slower and less heavy-handed (though I think it's a perfectly good demo as-is), I mind the whole "no route" stuff that keeps cropping up, and I mind the shitty people whispering in Sauce's ear about how everything has to be morally Perfect otherwise they're a Bad Person.

#sunshine #asks #18+ only #it's christian bullshit repackaged is what it is #every single person who wasn't raised christian who I've talked to about this has agreed #that it's got christianity written all over it and then scribbled out in favour of 'morality' #like bro you don't need to go to confessional and get absolution for getting your rocks off to fictional dubcon #all fiction is inherently scene done between consenting adults (creator and consumer) therefore it's cnc #anyway find yourself some new friends who don't suck and want to manipulate you by preying on your insecurities #and write whatever fun bullshit you wanted to in the first place

[enchantedbyforests]

girls will be obsessed with that one guy from a YA fiction which was thrown deep in to the abyss of deleted works that they had read in their mid-teen (formative) years on a crowdfunded/non-profit website. I am girls

#writing #tropes #young adult #fiction #archive of our own #ao3 #wattpad #quotev #methinkspost #ethan my love this post is about you and you only

[kaymegami]

the way books are becoming fast fashion is actually criminal. there has been such a decline in quality of writing and storytelling over the past few years because publishers are focusing more on selling tropes and marketable scenes instead of the story in the book itself. it all depends on what’s trending and how easily they can sell as many copies to as many people as possible.

#writing #books #poetry #i can go into heavy detail #and i will #i fully blame booktok #publishers are just selling tropes #just to get more sales #booktok #acotar #young adult #fiction #fantasy #romance #you like a trope? #here are five different books in fifteen seconds #enemies to lovers #there was only one bed

[oops-prow-did-it-again]

I am blocking on sight anyone that puts any fucking discourse over "moral" fiction or whatever the fuck on my dash. I have blocked 5 people in the last month. I don't care if I've been a mutual with you for years, if you engage in this kinda shit, especially on the side of believing that certain fiction shouldn't be allowed, then you are someone I have no respect for.

Unless someone is actually straight up committing a crime (I.E., posting *actual* photographs or videos of REAL LIFE PEOPLE, not fictional/drawn people, REAL PEOPLE, being harmed/sexually abused) I Do Not Care what other people read or write or watch or make. I Do Not Care. I do not trust anyone else's, especially on the piss on the poor website, to be able to determine if a text is "glorifying" something or if they are just uncomfortable with the subject as a whole. You people all suck at media comprehension and I am just flatly not interested. I keep seeing posts of people making good points and then people ripping them apart in the most bad faith possible. "Someone else's media consumption doesn't hurt you" "yes except for when abuse is portrayed as love, or-" no. shut the fuck up. You Missed The Point. You DO NOT KNOW, and you CAN NOT KNOW, why someone else wrote or created something nor can you know why anyone chose to engage with it. Also, sometimes the fucking point of a story is to portray something bad as good, to serve a narrative purpose. that doesn't mean the author thinks it IS.

I Do Not Care about icky feelings. If you can't tell fiction from reality, that's a you problem. Leave us writers/artists the fuck out of it. And if your knee-jerk reaction to this is "oh, you're just making excuses For The Freaks" you are part of the problem and I also have no respect for you.

FWIW, I am an abuse survivor and I find everyone's moral panic over shitty fanfiction stupid at best and upsetting at worst. You people freak out over fictional bad things happening to fictional people, to the point you waste the resources and time of people that actually hunt down predators by sending them loli fanart? You make me feel like you care about fictional people more than you care about the victims. Also, you'll be fucking fine if you hear about weird art or fic happening. Just don't fucking read it yourself. But knowing it exists won't fucking hurt you. You know what does hurt you? ACTUAL ABUSE. Like the kind so many of the creators you demonize go through, bc like I said before, you can't know why people make the art they make and you certainly can't know whether someone's a victim or not. And people shouldn't HAVE to disclose their victim status for you to make sure you're only attacking the "acceptable" people.

Maybe just don't fucking attack people over some fucking fanfiction or fanart. period. go the fuck outside.

You crave ruthless, vindictive justice more than you crave to help people. You are after the high of feeling good about putting people down, the "right" people.

And I Have No Respect For You.

#discourse #fanfiction #fic discourse #ao3 #ao3 discourse #Hopefully this is the only post I make about it #bc anyone that tries to argue with me is just getitng blocked and their comments removed #I Do Not Care. Make it easier on me so I can make sure I'm only interacting with adults that understand how fiction works #and to be blunt. I understand most of the people writing this shit are teenagers #and god forbid kids younger than that #and to that I say #why the hell are you in this discourse to begin with. stop looking up weird shit on ao3. stop talking to people online that talk to you #about kinky fanfic and fanart. them exposing you to this to rile you up is what's weird. #not people talking about it or doing it but that your online space is encouraging YOU as a child to do so #people should just be intelligent and not share certain shit with children but people are assholes and online is a hellscape #block anyone that constantly exposes you to outrageous fanart or fanfic just to show you how 'terrible' it is #especially if they're an adult! bc they should know better!! you shouldnt be worrying about this shit this young #Carving your own space on the internet goes two ways. Im not saying you can't DISLIKE weird fanfic or fanart. just don't make it everyone #else's problem. block tags #block users #and move on #and if you are over the age of 20 and you feel it is your moral duty to go on a crusade against shitty or dumb fanfic/fanart #maybe consider why that is. and maybe leave kids less than 15 years old the fuck out of it you fucking dipshit #What worries me is literal children contemplating if all the adults around them are fucking pedos. that's the bullshit mindset discourse #addled adults encourage and that's what makes MY blood boil #anyway Ill shut up now. Im just upset at having to block yet another mutual bc they reblogged stupid fic discourse shit

[cheesycatz]

Spamton before he met the addisons (Wormton AU)

(close ups and context beneath the cut)

The only other member of his species that he's ever met gets brutally murdered by an antivirus lmao

Top left: Spamton stealing a jacket from a very confused addison in order to make his disguise

Top middle: Hatchling Spamton attempting to learn how to speak using a radio

Top right: Spamton trying out the mask that he eventually uses for his disguise

Bottom left: Spamton looking at his reflection in a puddle

Bottom right: An addison child notices Spamton in the school vent and thinks he's a giant rat. Look, he's gotta learn how to read and write somehow, and invasive predatory worms aren't exactly allowed in the school system, so venting it is. Besides, who's gonna believe the 7 year old kid that there's a "giant rat wearing colorful sunglasses" living in the vents?

Top: Hatchling Spamton gets stuck in a mousetrap, and a kind maus helps him escape.

Bottom: Spamton is starving and desperate, and immediately tries to kill the maus that just helped him out of the mousetrap

Spamton and a tasque hissing at each other. Fortunately, Spamton's large enough that he doesn't have to worry about tasques trying to eat him anymore

Top left: Spamton eating a stale donut I guess

Top right: Spamton snacking on some fast food french fries that someone dropped

Middle: Hatchling Spamton getting attacked with a broom by a disgruntled store owner

Bottom: To the right, hatchling Spamton finds a flower-shaped button in the trash. He likes how shiny it is. To the left, adult Spamton puts the button onto the jacket for his disguise

#spamton fanart #spamton g spamton #spamton #deltarune fanart #deltarune chapter 2 #deltarune #wormton au #so many drawings on one page wow #there's a lot more I could write/draw for his backstory but idk if I'll ever get to it #I love drawing him as a hatchling even though he only exists as a child for less than a year #normally a member of his species would reach adult hood in less than 3 months including the time spent in a host #but he was very malnourished so he spent over triple the time he was supposed to as a hatchling #that's enough rambling about my fictional species for now #cheesycatz art posts #cheesycatz text posts

[tasmanianstripes]

Maybe it's the result of my main fandom for the majority of my life being one where canon just genuinely doesn't exist, where there are so many different canons and literally any sort of interpretation of a single character is correct and can range from a moronic maniac with a chainsaw to a depressed old asshole boss, but

Literally who gives a fuck about canon?

Especially when the character is practically a blank slate or if it's an AU

Like, I'm sorry, but if you're butthurt about a mischaracterisation of a fictional character in an Alternative Universe then I don't think you understand what an AU is

#thylacines can talk #Maybe that's the reason I do not have the same violent reaction to mischaracterisation 99% of fandom spaces seems to have #I genuinely think that getting butthurt over somebody not writing a fictional character exactly how they appear in canon is the stupidest #most juvenile pet peeve you could ever have. Literally WHY do you care so much? It's words on a screen. Calm down. #I think it's only a problem when you believe that it's canon or try to shove your own interpretation of a character or AUs onto everybody #else. Otherwise...literally who cares? Somebody else treating characters like dolls is not hurting me. I'm not about to get legitimately #annoyed over fictional characters in a children's cat book. Unless it's like. Bigoted. But then I criticise the person's beliefs not a #goddammed characterisation of a fictional character. #In the fandom I was in most of my life a trigger-happy clown with a chainsaw canon and an old deppressed asshole boss were seen as the same #character and only had like. One design detail in common. And literally nobody batted an eye. You could write a dynamic between two #characters being incredibly hateful and toxic and somebody else could write them as old friends or an old married couple and both of these #interpretations would be equally canon. A single guy could have two wildly different personalities and backstories and he'd still be #treated like the same character as long as the two looked vaguely similar physically wise. Sure there were interpretations of characters #that were more popular than others but literally the only people who would treat one specific interpretation as canon and shove that #interpretation onto everybody else would be people who came from different kinds of fandoms and let me tell you. They were annoying as fuck #So coming from that kind of fandom into more generic mainstream fandoms feels like such a culture shock. Genuinely cannot comprehend why #people care so much. #'oh this character is so far from canon they might as well make an oc' okay...cool...and? #Maybe they don't want to make an oc?? I mean come on. It's fictional characters. You're an adult. It's not a fucking English class #People don't come to fandoms to study book literacy they come here to have fun. Literally WHO CARES if somebody's interpretation of a #character has only name and looks common with the canon version. WHO CARES. ITS WORDS ON THE SCREEN. Who are they hurting if they're just #making AUs in their own corner and not shoving it in anyone's face? #Idk I just see a characterisation I don't agree with and just go oh. Kinda weird but go off. And move on. #This got longer than I meant it to but whatever #I mean if you have that pet peeve but aren't an asshole about it. It's also whatever. That opinion also doesn't hurt anybody. It's only #people who act so butthurt about it and shit on other people having fun that I have a problem with. If you put it on your own blog and #criticise that sort of content in your own space instead of coming to somebody and going 'hey. I don't like what you're doing'. Then I #couldn't care less. Again. That's kinda weird but go off #It's kind of like. I like horror but I dont care if you dont like horror and talk about it in your own space. But I'm gonna care if you #go up to horror fans and go 'hey I think horror sucks' or 'I dont like horror so you shouldn't either'.

[dread-red-queen]

Cyberpunk 2077 - Vampire AU

It's been in my head for a while and I'm not sure where I'm going with it but I've always loved Vampires I find there different interpretations and folklore around them fascinating and I remembered Gary's rants about the Arasaka's and thought It would be fun to run with it with a little twist.

so here it is chapter one of Dark tower - I really want to improve my writing so any feed back is welcome just bare in mind I have no beta reader, and I'm dyslexic AF so go easy on me lol I'm trying to get better at grammar but Grammarly can only help me so far. it is something I have always struggled with.

I hope you enjoy or are at least amused by my attempt at whatever genre this counts as, maybe dark fantasy??? its a little spicey to as I enjoy writing that but I'm going to try and not go overboard lol

Tropes: Mates, Vampire bonds that sort of thing

I'm not trying to make characters OOC but I'm sure there will be a little bit of that but I'll try my best not to, obviously with it being an alternative universe there will be a few liberties taken as characters have lived differently than the game and that will effect personality's

#goro takemura #cyberpunk 2077 #takemura #goro #takemura goro #romance #gothic #vampire au #oc: raven #oc: victoria rominov #alternative universe #fan fiction #cyberpunk 2077 fan fiction #arhcive of our own #vampire tropes #mates #biteing #blood drinking #dark fantasy #fan fiction chapter #adult fanfiction #gothic romance #soul bonds #folklore #writing practice #pairing: Goro + Raven #animal instincts #18 + only #18+ content #takemura romance

[running-in-the-dark]

something is just. wrong with me lol

#... I just looked at the google doc for my dumb story thing. and it's 30 pages rn. #dude I couldn't manage to write 35 pages for my thesis in 8 weeks. #but I have no problem writing 30 pages of insane shit about this stupid fictional guy that I wanna make out with or whatever. in two days. #yeah I'm. a serious adult doing serious things etc. #man if only I could control this. I'd be so fucking powerful. like just. have a crush on sustainability reporting next time dude. #hyperfixate on that shit instead. get obsessed with literally anything but some stupid idiot man's stupid idiot face (and body. ← not an #idiot. his body is fine.) #I hope this phase (the writing that shit down thing) is over soon. because how do you care about anything else when you could instead spend #hours doing that? I don't understand. so. pleeeeaaase lose interest in that soon I'm begging you. 😔 #personal

[michi-chelle]

“but i fear that they already got all the best parts of me” goes so hard

#if only this song came out like 6 years ago lol #i’m also nearing the end of season 2 of my free! rewatch and gosh haru’s conflict hits closer to home than ever #and idk if i’m just getting more emotional lately but makoto and haru’s fight in ep 11 deadass made me tear up #when will i stop relating to teenagers real or fictional lmao #part of me wishes i was still a teenager just because being a teenager would explain my sense of purposelessness in everything i do #like taking things one day at a time with a blurry future on a road leading to nowhere #but others having high expectations from you and being sad seeing you so lost #but you just don’t want to let go of what you have now #you don’t want to box your passions in what other people want from you #and going back to the lyrics of the song #you feel like there’s not much you can offer anymore ‘cause you were a ‘gifted’ kid and now you’re just an ordinary person #whose gone complacent to the disappointment of everyone who wants to see you succeed but you feel you don’t have it in you #so again you’re just floating through life trying to enjoy the blessings each day brings again with no clear goal #anyway idk what i’m writing #at the same time i’m glad i’m not a teenager anymore ‘cause that shit sucked #but being a grown adult sucks ass too #i know there doesn’t need to be any purpose in life but #i feel like things’ll be easier if i did have a dream #guess i need a best friend to take me to another country or something to inspire me or something #in other words i’m about to watch one of my fave free eps where rin and haru go to australia #anyway i’m rambling #michi yaps

[branmer]

was gonna do a little post about rosemary sutcliff's place as a children's writer who's work is also of a quality that adults can enjoy but then i was like 'if anyone starts discourse with me about how actually she's ya i will curl up into the fetal position and die' lol

#like im just saying ya is teen fiction #and rosemary sutcliff even in her darkest books like frontier wolf... were given to us in primary school #i and all my friends were 7/8/9 when we were reading her #not everything that is a little bit mature has to be ya #children's lit has existed for a long time!!! #i just find this idea tends to come with an attitude that children can only handle very soft topics and fiction #and therefore anything that hints at adult themes etc cAN't pOSSIbLY be foR chILdRen must be for tEENagers or aDULTs #and it's like... have you met a child they love violence and blood #fuck even as i was writing this i just remembered they gave her books out for free to us in like p5 for world book day lol #anyway if anyone has problems with my opinions on ya you can simply unfollow me #then you'll never have to see them again :)

[lady-grace-pens]

How to Kill a God needs beta readers for draft 3!

It’s been eight years since the death of renowned explorer Indigo Haze. It seems like everyone in the world has has made peace with his passing. Everyone except for 18 year old Allister Haze, who clings to his father’s journal to keep his memory alive. Grief has trapped him inside a comfortable bubble, and he isn’t willing to look beyond it to see how it’s causing more harm than it is good.

That’s when the journal goes missing at the hands of his twin brother Preston, who only wishes Allister would look to the future instead of living in the past and longing for what could’ve been.

Allister, distressed by his brother’s betrayal, uses this as an opportunity to exact revenge upon him by uncovering a secret Preston has been dangling underneath his nose. This launches the boys into a series of bloody betrayals, each one growing more vile than the last.

How far will they go to destroy each other? Could this be the end of their relationship, or is there a way for them to unite and become brothers once more?

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Genre: A contemporary literary fiction with high drama and elements of a thriller. Upper ya/na. Underlying flavor of fantasy/spirituality.

CW: Death, grief, some smoking, drinking, strong language, depression, and therapy.

Point of View: First person, present tense, lightly stream of consciousness.

Includes: A bit of found family, a childhood friends to lovers slow burn, secrets, betrayals, wrestling with religious beliefs, horse racing, brotherly love and the bond of twins, a dramatic male protagonist with a plethora of colorful emotions, and much more!

Length: 240k words

Who/What I’m looking for:

General feedback, no particular questions. Looking at anything the reader wants to bring my attention to.

My ideal timeframe for reading is within 2-3 months.

Some level of experience with beta reading is preferred.

Anyone who is genuinely interested in this story and has the time to dedicate to beta reading.

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DM me if interested! Boosts are appreciated!

#wip: htkag #writeblr #writing #writblr #creative writing #my wip #writing community #writers #beta read #beta reading #drama #lit fic #fiction #family drama #original fiction #my writing #new adult #young adult #first person writing #all images are from Pinterest. I only created the moodboard itself

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Do you ever listen to someone speak and marvel at how smooth, free-flowing, and free of pauses it is?

Because I sure do. I can’t do that.

Maybe that’s why I feel like most people’s speech is insincere even when it isn’t… because it sounds like how I would recite or read a script. That explains why I view people who aren’t native English speakers, have a heavy accent, and take long pauses to think of the words they need to say as being more trustworthy… because my cadence is similar to theirs; and we both stumble over words.

#I feel like that little kid “If you ever had a dream where— you want— you wish— if you could— you want….” #I’m not that bad; but I come very close to sounding like that sometimes LOL #I feel like I spoke more smoothly as a little kid… #but that’s probably because my verbal communication is almost at the same level it was at when I was eight years old #Like those people who have a growth spurt but end up being on the short side as adults because they stop growing immediately after #I figuratively shot up to 5’0” in third grade and never grew past that point #(with regard to clarity and flow specifically; not vocabulary… my vocabulary has definitely grown a LOT #but that’s only because I get sick of writing or talking in the same way for longer than a year… which is why I currently sound #like a pretentious 20th century englishman whenever I write fiction) #I have no “real” vernacular because I don’t feel comfortable with having a personal vernacular… #because using the same patterns of words over and over again for the same situations counts as para-scripting and feels fake #(to me) #sometimes I hear someone use a new word I’ve never heard in conversation; and I say “Cool! I’ll use that word myself.” But I later realize #it’s not just a fun one-time usage of a word; but it’s a catchphrase they say all the time and forsake any common synonyms of the word #— I assume — solely for the purpose of sounding smart to others (their behavior usually justifies my assumption; because these people #act like they’re better than everyone else) #And sometimes I catch myself doing the same thing; and I switch to a different word or format than I’ve been using; out of nothing #but embarrassment and twisted perfectionism #Or sometimes I come off the high of using lofty words and want to speak in a more commonplace way #and after awhile of that I start thinking “Wait a minute wait a minute…. Now I’m just trying to sound cool and normal. #This isn’t how I talk.” #But the truth is I really feel spoken language is an insufficient medium for communication. #I want a language in which the speakers pry open each others’ chests #rip out each others’ hearts; and rub them together #But at the same time it kills me that I cannot do the same amount of tonal shapeshifting when speaking #especially when my default (socially-acceptable) speaking voice sounds extremely airheaded #I’ve been trying to use larger words and more archaic sentence structures in speech lately and it feels good #but also like I’m trying to show off (even though I’m not and that’s just how I’d prefer to speak) #even then… all my speech patterns are copied from somewhere #It’s been a years-long identity crisis and I want it to end

[fastepp]

i need YA to be better written and I need full grown adults to stop recommending me YA. these two things are related.

#like i dont hate YA because its the only thing recommended to me #but its a close fucking thing #my relationship with current YA fiction trends.......bad. horrid. im ready to kill. #theres some good shit out there and then the rest is copy cat #and i knooooowwwwwww YAs whole thing is coming of age #but they need to write better coming of age novels. everything coming out rn is swaddling the demographic. nothing is brave. #'YA isn't a genre stop talking about it like a genre' YA both is and is not a genre #at its core it is a marketing demographic #and it should not be treated as a genre like fantasy or horror #however. YA novels have defining tropes and themes and characteristics that draw a sharp line between YA fiction and regular fiction #not only based on the age of the protagonists which is honestly the least relevant thing in a YA novel (fuck you my YA lit course) #but the a) POV b) character arcs #and c) context and tone #reading a YA novel as an adult i cant connect with the characters like i can do with even a middle grade novel #because the context and tone YA novels use to talk to the reader is so i dont wanna say patronizing but its like. im not with it. #its like on the level but above it #this has gotten off track. YA authors write less copy cat novels and start writing honestly. or die by my hand.

[bobzora]

i hate maruki so much i hate maruki SO MUCH not because hes a bad character because hes an incredibly well written character and sympathetic to boot. hes very interesting! and i respect that! really good character! hes just also so so so scary. god bless. i hate him. 3rd semester is peak p5 by a long shot. <3

#bobtalk #p5r spoilers #<- feels like every other post i make nowadays has that tag. lol. #memory stuff/identity death/etc is kind of. i love it in fiction partially Because it is something so personally terrifying to me. 3rdsem.. #also 'goofy seemingly trustworthy (literal therapist) kind adult betrays that trust in a significant way' is also something.something. lol #hes rlly good Because he invokes so much emotion. bc like. shdo and yldabaoth and basically every other antag besides royalkechi were like. #nothing. lol. like i always say this but antagonistic forces only have impact (for me) if its Personal. after kmshda and mdrme it kinda goe #s downhill afterwards in terms of that. like shdo is obv Important but he gets super overshadowed by his son.lol. i finished him off w the #metatron gun tho and insist on doing that every playthru since so i invented some impact there at least. yldabth is just missed opportunity #i enjoyed vanilla but like. 3rdsem/royal content >>>>>> vanilla. #3rdsem also lends itself well to fridge horror and interpretations and crazy fancontent. its. its insane. #dude really took the 'self' out of self actualization and its the scariest shit ever. esp re:sumi and akc. like. jesus royal trio. jesus. #thank you maruki. i hate it (pos) #tfw u r akr krusu and u cant go to therapy bc u have Therapy Trauma now. lmao #when i write the akcessay someday. girl...

[hellcatinnc]

Birthday Sexicapades

Warning This includes: NSFW/SMUT (Read Tags Before Continuing)

Tags: nsfw, mature themes, consensual, smut, gagging, oral sex, blow jobs, exhibitionism, rough sex, urie sogami x Fem!Reader, urie sogami, dance with devils, erotic asphyxiation, lip biting, soft blood scent lip bite, humiliation, choking, wall pinning

Word Count: 1,337

Feature: Urie Sogami x Fem! Reader

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You have seen this man around town and every time you walk past him his beautiful golden eyes catch your attention. You have been told to stay away from him by many of your friends telling you he is so twisted in the head but there is something sexually desiring about him and your not sure why. You go out with your friends to a big party and you happened to notice him in the back of the yard. You made up your mind you were going to talk to him he can't be that toxic right. You step out on to the back patio and make your way towards him not sure what your going to say but it seems he already he knew you were there. He turned around and his eyes instantly started to glow gold they were so beautiful you were so lost in them. You found yourself walking closer to him not sure why, its like your body is moving towards him with no thought. When you stop right in front of him his eyes stop glowing. "What does a beautiful butterfly like you need from me, or did the butterfly get lost in this spiders web?" He chuckled like he had somehow said something funny and less creepy.

You were instantly creeped out yet for some reason he still made you drawn to him. It was this built up sexual energy, you tried to get your mind off that when you looked in his eyes and he laughed almost like he could read your mind in that moment. "Oh come now my beautiful butterfly you know resisting me will not work." As his words flow from his lips his eyes glow bright and you're caught in that gaze. He looks you up and down and licks his lips a bit mumbling under his breath something about best birthday gift. You were confused all you wanted in that moment was him, its not like you didn't before but whatever he was doing was just intensifying what you already wanted. He reached out running his finger across your cheek which sent shivers down your body, and made your heat between your legs grow hotter.

As you were feeling this longing for him he had leaned into you, so close to your lips you could feel his breath on your face. He got right up to your lips then softly bit your bottom lip until it bled a little then he sucked on that lip tasting your blood. There was something almost sadistic about this man but your thighs grew moist from these interactions with him. You softly moan and he knew at that point he had excited your body. He gave you a wink "So then are you my actual birthday gift, my butterfly?" You were a bit confused you knew nothing about this party being a birthday party and even if it was then was he really the birthday boy? Even if he was you never planned to be someone's gift you weren't some item you were a person after all. He pushed you down on your knees and you were surprised how easy it was for him to do. His eyes stopped glowing and he leaned in whispering to her. "I don't want to make you want me, I want you to want to be with me, because as of right now you can have me." You were stunned by this confession as you were on your knees in front of him in the back yard and it was his birthday. You sat there in front of him and you realized as you just sat there that his bulge was able to be seen, you could tell he was as turned on as you were in this weird situation.

Before you knew you had unzipped his pants taking his thick cock into your hands. He gasp and moaned as he felt you touch him. He ran his hands through your hair as you wrap your lips around his engorged prick and start sucking using thrusting motions into your mouth. He moaned as he got more turned on at this point you didn't think about anything but pleasing him and didn't care that anyone at the party at any point could walk out and see this. As you bobbed your head faster he groaned louder until he took his hands on both sides of your head. He got aggressive and started fucking your mouth moaning as he gave you his cock so deep in throat he had you gagging. His words loud in your ears "Thats It!!! TAKE IT Like a good fuckin little girl..." You were gagging more now but he slammed his cock one last thrust spewing his thick liquid across the back of your throat. There was so much of it you almost choked.

He grabbed hold of you pulling to your feet as he walked you over to the wall of the house you could tell you were in view of several people being able see you but he wanted to fill you up and he wanted everyone to see it. He pushes you against the wall aggressively holding your wrists up against the rough brick wall. He passionately kissed you you violently kissing you harder as he does. He couldn't get enough of you and you could feel it as he shoved his tongue between your lips muffling out any words that came to your mind. He lifted one of your legs so he would have easy access to that moist desperate little pussy of yours. Pulling your panties a side he pushes that thick cock that is still dribbling wetness at the tip its now slammed into you. You moan and scream he fills you up so much stretching your walls to fit that thickness. You have never felt something fill your inside like this but you wanted more. At this point you didn't even care people had stopped and stared as he took you and owned you at that point.

He starts thrusting harder and faster rutting his cock deeper and deeper each time. His mind was thinking the same as you as he start screaming "Fuck yeah you little whore take that cock... I own that pussy now!" You hated being humiliated but at this point the way he was making you feel the thought of being his whore was turning you on. He was taking your cunt and filling it up showing all these other men that he can have you any time he wants. The faster he went and the harder he was going at your cunt you were feeling everything reaching a high point for both of you. Then out of nowhere you weren't expecting it but he wrapped his hands around your throat and started to cut your oxygen out and yet he still kept fucking you. You got light headed and could barely think anymore your mind was going blank right about the point of blacking out he let go and the feeling of rush that went back through your mind and body led you into convulsions of orgasms back to back over and over again.

He felt you coming on that prick of his and it excited him so much he started groaning humiliating you even more... "Yeah you little come slut take all that.. Ngh!" He groaned one last time spewing his hot seed so deep in your needy cunt you thought he was never going to stop. He filled you up so much that its was dripping down your thighs. You saw out of the corner of your eye people watching on but at this point you didn't care because this man took you to heights you had never been before and you hoped people saw he officially owned you. This was a rough birthday gift but after that hot steamy time you were happy to be the best birthday gift he could have this year.

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