#unaesthetic realness

[kiranue]

#unaesthetic realness #cinnabon #kanelbullar #recovery #eating disoder recovery

[benkyoutobentou]

I meant to study today, but it’s so rainy that all I could do was drink tea and read manga. It’s not my fault!

🎧: Link (Kiss Mix) - L’Arc-en-Ciel

#I’m physically incapable of taking aesthetic photos and that’s partially why I’m posting this #rise up my unaesthetic studyblr brethren! #also I kinda want to idk make myself and my study life more real on here #I hardly ever post study candids like this so hopefully I can continue to do so #and for anyone wondering I’m drinking a London fog (minus the frothed milk because I don’t have a milk frother) #and I’m reading Sasaki and Miyano #study #langblr #studyblr #benkyou posting #language learning #polyglot #studyinspo #manga #study aesthetic

[studeebymyself]

28/04/24

hoping making a study blog will make me want to study more

#i’m struggling for real #god help me #i know my handwriting isn’t very nice #and these pictures aren’t that aesthetic #i just started so forgive me please #study #studyblr #lawschool #academia #unaesthetic academia #study inspo #studyspo #studying #study motivation

[studentbyday]

hello, i drafted an aesthetic studyblr post for today, but didn't feel like posting it bc today is an ugly rant kind of day. (more kermits under the cut)

AAAAHHHHHH STUPID FREAKING WINDOWS- 😩😫😭🤬🤬🤬 so i was working on my laptop for these past few days which uses a different ms office version from the computer i switched to today and all my work was LOST!! 😭😭 all the notes i took on OneNote (at least it was just the psyc notes i had done on the laptop - idk what i would do if biochem or mol bio notes were lost. i'd probably cry for real) and all the work i did on that biochem paper? GONE!! my brother uses LibreOffice so i finally switched to that (altho their UI isn't that nice). at this point, i might as well switch to linux (unless that would cause unforeseen problems if i still sometimes do work on windows? idk) 😅 any recs for free notes apps that have a small learning curve and are OneNote-like?

the STRANGEST part is, some of the notes and lost files came back as i was working?? i didn't do anything and i *swear* i wasn't seeing things, so like, WTF??? not that i'm complaining. i hope the entire week of psyc notes i lost comes back. if not, i'll probs rewrite them if i have time. i hope i have time. i really hate this.

also, good thing i didn't like the way i wrote the biochem paper so far. i rewrote the thing in a google doc instead just to be safe and i like the way it flows much better now. AND!!! it's super annoying that i had to do this, but my handwritten notes on the main article i'm basing my paper on were confusing me. like, in terms of the flow of the biochemistry. so i basically rewrote those notes, doing this huge web in paint and idk if i could've done that on the first read instead of the way i did it. i hate feeling like i've done double work.

after rewriting the paper (i'm not even done yet - there are several things i wanna add yet and some facts i wanna clarify) and my notes on the article for said paper, i was exhausted. i tried to switch gears by reading the instructions/background for the biochem discussion post due tmr (that i was supposed to write today 😒) but i don't get it. it's like i didn't cover lipoproteins at all! i don't remember anything! what am i here* for if i can't remember anything?!

update: i answered 1 question for the discussion post. i still have to answer 1 more but i need to finish reading the background info first.

ALSO! i was supposed to study for 6+ hours today. i have no idea how long i actually studied bc i kept stopping and starting the study with me video and i worked through the breaks anyway, so the dinging timers were just annoying.

*"here" as in at uni, studying, although if in the right mood, it could also expand to my entire existence 🙂 (luckily i'm too angry rn to feel philosophical 😒)

okay, let's try not to end so sour. good things that happened today:

physio exercises ✅

skincare ✅ (i have added lip balm to the list asides from lotion bc the chapped state hurts 🙁)

mol bio quiz ✅

journal ✅

tomorrow will be better. and if it doesn't start out right, imma fight it until it is and i won't be defeated 😠

#rant #studyblr #studyspo #stem student #stem academia #100dop #stemblr #student life #cramming #ugh #words thrown at the wall #becoming that girl #is a truly unaesthetic and messy process #let's be real #self care #skincare #as in almost the whole organ #idk how i'd survive the winter if i only moisturized my face/hands #bioblr #premedblr #mental health #digital diary

[neuroticasplath]

I truly believe there is something wrong with my brain. How can i sit at my desk for 4 hours and write one fucking paragraph. this happens to me all the time. its so frustrating. I genuinely just cant concentrate or make my brain work when it doesn't wanna listen to me. I'm gonna cry. I'm never gonna get into uni at this rate. I actually love learning but its so hard to make progress on assignments sometimes. I just wanna get diagnosed with something already so that i know its not my fault.

#undiagnosed adhd #adhd #studying #the brainrot is real #unaesthetic studying #actually crying

[mygwenchan]

Since I still see people complaining about the sex scenes in Playboyy:

The stark contrast between artistically crafted shots of non-sexual scenes (some of those truly look like they could be art installations) and sex scenes that seem unaesthetic, hasty, somewhat badly performed and sometimes even comical, highlights the conflict between what we expect and dream of versus the true nature of interpersonal relationships.

Dream versus reality is one of the big themes in this series. We can see it in the way the characters expect certain things from their relationships, only to be repeatedly confronted with the fact that they won't get what they want. Teena dreams of sleeping with a virgin, but both his feelings and Zouey's hesitation get in the way of it. Zouey wants to conform to society's expectations about sex, he really does try. But in the end sex repulses him for some reason. First dreams of running away from home to have a steamy affair with some hot guy, but he learns that Soong isn't really into the idea. Soong seems to like First, but he is hit with the reality that affection won't be able to buy you dinner and it won't pay your rent. And then we have Nont who tells himself that his brother is still alive, while deep down he already knows that something bad must've happend to Nant (I'm delulu about that too, so I feel you Nont!)

Likewise the viewer is also forced back into reality. The dreamlike sequences end abruptly and instead quick humping and bad audio (the Japanese!) is thrown at us. Did you expect something kinky and hot? Did you expect romantic kisses in the rain? Well, you won't get any of that! In Playboyy sex scenes are used as a tool to make the viewer look beyond the dream. Sometimes sex is used for educational purposes or it tells us more about a character and sometimes it makes us think about our own relationship with kink and sex.

In addition, I believe it is also a direct critique towards the majority of BL series that are out on the market right now. Because those shows usually try to ascend sex between two men onto a higher plane. They only highlight the dreamlike romantic aspects of gay relationships and ignore real life issues, even the really small things (how many sex scenes have we all seen where they don't even use the lube and simply go straight at it...). Sex is not soft background music, slow motion shots, perfect hair and pretty make up, the right pose at the right time... Instead it can be messy, funny, weird, with sweat pouring down your face and smeared mascara.

#playboyy the series #playboyy #playboyy meta

[katnissmellarkkk]

i’m about to sound very cringe but i never talk about my ocd (and the hypochondria it also includes). i’ve dealt with it for years. and sometimes it’s so bad. so, so hard to deal with. and usually i deal best with not acknowledging it at all to anyone besides myself. anyways, only reason i feel like mentioning this is because i watched the trailer for turtles all the way down and it literally hit me in a way nothing really ever has. never read the book but i know from the youtube comments it also includes a murder subplot.

anyways it was just trippy to see a character struggle with ocd because it’s not something i’ve ever felt seen with before. and it doesn’t hurt that it’s about a pretty girl who’s potentially falling in love with a hot guy. a lot of times shows try to make everything unaesthetic and gross to be more ~real~.

#turtles all the way down

[camille-lachenille]

Clover Cotton’s Cookbook: summer vegetables pan

Hi everyone, welcome on my blog, I’m Clover Cotton, from Bywater. I admit I was a bit intimidated to share my recipes here but Rosie, my dear sister-in-law, pestered me until I relented. She has quite a temper and a sound judgement so I trust her when she says someone will be interested…

As we have an unreasonably warm summer here in the Shire, I decided to share a staple of my summer recipes, easy and light, for my first post: the zucchini and eggplant pan.

For four hobbits you will need:

a medium eggplant

two to three medium zucchini

one or two cloves of garlic depending on preferences

Parmesan cheese

salt

olive oil

Cut the eggplant and zucchinis in thin slices and put them in a large pan with a generous amount of olive oil. Cut and add the garlic and salt at will.

Let fry on medium heat, stirring frequently, until all the vegetables are soft and a nice golden brown.

Take off the stove and wait until the pan stops steaming, and add grated Parmesan cheese. Stir and serve with rice or pasta for a light and delicious dinner. For days of great heat, it may even be served for luncheon with simple (garlic) bread or crackers.

A few variants include:

Goat cheese instead of Parmesan cheese

Fresh mint chopped and added just before serving

Adding black pepper to the seasoning

So, here’s my first recipe post, hope you enjoyed it. If you wonder, yes, I did write out a canon-compliant backstory worth of a d&d character for Clover Cotton, and yes, I will dump it on you in her various posts. She likes gossips, alright, like any self-respecting Hobbit!

Also, don’t mind the ugly setting of the pics. As much as I’d love to have a giant cottagecore kitchen with a real pantry, I have to make it do with an extremely unaesthetic 80’s rental flat style kitchen. As long as it serves its purpose, I can’t complain 🤷🏻‍♀️

#clover cotton #clover cotton’s cookbook #hobbit cooking blog #hobbitcore #tolkien #recipe #vegetarian recipes #summer recipes #vegetables #eggplant #zucchini #cooking tag

[theambisinistrousquainterelle]

So this happened:

Existential crisis - the real world is far too unaesthetic to draw or paint and my imagination is far too abstract. ✅

This will never work. ✅

Scrolling Pinterest for hours in search of something. Anything.✅

Found. Lots of books and a person reading. Life is beautiful. ✅

Sudden PBPA (Paralysing Blank Page Anxiety). Ask me to fill it with words and consider it done, with paint and I'll look like a deer caught in the headlights. ✅

Binge watching videos of people sketching and painting very loosely, fast and naively, trying to convince myself it's OK. ✅

It's OK. It's OK. It's OK. Right? Because I neither have the patience nor the time to do elaborate, precise drawings. ✅

IT'S OK. No one cares. I can totally do whatever I want. ✅

Irrational fear of paint setting in. ✅

Deciding to do it anyway. ✅

Realising I LOVE paint. It's the best thing ever. Not water colours though. ✅

Questioning all my life choices.✅

This is the ugliest thing anyone has ever produced. ✅

I'm the worst. Utterly useless. ✅

I HATE paint. ✅

I HATE myself. ✅

Questioning everything. ✅

Actually it's not too bad. Not great, but not a disaster either. ✅

This was fun. ✅

Repeat. ✅

#art academia #chaotic academia #art journaling #art #paint #creativity #chaotic #pastels #colourful makeup #colourful #hufflepuff

[feretra]

I’ve spent the last few days contemplating the nature of and — ultimately — the different progression Salome’s disability takes.

In a medieval context, relying on the terms set by fantasy, class is inevitably tied to medical access. Higher the station, the better the healers and medicine you have at your disposal. A buffer of familial or romantic love and loyalty that may keep Galtonian ethics and the underclasses from ever gracing your door.

Salome rejected high station and access, in most situations. And while she may regain it and then some in some verses (becoming a daughter-in-law to The Lord of the Eighth for example, has to confer some benefit), in most instances she actively chooses to remain in and defined, in part, by the underclass it places her in.

While I could choose to dive in anywhere on this topic, I think one of the most important areas to dedicate time to, is the timespan I have spent with her was a character. This version of Salome is not her original, or her main version of herself, but they have all been disabled in some way. In 2011-12, it was rare to find a character who was disabled, let alone so openly. And it was even rarer to have that disability drastically impact the character, their interactions, and their world. Salome’s disabilities have always been linear and progressive; as time advances in the real world, so does her age and the ongoing problems she experiences with her body’s limitations.

Now, in 2024, I feel that the writing characters with certain kinds of disabilities is more commonplace because people find there is an aesthetic to doing so. Amputation is a particularly common affliction, for example, but it is rarely touched on how horrifically painful and unaesthetic it actually is. The brutal chaffing, the failure of prosthetics themselves, revision surgeries, phantom pain, an inability to do much of what you previously could, and so much else is often ignored just solely for the visual of disability.

This can get frustrating because what representation you think you’re getting, you’re not.

When I write Salome in her modern, main!verse, she has been viciously disabled by her severe scoliosis and the revision surgeries she’s had to endure. She is a creature who finds her safety in the vulnerable and dark, because it is where her body has kept her as a physical prison.

Putting her in a high fantasy universe where I couldn’t utilize that same outcome was interesting, and it challenged me to rewrite her backstory with a similar outcome through different narratives. And how to bridge her through to the underclass of disability, the prejudices surrounding it, and bring her back around to, philosophically, a similar reasoning point. To allow this little beast of mine to live a life so cracked open and oozing forth all of its highs and lows from just one singular thing.

— you might be asking yourself, I thought you were going to talk about outcomes? I am, I am! But it’s hard to talk about those without acknowledging how we got here to begin with.

All of this, all of those peaks and valleys, stem a single day’s events. A year and a half of grabbing a makeshift trapeze bar above her bed on a bloody fucking floor and dragging herself upward. The sheer tenacity and gritting of teeth to fight against almost complete paralysis. The baby steps, falls, bruises, and frustrated cries. All because Salome didn’t have the luxury of a healer provided to someone of high birth. She had to heal the hard way.

The inevitable progression of her disability — her need for her bracing and natural herbal pain remedies — feels so dramatically different across her sub-verses. Whether or not any of it pans are debates for other days, but I can’t help but feel that in her disability is treated more like a minor, and likely mostly treatable, nuisance when in the company of @catturnalia’s Raphael.

It’s a tinkerer’s dream, in others.

And in most, Salome still remains in the underclass, hammering out the old brace, trying to get as much use as possible out of a dying piece of leather and steel. Hidden behind skirts, boots, and other methods in order to not draw any more attention to herself than required. The pain slowly getting worse, year by year.

#ooc #salome ( hc ) #[ me musing about shit again ]

[thethirtyproject444]

Same anon that asked about the original content: I think no matter now “unaesthetic” your life is you should be proud of what you accomplished. I’m doing a similar journey and part of it is caring about what I think of my life, not worrying about what others on the internet think :) but anyway I can’t wait to see it someday!

you’re totally right! i guess i’ve just been a bit shy, and i know people find this blog quite comforting and i didn’t wanna ruin it for them or anything. but you are right, i love seeing other people’s “unaesthetic”, unfiltered, real-life updates! someone else has said it before too, so i’ll try to share a little more :)) thank you for such a nice message! wishing you all the best on your journey 💙

#ask

[velvetcloxds]

Another one 🥰

I think it was this one 🙈

I COULD KISS YOU RN BESTIE THANK YOU SM FOR RESENDING IT

It took less than a second for your eyes to lock, the weapon in your hand falling to the floor in a loud thud, hands no longer in your control as you looked at him. He didn't quite know what to do, how to approach you, and by the looks of it, neither did you.

"Baby," he croaked, his voice was hoarse, it wasn't before but he couldn't account for all the emotions bubbling up at the sight of you- you, this angel, this figure of goodness and love standing in what he'd adopted as his own hell- it was unjust, unaesthetic, but he needed nothing more. "My baby," he whispered and you gasped, running into his arms, selfishly paying no mind to his injuries as his arms surrounded you.

"I hate you," you breathed, contradicting yourself by nuzzling into his chest even more, wanting to feel him around you, consume you in his arms, wanting him to take away every bit of pain his death had caused. "I hate you for making me lose you, Jim Hopper," you explained and you broke at the sound of him sniffling, at the sound of him breaking, it was enough to remove the two of you from the world completely.

"I'm sorry," he sighed, one hand sifting through your hair, making sure you were real by keeping you as close as possible, the other on your back, offering you any remnant of comfort that he could as you trembled in his hold. "I'm so sorry, baby."

#anyway let's try again #jim hopper #stranger things dialogues #monique's dialogue days #monique's dilf days #right where queue left me

[satostudies]

satostudies' bulletin board ‧₊˚✩彡

hello! as a long time tumblr lurker and horrendous student, i thought what better to do than to make a study blog? >:)

about me:

you call me sato! (no real names soz :p)

nineteen, she/her, isfp-t

cancer☉ leo☽ taurus↑

second year uni student

health sciences major

what to expect:

unaesthetic unserious study pics and posts

inconsistent posts

complaining about school LOL

me trying to study when idk how to study (i just wanna pretend like i'm so academic and shit when i'm the furthest thing from that)

silly personal posts about my interests, etc!

♡'s:

anime! (currently hyperfixated on jjk; my blog name and alias are literally inspired by gojo satoru LMAO)

cats :3

little treats to get me thru the day (sweets/starbucks)

listening to music/singing in the car by myself

THE SIMS 4

thank you for reading, have a good day! (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧˖°.

#lets be moots #studyblr intro post #studyblr #stemblr #idk what else to tag #ily

[raynemonroe]

#black entrepreneurship #black stories #black love #black tumblr

[skinsgreys]

Computer wont connect to wifi

#Computer wont connect to wifi drivers

#Computer wont connect to wifi android

#Computer wont connect to wifi password

On a PC, you’ll see a tilted three-wave WiFi icon when you click on the upward arrow next to the clock in the bottom right corner of your screen. The Network Properties Window would appear where you have to right-click on the WiFi connection and click on Status. You have to click on 'change' on Adapter Settings. Tap on it and turn on the toggle switch next to WiFi. Here is how you can resolve the issue: Right-click on the WiFi or network icon. Let me know how it goes and I hope that helps.

#Computer wont connect to wifi drivers

Depending on the make of your device, you’ll see a three-wave WiFi icon, or you’ll see an option called Internet. Press the Windows key + X -Go to Device Manager -Expand the Network Adapters -Look for the Wireless driver that was installed -Right-click and Update -Look for 'Browse my computer for driver -Let me pick drivers available drivers -Choose an old driver and use it. Troubleshooting: Problems Connecting a Single Device to Home WiFi Make certain you are using the proper WiFi network name and password.

#Computer wont connect to wifi android

On Android phones and tablets, you can swipe down with two fingers from the top of your screen. On Mac computers, you’ll find the same icon to the left of the clock, in the upper right corner of your screen. There, tap the WiFi icon (it looks like three curved waves stacked on top of each other) to turn it on. If you have an iPhone or iPad, you’ll want to access the Control Center menu-open it by swiping down from the upper right corner of your screen. This will only happen when its WiFi mode is on. Turn your device’s WiFi mode onĪgain, it might sound obvious, but any gadget you’re connecting to a WiFi network has to actively seek that connection. Moving closer to the router and making sure its antennae are up and unobstructed can help you get a connection more easily. It doesn’t help if, in an attempt to disguise its unaesthetic nature, the router’s owner placed the gadget in a deep corner or covered it with books or other trinkets. WiFi coverage may vary for a lot of different reasons-from how strong of a signal the router is emitting, to the thickness of your home’s walls. Select Manage Wi-Fi connections (>) on the Wi-Fi quick setting, see if a Wi-Fi network you recognize and. Second, remember credentials are case sensitive, so alternate between upper- and lowercase diligently. Things to try first Make sure WiFi is turned on. Most interfaces have this feature, but you should avoid it if you’re in a crowded, public space, as someone may be peeking over your shoulder.

#Computer wont connect to wifi password

When you’re typing, tap or click on the eye icon to the right of the password field to see what you’re typing in real time. Taking a breath and checking the accuracy of your credentials can save you many frustrating minutes of typing and retyping a wrong password.įirst, make sure you’re reading every character correctly-this is especially important when someone shares a password with you on a handwritten note. As obvious as this may sound, unexpectedly incorrect login details is a common cause of WiFi struggles. You swear you’re typing the password correctly and you’re about to smash the router against the wall when you realize you had the caps lock on. Check (and double-check) your credentials

#Computer wont connect to wifi

[szparagus2002]

Today I literally couldn't do anything more productive than re-writing some old notes, and I'm still not done with them. But at least I got some nice crunchy snacks (yes, they are just chocolate cereals).

No thoughts head empty

#student #studyblr #studying #high school #student life #school #my post #polish #notes #notebook #study notes #unaesthetic #real studyblr #stinkybrain