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can we please destroy the idea that kageyama is a sex-obsessed animal who can't control himself?? like c'mon this boy is just,,,
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he's just confused all the time??? he's just as clueless as the rest of the one-brain cell squad
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and he's just so??? adorable??? this is the boy who tries his hardest to be the setter his team trusts and needs cos he's scared of the incident that happened in middle school and left him with lasting trauma
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he even tries to communicate with tsukki!!
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he really admires hinata's trust in him??? he wants that trust. yes he's human and he makes mistakes and he's not perfect but i don't see him doing anything to break hinata's trust
if anything, when he starts dating hinata, i feel like kageyama would be doting af. he's really awkward and socially inept (i really think he is autistic) but that's not a reason to turn him into an animal who's driven by desire?? he'd try his best to be respectful and mindful of hinata's boundaries. like yes maybe he'd mess up at first, but everyone messes up sometimes, it takes communication!!
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yes he does a lot of roughhousing with hinata but the art style changes to show that it's for comedic effect. haikyuu is classified as a comedy slice-of-life. he's not physically abusive and he doesn't force himself into situations.
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he even tries to talk to kenma!! and when kenma runs away he leaves him alone, he's just confused cos he doesn't know how talk to people.
in conclusion:
i'm definitely not hating on nsfw content, it's ok for that content to exist!!! absolutely!!! but i hate that a lot of ppl depict kageyama as this sex-crazed beast when he's really just a socially awkward cinnamon roll bean who, deep down, is touched by hinata's trust in him. karasuno has to teach him how to high-five. he's canonically the youngest on the team, including yachi. there's no way he'd know how to do a bunch of sexual stuff, esp not as a teen?? if hinata said to stop, he would. he wants trust. he wants good relationships. he tries really hard to develop them at karasuno. he's definitely not an animal. :( he's just doing his best.
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canidkid · 9 months
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Johnny Abbot x Oc (AU)
structured ramble + agere + trauma ment + healing 🌱⭐️
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🌿🌙🧃🌻🧸
There's something unusual to Johnny in his regression.
The part where he's an only child. He's always been one-of-two. The little one, the brother. He was used to sharing, keeping quiet, having someone there. Someone to guide him in one way or another.
He felt lost. He was here now, all by himself. Young all over again, but without his older brother.
He wasn't sure how to feel about it for a long time. All the undivided attention. It was nice, of course! To finally feel his voice heard and needs met. To have someone be fully present in the moment. With him, for him.
For him. Was it all for him? Was he asking too much?
Meadow hadn't dealt much with children. She truly always had been by herself. No siblings or extended family to speak of.
Things weren't always peaceful. There were times she thought she knew how new mothers must feel. All that hurt from something so small. All those tears from someone who didn't deserve the reasons to shed them. All those hours fighting her own drooping lids to rock her treasure to sleep.
"Are you sure this is okay?"
"I'm sure. You don't have to go through this alone. I'm here as long as you need me."
So much baggage doesn't go away overnight. It takes time. It takes love and unconditional acceptance. It takes tantrums, yelling, tears, and reassurance. It takes the realization that your emotions will not be punished - that your actions are not mistakes to be harshly corrected.
Some things were familiar, some new, some both at once. Johnny especially loved that Meadow's home was never silent. A soft tune hummed while cooking, quietly recited poetry as she idly sweeped dust out into the morning sun. It was easy to start singing along again.
Slowly but surely, tentative steps forward turned into routine. Undivided attention became welcome instead of uncomfortable. Quietly mumbled words became full songs. Slowly but surely, away from the commotion of the real world, between the fostered raccoon pups and baby chicks. Between stumbling across a stranger's threshold and now - Johnny thought he could find peace again.
I'm so tired rn but here's my rambly writing :]
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sweetpeauserboxes · 1 year
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[id: a gray userbox with a dark gray border and dark gray text that reads “this user is a royce introject recovering from trauma”. on the left is an image of royce from love nikki dress up queen. /end id]
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mogainauts · 2 years
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Traumabungender
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A gender relating to childhood trauma and rabbits/bunnies. This is a gender only to be used by people with childhood trauma. It feels scared almost trapped. It can be related to traumacore or liminal spaces but doesn’t have to be. It can also be masc, fem, neutral, xenic, unalligned, etc but it feels faded and tainted.
-DNI-
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jellyluchi · 1 year
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Abuse and trauma mention tw
So I just found out from Twitter that some behavior from my dad in the past actually abusive and I didn't realize. My mother has been the bigger abuser in my family (at least imo) and I usually don't expect smth like that from my dad (tho he's neglectful) and I realized there's probs been so many instances where my dad was abusive and I didn't realize. The thing I didn't know before was that driving unsafely to intimidate and I still fear is abusive and my dad has done it several times over the years. To the point where my mom brother and I sometimes feels extremely unsafe with him driving. Not all the time but usually long drives. I also I don't like getting him to drive me places. And just... It made me think of driving around with Pros and just how safe is feel with him behind the wheel. He never lets his emotions get the best of him and genuinely cares for my safety. Even if I'm in the passenger seat I'd never have any fear of crashing (I wonder if that's where my fear of driving comes from). Even if it's not recent I still feel the scars of that trauma a lot and it just feels good to cope with the thoughts of Prosciutto being a really good and safe driver 💕
My dad was also the "throw and break things" type of abuser even if he's mellowed out now that's smth I still remember from childhood and still feel the scars from that too [dead Dio meme]
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delphi-system · 1 year
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it’s so weird being an introject and a trauma holder because i’m almost positive my source memories are stand ins for something else but fuck if i know what so i’m just sitting here as a silly little cowboy who is also apparently holding some dark shit
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companionplanting · 1 year
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We've been debating on how to properly tackle this kind of subject without coming off as ignorant, contradictory, or belittling to others. So if our words come off in that way, please reach out to us and let us know.
With the rampant scene of various mental illnesses being painted as malicious (ASPD, NPD, Schizophrenia, etc.), TERF/SWERF ideology being mainstream as well as on the other side of that same coin of "Alpha" males, it has clearly been shown to us what we had speculated for a while.
People don't want to confront their pain, and blame their trauma on anything but the truth.
I'm gonna go more in depth with this so hear me out.
We had (and still have) gone through a multitude of confronting our trauma, processing it, then eventually having to accept it and move on. It's challenging to say the least. But it's necessary. We have a lot of trauma, so we have had to do this song and dance multiple of times. None of us can say it gets any easier each time, but it has always lead us to getting better.
Each time we are confronted with the same question,
"Why did this happen to me?"
Of course sometimes it goes deeper with other questions, but we always circle back to that same one. A lot of people have asked that, honestly it's not new. We also acknowledge the outside factors that lead to moments of abuse or trauma like systematic oppression of various groups, indoctrination of ideologies, generational trauma, as well as lack of different kinds of support and community. Of course those are explanations, not excuses.
So we then go back to that question after learning what we know about the world and it's harmful systems. "Why me?". What we ultimately came up with was
"It just happened because."
It's anticlimactic and frustrating, we acknowledge that, but true. You can point to all the outside influences, you can dissect people's personhood down to their very core, you can label them with whatever would fit best but none of that is going to answer why it happened to you.
And it won't. But that's okay. There wasn't a grand scheme, it's no one culprit, it's not a big master plan, it's simply just happenstance. You were in the wrong place, at the wrong time, and it's awful, but it had nothing to do with you specifically.
It's easy for us to create a big boogyman to blame our problems. It makes it simpler, easier to digest.
For one example this comes in the form of vilifying people with mental disorders. Maybe it's to excuse their parent's or partner's selfish actions, sudden and aggressive bouts of unexplained violence, or simply neglect in every field.
For TERFs and SWERFs, it's anyone one that doesn't prescribe to their definition of 'womanhood'. Maybe it's to excuse the way past partners would twist and violate their romantic and sensual attractions. Maybe they feel hurt and scared in a patriarchal society, constantly watching and judging. Perhaps even just feeling scared and lost in a world they have very, very little control over.
For 'Alpha' males and their ilk it's to men not prescribing to their definition of 'traditional values'. Maybe it's an excuse to direct sadness and anger that has built up for so long towards society's lessers. Maybe it's an excuse to feel powerful and important in a sea of random unimportance.
I cannot say for sure what these people have been through or desire. Even still it's simply, again, explanations and not actual reasons. But it all goes back to pointing the blame at something, anything to make the world less scary.
The truth, the much more scary truth, is that there is no reason. The world is random, and that includes pain. Those people didn't hurt you because of their mental disorders, their gender, their occupation, none of what that person was.
It happened because.
Of course more awful things happen to various minority groups (LGBTQIA+, disabled people, POC, etc.). Even still, that is again an explanation not a reason.
But there is no one singular monolith you can tear down to make the world freer and happier.
It's just the many complicated and absolutely random layers of the universe.
That's okay, and you will be okay. It makes the world more unpredictable, but you'll find your footing. We're sure of it.
-🖋️, 🌲 & 🍂
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alexcaninnit · 2 years
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So, fun little thing, I was thinking about Scylla in the Rise Movie, and how she and Shiro together are so powerful that they could potentially go toe to toe with a non suited Kraang. This, however, would ruin the course of events, and make it not as fun.
Solution?
The Kraang were the ones to kill Shiro, and now he completely shuts down whenever they show up due to ✨Trauma✨
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Dunno why I’m back so soon, guess my anxiety has been acting up or something. I’m surprised to see I didn’t get as much harassment posts thank god. Saw one person say bullshit that seems aimed towards me but aside from that one psycho all is good I guess.
I had a panic attack last week and ending up confessing to my older sister about everything that happened. I even told her about my fetish, which had me so scared to do I almost vomited. I was scared she was going to think I’m a freak and disown me as a sister as some people in my past did. She took it better than I thought and said it was a normal and a healthy thing. It is a part of being human. I was so grateful to learn my sister still loves me for being born this way. I am still too scared to tell my parents though as they are old fashioned and would definitely not get it. To help make me feel better she invited me over to her place to try and help me recover as my anxiety has been worse as of late. I had lots of fun! Sadly my parents fucking car got fucked up because some girl at McDonald’s messed up the hot chocolate cup and it spilled all over the controls so I had to take some meds after that scary almost car crash experience. The car seems to have somehow fixed itself the next day though? Still kinda nervous about it though.
I got quests of yore the board game! We found a game shop and she decided to play a game with me, I sort of went in blind as I know nothing about DND. We got it and played and it was fun, I got a companion which was a bear. I was struggling to come up with a name and she said Gary. We proceed to laugh a long time. We are on a quest to make lots of money to pay rent that will allow us to keep a bear. LOL
I’ve been up and down lately really, my social anxiety is way worse and I’m currently questing my sexuality and identity. I am thinking I may be agender and only into boys I’m not sure. I get bullied by lots of girls so even though I am attracted to all kinds of body types and I’m not fused by gender and have crushes on fictional girls I’m absolutely terrified of real life girls now. I was thinking I may be pansexual as well but yeah...women are SCARY dude. It’s very confusing... I wish girls like Abigail from Stardew valley were real...*sigh* in my country we get lots of what we call sheep. So if you’re not into make up and Twilight the girls in my country are immediately like “fuck you!”. Guys and non binaries aren’t like that tho. Not sure why.
And yeah, Barley and Abigail, I have a type LOL
We are trying to look for a new therapist but they’re all booked out. I have been getting lots of trauma related panic attacks but my family is helping me through it. I came here again because of anxiety of course like I said but uh....thanks to everyone who supports me. And please don’t listen to any bullshit rumours you might hear about me. People just don’t know how to fucking chill. You guys have anything better to do than to bitch and moan? Just write and draw things you love, don’t complain about people or make up nasty stories to try and gain more haters to join you. I know you’re watching me. You say I should grow up but who really is the immature one? Yes I had a bad panic attack that time. Yes I should have kept it anonymous. But I’m not evil. I just wish to be myself without seeing nasty posts. I said sorry but did you guys say sorry to me? No you didn’t. You kept going and did a lot of damage. So who is really the immature one? The one who felt bad and tried to explain why I was hurt and how we can make things better or the one who wanted to keep assuming the worst in me? Just enjoy the things you love instead of thriving in things you hate and trying to guilt trip others who like the things you hate. Stop making rumours and harassing others. Just stop. And not just me, anyone in general, I know there’s others who suffered from your wrath. Much like a dear friend of mine in December 2021 who practically saved me life. You know who I’m talking about, you hated on him for being like me. So just calm down, do you and I will do me. If you choose to hate someone over ONE mistake or one tiny trait like personal preferences than that’s just sad. Do what makes you happy, don’t go out of your way to make yourself angry by LOOKING UP the things you dislike. You do you, I will do me. Just learn to chill.
Again thanks to the people here who didn’t harass me. I really do appreciate it. I will just post and disappear again as tumblr does tend to be a DANGEROUS website. Place is practically crawling with cyber bullies. You guys should be careful too, please stay safe and if people try to attack you block them and maybe get off of tumblr. I hear shit about Twitter but I will not lie, there’s actually less cyber bullies there apparently. Deviantart is a totally safe place too. I did have some BS happen there before but the people behind the website don’t allow bullying and band people. So yeah. Thanks and stay safe everyone.
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I am slowly coming to the realization that I can talk about my system and our trauma online. Like I know we have to be safe and all but having to be quiet about our trauma was definitely one of the things that caused more trauma. And even if I decide to delete it later I want to just be able to talk about it, even if it’s to the void online.
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lastwave · 1 year
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hm. childhood trauma as cosmic horror.
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oopsalltoxic · 2 years
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"Traumacore is inappropriate because it triggers people who don't filter their triggers"
News: hey look this kid covered herself in her dead friends blood to escape a killer and also the world is ending
Teachers: you'll fail if you dont watch burning bodies flying from these skyscrapers every September
Work: don't even care break laws break bodies break BANKS
Every Website w Ads: MILITARY JOIN NOW SHOOT TRAIN KILL BOOM BOOM BE STRONG
TikTok: trending sounds directly referring to DV/trauma
Friends: you GOTTA watch this show dont worry the suicide they show isnt triggering at all!!!! *proceeds to be triggering*
Parents: (where?)
Literally Everyone: AMBER HEARD TRIAL domestic violence manipulation rape fear abuse drugs YOU MUST OPINION, PICK SIDE
Movie: rape scene, no real warning, also shot in an intentionally romanticizing way for the male gaze
Shock Horror: literally made for the purpose of being triggering by definition
Traumacore: "😥[vague statement on low res photo]😥" /followed by filterable tags, used as an alt to objectively negative outlets. No longer alone, someone to talk to, actual people who care, relate, and support.
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viperiti · 2 years
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i blame cooking companions for my trauma
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sunnysatori · 2 years
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ah yes, the fun game of
“do i apologize all the time because of trauma or because i’m from the midwest”
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fandomfrenzy428 · 2 years
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So I’ve been on and off trying to understand my gender identity, and I feel like ( atm, at least ) I’ve found a label for myself:
Agender!
It makes a lot of sense, tbh!
I may write down my experience with “ gender “ at a later point, but putting this out there feels good enough for me 😁
( P.S. I put “ gender “ in quotes because I haven’t ever really felt connected to my birth gender, yet also have a complicated relationship with referring to myself as “ male “ )
Oooh, also! I’ve been thinking about my sexuality lately too, and whilst I’m still HIGHLY attracted to men ( they’re fucking hot! 🤤 ), I’m not attracted to them romantically, only sexually.
But that brings up another point: I’m not interested in having sex with anybody.
It may be due to trauma, or maybe I’m simply not interested having sex ( yet I still feel it’s the former ), but whatever the case, men are fucking gorgeous!
Anyways, I found labels I think fit my sexuality basically perfectly:
Aegosexual aromantic! 🥳
I’m really excited that I’m finding out how to describe myself better ( to a point, anyways ), because I’ve struggled with doing that for a lot of my life!
Hopefully I’ll be able to describe myself even better soon, but that doesn’t mean I have to tell anybody yet ( or at all! ), and that’s okay!
It’s okay if you feel that way too, and you don’t owe anybody an explanation on your identity to anybody ( or even if you’re questioning your identity! It’s okay to question, and you don’t even have to label it if you don’t want to! Just be you, you’re enough and you’re valid ❤️❤️❤️ )
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Me: and why do we always have such young hosts? Why can’t we have a host that’s the body’s age?
Phil: because of our trauma, we were forced to grow up at such a young age and a lot of our known trauma happened around that time
Me: o h
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