#today i feel complete

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Good morning, Sleepyhead.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid. #The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier. #We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them! #Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)... #The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too. #The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed. #We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now. #It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud. #For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him. #It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes. #But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart: #It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it. #What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end. #There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet. #Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt. #Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this: #You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that. #Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.

[enii]

Small tasks

#illustration #artists on tumblr #cute #artoftheday #digital illustration #wholesome #small tasks #to do list #procreate art #i love completing small tasks just so i can feel that i matter #i matter #procreate #procreate illustration #cute comics #mental health awareness #place to belong #it's okay if all you did is exist today #it's okay to not feel okay #relatable #relatable illustration #some days #days like this #you will be okay #art #artist on tumblr #artist #mental health #i am doing great #relatable comics

[skradio]

the crane returns on the wind

#shenhe #genshin impact #genshin #genshin fanart #yaay :) this was for the fanart contest #i feel quite productive recently and more like confident (?) in my process. maybe #原神 #申鹤 #iuhope i win something because i think i completely tagged my post wrong last time #SKULLEMOGI #artists on tumblr #i also stayed up until 6 to finish this ystd because i had other plans today LMFAOHGSKLD #and yet i still posted it within 12 hours of the deadline

[napping-sapphic]

I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #today was….not good #and at one point i had a moment #where i was just unbearably SAD and LONELY because i didn’t have anyone to call or talk to about it #but im still really hopeful it will happen some day #because all i want in this world is to feel secure #and for others to feel secure around me #and for everyone to feel secure around people they love #because it’s so painful and scary when you don’t #but one day im going to be warm and happy in someone’s arms and will barely remember this at all #im manifesting it #im completely okay btw things just got a little rough #and in the incredibly stressful and dramatic times i was experiencing my brain STILL had to be gay #im gay and i like sleeping #also yeah i said i wouldnt post after midnight again like two days ago but whatever #im sad and want to yearn on the internet we can make an exception tonight

[llovelymoonn]

web weaving on things falling apart just as they were getting better? hope you're having a lovely day <3

fatima aamer bilal (@fatimaamerbilal) days where my whole world is my bed \\ ernest hemingway a farewell to arms (via @metamorphesque) \\ jean-marc lehwald \\ jean-marc lehwald \\ jihyun yun some are always hungry: "reversal" (via @feral-ballad) \\ jean-marc lehwald \\ franz kafka the diaries of franz kafka, 1910-1913: "march 10, 1912" \\ franz kafka the metamorphosis (via @fromdarzaitoleeza) \\ franz kafka the diaries of franz kafka, 1914-1923: "february 1, 1922" \\ jean-marc lehwald

kofi

#feeling this today lol #just found out i didn't get a job i was so sure i was going to get #and completely banking on and planning my whole life around getting so #don't do that lol #anyway #asks #anonymous #anon #mine #my webweaving #web weaving #webweave #web weave #web #webs #ww #parallel #parallels #parallelism #compilation #compilations #intertext #intertextuality #comparative #comparatives #fatima aamer bilal #days where my whole world is my bed #ernest hemingway #webweaving #a farewell to arms

[mundayme]

western au vs canon

#it feels inappropriate to post it today 😭 #i didn't post it yesterday because i thought today we'll be completely fine 😭 #our flag means death #mundaymeart #mundaymeofmd #izzy hands #stede bonnet #stizzy #ofmd

[odetojupiter]

so, we know that abuse and victim responses to abuse are very central to aftg, but what i find interesting is how other characters respond to the victim’s reactions, especially when it comes to mourning their abuser. there’s something about kevin mourning riko, aaron mourning tilda, neil mourning mary, andrew mourning cass, thats so important to me because it really truly highlights how even when people are united through similar traumas, the differences in their situations makes it impossible to fully understand the relationship a person has to their abuser. neil, aaron, and andrew are united through the abuse, neglect, or - what the fuck is the word i’m thinking of? permit? condone? i mean, knowingly allowing it to happen and not intervening - stemming from a maternal figure. but neil can’t understand why andrew would hold on to cass for so long - he refused to let her go until aaron came into the picture. and andrew can’t understand why aaron would mourn for tilda, potentially viewing aaron’s grief as a betrayal of their promise. and they all ridicule kevin for his reactions to riko. of course, neil and andrew are also abused by riko, but they still can’t understand the complicated relationship between kevin and riko because, at the end of the day, they just weren’t there.

i mean this is primarily an observation but i really love how trauma and trauma response is depicted as nuanced, complex and overall just difficult to understand from an outsider perspective in the books. it reads as really real, and though it can be frustrating when a character doesn’t understand a different character’s response, you have to understand that their perception of said character’s response is warped by their own experience of abuse.

andrew bounced from home to home, never had stability, so obviously he held tight on to the first mother-figure that didn’t outright hurt him. his self-worth was probably low enough that he thought living with drake was a fine price to pay to keep cass.

neil only ever had his mother, and he’d willingly accept her harsh hands because he believed she was just keeping him safe from the very real dangers that were closing in on them.

aaron was dealing with an addiction, and so was his mother; he was equally dependent on her to avoid withdrawal as he was scared of her anger.

i don’t really have a point anymore but you get what i’m saying

#or maybe this doesn’t make sense at all #idk i am struggling with words today #but genuinely i love how there’s no perfect ‘therapy friend’ in the series because it’s so unrealistic when someone is dealing with trauma #and somehow someone with a completely different upbringing understands them perfectly and always says exactly what the character needs #to hear #it’s something you see in fiction too much #the way these characters share certain experiences but aren’t 100% united in their responses to trauma #makes them feel so real #even if it means they say the wrong things sometimes #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #andrew minyard #kevin day #aaron minyard #i do indeed ramble on too much ik what ur thinking

[you-makestedehappy]

Line deliveries that play on repeat in my brain.

Season 1, episode 4 - Discomfort in a Married State

🐈‍⬛❤️‍🩹🍆💦🏴‍☠️ [ep 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10]

Bonus :

#i'm on FIRE guys #any time i tell myself “this line isn't going to make the cut” i feel like i'm committing a war crime #trying to appease my guilt by making bonuses yeah #today's runner-ups are : #“Yes - abso... oh you can tell” #“I'm not a fucking mermaid.” #“Useless fuckin' fuckers!” #“Ed! Do you know this guy? He's a complete asshole!” #“Maybe they understand ecclesiastical Latin.” #our flag means death #ofmd #my gifs

[rileys-battlecats]

do you ever look at other people's art and vibrate out of your skin from how much you love their work

#rye.txt #im feeling big emotions about art and expression today #part of me wants to emulate other artists because WOAHG PRETTY ART #but then the rest of me thinks that I don't feel this way about my own art purely because im the one making it. if that makes sense #like if I could completely disconnect myself from my own art and look at it with fresh eyes I might feel that way about myself #BUT ALAS my perception is poisoned by the necessity of seeing every flaw and detail in my own artwork and none of the novelty #of seeing it for the first time

[icewindandboringhorror]

I know this is just a silly bad quality random screencap of a screencap that I found on facebook lol, BUT it's a succinct enough image to easily describe the concept in a quick/accessible way hopefully :

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(and of course, feel free to elaborate in tags, etc.! (especially elaborating about other senses as well.. can you "hear" in your mind just as well as you can "see"? taste? etc.) It's an interesting topic to me, as someone who's like a 4.5 at MOST lol. I'm curious what option will be the most common :0c )

#tumblr polls #hrmm... a little poll perhaps.. about a subject I find interesting.. since this image came across my facebook today #still really not feeling that well. no longer shaking violently and such but I still feel weird and weak much more than usual #They did say my markers for like infection or inflammation were elevated but that they werent sure of the cause so hopefully #it's nothing too serious. they did also say a lot of different things can cause that thing to be higher than normal but didn't go into spec #fics of what. maybe some of them are relatively benign or something. I still havent felt much back to normal since #I got really sick that one time though. I feel fine on and off but then little bouts of feeling weird and sick happen. hrmmm #ANYWAY.. looking for small ways to be productive. such as little doodles on evil ipad or editing game videos #or posting polls or cat pictures or some other like not very labor intensive things #I WISH I COULD FOCUS on writing HHRGGhh... I need to finish my game.. it would be so freeing.. a project that's been looming #over my head for like 5 years even though througouht that 5yrs I've probably spent a total of 3 months working on it lo.. ANYWAY #I still partially really cannot beleive that people CAN see stuff in their heads. There's always part of me that's thinking like. well mayb #e everyone DOES see the same exact thing but we just describe/conceptualize it so differently that we think we're talking about #different things when we're really not. But I have been assured by people I've talked to about it that they can GENUINELY really see #stuff in their heads like as vivid as an actual picture in real life or something. And the other senses are neat too. Like for exmaple I #can hear in my head much better than I can see imagery. I still CANNOT hear vividly like as if I were listening to actual music out loud.. #but I think it's developed more than my sight. AND interesting how this varies the creative process. a friend I was talking to on the phone #said they write by literally just watching stuff play before them like a movie. where my process is COMPLETELY different. AND that affects #the content/what details we focus on as well as our individual styles of writing have differences that can be traced back to that.. hrmm

[medicalunprofessional]

neighborhood watch

#boyd cooper #psychonauts #nightmaretheater #OUH my god. i am so impredsrd by myself today. #little known fact hes. Okay hes. i have alot of fsvourite charscters… hes up there. Okay? #(i like crispin more but. hes intruiging to me) #but lik. Ugh. i still feel like i cant draw him becauee of the meme incident… sad….. #🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹hes so silly tho #his vibe is like a bitcrushrd video of a cat jumping at the sight of a cucumber #okay . The delirium is winning a little. i cannot type tigjt rn. HHmmgmgmgmgmgmm #time taken was like.. 8 hours? #sighs. One day i will have created atleast one detailed rendering of every character. then the mission will be complete /nsrs #i was going for a more movie poster aesthetic but then i just kinda went… nah…. #no music to post becasue its painfully obvious #me 🤝 this specific color palette #okay i need to get dressed… hold on #I HATE LETTERING I HATE LETTERING I HATE LETTERING I HA #i meant to post this like an hour ago but then the king crimson music absorbed me sorru

[the-lantern-lights]

Steven universe fanart? In 2023???

I haven’t watched the show in years, but those character designs will probably always be my go to when I’m stuck in the art block hell dimension

#No tma today sorry #I’m not completely over my obsession #but I do feel it fading a bit #And drawing other things helps with my art block #who knows maybe tmp will reignite the flame 🔥 #y’all there’s quite a bit of Fiona and cake art I’m not posting Cos I don’t think it looks good enough #art #steven universe #Steven universe art #Steven universe fanart #lapis lazuli #lapis lazuli su #su

[copias-juicebox]

me googling "how to become a mic stand?"

credit to pupperemeritusiv on tiktok

#i am feeling feral today here have another one of papas thrusts #the last one is purely for his thighs #man just knows how to fuck #excuse the crappy quality photoshop and i had a fight today #we're still not completely fine #ghost band #ghost #myedit #papa emeritus #tobias forge #ghesties #ghost sweden #papa emeritus iv #copia #the band ghost #mummy thrusts #ghost bc #popia #mummy thrust #papa hips #papa thighs

[aphel1on]

neuvillette's lore is actually insane. we all took one look at him and went "haha dragon🫵" but i significantly underestimated how big of a role he would play. he's the incarnation of the original hydro sovereign. he took back his rule right under the heavenly principles' nose. he's the one handing out hydro visions now (not even because he has to, he doesn't, he just grew so fond of humanity that he chooses to). he gave away the hydro gnosis bc he straight up doesn't need it. he's planning to DETHRONE ALL OF THE ARCHONS (in a few hundred years, when the traveler's not around to see it, so it won't be awkward for them). he's kind and soft-spoken. he's full of vengeful rage. he's a father to hundreds. he found his purpose after feeling lost for 500 years. skirk pulled him aside for a super-secret convo and when he saw us again he immediately spilled the tea. as far as i can tell, he spawned into existence fully formed. no other character can fucking compare

#neuvillette #genshin impact #4.2 #genshin spoilers #aphelion.txt #SORRY BUT I FINALLY FINISHED THE AQs TODAY AND IM IN MY FUCKING FEELS #by all rights he should've hated focalors- the thief of the hydro sovereignty- the most. #he cried when she sacrificed herself in front of him. #he is so gentle. i think he does feel genuine indignance and anger over what happened to the dragons #but he mostly talks about the eventual judgment as if it's something he must do out of obligation and duty #i loved him in 4.0 but he honestly shot up the ranks now to being one of my favorite genshin characters of all time #i'm still in awe at how he and focalors completely defied the heavenly principles and WON. #barring some big plot twist in future updates they fucking WON. #any victory against the heavenly principles that we've seen in the story so far has been pyrrhic at best #this is the sort of thing i'd think would usually cause them to nuke fontaine with a heavenly needle #(lol that would be a devastating one-off fanfic for someone to write) #but anyway focalors most bamf god of teyvat fr #and neuvi her accomplice my special guy

[alienssstufff]

q!dapduo parallels in how they handle grief so INTERESTING I LOVE IT (I hate it. I wish they were still alive).

We got q!Slime who while yes he did threaten the lives of others, ultimately and interestingly he never blamed anyone else except himself (and his wife). Slime destroys because he is upset at himself.

Then we got q!Quackity who even if he doesn’t physically lash out or go on a rampage like q!Slime did, he pins the blame on everyone else and to this day is plotting to kill the dude for revenge - Quackity destroys because he’s upset at the world (and even more himself too, but he has not comes to terms with that yet)

#stufff rambles #qsmp spoilers #qsmp #quackity #slimecicle #dapduo #and maybe it’s just bias but I don’t think we should be calling these arcs ‘villain arcs’ #when these are just dads trying to deal with loss #and I feel reducing these arcs to just ‘villain arcs’ is oversimplifying the situation #/doesn’t completely portray their characters and what they’re going through #they are FAR from good people but they aren’t downright evil for feeling this way #sorry LOTS to unpack from Wilbur’s stream today x] #gawd I hope all of this makes sense ><

[666writingcafe]

Level One

Dedicated to @completelyshatteredbrokenmschf and @thunderlightning351

Content Warning: referencing human sacrifice, slightly(?) unhinged Barbatos

"Hello, MC." Barbatos' sudden appearance at my side causes me to curse. I know he has the ability to teleport anywhere he wants to, but a little warning would have been nice.

"Apologies, MC," he continues. "I was simply following my instructions. Did you have a nice time with your parents?"

"Y-yeah, I did," I respond, still a little spooked. "We went out to eat at a Chinese buffet."

"That sounds lovely." He wraps an arm around me and guides me to the couch, remaining glued at my side as we sit down. This isn't the first time we've sat next to each other, but he's never been quite this close before.

And then I take a proper look at him. I'm not dealing with Barbatos the butler, but rather the Barbatos that accompanied me to the Severa concert. The one that I told Asmo I found incredibly attractive in great detail.

The Avatar of Lust is playing dirty right from the start.

Barbatos' lips are moving, but I'm not registering a single word he's saying. The parts of my brain that aren't obsessing over his natural scent are short-circuiting due to him being so close to me. One hand rests on my thigh while the other one plays with my hair and gently brushes up and down my arm. It all makes me rather jittery. I'm surprised I'm able to remain still. I want to simultaneously bolt out of the room and--

"You're not listening to me." Barbatos' harsh tone forces me to pay attention.

"I'm sorry. I'm finding it incredibly hard to concentrate." My explanation makes him smirk.

"Am I making you nervous, MC?" I can only manage a nod. "Good. Now you know how I felt when the roles were reversed."

"That's not fair!" I exclaim, remembering the exact moment he's referencing. "You told me to seduce you!"

"And you did, much to Diavolo's joy. He wouldn't stop teasing me about it for weeks." He repositions himself so that he's able to lean in closer to me.

"Once upon a time, you would have been given as an offering." His voice is low and menacing. "Not to the gods, like so many people believed, but to us. We're able to be entertained by sacrificial lambs for a long time. Inevitably, though, they become dull and boring. It's not their fault; it's simply the result of being exposed to sin over long periods of time.

"But your soul is different, MC. Due to the angel blood that flows through your veins, it maintains its brightness despite it constantly being surrounded by sin. Some might even say it feeds off it, making it that much stronger. If it weren't for Diavolo's mission, we'd have so much fun with you." His smile is that of a predator. I should be shitting my pants right about now. That would be the appropriate reaction to having a demon look at me like I'm his next meal.

Instead, I wait with bated breath for his next move. Barbatos tilts his head to the side.

"Of course, that doesn't scare you." he asks. "You find the idea rather arousing, don't you?"

It's messed up, I know. I shouldn't be turned on by any of this, and yet...

"I told myself long ago that I would only use my powers to help Diavolo, but you've made me reconsider that decision many times." He's pretty much on top on me at this point, holding me in place with his body weight.

"Why?" I whisper. He brings his mouth right up to my ear.

"Because the idea of messing with time in order to play with you is incredibly tempting." He kisses the base of my ear, sending a shiver down my spine.

Do not succumb to temptation.

I grab his shoulders and squeeze them as hard as I can, making him pause on his trail down my neck and look up at me.

"I can't," I tell him, despite my body screaming at him to continue.

"Are you sure?" I close my eyes and take a deep breath, forcing myself to answer,

"Yes." I feel him get off me. Seconds later, he grabs my hand.

"It's okay, MC. You can open your eyes." Doing so makes him smile softly. "The first stage of your test is complete."

"Did I pass?"

"See for yourself." Looking down at the ring I slipped on earlier, I notice a mark that I'm pretty sure wasn't there before.

"From my understanding, a tally will appear for every stage you complete successfully," Barbatos explains.

"That makes sense." He walks out of the room, returning moments later with a note in his hand.

"When you are ready, this contains information about the next stage," he tells me, handing me the note. "Of course, you're allowed to take as much time as you need to recenter yourself. I can make you some tea if you'd like." I shake my head.

"I know this might sound crazy given what we just did, but would you mind holding me?" He chuckles.

"Not at all." He stretches out on the opposite end of the couch, and I snuggle up to him. He begins stroking my hair. After a few moments of calm, I gather up the courage to ask,

"Did you mean what you said about time, or was that part of the act?"

"I wasn't acting," he answers. "I merely displayed emotions that I normally keep suppressed. Everything I told you is one hundred percent true."

#obey me shall we date #obey me mc #obey me barbatos #so it was so slow at work today that i started writing this on post-it notes in order to pass the time #for context i'm a retail cashier at an outdoor equipment store #and i was by myself in cashier land for four hours #also #i'm going to include some sort of aftercare after each stage is completed #that way mc doesn't go completely insane from their emotions running wild #i feel like that's something asmo would account for as he's creating this test for mc