#this is my big comeback post bitches

[senp1i]

GYM BRO’s? GYM HOES!

(SNSD Choi Sooyoung x Male reader) rewritten!! WC: 3440 + also if u previously read it then read after the keep reading, from then on ive added and changed the story

Sooyoung stumbled into the brightly lit 24-hour gym at stupid o'clock in the morning, unable to stay still in her apartment . With SNSD’s big summer/late-summer comeback announced, her schedule was absolutely shit lately between vocal training, choreography bootcamp hell, and a new diet that had her craving carbs 24/7. 

Call her crazy, but a good workout sounded way more appealing than yet another hour tossing and turning in bed. 

The location near their dorm was usually blissfully empty at ass o’clock in the morning too - perfect for looking like a disgusting post-workout mess without judgment. She swiped her membership card at the empty front desk, earbuds already queued up with a stupid EDM mix. 

Rounding the corner towards the cardio equipment though, Sooyoung came to an abrupt halt. 

Wait a damn minute...was that...a guy? 

Working out alone in the free weights corner? Well crap, so much for having the place to herself, she thought.

Squinting across the room, she vaguely recognized him - one of their fan-sites maybe? He seemed just as startled to no longer be alone, nearly dropping the dumbbell in his hand with a awkward fumble. 

“Oh shit! Sooyoung-ssi?” His eyes bugged wide, literally about to pop out, “Shit, sorry, I didn’t think anyone else would be here this late...” 

Sooyoung snorted, shifting her gym bag higher on one shoulder. “You and me both, dude.” An awkward silence passed of them just standing there staring. *sigh* no use being a bitch about it, she decided. Gym’s open 24/7 to members, even nosy fanboys. 

Tossing him a casual chin jerk goodbye, she headed towards the treadmills. 

“Well don’t let me mess up your sesh or anything,” she called over one shoulder, queueing up her go-to cardio playlist. Setting her phone on the ledge, Sooyoung hopped up on the belt and started jogging.

The familiar burn soon had her zoning out - eyes fixed on her reflection in the big wall of mirrors, volume cranked enough to drown out any other noise. 

Including the sound of fumbling weights behind her...as the same flustered fanboy now seemed incapable of  looking away from Sooyoung's sweaty reflection. His eyes tracked her bouncing boobs barely contained in the old Nike sports bra, and down to those leggings leaving nothing to imagination with each pounding step. 

((a/n: so for the sake of my sanity we’ll all pretend this is a treadmill and that the fila is a Nike, alright? Good.🫡))

Sooyoung noticed the attention after a few minutes, torn between rolling her eyes or biting back a smug grin. Fan service was part of the job after all - but she also knew damn well what she looked like working out in minimal fabrics. Didn’t mean she enjoyed feeling ogled like a piece of meat, but the ego boost was kinda nice. 

Nearly 45 minutes and 5 miles later however, tiredness sank in as Sooyoung began cooling down to a walk. 

Her leg muscles felt more like limp udon noodles at this point, chest heaving to gulp oxygen. Risking a glance behind her, she noted the fan seemed to be wrapping up his own workout now too - re-racking an impressive set of heavy dumbbells across the open floor space.

Sooyoung slid her feet to a stop on the treadmill, skin sticky with sweat. She bent down to stretch her quads and muscles briefly, back to the weight area. 

When she straightened up from touching her toes, the guy was much closer than expected - openly staring with those wide dark eyes.

"Feeling pretty bold over here aren't we?" Sooyoung arched an eyebrow, unflustered. His mouth snapped shut audibly, face and neck flushing darker.

"S-sorry noona!" he stammered, glancing away and raking a hand through his messy black hair. "I just uh...wanted to say nice workout? You really seem like you know what you're doing..." His awkward compliment trailed off into uncertainty, still avoiding direct eye contact.

Sooyoung couldn't help chuckling internally at just how shy this random fan was at interacting with her one-on-one, especially with so much exposed skin on display. She had to admit she didn't exactly mind the shy flattery. After over a decade pressure-cooking in the entertainment industry, it was actually sort of refreshing.

"I thought maintaining stamina is important for those long music show rehearsal hours," she replied easily, straightening up with a slight groan as her abdomen muscles protest. 

Noticing the guy's eyes follow the flex of her defined abs, she had to hide another smirk. Too easy.

"But clearly you know what you're doing too," Sooyoung continued with a glance at the impressive set of free weights he had been using earlier

"I don't usually see guys your age lifting that heavy without a spotter."

Pink still dusted his sharp cheekbones, but he met her gaze now without the prior dose of awkwardness at the indirect praise. 

Rubbing the back of his neck almost shyly, his lips quirked upwards.

"I try to hit the gym pretty consistently. Can't let you idol types have all the good bodies, you know." Y/N murmurs with a smirk, a smile.. somewhere in between

Was he...flirting back now? Sooyoung thought as she cocked her head, curiosity piqued by this boost of confidence in him, 

She noted that he really was very good looking, with feline eyes and a sharp jawline that complemented the defined muscles under his sweaty workout t-shirt. No wedding ring either she observed.

"Oh really now?" she challenged, arms crossing under her boobs subtly. Enjoying the way his dark, definitely interested gaze automatically tracked and traced her tits, she took a half step closer.

"Maybe you could...give me some tips then?" Batting her lashes innocently, Sooyoung gestured one manicured hand at the bench press station nearby. "My upper body strength is definitely my weakness in dance practice lately." She says, 

Y/N looks momentarily caught off guard by the bold invitation, his adams apple visibly bobbing in a hard swallow. But then he regains his confidence, lips quirking in a smirk again.

"It would be my pleasure to help demonstrate, Sooyoung-ssi” he says with his eyebrows raised and the smirk plastered on

Sooyoung watched with interest as the handsome fan confidently adjusted the bench press bar to a heavy weight for her petite frame. Clearly trying to impress her. Smirking slightly as he patted the black vinyl meaningfully in invitation, she walked closer. Intentionally lingering longer than necessary in his personal space before fluidly getting into position on her back.

The barely there bra did nothing to save her from the cold of the bench against her mostly bare skin. Goosebumps rising, Sooyoung tilted her chin up towards her impromptu trainer hovering near her.

"Well show me what you've got Mr. Gym Rat," she prompted cheekily. 

His appreciative gaze flicked down to where her nipples had peeked almost visibly through the sweat-damp bra barely covering them. 

Clearing his throat, Y/N carefully guided her hands into position holding the loaded barbell now held above only inches from her breast . 

Sooyoung noticed how his fingers lingered, thumbs sweeping the inside of her wrists.

"Right uh, form is pretty important obviously..." Y/N started out slightly unevenly. As he began explaining proper technique, one large hand pressed unnecessarily against her toned stomach - supposedly to demonstrate using her core muscles.

"Make sense?" he asked, unconsciously stroking along her defined abs with his thumb distractedly. 

"Mmhmm..." Sooyong managed, hoping she didn't sound as breathless to his ears as her own thudding pulse. She chalked it up to a normal physiological reaction - an undeniably hot guy was freely running his big hands all over her pretty much naked skin. It had been awhile since she got this type of casual intimacy with her crazy schedule and long-term even busier relationship. 

Noticing her physical response, Y/N's lips curved slyly. He leaned down close, caging her under the heavy bench bar. "Why don't we start with a set, see how you handle it?" The intentionally lowered voice raised involuntary goosebumps on her skin,

Swallowing, Sooyoung tried focusing on proper breathing and form as she guided the weight smoothly down. But with him hovering so intimately close, she became hyper aware of every inch of bare skin exposed to the gym air and his wandering gaze. 

Each brush of his fingers igniting sparks over her nerves. 

Biceps burning from exertion, she carefully guided the barbell back into its holders. Breath coming shorter, she couldn't resist looking sideways up at him through her lashes. 

Heart kicking faster seeing pure lust in his hooded eyes. She should tell him to back off, that she wasn't some groupie to take advantage of. Should remind him she had a whole career, a boyfriend even - a goddamn celebrity boyfriend none the less. But the words died on her lips as his palm smoothed down her stomach again.

"I think you need another set baby..." 

The risky nickname from his mouth sent a new flood of wetness between her clenched thighs. Recklessly she arched up into his arm, just enough to make her stiff nipples touch across his wrist. His low hum is satisfying to her ears.

Maybe she could blame it on the adrenaline crash later she thought, Or the fact that she hasn’t gotten laid properly in weeks thanks to her and Jung Kyung-ho’s overlapping schedules . 

But right now, feeling so desired and drowning in endorphins was exactly what Sooyoung needed after endless brutal days of smiling through every nonsense using her idol-persona as a shield

So here and now, Sooyoung threw caution fully out the window. Grabbing a fistful of her Y/N’s sweaty shirt, she yanked him down insistently, crushing their mouths together. He responded immediately, large hand pulling too-roughly in her messy ponytail to angle her head for better access. 

She bit and pulled at his lower lip sharply. "What's your name anyway?" Sooyoung asked against his mouth, just realising she had no clue who this fan who felt so good pinning her down was,

"Y/N..." he managed, kissing wetly down her throat. Hearing the breathless need filling his voice sent another slob of wetness straight between her legs. 

"Hmm Y/N-yah..." Testing his name on her tongue earned a responding groan. His hands slid boldly up from her shaking stomach to cover her neglected tits, kneading roughly through the thin cloth of her sports bra. White burst behind Sooyoung's shut eyelids, back arching off the vinyl bench. 

"Oh fuck..." she moaned out. The vulgarness is a stark contrast from her idol act coming out unfiltered. 

Y/N’s dark chuckle against her hammering pulse made her inner muscles clench on nothing. 

"That's it baby, tell me what you want," he murmured , thick fingers tweaking her hard nipples for emphasis.  

"Ahh!" Sooyoung whimpered as the sensation went straight to her clit, hands flying down to roughly shove down the band of her leggings and underwear before she peeled her sweaty bra over her head. Tossing it carelessly to show her gorgeous bare tits with stiffen nipples. His pulse racing double time seeing literal fantasy material come to life right in front of him. "Holy fucking shit..."  Y/N mutters,  staring open-jawed,

"Like what you see?" Sooyoung purred, noting his stunned expression. Inching closer she took his shaky hands, guiding them onto her exposed tits. Hot soft skin filled his palms and Y/N groaned at finally living out countless fever dreams.

"Fuck yes... You're even sexier without clothes noona."

He tested their size and weight gently. Watching with wide crazed eyes as she bit her kiss-swollen lower lip on a moan when he thumbed over her nipples teasingly, properly now that her bra is off.

"Been wanting to get my hands on these perfect tits for years..." he rasped before ducking down to capture one of the brown peaks in his mouth.

"Oh god!" Sooyoung's shocked cry as he lavished attention on her breasts with lips, tongue and a hint of teeth. He smirked around a mouthful of her boobs.

"Sensitive here huh?" Tweaking her spit-slick nipple sharply in emphasis.

"Yes! Fuck..." Grinding against his thigh slotted between hers searchingly, Sooyoung fisted a hand almost too-tight in his hair. Urging him to give equal attention to her other needy tit.

The power rush left Y/N lightheaded. Never in a million years did he imagine his long-time celebrity crush would be practically humping his leg whining for more. He needed to be inside her like five minutes ago.

With urgency he flipped Sooyoung, bending her over the bench. Groaning reverently at the sight of her flawless bare ass and soaked panties.

"Fuck you have no idea how many times I've jerked off imagining this perfect ass up in the air for me." He emphasised the filthy words with a sharp open-palmed spank to one plump asscheek. Her answering moan urged him on. Gripping her slim hips bruisingly tight, he dragged his still covered dick along her slit.

"Please Y/N-aah... Want to feel you inside..." Hearing Korea's darling beg so prettily to be fucked sent Y/N into overdrive. With shaking hands he shoved down his boxers, dick springing free and almost smacking her ass. Groaning at the first glide of his angry red dick through slick soaked folds.

"Tell me how bad you need this cock baby..."  He asks as he teases them both - rubbing his swollen purple head along  her pussy but refusing to enter. 

Sooyoung whined, circling her hips urgently. "Please, feel so empty... Fuck me oppa!"

That was all the permission he needed. Tightening his hold on her hips,, Y/N thrust forward - plunging into her  incredibly tight velvet heat in one relentless slide. Balls slapping harshly against her clit. 

"Holy shit!" They both choked out. Frozen for a second, from just pure bliss

Then Y/N was fucking into her hard and fast - years of suppressed longing fueling his brutal pace. The lewd slick sound of their smacking flesh filled the empty gym. Her sharp cries urged him deeper.

Draped over her arched back, he slid a hand down her shaky stomach. Through the neat patch of pubes to circle her clit in firm strokes.

"Don't stop, please...I'm so fucking close!" Sooyoung whined, sharply circling her hips with his still imperceptibly swelling dick nestled deep inside her. Y/N starts fingering her clit in fast strokes, wanting to push her over the edge,

"Be a good girl and cum on oppa's cock," he rasped directly into her ear. Licking along the line of her throat when she tossed her head back, mewling.

"Oh god, fuck yes I'm cumming!" Sooyoung wailed, vision white as she orgasms hard - cunt spamming erratically around him. Milking every last drop of cum from his buried dick as she shook through endless waves of dizzying twitches.

Y/N fucked her slowly through the intense aftershocks until her limbs went limp, slumping forward. Soft puffs of breath hitting the bench under her flushed cheek. Holy hell she looked completely fucked out like this - hair, a wild mess, his release leaking steadily from her well used pussy.

Unable to resist, he carefully pulled out his sensitive dick free with a wet sound and her whimper, making him groan again as even more juices dripped freely down her soppy cunt in globs now coating her thighs. Gripping her ass cheeks, he spread them eagerly - her slick puffy folds still shaking, twitching.

Ducking down without hesitation, Y/N licked broadly up the entire crease. Tasting the salty-bitterness of her orgasm mixed with his semen.

"Ohhh fuck..." Sooyoung jerked, overstimulated nerves clearly on fire. But he just hummed directly against her, the vibrations making her squirm as he straightened his tongue. Spearing deep into her pussy to taste everything,

He gripped her hips again to hold her trembling body still, continuing to spear his tongue relentlessly into Sooyoung's oversensitive canal "Oh god, oh fuck!" Sooyoung whimpered and gasped as the intense sensations crashed over her overloaded nerves. The lewd, slick sounds of his sucking filling the empty gym.

Just when her thighs started really shaking from the stimulation, he finally let up. Pulling back to admire his handiwork once more with a satisfied groan.

But he isnt done with his bias yet,, he pressed two thick fingers back inside her velvet heat. Smirking when she jerked and whined at that light penetration.

"Mmm , you'll take a little more for your fan ,right?" He purred slyly even as she shuddered through another weak orgasm.

Not giving her a chance to recover, he quickly lined himself back up. Nudging just barely inside once more.

Sooyoung blinked sluggishly up at him, lips parted and slick with spit, eyes filled with tears even. "Ohhh f-fuck I can't..." Sooyoung whined, still shaking through the aftershocks. But despite her pleas she eagerly pushed her ass back for more of Y/N's thrusting fingers.

"Mmm yes you will," he growled. "Gonna make you cum all night..."

The lewd sound of his fingers pumping her soaked pussy echoed around the empty gym. Her broken whimpers urging him on.

"Oppa wants that sloppy cunt nice and wet before you take this dick again."

Adding a third finger, he twisted them until she bucked sharply - abusing her g-spot mercilessly. "Oh shit! Oh shit don't stop..." Sooyoung babbled, rocking her hips desperately to get those thick fingers deeper.

Y/N chuckled darkly at how needy she was for it already. His free hand cracked down hard on one jiggling ass cheek, making her yelp.

"Fuck yourself on oppa's fingers just like that. Let me see you cum again."

Arching sharply, Sooyoung braced her hands properly - shamelessly riding his thrusting fingers now. The lewd sound of her soaked pussy sucking them in greedily echoed with her pitched cries.

Right on the edge, Y/N suddenly ripped his hands away - ignoring her scream. Gripping her hips tight enough to bruise, he rammed balls-deep into her still-spasming cunt. Bottoming out so deep she saw stars.

"OH FUCK yesyesyes!" Sooyoung babbled mindlessly.

Y/N set a brutal pace instantly - their slick bodies slapping together loudly. Obscene squelching noises coming from where their juices dripped down her trembling inner thighs.

"Yeah? Oppa's cock feels good pounding this tight pussy?" He rasped filthily against her ear. Her constant and almost musical 'ah-ah-ah's with every deep thrust said it all.

Flipping her easily onto her back not the nth time, Y/N hooked one slim leg over his shoulder - driving himself impossibly deeper. Loud smack of balls against her ass echoing.

Sooyoung's next orgasm crashed through her violently - back bowing off the bench as she wailed his name. Cunt spasming erratically, trying to milk his cock.

Not nearly done with her, Y/N manhandled her limp body into his lap , as he sat down on the gym’s vinyl flooring next - spearing up into her dripping hole once more. Sharp cries ringing out as he bounced her roughly on his dick by the hips.

"Yes yes fuck! Shit I can't..." Sooyoung babbled, still cum drunk and now full on crying. But her petite yet tall  body continued riding him eagerly. Tits jiggling wildly with the force of it.

Reaching around, Y/N's thick fingers found her throbbing clit again. Rubbing messy circles as she squeezed almost painfully a fourth time. Her rhythmic contractions pushed him closer to the edge too.

But he still wasn't done using her gorgeous body yet.

Pulling out abruptly mid-orgasm, he smirked at her wrecked wail. Manhandling her to knees, he fisted himself rapidly - aimed right at her sweat-slick back curved so beautifully before him.

"Look so fucking good on your knees noona... Now tell oppa what you need," he gritted out, squeezing the life out of his own dick,

Whining and grinding her ass back desperately, Sooyoung glanced over one shoulder. Eyes glazed and burned into his.

"P-please...want you to cum all over me oppa," she begged prettily, pink tongue swiping across her swollen bottom lip. "Mark me as yours..."

"Fuck!" Y/N roared, fist flying rapidly over his slick dick. Her nasty plea instantly triggered his release. He painted her back and ass cheeks in endless ropes of white hot semen - marking SNSD's lead dancer Sooyoung as claimed, way more claimed then her man could ever mark her.

Chests heaving, he eventually tugged her fucked-out body upright against him. She mewled weakly feeling their mixed cum and her juices now dripping freely out of her loose fucked out vagina and down her thighs and his.

"Let's get you cleaned up hm?"

Scooping her up easily, Y/N carried his pliant bias towards the locker room showers....... [A/N: lol pt2 coming out soon , i might finally surpass 5 if not 7k words, it'll be a personal milestone, took down the previous one cause i noticed typos and added bs, i didnt spellcheck it or even read through it prior to posting like an idiot, anyway req: @snsdyb]

#kpop smut #snsd smut #girls generation smut #male reader #x reader #pov smut #reader insert #request #Snsd sooyoung smut #Girls generation Sooyoung smut #Choi Sooyoung smut #smut

[foiledbyvoile]

HEAD EMPTY, ONLY SILLY DEMENTED DEER MAN.

The last two episodes really got me over here pondering and shit. Didn't think my 2019 Alastor phase would make a comeback, but here we fuckin' are. Seriously though, what is his deal? I love that you can't quite make sense of him, but also I NEED to make sense of him.

SPOILERS AHOY.

Clearly he's somewhat emotionally invested in all this, that little (cute as fuck) scene with nifty the night before the battle showed us a sentimental softness in him, but he's also definitely cozying up to Charlie to use her powers for something big.

Something like breaking a deal he'd made, and I've got money on Lilith. That bad bitch seaside moment was too iconic, she's pulling strings and catching rays, living her best life.

But I need DETAILS, man. I wanna know what the stipulations of the contract are, I wanna know why it was made, what was gained and what was lost, if this deal gave him the power he wields in the first place. What does Alastor need to do to fulfill his end of the deal? I want the nitty gritty of it, man.

Speaking of deals, Alastor and Charlie??? I know we're probably meant to sweep it under the rug, Alastor says not to worry about it, it's not for Charlie's soul, the whole scene was just brushed aside...but what about the desperation he fucking reeked of?? He was beyond eager to make that deal.

Alastor held onto that information for months, waited for the perfect moment, when Charlie was backed into a corner and desperate, and he used that groundbreaking leverage for a favor. That could be anything! Like breaking a deal only someone with her power could, or, since he clearly likes playing the long game, it could be something far less definitive, easier for Charlie to get behind. Something like helping him make his next move.

(Then the next, and the next, and the manipulation continues--ideally, I'm sure. Narrative folly and character development will almost definitely nip that evil scheme in the bud.)

You gotta love that classic Alastor guile when he tells her it's not for her soul. What it really is is a foot in the door for him, and a show of good faith for Charlie. It's a chess move, and if Alastor is as conniving and methodical as I hope he is, it's the equivalence of moving a pawn.

But then he backs up that dubious display of altruism by introducing Charlie to Rosie and the cannibals. Would Alastor really implicate a close friend and her community for something he wasn't truly invested in? That's a genuine question at this point. It's pretty much confirmed in the song that Alastor is choosing to help Charlie, that he sees the potential in her, but again, for his own benefit.

Which brings us to the radio tower, post fight. The vibes I picked up were immaculate. He's incredulous, desperate, shaken and very clearly trapped in circumstances that drive him absolutely insane.

Alastor's all about control. I think back on his spiel to Charlie about maintaining that control with a smile, but even now, when Alastor is cracking under the realization that he doesn't have that, he continues to smile.

I'm really under the impression that Alastor literally cannot stop smiling. (I'm not counting the single-frame-debacle.) It's either that, or he's forcing himself to smile, desperately vying for some semblance of control in a moment where he well and truly has none.

Then there's the line, "Great Alastor Altruist died for his friends". It feels sardonic. Bitter, like he regrets putting himself in that position, but was it really a choice to begin with? Because he let himself get too involved, too comfortable, and realized that that sentimentality he'd developed has become a weakness?

I think he really was forced to protect Charlie and the hotel (it would explain the seven year coincidence, and Alastor appearing at Charlie's doorstep so serendipitously). This is almost cemented by the following line, "I'm hungry for freedom like never before, the constraints of my deal, surely you have a back door."

He almost died (again), for the sake of Charlie and her hotel. That's a helluva fucking thing for a being who's toppled overlords and held power like he has. No amount of entertainment is worth his own life, there's just no way he willingly pits himself against Adam for anyone's sake.

Assuming that the source of his power is also the source of his subjugation, and considering how Alastor openly strives for control--yeah, he's having a bit of a moment™.  

I do hope that there's some genuine conflict in him in regards to his relationship with Charlie and the gang. That everything he's doing isn't inherently selfish anymore, but he veils that 'weakness' under his perpetual guise of deviant mirth. Bonus points if he's tormented by the good Charlie brings out in him. He deserves the angst, the fuzzy-fucker (/affectionate).

Couple of side notes here:

Thoughts on the way Alastor's mouth is sewn up when he strikes the deal with Charlie? Was he made to smile all the time, is it just a design choice? Personally, I'm hoping there's some angsty lore there, like maybe it's part of his contract as some twisted joke, idk.

I have a love/hate relationship with the Alastor vs Adam smackdown extravaganza. Yes, it was rad as fuck. Yes, of course Alastor was going to lose. But the way it was handled felt like a bit of a disservice, Alastor's reaction felt ooc. But then again that could just be me projecting my perspective of Alastor unto the character.

ALSO, having a character who is well known for not swearing dropping some casual, outta pocket f-bombs was a bit trite. it's supposed to feel like a reward, y'know?

ANWAYS. Yeah. Good shit. I'm losing my goddamn mind.

#alastor #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #hazbin hotel episode 7 #hazbin hotel episode 8 #don't mind me just casually spiraling into obsession #alastor analysis #i just think he's neat

[hyunpic]

HAIIIIII HAIIIII HAIIIII II III II i hit a big milestone on skz comeback day so i decided to do a lil thank u post or whatever idk. ive never done one of these in my tumblr career . As u can see ….. and the quality of the banner is trash just like where hyunjin almost fell. Can u just think of it as 5 minutes of crafts and like this is sooo five years old child making a Mother’s Day card to her mom. It’s full of love anyway 😻 i was writing this post while taking hits of my vanilla vape and it ran out of nicotine juice so im struggling and can’t focuse anymore 👍 pls forgive me this is gonna be very messy 😄

anyway these are no in particular order and sorry if i forgot someone 😔😔😔😔 this is what makes me so nervy that i have never made a post like this before like 😔 i don’t want to forget anyoneeeeeee also tumblr wouldn’t let me add more so blame them and not me DUMBLR 😡🍅🍅🍅🍅 thank u so much for sticking around and u are all so very dear to me in all of your unique ways:

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@hanarchy: WAAAAAAA my chris.. this is so different cause we have actually met. thank y for always taking care of me… u are so so dear to me. like i will never forget the feeling of breaking down in tears when we got to lolla area and i realized i will see skz and u made sure i was okay. it will be my core memory till im in my death bed. i love u and your company and that we can bitch to each other about stuff and u just get me and i get u… i hope we can keep holding hands and making many more memories together 💘

@wantbytaemin: MY FUCKING MAIN SLAYEEEEEER it’s no joke that u stan taemin and u are a queen yourself as well… like greatness recognizes greatness. a piece of my heart is still in that weird little airbnb i shared with you in paris and whenever im sad i wish i could be there with you. my forever destined roommate or whatever idek. but i love u with all of my heart. The way we clicked right away when we met is crazy to me like i felt like i had known u forever. U are just soooOoooo amazing words can’t even describe 💘 ilyilymwahhhh

@izayaki MYYYYYY CARLYBEANNNNNNN MY CARLYBEANNNNNNNN MY CARLYBEANNN I FUCKING LOVE U U ARE EVERYTHING TO ME!!!! you could only treat me as your local sandman if u wished but i wouldn’t care like i love u so much!!!! i know i can always count u to be so crazy with me when it comes to hyunjin. also i feel like it’s worth mentioning that u make me feel so comfortable around u. i feel like i can finally be like myself whenever i talk with you :(( like u accept me just how i am and it means so much to me… idk i just feel like i will love u unconditionally and 4ever or whatever katy perry said in that one hit song of hers.

@sunmisbf we will one day smoke together. like idec how many years it will take. we will sit at that porch when we are 80 years old grandmas and we will share a joint and talk about our good old kpop days. u are a delight here and i would feel so empty if i didn’t follow u.

@dowoonyoon: my favoritest penpal.. the way u are engraved in my heart forever. u are just as lovely as taylor swift love songs, i hope u know that. im so happy to scream about anything and whatever with u. WE WILL GET MORE OF THOSE TAYLOR AND SKZ CRUMBS NEXT YEAR 🕯️🕯️🕯️

@yonglixx my sun sunny sunshine!!!! you might be one of the most supportive people on tumblr and i think we as a community need more people like u around. your light and positivity doesn’t go unnoticed. im glad to call u my friend 🌞

@ortali my cutie ortal… my favorite hyunie stan ever. me and u are the same and i miss u so dearly everyday whenever u aren’t here. tumblr isn’t the same without your presence. you bring me so much comfort and serenity and im so thankful that the world brought you to me 😣💘

@seungs: ik u hate sappy things but i will still shamelessly admit you are one of my favorite people ever here. im always here for your thoughts like i neEEED to hear them u know. you are so wise and collected and talented (ggoat = greatest gif maker of all time) that i aspire to be like u in so many ways like i just adore u so much hehe. i hope to be like u or whatever woodz said. i hope we get to meet once skz all around the world drags their booties to here mwah 💋

@seo-changbinnies: my trusted pc trader like trust all of my bin pcs will come to your way every comeback. it’s a tradition atp to stress over the international mail but i wouldn’t change a thing. u are a joy to be around and a blessing to this hellsite. so much happiness and joy radiating your tags that i couldn’t imagine tumblr without your presence. love u sososoo much 💖

@hyunsung: hello HELLOOOOO reach out to me im one of your biggest fans. i see a gifset of yours and i will be getting that thing to at least 1k notes like that’s the minimum they all deserve. you make art here and i think everyone should acknowledge it and appreciate it!!!!!!!! your name is mona just like one of the most famous art pieces of this whole world. i think it tells so much ‼️‼️

@chrisbangs my liiii my little moon… u are one of my first stayblr friends and i love u to the moon and back. whenever we catch up it’s like catching up with an old childhood bestie. nothing changed and the connection and love is always there. u mean so much to me than words could ever describe. i will forever be here rooting for you thousands miles away but our hearts will stay always connected 💘

@young-jae my forever only love sohvi. u have been here for me since the day one like im not even kidding… u know me through and through and i consider u my family at this point. i know if i fall to a dark place, i got your shoulder to lean on and that means the world to me. and same with you. you own my heart forever and always. i need to hug u so badly, i know i have the bestest hug in the world stored for u that i have been holding bag just to save it for u 💘 esc2024 here we come

@ye-xiu i feel like me and u are a married couple at this point like we have been through so much together and separately too like WOWIUUEEEEEE u are like a solid rock to me. a constant force that i can count on and i value it so much. i feel like i have told u this before but i love when u write.. u have a way with your words that always seem to touch places in my heart that i didn’t even know were there. hmm.. whatever does it ever drive u crazy how fast the night changes but it will never change me and u (that’s literally 1d lyrics but it just fits us)

@huiracha omg i adore u so much like 😭😭😭😭😭 IM SIMPLY A PEASANT WHILE PERCEIVING UR CONTENT. the way i have like actually kicked my feet few times in my bed when u rebloged something from me.. idk u are like my tumblr crush marie.. i just had to let u know here publicly!!!!!

@mybodyfails my sweetest oli with sososooooo much love to give…. u are sooooooo special. always rooting for me and hyping me up like half of my self confidence comes from your kindness. i hope you that passionate love you give out to the world will find you eventually. im glad to act as a cupid in your life too like that’s one of my greatest accomplishments and i will be mentioning it in my next job interview 😼

@hyumjim my funny guy Emily… u are like one of the funniest and craziest (in a good day at) people i have ever met. your energy irl also is just so joyful like i for real feel like i would never be depressed if i could spend at least few days a week with you (maybe that’s why u are a therapist… woah 🫨)

#vilmas follow forever

[not-goldy]

Jokers are just jk biased dimwits if they care about jm you could have seen them taking stance for jm, his achievements are being stolen and given to jk we ain't telling you to post stuff against jk we are telling you to stand for jm, you are using him for fantasies atleast give some support to him in return too

Thats fair but I don't think anyone can steal JIMIN'S ACHIEVEMENTS. They certainly can try.

HIS MERE EXISTENCE IS AN ACHIEVEMENT

He is the most hard working idol in allllllllllll Kpop.

Undisputed. Unchallenged.

When he says, THIS IS JIMIN- HE MEANS THIS IS YOUR KING BITCHES. PARK FREAKING JIMIN! ROOKIE BIBLE BEAUTY GODDESS DANCE KING.

He knows WHO HE IS AND WHAT HE BRINGS TO THE TABLE.

NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT AWAY FROM HIM.

His mere existence is a work of art and everything he does is just- perfect.

He's a trailblazer. Pace setter. And He sets records.

Sure that record can be broken and has been broken by him and other artists so what? HAVE YOU SEEN HIS COME BACK???

Watch out for his come back.

You think people would move heaven and hell just so they can say they beat his record if he hadn't set the record so high????

He is the standard. He will forever be the standard.

Personally I admire whoever tries to beat his records because I know it's no small feet.

This is his playground and you better slay or go home.

Look what he did with the little budget he has.

That's what makes him great. That's what makes him an excellent achiever. NO ONE CAN STEAL THAT FROM HIM.

The boys from BTS are the best in the game- every single one of them and they bring the pressure. They were great before the fame before the resources was thrown at them and they are great without those resources.

Park Jimin certainly holds his own.

I'm sorry but he's not losing.

I take offense at that.

I'm looking forward to his comeback. If this is what he can do with little investment and company backing he will bust the crust open if he gets the resources.

He has proven worthy of every single investment and I know he has investors lined up. He can only go big from here.

I don't want to bring Jungkook into this but with all the money thrown at him be better prove to investors he is worth it and my God has he proven that!!!!

Investors don't care about achievements. They care about turning a profit on their investments. The bigger the risk the bigger the reward.

I think hybe should TREAT THEM EQUALLY. give them an equal budget and equal company backing. If they are discriminating against certain members and playing favoratism they don't need me to tell them that's wrong. They know they deadass wrong for that.

And it would make so much sense for the members affected by their blatant favoritism to drop them. They made hybe hybe. They can take their large following and social currency to the millions of companies trying to poach them.

Jimin is worth the investment. It's a shame if anyone can't see that. It's a shame hybe doesn't treat him like he is worth the investment.

My job as a fun is to focus on supporting his music his career.

I fail to believe a company that's exploited his image his body his sexuality and pushed him to produce some of the masterpieces of all time, visually vocally and performance wise- I'm talking Promise, Filter, Serendipity, Blackswan- that this same company is underestimating him.

A company that knew to tell him to expose his body to screaming fans, who take pride in the fact he bruises and bleeds through the pain rehearsing for hours, starving himself singing till his throat hurts- that this is the same company telling him someone else is worth the investment not him.

We either don't know the whole story and can't see the full picture or Jimin is stuck in a Stockholm syndrome dynamic with that company.

I like to think Jimin is holding out for after MS to go full on global domination mode. And I like to think hybe is saving up for him for after MS when he does a proper comeback. If not hybe has a lot of explaining to do because it's glaringly obvious they've put more resources into other members than him.

That's a fact. We can cry about, rant about it, send trucks- it does make a difference because it's better to let hybe know we on to them and won't tolerate this discrimination if it's deliberate on their part. The truck sender stans are so on point for this. It's the most effective way of holding hybe accountable.

The rants and buzz is also great in creating awareness to the situation and having media sites pick up the story will put enough pressure on hybe.

But do we have to be toxic while doing so? Mentally abusing a member is not standing up for anyone. It goes against everything Park Jimin stands for. Especially since he himself gets traumatized by other stans and over the stupidest things.

Be a good human. How about that accountability? Who's gonna hold us accountable for being a shitty human beings? We should care about our stans but we shouldn't lose our humanity in the process.

I just like to wait it out to see what the end game is.

I'm here. Gathering reciepts for the day of reckoning.

[wonik1ss]

UNFORGIVEN 001. — le.m

about : UNFORGIVEN will be a three part series from now : the start of the UNFORGIVEN era, to the actually comeback, to the promotions of UNFORGIVEN. All about Garam’s replacements life as a LE SSERAFIM member during the UNFORGIVEN comeback !!

pairing : lesserafim x 6th!member

song rec : next page - ive

-

“ AHHHHHHHHHH “. Eunchae screamed as she ran into your groups practice room.

“ THEY POSTED THE CONCEPT PHOTO’S “. Eunchae said as she jumped around shoving her phone into all of our members faces.

A little after ANTIFRAGILE promotions you and your members started to prepare for our second comeback. But you still didn’t feel like you fit in. Your were a replacement, for the groups former member garam.

To sum it up she had a bullying scandal, was kicked out, then later it was found out she wasn’t a bully after all.

You were put into the group a few weeks after everything had settled. Even though people were sad that Garam left and was innocent; the fans welcomed you with open arms mostly. You got some hate but you just shrugged it of. You had your members right?

-

“ AND THAT’S A WRAP “

You had just finished you group photoshoot for your upcoming comeback ANTIFRGAILE, when you heard your leader start to speak. “ Ok eveyone grab your stuff and get into the group can we have a lot to do tomorrow so get eveyrthing quickly! “.

Everyone left in pairs.

chaewon & eunchae

sakura & kazuha and…

Just as Yunjin was about to run up to join her favorite leader and maknae she, pulled you up from the set. “ Ok so where did my favorite 07’ leave her stuff “. You smiled as you showed Yunjin where your stuff was and cling onto her as she got her stuff.

-

“ Ok everyone in the car “. Chaewon said from outside of your groups vans as all of you got in.

Through out the whole ride Yunjin clung to you and you both joked in the back seat of the car.

“ Seriously I found it really cute when you accident winked at the camera ! “. Yunjin teased you as you rolled your eyes at her. “ Ohh is that so… Then if that’s true I find it really cute how you always make that face when you eat “. Yunjin pretended to be appalled, causing you to laugh you even more, and causing Yunjin to see she was doing her best job at making you feel apart of the group.

Well that was until you got back to the dorms…

As soon as the car stopped Eunchae grabbed Yunjin, telling her how they had to watch this new show she had watch and just like that you felt alone again.

It’s not Eunchae’s fault of anything. You just felt you didn’t have that one person to always hang out with in the group. You alway’s stayed in your room practicing and talking to your mom about how you felt.

“ Y/n baby I’m sure it will get better… they just need time to get used to you! they did just loose a member they new for some time just to have another one pop in to fill in her spot.. “.

“ I know mom.. It’s just that it’s not even like I can talk to anyone else! We don’t exactly have a lot of time to socialize with other idols “. Your mom immediately chimed in again.

“What about that… Sullyoon you said asked for your number! maybe you should talk to- “. You tuned out after that. Sure you and Sullyoon had talked when she came to drop of Kyujin so her and Eunchae could hangout. But you guys weren’t that close yet.. Ya she could relate because she was really shy in her group but.. You just wanted a good connection with your members.

You just didn’t want to feel like the random bitch who took there other member spot…

-

“ Look at Y/n ! I wish I had vocals like her.. “. Eunchae said as she ran up to you, camera in hand filming for your groups channel. “ Hi Eunchae “. You said as the younger girl frowned. “ I thought we decided that you would call me Manchae Y/n “. You became flustered as you corrected your mistake. “ Sorry.. Hi Manchae ! “. You said as Eunchae turned the camera around and sat next to you to give you a big hug.

Moments like this usually happened with the members. But just like that.

“ Come here Manchae “. Kazuha yelled.

They were ripped away from you…

-

You tried you best to connect with the member but they still missed their member and you could tell. You had tons of great moments with the members. But.. they never lasted for more then a second. The fans couldn’t really tell this was happening.. but you could.

That’s why after the shoot for UNFORGIVEN ended you just tried the leave as fast as you could so you could, just get in the van and listen to your music till you got back to the dorms.

But it seems like fate had a different plan for you. As you were walking of set you felt someone grab you. “ Watch out Y/n you could have tripped and really got hurt !”. Chaewon said as she grabbed you and held you in her arms. Turns out water had spilled and wires were close to the spill and you were about to trip into the whole mess and get seriously hurt.

The other members ran over seeing if you were ok. Hugging and kissing you asking if you were ok. While you just stood in shock. “ Why do you guys care so much? “. All of your members looked at you in shock. “ Because your or member Y/n! “. Sakura said holding your hand firmly. “ We don’t want anything bad to happen to you.. we are family now and family doesn’t let the other get hurt “. Yunjin said as you started to cry in Chaewons arms.

“ Y/n what’s wrong “. Eunchae said as she brushed of your tears. “ Nothing I just feel like I’m finally apart of the team now “. You said as the girls gathered around you for a group hug. As one of the staff members took a photo, to remember the day you finally felt like you were a real LE SSERAFIM member.

-

Next installments of UNFORGIVEN will come soon !!

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[doycngs]

jay park. | riveted.

summary. “you’ve never held onto someone so tightly before, knuckles going white and digging so hard into his solid body that you’re sure Jay is hurting. but he withstands it all, quiet and there for you as you crack and fall apart in his arms.”

pairing. y/n x enhypen’s jay

genre. fwb to lovers!au (wa hooo!!!)

word count. 2k.

warnings. afab!reader, swearing, mention of not eating for a little while, reader smokes, small description of anxiety from overstimulation (not the sexy way :/) please let me more if i could add another, thanks!

happy comeback from literally ten months of not posting anything!!! sorry loves, hope the ending to this couple makes up for everything (it doesn’t lolz) mwah <3

first part is here! could technically be read on its tho, i think it’s comprehensible enough :P

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NEON LIGHTS DANCE behind your eyelids when you close them for just a second, a heated breath escaping your cracked lips when the card declines. You steel yourself to face this man, already wasted off his feet and leaning heavily on the bar counter.

Offering his sticky red credit over, you curl the corners of your lips in and feign an empathic smile. “Sorry, it declined again.”

The dazed man whips his head up at the sound of your voice over the bumping bass, eyes glazed and lips twisted in bewilderment. “Are you joking? Try one more time!”

Licking your lips, you shake your head, eyes flitting over to another customer at the end of the bar vying for your attention. The older man seemed impatient, looking to have been standing there and waiting for a while.

“I tried three times already. Sorry.”

When he starts denying it, continuing to leave your wrist tense while waiting for him to take his card, you place the piece of plastic down and stalk away before it could get worse. The dude was clearly already at his limit. It’s likely good his empty bank account had cut him off for the night.

Brushing hair away from your eyes, you cringe internally at the residue on your fingertips and then wipe them harshly on your jeans.

“Hi, what do you need?”

“Jesus fucking Christ, finally! 3 Snake Bites. Actually, make that four, an extra for the fucking wait I just had to endure!”

Biting your tongue, you bend to start his order, barely resisting the urge to roll your eyes. Pretending to not hear the burly customer over the chaos of the club doesn’t help because he leans closer across the bar to get in your face.

“You hear me right? 4 Snake Bites!”

“Yup, got it. Opening a tab?”

“Yeah, obviously!”

Now you turn, not willing to withhold the expression of annoyance anymore. This night already had you on your nerves and it was only past midnight.

Slapping four shot glasses in front of him, you pour and avoid looking in this dude’s eyes. He’s clearly still angry and more so by the next words he utters.

“Did you just roll your eyes at me?”

“Sir, I’m the only bartender working tonight, alright? It’s packed, I’m tired, and I’d rather not argue currently. Are you doing debit or credit?”

There’s a tick in his jaw and when his fist on the counter tightens, you hover your hand over the walkie-talkie on your waist.

“You have a big fucking attitude bitch, I should—”

Pressing the button, you walk away with the cocktail shaker towards the exit behind the counter, eyes scouring for the guard you’re paging.

“Johnny.”

“Yeah!”

“There’s a dumbass over here. You’ll see him, he’s stomping my way right now.”

There’s a crackle and then your coworker replies, “Coming babe, stay there.”

“Uh huh.”

You’re startled at the strength and speed with which the angry man reaches you, way faster than you had expected. Slipping slightly when backing up, his face screams furiosity for you to leave without hearing his derogatory comments.

Throwing the shaker in the sink, you slink quickly back over to the other end of the bar, hand on your walkie-talkie. Your finger lightens in color at the pressure you place on the button. Praying in your head doesn’t work fast enough because the customer clasps his meaty hand on your forearm, yanking you around.

His spit hits the side of your cheek but before he can let more than two words out, Johnny comes crashing in.

Dazily, you watch as the man screams and fights back from Johnny’s grip, trying his best to get back to you. Digging your nails into your thumbs, which usually helps to ground yourself, doesn’t, even as you attempt to suck in humid air that shakes with the music banging on your eardrums.

Too stimulated, you clench your eyes closed tight for only a second before a very loud yell interrupts you. It sounds so incredibly familiar and comforting that you can’t help but open your eyes to catch sight of him.

It’s been three weeks since that night.

“Y/N!”

Wiping your wet cheek, you face the call of your name, his warm caffeine-colored irises wide with concern.

“Jay.”

|—————|

“Are you alright?” Jay roams your face, seeking any type of shaken behavior.

Taking a deep breath, you nod, a small smile on your expression. It doesn’t reach your eyes. You take out a small and thin, rectangular tube of cardboard from your purse, one that Jay recognizes from Jake.

“You smoke now?”

Turning slightly to watch Jay’s expression, you’re a little surprised to see it blank at the lighter and the blunt you take out the box between your pointer and middle fingers.

“Yup.”

“Since when?”

Humming, you light it while pursing your lips. The end finally catches and you throw your head back to the moldy brick of the club, pulling from the small rolled joint.

“Maybe a week ago.”

Your peripheral sees Jay shift, hands deep in his pockets while he shuffles in the thin layer of brown April snow. The leaves on the ground scratch on the dirty cement from his movement and you blow out smoke to watch it fizzle and curl out in the cold 2 A.M. air.

You would’ve thought the silence would be suffocating. So suffocating that you’d do anything to avoid staying in it with Jay for so long but the preemptive haze you know will slide over your mind eases the anxiety.

You don’t even mind looking at Jay so directly. You can tell he’s a little worn down and not just because he went seeking out you tonight.

No, you can tell because he’s wearing an expensive black dress shirt that looks like his wrists are being choked. You think this is the first time you’ve seen Jay wear pants that aren’t ripped jeans or anything else that is wrinkled like it was left at the bottom of a basket for too long.

Jay hates doing laundry. He probably got some fancy dry cleaner place to do this suit for him. Or maybe his family’s maid to pick it up.

An unnecessary thought crosses you. “Where’s the suit jacket?”

Jay looks up for a split second before checking himself. “Oh,” he pats his sides, “It was stuffy. It’s in my car.”

A silent scoff leaves a trail of icy smoke from your nostrils. Tapping the end of the blunt, the ash withers to the ground, red to black.

He’s bothered by the uncaring smile on your lips. There’s a tilt to it that shows you’ve lost— something. Jay isn’t sure what and whether he should hope it’s because of him.

It does feel like sometimes punches his chest when you utter your next words though.

“Did you come to fuck?”

You pull from your joint again, making dead eye contact. Jay swallows harshly, dumbfounded by how lowly you think of him. Or maybe how lowly you think of yourself.

After all, Jay was beating himself up, driving all around the city and going to every bar he knew you worked shifts at. He had finally been driven to the wall in madness of how much he hated how things were left with you. Hated how he let you walk out of his place that night, especially how he didn’t fight hard enough for you.

And here you were. Somehow willing to accept Jay’s savior-complex-self back into your life. But… all for a fuck?

He’s somewhat angry at how you’re so ready to fall back into him. Jay has no right to feel that way. But if you were going to put up such a harrowing, hard, and unbeatable wall around yourself, you shouldn’t crumble so easily.

All for, in your kind words, “a fuck”.

“You really think I came to you for…” He can’t help but scoff in disbelief, “Sex?”

Saying it leaves a sour taste on his tongue.

“I don’t know, I kind of missed you.” You loll your head, cheek hitting the wall and eyes narrowed on the end of your blunt, “This guy I’ve been filming with recently isn’t really all that. I didn’t have to pretend to come with you.”

Jay’s jaw shifts, unbelieving of the words leaving your mouth. The long lashes you love on him so much blink hard and fast.

“Are you even hearing yourself right now? I—”

“Hm?” Finally kicking off the wall, you walk a step closer to Jay, “What?”

His hands stay locked in his pockets, red from the dropping temperature tonight, though they itch to shake some sense into you.

“Did you expect me to turn you away? After what?” You gesture towards his clothes, “After, clearly having the worst time at some stifling dinner party you went to. Isn’t that usually why you came to me all the time in the past? That’s why I came to you—”

“Don’t say this type of shit to me.”

He’s so calm with his words, looking down all high and mighty at you, you lose your cool for a moment. Fury flashes in your eyes.

“Say what!?” You humorlessly laugh, stepping forward to make Jay step back, “Why are you denying what our relationship was really like?”

Pressing him further and further with an invisible force, Jay’s back hit the opposing wall of the alley.

“It was all just sex, so I’m not sure why you were starting to get all attached—”

Jay lands a tight grip on your wrist’s next anticipated move, holding it rough enough to yank the lit blunt from your hold and dropping it. He doesn’t look down to stomp and dig the small flame out on the ground… but you do.

“You owe me money for that.”

He flares up at your comeback. “Stop it.”

Breathing unevenly out your nose, you can barely meet Jay’s hardened expression. Shame floods your insides. You want to get sick from the amount of overwhelming reality he snaps into your head but you didn’t eat too much today.

“You get enough of that out?” He leaves space for rhetoric, “Got it all out of your system, hm?”

Your chin tilts your face down but Jay doesn’t allow it, following by moving his to meet your embarrassed self.

“Don’t shy away now. Keep talking shit and trying to undermine what the fuck we had. Because now I know for a fact, you’re trying to push me away.”

You step back far enough to get Jay let loose on your wrist.

“You keep trying to hurt me and clearly do not see for yourself how much you’re hurting either.”

Lungs caving at his words, you curl in on yourself. Going back to leaning heavily on the club’s brick wall, you slide down and sit heavily on your ankles.

Exhaustion tightens your lower leg muscles and now the register of your throbbing temples further the dizziness. It doesn’t help either that your throat is now so taut you can’t let a coherent word out from emotion.

You can’t even let Jay know how exhausted you are now that you want to.

“Do you even know how much I adore you?”

Leaning your cheek on your crossed arms laid on your knees, you close your eyes. Pray for the rocking world at your feet to pass.

You strangle out, “We’re not good for each other.”

“Can I not decide that for myself?” He laughs without the humor and there’s a pause in Jay’s words.

They come out choked, “Because I think I’m okay with not being good for each other.”

“You deserve better.” You warble out, unable to continue looking at the pain you’re creasing into Jay.

You should push away the only person who’s gone out to look for you, sought and fought to love you for the first time in a long time. Right?

You had nipped that blooming bud of something good in your eternal winter of life. You had shut out one of the only people in your life to truly care for your broken self. But to only have one last time to redeem yourself, ending up completely hurting him again.

It’s an eternity where you sit there, trying to even out your breathing. The sound of the mushy snow in receding footsteps makes your heartbeat climb to your ears.

You choke out a cry soon after. The faucet is loosened to let the tears fall finally. The pressure of everything on your shoulders should crush you. And it’s so close to doing so.

At least until the weight of a jacket is draped over you. Jay plants himself beside you before wrapping a warm arm over your back, gently rubbing before curling the other to cradle your head into his chest.

You’ve never held onto someone so tightly before, knuckles going white and digging so hard into his solid body that you’re sure Jay is hurting. But he withstands it all, quiet and there for you as you crack and fall apart in his arms.

His own heart crumbles from the quiet pain that seeps from the sounds you make. Hearing the anguish that’s been built up for so long makes Jay want to forever hold you like this; regardless of how his fancy dress shirt is soaked now or the creases his shoes are bound to get. Regardless of how much hurt you’ve caused him because he knows you have a good heart. A heart that’s been dragged in the dirt for too long.

You make him want to keep the smile you get on your face when he buys you the right Gatorade from the convenience store down his street.

Or the specific rare laugh you let out when he’s so ridiculously knowledgeable on the most random thing while drunk, spewing facts.

Or the tired, mumbling voice you have when you just woke up, eyes bleary while you rub and walk like a grandma around his place.

The way you clutch to his shirt when walking through the people on the dance floor, afraid to get lost with sloshing tequila down your sticky fingers. Your smell after a shower, his shampoo, and his band tee on but also your natural scent sneaking in to land on his pillowcase for a week.

The way you were embarrassed to start wearing your glasses around him because you were afraid they were too big for your face, but also too afraid to replace them. Sneaking his take-out food from his container even though you had your own box, claiming stealing made it taste better.

The way you lean on anyone around you when cackling in laughter, willing to lose sight while your eyes scrunch. Silently tying your friend group’s shoes, no matter the time or weather, sober or blackout wasted.

The way you scratch at the nape of his neck in bed, slow but with purpose. Curling your knee around his leg and splaying a wide palm to his tummy, falling asleep to the feel of it rising and falling. Your unfiltered noises and sounds, all for him.

You make him want to show you the little good parts in life.

“Do you know how much I love you?”

You can only sniffle and sob louder into Jay, clutching to his sides with a death grip. He laughs, chest shaking you on him as he looks up to the night air, stars never in sight in this city.

“You should… You should know.” He sighs out to the moon, hoping the world was listening so maybe have it go easier on you, just for tonight.

“Why do you, hm? Why?” You painfully yell past wet cries, weakly punching him with no real intent.

Jay thinks of all the specifics but settles for curling the wet hair behind your ears. “I just do. Should there only be a few reasons to love someone?”

Managing to gather yourself after a few moments, you nod. “I love you for a lot.”

“Yeah?” Jay grins so big, his cheeks hurt from doing so.

“Yeah. So I’m sorry,” You twist and curl your arms back around Jay’s neck, hiding your messy face in the crook of his neck. “I’m really, really sorry. I’m scared but I want you now. Nothing else.”

Jay’s hand hooks at your shoulders, “Is that what you really want?”

Your small and muffled voice makes it to his ears. And he wishes he could turn back time already to be able to hear your next words over and over again, whenever he wanted.

“That’s all I’ve ever really wanted."

#dont you love ugly sobbing to the love of your life in a musty ass alleyway behind a club and then getting together with them in the end??? #slayyyy #jay #enhypen jay #jay park #park jongseong #jongseong park #park jay #jay fic #enhypen jay fic #park jongseong fic #jay fanfiction #enhypen jay fanfiction #enhypen fic #enhypen fanfiction #enhypen angst

[gummygowon]

me ranting about girl groups

ok y'all this post is entirely dedicated to @i-luvsang

xg:

ok so for xg, i really have to say that their concept is really cool and they pull it off but i don't really vibe with how much they take from black culture it's a little scary i'm not even gonna lie. like the line between appropriating and appreciating is a little blurry for them in my opinion. also a little confused with the whole global group but like only promoting in korea while they sing mainly in english. most of my negative (?) opinions well not really negative on them are more issues on their company and stylists i do really like the girls though. they're all seem so cool and have cute bond with each other and even hikaru! i will also say they eat up their concepts all the damn time. i still haven't listened to their new stuff but it's really cool that they included sign language into "girl gang"!

fifty fifty:

for these girls, i'm not entirely familiar with ALL the details with their company and law suit but i will say that it’s actually in fucking sane how big cupid was like SOME OF MY SECOND GRADERS KNEW THE CUPID DANCE (tiktok ver tho) LIKE WHAT????

also the way they could be nominated for a grammy makes me giggle like those girls were not tryna make billboard or crush charts like they did. lowkey want them to win a grammy just for the plot like it would be so dramatic considering how apparently the girls might get blacklisted for "defying their company" by asking for financial transparency and people are reading it as the girls are money hungry BUT EVEN IF THEY WERE LIKE BITCH IF I WAS NUGU AND THEN MY SONG BLEW INTERNATIONALLY LIKE THEM I WOULD BE ASKING FOR PAYCHECK CAUSE WTF??

also the way everyone in that damn company is tryna get their slice of money from that song makes me laugh cause damn would u really be tryna take credit for them if the girls were nugu? no.

itzy:

i feel so bad for itzy cause they fell off hard after sneakers and tbh sneakers wasn't like super shit it was just that they wasted a perfectly good royal concept ugh

i love itzy so much and the hate they get is forced like bitch be fr omfg

someone mentioned how itzy didn't have that much competition when they first debuted so it was really just them dominating fourth gen at one point in their careers but with THE AMOUNT OF GGS IN THE INDUSTRY RN ITS INSANE to stay relevant or have chart topping songs every comeback like that's just not possible

i will say that cake isn't my favorite def needs time to marinate with me but i love yuna's part so much also chesire was really good imo and i really liked all the bsides from that era which is a first. kinda surprised it didn't blow up more

overall, the girls have made an impact in the kpop community and yeah they're not on top like they were during loco era or earlier but i still love them

#fifty fifty #itzy #xg #mai rants #marinated crab

[autumniswonderingaboutspring]

Okayy soo Hey guys!! My first post on tumblr here~~ I'm gonna give an introduction about my self and tell about who I am so here we go!~

🌻• I'm a teenage girl from India, who loves reading, writing, listening and telling things, whether booms or music.

🌻•I'm a proud Hindu girl who deeply loves God and is proud of her culture🧡

🌻•I can speak, write and understand Hindi, English and Gujarati well. I can just read and write Korean alphabet yet, Im learning the words and grammar.

🌻• I also have a Youtube channel! I'll drop the link in my description its called 'Purple💜💜'. Im not active on it now but I'll comeback soon, I usually upload kpop and hp edits on this.

🌻• Bestie: @pluxyrainbow

🌻• I've also been a fan of animation since childhood so I am a HUGE fan of My Little Pony and Miraculous Ladybug, and I'm getting into anime and have watched alot of Disney and Pixar's stuff.

I am halfway through Death Note and Gakeun Babysitters yet, and I have just started One Piece.

🌻• My hobbies are dancing, singing(although im not good at it yet-), drawing, reading and listening music, I enjoy playing games and sports too. I'm a just started begginer at keyboard too.

🌻• I want to become a music idol and performer when I grow so Im trying to improve my skills day by day.

🌻•Im getting into working out recently(without equipments).

🌻•MBTI: ISFJ

🌻• To describe myself as a person, I am a kind and one of a kind(pun intended lol) person, I am very loyal and have strong morals and opinion. I never judge or bitch about anyone unless they actually are a bad person.

Even though I would hate a person due to how they treated me or how they treat others, I would never go to a extreme of wishing smth really bad to a person, bc at the end of the day we're all God's kids c'mon

Lets say I'm a picky extrovert or a loud introvert because it takes me time to open up to people(due to trust issues and safety measures yk), but when I open up, I JUST DONT STOP TALKING😭😭.

🌻•I love Harry Potter and am a very big Potterhead⚡️💙.

🌻•I love listening various types of musics.

🌻•I stan some Kpop groups as well:

BTS

Twice

Enhypen

Dreamcatcher

Onewe

And almost listen to every other kpop group.

🌻•I'll upload my Harry Potter and other Kpop group's profile soon to let yall know more about it in those ascepts.

Soo that's it for today bye guys see ya!🩷

#new on tumblr #about myself #me time #bts #harry potter #anime #one piece

[wqxianvents]

// CONTAINS COMMENTARY AND PICTURES OF TEARS OF THEMIS NEW EVENT: “ENDURING LIGHT.”

This is only the Prologue section I talk about in this one, aha and I ALRWDY HAVE SM TO TALK ABTR

first of all, another group event of course, you love to see it and they’re being dorks but in a cooler way already 💃 also btw happy new year!! hope it’s been treating y’all well already :]<3

okay so i’m going into this event basically being sus of everyone at this point LMAO, i don’t even trust our boys tbh - anything could happen and i’m excited! everytime there’s a big event i always am like “ugh… not another one i have to drain energy into and it isn’t even that interesting” (respectfully). like the last one on the train? i didn’t really care much about it, the only things that interested me were nxx being all up on eachother (exaggerating)

basically i prepare myself to be disappointed, which might sound messed up but tbh the events have only been hittin recently (for me) because of the fact that they’re not having nxx be at eachother’s throats lol. (not saying the past ones weren’t good though and that none of the recent ones were a miss bc again, i didnt fully enjoy the train event)

this one already had me though 😭 got me gagged, the ui is so fucking cool - the card system?? the OUTFITS make me wanna CHOMP my phone (esp luke’s… smth- smth abt it is just. hm, delectable). also baby davis always appearing is so cute his little “hello, miss… uh, i mean, little boss!” LMAO that is my son!!!

ANYGAYS we always have to start off with Marius talking about something going on ‘round town, intended to invite his lovely lady but of course the boys have to interrupt and say hey, where is our invitation??? 🤗 you love to see it

jxjddh “i didn’t ask you guys” LMFAO HE IS SO DONEEE - artem, vyn: “oh really? let me hit you with this comeback. give me my invitation.”, like why are they so angy ARENT YALL RICH? GET YOUR OWN INVITATION 😭😭 i just adore the difference here though like, luke is the one purely excited here and not just “oh, aha, trying to get alone with rosa? how about: no.” but vyn is like 😭 “okay, shit, thanks for the invitation, marius.”

ARTEM MINDING HIS OWN BUSINESS BY HIS COMPUTER AND DECIDING TO INSERT HIMSELF INTO THE CONVERSATIONNN. they’re silly billies.

of course we needed our typical marluke banner 🥺

“Without us, who would you team up with?” did he just call marius friendless or can i also mix that with delulu poly nxx and add a hint of, “bitch who else are you planning to invite? we are RIGHT here” LMFAO

“Luke, are things at work slow lately?” 😭😭😭 i have tears in my eyes u were gonna invite him anyway shut up

i want a group event where the guys don’t butt in just to see if marius invites them anyway HAAHSJS like he just has the stuff ready for the boys just in case they butt in again, but one time they don’t and he’s just confused 😭

kicking my feet, he loves them all dearly. they’re my babies, my lil ol family!!

ANYWAYS… we’re here. Li Hotel 🤨 && again, the wayyy i was entranced with everything omg obsessed obsessed. BY THE WAY i already suspect that the letter-friend is reporter pearce 🤨🤨 don’t ask me for proper reasoning besides the fact that they reveal the letter-friend is a guy LMAO

&& shares the same life goal (wanting to travel around the world) as little boss 😔💜 but who knows…

alright last two things ✨ nxx boys lowkey teasing rosa by being in character HAHAHDJ (NOT ME POSTING THE WEONG PICTURE AND MAKING MYSELF SAD)

same, rosa, same 😭 (and the invitation card?? zoo wee mama- the way that marius was the only one who kept his eyes on rosa thoughhj hejeejnffk GRRR. okay sorry. NAUR and the luke stare 😔 marluke strikes my heart once again!!! WHY IS VYN ALL THE WAY UP THERE BTW)

anyways. last but not least, this isn’t technically apart of the prologue but it’s when Davis takes you on a little tour as always to show you the event and there is one part where you can have discussions with the boys. you click on luke by default but the first conversation option you have, he talks about this:

&& this actually made me tear up pretty bad 😭 then i had a whiplash and went “OHH THE FUCKING CARD” LMFAOO,, LIKE WHY WOULD HYV DO THIS TO ME 😞 i love the parallels luke always has with his au cards though ugh, makes me depressed in the right way(??)

like his birthday card (the name is itching my brain, i can’t remember) and in his bday event there was a mirror and sword (i believe) that appeared 😔 now this… sobbing throwing up, do NOT TOUCH ME

ARE YOU TELLING ME HE ACTUALLY DIES IN THE CARD STOOFPFPFDB??? THAT HE DOESN’T SAY HE LOVES HER? WHAT IS THIS. punching the floor. DO THEY ALL DIE? I THOUGHT ARTEM AT LEAST LIVES…. AM I MIXING UP CARDS…. see what this event is doing to me already 😔

ojay. i’m done here, had to write the thoughts out brrr, imma go finish reading the event now 🌚 toodles (unless u can read the vyn spoiler below)

HUGE CARD SPOILERS BELOW: VYN [MEDIEVAL SUSPENSE]

OHHbajdhd and adding on why I’m not trusting anyone - even our boys - in this event is because this event reminds me too much of a card that Vyn has. A group of folks in this card are acting and Vyn’s character ended up being the killer. I won’t leave my thoughts on the card but this is why I’m sus of everyone 😔

#tears of themis #tot #tears of themis spoilers #!tot events #pookie bears i love them dearly #also these cards… i was like… im not gonna pull but holy fuck rosa is so FINE in all of them #the GRIP this woman has on me #it should have been ME in those cards 😡 #anygays #having high hopes for this event fjfjd it is so cool already love the concept #gives me war flashbacks to vyn’s card though 😔 pls… hyv have mercy thankies #i think i am mixing the cards up with the train event though and now i’m scared that these cards do not actually have happy endings 😭😭 NOOO

[lowpolylobotomy]

oh my god i love useless factoids. tell me more useless drag race factoids

all my factoids are about english speaking seasons for the most part. idk much abt the other ones

ooh here’s a REALLY useless one. gottmik, jada shada hudson, etcetera etcetera, krystal versace, jaida essence hall, and daya betty (and probably more i’m missing) all have rumix verses where they mention a snatched/cinched/tiny waist.

“face is stamped so right, clown paint and waist so tight” (gottmik, lucky)

“drag race, beat face, small waist, wigs laced” (jada shada hudson, true north strong and fierce)

“snatched face, tiny waist, bet you thought you’d never see this bitch on drag race” (etcetera etcetera, queens down under)

“she’s the face and the grace, big uh tiny waist” (krystal versace, bde)

“sickening little bitch with an itty bitty waist, chile i’m never afraid to put a bitch in her place” (jaida essence hall, legends)

“yeah my mug is stamped and my waist is thinner so you’d betty be ready ‘cause i’ve always been a winner” (daya betty, catwalk)

if i went through and counted all the verses that mentioned the “crown” or “making [parental figure] proud” i think i would die . maybe i’ll do that

pandora boxx was the first queen to ever have an entrance line in season 2 (hey, fake ladies !) and i BELIEVE jiggly caliente was the first to ever have an exit line in season 4 (deuces !) . funny how both were on all stars 6

speaking of jiggly, she and mariah balenciaga are two queens that have censored mirror messages ! jiggly, as a trans woman, wrote a mirror message about paying for trans surgery in season 4, which was censored in the edit. and then of course you have mariah’s iconic “congratulations raja” mirror message - many, many episodes before raja would actually be crowned the winner of season 3.

the first queen to ever write a mirror message was shangela.

shea couleé is the only queen to my knowledge to enter the werkroom first, twice. (on as5 and as7.) the vivienne and bebe zahara benet have both entered last twice. unless. unless you count raven as entering last on as7 but who would count raven in anyrhing ever

i forget if bianca del rio, envy peru or la diamond has the best track record out of all the winners, but it’s one of ‘em. think it depends on who you ask. i think it’s agreed that priyanka has the worst though 🥲

in the infinite list of rugirls, acid betty is first alphabetically, and yvie oddly is last.

bebe, tyra, raja, aquaria, chad, and the vivienne all won after entering the workroom last. trixie, shea, lawrence chaney, danny beard, and priyanka all won after entering first (bianca entered first in her premiere group, so she kind of counts ?)

elecktra bionic is the only winner to have no challenge wims. priyanka has 2 and STILL has the worst track record 😔can’t believe theyd do my favourite winner like this💔

dax exclamationpoint is violet chachki’s drag mother (in the words of laganja: dax ? the nerd ???) chad is morgan mcmichaels’ mother, asia is phi phi/jaremi’s, honey davenport is monét’s, and theres way more that i’m forgetting 😵‍💫

max is the lowest placing queen to win more than one challenge, placing 9th post trixie comeback.

thats all for now. i wrote wayyy too much and i have so many more if anyone wqnts to enable my autism

#charly’s useless drag race facts #🚨 weewoo weewoo #bites talks a little too much

[petewentzisblack1312]

yo thank you for posting that little response to someone saying mcr put emo on the map bc it was so refreshing to read after seeing one of my favorite blogs from when i was in high school bitch about fall out boy and their like cash grabs (to be fair the crynyl thing is a little silly 😭) as if my chemical romance doesnt do the same thing like people can be optimistic all they want and think otherwise but their entire comeback has been about money like the makeup thing that they did TWICE the tour itself the all of it 🗿 like love mcr but their white fans that shit on fall out boy for shit that mcr also does piss me awffff

i dont want to say that the comeback in its entirety is a cashgrab, because i dont really think it is, but the make up thing kinda was (especially considering the way hipdot did not work with any poc influencers iirc. i think they photoshopped swatches onto darker skin). the crynyl thing is extremely silly, but its like an insane bonkers stupid thing and fall out boy has always been an insane bonkers stupid style band (recall the time they signed posters with their own blood) so i hesitate to call it a cash grab as much as it is a publicity stunt.

its just kinda weird to say fall out boy does extensive cash grabs when mcr does like. way more? as far as i can tell? like theyre always doing big expensive nostalgia releases and while fob doesnt shun any part of their past (except evening out) they definitely dont pander to it as much as mcr does. i have my issues with mcr but i dont have a vendetta against them or anything, but there is just this clear double standard thats just like. not necessary.

#dils declares #throwing stones in glass houses. kinda. #or maybe a pot and a kettle. who knows! maybe this is a big stupid baby fight.

[cereusdepths]

★ Pinned for Reference ★

•Warhammer 40k OC rp blog

• Disclaimer: This man is a massive bitch, & if I’m a bitch to you in RP when playing him, please do not take it personally

Who is Kranar Pare?

Kranar Pare (Pronounced: Kyeh-Ra-Nhar Peh-Ah-Reh) is a high ranking member of the Elotein Witch Guard. Born in one of the few big cities on Elotelma, he was primarily raised by his father who instilled strict moral values in him.

Kranar’s mother, like he later would end up becoming, was a Warden in the Elotein Witch Guard. Unfortunately, she ended up dying in battle. This sparked a sort of religious awakening in both Kranar & his father—, Leading them to turn to the ‘light of the God Emperor’ for guidance.

He coped with the loss of his mother by constantly reminding himself that her death was in service of ‘something greater’. Thus, Kranar ended up going down a path of religious zealotry.

Around this time, he had his first encounter with Ripley Lun’amir, an abhuman refugee from Elotelma’s now destroyed sister planet, Ilunna. The two didn’t get along, and Kranar bullied the boy for his strange, cat-like appearance. Little did either know at the time that they would cross paths once more.

When Kranar became a Warden, Ripley, who had also joined the Guard, was assigned as his Witch. Deciding to use this as an opportunity to have someone who would listen to him regardless of the order, Kranar began a long term plan to manipulate Ripley; Starting with his heritage, and destroyed home-world. If Ripley didn’t do as he said, he would tell everyone of his secret—, that he and his people were marked for death by the inquisition.

This worked very well, and over the next few decades the two fell into a toxic friendship, relationship, and eventually marriage (it’s not uncommon for Wardens to marry their Witch, and vice versa).

Kranar and Ripley eventually reached very high ranking Positions in the Witch Guard, and things where looking up. He had a husband, a stable job, as much power and reverence as he could ever want.

But then, it happened. His husband had tried to kill him.

Ripley left Kranar for dead, he had been barely clinging onto a thin threat of life, but by some miracle, he made it. He was furious, and as a furious man with power does, he began to talk.

Vengeance.

More on Eloteins

Eloteins are a race of tall abhumans from the planet of Elotelma. Their planet, prior to Imperial integration, was of an average, pre-space technology level—, Albeit their cities and settlements are fairly spaced out due to large swaths of daemon-infested swamps.

The non-chaos cultist Eloteins where just barely clinging onto life when the Imperium found them, but since then, the planet has made a major comeback.

Though pretty similar to regular humans, Eloteins are much taller (standing around 7-8 feet tall when fully grown), and posses dark colored eyes and cool-toned hair (blues, pinks, purples, whites, etc). They live about 800 years at maximum.

Account Notes

• You can find my main blog at @idle-skull

• More AU content @wh40k-cat-skull

• This blog will most likely contain suggestive or NSFW content, whether that be of a lewd or violent nature, and is therefore 18+

• Asks & RPs are always open, but please give me time to respond to stuff

• This blog takes place Post-Heresy, but I'm otherwise fairly flexible with time frames and such

#oc rp #oc #kranar pare #pinned

[moni-logues]

2022 End of the Year Recap

rules : post the top 5 works you’re most proud of that you released in 2022 (not necessarily your most popular), your top 4 current WIPs that you’re excited to release in the new year, your top 3 biggest improvements in your writing over the past year, your top 2 resolutions (ways you wish to improve your writing/blog) for the new year, and your number 1 favorite line you’ve written this year!

So, @amethystwritesbts tagged me in this on the old blog, but I thought this would make for a fun little transitional post, too, so I'm doing it here! I have had my [old] blog for almost exactly 53 weeks and have posted 58 fics! 🤪🤪🤪 lots to pick from lol

Top 5 works I'm most proud of

(These will all, in time, make their way here, too, but for now they are ofc readable @monimonimoon)

Marriage or Arsenic: my very first post! I'm proud of myself for starting! Proud of myself for writing and putting it out there!

Sweet Treats: I just like it!! I think it's fun! I love cute tattoo artist boyfriend Jimin!

Even Though: super spontaneous fic; decided about 11pm I wanted to write it and it was finished before 2:30am! But I'm really pleased with how it came out and it's nice to know I can produce shit if I really focus lmao

Thirteen Rounds: wrote it in one evening and then was really unhappy the following day and couldn't work out why I didn't l like it so I took my dog for a walk and figured it out. It then needed a really big, significant re-write and I did it! And then it did some serious fucking numbers lmao

A Fine Line: for obvious reasons lol. My first series! Wasn't sure I could do it! Wasn't sure anyone would like it! But I did! and they do!!

Top 4 current WIPs

The Comeback: here, have a banner! This is going to be the first fic I post here! (obviously not including AFL reposts). I hope you are looking forward to some festive angst!

Kintsugi: the long-fabled Yoongi friends-to-lovers (actually strangers-to-friends-to-lovers!). She's coming and, goddammit, I've made this bitch angsty, too. Have another banner!

Promessus: a Hobi fake dating fic that is going to require a lot of research and may not be viable if the results of that research aren't what I want! But I'm really excited about it!!!

SUPER TOP SECRET FIC: coming soon! Yoongi! A genre I've not written before! Stay tuned!!!

Three biggest improvements in my writing

I think I'm more aware of my (over-)use of adverbs now so I'm better at catching them while writing and in editing.

Writing long stuff! Actual plot! When I first started, I couldn't believe people were writing like, 5, 10, 15k fics and now I not only have one-shots that long but also a whole series! And more to come!

Deciding to only write in past tense. I kept sort of switching between past and present which meant that, even within one fic, I kept fucking up and writing in the wrong one. Sticking to one means I'm not making that mistake (as much! 😬) anymore.

Two resolutions for next year

This one is sort of already in plrogress but planning. Kintsugi is already outlined! I'm going to try to stick to the plan!

Read more -- both fics and books. I have read much less this year than I'd have liked so I really want to use this festive period to reset and start the new year with more intention and waste less of my time on my fucking phone, watching shit I don't care about on netflix etc. and actually make time for everything, which includes reading.

Favourite line I wrote this year

Remember how I said I've posted 58 fics? Yeah, I'm not going through those to pick out the best lmao. But one that I can think of off the top of my head is:

you knew you had somehow got things figured out but now, in the nauseating throes of the consequences of your own actions, it eluded you.

I'm not tagging anyone because idk who's been tagged already and I'm copping out lmao but everyone should do this, so consider yourself tagged if you are reading this!!!

#moni logs #tag games

[sara-joseph]

Day count blog 2!!!

So, yeah. This one's for 2023. It's 2nd jan, but 2:40 am. New year wishes from everyone, INCLUDING JIN! hobi performing at times square. 1064 days more, we'll wait.

3rd Jan,2023. 1063 days more, we'll wait.

7th Jan, 2023. Started finals. 1059 days more, we'll wait.

28th Jan,2023. It's been days since I've updated. Got over with my finals, and my eldest cousin got engaged. Been busy tbh. Vibe is out, yoongi is the ambassador for Valentino, jimin for Dior, hobi for lv, and Joon for bonnetta? Looks like all the fashion brands are out to snatch the members after their contract with lv ended. Anyways, gues what. THIS BITCH JUST GOT TICKETS FOR A FUCKING CONCERT SCREENING. future me, pls know that I wasn't so hyper irl. 1038 more days, and we'll fucking wait

4th Feb, 2023. Yeah i had to give a 100-word update on how amazing the concert was, but guess what, this unlucky ass didn't get to go. I got hit with chickenpox, isolated for 10 days, just 3 days before the screening. Guess i gotta wait for 2025 now then. Anyways sorrow aside, i looked into jhopes photo folio trailer, and I'm like, who is this woman? IT WAS HOBI. yeah, i died. The fucking long hair i- i just cant-. Hobis birthday, his photo folio, PJM1, everything at once in Feb along with my brother's marriage, me going to gangtok. Oh dear lord. 1031 days more, we'll wait. Edit - (cause i forgot to add this) jk went live , 2 DAYS IN A ROW. breaking the radio silence since jins enlistment. And he's hot. He fucking sang UNHOLY, RIP TO ME. he even sang wildflower, vive , dreamers, oh god Jk, you're gonna be the death of us.

15th February, 2023, fuck that person who created valentine's day. Yoongis tour is announced 😭 anyways, 1020 days more, we'll wait

26th February, 2023. Messed up week. I got betrayed by the person who I really trusted in. Phone got taken away, had a big fight with my parents and all the crap. End of the week, I'm left with severe trust issues, a taken away phone, parents who hate me, and a lot more. Our boys have been doing very well I assume. Jimin is coming back with PJM1 this March, and yoongis gone cherry for this photo folio. 1009 days more, we'll wait

1st march, 2023. hobi has officially announced that hes gonna enroll. JUNGKOOK THAT MF DELETED HIS INSTA. and on top of that, the saseng threats. my insta got disabled, and i cant even seem to find a mail from them. oh how great this week is. this too shall pass, and in the mean while, we'll wait.

3rd March,2023. Bruhhhhhh jimin for Tiffany. I'm dead- I fell sick today, no really. Jakaisjskaka 1004 days more, we'll wait.

7th march,2023 and MY INSTA IS FINEEEEEE. i just finished blocking and unfollowing all the people i know, ive got no followers and im following only 7 people, bangtan and bighit (JK, FUCK YOU but i love you more than myself soooo) we're correctly at 1000 days now!!!!!!! we'll waitttt.

8th march,2023 and jimin is on the vogue cover, fuck my life. im teling you, if i end up not burning down all the schools in the world, please reward me with something, cause i just cant- 999 days more, we'll wait.

17th March, 2023 and set me free pt.2 mv is out. I gotta rant out about it, so imma post another thing on it. But I died, no kidding. One more post, for my fucked up life on how I got caught reading smut. Anyways, pd bang si hyuk says "we said we hope there will be a BTS comeback, not will" but who gives a fuck. I trust them, and they asked us to wait, so 990days more, we'll wait.

30 March, oof that was a long ass gap. A lot happened, i got my spectacles and now I'm taking treatment for 8 days, and I'm missing PTA week for it, thank you mom. Buttttt, FACE IS OUT AND THE SKIN- I- 977 days more, we'll wait.

4th April, 2023. Now idk if I have to weep over hobi leaving, or hobi tryna calm us down by posting, or maybe i should scream over jin posting, or jin and jimin fighting in hobis comment section, or should I desperately wait for ck to release jks pics, or swoon over rm in Bottega vennetta. Orrrrr i should just hold a seperate day count of yoongis d-day. After all this, i can just say,974 days more, we'll wait.

April 16th, 2023. I've started in a completely new account, WOW. but jk at Coachella?! And he's planned his us visit accordingly so he can be back to send off hobi🥺 Tae's new song, D-Day, and all. Anndddddd, my brother is now officially married. AND IM LEAVING FOR GANGTOK IN LIKE LESS THAN A WEEK FROM NOW. I'm sitting here and posting this while i have a math and bio exam tomorrow, god save me, guys pray for me. 960 days more, we'll wait.

April 18th, 2023. Hobi left like todayyy. Dear lord please keep him safe. the concept pics for d-day made me choke, like wtfff. 958 days more, we'll wait.

April 25th, 2023. im back from my 5 day school trip and dday is out. ngl, i still have to take a look at it. tae and jk attended dreams premiere, what makes it better is that tae knows psj from wooga and jk is the forever fanboy of IU. Moonbin passed, and even tho idk him, i genuinely feel bad that this is how life ends for some people. rm is back on Suchwita, and now 951 days more, we'll wait.

28th April, and just like, what the fuck. cause i may be late in saying this, but jk and tae attending the vip premiere for dream and his live right after? alsoo, jimin and rm are attending the met gala, each as their brands ambassadors. so you're telling me, that jimin is going to attend the tiffany event with ranbir singh, the met gala with rm, and is gonna come perform tony montana at yoongi's d-day? WOW. d-day japan is gonna be screened live in theatresssss, IM SCREAMING- hopefully i get to go this time. Also, that canadian actor who passed, bro, like rip. idk why he made such avid decisions, like no doubt jimin is handsome as fuck, but im sure he was also as handome, and good in character. anyways, 948 days more, we'll wait.

29th April, 2023. So jimin is attending tiffany's event with ranveer singh, the met gala with rm as the global ambassador of tiffany and dior, and is performing in d-day. which brings me to like, WTF YOONGI. his concert, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I COULD GIVE MY WHOLE LIFE TO HIM AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR- 947 days more, we'll wait.

1st May, 2023. Bruh, yoongs really got ARMY to bark at his concert. And jimin- im gonna cry i swear-. 945 days more, we'll wait.

5th may, 2023. Dude, that whole Canadian actor is shi. HE DOES NOT EXIST! wow, AI these days. i just hope bighit provides Bangtan with a little more security or something. cause like, sasaengs are getting out of hand now. at his house?! Suga at the Fallon show thoo. 941 days more, we'll wait.

15th may, 2023. yea, its been 10 days since i updated. i have been to ooty and now to mumbai, yes, in 10 days. im rewatching moon lovers again, idk wtf is wrong with me. but like we're getting closer, 931 days more, and we'll fucking wait.

19th may, 2022. brooo, if this whole tae and jennie thingie is real, i totally support. i mean- its their life, and they're cute so- iv'e also been watching the bts reels on insta lately, and im telling this all over again, I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. 927 days more, we'll wait.

1st june, 2023. i havent updated in a looooong time. just been busy. BUT not busy enough to not know what is happenning in the world. SILVER BLONDE TAEHYUNG IS BACK. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i- i just cant- Also, yoongi is doing so well in his world tour. RM's new mv with Colde, Hobi is the assistant instructor, JIMIN HAS BROKEN THE GUINNES WORLD RECORD, and JK dancing to super on his live. WOW. but best of all, *drumroll* 11 MORE DAYS TO BTSFESTA 2023, AND ITS THE 10TH ANNIVERSARY, AND "TAKE TWO" IS GONNA BE OUT. 914 days more, we'll wait.

10th June, 2023. 2 more days till festa, and yesterday take two was released. I haven't even watched it yet cause of my studies. I hate thissss. 905 days more, we'll wait.

15th june, 2023. Im shit, i didn't even update on the 10th anniversary. but i will soon. also, beyond the scenes, the book is set to release on july 9th ig😭 i swear- it's army's 10th anniversary. anyways 900 more days, we'll wait.

#bts army #bts #bts v #bangtan #bts jin

[justasimplesinner]

This one is based on my current situation. Origins Eddie is interested in a coworker (most likely in the same department as him) but is too shy to say anything so they're just friends. However, his crush starts getting unwanted advances from another coworker. Nothing extreme but definitely bothersome and a little stressful for this crush. So how would Origins Eddie react? (Hopefully he finally admits his feelings lol)

currently on riddler brainrot and im sorry in advance for anyone subjected to all the bullshit im about to post today

Arkham Origins!Eddie being a massive simp hcs:

there wasn't many people in the GCPD that he truly got along with, even in his own department (although those guys were certainly more used to him and less phased by anything he said). when you came along to work there, it wasn't love at first sight, he didn't immediately take a liking to you, and the feeling was certainly mutual. he's kind of a dick. can be hella obnoxious and self-centered and if you'd just let him, he'd probably go on some egomaniac tangent, although he's not as far gone as he is in the later games so you can still kind of talk to him

i wouldn't say you two wanted to tear each other apart every time you saw one another, but you certainly had a very love/hate relationship at first. it took a long while for him to see you as something more than just a rookie and as much as you hated to admit it, you strived to prove him wrong. not so much as gaining his approval, just kicking his ass because he was being such a pain in yours. thankfully not all your coworkers were dicks, so you got a lot of reassurance whenever he verbally tore you down, but that didn't mean you gave up on proving him wrong

Ed would never admit it out loud, but he admired your determination. actually, there were quite a few things he admired about you. the passion, the drive for work, how you'd stay after hours just to make sure you had everything right, how you seemed to genuinely want to help those people out there. and your sharp tongue, too. especially your sharp tongue. it may have not seem like it, but he absolutely loved bantering with you. you were always so quick with the insults, having a rebuttal to everything he threw your way. and, as opposed to him, the thing with you was that you made sure not to go overboard with what you said and if you did, you weren't above admitting that it was a dick move and apologising

that's what really got you two a little closer in the first place. it was another amazing confrontation that had everyone else in your department on the edge of their seats to see who admits defeat first, when you took it a step too far. and you immediately knew that, right after the words came out of your mouth

"i'm going to fuck your dad and give him a child he actually loves"

silly, right? just a random insult, that's it. he was being a dick, he deserved it. and obviously you didn't truly mean it. but those words stung. hard. you've never seen him shut up so fast. for a second, you swore his face twisted in something akin to agony. just as soon as it appeared, it was gone, and he turned right back to his work. but he was silent. Ed would never willingly let you have the last word in. and yet, for the rest of the day, he was silent

maybe you shouldn't've, but you felt bad. you could see you struck a nerve, prodded at a topic way too sensitive for it all to still be called lighthearted banter. of course, at first, you were too stubborn to really apologize, but all it took was some shameful and regretful thoughts as you were driving home that day and you decided to just suck it up and apologize. fuck your pride, maybe you hated his guts but you didn't want him to hurt. besides, if he gave you the silent treatment like that, who would entertain you when you were bored at work?

you squeezed his coffee order out of one of your coworkers that usually went on the coffee shop trip, even bought him a stupid little peanut-chocolate bar in green wrapping as you arrived at your workplace at the asscrack of dawn like he always did. motherfucker always came in first when it comes to your department, and you wanted to catch him alone, without any prying eyes. when you came in, he didn't even greet you with something like "look who decided to be on time for once" which sucked since you hoped he'd be in a better mood that day

you didn't have a whole speech prepared, which you kind of regretted now that you were face to face with him, alone, and had to apologize truly from the bottom of your heart.

"i'm sorry for what i said yesterday. here. as compensation." quick, simple, and to the point. but that was never the way things go with Edward fucking Nashton. "this is your bargaining chip? you couldn't convince a five year old to sit still for one minute with this shit-" "listen here, you little shit, this is the only green candybar i could find in the store, so shut your green-loving mouth up and let me do my thing, arlight? i don't want to be dramatic right now, but i really am sorry. i didn't mean to actually say anything hurtful or prod at a sore spot or anything. it doesn't change anything right now, but if i had known, i wouldn't've said that. so just accept this very modest but very heartfelt bribe and stop giving me the silent treatment. i got a taste of what's it like yesterday, and i'm not about to endure it today, because your stupid little banter is genuinely the best part of my workday here and i'm not giving it up without a fight."

that seemed to do the trick, because with a few mutters about how crude and utterly untactful you were came the acceptance of you apology, even the admittance that you weren't the only one looking forward to those silly little fights you two indulged in. that was the first step. but, what was shocking to the rest of the department, you two didn't continue in baby steps. you broke off into a run

it escalated quick. with you breaking the ice between you two came the initially-reluctant, eventually-desired friendship. the banters still continued, but Edward wasn't as hard on you when it came to your work as he used to. suddenly, breaks were filled with genuine conversation over hot cups of coffee. Ed wasn't a regular person, talking about your day or the weather simply didn't satisfy him and he found it meaningless. instead, whenever you two talked, he'd breach the most random fucking subjects but you quickly got used to it. you were probably the only one who could put up with him for more than ten minutes (the weeks of insulting each other made you immune to his sarcastic quips) and that didn't bat an eye if he just started rambling about something completely out of nowhere

you became someone he intentionally seeked out, which is a big thing. he often told you otherwise just to fuck with you, but he liked talking to you. you were unphased by how quickly he could jump from one subject to another or for how long he could go on and on about something. you always listened. you offered your input. you were always up for a debate. and fuck yeah sometimes you were stubborn about something you didn't understand, but if he actually proved to you that you were wrong, you'd take the blow and move on. despite being a very persistent and loud-mouthed person, you never insisted on always being right or getting mad at him for knowing something you didn't. if you saw that you really were in the wrong, you accepted it and even inquired about more so you could educate yourself on the subject. sometimes he thought you were so knowledge-hungry because you wanted to be ready for any possible argument that might ensue between you and someone else and needed to be the expert so you could tear a bitch into the ground. and yeah, it was funny, but it was also, in a way, admirable

it was no surprise to anyone when your banter turned more flirtarious. after all, you two were practically attached at the hip at this point. the thing was, you didn't take it seriously. at first, he thought he didn't too, but boy was he wrong

and so, the pining started. all day every day, Edward was consumed by yearning. there was nothing he loved more than the two of you constantly trying to one-up each other and make the other blush and stutter uncontrollably, there was nothing he loved more than hanging out with you both at and outside work, nothing he loved more than just doing simple, menial stuff with you like playing videogames or getting lunch. on one hand he really wanted to tell you all this - you, the only person to ever give him so much positive attention and show him any form of genuine care for his well-being - but on the other... what if you didn't feel the same? i mean, you obviously didn't. you would've said something already, right? you were always so straightforward. did you see that he wanted more? were you just trying to let him down gently or were you oblivious? there was too many thoughts, too many doubts and unfortunately, those were the ones even your presence couldn't help him with

there's nothing worse for a man than to find out he has powerful competition, and Edward is no different in that particular aspect. of course, he's way better and he spends more time with you and you obviously think higher of him than of the other guy, but... do you smile so much around him too? when you two banter, you're always playful, but you never grin the way you grin with the officer that took a liking to you. you never take on that tone with him, the one that's toeing the line between incredibly condescending and abnormally sultry. was he being replaced, was his rightfully earned position as your best friend endangered?

there's a lot of doubts in his head, but also the sick need for rivalry, to destroy his competition. that man was interfering a little bit too much to Ed's liking and he make it a point to show it every time he comes into the Cybercrime department, every time he tags along in the breakroom, every time he gets close to you when Edward's already there. he has half the mind to just rope that motherfucker into some sketchy shit to get him out of his hair

he makes it a point to spend even more time with you to show the other dude who's the better one. you're suspicious but absolutely not complaining about all the sudden game nights or movie marathons or quick trips to the burger joint. you're not complaining about the way Ed trails behind you like a puppy everywhere you go and the way he has deep conversations with you more and more. you feel like what you two have is finally progressing, and your heart flutters every time you wake up at his place, your head on his shoulder or his in your lap after watching gameshow reruns all night. you feel your stomach absolutely exploding in butterflies at every domestic little thing happening between you two, even as simple as cooking breakfast or going out for a smoke

but there's tension rising between you two, something just waiting to be snapped. it's clear to everyone but you what's going on between your two "suitors" and how Ed's constantly on his toes. a few of your coworkers had half the mind to interfere and end this madness but they decided you two better solve all this out on your own

and you did. you did solve it out.

You were at his place again. At this point, you could say you slept over more than you didn't. Hell, you've already had your own drawer and shelf in the shower! It was as much your apartment as it was his. Not that you were complaining, of course. You could really see why some of your more nosey coworkers joked about you two already being married. I mean, c'mon, eating chinese take-out on his old couch, watching the Family Feud marathon up until midnight? It's like the definition of "Married Couple ActivitiesTM".

And this... this really was home for you. This stained couch, his sweatshirt hanging loosely from your frame, his constant talking about how some people were just plain-out stupid because how could they not know that? This is where you felt like you truly belonged. Cliche much, but it was true. It's like everything was in it's rightful spot, your back leaning on his side, your whole form being shaken with his movements as he got a little bit too emotional about a fucking gameshow, his smell surrounding you from every side, his arm wrapped around your collarbone to keep himself grounded. Everything was just right, and you felt happy. Content with how things were. Not quite perfect, but just enough.

Until your phone rang with a new message, disrupting the half-peace around you and startling you half to death. You were so used to having it on silent that when it suddenly beeped and vibrated against your stomach, you almost jumped out of your skin, nearly knocking your leftover food from your lap.

– Fuckin' hell. – you breathed out under your nose, holding up the take-out box to reach into the hoodie's pocket and retrieve the offending object. Ed gave no reaction, really, outside of automatically taking the food from you and putting it on the table, relaxing right back into the couch, his other arm still securely around you. God, why were his hands always so cold? And the bastard made it his mission to put them on your bare skin any chance he got. It was like having an icicle laying against your neck and shoulder.

You took a glance at your notifs to see who was interrupting this fine evening, when you felt a chuckle rippling out of your throat at seeing the contact ID. That man was absolutely insatiable. You're pretty sure he could compete with Edward on who's more persistent.

– And who's got you smiling like an idiot at your phone? – you could practically feel Ed's words crawling up your spine, you felt the vibrations travel through his body into yours. You didn't have to turn your head to know he was looking over your shoulder, this nosey fuck.

– It's just Rhodney. – you felt his muscles tense up, his head getting almost cheek to cheek with you to read the texts. You let him, not like there was anything to hide there.

– And what does he want that's so important he had to interrupt the show? – he muttered with an air of disdain, his breath whipping right past your cheek. You always found it funny how he reacted to anything even slightly related to Rhodney. Their hate for each other was clear, what with how they always seemed to hiss at one another like angry cats.

You leaned back into him a little more, crossing your legs over the armrests and forcing him to relax a little into the couch.

– Apparently a dinner tomorrow at seven. – you snorted, fingers hovering over your keyboard. Maybe if you paid more attention, you would've heard his breath hitch. – He's outdoing himself lately. At first, it was just a coffee date in some nook cafe. I've turned this into a little game - every time he asks me out, I make a ridiculous excuse as to why I can't go to see when will he finally get the hint. – you rambled on, clear amusement seeping into your voice as you spared a glance back at him. His eyes betrayed the little war going on in his head whether he should be disappointed or amused at your antics. You've never seen anyone with eyes so expressive as his. Looking into those baby blues could really make you believe eyes were the window to one's soul.

– Why not just tell him you don't want to so he pisses off? – was what he finally decided on. His voice was weirdly tense, like he was clenching his jaw or having trouble to even get the words out. It was completely out of character for him to have problems to say what's on his mind.

– It's more fun this way. – you decided to let it slide, instead opting to shrug off his inquiry and smirk under your nose as you looked back to your phone – What do you think I should tell him this time? Maybe... 'I need to watch my neighbours pet fish because he has separation anxiety'? – you chuckled, ready to type out your another incredible idea until you felt the arm on your collarbone tighten and his body shift under your back.

Suddenly, there was a hand holding the side of your head firmly.

– Maybe tell him this.

Before you had time to react, you could feel his mouth positively crashing against yours as he leaned over your form to gain better access. You could feel his heavy, trembling exhale hitting your face and his hand clenching in the fabric of the sweatshirt he gave you. But most importantly, you could feel his insistent, slightly chapped lips right against your own.

It took a while to register. Just that second too long to let doubts flood his brains at his impulsive decision, to make his fingers desperately squeeze tighter as he started to lean back, to probably spill his apologies, to drown in his self-loathing in humiliation but then your hands shot out to grab at his sweater and pull him right back in.

Fuck no, you've wanted this way too long for him to jut pull away. You've wanted to run your hands up his chest, to cup his face, to bite his lip and tangle your fingers in his hair, to-

He sat back gasping, having left you just as breathless, staring right into your eyes that still haven't fully gotten rid of the surprise you felt. None of you made a move to really pull back from each other, your fingers still tangled in his now-messy hair, his arms circling you safely, your breaths mingling with each other.

– Yeah, this one will get the point across. – you breathed out, still staring at him in bewilderment, wanting him to say something, anything about whatever the fuck just happened.

What you got instead was a slim but strong hand cupping the side of your neck and jaw, his nose brushing against yours as he whispered, right before frantically diving back in for seconds:

– It better.

#my writing #headcannons #fic #anonymous #edward nigma #edward nygma #riddler #the riddler #arkhamverse #batman arkham origins #fluff #some angst #the Yearning is Real #jesus h christ #i just fuckin #dove right into this one huh #hope thats okay #and that i didnt stray too far from the inital idea #this is my big comeback post bitches

[noteguk]

bad influence: collection

Status: ongoing

All stories are written out of chronological order. Please do not copy, repost or translate any of my works. I only post here on tumblr. 

The drabbles are part of the main storyline!

↳ more lore about the bad influence couple can be found under the “bad influence” tag! 

↳  spotify playlist // all texts // chronological order // bi extras

↳ BAD INFLUENCE

— summary; in which you know Jungkook is a bad influence on you, but you can’t avoid falling for him every time.

— contents and warnings; pwp, badboy!jk x goodgirl!reader, car sex, dirty talk, fingering, hair pulling, breast play, jk has a big dick and an attitude, unprotected sex (condoms are your friends), jk being kind of a douche, use of the word “slut”, cum eating, creampie, cockwarming, possessiveness, he slaps her ass like once, enemies to fuckbuddies pretty much

— words; 4.5k

→ drabble one: first meeting 

→  drabble two: mid-sex arguments 

↳ BAD BEHAVIOR 

— summary; in which staying late to volunteer at a self-help meeting was the best decision you made in a while. 

— contents and warnings; the endless adventures of badboy!jk x goodgirl!reader, public sex (in a church…), dirty talk, fingering, degradation (name calling) but also praise, unprotected sex, clothed sex, creampie, cum play, there is a window and also reflections, rough sex, cockwarming, jk being a lil shit because that’s his main personality trait, jk smokes (only mentioned), enemies to fuckbuddies: dawn of the first day 

— words; 8.2k

→ drabble three: hickeys 

→ drabble four: calming you down

→ drabble five: jungkook’s bday bj

→ drabble six: be quiet

↳ BAD REPUTATION 

— summary; in which you have to deal with some strange emotions for the first time.

— contents and warnings; smut, angst, fluff, the endless adventures of badboy!jungkook x goodgirl!reader, enemies with benefits/enemies to lovers ;), mutual pining, huge trigger warning for feelings (I know, gross), jk smokes, jealousy, a bit of possessiveness, the oc is Confused and Angry over nothing, Jisoo would trade jk’s soul for one corn chip, the oc gets shamefully drunk, vague mention of drugs (no use), mean arguments :((, the smut warnings include: dirty talk, unprotected sex (don’t be dumb), oral sex (female receiving), grinding, fingering, cockwarming, edging, multiple orgasms, begging, overstimulation, praise, dom!jk x sub!oc, breast play, creampie, orgasm control/denial  

— words; 19,6k (don’t mention it)

↳ BAD ATTITUDE

— summary; in which Jungkook finally learns how to behave. Kind of.

— contents and warnings; pwp, smut, badboy!jk x goodgirl!reader, enemies with benefits/enemies to lovers, brattysub!kook x dom!reader, actually more of a switch!kook/switch!reader, the oc is kind of a demon with teasing because payback is a bitch, bondage, edging, dirty talk, begging, oral (m receiving), female masturbation, cockwarming, unprotected sex (don’t be dumb), creampie, stuffing, Taehyung makes a cameo, terrible use of the two wolves meme I’m so sorry

— words; 7,2k

→ drabble seven: nerves 

→ drabble eight: night drive

→ drabble nine: pregnancy scare 

→ drabble ten: slow 

↳ BAD HABIT 

— summary; in which your little secret starts to get out of hand.

— contents and warnings; smut, sprinkles of fluff and angst, mutual pining, the endless adventures of badboy!jk x goodgirl!reader, enemies with benefits/enemies to lovers, smoking, mentions of alcohol, mention of vomit, jk and Jisoo are mortal enemies, Taehyung gets his eureka moment, and for the smut warnings: dirty talk, spit kink, dom!jk x sub!reader, breast play, rough sex, mild possessiveness, grinding, so much kissing, oral (fem receiving), cum eating, spanking, manhandling, bondage (using a belt… anyways so-), unprotected sex (don’t be dumb!!! this is fiction), very vague corruption kink, creampie, cockwarming (no one is surprised), praise, degradation makes a comeback (+ use of the word “slut”), the long awaited return of jk being mean, orgasm control/denial, oc kinda cries out of frustration but she’s having a good time, they are in love but are too dumb to realize

— words; 16,7k

→ drabble eleven: home

→  drabble twelve: sexting 

→ drabble thirteen: almost

→ drabble fourteen: sidetracked 

↳ BAD ROMANCE 

— summary; in which the two of you finally make it official.

— contents and warnings; gross fluff, a bit of angst, smut, badboy!jungkook x goodgirl!reader, enemies to lovers, honestly emotionally constipated idiots to lovers, so much mutual pining, cinematic parallels, cute dates, a spark of jealousy/possiveness (mostly playful), the return of car sex, dirty talk, breast play, dom!jk x sub!reader, fingering, spitting, oral (female receiving), cum eating, semi-clothed sex, unprotected sex (don’t be dumb!!), a fuckton of praise kink bc jk is going through it, another glimpse into the demon that lives inside the oc lol, begging, mentions of marking (hickeys), creampie, cockwarming (you already know), jk is whipped and he’s not even hiding it anymore, it’s official ladies!!!

— words; 18,4k

→ drabble fifteen: tribulation

→ drabble sixteen: too much, too little 

→ drabble seventeen: payback 

→ drabble eighteen: hold your breath

→ drabble nineteen: [redacted]

→ drabble twenty: feels like summer

↳ BAD KARMA 

— summary; in which you two can’t run from your problems any longer.

— contents and warnings; smut, fluff, a disgusting amount of angst, badboy!jungkook x goodgirl!reader, enemies to lovers, (not so) secret relationship, arguments, smoking, they take a break, everyone is sad, jisoo feels betrayed, more cinematic parallels to the previous parts, FINALLY the L word, two smut scenes!, dirty talk, breast play, so much kissing, soft sex, oral (m receiving), deepthroating, fingering, pet names, praise kink, 1 single spank, unprotected sex (don’t.), creampie, sentimental cockwarming lol, one (1) mention of “daddy” but more mockingly than as the actual kink, anyways this goes downhill really fast but it has a happy ending so hang on!!

— words; 23,7k

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