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when-did-this-become-difficult · 5 months

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me livestreaming the ohio senate in the minutes leading up to a vote that will determine whether or not gender affirming care is outright banned for minors: this is the bad place

"It also prevents doctors from prescribing hormones, puberty blockers or gender reassignment surgery before patients turn 18" per the Cincinnati Enquirer.

#j.2023.all #ohio #us politics #wow cool another new flavor of hopelessness amidst the enshittification of everything!!!!!! we love to see it!!!!!!!!#'parental rights' except if your kid is trans then no rights for you.#i kind of want to do the usual tumblr thing of imagining creative violence to let off steam but it does nothing i think. like it doesnt eve #do anything for me in these circumstances i just feel that dread of #we're in that part of the horror movie where we're watching people get picked off one by one #i have no weapons to speak of. cool #im watching this woman's face twist with emotion as she talks about trans suicide rates and i think she knows what i know #which is that she may make a valiant effort but it will mean nothing #and tomorrow the sun will rise and the legislation will have passed and the world will be a worse rates #and in ohio that suicide rate will tick up #and #idk theres nothing else to say really is there #this winter of 2023 has been really a uh. a time of political participation for me which is not unique #but what sets it apart is that each time i engage #the feeling of uselessness increases #the more i do things to try to help the more i sense that in fact it will all come to nothing and that the loss has already been secured #maybe really all i can do is either end of the spectrum. either get in there with the protesters or double the soup kitchen efforts.#because this democracy shit is severely not working #on the things which we need the most #the most basic. the most basic shit #sure yeah we kept abortion and all the clinics werent forced to close #but quite frankly what good does that do a trans kid who isnt pregnant #no im serious idk how much more of this i can handle #biden got some green funding through the inflation reduction act oh cool but literally what good does that do to the kids getting pummelled #from every side with starvation infection trauma and actual bombs. nothing. they don't care about that at all #and i dont know...if i can pretend to myself that i should care about that at all #im watching this guy read out the senators last names now

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plantaagomaajor · 4 months

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thinking about Kavinsky, who's almost convinced himself that he's God, only realizing just how powerless he is when Proko dies and he can't do anything about it. oh, he can dream copy after copy after copy but none of them are quite right. none of them are Proko.

no matter how powerful Kavinsky is, he can never do the one thing that he wishes for the most. Proko, the real Proko, Kavinsky's Proko, is gone forever

#i've been thinking about them recently.........#rhatliarehgliuarhgulrhglurehgluhgls #can you IMAGINE how K feels?????????? his dreaming is worthless for the FIRST TIME.#K IS his dreaming; it's his defining thing; it's how he sees himself... if his dreaming is worthless then isn't Kavinsky himself worthless?#think about the longing; the desperation that increases with every failed attempt #the grief; the fear; the self-hatred- how useless is he? all these drugs; cars; a new father; and he can't bring back the most important-#person in his life. thinking that this is something he SHOULD be able to do right??? he should be able to and he wants it like he's never-#wanted anything in his life but he just keeps failing and failing and failing #do you think he cries? that he screams every time he wakes up and the dreamed copy is wrong? that he sleeps all day for the chance to do-#better next time?#do you think that he cries every time he has to kill a copy; no matter how wrong it was?#how overwhelmed by grief and horror he must be; having to kill things that look like proko over and over again #do you ever think about Kavinsky burning himself to the ground in his desperation to see his Proko again?#AAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!#prokopenko #joseph kavinsky #the dream thieves #proko #the dream pack #prokopinsky #I know I'm not being very eloquent lol but just herlahlrhluahrgarheg

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persephonebutdepressed · 20 days

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it's funny that i seek academic validation like it's water and i'm dehydrated, but for some inexplicable reason i can't for the life of me concentrate for the test i have tomorrow on my favourite subject

#this makes me feel so bad about myself #i'm literally useless right now #i can feel the self-loathing increase #sorry for being depressing #who said uni life would be fun #uni life #depressing shit #my thoughts #ers

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running-in-the-dark · 5 months

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aw man. for a minute there I thought I might be allowed to take Ibuprofen again since I stopped taking the antidepressant that I was on. but sadly no, you're also not supposed to take it when you're on the anxiety medication I'm on 😔

#I guess I could take it anyway... but the leaflet says not to so I won't #this reminds me of thr last qtime I went to the ER because of my stomach pain (that turned out to be gallstones)#before I went there I called the.. idk on call emergency doctor or whatever #and it was this awful awful woman. anyway she said I should just take Ibuprofen so I said I'm not allowed to take that because it's a #blood thinner and I'm not allowed to take those #and she was really mad and said no it's not. it's pain medication 🙄#I was in so much pain and also kind of stunned by her reaction so I just. hung up #like I know it's not. I guess technically considered a blood thinner? but it does increase the risk of bleeding and that's why you can't #take it with certain other meds #which I think is irrelevant tbh. it's pretty clear what I meant and it's kind of. scary that this doctor would tell someone who says they'r #not allowed to take Ibuprofen to take it anyway. especially since I was having extremely bad stomach pain with no known cause at that point #like that feels dangerous #but anyway what do I know (nothing)#I miss Ibuprofen though 😔 I hate paracetamol #personal #cw medical #(also just. generally. being told to 'just take Ibuprofen' when you've already told this person that you've taken a looot of stronger pain #meds already and they're not doing anything at all is just. wow such great advice thank you! so helpful!)#(I mean I'm glad she was useless because that's why I went to the ER and they finally found out what's wrong. but still 🙄)

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criminalizegolf · 1 year

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HEY, NEURODIVERGENT PERSON!! (like me)

DOES YOUR WORLD OPERATE UNDER NONSENSE, ARBITRARY RULES? (like mine)

ARE YOU GULLIBLE AND EASY TO TRICK? (like me)

THEN I HAVE A TRICK FOR YOU!!! (it works for me and maybe for you too)

Convince yourself there are "free actions" (calling them cantrips also works but it is extremely nerdy) that can be performed without using spoons! This works best with tasks that only use up a small amount of energy, so probably don't try and make cleaning the bathroom a free action bc it probably won't work.

by tricking myself into believing that brushing my teeth is a free action that I can perform at any time (bc of ttrpg logic or something), I can now brush my teeth twice a day without using up any spoons (bc it's a cantrip that I can perform without a spellslot, I mean spoon)

#this is advice coming from someone with 0 qualifications beyond living more than 2 decades with a Useless Goblin Brain #so take it with a grain of salt and dont feel bad if it doesnt work for you #bc my being kinda fluid and irrational has definitely increased the effectiveness of this method #but #mental health advice #?#hopefully?#can you tell i like parenthese #and that i cant spel parenthecese #i really dont think this is in any way backed by medical science

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gatheryepens · 6 months

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Cut myself at work today rip :/

#was making a wrap #and went to cut it #but I think my hand placement was off #so cut my thumb as well #I’ve never cut myself at work #so I didn’t know what to do #but went to a supervisor told him #and just cleaned it off in the toilets and put a plaster on it #then wore gloves for the rest of my shift #I also had a meeting today #sadly it wasn’t a review #and it was an induction #pretty useless #but since I had time to kill I talked to my manger about increasing my contract #and she said she will let the manger who sorts that out know #and that I just have to msg her about it as well #luckily I have to msg her anyway about asking for some time off #which I feel really bad about #but it’s kind of important #worst thing she could say is piss off in a nicer way 😭😭#but I’ve asked for not next week but week after friday/saturday off #so feel guilty but i need to stop feeling guilty #gatherrambles

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non-un-topo · 10 months

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Praying to every deity that my winter course “Female Masculinities” doesn’t get cancelled like all the other queer studies courses

#this is literally gender studies. but all people want to study is like.............. the wage gap.#this is why i haven't made any friends lol #i've been getting this degree long enough to notice a pattern. the queer studies courses are the first to get nixed #due to ''''''low enrolment''''''#but bro...... i'm literally here to study Gender.#also!! feeling a lot less angsty about my 'useless degree' this past year because of an increase in violence towards gender studies students #that sounds weird but let me explain: if an incel comes into a gender studies class with a knife with intent to harm or kill the students #and prof (this happened at the university of waterloo recently) then the topics i'm studying can't be useless yeah?#since the incels feel so threatened by what we're studying.#all this being said: i am fucking terrified all the time on campus. all the time. literally it could be me next #and there's been a lot of crime at my school and it keeps increasing.#but what am i gonna do about it #this is by no means new though. can't ever forget the montreal massacre.

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fukozawa · 2 years

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I think ive hit the worst art block I’ve ever experienced

#my art feeling meaningless cuz i feel meaningless #totally and completely useless all around #probably due to my ever increasing perpetual existential crisis that we all seem to be going through these days

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oglegoggle · 1 year

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Just like, I want to receive

#this is goggles #I want to be useless and lazy and be cared for #I want to be valued when I’m not being productive and motherly and responsible #I want to be loved when I’m pathetic and needy #I want to get back what I put in #I don’t want to always have to beg and grovel for scraps and prove myself worthy of those scraps by being Superman #I want to feel valued for just being #I want to share chores without having to parent them into doing theirs or outright having to do them myself because of their idiocy #I want to share expenses without having to hold their hand through how to write a budget that they ultimately won’t follow and then pay all #the bills myself anyway without any other contributions but increased expenses for their needs #I want to feel safe to express when I am hurting and work on solutions together #I want to be regarded with legitimate priority #I want to be cared for so dearly #I want to get top surgery and not worry about how I’m going to maintain the house and eat meals and manage meds while I recover #I want to be loved like genuinely loved not just when I’m useful or convenient or fun #I want to be loved when it’s hard and I need difficult care

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drinkcrywrite · 1 year

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I am begging people to stop putting commentary in their ao3 tags. We dont need to know your thought process for choosing tags, and if you feel like you need to modify a tag to better explain, we have "light" "mild" and "heavy". Please just put "mild breathplay" instead of of "breathplay" "but not really just a little bit". Or put "additional info in author's note" if you feel you really need to explain your tags.

#ao3 #x #i feel like an old man yelling from his porch #but the increasing number of fics eith tags like this is making me slightly nervous as well as irritated #the tag system on ao3 is phenomenal #but its going to end up useless is more people keep treating it this way #only tags go in tags #only summary goes in summary #author's commentary goes in author's notes #thats why it's there #also heads up in case people didnt know #but when you search for like a specific word or phrase in the 'search within results' field #it checks the author's notes too

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autistic-shaiapouf · 2 years

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GOING to start biting and killing

#thank you mr landlord for not telling me about the rent increase so i had to use my credit card bc i was $10 short in my checking!!!!#love the incompetence of the people around me!!! my docs my bank why are you all so useless!!!#bank switched me to paperless so to not send anything else to my house i fucking fled bc sending my credit card statements #wasn't very pog; doc told me i was anxious and hormonal and dismissed me and.#yall im just feeling really angry about how no one seems capable of doing the absolute bare minimum their job demands of them #i try to be understanding i really really do but how does this keep happening. that is all im asking. how. how. just tell me how.#AUGHHH #hoatm rants

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crystalis · 7 months

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here's some changes i'd make in dq11 so that spears are more useful for Serena:

buff the early-game spear skills: make Cattle Prod deal 2x damage vs Beasts (instead of 1.5x), and Deliverance deal 2x damage vs Undead (instead of 1.5x). bc both of those skills are really weak and should at least be equivalents of Dragon Slash for their respective targets imo

swap the placements of Party Pooper and Attack Power +15 on her Skill Tree, and decrease the cost of Party Pooper from 16 SP to 10 SP

the changed placement and decreased cost would let Serena learn Party Pooper much earlier (like around level 14, which is when she learns Woosh).. i think that's fair and reasonable bc Party Pooper is already a strictly worse version of Helichopter since it deals 90% damage rather than full damage. and on the offhand, the +15 attack would take a little bit longer to get to, which compensates for Cattle Prod and Deliverance being more powerful ..

and lastly i'd decrease the cost of Thunder Thrust from 18 SP to 16 SP

#i feel like these'd be cool changes that would make the decision between Spears/Wands more balanced and #at least give spears a niche for first half of Act 1 or something.#id love if Cattle Prod / Deliverance were stronger for Jade too because Multithrust is so OP in Act 1 that it maks everything else useless #and itd be nice to have some low cost moves that she could use sometimes #id also rearrange her skill tree the same as Serena's: swap Party Pooper with Attack Power +10 #and decrease the SP cost from 16 to 10 as well.#because Party Pooper is really jsut the most useless skill ever #id also change claws a bit so that they arent so outclassed by spears with jade... buff all claws attack power by around 1.1x #so the gap between claws attack-power and knives attack-power are less extreme #and buff the HP Absorption skills on her skill tree: increase the +10% to +15%#and later in Act 2 when her skill tree is expanded: the +20% to +25%#so that way the power gap between claws and spears isnt as huge (just slightly buffed claws power) and the HP absorption is a little bit #more significamt so theyd have more of a niche i think #spears would obviously still be a lot stronger but there'd at least be more reason to alternatively use claws

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opluffys · 11 months

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"c'mon, raise those hips for me."

you're trying, you really are.

"i'm tired," you whined, turning around to view ghost, laying on his back, looking reposed. he lazily rolled his hips upwards, fucking the last few inches of his fat cock into you. the moan that left you was muted by a large hand over your mouth, leather against your lips.

ghost quickly flipped you onto your stomach, watching as your spine curved to create such an alluring figure as yours. his hands were attached to the fat of your hips, fingers tracing the little marks and blemishes that further increased your beauty.

you felt his tip press right at your slit, impatient and greedy, you canted your hips backwards, a sorry attempt at getting him back inside your cunt. instead, this had resulted in a harsh slap against your ass, the sting blurred between pain and pleasure. a small cry left you as tears welled in your eyes, threatening to fall past your waterline.

"patience, sweetheart."

you sniffed, "don't be mean, simon..."

he chuckled, the low timbre having you pathetically clench around nothing. he pressed a chaste kiss at your back, "sorry, 'm sorry, love."

you knew he wasn't. that didn't matter, though.

without warning, he shoved his cock into your pussy, hearing your muffled whimper as he'd done so. "quiet, don't wanna wake up our little girl, do you?" his own voice was strained as he scolded you, beginning to set his own pace. unforgiving and harsh, making you lightheaded and dizzy.

you felt him right at your womb again and again and fucking again. you felt any semblance of your very sanity begin to melt away as he fucked you, so roughly that it almost had you begging for him to go easy on you.

ghost was used to being rather quiet, but you were fucking struggling. any sound from you could potentially ruin what the two of you had going on. and you couldn't take that, not after the lack of intimacy between you two since the birth of your baby.

"there we go, mama. fuckin' perfect." he groaned, watching you quiver underneath his impressive physique.

fuck, you couldn't possibly be quiet after such praise, a moan leaving your agape lips. ghost didn't seem to mind your sudden outburst. instead, the grip on your hips tightening, fucking into your wet and tight cunt with such a primal and desperate need.

he was fucking you like a thing void of a soul, like a rag doll. every single time you felt him back inside, he pushed you deeper and deeper into the mattress. your hands had felt useless, not even able to support your own weight. you offered them to him, feeling his lone hand take both of yours, anchoring himself to you without his pace even faltering. it was a reminder to you both that he's fucking huge, so strong and capable of easily overpowering you. it had you nearly sobbing, your insides squeezing him snugly.

you heard him curse behind you, filling you to the brim and staying still. you shifted, confused on why he'd stopped.

"think you can do somethin' for me, sweet girl?"

"anything, anything for you," you replied almost instantly, words slurred like you'd been inebriated.

"yeah?" ghost started, shallowly thrusting into your cunt. you could practically hear the grin he had on his face, seeming to enjoy your torment.

a small 'mhm' was all you could come up with, words barely being able to form over your tongue and past your lips. a small sob left you as you remained stretched open by him, unmoving.

"wanna have another baby." as he'd said so, he'd delicately traced the stretch-marks over your hips and thighs. his touches were filled with nothing short of reverence.

well, you certainly hadn't expected him to say that. your daughter wasn't even six months yet, your body barely even fully healed. yet, all you could do was give him a nod. once he'd gotten your answer, you felt his body against your back, his lips at your neck. you knew that there’d be marks there in the morning- but that didn’t matter, not when he began to resume that dizzying speed.

"give me a boy this time."

#fanfic #smut #cod mw2 #cod mwii #cod smut #cod x reader #ghost cod #ghost mw2 #ghost x reader #simon riley x reader #thanks for 6k omg <3<3

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windkonig · 1 month

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when people say "ok but x bug has no benefit to nature" I bet they can't even name 5 facts about the bug they're shitting on. so how could they Possibly know what its function is in the environment and if it's "useless" or not

wasps being the perfect example, I still get people saying "oh bees are cute and pollinate :) yay. but WASPS ARE EVIL and they don't contribute ANYTHING!!!" and it's like buddy. wasps pollinate too. they also control spider populations. they do a lot of great valuable things. but even if they didn't, they're still worthy of being here. I see SO much hatred toward wasps and I wish people would try to learn a little more about them.

I'm mainly talking about paper wasps here because these are common ones we run into in daily life and most commonly deemed "aggressive". but wasps have body language. and if you learn to read this language and learn how to properly act around them, things will go a lot better for you! wasps can be curious creatures and they may come up to observe you, especially if you're wearing something brightly colored. this can be startling for sure, but my best advice is to just be still, DO NOT SWAT or wave your arms. try to just back away or sidestep so it loses interest and leaves. swatting is just gonna make them feel as if they are being attacked and increase your chances of being stung.

many stings happen due to unfortunate but accidental circumstances. unknowingly getting too close to a nest, stepping on a wasp on accident, one getting stuck in clothing, etc. I got stung once while gardening, went to pull a weed and the wasp was on it, so I grabbed her without knowing and she stung me because she was scared. this doesn't mean "oh wasps are AGGRESSIVE and EVIL" it means you stumbled into an unfortunate situation where the wasps felt threatened and defensive. instead of being like "FUCK all wasps" go forward trying to learn about common nesting areas, be wary of holes in the ground, wear gloves while gardening, and if you do have to be around a nest, try not to make a lot of noise. if the nest absolutely needs removed, call a professional.

#michaelpost #bugs #insects #wasps #another bug rant post but this time i dont think people are ready to hear it #I see MORE hate lately toward wasps than I see toward spiders #and its very annoying bc wasps are an extremely diverse group of insects and have many functions and benefits #it sucks badly to see bees get adored but wasps get shit talked

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zhongrin · 1 month

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psssst Rin idea ehehe.... imagine having a remote control vibrator and alhaitham has the remote :))) that's it that's all bye //runs

crys.

...... must you send this while i'm on my period hauhdwhjfshdakhd

cw. minors dni, fem!reader, afab!reader, vibrator, self-indulgent shit bc i'm 1) in pain, 2) horny, and 3) just because i can. tldr; this is crys' fault /silly /lh

al haitham has your cycle memorized. it may sound like a useless thing to dedicate one of his brain cells for, but in his opinion, it really isn't. the common theories of the female hormones factors a lot into your mood and emotions, hence it makes a good tool to interpret your actions and outlines a specific guideline for him to act accordingly to make sure he continues to prove himself a suitable partner for you.

but sometimes, the man couldn't resist but just to tease you a bit.

and you look adorable in his eyes, all flushed and pouty like this.

"what's wrong? i thought someone said she wanted to 'get all the chores done before my uterus throws a tantrum for not getting to house a fetus'?" he asked, a little too nonchalantly, as he pressed buttons on the washing machine with one hand, the other sneaking into his pocket to play with the intensity of the little toy fitting snugly between your puffy folds.

"you're evil," you somehow managed to choke out, knees trembling as you held onto the edges of the sink, having to pause from cleaning the dishes at the heightened vibrations, "evil."

"that's not what you said last night with your legs wrapped around my w-"

"al haitham!!!"

"we're at home and kaveh's out to survey a project. i see no reasons for you to act unnecessarily demure."

you grumbled and muttered under your breath as you tried to wash the soap suds off the plates. a chuckle left your boyfriend's lips, and you feel a momentary relief when the buzz between your legs lessened into a hum.

key word here being 'momentary'.

you continued on ー wiping the plates dry, setting them onto the drying rack… as you reached out to open the cupboard drawer, the devil whispering in your beloved's ears seemed to have won the silent battle within his mind, for the bullet-shaped contraption seemed to increase in intensity with every seconds that passed. higher. higher. higher.

"h-haith- oh- fuck-" the quiver in your voice was palpable; arms steadying yourself onto the counter in a hurry. you were sure the dampness would have shown over your shorts by now; he'd been playing with that remote all morning, and it was driving you nuts.

perhaps it was that very desperation that prompted you to turn towards him with a pair of pleading eyes. perhaps it was your hormones going haywire that made you latch onto him and whine like a bunny in heat, your hands roaming across broad muscles, hips canting towards the growing bulge beneath those grey sweatpants.

oh, you really, truly look adorable when you were insatiably horny, he thought.

"…. fine. consider it my duty to finish the chores later," lush greens zeroes on the trickle of slick slipping down your thigh, the swipe of his tongue across his lips unconscious yet felt like added desire into your already heated loins.

"for now, i suppose your duty is to be thoroughly spoiled by me."

#genshin impact #genshin smut #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #al haitham x reader #al haitham #rin writes #minors dni #rin answers #rin is having tea with: crys 🧡

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a1tie · 10 months

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𝓢𝓾𝓻𝓹𝓻𝓲𝓼𝓮…

A small smut fic of you and Giyuu fucking in the bedroom…except…

NSFW! RECOMMENDED 16+

A/N: If you like music, I recommend reading this while listening to Say Yes by Floetry! >.<

word count: 386

warning tags: No plot.

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Breathing…panting..whining..moaning…

The dim-lit bedroom just gets hotter and hotter as the heat between your bodies and your breath fill the air. Giyuu towers over you, his body between your legs as one is over his shoulder for easier access. Your walls seemed to be everything he ever wanted, as he grunts and moans every thrust he makes. You loll your head to the side, your tits bouncing every inward push. Giyuu grabs your chin and redirects your head to face him. You whine as you both lock eyes.

“Keep your eyes on me.”

You have to admit. You looking at Giyuu and taking in the view of him enjoying himself gets you even more turned on. There isn’t a lot of times when his usual demeanor is ruined by your inner walls clenched around his cock, fucking you senseless.

He takes his hand off your chin as he places it beside your head. The way your head stayed in place even when he let it go, and you still maintaining eye contact with him sent a shock of pleasure. Such an obedient girl, no?

Your legs started to jerk as you moaned and slurred your words. The sensation of being filled and empty again repeatedly threw you off the edge. Your eyelids flutter as you rolled your eyes to the back of your head. You grab onto his haori, clumsily missing it the first time from the seemingly unending pleasure.

“Rig..hah…right there. Right thERE~” The intensity of your words increased as your feet pointed and curled. You arch your back, gripping the sheets of the bed. Your legs start to shake violently. As soon as you clench your pussy, he lets out a loud grunt as he bites his lower lip. His grunts continue as ropes of semen land in you. The feeling was overwhelming. You controlled yourself, slowly exhaling whines and moans as he keeps inserting to let his and your high subside. He grabs your breast for useless support, and leans down to kiss you. You and his tongue intertwine, hands touching sensually in places that you never knew were so sensitive. This is the third time you both have been so desperate for each other. When will this progress? You will never know, but the scandal sure does arouse you.

'*•.¸♡ ♡¸.•*'

mwah!~ based on a request from one of my mutuals on Tiktok!

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