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consularmain · 7 months

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Alliance Commander Ask Game

THE WAY I SCREAMED WHEN I FOUND THIS IN MY DRAFTS. I was tagged a very long time ago by @sullustangin to do this and I completely forgot

1) Who’s your Alliance Commander? What class are they? Alignment? Random other facts you wanna share?

My Jedi Knight is my canonical Commander for my legacy. Her name is Minerva and she’s been through a lot of changes since I started playing her in 2018. She is a Guardian tank with a Shadow secondary class. She’s trapped at Light 5 because of how the old alignment system worked, but I headcanon she’s closer to Light Three. She has one of the most detailed backstories I've ever made for a character and I'm so proud of her :') She's like my child lol

2) What’s a reason or two you like that this character is your Commander? Minerva is not and never wanted to be a leader in any way and I live for that kind of inner conflict. Plus the expansions feel very natural with the Knight as the Commander imo.

3) What’s a reason or two you don’t like about them being Commander? I can’t think of anything other than I wish the writers would let her get some rest. Give me a cutscene where she's just enjoying being with her friends and boyfriend pls

4) Why did this character of all your OCs become Commander? Like I said earlier, it felt natural for Minerva to continue her fight against Vitiate and she was also the first character I got to endgame before Onslaught came out so she's just fixed as the Commander in my mind.

5) Who did they side with? Did they stay loyal or go saboteur? Or maybe you headcanon they defect properly? Minerva decided to side with the Republic, but she kept the Alliance separate and declined the offer to become a member of the Order again. She believes in the Republic but she hasn’t been a Jedi for a long time – even before she was put in the carbonite. And it would be incredibly inappropriate given a new “attachment” in her life.

6) Are there any NPC’s from the class stories you’d like to see/HC join the Alliance? Ex: Master Timmns, Ardun Kothe, Watcher One, etc. Lord. PRAVEN. In my hc, he was on Ossus during kotfe/kotet and joins the Alliance after Onslaught. He's Minerva's bestie and the writers can't take this away from me.

7) How’s your OC feeling about the current Malgus situation? She's over it, honestly. She is so tired of people coming back from the dead.

8) Are any of your other OC’s part of the Alliance? If yes what do they do for the Alliance? Do they get along with your Commander?

My Chiss trooper, Jame Harper, is Minerva's cousin but they're closer to sisters. Harper had given up hope she was still alive and attacked Zakuul to avenge her. Once she joins the Alliance, Harper is responsible for training new recruits and strategizing for the big battles.

After the incident on Dromund Kaas, Acina sent her Wrath to Odessen to show the Empire’s support. Tegan and Minerva’s old rivalry picked up right where it left off but now that they're on the same side, they actually start to respect each other. They become frenemies but it doesn't last long.

Freya and her Clan join Torian on Odessen and are responsible for keeping the peace between Imperial and Republic personnel. Freya knows Minerva doesn't have much family so she takes on an almost motherly role, fussing over her and making sure she takes care of herself.

My Smuggler, Lyall, is Minerva's eyes and ears in the Outer Rim. He's a friend to the Alliance, not an actual member, but he appreciates what they're trying to do. He and Minerva share a history so it's no big deal for him to help out on the occasional mission.

9) How does your OC feel about Odessen? (Bonus: how do you feel about it) Despite all the craziness around her, Minerva feels at peace on Odessen - something she's not felt in a long time. She loves the wild forests and the endless lakes and rivers. It feels like home. She's never felt that way about anywhere before, not even the Jedi Order. I personally love Odessen. I wish there was a stronghold on Odessen so I could decorate it to Minerva's tastes.

10) How does your Commander feel about being the Commander? To say Minerva has a complicated relationship with it would be an understatement. Some days, it's great. She's doing more for the galaxy than she ever could as a Jedi. But sometimes she realizes just how many lives will be effected by her decisions and she feels trapped. She doesn’t feel anyone should ever have so much power. But she's lucky to have such a strong support system behind her and they make it bearable.

11) Favorite place in the Alliance base? Minerva's favorite is the little pool at the base of the statue in the Force Enclave. She meditates for hours in the sunlight coming in through the crack in the ceiling. As for mine, it has to be the war room. I love seeing my companions just vibing with each other.

12) Favorite mission in KotFE? Definitely visiting the old world on Zakuul with Senya. I wish we got to see more of it or at least get a Zakuulan stronghold but I doubt the story will ever bring us back to Zakuul :(

13) Favorite mission in KotET? The palace mission, just because it's where we get Arcann lmao

14) Least favorite mission in either? Why? The walker missions are brutal. Except for the one on Iokath. That one is so much fun lol

15) Is your Commander successful because they’re skilled? Or are they perhaps just really lucky? Minerva has worked hard to hone her body and mind into a weapon, but she also believes the Force is on her side as long as she listens to it. To her, luck doesn't exist.

16) From our OC’s point of view, SoR -> KotET wasn’t a fun experience, did they develop any fears as a result? A lot of her fears were realized. She was abandoned by the people she trusted and the Jedi Order, the only constant in her life, was practically wiped out. Valkorion was once again in her head and the fear of him taking over at any given moment made her distance herself from the people around her in order to protect them. It was the loneliest period of her life.

She also has a fear of public speaking so she hates it when she has to give speeches to encourage people.

17) AU time! If your Commander wasn’t Commander, which of your other OCs would have likely taken their place? Harper has a habit of falling into positions of leadership despite her loner attitude. I can see her somehow accidentally becoming Commander in Minerva's place because no one else stepped up.

18) Who’s someone your Commander hopes they never have to deal with again?

19) Does your Commander hold on to/still use any titles they earned before KotET? Minerva's begun to let go of her old life but she doesn't mind being called "Master" or "Battlemaster" by other Jedi. She earned those titles so it's a sign of respect for her.

20) Share something, anything at all, you want about your Commander that you’ve not really gotten the chance to share before but really want to. Minerva loves trashy entertainment. Holovids, shows, books - it doesn't matter, she loves it all. It's antithesis to everything she was used to growing up that she found it so compelling. She's also a sucker for those romance books you see in line at the grocery store.

#swtor #the old republic #jedi knight #oc: minerva #alliance commander ask game

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uselessmicrowave · 10 months

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hey i wanted to request a match-up since i saw your match-up requests are open, if that's alr!!! id prefer MTMTE Lost Lighters and/or G1 or TFP Decepticons

Appearance: thick 2C/3A curly dark blond & purple hair at shoulder length. buglike blue eyes and lip piercings ; vertical labret + dolphin bites. 2 tattoos, one of my passed away kitten and 1 of a praying mantis on my arm. im tall and awkwardly portioned due to ehlers danlos. lots of keloid scars and a bit fuzzy. slight baby face. pale as frick frack and translucent skin with veins showing.

Pets: 7 CATS. 2 dogs. 1 ball python and a small colony of madagascar hissing cockroaches. i am an avid animal lover and a nerd about all their behaviors, biology and habitat preservation.

Fav foods: RAW GREEN BEANS, vegetable fried rice, hashbrowns and eggs, s'mores, pesto pasta ; not vegetarian / vegan but prefer ethical sourcing of food and have my own garden.

Style: flexible but usually comfortable hippie goth / casual 70s . almost everything i own is green and brown, but I also have lots of purple stuff (fav colour)

Hobbies & interests: chalk art, painting, drawing, metal bands lead by girls, dubstep, entomology, mycology, dragons, robots/ai, TRANSFORMERS, aliens/ufos, lucid dreaming, tarot cards, a solarpunk society, anti-capitalist

Smarts: bugs, animal and human health + biology, fungi, symbiotic relationships in nature, communication, being a mediator, giving advice

Bad habits: I've picked at my skin since I was a baby, as I have ocd + dermatillomania. because of it i am littered with bumps, scars, and can't shave due to ingrown hairs or risking making a scrape and then scratching until im sent to the er weeks later with cellulitis. i also have problems focusing and have a dissociative disorder that makes me not myself. i have bad anxiety that i cope with well, but if i stay up late i can overthink myself into a sobbing fit for no reason.

My personality: my friends describe me as WEIRD. my mom says im an alien. i would say that the people i know and i all agree i am creative, artsy and kind of an old soul. im patient sometimes but also get overwhelmed by certain situations because im autistic and can't multitask. i love helping others and when spending time with friends i like to make them gifts or play outside with them and look for bones or cool plants, or roleplay warrior cats with my besties. i have "childish" interests but am mature and independent, and am a caretaker. i had a rough upbringing and as an adult i feel like i heal my inner child everyday by living as autistic as possible.

whew that was long. anyways, thank you, feel free to ignore!!!!!! just wanted to shoot a shot bc these match up things always look fun lol. thanks!!!!! XP

Hello! Apologies I only wrote for one of the continuities. I’m matching you with TFP Megatron!

Megatron

He’ll get you more purple clothing to match him.

Grabs your hands and holds them when you’re picking at your skin, then he’ll carry you to the medbay for Knockout to patch you up.

Megatron believes that seven cats is a bit… obnoxious, but nevertheless will make room for all of your pets.

Jokes about your bug colony being an army… he thinks it’s hilarious that you have an insect army of your own.

Megaton holds you close to his spark when you overthink things/start to cry.

Everything is weird on the Nemesis, so you’re not out of place on the ship to him.

He does his best to appreciate and support all of your interests, even if he sees them as childish.

At least once a week he’ll take you to a new foresty area, where you can “observe all the different types of mushrooms and squirrels you want.” He’ll usually sit in a clear-ish area and watch you frolic through the trees.

#micro matchups #tfp #transformers prime #tfp x reader #megatron #tfp megatron #megatron x reader #tfp megatron x reader #tfp knockout #knockout

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alexjcrowley · 2 years

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Tag yourself "Ancient Rome main characters but it's just very violent personal attacks" - Augustus's principate edition:

Gaius Julius Caesar "Augustus"

if you're honestly thinking to tag yourself as him what the fuck is your problem, your self-esteem is sky rocketing, you shouldn't be on Tumblr, you should be on Tik Tok

you take the lead in group projects and do 90% of the work because you think you're the only one who can it right

everybody better treat you like royalty otherwise bold of them to presume you'd let bitches talk mad shit about you

frail health though, stay safe baby

favourite quote "I was born for politics. I have great hair, and I love lying"

calm down I'm sure you'll get that college admission letter, no need to be dramatic and start threatening you'll ki** yourself if you don't get in

Marcus Antonius

burnout gifted kid

like honestly you had your whole life planned and then oopsie everything comes crashing down

aw, you want daddy's approval? Don't we all?

you're like an only child, or the eldest child. Then some bitches came along and you were forced to share.

If that's not a mummy sorry mummy sorry mummy sorry you ain't hitting that (or daddy ;))

you love giving pep talk, reminds you of the time people used to look up to you

Gaius Cilnius Maecenas

light academia, dark academia, chaotic academia, the point is: academia

your friends are the most interesting thing about you

you surrounded yourself with artists and creative types, such a shame you aren't one of them

you're that person who'd shout "THAT'S MY BEST FRIEND" when your friend does something incredibile, but nobody will ever do that for you

so how's life standing on the sidelines?

at least you're not bitter about it (or you're very good at hiding it, let's be honest)

supportive bestie

wasn't kidding about great taste in friends, your friendships are very elite and everybody wished they were in your inner circle, make 'em wish, darlin

Publius Vergilius Maro (Vergil)

COUNTRY ROOOOOOOOADS, TAKE ME HOOOOOOOOOME

cottagecore

as a society WE NEED to retreat to the country and go back to peak of human civilization: farming

you're cooler in theory than in practice

massive introvert

you just want a cottage and some books and maybe some plants and a pet and free time, is that too much to ask?

Yes, because that shit's a fever dream, you wouldn't last a day in a real farm, get your head out of your ass

Quintus Horatius Flaccus (Horace)

you think you're funny. You're the only one to think that.

self deprecative humour for the win

your superpower is infodumping. Sure, everybody does it once in a while- but they way you do it. Wow.

you're a tiny gay, a petite homosexual, if you will

wittiness is one of the many qualities you believe to possess

how are you handling those five mental breakdowns a day?

Guess what, clean air, drinking water and reading outside won't cure your identity crisis

Publius Ovidius Naso (Ovid)

you listen to doja cat unironically. And no, I don't mean "I like her beat", I mean you listen to the lyrics of doja cat unironically.

you're a slut, but, if you're reading this, it mean you're on Tumblr, so probably you're more of a theoritical slut

gossip girl xoxo

when people come to ask you for dating advice you feel like an old french prostitute recalling the glorious days of your youth

you think you're incredibly more interesting than you actually are

like, face it, if you were that great people wouldn't leave you on read

God it's like two weeks in the country at you grandparents's house there's no need to start complaining to all your friends you're in "exile", the wi-fi isn't even that bad, you're just a drama queen

you once dreamed of living in London or New York or Paris, don't lie to me

I hope people are actually know what I'm referencing in this or some things might sound very weird or mean out of nowhere (they're instead mean for a reason)

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knightofhylia · 11 months

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Deck Review - The Tarot by Oliver Hilbert

June 6, 2022

by eli

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This is The Tarot by Oliver Hibert. I got this deck as a gift from Avery <3. He ordered it in my name because I had something else coming so it was a nice surprise! This is by far my most expensive deck and one of my favourite to show off. I also just found out they have an Oracle Board as well, so you already know, as well as this sick ass Colouring Book. The artwork is beautiful, and I highly suggest checking out Oliver’s other stuff if you like classic psychedelic eyeballs.

Booklet

Ok so this deck doesn’t actually come with a guide, but there is a little booklet explaining his background a bit. Basically he says that he doesn’t believe in making a guide because it’s up to the reader to interpret. It is organized like a traditional Raider-Waite but with one extra Magic card as a wild card. You can tell in the cards how much work was put into this. Classic ink and paper art tends to get looked over a lot but the lines on this deck are incredibly crisp. Despite being marker there are like no bleedover spots and the colours are fun and vibrant. It is a sin and a crime that I don’t have a blacklight to take pictures with yet but as soon as it happens it’s gonna look sick af. I love all the tiddies, ooze, and green pubes.

Spirit

I showed this deck to my husband because I was like 'lol this is Sai' so it was very obvious who was in this deck. Sai is less 'drunk girl hyping you up in the bathroom' and more 'overlooked prophet tweaking outside of the gas station proclaiming 'I am the beast I worship'. Like, I was just there to get a drink but, you know, he ain't wrong. Offerings are very easy with him, he'll take whatever you got if you offer. He first came to me as a child when I was a huge weeb. He's seen me at my worst and my best and knows that bitching and crying doesn't change shit. He is the embodiment of 'I am cringe, but I am free'. Once I met him again as an adult in a trance he told me he was taking me to hell and then we went to 711 lmao.

Reading Style

Because there isn't a guidebook for this deck I usually go off of intuition with a quick glance at my Tarot app. His tone is often a little harsh but it's the truth. This isn't the bestie who's gonna let you go back to your ex this is the bestie who hexed him for cheating on you. He's there to support you in whatever bad habit you want to give into but you're going to pay your dues when they come. You COULD go apeshit, drink, smoke, hook up or whatever, but don't get mad when shit goes wrong. If you tried your best and shit still went wrong, he'll help turn it into a shitshow. Not everyone makes the right choices but you can still make the best of it.

Suggested Readings

His specialty is shadow work, people who are in bad situations that are out of their control (shitty relationships, shitty housing, shitty jobs), parent issues, inner child issues, trauma in general, dealing with curses/hexes, and to see people's true nature (including your own).

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chrisevansonly · 1 year

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Hi! Can Momma give me some advice? I have a 4yo little boy and am 20 weeks pregnant. I was really hoping for a little girl, especially because I don't plan to have any more kids. I found out yesterday that I'm expecting another boy, and I'm so excited to meet the new little guy, but I can't stop thinking about the little girl I was hoping for. I was really involved in Girl Scouts and imagined taking her to Daisy meetings, things like that that just aren't quite the same with a boy, even with being super supportive of gender diversity. I feel really sad but also super guilty. If I was one of Momma's besties, what would she say to me when I told her how I feel?

I think overall she’d be super understanding and validating in all your feelings. It’s totally and completely normal what you’re going through, and honestly being open and vulnerable like you are shows how great of a parent and person you are! Sometimes it’s hard to experience girl guides, and you know traditionally feminine activities growing up and wishing for a daughter, only to find out your having another son. Having sons are beautiful as well, and I bet your boys will grow up to be such sweet kids, teens and adults.

I wonder if maybe seeing about Boy Scouts would help to bring some of that nostalgia back for you? Although not the same, it could help to bring that inner child of yours some comfort?

I think it’s normal to feel guilty, honestly everyone has their moments of trepidation etc, but that doesn’t make you a bad person or someone who isn’t worthy of love and creating a loving and supporting environment for your children.

Maybe journaling could help as well? Have your own space and time either in the mornings, or at the end of the day, making a nice mug of tea or your favourite thing to drink, find a quiet space and just journal? Sometimes that can help us to connect with our feelings and emotions in an outlet that gives us control so we’re not feeling all this guilt about the situation we are in.

Above all lots of love and hugs in your direction, because it’s not easy being a mother and you’re out here being amazing and strong, providing for your son, and little baby boy, you’re doing more than most out here, and I hope you know you’re doing a great job🤍

#rueswrites #ruesanswers #ruesfriends💛#rues chats<3 #ruesthoughts

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zenithofart · 2 months

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Summer Blast! Zenith Art Classes - Where Creativity Takes Flight!

We all know parents are now looking to engage their kids in some learning activity to keep them cool, creative, and having a blast? Summer's here, and the kiddos are bursting with energy. Look no further than Zenith Art Classes!

We've got a whole summer jam-packed with awesome workshops that'll turn your child into a superstar! Whether they love to move and groove, make beautiful music, or become a mini Picasso, we've got something for everyone.

Unleash the Inner Star!

Masterpiece Makers! Calling all Picassos! Our art & craft camps are bursting with creative projects using paint, clay, and more! Mundan Magic! Learn the cool art of Mehandi designs (henna) - perfect for summer and adding some sparkle! ✨ More Than Just Fun!

These camps are more than just a way to keep the kids busy. They'll help your child develop:

Confidence: Shine bright like a diamond with the skills and creations they'll be proud of! New Besties! Make awesome friends in a fun and supportive environment. Brain Power! Art keeps those little brains growing strong and sharp. Super Skills! Improve dexterity and hand-eye coordination with drawing, Mehandi designs, and other creative activities. Make Summer Unforgettable!

Don't let summer be a snoozefest! Zenith Art Classes is the place to be for a summer filled with laughter, learning, and unleashing that creative spark! Call us today to reserve your spot in the coolest summer camps in town! We can't wait to create with you!

#artand craft #art classes jaipur #mahendiclasses #heena #mahendi design

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adviceformefromme · 3 years

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Breaking down what ‘do the inner work’ actually means and looks like...

1. MAKE PEACE WITH YOUR PAST. Your shadow will continue to rule your future unless you learn to make peace with it. Learn to connect the dots, understand why you feel triggered when x happens? Why you're so fucking angry when x says that thing? Know that these emotions are all connected to your past, your traumas, your beliefs (that you most likely made as a child). Unless challenged and changed your old beliefs will continue to plague your life. The best way to understand how your past is affecting your future is through therapy. I recommend cognitive behavioural therapy which lasts for 8-12 weeks meaning your not stuck in life long therapy discussing the same issues (attracting more energy to your pain). No, the purpose of this is to understand and clear your wounds. Once you can connect the dots, you can start to understand yourself better.

2. LOOK WITHIN. When you're hurt, upset, triggered instead of projecting back from a wounded place, or seeking validation from others to feel better you look within. This involves becoming your own fucking guru. You sit there alone when you feel like shit, you pull out your journal, and you unleash all your thoughts on to paper and start to make sense of whats coming up for you. The less you can rely on external sources to feel better when hurt / stressed the better. If journaling is not your thing, speak to a coach or therapist.

3. CHANGE YOUR BEHAVIOUR. This will be tough, and will feel like you're trying to swim upstream against the mother-fucking-current, but believe me, once you start to break free from these old habits, you can finally let go of those paper shackles holding you hostage all this time. Changing your behaviour looks like, not calling your bestie to validate your irrational behaviour. Not lashing out, not relying on other people to make you feel whole and complete. Pausing. Checking yourself before you say/ react from a place of regret. Once you know better, you do better.

4. RE-PARENT YOURSELF. This is a big one. when you’re hurt and healing, you need that loving and comforting support. This is where you re-parent yourself. You check in with yourself. You find out what you need. Extra love? Care? Attention? This is all what you provide for yourself, especially when it comes to men. What you desperately seeking from them is what you’re failing to give to yourself. This is where you learn to nurture yourself. Re-parenting can look like an open dialogue in your journal asking yourself what you need and listening to the answer. This can be daily, weekly. You make fucking time.

5. BURN THAT FUCKING SAGE. Clear your energy. Do what you need to do to align your energy. This could also look like a salt bath, grounding in nature (walking bare foot), to make peace with yourself. Going for a run, dancing a yoga class. This is what the inner work looks like, doing what you need to balance your energy from a healthy place.

6. READ books that encourage growth and understanding of self. Go to the book store, pick something out that resonates with you. Once you understand your triggers, why you get angry, hurt or keep attracting men that reflect the same wounds your parents inflicted on you. The more you understand this, the more AWARENESS you have to not attract similar situations, you become more clear in your understanding of yourself, your awareness is razor sharp and you learn to act from a place of love.

7. FORGIVE. Are you going to let your past rule your future? Learning to forgive yourself, those who hurt you is crucial for your healing, otherwise you’ll be living in your shadows. Get on google and find a forgiveness meditation. Read books on forgiveness. This might be a process. But if you’re harbouring resentment, this will rule your life until you make peace with it.

8. COMPASSION. For self, for those that trigger you. Imagine yourself as a small child, that needs love and care. That's level you need to hold for yourself. Once you reach this level of compassion and consideration for yourself, this will ripple out and you’ll notice more compassion for those around you. But it starts within.

9. LIFE IS A MIRROR. This is core of the inner work, remembering that every unpleasant experience is a mirror of what you need to heal. You are being directed to your wounds. Stop looking outwards for blame. Look within. Physically where does it hurt. Emotionally, what is coming up? Write these down. Anger, abandonment, rejection? Whatever emotions you feel, spend time dissecting and working with these emotions. Understand them, study them, these are are your dots that will connect you to your inner healing,

#levelupjourney #selfhealing selfgrowth strength healyourself thepowerofnow

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atsumuahh · 3 years

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“ SECRET LOVER ” dreamwastaken

characters !

dreamwastaken, wilbur’s twin!reader, technoblade, philza, tommyinnit, wilbur soot, karl, sapnap, georgenotfound, drista, tubbo.

summary !

when reader chooses the dsmp high everything seems to be great, but things gets complicated when her brand new crush turns out to be her oldest brother’s rival. it gets even more complicated when he asks her out.

warnings !

swear words, usage of dream’s real name

notes !

dream as a football team captain rent free in my head... and i’m also sorry that it took me so long to write… its almost 3k words and not proofread!

taglist !

@wilczachannn

it was easy to assume that you had been in your brothers’ shadows. techno, wilbur and tommy were talented, football players with great, great achievements. the only thing you wanted was a big change in your life, so when you graduated from the middle school and it came up to making a big decision on choosing high school, you chose the dsmp high – school located an hour away from your house.

you remember your first day at school. the day started awfully. tommy woke you up with a loud yell at – as you rightly guessed – wilbur, who stole his phone and texted to his crush. it turned out that you had twenty minutes left to get ready and leave for bus and not be late. well... you were late on the bus, but thankfully your dad promised he’ll drop you off at school.

phil couldn’t be more proud of you. for real, he knew how hard it was for you to choose different school from techno, wilbur and tommy (everyone know he’ll go after his brothers). you were miserable through your whole middle school, because no one ever noticed you as your own person, only as wilbur’s twin sister, techno’s younger sibling or the only sister of tommy. it cause you to slowly losing yourself and becoming a female version of your brothers. so when you spoke to him about the idea of the dsmp high, he couldn’t get happier.

fortunately, dad dropped you off fifteen minutes before your first period started. wandering around the new school, looking for people you had classes with. you looked at your phone and accidentally bumped into a tall, dirty blonde guy with painted nails and purple sweater.

“oh no- i’m so sorry!” he spoke kind of afraid he might hurt you. “you alright?” a worried ask left his mouth as he put a hand on your shoulder.

it turned out that his name is karl and you took same classes as him. well in fact the boy seemed to be pretty nice, chill and funny. you two were on your way to the biology class and jokes were in the air. you felt so delightful that you messaged wilbur and techno a small text saying you just made your first friend. as no one responded you hid your phone.

“don’t worry, bestie.” he beamed at you. “i’ll meet you with my other friends, if that’s okay. they’ll love you and you won’t have to worry about making ones!” karl whispered into your ear and you couldn’t hide a soft smile that formed on your face.

as he said, he did. it was your lunch pause so he led you to the cafeteria. the idea of sitting at the table with people you didn’t know was.. terrifying but at the same time, so exiting. you felt like your heart skipped a beat when a guy called dream showed up with his best friends george and sapnp.

he was so handsome that you couldn’t take your eyes off him. looking at him was just so pleasing that you were kinda mad that he was karl’s friend so you couldn’t really sigh over him. surprisingly, he turned out to be a nice guy as well. you expected dream to be a completely jerk and an arsehole, but well you started to feel like you’d fall for him.

well… you were right. you fell for clay so deeply that just being around him was… stressing you out. he always cared about you, through your whole freshman year he was so cute and it was hard not to fall.

sophomore year started in a very… unexpected way. you hadn’t seen your friends in weeks, because you have lived so far away, but it didn’t make your brand new friends group to fall apart. you wouldn’t be so surprised if they organized a meet after classes but… well it was a meet, but only with clay. in a shortcut – he took you on a date.

“i missed you so much, y/n/n” he smiled as he shyly took your hand and intertwined your fingers with his. a small, timid smile formed on your blushed face. “fuck… i like you, i have a huge ass crush on you, okay? i-i just don’t wanna mess up our friendship… so please tell me if you don’t feel same” clay spoke with shaking voice, not giving you a sight.

maybe it was the adrenaline that boosted you up, or your inner self just wanted to do it, but as his confession ended, your lips gentlt pressed his. clay was… well shocked is a good word, clay was shocked, but he pulled you in even closer and that’s how you ended up making out in the park.

you were thrilled to the gills and you almost told your brothers about clay. almost, because you heard techno’s talking about a match against the dsmp high. well it wouldn’t be such a big thing if you hadn’t heard dream, and well oh well. words weren’t too nice.

“hi… are you free?” you said softly, sitting on your bed. you were frightened – what if they don’t like each other? what if… wilbur and tommy also don’t like him? “you know techno, right? technoblade minecraft?” a quiet ask left your mouth as you sat under the tree in your yard.

“yes, unfortunately.” his response made you thought that you had annoyed him. “wait, why you’re asking? did he hurt you or something?” dream didn’t let you answer as he added i’m gon’ kill him under his breathe.

“noo, don’t worry” you clutched your head and sighed. “he’s… my brother, older brother, actually”. silence between you two were clearly killing you, but you couldn’t be one to break it. he had to say something.

“oh my fuck” you heard his shocked voice and chuckled in response. “it doesn’t matter. you’re the one i fell in love with, not he. i know you’re worried, but everything will be alright.”.

“i hope so” his laughter calmed you. “i’ll call you later so we can fall asleep on call okay? dinner’s ready”.

”it’s kinda forbidden love, isn’t it?” george laughed as he wrapped his arm around you with a cute smile. brown haired boy was waiting along with you at your whole friends’ group. “y’know… techno is your brother and also a rival of your boyfriend… it’s exciting”.

you almost gasped at his words. it felt so silly and people would probably find it meaningless, but you couldn’t hide a smile that appeared on your face. he didn’t say techno’s sister like everyone from the middle school would say, george said that he’s your brother.

“as long as i love her, nothing else really matters to me” clay’s voice was so sweet that you almost melted under it. he was right, there’s no reason to overthink – you love him and it’s the only thing that matters.

“yeah, you should definitely tell him that at the match on saturday.” oh my fucking god, a match. the elimination match between the dsmp high and the lmanburg high. you were completely between a rock and a hard place.

“fuck, i forgot about it.” wrapping his arms around your body, dream felt how stressed you began to get. he also felt when your body unwittingly started to shake. “he’ll hate me, so will wilbur and tommy.”

“aren’t they already hating you? like- you barely talk to them at home, so… what’s the problem?” sapnap asked shrugging. well, he was right – techno lost his interest in talking to you and unfortunately wilbur and tommy took their cue from him, and the only person you had talked to was your dad.

“you’re coming to our match, right?” karl asked with a nervous smile forming on his face. it was his first match ever on the team – you couldn’t not be there. “it doesn’t who will you cheer for, just be there, okay?”

“karl, of course i will be there” you smiled at him, trying to hide your increasing stress that almost made you pass out. “please win this, okay? it’d be too hard to look at your miserable faces.”

tommy had always been your favorite of them all. as a child he wouldn’t let you go and sometimes it was obviously burdensome, but you loved it. you loved how he cared and now you missed it. he wanted, but he couldn’t talk to you, techno and wilbur would be pissed if he did.

he wondered about telling you how well he made friends in high school along with tubbo. about all of the funny jokes he made. he just wanted to be a teenager that shares cool memories with his older sister, but for now his brothers were too proud to apologize.

“wil, are you sure we should do that?” he asked, uneasiness appearing on his pale face. he genuinely missed his big sister that always helped him with his homework, with choosing cool outfits to impress girls, helped him, when he argued with tubbo. “she looks so miserable. even dad is worried!”

“we have nothing to do with her miserableness. she left us first. now, she can go and fuck herself” wilbur had never acted lke that before, so surprised tommy just frowned at him and shook his head in hopelessness. something was off and he would like to know what. to repair it.

his stomach rambled and it was time for a snack. tommy was about to came in, but he heard a bit of a conversation between philza and his only daughter.

“yeah, they do kinda hate me” she shrugged, not letting her tears fall. “uhm… clay proposed that i could stay at his. you know, dad. until… they start talking to me again.” long sigh left her mouth as she clutched her head in hands, right before he noticed tears. tommy couldn’t do more, so he got back to his room not letting anyone in later that evening.

it’d be a lie if someone said that tommy wasn’t stressed out. his first game was in a few minutes and his sister was nowhere to be found. “she has better things to do, i disappointed her - i shouldn’t be so shocked.”

when he saw her, he felt relieved. she was there to support him in his first game in high school ever, but as he watched her, slowly drifting away, looking for someone different in the crowd of people, he was hurt.

“i can’t believe you really choose to avoid the affection from dream for today, because your brothers are here. you should fuck them three” sapnap laughed, looking over your shoulder at tommy. “two. he looks hurt as well as you.” you know he was, but he didn’t do anything because the pressure techno and wilbur put on him, was killing him inside.

“y/n you came!” karl cried out, running towards you and sapnap. he hugged you tight and smiled softly, giggling noiselessly. “did y/n’s brothers saw it? i was literally her ride.”

“excuse me, you did that on purpose?” george laughed, shaking his head in disbelief. you joined him, but you stopped when you saw tommy’s upset, frightened face. it wasn’t only karl’s first game – it was tommy’s as well.

“i gotta talk to him” you sighed exhausted of the whole drama around you and your brothers. or just around you, wilbur and techno. your little brother had nothing to do with it. “tommy, hi” you started a bit nervous, feeling the tension betweet you two. and firstly, you thought he will just go away, but you gasped as he hugged you tight.

“i missed you so much” he whispered so anyone could hear but you. soft smile showed up on his face, making it way more brighter. “thanks for coming here, i know it’s rought between you and wil. he’s kinda mad but everything will be fine, i know that.” you wrapped arms around his torso and smiled widely.

“you’ve got this, okay tommy?” you brushed his hair. in response you got a growl and loud laugh after. “if you win or if you lose, it doesn’t matter, because i will still love you, but i’ve gotta go back to my friends.” you beamed and left tommy as soon as you saw wilbur storming towards you.

me: can’t wait to see you on the field :)

you felt like melting, when dream looked at you with his happy, excited face. you were so proud of him – he was the captain of the school football team and it was known that he has a sport scholarship. despite your brothers’ presence, you planned to show clay some support and you painted a medium #21 on your black, denim jacket.

clay: can’t wait to see you on my bed, right next to the trophy i’ll get as a captain.

he hadn’t lie. you sat on his messy bed, in his messy bedroom, talking to his younger sister drista. she was adorably bewitching. she was a bit younger than tommy, but thankfully she wasn’t as loud as him. you laughed after hearing her awful joke.

“so… you’re living here by now?” she asked curiously, frowning. her eyes scanning your, now, blushed face, waiting on the answer. “please, i cannot stand his my-girlfriend-lives-so-far-and-i-can’t-sneak-into-her-room-and-kiss.” she rolled her eyes, but smile widely.

“oh, yeah.” you blushed even harder as she laughed at your already blushed face. “i’m just worried if he’s okay with us hiding, you know? i mean– he could be with someone else, someone… someone better.”

drista didn’t know what to say and you knew she didn’t have to. you were scared – because of your situation that had place in middle school – he will just leave your for someone better, someone prettier, smarter, cuter.

unfortunately for you, clay had heard your every single word. he coughed, letting drista know that she should go. girl smiled at you before leaving you two alone. him, standing in front of you with only his sweatpants on. “y/n” he started as he got closer.

“i- i- can not tell i know how you feel or how you should feel. and-and i genuinely do not care about anyone else but you. i love you, okay dumbass?” he sat as close as possible and beamed softly.

“you won’t replace me?” the whole thing between you and clay was terrifying you so much. is he lying about his feelings? is he really in love with you? or maybe you’re just a bet? you almost shook your head as the thoughts began to overwhelm you.

he wouldn’t do that. and if he would, some of his friends (yours as well) would kill him. you couldn’t be more happier at the moment. your boyfriend had just told you that he loves you for the very first time, you made amazing friends that would kill for you and vice versa, but there was one thing you had to fix. the relationship with techno and wilbur.

“i could never replace you, love”.

“you sure you wanna do it?” clay asked, gently rubbing your thigh with his thumb, sitting in the front seat of his car. you were about to tell your whole family that clay dream is your boyfriend. the guy your older brother claimed to hate. lots of fun, right?

you nodded unsure, getting out of the car. it was your first time seeing your brothers in over a month and – boy, oh boy – you were terrified. did they miss you? did they even notice you were gone? you wished they did. you weren’t even able to ring the doorbell, because tommy opened the door with a huge grin.

“i’ve been waiting for you.” he confessed, closing you in a tight hug. he let you off as soon as he noticed smiled dream standing right behind you. “and who are you, mister?” suspicious question left tommy’s mouth.

“i’m y/n’s boyfriend, clay” dream beamed at tommy as he let you in. shock finding their way onto his face was… quite hilarious. he mumbled something under his breathe, but you couldn’t catch it.

as soon as you got onto the dining room, you saw wilbur, techno and dad setting the table. tommy coughed, couldn’t hide his happiness. his sister is back and he can’t let her go ever again.

“hi…” you started, your voice getting shaky. “i wanted to explain some things and it’d be a pleasure if you would accept my new boyfriend, especially technoblade.” dream took your sweaty with nervousness hand to calm you. he knew it was tough for you, knowing that him and techno are rivals. “this is clay and i know you know him, and you’re not on the good terms, but please just… finally talk to me, because i miss both of you and i’d love to have either my brothers and boyfriend close as possible.” you finished glancing at techno and wilbur.

“y/n, i’m just sad you didn’t want to go to same school with me. you had never told me why, we were inseparable and everything changed within days.” wilbur was first to answer you. his dejected voice made you crying. you missed him, his voice, his advices, his presence around you. “everytime i woke up, you were already running on the bus and we didn’t have a chance to talk.”

“i- you- you’re right. i should’ve told you why did i choose the dsmp high. i did, because i began to lose myself, everyone saw me only as your sister and i started to think that i do not matter anymore. i had to change it and i had to show everyone that i’m not just yours and techno’s sister, but i’m my own persona.” wil stood up and got closer to you. your tears convinced him that you weren’t lying and he felt bad that he didn’t realize it sooner. “i’m so sorry”.

“no- no, i’m also sorry. i’m the one that should apologizing. you were just choosing your own path and i was mad at you, because of that. ‘m sorry y/n/n.” you smiled through tears and hugged him as tight as you only could.

“there’s no much drama between us” techno chuckled quietly, watching you and wilbur cuddling. “i already knew what’s going on between you two at the match. i just took wil’s side.” he shrugged and you laughed, shaking your head in disbelief. “well, it doesn’t mean i like you” he claimed glaring at your boyfriend. “i can tolerate you as long as you’ll treat y/n the best you can, otherwise i’ll kill you”.

“i agree and so does tommy” your twin added, looking dream dead in the eyes.

“maybe we’ll stop the death threats here and start eating?” your dad proposed with a cheerful smile. his kids were finally getting along again, he couldn’t be more proud or happier than at the moment.

“it went so well” you whispered delighted. you were snuggling with dream on your bed, some time after the dinner ended. phil suggested that he could stay for the night, so they can get to know him better.

tommy was thrilled to the bones about the fact that now, he has a new friend, older than him, and also a captain of the football team, so he could teach him how to play better. wil was… well wil. he made sure that dream didn’t have any wrong intentions and techno just couldn’t care less if you were happy with him. he even suggested that they should bury the hatchet and move on.

“i haven’t said that to anyone yet, but i love you” you said, almost skipping a bit when he held your head and gently kissed you.

“well, you already know that i’m head over heels in love with you. and it won’t ever change” he said and kissed you one more time.

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localswampcrow · 2 years

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a compilation of things I've made in the wake of the cheapest room in the house

watercolor painting

this is an original painting, please do not repost. reblogs are welcome and appreciated

inspired by the entire fic? but most prominently the last chapter. a beat up copy of slaughterhouse-five and an empty pack of cigarettes are in the footwell. the rings are a callback to when cas was compared to rings in a tree. the impala window is speckled with stars and a big warm yellow hand reaches down into the scene. in the top there's two figures in a light pink bed. in the middle they are facing with hands entwined into a heart, on the right one is facing away and the other's hand is on their back (it's dean and cas). the top left corner, in red ink, says "the cheapest room in the house"

a playlist - with some of skrog's top boystie picks, but mostly songs I thought were vibes

thank you @skepticalfrog and @witchycastiel (because even though fic betas are often underappreciated, we know that fics would often not exist without your support) for creating and presenting such a beautiful story for all of us to experience and have our dna lovingly rearranged by

below the cut are poems that are more on the personal side, but heavily inspired by our weird boy besties

The sunlight is no weight

Holding your body above the ground

Soles of feet to sodden earth

You are a pattern

A drawing with no line breaks

Undulating

Wriggling between blades of grass and the buzzing of an Asclepius blossom

This humid afternoon on the edge of the meadow never ends

Blood red analgesic

The sweet drip of honey

Look down and yellow stars mark a path

Without a doubt mycelial fingers are preparing to tangle with your footprints

The inner rings of the hawthorns, set neatly by the careful hand of the elphen queen and kissed by fairies

Are singing to the halos in the beeches and the bands of the great white pines

Where the ravens croak in syncopation

This in and out of the breath

Of the beat between steps

Does it make us?

Or are we just a part of each moon

Leaving perfectly misshapen, crescent paintings on the table?

I wonder who's hand mine will fit into

Like bird bones in the sacred leather of a great paw

I know I'm not that brittle

But I do dream of a warmth enveloping

Huffed, puffed gently

Like the breathing of the cat at my hip

Sleeping

Socked feet, with the blankets pulled up snug

A square hand between my shoulders or

Over the coarse, cotton swept hairs on my stomach

And the humming of a fan muddled

What will it take

For me to be the child, and not just the caretaker

And how long?

Someone's hand ought to be that big

And shouldn't I reach out?

Shouldn't I want to sink deeper into this bed without fear of repercussions from someone who doesn't exist?

Yes. And I'd bet it on the stars

Love! And faith that there will be love! And the stars are like a warm hand curling against my spine and the trees are a solid standing point to see down into the valley of unknown but still it glows with sunlight and that *is* know so it doesn't matter

And the dark outside the window is frightening but there's trash and cd cases and joint butts in the footwell and a blanket in the trunk next to a brick and an ice scraper and I'm safe from the world in there!

Someone will hug me again and our hearts will line up and I'll be kissed

I wasnt raised to sleep all cuddly, too many issues, but I swear one day I'll get what I deserve

And that's more than some people might ever wish for me

#spnficwritercelebration #weird boy best friends the fic #fan art #watercolor #poems #spn fic writer celebration #cheapest room in the house #localswampcrow #we had such a good time talking about this fic in the discord #mwah #life changing fic #self diagnosing gay and autistic via weird boy best friends

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musicallibrarian93 · 3 years

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Nessian kids HCs

We all know Cassian is gonna be a girl dad but I also imagine he just wants loads of kids. Like him and Nesta are gonna straight up have like 10 kids. (All in good time though)

“Let’s have another baby.” Cassian whispers into her as she tries to falls asleep

“Honey, we can’t just have another baby...”

“Making it is the best part.” He smirks

And because he’s such a good dad and she loves children, she obliges him and Cassian holds his promise to make sure that none of his children ever feel unloved.

Their sons take their fathers example and get very protective of Nesta and the other Valkyries.

Nesta finds it sweet at first but then when they’re old enough she challenges them to sparr so they can see that she is fine.

Their daughters are just as fearsome as the rest valkyries.

All the kids love eating, breakfast at the house of wind is hilarious to watch.

Because Fae pregnancies are few and far between there are big age differences and this is so wholesome to me.

The older siblings will still come by for breakfast and of course the house caters for all of them.

They have a little girl who bonds with the house more than the others. She often spends time in the library, in the comfort of the darkness of the library.

Nesta has to be the one to get her because the memory of Bryaxis still scares Cassian.

The kids often compete to see who can do the most steps 🥺

Some have wings and some don’t but they all experience the joy of flying.

The thought of Nesta waltzing with her sons and Cassian twirling his daughters makes me so happy.

Just imagine they go to the court of nightmares for winter solstice and Nesta and Cassian take their oldest children with them, a girl and a boy, (the rest are at open with uncle az and auntie Gwyn).

Cassian dances with his oldest child, spinning her around and she smiles like her mother.

Nesta dances with her son and tells him the story of how she dances with his father so many years ago at the very same ball.

“I know the story, mum... You tried to get Eris to propose you-“

“No... Eris did Propose, because your Mama is that good at dancing.”

“She slacking a little tonight.” He smirks just like his father.

They all have their own rooms in the house of wind but they often have sleepovers in each other’s rooms.

When the kids have nightmares, Nesta or Cassian will stay with them until they fall asleep.

All the children grow up with the inner circle and all love their aunts and uncles but of course some get on better than others.

Nesta and Cassian have twins at some point and they love uncle Rhys. The girls are so smart and love to pick his brains about history and business and books and any other subject they can think of.

Of course uncle Azriel and their daughter who loves the dark are besties x especially because Gwyn even though she doesn’t live in the library anymore she still works there, and she keeps an eye on the little girl.

Azriel and Rhys teach them how to fly.

Feyre takes some of them painting.

Basically the possibilities are limitless because there’s so many kids and they’re immortal.

I just love thinking of all the things their children are gonna achieve and Nesta and Cassian supporting them no matter what.

They’re very artistic and creative children and Velaris is their canvas.

Nesta and Cassian also love travelling and when the opportunity arises they go travelling, taking the kids with them (or whoever is around/the ones who need to come because of their ages)

Nesta and Cassian decide to not to have any more children, but Elain and Feyre joke that they’ll never truly be done.

Mor and Emerie are there to help them train.

They are also the first port of call whenever the kids are annoyed and want to run away. They’ve almost definitely gone to their house.

Mor is also not afraid to call Nesta and Cassian out if she thinks they’re being unfair to their kids. Auntie Mor is on their side.

Chocolate cake parties.

They make a big deal out of birthdays (this is defo inspired by a fanfic I read this morning about their kids waking Cassian up on his birthday and giving him birthday cake)

(Please keep adding to the list)

#acotar #acosf #acomaf #acowar #acofas #azriel #cassian #nessian #gwynriel #gwyneth berdara #nessian kids #Nesta archeron #Cassian #Cassian archeron #Azriel berdara #acotar headcanons

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that-was-anticlimactic · 2 years

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okok like I do with every series I watch I tend to do a crossover with my current fixation (atla lol) so I was wondering in hour most experienced view who would be who in ninjago x atla lol <33333

bestie bestie bestie have i got feelings for you !

so, there are a couple of different ways to go about this.

if we go by element / powers, zuko would be kai, katara would be nya, aang would prolly be morro tbh or lloyd since green ninja and avatar, toph would be cole, idk sokka would be pixal, azula would be jay ???

now, some of these are legit, and i will get into that. um. this got Very Long.

first, let's start with aang.

aang would be lloyd and vice versa. both have powers they never asked for, powers that others wanted, powers that set them aside and made them automatically more "special" and "precious" than everyone else, powers that made them a major target, powers that made them many enemies by default. both of them tend to be lighthearted until they get stressed or begin to notice the pressure becoming worse and worse. they both think and act like a child because they are children until they're forced to face something that challenges what they stand for / believe in (for aang, killing. for lloyd, defeating or maybe even killing his father).

next, i'll talk about zuko.

zuko is kai. like. he just Is. he is angry and brash but one of the best freaking big brothers you will ever meet. he is protective to a dangerous level and gets invested in the impossible to a dangerous level, just like kai. kai's inner quest to become the green ninja is similar to zuko's inner and physical quest to prove his worth to his father and to capture the avatar. s1 ep10, the green ninja, is the equivalent of the western airtemple. or, i suppose you could say it is the equivalent of zuko telling his "father" (he sucks dude) off in the final episode of the day of the black sun. if zuko were to have a true potential episode, i think the one best suited for him is kai's. yes, you could argue that cole wanting his father to be proud of him is what zuko went through, but lou is much different than oz*i and the end result of the royal blacksmiths would not lead to unlocking what was holding zuko back. in fact, that would hold him back even more. it's about letting go of false hope and understanding that there is value in supporting those around you rather than being the "special" one and accepting your true destiny. kai and zuko are both brash and quick to anger but also caring and comforting. not to mention, kai goes through an arc where he loses his fire powers, and that reminds me a bit of zuko struggling to use his powers until he finds a replacement for anger. also, they are both the definition of loyal. they probably wouldn't like each other, tho lol

next, katara.

i do think katara would be an Incredible nya. i supposed you could say that katara not truly discovering and learning how to bend until she was older is similar to nya not learning about her powers until s5. nya is Amazing. she is extremely skilled, versatile, quick to anger and quick judgements, but also smart and willing to stand up for herself and she does, just like katara. they're both feisty and often underestimated. they're both younger siblings (who were looked after by their older siblings when their parents were Gone). they're strong, have a strong sense of justice, and i think they go through a similar arc of dealing with loss and learning how to control their emotions in a healthy way. also... if katara reached her true potential the same way that nya did... oh my gosh i would SOB SHE WOULD BE AMAZING. oh there's also the whole nya being the samurai thing and katara being the painted lady, helping out in the only ways that they know they can because they know they would be judged or not taken as seriously.

next, toph.

toph is freaking Hard. on one level, cole does fit. i feel like cole's true potential would work for toph... aside from the fact that toph's parents suck and would not, did not, accept them for being what they wanted. i think that it works in a found family sense, but not in parental. zane is too different personality-wise and power / skill-wise to be toph. besides, zane's true potential came from discovering and accepting who he is and idk toph already accepts that she's blind and doesn't need like. some kind of arc that may inadvertently (or even blatantly) seem like some "tragic blind girl" thing. no saviorism, no thank you :) then there's jay, also a huge no for toph. their arcs are Drastically different. so, i feel like that leaves a few options: wu (no), pixal (not the vibes), skylor (perhaps...), darreth (PLEASE NO BUT THAT'S FUNNY), and... ronin.

now, ronin is introduced in s5 and he is, essentially, a thief. an "i'm a loner don't need help don't want help unless you give me money" kind of guy. he learns to soften up a little and help without expecting anything in return. i wish he was in the show more because i do love his character a lot. but like. blind bandit, toph's money thieving days... LITERALLY RONIN THO !!! he's very much an "i look out for me and nobody else" kinda guy... until he gets attached (will not admit) to the ninja team, specifically, the durability and perseverance of nya, or, katara. then, he starts to turn around and risk his own person in ways that he never thought he would just to save these people that... he can maybe call family??? although ronin doesn't have elemental powers, he is not to be underestimated and he Is important. maybe this is a stretch, but i am going with ronin. (... although... june would be a good ronin too...)

now, to sokka.

this was also hard. i didn't Want to be obvious and go jay but like. jay. why? well, jay's whole true potential arc is about accepting who he is. i mean, the message and the spark is literally "you are the best you" which i am going to get tattooed eventually. that is something sokka Really needs to know because sokka plays roles. he plays older brother, warrior, water tribesman, avatar's friend, he plays everyone but himself, and when he Does play himself, he gets shut down. he wants to be worthy and he wants to be good enough and he is... he just... chooses not to talk about it. he'll talk about anything else, tho, and so will jay. then there's the whole jay is a genius, show, please stop forgetting that. i mean, he's an incredible inventor and like... so is sokka! sokka has the brain to be jay. yes, he also has the brain to be zane, but zane is aware that he's intelligent and also sokka's sense of humor is Very similar to jay's. they turn to humor to cope, and they underestimate their own abilities. i know that jay and nya are canon but uhhhhh for the purpose of this, sokka and katara are still siblings Not in a romantic relationship relationship and sokka is still her older brother (and also dating zuko). but, they are more than their outwardly anxiety. humor is their coping mechanism which is the loudest part of them. really, they are important to battles. they are strong, their strength is just not so much their strong suit as is their brain. so, they (and often others... aka ninjagio fandom fanon jay oops) often underestimate their physical strength and endurance. no, neither of then are big beefy guys (please... for the love of God... sokka is Not big and beefy...) and their brain is their biggest advantage, but they can carry themselves and they are braver than their outwardly panic makes them appear.

next, suki.

for suki, imma say cole. yes, she is still a nonbender. part of this is purely vibes, but also like. i know that i am right. as one of cole's biggest fans, that is lol. cole is very much the silent leader, the one that takes a step down and observes from the back. the leader before someone more "special" than them came along. they are tactical geniuses and also bury their feelings deep deep deep deep deep deep inside themselves so they do Not have to think about them. they both consider themselves expendable and they both value the lives of their team / friends above their own to a scary degree. they know when to be silent and they know when to speak up. they are clever, good at plans, and are able to play the role of leader and follower without missing a beat and they know when to switch between them. they both play mentally strong and they both crave things they are too scared to ask for. they are both stubborn to a fault and physically strong and capable, both often probably seen as muscles and that's all (i actually did an exploration of suki and how she views the word "strong" before). they are used to taking hits and used to taking the short end of the stick without complaint. but, they are loyal and kind. they take things to heart very deeply but are bad at showing it. they love through acts of service and train to hide their feelings. i just. i gotta be right with this one.

iroh, though this is probably obvious.

iroh is sensei wu. wu is iconic for being an idiot, tbh. a lot of issues occur because he simply does Not tell his students anything until the villain strikes. everyone mocks him by saying "ninja, there's something i haven't told you..." and like. iroh would. both value tea before their life and speak in convoluted riddles and metaphors purely to sound smart and create chaos. they do care for their kiddos. kai and wu have, imo, a very similar relationship to zuko and iroh too. anyways this one is p obvious so imma stop there

now, azula.

yes, i know, azula. where does she fit in? there are a couple of roles that fit: first, harumi from s8. will not spoil as to why because you said you're on s4, but like. it'll make sense. next is morro, the original possible green ninja who let his longing to be the green ninja drive him to death and hate. but, imma take a huge leap and say that azula... would be garmadon.

garmadon has a tragic story. he was bit by the great devourer and the evil was coursing through his veins, much like how azula was trained to be manipulative and evil. i feel like they would have similar arcs where they were torn between what was morally right and the venom in their body corrupting them. not to mention, kai hates garmadon more than anyone else. zuko. also, wu is garmadon;s brother, and although azula and iroh aren't siblings, they do have a strained familial relationship. iroh and wu both kind of gave up on them. i feel like garmadon's arc of constantly having the world stacked against him in ways that force him to be evil until it consumed him is very azula-esq. also i am getting tired and have to shower, so i'll end azula analysis here lol. i also did Not want to make oz*i garmadon because garmadon deserves better than that :/

other important things:

the cabbage merchant is the mailman and No i am Not accepting criticism, i am Correct.

appa is the ultradragon

maybe mai as zane ??? will go into her and ty lee more later (i wanna look at jet and yue too...)

zhao as pythor (... sorry pythor, you deserve better than that...)

#jingyi tag #i have feelings. um. did Not mean for this to get so long #i got So Very Excited by this ask you have no idea ahhhhh #this was So Fun ahhhhh !!!#thank you for letting me ramble and analyze my kiddos !!!#be sure to lemme know what you think too because i am genuinely curious as to what you think !!!#ninjago #atla #corey rambles:)

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weirdagnes · 4 years

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💄RUDOLF’S DRAG RACE AU 🏁

ALRIGHT SO this AU originally started in our Yeah We Outlasting discord server, artists started drawing the characters in drag and I WOKE HMSHD real shit man. So I'm making a masterpost for drag au on behalf of the server✊✊

Outlast 1 = Season 1

Outlast 2 = Season 2

Whistleblower DLC = All Stars

All of the characters and ideas for the characters were written in collab with @gothivican, @panopt1c0n, @grahaam and the rest of the lads in the server, y’all have such beautiful brains. So anyways.

Here are the judges:

Rudolf Wernicke. Lowkey bias, literally goes to the backstage and tells Miles to beat Billy Hope in a lipsync because Billy can't continue on the show for some reason. Has favoritism towards Blaire, but was forced to sashay him away by the other two judges. Also this bitch is dying, literally has a breathing tank support behind his chair.

Pauline Glick. A very sharp critic. Wore the same shoes? Call out. Oh that's your signature makeup? UGLY tone it down. Sorry, the colors don't match, you'll be in the bottom two for that.

Paul Marion. The kindest judge. He will give constructive criticism in the nicest non-offensive way possible and compliment them after (because he would feel guilty about it).

Alice as guest star. Supportive as f u c k, huge fan, she cries when meeting the queens in Untucked. She can't help complimenting the queens every 10 seconds, she gives off the Leslie Jones’ enthusiasm.

Lisa Park as guest star. Like Alice, very supportive. She’s an artist, and will break down all the reasons why they are so good from an artist’s perspective. Crushes HARD on Wyssle Blower, she might’ve given her number after the show.

Lynn Langermann as guest star. She’s a judge, and she will judge. Gives out well constructed criticisms to all queens fair and square until she saw Angel Fromm (Blake) and just says “Wow what’s there to criticize?” Sallyzekiel hates her, Valentina and Angel on the other hand loves her very much.

Here are the queens:

Miles Upshur as Kill-O-Meter. Primarily an insult comedy and rocker queen, and specializes in dancing. She tends to be criticized for a lack of glamour on some of her main stage looks, and is one of the most dramatic, sarcastic and shady queens of the bunch. Can and will stomp on you in latex boots for money. Besties with Wyssle and Chrisel, gets into a little heated talks with (occasionally) Peacock, (frequently) Ricky and Remy. She adores Cheets’ (Pyro) makeup skills. Winner of season 1 babey!!

Chris Walker as Piggy Chrisel. A punk/grunge queen who seems to specialize moreso in dancing and lip syncing. She's a shy, gentle giant, has a little trouble speaking coherently and it affects her in the acting/impromptu comedy challenges. She will call out whores though, she will kick ass when the situation calls for it. Really good at makeup, makeup girl-friends with Cheeto and besties with Kill O Meter (Latrila vibes). Also a perfectionist and hates mess on her work table.

Rick Trager as Ricky Trix. Whore, that's all. This bitch OBNOXIOUS and shady but she's both a glamour AND comedy queen, the other queens are watching out for her since day one. Horror and '80s inspired queen, extremely good at comedy and acting and will literally stomp the competition with nearly perfect impressions and extremely expressive acting. The downfall for her seems to be glam on the occasion and singing. Rivals with Kill O Meter and Miss Tini, kikis with Remy (they throw shade to other queens the moment they get em)

Father Martin as Miss Tini. The oldest queen but she can still serve the cakes. Generally a kind person, coming from a religious background. She’s takes the drag culture religiously. She gets along with The Twinks.

The Twins as The Twinks. Was recruited as two totally separate queens, but both quit on the first episode when one of the twins were to be eliminated. The queens tell the Twinks apart by who’s bald and who’s not. They don’t vibe with other queens except Miss Tini.

Pyromaniac as Cheeto de LaFlammeo. Queen of Makeup, she has some serious skill range on it. Good in the acting department, always plays as the tragic character. Was rivals with Kill-O Meter before, but one time when she had a breakdown, Kill-O Meter was by her side when no one was. After that, they respected each other.

Billy Hope as Billy Willy. CLOWN QUEEN, huge Crystal Methyd vibes. She’s the youngest queen, very energetic, a ball of SUNSHINE but Wernicke was a bias bitch and sent her home immediately the moment she was in the bottom. She was basically Kill-O Meter and Wyssle Blower's drag child. Hailed as Miss Congeniality, is voted by majority to return for a season 2 for going home a little too early than people feel was deserved. Best at makeup and outfits, her mom Tiffany taught her to sew and make dresses out of rags and other unconventional materials and the skill proved to be helpful. Also she likes puns and everyone likes playing with her name like: Silly Billy Willy, Witty Billy Willy, etc.

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Waylon Park as Wyssle Blower. The Mom of the queens, the most well rounded queen, and the most 'fishy' one. Probably the smartest and most humble one out of everyone, she can read through people’s bullshit well. Genuinely looks like a girl in full drag, but always does her best on acting. She's serving you a cute, nerdy and quirky style, but can serve horror when need be. Always wins the mini challenges, she's not as loud as the other girls but she does beat Blaire in a lip sync (lowkey badass lipsyncer). Winner of All Stars babey

Jeremy Blaire as Remy Coco Ainée. Pretentious fake ass queen, even her drag name is just Cocaine in fake French. A pure fashion glamour queen, she serves it at almost all the fashion challenges but there's no more personality out of her other than that and her shady attitude (she will not hold back on the shade). Is extremely horrible at singing (her voice cracks) and acting, goes home against a lip sync with Wyssle. This bitch will FLEX her wins. Kikis with Ricky, mainly rivals with Kill O Meter, Wyssle and Peacock but she made everyone her rivals bc of her bitchass attitude.

Eddie Gluskin as Edna Taylor. Fashion queen, specializes in sewing, acting and singing, but is extremely lacking in the dancing department. Has a one-sided endearment for Waylon, and consistently tries to have her attention. Is extremely manipulative too, trying to consistently trip the other queens up. Also everybody hates her mohawk signature wig but nobody says anything about it because they don’t want to be victim to Edna’s mind games.

Frank Manera as Hanni Canni Bahl. Horror queen, best at comedy and dancing. Though it is prohibited, she’s able to sneak in weed, coke (for Ricky) and snacks in the werk room. Very messy when working, her discarded fabrics are EVERYWHERE and Chrisel is fighting the urge to clean it up. She eats while working when the camera’s off, and it stains the dress she’s working on (Pauline notices it).

Dennis as Denise. Mocked as “Edna’s little helper” as she always helps with her dresses. She’s trying too hard to impress Edna, and helps her get Wyssle’s attention. Very talented in acting and sewing, but bland in fashion, lacking in concept. Her inner conflict is what got her eliminated.

Simon Peacock as Julie Peacock. Rebellious, mischievous, and an ex-glam queen gone horror and campy instead. After being insulted much by glam queens (ahemRemyahem), she just embraced it and became a horror queen, serving the judges her horror aesthetic. Best at comedy, lacks extremely on acting and dancing though. No one is safe from her constructive criticism, and she will never stop ranting to Kill O Meter and Wyssle about Remy and Ricky being bad bitches and favored by Wernicke, she thinks it's unfair.

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Blake Langermann as Angel Fromm. Singing queen!! Good at singing, but otherwise is moreso well-rounded, she might've been eliminated earlier, hadn't it been for her also low-key successful and iconic lip syncs. But the lucky winning streak didn't last forever, she goes home later in the season because she's slowly falling behind the other queens and can't keep up anymore. Has Rococo aesthetic, unfortunately the outfits can't make up for the lack of character as a queen. Though she needs a lot of improvement, the guest star Lynn adores her very much.

Val as Valentina. Queen of SEX or moreso impersonations and comedy. She’s a terrible tailor, but likes unconventional and simple fashion designs. She’s trans and lowkey Pauline has a crush on her the moment she walked on that stage. Pure rivals with Sallyzekiel, you know that iconic Aja vs. Valentina in Untucked? They had that moment. Probably goes home earlier, not entirely prepared, but still was a season icon. Definitely dropped it low about 10 times on her lip sync.

Marta as ImMartal. GOTH QUEEN, survived about early mid season. Best at her makeup and looks, glam queen, but the judges criticize her for wearing the same wigs/having the same hairstyle for almost every looks.

Nick Tremblay as Nicky Lanterns. Another gentle giant. Very introverted, she has a difficult time socializing with other girls because she’s generally not a very loud person. Really bad at makeup, her fashion sense is somewhat okay but it’s always on the ‘safe’ level. Pretty good at slapstick comedy, writing and concepts tho. It’s a wonder how Nicky and Lard Imp became “friends,” they’re complete opposites.

Laird Byron as Lard Imp. Whore, Exhibit B. Extremely rude, louder than Remy and Ricky themselves, and has a weird love/hate obsession with Angel for some reason. Everyone hates her, even Rudolf himself, and Lard Imp isn’t her original drag name but ultimately they came to a point where they just called her Lard Imp. Constantly denies the judges’ and the queens’ critiques, very delusional about winning the season and that’s why she’s the first one eliminated.

Sullivan Knoth as Sallyzekiel. The Big Bad Bitch of the season. Ultimate rivals with Valentina, constantly bullies Angel. Marta used to be friends with her, but after talking shit on Valentina, she says fuck you and defended Val. Glam queen, has an affinity for shoes but damn girl terrible makeup and padding. Really good with speech, acting and impromptu.

So far, here are the character designs we have made!

(1) Blake and Trager by @/pan0pt1con

(1, 2, 3, 4, 5) Waylon, Chris, Simon, Eddie, Miles and Jeremy by @/gothivican

(1) Billy, Miles, Chris, Wernicke, Pauline, Paul and Alice by @/weirdagnes

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kicksaddictny · 3 years

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How Nike’s Turning Play Into a Lifestyle for Kids

According to NIKE

Jumping rope with a garden hose. Holding a squat while you create a secret handshake with your bestie. Hanging from monkey bars as you see LeBron James get quizzed on his second best sport.

You must be watching Playlist.

The episodic Nike YouTube series, now entering its ninth season, launched two years ago with one clear goal: “We wanted to show kids that sport, at its core, is all about play,” says Jessa Moon, Global Brand Director for Nike Kids. “It doesn't have to be soccer or football or traditional sports — it can be a mash-up or something totally wild and different. We wanted to inspire kids to think about moving their bodies in all kinds of ways and having it be about joy as opposed to winning or competition.”

Hosted by kid athletes like 13-year-old skateboarder Sky Brown and her 9-year-old brother, Ocean, a typical Playlist episode takes kids through fun and funny movement challenges, ratchets up the silliness with sound effects and slapstick gags, and includes appearances from star athletes like Russell Wilson, Mo Farah, Bebe Vio and the aforementioned King James — all of whom are game to be goofy and show off their inner kid on-screen.

Season after season, the series has grown its presence and audience, fine-tuning on its primary channel, YouTube, and streaming across Instagram, TikTok and Snapchat. Playlist has also found its place in the Nike digital ecosystem, alongside its adult counterparts like the Nike Run Club and Nike Training Club apps, proving that Nike offers not just product, but also day-to-day service and benefits to all its consumers.

The constant throughout, says Moon, is that all Playlist episodes are rooted in fun, because when kids are having fun, they’ll be naturally motivated to move.

For parents, inspiring kids to want to move is more important — and harder — than ever. Today, only one in five kids get the physical activity they need to be healthy and successful. Parents also have even more on their plates, often acting as a child’s cook, chauffeur, stylist, teacher and coach within the course of day. Playlist is one way Nike sought to help solve this universal problem by providing resources that get kids and their families to enjoy movement together, improving the relationship and bond between grown-up and kid, and setting kids up for a lifetime of healthy habits and movement that they could one day pass on to the next generation.

Doing that meant understanding that the words “play sport” have tension built into them, says Rami Jabaji, VP of Kids Global Brand Management. To today’s kids, explains Jabaji, sport can feel too structured, too competitive — high stakes, yelling coaches, parents pushing them into it. “They feel disconnected from its benefits, from its joy,” says Jabaji. There’s another kind of tension too: Gen Alpha is the most dedicated to activism, yet the least physically active. That’s partly because they don’t fully resonate with today's definition of traditional sport, says Jabaji. “While young kids naturally enjoy movement and play, it’s the moment when sport takes a turn — when it becomes too structured and rule-bound, not based in freedom and discovery — that kids start to opt out, and they trade physical activity for sedentary screen time,” he says. “The screen provides them with a tool that fulfills their needs in a deeper way than sport does.”

How do you solve for that?

“Our answer was, ‘We have to make sport fun again,’” says Jabaji. “We have to anchor it in play and get back to why kids fell in love with sport in the first place.”

More Ways Nike Serves Kids

Cool Gear, Just for Them Listening to what kids need to move and play and solving kid-specific challenges are hallmarks of Nike Kids product design. That’s reflected in extended sizing, gender-inclusive apparel lines, and gender-inclusive shoes like the new Nike Air Zoom Crossover. The kid-informed basketball shoe features a last with room in the toe box for growing feet, a snug fit and support around the ankle, and a playful “Game Mode” written on the tongue.

Coaches Who Make a Difference Sport is uniquely positioned to help kids handle stress and thrive when the environment is fun, inclusive, and served up by caring and trained coaches. That’s why Nike partnered with ICOACHKIDS to create an accessible, approachable series of coaching essentials that preps anyone to be a volunteer youth coach. The ICOACHKIDS coaching essentials are free and available on the Nike Training Club App and Nike Run Club App in Europe, the Middle East and Africa; if you already have one of the apps on your phone, click here to check out the essentials now.

Nike is also the founding partner of The Center for Healing and Justice in Sport (CHJS), a nonprofit organization fueling a movement to bring research-backed, healing-centered sport training to youth coaches across North America. “A lot of young people who show up to sport experiences may be treading water in other parts of their lives,” says CHJS founder Megan Bartlett. “We prepare a coach to create an environment in which kids can feel like they belong, feel seen and feel safe.” Nike is training its store employees who serve as Nike Community Ambassadors to coach kids in their communities and offering the training to its North America Made to Play partners, Nike employees and consumers. Learn how to get involved here.

That began with putting the kid at the center of every decision, a foundational part of Nike’s new approach to its kids business. Jabaji’s team dubs it “kidvision,” or the idea that kids see the world not as it is, but as it could be. “It’s an innovative lens, a creative lens, a more inclusive and accessible lens,” he says.

Take a screen, for example. Look at it through the eyes of a kid, and they don’t see a negative device. They see a portal into a world where they can be anything they want to be. And that’s where Nike saw opportunity, says Jabaji. “We can meet kids where they are and convert that time into healthy and purposeful movement and activity, and ultimately create a deeper connection with sport.”

Evolving with the World

Playlist was an instant hit on YouTube, notching millions of views. When the pandemic hit, the team knew their series had to step up. “We were in the middle of our third season, and we thought, ‘We know this content is critical for kids, now more than ever, but how do we bring it to them in a way that resonates with what they’re going through?’” says Moon. They found the unlock in shifting the entire show to an at-home model, with kid athletes like Brown leading a new content pillar called “Shake-Ups,” creative home-based challenges that throw a zany twist into traditional exercises like planks or squats.

Since then, the team’s moved to an entirely remote-capture model, asking kid hosts and pro athletes to film themselves in their homes, where you inevitably see their kitchens, pets and real-life snafus and interruptions. “It feels more raw and personal, and it’s allowed us to expand globally; recently we’ve included kids in Barcelona, Chengdu and Guadalajara.”

The most rewarding part for Moon has been seeing the social element of Playlist unfold. “We’ve found that most kids are watching it with their siblings or their families. They tell us, ‘Hey, I watched Playlist with my sister, and then we went on and made our own secret handshake,’ or ‘I watched it with my mom and we went out to the backyard and tried to jump rope.’” That aim to strengthen the familial bond and inspire everyone to move? As a Playlist host would say, “Knocked it outta the paaark!”

Doubling Down on the Future

Kids will continue to fuel creativity within the brand when, later this year, Nike introduces the Nike Play Council, a group of young athletes and creators who all share a passion for making sport more fun, accessible and inclusive, and who will help bring Gen Alpha’s vision of sport to life. “It's our opportunity to literally give kids a seat at the table and co-create the future of sport with them,” says Jabaji. The confirmed council members: Sky and Ocean Brown, Brazilian kid skateboarder Rayssa Leal, kid football player Lorenzo Greer (aka Tekkerz Kid), and kid drummer Nandi Bushell (aka “the Most Badass Drummer in the World,” according to drummer Dave Grohl). Each member of the Play Council will consult and collaborate directly with Nike and also help inform and expand the future of the group. While Nike has always been committed to listening to the voice of the athlete*, the Play Council ensures that young athletes’ voices are heard loud and clear.

According to Jabaji, channeling that voice has been Nike’s greatest win in its new approach to its kids business. “If you look at the world through the eyes of a kid and put them at the center of your work, he says, “the potential of what it can unlock is limitless.”

*If you have a body, you are an athlete.

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mokonahapuuuuuu · 4 years

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I’m looking back at the fanfiction I wrote when I was in grade 10, and for the JL/U section, I wrote a few sad BM/WW stories.

At the time, my depression/anxiety was at it’s highest. Aside from my mom turning into an Asian tiger parent and the bullying I endured, I also had boy troubles.

The sad BM/WW stories were mostly about how Bruce and Diana could have been a couple and be happy together, but Bruce was too much of a coward to admit how he felt. Far from what was going on in my love life, but the guy I liked at the time didn’t like me back, so yeah... It was a great way to unleash all the sad feelings.

Oddly enough, with reincarnation in mind, here’s what I have to say.

Wrote this in my soon upcoming memoir book.

[I was always fascinated by past lives and reincarnation.

Ever since I was a little girl, the weird and unexplained never seemed to phase me. In Buddhism and a lot of East Indian beliefs, reincarnation is apart of the core values.

It also ties in to karma. Do something good, you’ll be reincarnated into a Saint. Do something bad, you’ll become a cockroach.

I suppose my support of past lives also comes from a love of other cultures. I’ve always loved Italian culture. I’d pour over books about ancient Egypt, ancient Greece. Perhaps reading books about history in ancient times is like home calling back to you.

Now, since people sometimes do not understand the unknown and do not believe in it, I completely accept that. In my conversations about reincarnation with people, they do not agree with it. Agree to disagree is my motto.

Over the course of my life time, I had the luck to finally know how past lives work.

Basically we all knew someone in our past lives. Our parents, siblings, friends, lovers. All the terrible relations we knew in this life, ex-friends, or ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends is to ward off bad karma. Sadly, it also goes for the people related to you in this life.

I learnt that I used to be an Egyptian scribe, a Japanese monk, a Mongolian warrior, and a Greek priestess.

I’ve always had intense loyalty for my guy bestie, Gio. Since ‘Giovanni’ was the long version of his name, it was of Italian origins. He doesn’t have Italian ancestry, but whenever I’m around him, my inner Italian gangster just comes out.

I looked into the past life connection between Gio and I, and it turns out I was a Greek immigrant who moved to Italy. I was a cook named Anastasia, and I would feed orphans that would come around the kitchen. In Greece, it is common to feed strangers at your house, and that’s what makes the culture so hospitable and welcoming. Gio’s past life incarnation, one of the orphans, was one of them. Over time, I must have adopted him. Italian men adore and worship their mothers, which could explain our loyalty to each other, even though he was my adopted son in that life.

So, yeah. If you’ve ever come across a friend and felt like you’ve known them for a long time, even before you have met them in this life, it is the work of past lives.]

Very John and Shayera in Ancient Egypt, right?

Funny, enough when I did that meditation thing to figure out past lives, that episode came to me before I entered into the trance. I thought me and the guy I liked at the time were something horrible back then, since it was so bad between us. Two awkward teenagers who had no idea how to handle the situation and ended up hurting each other over silly things.

But if I cared for him, even loved him, why was he on my mind after so many years even if there was something horrible between us?

It turns out, it wasn’t that horrible at all. It was wonderful. So wonderful.

I was a woman named Geneva in that life. I lived in Holland and saw the Dutch windmills the country is known for. I gave birth to a son, and there was nothing in this world I wouldn’t do for him. He was my pride and joy.

But then in the vision, I went from holding my child, to holding nothing. The warm sunlight suddenly turned dark and gloomy. I could tell Geneva was sad. That the depression crippled her and she was never the same after the death of her son.

But life did get better. The sunlight finally shined again.

And she survived.

As the vision meditation ended, tears were in my eyes.

That never happened before when I was discovering my past lives.

And I understood.

The guy who I had feelings for in this life is my son, and the sadness I carried within me was the guilt and pain of holding on to the responsibility of hurting him in that life.

#justice league unlimited #justice league #batman #wonder woman #shayera hol

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camillemontespan · 4 years

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invisible friend [one shot. drake, camille, lily]

Camille padded down the hallway to towards Lily's room. It was bedtime for the five year old. As Camille neared Lily's bedroom, she could hear giggling coming from inside.

Opening the door, Camille entered the room to see Lily stop giggling and look at her mother. 'Hi Mommy,' she said sweetly.

Camille smiled. 'What are you giggling about?'

Lily grinned. 'It's a secret.'

Camille raised an eyebrow and sat down on the edge of the bed. 'Secret huh? But we're besties!'

'I knooow,' Lily said, 'but he told me not to tell!'

Camille frowned. 'Who?'

Lily pointed to the chair in the corner of the bedroom. 'My friend.'

Camille's skin prickled. Biting her lip, she tried to remain calm. She had watched too many horror films in the past and she knew that she was being ridiculous.

'What's your friend's name?'

Lily shook her head. 'He won't tell me,' she explained.

'Friends always tell their names,' Camille told her. 'How else can you give them birthday cards?'

Lily shrugged. 'I'll find out soon.'

Camille studied her daughter for a long moment but as the little girl appeared nonplussed, Camille let it go. Invisible friends were common in kids her age.

So why did she feel uneasy?

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Later that night, Camille and Drake were sat up in bed. Drake was browsing on his laptop while Camille was snuggled into his chest reading a novel.

With a sigh, she put the book down. Drake looked down at the top of her head. 'You okay baby?'

Camille made a noise that sounded like 'gnnnnh..'

Drake smirked. 'Okay, what's wrong?'

Camille turned to face him. 'Lily has an imaginary friend,' she told him.

Drake blinked. 'Okaaay.. And the problem is?'

'I guess I'm just worried,' Camille admitted. 'I know it's common for kids to have imaginary friends but is it because she's lonely? She is an only child..'

Drake set down his laptop and brought Camille into his arms. She felt so delicate. 'She's not lonely,' Drake assured her. 'Lily is the most vibrant human being alive. She has friends at nursery and we dote on her. Camille, she doesn't have the same childhood as me or you. She's been raised differently.'

Camille bit her lip but felt slightly calmer. Drake always knew how to calm her down.

She smiled as he pressed a kiss on her head. His hand swept along her silk camisole top and underneath. His hand rested on her stomach for a long moment.

Camille looked up into Drake's eyes. They were filled with warmth, love and hunger. 'That said,' he murmured, 'do you want to make a sibling for Lily?'

Camille blushed and looked down at his hand on her stomach. Drake had loved it when she was pregnant with Lily. The idea that they had created this little life made him the happiest he had ever been.

Camille smiled and pushed his hand down to under her silk sleep shorts. His fingers grazed her inner thighs and Camille closed her eyes with a satisfied smile tugging on her mouth.

Taking this to mean yes, Drake gently moved to cover her body with his.

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Drake was scrambling eggs for breakfast. Lily sat on her chair swinging her legs as she sipped her orange juice and chatted away to her father about school.

'Me and Milo got married yesterday!' she squealed.

Drake chuckled. 'That's nice honey.'

Secretly he wasn't keen on Lily having boyfriends yet. He never would be.

'And today is our honeymoon,' Lily continued. 'I want a big swimming pool and puppies!'

'Do honeymoons have puppies?' Drake asked her, dishing up the eggs onto her plate.

'My honeymoon will,' Lily declared.

She looked out the corner of her eye and shook her head. Drake frowned. 'Lily?'

Lily rolled her eyes. 'My friend says I'm too young to be with boys.'

Drake sat down opposite his daughter and helped himself to coffee. 'Your friend is a very wise person.'

'He says he knows he is.'

Drake smiled. 'So your friend's a boy?'

Lily burst out laughing. 'Nooo!'

She dug into her eggs and nothing more was said about her friend. Instead, she chatted away about Milo and Violet and Harper and then Milo again, but no more about her invisible friend.

When Lily stood up to get ready for school, Drake took away her plate which was devoid of scrambled egg. 'You ate well this morning, Lils!' he cheered. 'Shame there's not any left for Mr Invisible!'

Lily grinned. 'He's asleep on the chair.'

She skipped out of the kitchen leaving Drake staring at the kitchen table chair which had nobody sat on it.

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The next few days passed with no mention of Mr Invisible. Instead, Lily was getting over her divorce.

It had started when Lily watched The Sound of Music. She had never seen it before but was enthralled by the songs. When it finished, she declared that she was going to be a nun because boys had GERMS.

The next day, she broke up with Milo. Milo had cried and Lily had given him a supportive hug, saying they could still be friends.

Five year old relationships were fleeting.

'But Milo is so sweet!' Camille cried, genuinely heartbroken when Lily told her the news. 'You were only married two days!'

Lily looked at her mother with a blank look on her face. 'So..?'

Drake stifled a laugh as Lily ran out of the room to play in the garden. Camille let out a whimper.

'Camille are you crying?' Drake asked.

Camille quickly wiped her eyes. 'No.. Just my baby girl is growing up.. And Milo was so sweet.'

Drake chuckled and beckoned for her to sit beside him on the sofa. Camille curled up into him and inhaled his woody scent. 'I bet you're glad it's over,' she mumbled. 'You'd love it if she remained boy free until she was like, fifty.'

Drake snorted. 'Try never.'

Camille playfully swatted his chest and Drake pulled her down on top of him. He kissed her deeply, his fingers raking through her dark hair. He could feel her slender body on his and all he wanted to do was touch her.

Camille looked into his eyes. 'You're kinda horny these past few days..'

Drake's lips grazed her jawline. 'Want me to stop?'

Camille shook her head and kissed him fervently. She never wanted him to stop. He was all she ever wanted.

'Mommy, daddy, eww!'

Drake and Camille sprang apart. Lily was standing at the threshold with a look of disgust on her face.

'Hey baby..' Drake croaked.

Lily shuddered. 'Germs..'

Camille sniggered and went to where Lily stood, enveloping her in a cuddle. 'Daddy doesn't have germs! He's a clean boy!'

Lily giggled, getting over the horror show that was her parents kissing, and bounded over to the TV. 'Can we watch Peppa Pig?' she asked. 'I was telling Mr Invisible all about it and he wants to see it.'

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Camille was tidying their bedroom in a bid to start spring cleaning early. As she rooted through the drawers to find old clothes that could be donated to charity, her fingers brushed something made of wood.

Gently, she prised it out and found in her hands a picture frame. Behind the glass was a picture of Drake as a young boy with his father, Jackson.

Camille's heart tugged. Jackson had died when Drake was fourteen and the void left by his passing had never been filled. Drake rarely spoke about his father as it brought back memories. Camille was trying her best to encourage him to talk so that he could move forward. Lily didn't even know anything about her late grandfather.

But clearly, Drake had stashed this picture frame. It was a beautiful photo, a candid moment. The two of them were sat on the jetty by the lake at the ranch, Drake laughing at the camera as Jackson tickled him.

Camille abandoned her spring cleaning and took the frame downstairs.

Drake and Lily were in the kitchen sitting at the table. Lily was drawing while Drake was replying to emails on his laptop.

Camille gently placed the frame on the table beside Drake. 'I found this,' she told him softly.

Drake stopped working and looked at it, his face becoming drawn.

'I put it away for a reason,' he said stiffly. 'Can you put it back please?'

Camille sighed. 'But its a beautiful photo. We could hang it up on the living room wall beside the pictures of my grandmother. Our family -'

'No Camille,' Drake interrupted. 'It's too hard to look at his face.'

Lily stopped drawing and looked at the picture. A wide smile broke out on her face.

'That's my friend!'

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Drake and Camille stared at their daughter in shocked silence. Lily was oblivious as she lovingly stroked the picture with her finger.

'He looks older when I see him,' she explained, 'but he's really funny.'

Camille placed her hands on Drake's shoulders in support. Her husband wore a haunted look on his face.

'Lily, that's not funny..' Camille said quietly.

Lily frowned. 'I'm not being funny I mean it.'

'Lily..' Camille's voice was laced with a warning. She could feel Drake's shoulders shaking and his fists were clenched.

'It's him!' Lily cried. 'He's my invisible friend!'

Drake banged his fists on the table. 'That's enough Lily!'

Lily's eyes filled with tears. Drake never shouted at her. Never.

Camille reached out to take Lily's hand, feeling guilty. 'Sweetie, it's okay.'

Lily shook her head. 'No!' she shouted. 'He is my friend, he's real!'

'He isn't your friend!' Drake burst out, tears falling down his cheeks. Years of holding back feelings about his father had been released and now he was drowning.

'He isnt’ here anymore,' Drake continued, trying to calm his voice. 'So he's not real.'

Lily clenched her fists and looked down at the floor. She was embarrassed. Camille picked up the frame to take it away but was stopped when Lily spoke quietly.

'What's that honey?'

Lily's lip wobbled. 'He's my friend,' she repeated. 'He calls me Little Lady.'

Drake stared at her, his eyes wide. 'That's not possible..'

Camille took his hand. 'Drake?'

Drake ran his hand over his face and exhaled. He looked at Camille with red rimmed eyes and when he spoke, his voice was thick.

'Dad used to call Savannah Little Lady.'

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Camille went quiet. Lily watched her parents with big eyes, clenching and unclenching her fists as she struggled to work out what to do.

Lily had never seen photos of Jackson or heard any stories about him. Drake didn't want her to know how he died. He didn't want her innocent and joyful mind to realise that there was bad in this world.

A tear slid down Camille's cheek. 'Oh Drake..' she whispered, bringing him into her. She wrapped her arms around him and held him tight as he shook, tears streaming down his face as he nuzzled into her neck. He needed to feel safe. Camille was his safe harbour. Only she understood his pain about the loss of his father because she had lost her own parents as a child. They were lost children together.

Drake gently pulled away from his wife and looked at his daughter who was torn between running away and trying to make her dad feel better.

'Baby, come here,' Drake murmured, beckoning for her to take his hand. Lily shuffled towards him.

Drake picked her up onto his lap and cuddled her. 'I'm sorry for shouting at you,' he mumbled into her hair. 'I'm sorry baby.'

Lily sniffled and rubbed her eyes harshly. Camille quietly moved away to put the kettle on. Hot chocolate would help.

'I didn't mean to make you cry,' Lily whispered.

Drake nodded. 'I know. I know. I reacted badly. I won't shout at you again.'

Lily bit her lip and wrung her hands together. 'I'm sorry too.'

Drake shook his head. 'Don't you dare apologise, Lily. If you say your grandpa is your friend then he is your friend.'

Lily reached out to stroke the picture again. 'He looks happy,' she said. She looked over to the corner of the room. 'He looks happy right now.'

Drake blinked. 'Right now?'

Lily smiled weakly. 'He's smiling.'

Camille placed mugs of hot chocolate on the table and said loudly, 'Jackson, do you want a hot chocolate?'

Lily giggled. 'He says thank you but no thanks hun.'

Camille laughed but stopped when Drake looked up at her with a slight smile on his face.

'He called you hun,' Drake told her. 'He only calls women he likes hun.'

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That night, Drake found all the old photos he had of his dad. He sat in the armchair in his study with the photos laid out on the desk and Lily sat snuggled up on his lap. Drake was introducing her to Jackson Walker, her grandfather.

'This was taken on my 10th birthday,' Drake told her, pointing to a picture. 'We held a ranch party and I dressed up as a cowboy. As you can see, grandpa was also dressed like a cowboy!'

Lily grinned. 'I like your hat!'

Lily listened to Drake for the whole evening as he told her stories about Jackson. She was so enraptured that she didn't see Jackson himself standing by the door, smiling at his son and granddaughter. 'Bye little lady,' he whispered. 'Bye son.'

He faded away.

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A/N waaaah this reminds me of my grandad who I lost in June this year. I didn’t mean for it to get all emotional. Hope you enjoyed anyway!

#drake walker #trr fanfic

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