#so what then am i just fucking lazy? say what you mean!! god i wish i knew what she actually thinks of me lol

[eris-snow]

𝐆𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐛𝐲𝐞.

Tags: Deku's birthday series 2023, izuku x fem!reader, angst

“There are so many things I wish I could tell you. I want to be done with all the white lies and ambiguous phrasings. So here, I’ll say it, my last secret to you: I love you, Zuku. Please remember me. Please.”

“Get up, you lazy ass!” Katsuki barks from the doorway, barging into his room fully dressed.

Startled awake, Izuku almost tumbles out of bed with a squeak. “Ka-Kacchan!”

“Deku!” He mimics, not looking the slightest bit fazed. In fact, he looks angrier than usual. “If I don’t see you dressed in 5 god damn minutes, I’ll make sure to punch you so fucking hard it’ll make One For All look like a love tap.”

“If I don’t see you out of my room in t minus 5 seconds, I’ll use said love tap to get you out!” Izuku refutes, rubbing his eyes groggily. “What is up with you? It’s only 10 am—”

“Shortie and I stood outside your shitty apartment for half an hour until Auntie came home from the grocery store. You slept right through 30 minutes of endless knocking and doorbell rings.”

Katsuki’s face was the definition of terrifying and pissed, and it didn’t help when his hands started steaming. “Be glad that Shortie was there, if not there would be scorch markings on your door—”

“I’m so sorry, Kaccha—Starlight’s here?!” Izuku yelps, this time actually tumbling out of bed as he scrambles for his drawers. “I thought we gave you a spare key, Kacchan! I—why is Starlight—”

“You changed your fucking locks without telling me after the war, shit nerd! I ain’t have your new keys, so I was half contemplating blowing your door off its hinges—”

“Cut me some slack, Kacchan!” He rushes out, rifling through his closet for suitable clothes. “It’s my birthday.”

“I don’t cut any slack, Izuku.” Katsuki spits, throwing the nerd’s towel in his face. “That’s Shortie’s job.”

“Mean,” Izuku pouts.

Katsuki simply smirks back. “Happy Birthday, Izuku.”

--

“Happy birthday, Zuku!” You greet him, giggling when you saw the towel wrapped around his neck. “What time did you wake up?”

“About 10 minutes ago,” He admits, stealing a glance at the blond. Katsuki’s eyes were scanning his phone screen, a lazy, smug smirk plastered on his face.

“What do you want to do today? We get free rein until dinner time, because your mom wants us back so we can cut the cake.”

A smile plays on Izuku’s lips, and he almost tears right then and there. He was so fortunate to have friends like Starlight and Katsuki. He’d completely lucked out.

“Well…”

--

It was just like the old times. You, Katsuki and Izuku had always been a pack since you were little, and you force yourself to focus on whatever was happening now instead of what would happen after.

Even with the sun beating down you your neck, you survived with the sun hat you’d brought along with you. As you put it on, Izuku comments on it as he digs into his ice cream.

“That’s a nice hat there Starlight! Where’d you get it from?”

“Quite a while back,” You reply, tilting it upward so you can meet his eyes. “The person really knew what I liked.”

--

Izuku couldn’t name a day more perfect. Sure, it wasn’t anything fancy, definitely not as amazing as his meeting with All Might or the day he’d gained his Quirk, but it seemed like the world had decided to give him a peaceful day where nothing went wrong. By the time the three of them had gotten back for dinner, he’s grinning so widely he didn’t know it was possible.

He blows out the candles with a wish and a note in his pocket, praying for his friends, his family, you and Kacchan’s safety because he can’t stand it if you get hurt. He prays you’ll always be here, and that he’d be the number 1 hero (It’s been his dream his whole life, after all.) It’s only when everyone had started digging into the cake, did he realise you were missing.

“Where’s Starlight?” He frowns, checking the balcony. No, you’re not there either.

“She said something about taking a breather,” Katsuki said, poking his slice of cake with a fork. “When I asked her where, she just said, ‘It’s a secret’ and left.” He points his fork at Izuku. “Eat your cake.”

Blood rushes to his head, and for some reason, he’s getting dizzy just thinking about you.

Strange.

“I think I know where she is. I’ll bring her back. The sky’s dark already, Starlight shouldn’t have to walk back by herself.”

Katsuki eyes him suspiciously for a moment, something flickering in his eyes before they drop down to the slice of chocolate cake. “I’ll tell Auntie for you. Go do what you need to do, nerd.”

Izuku smiles at his best friend and thanks him, wearing his dumb bright red shoes and leaving in a hurry.

Katsuki stares at the cake, an icing drawing of himself and you on the cake next to Izuku’s face. He smudges the icing drawing of your face, standing up with a sigh.

“I hope you know what you’re doing, Starlight.”

--

“Hey.”

You whirl around, shoving the lamp in the direction of the voice. Izuku’s shadowed face smiles back gently, making you relax slightly. “Hey.”

The clearing looked different at night. A swarm of fireflies danced around the meadow without a care in the world, making the lake almost sparkle as pretty yellow dots dance around the beautiful glade.

“Kacchan said you stepped out. I got worried.”

You laugh, shaking your head as your fingers creep into the note in his pocket. “Sorry. Needed a breather.”

“No, no! Don’t apologise!” Izuku sits down on the grass next to you, face warm in the glow of the light. “I just wanted to make sure you’re okay.”

That phrase causes your smile to wobble.

“Right!” You dig through your pockets, not allowing even a moment of awkwardness. “Now that you’re here…”

Three small, wrapped present emerges from your pocket. Overpowering emotions are surging behind a fortress you’d encased them in.

You made a promise. You’re not going to cry.

Izuku’s mouth falls open into a small “O” as he takes it tenderly in his hands. He cradles it gently, with scarred hands you’ve come to know.

“What is it?” He asks dumbly.

You chuckle, gesturing. “Just open it, silly. I want to see your reaction.”

He rips open the first one and finds a shimmering silver watch, staring back at him in a shiny transparent box. He sputters indignantly. “Th-This must have cost a fortune! How did you-”

“I may or may not have saved up for it by using my internship money.” You scratched your head, blushing slightly. “It was a little pricy, sure but—”

“How did you know I wanted this brand?” He asks, shaking a little as he pries the lid off and holds it like it’s worth an entire building. “I-I never got it because—”

“You’re afraid it gets damaged during a fight,” You finish. “I know you don’t like accessories, so I asked Hatsume to reinforce the entire thing. I paid her for the modifications as well. Plus, you’ll need something to wear for formal occasions. They never have clocks in ballrooms.”

“You’re going to make me cry,” Izuku warns, looking at you with glassy eyes.

“You have two more gifts left, Zuku. Don’t cry now.”

Izuku takes that as a cue to shred open the next present. Your gifts may be small, but you sure know how to make them impactful because he absolutely loses it when he sees the next gift.”

“Prototype pins for his merchandise from his U.A days,” Izuku whispers, fingers quivering as he counts the pins. “Fi-Five? You got all five of them? I-I’ve never seen it before, how did you—”

“I pulled a few strings,” You say, gently. “It’s yours now.”

With tears bubbling over, he tears open the last gift. At first, it confuses him, and he has to will himself to put the waterworks on hold so he can actually see the gift properly. “Is this…” He cranes his head around, squinting. “Is this a photo of this place?”

“Yeah, I manage to paint this really good painting—”

“You painted this?” He interrupts, full-on sobbing now. “Why would you do this much? I don’t understand, I—”

“It’s a photo of this painting.” You correct. “So you can slot it in your wallet or use it as a bookmark or something. It’s your birthday, Zuku. Of course it’s important to me.”

Izuku tucks all of these precious gifts into his pocket and turns to wrap his arms around you in a tight hug. “Thank you so much, Starlight.”

You’re startled at first, but slowly, you adjust yourself and hug him back. “You’re welcome, Zuku.”

Fireflies dance around you for a little longer until Izuku finally pulls away, wiping the tears out of his eyes. “I, uh, I wanted to pass you something, actually.” He unfolds a note and hands it to you, a practice you’re so familiar with seeing that you instantly know what this is about. “I didn’t get the right time to pass it to you.”

The note is pure white, and you take a deep inhale and read the words to yourself.

I’m so glad I met you. Today was a blast. Thank you for today.

Somehow, those three sentences are what push you off the edge. One tear slips past your barriers, and soon another flows after as more tears join the first.

Dread and a feeling of longing engulf you a whole as you break down into quiet sobs, clenching the pocket that held your note, your last Secret to him, so tightly your knuckles hurt. You were almost contemplating not giving it to him.

“It’s not fair…” You mumble, body convulsing as you try to clear your tears.

“I promised not to cry.”

Izuku panics almost comically, leaning over you and trying to find a way to stop you from bawling. “Hey, don’t cry! I-I didn’t mean to make you sad, I swear, I just—”

“I told myself that I wouldn’t this year. I never follow through on it.”

Izuku frowns. “What are you talking about—”

“Can I get another hug? Please?”

Izuku relents cautiously, and you wish you could explain it to him but you can’t as time slips away fast. You bury your head into his shoulder, trying to memorise everything. The way you fit into his arms, the way he smells, the way his voice is quiet and so gentle and raw when he’s with you.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” Izuku asks, patting your head gently.

“Everything.” You mutter, pulling back a little to sit beside him with your back against the tree.

Your tears keep falling, a waterfall of emotions suffocating you as you struggle to get that one word out.

“Stay with me, Izuku.” Your voice comes out broken, as you lean against his shoulder. “Don’t go.”

He’s so much taller now, compared to when you were kids.

He’s stronger too, and he’s not even quirkless.

All things considered, he doesn’t need you anymore.

But you still need him.

“I’m not going anywhere,” Izuku soothes. “I’ll be here tomorrow, too you know.”

That only makes you sob harder.

Memories filter in and out of your head as you finger his note, reminiscing on how the past month has gone.

“You will?” You ask, so small and scared because you know he will, but he won’t and it tears you apart inside. “You’d be here so we can continue to tell each other to sleep earlier, even though we’d go ahead and sleep late anyway?” you swallow thickly, throat running dry. “We’d-we’d have so many more Sunday breakfasts that you’d only eat katsudon no matter how hard I’d try. I’d tell you how much I admire your eyes because they’re just so bright despite everything that happened because you’re Izuku, and I’d tell you how I got your nickname because then, I wouldn’t have to lie to you.”

The words are pushing out of your mouth faster than you can process them, and Izuku just listens to them wordlessly, letting you ramble.

“We’d help each other with our nightmares like we always do, 'cause despite the fact that we have therapists I know that going to you is so much better. We can have more Movie Nights until Shoto is finally caught up with his childhood shows, and come here more often for more picnics. When we get into villain attacks, I’d know you’ll always have my back just like you have mine. We’d figure out our shit together by talking on the rooftop, and I’d tell you how I found this clearing as we light up 17 candles on your birthday cake next year…”

You trail off, fingers wrung together tightly. Tears fall as your voice loses all stability. “I’d have more birthdays with you, and I’d actually be celebrating it with you without having to push my thoughts back down. I’d be happy, and I’d be there for you…” You break off into a whisper.

“…And you’d remember me.”

Izuku’s frown creases deeper. He hates seeing you upset. His head is throbbing, spinning as he tries to focus on you. “I won’t forget you.” He promises. What else can he do?

“I wrote you a note.” You finish, completely ignoring him as you shove the note into his hands with your face hidden. “I wrote you a Secret, too.”

Izuku glances at you with curiosity and concern before his eyes drop down to the lime-green Post-it. He has no idea why you’re busting out all of these memories on him as someone had perished, but all he knew was that you—

I love you.

Izuku drops the paper in his lap and whirls to you with shock, eyes blinking rapidly as he stares back at you.

“What—”

“There are so many things I wish I could tell you. I want to be done with all the white lies and ambiguous phrasings. So here, I’ll say it, my last secret to you: I love you, Zuku. Please remember me. Please.”

“I do, I will, I—” Izuku sputters, face turning red. His head is pounding now, and he struggles to stand when you do. “I don’t understand! Where’s this coming from? What’s with all these lasts and—”

“Shouldn’t we discuss this tomorrow?” You divert, finally wiping your tears away. You square your shoulders and manage a watery smile, before you turn heel and make your way to the path back home. “I’ll explain it all tomorrow. It’s getting late, and I should get home before my parents get worried.” You pause and turn back. Izuku is nodding slowly now, hand outstretched like he wants to catch your wrist, but he doesn’t.

“We can do that. We-we can do that. Just—promise me that you’ll explain everything. I don’t want to be kept in the dark anymore. I need answers. Starlight, please?”

You don’t want to lie, you don’t want to lie, so you just maintain your smile as you whisper, “Whenever you're ready.”

Izuku takes it as a promise, and relaxes with a wobbly smile of his own. “Okay. Goodnight, Starlight.”

You smile, even though it’s painful, and take in a deep breath even though it feels as if you’re inhaling shattered glass. Finally, you work up the courage to say those words, even though it felt like the world was ending in just an hour now.

“Goodbye, Zuku.”

--

Izuku arrives back at the dorms to be greeted by a new face. His smile lights up his entire face when he bows and greets. “Hi! You must be the new transfer Kacchan told me about. I’m Izuku Midoriya, nice to meet you!”

The girl smiles back at him with a warm smile, holding the door wider. Her eyes sparkle like the stars above, and she sticks her own hand out as a greeting.

“My name is Y/n L/n. I can’t wait to spend the rest of the year with you.”

#mha #mha fanfiction #deku x reader #izuku x y/n #izuku x reader #izuku midoriya #midoriya izuku #bnha midoriya #midoriya x y/n #Deku's birthday series 2023

[waylibee-analysis-firm]

mustang theory (ch09)

guys im being so serious rn. im so scared to post this. but bee is being wonderfully supportive (as usual <3) and i am going to be. so very Brave. this may not be coherent, but...i hope it makes some sort of sense ok. anyways here is the theory for ch09:

mike and will leave the camp dance early bc of Bad Memories and/or they would rather just be making out (which is. fair) 

(fearless lore is referenced throughout but also will be theorized/posted about separately) 

this would be proven by the references to wish you were sober by conan gray (yes ik it’s not in relation to ch09 but. this part Could Happen at the end of ch08…just saying). 

this specific theory is fueled by the weird eureka moment i had regarding this post. is this a reach? yes. do i fucking care? no.

they take mike’s car, despite will’s grumblings abt his stupid fucking mustang.

ch01 im staring. Directly at you. shut up. shut up. i hear what you’re saying and i just can’t listen right now okay. ch01 we’ll get back to you i prommy

“Also, God forbid I have to leave the grounds in Mike Wheeler’s stupid fucking Mustang more than once this summer," he adds, nearly spitting. (ch01)

need i say more.

also this would totally be building more on their trust....plus probably some references from follow the sparks that i don't know off the top of my head

also could have been foreshadowed by ch02…when will refused to get into mike’s stupid. fucking. mustang. just saying….

ch02 is also biggest fearless lore references we have that i can think of but that is for another time

“Don’t tell me you’re driving that thing,” Will scoffs, eyeing Mike’s car in trepidation, eyes sweeping along the length of the racing stripes. (ch02)

...forcing Will to declare a lesser of two evils: throwing dignity to the wind and accepting a ride in the Mustang — the undeserving bane of Will’s existence...(ch02)

CAR EMOJI !!!!

this chapter is “thea’s baby”. well thea is also the resident car expert.

im literally so funny for this sorry not sorry im cracking myself up ->

either something happens between them and they end up pulled over OR something happens to the stupid fucking mustang

THIS could be that one post thea made…which could have been totally innocent OR it could have been COMPLETELY SINISTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OUT TO GET US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! putting on my tinfoil hat

smth happens between them...backseat driver will (mentioned in ch02) as well as the stupid. FUCKING how to drive manual that's been driving me INSANE the past couple of days (found here.)

side note: thea i love you but you are driving me Bonkers (mwah <3)

alternative to the above point is that mike pulls over to 1) make out with will (again. which is again. fair.) 2) chat with will about what they Are

option 2) would require some sort of shift in their relationship/situationship beforehand…im thinking this could mean you know that i caught it could take place BEFORE or DURING ch9… this could be the They Know motif coming to a head (meaning everybody. they Know for real this time. and now mike’s confused about it. “what are we?” talk from ch05 but times a million)

“save me ‘till the party’s over/kiss me in the seat of your rover”

^^ regarding this. i wrote all of this before i rediscovered that wish u were sober has nothing to do with ch09 (supposedly). im just too lazy to change it bear with me please.

will gets mad at mike for some reason?

if the original point made (something happens to the stupid fucking mustang) ends up happening, this could be will’s breaking point bc he’s overwhelmed and panicked and stuff is happening too fast for him

ch09 is a will pov chapter.

also frustrated crier (some ask about ch04 that i need to find to link before this gets posted)…just saying.

will gets mad at mike continued and reverts back to his I Need to Hurt You phase bc it’s safe and he doesn’t know how to handle the UNDOUBTEDLY romantic feelings n thoughts he’s having about mike…

he’s scared of getting hurt again like he was with derek and he’s scared of the unfamiliar territory that comes with being nice to mike/having mike be nice in return

This type of gentleness is certainly a facet of Will that Mike has known, having seen it more than a handful of times over the years, but it’s not quite one he’s accustomed to. (ch06)

this ^^ goes both ways i assume...there's gotta be evidence abt it in a will pov chapter but i am. exhausted.

he lashes out at mike that they aren’t anything, they’re just a casual fwb situationship, etc. 

wow would you look at that…this is paralleling the fearless lore theory…

cue "straight up" by paula abdul for mike pov (i've been a fool before/wouldn't like to get my love caught in the slammin' door/how about some information, please? // straight up now tell me/do you really want to love me forever oh, oh, oh/or am I caught in a hit-and-run?/straight up now tell me/is it gonna be you and me together oh, oh, oh/or are you just having fun?)

“Hit-and-run” CAR IMAGERY ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

"straight up" by paula abdul is on mike's driving playlist and i've been going insane about it since i saw it. btw. i love this song.

mike's unsure abt what they Are/what will is thinking so he reverts to the childish fighting thing too...pushing will's buttons is second nature for him by this point...evidence for this in a mike pov i will find later prommy

this is also wish you were sober coded “trip down the road, walking you home/you kiss me at your door/pullin’ me close, beg me ‘stay over’/but im over this roller coaster/imma crawl out of the window now/gotten good at saying ‘gotta bounce’/honestly you always let me down/and i know we’re not just hanging out”

first half here. could be about how mike is begging will for a relationship. but will is “over the rollercoaster” and the push and pull of their friendship to rivalry to fwb situation. 

second half here. will’s metaphorically leaving mike (crawling out the window). he’s “gotten good at saying ‘gotta bounce’” bc he’s done this to mike Before when they kissed when they were thirteen…i Think (fearless lore theory). “honestly you always let me down” could be a reference to. will being angry with mike for not just being happy with their fwb, even though he wants more too? “i know we’re not just hanging out” come ON this is will saying he KNOWS THEY CANT JUST BE CASUAL. HE LITERALLY SAYS THIS IN CH05 I BELIEVE. OR MIKE DOES IN CH06. THEY CAN’T BE ANYTHING BUT EACH OTHERS EVERYTHING. 

^^ literally kill me now i can't believe none of this is related. curling up into a little ball and sobbing.

this would be the beginning of the Angst that’s a 3-4 on a scale of 10 bc we know they're both idiots just miscommunicating But. hey.

so that's uh. that's the outline of the Theory we currently have...it's our most fleshed out one rn fs but there are a few Others that were referenced here that we need some more information on...

anyways. thanks for being insane with us. <3

#/theory #/mustang theory (ch09) #god help me. i did this All. #collapses #also girldummy if u see this...was gonna post my ch06 comment in ao3 tn but i am So Tired so you will prob be seeing me there sometime #this week <3 if thats ok #ps. if anybody finds anything off about this that i didnt already point out. please feel free to share. #i dont care if im wrong im just having fun But. this is just a working theory...and if we can find more evidence for it or #we change it completely bc smth else works better #that's okay too! that's what this blog is for :) #ok done now #🫧

[localfandomweirdo]

"Sorry..." (FNaF D.C.A.)

-There was a four way tie,so I'm gonna write all 4 bc I have no moral code :D-

Tw: Angst, panic attacks,swearing, hateful speech(Kinda?), fluff, sibling arguing-

-NOT INCEST-

"What the hell is wrong with you?!SERIOUSLY! Can you just shut the fuck up?!" Eclipse yelled.

"Me?What's wrong with ME?!You're the one being ridiculous!" Moon shouted in response.

"How am I being ridiculous?You started this whole shit-show!"

"Maybe if you and Sun stayed out of my god-damn business, you wouldn't have had to worry!"

"OHHHH.I should just not care about my brother?You need to stop this nonsense and listen to me!" Eclipse rubbed the sides of his head in frustration.

"Oh,why should I listen to you? You do nothing but mess me up!Do you know how hard it is to be me?!"

"Hard?HARD?You're being so fucking dramatic!You have it made!You barley have to work,you're beyond lazy and arrogant,and Sun does literally everything for you!He worries about you constantly! You have the easiest existence ever!"

"What do you mean?I work just as hard as you two!" Moon's voice rose 3 octaves as he spoke.

"You do not! All you do is stand in the dark,scare people,and make sure kids don't sleepwalk away or whatever!Me and Sun work tirelessly.Every.Fucking.Day."

"I wish you knew what it felt like!You asshole!" Moon spat.

"Oh,yeah?I wish you were never my brother!Me and Sun would probably be better off without you!" Eclipse hadn't realize what just came out of his mouth until a thick,deafening silence fell across them.

Then a sound.

Hyperventilating.

Moon's hyperventilating and choked sobs.

"I-i...Moon,I sw-swear- I didn't-"

Moon was trembling,sweating,and choking all at once.Eyes unfocused and dizzy,tears falling down his face.

Eclipse gently rested his hands on Moon's shoulders,

"May I hug you?"

The only response he got was a nod.He pulled Moon closer to him,running a hand through his hair,gently shushing him.

"I-I'm SO sorry,Moony.You...have an equally, if not more, difficult job as me and Sun..."

"A-and I'm sorry f-for starting t-the fight i-in the first place..." Moon whimpered, voice muffled by Eclipse's shoulder,still shaking and crying.

"Hey,hey...shhhhhh,in out,in out...just listen to my breathing, okay?" Eclipse softly instructed.

Moon leaned against Eclipse,taking deep,shaking breaths followed by trembling exhales.Calming down slowly but surely.Eclipse tucking Moon's head into the crook of his neck.

"Love you, little brother." Eclipse said,rubbing the back of Moon's head gently.

"Love you too." Moon yawned,dozing off.

-END-

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Ty for reading.

Real talk tho,some people say hugging isn't how you calm someone during a panic attack, but it honestly works on me,I kinda did project onto Moon a lot😭

Bye😌💅

👁👄👁

#fnaf #fnaf security breach #fnaf au #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf sundrop #fnaf eclipse #fnaf moondrop #fnaf human au #fnaf sb #fluff #angst #angst with a happy ending #light angst

[r-r-raf]

For the Sherlock ask game: Question 13, 14 and 18 :}}

Oh my god thank u for letting me talk abt Sherlock Holmes [shakes you]

13. What is something you wish more people knew/understood about Sherlock Holmes?

That he's a fucking silly guy okay. Okay. [shakes you] I feel like a lot of Sherlock Holmes adaptations lean more into the "detective genius" aspect of his character, but Sherlock is by no means as serious or mean spirited as people depict him to be. He can be arrogant and he doesn't always know how to talk to people, but people like him and seek his help for a reason. He's a caring guy! He cares so deeply for people!!

My personal interpretation of him has always been that he understands what people are feeling extremely well (he's good at reading people), but doesn't always know how to respond in a way that's sensitive to the situation.

The books and the stories have a lot of moments that are lighthearted and I wish people knew about them more!

Also that he's arospec

14. Who do you tend to relate to more - Holmes or Watson? Both?

Hmmmmm. Probably Sherlock. I too am just a silly guy that can be dreadfully lazy, isn't always the most sociable, stays awake at absurd hours doing whatever, forgets to take care of himself sometimes maybe (whoops), and hates cops.

I'm also super in love w my partner though so I get Watson

18. Favourite piece of Sherlock Holmes related trivia?

OKAY admittedly I don't know a lot akdjqj sorry I'm a fake Sherlock Holmes fan.

but!!! I think this bit is funny

Arthur Conan Doyle was so done w Sherlock fr. The fact that the Conan Doyle estate was protective of him at all is hilarious to me

He also wrote to a little girl by the name of Ruby about Sherlock though :] I really like that letter

^ says this

#asks #Crispy! #okay thank u for letting me talk abt Sherlock Holmes I love u #I fucking LOVE s&c as a Sherlock adaptation bc it's so silly!! But still treats the more serious cases w the gravity they need #y'know #AND IM SOOO EXCITED TO SEE SHERLOCK IN FAWX & STALLION #I loveeee Fawx & Stallion and seeing Sherlock and Watson at the end of s1 was so much fun I'm so excited for them to show up again #Augh #anyway anyway. Sorry Sherlock trivia became ACD trivia kinda. I just think his feelings towards Sherlock were funny

[faela404]

☆ The Library ☆

kazuha x gn!reader

prompt: - you and kazuha attend the same university, him being a english lit major and you being a person in stem😎 your paths never crossed until that day in the library…

*this is an smau so please do expect a lot of twitter posts and messages to read, there will be proper writing too but, it will mostly be that!!*

warning! y/n being annoyingly oblivious

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☆ let’s hang out ☆

12:21pm

i’ve always hated packing.

not that i don’t want to go home, i really do! it can just get quite tiring to pack sometimes, usually i’d pack with my friends since not all of them tend to go home during break but, for some reason they’ve all decided they would be this year

i suppose it’s a good thing, none of them will be alone this break but, some selfish part of me does wish at least one would stay back so i could pack with company

it doesn’t matter now, i’ve already started packing with the only comfort coming from my playlist playing in the background

i really can’t believe winter break is actually here

my mind begins to drift back to my last meeting with kazuha

it’s been about a week since we last saw each other, with no texts exchanged or even seeing each other on campus

i seemed silly but, i was beginning to miss his pretty face, his soft voice, the way he always seemed to know exactly what to say to make everything seemed better and-

oh my god

why am i thinking about him like this?!

i mean sure i’ve always thought he was attractive, ever since i met him, but this is going further than simple outward attraction

fuck.

i have a crush on kaedehara kazuha.

i didn’t realise until now, until i didn’t get to see him constantly

this isn’t good, i barely know the guy

okay okay, calm down y/n, this is only because you haven’t seen him in a week. you don’t like him like that, your brain is playing tricks on you

yeah that’s all it is

it has to be.

2:34pm

after what feels like forever, i’m finally done packing. the winter break is usually quite long so i had to pack a lot more than i usually would.

just as i was about to relax, my phone’s loud ring startles me

i swear i almost jumped completely out of my skin

i assume it’s hu tao complaining about packing or venti asking us out to drinks

imagine my surprise when kazuha’s name appears clear as day on my screen.

a/n it’s getting good guyssssss, y/n’s finally not being so oblivious! everyone clap for them👏 no but seriously, i can’t wait to show ya’ll the rest of this story!

take care of yourselves <33

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[dialovers-translations]

DIABOLIK LOVERS DARK FATE Vol.2 Chapter of the First Quarter [TRACK 1]

Original title: 狼の影

Source: Diabolik Lovers DARK FATE Vol. 1 Chapter of the First Quarter

Audio: Here

Seiyuu: Toriumi Kousuke, Katsuyuki Konishi, Midorikawa Hikaru, Kaji Yuki, Hirakawa Daisuke & Takashi Kondou

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Track 1: The Shadow of a Wolf

Laito: ( Night falls per usual, while time ticks away as nothing of significance happens. Every day is a repeat of that same scenarioーー )

Reiji: ( With an eternity of time on our hands, us Vampires constantly find ourselves stuck in a gap in between boredom and idleness, until we eventually lose our perception of time, simply eagerly awaiting for the day when it will finally all endーー )

Shuu: ( Since we do not die a natural death, one’s passing is considered a joyous occasion. We wish for someone to kill us, no matter who. So we can at last be freed from this never-ending flow of timeーー )

Ayato: ( However, back then, we all came to the realization. ‘If we had to be killed, it should not be by just anyone.’ーー ) 

Wolves are running through the woods.

*Grooooowl* 

They continue running. 

*HOOOOWL*

You tell Ayato about the wolves. 

Ayato: …Aah!? Wolves, you say!? 

You nod. 

Ayato: Chichinashi…Are you still half asleep? …And everyone’s talking ‘bout it? Che! What would a bunch of wolves be doin’ runnin’ ‘round this human city? Idiot!

You frown.

Ayato: I’m sure someone mistook a pack of wild dogs for wolves? Ridiculous! Anyway, you don’t need to come and tell me every time you hear ‘bout some stupid horror story! 

*Rustle* 

You shriek.

Ayato: It hurts…? I bet. I pinched you hard just now after all. I made sure to make it hurt good so you won’t spout such bullcrap again! I have to go this far or else you just don’t listen, right? In that case…

*Rustle rustle*

Ayato: I wouldn’t mind hurtin’ you even more? Well, in your case…

Ayato pins you down.

*Thud* 

Ayato: I guess this would be more effective? 

*Rustle rustle* 

Laito: One second, Ayato-kun~

Ayato: Aah!? What’s your problem, Laito!? Don’t get in my way!

Laito: Oh, I never meant to disrupt. I only wanted to warn you since I believe that there’d be no point in trying to ‘punish’ Bitch-chan with your fangs…~ 

Ayato: Aah!? 

Laito: I mean…Bitch-chan is the world champion at perceiving pain as pleasure! So that won’t do, right? A punishment should be so painful, it has to make the person realize that they never want to go through it again. Nfu~ 

Ayato: Aah, fuck off! Why are you tryin’ to ruin my fun!? 

Laito: Once again, that was never my intention!

Ayato: God, I was just in the mood for her blood as well, but now I’m just pissed off. …Ugh. Laito. You’re tryin’ to upset me on purpose, aren’t you!? That’s your intention, isn’t it!? 

Laito: Nfu~ I mean, maybe? After all, it’s not like Bitch-chan is officially yours or anything, right? Her blood happens to be my favorite meal as well! Anyone would step in when they see someone else about to indulge in their delicious snack, no? 

Ayato: Cut the crap!

*Rustle* 

Ayato: She belongs to me!

Laito: Oh~? And when was that decided? 

Reiji walks up to them. 

Reiji: Okay, time out. 

*Clap clap* 

Reiji: Please cut out this pointless argument. Good grief…I do not understand how you lot never get bored of getting into stupid fights every five seconds. 

Ayato: Haah…!? I mean, you start complainin’ whenever you see Mr. Lazy Guy as well, don’t you!? You’re in no position to judge us!

Rejii: Hmph! …Even if that good-for-nothing was a little more aggressive and would actually react to my provocations, I would still have better things to do than to argue with him all day.

Laito: Which means…So you’ve been calling him a ‘good-for-nothing’ or a ‘waste of air and space’ knowing very well that he won’t bother to retaliate anyway? 

Reiji: I never called him a waste of air and space, did I?

Laito: I mean, don’t sweat the details~ 

Reiji: Despite what you may believe, I am a pacifist at heart. I do not find enjoyment in twisted games such as deliberately causing conflict and getting a kick out of it. Unlike you lot, that is. 

Ayato: Aah…!? Just get to the damn point! I’ve got no clue what you’re tryn’ to say!

Reiji: If you cannot comprehend, so be it. …Well then, you spacing out over there, snap out of it as well. I shall pour you a cup of tea, okay? 

You fix your posture. 

Reiji: Right, right. Now straighten your back and please pay attention to the etiquette of the traditional Japanese tea ceremony as you accept the cup of tea. 

*Psssh* 

Reiji: Here you go. Ayato, Laito, the two of you should have some as well. 

Ayato: Che…Buzz off. I don’t like that smug look on your face after you resolve a conflict.

Laito: Right? I don’t like that look of accomplishment one bit either.

Reiji: That is fine. Never once in my life have I felt the need to earn approval from you people. 

*Cling*

Reiji: More importantly…I heard you mention something about wolves earlier. 

You raise your head. 

Reiji: Did you also spot a wolf? 

You nod.

Ayato: Aah…? Chichinashi, you actually did?

You explain. 

Reiji: I see. While you did not see one yourself, you are worried about the rumors. 

Laito: …I mean, I guess that makes sense. Nfu~ I mean, just remember the story of Little Red Riding Hood? After the Big Bad Wolf gobbles up her grandmother, Little Red does all sorts…of naughty things with him, right~? So I’m sure that’s why Bitch-chan is so curious about this wolf too!

Ayato: Did the story really go like that?

Reiji: Ayato. Just pretend you didn’t hear it. Do not take it seriously. 

Ayato: S-Sure…?

Laito: Eeh~? Aren’t you being a little mean?

Reiji: Either way, putting aside debate on whether or not wolves have actually shown up…Well, even outside of the world of Little Red Riding Hood, those with a strong thirst for blood are a threat to humans either way. As a result, the wolf has been a popular candidate to be the villain in various fictional works. Either to evoke fear, or in other cases, to be respected and honored. Therefore, I believe it is only natural for humans to instinctively express fear when they hear that such creatures have shown up in the middle of a city.

Ayato: The fuck, Chichinashi? So those wolves actually do make your instincts kick in, huh? Shouldn’t I be the strongest and scariest of all…!?  

Laito: Exactly~! We’re ‘scaaaaary’ Vampires, remember? We suck your blood and corrupt both your heart and soul. Nfu~ Fufufu…~ 

Reiji: Haah…You really love picking on her whenever you’re given the chance, don’t you? Do you not believe that we have more important matters at hand right now?

Ayato: And what would that be?

Reiji: The word ‘wolves’ should ring a bell with you both, no?

Laito: Hmー Ring a bell? For me, nothing else but Little Red Riding Hood comes to mind though…?

Ayato: Did somethin’ happen which involved Wolves?

Reiji: Good grief…This is what you get when Vampires start living in the human world. …They exist in the Demon World, remember? The Wolf Clan. 

Laito: Ah, now that you mention it!

Ayato: I completely forgot ‘bout those guys up until now! …Then could it be that the Wolves which were spotted in town are actually people from the Wolf Clan? 

Subaru: …Nah, not a chance.

Laito: Subaru-kun! When did you get here? 

*THUD*

Subaru: Fuck off! I’ve been here this whole time. 

Ayato: You have so little presence, I didn’t even realize at all! My bad!

Subaru: Haah? In other words, you’ve become nothin’ but a little housepet who has lost all natural instincts, right?

Ayato: Aah!? A housepet, you say!? You bastard…You’ve sure got some nerve talkin’ to your older brother like that!

Subaru: Tsk…Says the guy who didn’t even remember the Wolf Clan exists. Do you even have the right to call yourself a Vampire still? You don’t deserve better than to be called a pet. Seems like you’ve even forgotten ‘bout the fact that the Wolf Clan is known for being extremely territorial and therefore rarely ventures beyond their area of land.

Laito: Nfu~ I mean, I never felt particularly ‘prideful’ to be a Vampire and you can hardly blame us for forgetting about the Wolf Clan when we live in a place where they’re of no concern, right? …I don’t think that warrants calling us ‘pets’, won’t you agree?

Subaru: You’re basically proving my point. You’re always quick to shame her, but in reality, it’s you guys who are slaves to her blood, aren’t you? 

Reiji: Subaru, lay it off. …Why are you so on edge?

Subaru: ‘Cause you bastards keep on spoutin’ a load of bullcrap!

Laito: Subaru-kun, is it ‘that time of the month’ perhaps~? Nfu~

Subaru: …Fuck off! Do you want me to send you flyin’, huh!?

You try to stop Subaru.

Subaru: …Hah!? Why are you tellin’ me to stop!? You’re to blame here as well. Don’t be hangin’ out with these bastards! …Tsk. You people seriously piss me off!

*Thud* 

Reiji: Good grief…I suppose that is why Subaru has been so irritable. 

Subaru: Haah!? 

Reiji: Oh no, simply talking to myself. …Well then, let us return to the previous topic. Just like Subaru stated earlier, the Wolf Clan is known for rarely leaving its territory, even within the Demon World. 

*Rustle* 

Reiji: So it would be even more unusual for them to come here.

Laito: Well, I can believe that. I went into their territory once and had one hell of a rough time.

Subaru: Ah? You did that? 

Laito: There’s girls like Bitch-chan amongst all species, you see~ 

Ayato: You’ll really take anyone you can get, huh? 

Laito: Nfu~ I wish you’d instead say that I don’t discriminate. 

Ayato: …Well, anyway. Even if there’s some wolves wanderin’ ‘round somewhere, I’ll make quick work of them, so rest assured!

*Rustle* 

Ayato: Chichinashi…I won’t let you get devoured by some stupid Wolves. Hehe…

Reiji: Oh dear. Seems like it is time to leave for school already. 

*Clap clap*

Reiji: Well then, everyone. Let us get ready and be on our way.

*Rustle*

Reiji: I shall not allow you to skip classes. 

Laito: Geez, guess I’ll go get ready then.

*TIMESKIP*

Subaru enters your room. 

Subaru: ー Oi, are you ready to leave? 

You tell him that you need a few more minutes. 

Subaru: Haah…!? What’s takin’ you so long?

You explain. 

Subaru: You’re lookin’ for something? Che…What is it you need? 

You answer. 

Subaru: Your hair pin!? You’ll be fine without it, right!? …Hah. Why do chicks have to waste time on that sorta crap? I just don’t understand. …Haah, god. Where have you searched already? 

You explain. 

Subaru: Hm? Then you still have to check here, right?

*Rustle rustle* 

Subaru: …

*Rustle rustle* 

Subaru: Haah…Not here. …Haah. What a drag. ーー Oi, have you looked underneath here? 

You shake your head. 

*Rustle* 

Subaru: Ah…It fell on the floor. 

*Rustle*

Subaru: Haah…God. 

He walks up to you.

Subaru: Here you go. 

You reach for it.

Subaru: Ah, hold up. You put this in your hair, right? I’ll do it. It’d be annoyin’ to have to fix it a million times while lookin’ in the mirror. I don’t have the patience for that.

*Rustle rustle*

Subaru: If I recall correctly…You always put it ‘round here…Like this? 

*Thud* 

Subaru: There. That should do. It looks good. 

You grow flustered. 

Subaru: Hm? Why…are your cheeks red? 

You explain.

Subaru: Hah? Why are you embarrassed? …! This wasn’t…really… ー Ugh! Fuck this…You know, I was…a little on edge earlier so…I felt a lil’ bad for how I acted and well…Ah! No! That isn’t it! 

You tilt your head to the side. 

Subaru: …Aah! What a pain in the ass! …Right.

*Rustle* 

Subaru: I just wanted your blood, that’s all. By leanin’ in this close, I can easily sneak in a couple of sips, right? 

*Rustle* 

Subaru: Come on, keep still…

Subaru bites you. 

*Gulp gulp* 

Subaru: ー Hah. Haah…Nn…

*Gulp* 

Subaru: Mm…Haah. Do you understand now? This is why I approached you. Haahn…

*Gulp*

Subaru: Mm…Nn…Hah…Delicious…Haahn…

*Rustle* 

Subaru: Your blood belongs to me…

*Rustle rustle* 

Subaru: Don’t you dare…let any of the guys feed off you, ‘kay? 

Laito: Bitch-chan~! Subaru-kun~! The limousine’s going to leave!

*Rustle* 

Subaru: Che…Guess we have no other choice. Let’s go. Come on. 

He grabs hold of your hand. 

Subaru: Come. …Just hurry!

You look at your connected hands.

Subaru: Your hand? It’s ‘cause you’re such a damn slowpoke! Now quit whining and lemme hold it!

He drags you out of the room.

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

#diabolik lovers #dialovers #shuu sakamaki #reiji sakamaki #ayato sakamaki #kanato sakamaki #laito sakamaki #subaru sakamaki #diabolik lovers translation #diabolik lovers drama cd

[athetos]

I honestly have no fucking idea how I went to college for 4 straight years full time without dropping out. Undiagnosed narcolepsy and adhd, unmedicated, I spent multiple semesters not even on antidepressants, or worse, on ones that made me violently ill, had a month-long bout of a stomach disorder I didn’t even know I inherited from my dad, spent half that amount of time in an abusive relationship, plus a ton more of vastly complex and out of control interpersonal drama, like I barely survived at all tbh but I somehow managed to get a degree? And 3 fucking minors? By the time I was 22? I barely attended some of my classes, people were so used to me falling asleep in the hallways that they’d just step over me and put my coat on me like a blanket, I only passed a couple of classes because I cheated on exams and broke down in the professor’s office and they pitied me, but I fucking did it?

Like, if I went back and time and did it all over again, only this time properly medicated and with a real support group, I would probably have a fucking 4.0, be in 5 clubs, did that crazy double major I joked about, and my life would be so unrecognizable. I’d be in a PhD program right now at some prestigious university and… okay, let’s be real, I probably wouldn’t be making more money than I am right now because I’ve seen what they fucking pay grad students, but that’s just insane to me, how differently my life could have turned out. Or maybe it wouldn’t be different. Maybe it would be the same, or maybe it would even be worse. Like, I’m dating a milf who’s 9 inches taller than me, so maybe this is the best timeline.

Yet, it’s kind of… both funny and depressing to know how fucked I get right now if I don’t have my meds, even if I’m not in a depressive episode. I can barely function without them. I’m asleep more than I am awake, I can’t focus, I have no energy, and if I go more than just a few days without my antidepressants I have full-on mental breakdowns and am borderline-suicidal. So, this of course means 1 of 2 things must be true. Either I wasn’t this fucked up in college, and my disorders must have worsened over time, or I was this fucked up and still forced myself through a degree. The second is probably the most likely, to be honest. And you might be thinking, “Ash, can’t you just remember and compare your symptoms?” You have to understand that I was so unbelievably stressed at some points that huge chunks of time spanning weeks is permanently locked away in my Repressed Memory Vault, and I was also a victim of gaslighting from someone who very much wanted me to believe I was crazy, but also was incredibly adamant I did not receive help (hence partially why I was undiagnosed and unmedicated). My memories aren’t really all that reliable, and the other thing is, I thought the narcolepsy part of it was normal. Or, well, that I was just lazy. I didn’t know what narcolepsy was beyond dramatizations in tv shows. I didn’t see my symptoms as symptoms, and therefore, I didn’t really keep track of them, if that makes sense.

All this to say, I think wishing my life turned out differently isn’t healthy and leads nowhere. I still ruminate on it from time to time, but it’s less from a depressive angle and more because I’m angry as hell that a lot of people failed me in my life during that time period. I should have been diagnosed and medicated, god knows I’ve seen enough therapists and doctors. I should have had a friend that would have helped me get the fuck out of that relationship sooner. I should have had more people supporting me and taking me seriously. But things turned out this way, and I gotta make my peace with that. I might be in a “better” place if things went differently from a certain viewpoint, at least career-wise, but it could be worse in other ways I’d never know. I need to put my energy into making sure the life I’m actually living is the best possible one for me. That’s all that matters.

#p

[pebiejeebies]

Soo I wanna talk about my (possibly) chronic illness, because I’m so tired of this.

My reason to self diagnose: I have to self diagnose, my dad doesn’t believe in “disorders and disabilities (specifically ones like chronic illness, he normalized it in such a horrific way, it made me feel like I was an odd one out when I realized how healthy everyone else is)” *please don’t hate him, we don’t have money for much things anyways, it’s fine*

If you hate self diagnosis, just leave and spare both of us,

For now I wanna talk about what makes me feel like I have chronic illness, and that is literally being sick, I’ll be generally talking about everything painful/tiring that has been affecting me for over a year now..

TW: Mentions self harm/hate, gore, of gag/spit/vomit, dizziness, unease, etc. if you are sensitive to this topic please read at your own risk,,

Let’s start, so lately ive been accidentally swallowing mucus, all day, all night, to the point I have to breathe from my mouth, which COMPLETELY destroys my smell and taste. Especially when I get the common cold..

Barely any mucus comes from my nose, it’s almost ALWAYS my throat and saliva, to the point I started to think my saliva and mucus have been completely combined now. Like.. literally.

my breath always stinks, minty tastes really sucks and I hate toothpaste, I hate the mint and the texture, I’ve tried some things like these little bottles of meds for the cold, but they NEVER worked.

I almost always have a headache, my heartbeat has went from my normal 60/70bpm to 90/120 min/max.. and I always get voice changes, sometimes too deep, sometimes too high, and sometimes I lose my voice.

AND YOU KNOW WHATS FUNNY?! I LOVE SINGING. ITS LITERALLY MY SPECIALTY, MY ONLY TALENT THAT I CAN DO WITHOUT ABANDONING IT LIKE THE REST OF MY FAILED TALENTS, AND IT FUCKING SUCKS SO MUCH WHEN MY VOICE CHANGES.

I’m sorry.

back to my point, when I cry, I feel like my mucus explodes from everywhere, my throat, nose, eyes, and when I blow my nose too hard it hurts my ears for a while.

I’m so tired, I can barely run, I don’t wanna say I have asthma, but maybe I’m just not energetic and lazy.. or something.. and I CANT. I repeat.. I CANT. SLEEP.

It’s almost physically impossible (unless I stay up for too long to the point I slowly faint to sleep, which has been normal now for me)

did I mention my constipation? (Maybe this isn’t related, I’m just curious what makes someone chronically ill, especially since I’ve had constipation for around a year now)

I can’t sleep, smell, sing, cry (I hate crying so much, it’s become so terrifying and horrible) laugh, (cause all the mucus chokes me and makes me gag and almost vomit.

oh how I wish I could just rip out my throat and replace my nose and throat for a working one. How I wish I could breathe normally, to smell, to sing properly, to walk properly without my legs hurting or straining, to laugh and cry without choking and gagging, spitting mucus in the bathroom for what seems like 30 minutes, to think properly without a headache, to feel NORMAL again. It’s been a year or two now. Cant I just feel like a normal person again?

God why do I turn everything into a fucking vent.

Edit: does this mean I am chronically ill?

#I’m slowly losing myself #and my headache is killing me #you guys are the only people who can help #I’m so sick of myself #I don’t want to cry #chronic #chronic ill #chronically ill #chronic illness #chronic disability #chronic fatigue #chronic pain #Chronically fatigue #chronically in pain #vent #im tired

[whoiwanttoday]

The SAG strike is upon us and thank god! I was worried for a while that writers would get no support and that would mean a hard road for them. This is tumblr so I am pretty sure I know what side of this most of you are on but if you are for some reason against these strikes I am here to tell you that you are wrong. I am pretty sure the biggest argument from the Blue Check Mark Crypto Bros will be something like, "I'd sure love to get paid to just make movies" or something that implies actors are spoiled and lazy. If that is your take first of all fuck you. No one is stopping you. Literally no one. Get in your car, go to Hollywood, try it if it seems like such an easy and sweet deal. But second of all, you aren't getting that money if they don't. Executives are. Why the fuck are you watching a movie and thinking, "I wish Reed Hastings was making more of this money". Its wild to me how badly people want to undervalue art and over value people who take up desk space. Also, though, actors don't always make that much. I had a teacher in College who would teach for 2 semesters than leave fro two semesters because he performed on Broadway. He was not a star, he was a regular working actor. He was also a wonderful teacher and really helped ignite a love of acting in me. Not the performing side but the intellectual part of me that loves to study things, I really started to appreciate the choices people made. But he taught to save up money so he could go do his main job, which didn't actually pay enough to live on. This is actually common of a lot of actors, it's just a normal middle class job. That's what the stars are fighting for, for them. This is a thing we should always commend. Matt Damon I see get shit sometimes but at the end of the day he is set for life, he doesn't need to cost himself money, he is to help those who need help. That's commendable. Finally, though, is the fact that these are some of the more powerful unions in the country. Right now the entire world is pushing back against labor. You have probably seen it in your job, despite the fact that retention is difficult, it's near impossible to fill some positions, and there are just more jobs than people, management is trying to reassert dominance by taking away privileges like work from home. They are doing this because their model is largely based on exploiting people. I have seen it in my past, jobs that swore we were a family and begged us to make sacrifices for the good of the company. We did. Then when things went bad they cut us adrift because we were not a family and they didn't care about us, they just were manipulating us to get extra, unpaid labor from us. I am sure you have seen this before. So if the biggest unions in the country can't get concessions we are all fucked. We need this strike as a symbol but also as a bellwether. The next few years will really matter. So I support the strike. Mainly, I support it because I consume a lot of movies and I want the artists who make them to be rewarded. It will cost the studios a ton of money but will cost me nothing, so I can't imagine not supporting it. There are literally over 100 years of movies to go back and watch if you get bored. Now is a great time. I suggest starting with Greta Gerwig's watchlist for Barbie. I have seen half the movies and they are great. Anyway, that's my way of saying I am posting Fan Bingbing who was at Paris Fashion week last week and looked amazing. See, we'll need to get used to this because no promos means no red carpets which means no new pictures for a while. But we have a lot of stuff in the background. I kept waiting for higher quality versions of these but this is what I have and you know what? She looks great. Today I want to fuck Fan Bingbing.

#Fan Bingbing #brunette #Actress #whoiwanttofucktoday

[unknown90idk]

MY Y/N

Part 2

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You were finally done with the first lecture....AND one thing that was clear to you was that this year was going to be boring.. and by boring,you mean every single alphabet of it, every single alphabet .

As you were walking towards your next class, Scien by miss Hange. You were really starting to wonder why the teacher's names were weird to pronounce.. like literally

Instead of pronouncing 'levi' it was 'liivy' but 'atleast his name is short,just like his height,'

.... while you were lost in your thoughts about the reason for Levi's less height, a boy came running towards you and handed you a chocolate and screamed "I love you y/n-chan please be my girlfriend!!"

At first you swore that you were going deaf with the boy's screaming but reality hit you harder than your mother's slipper( well.. not harder than).

You were literally having a panic attack inside, because as far as you knew, it was not normal for strangers to just say I love you to some random person...

Not to mention awkward too. Everyone in the hallway was looking at you both.

You really wanted to beat that guy to death at that moment, and knowing your body... you knew you could. You could just kill him at the point. You weren't scared of police or anything... and even if you got caught you would ju-

"umm... so what do you say..y/n chan.."

you slowly gave him the flowers back

"sorry... but my heart belongs to someone else..but you will find somebody else for yourself!"

Well.. not that you actually had a lover, it's just that you were already too busy watching 'Rengoku from demon slayer' being turned into a donut and then finish 'blue lock' and other animes.

Well.... the rest of the day went some what smooth.

You went to your science class and figured out that miss Hange was crazy.. She even allowed a horse in the class. A FUCKING HORSE... Well a hybrid of a human and horse also known as 'jean'. Well this horse was flirty .. not to mention hot.

The day went on( you say with jean at lunch)

Time skip~ (because I am lazy as fuck and it's 1:06 at night 😀)

You got home, did your chores and as you were about to see the recipe of making the best donut with head chef akaza....

" Honey, did you get your test results?"

And there was the one and only person who created you but one of the man who will destroy you

"we don't even had a test today"

"AND... Your cousin had already even qualified high school and she isn't even 4!"

"and she figured out a way to pee while being hanged upside down while creating a spaceship" you said in a sarcastic way

Aanndd your mother went quiet

'Hah in your face woman ' as you watched the show

Time skip ~

You were sleeping in you room in your(fav night wear) while you abs were very much visible. And only if you were awake and had a smirk over your face..., any mortal would have died because of heat in your room.

You were still sleeping peacefully... Mouth wide open while drool making it's way towards your chin an-

Oh God how much he wished to shove his cock inside that pretty little mouth of yours

Right outside side your window was a short figure covered in blood, gray blue eyes sickingly boring Into you body as he soon spoke..

"It won't be long until we meet each other soon my love.... Even if you don't want it.... "

"Don't stare at the window for too long sir.. the contract is not finalized.. yet" said another figure while glaring daggers with green emerald eyes into the first figure

"tch.. what ever, brat"

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A/n :: hey guys. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT IN LAST STORY 🥹.

I really thought that won't receive any views let alone likes🙃.

Anyways, I added a new yandere too. Guess who 🤔

And also SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT 😭

#nsw #yandere #obsession #fanfics #aot smut #aot x reader #levi aot #aot #attack on titan #yandere eren #blood #yandere levi ackerman #yandere eren Yeager #yandere levi x reader #yandere eren x reader #x reader #female reader

[heartshapedbubble]

HI I ZOOMED AS SOON AS I SAW THE WORD QUICKEST I HOPE IM QUICK ENOUGH HWHSHSBAJAKJAH

So I'm a really quiet introvert for most people. Often, the most you can hear from me are a few words and hums. But actually, there's a lot of things I want to talk about. I just don't have the courage to vocalize them. Because whenever I speak, I stutter and fumble over my words. I'm really embarrassed by that and it resulted to me just staying quiet or anxiously repeating the things I want to say in my head before I say them like a script. That's why I prefer texting texting or writing over face to face communication. But that doesn't mean I don't have fun when talking with someone personally. I do get talkative with people I'm close to because I feel comfortable with them even if I make mistakes in speaking–most of the time atleast.

I'm very ambitious but lazy (hehe sorry). But these days I do try to be productive. Like trying out new sports even though I hardly go outside. And I'm trying to build new habits to improve my skills. But whenever I see someone better than me, it's either I feel motivated to do more or give up.

It's very easy to make me laugh as it is to make me cry. I laugh the simplest and smallest things. Even the ones people don't find that hilarious. And yelling at me or even the slightest change of tone on me would send me tearing up.

I am an emotionally sensitive person, yes. But I do hope that doesn't make me look pathetic.

I am on the path to become a doctor but I haven't decided what kind. But I am considering about studying for psychology.

Now as for preferences, I am fond of space and nature! I think both are equally beautiful and fascinating. I like sweets, especially chocolate but I don't like eating a lot. My favorite type of foods are cold foods and salad! I just think it taste good–and usually healthy! I also like journalism and taking videos/photos of a lot of stuff.

That's all! Sorry if this seems weird or maybe vague.

And Happy Valentine's Day!!

DW ANON!! no shame at all we're all cringe and affection starved here

HAPPY VALENTINES NONNIE !!!!! 💞💞💞

i match you with...

joseph desaulnier! 📷

oh my god he finds you SOSOSO cute you literally turn into putty in his hands

like literally gushing over you and pinching your cheeks whenever you cutely stumble on your words or get red in the face

he's going to give you all the time and comfort in the world to get you to talk and ramble about your interests, he wishes you could speak up for yourself more easily so he's going to assist you whenever needed :<

would absolutely pick you up bridal style and twirl around with you... hehe...

would try to motivate you as much as possible during those lazy days when you don't feel like doing anything - and if it doesn't work? mannnn what a shame (proceeds to pick you up and bring you to his room to cuddle instead)(this is all part of his plan)

i feel like your interests would overlap! he loves listening to you and sharing his bits of knowledge and help whenever possible

yo like.. this man would literally spoon feed you if you're up for that... i feel like he'd have the time of his life just spoiling the shit of his partner

often suprises you w/ bouquets (help did i write it right) of your favourite flowers, small bottles of nice perfumes, trinkets and gadgets related to your interests and obviously your favourite food!! do NOT try to talk him out of doing that tho - the prices don't matter to him, he just wants you treat you well when you're feeling burned out, sad, and even in general

takes pictures of you often and has them pinned all over his studio and even has one that he keeps inside of his coat <3

his favourite thing to do is to tuck your hair away behind your ear and do that thumb stroke thing (YOUKNOWWHATIMTALKINGABOUT) whenever he gets his hands on you

skygazing and herbarium-making dates?????? ummm hell fucking yes

he's deeeeefinetly clingy especially considering what happened to claude. he doesn't like to admit it but he gets a bit whiny when you're not around and often spends hours just holding you in his hands and savoring the feeling of safety he gets from you

is your shoulder to cry on whenever you're feeling overwhelmed or sad, this man would jump in front of a train before ever raising your voice @ you you're so precious and beautiful to him :((

#identity v #idv #idv headcanons #identity v headcanons #idv fanfic #idv imagines #idv scenarios #idv x reader #identity v x reader #identity v x you #idv matchups #joseph idv #idv joseph #joseph desaulnier #joseph identity v #identity v joseph #identity v photographer #idv photographer #joseph x reader #photographer idv

[imsotired0]

I swear to god that I'm gonna kill myself soon ughhhh

I wish I could kill myself but like not die

I want everyone around me to cry over little bitch boy max while I continue living

I don't wanna be gone I just want everyone to love me

and the only way they will ever fucking love me is if I get up out if bed and down a aspirin bottle

But I'm to fucking lazy to do that huh?

I'm already snuggled up in bed and warm and to lazy to go one door down and grab a pencil sharper

I'm do depressed to be depressed lmao

And tomorrow I'll see my family,and I'll smile, and I'll tell myself that life's worth living, then I'll see my girlfriend hit me again, then ill be ashamed for my hyperfixations again, then my mom will tell me I have nothing to be depressed about even when she knows a can and will make myself bleed again.

And I cant even let myself bleed

Her and her friends have been talking about me, even though it's been a year since she put words in my mouth

Apparently I show off my self harm even though when I sh I had gym and couldn't help it.

They expect me to cover up and be ashamed

But im not

You can't even see it anymore

And I'm too scared because I don't want her to hate me even though I have not said a single fucking word to her.

I don't want to because when my friend broke up with her girlfriend it was "because she self harms" EVEN THOUGH ALL SHE DID WAS OPEN UP TO YOU

AND ALL YOU DID WAS BLAME HER

AND EVERYONE BLAMES HER

EVERYONE WILL BLAME ME

AND EVERYONE WILL HATE ME

I HAVE TO BE HAPPY

I HAVE TO BE HAPPY

I HAVE TO BE HAPPY

I HAVE TO BE HAPPY I HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPY I HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPY I HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPY I HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPY I HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPY I HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPY I HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPY I HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPYI HAVE TO BE HAPPY

I'm so tired

I want this to be over

I'm so fucking unoriginal

I'm a depressed tean ranting on TUMBLR IN 2022 WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

I have this bitch looking like the get out of my head poem or all work and no play makes jack a dull boy

And I hate it

I hate that I can't talk to anyone

I hate that no one will read all of this

I hate that I have to convince my girlfriend to even look me in the eye, yet I left a love letter in her locker

Fuck I'm lying now

We don't have lockers

I left it in her art shelf

Which means she probably didn't see it

Why am I writing this?

Shouldn't I just go back and fix the line?

I don't want to

I'm so lazy to do anything

I can't even scroll up and just fix the goddamned line

I can't do anything right

I can't fucking breathe anymore without someone judging me

And if I am anything other then happy I will lose my girlfriend

I'll lose my friends

Again

I worked so hard for friends

New friends I mean

After she blamed me everyone sorta split

One friend stayed with me

4 friends stayed with her

The others sit in the middle

I'm only allowed to interact with them with she's not around

I can say hi to my friends in 7th period

But heaven forbid I even look at their table during art

Ooo she gets mad over that

She tells off my friends for doing stuff with me even though we have theater

I HAVE TO FUCKING PRACTICE

And I ruin their lives too

My in the middle friends I mean

I ruin everything

But I'm not allowed

One of my friends about 2 years back or so had a online friend.

He is (mostly) aroace, but he had a massive crush on his friend.

Then they killed themselves

Then he tried to kill himself

4 times

I got the idea of cutting from him actually

I saw is arm one day

A month later as I was yelling over contacts (fucking pathetic ik) I got the idea

I still had my sharper from the beginning of the year

I'd grab some scissors

Take the blade out

And cut my self

I think my mom knew that night

She kept my out in the living room long enough for it to die down

When I did it I wasn't blinded by rage or sadness

I was entirely sober

Which made it worse

Now I cant be anything but happy

Or he will get sad and make is 5th or 6th attempt

And if I lose him I'm killing myself

One of my friends is my girlfriends identical twin.

We met first actually

And she is definitely jealous I care about her sister more

And of course everything is wrong in her perfect world

Her schedule 'sucks' and that was enough for her to try to kill herself

Twice

And I'm so tired to deal with someone who randomly makes suicide letters in art class and someone who have brake downs after the first mention of suicide

So I have to support her

And him

It sucks

But I have to

Or she'll attempt again

And if I lose her im killing myself

Alright im out of my fit mostly im probably gonna go read smut or watch porn or something

I don't even like porn lmao

If you read this you are a slay 💅

#sh twt #styroblr #styrotwt #sh blog #suicudal #beanstwt #vent tag #vent tw #kys tw

[fairycosmos]

i got word from my ex-boyfriend's host brother that he, quote, "never loved me, dated me bc he felt bad for me, regrets dating, hates me, and wants nothing to do with me". i held back tears on the bus and cried for 15 minutes when i got home, but then got hungry and made quiches. i told my parents about how stupid that was and my mom was like "he's probably lying because why'd he do all those things for you if he 'never loved you'?? and you tell me how lazy and addicted to video games he is to the point where his friends complain about it (you know it's bad when his friends complain about it), so why would he put that much effort for a month and a half?" so i was like no literally. my dad took the more intellectual approach and said "(your friend's dad) and i will go over to his house and beat him up. and we're going to make a sign that says '(ex-bf's name) = jerkface'. because he's being a huge jerkface."

anyways, i think i've finally moved on from this horrible break up and i mean it this time!!! if he keeps moving between "oh god i still love you so much please can we be friends i can't bear to lose you" and "i actually don't want anything to do with you i regret even meeting you GODDD" i don't think he's worth crying over anymore :)

WOW what the fuck is wrong with him!!!!! im with your mam like it really sounds like he's just saying that to hurt you / cope with himself and what he's done or whatever bc you truly don't invest that much time and energy and emotion into someone (esp as an introvert 😭) if you don't like them. i am so so sorry he has put you through this and i hope you don't internalise any of the negativity or insecurity from this relationship - i hope you move forward truly knowing that you are wonderful and that you did not deserve to be treated like that. im glad you have your parents there to support you as well - they sound very real like literally he is a jerkface and also a cunt. and though it might be hard to contend with the pain inside you your life will be infinitely better off without him now he's revealed his true colours. for real. the fact that he's even reverting back to the whole i love you thing after saying that shit to manipulate you into getting back with him?? yeah absolutely not he can fuck off. you've got it love - he is quite literally in every sense of the word not worth agonising over. mwah wishing you all the love and healing you deserve - and someone who treats you right. mwah x

#anon

[klonoadreams]

the fact that iono is out there wearing painted and trained magnemite still sends me. miriam could only make do with hair unfortunately. her up do does look pretty similar but like. still not sure why thatd merit immediate jump to "they're related"

Not to mention, hair bows aren't exactly a recent thing either, I remember being in high school, seeing different students styling parts of their hair into a bow.

It's a very cute hair style. :V

Mimi used to work at a Pokemon Center before ending up at the academy and was friends and coworkers with a Model by the name of Naiara - which I find interesting. Because they might've gone separate paths, but some of their likes overlap, with Naiara being a model, and Mimi picking fashionable clothes. So it's likely that Mimi's always been interested in fashion at the side and cutesy things.

Also from Iono's trailers, I think she confirmed them in her first trailer that they're just really fancy hairclips. Which is fucking PHENOMENAL from the way they exaggerate some of her emotions and move around. She likely had them commissioned (or more likely, given Pokemon's recent technological advances, there might be a Rotom inside keeping it so fluid :V). Either way, they are VERY unique. So it's a lot harder for someone like Mimi to look around for one.

side note, one of the headcanons I have is that Mimi is a Paldean native, while Iono is from one of the PokeJapan regions (Kanto, Johto, Hoenn, Sinnoh - likely not Johto, due to her dialect - speaking of which, ScVi JP pixiv fics tend to lean into Rika being from Johto because she speaks in the Kansai dialect, which is an interesting trend :V). Why Iono would be in the Iberian Peninsula???

The thing about Spanish is that it shares linguistic similarities with Japanese. Meaning that it's actually pretty easy to learn Japanese if you know Spanish, and vice versa. And honestly, she looks young enough to have likely gotten yeeted into the Academy as a foreign exchange student likely on a scholarship or no, and like. Streaming has reached the point of mainstream that makes it even easier for the younger generation to easily pick up on it (I say this as someone who's been streaming since they were in high school, it is a LOT easier now, since OBS has come a long way, and the access to better mics and headsets that are affordable have made it easier too, now that it's no long so niche)

Iono's been streaming for quite a while that she's finally achieved stability that'll allow her to keep streaming until she chooses to retire, and like...it's only upwards for her as her connections make it possible for her to grow even more.

(this proves to be quite the stark contrast with Grusha, since snowboarding is a physical sport career that often sees people retiring in their early 20s, with most snowboarders starting their careers while they're in high school and being in their actual PRIME during those years before they hit 20 - meaning Grusha is likely not that much older than your player character and their friends. Meaning there's a likely possible chance that Grusha feels a bit bitter about Iono's career. So do what you will with that information, and I just wish to see Grusha and Iono having petty fights similar to what we see in memes with Raihan and Iono lmao :V)

anyways that's my blip of the day for headcanons, do what you will with them. I like analyzing characters and going my own way with what I take away from certain interpretations (being a comm major has it's perks, but also GOD DAMN, am I a fucking nerd sometimes).

(sometimes, the stars will align, and I come across other people who think similarly that create the content that I'm too busy - or lazy - to make myself. Currently, I am in rare pair hell because Larry/Rika is not as popular of a ship on the EN-speaking side as it is on the JP end of things, hence my daily pixiv dives to read machine translated fanfic and look at hella nice art on twitter. AO3 only has given me three fics for crumbs lmao, I'm reaching desperation where I might fucking write one of my own)

(I will continue this blurb in a different post, do keep an eye out for it)

#ask #pokemon #pokemon scarlet and violet #iono #miriam #headcanons #i have elaborate headcanons that get even more elaborate the longer i am allowed to cook #a decade's worth of worldbuilding since black and white is what this does to a motherfucker #wooooooooooooooooo

[fractallogic]

1. I am so incredibly lucky. One of my college buddies (a) moonlights as a job coach, pro bono, for women and minorities (because THIS is how you use your white man privilege) while he does his actual job of recruiting/“talent acquisition” for. idk, some medical company or something, and (b) is married to someone with her PhD in a behavioral science (sociology? I think??) who also just got a TT job (in Kansas, so lol @ “tenure track”, but you know), so like, can at least kind of understand the skills a PhD can bring to the table more than other recruiters/job coaches/etc.

Buddy, I know you’re gonna say absolutely not, but at some point we will be in the same place again and I’ll take you and your partner out for a nice dinner. You made me cry three times today because you KEPT SAYING NICE THINGS AND MEANING THEM and idk I felt kind of like a pile of lazy, worthless inner tubes today who is undeserving of friends and who is also a shitty friend, so now you made me cry FOUR times just by typing that out, and you’re also possibly going to be able to help me with the literal only thing I have needed help with for the last six years that NO ONE ELSE CAN DO

Just. Dude. Fuck. Thank you. I wish there were better words. God.

2. Artemis has been really very cute today, so please witness her also getting out of bed at 11:30 AM this morning:

And also giving both herself and her best friend, Hoomin Brush, a bath:

And one more from last week where she does a phenomenal job demonstrating what beautiful drape she has:

Anyway. I feel less garbage and more deserving of both nice things (like the pint of ice cream I stopped for after yoga) and normal human things (like friends) now.

#now universe I know the job thing isn’t solved yet but the wheels are in motion #can you PLEASE get scone over here ASAP #it has been fucking long enough.

[cainightfics]

these anons are so annoying, it also frustrates me because tyrelliot is nowhere near as bad as some ships that came from this show (like people who shipped elliot and mr robot) and yet some self righteous people compare the two like it's even remotely the same thing. sorry to mention that people who shipped elliot and mr robot even existed but god I really don't understand why people conflate it with tyrelliot. mr robot is the alter that elliot developed because of his sexual abuse growing up, and tyrell is an evil guy who was in love with him. I wish people would direct their attention elsewhere when there are much worse things being written in this fandom. feel free to not share this btw, it's reasonable to not want to make any posts where people might start arguing about mr robot x elliot. just wanted to share my thoughts. TLDR, tyrelliot shouldn't be argued about as being problematic when there are much worse popular ships in this fandom, and your fics are really good

adding more to my message from before sorry; also don't think that I mean anybody deserves harassment, I'm just saying that when there are actual upsetting and distasteful fics about elliot being abused, you of all people definitely don't deserve harassment under the guise of being upset that you write fic about "Elliot and his abuser" when those fics absolutely exist and you do not write them. anyway have a good night

thanks for your input. im pretty much a live and let live sort of person with this, since the internet makes it pretty easy to just block out anything you dont want to see, and i wish other people did the same. i honestly dont think tyrelliot is bad like... AT ALL LMFAO. but i guess some people do, which is fine. i just dont see the point in messaging me about it numerous times a week for over a month lol. thats just so weird and corny to me

but yeah like in the end my issue with this whole thing is that separating ships into morally and objectively "good" vs "bad" leads to this atomization of intent and characterization where 1) the definition of what is "bad" becomes a slippery slope where anything can become "problematic" and 2) it promotes and uplifts pairings or situations where everything is perfect and conflict doesnt exist-- the antithesis of good/interesting writing. like i have literally no interest whatsoever in "good representation" or "wholesome ships" because thats frankly not what i watch tv or read books for lol. it will never be my thing. also i am just SO FUCKING BORED of rating art based off of whether it lives up to someones (very subjective!) ideas of morality. like can we PLEASEEEEE talk about something else

also, i know what that person is trying to do when they call me a proshipper. everybody knows that that word is synonymous with being a pedo these days lmfao, given that thats central to the idea of pro vs anti shipping (besides incest). i think its pretty wild to insinuate im like... aligned with pedophiles in any way given that if you read my fics you would know i have a whole chapter dedicated to tyrell and elliot MURDERING A PEDOPHILE lol.

i could go on and on about how this very lazy way of thinking thats currently dominating fanspaces is the result of neoliberal identity politics, or consumption as morals, or the capitalist drive to increase both social division and profit by making people identify with brands, groups, or media properties. i wont be an annoying marxist rn and get into all that, but ill say im pretty much in agreement with john paul brammer here: