#seeking fulfilment

[aweinspiredcreations]

Letter to Those Who Have Hurt Another

Vultures ending the search, killing remnants of what could remain, feasting on parts of me that were long dead. Fleeting satisfaction from tearing me to pieces but the pain dealt isn’t; but sadly you know that just as I do. Indulged serving pain to another attempting to fill your emptiness, inconsiderate that I feel emptiness too, I was just avoiding mine.

There’s no shame craving resistance to pain during the time you need to heal; but when it feels right reflect and make your anaesthetic amendments so next time you won’t feel the need to break someone to feel less broken.

Liberate yourself from the desperation of filling your void, you are capable of appreciating your bruises without bruising another further. Your efforts in time will seal your broken pieces cementing a beautiful mosaic masterpiece of you.

With Immense Love Forevermore x

p.s. it’s human to make a mistake and it’s experience makes you more you, which many are happy to have met and love

p.s.s please do your best and be kind to yourself and others where it’s not a detriment to yourself

#hurt people hurt people #hurtcore #hurt/comfort #pain #trying your best #emptiness #seeking fulfilment #life #dark aesthetic #dark acadamia quotes #sad but true #spilled words #spilled pages #spilled truth #spilled ink #spilled writing #spilled tears #empathy #empathize #compassion #dark parts of ourselves #shadow work #spilled work #advice #reminder #spilled thoughts #thoughts #self improvement

[leather-field]

You want to exterminate death, yet you drag it behind like a tethered bull.

#pathologic #daniil dankovsky #my art #when hes so intertwined with what he seeks to destroy that perhaps he cannot fulfill his purpose while he still walks the earth😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰

[bananonbinary]

as a certified Diagnosed Autist(TM) i cannot stress enough that i am not only pro- self-diagnosis, but also pretty anti- legal medical diagnosis. it is, at best, a cruel hoop we have to jump through so privileged people will deign to give us what we need. don't fucking do that shit unless you have to, it was disgustingly expensive, fucking humiliating, infantilizing, and dehumanizing, and would probably actively cause problems in my life if i didn't have some really good allistic (-passing) people in my corner and also wasn't so fucking disabled that it mostly doesn't matter.

literally get that diagnosis if you need it for job/school accessibility shit or SSI or whatever, and otherwise dont tell the government SHIT about yourself. there is zero good reason for them to want that information. that's between you and the people you want in your life.

#as a side note: this goes for gender too #dont fucking get a special marker on your passport or whatever #trying to get ssi has made me realize how deeply cruel the system is #never reveal any vulnerability you have unless it's absolutely necessary #do not do this stuff for validation the government is not your friend and you should seek emotional fulfillment elsewhere #hm this post turned out a lot angrier than i meant #guess i'm still mad about how awful the process was #it wasnt even long it was just. so *impersonal.* #this woman talked to me for two hours. went down a fairly bigoted checklist. #didnt ask me my own opinion on much of anything. and then declared a bunch of her impressions as if they hold weight just bc shes allistic #like how i have 'identity issues' (am trans and dont want a romantic partner) #and thats just. my permanent record of diagnosis! this two hour conversation with a stranger! she doesnt fucking know me #we paid like $500 for that

[skeletoninthemelonland]

In case it hasn't been made clear, Behind The Codes is not a horror series. Despite having some disturbing themes, it doesn't focus on them the same way FNAF games did.

#I'm a big fan of silence as a cinematic tool #and when something feels wrong but you can't actually point your finger at it #as well as the concept of dreams and nightmares #the more time you spend analyzing them. the more you realize what's really troubling you deep down #some themes and visuals are tricky and make you frustrated because their meanings are unknown to you #things that are “without foot nor head” #might as well mention the concept of time running out. there are PLENTY more themes to explore! #you know you don't have to fear anything. as long as you keep your mind's integrity #but what if someone were to take that away from you. something so personal as a name or a story #an empty vessel will seek out fulfillment and eventually learn to love and hate all over again #starbstalks

[sysig]

Let him dad her!! (Patreon)

#Doodles #Adventure Time #Fionna and Cake #Fionna Campbell #Simon Petrikov #I cannot BeLieve that they didn't hug at any point - illegal. One million years dungeon #She slapped him (deservedly) but they didn't hug by the end??? I had to fix it #Jerry is my favourite episode so that at least was an easy choice lol #If anywhere would be a good place to cross that line it would be to comfort her! I can't imagine he'd initiate tho haha #She's just seeking comfort so badly <3 I know she's at least legally considered an adult but she's still a kid! #And Simon just keeps adopting kids lol #He's a good dad :) Not a perfect one but y'know? He helps where he can #Sometimes all we need is a parent figure giving you a hug and saying ''You know what? You're right - this sucks. But I see you'' #Fionna's quite interesting 'cause like - she's meant to be a Finn but there are a lot of differences between her and quite a few Finns! #A lot of that is Because she lived in Simon's head for so long but I wonder - most Finns have decent support systems and she seems a little #Well not lacking Exactly but her fallbacks aren't as numerous - and she's not able to fulfill her life's purpose so she's just kinda wayward #Seeing that kind of Finn finally able to spread their wings but still have a lot of Finn trappings like naivety and impulsivity ♪ #She's interesting! I quite like her :D Plus it's cool to see her natural EQ when she calls out Simon later in this episode unknowingly haha #I stopped at episode eight for a while but year her line about ''Then you got on the bus right? :D'' and him refuting it #Hmmm ♪ It was certainly interesting - I'm glad they addressed it :) #Plus she's fun to draw haha ♫ Her bunny ears! And the jacket she took from Martin </3 She has a fun design #And as always Simon is fun to draw :) Especially piecemeal here haha - just his mouth or just his eyes ♪ Cute :)

[existentiol]

something that pisses me off in RA is that Flanagan will occasionally hype up Pauline as this super important and prominent figure in Will’s life, even treat her as a proxy for the mother he never knew, and yet will just refuse to show it beyond the like. two or three (personal) conversations that they have in canon. I get that he was attempting to make her an important person in Will’s life but why not do that by actually making her an important person in Will’s life

#hey Flanagan I hate to tell u but just because she’s married to Will’s father figure does not automatically make her his mom figure #what REALLY annoys me is how easy it would have been for him to connect her & will #like hey. if only there were a pretty clear gap in Will’s education that halt couldn’t fulfill - say for example mmmm diplomacy? #(​cause we all know how gifted halt is at conflict resolution) #then he’d have a valid reason to seek out a master of diplomacy for lessons in negotiating compromises & treaties #but no I guess not. Will’s just naturally good at diplomacy despite never really being exposed to it #yk what extra sucks? #if Pauline HAD taught will about treaties & stuff then him receiving the last name treaty wouldve been 1000x more meaningful #it would’ve spoken to her influence on him and solidified her as a sort of parental figure in her own right #AND as an extra extra bonus: if she came to the cabin to teach will about negotiation tactics and such #then we could’ve gotten more halt/Pauline interactions. as in: we could’ve actually seen them being in love ON SCREEN instead of just being #told that they loved each other #will could’ve had a chance to see how much the two of them mean to each other. and then he would’ve had some actual basis for a speech #at their wedding or whatever #but yeah no why do that when we can just imply that will & Pauline got super close off screen? same effect right????? #ranger’s apprentice #pauline dulacy #halt o’carrick #will treaty #I love these books so so much don’t get me wrong. but there are just some things…… #anyway. #jackie rambles

[theexodvs]

Was it going to be an surprise that the guy who nipped my ankles about me moving warm fuzzies, "emotional fulfillment" and other DCOM-tier trash far away from the center of my relationship would also be the same person who's unwilling to commit to his own relationship by marrying his girlfriend?

#Love is a commitment #It is an act of will #One day I hope to vow to my gf that I will cherish her #To have and to hold #in sickness and in health #For rich or for poor #for better or for worse #til death do us part #And MEAN IT #Love #Marriage #Dating #Relationships #Whoever my future wife is there will be some days where things get tough #And if I'm just seeking my own emotional fulfillment or whatever those days will spell divorce for us #But I'm not that way and neither is my gf #Guy's also a candaulist because of course

[tsuchinokoroyale]

The way my hand is perfectly made to hold her evil little head… I was born to love you the way you were born to love me…

#she is my darling baby girl and I love her so #I have no favorites amongst my kids they all fulfill their own separate niches #blue is my cat who is like a dog Eva is my cat who is a cat barnaby is my dog who is a dog and beau is my dog who is just a lil guy #blue is my sweet handsome cuddle bug who will purr just from looking at me and lets me know I am loved #barnaby is my devil child who sings and grumbles and slaps me to get me out of bed and play to keep me active and engaging with fun #beau is my nervous boy who is allergic to leaving my side so he’s like my +1 for daily existence and makes sure I’m never alone #and Eva is my little princess who pretends like she doesn’t care but actually cares soooooo much who asks me to seek her attention… #she does get priority attention since she asks for it the least so when she does yell at me for pets it is my duty as dad to oblige… #gpoy

[hashileio]

pringle & pea are off to cause mayhem and promise to be back before 8pm

#hashiart #bittybones #bitty bones #bitty bones au #bittybones au #bitty pringle #bitty pea #pp squad #pea was originally meant to keep pringle out of trouble but now seeks it #instigator and enabler duo 😔 #they are besties now #yall are not understanding the irreversible change to my brain chemistry bitties are doing... #like i love these little rats sm #they are also skipping the queue because this is fulfilling psychological needs rn #drew all the bitty stuff last night and my neurons have been activated i got the brainrot fkgjhdfjkhdf

[thedawntreaders]

imagine queen susan smirking at a man who begins to lose touch with his arrogance and fumbles over his words. she just caught him off guard with her interrogation, masked off as a few innocent questions that build on each other and poke holes into his horrendous plans.

he was advocating for a labor policy that would set a precedent for endangering young children and it was clear he knew. in fact, it seemed it was for that reason he wanted it there; to take advantage of the youthful power and abuse it for his own profits. and though he says nothing explicitly, his true intentions couldn't be ever more clear. if it weren't for her image and reputation, susan would have shown him then and there that even the gentle can be merciless.

but alas, grace and precision was required for a matter like this.

"like archery," susan thinks spontaneously, except she reminds herself that she must spare her arrows for a worthier target. instead, she resorted to knocking down his house of cards in the way she knew best: logic.

her words were arrows of their own, frankly, and they shot down each and every single point he tried to make. slowly, the conversation among the other debaters dies down. there is nothing to discuss; not when the queen has asked the necessary questions which need answering.

she clasps her hands together, rests her chin on top of them, and leans close.

"well?" she asks with faux interest, "what say you?"

the man remains silent.

edmund leans against the pillar outside of the room, smiling with his arms crossed, eyes closed, and head tilted down. his big sister has always been a source of admiration, but her rationality in these kinds of situations always remained near and dear to his heart; in his eyes, her tendency towards reasoning and logic acted as a force field protecting their family and their people of narnia.

his eyes flutter open to the sound of clicking heels. peter's back.

"aslan's mane, if i had known i would be this late, i would have postponed the meeting altogether. how's she holding up?" the older brother asks. edmund laughs.

"handling it far better than either of us could, dear brother."

#big bro worry about lil sis #lil bro admire big sis #badass woman #these are the ideals i seek to fulfill with this fic #thank u and sorry for disappearing #fyi i have been Trying to post except #the issue is i tend to have ideas that turn into fullblown fics so now i have. two susan fics in the making #can you tell i really love susan #tcon #the chronicles of narnia #chronicles of narnia #narnia #susan pevensie #edmund pevensie #peter pevensie #i know it feels weird w/o lucy #but be rest assured that once susan told her how the meeting went she had to be restrained from roundhouse kicking the motherfucker #'i'm calm i'm calm!' 'are you sure?' 'yes' #*starts running towards the man after being freed* 'LUCY NO-'

[septembersghost]

i also think everyone needs to be more comfortable with the idea that sometimes you simply don't find romantic love and that's okay and you learn to live and find other things to enjoy anyway and life is not meaningless without it. sometimes it just doesn't happen, and we need to be better at letting that be allowed and acknowledged and acceptable. all sorts of different types of love are real and good

#me with never ever having that and a mother who never ever truly had that and knew when it was time to go #stop asking and speculating about when this woman will start dating again and who i beg of you #there is nothing wrong with wanting it there is nothing wrong with wishing for it and seeking it! #but we've got to not make it the only good or important or fulfilled path #this is NOT directed at any of my anons btw just a general thought #i am too sleep deprived i've been resting for hours but i am saying this and logging back off #jess.mess

[sneakystorms]

Maybe I should've seen it coming with the weight placed on the concept of "desire" but i really wasn't expecting dungeon meshi to turn into a full on buddhist lecture

#s #dungeon meshi #not that I'm complaining! I'm into it #but yeah the lion's explanation of how desires only lead to momentary and unsustainable happiness.. #marcille being tormented by her desires... #and the way senshi's early 'it's better to do it yourself' attitude is now echoed in how instantaneous fulfilment of marcilles desires #brings her no joy #senshi being the most zen of all the characters #dunmeshi really said 'the well of your desire is literally infinite and by trying to fill it up you condemn yourself to endless torment' #and i clapped #dungeon meshi spoilers #i guess #ah!!! and the lion's eyes are a symbol of infinity.... infinite desire... #i thought it was a keyhole at first haha #hmm now that i think abt it more. part of the fundamental lore of dunmeshi is 'things that are consumed cease to exist' #with eating monsters and with eating desires. so a boundary is being drawn between temporarily fulfilling a desire (the desire comes back #and the cycle continues) and consuming a desire (the desire is gone). the former is more positive #and plays into the circle of life/finding nirvana in repeatedly fulfilling your desires thing that senshi esp has going on #the latter is portrayed negatively as it seeks to 'once and for all' fulfill something that is by its nature infinite #true fulfillment lies in accepting the neverending struggle of temporarily satisfying one's desires... one must imagine sisyphus happy..... #im literally extrapolating multiple philosophy lectures from this manga i love it #in that way you could see the lion's struggle (to satisfy an infinite desire (for others' desires)) as worthwhile! #coming back AGAIN after like ten more pages of the lion's backstory #all the trouble he caused stemmed in some way from his attempts - actually from his ABILITY - to fulfill every desire presented to him #the story seems to imply it would've been better if ppl had been allowed to struggle to fulfil their desires instead of having them granted

[adam-stanheights-right-hip-bone]

Trees by McCafferty is so Lawrence-coded to me (he is a closeted gay man and no one will ever change my mind)

I mean !!!!

#lawrence loved alison in his own way #but he was never IN love with her #he’s just not CAPABLE #and i think his thing w that med student was him trying to seek out someone who could fulfill his needs bc his marriage was so unhappy #but she never could’ve done that for him bc he’s GAY and he doesn’t want to accept it!!!!& #gay lawrence gordon is so special to me #gayboy larry u will always be famous #lawrence gordon #saw 2004 #adam faulkner stanheight #adam stanheight #chainshipping

[lilacthebooklover]

i know i've been referring to eternal sugar with she/her pronouns this whole time but wouldn't it be really freaking funny if she turned out to be a dude?

#wouldn't put it past the design team #i've looked at half of the crk designs #done a double take #and turned into reverse sid the sloth #“...that's a man??” #cookie run kingdom #so many characters have such gay vibes it's incredible #anyway if she DOES turn out to be a man i will cry #give me my strong pink women #give me my sapphic eternal sugar hc fulfillment #seek not to destroy my many delusions about my currently unseen blorbos #eternal sugar cookie #eternal sugar crk #fallen heroes #crk fallen heroes #crk beast yeast

[buttercuparry]

Why would you end episode 8 on that note. What the fuck?! I swear to god I will throw hands if something happens to that older detective! Lee Mokdan! I am sorry for what happened to you! But come on! He is one of the good people who genuinely wants to help those in need. He didn't even look at another case for years. Girl!!!!!! What?!

#revenant kdrama #I know she is a spirit and there's no good and bad people to her #and she thrives on fulfilling the dark wishes of those she is made to possess #and she brings despair to them in one way or another #moving onto the next generation #and her anger and grief continues to function in this way destroying all who seek her #and those who get too close to her truth!! #but my god not that old man who dedicated his whole life to a case to bring justice.

[random-mdzs-thoughts-dumpster]

I love hensheng but telling people about its name must have been so awkward. Imagine if someone said "that's a cool sword. What is it called?" and JGY responded with "hating life". I mean, what would you even say to that?

#He was so emo for this #Xy too #Wwx at least had an excuse because suibian was an accident and not that concerning for strangers #I mean a sword should have a concerning name but it's not supposed to make you feel sorry for the owner right? #I desperately want to read the scene of JGY telling LXC and NMJ about what he's naming his sword #LXC is concerned about his mental health and NMJ thinks he's seeking pity #Also. #Immediately after winning the war and getting legitimized I don't think JGY would come up with that name #It's possible that he got it while he was a spy #But imagine if he named it “loving life” at first because hell yeah he just fulfilled his mother's dream #Or at least got close to doing to #But then JGS happened and suddently the name didn't feel suitable #So he renamed it #Or what if there was a ceremony where he was supposed to get his courtesy name and a sword #And was under the impression that he was going to be jin ziyao #He had a fancy poetic name for his sword but once he heard his new name he got overwhelmed by resentment #And said hensheng without considering what other people would think #Because I can't imagine JGS being thrilled about people thinking he was such a bad father that his bastard hated being recognized by him #And let's be honest JGY isn't very good at making snap decisions