I was afraid of the past.
Embarrassing moments
That would forever last.
Regrets, endless,
Into my heart were cast.
I was afraid of the future.
The whens. The hows.
Success measured on a ruler.
Would I still be around,
This body held together by suture?
I was afraid of the present.
Shame of days past, hesitance
Of times ahead lurked unpleasant.
Worries, like vultures,
Circled above my head, incessant.
Now I've shed my fears.
What was.
What is.
What will be.
To them I raise my cheers.
My yesterday.
My today.
My tomorrow.
They are all but me.
My years.
I made a friend yesterday.
I didn't mean to,
Although I'm glad I did.
Of course it took two
To turn waves into hugs
And laugh at coffee mugs—
Because (if you'll believe this)
He was made at the office.
Nothing special here.
We're just polite. And keen
To not prod and wake
Any discomforts unseen.
We miss our own selves most—
That was our toast.
Of our leisures, we spoke
Like commonfolk.
What do I do with this
Friendship in my hand?
I'm quite lost
In Newfriendland.
Maybe nothing at all.
There's no court. No ball.
I'll just watch this unfold.
Maybe, maybe, he's struck gold.
Another tiring day.
I didn’t move a muscle,
Watched people, again,
Running to go hustle.
Eyes followed their feet,
And I let drowsiness seep.
I think I have looked enough.
I think I will go now and sleep.
Another hectic day.
As I ran from post to pillar,
My mouth poured out pleasing words,
That always feel like filler.
Now, on my tongue
I feel a dryness creep.
I think I have spoken enough.
I think I will go now and sleep.
Another happy day.
Spent with dearest friends,
I laughed until I cried
And hoped this never ends.
We will depart again,
Wishing this friendship runs deep.
I think I have loved enough.
I think I will go now and sleep.
I sang like a cat with a cold:
One that mews sick.
So, they never trained me to sing
Since melody and I wouldn’t click.
I was a single-digit-old
Who wanted to do everything
Quick.
But I knew no trick
That would help me pick
A drumbeat or a guitar lick.
I strummed like a rheumatic chimp:
One already tired.
While I tried to play the guitar,
I spent less hours than learning required.
I’d unjustly skimp
On time with some excuse bizarre.
Inspired,
But indecision hardwired,
I never grabbed what I desired...
Thus, bits of my life transpired.
Now I play like a brown recluse spider:
In my own little nest.
A little this, some of that; alone,
When there’s no one to protest.
My interests have grown wider
With no progress to be shown,
Unstressed.
My piano keys mostly rest,
And my strings I rarely test.
To play, I find Spotify the best.
Wandered solo to converse and explore
Pages on screen, pinched eyes sore.
Left alone to unwind my insides so skewed.
Now I look in the mirror and wonder, "Why so prude?"
Clangs and whirrs and clatters ring
Through the house: my eardrums sting.
Weekends are my only break!
To softly toil through daily chores,
How much effort does it take?
Odd scents snake through window panes,
Down stranger streets and alien lanes.
Narrower eyes where I stop to dine—
A few weeks more: I'll make them mine.
The two halves of RevivalofThoughts took turns to write a 12-verse poem, building upon each other's couplets over a week.
I’ve surely heard you sing a dozen times before
While walking up the stairs outside your door.
That pain unfurling in your quavering voice,
Wonder if these songs are torture of your choice.
I hold my breath to hear you croon for him,
I sense you slump and sigh— your hopes aswim.
A need to be freed colours your baritone.
More than one listener, or are you there alone?
Your voice brings with it the weightless weight
Of words I’d left unsaid until too late.
Your disembodied sigh merges with mine.
Up another set of stairs I move, time after time.