#real ocd

[legobabyofficial]

every couple of years I read more about OCD and go "huh. I think I, my mother, her mother, and her father all have moderate to severe OCD" and then forget about it until a couple years later when I read more about OCD and go "huh,

#today i learned about moral ocd/moral scrupulosity and was like #ahaha. i do that. #i arrange entire behaviors around whether or not it makes me “good” #also learned about moral contamination ocd and was like OH. OH OKAY. THATS ME AS HELL. #sometimes im like 'i dont really have disruptive compulsions so i bet its just anxiety' #then i spend an hour obsessing over something shitty i did when i was 20 and figuring out ways to 'balance the scales' w good behavior now #and like oh. oh thats ocd. #sometimes you get so used to a behavior you dont even realize its obsessive #damn #tabby talk #ocd #real ocd

[bunfart90]

a poem by me, featured in my chapbook A Girl, Dying

#poetry #ocd #existential ocd #quotes #poetry writing #poetry by me #poems #real ocd #intrusive thoughts #vent

[lxst-in-thxxghts]

Mind going whacko

Everything needs to be perfect and it’s not and it’s making me freak out

#mental luv #mental help #mentally exhausted #real ocd #actually ocd #living with ocd #ocd tag

[pigeon--lord]

Kinda tired of people thinking that OCD is cute/funny. 

Like I have so many compulsions and intrusive thoughts, that constantly interfere with my day to day life, but people think its funny? Like why is it okay to laugh at people with OCD and treat us like we are just so quirky? 

Some of the things that come to mind:

A close family member always messes up the abbreviation in a “funny” way when the conversation happens to mention my OCD. They say it in any imaginable way, but never the correct one. Mind you, they are in their 50s, they should know better.  

The same family member always mimics my motions whenever I repeat them (getting certain motions “correct” is one of my greatest compulsions and makes me repeat them so many damn times). Then they sternly tell me to stop like I am doing this on purpose.

I was an office aid at my middle school and some staff purposely moved things off center in front of me when they found out that I like to move them back to the center (another one of my compulsions). Like dang, really funny, watch me struggle. 

The same family member asked me why I am so messy if I have OCD. Don’t I have to like cleaning? No, Sharon, that is not one of my compulsions. 

When It comes up that I have OCD and at least one person have to tell me that they know how I feel because, they too, like spring cleaning.... (To be clear, I am not referring to people who actually have OCD and obsessive cleaning is one of their compulsions, because that is 100% a real and valid thing). 

People asking why I repeat motions and that it looks funny, and when I tell them I have OCD they look at me like a deer in a headlights. So many people have so little education/awareness on OCD and I think that is sad (more then sad, but this rant already way too long).

Don’t get me started on intrusive thoughts....

So yeah, if you had any similar experience or just want to went feel free. We will all suffer together.

P.S. Dang this got me triggered, I rewrote some words so many times because I hit the keys on the keyboard “incorrectly” so many times :(   

#real ocd #obsessive thoughts #compulsions #ocd #obsessive compulsive d #tw ocd #rant

[fuzzy-w0rms]

god i fucking hate ocd i just stubbed my toe and went to stub my other toe bc the sensations in each of my limbs have to always be the same AA

#ocd #real ocd #ough i hate tagging ocd n feeling like im baiting ppl since ocd has become such a romanticized disorder #and it doesn’t help that im not diagnosed #like i’ve been like this ever since i can remember and got therapy for it when i was like #idk 6-7 and its just recently popped back up

[passionesolja]

They should have never taught Yall hoes the word : intrusive thoughts.

No, dumbass bitch, intrusive thoughts aren’t you wanting to be a lil prankster or quirky. They’re the worst things ever and they suck. You just enjoying your day and your brain pops up with the most out of pocket and vile things ever. Shit that you don’t even think or want to think. That’s why they’re intrusive.

Focusing on an intrusive thought can lead to an whole episode of OCD. You have to train yourself to not engage with them.

Y’all drive me absolutely mad by trying to water down and make it cutesy. This shit literally almost drove me to suicide and I had to spend a ton of money on therapy to treat it. Y’all call them what they are: mischief. Fuck all y’all hoes for this istg

#ocd #ocdproblems #real ocd

[paintbrushyy]

Having lots of OCD recently. Driving myself crazy. Wish all the thoughts would stop. Feeling guilty.

#OCD #Real ocd #guilt

[agentsunglassesatnight]

folie a deux used to seem so edgy and cool to me when i was younger. its the name of my favorite fall out boy album, and even the name of an x-files episode. i see the term used in shows all the time. and i see people romanticizing it and using it so casually other times...but you know...its a totally rare yet awful thing. i went through it with my mom at the beginning of what basically have been the hardest seven years of my life. my therapist once asked me why i dont like being an adult. gee, i wonder if its because ever since i was 17 i have been struggling with multiple devastating mental illnesses that set off the folie a deux and kickstarted 7 years of on and off intensive treatment for ocd, bipolar, adhd and intermittent explosive disorder among things. im almost 25 now and i havent been able to find anyone irl that can relate to having suffered from folie a deux. it was absolutely incapacitating and wretched and i NEVER want to go through that again. so i guess im asking two things: PLEASE please pleaasee remember when youre posting about hannibal or x-files or fob or anything else, that this is a real truly horrific thing that someone can go through. and the subject of the fear the people are reacting to may not seem to make sense, or it may be annoying or hard to understand, but the sufferers are truly going through hell. also, if anyone out there can relate to the struggle of going through this, dm's or comments are highly welcomed.

#folie a deux #mental illness #ocd things #real ocd #bipolar #depression #intermittent explosive disorder #mental health

[girljeremystrong]

i love tumblr because you can post something like 'i hope my best friend's boyfriend dies' and everyone agrees and nobody tells you you're crazy

#i already posted something like this #but then i deleted it because my ocd convinced me that my tumblr post was gonna kill him for real #but today i am especially mad he exists so i'm gonna risk it

[eat-rock]

“nobody understands me” but not in the “edgy suffering from teenager syndrome mad at mom” kind of way, but the “lonely isolating young adult realization that the specific combination of mental illnesses and past experiences i’ve had have resulted in a pattern of behaviors that are often misinterpreted and misconstrued by others” type of way

#maybe it’s the mental illness but boy howdy do i feel like an outsider #as a teenager it’s usually the feeling that everybody else is a stick in the mud and stupider than you kind of stuff #now i’m feeling like everybody else is a real person while i’m only partially a person #like there’s so much of myself missing and i can’t seem to relate with anybody else #it’s lonely feeling like nobody would understand how my brain works even if i tried to explain it to them #idk how to tag this but i hope anybody else can relate #actually neurodivergent #actually neurodiverse #adhd #actually adhd #ocd #mental illness #mentally ill #neurodivergent #👁‍🗨 #🌀

[karmasw0rld]

Thinking about shaving my head. I know i would look bat shit ugly but i want to be free from trichotillomania. my job consists of me typing on a keyboard all day and pulling makes my carpal tunnel flare up. any tips?

#trichy #trichotillomania #balding #u pull it #pull my hair #real ocd #cant stop thinking about it #coarse hair #dont feel good #on my hands and knees #head shave

[milesbutterball]

#ocdrecovery #ocdawareness #real ocd #loveislove #peace #find peace #it will be okay

[diagnosed-mess]

When you have a list of things to do for the day but one of the items on the list doesn’t work out, so now you have to throw the whole thing away and start dissociating

#adult adhd #adhd #real ocd #ocdlife #ocd brain #mental disorder #mental illness

[vividstardustrevolution]

Disabled people (both people with physical disabilities and people with psychological disabilities) should be able to get housing, food, medical needs, etc met without having to work or stay in school. ...Okay, really, everyone deserves access to free or affordable housing, food, and medical care, but disabled people ESPECIALLY deserve it because if I, a law student with "low support needs" autism, depression, GAD, OCD, and ADHD, cannot afford to take a break from school and take a semester off because I'd have to start repaying my loans because I had to drop down to three credits last fall and because I would have to get a job, so it wouldn't really be a break (which, I have had one job in my life, and I'm not fully convinced it wasn't a fluke, and also, trying to maintain a job when you have disabilities is difficult), I can only imagine that disabled people with higher support needs are even more fucked than me when it comes to being able to get housing and food and medical care without much, if any, funding.

Yes, Medicaid, Medicare, Food Stamps, and housing programs exist in the US, but, uh, I hate to break it to y'all, but that doesn't fully fix the problem, at all. There are a lot of old apartment complexes that are straight up inaccessible if you use a wheelchair. I'm living in one now. Applying for Medicaid and other programs can be a pain in the ass, especially when you're disabled.

"Just live with your parents!" My parents were emotionally abusive and emotionally neglectful, transphobic, and they literally harassed me so much during my 1L year that I still have nightmares.

"Live with a roommate!" I tried to. It went fucking terribly.

"Are you really disabled if you're able to be in law school?" YES. YES I AM.

Actually, on that note, law schools and the law profession need to become more accommodating for disabled people ASAP. Buck v. Bell needs to be overturned. Courts should be wheelchair accessible. Having to get past seven plus different forms of ableism just to graduate and pass the bar is ridiculous. Seriously, can we get some resources for disabled people in law school and the law profession, please?

Disabled rights matter, and we have every right to be able to live in peace and get our needs met, regardless of our support needs, disabilities, or anything else.

#disability #disability rights #actually autistic #actually adhd #actually disabled #ocd #actually ocd #lawblr #disabled law student #US centric but it has to be said #In all seriousness though please I need a semester off #actually traumatized #cw abuse mention #accessibility #real lawblr

[batjokezlovineverything]

i swear that sometimes i start overthinking about how the future will be and how eventually -- in a few decades, some tv shows that are now 10 years old (or like 17 years old like friends) will be like considered eventually 50 years since. that some generations won't grow up with those shows. that one day, these will be "forgotten" guys, help me with my deep overthinking patterns lsjgsjgdfskjgg i be overthinking about what happens after deathbecause i fear death and fear reincarnation and can't imagine myself being another person but i know i wouldn't know that i'm another person but still - and the thought of my stuff being left behind and me and my things becoming a memory that's eventually not remembered -- is anyone else like this??? uGH :-(((

but my ocd makes me overthink and makes me knock on wood when i think about the things like this or talk about them

#ocd #ocd thoughts #ocd things #ocd support #real ocd #living with ocd #obsessive thoughts #obsessive compulsive disorder #mental health #mental health disorder

[passionesolja]

Y’all better not be making cognition hazards a mf youtube trend istg yall terrible. First it’s Intrusive thoughts being uwu-ified now it’s this. Y’all tryna get us OCD mfs put in an mental house istg

#ocd #ocdrecovery #ocd tag #real ocd #living with ocd #ocdproblems #ocd brain #actually ocd