what our system felt like in 2019 v. what our system feels like now
we posted this on TikTok after our mutual did something similar:)
when most of our system was undiscovered it felt... great having only a few alters. they felt comfortable fronting whenever and our amnesia wasn't so bad between us. but sometime between 2020 and now, we feel completely outside of ourself. I don't recognize any of the voices I hear and they're awful to me. I can't remember anything about my day by 5 o'clock and our front is a revolving door of mayhem.
I'm glad with how both pieces turned out :)
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just a small vent about being an alter and not feeling whole thats why theres the dsm/icd DID section in the corner
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Doodles of the gleep glorp
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I don't know how to explain it. But the feeling of switching from one alter to the other kinda feels like this. I fall into the abyss and another part of my fragmented person has been pushed into my body. Almost like who I am disappears and someone else has taken over my life
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me/alter self-portrait ^^
forgot i !! never posted this !! i got a little help with this one, i think from @axthrasher / susie but did most of the work myself >:) i needed a new icon/pfp after realizing more of what i look like, so tada!
inb4 i never post art here again xP
/lh /hj
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Alter meme redraw! ^^
Little devil is Moxie - It/Its
And flower dress girl is Mue - They/She
Meme reference image & old drawing under cut!
(@facadesinternalveil @fading-bisexual-queen-milkshake @bloodsweatandpotato)
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Love: featuring Michael, Nisteus and Vincent
My first real attempt at a fully rendered background! I'm really happy with how this came out. Looking forward to drawing more scenes of my headmates!
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Vent art!!!
Being part of a system makes our preexisting body dysmorphia miles worse. This drawing in particular is about my relationship with the body. For multiple reasons I feel disconnected to it and it makes it all the more difficult to accept.
While we have overcome an eating disorder, the difficulties we have with our body are still present, especially for me as our host. I have most say over what we do with the bodies appearance, but it’s still frustrating that it will never look like me. Even if it feels like MY body, it will never look like how I look on the inside and that’s hard.
I understand that to most people, and myself, our body and face will never be “pretty.” I’ve come to accept our actually body, but our face makes me so upset. It doesn’t feel like mine and it’s frustrating knowing that the smallest thing I could ask for I will never get. I can never be physically pretty as long as a live. Our life has been hell and we can’t even have a pretty body to live in.
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