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[4nglerf1sh]

nikolai is the most non canonically bisexual canon bisexual to ever exist

#does this make sense. #email me a better way to word this #i’ll read it in about 10 days like the rest of my emails. #grishaverse #nikolai lanstov #nikolai lantsov #ok idk how to spell it next question

[jistagrams]

best interest p.sh

pairing: park sunghoon x fem! reader

warnings: smut, zestyish jokes (Jake and sunghoon are basically In love idk), cursing, unprotected sex (wrap it before u tap it!!), kinda mean? dom sunghoon, pervert sunghoon, slight choking, not proofread, lmk if I missed anything!

minors dni!!

Friday 6:10 pm

what sunghoon didn't expect was to fall in love with you, living together just made him crazy, seeing you walk around in a big tee with just panties under?? yeah. "She won't even let jay hit" sunghoon ranted to his friend on facetime, "maybe shes a virgin and she's saving it for someone special" Jake replied, placing a kiss on his girlfriends head turning off his mic. "I'm someone special!" Hoon whined throwing his phone on his bed, "I guess not to her" Jake turned his mic back on snickering. "Should I fuck her best friend to get revenge.." he started questioning his own existence, hes never been this crazy over someone. did you cast a love spell on him or something? "her best friend is haechan" Jake set up his phone on the table, showing him as he put his headphones on and turning on his console. "ok nevermind. would rather kiss you than fuck haechan" "you would kiss me?" "hell no." "then why say it you got my hopes up" "..jake shut the fuck up" Jake laughs as the light from his computer reflected on his face. "yk what you should do, try and seduce her" he proposed, "that doesn't sound that bad, how would I even do that" sunghoon replies, finally picking his phone up from the bed to walk into the kitchen. "mmm, since y'all live together try walking around like shirtless or like... loudly jerking off??" Jake bit his nails while thinking, "holy shit your gonna make me get a restraining order" sunghoon laughed out loud, hearing the door unlock he quickly hung up and texted Jake "she's home, gonna take ur advice istg if she calls the cops on me you'll never see ur stupid apex acc again."

Friday 8:56 pm

he was nervous, obviously. he wasn't nervous about how he looked, he knew he looked good. he was just nervous on how your reaction would be, he hyped himself up in his room for a bit. doing some pushups till he walked out of his room shirtless knowing your in the kitchen, "yn" he spoke out to you, making you turn around to look at him. "why are u naked" was the first thing you said to him since you got home. "gonna take a shower, u cooking anything?" "Nah, I'm ordering food I'm just in here eating chips", clearly looking unfazed, "should we order something then?" He replied. Walking into the kitchen, sweats hanging low. Showing a obvious bulge, "I'll just get pizza u go take a shower, you stink like sweat" you looked away from his piercing gaze. He chuckled, "mm, ok let me know when the food comes I'll get it" he says while walking away and into the bathroom, quickly locking it and holding his head in his hands.

sunghoon : She won't even look at me 😭😭💔💔💔💔💔😢

Jake : maybe ur js butt ugly.

sunghoon : this is not helping idiot

Jake : did u walk around shirtless 🌚

sunghoon : YES BRO. even wore my baggy jeans to show extra 🤬😡

Jake : what if she's into girls...omg sunghoon I'm cooking here

sunghoon : only thing ur cooking is that burnt ass hair.

Jake : fuck u times 10 😒

sunghoon : u wanna fuck me 🌚

Jake : my gf just saw that msg without seeing the name I hope yn never ends up liking you.

sunghoon : CHILL BRO

he took a shower while blasting music, thinking on what his next plan was. he got out of the shower, black hair dripping water as he wrapped a towel around his waist. he looked in the mirror as he thought of a idea, he picked up his phone as some random rap song played, he took a picture shirtless. Sending it to Jake to confirm if it was cute or not.

sunghoon : *image attached*

Jake : wrong person

sunghoon : u fucking airhead is it cute or not

Jake : oh LMFAOOO

Jake : it's cute, who's it for

sunghoon : baefy yn

Jake : atp send her a dick pic

sunghoon : should i

Jake : yea if u wanna get blocked

as he turned his music off he heard you yelling for him from the living room. He quickly threw on his boxers and sweats, getting out as he put his phone in his pocket. "what's wrong?" He asked standing Infront of you, once again. Wearing baggy sweats but instead of them damn near falling off they are tied with the string. "do u not have any shirts or something, also the pizzas here" you handed him the money for the tip, he grabs it and walks to the door. "thanks" he smiled at the young woman handing him the pizza who was basically drooling. "can I get your number" she sheepishly asked. You looked at them in disgust, looking at the girl as sunghoon laughed and said no. He closed the door, walking back over to you, flopping on the couch and putting the pizza on the table. "why didn't you give her your number?" You asked, "wasn't interested" he shrugged, picking up a piece of pizza. Watching whatever you put on. "Lame."

Saturday 10:43 pm

he was hard. Extremely horny. to the point where he thought he might cum at barely sliding down his shorts. he thought back to the call he had with Jake yesterday, "jerk off loudly, yeah if I wanna be seen as a perv" he scoffed and slid down his shorts and boxers in one go. thinking if he should get off to a picture of you or just some random video on pornhub, he decided on a random video on pornhub. last thing he wants to be is a pervert (even tho he already jerks off to your pictures anyways..) he whined softly as he held his dick in his hand. fuck it. He loaded in on Instagram and stalked your account as his hand slid up and down his shaft. soft moans escaping his throat while looking through your highlights till he found his favorite picture, one of you and him at the beach. bathing suit top hugging your chest so well, making sunghoon's hand go faster on his already red cock, precum dribbling out his slit. His finger accidentally slipping and liking the year old photo. Shit. Shit shit shit. just as he was freaking out his load started shooting out, landing on his black shirt and blankets. his moan was loud, extremely loud. He only realized till after calming down from his high that 1. He sounded like a porn film and 2. He liked your story. He cleaned himself off with the shirt he was wearing, taking it off and throwing it in his laundry basket. Pulling his boxers and shorts up, grabbing another shirt from his drawer. just as he put his shirt on he heard his door swing open, "why you stalking me" you smirked at sunghoon, sitting on his chair in his room. "wasnt stalking you" he side eyed you as he continued to put on his shirt, looking down to notice a cum stain on his shorts cursing to himself, "I needa change my shorts. U gonna stay or what" he asked, looking at you. you turned around in the spin chair, he quickly took off his shorts and grabbed another pair. Putting them on and laying on his bed, "you can look now" he said, picking up his phone to see who texted him. "sunghoon" you called out to him, scooting closer to the bed until you gave up and laid on the bed next to him, "hm?" He replied. Sending a quick text to Jake and going on TikTok, "you should be quieter when you jerk off. not everyone wants to hear that when they wanna call their friend" you smiled at him teasingly as he looked at you before flicking your head with the same hand he used to jerk off with. You got up from his bed and left, sunghoon closed his door with his foot , sending another text to Jake. "Your dead meat."

Thursday 12:29 am

it's been 4 days since he started trying to seduce you, key word. Trying. everytime he jerked off you would just ignore it, same with him walking around in just sweats. he's at the point where he might as well walk around naked, he let our a frustrated sigh as he stood up from his bed. going to your room to get his charger that he lent you a few hours prior, maybe god was on his side or he was just lucky as hell. He opened the door to see you fucking yourself on a dildo. He feels like he could die from happiness right now, you were quick to slide the dildo out of you and cover yourself up. "Oh. My bad" he said, grabbing his charger from your side table. Your face was red, "sunghoon" you quietly called out. "what? ur not done with the charger?" He asked, looking at you covered by your purple sheets. You shook your head, "you wanna help?" you asked, uncovering your body.

Thursday 9:12am

he really has to stop dreaming of you. He woke up hard as shit, all because of that stupid dream. Like he would walk in on your masturbating? Yeah right. He sat up from his bed and groggily walked into the kitchen, he ignored you as he grabbed a water bottle and chugged it. You were quick to notice the very obvious bulge, swallowing your spit while you looked at his back. imagining how it would look after you scratched it during sex. Or how his hands would feel on your body, how his fingers would feel inside of you. Ok yn. Enough of these lewd thoughts. That's your friend your thinking of, your really hot friend. "u wanna make breakfast?" he said, his hot breath on your neck. you felt goosebumps, how did he get behind you so quick? the hell? "not hungry right now so no" you answered, not daring to turn around. "But I'm hungry" he mumbled resting his head on your shoulder. "Make your own food loser" you quickly spoke, moving quick to your room. he smirked to himself, he finally got to you. He's definitely gonna tell Jake about this.

Thursday 5:01 pm

"yn" you hummed as you focused on your show. "Are you a virgin" he asked, you nearly choke on your spit. "What kind of question is that?" You stare at him in shock. Sunghoon shrugged, not looking away from the tv. "Are you?" He asked again. "No sunghoon. I'm not a virgin. Are you?" You spoke with a small attitude in your voice, "nope" he replied, popping the p. "Are you lesbian?" He asked another question. "no. What the hell are these questions??" You shifted your whole body towards him. "So why don't you look my way." He finally looked at you, once again. Staring with a piercing gaze. "What do you mean by that" you know exactly what he means. "Why don't you show any interest in me" the fuck? You always show interest in him, why do you think you wear just shirts around the house? "I do" doesn't seem like it. "I like you yn." He finally expressed his feelings that were making him go insane. "me too" your voice was barley heard, "you like yourself too?" He smiled and chuckled softly. "No I like you too" you smiled back, feeling shy at the sudden confessions. "You know I love you" he said, scooting closer. Holding your face as he pressed a soft kiss on your lips, "I would hope so, why are you saying it so early though" you snickered, "cause I'm about to fuck you like I don't" his smile was so innocent you almost didn't register what he said, he's gonna fuck you like he doesn't? Hell yeah.

Thursday 5:30 pm

your not sure how you ended up in sunghoon's bed, laying on your back as he slurped up your juices. Spewing random shit as he ate you out, "been waiting like...months for this moment" his chin was glistening from eating you out. Sticking two fingers inside to bring you closer to your climax, and you were quick to hit it. Gripping onto his hand that was sliding in and out of you, helping you ride your high out. "that was good huh?" He smiled up at you. giving him a tired nod, he slipped his fingers out of you and sat up. Kissing your lips before sticking his fingers in your mouth to taste yourself, he was different from any other men you've slept with. No man would do this, besides sunghoon apparently. He took his fingers out of your mouth after you sucked them clean, praising you softly as he pulled his boxers down. Slapping his dick on your pussy, "you ready?" You nodded. He entered slowly, groaning out while you pulled him down to hold onto him. Clawing on his back, when he fully bottomed out you realized he was huge. Like 6 inches huge. Sliding back out just to thrust back in, he kept his quite fast pace while you rambled about something he wasn't paying attention to. only thing he was focused on was how good you felt around him, almost too good. "fuck, gonna cum soon if you keep clenching like that" he moaned out, kissing your cheek as he whined and moaned in your ear. "sunghoon" you sighed out, "yeah baby?" he answered. Lifting himself up, keeping his hands on your tits as you rambled about how good he felt. "I know love" he hummed back, sliding out. "doggy style baby" you were quick to get into the position and he was quick to slide right back in, you felt him deeper than you did just a few seconds ago. Arms already weak, making sunghoon hold you up. He was hitting places you didn't even know he could hit, "already fucked out?" He snickered, his hand snaking up to your neck to apply pressure. you immediately felt yourself let go and cum, "i-im cumming" you whined out, holding onto his arm. "I know" He replied, letting you go to fall onto the bed. fucking you harder than he already was, "gonna cum inside n ruin you for every other man" he grunted in your ear,trying to chase his own high. "fuck, taking it so well. who fucks you the best?" He moaned, "y-you" you were extremely sensitive, you felt another climax coming. it came too fast to even warn sunghoon, all he felt was tons of juice on his abs and hips. "Holy shit you just squirted" he spoke in pure shock, still fucking you as he praises you. you were a mess, tears were streaming down your cheeks as sunghoon finally came inside, "m' cumming pretty" he sighed out as he came, rocking his hips slowly. "you did so good for me baby" he slid out and kneeled down, he was quick to latch onto your pussy to clean you up. "w-wait sunghoon" you gasped out, "I'm almost done love" he reassured you, he was right. He had fully cleaned you up and laid down beside you, holding you softly. placing kisses on your face, both of you falling asleep

Friday 10:13 am

yeah. His back does look hot with a bunch of scratch marks. "does your back hurt?" You asked, embarrassed from how many there are. "nah, even if it did I think it would be worth it" he smiled as he poured coffee for you, kissing your forehead and placing a arm around your waist. maybe Jake was right, after all his advice did get sunghoon here.

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[morgana-larkin]

Hello, Idk if u're still taking prompts bc it's seems like you're working on a lot of it, but here's a rather, crazy prompt I have in mind (again) afkajdksjsj.

There's a teacher at Abbott for over a year who's somewhat a little private about her life. Particularly her love life which the Abbott staff seemed to have taken an interest of specially Melissa, who's being defensive when she's called out for being too nosey about the teacher, saying she barely knows a thing about her and it's suspicious that maybe she's actually a cop or secret agent lol. Talks of where's the next venue of game night been going around and the group decided [without the teacher even knowing] that the game night would be held at her rather, fancy house to the surprise of the staff, thinking they would see a glimpse of her priv life and finally meet her partner which is apparently non-existent and later on revealed she never had any relationship in the years of her existence, which also, surprised the group yet Melissa unintentionally let a rather loud sigh of relief and the staff and the teacher gave her a questioning look which she became defensive,again, and a stammering flustered mess under the teacher's gaze.

This was so fun to write. I think I steered a little off a bit but still stuck to what you wanted…(hopefully). I tried to make it light, fun and as cute as possible. As always not edited at all and I hope you like it!

On another note: I know I spelled Chessy’s name wrong, my phone autocorrected me and didn’t notice until I posted it. I thought no one would notice until someone messaged me anonymously about it. So I went back and corrected it. I got one more Melissa prompt and two Chessy ones, and I have started on chapter 8 of ‘Worth It’.

The Game of Love

Warnings: reader has a nightmare(small part near the end), I think that’s all…

Words: 3.3k

You walked into the break room after bringing your students to the cafeteria and headed straight for the coffee machine. You’re exhausted after the morning with your kindergarteners.

“Dear, you don’t look good. Rough morning?” Barb asks you and you chuckle.

“Ya I guess you could say that. I don’t know how you do it Barb. Keep them in line all the time, mine were acting like they had sugar all morning.” You tell her with a huff.

“You’re still quite new dear. I’ve been doing this for over 20 years. You just became a teacher 5 years ago and it’s your second year here.” She says calmly, and always the voice of reason.

“I suppose.” You tell her. You grab your coffee and your lunch from the fridge and then go to sit on the couch.

“Y/n, why don’t you sit with us today?” Janine pipes up and you look at her. You know that she wants to ask questions about your life to get to know you since you don’t tell them much. All you’ve mentioned is that you’ve been living in Philly since you were born, your parents are both lawyers, you have a girlfriend, and you got your teaching certificate 5 years ago. In reality you don’t actually have a girlfriend, you just tell people that since you’ve had many friends try to set you up with a woman and it never goes well.

“Um, ok I guess I could today.” You tell her and head over to sit with the trio. You want to open up a bit more to them. With both of your parents being lawyers, you learned to keep a lot to yourself.

“So how have you been? How’s Amelia?” Janine asks as soon as you sat down. Amelia is the name of your made up girlfriend and said you’ve been with her for 2 years.

“I’ve been good, Amelia as well.” You tell her. “How have you guys been?” You ask her and Janine and Jacob both go and rattle on about their day. While looking at Janine talk, you catch Melissa giving you a look. When Janine stops talking, that’s when Melissa chimes in.

“Hey kid, you never say anything about yourself, why’s that?” Melissa questions you.

“I just don’t talk about myself much, that’s all.” You respond back.

“Why? Why are you so secretive?” She pushes.

“I’m not secretive, there’s just nothing interesting about me.” You tell her and she rolls her eyes at you. “Why are you being nosy?” You ask her and she lefts out a huff.

“I’m not being nosy. It’s just, tell us something, like what do you and your girlfriend do on the weekend or something.” She tells you and you quirk an eyebrow at her. “If you don’t say anything, how do we know you’re not a cop or a secret agent or something like that.” She says to defend herself.

“Well I’m not either one, if you want I can show you my certificate and you can see it’s not forged. But you know both my parents are lawyers so I guess I learned to keep stuff to myself.” You say with a shrug.

“Alright.” She says.

“But to answer your question, Amelia and I don’t do much on the weekends. We’re more home bodies.” You tell her and she smiles at you and you blush a bit.

You excuse yourself early, stating you have to get your classroom ready for crafts, and the trio is talking about where game night is gonna be tomorrow night and Ava comes in to get a coffee.

“Why don’t we have it at y/n’s place?” Melissa says and they look at her.

“Wait, are you coming to game night? Cause you didn’t say either way.” Janine asks her and she shrugs.

“I never know what my plans are on Saturday nights.” She says.

“Did you just voluntold y/n’s place?” Jacob asks and Melissa smirks.

“Yep. We can surprise her.” Melissa says slyly.

“We have no idea where she lives.” Janine says.

“I do!” Ava pipes up and everyone looks at her. “What? It was on her application.” Ava says and pours a bunch of sugar in her coffee. Ava says your address and they all have their mouth open in shock.

“She lives there? That’s a fancy neighbourhood! How does she afford that?” Janine gasps.

“I bet her parents bought it for her.” Melissa says and crosses her arms.

“That would explain it.” Gregory says. “We can’t just show up at her place unexpectedly. We don’t even know if she’ll be home or let us in.” He adds.

“She just said she doesn’t go out on the weekends. And she might let us in, and if she does then we can learn more about her. You can tell a lot about a person from seeing their house. Why do you think I never let youse people over to mine?” Melissa says and they all nod in agreement.

“I’m sure she’ll let us in if Melissa was there.” Barb says with a knowing smile. Melissa whips her head around to face Barb

“What’s that supposed to mean?” She questions, confused.

“Barb you’re coming too?” Jacob asks. And Barb nods.

“My Saturday night is free.” She says, Jacob and Janine grinning. Both of them have never showed up to game night before, so the fact that they are now is exciting to the younger teachers.

“OMG, I don’t even know what game I should bring over now. Ava are you coming?” Janine says with a smile.

“Of course not, unlike you nerds, I actually have plans on Saturday night.” Ava says and walks out.

“So there’ll be 6 of us then.” Janine says.

“Oh we can always have a game that requires teams since it’s an even number.” Jacob states.

“Do you guys have a preference for a game?” Janine asks Melissa and Barb.

“A family friendly game. I don’t want to play one of those games with a bunch of sex questions and sex jokes.” Barb says.

“But those are the best ones.” Melissa says. “The less PG the better.”

“Oh how about the game of life?” Janine says. “But we can play as teams. So like you still have your own car and career, but combine income and losses.” They all agree on that and then they all leave to get their students to finish the day.

You are outside of your classroom helping your kindergarteners zip up sweaters and tie shoelaces. One of your students gives you a hug goodbye and you hug them back and tell them to have a good weekend. Unknown to you, Melissa is watching you from her door frame with a smile and soft eyes. Her class is across the hall and one classroom over so it’s pretty close and she has a perfect view to watch without getting caught. Or so she thought at least, she did get caught but not by you, but by everyone else.

The next day, you’re on your couch and wondering what to watch when the doorbell rings. You get to your door and open it and see Janine, Jacob, Gregory and Barb there there with a smile.

“Hello???” You ask them.

“Hi! We thought it would be fun to have game night at your place.” Janine says excitedly. “I brought the game of life.” And you look to see the game in her hands.

You were about to question them more as to why they chose your place without telling or asking you, you open your mouth to speak but then you see Melissa coming up to your door.

“Melissa, you’re here too?” You ask her and she smiles.

“Yep, can we come in?” She asks you and of course you can’t deny her.

“Ya come on in guys.” You say and step to the side to let them all in.

They all walk in and look around your place in awe. “How do you live in a place this big?” Jacob says and you shrug.

“My parents offered to buy me a place when I told them I wanted to be a teacher.” You say with a chuckle. “I declined at first but then the roommate I had drove me to almost wanting to stab him, so I accepted their offer so I don’t commit a murder.” You say and Melissa giggles at that. In reality everyone laughed, but the one you only really notice is Melissa.

“So where’s this girlfriend of yours?” Jacob says and you got so entranced by Melissa that your brain wasn’t processing properly.

“Girlfriend?” You ask him and they all give you a weird look.

“Ya, Amelia?” He says confused. And you suddenly remembered, although with the look they all have, you doubt they’ll believe you with whatever you say.

“I don’t see any pictures of you with another girl around here.” Melissa points out, looking at all your pictures on the wall.

“Alright, I don’t actually have one. I made her up, my friends kept trying to set me up with women and they kept not really going well so I made up a lie.” You say and Melissa lets out a loud sigh of relief and everyone turns to look at her. Melissa’s cheeks turn pink at being heard and put on the spot. “Something you want to say Melissa?” You ask her with a quirked brow.

“Um uh…n-no not really.” She stuttered out and everyone gives a confused look to each other. Barb decides to save Melissa in that moment as Melissa is unable to speak properly.

“Why don’t we go and set up the game?” She says and everyone agrees. You go to your living room and they set it up on the coffee table.

“I have some food I can put out for snacks, I’ll just go get it. Melissa, do you mind helping me?” You ask her and she turns to look at you.

“Uh , ya sure of course!” Melissa says and scrambles to her feet.

There was 2 reasons you asked her for help, you could have asked anyone but you wanted to be closer to her and show her your kitchen. You know from being in an Italian family, she loves cooking and would probably be in awe of your kitchen. And she was, as soon as you both entered, her eyes went wide and mouth open.

“You have an amazing kitchen.” She says and you smile at her.

“Thanks.”

“You must love cooking in it.” She says and you chuckle.

“I actually don’t cook much. I don’t always like doing it.” You tell her and she looks almost offended.

“What? But this kitchen looks like it’s made to be used a lot, to be used to do so much cooking and baking. I mean I would if I lived here.” She says and she set up a perfect opportunity for you.

You get a bunch of chip bags and some dips and place them on the counter. “Well you could always come over and use it as much as you like.” You tell her and her eyes go wide.

“Really?”

“Ya, if you want. I don’t mind.” You say and she smiles.

“I might take you up on that.” She says and you smile at her. “I think you just want to have some of my cooking.” She teases you and you giggle. You have had some of her cooking a couple times over the 14 months you’ve been at Abbott.

“Well I will admit that I love your cooking but you could come and use the kitchen and I don’t need anything in return.” You tell her and she laughs.

She helps you carry all the chips and dips out into the living room.

“Alright, here’s a variety of chips and dips.” You tell them and they all smile.

You then get into teams of two. You expect for Melissa to pair with Barb and for you to end up with Janine or Jacob. Unexpectedly, Barb asks Jacob to team up, and Janine asks Gregory. Melissa gives a look to Barb and Barb just grins at her. Melissa then looks to you.

“Wanna partner up with me.” She asks and you laugh.

“Well thank you for asking, even if there wasn’t any other choice.” You joke with her and she smiles. “I would love to team up with you.” You add and she grins and blushes a bit.

Unknown to both of you, everyone planned this, for you two to team up together and so they all picked someone to team up with before you guys got a chance.

You all pick out a car to use and whether to go straight to a career or college. Jacob and Barb both pick career right away and everyone else picks college and gets debt.

“Oh look at that, I can be either a teacher or a Doctor.” You say and everyone laughs. “I feel I might be a hypocrite if I don’t pick a teacher.” You say and pick teacher and then a salary. Melissa gets super excited and is able to pick firefighter.

“OH HELL YES!” She says as she picks firefighter immediately.

“What was your other choice?” You ask and she looks.

“Uh, accountant.” She says and looks confused at that and you laugh.

Everyone is having fun playing, there’s laughs, cheering and eating. The more the night goes on, the more touchy Melissa gets with you. Now she knows that you’re actually single, she takes the opportunity to flirt with you. She side hugs you when she’s happy with a victory, and sometimes she leaves her arm there for a bit, even after her turn is done. She’s placed a hand on your leg a few times, and everytime she does that, you blush. She rubs your arm when you experience a loss, like paying for the kids for something. “Damn demanding kids. How do we have 4 of them” You say with a pout and she laughs at that. You guys got the most kids and you picked 2 girls and 2 boys, the boys being twins.

You all end up playing again with the same teams but the rule being you can’t pick the same career. Everyone that picked college last time ends up picking career path just to switch it up a bit, while Barb and Jacob pick college.

This time while playing, Melissa has her arm around your waist for half the game and the other half on your thigh. You swear that life is testing you tonight. You and Melissa end up winning both times and Melissa grins at that. After the second time, you all end up watching a movie. The group ends up picking a horror movie, despite your reluctance since you get scared easily.

Everyone is sitting on either your couch or your 2 love seats. Barb and Jacob are spread out on your couch, while Janine and Gregory are on one of the love seats. So you and Melissa take the other seat. Barb and Jacob each use a blanket, Janine and Gregory share one, while you and Melissa also share a blanket.

Since your kids were so hyper today, you were more tired than usual and you were comfy leaning on Melissa a bit. Melissa has the one arm that’s closest to you, propped up on the back of the seat, with the other one on your thigh and her body is turned to you a bit. You end up getting scared pretty early on and accidentally go to hug Melissa during a jump scare. Melissa stops breathing for a second before she puts an arm around you protectively. “It’s alright, you’re safe, I got you.” She tells you and she smiles. Everyone pretends to not notice what happened and hide a grin.

Everyone then decides to leave but since Melissa had a few glasses of wine, so you offer to let her sleep in your spare room so she doesn’t drive home drunk.

Melissa ends up hearing you scream when you awake from a nightmare and she goes over and knocks on your door.

“Y/n, it’s Melissa. I heard you screaming so I thought I’d come to check if you were ok.”

You get out of bed and go and open your bedroom door. “I’m alright, I just had a nightmare. I knew I shouldn’t have watched the movie with you guys. I’ll be too afraid to sleep now, I guess it’s good that tomorrow is Sunday.” You tell her with a small chuckle.

“Oh I’m sorry hun.” She tells you as she leans against the door frame.

“It’s alright, maybe I’ll just watch something on my phone, maybe some stand up and fall asleep again.” You tell her and she looks at you then an idea pops up in her head.

“What if I slept with you?” She says and you look at her with wide eyes and her face mirrors that when she realises how that sounds. “I-I meant in the same bed and sleep… actual sleep not sex.” She defends and you giggle. In your tired state and full of adrenaline from the nightmare, you blurt out something before your brain has time to stop you.

“I wouldn’t say no to either one of those.” You say and she looks at you surprised.

“Really?” She tells you and that’s when it hits you what you said and a huge and noticeable blush makes it on your cheeks.

“Umm, I mean , I… I-I have no idea what I mean actually.” You say and put your hand over your eyes in embarrassment. Melissa takes the hand off your face then looks at you.

“Do you like me? As in a crush.” She asks and you nod, too embarrassed to speak. As soon as you nod, she has a big smile. “Really?” And you nod again. Melissa gets really excited and kisses you. You kiss her back and you both think that it’s wonderful, you both enjoy the kiss but then Melissa pulls back when she realises she didn’t admit her own feelings, verbally anyway. “I like you too.” She says with a huge smile and a sparkle in her eyes.

You giggle at that. “I figured by the kiss.” You tell her and she smiles warmly at you. “I would love the company in my bed to try and sleep, if you’re still offering.” You tell her and she nods.

“Of course. If you want we could cuddle. I was rather enjoying that on the couch.” She tells you and you agree. You cuddle in your bed and you manage to fall asleep wrapped in her arms and a smile on your face, and your nightmares didn’t come back that night.

On Monday morning you come into the break room and get a coffee as usual. You go and sit on the couch next to Melissa to watch the news. She looks at you and smiles and you smile back at her. Everyone is looking at you guys curiously then you see Melissa looking at you with a mischievous expression. She wraps a hand behind your head and pulls you in for a kiss, you kiss her back and hear gasps from everyone. Melissa pulls back after a few seconds and you see everyone grinning.

“Well it’s about time you two.” Barb says. “I’m glad our plan to make you team up worked.” And you both look over at her with a quirked eyebrow.

“You guys planned that?” Melissa says and you smile and lean on her shoulder while she wraps an arm around your waist, still questioning everyone.

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#melissa schemmenti x reader #melissa schemmenti x oc #melissa schemmenti x you #melissa schemmenti #x reader #fanfic

[louscartridge]

i dont wanna think about it!

i do not give permission for my fics to be posted claiming to be yours, translated, or posted on another platform without credit.

cw- nick hitting the car door, mention of stripping and selling feet pics (😭😭) thats it.

summary- theres never a bland moment with the triplets. especially if theres a video taking place.

a/n- idk if the math is right in this or if anything in this is right tbh but this is funny so oh well.

“id rather let a bird on me then a squirl” you repeat

you were in a car video with nick, matt, and chris like you often were. you were in the back sitting next to nick, matt and chris in their usual spots.

you dont even remember how you got on this topic but now you and nick are arguing over a bird.

nick turns to you even more. “no i know you did not just say that”

“did i stutter?”

“what if the bird thinks your head is a nest?”

“then i move. its really not that hard nick, if i move the bird leaves.”

“birds are scary!” nick squeals

“squirls are mean!” you squeal back

you can hear matt and chris giggling loudly and gasping for breath infront of you over you and nicks bickering.

“ok ok” matt breathlessly said, waving his hand infront of you and nick.

“ok next question next question” chris said for matt since he was still catching his breath.

“please” nick sighed loudly and read the next question. “could you live without the internet?”

matt answerd first. “you know what, i think i could.”

“matt we make money from the internet.” nick said staring at matt.

“yeah but if we didnt then yeah i could”

“matt if it werent for the internet you wouldnt be living”

“ok. nick. thats a little dramatic-”

“no its not. we get money from the internet. therefor, we get food of the internet. you know? the stuff that keeps us alive!?” nick gradually gets louder as he speaks.

“yeah ok but nick there are other jobs that dont have to do with the internet at all.”

“yeah and you get like-- what? 5 bucks an hour?”

chris gets his phone out of his back pocket after nick said that.

“ok- chris are you not participating” you say poking his sholder with your finger.

“no i am. how many hours does some one like.. a waiter work for?”

“uhh like.... i think its like a normal 9 to 5 job”

“ok so eight times five is 40 so 365 times is14,600.” when chris looks up he sees his two brothers and you looking at eachother holding in laughs.

“what?” he chuckled.

“nothing.” nick laughs back.

“ok.... well if you were to get a job as a waiter you would get $14,600 a year if you worked on weekends.”

“yeah. aka not enough to use as a living chris!”

“not my problem”

“it would be if we were living without the internet!”

“well i dont know sell pictures of your feet or something on the side” you butt in

the van was now filled with laughs again and the sound of nick hitting the door.

“it would work!”

“no, y/n, it wouldnt!” matt says grabbing your sholder. “you need the internet for that” he says inbetween laughs.

your now laughing as well. “oh”

once the laughing dies down you say “well then become a stripper i dont know”

“y/n!” nick yells “thats inapproprite.” he laughs “in-a-pro-pri-te” he continues to spell out.

“ok but think about it!”

“no, nope. not thinking about it.” nick interrupts before you could say anything else. “next question i dont wanna think about it.”

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[zooliminology]

Update/What's in the Future

[Hey guys, you probably have noticed that this is going to be likely the longest dry spell of real Zoolim content in a while. I apologize for this. Life has gotten in the way of a lot of things.

-I'm an art student in college, and last semester I didn't take any art classes so I was basically free to do whatever, but this semester I've taken three studio art classes, which are all very intensive and in honesty I would not recommend it! If you're a studio art student stick to 1-2 studio art classes a semester so you don't go insane please! I'm currently absolutely SWAMPED with work right now. -The Golbo video and the video that is imminently due this Tuesday (that i am writing this post about instead of working on) are the results of my New Media class. Considering the ten thousand million fucking art assets I have to draw for these it's been very time consuming (still want to do it though.) -A lot of life things have happened to me recently, not to be super personal but a family member of mine is sick and my living conditions are not the absolute Best, so it's been taking a heavy toll on my health.

All of these combined, especially the studio classes part because I've been bled dry of creativity energy relating to zoolim basically, has caused this dry spell basically. My hopes are that after the semester ends (which is soon) I'll be able to work on things more. I feel bad about not working on it more but I have to draw things other than zoolim to literally stay sane because it's a lot.

So I guess that leaves us with one question: what's in the future?

Well, a lot of things... maybe? I'm a little dry on entity ideas right now but i have a few, and I'd like to revisit some entities more and expand on them. And while I enjoy the videos and the non-entry ideas I have for material, I would also like to continue the 'traditional' paintings and entries. So I hope I can work on that alongside other things! I also have more ideas for videos, but considering how I have to do nearly all of the work, aside from the narration (thanks Darvinos) any video production will likely slow down dramatically after the semester is over. Until my next New Media class at least, but IDK if it will let me make the same shit.

I also have some deeper lore and a story semi-figured out, along with characters (you ever wonder who's taking the pictures? not the same person who's writing the captions!!!) but they would be hard to implement in this tumblr blog organically, so maybe they'll show up in some videos. I've thought of asking more people for help for this purpose, though I'd need to work out completely how that would work, and the moment that zoolim becomes more than some backrooms world i work on mostly by myself will become scary.

Sorry that this post is a big ramble, I hope yall understand and I swear the Longlegs video will come out pretty soon, it will be worked on again right after I post this lol. But please take care, and thank you for all the support you've shown me so far. It truly does mean a lot to me. I've said it several times but I'll say it again, I never imagined this shitty little art project about weird goobers in the backrooms would get so much attention lol.

ok end of post]

#ooc #zooliminology #update

[whyse7vn]

DRUNK MESSAGES -

[ ot7 x reader ]

TAEHYUNG -

tae: i jusT fellll heaD first onto the floor

y/n: LMAO

did someone record it

tae: not sure

should i do it again and record it for you?

y/n: no it’s okay

where did you fall from?

tae: kitchen counter

y/n: are you having fun?

tae: yeah

y/n: good

tae: head hurts

y/n: shouldn’t of fell

tae: what if i died

y/n: that would of sucked

tae: i wouldn’t be able to tell you i died

y/n: i’m sure someone would tell me

tae: no

y/n: no?

tae: ¿

y/n: ok tae

tae: i’m soh ok

y/n: i didn’t ask if you were ok i just-

nvm

i’m glad

tae: thanks

thinking about the instagram thing rn

y/n: what instagram thing?

tae: wHen i followed gennie by accident 😓

y/n: you mean jennie?

tae: that’s what i said

y/n: that was so random why are you thinking about that rn?

was so long ago i am very much over it love

tae: i can think what i wanna think

omgggg r u mad at me rn ?!

y/n: no i’m not mad

tae: goof

goij

goon

googd

good

thank you

i’m going now

i have things to do

y/n: ok have fun love

tae: i was born 2 fun

YOONGI -

yoongi:

y/n: um

yoongi: why is it unknown

why don’t they know who said it

y/n: i have no idea

yoongi: let’s find out

y/n: how are we going to find out

yoongi: i’ll ask everyone here and you can ask people on the street

y/n: i feel like that would take a long time

and what if someone lies to us?

what then??

yoongi: omg

ur so right

but i cant take it i need it know who said it

y/n: i love you for what you are all that you’ve been and all that you will be

see look

i said it

problem solved

yoongi: omg you cant do that

y/n: just did

yoongi: NO

y/n: why?

yoongi: you didn’t say it

y/n: i think i did

yoongi: it’s not your quote

y/n: how do you know

it actually is my quote i am claiming it

yoongi: YOU CANT

y/n: WHY NOT

yoongi: YOU DIDNT MAKE IT UP

y/n: HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT

yoongi: CUZ I KNOW

y/n: yoongi

yoongi: what

y/n: it’s my quote i said it i made it up it belongs to me

yoongi: i cant accept this

pls leave me alone for the next 2 hours

y/n: why 2 hours?

yoongi: because that’s when i’ll be over it

y/n: how do you know that

what if you’re over it in the next 10 mins

yoongi: STAY AWAY FROM ME

YOU AND YOUR SICK LITTLE MIND

y/n: omg

clam down i say!

idk if i like drunk you tbh

yoongi: i am not drunk

being drunk is a mindset i don’t partake in

y/n: i think you’re wrong

yoongi: i have never been wrong in my life

y/n: you were wrong about the quote…

yoongi: i’ve decided not to speak with you anymore

JIMIN -

jimin: heard you fucking with namjoon now 🥱

y/n: for the last time jimin i will not give in to ur little role play fantasy

jimin: always knew you were a little slut

y/n: just imagined you saying that irl and almost threw up

jimin: cat got your tongue?

y/n: ew

cringing so hard rn

jimin: who knew you were so ….

pussy

y/n: jimin what

jimin: how ironic

y/n: ????

jimin: splendid

y/n: LMAO SPLENDID??

jimin: is this not hot?

y/n: no.

jimin: oh

y/n: you just said words

jimin: did my words not make you wet?

y/n: did the opposite actually

jimin: oh

y/n: yeah

maybe you should stop drinking

jimin: happy new year

y/n: fuck off

jimin: i deserved that

JUNGKOOK -

jungkook: hay

y/n: no you are not ugly

no i would never leave you for tae or ironman

yes we will be together forever

i would still love you if you were a worm

i don’t care that you cry during sex

i think your sock collection is cute

your eyes are pretty

it’s okay you left me with bam today

no i am not hungry

i am in my bed rn

yes i will wait up for you

you do make me happy

it’s okay that you are a crybaby

yes i love you too

jk: how did yoju kno i was gonna ask?

y/n: you literally said hay instead of hey

jk: sjo?

y/n: ur spelling always sucks when ur drunk

and no it doesn’t bother me

also you ask me the same questions every time you are drunk

that also doesn’t bother me

jk: OMjfG

Ur like insane 😧

like thaTs so freaky bae

ur a frek

fork

fr

freak 😈

*😨🤯

dijdt mean the naughty y emoj

my fault

😨😈😈😈😈😈😣

y/n: it’s okay

jk: lejt me turn auto corrected on

y/n: why is it off?

jk: sjo i can fell smart

wairttt here

y/n: waiting

jk: dojne

wtf why isn’t it work

working

FUCK

sorry for shouting

y/n: it’s okay bby

jk: send nudes

y/n: so now you can spell??

that’s crazy

i’m sick of being nice to you tbh

jk: L

+ radio

rodeo

rode

race

radddd

radio

ratio

y/n: 😐

jk: rate my rizz 1-10

y/n: i won’t

jk: why ☹️

y/n: ur gonna end up crying

jk: would you still love me if i said uwu

y/n: you literally do say that

jk: okay???

hope off my dick bro

hoop

hop

hop

ping

pong

omg play the ping pong

they are broke yk?

y/n: hyuna and dawn?

jk: i literally just said that?

y/n: fuck y-

nvm

go back to your little party

jk: are you made at me

mars

made

maid

made

mad mad mad

?

y/n: no

just want you to have fun

jk: i am having fun

i am talking to you

wtf is thijs not fun for you???????????????????

y/n: it is

but i want you to have fun with your friends bby

jk: oh o k

what if i start a meth lab

y/n: what

jk: sorry

i donr even know what meth actually is

i wanted to look call

col

cooolll

y/n: when are you coming home

jk: what even is home

like when you thjnk about it

what i s a home

y/n: …

jk: you freaky?

😭😋😈🧟‍♂️

y/n: …

are you ok?

jk: can you come get me pls

HOSEOK -

hobi: WHORE

y/n: oh

hobi: SLUT

y/n: hello??

hobi: 🥰

y/n: thanks?

hobi: *🤬

y/n: oh

hobi: did i make you cry?

y/n: no

hobi: BITCH

y/n: are you trying to make me cry?

hobi: shut the fuck up 🤬🤬🤬

y/n: ….

do you need me to pick you up?

hobi: no

NO .

y/n: what do you want then

hobi: FUCK YOU

y/n: you are so lucky you are drunk and not at home

hobi: 😜😜😜😜😜😜😜😜😜😜😜😜

y/n: bitch

hobi: ur mother

y/n: don’t make me come there

hobi: cum

y/n: don’t try me happy feet

hobi: DONT CALL ME THAT

y/n: or what?

hobi: calling ur birther

y/n: you called her a bitch i’m sure she’ll understand

hobi: go away

y/n: thought we were having fun :(

hobi: love u

y/n: love u too

come home soon

hobi: ok

i lied

i hate it there

y/n: fine don’t come come

hobi: wtf why would you even say that

y/n: go away

i don’t have the time nor energy today

hobi: ur mother has no time or energy tbh

y/n: tbh ur about to be single

hobi: tbh i never liked you anyways

y/n: how about you leave me alone

hobi: how how about you DIE

y/n: omg????

hobi: blue hour!

y/n: txt hates you

hobi: ARE YOU SICK

TAKE IT BACK RNRNRNRNRNRN

y/n: and won’t

hobi: NAUR MATE YOU BETTER

omg sorry the australian slipped out of me

happens sometimes

it’s like my hidden super power

by day i’m humble korean man born and raised

by night the auzzie takes control

i’m like venom omg

this that pink venom

no

this that auzzie venom

get em get em get em

me in blackpink when

y/n: never i pray 🙏🏽

hobi: :/

cuz it’s you ur the one that i want

y/n: L

hobi: is for the way you look at me

look at us doing a little duet aren’t we cute 🥰

y/n: bye get home safe

SEOKJIN -

jin: just leaked your nudes

it’s okay because you looked good in them

y/n: HELLO WHAT?

jin: they saw bae 😓😓😓

y/n: THEY???

jin: the guys saw your tits bae 😰

y/n: HOW ??

jin: ur tiddies are my lock screen

but don’t worry i ate the polaroid

y/n: WHAT????)/)/

jin: i ate it

y/n: WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU WHY DID YOU EAT IT. ??

jin: so they couldn’t see

y/n: why would they see the polaroid?

jin: after seeing some of you they might want more

i couldn’t have that

and they know i keep the polaroid in my wallet z

y/n: how do they know?

jin: cuz i told them

y/n: why would you tell them?

jin: so they wouldn’t take it

y/n: but you ate it because you thought they would take it?

jin: yeah

y/n: 🤨

something ain’t right there

jin: everyone thinks your hot tho

y/n: they think i’m hot because they saw my tits ?

jin: no it’s because of the video

y/n: ?????

WHAT VIDEO??

jin: the one i showed them last week

y/n: LAST WEEK???

jin: yeah

are you mad 🥺?

y/n: i’m going to beat the fuck outta you

jin: that isn’t legal

y/n: you have 10 minutes to get yourself home

jin: oh

NAMJOON -

namjoon: i cant see straight rn

but that’s okay

y/n: is it?

namjoon: what if we had kids rn

y/n: LMAO

moving on

it was so cold today

namjoon: i’ll keep you warm

y/n: thanks

namjoon: i am a rapper

y/n: you are

namjoon: do you think i’m good at it

y/n: i think you’re the best at it

namjoon: woah

okay

freak

y/n: fuck you

i lied you SUCK

namjoon: aw man

y/n: get better

the first 3 words of arson ended ur career tbh

namjoon: mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

tbis is real upsetting yk?

y/n: should of took my compliment and left

but you had to call me a freak

namjoon: i take it back

would you still love me if i was jungkook?

y/n: what

namjoon: would you?

y/n: um

i guess so?

namjoon: so ur a cheater

good to know

y/n: what

am i high rn or are you?

namjoon: i don’t do coke?

y/n: what

namjoon: shut the hell up

y/n: so it is you

thought i was going insane for a second

namjoon: i’m not even real

y/n: sucks

namjoon: ikr

y/n: who have i been kissing on this whole time then?

namjoon: probably jungkook idk..

y/n: does jungkook make you feel insecure or something??

why are we talking about him rn

namjoon: i might as well kms i cant belive you just said that to me

don’t look at me don’t speak to me don’t perceive me at ALL

y/n: yikes

forgive me 🥺🙏🏽

namjoon: it’s too late

namjoons and jimins ones flopped so bad but it’s okay. as you can tell got a bit carried away with jungkooks one 🤭🤭. you should know by now my shit is never proof read!gc stuff soon 🙏🏽 ALSO FEEL SOSOSO FREE TO GIVE ME IDEAS OR REQUEST PLS I FR NEED THEM LOVE YOU ALL XOXOX

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[n3tworksucks]

QUACKITY AND READER HELPING QUACKITY THROUGH A TOUGHT TIME? 🔒

HEYYY SORRY IF ITS BAD

word count;656

warnings; angst, umm idk lmk if i missed any

-school can suck.

-especially law school.

-and alex was smart, you would tell him all the time and tell him how proud you were

-and he somewhat knew he was smart too

-but sometimes the thought of him not being smart or good enough would get to him, and would effect him enough to where he'll just kina stop what he's doing, asking himself what he's doing.

-he doesn't want you to know if he's upset about school either.

-but knowing him long enough and being with him whilst he studys most of the time, you'd get an idea of when he was feeling this way about himself(and he's not very good at hiding it so well but shh) 

-when he's staring to feel this way or when hes stressed, he'd work a lot slower mentally and physically, he'd go quieter than usual and his inhales would stutter

-so when you'd notice you didn't really know if you should give him space or give him love.

-but you decided to give him love.

- you were on the foot of your shared bed and he was sitting on his side of the bed on his laptop

-youd hear slow typing and a shaky inhale

-so that's when you knew something was wrong

- you look over to your boyfriend and he looks tired, it stung a little to see him like this

- you had thought of giving him space but it didn't look like it

-so you crawl your way next to him

-but when he saw you moving towards him he had quickly tried to fix himself up and take a deep breath

- when you made it next to him comfortably you told him hey

- he said hi back

- you then asked if he was ok. he only nodded

- you look on his screen to see what he was writing and you see a lot of blue lines under some of the words meaning autocorrect corrected some words you knew he could spell, even though he was typing slow.

- you think he needs a break

- so you wrap your arm around his arm then use your other hand to move his computer out of his lap

- you put your head on his shoulder and slowly rests his head on top of yours

- then you grab his hand, playing with his fingers for a few minutes 

- then he sighs and closes his eyes

-" you know you can talk to me right" you say more of a statement than a question

-"i know" he says

-"you wanna tell me whats wrong?" this time you say more of a question than a statement

-you never wanted to pressure him into opening up because it can be uncomfortable if he's not ready. and we don't want that

-but you always try to make sure he knows that he can talk to you

-"its just school" he says " its been kinda hard and I can't focus" he said with a sleepy voice,  and you can hear it

- "do you wanna just stop for the night?" you ask and he goes silent, almost like he's thinking. 

-"come on" you say making sure his work is saved on his computer before turning it off and putting it to charge

-he doesn't even try to get it back. he's just too tired

-you come back and see Alex already under the covers waiting for you

-you gladly join him in the bed, getting under the covers holding each other with his head buried in your chest and your fingers in his hair

-not long after. you hear light snoring

- you smile to yourself, thinking about how smart your boyfriend really is and how proud of him you are

- but before you could fully drift off to sleep, you heard a little mumble coming from alex.

-"i love you"

#quackity #quackityhq #quackity imagines #quackity x reader

[luckyqueenreign]

Final thoughts….

Yep it’s official LITG fully gave up on us being the main character. Because how the hell do we walk back into the bedroom, everyone gets to talk about our night but us??? Not even a dumb ass “sister chat” to debrief?!

Then the final date outfits… fb really couldn’t be bothered to add in another outfit or two??? Look I hate how much they cost as much as the next person.. and I definitely have been swapping between like three dresses all season but this is final dates!!

So we knew from the texts adventure date = yacht and romantic date = beach date. I’m sorry but what’s adventurous about a yacht?? Lol. I love how ozzy keeps saying he doesn’t care about how the other dates are going and ours is better but then asks how we think the other dates are going. I thought we didn’t care about them?!?! Also reading through this date and spending TWENTY NINE gems for that cringe fest when playing THTH the dates and everything is FREE and you actually have good convos with ur dates. And he’s really just gonna keep repeating that he has a “special question” to ask us… bruh 🙄 YOU SHOULDVE ASKED LAST NIGHT

All MC could say about her date was we got on a yacht and Ozzy popped open a bottle of bubbly. It was a proper adventurous. LOL I mean if you say so! WHATS WITH ALL THE PRANKS THIS SEASON??? Pranks are the new feet!!! Pls stop hyperfixating on one thing and making it the entire seasons personality. Why was lewie in a suit?? You mean to tell me he’s rather workout in a suit rather than change into something more comfortable, in the middle of summer… in mallorca??

Grace babe!! It’s time to move on!! Picking a dress to make Ozzy regret his decision?! GIRL! Maybe that’s why he wants to ask us to be his gf in front of everyone at declarations..ok I already knew this was coming but Amelia saying it now in dress shopping makes it real he’s def gonna ask her to be his gf and Ozzy is gonna ask us… UGHHHHHHHH

The Ozzy dance and the bits scene after was cute but it seems like they’re trying to cram in as much bits as possible. I’m not complaining but wish we had more opportunities throughout the season with Ozzy.

At this point Ozzy better propose. I’m not here for the LITG proposals AT ALL but we need to one up Amelia. I will not stand for us being the same!!! Grace and Marshall’s speeches were weird that they mentioned Ozzy in them at all. Same with Bella and Lewie. Like everyone just needs to move on! Dying at the lack of spell check “your amazing good lucks” I stared at that for at least a minute, flabbergasted they really spelled looks like that. I’m sorry EXCLUSIVE?!?! That’s it??? He could’ve added in he wanted us to move in together… an i love you… something!!

Ok idk if this has bothered anyone else this season but MC has gotten like 95% of the texts all season. And now at the finale you’re making her read out the entire final?? At least make other islanders read too!

As much as obviously I loved winning. If Amelia had won but Toby stole the money I actually would’ve been just as happy. I wish there was a scenario where this could happen, so if you wanted the happy ending u could have it but if you wanted absolute chaos then that was an option too.

HAMISH LMAOOO. Best. Choice. Ever. I know my Hamish girlies are gonna be so happy with the choice to leave the villa with him 🤣

And another season coming already… ugh lol

#litg #love island the game #love island game #litg s6 #litg double trouble

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Confessions

Pairing: Stephen Strange x f!reader

Word Count: 1.6k

Content: Confessions, angst, idk rlly, fluff

A/N: Another one from drafts. I remember this was inspired right after I finished watching the k drama "start-up" so you may spot a few familiar lines from the show

   You changed your breathing, your movements were swift and quick. The trainee panicked, fighting defensively when you swept your leg, knocking him clean off the floor. You let out a smile as you held out a hand for the trainee to take. The man thanked you before quickly leaving for his next training. 

    “Hey!” You wiped the sweat off your forehead as you turned to the source of your name being called. “I told you, she came back just a few days ago and she’s been training. Why would I lie?” Wong’s voice sounded throughout the field. Your eyes drifted to the taller man with blue robes and his signature cloak over his broad shoulders. You felt your heart pace, he was the reason you left Kamar Taj after all.  With panic overwhelming you, you opened a portal, waving to them hysterically as you tried to casually enter the portal and disappear from both their sights 

   It happened a few more times after that. You almost suspected Stephen spent more time around Kamar Taj these days but you dismissed that thought that he was there for you before you could get your hopes up. You had already gone through the pain of that when you had let yourself hope. One time, you were entering the library when you spotted his back and immediately shut the door again when he was supposed to be your training partner but you went to practice different spells instead lastly when he had sat next to you for lunch, you stuffed so much food into your mouth, you couldn’t even talk to him and then scurried off. 

  You let out a sigh, your hand covering your eyes as you lay on the bed. It had been years since that incident, for all you knew, Stephen already forgot about it, the day he had brought you to Christine’s wedding. 

   You remembered feeling out of place. You weren’t even one to dress up and now you were stuck in a stifling outfit with people you didn’t even know. Stephen was by your side, but it was obvious that man had another person in his mind, his eyes followed her, a longing inside him. The whispers about Stephen bringing a fake date, someone that wasn’t even in his league and the pitiful looks that accompanied you were evident no matter where you went. The worst part of it all was the fact that they were right, you definitely weren’t in his league. You hated crowds, you closed your eyes trying to calm yourself down in a corner. You hated how you were trained to listen to every small detail that day, even if this same skill had saved you on multiple occasions. Because of this skill, you heard the conversation between Stephen and Christine. One that sparked you to leave without him.

   “Are you ok? If you wanted to leave you could have told me. I would have left with you.” He started when he had found her in the kitchen of the sanctum in the late night. You drank your water, trying to swallow the lump in your throat. “You didn’t need to. You should enjoy it.”You replied. He scoffed a little, “ And enjoy the boring questions about my new occupation?” You forced a smile, then smiled bigger to crinkle your eyes, hiding the glistening in your eyes when his worried look scanned you. “It was just overwhelming. Big crowds and all. I’m fine.” You assured with a shrug. Stephen nodded, “Talk to me next time ok? Don’t just leave me.” You pursed your lips, trying to walk past him when he stood in your way. “You’re crying.” He realised, You looked away from him. “You’re seeing things.” Your voice broke near the end. He let the silence hang in the air while he stood in your way, waiting for you to open up. 

   “I can’t Stephen. I can’t talk to you about this.” 

  “You can.” He insisted 

   You met his eyes. “We can’t be friends anymore Stephen.” Stephen stumbled over his words, shock overcoming him at your sudden words. “Did I do something wrong? I’m sorry-” He immediately apologised, trying to find out the problem. You shook your head, “I can’t see you as a friend anymore Stephen. I have feelings for you, for a long time. I thought it would go away but it didn’t. I’m sorry- “ 

  “I-” Stephen started. You inhaled a shaky breath, cutting Stephen off. 

  “You only had eyes for Christine all this time, but I still wanted to stay by your side even just as a friend. Because I thought that maybe you’d look at me the same way one day. That you might notice how much I like you and start seeing me for who I am. I really thought that and I’m now realising foolish I was.” 

  Stephen was at a loss. He knew there was nothing he could do to help his best friend. So he had to just let her go, let her leave. The last time he saw her was when she smiled at him with a smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes and announced to Wong and him that she was leaving to ‘do what she always wanted to’

    You were deep in your thoughts. Your eyebrows furrowed as you buried your nose in a book. 

   “Shit, Sorry.” You apologised when you bumped into someone just as you were leaving the library. However your nose remained buried in the book as you tried to find the text that provided you with the information needed. The man you bumped into cleared his throat and that’s when the scent radiating off him registered in your mind. 

   You scrunched your face, closing your eyes while you cursed internally at yourself . Thinking of ways to be able to brush him off without coming off as weird. 

    Instead of just letting her past, Stephen leaned forward which caused you to back into the library again. Upon entering the library, he closed the door behind him and you silently contemplated climbing out the window which was 3 levels above ground. Maybe breaking a few bones was better than having an awkward conversation with Stephen. You doubt neither you or Stephen were good at talking about these type of things anyways.

   He stood before you, his hands planted at his hips. 

  “You’re avoiding me.”

   You resisted the urge to roll your eyes and snap back at him with a “no shit Sherlock.” All kinds of emotions whirled past you and maybe you stayed silent for abit too long. You awkwardly shifted your hands around, not knowing where to put your hands. 

    “I- it’s been years you don’t need to give me an answer. I sort of know- I mean- it’s okay I don’t need your answer-“ You rambled on, the last time you had a conversation with him was before you left.. Stephen stood closer to you, scoffing slightly, “you’re avoiding me because you’re scared of my reaction to your confession?” You winced, that proved the fact that he still remembered. “I mean it was pretty memorable although I do have photographic memory so most things are-“ he stopped when he saw the smile tugging at her lips. “Show off” You muttered, his grin grew wider at the familiar nickname. 

   “Why do you not want my honest answer?.” 

   You flinched slightly, “because I know what you’ll say.” 

   “What would I say?” He questioned. 

   You swallowed, “Like I said that day Stephen, you have no space in your heart for me.” You laughed coldly, tears welling in her eyes. “I always thought I could act cool in these situations. Laugh it off with a joke and tell you that I’m fine with your decision but it turns out I’m just another lovesick loser after all and I’m not okay. But if I felt okay now, that would mean I didn’t actually like you that much.” Your lips quivered, you bit on your lips but a sob soon escaped you nevertheless.. Claspong your hand over your mouth you turned around away from him. 

     “I just thought it wouldn’t hurt so much. But it hurts- it hurts so much even after these years.” You clutched your chest where your heart is. The voices inside you screaming at the pain. Stephen stood rooted to the spot, his heart breaking for you, feeling his own tears when he realised that he was the reason for her pain. He wiped his glassy eyes and with a determined stride, he pulled her into his arms. 

   “I’m sorry it took me so long to give you a response.but I want to correct you.”he pulled away from you, placing a palm on your cheek while keeping his other hand on your back. “You’re Right, i didnt have space to love you in my heart. But now, my heart is filled with you and you only. I love you and I’m sorry it took losing you for me to realise how my love for you runs deep in my veins.” You glanced up at him, pulling away fully. Chuckling, “This is what I always wanted to hear Stephen.” He grinned at her but he could hear the ‘but’ coming. 

   “But I-I’m a mess. I can’t give you an answer now. I want to do this, with a smile on my face.”

   “I’ll wait for your answer, no matter how long you take because my heart will always be yours.” Stephen replied in a beat, You laughed. “You sound like a fictional romance character.” “You do like those don’t you?” He raised his eyebrows.you grinned, “ a man after my own heart.” 

   “For you? Always.” 

#dr stephen strange #stephen strange angst #dr strange x reader #stephen strange #stephen strange x reader #doctor strange #benedict cumberbatch x reader #stephen strange x you

[spicyicetea]

Ok- obligatory apology for being absent. I did say I’d have some new chapters out before February ended but I’ve been rather sick (just found I react badly to my migraine meds and it apparently runs in the family- why did no one tell me :,) ). On a better note, I’ve been using this to finally watch Jojo’s bizarre adventure, I’m currently halfway through the stardust crusaders. So JJBA fans I see you, I understand the hype… I also understand now what you mean by most people in this show are fuckable and it scares me that I now agree so quickly. I will probably try and finish watching it over the next few weeks, but I am thoroughly enjoying it. I won’t name characters but every main character death so far has made me upset.

So here comes the question I wanted to ask- are any of my fans interested in some x reader stuff? Maybe some Yandere JJBA x reader? >:). I don’t mind whether it’s just little one shots or longer multipart stories, it’s my current hyperfixation so I’m so down. I do have an idea for a much longer story that would go through all the parts with the same Y/N (ya know some reincarnation shenanigans) where the Y/N is aware of what happens and is trying to prevent the deaths the best she can, she may or may not have some extra powers to help her out as well but shhhh. Idk would anyone be interested in that. As per usual with me it would be a yandere story (I don’t and never will endorse IRL but in fiction it heals my abandonment issues ok don’t kill me-) and the updates would happen as I watch and go along with the anime. This would basically be a harem type thing. I am going to have a poll under the read more for some of the things about the Y/N character/reincarnations, if it gets enough votes I’d start writing once the poll ends. Anyways thanks for reading my jabbering.

I think all of these ideas for Y/N and her powers would lead to a fun story. Now MINORS THIS ISN’T FOR YOU I’d hope that no minors are on my page anyways but I’ll say it here- this story would/will contain smut/sexual content and Yandere behaviour, none of which is ok for anyone under 16, so MDNI.

Also a further note, for main characters who are already in a relationship, I won’t be vilifying their other halves but just saying they never got together. For characters that need to, where they have kids that are main characters later, they either would have divorced/split up or had them through a one night stand. The characters will probably already be written somewhat out of character due to the Yandere nature of the story so I’ll try and stay as accurate as I can.

(Not spelling or grammar checked- can’t be asked sorry guys)

#x reader #yandere x reader #jjba #jjba x reader #jjba x you #jjba x y/n #yandere jjba #yandere jjba x reader #yandere jjba x you #yandere jjba x y/n #jojo’s bizarre adventure #jojo’s bizzare adventure x reader

[cephalonheadquarters]

my stupid ass accidentally hit unfollow instead of ask button -_- ANGYWAYS like what is UP with c.Cemelo? Camelo>?i forgot how to spell his name the second i looked away from it THE MUTLICOLORED MENTALLY ILL GUYthag one. i have so many questions about him like why is he a freak (lovingly). why is his relationship with the big guy so inasne liek whats theier deal. im so interested (props my chin up in my hands and smiles suuuper wide) i would love to hear about them if u wanna talk about them PEACE ✌ (i mean all this genuiinely btw)

HIS NAEM CHAMELO it’s just Chameleon but also Camilo. I hope that helps..you got it close in the second try. the first one is like cementHe was forced to eat cement at 6. I'm probably going to switch around with his nicknames and name a lot (Chamy, Melo) out of habit sorry if its confusing

ANYWAYS. I'M REALLY GLAD YOU ASKED HI ok. LOTS of words soooo undah da cut they go. Also sorry if a lot of this does Not make sense trust me I don't make sense to myself sometimes

He is a freak because I really like characters like him. He's basically how my thought process works so that probably also means you're calling me a freak too(Lighthearted)

He is horrifically anxious and has got anger issues and is just real irritable in general (And probably more things.?). He has trouble dealing with his own emotions because they're often so extreme, so he does things on impulse despite overthinking a lot. He sorta contradicts himself in his thoughts and feelings and actions. Idk he's weird. Doesn't always know what he wants and has a tough time with communication. Him changing colors involuntarily depending on his mood doesn't help either if the person he's talking to knows which colors go with what feeling. He tries his hardest to hide his emotions when he wants to whether it be angry, nervous, sad, even happy, but he also knows he'll always have a dead giveaway if he feels anything ever.

(Note: Optional reading in this next part I ended up rambling↓)

I do worry about him getting so worked up because I don't want people to think that I think feeling emotions is dumb or whatever because I tend to like. Make him accidentally funny or play it off as a joke. And then I remember he feels like I do so I don't care if people get mad at me for having a character that gets upset or jumps to conclusions over little things or has a lot of inner monologue that's just freaking out because I do that a lot too. I like when I can relate to characters, I like to put things about me in my characters. People have told me that a lot of my characters have very real personalities (I LOVE WRITING PERSONALITIES) so I think I'm okay. It makes me feel extra happy when people tell me they can relate too. A lot of that didn't explain anything about him actually sorry lawl they call me the rambler

Okey anyways

About him and Diesel (da big guy)....

I don't even know where to start with them goodness gracious they're a mess. I guess when they first met. Chamy got a new job at the stupid dumb pizza place that Diesel had already been working at for a while despite almost Never showing up for (Their boss, Sharlotte, doesn't even give a darn and thinks of Diesel as a "son she never had" so he gets away with a lot). Diesel noticed Melo was new and because he is like a big cartoon bully of course he messes with Chamelo, mainly by stealing his beloved motor scooter thing.

Diesel made sure Chamy saw that he stole it, he wanted Chamelo to see him. If he wanted Melo to try to get back at him, it worked. When he finally caught Diesel with his scooter, Chamelo lunged at him like a rabid animal and they started fighting over it. Of course, Chamelo won through sheer rage and took back his scooter and Diesel hasn't taken it since then, but Melo has to let him drive it whenever they're delivering together (Because Sharlotte thought it was a genius decision to partner him up with Diesel because she thought Chamelo would die).

Chamelo holds a grudge against Diesel over that whole situation, but now he just finds himself instigating a fight with him for literally no reason (There is a reason it is because he is Gay and a Freak).

He then eventually realizes he is Madly In Love with that chimaera guy and has a meltdown about it and can't tell ANYONE or he will DIE!!!!!! And so he becomes incredibly awkward and even more annoying around Diesel

Asker (his friend he doesn't know is his friend) questions him about Diesel because they notice him being weird about him and they find out he likes him but they don't really care but one time they told Diesel that Melo is kind of a freak about him and then Chamelo punched them in the face (I drew it in [this post] except it's in inklish because I thought it was stupid it's sandwiched between a bunch of other drawings sorry. I still think it's funny though)

Umm yeah Chamelo is hopelessly in love and is quite scared about it because he's never felt actual romantic love before with another fish, only his scooter(bc. objectum...). He doesn't know how to deal with his feelings! It's like, a weird mix of hatred and yearning. So like. A hate-love. He wants to keep hating Diesel, he doesn't want to get attached to him but he already is..!! He feels like he's supposed to hate him, Chamy doesn't know what he even likes about Diesel. He wants to stop feeling like this but he doesn't want to at the same time, if that makes sense. He tries to tell himself it's a passing feeling or anything that isn't being in love.

He's scared of what could happen if they ever do end up together, that he might stop being in love and maybe it was just a passing feeling after all, and he's frustrated at the thought of Diesel never knowing about how he really feels. He doesn't know what to do about this, and most likely won't for a while. It's painful and overwhelming for him both physically and emotionally :'(

Diesel still I guess bullies Chamelo sometimes but that is just because he always does that and doesn't know anything about himself 🤣🤣😂😂AAAHHHH AAAAGHHH AHHHHHH AHHH AHHsorry. He is bisexual. He does not know that. He also shows up to work more because of Chamelo. But he also didn't realize that until they had a short one-sided conversation on Squidmas [see here].

Diesel is taking longer than Chamelo to realize he likes him, and honestly I cannot imagine a world where Diesel actually reciprocates feelings. I don't want to say he will but I don't want to say he won't. I don't know how to describe it. Something just happens I guess lol. I'll figure it out

Since then, they've been oh-so-painfully-slowly warming up to each other, still getting mad at one another, still yelling, still fighting, still absolutely Hating the other's existence...but hey...they're together more because they want to be.........AAAGHHHHHHH isn't fighting so intimate😍THEY HAVE TO STOPPPP sorry .Sorry. I'm really normal about their horrendously weird relationship that is taking Forever to get better. It's like slow-burn if you put it at 0.5x speed. Also I wouldn't call them enemies to lovers, they aren't exactly enemies nor are they lovers later That doesn't make sense but I wouldn't know how to explain it. Swagever.

At some point Sharlotte's car and a modded trizooka have to do with them (along with a couple older ocs of mine) but that doesn't really have anything to do with right now. A lot of my drawings of the two are out of order because I'm impatient lol. I want to try to not go through like. arcs? so quickly because 1. I fear the day I run out of ideas and 2. Everything has to end and I don't like the idea of finishing all of my splatoon's lives but luckily splatoon happens in real time so I have a lot of years to go if I'm That determined about my guys LOL Sorry unrelated

TL;DR Diesel and Chamelo's relationship is so complex and stupid it is almost entirely beyond my own comprehension. They hate each other so much that they want to be with each other.

Okay that's all I could think of. A Billion Thankies for asking me about them... Apologies if you didn't really need all of That for me to explain. I like to explain things ❤

#jfc. Sorry that is a ton of words i kept having to reread everything a million times if i got something wrong or missed anything well. #then i will die forever #It is currently 2 am this took me a While. Ok goodnight #ask #chamelo fláje #diesel fintasma

[thatdesklamp]

Hey! I hope you are doing well this week!!

I’ve become absolutely obsessed with Gojo’s POVs , I think the way you write him is so fascinating. I really like seeing how we get Hebi’s POV and then see Gojo’s reactions to what we read.

This will be so long, im so so sorry. Thank you for taking the time to read.

I just wanted to come in here and muse/ask questions about Gojo and his good ol’ thoughts.

My first question/musing is: When do you think Gojo actually started to realize that he had feelings for Hebi. I felt like he had feelings for Hebi before chapter 15 (2010), but it seemed as if he reacted to the idea of Hebi wanting to fall in love with two different reactions. The first one to me is that he’s offended that Hebi wouldnt ever tell him about any crushes she has had (why would she, shes had a crush on the same man since she was 14). To me, Gojo just felt super offended that Hebi keeps relationship stuff like that under-wraps. The second reaction is that he could finally(?) let himself have hope that him and Hebi could work out, that he isnt just yearning for something that isnt possible. Its like a confusing mix between the two, which I thought was super interesting.

Maybe I’m reading into Gojo’s actions wrong but I’m completely sure the shoulder injury moment where he’s just hovering over and healing her was NOT COMPLETELY INNOCENT. I also think the part during the beach vacation where Gojo is smiling at Hebi when she has her gloves removed also romantically coded. I’m just so intrigued in what Gojo is thinking because Im so sure Hebi is completely in her own head 24/7 and doesnt even register some moments.

He’s so interesting to see through Hebi’s eyes, you did such a great job with him as a character.

Feel free not to answer this one since its slightly more NSFW and about chapter 17 (im just super curious). I will not be too explicit in my wording so sorry if its worded weirdly?

I’m curious if Gojo has ever thought about Hebi while he’s doing the act like Hebi did in chapter 17 (2012). Hebi seems to be doing it casually and she doesnt even care about the thing that shes doing, but I wonder if Gojo has done it. In chapter 16, it seems like he was super focused in on Hebi despite him having a girl who has been paying attention to him (assumingely kissing him, etc). Does Gojo try and not think about Hebi that way, does he even realize that she may feel the same towards him and he’s resisting because of what he did to her when they were 15? I’m more on the inbetween of the two ideas I presented. I think Gojo really, really cares for her romantically but absolutely refuses that she feels the same because of everything that he did to her, how he broke her trust. It feels as if he’s punishing himself for his past actions. Maybe Hebi is a little obvious with her unforgiving nature she has with that incident.

I’m just so curious these two characters seem so intune and out of tune with each other and they keep missing each other on important feelings and thoughts

What happens in chapter 17 seems like Hebi is disassociating too, that shes not even there. I just feel so bad for everyone in that chapter, its so horrifying. I do hope that Hebi and her boyfriend get outta that relationship next chapter because Im sure both of them can tell it isnt working out.

thank you again for reading, you crafted such an amazing story.

Ok so here’s the thing—in my head I definitely know when I think Gojo started having feelings for Hebi, as it’s when I started writing him as having feelings for her. But idk, I’ve always been more reluctant to spell it out so explicitly, as the author, because I love the ambiguity that comes from only having one POV and I also love hearing other people’s theories and ideas. Seeing the different ways things have been interpreted is honestly one of the best things about writing for ao3 and I’ve always been so hesitant to squash that by putting in my own opinion?

And so I guess this is all one big disclaimer: just because I say stuff on the side like this, it doesn’t really make it ‘canon’ or any more worthwhile than your own interpretations? I’m such a huge advocate for ‘death of the author’ (more detail in the link below if you’re interested), that basically says the reader’s interpretation trumps the author’s intention all the time, no matter what.

Sure, I might have started writing him as being in love with her since 2006 (I didn’t, btw). However, if I didn’t convey that well enough, or if you can find enough evidence or ‘vibes’ that would disprove that, and indicate something else, then you fucking go for it. That’s your canon.

I hope that makes sense. Tl;dr, listen to me if you’d like and if you’re interested in my intentions, but don’t listen to me/don’t pay attention if you think it’ll sour your own interpretation, or if you think I’m the ultimate god on any of this. (I’m not, no matter what Ian McEwan in ‘Atonement’ tries to say—“how can a novelist reach atonement when, with her absolute power of deciding outcomes, she is also God?” blah blah blah whatever, if you haven’t heard already this is an Ian McEwan hate page)

ANYWAY. On to the actual fanfic discussion LOL. The English lit girlie in me takes over sometimes, sorry.

My actual intentions, revealed!! I’ve discussed it in comments, more ambiguously than now, but one of the big debates around Gojo’s feelings seems to be his revelation in 2010. It’s for sure some huge realisation (I think that’s pretty evident), but some people were saying how he’s clearly only just realised his feelings, and some were saying that he’s only realised the depth of them.

For me, it was the latter. I thought of it as the way I thought of Hebi’s own realisations; she actually has two, one in 2001, when she figures out that she likes him in this far-off, confusing way (“Something has changed, in the way you see him, and you realise you can no longer try to pretend it hasn’t.” -> nothing explicit verbalised, but it’s clear that she’s no longer thinking about him platonically), and then the traditional oh/on moment in 2004, where she realises she loves him. As in, love-love, Loves him.

I always figured Gojo went through something similar, which I thought was pretty cute of him, lol. For me, 2010 was his ‘oh/oh’ moment; he’s known, sure, but he’s been denying it, or he’s been explaining it some other way, or he’s just not been thinking about it. But then he realises: he’s in big, fat, capital-L Love. And so he freaks.

This explains all of your other questions, I think! The shoulder incident when they’re at his house together? Not innocent whatsoever. As people pointed out, there was no reason for him to practically be on top of her, and not for him to be getting all flustered/blushy (self-indulgent, yes, but necessary) about it, either. And the beach episode! In my head, he defo had some degree of feelings for her at that point, too: there are a few (very vague and subtle) moments, really clearly tarred by Hebi’s pov, that I did write as the tiniest hints about his feelings. Very much, if you’re looking for them, maybe maybe they’ll appear, lmao.

Such as, when Hebi’s getting changed into a swimsuit and Gojo’s back is turned, she walks past him and doesn’t look back to check his reaction to her. It takes him a “moment” (in which she is “panicked”, yes) to actually follow her, leading her to think “he’s not following [her], like [she’s] walking off to the sea on [her] own”. It’s the subtlest, tiniest thing ever… but why does he wait? Why doesn’t he just follow her straight away? If I were to write his POV of the chapter, it would definitely be highlighting that split-second delay of the first time he sees her in anything skimpier than pyjamas (a two-piece, at that!), and of him absolutely not being able to function enough to follow her. Of course, it also would include him slapping a smile on and following, even if he does have to keep his “his eyes on the sea”, just to make sure he’s not getting too distracted.

Another few moments, in the same chapter: the “affectionate, but also slightly sad” look he gives her when she smiles at her bare hands (pining central here, folks), which I think is the moment you’re referring to. Or the moment when she puts on his glasses, gives him her best Gojo-impression wink, and his “mouth closes, and his eyebrows lower, slightly. He swallows.” I’ve written it enough (especially over here) that I think it’s pretty evident that he really, really likes seeing her in his clothes. It’s a thing.

Listen, I thought I was being pretty over-the-top with my earlier Gojo-pining moments, but I listened to the comments and realised I really, really wasn’t. I tried to make it a bit more obvious as we went along, but, hey! Reader interpretation trumps all!

I don’t know how many IW readers have read my other longish fic, ‘Soli Deo Gloria’? Haikyuu, childhood friends to lovers, soulmate au with worldbuilding and religious themes, all the fun stuff. I wrote it over a year ago, which shows, at some points, in the fic (lol), but for something I wrote a while ago I can’t say I’m not pretty proud of it. Anyway, it’s written from the perspective of someone in love with his best friend, who also goes on lots of dates and never stays single, ever, and I think that mentality could definitely be applied to Gojo in this fic. I can go more in detail if people would be interested, but I think that could assuage some people’s doubts, if they think that just because he sees other women, it means he can’t also be pining away hardcore.

And then also what you mean about your ‘NSFW-related’ question (also, I’m an adult! I appreciate the care, but I’m chill and good with ff-related NSFW content and questions). I think if, pre-2011, Gojo had any thought that Hebi liked him back, he would be confessing and asking her about it asap. He’s not the type of person to let things go stagnant without acting on it; she’s much more of a passive character than he is, I’ve always thought. And yeah, I think that post-first feelings realisation, and definitely post-second, he would have thought about her the exact same way she thinks about him. Hebi’s relationship with sex is pretty awful up to this point (as you’ve said, with her apathy and disconnection towards her life, esp. towards the end of the latest chapter), and it’s something I’m going to give due attention to when it’s needed, and Gojo’s doesn’t have her same issues with physical intimacy, so it’d be certainly different; but I can see him seeking out sex as a substitute for the intimacy he’d be wanting and lacking with her.

This is a big fuckoff paragraph and I’m sorry if you were expecting something more concise! Unfortunately I am a narcissist at heart and so will always rant on about my own fics whenever I’m given the opportunity to, lol. Thank you for the ask, and I’m glad you’ve been enjoying IW!!

#intrinsic warmth #yes I’m a woman in STEM but I did eng lit a level and I’m not letting you guys forget it

[call-me-cosmic]

Whats the magic system like in fallen magic? :0

OOH GOOD QUESTION!

Ok don't judge me but... This is actually something I'm still struggling to figure out for sure... PLEASE offer some suggestions! I want magic that can be used fast for fighting, etc. Here's what I have so far:

Runes are used a LOT as a form of magic. You carve a series of runes onto, say, a rock, and BOOM– Now it has mild protective properties. For example, my character, John, has a pair of knuckledusters that have runes carved along it. These runes make John's punches more powerful and allow him to preserve more of his energy so that he can fight longer without wearing himself out. Another example is Adler, who has runes tattooed along his arm which help increase his speed and agility slightly.

Runes can also be used as traps. We see Rune Traps laid out all around Josep and Adler's property. When John, Blake, and Nathan (the Main Trio in the book) accidentally step on these runes, they activate the spell and become trapped in bubbles that shrink the more you move.

I also thought about having Runes be a language– where there are whole books written in rune. Idk if I'll do that though. What do you think?

I do have a few spell ideas that I wanted certain characters to have. John, for instance, has a few fire spells, and Josep has a spell that allows him to manipulate and travel through shadows. However, I don't think I want my characters to be limited to only one type of element. For example, I don't want John to ONLY have fire magic, Josep to ONLY have shadow magic, Nathan to ONLY have wind magic, etc. I need to figure out exactly how spells are carried out and how they're practiced.

I know that I don't want my characters to use wands. Maybe they have to SAY a spell for it to work? Idk. I've thought about expanding using runes for magic, but I'm not sure how it would work. How do you use runes quickly in the heat of battle to cast spells in rapid succession? How do you remember what combination of runes do what? The runes work for small spells and such, but I'm not sure how they'd work beyond that. If you have ideas PLEASE SHARE because I've been struggling lol!

(Example of John's knuckle dusters, except instead of crosses, his has different runes on each knuckle)

Also, there is a lot of "mundane magic", like certain tea blends having certain magical effects, or types of houseplants with magical properties, etc. There are also things that aren't STRICTLY magical, but rather are more superstitions ("Oh, a moss stone, those are good luck!" / "We were going to travel to Rye, but a snake crossed our path. We know a warning when we see one! We'll go next week.")

#fallen magic #magic system #worldbuilding #help lol #writing #ask

[fandomsfan1]

So, remember this post from a couple months ago?

Well, I finally wrote the fanfic, and I'm thinking about making it a longer story, let me know what you think of this first chapter and maybe I will.

Also, I apologize in advance for something I wrote in the fanfic.

This fanfic includes: Raeda, fluff, hurt/comfort, possible OOC, but only barely.

On the DOU, right after the Collector moved the moon. 

Eda looked around and saw that there were quite a few witches moving around, almost as if a tyrant hadn't just attempted a mass genocide on them all. 

  Eda looked over at the coven heads to see if any of them were moving. None of them were awake. 

  Eda looked down at Raine and started to gently shake them awake with her arm and 1/2.

  "Rainestorm? Rainestorm, please wake up!" Eda shouted, trying and failing not to cry. "I love you. I love you so much." Eda whispered, hugging Raine, holding them close. Little did she know, Raine had just woken up.

  "Eda?" Raine called out.

  "Rainstorm! You're okay!" Eda shouted.

  "Yeah, I'm ok," Raine started, "and I love you too, Calamity." They said, cupping Eda's face. Suddenly, there was a loud "WEH" from the Titan's head. Eda looked over, horrified and saw a small figure floating towards another, bigger figure. Not wasting any time, she turned into her harpy form, put Raine on her back, and flew to the Titan's head before they could ask any questions. 

  On the way to the Titan's head, Eda was sure she felt Raine touch and pet her wings a few times, but she tried to ignore it. She made a mental note to ask and/or tease them about it later, though. 

           Timeskip because idk what to write.

  King fell asleep in Raine's lap, and they didn't know what to do, so they asked Eda for help. Just then, a boiling rainstorm started.

  Eda chuckled and said, "Looks like you're stuck here for the night, Rainstorm." She then took King from their lap and put him in his room, making sure he had a blanket, pillow and his plushie with him before walking back down to the living room and sitting next to Raine. Eda leaned on their shoulder. Raine wrapped their arm around Eda's waist.

  "So, when we were on our way to get King, I thought I felt you pet my wings. Were you?" Eda asked, blushing slightly. 

  "Uh, yeah, sorry." Raine responded, completely flustered. "I just wondered what your wings felt like and decided to pet them, and they were super soft so I kept doing it, but I'll never do it again if you don't want me to." 

  "No, it's fine. I don't mind it. I just thought I felt you petting my wings and wanted to ask if you were." Eda said. "It actually felt...kind of nice." She said, mostly because it was true, but partly to ease Raine's mind a bit more. 

  "Are you sure?" Raine asked, now a lot calmer, but still a little worried. They wrapped their other arm around Eda's waist and gently pulled her onto their lap and kissed her forehead.

  "Yeah, I'm sure." She said, as her face went red with embarrassment. Raine, noticing this, decided to tease her a little.

  "Aaaw, are you embarrassed, Calamity?" They said, making it obvious to Eda that they were teasing her. Eda blushed a little more, and nodded slightly, signaling to them that she doesn't mind the teasing.

  "That's so cute of you." Raine quietly squealed  and kissed her again, this time on the lips. 

  Timeskip because idk what to write again.

  Raine and Eda were cuddling in Eda's nest, they were both sleeping. Until the door creaked open. Raine awoke to this, and looked over towards the door and saw King standing there with his plushie. 

  "What happened, King?" They asked him, very quietly so they didn't accidentally wake Eda up.

  "I had a nightmare." King said, barely loud enough to hear as he hugged his plushie.

  (A/N:I keep writing 'his plushie' bc idk how to spell the plushies name.)

  "Do you want to talk about it?" Raine asked as King walked over to the nest. He shook his head as he climbed in. 

  Eda woke up, and saw King. "What happened, King?" Eda asked.

  "I had a nightmare. I don't want to talk about it, though." King responded. And without another word, Eda gently hugged King. Then, Raine wrapped their arms around Eda's waist.

  After a few minutes, King fell back asleep. "Ok, we need to work some things out." Eda said.

  "Hm? What do you mean?" Raine asked, clearly confused.

  "I'm sorry I lied to you about my curse. I was scared to open up about it after an incident where the owl beast hurt my dad. I was scared to tell you because I didn't want to hurt you, but I promise, I will never lie to you again." Eda apologized to them.

  "It's okay, I'm sorry, too. I lied to you at the coven day parade, I didn't want you to risk your life the way you did when we fought Darius and Eber. And, I also promise to you that I'll never lie to you again." Raine responded.

  Eda hugged them tightly, and they kissed her forehead. "I love you, Calamity." They said.

  "I love you too, Rainstorm." Eda whispered, and then kissed them on the lips. Eda then had an idea. She allowed her wings from her harpy form to activate and wrapped her wings around Raine.

  Raine gently pet her wings, and a few minutes later, Eda fell asleep. Raine kept petting Eda's wings until they fell asleep, too.

       Timeskip, at least 6 hours later.

  Raine woke up, and kissed Eda's forehead. She and King were still asleep. Eda snuggled closer to them in her sleep. Raine smiled at this, and fell back asleep. About half an hour later, Eda woke up, saw that Raine and King were still asleep, and just layed there in silence, enjoying the moment. 5 minutes later, Raine woke up again and started to gently pet Eda's wings again. "Good morning, Calamity." Raine said. "Moring Rainstorm." Eda responded, clearly still a little tired.

  "Still tired?" Raine asked.

  "Mhm, little bit." Eda responded.

  "Go back to sleep." Raine said.

  "M'kay." Eda said, then fell asleep.

  Raine hadn't realized that King was awake until he moved closer to them. "Thank you for taking care of m- Eda." He said.

  "It's no problem…did you almost call her 'mom'?" Raine asked him.

  "Yeah, I almost did." King said, seeming a little anxious about it. 

  "Why do you seem anxious about that?" Raine asked.

  "Because I'm worried about how she'll react to it." King said.

  "I'm sure she'd be okay with it." They reassured him. King still looked a little nervous, so Raine offered a hug, and King accepted.

  "Trust me, Eda wouldn't mind at all if you called her mom." Raine said reassuringly.

  "Okay, thank you." King said as he pulled away.

  "No problem, King." Raine said.

  Around an hour later, Eda woke up. King was asleep in Raine's lap, and Raine was petting Eda's wings again.

  "Aw, that's cute." Eda said, which startled Raine. They hadn't realized she woke up, and they had been lost in thought until Eda spoke. Despite this, they were still able to reply before Eda could apologize for startling them.

  "What, King sleeping in my lap, or me petting your wings again?" They asked, clearly trying to flirt.

  Eda blushed a bit and responded, "Both, also sorry for startling you."

  "It's alright, Calamity." Raine said, then kissed her forehead, making Eda blush a bit more.

#the owl house #raeda #eda #raine #eda clawthorne #raine whispers #toh raeda #raine x eda #eda x raine #fanfiction #toh fanfiction

[theviridianbunny]

Top 5 movies •̀.̫•́✧

AAH HIIIIII! OH MY GOSH THANK YOU FOR THE ASK!

like with my answer about Video games- answers will be under the cut because I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS FOR MY FAVE FILMS

ok these are in no particual order! not sure how coherently I can word but I will try my best!! this will be a long post- so you can find it under the cut!!! I have a lot to say about my fave viddy games (and i am not sorry~) but I am sorry for spelling errors- my brain can not keep up with my thoughts and i want to get everything down and everything goes to mush :////

this is going to be a long post because I have inculded photos and videos!!

The shape of water (2017)

when I tell people I like this film- i do worry a tiny bit people will be like "oh but isn't that the film where a lady gets spicy with a fish man?" and- ok yes that happens BUT THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO THE FILM. The film is magical and beautiful and oh so inspiring... the soundtrack- the colours- the characters- the story- UGH love love love <3

this is a film that is very very close to my heart <3

my fave score from the soundtrack is "underwater kiss"

I personally see The shape of water is a story about otherness and loneliness. Elisa, our leading lady is mute. Elisa's best friend, Zelda is a black woman. Giles, the next door neighbor is a gay man. The amphibian man is not human - all diffrent to the societal norm, what is seen as "normal" . the film being set in 60s america. Racism, homophiba being present ect. The film also raises question of "who is the real monster?" - the main villian of the film being a man who wants to disect the amphibian man- research it.

Most of the communication in the film is non verbal.  (elisa and amphibian man). Sally Hawkins (who plays Elisa) learnt ASL for the film!! As someone who is nurodivergent- I enjoy this type of communication. words are hard, speaking is hard sometimes.

@lady-of-the-spirit made a text post that sums up the feels perfectly!!

There is one scene in the film that reduces me to tears everytime I watch it. In the scene, Elisa is talking about the amphibian man, how she wants to recuse him. She signs out her fustations. she can not speak, but her body lanuguage is tense- her signing fast. She is close to tears. the line she signs saying " When he looks at me, the way he looks at me. He does not know what I lack or how I am incomplete. He sees me for what I am, as I am." oh my GOD I FELT THAT SO MUCH- because I too feel incomplete, like I lack things. I have linked the scene below. it is powerful and raw and it- it makes me feel

the cinematography in this film is utterly breathtaking. Everything has this green hue- greens and blues. The set designs are so charming too! Elisa's bathroom is so pretty- the tiled walls - the flooring- how everything is a soft colour !! below are a few shots I love~

2. the matrix (1999) (flashing image tw for the trailer!)

AH, the matrix, by beloved!!!!! This film altered my brain chemisty- little 15 year old bunny had her mind blown ... i could yell about this film for the longest time. I have yelled a little about this to my dear @imaginarycyberpunk2023 already !! (´｡• ᵕ •｡`)

CHARACTERS- CINEMATOGRAPHY- USE OF GREEN- THE DODGE THIS SCENE- COSTUME DESIGN. SOUNDTRACK- BELOVED KEANU!!!- CARRIE ANNE MOSS------ UGH I LOVE IT ALL seriously - this movie slaps and is such a source of inspo to me. Literally - idk where to begin, so I'm just gonna rammble and see where this goes.

There's specifically one scene in the film that is PURE SOUND ART - well its all art but HEAR ME OUT OK- the scene where neo ans trinity first meet at the night club- HOW THE MUSIC TRANSISTIONS SO SMOOTHLY FROM ROB ZOMBIE'S DRAGULA TO THE PRODIGY'S MINEFIELDS when trinity starts to talk- OH it gets me all hyped every god damn time!!! Provided the scene below. (((((Hopefully, it loads in properly. I've moved to mobile for this text writing - )))))

The matrix was probably my first proper "i like men" moment- I went and rewatched the matrix again when I was 17- at the time I was fulling affirmed in the "i am a lesbian i like women women PRETTY AAAAAAAAAA" but then- Seeing 90s Keanu?? him as neo- my brain going wait "oh.. uGHM UH-... myabe I am attracted to men as well...??" or maybe it was just?? an attraction to the character?? ANYWAY- 'M NOW JUST HERE - 23 AND VIBING- I STILL DON'T REALLY KNOW but that's ok!!

THE COSTUME DESIGN- IT IS SO DOPE. Below is my fave costume/outfit. The long heavy coat- the STRAPPY HARNESS PANTS AND OH THE BOOTS- THE BOOTS ARE STUNNING. How everything but the coat is sleek/slimlined to fit. so awe inspiring ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ • *✰

3. dune (2021)

I went to see in the dune on a whim- not thinking i would be a massive fan. A friend of mine had 2 for 1 cinema tickets and we thought wed go try dune. But oh my god this film- this film it made me feel so inspired, so in awe- . it is STUNNING- the cinematography- the soundtrack. The world building.

My favourite scene in the whole movie is when House atraides arrives on Arrakis. The soundtrack - the bagpipes and then the orchestra that comes in and hits you straight after gosh... It's so beautiful. May have cried a little seeing that scene for the first time- but they were tears of joy. Shivers down my spine. There is so much going on. How all the soldiers march - how the wind blows so heavily... how before the ship opens - the Duke atraides takes a hold of Lady Jessica's hand... so soft- so reassuring. Gurney reading a passage as the sand and dust blows- this scene gets me in the feels every time !!

Some of my fave costume design in this film would have to be for Jason Momoa's Character- Duncan Idaoh. (also this film was the first time i'd seen Jason Momoa without a beard WHAAAAT WOW!!) but like- the white shirt and trousers combo- how flowy the shirt is- the slight open colar- very romantic period drama vibes...BUT IN SPACE/SI-FI <3 ALSO HIS HAIR!!! HIS LONG HAIR- that he tied back. The shot on the right of him looking to the camera- taking his gloves of to fight- when I saw the film in the cinema I was screaming internally at how good thw shot looked. how pretty duncan looked- how the character is in focus- how there are layers of clothing- the still suit then layered with a scarf-shall. ugh iconic!

other costume designs I enjoyed were Lady jessica's dress/ beaded veil. Also Duke Leto's armor. both costumes have a very art/sculptural feel to them. Also the duke's armor gave me BIG metal gear vibes.... maybe that's just because I know one day Oscar Isaac will play solid snake >:)

4.star wars episode 2: attack of the clones (2002)

yes the movie gets 100% shat on and ripped to part and memed to oblivion- but that's a reason i love it !! it's sooo cheesy- but such a comfort film.

Bunny, are you're feeling sad? go stick on attack of the clones and watch anakin flirt poorly with padme <3

the number of times my irl bestie @withoutyouimsaskia has heard me quote anakin... is TO MANY- i'll just say to her "i dont like sand" and she knows where im going (thank you for always being a meme with me!! ily!!!)

no but honestly- this film is so lovely! the romantic tension between anakin and padme- ugh gets me every time !!! The piece of soundtrack "across the stars" is one of my all time fave Orchestra pieces EVER-

The costume design for Padme - So stunning- that yellow/gold dress she wears on naboo(?) - it reminds me of a gustav klimt painting ! All of Padme's outfits are so beautiful!! The flowy gown she wears at the lake whe she and anakin share a kiss- oh the colours in it- and the fabric looks so floaty and soft... the metal emelishment on the neck and on the arms are a lovely touch! So romantic.. like a pre raphaelite painting

I love this film enough that I went and bought the art book for it!! And I don't normally buy art books for films!!! the little excited yell I did when I saw there were the theater posters in the book as well! I do love the posters a lot!!

5. constantine (2005)

yes ANOTHER KEANU FILM- BUT HEAR ME OUT OK! THIS FILM IS SO- IT'S SO OF IT'S TIME BUT IT WORKS. iN THE WAY- in the way of- yes the cgi may be a bit off in areas in today's modern standards- but it works! the film is charming in that way. !!!

This is a film I only watched recently (within the last year) It was on uk netflix and I thought I would give it a go. I wish i'd tried it sooner because IT GOES SO HARD. (⸝⸝ᵕᴗᵕ⸝⸝)

fun fact: in my mid/late teens (uhh.. from 15 or 16 thru to 19??) I was a part of the superwholock fandom (...yes i know0 don;t look atME AAAA) but like- ugh this film this film!!! it made me remember all the joy supernatural gave me when I was younger!!! (may have gone back to watch some old spn faves bc of the film!!)

Tilda Swindon as the angel gabriel- ugh she she her HER!! the GENDER SHE GIVES ME. ʚ(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )ɞ

I went into the film 100% blind- only knowing keanu was in the film. The happy suprise I got when I heard a perfect circle's "passive"! (FLASHING IMAGE TW FOR THE MUSIC VIDEO!!)

THE SCENE WHERE PASSIVE PLAYS IS SO - UGH- IT AWOKE A FEELING WITHIN ME- AN URGE TO WRITE- TO CREATE- IT WAS SO INSPIRING. The scene itself is what? 1 min long but it just- it made me feel. The lighting - the demons constantine sees- so much going on- the overall vibes- 100% amazing !!

the romantic tension between constantine and Isabel throughout the film and then... towards the end of the film- the "will they kiss- wont they kiss?!" eeek!!!

"I'm Constantine, John Constantine, asshole!" OH THAT LINE- UGH MY HEART MY HEART!! THAT WHOLE SCENE HAS ME BY THE COLLAR ITS SO COOL- Ugh the idea of trapping the demon in the mirror! and as i said at the start- yes the cgi might not to be today's standards but IT WORKS- it's gritty and it just it works SO WELL

UH THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK!!!!

#the shape of water #the matrix #dune #constantine #star wars #attack of the clones #bunny writes stuff #bunny screams into the void #bunny's favourite film tag #asks

[a-big-mess-of-a-person]

This isn't important, don't bother reading, but I need to put this somewhere because I don't know what to do. Sorry for any spelling errors, I type fast and don't check most of the time, and my auto correct is like a 50/50.

I think I'm in love?? Like. With a person???? I don't know what to do??? Technically I've been in two relationships in the past, but I don't think 6th grade and fucking kindergarten count so I'm glossing over those.

I met this person in VR almost a year ago (maybe a little over a year, idk) and we played for a bit and then got off for the day. Oh, they use he/they pronouns btw. We played the next day and then they went offline forever like those "'see you tomorrow' *last seen online 5 years ago*" memes. Little did I know that he lost the charger to their headset so they couldn't play. 6-7 weeks ago they were online again and I asked if I could join them, he said yes. We played nearly every day for around 2 hours for about two weeks after that. For the longest time they were mic-less because their mic didn't work in the game we met in (and at the time the only game we played together). But then about 2 weeks into playing literally hours everyday, he invites me to a call and we talked for like, four fucking hours. After that we missed a few days because I was traveling and so was he, then we started playing four like, 4 hours after that, like, I didn't want to just let my headset die. I wanted to play with them more, which is so unusual for me because i get socially worn down so fast. But not with him. After 4, hours I just get a little motion sick and dizzy so I really gotta go. So fast forward a week or so, I get really busy and so does he, we stopped playing for nearly a week until I messaged him today. Asked if he could play, they could, we played for another 4 hours.

During this entire time, I am thinking about them. Every little thing makes me think about them. And I realized I had a crush. During the recent week where we stopped playing, I was still thinking about him. Wondering if he was ok, wondering if I upset him, just, thinking what seems like nonstop about them. After today I still totally have a crush on them. We just talk so well and we bounce off each other so well. (Oh also by now we know each other's names, he knows what state I live in and I know roughly where they live)

I don't know what to do. I don't know what love is supposed to feel like. I don't have ANY actual fucking experience with relationships at fucking 15. And it's not even like, sexual, I'm ace, so that's not something I'm worried about, but. I don't know what to do, how to act, what to say. He's the reason I'm questioning my entire sexuality. I was fine with just being gay, but nope. He walks into my life. Oh and I know he's single, we were actually talking about his crazy fucking ex who practically stakes him.

I don't know what to do. It feels like sometimes he's just trying to make sure I'm happy without worrying about what he thinks and I don't want him to do that. It's sweet but I really try to let them know that I don't mind what we do and I just like hanging out with them. He's so sweet and our relationship is not like any other relationship I have. With all of my friends I'm the over protective parent like figure. I would drop anything for them, but I know some of them wouldn't do it back. With him, it feels like he would be the one to drop shit for me, and I would obviously do it back, but I don't have that. I think I have one friend who would do that and we joke about dating too much to actually ever date. I feel safe. I don't really have that with any other relationships with people my age. He's so different from my other friends. And I love it. But I don't know what to do. I don't know if this is how I'm supposed to feel, or if it's a different feeling and I'm just mistaken or anything. I don't know what to do in a relationship. I don't know how our relationship would be any different from us just being friends.

And I have no fucking clue if they even like me back. The only other people we have been in a call with is one of his VR homies (as I call it), and this girl we played with who they knew. He didn't seem to like her, or treat her like he treats me. BUT I DON'T KNOW. I feel so confused. I don't know how or what to feel. I know I felt jealous with the other girl being there (I haven't told him(or anyone besides my mother and Internet people) that I go by any/all pronouns and I don't think they would mind). I know he plays with me more than anyone else, most of the time he's online is when we are playing together. What does love feel like? Is this it? I'm ok with that. He is the only person I have imagined a future with. I have never seen myself with a future with anyone I have had a crush on. But I do with him.

And they are so different from all my other crushes. Looking back all of them were people I found cute and/or funny and I wanted to help and protect them. I didn't want to love them, I wanted to make them feel loved. Those are very different. All of my past crushes are people I've wanted to protect. Whenever we set up a time to play together I get excited. I don't get that with other people, I don't like social interaction. I look forward to playing with them. I want to be with them. I want to be around them. I trust them fully. I would put my life into their hands and not worry. (Not that I would put that pressure on a loved one) I can't say those things about anyone else. But I don't want to fuck shit up. If I say anything and they don't feel the same they could remove me from their life SO easily. We play VR together, he could just block me. I don't think he would, but he could, and I would bawl.

If anyone actually reads this, first off, what? Why? I mean thank you?? Idk, but if you did, and can, please give me any advice on what the fuck love feels like.

I don't..

I mean-

I'm confused. I don't know what to do, or what this is. But it feels right? I was thinking this entire week, "am I going to give up putting effort into this? Am I letting this person go?" I decided not to. I decided I'm trying this. Let's see how it goes. I don't know anything. I only know that I want to spend as much of my time with this person as possible. I don't want them to not be with me. That was a purposeful double negative.

I've always thought I would end up alone. All of my past crushes have been short and sweet, nothing happened, and I couldn't see myself with them forever. But I don't want to be alone. I don't want for it to just be me and my dogs. I want someone. And I don't need to be alone. I can end up happy. Right?

I don't know. Whether anything ends up happening with us, I am so grateful that I met them. Because of them I have felt safer realizing that I don't have to be cis because I don't want to confuse others, and I don't have to put a label on my sexuality. I can just like who I like. Ok I'm gonna wrap this up, they actually just messaged me asking if i want to play and ofc I do lol. If you read this, thanks. I needed someone to hear it.

#what should love feel like?