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island-in-the-shadows · 2 months
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Me here realising that Oliver was born 9 months after Felix. You know, 9 months...as if he had been made and born for Felix. Because he just never existed in a world without Felix...until his 20th birthday.
You know...girly things that make you want to die.
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eff-plays · 5 months
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Idk if this is a hot take of any kind but I actually really like that Astarion's romance starts off in an unhealthy way and evolves. That's like ... the point? Ya know?
It's interesting. It adds layers and conflict. It allows for growth and evolution. And Larian have claimed multiple times that it was on purpose, that many video game romances have sex as the culmination while here, some characters will fuck you immediately but then what? What happens after? Sex isn't the reward, but part of the relationship. There is more beyond. But people think that there being stuff beyond sex means that that's the only value that exists, and that the sex adds nothing. But in Astarion's case, it's extremely important?
It's complicated. His relationship with sex is complicated. They did it on purpose. That's the point. So what if it's not "uwu soft trust me I don't want sex please let's just hold hands" from the start? He doesn't trust the PC from the start, so why the fuck would he agree to that? He doesn't know them at all. He needs to do things his way because he's not ready for anything else yet. And if you feel sad for him, that's fine, because it's meant to be sad? But to the point of it becoming anger at the people who wrote it? That's weird, man. Astarion isn't real, you're not hurting a real person, and he literally asks Tav for it? In my case, he asks them twice before they say yes. They're not forcing him into anything. The only time you can force him is after the Araj scene, and he immediately breaks up with you after. So he's clearly perfectly capable of ending things if they get too toxic.
I swom to Jon just romance someone else at that point. Idk if this is my romance writer brain talking but well-written, not contrived, and non-abusive conflict is actually rare and sometimes difficult to write, but IMO every good romance needs conflict. Because at the end of the day, it's also a story?
It's not perfect because it's not meant to be. It's meant to be a starting point to evolve from. Sometimes things can be unhealthy without being abusive or problematic TM.
Anyway. Yeah I like how fucked up it is. Because Astarion is fucked up. It makes it more real and more compelling. I made my Tav fucked up to match.
"Well my Tav wouldn't fall for it and would realize ...!" Roleplay harder. Clearly Tav/Durge aren't meant to pick up on his manipulations from the start, or overlook them, or fall for them. There's a bajillion different ways to justify it. If you can't see past your own meta knowledge, romance someone else.
But if you really want the relationship to start without sex then just write that fic? Why are you demanding that Larian caters to your specific tastes and sensibilities? They had a story to tell and they told it. You not liking it is neither a personal a slight against you nor their problem.
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megamindsecretlair · 5 months
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In Need of Love
Pairing: Kane x Black!Fem!reader / Plus Size reader
Warnings: 18+, Minors DNI, You are in charge of your own reading experience. Intentional use of AAVE. Use of n-word. PIV, oral (fem receiving) cursing, hella dirty talk, Daddy kink, teasing, all consensual. Established relationship. Reader is pregnant. Mentions of abortion and non-inclusive language. No spoilers for the show.
Summary: A wonderful ask from @luvvforanimatedmen. What would happen if you confessed you were pregnant to Kane?
Word Count: 3,382k
A/N: So sorry this took forever, love! My brain don't be braining sometimes! Thanks for the ask and the support. Whew. Something about that man just gets me going. Please consider commenting and reblogging to help support writers! I block ageless blogs.
Taglist: @planetblaque @browngirldominion @dayjlovesromance @flydotty @eggnox @blackerthings @hopelessdisasterr @sevikasblackgf @wide-nose-and-wonderful @monaeesstuff @notapradagurl7 @lovedlover @darkskinchristiandiorpostergirl @slippinninque @henneseyhoe @amyhennessyhouse @miyuhpapayuh @theyscreamsannii
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You were not the type to pace, but here you were pacing the living room. Kane said he would be home soon and he rarely broke a promise. If he did, he always fixed it with his dick anyway. If only that man knew…
He thought he could solve all of your problems with a roll in the sheets. Truthfully, you started shit on purpose just for him to give you that look. That warning look. The look that told you that you had gone too far now and he would have to set you right.
You shivered as you paced. This was exactly how ya’ll ended up in this situation. You couldn’t bring yourself to blame him entirely. With everything going on, you didn’t think to pay attention to your period. The stress of the last few weeks had taken its toll on the both of you. 
You barely had chances to take some of that stress off of Kane. Quick rub and tucks, eating you out here, bustin’ one inside you there. When you confirmed earlier this morning with a test, you weren’t sure how to feel.
You stared at that damn test for possibly hours, as you worked through a gamut of emotions. Were you happy? Maybe? The good Lord knew that you and Kane didn’t have the best childhoods. Which Black people did these days? 
With everything going on involving the business, this wasn’t the best time to bring a child into this world. But the thought of getting rid of it without even telling Kane…you somehow couldn’t bring yourself to do it. Kane was always making decisions without you, but you knew he wouldn’t forgive you if you took this one out of his hands. 
You pictured having a son that looked just like his ass. And would probably get in just as much trouble. You feared for the type of world he’d be living in. If he would even see his twenty-first birthday. Hell, if Kane would live to see it too. 
Where the fuck was he? 
Kane’s slow steps approached the door. The turn of the lock finally halted your steps, turning to face the front door. 
“Hey, little mama,” he said.
If only he knew… Nerves bubbled in your stomach. A stomach now carrying a little boy or girl. Or was it too soon to think that? 
As Kane closed the door behind him, saying goodbye to his boys, your hands came around to hug your middle. There were too many mixed emotions about this and you were freaking the fuck out! 
Kane shuffled over to you and gave you a funny look. “What you standing in the middle of the floor for? Miss me that much?” He asked. He smirked and kissed your cheek. 
“I have something to tell you,” you said. You were too nervous to reach for more kisses like you usually did when he came home and you weren’t pissed about something. You swore. Kane was the only one who both raised your blood pressure and calmed it down. 
“Got anything to do with you leaving the house without someone to look after you?” He asked. 
“Who fuckin’ snitched?” You were gonna tear they little asses up. You couldn’t do shit without someone reporting it back to Kane. Like you were the fuckin’ child around here. 
Kane only smiled. He kissed your forehead and grabbed your hand, pulling you to come sit with him on the recliner. He liked making you sit on his lap, but you needed to see his face. Needed to gauge his reaction to the news. Were you hoping that he’d be happy? Sad? Pissed? If he were pissed, you’d kick his ass. It takes two to make a fuckin’ baby.
“You know that they work for me, right?” He asked.
You pulled yourself away from him. It was too tempting to sit on his lap and soak up some of his strength. Too tempting to get lost in the feel of his body.
“I can leave my house if I want to, Kane. Alone,” you said. 
He fluffled out the black sweatshirt he wore. His legs were spread wide and you forcefully dragged your eyes away from his crotch. Again, this was how you ended up in this situation.
“We already talked about that. There’s too much going on without me havin’ to worry about you being safe,” Kane said.
“I’ll be fine,” you said, dismissing him. You were a homebody on your best day. You left the house to go to work, maybe some partying with friends, but you were always right back in bed. People hardly knew Kane had a lady and that’s how he liked to keep it. 
“Baby–” 
You waved your hand. “Kane, stop,” you said.
“Come on, how would I feel if I let something happen to you?” 
“Shut up, Kane. Listen–” 
“The fuck is wrong now? What’s with the attitude?” Kane asked. He leaned back in his seat and tilted his head. He opened his mouth to continue off on some tangent about keeping you safe, no doubt. 
“I’m tryin’ to tell yo’ stupid ass that I’m pregnant!” You stomped your foot. Shit. This wasn’t how you pictured telling him. Nothing was ever easy with this nigga. He was the definition of an immovable force. He moved when he wanted to move. He spoke when he wanted to speak. And once he had an idea in his head…
You rubbed your forehead. An ache pulsed behind your right eye. You couldn’t bring yourself to look at his face now. You hadn’t intended to drop the bomb quite like that. Anyone would be shocked, angry, surprised–
Kane’s lips crashed into yours. You made an oomph sound as he wrapped his hands around your waist and pulled you closer. He was biting and nibbling on your bottom lip until you opened up for him. His tongue delved inside. Kissing you passionately, desperately. 
His hands traveled from your waist to your face. His rough fingers dragged along your skin, bare from your tank top, and your sweatpants. His massive hands squeezed your cheeks as he kissed you roughly. 
“Kane!” You somehow whispered between you. 
He opened his eyes and the love pouring out of him was a tangible thing. It wrapped around you like the softest, warmest blanket on the coldest night. “I’m gon’ be a daddy?” 
You bit your lip. Your face was still cradled in his hands. There was only a few inches of space between you. You nodded and his grin was infectious.
“You makin’ me a daddy?” He leaned back to look at your tummy. As if he could already see life growing there. It was no bigger than a peanut at this time, but from the look on his face, you were already the size of a mack truck. 
Kane slowly got to his knees. “Kane…”
He lifted your tank top and kissed your belly. Tears sprung to your eyes. You looked away from the tender look on his face. ‘Soft’ was never uttered in the same sentence as Kane. And yet, that’s how he looked. Completely smitten with the idea of his baby.
“I can’t wait to meet you,” he said.
“God…” Now you were really crying. Tears sprung from your eyes, the little traitorous bastards. You were expecting a lot of things. You had plenty of time today to think about his reactions. Happy was in there sure, but you never imagined this. 
“Don’t cry, little mama,” Kane whispered. He got back to his feet slowly. He brought your hands to his lips and kissed each of your knuckles. He pulled you closer, kissing both of your cheeks. He kissed both of your eyelids. “Mother to my child.” 
When he said it, it sounded magical. Whimsical. It sounded like you were an ordinary couple somewhere, where race didn’t matter, and you could be excited about raising a child together. No strings attached. 
“So…you’re not mad?” You asked slowly. It was right before your eyes, but you had a hard time trusting it. Believing it. You needed more confirmation. 
“Mad? This is the best news you could have ever given me.” His raspy voice was the balm you needed on your nerves. You melted against him, wrapping your arms around him. He hugged you back, holding on for dear life, and rocked you back and forth. 
He leaned back so he could kiss you again. His soft lips ignited something beneath your skin. His hands roamed your body once more as if he couldn’t decide where he wanted to grab you. 
Finally, his big hand came to rest on your belly. “My baby’s in there?” He asked. His quiet question was in danger of making you melt. 
“Yup,” you said with a nod. “Your child is in there.” You’d been feeling gross and heavy the past few weeks. You chalked it up to stress. The nausea was just something bad you ate. 
When you thought about it, you couldn’t remember your last period. You tried counting and then it dawned on you. Stupid. You went to the store without one of his little worker niggas following you around like a lost puppy. Some things women needed to do on their own.
Kane grinned but then it turned sinister right before your eyes. “What you lookin’ at me like that for?” 
“Come on,” he said. He grabbed your hand and pulled you deeper into the house. He marched towards your bedroom, forcing you to keep up with his long ass strides.
“Kane!” A laugh escaped you. It was hard keeping up with Kane sometimes. He was so damn unpredictable. To everyone else, he was some stone cold OG who still believed in rules and respect. He didn’t tolerate bullshit. Didn’t have time for it. With you, he was still an asshole, but at least he was a considerate one. 
“I want some twins,” he said. He stopped and pulled off his sweatshirt and t-shirt in one go. Your tank went next. 
You laughed at his enthusiasm. “Um, I’m pretty sure you know that’s not how it works,” you said. 
His eyes were fixated on your chest. He palmed your breasts, lifting them up, and testing their weight. His thumbs brushed over your nipples. You hissed. “Careful, they a little sensitive today,” you said.
“Yeah?” He licked his lips and watched you as his lips wrapped around your left nipple. Your back bowed as you moaned. The shits were sensitive as hell. His tongue flitted over your nipple. It somehow felt good? Like he was soothing the ache with his tongue. Damn him. Everything he did felt good. 
His fingers deftly worked on your sweatpants, releasing the tie, and shoving your pants down to your ankles. He walked you backwards, tripping over the fabric. “Kane!” You laughed and slapped at his shoulders. 
“You right. You carrying precious cargo now,” he said around your nipple.
“Corny ass,” you said. 
He chuckled as he bent down a bit to help disentangle your legs from your sweats. When you were completely naked, he pushed you down onto the bed. You groaned. You just washed these sheets.
“I’ll wash it,” he said when you told him.
“Yeah, aiight,” you said.
He grinned because he knew damn well that you were the one who was going to wash the sheets. You wouldn’t trust that mu’fucka at the laundromat to save his life. If he could point to where the soap went, your name was Susie. 
Kane stood over you. He rubbed your thighs, your knees, your calves, until spreading you open. Of course you were already wet for him. He looked at your glistening folds with a renewed hunger. 
“My baby,” he whispered. He climbed onto the bed and made you scoot up. Then, he settled in between your legs and licked your pussy.
“Kane!” You screamed. 
“Tasting so damn good. Who said you could?” He asked. He trapped your legs in the crook of his arms and spread you wider. 
Fuck, your pussy ached while he returned to eating you out. He swirled his tongue lazily around your clit. Fresh arousal gushed out of you. Kane hummed in satisfaction, bringing his fingers to your entrance and dipping a finger inside.
You bit your lip and moaned. A second finger entered you and you shivered. All the while, his tongue did devilish things to your pussy. With every swipe, he was pulling the orgasm out of you. The pace of his fingers increased. “Shit, shit, shit,” you moaned.
“Go on and give it up, little mama,” he said. 
Almost on command, your orgasm rocked you to the core. It was as if you had been tossed in the middle of the ocean during a storm. You didn’t know which way was up or down. You could only let it roll over you and pray for the best. Kane bit the inside of your thigh. 
“I can’t wait today,” he said. He climbed up your body, leaving wet kisses all over your skin. He left a trail of your arousal until he was lined up with you. He hadn’t even taken off his shorts yet.
He merely pushed them down far enough to free himself. No teasing. No preamble. He just dragged the tip of his dick along your slit, coating himself. Then he shoved inside on one hard push. 
“Fuck!” You managed to breathe around the size of him. All these years together, you were still amazed by his size. That all the sex you had didn’t completely mold you around him by now.  
Kane dropped his weight on you, sliding his rock hard body against your soft one. He dropped to his elbows to support his weight. He looked into your eyes while he began to rock himself. Sliding in and out on a gentle glide. 
You gasped for air as you felt every solid inch of his dick. Every vein rubbed against your fluttering walls. The head of his dick searched inside of you and you hoped it never found whatever it sought. You didn’t want this moment to end. 
Kane kissed your neck as he moved his hands to capture yours. Your fingers intertwined as he held you close. 
“You havin’ my baby,” he said. The grin returned. You stared into his beautiful brown eyes. Once more, tears sprang to your eyes. You hoped that this wasn’t going to be a side effect of having a kid. You were not a person who cried at the drop of a hat.
You stared at each other. Interspersed with kisses against your neck and cheek, Kane’s lips lingered on yours. 
“You’re going to be so beautiful carryin’ my child,” he said. 
You laughed. “You always call me beautiful.” You matched his soft tone. There was nothing but the two of you there. Encased in your own bubble, as close as two people could possibly be. He couldn’t get any closer, but he was for sure trying it as he seemed to go deeper with every stroke. 
“I mean that shit. You are the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. Sometimes I gotta catch myself from cheesin’ all day,” he said. 
You grinned and kissed him. You just loved the way his lips fit against yours. The way he slid easily within you. Literally made for each other. Forever. “I love you,” you said. 
“I love you,” Kane said. 
“Shit,” you moaned as an orgasm snuck up on you. It rose like a lone wave on a sandy shore, washing over you and taking you with it. The pleasure was insane. Unnameable. Still, Kane kept fucking you. Moving by some unseen force to stay buried inside of you. 
He dropped his head and groaned. Your pussy filled with his warm cum, mixing with your arousal and creating a giant mess beneath you. 
He kept moving. As if he wasn’t the one in control anymore. As if neither one of you were. You rose to meet his thrusts. You shared a moan as he seemed to sink deeper, hitting your G-spot and causing you to moan louder.
“Music to my fuckin’ ears,” he whispered in your ear. 
He targeted that spot, hitting it over and over. “Can’t wait to see you swollen with my baby. So fuckin’ gorgeous. I don’t know how I’ma keep my hands off of ya,” he said. 
Your thighs burned from shaking so badly. The spot he hit was buried so deep inside of you, you half wondered if he truly was trying to give you twins. 
“Mhm, glowing and shit with yo pretty ass,” he whispered in your ear. 
Your head flopped to the side. This was too much. Entirely too much. Another orgasm arose, stealing the remainder of your breath. Your eyes turned watery toward the ceiling. You shook as Kane talked you through it. 
“That’s it. Felt every bit of that one. Doin’ so good for me.” The rasp of his voice was like a vice grip around your heart. 
He leaned up, still pumping inside of you. He let go of one of your hands to wrap it around your throat and push your head up. Your hand gripped his wrist. 
“This gon’ be one of the last times I get to do this,” he said. 
“Nuh-uh,” you moaned, shaking your head. “You can choke me, Daddy.” 
You hissed as he slipped and shoved in deeper with a hard thrust. ‘Daddy’ took on an entirely new meaning now. He was going to be a daddy. A daddy to a life you created together in love. 
“Careful, girl. I almost nutted again,” he reprimanded you. 
You laughed. “That’s what I want…Daddy,” you moaned.
Kane lifted an eyebrow at you. He still had your head tilted back so that was really all you saw before his thrusts sped up. You squeezed his other hand as he fucked into you harder and harder.
The bed squeaked and groaned under your combined weight. Your pussy squelched as he unloaded inside of you. Like the thickest mac n’ cheese noises on Thanksgiving. He groaned as he came. 
A man possessed, he continued to pound your pussy. “One more, baby. One more,” he moaned as he continued to fuck you. 
“I c-c-can’t…” You whined. His hand moved down to roughly grab your titty and suckle it into his mouth. Your hand flew to his head, trying to push him off. Couldn’t he see that he was breaking you in half? 
The mix of sweet and sinful was too much for you to bear. Too much to contain in your body. It needed to be let out, away from you, no more. But your jaw was wired shut as you only continued to moan and rub his head. 
Your hand gripped the back of his neck as you came one more time, shaking with the effort. It was like you were being ripped apart from the inside out. That some great beast had split you open, scooped you out, and tossed the rest. You screamed with pleasure too big for you. Too much. 
You screamed for anyone to hear you. For his boys outside, the neighborhood, and the next one over. Kane rested his sweaty head against your chest as you twitched on the way down. He slipped out of you and you groaned from the loss of him. Cum slipped out after him. Well, it wasn’t like you could get pregnant twice.
He snuggled up next to you, dropping a leg over yours. He tucked you into his side, panting through kisses to your temple, cheek, lips. 
“My baby,” he said. You supposed that took on new meaning as well. 
You were both a sweaty and gross mess and you loved it. You snuggled into him and played with his stubble. 
“You gon’ be a daddy,” you said. You marveled at it. You allowed yourself to be happy about it. At a little version of him running around the house like a damn terror. Girl or boy, you just knew the mu’fucka was gonna come out like him. 
“You gon’ be a mama,” he said and kissed you. 
Yeah, you were gonna be a mama. Now that was a scary ass thought.
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sanriokamabodo · 10 months
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college!bf douma
A/N: im struggling w writers block + had a heavy day so i decided to write smth i conjured up instead of a request!i will be back in business soon my sweets!heehee<3 if y'all want a part two feel free to ask djdjd
CW's: hes kinda sleazy in the beginning, reader sucks at math. suggestive themes>:) douma is goth in my college au bc i said so. the day i proofread is the day i die!
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A psychology major with a minor in religious studies. Doesn't practice any religion himself but finds the subject interesting nevertheless.
Barely studies but somehow manages to pass with flying colours.
That one hookup you regret with all your might, let me elaborate;
Douma tutors math and it's no coincidence he slept with majority of the people he tutored.
No, you're not an exception. Cute try though!
Something about Douma's piercings, his choppy hair that he probably cut himself and his 'don't give a fuck' attitude managed to dissolve your IQ and last bit of self respect around him.
He knows how to give you just enough attention to keep you interested, but little enough for you to purposely screw up your math tests for an excuse to see him.
Yes, he mocked your intelligence by asking if rats ate your brain or whether you were just born this stupid, but the way he ruffled your hair as he fake-pouted at you made something bubble in your stomach.
It's no surprise you ended up with Douma in the men's restroom, a hand smacked tightly over your mouth that day.
You weren't allowed to ride the high of having hooked up with the hottest guy on campus for long.
Throughout the night you were bombarded with messages from your friends, all of them being about Douma. Why didn't you tell them? Was he good? ... Was he big?
You thought your heart was going to thump out of your chest. Sweaty hands refreshing the messages five, ten, twenty times.
This had to be a sick joke, right? Was this Douma's true nature?
About to throw your phone away in defeat, it vibrated once more. You didn't want to look but curiousity got the better of you.
[Douma, 11:06]: I think we need to talk.
Your chest thundered with anger at the message.
[Y/n, 11:07]: You think!?
[Douma, 11.07]: I know you don't owe me anything, but can we please meet somewhere?
[Y/n, 11.08]: I don't feel like showing my face today, thanks:)
We're you being dramatic? Maybe a little. But you were an introverted person. Being known by everyone on campus wasn't on your to-do list, and the reason why just made it that much worse.
[Douma, 11.08]: Text me your adress, I'm coming over.
[Y/n, 11.09]: No.
[Douma, 11.10]: Please, give me a chance to set things straight. I'll fix it, I promise.
You pondered for a moment. Fuck it, what's the worst that could happen? You texted him the address of your dorm and within an hour you heard a knock on your door.
Opening the door Douma stood on your doorstep, looking rather apologetic. You waved him inside, a thankful smile grazed his lips.
"I like what you did with the place."
"Shut up."
"Fair enough." He nodded.
"So..?"
"I did tell my friends we hooked up." He said, making you scoff. He threw his hands up defensively, before you could say anything.
"But! But! I didn't want them to tell everybody else..! They know I like you... a lot."
A small blush across up your cheeks at the sudden confession.
"You like me?"
Now you've done it, Douma started rambling.
"I get really fucking dumb about crushes. I wanted to text you all the time but I didn't want to come across as creepy. I thought we could just... hook up and I would forget about my stupid little crush and of course it just made me like you even more, because c'mon you're hot as fuck." He sighs pinching the bridge of his nose dramatically. "So what I'm trying to say here is that I would really like to make it up to you because I'm really fucking sorry and I would also really, really like to take you on a date and have a fresh start, please?" A shy smile painted his features.
You laughed. You were stupid if you were to deny him like this, especially considering you really liked him too.
"I'd love to go on a date with you."
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sun-stricken · 3 months
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Do you have any hcs abt the natsu, erza, gray trio?
I AM SO SORRY I HAD A BAD CASE OF WRITERS BLOCK AND MY BRAIN ISNT BRAINING, ITS KINDA BLAND BUT HERES UR LONG AWAITED LIST🙏🙏
* literally so fucking close, siblings im telling you
* they are a trio full of contradictions, cant assume anything with them
* they argue so much. all of them.
* Showing up at each others places with zero forewarning just to sleep or raid their fridge is an average night for them
* Its a common occurrence to see Erza walking calmly with them under her arms or over her shoulders
* Every new guild member with fail has a crush on one of them
* Natsu and Gray bring out the dumabass in Erza, according to her it’s contagious
* Natsu and Gray taught themselves morse code for the soul purpose of arguing when Erzas around
* Gray frequently blocks Natsu on every media platform he has, even email with no explanation for days
* Erza holds both Gray and Natsus ‘leashes’ and Gray holds Natsus and Natsu thinks hes free
* Theres never a dull moment with them
* “This is a safe space” *says literally anything* “This is no longer a safe space!”
* Erza is the designated bug killer between them
* They, as a trio, are black-listed from over half the establishments in Magnolia. individually or just two of them or with just one more person they’re completely fine. But not just them.
* Natsus the type to collect the most embarrassing photos of people and send them to his victims years later
* Erza genuinely had to sit down and stare at the wall for an hour after receiving one of these photos
* Natsu participates in cathartic screaming. Which means he lets out blood curdling screams at random times and scares the shit out of everyone around him
* Sent Erza and Gray into near panic attack the first time, now Gray joins in and Erza referees it like a competition
* Erza is a covert MENACE to them. Straight up psychological warfares on them
* Erza, whispering: you just lost the game
* Gray: im going to kill us both please just let me live—
* Gray knows random laws off the top of his head and will call the other two out for the stupidest ones
* sometimes he lies tho just to fuck with them
* They 100% share clothes and pack extra for each other while going on jobs
* Gray owns many hawaiian shirts and they definitely bully him for it but keep getting him more
* On many occasions, Erza has subtly instigated things that she knows would end up with Natsu and Gray fighting for her own entertainment
* They all have a constant need to prove people wrong and have issues with authority, they hate doing what people tell them to
* “try not to die” “fuck off no” “?? the hell you mean ‘no’????”
Golden retriever, Calico cat, and Black cat friends
yeah thats all i got for rn, but here are more quotes as a treat, free of charge!
Erza: Gray? What are you doing here? 
Gray, wearing a hawaiian shirt, sunglasses and holding a gatorade: My best.
Natsu: If you listen closely you can hear the sound of my brain sizzling 
Erza: Ah yes, the sweet melody of insanity 
Gray: Its just the wii music but sped up and off key
Erza: Do you guys ever have a civilized conversation that doesn't require insulting each other every time you get a chance? 
Natsu: No. 
Gray: No. 
Erza: Didn't think so.
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senualothbrok · 2 months
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You know what's great about fanfic? It's totally, unashamedly self-indulgent. You're not bound by the limitations of traditional fiction. You have a freedom that non-fanfic writers can only dream of.
Do you want to have a whole chapter revolving around a dinner date, with no clear purpose or relation to the plot, because you just want to imagine how your OC and protag would relate? Do it.
Do you want to put in stuff that you think is hilarious but you're not sure if anyone else notices or laughs? Do it. What's the worst that can happen?
Do you want to build a whole chapter around existentialist and absurdist philosophy in a fourth wall breaking, reverse isekai romance fic? No one is telling you you can't. There are no rules. Why not?
Your readers might not like it. You might get some WTFs over it. But do you want to write it? Then do it. Write whatever the fuck you want.
It's cathartic and freeing as fuck.
(I do have a sneaking suspicion that I will lose readers over this chapter but.... It makes sense in my brain, and I can't for the life of me imagine that Gale would not eat any and all knowledge up. I hope it makes sense to someone else, too, but if it doesn't then at least the brainworms are no longer worming!)
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pinkboxess · 3 months
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very long essay about ted lasso (the show) jesus fuck
sometimes I think Ted Lasso wanted really badly to subvert expectations and tell a "different type of story" and in many ways it worked fantastically and we got a truly incredible story, but other times it fell flat, because instead of the unexpected feeling refreshing, it just felt flabbergasting.
One of my absolute favourite things about the series is the way it handles forgiveness. The scene when Rebecca confesses to Ted about her scheme, Ted responds in a way that is just not what you would think would happen on any other television show. Typically in a situation like that there would be drama with Ted being angry and hurt and the writers would create a whole plot point about whether they can come back together again. But in Ted Lasso, Ted forgives her immediately, and we get this stunning representation of what it can look like to show someone grace. This surprised me, but it landed as a good surprise. It made me really happy and teary-eyed to see the scene progress the way it did.
But then there are the bits that fall flat because they feel entirely out of left field in a bad way. I'm thinking of Rebecca's Dutch Boat Man encounter-- which, for any real woman who has been alive a day on planet earth, would be utterly terrifying instead of romantic. She's literally with a stranger in his home with no phone or way of contacting anyone and she's dependent on him for dry clothes and food and things, and then he gets her drunk. The show wanted us to interpret that scene as a romcom moment, but I was just really confused the whole time, especially with the "did we..." "no" "but we did" line at the end. I knew that something like a random off-screen sexual assault didn't fit in with the tone of the show, but that's the first thing my brain thought of when he said that line, so it was just confusing to be like "no but that would be so insane to throw in like that and I don't think this show would do that based on what I know about it from prior episodes." I did eventually conclude that that is not what they meant to imply, but it's just an example of how off-kilter the whole thing made me feel.
Dutch Man just feels so random and last-minute. The storyline is incredibly underdeveloped for the person they want to be Rebecca's endgame. Rebecca deserved to end up with someone she knows and trusts and has had more than one interaction with, even if that person isn't Ted. Parachuting in a random guy just to serve a narrative purpose didn't do it for me.
And then, of course, Ted leaving. The scene in the bleachers is so devastating. It's out of character for the version of Ted who has gone through the events of season 2. And I feel pretty confident that the reason the writers did it that way is because they were so committed to wanting Ted Lasso to be a show where the couple doesn't get together and it's not as neat as that. And I do see and understand the reasoning behind that thinking-- it's always good to try to push the needle and make a different kind of art. It's always good to show the messy sides of humanity.
For me, it just landed awfully, because the show provided so much overwhelming textual evidence previously that they are deeply connected soulmates. For Ted to so cruelly dismiss Rebecca, to emotionally stonewall her like that-- it just hurt to see. It felt like it ignored everything that had previously been written about the two of them. And if the message of the show is that Ted has worked through his emotional problems, it sure didn't seem like that in 3x12. The stonewalling and guilt about his role as a father is exactly what season 1 Ted was like. If the writers wanted to show us a transformed Ted in 3x12, they didn't.
The ending of the show didn't make me think "wow that was complex and deep and that's what human life is like sometimes." It just made me think "what the fuck was everything that happened previously even there for if we are throwing it out the window in a contrived and unnatural way now."
Disclaimer that I love Ted Lasso. I'm criticizing something that I love with about 95% of my being, but there's just that other 5% that really dislikes some of the choices the writers made. Good thing we have fanfiction to fill in the gaps and end the story in more satisfying ways.
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msnihilist · 3 months
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"I dont support it in real life!"
Then why write about it? If for coping purposes, why post it online for others (especially actual predators) to see and consume? Then why portray those things in a positive light instead of condemning them?And you're seriously going to tell me that just because as an adult you want to see a fictional minor (that mind you, is usually designed to resemble an actual child) depicted in sexual situations doesn't mean you don't share that same view concerning children in real life? You find fictional minors attractive but not real ones? Why does the line between finding someone who is (and usually also looks like) a child sexually attractive get drawn at whether the child is real or not? I'm not calling anyone pedophiles, but if the shoe fits... And also no, I am not talking about 18 y/os finding 17 y/os attractive. Use your brain. Creating content of underaged characters is still questionable regardless of age, however.
Then why write about it?
I like to write dark topics because they provide interesting avenues down which to explore characters/people. Duh. Why does one character survive to the end of a slasher movie? Because the audience/writer enjoys seeing someone struggle and overcome obstacles.
Sex is thematically used for intimacy and vulnerability. Aren't You Sick of Sleeping Alone? features a child character "consenting" to have sex with a drunk adult, because I thought putting the characters through something like this and seeing how they'd react the morning after would be interesting. Whisper Your Love is about a victim of CSEM struggling to find sexual liberation — and failing! The Need To Be Loved is about heartbreak and the inherent beauty/pain of vulnerability. all flowers (in time) bend towards the sun is about me self-projecting my struggles with intimacy onto my comfort characters.
These fics feature underage sex and non-con. Here are some of the reviews:
"The most emotional smut I've ever read" — all flowers
"I ended up crying a couple times because of how close it hit to home" — all flowers
"I read this until late at night, burning with delight, then went to bed, slept for 3 hours, woke up at 5 in the morning in an incredibly brutal desire to READ THIS AGAIN. and I did it. everything here is so good, sensual and simply charming to tears." — all flowers
"i think my heart was ripped out of my chest" — NTBL
"Just all of it is so so good, so well-written, so captivating, so clever, so detailed. I love how tragically realistic his trauma is." — WYL
"I'm terrified of the next chapter but super excited- the deep dive with morality you did was so fascinating and you can REALLY tell how much thought you put into this work." — AYSOSA
"God, this was an experience. Hard to read sometimes just from the fact how this acknowledges how sick and fucked up the situation is." — AYSOSA
This is not "something that I support in real life," you fucknut. This is art.
And you have the nerve to ask me why? Why did the Greeks tell tales of Sisyphus?
If for coping purposes, why post it online for others (especially actual predators) to see and consume?
I am not writing any of this for coping purposes.
I post it online for those who ARE coping to find, and for others like me who have an interest in pushing characters to their absolute limits. Why does the Saw franchise have so many fans?
I don't know how to tell you this, but as long as it doesn't involve REAL children, it is absolutely zero of your business what "actual predators" may or may not get off to. Whether it's my fics, a flat-chested actress in a school girl outfit, or fantasies in their own heads, all of that is doing zero tangible harm. No one is getting hurt. Why should I care?
Then why portray those things in a positive light instead of condemning them?
Please find me a single one of my fics where the underage sex is supposed to be romantic or is portrayed as a good thing. I'll even help you out — here is a link to all of my fics tagged with underage sex. Take your time, anon. Go ahead. I will wait.
I'll spoil it for you — there is none. You know how I know that? Because by the very act of tagging my fics — adding that big, red exclamation point! — I am saying, "WARNING, THERE ARE BAD THINGS IN THIS STORY."
As for why I "write them in a positive light," uh, because it's not real? It makes for an interesting story? I'm trying to get off?? The author doesn't owe you or anyone an explanation.
My characters aren't turning to the camera and saying, "Wow, all of this underage sex was a great idea and everyone should do it without care for any consequences!"
If someone reads my fic and comes away with the idea that underage sex is good, then I think that says more about them and their absolutely EMPTY head than it does about me. Media literacy and analysis is taught for all twelve years of your public education, anon.
And you're seriously going to tell me that just because as an adult you want to see a fictional minor (that mind you, is usually designed to resemble an actual child) depicted in sexual situations doesn't mean you don't share that same view concerning children in real life?
"usually designed to resemble an actual child," is so funny, haha. I'm currently rewatching Phineas and Ferb in my downtime — I don't think actual children have triangle or sideways-T shaped heads.
Unlike you, I have no problem distinguishing, say, Ciel Phantomhive (exceptionally intelligent, cunning, ruthless, vengeful murderer) from a real-life sixth-grader (kind of loud, mostly annoying, learning algebra, probably shouldn't have caffeine).
Child characters are tools. For the sake of the story, they are smarter than actual children, more capable, able to problem-solve and generate significant conflict, etc. Child characters can argue when they're angry and explain themselves when they cry (real children feel angry and sad, too, but generally lack the emotional awareness to explain why they feel this way, let alone in a healthy, relationship-defining way).
Child characters are functionally the same as adult characters, just smaller. You know why, anon? Because they are not real and only exist as a vessel through which to tell a story.
Jesus Christ, your English teacher must be ashamed of you.
You find fictional minors attractive but not real ones? Why does the line between finding someone who is (and usually also looks like) a child sexually attractive get drawn at whether the child is real or not?
I don't find "fictional minors" attractive, actually. I find characters attractive. Their age is negligible. My favorite characters are my favs for their personality and their themes. I loved Ben Tennyson, for example, when he was ten, and when he was sixteen, and I love him when I write him in his twenties, and thirties. Age is just another part of the story to tell. (I can write about a teenager struggling to make time for their new relationship, and I can write about that same character as a thirty-year-old doing taxes.) It doesn't mean anything more.
As for why other people do... Because humans like things that are aesthetically pleasing, and a large part of character design is making the character appealing to look at. It's literally the exact same reason why people like sunsets or pretty buildings or dog-grooming videos.
I'm not calling anyone pedophiles, but if the shoe fits…
Anon, if you call people pedophiles over drawings, I'm going to rip your IP address from this brain-dead ask, find you, and shove that shoe up your ass so far that you'll have to open your mouth to tie the laces.
And also no, I am not talking about 18 y/os finding 17 y/os attractive. Use your brain.
I am using my brain. Are you?
Creating content of underaged characters is still questionable regardless of age, however.
No, it's not. Get over yourself and find a real problem to care about. There are wars going on in the world, anon. People are dying.
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katiexpunk · 15 days
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Going anon because I don’t want you to focus on who sent you this (although I’m sure something I’ll say might give me away <3), but rather, I want you to focus in on your amazing self.
Something I like to do in my daily practice is write down a few things of what made me most happy that day… but for purposes of this, I’d like you to tell me which fic (can be multiple) that you wrote makes you the most happy!
Ignore the notes, ignore the traction — which fic of yours makes you the most happy and warm and all the good feelings, and give an explanation (however long you want) as to why🩶
A lot of times, especially in a world like this where the internet and other’s creativity is so accessible, we forget to give our own selves the credit we deserve. This is my way of sprinkling around that little bit of gratitude.
I hope you have a beautiful day wherever you are.
Endless love🌙
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^ me to you right now. The positivity and love in this message are so lovely and much appreciated. Thank you, thank you, thank you for filling my inbox with love. Ily.
My favorite fic of mine is probably Desert Dust.
I wrote it shortly after getting married and was just in such a happy head space. It was probably the best time I had writing a fic. I hit the flow state so easily, and I 100% fell in love with both the reader and that version of Joel.
I don't really go back and read my fics (even though most of what I write is for myself), but I read that one regularly and it still just fills me with all the warm fuzzies.
Sex on Fire was a close second (but I have a uniform kink so that's probably why lol). Because this wouldn't be a gratitude post without sharing a little love, I also have immense appreciation for the following fics/creators: + @endlessthxxghts L is a gem of a human, probably one of the sweetest people I have ever had the pleasure to know, and pretty much everything they write makes me fall to pieces. I particularly love Breakfast.
+ @syd-djarin Sydney is literally my slutty smutty sister, and always goes toe to toe with me in the naughty thoughts department. Y'all should see some of our text messages. Sugar, Spice & Please Fuck Me Nice lives rent-free in my brain.
+ @auteurdelabre is not only such a kind soul, and incredibly talented, but completely rewrote my brain chemistry with their series Please, Mister Miller? Like I actually screamed into my phone practically every part. + @morallyinept Jett is the ray of sunshine we all need in our lives. Not only is she a talented writer, but she has one of the most comprehensive recs series I've seen on this platform. Every fic on her master is a work of perfection, but especially her Joel fics. + @atticrissfinch Wowwwwwieeeee, there is nothing that Katy writes that I won't immediately devour. Her Meet Me In the Back series has me feeling some type of way about sleazy Joel. + @javiscigarette Cami is an absolute sweetheart and a phenomenal writer. Her Teacher's Pet series is a work of art. @toxicanonymity wrecks me every time -- mind, body, soul. What I wouldn't give to just experience her genius brain for a day. Her Vampire Joel series makes my younger emo teen self so happy, and her raider!Joel series broke my brain in the best way possible. ...there are so many more, it would be impossible to list them all. But while I'm on the gratitude train, I want to show some love to some new-ish and upcoming writers in this fandom. Keep on writing babies! I'm so proud of you. @chulopascal @yxtkiwiyxt @bellamese @mermaidgirl30 @artsy-girl-76 @burntheedges @forthetears @hellowoolf @suzdin @miller-n-morgan
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I can't decide between 4, 6 or 7 which is the worse ron. Honestly can't. 6th year ron strings Hermione along knowing they like each other, but purposely goes for Lavender. Than gets annoyed with Lavender by the end, and instead of dumping her he says Hermione's name. All while getting annoyed with Hermione for going out with that Cormac guy. 4th year he gets jealous that Harry is in a life or death situation and abandons him, ruins Hermione's first dance and date. Used Hermione as a last resort for a date to the yule ball, and got annoyed with her when she already had a date and assumed no one asked her. Or 7th year, made promise to stick with Harry during Horcrux hunting but fucked off when it got too hard. Got jealous of Hermione and Harry, only liked Hermione as a sorta prize to be won to prove he was better than Harry, than came back like everything is ok with a bullshit apology.
Ron gets progressively worse the older he gets
He treats Hermione like shit from the beginning, when they become “friends” he always treats her as if her time and attention is owed to him, like she’s supposed to always be there. It starts small with “Hermione will always give me homework to copy” and progresses to “She’ll be available for the Ball when every other girl will reject me” and “She’ll wait for me to want her in a relationships” as he ages.
Also, Ron is the epitome of “weaponized incompetence” and it’s infuriating to me how many times he uses it to get Hermione to do smth for him/instead of him.
Ron is extremely jealous of EVERYONE around him. And this trait gets progressively worse with his age too. In book 1 he is envious of Harry’s new broom, but he’s still capable to be happy for him as well. By book 4 he looses all traces of empathy and compassion and is envious of smth Harry 1) clearly had nothing to do with and everyone with brain would be able to tell, 2) could literally result in his death and it was stated EXPLICITLY many times. But all he sees is “Harry is the center of attention again” and treats him like shit for it. Not once was Harry ever happy or seeking for any sort of fame or recognition, especially considering WHAT he’s famous for.
Also in Book 4 he’s angry and feeling betrayed by Hermione HAVING A GOOD TIME. He’s threatened by someone else being in her life at all, someone she clearly likes and interested in. Because how could it be, that she dares to spend time with anyone else! The traitor! Honestly, I would’ve punched him square in the face for the shit he poured on her at the Yule Ball.
I consider him “sticking with Harry” in book 5 to be 1) I just screwed up, I can’t again or this time it’ll be for good and I can’t manage on my own bcs I’m that useless, plus 2) it’s us against the world! Harry is finally on the other side of famous and it’s so cool. Maybe not entirely conscious on his part, but I do believe these were the reasons for him, similar as they were in Book 2
In book 6 he’s truly shown to grow into a misogynistic asshole. He slut shames his sister for kissing a boy (if I recall he started doing it in Book 5, bit in 6 he’s off the rails with it), he once again shames and guilts Hermione for being asked out by someone else, he uses Lavender to get back at her (Lavander deserved so much better from the narrative overall, but we already established that JKR hated women). And he treats Lavander like shit through all of it! Ronald Weasley is the asshole of a first boyfriend that you drag through mud with your girlfriends for years to come because he was THAT HORRIBLE
And then the ultimate abandonment in book 7… if the writer would be even slightly better, he wouldn’t have returned and these would be a good arc of “not all friendship survives the hardships, or even just time. Not all friends will be with you forever”. Which is an important message for young people, because everyone always believe that they’ll be best friends forever for the entire life but it so rarely works. And it’s normal, that it doesn’t. There doesn’t have to be a grand betrayal or falling out, sometimes your paths just lead you to very different places. Ron didn’t betray them in the sense that Peter betrayed the Marauders (which we still don’t have any real reason for by the way. She just wrote that it happened with NOTHING supporting it backing up that plot), he didn’t switch sides. He just left. Because while Harry and Hermione understood the reality and graveness of war and their situation, Ron still treated it as “an adventure”, he “played in war” if you will. Many like to claim that “it was all the horcrux that he was wearing! It made him feel this and say this!” - both Hermione and Harry wore it too. Even longer than Ron, who didn’t wear it while his wounds healed. The horcrux didn’t put these thoughts in his head, it played off of what was already there. Did it exhilarate and magnified it? Yes, of course. But it was all already in his mind before he ever put the locket on. All of these thoughts and tendencies could’ve been found throughout all other books. And that’s why I never bought into his return, it didn’t feel organic with the rest of the story. It made no sense. She put it there simply bcs she decided that “trio must remain” and that Hermione will end up with him, for some reason that is beyond my understanding
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wetcatspellcaster · 5 months
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Hi! Sorry to bother you again, I'm the one who asked you a while ago if it was okay to ask for some tips on writing dialogue. Thank you so much for your availability and time 🙇‍♀️ I'm mostly curious about how you structure your dialogues and how you manage to build chemistry between the characters through banter. Do you follow a particular set of rules or does it just come natural to you? You write so many ideas and cool dialogues, how do you manage to come up with so many? In general, if you have any tips for a fledgling "writer", they are super welcome. No pressure, of course, I really don't want to intrude/steal your time. P.s. I forgot last time to tell you that I also really loved your AU fic, Party Favours. I was hooked from the first lines and I had so much fun reading it. It was a really comforting and entertaining read, like drinking a hot chocolate in winter. Honestly, thank you so much for gifting us with such a warm and funny story. 🥰☕
Hey! Thank you for being so nice about my writing and the strengths you think I have - I didn't know I had them, so it was interesting to see my work from someone else's perspective.
And also don't worry, it's not a bother to answer this question. Although I'm not sure how helpful I'll be as I have no formal training and that might mean my explanations aren't useful!!
I'll try to answer as best I can :)
I don't really have rules for chemistry, I'll be honest, but my favourite dynamic (as is fucking obvious from many a fic I've written) is overconfident flirt/straight-laced practical killjoy. Luckily for me... there are a lot of these in media (Howl/Sophie, Tamaki/Haruhi, certain flavours of Buffy/Spike, Jude/Cardan from The Cruel Prince, Labyrinth fanfiction, whatever was going on with Emily Wilde's Encyclopedia of Faeries)! So I guess, if I was to give advice on that... I'd say if you really like a certain dynamic, go and look for examples of how they work elsewhere. Work out what it is about the pairing that makes your brain itch, or examine how these characteristic interactions play out, if there's any kind of formula to them - for instance, in Party Favours, the bit where Astarion is actively and overconfidently faking while talking to Threnn while Rose gets more and more flustered, was based partly on a fake relationship episode of Buffy lol. Like I didn't copy it word for word or anything, but it was an idea I saw elsewhere that I knew would be good for the pairing. .
Coming up with ideas... again, idk how idiosyncratic my process is. I maladaptive daydream a lot, and I really like scripting arguments (see above about what dynamics in fiction work for me, lmfao). i just love to hallucinate bickering, apparently. If I have any lines of dialogue that occur to me in any situation, I tend to put them into my notes app on my phone, to revisit later. If I have a scene with a particular purpose, I might look through my dialogue on my phone and try to find a series of quotes that work. Other times the maladaptive daydream for a few days might be the scene, and I'll write down any notes on what I want to happen and let it percolate for a few days before I actually write it. Sometimes pieces of dialogue will come to me before the scene does - Astarion's speech in chapter 7 of pieces happened before any of the rest of the fic, and then I was like "fuck. well. now i've got to get myself there." Mostly, this seems to just be a result of having these people live in my head rent free, but I'm also pretty autistic and so I script conversations a lot in social interactions anyway. .
Dialogue. I think dialogue comes naturally to me (see above comment about autism) and as such, I don't really follow any strict rules, I'm afraid... but these are some things I do formally try to do-
If a person is talking at someone (again, see how much I fucking love writing people bickering), you need to make sure it's not just a wall of text. Adding in paragraph breaks, even if it's a monologue, is kind of essential (speaking as someone who did not do this in the beginning, and it shows, particularly when you're reading my earlier fic on mobile rather than desktop). Often I will break it up with a one sentence interjection, a false start from the other person trying to get a word in edgeways, or a stage direction. I had a problem with one pairing I wrote for where one of the characters just would never speak... I needed to engineer lines for him to say even if it was completely superfluous. Sometimes, now I look at my writing, I feel like these are obviously fake and unnecessary... but they help break up the text and give the reader pauses. So they must be helpful, even if they're kind of just... there. it makes the dialogue a dialogue, with two people involved and reacting to each other. -
Similarly, speeding stuff up can be useful when creating banter, to keep pace and avoid people monologuing at each other. The key ways I tend to speed stuff up is usually a) characters finishing each other's sentences (derogatory or affectionate), b) interrupting each other (you'll notice my repeated 'Astarion-' is often used to get Astarion to just talk quicker and at more length and in more detail until Rose loses her goddamn mind), c) quicker back and forth where you don't need dialogue tags or stage directions bc characteristic voices will make it clear who is speaking. -
I read everything aloud as I post. This is how I proofread. Reading aloud helps me find spelling errors/sentence errors, but it also means that I have to speak all my dialogue aloud to my own wall like a crazy person. If I'm speaking it aloud in a different way, like the phrasing changes subconsciously to what's more natural in my mouth, I will often edit the dialogue to reflect that. I speak it, to see how it is spoken. -
Second to the above point, if you have a character who's voice you struggle with, listen/watch clips of their voice. I do not think I can write Lae'zel (or Gale tbh, and I'm now writing a whole fic from his pov so I clearly hate myself). I watch back clips of them all the time, and then I go to my dialogue, and see if I can hear it in their voice. If I can, I keep it. -
...Be brave enough to tell jokes. I genuinely can't tell you how much I don't think I'm funny. Every joke I write in my fic, I have no idea if anyone else will enjoy it, or if it only makes me laugh. But I put it in there, for me. I'm lucky, bc now some people tell me they found a joke amusing, and I'll know it landed with someone else other than me. But you tell jokes with your friends, presumably, and you're playful with them. So allow your characters to joke with each other, even if you're scared that no one else will 'get it'. If no one else finds it funny, at least the characters are having fun! -
Anyway, those are my main 'tips', I don't know if any of them are helpful!!
My other one main piece of advice is... read. Seriously. Even if the media you want to write for isn't a literary novel, read other people's writing, and I do mean both fic and published books, because published books (if they're good) have an editor. I read a lot of books/webtoons/manga before I ever wrote a fic... like for 12 years or something. I was a big reader, and reading good writing is useful - it's inspiring, it's also just technically helpful. These writing tips might be useless, because lot of what I've done in my own writing I've learned through osmosis - just by reading a fuck tonne of books, good and bad. I'm not saying you have to read 60 books a year or w/e, but read like, a few good books!
(also, just write a bunch. I am only becoming a 'read' fic author on my 11th project??? basically??? so I've had a lot of practice at this point, and grown in confidence. The more things you finish, the more ambitious you get. I couldn't have conceived of Pieces when I was writing my first fanfic, bc I thought plot was my main weakness... now I'm writing an almost entirely original premise and that's bc I've learned a lot since I started writing!)
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rosekasa · 2 months
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hi anon!!!!
writers' truth & dare asks
🥑 ⇢ you accidentally killed somebody, which mutual(s) do you text for help?
immediately my best friend @renwatchesanime ahdjsja. they would bring out their apple pen and notability and our criminal law textbook
i think id also text @jattendschaton for emotional support because i feel like bren is the person ive sent so many vns to like 'am i bad person for this?? i feel like a bad person' and bren is very good at either reassuring me im not a bad person or honestly saying 'what you did wasnt ideal but i love you and understand you and you'll be fine'
🐝 ⇢ tag your biggest supporter(s) and say one nice thing about them
BUTTTTT I HAVE SO MANY 🥺🥺🥺 IM BLESSED WITH SO MANY PEOPLE ANON!!!
@mozzygan : morgan my beloved: someone who never lets anyone feel forgotten! it's such a wonderful trait to remember people the way she does, especially when she does so many awesome things day to day already!! i feel like someone's priorities say a lot about them as a person and this is so true with morgan
@asukiess : autumn my beloved, she's always cheering me on 🥺 she is such a beautiful person in terms of literally everything -- personality, appearance, her brain, her creations -- and it feels like she is so Fully beautiful that just being around her makes you feel beautiful too
@ladyofthenoodle : noodles has known me since i was sixteen and has always felt like someone i know would stand by me regardless of how active i was in the fandom. i think the thing about noodles that has always inspired me is just the insane level of dedication she has to things in her life -- her work, her fics, her friendships, everything. to me she is someone extremely purposeful and very admirable!!
@jattendschaton : brenu has also known me since i was a baby and she has made me feel so loved and safe in her presence, even back when i didnt really believe i deserved it. bren has such a loving soul and i think it really shows in everything they do. their writing, their art, their tags on reblogs, and ESPECIALLY in conversations, you can tell that they are extremely full of love. talking to them feels like getting a hug. you can't NOT feel secure with them, even if you don't feel secure in yourself.
@hakucho-art : mika is my opposite in the ways that are so important to me. she is all the ambition and fire and fierce steadfastness to get what she wants that i lacked before i met her, and the best part is it's so natural to her that she doesn't even do it consciously. she is the person i turn to when i need to be reminded to stop thinking so much about what's the right thing to do and instead just do the thing and figure out what's right later. they are so amazing in every way and literally a case study on how to be naturally successful
@renwatchesanime : ren is my best friend and is quite literally always there for me. like, i never feel like im ever in an unescapable bind bc i know ren will somehow help me out. my fav thing about ren since forever has always been their brain. they're so fucking smart that i was jealous of them before we became friends. their thinking patterns feel like they catch all the things mine miss, and they're so insanely good at connecting information together and making it make sense. they're quite frankly an absolute genius and they dont give themselves enough credit for it.
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So I have been writing something on the mahabharata and thought to go through some of the popular media versions for inspiration.
[Instant regret intensifies]
I mean sometimes versions of the same thing might inspire you to do something different, I guess. I mean that was my logic but...hoooo mannn.. these are not different interpretations of the epic, these are like the Adipurush script writers had sold whatever they were smoking to the makers of all the tv versions.
I need brain bleach for atleast ninety percent of them.
I'll tell you what my opinions are (I just need to rant, please bear with me)
The StarPlus Mahabharata:
The Good:
Everyone (almost) looks good. Like casting was top notch. Eye candies walking around. The dialogues were pretty good. Some of their creative liberties hit the spot. It was the nicest version made tbf. And also, the best damned decision, SRJ as Krishna. (Say that again with me)
The Bad:
Inaccuracies galore. Also, stop simping so much on Karna. It looks pathetic. Arjun was charming alright but they managed to cut his badass skills to less than a half. My girl...Subhadra. What the hell did they do to you!!!! I hated how they showed her. The casting, the character arc... bleahhh! Duryodhan looked like a cartoonish villain and had little to no depth and Ashwatthama....whyyyyy *cries*
The RadhaKrishna Mahabharata:
The Bad:
Fucking everything. What was the casting? And why did everyone look so miniature? Except Karna and Bheem.. those dudes looked old. The story was shit. Even with their thousand and one fictional overtures. (What the hell was Krishna doing in Matsya during Virataparvam???). Kunti was a typical sasu mom villain. Arjun was a wimp.
The Good:
Sumedh is funny. And the guy playing Arjun looked like a baby. I wanted to pull his cheeks every time he came on screen (I dunno if that is good or just sweet). The only likeable scene was prolly Drau-Arjun making heart eyes at each other in that Mandir (cute couply moment and the bgscore is likable). Subhadra had some personality.
Sony's Suryaputra Karna :
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The makers smoked weed and some combination of technicolour inducing hallucinogenic (most likely sourced from the Adipurush script writers)
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WHAT THE EVER LOVING MIND FUCK WAS THAT?
See, I liked SP's Mahabharata's Karna (Aham Sharma.. ahem ahem) because of the creative liberties taken by the makers to make him likable. I didn't mind all of the inaccuracies. But this? THIS?
[*vomit inducing everything*]
The only two good things :- Dury was handsome (eye candy purposes) and Gautam Rode met his wife (can't help being starry eyed over meet cutes).
Karnasangini
See, at this point, I didn't go there expecting any canonical accuracy but just for creative purposes.
Good:
The sets were pretty. These dudes have money and they showed it (very cleverly copying Ek Dil ek Jaan music by changing the lyrics for Karn-Uruvi bgscore, they thought we won't notice, but we did) so everything was eye pleasing. Bhanumati was again... eye candy pretty. Karna himself (Asim Gulati meri jaan), too tragically pretty. I think this Arjun (baby but with beard, lmfao) was also the same guy as Radhakrishna MB.
Bad:
Uruvi (and I swear its not because I can't tolerate Tejaswini). The girl was the most annoying mc to have ever been written. I couldn't feel anything for her. I couldn't understand jack of what she ever did or spoke. The hypocrisy was sky high.
PS:- I would have totally enjoyed watching a version of Karna's life and the Kauravas pov of the mahabharata, had they made it properly (not whitewashing everyone on their side with fucking plaster while turning the Pandavas into cartoony villains.. sigh). Also I think, this one was adapted from the Kavita Kane book.
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One liners on the book [because, why not]
Arjun Without A Doubt (Sweety Shinde) :-
Literally ArDi fanfiction straight out of wattpad (just better writing to be completely fair) and the authot hated everyone else except Krishna.
Karna's Wife, The Outcast's Queen (Kavita Kane) :-
Could have been interesting had the writing not been so bad. Cartoony antagonist and protagonists and completely amateurish plot creation.
The Fisher Queen's Dynasty (Kavita Kane):-
I actually liked this one. It was a refreshing take on characters not usually written of.
The Rise of Hastinapur, The Winds of Hastinapur, The Rise of Hastinapur (Sharath Komarraju) :-
I liked his style and his storytelling. Wouldn't be everyone's cup of tea though. The characters are very controversially written. (Also, trilogy on the women of mahabharat.. count me in)
The Palace of Illusions (Chitra Banerjee Divakurni) :-
I had high expectations from her but... it fell flat on its face. This was the worst portrayal of Draupadi I have ever come across, anywhere, across any platforms.
The Amar Chitra Katha comics :-
Some of the most authentic retellings of the epic and I truly enjoyed going through all the individual copies and also the full three set volume they had.
The Song of Draupadi (Ira Mukhoty) :-
I loved this one. Very opinionated and very open to interpretation as well. It was a good read.
PS :- I haven't read any of Devdutt Patnaik's books (tbh I dont like the guy very much, as little as I know him from interviews on the internet) and I want to read Ajaya but haven't got around to it. Any more books that I should check out?
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PPS :- All of this has been written from a creative point of view. I did not see any of them for getting to see the actual mahabharata. It was mostly for fun. But now I wish people would make more individual versions of other characters depicting their story (EXCEPT FUCKING KARNA again)
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Compulsory Heterosexuality & McShep: Parallels
Thinking about the parallels between John & Nancy and Rodney & his relationships, because one of the really just absolutely nuts-making things that I've realized about McShep is how much they're mirrors of each other in so many ways (insert "everybody straight until the narrative foil walk in" textpost here)
So like, with Rodney and Katie/Jennifer there’s this sense of “ok this is what is supposed to happen/what I’m supposed to do” (not even just in the narrative but even in the show itself where it's like...do the writers not feel they need to build out a relationship for them? That they can just tell us that it's happening and we'll be like "OK yeah sure seems right" even though what they actually show us is Rodney spending all of his time with John and his team?) but anyway you can see both women are these very smart, successful, self-possessed women who would look at Rodney as someone "safe," like yes he's volatile and an asshole in certain ways but those ways are almost "harmless" compared to a lot of men, and in addition--and this is what I feel is pretty important--is the fact that he doesn't really require a ton of...care and feeding? Attention? He's pretty clearly not going to pull them away from their own (accomplished and serious) trajectories. Rodney being self-centered and distracted is a feature not a bug.
So they work as essentially these little "placeholder" relationships on both sides. For the women it's "ok, boyfriend, got that sorted, rarely see him but that's fine he doesn't need much from me" and for Rodney it's like this badge of Masculine Success (tm) that he has this beautiful woman who likes him or tolerates him or whatever (see: Brain Storm and how he pretty clearly sees Jennifer as a trophy to display to his former peers).
And so, ok, I titled this note (while I was working on it) "John and Nancy" and then spent two paragraphs on Rodney but HEAR ME OUT, we're getting there.
I think we can draw a pretty direct parallel in the sense of "this is what's supposed to happen" with Rodney's relationships and John's (only big relationship we know about since the man does not have a single viable love interest in five seasons.../seal shouting "gay".png).
There's a sense (from the info we have) that John was just...never really present with Nancy. That this was something that seemed like a correct step, and it'd make his family happy or whatever, and hey, it's not like he was gonna really go off and Live His Truth if he wanted to fly fighter jets, so why not settle down with a nice woman? And I think Nancy in the beginning saw it the same way Katie and Jennifer would see Rodney, like OK this guy doesn't want much from me and I have my own aspirations, this can work as something that checks off that box.
And then eventually, for one reason or another, it ends, I imagine because Nancy looked at what they had and realized she deserved a lot more than that, and John wasn't going to argue because he knew it was true, and he cared for her and didn't want her to be shackled to him if it wasn't doing something for her.
NOW. The thing that has made me want to set things on fire and throw myself into the sea. Is realizing that John is watching Rodney go through exactly what he has already lived and he can't fucking stop it.
And maybe he thinks "well it's different for Rodney," thinks that because he's fucked up in a way that makes him patently unloveable and unworthy while Rodney isn't, thinks that because he's gay and Rodney isn't, that maybe it'll work for him in a way it never did for John.
So now I just go absolutely fucking feral about John Sheppard and how he doesn't think he's worthy of love and happiness and tenderness, and how he thinks that his purpose, the best thing he can possibly do, is die for people he loves; so of course he lets Nancy walk away because he knows it's better for her, and of course he lets Rodney bumble his way through these relationships because the alternative is, what, being with John? and as much as he loves Rodney and wants him, he believes deep down that Rodney deserves "better."
I don’t know exactly where to go with this other than screaming and wanting others to scream along with me but like. The two of them fit together so perfectly but it’s just out of reach because it’s not what’s expected of them, and John’s self-sacrificing streak means he’ll never try it, while Rodney just…I think doesn’t really put that much thought into relationships to understand that he could have something different than the boxes he’s attempting to shove himself into? Ofc our job here in fandom is to give them catalysts that bridge that gap but without some outward impetus I can see them running along these sad little parallel tracks forever and oh my god, why has a military science fiction tv show from the early 2000s given the world this amazingly complex relationship WITHOUT EVEN MEANING TO?
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Rewatching Loki for Unhinged Analysis Reasons
Spoilers for both seasons of Loki and Loki: Agent of Asgard.
So I did something a tad video essay YouTuber-ish. Except that I am not a video essay YouTuber. I write print essays, and as you may know if you’ve read some of them, I am not great at organizing said essays. I rewatched all two seasons of Loki for the main purpose of documenting every single interaction B-15/Verity has in the show, paying particular attention to whether a character in the scene lies and how B-15/Verity reacts when they lie. I also took into account the context of the lie, if the characters (either B-15 or the speaker) already knew they were lying, and how believable their lying was. For the purpose of determining whether or not I can feasibly say that MCU Verity Willis can canonically detect lies. (And I will be referring to B-15 exclusively as Verity in this post.)
Now, I want to preface this analysis by saying I am not determining whether the writers intended for her to have this power, or even if she was always meant to be revealed to be Verity from episode one. In my opinion, I don’t think they knew her backstory in episode one (I don’t even think they’d planned it out at the point Sylvie gives B-15 her memories in episode 4, personally). I also don’t think they even intended to retcon her having the ability in season two once they’d decided to slip in the reference to the comics in the form of her name. In terms of authorial intent, no, I don’t think she’s meant to have this ability.
But here’s the thing. I don’t give a shit. I’m gonna play in the sandbox. Fuck authorial intent.
The first thing I learned is just how upfront and straightforward everyone is with each other? For an institution with multiple brain-breaking, plot-twisting reveals within the series that these people have been lied to, they don’t lie to each other very often. For a show starring the literal god of lies, even he doesn’t lie that much to these people. Most interactions with Verity result in all characters being honest with one another. They may not say something that’s true, but what they do say they believe to be true, which Verity might not necessarily pick up as a lie. Everyone at the TVA (except perhaps Miss Minutes, but I have no comic evidence that Verity can detect lies from AI) believes the same lies for most of the first season, so there’s no reason to question why Verity would not have worked out the truth prior to the events of the show.
So the first time we get a lie in Verity’s vicinity is in episode 2, when they take Loki with them to Oshkosh, and Loki tries to stall for time by spewing bullshit. And she does a lot during this. She continually rolls her eyes and interrupts to try to get Mobius to stay on task. When Loki says “It’s a trap,” she rolls her eyes and shifts her feet like she can sense the lie in his words. When Mobius finally determines that Loki is lying, she makes a face like she already knew it. This moment leads her to determine that Loki is a lying liar and Mobius is not able to come to that conclusion quickly enough. So when they get to Haven Hills, she makes Loki go with her so she can keep an eye on his lying liar ass. Because she can tell when he’s lying.
In episode 3, we have a brief interaction in the hallway between Verity and Mobius. She asks him what Loki said to him (because she can tell he’s behaving weirdly with all this stalling). Mobius tells her “He said the TVA is lying to me.” This situation where someone brings up what someone else said in front of Verity happens at least one other time. And I’m not actually sure if she can sense if someone is lying based on a paraphrase of their words from someone else. The way Verity reacts to this statement would imply that she can, because she seems to be able to sense that Loki isn’t lying, but she was also controlled by Sylvie at Roxxcart and is currently grappling with a confusing glimpse into her past. So it may be that she’s trying to get an idea of what just happened based on whatever Loki’s said, and it’s unclear if what he told Mobius is something she can interpret as the truth or if her abilities don’t work that way. (Maybe she was hoping Mobius would tell her Loki told him nothing, because if Mobius lies to her, she can tell and can glean some information from that. But maybe she can only tell that Loki did indeed say this, and not whether or not he was lying when he said it.)
So finally Verity makes the decision to just confront Sylvie directly. This is really the ultimate point that convinces me. It could be argued that Verity needs Sylvie to actually use her magic to prove that she can restore Verity’s memories, but I genuinely think she takes Sylvie at her word. The moment when she demands Sylvie show her is when she makes the decision that she wants her past back. By this point, she already knows Sylvie’s telling the truth that everyone at the TVA are variants, and that she didn’t plant memories in C-20’s mind. All she needed was for Sylvie to say so directly to her. Her powers would do the rest.
At the end of this episode, she meets back up with Loki and Sylvie to lend them assistance in the room with the Timekeepers. She gets knocked unconscious almost immediately after, so she doesn’t have a chance to sense the Timekeepers are fake and warn them.
We see her again in episode five in a time prison. Renslayer has gone to interrogate her, and the second Renslayer lies to her, Verity knows it. Renslayer does make a slight expression that might give her away, but it is very brief, and it could still be argued that Verity picks up on the lie rather than the subtle tell.
We don’t get another situation of needing her detection skills until the season two premiere. It’s not a lie this time, but in the past TVA, when they’re chasing Loki, Loki insists that he knows Mobius. There isn’t a really visible reaction from Verity, but we also don’t get a good look at her face, so maybe she makes a face when she realizes he’s telling the truth even though that doesn’t make sense.
Then we have an interaction in the present with X-5 making fun of Mobius. Mobius doesn’t quite pick up on it right away, but Verity does make a face like she’s aware X-5 is not being genuine. Outside of the War Room, D-90 tells Mobius “I was just doing my job,” which isn’t exactly an apology about pruning him. And, yep, Verity gives him an eyebrow lift like, Sure, save it for Nuremberg.
Episode two, an excellent example of her possible skills. When asking Brad questions, an interesting dimension to her abilities comes up: Do people at the TVA know she can detect lies, or at least that she’s really good at sensing when someone’s lying? When they first ask about the TemPad, X-5 states the obvious without exactly answering their question, either truthfully or otherwise: he says something like, “I put some colorful buttons on it for you.” When they ask what he’s been doing, he says “Making movies.” Verity snaps, “Don’t waste our time” so lightning quick that it feels like she’s sensing a lie rather than just assuming he’s being an ass on purpose. When they ask again about the TemPad, and Brad says, “It blocks your trackers,” she twitches. Like they already knew this, Casey already told them that, but it’s the fact that she visibly reacts to this lie. Just because she already knows it’s a lie doesn’t mean her ability turns off.
The interrogation shifts hands, and Brad now holds the reins. So now Verity’s reactions are in response to her current coworkers (you know, the ones not currently in a shock collar). Loki pretends he’s going to attack Brad in response to his taunts. Verity doesn’t look super comfortable with Loki’s tactic here, but she also doesn’t seem to buy his act. She doesn’t step in, she doesn’t warn Loki the way Mobius does. So then Brad turns his attention on Mobius. Mobius continues to act really chill about not knowing his past, but then it cuts to Verity, and she is not buying it one bit.
The next time we might have gotten a chance to see Verity’s powers is in episode 4, when Dox and her followers are in the interrogation room (I’m not sure what we’re calling that room). Verity point-blank asks Dox, “Can I trust you?” And what I find very interesting about this exchange is that Dox doesn’t answer. In fact, she avoids answering any direct questions Verity poses to her. Almost as if she knows something about Verity’s abilities, like Brad when they first ask him about the TemPad, and isn’t going to bother giving her any information. Whether she’s honest or not, it won’t matter; Verity would know the correct answer anyway.
So we have two moments on the timeline in episode five that are of note, but I’m going to hold off on discussing the first for a moment. When the TemPad spaghettifies, Loki and OB accuse Casey/Frank of stealing it (where he’s going to hide a Gen 1 laptop-size device where they can’t see it, I don’t know). He insists he didn’t take it, and this would have been a great time to cut to Verity (or not, if she didn’t react). But we don’t, so we don’t get to see if she knows he’s telling the truth. I’ve also seen people try to draw on the scene in the doctor's office, too, as potential evidence, but there’s none here, guys. The girl never lies to her (as far as we can tell). It’s not even a matter of Verity knowing her warning on the girl’s cast won’t stop her from climbing trees. For one thing, do injuries ever stop children? That girl is about to go home and try to climb that same tree one-handed, for sure. But something else I noticed on my rewatch, Verity barely finishes writing out the warning before the girl is already shaking her head. Verity doesn’t even have to guess (let alone detect a lie that wasn’t even there in the first place); the girl outright tells her there isn’t a chance in hell she’s gonna listen to that.
So now we’re at the end, the last episode. We have two moments where her detection skills (or lack thereof) can be analyzed (or not). At the end of the first time loop, with the loom, Timely says that the trouble with the loom is a scaling problem. Later, we find out from He Who Remains that this isn’t true. It’s never explicitly stated whether Timely was lying in this moment or just didn’t understand (though for my money, given Timely’s character up until this point, even though he is a Kang variant, it’s my opinion he was telling his understanding of the truth here). Even if Timely is lying, we don’t get to see Verity’s face in this moment to gauge her reaction. Finally at the end, after Loki saves the timelines and the TVA begins to reform itself, Verity approaches a very out-of-it looking Mobius, and asks if he’s okay. He’s clearly not, so even if he said he’s fine, this woman who’s worked with him for who knows how long could probably tell he’s full of shit even if she can’t detect lies. But what feels telling to me is that he doesn’t lie. He doesn’t even tell the truth. He straight-up doesn’t answer her question and jumps straight to business. Regardless of whether Verity’s coworkers have always known about her abilities (and I’m gonna talk about that in a minute), I think this exchange shows that at least Mobius has been made aware at this point.
So before I get to my conclusion, I’m going to talk about the two moments in the series that could disprove that Verity can detect lies in the MCU. The first occurs in season 1, episode 4, when speaking to Mobius. She asks him if there is any news on C-20, and he says no. This is after he has already been to Renslayer, who has told him that C-20 is dead, but told him to keep it a secret. Verity shakes her head in response, but it doesn’t seem like an “I don’t believe you” head shake, more like “This shit is crazy, what happened to her” head shake. She seems to buy his very outright lie. This is not implicative or dancing around the truth. Mobius doesn’t decide not to answer, like he does at the end of the series. She asks a direct question, and he gives a direct answer that he knows is not the true answer. And she seems to buy it. I don’t have a counter-counter argument for this; this is just a point against the theory, unfortunately.
The second problem occurs in season 2, episode 5. After everyone except Sylvie has gathered in OB’s lab-turned-squatting situation, she picks up one of OB’s novels and starts to read it. It’s canon in the comics that her ability prevents her from enjoying fiction, because she is incapable of suspending her disbelief long enough to watch a movie or read a book. She reads physics textbooks for pleasure, because it’s the only reading she can handle. At the end of AoA, while Loki is undergoing ego death, she is finally able to start to stomach fiction. But it’s implied (or maybe outright states, I don’t fully remember and I don’t have access to my book right now) that knowing and befriending Loki is what changed this for her. In the show, Verity has just met Loki, so being able to read fiction would not yet be a possibility for her comic counterpart at this point in knowing him. This counter argument, thankfully, can possibly be refuted in a few ways. One, she doesn’t get very far in the book it looks like, maybe a couple of pages. So maybe she’s able to handle the first few pages (hell, maybe the first few pages were part of an author’s note about the science involved. That she could handle). Another option is that OB is having a lot of trouble selling his books, and maybe that trouble is that they are so dense in the science part that they’re dull and unapproachable for just about everyone else. But for someone who can only stand to read science books, this is perfect. Maybe the MCU said fuck it, she can read fiction, who cares. Only one person has the time and energy and encyclopedic knowledge on AoA to call us on it and we don’t give a shit what they think anyway. And that’s a fair assessment. Maybe the writers continue to only do cursory research and don’t know this about Verity. It wouldn’t be the first example of this. Does no one have Al Ewing on speed dial? And finally, (though even I doubt this) maybe she’s pretending to read so she doesn’t have to talk to any of these weirdos. She seems pretty friendly and able to interact with people (which is different from her comic personality), so I don’t think she would pull an introvert’s attempt to avoid socializing.
So, counterarguments aside, let’s get into the conclusion of this three-day study. Given the number of interactions where she does seem to react correctly when people are or are not lying to her, I would say there is enough evidence for me that she can detect lies in the MCU. Her restless body language and eye rolls whenever someone lies in her vicinity, the fact that she takes Sylvie at her word about the memories, the way multiple characters in season two avoid answering her questions directly. It isn’t always overt or explicit, and certainly not as clear as it is in the comics, but of course I stated at the top the reason for that (if you don’t want to scroll all the way back up, I don't think the writers did this on purpose, I’m overanalyzing for fun and there’s not enough evidence to disprove it in any case). But my conclusion is my girl still has her powers. (And there’s nothing Marvel can say to convince me otherwise, because I don’t care what they think.)
Now the other question is, does the TVA know? I think at least He Who Remains knows and that may in part be the reason she was chosen. I don’t think most others at the TVA know or at least believe her. But something happens between season one and two, or at least towards the end of season two. If the “evidence” were more obvious, I’d say the writers intended for Verity to be able to detect lies suddenly, but I’d need more from her reactions, or an explicit statement from her that she can do this. More characters in season two try to hide the truth from Verity but without outright lying to her, almost as if they know she can tell when they’re lying. So I think they either don’t know Verity can detect lies, don’t believe her, or assume she’s very intuitive rather than actually possessing a superpower. In season one, most of her coworkers don’t have any reason to lie to her because they’re all on the same side. But in season two the TVA is starting to fracture into factions, and at the end we have Mobius not wanting to admit the toll losing Loki has taken on him. And by season two Verity has her memories back and the others know (especially those who try to avoid directly answering her queries: Dox, Brad, Mobius) they’re variants. I don’t think Verity ever doesn’t know she can do this; this isn’t an ability you can turn on and off or activate voluntarily. If you can fly and you lose your memories, you likely won’t recall you have that power until you regain that memory or possibly if you get thrown off a building and by some instinctive reflex manage to catch yourself. Verity cannot turn off her power, which is why in the comics she can’t engage with fiction and avoids social interaction whenever possible (even going so far as to make sure her job is remote). It’s intrusive, a burden, there is no way to avoid detecting a lie when it occurs. So I don’t think it’s something the memory wipe could have erased. But she wouldn’t remember how she got this ability in the first place, or be able to explain why the Timekeepers gave her something so useful and no one else, so it’s possible the others write her off as mistaking a heightened but natural intuition for superpower or outright lying for whatever reason.
Except now it’s season two, and she knows what happened to her. They all do. They know she was telling the truth all those years. So when some of her coworkers are suddenly working against her and being interrogated with her in the room, they try to avoid tipping off her suddenly very real powers.
Of course, a lie of omission is sometimes louder than an actual lie. And Verity doesn’t need to be a walking polygraph machine, nor does she need a direct answer to her question, to know her longtime coworker and friend Mobius is in mourning and very much not okay.
God I hope we see my girl again and get some retconned explicit confirmation she can detect lies. I don’t need it, because I already did the research. But come on Marvel, keep riddling that target with plot holes, you cowards. Call her Verity outside of the credits, give her her comic book powers for no conceivable reason other than I want her to have them, and let her come back to the MCU in another movie or show (or a season 3 but I don’t think we’re getting that).
I love Verity, and this rewatch was worth it just to pay super close attention every time she shows up.
tl;dr: Fuck you, Marvel, my girl can detect lies in the MCU. I didn’t gain these nonsensical analysis skills to obsessively look for shit that was never supposed to be there from fifteen years of shipping for nothing.
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i refuse to send these thoughts separately:
who would cas main in league, he wouldnt play isnt an answer the mans gender is at least 25% calling people slurs on mic
okay but what if what if um 🥺👉👈 someone wanted to write a thing but they were super anxious about getting cas’s voice right in part because by the nature of how you share your creative concepts the only solid vibe they get is Doesnt Talk A Lot, When He Does Its 90% Weird Rude Mean Shit, hence the cesare big top burger comparison
and fuckin um i forget if ive ever asked, i mostly process cas’s fuckedupedness through a lens of npd, but am more familar with bpd because my own brain garbage is a bit of both and having had many loved ones with bpd, does cas ever fully freak the fuck out in an insecure attachment way trying to make gortash Go Away or trying to leave himself(but coming back generally), might characterize that Oh No Hes Going To Die leaves forever cant handle loss unless he “choses” it meltdown in a similar menthol eelnessTM vein
i especially love thinking about cas being extremely insecure because reality will never live up to his delusions of self importance perfection and grandeur because fun fact :^) a side affect of those thought patterns is constant disappointment in a reality of self that can never meet those expectations :^^^)
casim “i AM perfect or ill DIE” carnavorn
honestly "Doesnt Talk A Lot, When He Does Its 90% Weird Rude Mean Shit" is pretty on point here😭😭 I used to say like everyone desires him and then he opens his mouth and theyre like "hmmm yeah idk if this one's worth it chief". Like he has no filter at all but it isn't like he doesn't do it on purpose it's more like he goes out of his way to make sure everyone leaves in a worse mood than before, if that makes sense? Gortash would join in though honestly.... type of situation where Gortash tries to introduce them to some noble family on a party and Cas just drops that some poor girl looks like a fat cow (see this is funnier considering that he stands next to Gortash but ain't nobody gonna say that back) 🙏
aside from that though like.... in private? I suppose this may be more of a tone thing and I'm a VERY mid writer so I couldn't even tell you how I'd show this of the top of my head but I suppose he's more... clearly affectionately teasing? because yeah he obviously stays teasing and calls him a fat bastard in private still and such but it's very obvious if you look at them for a second that it's like a far cry from how he treats everyone else (smth smth his gaze very clearly softens and he allows himself to giggle and you can tell that they have been knowing each other for a long time)
okay sorry im YAPPING but ! ....If you want to write something I'd be over the fucking moon either way honestly like??😭 tbh I think you sound like you get him a lot already but also let me just say additionally... I see Cas as a character that's pretty flexible anyways because he erm... he has mood swings but also doesn't really have smth I'd consider a set speech pattern or something that he needs to sound in character?
anyways concerning the npd/bpd thing I never quite drew a line for him or anything to put him more into one camp but. I mean yeah based on the dying of old age scenario... LMFAOO but also yeah he does. Cas is the type of person that will literally leave the city for months or lock himself in and try to "become a new person" (he literally has moment where he's like "maybe I should just become who Bhaal wants me to be. maybe it would be easier") if there's some dispute with Gortash. It usually ends with Gortash forcing him to meet him again and Cas being something along the lines of "oh my fucking god can I just stop loving you already" but yeagh u know the fact that Gortash is kinda the only person he ever liked or even saw as a friend just makes it worse tbh
and the insecurities/delusions thing? yeah exactly what you said. a lot of his insecurities are insane too tbh like "I can never be what everyone desires" but then he loses it if he's NOT what someone desires, Gortash saying smth along the lines of "I like women too" would be enough to make him walk off a ledge because he can't be that part (smth smth I can be most perfect man on the planes but I'll never be a woman. funnier when u know he could use incubus illusion magic but he refused to his whole life). But anyways yeah as I said once Cas is like... a DEEPLY insecure person at his core even if he'd never admit or think that it shows
anyways after this analysis... Cas plays adc and shits on every support he plays with💯 He mains aphelios because he wants to look at a man but also because he thinks he's better than anyone else for playing a complex champ... hope u see my vison
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