#motivation is a struggle as always

[crow-with-a-pencil]

Feels like home.

#my ârt #fnaf daycare attendant #moondrop #ok I'll admit I haven't actually been drawing much lately #motivation is a struggle as always #BUT I'm getting better at making pieces with backgrounds and I wanna work on that #however I am eepy. so you get one corner and ceiling. #anyways this is self indulgent bc I have starlight strings and I think moon would like them #yes I put up posters with masking tape what about it

[sunlitsoil]

there is always tomorrow

#lovecore #hopecore #webweaving #the presence of love is beautiful in itself #you got this #self care #self love #recovery #healing #hopepunk #recovery is not linear it is okay to have bad days you have the entirety of your life to have a better day #i wish anyone reading this a good life #i love you #you are loved #and i hope you will find happiness in the small things #i’ve been struggling a lot recently but i always remind myself the good set in store for me and look up places in the city i’ll move to #and it motivates me a bunch so i hope u all find things to strive towards mwah

[soothedcerberus]

Erik!! I keep seeing your adorable centaur OCs and I always wanted to ask what's the story behind them??

Plushi!! Sorry for the mega-late reply… 🥺I was so happy to get this ask but I didn't know how to explain my silly ocs…I will try now-more under the cut.

Dael Braam (dwarf) is a cooped up farmhand looking to see the world, but being immune-compromised from birth it took a lot of persuasion to convince her parents to let them go. They relent under the condition that she finds a capable and strong person to travel with to keep her safe… Just so happens that a strong and capable centaur knight is visiting in town…

Rembrandt (horsey) was created from a dark fusion spell by an amateur mage, who had intentions to construct a powerful warrior to do his bidding.

However, the spell cast did not result in a powerful and fully-armored warrior…. but instead a frail baby knight centaur, with only its top half made of living armor. The mage, not wanting to raise any kind of child, promptly abandons his creation. He can always try to make another one after all.

Into adulthood, Rembrandt still carries a lot of pent-up abandonment and self-esteem issues. You wouldn't know that from the proud facade he puts on though, lying about being a royal knight yet helping all those he comes across with a smile, but never staying long. When the opportunity of having a long-term travel companion (and perhaps a friend…?) arises from Dael requiring a bodyguard, his craving for companionship and affirmation outweighs his worries about her seeing eldritch elements of himself.

Dirk (beefy dragon thing) is the second (and more "successful") attempt from the same mage to create a powerful monster. Think Rembrandt's "big evil" brother. Except he's quite a bit younger. Dirk emerged fully-developed except for his wings-which remain as little nubs. Despite his brawn and warrior-appearance, Dirk was mostly a glorified errand boy, using his impressive strength to terrorize the nearby towns and their land-collecting resources for the mage.

Dael and Rembrandt meet Dirk after hearing word of a giant dragon-knight ravaging villages (and their livestock yum yum).

(I also like the idea of the mage sending Dirk to capture Rembrandt + Dael when he recognizes is his first attempt is not only alive and strong, but also quite proficient in battle.)

One way or another Dirk ends up roaming with the two. At first, Dirk is over-confident, rude, and stubborn... Overall a huge pain for them to travel with. After being shown kindness for the first time and being subject to more than a few humbling situations, Dirk allows a protective, loyal and softer side of him to emerge.

Lots of found family shenanigans and adventures occur-and yeah! This was rambly but thank you for reading about my guys! 💖

#i got rlly happy when i saw your ask but i had no idea how to explain my characters so i sat on your ask till now whah im sorryy #i have a whole 40 pg doc on these guys yet i struggled to write all of this lol thank you for your patience u are too kind plushi #I hope to see u at tfconLA next month if u are going! #also that little doodle u did of rembrandt i love and it hangs over my desk so i can see it always :]] #ALL THESE are subject to change...writing character motivations interactions and story is hard wow how do some of u do it?? #my ocs #plushi #kind words #artists on tumblr #original character #all three of them come from isolated beginnings i realize

[canisalbus]

I'm sure you get loads of these but heck I said I'd give it a shot anyway!

Your artwork is so inspiring and beautiful. I recently graduated from art school with a degree in Animation Production but I've decided I'd love to be an illustrator some day. Your work really motivates me and gets my brain juice buzzin. Keep it up!!!

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#oh thank you! I'm glad you did! #first off as a general rule I think it's always okay to message any individual independent artist/creator #and tell them that you like their work #you may think they probably get lots of positive feedback and such and another one doesn't matter #but I would bet money that the actual amount is almost always smaller than you'd think #so every kind comment has the potential to cheer them up and inspire them #and motivate them to continue creating and posting their work online for people to see #messages like that can linger at the back of your mind for ages #I regularly think back to the nice things people have said about my art over the years #especially when I'm struggling with art block and feel like what I make isn't worth anything and that I'm bad and my stuff is bad #this got a little long winded and I'm probably preaching to the choir #but what I wanted to say is don't be afraid to let creatives know if you like their work it's always appreciated #I'm flattered to hear my dog doodles motivate and inspire you! #animation and illustration are both good choices imo #I wish you all the best on whatever you end up doing #answered #starfruitwyne

[blinkpen]

so since it feels good to make these kinds of assortment posts... yeah, i have been crushing it this month too, apparently, i'm honestly proud of my progress lately, which, i haven't felt in a long time. thank you everyone for your interest in my work, it means a lot <3

i wonder if i can keep doing a roundup post like this every month for awhile? can this steam engine boil until i just explode? i hope so! [art tag]

#mog art #artists on tumblr #and as usual there's always more that's just not getting posted yet for one reason or another #man what happened. actually i know exactly what happened #it was a combination of a few things #i have not felt this much motivation and joy wrt my art in so long #those years of struggling and being exploited violated misgendered and treated like shit almost killed me but i held on #i think it'll be okay #i'm glad to still be here

[lemongogo]

#this.discussion between them is one of my favorites #this and that exchange a while earlier where vash talks ab gunsmokes reliance on plants being a consequence of the big fall #and a necessary facet of survival for the ppl who live here despite how utterly awful an experience it is #for the both of them.the plants being used and the people forced by circumstance to use them until death ykyk #and i especially like.how vash is just so . baffled by the idea that knives somehow sees his ideology as this naive dream #as opposed 2 a reaction from the anger hes been harboring for SOO long. we SAWW it we saw how he reacted on the ship #we see it in the way he struggles 2 navigate life among ppl and how his body bears the scars of his pain and frustrations #his anger is sooo.Good. and formative.and wholly vash that i cannot imagine him without it #he never forgot teslas death / never will .and it motivates him just as much as rem's sacrifice n so on. #'ever since that day we've been mad' ....... prbably one of the best lines ive taken away #hashtag shinobu's 'yes im angry..ive always Been angry' monologue #i love how he includes knives in that anger too. its not just youre angry or im angry. its that We've been angry. Ever since that day. #going2 throw UPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and the way knives reacts 2 it too.using it to cement his grief and decision that if we had to suffer than its only fair they should too #fairness.and when he talks ab making it equal...giving whats been taken..always an interesting concept to use in a vengeful sense from the #more sensitive brother. i love it.LUVE ITTT #trigun spoilers #vash #knives trigun #trigun maximum #trigun #millions knives

[o2studies]

༻`` 04 Jan 24 — Thursday

100 days of productivity 4/100

I'm up to date on my chem notes and I finished my math notes too 📝! I picked up my productivity again after a low by taking a hot shower and listening to Fabrizio Paterlini 🎶 Afterwards I focused on getting my mood back up and made up my 2024 vision board!! These will now be my goals for the year ^^

#I also made someone's day!! #I'm really happy that they feel that way! #I always struggled with messy notes (messy room) and a lack of consistency with the 'pinterest aesthetic' #I'm trying to embrace that now :) #o2life #100dop #100 days of productivity challenge #100 days of productivity #study motivation #study inspiration #studyblr #bookblr #light academia #dark academia #chaotic academia #vision board #2024 goals #self care #self improvement #art #books #nature #dog walking #chemistry nerd #high achiever #book annotations #hot chocolate #a levels #classical music

[hidden-under-lock-and-key]

“I don’t need to write this down, I will remember my plot.”

I did in fact, not remember my plot.

#writing motivation #writing #writing struggles #fanfiction #something about something #writing problems #i always do this

[scintillyyy]

when it's written that way because it's a patented chuck dixon -ism but it unintentionally creates a really interesting potential narrative for the character-

#still thinking of steph and class and knowing that dixon made her lower middle class on account of he's a classist #but how placing her in that nebulous position of between the have and the have nots #where they're too poor for comfort or stability and too rich for benefits #lends a lot to steph's anger at her situation #her desire to fit it and move up and separate herself from her origins #her showcase '95 story where she has a veneration of what she feels must be the comfort of the true middle class #and her veneration of her coach who she insists can't be anything like her mom #her anger and shame at her mom coming to her gymnastics meet because she doesn't like seeing that part of her life #interact with the better life she's trying to carve for herself #her activities as spoiler being so linked to her desire to throw away the legacy her father left her #that for everyone to say she's not good enough or shouldn't do it is for them to say #you are already where you belong and that thought terrifies her #a steph who grew up hearing sarcastic remarks about those welfare recipients who can afford nicer food than them #while her mom works and gets no help and and struggles for it #a steph who internalizes that no one is going to help her and if she wants it she has to work for and take it #which leads to some bitterness when she sees everyone else such as tim and cass receive the help and support she's always denied #but also only motivates her to keep going harder. if no one will help you you have to help yourself. #what ugly biases might she potentially have as a result of this upbringing #it's like i hate it it's such a conservative story of bootstraps #but i love it because gives such potentially interesting things to play with in steph's arc

[eff-plays]

So initially I was like ok, Hiraeth takes their paladin oath after the events of Act 2 and don't tell anyone and especially don't tell Astarion because they're afraid he'll react badly.

But that's a braindead take. And based on the Oath of Vengeance, which isn't relevant anymore.

Now I think that, um, actually? Astarion and their relationship with him is one of the primary motivators for them taking the oath. Obviously they wouldn't admit it to him anytime soon, but c'mon. Kindle the Light? Shelter the Light? Bruh. "Oh so this mean nasty vampire man has sad round eyes and soft hands and is able to feel gentle things even after centuries of torture? You mean to tell me there is light even in the darkest places and it's worth nurturing? Hmm wow so there are good things in the world? Ok I will protect them with my fucking life then."

#and it makes more sense why they'd fall into full batman vengeance mode if he had decided to try ascending #cuz if he was part of the reason then if he betrays them it's like ok that was all fake then #there is no light but there is darkness and i will dedicate my life to destroying it #that won't happen tho but it's interesting to think about #and i do think that hira probably makes a few oopsies as a paladin but like #paladins that don't struggle with their oaths are boring so even if hira struggles to always remain good and pure i think in the end #they are motivated by these things #by the greater fight against despair itself #anyway i'm insane <3 #bg3 #oc: hiraeth #worsties to lovers

[brodudemanbroski]

working hard or hardly working.

trying out a new art style, that’s it. hoping it works.

[click/tap for better quality]

#maybe taking art requests to try out this style idkkkk #idk why i got this sudden motivation #its wild #i struggled with Estella a lot #sadly #but shes good now #and i drew something for a different fandom idk if ill post that #rambles #my art #south park #sp #sp pip #sp damien #sp dip #always them..

[prettyiwa]

The days are growing shorter and night is growing longer and it feels like I can finally breathe.

#summer always makes me feel like I’m struggling for air #everything feels tight and constrictive and like there’s a noose around my neck #I thought this year’s SAD wasn’t as bad until it got dark before eight last night and I felt /happy/ and /motivated/ #how frustrating is it to realize you haven’t actually been happy in months #x:ix

[lumilasi]

I initially thought of making one more Spooktober piece today, but I just don't have ideas/motivation left, so here are all the ones I did make (minus couple of alternate versions, I chose not to include them, as they look too similar with the ones I did pick)

I do wish I'd managed to make more, but that's what happens when you're busy IRL lol

Which is your fave?

#Spooktober #spooktober 2023 #inktober #halloween #halloween season #art challenge #inktober 2023 #digital art #lumi's chaotic creations #lumi's art scribbles #night city parlor #my art #my ocs #I really planned on making traditional art too #but I just never had the time or motivation for it #plus I didn't have access to a scanner so getting them on computer woulda been tricky #I always struggle photographing my traditional art and prefer using a scanner

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

Yeah, you should only create for yourself, but if I'm putting it out there I would like to know that I'm not just endlessly shouting into the void

#you ever feel like this about your original posts? cause I do #idk like. I would like to DISCUSS my thoughts with someone but it never goes that far #and I realize I don't have the most popular opinions all the time but shit you'd think some people would agree enough to reblog every #once in awhile #idk I'm feeling insecure about myself lately. this is okay to reblog btw I'm just venting my thoughts in the tags #em rambles #idk there was a time I felt like I had a place and served a purpose and provided content for a very small circle of fandom #but now I honestly can't tell who's there anymore #maybe that's why I've been struggling to write. I've always written for myself first but a big motivator for me was getting to share #that with people who would really enjoy it #but now idk #I'll never leave tumblr but sometimes I wonder why I even bother posting original posts anymore lmao

[hippogrifffeathers]

Fic Masterpost

long-overdue, but we got there in the end. apologies if the formatting is lacking/awkward to navigate, and thanks for reading!

everything has also been posted to my hl ao3 account, if that's your platform of choice

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(i can't) reign it in

ao3 | chapter one | chapter two | chapter three

In the immediate aftermath of battle, the professors race further into the foundations of Hogwarts. They daren't focus on the dangerous pickling of magic in the air, or how empty wiggenweld bottles crack underfoot- all that matters is getting to MC and Eleazar. They find them, but in a worse state than anyone could have foreseen. In the weeks that follow, MC struggles to cope with the grief of losing Professor Fig, determined to solider on alone. Repressing that pain has potentially devastating consequences for the secret of Ancient Magic.

(a three-parter exploring what i imagine the aftermath of the final battle might look like, coupled with concerned staff, and the support of our beloved companions)

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Mentor Privileges

ao3 | tumblr

'What just happened?' 'I just got us out of trouble.' 'No, you just pulled an Ominis.' 'I what' 'Excuse me?'

When Professor Weasley catches MC, Sebastian, and Ominis sneaking back into the castle after curfew, it seems like only one desperate move might keep them out of serious punishment. Except, before Ominis can even murmur a syllable about his family connections to the Headmaster, MC is speaking, claiming Professor Fig authorised their excursion, and it turns out there's another trump card among their ranks. Afterall, how could a professor argue with another professor?

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Is This Seat Taken?

ao3 | tumblr

Ominis didn't usually mind History of Magic. Dull as it was, at least the class gave him a change to get some peaceful sleep for once. It was almost enough to make up for the stinging loneliness that came with the reminder that he was sitting alone, that nobody wanted to sit next to a Gaunt- nobody except Sebastian and once upon a time, Anne.

And maybe, in the light of a newly blossoming friendship, MC.

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A Foal's Trust

ao3 | tumblr

Death had a way of haunting you, especially when it occurs at your own hands. Sebastian hasn't been the same since that fateful night in the Feldcroft Catacombs, and struggles to come to terms with who he is in the aftermath- his gaze skirted around mirrors, he couldn't trust his own defensive magic, and begins to fade in to himself, steeping in self doubt.

For weeks, MC has felt condemned to watch as Sebastian's thoughts drifted to where they couldn't follow, longing to reach out and help, but feeling lost in knowing where to start.

But maybe it doesn't have to come from them.

And as it happens, they know just the den of unicorns that might be able to help.

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Don't Blame Me

ao3 | chapter one

Sebastian's concerns for MC's safety are at an all-time high. He's had it with their recklessness, their decision to trust a goblin the final nail in the coffin- if they refuse to listen to reason, insisting on continually endangering themselves, then Sebastian would simply have to take measures into his own hands.

When rumours begin to circulate about their latest exploit (the takedown of an ashwinder base) he's hit with an epiphany. Perhaps the enemy of his friend, could be his ally.

Whatever happened next, at least he'd always know MC was alive, no matter what the cost.

#hogwarts legacy #my fics #hogwarts legacy mc #sebastian sallow #ominis gaunt #eleazar fig #all my fics are seasoned with seb x mc even where it isn't the focus simply bc of who i am as an individual #on this note i think i'll be dropping off for a while #i'll still stop by this account from time to time #and the ao3 #but probably no more writing unless i fall back into hl sometime in the future #unsure if this is common (but from the fandom death it sure looks like it is) but i've struggled to find motivation in this fandom? #which is something i could s o talk on about for a while (fandom death is always interesting especially if the fandom is new) #and sadly it really has got the best of me for hl #but hey idk i'd like to at least finish my pt two of 'don't blame me'! #how does one do a /fic/ masterpost i simply do not know

[despairforme]

*loves him forever*

#nnoitra gilga #[ OKAY SO ] #[ i have been STRUGGLING with my motivation for art recently ] #[ bc i've been pushing myself to draw stuff i'm not used to ] #[ but tonight i was like HECK I'M JUST GONNA DRAW HIM ] #[ hhhhhhh he reminds me of why i love drawing <5<5<5 <5<5 ] #[ i just ???? love him so much he always inspires me ] #[ absolutely forever blessed by him ] #[ he's so prettyyy ] #[ also the background..... just the song i was listening to the whole time while drawing fjfjfj ] #[ i love one man ] #toby draws. ╱ mod's art. #[gallery]