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Part of my Milestone Drabble Request Game. Find the request here.
Read the follow-up drabble, Afterglow.
Pairing: Husband!Yoongi X Wife!Reader
Theme: Angst, Unrequited love au, arrange marriage au
Wordcount: 1.5k+
Summary: It was and is Min Yoongi, who you fell in love with over the course of charity galas, executive meetings, quarterly gatherings, parties and so on. And he never once looked in your direction. But then again, there are very few people Yoongi really looked at.
Based on Girl Crush by Harry Styles (Cover).
Warnings: unhappy marriage, unrequited love, yoongi loves someone else. this is very painful.
Minors are not allowed in this blog!!
A/N: I had this idea sitting on my head for a long time now. Thanks to @jimintaemin for requesting this and giving me a chance of writing this. This is very angsty just as you wanted. Hope you like this. Hit me back with your feedback!:)
โI've got a girl crushโฆ Hate to admit it but
Iโve got a heart rushโฆ It ainโt slowin' downโ
โI assume you already know that this is a marriage of convenience, a negotiation between two companies. And I hope you will not expect anything from me. As long as itโs about responsibilities, I am okay with those. But donโt expect anything more.โ Min Yoongi had said, cold and stoic, as if not conversing but stating some flat facts related to stock prices.ย
He was not wrong. Whatever he had said are indeed facts and there was nothing you didnโt already know.
So you stood there, standing as still as a porcelain doll, ready to fall and break at any given moment.ย
โAnd just so you knowโฆ I have someone.โ he finished, diverting his eyes from you even though he never really looked at you properly.ย
Although you were glad that he didnโt. You were more than happy that he didnโt witness tears rolling down your face, gathering below your chin and dropping down at the immaculate fabric of your wedding gown.ย
Do tears leave stains? You hoped that was not the case.ย
Itโs not that you pictured a fairytale married life for you. You know arranged marriages come with more cons than pros. You knew you would have to pay the price.. but at the same time you had no choice. You were even more reluctant to do anything because it was him.ย
It was and is Min Yoongi, who you fell in love with over the course of charity galas, executive meetings, quarterly gatherings, parties and so on. And he never once looked in your direction. But then again, there are very few people Yoongi really looked at.ย
It was foolish for you to expect a man of his stature would not have someone to love, to be loved by. And it was even more foolish for you to think, you can be his wife, a real one.. and lead a life with him.ย
However, now you know itโs impossible. And the realization made you feel helpless, caged and broken.ย
โI wonโt expect anything, I promise, but in returnโฆ Can we at least be friends? It will make things easy for both of us.โ youโd uttered upon managing your voice and emotions.ย
Only then he looked at you, like really looking at you with a small smile playing on his lips, heโd said โsure.โย ย
That was the moment you realized you had a girl crush. And it was the woman who managed to make Yoongi, your husband, fall in love.ย
โI got it real bad.. Want everything she has
That smile and that midnight laugh.. She's giving you now.โย
You thought, you would be angry. You thought every possible darkness would cover your senses, when youโd meet her for the first time.ย
But wrongโฆ you were.ย
You had so many prejudices about this woman and you hated her with every drop of blood your body owns but all of it evaporated in thin air when she smiled at you standing right at your and yoongiโs door.ย
She is beautiful, she is kind, she is loveableโฆ and maybe everything else you canโt ever be.ย
โThank you so much, Y/N. I never thought I was going to see Yoongi ever again.โ sheโd murmured as she stood close to you in the kitchen, preparing dinner for you three.ย
You had stared into her eyes then.. Trying to find mockery and a hint of brazen victory telling you, โyouโre only his paper wife. I own his heart.โย
But again.. Again you were disappointed.ย
In her eyes, there was no mockery, no pretense, no dishonesty.. Rather only understanding and kindness. Only then you understood why Yoongi loves her so much.ย
Why will it never be you and always be her.ย ย
That night as you stood at the balcony, enjoying the stinging sensation cold wind brought to you, you heard them laughing.
It was the first time you heard Min Yoongi laughing. Even though faint and muffled, you could still sense his happiness through the sound.ย
Min Yoongi was finally happy... for the first time since the wedding ceremony... and you were not the reason.ย
All of a sudden, you were jealous again, even though you were not sure if you had the right or not.ย
โI want to taste her lipsโฆ Yeah, 'cause they taste like you
I want to drown myselfโฆ In a bottle of her perfumeโ
You didnโt know what you were thinking when you invited her to your and Yoongiโs honeymoon.ย
Both of your and his parents have been pestering you to set out for the trip. You have been using excessive workload as the excuse and you assumed Yoongi to do the same.
But a week ago, everything went south when Yoongi had a fight with his father. As a result, flights were booked, accommodations were chosen and you two were notified only two days prior.ย
That night, Yoongi didnโt come back home. And when he did, he didnโt speak a single word to you.ย
The visible frown on his forehead and the cold aura that oozed from him, made you want to make him smile, made you invite his lover to the trip secretly.ย ย
She was already there when you two reached and you will never forget Yoongiโs reaction when he realized what was happening.ย
The grumpy cold Yoongi broke into gummy smiles and giggles as soon as he saw her. They kissed right in front of your eyes and you silently cried.ย
Oh how you wish, you could taste him too. How you wish, he would hold you like that, caress you like that.ย
How you wishโฆ he would love you like that.ย
โI want her long blond hairโฆ I want her magic touch
Yeah, 'cause maybe thenโฆ You'd want me just as muchโ
ย โBabe, could you please turn your head a little? Yes.. yes just like that.โย
You watched the man as he clicked photos after photos of the woman he loves, seemingly trying to document her beauty for a long long time.ย ย
You watched her as her long blond hair flowed like a waterfall down her shoulder, wind ruffling it gently making her look even more beautiful.ย
โLetโs take a selfie, will you?โ she shouted at him and he chuckled.ย
He buried his head in the crook of her neck, inhaling her scent, he said, โyou smell so nice.โ
You wondered, what she smelled like, what perfume did she use to make Yoongi look this satisfied. You even considered asking her, purchasing a bottle and drowning yourself in one of those if that means Yoongi would love to smell you too, he would curl himself around you late at night. If that means Yoongi would want you, just as much.ย
โI don't get no sleepโฆ I don't get no peace
Thinking about her.. Under your bed sheetsโ
โWhere are you going?โ confusion dripped through Yoongiโs voice. You stopped at your tracks and turned to face him.ย
โI will sleep in the other room. You two should have your space. I will send her in as soon as I am there.โ you smiled at him, even though your heart bleed invisibly inside your chest at the thought of how they would spend the night together.ย
โNo, Y/N. We will adjust. You sleep here in the suite.โ Yoongi commented, as firm as a verdict, as he stepped towards where you stood.ย
โBut Yoongi, I am alone, what would I do with all this space?โ you sighed. You definitely didnโt want to be left alone at the honeymoon suite, decorated for the newlyweds. You hate it. Totally loathe the decorations. Those giant red hearts had been mocking you since the moment you stepped there. You might tear those to pieces if you were left there alone, raising endless questions regarding such an act.ย
โYou have done enough. You have done much more than you needed to and I feel like Iโm taking advantage of your kindness. So, pleaseโฆ stay here. Enjoy the stay. We will manage.โ giving you one of his tight lipped smiles, Yoongi slipped out of the room to spend the night with his lover.ย
That night when you slid inside the covers, which smelled awfully like him because he took a nap earlier in the evening, you started breaking down.ย
Your hopes, your dreams, and your heart all started crumbling right before your eyes. You held the duvet tightly around yourself and pretended it was yoongi wrapped around you, it was Yoongi, whispering sweet things in your ear, it was Yoongi, telling you that he loved you.ย
Somewhere you knew, Yoongi is actually doing all these things in real-time but.. Not to you.. Not for you.ย
You closed your eyes, tears streamed down your cheeks and wetted the pillow. You imagined your life as herโฆ as your girl crushโฆ as the woman your husband, Min Yoongi, loves.ย
โI've got a girl crushโฆ Hate to admit it but
Iโve got a heart rushโฆ It ainโt slowin' downโ
This about an exchange reading I had with a reader who broke my trust , disrespected me and I consider this as a scam .
It's @riyus-things now she deactivated her account. She is a fake reader as she has scammed number of people by being a fake reader .
I started my exchange just two days ago and asked any 3 people who had be Interested to do the reading with Me . She was among them.
I had opted for vedic chart reading for My question's prediction. Later when I got the reading it was totally copied from the website I knew .
The following points had my suspicion come true :-
I got to know from the chart what website she used .
Prediction wasn't according to question's context I asked .
I already had an eye on the blog quite few time in which I observed about her English. The prediction's English and her English were different. I didn't want to look down as I thought that maybe it's for professionalism.
But , I had check on the website 5 times just because I didn't want to accuse for anything wrong but it was what it was .
She copied the whole prediction from website.
EVIDENCE :-
Her reading Vs website's reading :-
2nd :-
There is whole of this very long in my DM but but I could just upload this .
Later I had sent her the website reading's screenshot , she showed by responding as she is totally unaware what is happening because she got caught.
FROM HER SIDE :-
LISTEN TO ME :-
I guess it's not hard to see how she was manipulating me and twisting from one excuse to another .
I.e - Herself then her friend then herself and then a mixed excuse of both reasons.
My rules won't apply to her excuses cuz she is a fraudster.
You know this is literally a disrespectful thing. You are just pretending for something you are not and taking valued time and hardwork from other readers .
She did this so quickly like just a copy paste , but I would have taken an hour to predict would this be fine and justified ?
If I wouldn't have told her about post I would have made her gone so easily like that .
She sent me a reading as proof that she is a reader and can save herself which was again fake and copied which is can be seen with her communication skills .
An apology post ! She made it tagging me in and blamed her friend about not being loyal and sending my reading to her whereas with me she told her friend recommended the website only . Like she told me she used the website as tool and now she is saying her friend used it and gave reading . Wow. [ she deactivated her account so post isn't there but one person did like that post as far as I remember, if you see this please send me the SS of it . ] She is a fraudster .
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Nightpaw doesnโt have the greatest luck with the Clangen rng, so to celebrate, I thought weโd test her luck here on Tumblr, since you guys seem to enjoy her! Iโve rigged up a little game for you allโฆ
To play is simple:
To throw a ball at ms. Nightpaw, comment a number from 1 to 8 (can include 1 or 8)(You are allowed to leave several comments). Depending on the number, the throw may be a hit (something bad happens to her [silly mischievous bad, not actually canon traumatizing bad]), or it may be a miss (something good happens to her). There are 4 possible hits and 4 possible missesโฆ so ms. Nightpaw may get all hits OR all missesโฆwho could say.ย
For the next four days, starting tomorrow, Iโll randomly pick one of your comments, and draw whatever shenanigan it entailsโฆย
Letโs see if Tumblr rng hates her as much as Clangen rng does! ๐คฉ
a series based on the album broken machine by nothing but thieves for our 6k milestone!
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