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#literally just take me to the doctor if you’re tired of my bs
crushedsweets · 7 months
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back w more of my song analysis bs cause im studying music performance and it’s all I think about 😍 sorry this is so long. i have so many Thoughts
the chain by fleetwood mac is such a brian song. no big beat drop, just constant driving bass - shows determination, relentlessness. specifically the line “if you don’t love me now, you will never love me again” which i take to mean “after i do what im about to do i will become unlovable, so you if you don’t love me now then you will never be able to because i’ll be such an irredeemable person”
geyser by mitski is a really good song to describe nina’s relationship with Jeff. the way that the song starts off so slow, so quiet and thin, but then swells to a grand and full sound like how nina’s obsession started off so small but then grew to control her entire life. love the line “and hear the harmony only when it’s harming me”
a pearl by mitski and LJ (another mitski song cause she’s my fav artist ever) about his abandonment mmm. plus the slightly sinister sounding chords showing his evilification(?? yk what i mean. when he turned emo) ugh “you’re growing tired of me” and “i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended” so him
tongues and teeth by the cranes wives and EJ. this is SO his song. ALL of the lyrics r so incredibly him,, “my teeth will only cut your lips, my dear” plus the slightly manic instrumental, highlighting the panic he feels at potentially harming people he loves HLGKFJJDS.
also, for ur consideration, miss nothing by the pretty reckless x nat.
- anon 🌙
anon im kicking my feet. AGGHHGHG. ohh my god. yhou are using musical word that i do not comprehendn in the same way you may but wow do i love the way you describe it. very poetic i think. ill talk abt these.. and then mention a liil extra smth abt toby i thought when driving yesterday
the chain is yes very brian.... ugh... yeyah. yeah. 'after i do what im about to do' is so real. like being so very aware and conscious of your awful decisions and still going through with them. quite brian-like even under the whole complexities with hoody persona etc etc....
AND YEAH GEYSER TOO . the start of the song feels very like... idk if scary is right but its just very deep and could be quite unsettling.... nina longs for love. "i've turned down every hand thats beckoned for me to come" very pretty, fun, easy-going girl that could have plenty of suitors and yet she's still crawling towards this fucking beast of a man who is nothing good for her. "i will be the one you need" constantly warping herself for this man that wouldn't do shit for her, and she doesn't mind because she loves him in every single which way he is, and she loves how awful it is . and FUCKKKKK SHE NEEDS TO GET BETTER SHE NEEDS TO GET AWAY. she gets away dont worry. she gets over him. lots of crying and sobbing and screaming but she gets over it. its very hard to get over something awful when you crave awful
im not a huge lj fan (SCARED OF CLOWNS IM SORRY GUYS IK I KEEP HARPING ON ABOUT IT) but i loooove a pearl. "i fell in love with a war / nobody told me it ended" wow. ok. yeah. wow. jesus. rolling the pearl around looking for anything and everything that could soothe the ache of literal fucking abandonment while all you can do is wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and then its all too much and damn . :( damn ok.
IVE GORWN A MOUTH SO SHARP AND CRUEL IS LITERALLY SO PERFFECTLY EJ. FUCK. "I am not a vessel for your good intents" oh but he is sure a vessel for something demonic .... "abonded all your stupid dreams / about the girl i couldve been" HE HAD SOOO MANY FUCKING DREAAAMSSSS he wants to be a doctor he wanted to save lives he wanted a family he wanted a dog he wanted to see his little siblings grow up he wanted to take care of his elderly parents. and now all he can do is sit and be miserable because he is a monster and there is only so much he can do about it. damn. wow.
also yeah to the nat thing wow.
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wow. yeah. goddamn.
AND ALSOOOOO OK LAST NIGHT I WAS DRIVING AND THIS SONG CAME ON
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shit show by peter mcpoland i just keep thinking about toby. tbh ill find a way to twist any song into toby cuz i like him but yea. this is leaning more into the found family thing after losing his own and just seeing the way different people reflect his past and its gut wrenching but you know how he is. just a guy of sorts. he spends a lot of his time angry and wanting to isolate and self destruct and ruin everything around him . but he also spends a lot of his time desperate for normalcy, for respect, to be seen as a human fucking being and ah fugugh. im just imagining brian pulling him out to meet the owner of the farm near slenders forest and making him stand straight and telling the farmer 'he's a good kid, hard worker, strong. keep him around" (the hardworking strong part is true, at least) and toby's about to die cuz he's so stressed (this is shortly after all the fucking murder) but brian lightly slaps him on the back and he stands up straight and the farmer just shakes his hand and says smth nice abt 'got a good grip there' and and and guyyyyssss..... and holidays..are so hard for hhim.. and "i swear i'd see your faces staring up at me" ohh my goddd.... "I don't wanna drink alone today" man................... guys...... man......
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doctorofmagic · 2 years
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I’m just exhausted of seeing bad takes on both characters because of the movie but at least those I can take. But when I see someone commenting that Stephen and Wanda’s relationship in comics is based on jealousy because Stephen was peeved for being rejected when he offered mentorship to Wanda, this really gets on my nerves.
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West Coast Avengers #79.
Stephen has never been peeved about it. He has always supported Wanda and shared a friendship in which they trust one another enough to call on their own bs when needed.
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Doctor Strange v1 #381.
You all KNOW Bendis hated Wanda since day 1, Stephen in both Avengers and House of M is not in character when it comes to the bond they share so many times in so many adventures, and also it’s really convenient to pick old panels in which it seems that Stephen is strangeplaining her when actually pretty much everyone in the Avengers used to do that because of poor writing. Even Agatha is condescending towards her. And Agatha is her freaking tutor. And I could go on on how Bendis twists pretty much tons of characters to their cores (do I really need to mention Civil War I and II???).
Stop putting one against the other in comic books. We KNOW Wanda has been treated poorly for a long time since House of M and that was never fixed (maybe with Darkhold Omega but I have my reservations, also Trial of Magneto was awful on so many levels yikes). She deserves better and the hate she gets in Krakoa is awful, but she’s very welcome in the Bar with no Doors, so where’s your excuse that Stephen and Wanda’s bond is not good enough?
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Doctor Strange v4 #4.
At least the magic bond they share is waaay deeper than any other bond. Otherwise, you wouldn’t be seeing Magik and Scarlet Witch working together in v4. The magic community is something that I’ll never get tired of praising because it’s so much bigger than stupid little beefs people like to bring about. Really, if you’re biased about Stephen, at least do not twist what you’re reading just because you assume you know him as a whole when he has DECADES of character development.
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Doctor Strange v2 #60.
I’m just really really really tired of having to deal with people who only checked House of M and decided Stephen is like that. I’ve been trying to undo the damage of the arrogant narrative for literal years thanks to this arc, Waid and the MCU. It’s time to stop.
(PS: it’s not new for people who follow me that I also hate Empyre: X-men because yeah, Hickman also seems to hate Wanda sooooo last good time they had together was long time ago in v4. We need these moments back.)
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max--phillips · 1 year
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Ok but do you have any advice for us bimbos *affectionate* when we go to a car mechanic bc it always feels like I go for one simple issue, and end up being told there's almost a dozen issues with my car 💀 when do u kno ur being swindled?😭
Yeah actually I do!! Because it’s happened to me before!
So, best case scenario is they tell you the thing you were worried about isn’t actually an issue and they try to direct you to an entirely different, unrelated problem. For instance: with my first car, which was a piece of shit to begin with, I had some transmission issues at one point and went to a transmission shop to have them look. At my. Transmission. Just the transmission. And a little while later the guy comes out and he’s like “yeah idk your transmission fluid was a little dark but it doesn’t smell burnt or anything so it’s probably fine. The issue you really have is that your entire front end is fucked and needs to be rebuilt.”
At which point you do the same thing you would do to a doctor trying to tell you to lose weight as a magic solution to all your problems (but you gotta kinda stroke their ego a little bit). “That’s a fair observation, and I’ll definitely take a quote on that, but I don’t think that has anything to do with the issue I came in for. Can you please help me figure out why my transmission was slipping/what that noise is/why it’s vibrating so much/whatever?”
At that point if they push back with “it’s probably just a fluke” or “I didn’t see anything wrong with it” ask for a second opinion, either have the same mechanic take another pass at it or ask if there’s another mechanic in the shop who can take a look. If they still give you shit, just take the quote for the work they apparently did want to do and find another shop. Any quotes they give you are indeed just quotes; you never have to talk to them again if you don’t want to. Just don’t pay for anything if all they did was a diagnostic and didn’t actually do any work!! Unless they explicitly tell you diagnostics cost money, which the vast majority of shops don’t do.
Worst case scenario is they start throwing all sorts of technical terms at you for issues that might be related to your main concern. At that point, you’re unfortunately going to need to do some legwork. Ask them for a quote for the work they’re suggesting. Most of the technical BS that they’ve thrown at you should be on the quote. Then take your car to another shop. Do not tell them that you’ve been to another shop or have a quote elsewhere. If they give you the exact same technical BS, chances are fairly good that they’re actually on to something. If they give you an entirely new batch of technical BS, you know they’re probably just fucking with you. There’s still probably some overlap between the two quotes; figure out what that overlap is, and that’s likely the work that actually needs to be done. Honestly, you might take it to a third shop just to rule out that one of the two shops was on to something & the other was just bullshitting you.
Some other various tips:
Read the reviews online! If there are a ton of complaints about being overcharged for unnecessary work, don’t go there!
Ask your friends! Chances are good someone you know knows a guy. If you’re still worried they might try to swindle you, bring the friend who recommended them to you with you!
An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure. This means do preventative maintenance on your car. Get your oil changed (highly recommend getting full synthetic, you can usually go about 5k miles between oil changes), get your tires balanced and rotated. There are some special maintenance things for higher-mileage vehicles (ie with 100,000 miles or more); you can usually find that kind of thing in your owner’s manual.
Speaking of oil changes: for the love of god stop going to overpriced ass chain shops (Take 5, Valvoline Instant Oil Change, Jiffy Lube, etc). Literally go to Walmart (as long as your Walmart has an auto center) and ask for a full synthetic oil change. This will be just as good & not cost nearly as much.
If you must go to another shop to get your oil changed and/or tires balanced and rotated, they’ll probably try to sell you wiper blades. You can say no. You should say no. Buy them at Walmart, on Amazon, or from RockAuto. They will be a million times cheaper. And they’re very easy to change; most of the packaging comes with instructions, but YouTube is your friend—just search your year make & model and “how to change wiper blades.” (Ex: how to change wiper blades on 2013 Honda Civic.)
(If they try to sell you anything else, you can say no to that, too. An oil change is just oil & your oil filter. If they’re nice they might also top off your coolant and windshield wiper fluid. You don’t need to have them replace your cabin air filter or wiper blades or anything (although if your car is always stinky and you can’t figure out why you might wanna replace the cabin air filter bc it can help with that))
Know the penny trick for your tire treads!
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If they try to sell you tires and Lincoln’s head is still pretty covered, they’re bullshitting you.
(Tires usually last about 10k miles unless something wack happens like you pop one or something)
(I can make a post about what to do when you get a flat tire if y’all want??)
Uhhhhhh that’s all I got rn, hopefully this is helpful!! If anyone else wants to chime in please do!!
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gendergraveyard · 3 years
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I love how my parents yell at me for stuff that’s like common symptoms of mental illness
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sunsetsover · 3 years
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Just hopping on the anons last week who said they'd done reading around BPD and Ben etc after reading your posts to say... when Whitney told Ben he makes everything about himself in this week's eps I immediately thought of you! Like lemme explain lmao I remember last year you wrote about how lots of fans said Ben was making everything about him when him and Callum had that argument about the warehouse job in Sept.? And you wrote about how you viewed it and how looking at Ben through a lense of mh goes a different interpretation etc. Idk Whitney saying that just made me recall your thoughts on the fandom saying the same thing lmao.
(although tbh I didn't think Whitney was v fair saying that anyway bc how was he meant to know Callum had witnessed a stabbing etc?? He wasn't making it about himself he was simply worrying about the info he had access to???)
no joke i literally thought the exact same thing after i watched it yesterday. not the post (tho i do remember what you're talking about!) but i was like 'oh ben's behaviour is VERY bpd' like probably the most obvious example we've had since 2019 maybe and then i was like man.... how many people are going to have Bad Takes abt ben's behaviour and how he's 'selfish' and then i was thinking abt what whit said and it reminded me of something i heard once and i've tried to find it but i can't and i'm gutted bc it made so much sense but it was abt how bpd are often viewed as selfish or making everything abt us but we do that bc we literally feel like everything IS because of us/our fault. it's literally a Symptom. like when you're hypersensitive and terrified of everyone abandoning you EVERYTHING feels personal.
like someone's in a bad mood? clearly i have done something to put them in a bad mood. someone doesn't reply? clearly they hate me. you smile at someone in public and they don't smile back? clearly they can sense something is Wrong with me and didn't want to engage. either that or they think i'm hideously ugly. that's the default assumption, that it's somehow something to do with me. not that they're going thru their own shit or that they're busy or tired. and then when we're talking abt someone you're close too, the fear of abandonment comes into play where you either start to push them away bc you're convinced they're gonna leave anyway or frantically do things or change things to help convince them to stay, and both of these can go very extreme. and ofc it's not logical but we can't help it. i'm always saying this to people in my life: i know how i'm feeling/what i'm doing isn't logical and it doesn't make sense, but i literally can't help it. it's like the sensible you is locked in the back of your brain forced to witness all of your own bs but they're literally powerless to do anything about it.
which is also why i can understand under the hysteria of your own fear of abandonment and hypersensitivity why ben could convince himself callum was gonna leave him for whitney. like ofc i get why ppl would find that unrealistic and offensive, but i can't NOT see him as bpd, and when you have bpd that fear of abandonment is so so incredibly pervasive that you start thinking things like that and convince yourself that they're real. like you genuinely believe them. and someone of sound mind is like 'that doesn't make any sense, he's gay' but like.... that almost is irrelevant to a certain degree. your own belief that you're so unlovable and that everyone is going to leave you holds SO much weight in your mind, more than even reality itself.
like you could almost compare it to hallucination. reality and logic dictates that it's impossible for there to be a man crawling on the ceiling, but if you can see it and hear it and feel it then ofc you're going to believe it's real. reality and logic become irrelevant bc you KNOW it's there, even though it isn't, u know? it's the same kind of thing: reality says ofc callum isn't gonna propose to whitney when he's married and literally gay, but that all-consuming fear of abandonment is so much louder when it says 'he's lying, he's sneaking around w his ex, he's not talking to you about anything, he's got a ring, ofc he's gonna propose to her, she didn't ask him to quit his job or force him into a position where he had to lie for months, ofc he was gonna leave, he just married you out of pity, this is all your fault, you don't deserve happiness or love bc you're a bad person lmao what did you even expect?' etc u know
if i'm being completely honest if i were in ben's shoes i could EASILY see myself being convinced my gay partner is gonna leave me for their ex of the opposite sex. like worryingly easily. and tbh between that and what was going on with kheerat, i actually think he coped surprisingly well. like i genuinely thought that yesterday that if i was in his situation i probably would have reacted much worse and been in much worse a state than he was. and i'm not just saying that, i think his growth since 2019 is obvious in how tame his reaction to it all was tbh.
i realize probably no one will bother but if anyone really is interested and wants to understand more then u should watch this video. i've timestamped it at the first point bc if nothing else u should listen to that bc it helps explain what i've said in a much better way esp the example abt clearing out the garage but the whole video is really good and i would love for some ppl to watch it. like i know it's half hour and that's a long time and also the interviewer is obnoxious and p insensitive but the doctor herself is really good and explains everything i've been trying to explain in a MUCH better way than i ever could and i think it will really help you understand what it's like to be someone bpd and what it actually means for day to day life
like i realize i've completely gone off on one w this and im sorry but i have opinions and i just want people to understand you know?? not necessarily for ben as a character but for all the ppl out there w bpd bc !!!! no one gives a fuck abt us they just misunderstand us and then do literally nothing to try and understand us when we try to explain ourselves so to have ppl actually engaging in this dialogue w me makes me very excited and i try to explain as much as i can while i have the opportunity u know lmao so i very much appreciate you and getting messages like this thank you 💞💞💞
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tirsynni · 4 years
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I despise the bullshit of "no abortions, go for adoptions, sweaty 😊" because people are missing multiple points here.
1) Pregnancy is traumatic, typically causes some sort of permanent hormonal or physical shift, and can EASILY cause permanent damage if not death.
2) Pregnancy is NOT EASY. Nine months of your life put on hold and dramatically changed, not including the following months where your body has to readjust (if it even does). You can lose your job. It's not legal but it still happens. Pregnancy is a barrier against promotions. Pregnancy can cause a ton of personal and professional issues which won't fade away in nine months.
I can imagine people scoffing now about the second point. My good friend, who maintains regular contact with her doctors and who is following all medical advice, has gestational diabetes. Cue a major diet change on top of the existing diet change, as well as regular blood sugar testing. Oh! And daily injections for the blood clots caused by the pregnancy. Specifically by the pregnancy and how it changed her body. Someone else I knew? Was having life threatening blood pressure issues and was ordered on bedrest several months before the due date. One major spike would kill her and the twin babies. I moved and still have no idea if she lived. Only part of it was a paid leave, so the parents lost a major chunk of their income, had increased hospital fees, and the husband was literally bawling in public because he was so scared his wife was going to have a sudden massive heart attack and die.
3) People aren't as eager to adopt as these people seem to believe. They will spent far too much time and money BECAUSE
A) They want a baby with their own genetics and
B) Many people are fearful of adopting because they worry about the child developing issues connected to the birth family later in life. (Few people connect such concerns to their own by-blood babies.)
So you're basically asking someone to risk their mental, emotional, and physical short-term AND long-term health, their lives, possibly their current relationships and careers, on the off chance that someone is desperate for that bit of brainless cells to grow and be their child.
No one is allowed to use that argument anymore unless they are personally eager to adopt AND are willing and eager to assist existing burdened pregnant women AND children in dire straits.
"People are desperate to adopt!"
Great! Name one!
"People will help you through your pregnancy!"
Great! Give me a list of names. Let's officially organize this so everyone has a to-do list. Oh, wait, where is everyone going?
"You'll regret it if you abort."
That issue has been REPEATEDLY disproven with those struggling with it in the minority and usually affected by outside pressures. Next.
"You'll be fine if you go through the pregnancy."
Considering how many pregnancy issues are seemingly random and pregnant women are difficult to treat because women's medicine sucks anyway and medicine for pregnant women is even WORSE... bite me.
"You won't die."
A possibility currently ON THE RISE in the US when it was too high to start with.
"Well, I'm pro-life."
Great! Start with the ALREADY LIVING CHILDREN currently dying. We have a bunch in FUCKING CAGES who could use some help.
Just... take that argument and shove it. You may have the best of intentions with it, but no amount of positive thoughts or personal experiences ("my pregnancy was great!") is going to change reality. Pregnancy is awful, it can lead to permanent health issues and even death, the abortion is happening when it is just a bunch of cells and if you believe those preachers insisting those cells can feel pain then I have a bridge to sell you, and people prefer to spend thousands on fruitless IVFs than adopt a child.
I'm tired of this BS being repeated over and over when it literally has no reflection in reality. It is a pro-life fantasy that only helps in kicking people when they're already down.
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ellaenchanting · 4 years
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Hypnovember 2019 Master List
Jesus. Jesus Christ, that’s a lot of writing. I don’t really consider myself a writer generally and this is definitely the first time I’ve written this much this quickly. I’m going to look at my word count soon, but- I think I may have written a novel’s length of words? Wow.Thanks to everyone who encouraged me during this or provided support/ideas: thinking of @daja-the-hypnokitten , @liminal-wanderings , @mr-ackerman , @spiralturquoise , @wellgnawed , @sex-obsessed-lesbian , and @hypno-sandwich especially here but there were lots of y’all who reblogged or made kind comments. I appreciate every one of them. :)
Here’s a catch up of everything I’ve written so far this month. In honor of @jukeboxemcsa, I’ve also included a HypnoBS rating where 1 is absolute bullshit and 5 is normal Tuesday night.
Icons- 📰- story. 🔊- audio 💻- technology 😍- romantic 🌈- queer 😴- regular ole’ hypnosis 🛀- brainwashing and/or hypnotist in a tub 👻- spooky 🐈- at least one happy pussy ❓- bad or reeeally questionable consent ✝️- author's weird religious feels that somehow kept coming up
Day 1: Base Character-F/f 📰😍🌈🛀🐈 
Choice quote: ”Or maybe it was the ship of Theseus- Janine seeing how many little pieces of her she could replace until she fundamentally just wasn’t the same person anymore.”
HypnoBS- I haven’t done this kind of play and have no first hand experience. Let’s say 3.
Newly added 11/18: @undersleeper requested some extra information on how the brainwashing was actually done in this story so I added this non-canon sequel. (I think the sequel boosts the BS score to a 4.)
Day 2: Colors- F/nb 📰😴 🌈
Choice quote: “Bri used to consider themselves a bad hypnotic subject.”
HypnoBS- 4. I haven’t done this induction specifically but love doing these kinds of overloads
Day 3: Dizzy- no gender specified🔊😴
Choice quote: “When you take deep breaths, you feel like you’re getting more oxygen, but actually the opposite is true.”
HypnoBS-5. Should get you in trance, we’re not ranking the accuracy of all the science herein.
Day 4: Sing- m/f kinda I guess? 📰👻❓
Choice quote:  “Tonight wasn’t the night to give in, he told himself. Not yet.”
HypnoBS- 1. Thank God.
Day 5: Poison- M/f 📰😍🛀🐈
Choice quote: “Lila could admit it. She was kind of a brat.But Sean? He was worse. He was a fucking troll.“
HypnoBS- 4? Haven’t done it, could probably make something in this realm work with the right person.
Day 6: Summon- F/f 📰😍😴🌈🐈
Choice quote: “Number one, there is no butch street cred. And number two- if there was such a thing, you and I both know that being seduced by a beautiful woman would only increase it.”
HypnoBS- 3 or 4. It’s quick and there would need to be a lot more talking generally. But sure.
Day 7: Underwear- F/f 📰😴🌈
Choice quote: “Under….where”, Destiny tested the word out loud. It sounded like a portmanteau of some sort. She understood the word “under” and the word “where” (or “wear”? “where are” maybe? maybe it was German?) but those two words together didn’t form much of a picture.”
HypnoBS- 5. Although have only done this as a hypnotist so I can’t speak to subject POV. This kind of thing is adorable to watch, though.
Day 8: Neighbor- F/f📰😍🌈 ❓
Choice quote: “When Jiyeon tapped her pencil, Alyssa tapped her pencil lightly to match.”
HypnoBS- 1. Maybe 1.5 since there are no monsters or demons.
Day 9: Idiotic- no gender specified📰😴
Choice quote: “Because Id-iotic. It’s literally what you want deep down”
HypnoBS-4. Not my thing but with the right people- sure.
Day 10: Smell- F/m 📰😴😍🛀🐈
Choice quote: “Belinda had also woken up from sexy dreams at night to the feeling of Ray’s head buried in her cunt.”
HypnoBS- 3 on the details. Some parts are more plausible than others. We’re outside my realm of experience here so others could probably rank more accurately.
Day 11: Broadcast- Hypnovirus/f 📰💻🛀✝️
Choice quote: “It felt important to present herself to the screen in a way that demonstrated her vulnerability and openness to instruction.”
HypnoBS- 4. Probably not likely, but I could see this kind of symbolic bleed with the right person pretty easily.
Day 12: Stage- M/m 📰😍🌈😴
Choice quote: “Brandon had not mentioned the hypnosis thing to Scott- it felt weird and personal and he had already half-convinced himself that he was being creepy in response to Scott’s platonic friendliness. He didn’t want to scare him off. He had never expected to see him here.”
HypnoBS- 5. At least as far as the hypnosis goes
Day 13: Bath- no gender specified 🔊🛀😴
Choice quote: *insert rambling about Pat Collins here*
HypnoBS- 5. But also a high general BS score. I was tired and needed to finish a thing. I am surprised but grateful people liked this one. :P
Day 14: Machine- M/f 📰😴💻😍✝️
Choice quote: “For as long as she could remember, Deidre had longed for self-annhilation.”
HypnoBS- 1. That’s not how brains work.
Day 15: Ooze- there’s a m and a f 📰😴🛀❓
Choice quote: “For example, your badge- did you know that putting all the stickers on the top of your badge like that usually means that you’re a hypnotist?”
Amy’s eyes widened a bit. “It does?”
HypnoBS- 2. Sadly.
Day 16: Wedding- something/f 📰👻❓
Choice quote: “She knew then that she was alone. No one could help her. No one could even see her.”
HypnoBS- 1.
Day 17: Gentle- a different something/f  📰 kinda 🐈❓✝️
Choice quote: “As long as she didn’t focus on it, it would write the story for her.”
HypnoBS- 1. I think. :P
Day 18: Infection- not stated/m 📰 🛀❓
Choice quote: “If he could just get the song out of his head, maybe he’d have a chance.”
HypnoBS- 2. 
Day 19: Hideout- F/f 📰  🐈 😍😴🛀🌈
Choice quote: “’Come to me, pet. Come to me.’ 
Mesmera.
 She could always sense when Galaxy Girl was weak. She consistently picked the perfect time to strike.
And now, she had found her apartment.”
HypnoBS-4.5
Day 20: Watch- no gender specified 🔊 😴
Choice quote: “Feel your thoughts just tick tick tick tick ticking gone”
HypnoBS-5
Day 21: Fighting- F/m 📰 😴
Choice quote: “His mistress loved resistance play. She delighted in watching him struggle and strain against an irresistible impulse.”
HypnoBS-5 Mmmm :)
Day 22: Mistaken- F/an entire hypnocon  📰  😴
Choice quote: “Ginger- submissive, wide-eyed, bottomy Ginger- was holding a crowd of 8 people in her hypnotic thrall. Some had their eyes closed already, while others were staring at her with the rapt look of early trance.“
HypnoBS- 4. But only because I haven't seen it yet. :P
Day 23: Heist- F/m  📰  🛀❓(😍 but it’s pretty messed up)
Choice quote: “The inside of the vault had gotten somewhat sparse-looking- David had been cleaning out the bank out at a much quicker pace recently- but there were still plenty of treasures here to bring to his mistress.”
HypnoBS- 3, maybe 2
Day 24: Business F/f 📰 😴😍🌈
Choice quote: “Summer was a well-mannered southern girl at heart. She knew that if something was none of her business, it was impolite and rude to know it. Best not to think about it too much. She didn’t want to be nosey.”
HypnoBS- 4
Day 25: Babble F/m📰 😴 🛀 (💻 kinda)
Choice quote: “You can feel your access to language lessening….and lessening. Feeling those parts of your brain losing blood, quieting, going to sleep. Imagine what that might look like on the fMRI- the color draining, darkening, going black. Your ability to use language can be almost completely gone.”
HypnoBS- 5 (Neuroscience BS- closer to 3)
Day 26: Enemy M/f 📰 😴😍🐈 
Choice quote: “When she was denied for long periods of time, everything became sexual.”
HypnoBS- 5. Unf.
Day 27: Confidence F/m 📰 😴❓
Choice quote: “Dr Eleanor had been recommended to Richard by his friend Jon who had seen her previously. “She won’t bullshit you,” he had said, “she just gets right to the roots of your issues and helps you solve them.” He must have known what he was talking about- a year after visiting Dr Eleanor, Jon had recently married a wonderful woman. He was also running marathons and succeeding professionally. There were worse people to listen to, Richard thought.”
HypnoBS- 3 (although this kind of gaslighting is real and can be effective)
Day 28: Abduction F/f M/f background m/m 📰 😴😍🌈
Choice quote: “’And so she….’ Lilliana stopped. She stared for a moment in surprise at the space between Cirie’s fingers. Cirie looked like she was holding a small, invisible ball. Liliana tried to recall her train of thought (something about work?) but found herself strangely blank.
She looked at Cirie in astonishment. 
‘You took it!’ she accused.”
HypnoBS- 5
Day 29: Doctor Doctor/Master (from Dr Who) 📰 😴🌈💻
Choice quote: “The doors in the Master’s mind all appeared to be open. The Doctor quickly scanned for malicious intent but-
Oh.
Oh my.
So that’s why.”
HypnoBS- I...uh...1?
Day 30: Kink The author/her self-indulgent whims 📰 🌈
Choice quote: “Ultimately, she really just  liked her friends- and she especially loved hearing all of their stories.”
HypnoBS- Cake. Imma eat a cake.
Thank you all for reading these! I know this is a long post, but I’d really appreciate reblogs of it. If you’ve liked my stories, please consider leaving me a tip on Ko-fi! Also I’d be happy to give extra information on any of the characters or a bit of what happens next if you want to send me an ask about any of these stories. I’m finding myself with a strange craving to write. Funny how that works. :P
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My Cheap & Relatively Healthy Grocery List for College Students
Context: I had been used to eating fast food so much because it was cheap that when I went to the doctors' they said I had high glucose content. That wasnt good. So I started eating healthier. Anyway let's skip the BS and get straight into it:
Ramen: the OG cheap food. I personally don't own ramen bc I dont like it that much, but if you want to save money this is the meal, at least add an egg or some veggies to make it healthier.
Frozen Veggies: anywhere from 50 cents to a dollar or two a bag. Can easily be kept in your freezer (if you have one) for months
Mac n' cheese: my all-time favorite. Of course, it might not be healthy for everyone to eat pasta all the time, but I do it anyway. Add some real cheese and spices for taste or chicken and veggies in it / on the side.
Other Pasta boxes (Pasta Roni, Velveeta, Hamburger Helper, etc.): basically as cheap or almost as cheap as Kraft macaroni, but maybe you arent a fan of mac n cheese.
Soup (Soup!!): Cambell's Tomato soup is often $1 a can. I like to eat mine with grilled cheese. Thats a whole ass meal. But of course you can get other soups just as cheap. Basically, any canned foods.
Canned foods & veggies: this one goes without saying. Although, the better options are sometimes $2 to $3 the same can be said for frozen veggies, but just heat these up and cook them in fried rice or just add butter and eat them aside a nice entré
Chunk light tuna: speaking of canned foods, canned tuna is soooo cheap and is a great option (if you even like tuna). Dont actually get the "pack tuna" for $1 a pack unless you want to keep it in your bag bc canned tuna is around 60 cents a can. Mix it with Miracle Whip (or mayo) and spread it over break for a good sammich.
Grilled cheese (or cheese toastie if you arent American I think??): similar to previous options, youre getting your cheese and your butter and your bread. Not as healthy as other options but way better than fast food calories.
Quesadillas: similar to grilled cheese, except spICY. My brother only eats these and he has no meal plan. I do it now too. Honestly, adding up tortillas, cheese dip, shredded cheese, & chicken is kind of costly but worth it. Also cooking chicken is annoying bc I dont have time for that. But. Yknow. A great option.
Pillsbury Crescents: a little costly, about $2+ per tube, but still fookin delicious. Also imma be real: actually havent checked the nutrition label to see if these are actually healthy. But these are sO useful. Make them by themselves for breakfast (with jam, eggs, or alone) or use the dough for other recipes. I use these with Manwich sauce, cheese, and ground beef for snacks :)
Manwiches: manwich sauce cans are $1 and although they have some sugar, its not nearly as bad as fast food. Just cook up some ground beef to go with it & maybe add cheese, sliced bread, or hamburger buns
PB&J: Another OG. I could never get tired of these. You just gotta make sure you have soft bread and the pb&j and youre good to go. Although..like.. some people apparently like theirs toasted or with different jams (I like strawberry).
Eggs!!!! : Just keep these in your fridge. Just do it. You never know when youre going to run out of food. Boiled? Scrambled? Fried? Soft boiled? With ramen? Omelet? In fried rice? Egg sandwich??? Eat them with bread, eat them with toast, eat them as a breakfast sandwich, scramble them with cheese, the list goes on. If you dont eat them often, get a smaller carton, but always have eggs! Also, for baking.
Rice, or fried rice: If you like rice, have been cooking rice for a long time, and can actually make it without burning, make sure you have rice. If you like rice but have never actually made it yourself, it takes trial and error in a pot. Or just invest in a rice cooker. Additionally, fried rice is not that difficult to learn & it fits the bill for healthy bc you can add unlimited veggies and meats. Im not here to educated you but the more ingredients, the better, is how i see it.
Fresh Food:
Fruit: I literally have "an apple a day" for breakfast. It's just good for you. Keep them in your fridge to keep them fresh. Keep one in your bag in case you get hungry. Bananas? Awesome! Use them in smoothies or a milkshake or eat them with your cereal or even with peanut butter. Possibilities are endless with fruit. Just make sure they dont spoil. Apples are OG bc they dont spoil as easily.
Vegetables: Make sure to only periodically get them so that they dont go to waste. Make some broccoli with butter & eat it alongside pasta. Or asparagus. Anything you want. Just make sure to have some with your meals sometimes. Greens are good. Additionally, carrots can get addicting if yoh eat them with ranch. The plus side is they are filling. If you have a tendency to want to munch on something: carrots.
Deli Meat / Sandwich Options: I personally dont make deli sandwiches because ham (as well as roast beef or turkey) can be expensive and then wanting to add lettuce and tomato to a sandwich sounds amazing but I'm scared they will spoil. Dont let me stop you though! Sandwiches are amazing.
Meat: you dont want to be cooking meat all the time bc it can get expensive, but the basics I always get are ground beef and chicken. I prefer "boneless skinless chicken thigh fillets" but you would need to cut off the fat. You could always get rotisserie if you arent feeling to for cooking. Also, if you're feeling expensive one week, salmon is just sooo good. I ate it with asparagus and seasoned with lemon. Delicious.
Snack / Dessert Options:
(I personally don't keep snacks or dessert in my home very often bc you dont want to binge eat. But here is what I have)
Peanut butter: classic, filling, can be potentially bad if you eat a shite ton
Nuts: peanuts, almonds, cashews, and especially pecans
Cookies: make your own, a lot of simple cookie recipes exist and it's a lot easier than you think. Baking essentials like flour, sugar, milk, and eggs are not that expensive to keep around in an apartment kitchen. Difficulties may be vanilla extract (the avg student doesnt have this lying around) a baking sheet, a big bowl, and possible a whisk. Store bought cookie dough isnt too bad either.
Box-cakes / box-brownies: simple and easy. Takes a few eggs sometimes and some oil, milk or water. The same goes for pancake mix. Honestly, I had an out-of-country roommate and he had never heard of boxed cake mix or brownie mix. They always made from scratch where he lived.
Low-calorie ice cream: okay ice cream can be pretty expensive and filled w/ added sugars. I used to eat this strawberry icecream sweetened with stevia and it was SO delicious, but I couldnt find that at my grocery store. Other options are "low-calorie" ice cream or "no added sugars" ice cream. I have one of these and the thing abt it is that its just the right amount of sugar to taste like ice cream and the neat thing is that you dont feel like binging it bc it doesnt have addicting added sugars.
Milkshakes / smoothies: this is a tough one bc me and most other students dont own a blender or juicer. I personally get my smoothies from a local smoothie place that only uses fresh fruit and then I ask not to add the natural sugars bc it is sweet enough with the fruit. Natural smoothies are delicious & I find that you can kind of make then if u freeze your fruits and blend w a fork. "Handmade" milkshakes are actually super easy w this method.
Yogurt: just...mmm.
"Healthy" snack food section, often called the gluten-free aisle: im not too experienced with this and im sure they have added sugars too but what I do know is I tried these gluten free oreos once and they were delicious
Fruits: I mentioned earlier but apples are great snacks
Veggies: also like I said earlier, carrots are great snacks. Not exactly a veggie but possibly potatoes for a meal or snack.
Granola Bars: for when youre too lazy to keep up with fruit and if fruit will spoil, granola bars (they healthy kind, not the chewy sugary kind) are so good to have in your pantry or keep in your backpack for a snack (and to keep you from on campus temptations). Also I used Nature Valley ones instead of cereal. They actually dissolve and are delicious with milk, since some cereals are so sugary.
Since my last college tips post got some notes I figured I'd keep writing these advice posts. For reference, I am hoping to become an RA next year at my college, so I'm not just speaking out of my ass. I generally have experience at college thus far and want to help students.
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OC background story//Secondary Characters
1: i’m aware they’re sorta boring in a sense (literally all 3/4 profile busts lol) but I couldn’t be bothered to get super detailed about them yet. I was trying to work out a look, and this is the quickest way lol. Lots of mistakes here, don’t focus on that. Just...jive with me.
2: idk that anyone is going to be interested, but i’m happy with my little babies! :) This kept me busy lol. 
Long post ahead!
Okay, so the band, Adria was formed sort of by accident. None of the members thought they were really going to get anywhere and were mostly just learning to play instruments and jamming to escape the pressures of adolescent life. 
Niri--her parents were very strict and proper. “Yes, sir. No, ma’am.” type people who do what they can to keep up appearances. Her father is a police detective and her mother was a homemaker after the birth of her children, but was once an attorney. They expected the same level of success from their children, having picked out career paths before the kids were even a speck in the womb. When Niri and her older brother showed excellence in academics, they moved to a new city, enrolling them in an academy that was known for churning out high level success stories--Politicians, Judges, CEO’s of major corporations...you get the drill. They were happy to practically go into debt forever if it meant their kids would be successful. 
Year 1...Enter KOU. 
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Kou’s dad was always business first. He expected his son to be the same. So much so that the day after the birth, he went out and bought a whole building to keep for his son, the future doctor, to house his practice. Being from an old money family, there was never a shortage of opportunities to rub elbows and make a way for this kid to be a success no matter what. Through years of primary education, he was a quiet kid, but there was something under the surface that loved to go against the flow of where his life was forced to travel. His mother passed when he was very young, but she was the reason he was able to have few moments of peace and fun. He and Niri were school rivals, fighting for the top spot on the scholar’s board, but...they wound up giving up the struggle when they realized they had a lot in common and neither really cared to pursue their parents’ dreams. They stopped attending after school programs and chose to graffiti and vandalize the building Kou’s dad bought while it was still empty. When they weren’t tagging, they were listening to “inappropriate music” and that soon became them teaching themselves to play the songs on instruments they bought...with Kou’s dad’s credit card. They didn’t sound bad after a while! 
One day, the pair skipped school altogether to avoid an exam they had not studied for. On their way out of the academy, they were tailed by someone they never expected would keep their secret so well...
KRISS
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Kriss and Kou are cousins. Their mothers were twins, so the two share a few features, but their personalities couldn’t be any more opposite. Where Kou is a grounded, sensible person, Kriss is carefree and...kind of an idiot. His mother raised him on her own and as a very open, artistic soul, she taught Kriss to always follow his heart and his dreams. He’s basically never been told “No” in his entire life. He was a very energetic kid, so his mother urged him to try out the drums (maybe it would tire him out enough for a nap) which he ended up falling in love with. It’s one of the few things he ever really kept an interest in despite being pretty flighty with his pursuits otherwise. Once he realized what his cousin was up to, he set up a drum kit within a few hours and was glued to their side ever since. 
Kriss’s mom is the only person who really believed in the band from the start. She would be a big help through their early years and to this day has a reserved spot to watch them play shows whenever she wants (usually stage right). 
Did I mention Kriss was part of the percussion section of the academy band? Well, it was more of an orchestra, but still. He felt there was something lacking in their sound during jam sessions so after a few weeks, he called up a few friends. 
Vash
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Vash is a complete wildcard. He’s the sweetest person you’ll ever meet, but it takes a while to realize that because his personality is quite...Sharp. He has no problem speaking his mind, never has, and he’s not afraid to call anyone on their BS. Does an expert job of providing entertainment with his outbursts. His first words when he dropped by the “clubhouse” were “so you expect me to play in this shit hole?” His mouth usually got him in trouble at school so he was somewhat happy to have something to occupy his mind so his mouth wouldn’t run so often. He’d been playing music for many many years, his parents both being famous musicians themselves, so he has mastered quite a few instruments and often provides backup vocals because “none of the rest of you dingbats can be trusted to stay on key.”
He is the glue that holds everything together and his honesty keeps everyone grounded. He expects everything to run smoothly and on time, so he was made leader of the band within the first hour. It’s effortless and he keeps his cool pretty well under pressure, but the one person who manages to make him snippy is Eri.  
ERI
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Eri is a mess of a human being in the most endearing way. He’s a walking contradiction and he loves to push buttons. He and Vash have been neighbors and best friends since they were born. They’re the Yin to each other’s Yang and act like an old married couple, always  disagreeing on the most basic things. It has never been an issue and the others love to watch a match go down. Where Vash is hands-on and always on track, Eri is laid back and couldn’t care less if something goes wrong. That’s not to say he’s not passionate about their dream, he’s just more of a “Things will happen as they happen, just go with the flow” type. His easygoing nature lends him a very grounded and rhythmic personality...perfect for a bassist. His favorite thing is spending time with friends and being able to just do what his soul calls him to do. He does, however, absolutely hate attention. It makes him feel pressured to act a certain way or do a certain thing and it just clashes with his entire vibe. He broke out in a rash when they got their first major gig and had to do a meet and greet. He loves his fans, but...can they not want pictures all the time? “I look awkward when I smile.” He really does. The boy doesn’t smile, it’s always a grimace. 
Eri’s dad owns a very successful restaurant and often got the band small gigs like birthdays and weddings that he was hired to cater for. He doesn’t understand what they’re hoping to do, but hey, the kids play some mean covers of songs he grew up on. Besides, if his son is happy, that’s good enough for him. 
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- For the first few years, they snuck around and the others lied for Niri and Kou when their parents had questions. They couldn’t say they weren’t all hanging out together, so once things got real, they moved their practices to Vash’s house since his parents had all the equipment they needed and didn’t really care one way or another about what was going on, too busy with tours and things.
Once they graduated, it was harder to cover. Niri came clean to her father, her mother having found out shortly before but promising to keep it quiet if she just quit and focused on school. Her father was furious and demanded she cut ties with her “hooligan friends” immediately as she was set to go to college and become a lawyer like her mother. Niri refused and was kicked out of her home after being called a failure of a child. This only fueled her fire to pursue her dream. She called Vash, mostly to cry in frustration, but he met her at the front of her neighborhood saying “I just felt something was up with your dumb self so I came by to check. Good thing I did. Let’s go, you’re moving in with me til we figure all this out.” The two soon became three when they got an apartment with Eri two months later. 
Kou had a similar experience once he told his father he didn’t want to be a doctor and had no plans to attend his father’s alma mater (which he only got into after his father wrote a very generous check being Kou’s grades had slipped to an abysmal level) he was removed from the premises by security, cut off financially, and removed from the will within 2 hours. The only thing he managed to keep (for a while anyway) was his car, so he hopped in and drove over to his aunt’s house and lived there for a while with her and Kriss. 
During this time, they still had small shows coming left and right. One night after a few years of a rough grind with no money and shitty daytime jobs, while playing a local club (that didn’t even pay them by the end of the set), they met a small time producer who liked their sound and asked them to record a demo. The producer played the demo to a group of friends that called a separate group of friends and eventually their little song made it to the ears of a real band who had an unexpected opening in their roster for an upcoming festival tour. Adria got the call and had to scramble to get their set list ready. It wasn’t anything big, just a side stage gig, but the more stops they played, the bigger the crowds they drew. 
When they made it home after several stops, they were met by the producer who found them, asked to record a whole album and from there they filmed a very low budget MV and soon after their first single was playing on the radio. They were asked to appear on small time local talk shows. They spread like wildfire once their second single dropped, played on stations nationwide. More MVs and a headlining tour followed with a second album set to drop. Kriss and Niri were asked to be part of a 6 episode arc on a popular TV drama and a second tour.  It was a tough climb, but they’ve been at it for 15 years. Niri and Kou did go back home at one point and faced their parents, attempting to make amends and build a bridge. Kou and his dad are in a much better place now, the old building they used to play around in was transferred into Kou’s name and they now use it as their recording studio/ band headquarters. 
Niri’s family reunion was a little less of a happy ending, in fact, it’s still a work in progress. Her mother apologized and they cried a little over the years missed, but her dad is a very tough man to get through to. He acknowledged he was harsh in his actions but still feels justified in what he did. He says if it weren’t for his tough love, Niri wouldn’t have felt the need to work so hard to get to this place in her life. He did at least say thank you when Niri handed him a check to cover the hit her parents’ savings took when her brother went to medical school. She has weekly calls and video chats with her mom and her brother often makes it out to shows and sends her snaps when he sees her on TV or hears the band on the radio. Her dad sometimes texts her “Heard your new song. It’s loud.” That’s his way of saying he's giving it a chance and doesn’t exactly hate it.
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tellywoodtrash · 4 years
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sanjivani 06 + 07.11.19 lbs
still cranky af coz i'm tired from yesterday and my cat won't stop screaming in my face FOR NO DISCERNIBLE REASON this morning and ughhhhhhhhhhh. so imma pay it forward and caps lock scream at these dumbasses.
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YEH INSAAN PAGAL HAI KYA, TERE KO KOIIIIIIIIIIIII AUR SOLUTION DIKHAAYI NAHI DE RAHA SIVAAYE KHUD US SE SHAADI KARNE KE!?!!?!? LIKE GOD SIDDHANT, YOU ARE SO FUCKING DUMB.
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le khaap panchayat bhi peeche pad gayi hai. LORD. THIS COUNTRY IS HONESTLY THE PITS WITH ITS DUMBASS PATRIARCHAL BULLSHIT.
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"main baat karunga ishani se; woh ek ladki hai, samajh jaayegi."
BC LADKI TOH MAIN BHI HOON AUR MUJHE TOH BILKUL BHI SAMAJH NAHI AA RAHA. KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA BAKCHODIIIIIIIII HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
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this dumbass is tooooooooo fucking pure for his own good. like........ itna bhi achcha nahi hona chahiye bande ko zindagi mein.
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waah. iska chehra dekho. kaisi ram milaaye jodi hai bewakoofon ki.
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ishani also too pure for her own good. but in a relatable sort of way, unlike that other idiot.
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oh madam, tere iss seal of approval/character certificate ka kya woh achaar daalega?!!?!? usski poori zindagi jhand ho gayi hai iss chakkar mein.
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ok if you've decided that this marriage is gonna work, etc. THEN STOP LOOKING AT EACH OTHER LIKE THIS.
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this chick is crazy. i get you're relieved he didn’t cheat on you and shit but........  maybe decades from now you can look back and marvel on what a great, noble man you loved, but this is a weird reaction to have right now.
ok fwding this patient’s incredibly-on-the-nose-shaayari nonsense, coz i'm really pissed now.
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le poora corridor ghoom phir ke phir se wapis idhar hi aa gayi. 2 minute pehle toh bada aashirwaad de rahi thi iss shaadi ko. MAKE UP YOUR MIND SIS.
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ugh lo yeh bhi aa gaya.
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MANHOOS.
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siddhu should claim surging newlywed/paternal hormones and throw a punch or two at this asshole.
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WAIT WHAT HAS THIS FUCKER SHIFTED HIS REVENGE FROM SHASHANK TO SID?!!?!?!? WHY?!!?!?!? THE FUCK IS GOING ONNNNNNNNNNNNN?????
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waaaaaaah kya khush-haaal jodi hai. should be a real healthy and conducive environment to raise a kid in!
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wow. EVERYONE KNOWS THE WHOLE DEAL WITH SID AND ASHA NOW. like..... there's no keeping a secret in this hospital huh. 
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oh ab issko bada empathy hai bin byaahi maa-on ke saath. ROSHNI KE SAATH KYA KAAND KIYA THA BE!?!?!?! BOL! SACH BOL!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ugh stupid red herring. goddddddddddd when will they reveal this raaz already!?!?
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lol sid's in the (left) corner in this shot, and then disappears in this next.
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snort, ishani has ZEROOOOOOOOOO of that 4 lions awareness thingy huh??? banda 4 feet peecha khada hai and she's most focused on her gale ki kharaash.
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LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HE SURPRISED HER AND MADE HER CHOKE. HAVEN'T YOU DONE ENOUGH TO RUIN HER LIFE, DUMBASS?!!?!
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"god, tum choke kar rahi ho?!?!?! JUST BREATHE."
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, WOHI TOH NAHI HO RAHA?????? YOU THINK SHE’S A WILLING PARTICIPANT IN THIS HERE EXERCISE OF NOT BEING ABLE TO PERFORM THE ESSENTIAL PROCESS OF BREATHING????? KAUN HAI YAAR YEH BEWAKOOF?!?! SHAADI KARTE TIME MEDICAL KI DEGREE RADDI MEIN BECH AAYA KYA?!?! YA HAWAN KUND MEIN PHENK DIYA AUR USSI KE PHERE LAGAAYE THE TUNEY?
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lmao this is the worst, most unconvincing heimlich i have ever seen.
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uh. no. this is NOT a romantic moment.
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oh no. the tone shifted and it BECAME a romantic moment. fuck. just either make out or move the fuck to the two furthest corners of the elevator. THIS TENSION IS FUCKING INSANE.
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oh god this boy's unrelenting sadness is killing me. it's bloody killing me. i think i might have to double my dose of antidepressants while this fucking track is on.
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boss!dad is so sad and disappoint that his ship crashed and burnt so spectacularly. he’s been here since before everyone else, when ishani was manically describing her titli and abnormal heartbeat!!!!!! :’(((((((((((
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lmaoooooooooooo i wish anjali was here to hear shashank giving this personal life/professional life balance ka lecture. bada mazzaaa aaata!
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boss!dad ki umeedein sidIsha pe abhi bhi kaayam. saying kuch aur nahi toh dost hi bano ishani ka.
dunno if that’s such a good idea right now, dad. maybe in time, once the feelings aren’t so raw.
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GOD PLEASE ISKO ISKI KHUSHIYAAN WAPIS DE DO. ISKA GHAM AUR JHELA NAHI JAATA. CHEHRA DEKHO BECHAARE KA!!!!!!!!!!! I’M THIS CLOSE TO TEARS. HE’S A GENUINELY GOOD BEAN AND DESERVES BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!
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oh ho ab inka date dekhna hoga.
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juhi is like life mein kabhi kabhi go with the flow. shashank is like "kabhi kabhi kya, hamesha."
haan hamesha aise flow kar-karke hi yeh nateeja nikal aaya hai; pata nahi kitna jaane-anjaane bachche of yours are running around here at any given moment.
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................... so ambiguous. is this a romantic saath or is this a platonic saath?? LIKE THE FUCK IS THE DEAL WITH YOU TWO?!!? JUST DTR ALREADY.
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purest boys. love you two.
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tu haraami hai. but love your face.
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bleh.
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lmao rahil can't muster up neil's civil graciousness towards sidAsha.
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kameeeeeeeeeeeeena insaan. bohut hi bada keeda hai tu.
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rahil yaaar. i love your petty ass so much. you're honestly my favt person on this godforsaken show.
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"kaash yeh sapna hota."
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"kaash yeh sab ek jhoot hota. kaash sab kuch pehle jaise hota. (hum) iss tarah saamne nahi, saath khade hote."
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OH HO. FORESHADOWING KI YEH SAB JHOOT HI TOH HAIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YISSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!
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RISHABH I SWEAR TO GOD....... TU ITNAAAAAAAAAAA KAMEENA KYUNNNNNNNN HAIIIIIIIII????? BHAGWAN KO BHI EK DIN MOOH DIKHAANA HAI, KUCH TOH SHARAM KAR?!?!!!!!
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while neil continues to make an effort, rahil continues to make no pretense of approving of sidAsha. he just wandered the fuck off, lol.
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OUFF SAD BEBBIES. SO SAD THEY ARE.
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grey is really this one's colour. he looks hottesttttttttt in it. it brings out his eyes/skin tone most spectacularly.
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oh ab suddenly Awareness™ (*khushi kumari gupta's voice correcting me from the skies* “ACIDITY!!!!!”) jaag utha.
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SOMEONE EXPLAIN TO ME WHO THE FUCK IS SETTING OFF FIREWORKS RIGHT OVER A FUCKING HOSPITAL??????? like it's no metaphor or anything, since they've been going off since even before he appeared before her.
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the fluctuating of the lights is majorlyyyyyyyyy distracting. it's not just the fairy lights, but even the huge lamps behind them.... those should.... NOT be doing that.
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IDIOTS. STOP LOOKING AT EACH OTHER LIKE THAT AND MAKING ME WANT TO DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
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simultaneous "i love you."
wow, inappropriate but also AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH [screams till the end of time]
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ugh vardhan you're such a loserrrrrrrrrr. get a goddamn life. it's diwali; shouldn't you be with your kid, instead of sitting here alone in your office in the dark?????
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"i love you, ishani. i really do. bohut pyaar karta hoon main tumse."
BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITCH I AM DESTROYED. I AM FUCKING...... LYING ON THE FLOOR IN PIECES. THIS IS JUST SO FUCKING SAD.
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"surgery mein kabhi kabhi humein ek pal mein faisla lena pad jaata hai. fayda-nuksaan, sahi-galat ke baare mein nahi soch sakte. uss ek pal mein patient ki jaan kaise bachaaye? bass ussi tarah, uss din asha aur uske bachche ki jaan bachaane ke liye, mujhe jo sahi laga maine wohi kiya. main ek doctor hoon, apne saamne ek ladki aur uske bachche ko main marte kaise dekh sakta tha???"
ugh siddhanttttttttttttttttt yaaaaaaar, TU ITNA ACHCHA KYUN HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII?????? ZINDAGI KUCHAL KE RAKH DETI HAI TUM JAISO KO YAAR.
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ok some hardcore 2000s k-soap editing happening here and taking me outta the moment.
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iska naatak abhi tak khatam nahi hua.
SO VARDHAN KNOWS THAT SID IS SHASHANK'S KID???? WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT IS HAPPENING HERE???? WHY GO THIS COMPLICATED AND TWISTED ROUTE INSTEAD OF JUST EXPOSING THAT TRUTH TO EVERYONE????? SUCH CONTRIVED BS!!!!!!
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GOD SIDDHANT, YOU FUCKING NEED THERAPY. THROWING YOUR WHOLEASS LIFE AWAY TO TRY AND PROTECT A RANDOM UNBORN CLUMP OF CELLS IS NOT THE WAY TO FUCKING DEAL WITH YOUR DADDY ISSUES.
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THIS IS NOT HOW I WANTED YOU GETTING ON YOUR KNEES IN FRONT OF HERRRRRRRRRR BUT YES, BEG. BEGGGGGGGGG FOR FORGIVENESS YOU FUCKING DUMBASSSSSSSSS.
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bitch, uske tumpar chillane se kya haasil hona hai???? poori zindagi ujaad rakhi hai tuney apne iss Benevolent Bewakoofi™ se.
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PHIR I LOVE YOU BOLA. A REAL PASSIONATE ONE THIS TIME. THIS GUY IS FUCKING TRYING TO KILL ME. OF FEELZ AND SADNESS. I'M LITERALLY SO SAD RIGHT NOW.
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"i'll always love you.... main..."
FUCK THIS GUY IS REALLY TRYING TO FUCKING MURDER ME MAN.
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"pehle toh main pyaar karti thi, ab aur karne lagi hoon. aur yeh pyaar zaroor badhega hi."
ASLKDJSALKDJASLDKJAJD LET THEM BEEEEEE TOGETHERRRRRRRRRRRR THIS IS JUST SO FUCKING UNFAIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR *SHAKES A FIST AT THE SKY*
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"kya kamaal ki niraasha phaila rakhi hai tumne sanjivani mein. tumhare maa-baap ne tumhara naam galat rakh diya, haina dr. asha?"
ugh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar. first of all we have such few female characters here, mardon se bloody bhara pada hai show. upar se iss ek achche compelling female character ka poora ka poora satyanaaash kar diya. main kabhi maaf nahi karoongi writers ko.
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blah blah zimmedaari waala gyaan aur amar prem ke vaade, while im just looking at the poor fit of namit's pants in the butt. someone tailor that shit for him. (or don’t. i find pancake butts on hot boys kinda adorable.)
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"tumne usse nahi, uski achchaayi ne usse phasaaya."
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badaaaaaaaaaaaaa hi kameena insaan hai tu vardhan. narak ki aag mein jalega. if ishani herself doesn't set you on fire in the sanjivani lobby first.
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perhaps asha will do the honors? looks toh aise hi de rahi hai. all the best asha. that's one way you can redeem yourself in everyone’s eyes, sis.
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"pehle toh main sirf aapse pyaar karti thi. ab hadh se zyaada izzat karti hoon."
lmao ishani admitting that she didn't have any khaas izzat for him earlier.
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OUFF ISS PRIDE AUR PYAAR KA KYA HI KARNA HAI IF YOU'RE NOT GETTING CHUMMIS AND/OR ORGASMS OUT OF IT????? GODDDDDDDD. AB TOH ~~~PRIDE KE SAATH~~ APNA HAATH, JAGGANNATH HI HAI TUM DONO BEWAKOOFON KE LIYE, AGLE JANAM TAK.
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fuck this episode is..... too much on me. i'm just hella glad that my period is over, or i would slip into a serious depressive episode over this.
but just..... LOOK AT IT. LOOK AT THE WAY HE CAN’T HELP REACHING OUT TO HOLD HER FACE, THEY BOTH KNOW IT’S INAPPROPRIATE AND ARE TRYING TO RESTRAIN THEMSELVES, BUT HE STILL CAN’T STOP TRYING TO PHYSICALLY COMFORT HER (BECAUSE TOUCH IS HIS LOVE LANGUAGE, IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN.) AND HE CAN’T COZ HE SHOULDN’T AND HE’S DYING ON THE INSIDE BECAUSE OF IT.
I AM IN LEGIT PHYSICAL PAIN FROM SADNESS RIGHT NOW.
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i wanna hate asha, but i can't. coz i can really empathize and understand the desperation with which she wants to hold on to her current life, against the forces of patriarchy trying to crush her free will so brutally .
ok maybe i hate her a little, if she'll listen to this fucker and actively make sid's life hard, moreso than what has already transpired.
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MAN WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM GOD I NEED ISHANI AND ANJALI TO TEAM UP AND KICK THIS ASSHOLE'S ASSSSSSSSSSS FOR MESSING WITH THEIR LIVES AND THE LIVES OF THEIR DUDES (DAD/BROTHER/BOYFRIEND) SO BADLYYYYYYYYYYY
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tell me sidIsha ke andar ke detectives phir jaag uthenge and will resolve this bullllllllllllshit within next weeeeeek, COZ I HONESTLY HAVE AN ANXIETY TUMMY ACHE RN.
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taeyuung · 5 years
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Back To Life🌞🌧
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Stoner!mark x Terminallyill!reader
not proofread!!!!!
warnings: mentions of underage drugs & alcohol, heavy talk abt illness’s, death, major sad boy hours
genre: angst, fluff if u rub ur eyes
bulleted au!
so you and mark have been friends for about two years
you both met on the night of your fifteenth birthday,, when you couldn’t sleep after trying for about two hours
you threw on an oversized hoodie and sweats,,, courtesy of your big brother jaehyun
you quietly ventured outside and snook around to the back of your house where there was a small park, that no one except you and your family knew about
so you thought lol
as you were walking along the path, you saw a cloud of smoke puff into the air and float away
you were beyond confused because?? who could that be??
you continued walking along the path, which crossed them anyway
when you reached them, you saw who it was beneath the black beanie pulled snugg over their head
it was mark lee
local stoner boy who got away with anything because his dad was head police officer
yes cliche whatever
n e way, local stoner boy is what you called him
you always kind of disliked him
not because of something he had done
but he always seemed to have a cocky aura or something
you had never talked to him very much before until then
he noticed you standing there and looked up at you
“can i help you?”
“nah, can i sit?” you said hoping for some company that night
“yeah sure uh i guess” he scoots up on the bench and dabs out his cigarette bud
“im y/n”
“mark, mark lee”
he would never forget that night, the way you smiled at him when you introduced yourself, a real smile.
that night you literally spent like five hours up talking and you exchanged numbers ofc
ever since, you and mark would meet at that bench every other night
he would be smoking or occasionally drinking, depending on his mood
he opened up to you about the difficulties in his life amd you would do the same to him
never in your life would you had expected to see local stoner boy, mark lee, so vunerable
he would often cry on your shoulder, you was his bestfriend and he was yours.
it was when you hadn’t shown up for almost a week around your seventeenth birthday, mark began to worry
you would text him and say you had “too much studying” or you were “too tired”
a bunch of bs tbh
you were just sick, your parents wrote it off as a common cold or migraines
your head would pulsate with pain and your vision often became blurry
but you didn’t want mark catching your sickness, so you decided to come up with excuses
bc if you told him you were sick, he would be straight to you in a heartbeat with whatever you needed
on the second week of you not turning up, mark decided to visit you
he felt quilty that he had done something wrong to offend you, thats why you wouldnt meet him
so, as he walked through the door
your parents out of town and your brother in college
he didn’t hear a sound and assumed you were just asleep
but when he opened you bedroom door he noticed you slim figure sprawled across your carpeted floor, you had collapsed
mark had seen you go through some of the toughest times, he’d seen you cry for hours on his shoulder and he’d seen you scream and shake in anger
but this sight had broken his heart into a million tiny pieces, your body was so thin and skeletal, you truly looked like death itself
his eyes welled up as he picked up your body off of the floor and went to his old tattered jeep
he gently put you in the car, afraid of your fragile state and drove quickly to the hospital
that was the day you were disgnosed with astrocytoma, also known as cancer of the brain
they had told you it was a growing tumour that clutched itself around your brain and you would need surgery as soon as possible
that brings us to here
four months in the hospital and tumour free
except you had to stay there because you needed to receive radiotherapy to make sure the tumour was dead
mark visits everyday
and its around the time he should be coming in-
“yo yo mark lee in the house- wait room?- hospital?”
“i’m a fingers length away from pressing the security button lee” you threatened
he chuckled and walked over to you
“not if i slap it away from you”
“im not paralysed mark i can just get it”
“whatever, you’re no fun” he complained
and you laughed at his whining voice as he climbed in the bed next to you
even though the bed is a single bed, mark would always climb in beside you and cuddle or just enjoy you by his side
“how were the kids today?” you say refering to the dreamies
“they wanted to come and visit with me but i told them no because you didn’t eat today and would probably eat them”
you slap him and shake your head “mark! don’t scare them like that they’re gonna think im mean!”
he just laughs at your poor hit and reaction
you had been introduced to the dreamies when you befriended mark
you and mark called them your kids because they practically were
they did come to visit alot, they instantly took a liking to you because they felt safe in your presence
“you’re ridiculous mark lee, im going to tell the security guards, the next time they see your face make sure not to let you in here”
“yeah okay, whatever y/n. you love me too much to never see me again” he made kissy noises and laughed as you also laughed and pretended to gag
as weeks went on mark kept visiting and so did the dreamies
and you had your regular radiotherapy appointments to kill the tumour
but suddenly your hearing was more sensitive, making you having to tell mark to be more quieter
your headaches came back
your vision was becoming more and more delayed over time
returning from your radiotherapy appointment, you see mark sitting on your bed and you climb in next to him
“heyyy bestfriend, how was your day?” he asks
“oh my god, martin from floor five was singing in around the ward today and i swear to god. i’m not the best singer ever but man that man is tone deaf”
mark laughed and scrunched his nose, the laugh you love so much filling the room you hate so much.
you went on about martin from fifth floors atrocious singing sessions before Dr.Kim came in and smiled at you sweetly
“hello y/n, i come bearing news”
you and mark sit up
“i-i’m afraid its not good either” he frowns at the two giddy smiles he sees before him, they are quickly turned into frowns too
“it’s your tumour, the radiotherapy was going extremely smooth until we hit a lump earlier today, im so sorry. your tumour is back and it would be extremely dangerous to operate.”
that was all it took for you to let out the tears you had built up
you were finally cancer free, a survivor.
until this news hit you like a tonne of weights straight to the side of your head
not only you but the black haired boy sotting on your left
he felt his own pool of tears stream down his face as the doctor walked out
you shook in absolute devastation and shouted
flailing your arms around in hope to release your anger
as mark pulls you close to him, his arms wrapped securely around your waist and your head pressed to his chest
his head lay ontop of yours and he pressed small kisses to your hair as you cried for what seemed like years
he whispers small encouragements into your ear but you knew it was over, and so did he
his voice cracked with every syllable spoken, he truly was terrified.
over the next days mark stayed there with you, you knew it was because he was afraid
everyone was now
it was just one day
when mark had gone to the hospitals cafeteria to get a muffin
you really started to feel sick
you could barely see straight and by the time mark came back
your lips were stained red and pale from where you had coughed up blood just minutes before he walked in
he dropped the muffin and ran to be by your side
immediately handing you tissues and wiping the blood from your chapped lips
“hey, hey it’s okay” he would say as he got up frantically to call for a nurse
“m-mark, don’t. please don’t”
he would be so confused, wanting to get you help as soon as it could arrive
but you were too tired of fighting
you just wanted to spend the next minutes with the person you loved
“w-what? y/n you need to be helped, i-i don’t understand” he would stutter as his eyes welled up and he slowly walked over to your side
he grabs your hand and kisses it softly, scared of you breaking
you shake your head gently and just smile
“just, sing for me mark”
you lay back and turn your head to face him
smiling weakly
he would be so heartbroken
but he knew how much you loved his voice when he sang
how soft it would be
how raw and full of emotion it sounded
so thats what he would do
sing your favourite tune as the tears streamed down his sharp cheekbones
you also crying, never thinking you’d be in this position
after he would finish
he would sob and apologise for not noticing sooner how ill you had become but you just closed your eyes, becoming too weak to keep them open
“m-mark, listen to me. take care of the dreamies for me, let them know i love them and i’ll always be right by their side. and as f-for you mister mark lee, my bestfriend, my whole wide world, the love of my life. p-please look after yourself, acheive your goals and promise me one thing” you open your eyes to look at him
“anything” he responded with a shaky voice and a sob that broke your heart
“continue to grow and love after me, it’s all i ask for. i want you to enjoy your life, even if it’s not for you, do it for me” you smile and then cough violently until you can barely see straight
mark reaches up and strokes your hair as a small sad smile etches itself onto his lips
“i love you y/n, you will forever be my angel. it’s okay, you can rest now. go to sleep y/n, i’ll see you in my dreams yeah?”
your eyes close, for the last time
he kisses your head gently and sobs into your shoulder
squeezing your hand, knowing you had rested
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ladywithoutababy · 3 years
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IVF Transfer #1: 41 weeks pregnant
Did you know you can be 10 months pregnant? How about 10 and a half? Because for first time babies, the average length of pregnancy is 41 weeks and 3 days. (We did not know this.)
Logically, I know how averages work, and that I should have been prepared to have my baby at 41 weeks and 3 days, or even later. Emotionally, I’ve been having a breakdown in slow motion since we passed our “due date” (absolute bs) a week ago.
Here’s what it’s like to be 41 weeks pregnant:
I’d always heard that people who go past their due date think the baby is never going to arrive, and didn’t understand why that would be your reaction. But now, as with so many fertility/pregnancy tropes, I get it. It’s not like a hyperbolic expression (”this baby’s never going to come out lol”) – I’ve literally been starting to fear that this is an indication that something is wrong, or that there never was a baby in there in the first place, and that after all this I won’t get to have a baby after all. I know this is irrational. I don’t know how to convince my brain that it’s irrational. I wonder if this is common for people who’ve gone through infertility. I feel totally insane.
I’m already two weeks into my maternity leave because I was terrified of not being ready in case the baby came early (ha). I'm anxious and bored because I can’t distract myself with work, and can’t stop thinking about the leave time that I’m “wasting”. Everyone keeps telling me it’s not a waste and I should enjoy this time and when the baby’s here I’ll wish I could go back in time to when I had nothing to do, but that’s like when you’re in college and grownups keep telling you to enjoy it because after college you have to be an adult – doesn’t really work in the moment, does it?
Speaking of everyone, a big hallmark of going past your due date is every person you’ve ever met texting you on a daily basis to ask incredulously if you’re still pregnant. I know they’re trying to help (and on some level, it does help my mental state to have people checking in), but it just adds to the feeling that there’s something wrong with me and that I owe everyone an explanation for why this is taking so long.
The pelvic pain. My god. I wish I had the words to describe this. Well, I guess it feels like a large baby head is resting on my pelvis at all times. It started as discomfort maybe a month ago and has progressed into constant pain. I can’t sit comfortably, especially for long periods of time. I can’t lay on my back because then my organs get crushed. Laying on my side feels ok but then is excruciating when I have to shift positions or sit up (because it moves all that weight right back on top of my poor pelvis). My pelvic bones now click when I sit up, apparently because ligaments are loosening and they’re just rattling around in there. I know, gross. I keep telling myself this is all part of my body getting ready – it’s a good thing if my ligaments are “loose” (ew) – but see bullet #1.
My fingers are swollen, like everyone said they would be, but they also hurt; I’m not sure if this is because I’m predisposed to arthritic joint pain or if this is a normal late pregnancy thing for everyone.
I’m so mad at my husband. Just all the time. He’s trying his best (and he’s been really an angel throughout this whole pregnancy), but there’s unfortunately not a whole lot he can do to make me more comfortable or less crazy, and I think we’re both just out of patience at this point. TEN MONTHS IS SUCH A LONG TIME. 
I’ve been going into the doctor weekly since 37 or 38 weeks, and at 39 weeks they started doing a weekly non-stress test (”NST”) where they make sure the baby’s heart rate accelerates when he moves, and an ultrasound to check his size and my amniotic fluid. I think normally you don’t start doing this until 40 or 41 weeks, but because I’m “advanced maternal age” (omg 35 so old 🙄) they started early. I have my 41 week appointment today, and will have to talk to them about scheduling an induction – they don’t like you to go past 42 weeks, especially if you’re over 35. Look ladies, I don’t like to go past 42 weeks either.
I had always thought of induction as a no-brainer, like an easy out once you get tired of being pregnant, but there really don’t seem to be any of those when it comes to fertility and pregnancy. Everything has risks, so you end up constantly weighing pros and cons and never knowing if you’re making the “right” decision. Apparently if you get induced, it can mean more pain, longer labor, higher risk of bleeding, higher risk of other interventions which each carry their own risks for you and the baby, etc etc. So, while the induction is tempting because it would give me a hard date to look forward to, I’m still hoping this baby decides to show up on his own.
Yes, there are also “natural” induction methods. (Wow, you can really tell how grouchy I am by how many quotes I use in a blog post, huh?) Most of them – eating dates, drinking raspberry leaf tea, acupuncture, suppositories – don’t seem to have any real evidence that they work. And the ones that do have some (low) rate of success are incredibly unappealing. Are you ready? They are:
A membrane sweep, where your doctor “separates the membrane that surrounds your baby from the lower part of your uterus down by your cervix“. It’s painful, can lead to non-constructive contractions that just make you uncomfortable and unable to sleep, can break your water in a way that requires emergency medical intervention, and doesn’t work the majority of the time.
Sex, which everyone recommends but then immediately follows up with the caveat that you probably don’t feel like having sex, and when they were pregnant they either couldn’t bring themselves to do it, or they did it and had a horrible time (everyone I know who’s managed to do it in their final weeks of pregnancy only did it once, which should give you an idea of how fun it is). Also, this doesn’t work the majority of the time.
Nipple stimulation. I swear to god, if one more person suggests this, I’m going to... I don’t know what. But I would really like people to stop suggesting it. First of all, stop talking about my nipples. Secondly, I can’t imagine anything less annoying right now than someone stimulating my nipples. Thirdly, this doesn’t work the majority of the time. Fourthly, when it does work, it’s after stimulating nipples for TWO HOURS PER DAY.
The whole thing is really kind of funny, isn’t it.
And that’s that. I’ve been pregnant forever. I’m not complaining. I still feel very grateful to be pregnant. But it’s weird how even at this point, the actual “baby” still seems hypothetical. I hope he becomes real soon.
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Do you like the name Skylar? I like the name only for the Breaking Bad character because Skylar was a total badass. I would never consider it for my kid’s name, though. Are you allergic to any dogs? Thankfully no. My arms embrace all dogs...except chihuahuas and pugs. What's your favorite type of smoothie? I hate smoothies. Do you go out to eat often? I keep it to a limit of two times a week. Have you ever touched a plant and had hives shoot up your arm? No. I’ve heard similar stories from grade school so I never tried to do anything with plants back then.
Do you own a shirt with a reindeer on it? Definitely not. Have you ever used an Epi Pen? I have never heard of that on this side of the world. What is the meaning of your first name? Apparently it means bright or fame. Wish it could give me just that when I get older hahaha. Do you enjoy snow? I’ve never experienced snow, but I like to believe I would be a winter person. Do you think dragonflies are cool? No. Too many of them where I live, and I hate them. What's your favorite thing to draw? I don’t draw. Do you sketch in the margins of your notebooks? Not sketch but yeah I write on them. I’ll sometimes write lyrics or practice my script or just write down random names. Do you read the Bible regularly? We were required to do so in my Catholic education and it was the worst. I’ve never opened a Bible or acknowledged religion since the second I graduated high school. What's a game that you play often? Well my friends and I play Never Have I Ever a lot, either with alcohol or nah. Do you try to avoid stress? If so, how? I do but with anxiety permanently drilled in me it’s not easy at all to avoid. Is Halloween your favorite holiday? YES. Do you get complimented or insulted more? Complimented. Do you make bucket lists? I sometimes do when I’m bored but I never take them seriously. Have you crossed any times off your bucket list yet this year? Do you have allergies? Nope. What's your favorite store to shop at? Thrift shops for clothes HAHAHAHAHA. I buy from H&M too. Do you ever shop online?: Just for food and flowers. I haven’t bought clothes off the Internet because 1) I’m too stingy with my money and spending on clothes is too much for me, and 2) I’m always paranoid about the item not being a perfect fit. Do fairytales interest you at all? No. I hated them even when I was a kid learning how to read. What decade were you born in? '90′s. What was your favorite dress up day during Homecoming Week? We don’t have a Homecoming Week here. Did you toss your hat in the air at graduation? My high school has a different traditional uniform for that. I don’t think people wear hats in UP graduations, either. Does it usually take you awhile to recover from illnesses? No. Literally takes me hours. Do you pray a lot? Not at all. Do you believe you have angels watching over you? No, ew. Have you ever had a doctor hug you and pray for you? That’s the creepiest thing and aren’t they prohibited from doing that? Have you ever had a doctor be rude to you? UGH YEAH. And it was a doctor who was supposed to check on my mental well-being on my first day in my future university while I was particularly feeling like shit, nonetheless. I hated that day. What's your favorite way to relax? Surveys are always lovely. Wordscapes helps too, and playing with my dog. Do you enjoy writing? Yes, especially if I had to write about something I enjoy. Do you ever multi-task? I’m in college. I’m practically taking up BS Multitasking. Do you try to avoid conflict? Yes. Do you wish you had someone to talk to? I already have a bunch of people to talk to. I’m very fortunate in that aspect. How are you making the most of your life? I have a fulfilling relationship? a fulfilling org? a fulfilling role in that org? good grades? a bunch of friends that I would drop anything for? I hope that counts. Are you happy with your life right now? I’m never satisfied about it, so. Do you dwell more on the negative or the positive? As depressed as I am, I super hate pessimism and try to look at what’s good.  Do you believe things are going to get better? I mean yeah I’m holding on to that a whole lot. That’s what I hope happens in like five years. Are you a world changer? I could only hope I’m doing enough to be calling myself one. Do you believe in the quote, "Be the change you wish to see in the world"? It’s true but I’m just so personally tired of hearing the same quote used over and over again lol. Do you love camping? I think I would as long as everything went smoothly, I have all the materials I need down to the last matchstick, and my friends are with me. Would you rather get married outside or inside? Inside, please. Wouldn’t want to sweat my makeup off, have the wind ruin my hair, or be splashed with beach water. Would you live in a castle if you could? No. Do you make the most of your life? I try to. Are you happy? I feel attacked by this question every single time it shows up. How many people do you have who care about you? A lot. Do you miss being young and having someone to care for you when you're sick? Whenever I got sick as a kid it was always apparently my fault, so can’t relate to this question. What's your favorite flavor of soup? Mushroom soup. Do you buy souvenirs? Only in foreign countries. Do you like fudge? Sure. Do you have new health problems now that you didn't as a kid? Yeah, my back problems say hi. How old are you? 19. How old do you look? 15 most days. Do you like the way you look? Sure, but I hate how thick and frizzy my hair can get. Do you eat healthy and exercise? Nope. What's a magazine that you enjoy reading? I haven’t read magazines in a long time. Do you read novels regularly? I don’t anymore.
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raptorreels · 6 years
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Deliver Us From Evil (2014)
a note from the future: more like deliver us from this script. If I had to endure this movie, you have to read about me enduring this movie
also good ol gore warning and one pic of a pretty gross dead cat prop becasue the FX department were the only people who did some fucking work on this movie that is in any way effective
Gotta love how every possession movie since the exorcist insists on having a backstory scene in the Middle East.
Someone fire the sound editor please.
That is zero percent how emt's work
It's not just the start scene. Somebody should seriously have cut the Blatty estate a fcking check for this
Gotta love this complex cinematic language. You know it's a bad neighborhood when they make fingerguns at you and the women are wearing tiny shorts. Such bad. Much decay.
Your radar is gay.
Wow this must be fiction, there's an immediate and effective response to domestic violence and the victim isn't coverin for the abuser.
“that's enough for christ's sake this isn't batman”  CALLED OUT, BRUCE. Yeah geeze guy put on some bat ears before you beat the shit out of suspects
you know he's Intense because he owns a punching bag and it's Worn. Definitely intensity and not a sign you spent a whole fifteen dollars at the goodwill.
What kind of weirdo gets a shot of whiskey in the middle of a run???? Introducing: the weirdest alocholic.
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Oh nooo it's a menacing owl.
For a big budget movie, this shit watches like something a film student put together while hungover for a last-minute participation grade in a contest of how many half-baked cliches they can sew together.
Alcoholic jogger is a jesuit. Hokay then.
This is so. Badly. Written. Like not even at the plot level, just at the everyday klunky ass 'noone on god's green earth speaks like that' level. And there hasn't been a decent extra yet.
The only good thing about this movie are the references. The Doors, Larry Byrd and the Addams Family already.
These guys are terrible cops. Fucking calling people whackjobs to their faces, fucking assholes. And calling everybody whackjobs too, not just the clearly drug addicts. Like no bro their house got broken into that's not crazy. Fuck off.
“You wanna read him his rights or shoot him while he's down.” funny line, made funnier by my desperation to enjoy SOMETHING about this movie other than eric bana's pleasantly handsome face.
Yeah leave your partner alone in the creepy basement, that's both procedure and always ends we
i'm not a doctor but that doesn't look great
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gaaaaaaaaaaaasp not someone wearing a hoodie in the fall. Real sinister intent there.
Ok from personal experience, moble radios pic up weird static all the time
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WELL THEN. and okay i also had to cap this because it’s a great fucking creepy prop, and i can’t believe it got wasted on this shitty as movie.
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this guy is cute but he can. Not. Act. Bana is phoing it in half the time too, which I cannot blame him for, this script is a total fucking disaster. From a wtf-ass plot all the way down to wtf-is-this-dialogue. It's like they shredded the pilot scripts of a hundred dumb horror tv shows, threw in a buddy cop comedy and just taped together any line that immediately made a normal human roll their eyes.
Drank TWO QUARTS of paint thinner. Jesus christ.
Well at least they have the dysfnctional cop homelife down. Insert bitter authorial cops-kid laugh.
Could they really not afford any decent fill cast???? none can deliever a line without it sounding like telepromted BS
“a combat videographer”
sure let's run through the stock creepy sound loops, regardless of whether it makes sense. Everything is creepy if you turn off the lights, right?
“upstairs is for the disturbed, down here is for the dangerous and deranged” that is. Zero percent how it works.
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When you stick your arm in the crazy chick's cell, you don't get to be shocked when she tries to bite it off. Also, with all the biting that goes in this movie you would think it would turn out to Mean Something. It does not. We get closeups for it for no fucking reason at all.
Rough and tumble street cop recognizes latin immediately when he hears it. Shit son I took latin for three years and I couldn't pick it up like that.
“they might kill me slowly but they won't kill me fast” I feel that
“persian pictographs” you couldn't even be assed to find some, those are literally egyptian
this movie is just. It's so bad.
I can't.
“i don't wanna talk abou it” you JUTS SAID you thought something was wrong!!! with you!!!  how is that NOT an invitation/request to talk about it???? ffs
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well that's not great
“those who are suspetable become possessed” by seeing some bad dog latin and cribbed ancient egyptian? No discussion of what susptible means, either. Fuck world building, we stumble through this bullshit plot like men.
I always deeply dislike the “serious evil has no rhym or reason” bullshit it doesn't
oh look, the partner reappears. Now taking bets on his remaining lifespan.
What child has EVER enarestly earned a fucking jakc in the box
“do you have a crucifix in your home?” “we're italian, what do you think?” is THAT the fucking accent you were doing? Fuck I thought that was some bad third generation irish-american shit.
You gonna get eat by a demon and you still can't talk about your feels? Big. Mood.
His magic power is literally that he can hear the soundtrack.
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Guys guys. Guys it's a CLOWN jack in the box. Literally WHAT CHILD????????
gotta give it up to the FX folks at least, they're the only ones who showed up to work for this movie:
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man the reports this guy files must be great. I once filled out five pages of explanation about having to replace a blown tire, I don't even wanna think about what cops who leave the scenes of crime scenes they just called in have to file.
Nice of the cinamatographer to finally show up to work
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“well do the exorcism now” “what the fuuuuck”  giggles
and now we pretend we aren't the exorcist again. Badly.
“god knows your name, knows your number.”  your.....number???
“oh. My. Fuck.” at least we get a realistic response to an exorcism from an onlooker. And oh, I know what you're thinking. Surely this guy watching will be relevant to the plot. Does the demon jump into him? Is he the after-credits scare? Will he later get this cop in trouble for this unauthorized shit? N o p e. It's just a fucking thing that exists to pad out this excerable script.
That's not the Clash, that's The Doors. (this movie doesn't deserve a better joke)
qick and dirty exorcisms, five minutes or less
that movie was so. Bad. Eric Bana you failed me.
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@thin fatphobes, cont.
[I didn’t want to make this post too long, but I’ve got more to say, so...]
[[Also I want to clarify that I’m not vague-ing at anyone currently in my life. A post about fatphobia reminded me of a thin cis gay guy who lived in my apartment and was fatphobic, and apparently I still have a lot to say. So this is a general post, but inspired by shit he said/did.]]
[This is a rant but I’ve tried to break it up some for legibility, sorry for the length]
It doesn’t matter how many body positivity posts you reblog or body positive things you say, if you still call yourself “fat” when you mean “ugly”, “unhealthy”, “lazy”, “undisciplined”, etc.. 
If you still think that being thin is inherently better, and that thin people are inherently more healthy, more attractive, more disciplined, etc.. 
If you think that eating some fucking cookies or a slice of cake or skipping a day at the gym is going to make you suddenly 100lbs heavier and look like me (and that that would be terrible), then you must really think that little of me-- you must really think I’m fat because I just didn’t do all the “superior” shit you did, rather than, you know, half my entire family having a bigger build than you do to begin with and then I got depressed while at college for a semester and food was one of the only things that made being alive feel good so I gained like 40+lbs and then spent a year trying to lose that weight and failing no matter what strategy I used because my body RETAINS weight in a way yours apparently just doesn’t. And then I decided that I’d rather be happy and have less stress in my life than be thin just to be thin.
Also, like, people always say “exercise and you’ll feel better!” but I’ve never really experienced that. When I played sports I just hurt myself a lot, and when I went to the gym I just got tired. It didn’t make me feel “better” whatever that’s supposed to mean. 
So it’s great that being thin is possible for you because going to the gym feels good, and you feel better when you eat healthy. I experience that on a very small fucking scale. Beyond that small scale, those things do not feel good to me, or improve my day. 
((and since people ALWAYS respond to this with “but you have to do it consistently before it starts helping!!” I know, and I’ve done that, and it didn’t help. Not after a few weeks, or a few months. I’m not willing to suffer for more than a handful of months doing the same repetitive and unpleasant thing on the vague hope that it will improve later-- that literally sounds like a version of Dante’s Hell to me, so fuck off))
So... 
Imagine that the only way to be thin was to do stuff that did NOT improve your life, and that did NOT make you feel good. 
If you’re a person who benefits from lots of activity, imagine that being thin required you to NOT do that. It required that you HAD to be sedentary for WAY longer than was comfortable for you, every single day. 
Now imagine that you go to a doctor and the doctor says “yeah, we did a ton of tests and you’re really healthy” despite the fact that you’re not thin and you’re not being the daily suggested amount of sedentary (because that’d be uncomfortable for you). But everyone keeps telling you to be thin, because then you’ll be “healthier” despite the fact that you’re already scientifically medically healthy. 
Why would you change your life to be uncomfortable, just to be thin? Especially when you’re already healthy?
This is where I’m at. 
And also, the notion that changing things in my life (like dieting for example) that I know from experience would trigger my depression would somehow make me more healthy... is laughable. When my mental health gets worse, my overall physical health does a nose dive. 
But the other half of this is that even if I WEREN’T healthy, that’d be none of your fucking business, and would not have an effect on my worth as a person. AND that being thin doesn’t necessarily mean you ARE healthy, so the whole premise is BS. 
Basically, in order to actually rid yourself of fatphobia you have to take in and really understand that fatness is not the problem. It’s not gross, it’s not ugly, it doesn’t mark someone as being unhealthy, it’s not the embodiment of laziness or lack of discipline, and fat people aren’t people who were just like you but ate too many cookies. 
The way you relate your own issues with your own body and weight to an overarching message that fatness is always bad and should always be avoided when possible is harmful to others (AND to you). 
Put in the fucking work. 
I, and other fat people, have to put in work constantly to not hate ourselves for existing, because the culture of fatphobia blames us for existing and says we shouldn’t exist. There are plenty of people who literally believe that we are an epidemic, and that we shouldn’t be able to reproduce. And here you are, supposedly our friends, supposedly our allies, claiming body positivity, while at the same time fighting tooth and nail to not look like us for no other reason than that you haven’t put in the work.
I don’t have a problem with people who exercise for health and because it feels good to them, who like how their body feels when they’re in shape, etc.. My problem is with people who believe that thinness = health, and thinness = attractiveness, and thinness = moral superiority. If you go to the gym because you’re afraid of being fat, you need to examine why you think that’s such a bad thing to be. Like, I’m not telling you not to go to the gym, I’m just saying put in the self examination WORK so you’re not a fatphobic asshole when you get OUT of the gym.
Also also: 
If you are thin, you do not have “internalized fatphobia”. Internalized oppression is what happens when members of an oppressed/marginalized group are taught to believe the bigotry thrown at them, and internalize that hate toward themselves. 
Which is to say, a fat person believing that their fatness makes them lazy, ugly, worthless, etc..
With fatness/thinness this is somewhat more complicated than with some other issues, because many people who are thin perceive themselves as being less thin than they are, and hate the perceived fat that they don’t actually have but believe that they do. However, in most cases there is an understanding that they are not actually fat-- that they simply “FEEL” fat. This is NOT internalized fatphobia, this is just straight up fatphobia, because you aren’t hating yourself for being a fat person, you’re hating the concept of becoming fat-- you know, like me.
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What is the CHEAPEST car insurance for a 21 year old male who never had his own policy?
My employer expects me to utilize my personal car insurance for renting cars for business purposes.?
Why should I carry the responsibility? My car insurance would go up if I am in an accident or the car is stolen. Am I being unreasonable? There is no coverage through my company AMEX card, I checked. I do not want to be a problem employee but I do not see how this is fair.""
What is the cheapest liability insurance in sacramento?
looking for auto liability. just to cover the basics. i'm shooting for 50 dollars or less per month.
I can't get affordable health insurance until I lose 20 pounds?
I need to lose 20 pounds so I'm no longer obese. Then I can get into an affordable health payment program. Until then I can't afford insurance so I hope nothing major happens. I've started eating healthy by cutting sweets, fried, processed, junk, and fast foods. Eating lots of fresh fruits and veggies with moderate amounts of whole grains and lean protein. I drink mostly water but will have tea sometimes with a spoonful of honey. For breakfast we have plain oatmeal with fruit but no sugar. My calories are 1300-1600. I'm not very consistent with exercise. I aim for 45-60 minutes of cardio 3-5 times/week and 2-3 strength training sessions each week, but don't always manage all that. So considering that, how soon can I reasonably expect to lose those 20 pounds?""
How much does your motorcycle's insurance rise when your bike has been stolen?
I'm asking this question for a friend who had some filthy chavs take his bike last weekend. It was a Yamaha XVS125 dragstar, so his insurance would have been quite cheap anyway but I was wondering how much more he will have to pay when he gets a new bike. Ideally if this has happened to you can you tell me ... how much your insurance was before (and if your license had points etc) and how much it was when you got a new bike. Thx""
""How do you get health insurance ONLY for kids, not adding on to parent's plan?""
I don't qualify for CHIP. My work insurance is great for singles, ok for married couples, terrible for families. We had insurance with Texas Children's Hospital for our kids and it was fantastic. Great coverage for low rates. So of course they are stopping offering the plan. I keep going to rate quote sites, but they demand I be on the plan. Can't you just insure your kids?""
Would I need auto insurance if Im driving a motorcycle/scooter with a Motorcycle Instruction Permit in AZ?
I am thinking about purchasing a Yamaha Vino (2004-08 model) and also I will be obtaining my Motorcycle Instruction Permit. I would like to know if I would need any form of auto/motorcycle insurance while practicing with my permit. If so, how much would it cost me per month (rough estimate)? I am 16 years old btw.""
Cost of insurance on a mercedes Benz each month?
i have to do a gay project
How much would I have to pay for car insurance?
I'm 18 years old and I just bought my first car and have no legal driving experience. Dose anyone know what's the most money I would have to pay for insurance?
Will my auto insurance rate be raised if I have liability only and my car got stolen?
My car got stolen. Will my rates go up? I won't have another car for a few weeks and i'm going to have to get comprehensive. I just wonder if my comprehensive rates will be now more expensive.
What insurance company in America is insuring Smart Cars?
I have a 2007 Smart and my insurance has recently informed me that they will not renew my coverage because of the type of car that it is.
How much would extra would i pay for another car on my policy?
I currently own 2 cars and am looking to buy another one. It is a 99 crown vic police int P71. I dont want collision or anything extra, i want the lowest insurance policy that i can get. Im taking that, that would be a liability only policy, am i correct? If not what kind of policy do i ask for? Also, how much more a month would this cost? No one will steal it because its a former cop car, but you couldnt tell and i doubt i will reck it.""
How much would insurance be for a '69 mustang for a 17 year old with a 3.6 gpa?
Yeah, I really want a mustang but my parents are killing me about the insurance. So i want to find out how much it really is so I can tell them if i can pay for it or not. I really want this car, I know alot about cars so i'm not an idiot , i know what i'm doing. I just need to know. Thanks alot.""
Why do insurance companies charge first and last?
I had a nice Allstate agent call me and discuss my insurance with me, give me a lower rate and then come pay time, tell me that they require first and last. When I asked her why the last, she could not provide a good answer. I know not all insurance companies do this, but what is the point? When asked when I would get the last back, she said when I cancel my policy some day!! What if I don't want to cancel..ever? This does not make sense to me at all. Why keep my money there for nothing? When one does cancel the policy, do they get the money back with interest on that? Once confronted with these questions, the agent was not so nice any more. Can someone please answer the above?""
Lawyers & legal experts Q concerning auto insurance: How much coverage is best?
My auto is a '94 so I only have legal minimum +: Bod Inj Liab 15/30, Prop Damg Liab 25k, UM/UND 15/30, UM Prop Damg $3500. My question is, I drive in Los Angeles everyday-is there one or more of these I should prudently increase?? What about my fault and I sustain injury? Can I not have my vehicle insured but my body in my vehicle insured, (if that makes sense)? My car is worth only a couple K, so no reason to insure it. I am with Geico now & think I should perhaps increase some coverage. Thanks-""
The average price of car insurance for VA drivers?
I'm planning on getting my license very soon. I've been planning ahead by saving up car money and figuring out what type of car I want. However, my dad often mentions how insurance is gonna bite you in the ***. so I would like to know what the average price of car insurance is for young or new Virginia drivers. please and thank you. (I've heard rumors that sometimes it helps if you have a beige or gray car. true?)""
What is an affordable life insurance for a cigarette smoker?
What is an affordable life insurance for a cigarette smoker?
Cheapest Way for an international student to Drive a car in the UK with an international License?
I will be staying in the UK for 1 year and need a car cuz I will be driving around 50 miles a day. I looked to buy a cheap car but the insurance is around 6000 to 8000 a year cuz i am young and driving with an international license. The cheapest thing I found was renting a car for 13-14  a day. Is there anyway I can drive cheaper in the UK? If renting is the only choice, what is the cheapest renting diesel car can I get in Birmingham?""
What is the average insurance cost for a 04 lexus rx 330?
What is the average insurance cost for a 04 lexus rx 330?
I often drive a friend's car. What companies offer Non-car owner auto insurance?
Everywhere i look online just offer get a quote then you have to enter a type of car. I don't own a car but I need insurance to take my driver's test in North Carolina. I couldn't find this type of insurance offered on any websites.
Kit car insurance for new driver?
how insurance companies are looking at new drivers that are thinking of getting a kit car, is it based on value of the car or just what engine it has or what it was made from? what it be higher then standard insurance? thank you""
What is the point of car insurance?
Im 15, and of course im thinking about getting a drivers license. I feel bad for my parents though, cause they have to pay for the insurance, and its going to be more money than my sisters insurance cause im a guy, and it costs more for some unkown reason. So I thought I would just be a safer driver and just not get insurance. I asked my parents about it and they told me it was illigal NOT to get car insurance. so I said, well, at least if I do get in a car reck, it will be covered and they replied; you have to pay for it anyways. three questions: Why is car insurance illigal to not get? What is the point of car insurance if it doesnt help cover accident costs? And why does gieco and other companies advertise if its illigal not to get it? Thnx so much!""
How much does hydrocodone generally cost without insurance?
I'm curious to see how much it costs without insurance due to a toothache. my dentist prescribed me an antibiotic but it hasn't helped with the pain. i don't have any benefits. i really don't like how hydrocodone makes me feel nauseated but it helps with the pain.
Thinking of switching to Progressive Insurance?
Would like to know if anyone has Progressive Insurance for auto insurance. Would like to switch to them from Farmers because I can double my coverage for the same price as Farmers. Has anyone had problems with Progressive such as filing a claim? or rate increases for no reason. I have not had an accident in over 14 years, knock on wood. Just afraid if I switch my rates will go up for no reason. I know there is good and bad about Progressive. Any input would help. I live in California""
Berkeley California Cheap car insurance quotes zip 94702
Berkeley California Cheap car insurance quotes zip 94702
Will state farm increase my auto insurance if I get a speeding ticket??
I got a speeding ticket going 88 in a 70 in GA. Thats 2 points on my license. I was wondering if a rumor that I heard was true. Some people were telling me that they give you your ...show more
How much would you think a 2009 mustang gt insurance would cost monthly?
For an 22 year old male??
At fault driver had no insurance?
Me and my Daughter was riding my custom built harley sat. and a car made an illegal u turn in front of us and we hit his car on the side. He does not have insurance but I do. Can I use my auto insurance which is a different company form my bike insurance to cover the cost of my bike and other injuries that we suffered.? Should I hold off on getting a lawyer? I really do not want them to get my money that we are due..
Car insurance rate question?
If I use my dads insurance on my car and get into an accident what will happen? Who would get in trouble me or me father?
Where do I find health insurance for low income families?
My children are on state funded health insurance, but my husband and I are uninsured. He is a full-time student and I work 2 part-time jobs. Neither of my jobs offer me health insurance because the companies are small. I've looked into student health insurance, but it's REALLY expensive. Doesn't Obamacare allow for insurance options for low-income families? Or do we have to wait until he graduates and gets a job to be able to get health insurance???""
Can a health insurance company deny emergency medical coverage based on the final diagnosis?
I went to the emergency room for symptoms suggesting a life-threatening illness. It turned out I did not have a life-threatening illness and the ER doctor diagnosed something much ...show more
How much is SR22 insurance?
i have 18 pts within 18 months and i have to take an ADI course and get SR22 insurance, how much will it run on average each month?""
Is a life insurance that terms at age 95 a good one?
I just reviewed my life insurance and saw that it termed at age 95..I'm not sure if that is good or bad...please help!
Is healthcare on medicaid health insurance decent?
my father has to take an array of medications every day for heart problems and high blood pressure. will these be covered? i hear many doctors don't take payment from medicaid, and that poor healthcare is offered through the program, instead of private practitioners, one must go to community clinics, etc. should my father go on medicaid, or is it not worth it?""
How much would insurance be a month for a 1988 ford mustang gt for a 16 year old driver in ny?
hi i want a 1988 ford mustang gt 5.0 and i am 16 years old. i was wondering how much the insurance would cost a month. im in new york and plz no answers like alot or anything like that just an estimate. pl answer and thankyou
How much would full coverage auto insurance in California cost if i've had my license for 9 1/2 years?
Plus a good driving record & I am 29 years old.
What are the upsides/downsides to a LPG/Autogas conversion.?
With auto gas being roughly 60% of the cost of petrol, investigating a conversation is attractive but not if it is just simply an exchange of costs and the whole deal just is a contra entry. Much lower mpg , increased service costs, insurance, more wear and tear are just some of my thoughts. Also how does auto gas effect performance ? Hence what are your experiences (in the UK please), costs, regrets and pleasures concerning the topic.""
Affordable kids health insurance in Florida?
I recently got a new job, and my income combined with my husbands will be *just* over 200% of the Federal Poverty Level, making us ineligible for the $20/month payment for Medikids. It would cost $160 for each of our 2 children to continue this full coverage/no co-pay insurance. We cannot afford this. What are some other options? We definitely cannot afford insurance for the whole family.""
What laws if any must car insurance companies follow when responding to a claim?
It seems that the only remedy if an insurance claim in Ontario cannot be resolved is to take the issue to court. The average driver may not be aware of any legislation that may force insurance companies to meet certain deadlines.
Should we have whole life insurance?
My husband is 26 yrs old and he bought whole life insurance. I tried to tell him to get term sicne we are so young, but he wouldn't listen. Can anyone help me?""
Where can I find business cargo insurance at reasonable rates?
We're a small company trying to get started, that's why we're looking for insurance at a reasonable rate. Any help will be welcome. Thanks""
What Auto Insurance Company do you use and would recommend?
And have you ever heard of western general insurance company / Insure Express? They have a pretty good rate, but I've never heard of them before.""
Geico car insurance !?
i have car insurance with Geico, on the policy was said Effective date : 12/20/2009 ... ( just bought insurance from Geico on 12/29/2009 ). i got accident today,( 12/22/2009 ),a deer jump into the front of my car and the front bumper messed up really bad... i know on the policy its said the effective date is 12/20/200/9 but still i wonder am i cover when i just recently bought the car insurance from them ( for 1 day and a half i guess ) ?!!! am just so ... panic and .. confuse right now !""
Need help buying and insuring a motorcycle.?
I am trying to buy and insure a motorcycle without my parents knowing. I am 21 years old and have moved out of my parents house. I have my own car and my own job, but my car is still insured through my parents' insurance. Is there any way I can start my own insurance plan, without my parents knowing, to get motorcycle insurance? Or would motorcycle insurance have to be tied back to the same insurance that covers my car (through my parents). What kind of monthly rates would that cost me? (I'm a 21 year old male living in Nebraska) Any and all help and advice is greatly appreciated. Thanks!""
How long after someone dies to get life insurance benefits?
my grandmother died about 2 weeks ago and i was wondering when her life insurance policy would go through so we can receive the money from it to manage her estate, we heard that probate takes about 16 months, but we cant wait that long for the insurance so how long does it usually take?""
""Classic Car Insurance for Young Drivers, Help.?""
In the UK how old does a car have to be before it comes under classic car insurance also how cheap is classic car insurance? I'll be 19 when I come to buying a car and was looking at cheap insurance, will have been driving for 1 year, I will have no, No claims bonus' If it's cheaper than smaller newer cars, What classic car would be worth looking at? How old does the car have to be before it's classed as a 'Classic' Make your you answer relates to UK rules/laws and what ever else USA rules/laws mean nothing to me and won't help.""
Cheapest car and insurance for 18 year old?
Hello, i'm looking for a cheap first car which looks alright for a 18 year old? a car which also has quite cheap insurance -_-""
What retro car do you recommend for a high school aged driver?
im learning to drive soon and im a person who likes retro stuff so my car has to be around the 60s, 70s, or early 80s. my parents gave me a limit of $12,000 but it'll be okay if it's a bit more since i'll be having a job also. im gonna be a beginning driver and im a girl so the car has to be very safe. btw, do you happen to know how much insurance is gonna cost in southern california for a young driver like me?""
Do I really need travelers insurance?
We are taking a trip from Oregon to Cancun Mexico soon and am wondering if I should purchase travelers insurance. We are going to purchase airline tickets directly from Delta Airlines and also from our chosen hotel. I'm thinking that if there are any problems, the airline and hotel would take care of it. What are your thoughts?""
How much is insurance for a 17 year old?
I live in MA and I'm just curious how much money I would have to pay for my insurance...if anyone knows how I go about finding that out it would be very helpful! Thanks
Berkeley California Cheap car insurance quotes zip 94702
Berkeley California Cheap car insurance quotes zip 94702
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