#life during lockdown

[thegirlfromtheislands]

The day after we broke up, I went for a long walk and listened to sad love songs. I slept for two hours. It was raining. I remember walking into a grocery store and reading all the ingredients on items so I could find something else to think about. I cried all night. I wanted you to know that, but it was unfair to tell you because you didn't want to talk anymore. I didn't want to guilt trip you into staying with me, but I wanted you to stay.

While you moved along with your life, I wallowed. I sat in shame, embarrassment. What had I done wrong? What did I say? Maybe I should have made myself smaller, quieter, taken up less space? Or did you want more? Or do you just want someone different?

I returned to my room after hours of wandering around and looking for hopeful things to think about. I sat on my bed and watched the rain drops gently patter on my window. Rain drops made calming sounds as they hit on my window. They began as a little blob of water and split into two.

I was in love with you. I was so taken with the idea of you. Nothing and no one else could come in between that. Why can't we all just find someone to love and love us in return? Why is it always so hard? We give years away to someone who wraps the relationship up with a tidy bow and says goodbye.

I remember going to different cafes and sitting down with books and my work laptop and trying to make myself busy. My mind was running nonstop. I had so many different things going on in my head and you were the foundation of all my mental ramblings. My brain was trying to retell the story and give me new details so I wouldn't miss you so much. I tried to hate you, but you were really good to me.

It's hard to be in love with someone so kind who just wants to be with someone different. I would have given anything in the world to be the person you needed, but I am completely myself. I am talkative and energetic. I am also introverted and like my space, but never from you. I get emotional and I feel passionate about certain topics and I start talking too much right before bedtime and cooking videos keep me up at night. You are introspective and you like to keep a schedule. You feel passionate but you're also pragmatic.

Maybe it wasn't meant to be, but I hoped for it to work out so much that I felt my heart would change its shape because of the grief. I mourned the loss of our relationship.

Break ups can be so traumatic and life changing, but the recovery process makes you a new person. I'm kind of mad, I don't hate you, but I want you to know that I'll remember you fondly at some point in the future.

#writing #books #author #poet #books and reading #stories #bookseller #authors #coffee #booklr #novel #rain #life during lockdown #coffee store #love #romance #cafe #university #student

[pamietniko]

Photo Diary: Life during Lockdown

pandemic art

Seattle, Washington

#washington #analogue #35mm #film photography #photographers on tumblr #original photography #autumn #life during lockdown #seattle #skeletonart #keep calm #street art #mural #pandemic #covid-19 #mask #daria mtv #death #political art #spooky #Halloween

[means2madness]

#life during lockdown #corona pandemic

[bryonyashaw]

3 years ago (March 2020) we were all in the midst of Lockdowns, restrictions, mask wearing & Tiger King - all due to the unprecedented Coronavirus flung into our lives.

The first lockdown was implemented across the UK in March 2020.

The first coronavirus cases in the UK were reported in January 2020. By the end of March 2020, 4,426 people in the UK had died within 28 days of testing positive with Covid-19.

On 16 March 2020, Prime Minister Boris Johnson announced the Government would be implementing measures intended to halt the spread of the virus. The first lockdown began in England on 23 March 2020. Similar measures were implemented in Scotland, Wales and Northern Ireland at the same time. The lockdown saw the closure of non-essential high street businesses, schools, indoor sports venues and other activities. People were advised to work from home where possible and to avoid public transport. The NHS also advised anyone aged 70 & over to stay at home as much as possible and to practise social distancing.

The first/second/third lockdown resulted in the majority of children and young people being educated at home. My kids were off school and I remember the day I picked them up from school and telling them they won't be at school for a bit... What turned out to be a bit, turned out to be months! Which they were happy about to be fair.

The Government announced a series of schemes intended to support people during the lockdown. This included a financial support package for businesses affected and a furlough scheme intended to help companies retain staff.

It feels like yesterday but also feels like it was years ago - I don't know the full economic, mental health impact & other health outcomes for the past few years but from my experience I can say it changed our lives but we got lucky and I feel very fortunate we maintained our health. Sure, there were things the kids missed out on, for example, my daughter missed out entirely on year 5 & 6 then started at secondary school when schools opened, it was a massive change but during lockdowns we were blessed to be able to have Lockdown with my family so the kids & I had support.

Years on I hope everyone is healing

#life during lockdown #lockdown #covid19 #coronavirus #Lincolnshire family #yourblendedfamily #bryonyperfectlyimperfect #life during pandemic #social distancing #home school #lockdown education #lockdown life #quarantine life #isolation #plague #pandemic parenting #single parent #blessed #coronavirus pandemic #health #stay home #unlimited britain #throwback 2020 #my wild lands #family adventures #dear diary #sahm #pandemic life #stay at home

[kneworder]

tua3 was so tough. within the year it after it came out -- june 22 2022 - june 22 2023 -- just 2,679 works under the fandom tag were updated on AO3. that may seem like a decent chunk, but compare this to the relatively even distribution between july 31 2020 - july 21 2021 (the year after season 2 came out), where 5,326 were updated, and february 15, 2019 - february 15, 2020 (the year after season one), where there were 5,637. tua used to have one of the most vibrant, collaborative, active fandoms i've ever had the pleasure to be in, and the sheer mediocrity of season 3 seemed to just take a wrecking ball to that community pretty much overnight. literally cut its fanfiction output in half. still makes me sad.

#and this is works updated. like people are abandoning their fics. ive never seen a fandom implode so badly. #i still keep up with a couple of fics but i don't engage with tua much anymore and it just makes me sad. #it consumed about 70% of my life during lockdown and now i barely care about it :( #the umbrella academy

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hello! I have come asking for you to info-dump about the the modern human au. I full of brain rot of them (especially after the last thing you posted about them, damn) Maybe you can tell us a bit more Sally!!

lucky for you, i've been full of that good ol brainrot As Well! thoughts! feelings! ideas! i got em!

so since we're already on the subject of the Crash Arc, allow me to expand on it for a moment before i get to Sally Thinkings! if you've read the snippet, you may have noticed the extent of Wally's injuries was not listed yet. well! he got messed up with a capital F! since it's fiction and i'm god in this scenario, i'm veering slightly away from realistic damage, immediate & lasting. bc lets be real. if i stuck to "this is as realistic as i can make it", then Wally would be aaaaaabsolutely fucked. it was a bad crash in a very unsafe vehicle at high speeds. like - this is what happened. a drunk driver hit Home going 70 down the freeway. swerve, fishtail, tumble down a (small, shallow, really its more like a glorified ditch) ravine with trees and rocks and shit on it. absolute miracle that Wally didn't die in the crash, let alone during the solid half hour (slightly longer) he was trapped in Home before someone noticed the crash site and called emergency personnel. Wally "hanging up" on Barnaby was actually the impact jarring him so he slipped and hit the end call button. but yeah without going into technicalities and detail, Wally has some lasting damage in his dominant hand. It takes extensive physical therapy for him to be able to paint/draw again at the same level he had been at. the hematoma hadn't done a lot of brain damage that wouldn't resolve itself with time. in my mind, when Wally wakes up in the hospital, for a few days he's very confused and his memory is shot. he'll wake up, interact, then go to sleep, but when he wakes up again its like waking up for the first time again. he just can't retain memories for a bit. he's got some severe brain fog. his mood is also kinda fucked with - he's uncharacteristically irritable with low patience, etc. these are all things that clear up with time, but in my mind Wally has chronic migraines going forward. bad ones! and there are days where it's harder fr him to concentrate. and yk. a teeny bit of chronic pain where his shin bone was pinned back together and where his hand was essentially crushed. but other than that he's fine going forward! good days and bad days!

but enough about that! You Want To Hear About Sally!

i imagine that she becomes quite successful in the theater industry. i'm not too familiar with it myself, so i'm gonna be uh. Vague about it? but she starts her own theater troupe - it's a bit of a commute from home base to the town she works in, where the theater is located in, but she makes it work! of the group, she's probably away more than any of them. working on shows, traveling to work on other ones - i like to think she's been on Broadway! she probably has had opportunities to do tv/movie acting, but idk... i feel like Sally would be like "nah. live shows or nothing". maybe at some point she takes up voice acting gigs, as long as she can do them from home. she probably has her own little room-turned-VA-studio thing. idk how that works either! it seems right! but yes Howdy's store's automated messages and advertisements are in Sally's voice. she's probably picked up a temporarily modeling gig here and there.

so Sally is very very busy. Poppy is supportive. everyone is, and they all love to help out when they can - and reel Sally in when the "stardom" starts to get to her head. they do their best to acclimate to occasionally getting jumpscared by her voice in a grocery store or in. idk. fashion shoots. victoria's secret billboards. that last one was a joke! maybe. i think she would.

i also like to imagine Sally like... getting some sort of award and then spending a solid five minutes naming her friends, thanking them with specificity, and then plugging their own stuff. they probably have a rotation for who accompanies her as her plus one for events and parties she may or may not be invited to. she's not like... a Big celebrity but! she's Known and Liked! she has Connections! i like to imagine her and Wally looking dapper as fuck at a Venue...

so the friend group typically stays together, with Sally going off to do her Things the most. she makes sure to schedule time to be with her friends and girlfriend/wife/Poppy between work and gigs and etc. she somehow finds a balance with Ease. or apparent ease... someone get this girl a vacation...

#lmao now im thinking about them all scheduling a joint vacay #sally is having the time of her life getting to Relax and just Pamper Herself #everyone else is also greatly enjoying the break #except howdy. he's a mess. to him relaxing is working. things are too calm. too quiet. understim effect x100 #on that vein ive been thinking about a covid arc and its. Funny #and domestic! #where are the covid fics of characters getting stuck together during lockdown... #rambles from the bog #wh modern human au #but yes been thinking about the au a lot #ive decided that wally does eventually get a job that he actually Enjoys! #previously he was just doing his indie art and such. bc he'd try a job and be like 'wow. i hate this. this is stupid. bye' #his art brings in more money anyway. he's living that miraculous imaginary life where art provides reliable sustainable income #enough so that barnaby doesn't need a full time job! bc this is fiction and i want them to have an easy life #in this specific area anyway #i would like them to live in a world where its slightly kinder... the housing crisis doesnt exist... one can live on minimum wage... #also thinking more about their homes and such. etc!

[sallytwo]

i love going thru shit from high school i was literally off the chains. i was doing whateverr the fuck i wanted it was incredibly funny

#cuntiest moment. IN MY LIFE. okay so i ghosted everyone during covid lockdown #i didnt talk to anyyy of my friends they didn’t hear from me. then in like july 2020 #they ran a special about my flight training on the FRONT PAGE OF THE LOCAL PAPER. #and the morning that dropped everyone called and texted like. WHAT IS GOING ON #SAM WE HAVENT HEARD FROM YOU AND NOW YPURE A PILOT?? WHAT HAPPENED #that was also when i lied about my age for awhile i was like yup i’m totally 16 <- i was not 16

[maigetheplatypus57]

bro imagine coming home from your grandfather's funeral and you remember that it's Limited Life Friday so you start watching grian's new episode and the bad boys get fucking changed into mourning clothes for the bread bridge can you imagine just how fucking wild my day has been for me emotionally???

#limited life smp #trafficblr #grian #maige's posts #maige's ramblings #mcyt #i mean there's something oddly comforting about im not gonna lie but Still #also before anyone asks he passed away a few years ago during early lockdown and this was the first year we could all be #in the same fricking room for his death anniversary so its more of a memorial but eh #still wild to come home after talking to my cousins all day only to find out that the bad boys are Cousins in Mourning #like are you kidding me

[dylanconrique]

thinking about the time i got to chat with eric and melissa (and nathan) and melissa recognized my sailor moon tattoo in my zoom pfp and immediately starting singing the theme song. 🥺💗

#*and this is icarly! #the rookie #melissa o’neil #eric winter #nathan fillion #chenford #it was like 3 years ago during the lockdown and they did those chenford chats #honestly best 5 minutes of my life #the only reason i even made a zoom account lol #i always forget that melissa is from canada and likely grew up watching sailor moon as a kid #she was 6 years old when the first episode aired..... #iiiiiii... did not even exist yet #in fact i didn't know what sailor moon was till middle schoool #and when i did i fell in love with it and that's actually why i came to tumblr in the first place when i was 13 #cause i didn't have any sailor moon friends and wanted some!!!! .... and somehow that led me to here #anyway.... #i'm just getting emotional reminiscing about my love for sailor moon and combining it with my love for the rookie #i joined her at one point and eric and nathan were so confused aewrsdtghijkl #they were like 'what's happening right now??? do you know what's happening right now????' 😂😂😂😂 #it's 4:30 am.....

[savage-rhi]

Magenta 🤔

#Is it just me or does anyone else feel off? As if there's some powerful fuckitry at work? #not just saying this cause ive been sick #and exclude world events and such #It's almost the same vibes I got months prior to lockdowns in 2020. Just hairs on the back of my neck standing like #“honey you might want to brace yourself shits happening” #i had this feeling too days before my gram died and during other experiences that made me look at life and people differently #i talked to some others about it and its like everyone feels it in their blood #its bizzare

[pepprs]

genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim

#purrs #delete later #covid19 #i am fighting for my fucking life every day to stay safe and to keep the people around me some of whom are disabled / chronically ill / #immunocompromised / medically vulnerable safe. i am fucking fighting for my life. it’s already hard that i am usually one of two people in #any given room still wearing a mask let alone an n95 mask. hard and bad enough that we get looks for wearing masks and people think im crazy #for my life still being on hold and for my family still basically never going anywhere. ITS FUCKING WORSE that we are still very much in the #throes of all of it and we are in constant physical and quite frankly EXISTENTIAL danger not only of getting sick / becoming (more) #disabled / literally fucking dying but also returning to the absolute hell of lockdown which while important was psychologically damaging in #ways that are difficult to even articulate. like not only have we as a society decided to not give a shit about unpacking all of that and #healing from the trauma and assuming everyone went through the same thing when we very much did not and to just send everybody back to #school and work because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 but we have ALSO decided to pretend like the freakish unceasing danger just doesn’t exist #anymore and to get rid of every tool we had available to keep us safe or at minimum make people have to pay exorbitant amounts of money to #access them because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 !!!!!!! im TIRED. im so fucking tired of it. i am so fucking exhausted and angry and scared. and i #HAVE the luxury and privilege of being able to afford n95 masks and covid tests and to be able to work a job that i can do remotely if i #need to and to not be disabled or immunocompromised. what makes me fucking furious is we decided to throw all the people who don’t have #that access or privilege under the fucking bus and forget about them lol. but what do you expect from a country rotten to its core the way #it is lol. im fucking despondent. why are we living in an incinerator. #* the lockdown(s) werent just important they were necessary. and arguably we should have another one even though if we do i genuinely fear #for my mental health both during and afterwards and quite frankly before. im tired. i am grateful for the life i live which has resulted in #part from the different things that have happened because of the pandemic but i also so desperately wish this never happened and every day I #think about what life would be like if it hadn’t happened. the grief of it all is unspeakably big.

[annabylers]

Not to be sappy on main but Alexa what are you supposed to do when the boy you've been deeply madly crazily in love with for 3+ years starts giving hints(or maybe im just looking too much into it) that he maybe probably likes you too??????

#listen im so madly in love with this idiot in my class who was also my best friend for like almost 2 years before covid hit #we somehow completely lost touch during the lockdown and I have neverissed someone more in my entire life #the almost 2 years at home also made me realise how much I love with him #after the lock down finally ended I found out that he's moved to another fucking CITY #the universe seems to like me because we started texting again a few months ago #and now he keeps doing some thing that make me think that he has feelings for me and I dont know what to do about it #I legit feel like im living like a 100 chapter slow burn fic (possibly one-sided??) #and its fucking frustrating #I know this is all a little too personal but I have been keeping it in for way too long and need to get it off my chest a little #byler #not byler related at all but I just love you guys way too much #vent #there are way too many typos in the tags but im way too tired to fix them

[surreality51]

From interview in Numero, April 2021:

So, like the rest of us mere mortals, did Roger Federer spend his long lockdown evenings mainlining Netflix, to stave off the boredom? “No, I didn't binge that much stuff, no movies or series. I was busy being the family quarterback. For once. In my tennis life, I make the big decisions and people manage the day-to-day for me. Here I was really happy to organise the details with my wife, to think about things for the kids, the garden, the house. I've been doing video meetings with the ATP, communicating with Rafa [Nadal] and so on. In my normal life, everything was improvised according to the results. I would often leave at the last minute, grab my stuff and head out again in a hurry. Since the lockdown, I've had more time. Having said that, I'm not ruling out binge-watching if it goes on too long [laughs].”

#so apparently talking to rafa was part of Roger’s normal life during lockdown #totally normal rival behavior #fedal #roger federer

[betweenthings2]

https://www.tumblr.com/teaboot/744353230745632768/favourite-things-to-say-before-doing-something

some of these scream fictional!matty and i would love to see your take on 5 and 12

Thank you for the ask!! This is a brilliant promt list and I've reblogged it here.

Here's 5. "I'm way too sexy to fuck this up," and 12. "It's ok, I saw this on TikTok," for things to say before doing something stupid.

5. "I'm way too sexy to fuck this up."

"I'm way too sexy to fuck this up," Matty decides, meeting George's eyes in the hotel mirror and brandishing scissors and tugging at his dripping hair. He's wearing only boxers, he's a little bit drunk and a little bit stoned, and he'd found a pair of scissors when he was going through his bag and he can't help but think that this is a brilliant idea.

George offers an incredulous expression.

"I am. What could go wrong?"

George scoffs and says, "Matty, there's a reason that there are so many home haircut horror stories."

"Yeah, but they're not me," is Matty's argument. "And, like I've said, I'm way to sexy to fuck this up."

"You're giving yourself bangs. At least do it in the morning when you're sober."

Matty turns so he can actually look at George, arguing, "I've had some wine. And those tequila shots. And the weed. But it's fine."

"Alright," George sighs. "You do whatever you want."

"Will you still love me if I give myself a bad haircut?"

"I'd love you if you shaved your head."

Matty grins and closes the space between them so he can wrap his arms around George, still clutching his scissors, and give him a quick kiss, then says, "You're sweet," then returns to the mirror.

Matty organizes his still wet hair so that it falls over his forehead, considers for a moment, then cuts, clumps of dark hair falling into the hotel sink. He pauses for a moment, considering, then snips off a little bit more hair, considers again, then snips again. He scrunches his new bangs, then turns back to George, who's made himself comfortable on the bed.

"What do you think?" Matty asks.

George pretends to consider, then says, "Well, I still love you, so that's something."

Matty sets his scissors aside and joins George on the bed, settling half in his lap and pouts, saying, "Now say something nice to me."

George leans forward and kisses Matty, rather than saying anything. When they separate, he says, "You're very pretty and I really love you and your bangs will probably be fine."

"I appreciate the vote of confidence," Matty says, faux upset. "Maybe I should go sleep with Ross. He'd be supportive."

George tightens his grip on Matty's hips, but says, "If that's what you want."

Matty laughs. "You're possessive," he teases. He lowers his voice to ask, "How upset would it make you if I was in another man's bed? If another man touched me, put his hands on me?"

"If you wanna go share a bed with Ross, go for it," George answers, doing his best not to feed into Matty's pushing. "I hear he snores, though."

Matty laughs again and agrees, "God, he does. I think I'll stick with you."

"Oh, you will? That'll be hard for you, won't it?"

Matty hums, nodding, and goes in for another kiss, long and slow. "I think it probably will be hard," he agrees. "Really, really hard."

George sighs. "That was the wrong word, wasn't it?"

"Yeah, absolutely the wrong word. You should have know I would take that and run. That's on you."

"At least you admit it."

"I am a very humble person, George," Matty says, putting his best serious face on. "Exceedingly humble."

"Fifteen minutes ago you were saying, and I quote, 'I'm way to sexy to fuck this up.' I don't think that's humble, love."

"That's entirely different," Matty argues.

George combs his fingers through Matty's drying hair and pulls him in for another kiss. That's better than going back and forth saying yes and no. Matty is too stubborn to cave and George doesn't really love the back and forth.

"Is that your way of saying I'm right?" Matty asks.

"If that's what you think," George answers. "I don't wanna go back and forth."

Matty shifts, getting a little more comfortable and resting his head against George's chest. "Thanks, G," he murmurs.

"For what?" George asks, voice now soft and half worried.

Matty shrugs. "Everything. Just bein' you."

"Makes me worry when you start sayin' stuff like that," George murmurs.

"Sorry," Matty offers. "I just need to thank you more often, I think. I love you and I don't think I say it enough."

"You do," George promises. "You do. I know how you feel, what you think."

Matty intertwines his fingers with George's and says, "Good. You should."

12. "It's ok, I saw this on TikTok."

That's some noise, like the sound of furniture being moved, then a clatter, like something being dropped, then George hears Matty's muffled voice, likely swearing and he decides that he should probably figure out what Matty is doing. He's gotten progressively more bored and irritable as the lockdowns have been instituted and extended and there's been some emailing back and forth with the powers that be as George has tried to work things out so that they can get out of London and hide out at the studio. He hasn't said anything to Matty yet, not wanting to get his hopes up, but, on second thought, maybe a distraction would be good.

In their shared office space, Matty has several opened Amazon boxes and he's moved his own desk away from the wall. He's spread a drop cloth on the floor and taped off the outlets, and there are more painting supplies on the floor in company with the Amazon boxes.

"Hey," George offers. "What're ya up to?"

Matty whirls around to face George still standing in the doorway, a bit sheepish. "It's ok," he tries, clutching a still packaged paintbrush. "I saw this on TikTok."

"That's comforting, Matthew, thank you."

"George," Matty whines. "It's completely fine."

"Forgive me if I don't believe that, love. You remember when you decided you were going to repaint the kitchen? We redid the kitchen," George counters. He pauses, then adds, "I know you're bored, but you and DIY don't really mix."

Matty groans, dramatic. "I am bored. I'm so bored. I know it's serious, but I thought we'd be on tour right now and I'm so bored."

"I know," George repeats. "But is gutting the office a good idea?"

"I'm not gutting it. I'm gonna move a bunch of shit around and, you remember that TikTok I sent you? The one with the accent wall and furniture? That's what I'm gonna do."

George nods slowly, recalling the barrage of videos Matty has sent him since he discovered the app. "I do remember that, vaguely. I'll ask again: is this a good idea?"

Matty tosses his paintbrush aside and sighs, "I'm so fucking bored, George. I can't do anything. Can't see anyone, can't go for a walk, can barely open the fucking window, but I can online shop and fuck up the office."

"I know," George says, yet again, and accepts Matty hiding his face against George's chest. "Let's, uh, think about this, though, yet? You can do whatever you want with the office, but let's have a plan, 'k?"

"I had, have, a plan," Matty protests, voice muffled.

"I don't not believe you," George agrees, "but I have an idea, ok?"

Matty steps back and looks up at George, asking, "Is it a good idea? Better than whatever the hell I'm doing here?"

George chuckles. "I think it's a good idea."

"'k," Matty agrees.

"Well, I was thinking that maybe we go up to the studio. We'd get outta London, have a little bit more room to breathe, go outside, go a little less-"

"Mental?" Matty interjects.

"Well, I wasn't going to say mental, but, uh, yeah, I guess."

Matty nods. "'s a good idea. I like that idea. Can we do that?"

George smiles, saying, "Yeah, I think so. I've been workin' it out."

"God, you're brilliant," Matty says. "Really. Absolutely, completely brilliant. I'm gonna return all the Amazon shit."

George laughs. "Gonna let the office be?"

"For now."

#my fic #real life footage of me cutting my own bangs and going crazy during covid lockdowns

[gumamelart]

Old art! Happy birthday to Yellow, and happy 27th anniversary to pokespe 🥳🤩🎂🎉

#was obsessed w/ the manga during lockdown and it changed my life forever #good times #pokemon #pokespe #pokemon special #trainer yellow #yellow caballero #gumamelart

[ningmung]

Idgaf how fucked people think it is to say this but if u have mental health problems that you know are so bad and will worsen over time why are you having kids? kill yourself and do not spread your mental illness Idgaf children should not bear their parents sins at all like and it's even worse when ur asian like nobody really gets it

#i feel so bad for that guy like i know shes mentally ill but i cannot imagine living in a garage modt of your life and being raised thinking #youre a dirty being like you gave birth to him YOU are dirty #also her starving his sister for 3 days during covid lockdown and people siding w the mom like kill yourselves