#its been... EIGHT days

[jaca3rys]

Me a month ago: I'm so in love! I want kids and four cats! Big house with me wife! Wind chimes and pretty dresses

Me now: blocking EVERY. SINGLE. happy WLW couple on my fyp. crying on my knees on my (concrete) floor. Unable to look at happy couples WLW or not without wanting to sob uncontrollably. Literally wanting to rip my fucking hair out whenever I see my brother in law kissing his girlfriend. PHYSICALLY unable to listen to certain songs.

#cece speaks #cece talks #cece.txt #jamien speaks #im. going through it. #venty #distracting myself with hayden Christensen #lana coded men for the win #the trophy being my c***t btw #oh how the turn tables #jamien is having a time #REALLY. REALLY. fucking wish i could get drunk rn #guys first serious relationship wlw breakup happened #i need to cope and all that's working is weed and Olivia Rodrigo #venting #vent post #wlw #breakup #its been... EIGHT days

[bisexualnamjoonie]

jaewon and jihyun + looking at each other in ep. 5

#*screaming seagull meme*: #its about the YEARNING #the eight sense #kdrama #kdramaedit #kbl #lgbtedit #samblr #tonanons #usermor #usernuria #tosnimeat #cinemu #marigif #im jisub #oh juntaek #jaewon x jihyun #i know im late but i just havent been able to get this scene out of my mind for days #mygifs #the eighth sense

[honeydots]

i know im late but xanlow pocky doodle was a must....

#xanlow #fe14 #fire emblem fates #fe laslow #fe xander #PRETEND ITS STILL 11/11 #11/17 looks like 11/11 if you're lying #look ive been having a crazy week you WILL give me a pass #my prof changed the due date of one of my papers so i had to write an eight page paper in. one night. exciting stuff! #that on top two exams and other homework. busy week...... #im so sad tho cause i was literally waiting in anticipation ALL YEAR to do a pocky doodle for them and then the time came and i spaced djfks #ive got a couple more xanlows that i was gonna post in conjunction w this one but i didnt like how they looked together so. #expect art in the coming days #also: natalia if you see this i saw your message!!! and so my song recc to you today is riot by the scarlet opera :D #dots draws

[asexualbookbird]

jo anns ship my fucking order challenge

#bookbird babbles #ITS BEEN EIGHT DAYS #PLEASE I BEG #can you even get a refund from joanns they say you cant change an order after its been placed you have to issue a return #but what if it just never shows up 🫣 #im probably just being impatient but i did pay for 7 day shipping so 🙃

[tangledinink]

Wait wait wait

You do witchcraft???

That's so cool! I had no idea there were other witches in the TMNT fandom!!!

What kind of witchcraft do you practice?? Personally, I deal mostly with divination, but I'd love to hear more about other people's crafts!

I do! ^^ Though admittedly my practice has been a little bit dormant as of late because I sort of fell out of habit after An Event which was a Bit Disruptive to My Life lol. But I guess I kind of dabble in a bit of everything? I dunno if I could pin myself down to just one kind of practice yet, I still sort of consider myself a Baby Witch. But I really like making little spelljars and casting candle spells and things of the like, and I've been trying to learn tarot for a while now! I also really like making and drawing sigils... For a while part of the joy for me has been just Learning New Things.

^ ft. gecko enclosure and tail lol. BoS and altar not pictured.

#ive got kind of a budget witchcraft thing going on lmao #coz thats kind of my fav part of it? that you can kind of just do it however a little bit so long as you have like #intention and are mindful #all my spelljars are the bottles that vaccines would come in at my old workplace (i used to work at a vet office!) #and since we would mostly just throw them out i could just take them and repurpose them so now ive got a ton #ive got a small collection of crystals coz i like those #my practice is a lot of meditation and grounding and mindfulness and shit like that #blah blah blah tricking myself into taking care of me etc etc #for a while i would. like. every day meditate ground and choose an intention for the day #and pick out some pocket crystals to bring with me that matched that intention #but then my schedule got fucked in eight different ways = 3 = so im working on getting back to it #eventually lol #honestly i love talking abt this stuff and would love to get back into it/meet other ppl who do witchcraft its been a hot second since #like #ive truly indulged... #asks #anon #witchcraft #witchblr #i gotta follow some witchy blogs smh lemme know if yall have any suggestions

[ly-pleiades]

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET THAT MAN

#ITS THE FIRST TIME THE VARIANT SHOWED UP TOO #for some reason ive been getting zaynes and rafayels left and eight #but this is the first time ive seen the xavier one ever since the event started and i got 3 normal plushies on the first day too cmon #liya is playing #love and deepspace

[seratlantisite]

The way learning about the vinsmokes and sanji's childhood re-contextualized so much about him hit me like a truck and i still reel when i remember that feeling

"You can die for your pride if you want, but listen - if you eat and survive, won't that give you the opportunity to fight for pride truly worth having?"

"Give up your ambition and live!"

"When he's fighting, he's not afraid of anything. Not even death."

These three lines stick out to me the most when thinking about sanji, but also the progression of these three lines too. Sanji says that first line to a starving man and it's sensible, it's wise. Live to fight another day, and all that. And the second line seems reasonable too, on its own. Why throw your life away when you know you won't win? It is a waste. But it also clashes with the heart of the scene - of zoro putting his life on the line for his dream. If this fight is the ultimate goal of zoro's ambitions, the point of his whole life, how can he just walk away? Because this is the thesis of the series - that extraordinary dreams are worth risking it all. Luffy says himself, with a smile on his face, that if he dies chasing his dream then he'll die. At least he tried. So how can sanji be a main character in a show about chasing dreams if he won't risk anything?

It's because the vinsmokes are still holding him back.

Of course sanji has this mentality, that when danger arises he has to keep his head down and survive until he reaches a mythical someday when everything will be fine. That's what got him through the hell of the first eight years of his life. Things will be better later, just hold on for now.

But the thing with humans is we take our worst days and burn them in to our memories so if they happen again we can survive them again. No matter how much time passes. "Give up your ambition and live" is good advice for a bad situation, but Sanji couldn't see he didn't need it anymore. He's been stuck in that mentality for years even after breaking free of the life where he needed it every single day. And zeff didn't know how to make him see that.

But luffy could show him. And zeff could sit with his son and watch what it was like to live without fear.

#says ser #one piece #black leg sanji #meta #i dont know how much about germa oda had planned from the beginning but #there has never been a 'long lost secret prince' story that hit even half as well as this one did #and its because theyre always orphans who get kingdom bestowed on them one day out of nowhere #while sanji knew and hated it and you could see its toll on him EIGHT HUNDRED GD CHAPTERS before you ever learned why #germa 66

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

hour 14 of taking a break from art for the sake of my tendons: i am Wailing and Keening and Scratching Forlornly At My Tablet

#i dont know if im strong enough but i Need to be strong enough #cant continue doodling if ya wrist doesnt work #clenching my fists and chanting 'this is necessary this is necessary' #ive been going way too hard lately. unfortunately #curse this mortal body and its stupid bullshit mechanics that dont even work half the time #gonna cope by eating overly spicy soup and crochet #well no. i cant crochet. ten minutes of that hurts worse than scribbling for eight gay hours #to put it quite simply - but with feeling: FUCK! #absolutely unprompted #howling and sobbing and baying etc etc #i was gonna finish that commission tonight. then i was gonna start on something else i promised Days ago. #maybe get some doodles done for asks. #work on vines part 2. #but it oof ouch too much :/ #what the hell am i supposed to do now #fold laundry? clean my room? read? WRITE? ha dont make me laugh #i havent written in 2 months and im not about to start now #(said immediately before screaming into a pillow) #maybe ill like... go through my replies for once... see if people are trying to talk to me... #see if im brave enough to Directly Interact outside of asks...

[poppiesforthirteen]

recently i've been thinking about dw audio dramas with a blind companion (let me know if this exists i've barely dipped into audio content) travelling with eight - the typical "don't underestimate me i'm very capable" and "i'm not going to watch out for you (complete lie) this is dangerous (ignored truth)"

the doctor getting into the habit of describing every space they enter so the companion can take part, that leading to him noticing things that lead to The Solution (and the companion being able to take part in the doctor's thought process in a unique way, their experience of wherever they are filtered through what he finds important). the audience being able to listen alongside them, getting the same experience. the doctor getting so into the habit that at some point he describes the room he's in to an empty space [oh shit where did they go]

and i mean occasionally Companion is disadvantaged but it's the companion experience to be a damsel every now and then for the doctor to save the day, but they stick around for a reason and that reason is that they are Actually Very Capable and can save the day just fine thank you very much

also i want someone to step into the tardis and be not all that impressed immediately. so the doctor has to explain that this is his Time Machine that is Very Cool Looking and describe the room in great detail so companion understands that this is his very impressive wife. want an entering the tardis for the first time scene where the doctor has to point out that "it's bigger on the inside"

#i've been thinking about scherzo and the way it uses its medium to its advantage. we (the listeners) only have the sense of sound #meeting the doctor through someone who can't rely on sight (without them being a Tragedy To Be Cured or a one off character) #would play with the medium the same way #could get all meta about the companion/the doctor/the audio drama using their strengths to their advantage #to save the day/defeat the villain/tell a better story #eight #🥀

[s4pphoiduser]

you make a snippy comment and she snips off your tongue

#oh kai parker you will always be famous #his jokes actually age him soooo bad like its so funny i looked up crocodile dundee and it's from 1986?? god he's old #i've rewatched tvd s6 (mostly ONLY the kai scenes) twice in a span of three days. which is totally normal #fun fact: back in the summer of 2017 i sat my ass down on my couch and watched tvd s1-6 in a span of maybe a week #and then i proceeded to watch s6 as many times as i could in that summer leading to the my s6 bluray dvd glitching from all the rewatching #which is also totally normal. and now it's been like eight years and i am still obsessed with this little dude #he's funny he's traumatized he's the worst he's the best he's The Best tvd villain and it's not even a competition #i want to study him under a microscope in a lab like a unique organism #and chris wood we WILL see your renaissance (im not sure if hes still into acting? but if yes WE WILL SEE UR RENAISSANCE) (threat + promise

[geronimomo-spd]

look all im saying is that if someone is having a watch of all doctor who's anniversery specials without context to the classic series or nothing, then you should commit to it and include Zagreus, the 40th anniversery special. yes yes not context allowed, don't worry about it :)

#doctor who #dw #8th doctor #eighth doctor #eight doctor #paul mcgann #fifth doctor #sixth doctor #seventh doctor #zagreus #its all going according to plan #you thought the 5 doctors is ridiculous?? well you haven't seen nothing yet bukko #this is coming from me watching some people react to the 5 doctors without watching any classic who episode beforehand #which got them to laugh a lot about it #so i would like to make this proposal #heck the 3 doctors is also pretty ridiculous #or so i've been told #still need to watch it #add that to the mix #heck day of the doctor is the odd one out here by being so emotinal #8th doctor listenalong #8th doctor big finish stuff #doctor who 40th anniversary #doctor who 50th anniversary #day of the doctor #would be hilerios if someone listenes to Zagrues and decideds to check 8th doctor stuff from it but im sure it happend

[whumble-beeee]

Whumptember 2023, Day 8 

“Don’t come back”

Kicked out | Saying goodbye for the last time | Lashing out 

The Bee’s Whumptember Masterlist

~1030 words

CW: bad caretaker (pretty much a whumper tbh), killing mention, suffocation, shooting people with bows mention

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“Out,” Caretaker growled, eyes fiery, muscles tensed, arm pointed straight out toward the door. Vigilante stopped short and stared at Caretaker, suddenly not so concerned with screaming and pleading with them to fork over their compound bow.

“I–... What?”

“Out.” Caretaker elaborated. “Get out. Go away, hasta la vista, I’m pointing at the door, go to it and use it to go away and never come back.”

“There’s no need to be so… rude…” Vigilante trailed off, realizing this probably wasn't the best time to be snarky. Even though Caretaker didn’t really seem to get that memo. 

Caretaker couldn’t really be saying… could they? “Never come back?... Caretaker, you're overreacting, lets just–"

"NO, VIGIL!" Caretaker yelled, throwing their hands down and storming over to Vigilante, practically backing them up against the wall as they scrambled to get away from their enraged, superpowered friend. “You don’t tell me that I’m overreacting, you do NOT get to tell me that I’m overreacting!”

They whirled around suddenly, stumbling over their words as they tried to form a coherent sentence, before giving up and letting out a loud angry curse to the heavens. They stamped their foot on the ground like a toddler having a temper tantrum and left a cracking dent in the lacquered wood floor.

Vigilante felt the color drain from their face as they stared wide-eyed at the dent. Caretaker whirled around again with a new righteous fury and Vigilante stumbled back into the wall, breath hitching. They couldn’t take their eyes off Caretaker, but they so badly wanted to just look down in submission. To apologize for what they’d done.

“Vigil, we had a deal,” Caretaker growled. Their voice was dangerously calm as Vigilante shook and cowered against the wall. “You apologize to all the people you hurt, the families of the people you killed with that damn bow.” Caretaker took a step toward them with gritted teeth and thundery eyes. “And you’d never use that thing again. You promised me. You promised them.”

Vigilante let out a small squeak as their throat struggled to work up a response. “I-I-I didn’t me-ean to–”

“I let you stay here because you promised that. You promised me.” Caretaker's voice broke, tears sparkly faintly on the edges of their eyes. “I wanted to be the person I needed when I was at my lowest, for you, because I didn’t have anyone like that.”

Vigilante tensely held their hands in front of their chest, wet eyes wide and unblinking. “Ca-aretaker, I’m so-o-rry-y.”

Caretaker stared at them for a long time before their face slowly morphed back into the mask of unbridled fury. “No, you’re fucking not.” They whispered through gritted teeth. Their eyes narrowed, their muscles practically shaking. “You’re just scared of me.”

Caretaker surged forward, grabbing Vigilante’s lapels and shoving them upward into the wall. Vigilante gasped at the sudden pressure shoving painfully into their chest as they grasped at Caretaker's wrists, struggling for any way to get them off, shaking wildly from the pure voracity of it, deafening white noise filling their entire being as their feet searched desperately for the ground. Their head swam as their breathing stuttered against the crushing pin.

Caretaker pressed even further in response, tightening the collar of Vigilante's shirt suffocatingly around their neck. “If you were sorry, you wouldn’t do it again.” They could feel Caretaker’s hot breath misting uncomfortably onto their cheeks. “You wouldn’t sneak out over and over again, you wouldn’t break into the safe and steal the bow back, you wouldn’t go out and get someone killed again and again and again. Over and over and over!”

Caretaker jolted Vigilante and they saw stars. They blinked rapidly, desperately trying to fight off the black slowly consuming their vision. It didn’t work. Their head filled with cotton as it raced away from them at a thousand miles an hour. Was Caretaker actually going to kill them?

“Caretaker–” Vigilante wheezed pleadingly, head lolling backward as they weakly squeezed caretaker’s wrists. “Can’t– I– I ca-an’t–...”

Caretaker dropped Vigilante’s shirt and they collapsed to the floor at Caretaker’s feet, half unconscious and hacking violently into themself. Shivers wracked their body as one hand curled protectively around their throat. 

Caretaker just stared down at them with narrowed eyes. Finally, when Vigilante was just barely hyperventilating and sobbing into the floor, Caretaker spoke again. “You’re out of chances, Vigil. Get out. Don’t come back.”

Vigilante nodded meekly, watching tears slowly drip down and splash onto the hard dark surface they were curled up on. “I’l-l– I’ll le-e-eav-v-ve.”

Caretaker nudged Vigilante toward the door, not quite hard enough to be a kick. Vigilante tipped over onto their side with a small thump, and Caretaker rolled their eyes with a sigh, pinching at the bridge of their nose.

“If I ever see you again, Vigilante, I’ll kill you.” 

Not a threat, just a promise. Vigilante nodded quickly, not meeting Caretaker’s eyes, and Caretaker curtly turned around and walked away deeper into the home. Probably to Vigilante’s room to throw all their stuff out. Or destroy it.

Vigilante laid on the floor, taking deep breaths and willing with all their might for their heart to stop racing, taking in deep gulps of air and rubbing the wet tear tracks from their face. They knew they deserved this. They knew it every time they stole their bow back, every time they saw the arrow buried into the chest of an unsuspecting target, every time they hit the wrong person, every time Caretaker found out and lectured them, saying they knew Vigilante could be better if they just tried, how they would never stop helping until Vigilante could actually, truly help people. And Vigilante would smile up at them with sad tears in their eyes, thankful they had a person who would believe in them when even they couldn't believe in themself.

They would smile because they knew Caretaker would never give up on them.

Now, they just sobbed.

Slowly, Vigilante built up the strength to finally stand up and stumble toward the door. They wrenched it open with a cry, and walked away without looking back

@whumptember

#whumptember2023 #whump #whump writing #whumptember day 8 #whumpee #caretaker #bad caretaker #day eight: dont come back #day eight: kicked out #day eight: lashing out #hurt no comfort #writeblr #angst #hehe getting it in thirty mins before the end of the day #still counts :) #not that anyone cares if its late #im just holding myself accountable #been a busy day and i was kinda dreading writing all this #but now that i actually got to it #im just enjoying myself

[homolobotomized]

such a big fan of this page. nagumo's text emboldened, yotsumura's expression,, "shaddup ab why im keeping this dude who has no chance of recovery (barely) alive. let's talk ab the reason im keeping this dude who has no chance of recovery (barely) alive",,, good shit

#sakamoto days #sakadays #nagumo #nagumo sakamoto days #sakamoto days spoilers #shut up homo #i havent personally seen it yet that i can remember #but nagumo getting hit with the dgaf allegations (because it will happen) is going to kill me because he so obviously cares #it's something that becomes more apparent as the series progresses but #when you look back (look back mention 🗣️) its been very much there since his intro chapter 😭 #i am loath to make this comparison but #its not even like gayjo where people can take him at face value (which is fueled by jj k's recentlack of emotional depth TBH) #BUT ANYWAY #basically everything this guy's done for the past eight (+ ?) years has been bc of rion #this man is losing the idgaf war with three million casualties and #COUNTING

[mademoisellesarcasme]

trying to psychoanalyse periods of my own life by personal aesthetic trends/tendencies because obviously i have nothing better to think about

#i've been really loving the eight-pointed star motif for probably five to seven years now #it started with heavily Dominican associations but is leaning just into something i love in its own right #especially the version that's sort of compass rose/star of bethlehem'y #it feels poetic #it helps you navigate a path (compass rose) #it points you towards Christ (star of bethlehem) #it represents the resurrection (eighth day) #anyway. nobody cares except me

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

....oh when i finish DRAGON i could watch sandman and knit, huh

#text #personal #the dragon of jin-sayeng #ks villoso #afraid to tag this as just sandman but i need to find it somehow just in case lmao #sandman #(sorry but i will NOT remember a cutesy tag for it i know i am) #ive been pining after umbrella academy but. this would work instead lol #i do like 8 ep shows because thats a good hyperfocus amount for me #im not good at actual series because i cannot commit and then i cannot stop #but eight episodes is like. three days. max. #and its good for knitting!! #my brain itches so i should enrich it with other things lol #dragon first tho #(i say like ive started it. i have not. it is now almost 6PM on sunday)

[aslongaswelast]

la chimera verdict after second watch: something about this film is so so mesmerising. definitely enjoyed it more knowing exactly what it was and without the expectation of wanting to like it. i once again walked out of there immediately running through my schedule for the next couple days trying to see if i can make it a third time before its run ends

#reviews #la chimera #for lack of a better word i feel Bewitched. i need to go again. i don't even know how i feel about the movie beyond I Need To Go Again #it's about to level with perfect days and the boy and the heron for films i've seen repeatedly in the cinema #and may even surpass that. to be honest if i'd seen the eight mountains earlier in its run and could walk to the cinema then i wouldve been #in there every single free day i had. this one though. i don't even know anymore