#it would be nice if I was brave enough to post more of my drawings so other people could tell me but I don't think it's a big enough sample

[wu-does-art]

reblogging all of your byler art for my moots and followers to see because oh my god it's so fucking adorable

*sobbing* you guys are way too supportive- hhh thank you anon im glad its "showing my moots" approved ;-; <3

just gotta love them funny little gay people,,,

#no but this is so funny because most of my recent stuff is just: haha shitpost #bit ya'll are still like aw cute!! #i want to draw them being more gay too i swear #and also comics are ao exhausting #but my non comic stuff is just pretty eh #but i mean idk maybe i should just post em even if the non comic stuff seems to be less liked #spoilers its mostly mike shitposts #and yeah just them being gay #we'll see. ill look through my old pen doodles tmrw and we'll see #anyways hhh thank you all for all the nice comments i love reading all of them- #they're all so funny too- like that one person saying dustin looked more shocked than will #and my other favourite is someone saying mike would say that shit sober- #and by comments i mean tags #but some of you are brave enough to actually comment #wow long tangent #sorry jdbd

[yampidimp]

my art improvement from drawing the same blorbos 500 times is that I now know how to draw two specific guys from memory

#uh. I guess it's better than nothing #to be fair I think I learned how to draw humans slightly better #but at the cost of my previous art style that I and other people seemed to really like ;; #idk how to go back to it now lol #it is neat that I don't have to pull up refs of answer or chipp anymore though #it would be nice if I was brave enough to post more of my drawings so other people could tell me but I don't think it's a big enough sample #I do the thing where you fill a fuckton of sketchbooks but idk I can't see anything #not that I'm actually really trying to do anything specifically I'm just havin fun

[coffee-master]

Lulaw Fic idea

Fic ideas that I still didn't write/I'm not planing to write part 2

Warning this post is pretty long.

Lulaw but with into the spider-verse movie

So after after the into the spider-verse movie I had a funny lulaw idea.

***

Luffy is the spider-man in his universe. He was bitten by the radioactive spider and used his powers for fun.

His motto is littelary 'with great powers comes no responsiblity'

But what is important is the fact that from the start he tells all of his friends his Secret.

Firstly because he can't lie and secondly because he doesn't feel like hiding it from them. It didn't even crossed his mind.

He decided to be a some sort of anti-hero(?) Called spider-man, (although people still call him a hero)

Mostly because he could finally play with his powers outside his home and because when he helped an eldery woman to cross the street they gave him a free churro.

Ussop projected the costume.

Nami was sort of a 'chair guy'.

His boyfriend Law made him his first weebshoter (later Franky make better one-)

Chopper treats when he gets hurt.

And the rest tries to make up excuse to why Luffy suddenly dissapears and ect..

Then Ace dies and everything and was taking a toll on him. Spider-Man disappeared for two years afterward, blaming himself for his brother's death, because he wasn't fast enough to safe him.

Fortunatelly he has support of his friends and family.

When he comes back, Luffy takes his 'spider-man' job more seriously and tries to make his best, so noone would get hurt.

In the meantime he's happy again, has fun and tires (somehow) to study.

Fight some bad guys, spend time with his friends, fights villians, goes on dates, finds out that Law's uncle is a super villian called Joker and other weird and crazy stuff happen-

NOW MULTIVERSUM PART!

Luffy somehow manage to get into the 'spider-verse' where he meets the other spider-people and HIS Friends who got the powers.

Zoro who has two catanas and at his sight Luffy is like "yeah, Zoro said if he got my powers he would still fights with swords-"

There's Sanji who fight with his legs and in his universe is know for helping the damsels in distress (and flirting with them) and giving food to the hungry homeless people.

There's Nami who firstly was a tief and later become hero ready to take some charge for giving the police the villians.

Usopp who's a coward that wants to be a brave hero.

And there is Ace.

ALIVE.

And when Luffy sees him he just starts crying like a child. Then Ace takes him into a hugg, because he just feels like Luffy needs it, while calling him a cry-baby.

They talk, joke and see the diffrence between the universes.

It turns out that eveyrone there kept thier identyti secret from their family and friends and had something called 'CANON EVENT'.

Then Luffy meets the other version of his Torao, who turns out to be way diffrent than his boyfriend.

He's cold, crude, tired, depressed and despises his presence, labeling him as foolish, thoughtless, and imprudent.

Of course although Law's behaviour Luffy is still happy to see him, which draws the attention of the others and they were mildly surprised by the fact that Luffy is dating Law in his reality.

Law is obviously dumbfounded and doesn't belive him, since he had never dated anyone and never will (because of the canon event-) and said that he had never meet him in his universum.

It's time for Luffy to be confused.

In Law's universe when he was bitten by the spider everything started to tear apart.

Before that Law had already issused about the car accident in which died his biological family. After that he was taken by the nice officer Rosinante and then adopted.

Unfortunately as spider-man Law wasn't able to safe his adoptive dad, who died in his arms.

Trafalgar was left with more trauma to deal with.

Law had to move in to Doflamingo, who lived in a completely different area, so that the brunet had to change the school. Despite such a small change, it resulted in him never meeting him and living with his demanding and despotic uncle.

Moreover the fact that he turned out to be one of the most dangerous criminals aka 'Joker' didn't help his situation at all.

So- Law starts talking to the Luffy about the canon events, which confuses Luffy, since why everyone must go through this??

Someone then explains how there are at least three phases of this stage, which usually overlap significantly with other universes.

How firstly you lost a father figure.

Then someone who's close to someone who's important to you.

And then your first lover.

Then the straw hat's suprise even his friends started talking about their canon events.

Zoro lost his sister Kuina.

Sanji lost his mother then sister and Pudding..

Ace lost Edward, his father figure and boyfriend-

At that a red warning light went off in his head.

He wasn't going to lose anynone more-

Not anymore.

Then there's going a mess, where other get to know that Luffy didn't had the 'full' canon event and are trying to stop him from avoiding it.

Of course Luffy as Luffy doesn't give a f- And does what he want.

There are fights, drama and other things that I'm too lazy to write-

In the end Luffy's friends form other universe decide to help him and suprisingly Zoro was the, who convinced them to do it.

Meanwhile Spider-Law (ok that doesn't sound good, but you know what I mean-) is determined to stop him at all cost from ruining the whole universe.

On the other hand the straw hat wants to help Law, because even if he's not his Toaro, he's still Torao.

Again more fights.

Spider-Law gets to know more about Luffy's universum, where the brunet gets even more depressed, because of seeing what LIFE HE COULD HAVE HAD if not the spider bite-

More drama again.

Luffy helps Law.

Law was able to get to know more about Luffy and finally fall for his 'charm' (not in a romantic way of course, because it'd be WAY too fast) But he starts to understand why Luffy's Traffy likes him so much and Law starts to appreciate him.

Luffy is able to same someone and not break the whole universe, proving that canon event is a bullshit- doesn't really work.

Everyone is shocked, except for Luffy.

And in the end everyone goes back to their universe with changed perspective of life and happy ending!!!

OH!

Also I wanted to add a bonus where at the end Law with spider powers would by accident met the Luffy form his universe and would start talking with him

ANYWAY-

(There were also other thing that I'd add, but I'm too lazy to write them here. This post is already too long)

I've had this idea for a long time. Honestly, I'm not sure if I'll write it because it would be long, and I tend to write very slowly, and there would probably be a lot of action scenes in it.

And I don't know how to write action scenes well.

Soo.. what do you think..??

#lulaw #one piece #ao3 ideas #fic #maybe i'll write it #maybe idk #monkey d. luffy #trafalgar law #into the spider verse

[nohoperadio]

[this is responding to @wellmetmat's reblog of my aesthetic self-modifications post, I'm only quoting them in part so you should click and check out the whole thing if you wanna keep up. Replying like this to keep the thread from getting crazy long!]

Tattoos: I like the idea a lot. I like face/body-painting even more: not make-up, mostly, and not usually henna (blobby, a stain rather than a paint, almost a normal skin colour but a bit off, not glorious at all); but war-paint and costumes and body glitter under blacklights - gorgeous - and the tradition of children's face-painting at fairs, and getting, too rarely, to draw on people with coloured zinc cream by way of sun protection, and smearing my face and limbs with ochreous clay or ashes from a campfire, something I have a strangely recurrent urge to do and feel modern urban life is rather impoverished for lack of. I liked Darth Maul's appearance. I think most people look better in eyeliner, and would look even better again with their faces transformed into unearthly blue-black masks of woad and ashes, at least on special occasions.

This is cool there's lots of examples I wouldn't have thought to think about here! I'm gonna try to extract some takeaways about what the things you mentioned might bring to the table in contrast to tattoos and makeup, although I have little to no hands-on experience with most of it so tell me if this doesn't ring true:

I get the impression that the tactile element is important in several of these, as much as the visual element? Especially with "smearing my face and limbs with ochreous clay or ashes from a campfire" which feels like a very sensuously-motivated description, but possibly this is in play with the body-paint and war-paint too? I like this idea because it implies that the goal is a transformation where you can feel yourself changed, it's a more first-person kind of change than either makeup or tattoos where all the emphasis is on the visual effect, and therefore (perhaps?) implicitly on what other people perceive. You actively want to feel these things on your skin and feel how your body's different.

Is there an element of democracy that's important here? Tattoos/makeup are both things where there are high ceilings one can exploit both in terms of how much money you're willing to invest and how much skill you have available (with tattoos the skill part is outsourced to someone else, but still). Whereas with a lot of things on your list the materials are simple and relatively inexpensive, and the desired effect isn't particularly intricate or subtle and most people can achieve it for themselves untrained (I think!). This doesn't necessarily apply to face/body paint but I feel like it does to a lot of the other things.

There's also a quasi-ritual social aspect to some of these which I guess is somewhat connected to the previous point, I like that you've introduced the experience of being the "artist" of other people's modifications into the conversation, it's a nice contrast to my very I-centric post.

Despite that, I don't have any [tattoos]. Partly because of pain and needles (significant deterrents! I'm not brave), partly because as of last year I have a skin condition which can be pretty wretched and the thought of voluntarily seeking more skin misery for any reason at all is offputting (and I have a lot of little scars and discoloured patches from it now, and they look distressingly messy, and the addition of tattoos would probably increase the general look of shabbiness and disorder); and in the main because I'm very indecisive and slow to commit to anything.

Very reasonable to not want to put your skin through another ordeal when it's already been through a lot! I do think tattoos that incorporate scars and such as a basis for the design are one of the coolest uses for the technology, although I guess you mostly only hear about people who were lucky enough to get the kind of scar that sets up something good. (I mean "lucky" is obviously a wrong and borderline callous word but you know what I mean!)

I don't think I mentioned "reluctant to commit" in my bit about tattoos but yeah definitely a thought I always have when I think about tattoos is "how could I possibly know whether, ten years from now, I'll still be the kind of person who thinks this is a good idea?" I guess the positive spin to put on this is that I put a lot of value on leaving room to change one's mind and change one's feelings about everything, which I do genuinely think is a virtue. The negative/depressive spin on it is that at any given point in my life I've always felt like I have a lot of personal growth still to do before I'll be somebody I'm actually happy being, kind of as if my current identity is a provisional one that I hope will at some point be replaced with something better and more solid, and so making what's basically a small lifelong commitment while I'm still inhabiting the "provisional" self feels reckless. (Damn sorry wasn't expecting this paragraph to take that turn! I should clarify I'm doing pretty alright for the most part, my full-on depression days are long behind me now.)

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All of your tattoo ideas sound awesome to me! The dandelion is particularly compelling, I like the idea of a tattoo that's expansive enough across the body that you can't necessarily easily see all of it at once, and it's a good example of a design that really uses the medium well, you couldn't get anything like the same impact with an ink drawing on paper.

I hadn't heard of a winter count, it's a very beautiful idea, I feel like I would stress too much about my years not containing enough significant events to come up with a summarizing icon though!

I don't think I need to tell you how much I approve of the pigeon.

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Hey thanks for sharing this was fun! Fwiw chatter will always be welcome, I'd like to increase the amount of chattiness in my tumblr use in general, but more to the point I've always enjoyed your ( )-shaped thoughts whenever you've shared them so always feel free please!

#touched to learn that our hands have similar personalities also #the devil's policies to reverse unemployment disproportionately target certain idle hands it seems #wellmetmat #replies

[joyful-soul-collector]

Just Steven

Ok so @parknerandirondad​ asked me a question about my favorite pictures of Steven and one of my favorites was of Steven with his Mr. Knight suit for the first time! But as I was trying to figure out WHY I liked this picture so much, I started analyzing Steven himself and how his confidence changed when he put on that suit and how his confidence changed THROUGHOUT THE SHOW--

Eventually I realized there were a lot of reasons why I liked said picture of him, and would need a separate post to explain my analysis of everything. 

This is said post. 

Here we fuckin go:

First off and VERY IMPORTANT, we see Steven in TWO suits in Moon Knight, not just his Mr. Knight suit. The first suit we see him in is actually this one: 

And what does Steven say when he sees himself in this moment?

“Ya look like a knob.”

He puts himself down. Just immediately shuts down and takes it off. Steven doesn’t wear suits often clearly, and it seems as though the sight of himself in the suit was so unfamiliar that he immediately pushed the idea away completely. Steven normally dresses in layers of larger clothes and brushes his hair so it’s more in his face, effectively hiding his body (as a trans man, same), so we can tell that he doesn’t exactly think highly of how he looks.  

All of this is just showing that Steven doesn’t believe he looks nice. He’s nothing special. He’s not handsome, not good-looking, definitely not hot in any sort of way. In fact he’s so certain that the moment he’s presented with the image of himself in a suit, the image of himself in clothes that objectively look fine and good on him, he calls himself a knob and takes them off. 

However, ALLL that changes the moment he sees himself in THIS:

“I do look sharp though!”

The MOMENT Steven sees himself in this, his confidence just SKYROCKETS. Suddenly he thinks he can fight, he challenges the jackal, drawing it towards him and celebrating when he lands a good blow. The Steven wearing that brown suit is clearly NOT the same Steven wearing this white one. 

But beyond this white suit being higher quality, and magic, what really is the big difference between them? Why did one suit make Steven put himself down, and the other compliment himself?

Well the biggest difference is that the Mr. Knight suit covers his face. 

Before now he’s reiterated constantly that he’s just Steven, just Steven Grant, who works at a gift shop, he’s not a mercenary, he’s not Marc Spector, he’s just. Steven.

He doesn’t see himself in that glass, not really. He sees someone that’s stronger than him, better than him, he sees someone that wouldn’t run away from danger, someone that would challenge a jackal and send it flying with a single punch. He doesn’t see Steven Grant, he sees Mr. Knight. 

But this confidence doesn’t last very long. Obviously he’s not a skilled fighter, not yet, and after landing that one good blow he gets dragged around and thoroughly defeated. And THAT is the moment when the mask comes off:

“Alright, you take control, for now.”

He’s realized he’s not as strong as he thought, not as good as Marc is. His confidence is gone. He gives control over to Marc and lets him handle the jackal instead. For a moment he thought he could be strong and brave, and he was, but it wasn’t enough. 

He’s just Steven again.

However! We do see his confidence, and his suit, come back here:

This is the scene where Steven is shown to be just as important as Marc, just as powerful and brave as he is. For the first time, somebody needed him. Marc and Layla needed Steven to solve the puzzle, and Konshu needed Mr. Knight to turn back the sky. And you can see the exact moment when Steven and Mr. Knight are one in the same:

Konshu is losing power and Steven’s mask falls away. Mr. Knight is gone, but Steven still has power. Steven is the one that keeps the night sky in place long enough for Layla to get the coordinates. Steven is the one that uses up so much of his energy that he passes out. Steven is the one with the stars in his hands, not Mr. Knight. Steven is the person with power right now. Not Marc, not Moon Knight, not Mr. Knight, not even Jake, just. Steven. 

That’s when Steven becomes Mr. Knight. That’s when he wears the suit as himself. 

And that leads us to the last time we see Steven in a suit:

“Hey I’m really jazzed about showing you these new skills we have!”

Steven first shows up in the suit without the mask! And god look at him! He’s BEAMING! He’s excited!! He’s fuckin’ jazzed! He’s learned now that not only is he just as brave and strong as Marc is, he’s also just as necessary as Marc is! He has a role now, he can access Marc’s fighting skills, he has people in his life who love him, who love him as Steven. 

He’s got his confidence. More confidence than he’s ever had so far. 

He looks sharp in that suit. 

And goddamn does he know it

#moon knight #moon knight meta #steven grant #marc spector #jake lockley #mr. knight #steven with a v #mk system #marvel #mcu #GOD seeing Steven grow through this show?? #love it love him love everything AGH #thank you for coming to my ted talk lol

[tanjir0se]

Hello!! I saw in the tags of a post that youd like more asks, which made me brave enough to send one

Would u mind rambling a bit about your rengiyuu fic(s)? I get excited when I hear that you're working on them but I don't know if you've published any/ any chapters yet?

I hope you're having a nice day!! 🌻

hI THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING AND I AM SO SORRY _(:3 」∠)_

So it AAALLL started with my overlong post-Entertainment District Coping fic I wrote the majority of between episodes 10 and 11 of Entertainment District, trying to find a way for Tanj and the bois to survive the. yknow. Gigantic Poison Explosion.

I wrote Giyuu and Shinobu heading there with an antidote, and Giyuu having to dig around through the rubble to find Tanjiro, half dead. In that I draw comparisons between his relationship with Tanjiro and his relationship with the now-deceased Kyojuro, very different but all leading into the same conclusion: He can't stand to lose anyone else who is as special and just sunshine incarnate as Kyo was. It's told interspersed between Giyuu trying to find/save Tanjiro and my headcanon for Giyuu and Kyo's first meeting, in which Giyuu became a Hashira AFTER Kyo and Kyo was his mentor throughout. Never finished or published it because most of it didn't make sense in canon after Ep 11 came out.

Then I moved onto my Demon!Rengoku bullshit. In this fic that takes place any time post Entertainment District, Rengoku has been posthumously turned into a demon by Douma in an attempt to get close to/kill Tanjiro. Waking up with no memory, no awareness that he's a demon, and nowhere else to go, Kyo wanders to Giyuu's house. Giyuu tries to just end him right then and there but can't work up the nerve, even when Kyo attacks him. Haven't gotten too far, but the gist is that he and Kyo have to team up (with Akaza?? [obviously he'd be fucking PISSED that Douma managed to turn Kyo when he couldn't, so maybe some enemy of my enemy is my friend?]) to figure out who turned him and how to turn him back. Probably my spiciest fic? Demons sexy what can I say. I think I'm pretty good at writing smut but I can literally never work up the nerve so. yknow.

I ALSO have a much more fluffy fic based on the idea of Giyuu being injured in battle, waking up in the butterfly mansion with Kyo having thought he died. Kyo tries to confess that he's realized his love for him but panics last minute and ends up saying he's realized Giyuu never met his brother. Giyuu accepts and they end up on a date that neither really realizes is a date except poor Senjuro, who now kind of has to play matchmaker! Very fluffy and silly and a good break from the darker fics I had been working on.

Annnnd another less overtly Rengiyuu fic as part of my Modern AU in which Giyuu (Kyo's roommate[and they were ROOMMATES]) and Sanemi (over at their apartment because he was bored) find themselves embroiled in the Rengoku family drama after Senjuro and Kyo appear at their apartment, Kyo with a black eye from their father. Explores Giyuu and Sanemi's shared past (dead siblings), Sanemi's relationship with his own father, and my personal thoughts for how Shinjuro and Kyojuro's relationship would have played out A.) If Kyo never died and B.) in a modern setting.

That was interrupted by As the World Caves In (read it here!) and will likely be interrupted by some Everybody Lives AU Secret Relationship bullshit in the future.

*Takes a huge deep breath*

So yeah anyway i loooove being Normal! For real though thank you for asking, I will die on this Ship and will always welcome the opportunity to ramble incoherently about it !!

#anon #THANK YOU FOR ASKING SKLJFLKD #kny #rengiyuu #rose's rambles #my GOD am i normal #i just have such a thing for the silent protagonist silent communication thing #kyo being the only one who can understand his quietness paradoxically (because he's so loud) is just sooooooooo . oompgh #also just. pure mental illness from both of them in different directions #rengiyuu wednesday lives in my mind rent free #in fact I pay rent to rengiyuu wednesday in the form of my various diseases spat out onto google docs and tumblr posts

[likegemstone]

I have been in a really good groove with creating lately, and just with like "working" in general. In the past, creating has often involved a massive and constant mental wrestling match against myself—second guessing every decision, fighting through constant discouragement, rarely if ever feeling confident in what I'm working on, etc. Just all this emotional/mental exertion on top of the regular emotional/mental exertion that goes into making art.

But lately I have felt really in sync with myself—we're dancing instead of wrestling. I've been brave enough to try out new things that I've never done before (which is REALLY hard for me, like REALLY hard), and been able to notice and accept the areas of my work that I can see need improvement without beating myself up bc they aren't "good enough" yet. It has been really nice, and has shown me that, when I can care for and take responsibility for myself properly (which I now have the skills and tools to do thanks to a lot of inner work and also therapy), I can learn, grow, and improve pretty steadily, and without all the agony of that fucking exhausting wrestling match.

However.

I made a post recently about how I want to draw Daivad getting his ass kicked (and also kicking ass), right? That is in great part due to the fact that I was, at the time, rereading Kengan Asura/Kengan Omega (which is an MMA manga) and I was Very Inspired. And I still am. I've been gathering reference and inspo ever since then. And today I ran out of Haikyuu!! to watch so I was like okay now is the time—I want to draw some sick action scenes with Daivad.

But then. Here comes the anxiety. The overwhelm. The "there's no way you can pull off some sick action scenes—you can barely place characters in a scene and make it look legit, you want to try to do multiple characters interacting in a scene in extreme and dynamic poses?? no shot. and once you try and inevitably fail then you're going to be discouraged and start beating yourself up again and you'll ruin this momentum we've got going on."

So, this post is going to be me using those tools and skills I have now to work through this. Because I know I can. I've done it before.

First skill I'm going to be using: recognizing what exactly is triggering this anxiety, and figuring out a plan to care for the Part of me that's triggered. I want to ensure I'm making my decisions from Core, not from a triggered Part, and I also want to ensure I'm caring for those vulnerable Parts!

I think the thing that is making me feel so anxious and overwhelmed is because dynamic action scenes are so far out of my comfort zone and I haven't come up with a plan for connecting the dots of my current skill to Dynamic Action Scene Skill. It's a whole big leap, and that Part of me sees aaaaalllll of those, like dozens of really tricky dots that I have not mastered yet (perspective, composition, conveying movement, dynamic poses IN perspective, and so on) and is like "!!!!! HOLD UP THAT'S TOO MUCH I CAN'T FIGURE THIS OUT ALL AT ONCE. Trying to master all that stuff will take literal years and probably good money to pay for lessons from people who know wtf they're doing!!"

So, I'll care for that Part by saying: That's true! And it's okay! I'm not going to try to get the perfect action scene down right away, because you're right. Trying to force that would absolutely wreck our confidence and be really frustrating as well. And I appreciate the reminder that biting off more than I can chew can knock me back a few steps. Small bites are best sometimes.

Next skill, now that that Part has calmed down a lot and also feels steadied: coming up with a plan. I want to draw Daivad getting his ass kicked, but don't currently have the skills to pull off a whole Dynamic Action Scene yet. So how am I going to meet that desire/feed my inspiration (Daivad getting his ass kicked) while still protecting my Parts, challenging my skills, and caring for my mental health?

One dot at a time.

I could start with just breaking down some of my favorite panels from KA. Examining how Daromeon frames his scenes, how he works with perspective, how he conveys movement, etc. But specifically I want to see Daivad getting his ass kicked—so maybe I'll start with just one pose that feels doable for my skill level, use KA as reference for the pose and put Daivad in it, and since I have gotten decent at capturing his likeness, I can challenge myself to put an extreme expression on his face and still have him be recognizable. That's totally doable—it'll take time and work and lots of effort, but it's doable! And it will bring me one step closer to Dynamic Action Scene skill level!

Alright, now I'm feeling excited and fired up and also I have an exact pose in mind and I think I already have it saved somewhere, so I am off to draw Daivad, Bloody and In Pain. Wish me luck y'all!

#personal #gem problem solves #artblr #writeblr #artist problems #writer problems #mental health

[edith-hyde]

Hi! I saw your post about who you want to write for and had to send in a request right away! Could I please have something with Otto octavius? Whatever you feel like writing as I love your writing so much. Thank you so much! I hope you get many many requests!

I am so sorry that this turned out really sad. It's raining here and I suppose that set the mood. But I hope you still enjoy it! Thank you for the request. Honestly, I love writing for Otto.

Flowers

You were the only one brave enough to volunteer. Honestly, you only did it to satisfy your growing curiosity. To get a look at the dreaded super villain trapped within his special prison.

Doctor Otto Octavius.

It wasn’t really fair to call him a super villain though. The man had been driven mad by his own creation. Everyone thought he had drowned the night of his failed experiment, but he had reappeared about a day after. He gave himself up without a fight and that was how he ended up here in a special wing of the prison.

You held your breath, heart pounded as they patted you down. Had to make sure you weren’t smuggling any sharp objects into the prisoner. Not that he would need them. The 4 metallic arms protruding from his back were more than enough to aid him in any escape attempt. Once the guards were satisfied that you weren’t a threat, the doors were opened and you were allowed inside. 

The actuators tuned first, looking at you like deadly vipers. You gulped in fear, squeezing your medical bag to your chest. 

“Hush now. She doesn’t mean us any harm.”

The large man turned as the arms lowered. He wore the orange prison jumpsuit, but only up to his waist. The uncomfortable looking apparatus peeking out around his midsection kept the rest of the outfit from fitting properly. You tried your best not to get distracted by his bare chest, but you couldn’t help it. As a doctor, you were used to the human body, but not really in this context. You felt the heat rise to your face and you averted your eyes. 

“I won’t hurt you,” the doctor promised in a soft voice, “Neither will they.”

He gestured to the arms that rested behind him. Two of them opened and closed like snapping jaws but the lights inside them were white, making them far less threatening. You finally managed to look at Otto’s face and you were surprised by what you saw. His large brown eyes were burdened with a great sadness underneath his messy curls. He had the start of a beard and you imagined that it would grow quite thick considering they probably wouldn’t let him shave. His entire expression was laden with sorrow and you could tell- he was just as scared as you were.

“Hi,” you whispered, “I’m Y/N.”

The doctor’s eyes went wide for a second. Then his face relaxed into a defeated smile.

“I am Doctor Otto Octavius. It’s a pleasure to meet you.”

The ex-villain offered his hand and you couldn’t help but flinch. His smile fell and he started to withdraw his hand, but you shot forward and grabbed it before he could. His massive digits closed around yours as his gaze locked onto you.

“The pleasure is all mine,” you declared, “Shall we get started?”

Otto nodded and sat down on the bed- the only piece of furniture in the small room. His tentacles curled up behind him, moving out of your way so you could kneel before him. 

“May I?”

“Go ahead.”

Drawing closer, you pulled down the section of the jumpsuit that covered the vice around his belly. You couldn’t help but wince as you saw the raw bloody skin that was scraping against the metal. 

“That has got to hurt,” you murmured, “I am so sorry.”

“It wasn’t like you did this to me, my dear. My state of being is a product of my own hubris.” 

You met Otto’s gaze and he smirked.

“Though your sympathy is much appreciated.”

You smiled at him, feeling a strange sense of calm. This man was frightening at all. Far from it. Despite his scary looking appendages, he seemed quite nice. You weren’t usually one to warm up to people so quickly, but there was something about Otto Octavius that made it easy to be around him.

“May I look at your spine?”

“Certainly.”

Otto stood and again, the actuators moved out of your way, now stretched out in front of him. You watched them, noting how each piece moved and clicked. You were sure that just the sound of them in the darkness would’ve given you nightmares if you had met this man under different circumstances. But right now, they only managed to make you worry slightly. You doubted that you would be harmed, but still- being this close to them was unreal.

With his back exposed, you gently inspected the flesh around the needles that were stabbing into his back. Much like his front, this skin was bloodied and chaffed. Your heart ached for him and you desperately wanted to help ease whatever pain he must be in.

“The weight of these things on your back cannot be good,” you observed, “Do you suffer any back pain?”

“Yes,” Otto admitted, “But I’ve gotten used to it.”

“I wish it were possible to remove this contraption from you. But the mental here at the base of your neck is fused to your skin. Cutting it off would likely kill you, or leave you paralyzed.”

“Shame,” Otto sighed, “But expected.”

“I am so sorry.”

“Again, you apologize for something you had nothing to do with.”

Otto turned to look at you. Shrugging you stared down at the ground.

“Sorry.”

“You apologize for apologizing. I don’t know if that’s ironic or just silly.”

Otto chuckled and you gave a short laugh as well. When you next met his gaze, he was grinning at you, clearly amused. You were glad to see some life back in his eyes. When you had first entered, he looked haunted- as if he had just woken from a nightmare. Now his face was alight with his smile. 

Though, there was still grief in his almond eyes. 

“I would like to rub some ointment on your skin to help with the chaffing. I would also like to give you some painkillers for the back pain.”

“That would be greatly appreciated, thank you.”

Otto sat and you rummaged around in your bag for what you needed. Returning to his side, you cautiously began applying the goop to his skin. He sucked in a sharp breath and you clenched your jaw.

“Sorry, it’s gonna sting for a bit.”

“Now you tell me.”

You made sure to get it rubbed in so that Otto’s wounds could begin to heal. You even put some on his spine. You wished you could put some kind of fabric between his skin and the metal but you weren’t sure that was possible. 

“There. I will be back tomorrow to give you more. It should be a lot better by next week.”

You stood and turned to leave. But Otto caught your wrist. The door to the cell suddenly opened and several guards ained their guns at Otto. You quickly waved them away before looking back at the man you had just treated. Your heart dropped as you beheld his watery brown eyes. At first you thought he was crying due to the sting of the ointment. But as he spoke, his emotions overcame him.

“Thank you for the ointment… Please… Can I ask a favor of you?”

You took his hand and nodded.

“Of course. If I can help, I will.”

“Can you… can you put some flowers on my wife’s grave? She likes roses and lilies… I would do it myself but…”

Otto trailed off, struggling to regain his composure. You knelt before him, setting a gentle hand on his knee. He met your gaze and you gave him a reassuring smile.

“Of course I can do that for you.”

“Tell her I miss her,” he whispered.

“I promise I will.”

You patted Otto’s leg and he released his hold on your wrist. You gathered your bag and left the room, barely keeping your tears back. When you gave Otto one last glance, you saw him sobbing with his head in his hands. Your own tears gained their freedom and you sped through the halls of the prison, hiding your face behind your hair. 

You would do as he asked. 

It was the least you could do.

#ask #answer #request #fanfic #sam raimi spider man #spider man: no way home #fanfiction #otto octavius #otto octavius x reader

[multicharablack]

[[Photo used is me using picrew,original creator/artist is unknown]]

Hi,Welcome to my den

You are now called ‘Black blopers’ or ‘Red Crows’

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Greetings:

Hi,Im Multichara but I am also blackbunnyblob in Ao3.You can call me Chara,Crow,Blob or just my full username if you want to.I use she/her and is straight as a ruler.I have autism, (mild-ish) ADHD ,and still going to school so my posts are pretty random and incoherent,please be patient with me. 

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My Hyperfixation:

The fandom I am currently active and in is ROTTMNT (obviously).But I may reposts some blogs that is TADC,Genshin impact,and (any) FNAF -related stuff,maybe even post some.(And also some Poppy Playtime content lurking in the corners if I’m brave enough to post).

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Warnings:

Sometimes my posts are dark and suggestive (like blood and murder and all that icky stuff) so please be warned,and again, please be patient about me and my schedule, I’m sensitive on what I post and it will be very nice if you try not to give anything that might hurt my feelings or try to ask/say anything to me nicely.I am a human being ,so please, mind what you say.I am also not a Multishipper (I don’t support Leosagi,Kendratello or RaphCasey,I see them only as friends or BFFS,same thing with April x ‘any of the turtle boys’),please don’t attack me because of this,I just don’t see why shipping them with each other.

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Other things:

If anyone, -I don’t know why would anyone do this- ,tries to go to me and seek advice and vent and stuff.Please be mindful that I’m not a therapist,I have some experience with mental health but not into a full instinct that I can actually help you like a full psychiatrist would do.I could still give some advice and tips if I’ve already dealt from it before but other than that, I won’t really be much any help.But don’t worry,you could still vent in here but don’t get your hopes up, I’ll just give you some virtual flower and water to make you feel better, all my crows (followers) here are safe and cherished ,your safe here and your health matters the most. I will not also tolerate bad behavior or any minors here that is too young to engage on this type of content,it’s either behave or kindly leave or get blocked immediately.I also do not support TCEST and proshipping so also kindly leave or else I will unfortunately have to block you as well,Siblings are Siblings,Lovers are Lovers,it is messed up if you put those two together,they stay separated.

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Other other things:

Also…If you try to send an ask and I don’t answer or it takes a long time for you to have a reply from me…I’m sorry about that.I live in Asia so my time zone can be different from yours (depending on what country you live in), and school and work and all that.I’ll try my best to post at least something once a day but it would usually just be Drabbles or small writings,drawing can be pretty challenging for me since I still do traditional art….*cough**cough*because my parents still needs to think if I deserve an IPad *cough***cough*….so my drawings would be rarely seen here but I’ll post a doodle or wips and so.I would also post OC’s Oc x Cannon content here so,yeah,also be mindful about that.And please,don’t steal my works and drawings or things that are rightfully mine.If you want to use my artwork or AU’s,that’s fine but it’s better if you credit me first 

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My more bigger AU projects:

CCC - Experiments made to be weapons of war.There is more four of the main turtles made,older clones of themselves.They want freedom,they got it,but at what cause?

Good Things Happened - Good future AU but things still never changed,life was still giving them a reason to hate it,they were still fighting enemies they need to end and protect earth like they have always have been since when they were still happy and young

Happy Endings,Right? - My own version of the boys and having the more realistic injuries post-movie event,things are in shambles but their still together to mend things back to normal.Maybe,life would calm down for a bit

Power and Ruins - Humans are in kingdoms,protected by walls and metal.Mutants and Yokais are in tribes,left to fight for their own.Hunting and Killing,Humans are the real monsters but if the yokais fight back and take what’s rightfully theirs,there the own being called that way.AKA,Yokais and Mutants are considered barbarians in this royal world.

TC:CR - Bad future AU but it stays like that,everybody lives but has a price,the world is still what it is when the sky turned pink,Mikey might knew how and why

What’s underneath? - April swore she lives alone in the isolated NY shoreline lands,just got a job by trying to extract good news in the town near the shorelines even if she was a rocky reporter,but things starts to get more weirder each time she gets close the rocky side of the beach near her home 

When worlds collide or MysticCoded - Yokais are now part of the human society,other dimensions are now known,a whole different world if curtain things in the Rise show changed earlier on.AKA,also my own take or iteration of TMNT but it uses Rise bases/basics

Edited:I only put my bigger projects in here to let you guys know this will be the only ones that are majorly active in my posts,but it still doesn’t mean I won’t post any other AUs other then this bunch,it just means it won’t be too active or frequently posted that much.The whole list of my AUs came be clicked here (site link if needed:https://www.tumblr.com/multicharablack/746711140925685760/all-of-my-creations-3?source=share) if you want to check it out

This AU’s would be either mostly active or has already a plot that doesn’t make me procrastinate just so I could think to make any,already has some available HC in my notes that I want to share but I have no courage to.

Disclaimer:All AU’s are inspired either heavily or slightly,I did not copyright anyone and some of it are originally made by me.If you have any further questions,please do not hesitate to send an ask/question,I don’t mind.CCC,In the future times and What’s underneath ? already have bots in Character AI (my username is the same as this one)

—— Yours truly,Multichara 

[[Photo used is me using picrew,original creator/artist is unknown]]

Edited:April 3,2024,I had to remake again to make this masterlist smaller 

#rottmnt #chara is typing #chara’s idea/drabble drabble time #Pin post #Yay I finally made my masterlist #Might change this soon if I have to add some more #Charatime #Chara’s AUs

[bugbyte]

Today was good! I’m a little overwhelmed!

3:30 am posting because I’m feeling slightly wound thanks to today being a whole day, but it wasn’t a bad day?

Short version: bunch of appointments, thankfully all online, but after last week being stress central this was tolerable. I got my MMJ eval and it was quick and easy and if anything I over prepared because I’m so used to not being believed and having to back myself up with data. (Which I have to gather and keep for myself because medicine is apparently just a free for all where no one communicates with each other through the online app they have specifically so they can all access data about me from each other! Neat!)

Anyway that was a major relief and I was ready to cry because they said that this should work really well with the conditions and symptoms I have. I’ll probably write something up on the process later (because I would’ve liked a plain English walkthrough of what to expect but that’s ok) but I got my card from the state, which is all digital now, so welcome to the future, I guess.

We headed out to a pretty well reviewed and priced medical dispensary in the area and had a long info session on what would work best for me and landed on some low dose (for now) capsules and gummies. Then we got fried chicken because I’d had enough for one day and went home to see if it would work.

I took a capsule, ate my chicken, and waited. They did advise taking it with a fatty food (could’ve been peanut butter or avocado or anything really; we just got chicken for its uh, health…improving….properties….yeah that sounds right) It took like a solid hour and change to notice anything, and the effects were pretty minor.

I kept trying to explain what was happening to Delade but it was a very subtle thing and hard to get across. Basically the calmest I’ve felt in ages (bonus) and like a slight tiredness, like when you’re tired at the end of the day but not exhausted or like drugged tired if you take something to get to sleep and it hits hard. Just a nice soft calm feeling.

I got brave and tried adding in an extra half a gummy (watermelon flavor!) and that hit much more quickly and mostly just added to the soft feeling. Trying to put it in better words, it was like the different between laying directly on the hard floor, or laying on a puffy blanket on the floor. You can still feel the floor, but it’s much more comfortable than otherwise. I didn’t really feel particularly loopy other than finding a few things funnier than they probably actually were. I think I would compare it in drowsiness more to like…if you’ve been given an opioid after surgery or dental work or something, it’s kind of more like that than feeling just knocked right out. I always felt like these kinds of things gave me a sort of “cozy,” safe feeling while still being conscious enough to do some light things, and this was similar. Everybody’s different though so I might be a weirdo.

So yeah, it does work! I wasn’t expecting like a 100% change in pain levels, and this will definitely take some fine tuning to get right, but there was a difference for sure. I had the makings of a nasty headache after being stressed out all afternoon, which didn’t seem affected much by anything I took so that’s interesting. If I hadn’t had the headache I probably would have attempted some comic work but staring directly into a screen felt like a bad idea. In any case the sharp edges of the pain in the rest of my body got filed way down and I’m pretty amazed overall.

I know this can work now! So I can try again tomorrow! Hopefully with less stress headache so I can get a better gauge on how it actually feels! And hopefully try to draw.

So now I just have to figure out how not to feel weird about this talking to various doctors. Some recommended it, some I can imagine being less positive, but I think the anxiety about being judged is mostly in my head.

Anyway! It was a good experience overall, both the process for getting the card and actually trying the drug itself. If it’s something you’ve been looking into and have questions I can try and answer based on my (admittedly brief) experience so far. I only know how things work in NY, but being pretty anxious I get how it can feel more enormous to figure out when you don’t know the whole scope of a thing or what it’s like to actually do.

This entire thing makes me cackle btw because in fifth grade I won some DARE essay contest in school and I think got some kind of gift card I spent on art supplies, and a hat with the DARE lion mascot thing on it, which I think I still have and should probably start wearing for maximum dumbassery.

#blog #healthposting #chronic pain #medical marijuana #mmj #pain management #pain relief

[yandereshingeki]

Hmm I don’t know if I have anything interesting to say, I’m a very simple person that does very little, but I do love to read, especially fanfictions. Whenever I find a new book series or film series or anything I get super attached for months on end and try and squeeze every single fanfic I can get from it before I inevitably move on. Which brings me here to say I absolutely love love love your works. All of your writing I can say is perfection. Not to mention all of your drawings, it amazes me how so much talent is capable in one person. I kind of hate myself sometimes because you seem like such a cool and kind person, I’m a very silent reader I guess TT i barely interact with any content and it makes me feel bad because I would really love too but I get so scared. I see the normal posts you make and I want to comment or like. I did send a few anon asks in a while ago. About the pillow in the drawing you made with you and eren, (still super cute and amazing btw)

I was feeling brave that day lol

This looks like such a serious message because of all the full stops but it’s just a normal one TT i saw your reblog of wanting more people in your inbox so I’m just here to say hi and show my appreciation to you 🫶🏻

Sincerely a very scared anon ~~ 😗

I almost want to keep this ask to myself forever so I can hog it to myself and look at it whenever I’m sad but I wanna reply so here I am!

I can’t even begin to express how much it means to me that you like what I make. I honestly put my heart and soul into my creations so the fact that even one person cares so much really means the world to me.

I don’t mind that you’re a silent reader! I have to admit I am a lot of the time as well, sometimes it’s just easier to forget that silent readers are there and having a reminder like this is really nice. <3 You shouldn’t hate yourself for it, I understand how it is to be so scared of interacting lol (I am like that w almost everybody before I moot them, and even then im still nervous a lot of the time)

Also the fact that you think i’m cool makes me a bit weepy lol, I see myself as someone that’s so wimpy that any amount of pressure will make me fold DHEBJADB i promise you I don’t bite, I don’t even have teeth sharp enough to

idk theres so much I wanna say but it’s hard to put feelings into words!!

Very scared anon, I care for you so much thank you so much for this :( I really can’t reiterate it enough it means so much to me. I’m gonna screenshot this and print it out and frame it and look at it when I’m sad. I’ll give you the biggest hug and squeeze you so tight. Thank you so so much <33

#forests mailbox #💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋<- kisses for this anon NO ONE ELSE TOUCH THESE #THEY’re DELICATE #long post #very scared anon

[hopelessromanticfantasies]

hi!! long time no see!! it's me the 🧸 anon

it's been a while since we've talked, but I still feel like home in your blog. I like your vibes and your posts mean a lot to me. can't wait to read something new, because I already scrolled everything down so many times

personally I defeated some evil warlocks (college professors), uncovered their doomsday plot (hectic study schedule) and befriended a dragon (found a safe way to cope with my anxiety) while being on a weary journey (daily life during September)

I gathered some nice writing prompts during my journey. one of them is a prince x knight story, where prince is sleepy and knight soothes them before guarding their chamber through the night. I'd really like to read that one

hope you'd like that prompt. for now, stay safe and happy and take good care of yourself

I'm really glad you like my writing so much and that you're making it through on your journey. I really this prompt and I'm lowkey sad that I didn't think of it myself. Sorry it took so long for me to reply. I had written over half of this and then I hit some random writers block, but I've finished it now. I hope you like reading it!

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Yelling sounded from inside the prince's chambers, causing knight to burst in quickly and draw his sword. "What's happened?! Where is the threat?!" Knight questioned, looking around the dark room. Unable to find any other figure in the room knight turned to look at prince. He was cradling his head in his arms with his knees pushed to his chest. Though there was barely any light left from the fireplace knight could see faint tear lines on prince's cheeks. Knight quickly sheaved his sword and sat beside prince on his bed. "My prince?" He slowly lifted his head to see knight's face. "What happened? Was it a nightmare?" "I didn't mean to annoy you-" "You are no annoyance to me, your highness. Speaking with you is much better than standing all alone, trust me." Knight gently smiled at prince, hoping to be a of some comfort. Prince smiled back, although he still seemed sad. In the firelight, it appeared as though the prince had cried tears of orange and silver. "May I ask a favour of you, knight?" "I would do anything for you." "Lay down with me. Just for a little while. Until I fall back to sleep. I don't want to be alone." He said, lying down on one side of the bed, making sure there was enough room for knight. Knight removed his chest plate, revealing his under shirt. He then did as he was asked and laid beside prince. "I truly do not mean to be such a bother to you, but I do not trust anyone else with my feelings. With myself." "Prince, you are no bother to me. I am glad that I am the one you trust to lay here beside you." Prince began crying, "It was just so frightening-" He hiccupped, struggling to speak through the tears. Knight slid closer and pulled prince into his chest, he caressed the prince's hair. "Shhhh, it's alright. You're safe now. I will not let anyone hurt you, now or ever." Although knight could not truly promise such things, it not only comforted the prince, but himself as well. Knight hated to see prince in such pain. "Everyone thought I was a horrible person. Maybe I am." Prince cried, he has gripped onto knight's shirt. "You are not a horrible person, my prince." "But-" "No." Knight held prince's face in his hands. "You are a wonderful person. You are kind and smart and brave and capable and beautiful. You are brilliant. I love-" Knight broke eye contact, embarrassed by how he nearly confesses his feelings to the prince. "Everyone loves you." "You truly think all of that about me?" Knight looked at prince once again, "I think all of that and more, your highness." Prince snuggled closer to knight, resting his head on knight's shoulder and pressing his nose into knight's neck. The prince was so soft. Knight could not help himself as he took the other boy's hand and kissed each fingertip.

Eventually it appeared that the prince had fallen asleep. Knight sat up on the edge of the bed, careful not to awaken the prince. He slipped on his chest plate and stood up. Knight turned to see the prince still asleep, still peaceful. Again, knight could not resist his urges. He gently kissed prince's forehead. He turned to leave the room, when he felt his hand tugged at. Prince looked at knight, holding his fingers. He did the same thing knight had done to him and kissed each fingertip. "Thank you, my knight. Because you are here, whether I am in your arms or if there is a wall between us, I feel safe." Prince grinned at knight, lying his head back down on the bed. "Thank you." Knight lifted his hand to stare at it for a moment then looked back at the prince. "Good night," he bowed. "My darling prince."

#prince x knight #answering anons #mlm #achilean #hopeless romantic fantasy #prompts #original writing #romance

[valora23]

Mind if I ask a twst hcs where the Tweels' S/O just suddenly prank them when they looked so bored? Be it w water gun or a water balloon

Ofc, dear anon! Thankyou for being my very first requester! I am very happy! Let's see what the tweels would do, shall we? Enjoy!

Valora out~

The tweels are very bored today

And when they are bored, they go look for some fun!

To your horrible luck, you are their sole target of this so called "fun"

When I said "fun", I meant pranking others

You just happen to be their S/O, so it's very amusing to them to see you fall victim for their pranks

Poor guy faced this more than anyone can count... but no one is brave enough to stop the tweels, so lady luck is really not on your side when they are in a pranking mood

Their pranks aren't usually so simple. (Oh no... it def isn't. It's usually the definition of chaos-), but today they were kind enough to do a simple water prank.

How did it go? Well... it went something like this:

The tweels both hide behind the ramshackle dorm, waiting for you to come back from class

The got a levitation spell on 5 water balloons, ready to be drop on to you when the time is right

Floyd is holding a water gun, stating that "S/O might somehow stayed dry, this will make sure they're really wet!"

It was a nice, simple, and classic prank. It seemed way more harmless than their usual pranks (that may sometimes involve marine creatures such as sharks, crabs, and other dangerous stuff...)

But oh boy did thy pick the wrong day to prank them

As they opened the door to their dorm, the water balloons dropped on them all at once, and the tweels went out of hiding to witness the funny scene

But the scene in front of them is anything but funny

Let me explain:

Usually they know the prank went well if their S/O scolds them

But today, they aren't reacting as usual

They just stayed silent and went in to their dorm

The tweels got the silent treatment for a week until they came begging on their feet for their S/O's forgiveness

Turns out, what happened that day was the Aduce duo plus grim made trouble again

So, they're tired

The tweels' little prank certainly didn't help... no matter how small it is

It was certainly the last draw to them

(This def didn't stop the tweels from pranking their S/O tho... they just check for their S/O's mood now)

I hope this satisfied you, dear anon~ I'm posting this on the day of my birthday! YAY!!!!! Posting my first request on my birthday is a good thing to me. So, happy birthday to me~

Put away the birthday stuff aside, I hope you all enjoy reading this! So, again,

Valora out~

#twisted wonderland #floyd leech #jade leech #tweels #pranks #octavinelle #headcanon

[explosionshark]

Hi! It's me, writing advice seeking anon, again. First off all, I just wanted to say thank you so much for taking the time to give me such awesome and kind and helpful advice!! I'm an awkward and super shy noodle and reaching out to people is hard, but I definitely need to start commenting more on fics I love. You writers have certainly earned it, I just need to get brave enough to do it! I definitely owe you comments on your fic, and you'll be getting those very soon! And not just because you said to, but because I have been meaning to but just kept putting it off cause talking to people is kinda scary haha. Thank you for your lovely work!! I also really like the idea that finished is better than perfect will ever be. I'm definitely a perfectionist and keep holding onto all these half-finished fics I have and never sharing because I can't get them exactly how I want, so I definitely needed that advice. If you don't mind, I had one more question for you. Do you think there's a place for trans non-binary Buffy fics in this fandom? I won't fill your inbox with my Buffy Summers + gender identity head canons (unless you want that? cause then I'm super excited to share!) so to keep it simple, whether it fits in canon or is a complete AU, do you think you and other people would read nb Buffy + their gf Faith fics? At least half of my writing contains trans Buffy, and I'm not sure how that will be received, and it makes it a little scarier to share. Being non-binary myself, these stories are deeply connected to and parts of me, they pull from parts of my own experiences, and they're ways for me to write about the characters I love (and the parts of myself I see in the characters I love) which is extra special to me as someone who can't come out irl currently. On the flip side of that coin, it makes rejection even scarier, which makes posting harder, and makes me wanna keep all my stories locked up tight, just in case they aren't received well. Still, I think I'd enjoy sharing my writing if there are other people out there besides myself who are interested and who also would enjoy reading about two of our favorite characters being in love and exploring gender identity, and so I appreciate your honest thoughts and feedback!

Hey! Sorry for the late response, I had a rough week and didn't have time to get to this.

Going to put this under a cut because my answer got long but tl;dr - Yes, write and post the fic if you want to share it! I think it's worthwhile. But be careful about attaching too much of your own confidence and self worth to how a bunch of strangers in fandom receive anything you create.

More details under here:

I absolutely, 100% believe there's a space for trans/nb fics in this fandom, with any character. The cool thing about writing is you don't need anyone's permission - you can just do what you want. You can do whatever! It's the best!

And it's perfectly normal to put some of yourself into the writing - it makes sense that you're more invested and the work feels more personal when you're drawing from your own life and experiences. I think that's pretty par for the course for most writers. What I do want to discourage is feeling rejected personally for the way your fic may or may not be received.

I think you might have some ideas about what "success" looks like in the fic community and it would probably be good to reframe that. Any time you get to engage with another fan about your work in a way that's positive for you both, should be the baseline for your success. If that's a few kudos, or some good comments, or number of hits, or people sending you nice asks about it, or private messages - all of that should be success. Having your work available on a platform for anyone to read and feeling good about the work you put into it - that should be success.

Popularity should not be regarded as success because there's a bunch of different factors at play in how popular a fic or a writer becomes in a given space. Quality of writing is only one: the content of the story having a broad appeal or a niche one, the number of active fans at the time, and a bunch of other things also play a role.

Part of the reason I recommend getting into the habit of being an active reviewer and engaging with fans under a consistent name is that if you're looking to build an audience you have to become a known quantity. I'm not a hugely popular writer, in terms of sheer numbers, but I've been at it with this handle for a while and I'm active in the fandom. I've had people read my work because they like me in other fandoms, because I left them thoughtful feedback, because we struck up a friendship unrelated to what I'm writing and they got curious.

Don't take lack of a big audience to mean your work isn't good. Some of my favorite things I've ever written have barely any reviews - because I was writing in a dead fandom, or for a ship no one cares about, or regarding a subject no one else was really interested in. That's fine. That doesn't mean the work was bad. If you go into this specifically looking for outside validation or to become a BNF out the gate, you're gonna make yourself crazy.

That said, I understand how writing about trans interpretations of a character makes you nervous. I've only been active in this fandom for about a year - I've meet cool trans and non-binary people through it and I haven't seen much harassment on any grounds (but I'm also very much experiencing the fandom in a bubble). I've seen other nb character fics in the fandom, so you're definitely not alone. Your fic is absolutely worth writing and it's worth sharing - but please don't assess the validity or the importance or the worth of what you're doing base on how much interest a bunch of cis people have in the concept.

If you're worried about harassment or negative reception, ao3 has a few tools to help. You can turn off anonymous comments, forcing commenters to be logged in. Any logged in users can be blocked. You can also use comment moderation, which means you have to approve every comment before they show up on the website.

I am a cis lesbian and none of my fics are particularly challenging to popular fanon that's existed for decades. They've been well received because the subject matter appeals to a broad audience. I'm also not especially close to the stories, in the way you're describing - I have fun writing them, I want the work to be good so I can be understood as a capable writer, but I wouldn't say I'm engaging with anything in myself that's especially personal or intimate that I'm afraid of rejection for.

All of the advice I can give is going to be impacted by and limited by these aspects of myself.

But with that as a disclaimer, I hope I haven't discouraged you. I want you to get out there and post your fic and have a good experience in this fandom! I think there are people who would really value what you want to do. I can't guarantee you anything, but I think if it's something you clearly want to do, that you're passionate about, that's all the reason you need to go for it.

Best of luck! Take care!

#replies #writing advice anon

[raid3r-r4bbit]

OC Creation Asks: 1, 3, 4, and 12 for all

Jolt-

he changed a lot at one point, but he's always had electric ~abilities~ and he started with white hair and well, now he still has it. he's also always had blue eyes. When I orginally made him i just wanted a cool electric dude with white hair.

he's had a few names, but the name 'jolt' was because a friend made a joke "call him sparky, or jolt lol" and there we go. as for his real name, lucas valdez, I mostly just thought it sounded nice. lucas means "briger of light" and valdez has a few meanings but "brave" is the one i like the most.

I really wanted him out of all the characters to have been the most traveled, and to have been the one to actually understand the duality of the wasteland. areas that are desolete and obsolete, void and unforgiving, but aso places that are filled with life. I wanted him to be a traveler because it suits him, out of place in an out of place world.

being corrected by my grandmother for my admititly poor grammar in spanish. I dont show here everything and there are certain things ( mostly swearing, but i dont need help with that part lol) that i often struggle with in spanish. I grew up around people who didnt even speak english, so you'd think id be fully fluent, but i grew up speaking spanglish, which is both bad english and spanish grammar. :)

Bux

I wanted bux to be goofy and fun, light hearted but a little sinister. Like he seems fun and jovial buttheres something off about him, but i also wanted him to be creative and curious. I also wanted to make a character with some kind of black out tattoos.

Male rabbits are called 'bucks'. I thought it was fitting. His real name, Sawyer Kelly, hold no real meaning to his character, and again, i just liked it. It's Irish, and he's irish, a lot of people from west virginia are irish.

His father's farm. I feel okay spoiling this because even if i do bring it up later it's inconsequential to the plot, But his father ows the farm he lives on. its a small farming settlement that supplies a few local settlements, set away from them specifically to avoid raiders and pest animals from attacking and infesting settlements, and also to provide expansion room if needed. The walls of the farm are tall and looming, specifically designed to look like a prison.

his face, i can never draw it consistantly.

Keres-

I wanted a cool witchy character. I dont see enough of a sort of 'wasteland witch' aesthetic, and i also wanted a lot of nature to play in. apperance wise, their make up and outfit is almost exactly the same as the concept art.

I looked up cool witchy names on google. Keres is the name of these greek dieties/creatures that are supposed to be harbingers of death, but it also reminded me of kerosene. Talutah is a native american name, and it means 'blood' or 'blood red', Elsher means 'defender of men' and is irish. (keres is not technically soiux, they're meant to be inuit and irish, but i really liek the name talutah.)

pretty much the same as jolt, but on the opposite. where jolt is meant to be well traveled to iscolate him, keres is well traveled as a means to meld them with everything.

despite never posting it, i actually doodle keres all the time, they're probably the easiest of the 4 to draw for me. I would post more of my doodles but i often doodle on paperwork, and its often sensitive company info that i cant release so i dont risk it.

Rikki-

pig tails. I wanted her to be cute and fun. I also wanted her to stand out without doing anything special, so her design is intentionally (bland is not the word im looking for but idk how to describe it?)

I thought it was funny, and i had to pick a legal name cause of course i did.

Living with keres. I dont really show much of rikki's backstory both because its… a lot… but also because she doesnt need it. obviously it impacts her, but as previously mentioned shes the most mentally healthy of the group. without spoiling to much, living with keres is really the only freedom she's ever had, so essentially its the only life she knows, and fit into her surroundings well. ( now that im typing this im not sure i understand this prompt fully, and i hope these explanations actually make sense?)

she's a girl and i am not an ~expert~ at drawing women. I learned how to draw men from classic anatomy books, which typically show masculine musculature, and on top of that I don't have a lot of women to reference. ( nor would i ask them because asking a guy to pose for something, or posing myself is so much less weird then asking a woman to do it and i don't want to feel like a creep) and even though my a parents complain about all my characters being 'skinny' ( even though I've explained that for most of them like, jolt and bux, are constantly on the move and literally live in a wasteland where food is likely either scarce or toxic) for her its more than intentional. and again, I've learned to draw people based off books or the people around me, and all the women in my family are curvy or just as muscular as the men. So drawing a cute, skinny, white girl is not really something i have an abundance of in my portfolio.

#oc asks #RR OC STUFF #HV comic stuff #oc jolt #oc bux #oc keres #oc rikki

[jfbuckley]

As with Sevilla a couple of weeks ago, it is difficult to come to terms with a 2-2 draw when you have been dominating the match at 2-0 up.

Like my football correspondent, I would have been happy with a draw before the match. However, I wasn’t at all surprised to see the final score when I got home from my night out. Unfortunately, as the season has gone on, injuries, suspensions, loss of form and the effects of playing more games than any team in Europe has taken its toll. Yes, we have a big squad, but sadly the quality of it is not great once you get past the regular starters.

As it is, I’d be happy if they can consolidate a top four place. We have won one trophy and are in the final of another. If we can get a top four finish and win two trophies, it will be a fabulous achievement after the recent poor seasons - and hopefully the manager can then start to build a team that will REALLY compete.

Anyway, my correspondent watched the match. Here are his thoughts:

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hi - before this match i'd have been happy enough to be assured that united would not lose this game - after the game i was as frustrated as the next united fan at how this game unfolded as in the end it proved that they are not at the level of top clubs like arsenal - i mean , you can't ever imagine arsenal squandering a 2 goal lead, can you !!!!

spurs came into the game on the back of a home defeat to bournemouth and a crushing loss at newcastle - after just 7 minutes their fragile confidence took another blow when sancho put united ahead with a nice curling shot into the corner - he also had a shot headed off the line and keeper forster bravely denied rashford - spurs did have their moments but united defended fairly well (though they were some hairy moments) and just before half time landed a seemingly killer blow when rashford outpaced dier and fired in united's second

united's priority in the 2nd half was to not allow spurs any hope of getting back in the game - look after the ball and deny spurs any momentum - so what did united do - yes, the exact opposite - passes in the midfield started going astray and the home crowd (previously subdued) started to find their voices - after 56 minutes a cross from the left resulted in a scramble in the united box, a couple of shots were blocked but porro found the top corner and it was now 2 -1

a few minutes later fernandes danced thru the spurs box but faced with the advancing forster lifted his shot onto the bar - spurs swept forward, dier missed an open net with his header, son rushed an effort wide of the post - the inevitable happened on 79 minutes - a united clearance was headed back with interest leaving malacia out of position and kane free to run toward the area - he crossed to the far post for the arriving son to guide in the equaliser - defenders were also arriving but all too late

so united snatched a draw from the jaws of victory - they should be ok for top 4 but adverse results in their next 2 matches (villa at home and brighton away) might make united fans a little less sure

bye