#it genuine time ill redo this

[marblerose-rue]

i may be a bit too late but here's squilf playing with her tail for the squilf anon!!! i hope they see this :,-)

#I GOT THE ASK but i just got so busy and i thought it was cute so i kept it and i wasnt even taking wc requests but i still put it on my to #do list but i got so busy with finals </3 #my art #do not copy trace or steal #squirrelflight #wc #wc art #this is super sketchy because i just saw what happened with the squilf anon and its been like. almost a week but xd #^ forgot to finish my thought its also seven minutes to midnight and i woke up super early and i am very tired #but i felt a sense of urgency to do this #i know i cant speak for everyone but i personally found the ask cute :( i hope this makes up for it and one of these days when i can give #it genuine time ill redo this

[discountwives]

idc how cold g.us comes off i know that man softens when hes home w/ me n sees me safe like ugh. idk and idc. i will make it work, im putting myself in the narrative

#gu.s meeting and trying things out again w/ my s/i: this is nice i wont make the same mistakes agai- #me killing my s/i: what did you say? #g.us pinching the bridge of his nose: amazing. #jude jests 🃏 #🃏: b.r.b.a #ahshdh time to redo my s/i again #theyll probably be altered personality wise bc i thimk he has a type #so theyd ramble ab all their little daycare/kids stories and rly talk him up sometimes #n he just listens and smiles. a real genuine one. #and they'll talk ab recipes together and.... they just feed into his longing for something domestic #MAYBE ill just have it be a crush and thats it. for the pain factor. yknow.

[lesbianjennette]

an evolution of jennette throughout 3 years in my style :') (2020-2023)

#i wanted to add more #ive drawn her sm andits cool to see how my style changed throughout the yrs #through howni drew her #the first one is genuinely one of my first times drawing her i think? lol #such a silly quick doodle to start an era #one day ill redo and finish the moon one.

[rangerdew]

ooouughghhghhhghghh

#tomorrow i go chair. i hope the classroom isnt locked bc then i genuinely am super fucked. LOL #but ummm lemme wirte a quick to do list #go piece together / next steps gluing (do you need to redo any?) #start gluing support beams #omfg. actually not filing the handle on friday was a huge mistake wh did i do that. #im fuckedddddddd auuuugruruuahhhahhhhhhgrahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #omg and its definitely too late to buy a wood burning tool i procrastinated for too long :skull: MY BAD #bro its actually kinda time to start being stressed out about this LOL. i think ill wake up early tmw morning #its mostly the gluing time restraints that r killing me 24 hour curing time AAHGHHH AGHGHHHHHHHHHHHHH #HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #oh my god im fucked. #why isnt it open tmw do they hate me. #wait no i can just start gluing from one side and leave the two shells for the middle handle to go in so i can file it last #& then i can sand everything after 3 hours thats technically not 'putting strain' its just sanding. bro trust me [covered in blood]

[saewokhrisz]

have u ever talked anywhere about your coloring or composition processes? u are honestly one of my favorite artists and i would love to hear any insight on how you make pieces 💓

wahh thank you TTT !!! I did sorta give a very simplistic answer here but it was more of my simpler sketchy style so lemme redo that, ill try to be consise and make this understandable ?? its a bit hard cuz it honest to god depends on what Kind of piece im even drawing, cuz for some i go the whole length of doing lineart flats and all that, others i just just fuck around untill it looks right?

i do usually start with a rough sketch or colour draft, especially with more compley pieces this helps with figuring out the feel, honestly i should spend more time drafting properly, figuring out poses and such but im so lazy i just go w the first thing that looks good

then just lines over the colour draft, fixing lots of anatomy and proportion stuff, and depending on how i wanna do the colours ill either keep the colour layers or merge them together and have the edited colours as the base colour (this might not even make sense help)

see this piece at the time gave me an insane ammount of trouble with lighting and colours, so after trying to render i ended up merging everything together....which i dont USUALLY do but the rendering is pretty similar except usually i have colours be seperated by layer,

ANYWAYS sadly i dont have a process on how it got from flats to this specific render for this piece...but i still followed my initial drafts/plans with vibe and colours and just painted over it, its why i make it after all!

but honestly a lot of times its just very simple colours and just trying to mainting good contrast and values !!!! and THEN fucking around with colours and rextures, for other pieces i kinda just paint as i go? i have this timelapse of my justice piece that may be a bit more help!

it includes the initial colour draft, the cleanup/lining process, flats, rendering, and all that so its probs the most accurate timelapse of my morecomplex work processes, with stuff that doesnt include heavier backgrounds, which is a whole OTHER topic honestly

im sorry if i cant explain it more cohesively, i genuinely barely know what im doing most times and go by muscle memory and stuff i Know but cant. Explain? like i know how light and folds work since i observed and studied them but i cannot put it into words at all )--)0

my brushes also contribute a lot to how i render and colour, depending on what i use, you can find the swatches for them here !

#long post #asks #art advice

[lazyalani]

| Blue Lock

| Them as Taylor Swift song lines

| fluffy, becuz taylor swift is life itself, i refuse to believe reo and chigiri arent swfities, swearing cuz its me, i had to redo this cuz tumblr literally deleted the first one :'), slight angst? I like the old version of this better :(

Ft. Reo, Nagi, Chigiri, Aiku, Sae, Rin, Bachira, Ness, Kaiser, Otoya, Yukimiya, Isagi

| Blue Lock Masterlist

| Main Masterlist

REO "you've got a smile that could light up this whole town" - you belong with me

Man you can't tell me his smile just not sends you to cloudnine. That one panel of him smiling at Nagi got me cursing that bitch for making Reo cry. He's so precious I'm crying. Nagi better have tripped 50 times after walking away from him. His smile is so genuine. Reo is so easy to read off field. His emotions are always easily seen based on his expressions and how he acts. Just by looking at his face and eyes, you could really tell how he feels. The way his face lights up and his eyes sparkle when he smiles got butterflies on my tummy. Fuck you Nagi.

MEGURU "we're happy, free, confused, and lonely in the best way" - 22

Bachira is always a mix of emotions. I genuinely believes he can feel and handle a lot of emotions at the same time and still only show one, and he chooses what to show. He's always smiling or calm despite the chaos on field and everything. He's so chill. He'd be the fun person to be around everytime. He's a flexible person. He could be fun when it's the mood, and bring out his lonely feeling when you talk deep. But he's so optimistic he lits up the mood again. He's the type to just go with the flow of anything and worry about something when it's there. The fact that he finds a way to make himself kind of okay is amazing cuz I would honestly lash out on everyone in the field.

RIN "back then we didn't know, we were built to fall apart" - the very first time

Ah, he's definitely the angsty childhood friends to strangers trope. The moment Sae broke him he was bound to break everything around him. Even if he hurts people unintentionally, the damage is still done, no? He inherited his brother's sharp tongue and bad attitude so if you aren't a masochist or a simp, better stay away cuz this man could make you cry with a sentence. It doesn't really help that he literally grew up all over Sae. It's not like Rin is the type to say "go away cuz you're distracting me from my revenge" or something, but his change drives people away from hi.

SEISHIRO "it's me, hi. i'm the problem it's me" - anti-hero

Literally sucks at communicating. He'd be the person who would slack off at communicating and do whatever he wants when he thinks you know him enough. He's probably think you know he'd buy a new house when he complains about the broken cieling. You better get that laziness out of your spoiled ass and start trying harder AND IF YOU DONT WANT REO ILL TAKE HIM. Get your game face on GET YOUR GAME FACE ON. Don't confuse and play with my Reo's feelings you asshole.

HYOMA "i'm captivated by you baby like a firework show" - sparks fly

You cannot tell me you don't internally scream when you see this pretty man. I believe in Chigiri Hyoma supremacy, I believe that he gets all the attention he deserves everywhere he goes, and I refuse to believe that no one in blue lock had even a slight crush on him. He's just so pretty and gorgeous and cute and talented and fast and charming and dreamy and fast and red. Please let me touch your hair you can kick me afterwards. I went into daydream mode the first time I saw him.

EITA "goodbye, mr. perfectly fine, how's your heart after breaking mine?" - mr. perfectly fine

I don't even have to explain. I would've burned his whole soul down if he did that to me.

AIKU "long story short, it was the wrong guy" - long story short

Don't even get me started on this one. He's so obvious. Tbh, in real life, you'd be pretty stupid if you didn't notice sooner. Getting with him on a committed relationship, a fubu, or a fwb would be a risky 50/50 if you're weak for guys like him, better run, but if you're a flagpole then why not? You could fall for him for all he cares, he just wants to have fun.

SAE "why'd i have to break what i love so much?" - afterglow

Now he'd defnitely be the one to lash out. Aside from the Rin drama, if Sae had a childhood sweetheart or something like that, they would either end up like Rin or slowly experience and see the change in Sae. From his usual teasing manner to the dry, lesser and lesser text and messages. He'd be the type to lash out and tell you to go away when you pry too much for his taste. Sharp tongued, bad attitude, sharper actions, so realistic to the point that he does so much damage around him and what's worse is that he doesn't care. He knowd what he's doing and he just doesn't care enough. It's not he doesn't love or like Rin or his 'if' childhood sweetheart, it's just the way he is after his change. He's like a fire burning everything on his path, and he just keeps going.

YUKIMIYA "darling, i fancy you" - london boy

Like, have you seen this man? He's a 3 in 1. Angst, Fluff and Sm-- hehehehe. He's so pretty, soft boy at first look and then sexy at the second, then angsty health drama in the third. My yukki is so strong for handling his sickness so well :') come here and lemme give you a hug.

MICHAEL "he's so obsessed with me and, boy, i understand" - i think he knows

Ness, I completely understand, it's completely justified. This man is gorgeous and he fucking knows it. He's probably the center of attention when he walks in and he loves every bit of it. BUT THE NEXT TIME HE BULLIES NESS IM RIPPING OF THAT REMAINING HAIR ON HIS BACK :D Aside from him annoying himsagi everytime and being a menance to everyone, who wouldn't love him? Talented, handsome, and don't even get me started on that 300M.

ALEXIS "'cause darling i'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream" - blank space

Oh boy only a little more and he's gonna fucking snap and rip himsagi's neck off. His smile is so babyboy and innocent but when he closest his eyes you better run. Many people probably think he's just one of those die hard Kaiser defenders who bark and be a stupid, good for nothing moron in the field but my Ness is very strong and boy he BITES. Reo version 5. Kaiser, make up your mind seriously, I'll take him if you don't want him.

YOICHI "i swear i don't love the drama, it loves me" - end game

Pretty self-explanatory. I feel so bad for him. My boy just wants to play soccer and suddenly he's a double love story antagonist and a brother stealer :') ever since Rin and Nagi came into the picture he lost Bachira. Like, just go away and give him back Bachira. Then there goes Kaiser and Ness drama, an upgraded version of reonagi. Reonagi drama level 3. Cuz level one is them, them level two is Kunigiri. GIVE HIM THE BALL AND LEAVE HIM ALONE. Need to build a government himsagi protection squad cuz Ness is probably gonna break his legs sooner or later.

#blue lock #blue lock x reader #blue lock fluff #bllk #blue lock angst #lazyalani #bllk x reader #itoshi sae #mikage reo #nagi seishiro #michael kaiser #isagi yoichi #bachira meguru #itoshi rin #yukimiya kenyu #oliver aiku #alexis ness #chigiri hyoma #otoya eita #blue lock hcs

[samble-moved]

In Defense of Homura: a Comprehensive Analysis

Warning: The following has mentions of suicide. It is also a long post (~2.5k words), thus the read more, and includes linked sources. It was written under a time crunch (2hrs) at a late hour, and thus may not be fantastic, but should illustrate the point well enough.

Homura is a very controversial character in the Madoka Magica fandom. To some, she is a good person, spawning many "Homura did nothing wrong" jokes. To others, Homura is little more than an abusive, selfish character, who is primarily motivated solely by her own desires and selfish motives, to the continuous detriment of her friends. However, in this essay, I argue that, while Homura is certainly not perfect, she is far from a bad person, and major factors are at play regarding her behavior, both before and during Rebellion.

One of the first reasons someone will give for disliking Homura, even if they have never watched Rebellion, is that she is mean or abusive to those she considers her friends. Homura comes off as cold and aloof, and isn't above insulting others, even Madoka, if upset or frustrated. She is socially awkward and prone to issuing vague, creepy warnings, and generally being pretty intimidating. However, this point is ignoring several factors. For one, Homura was not always this way, and it is not her "default" state. In early timelines, Homura was a very shy girl, with low self esteem and a disability, and all but a social outcast. Her mental state was so poor that a witch was able to easily get her into it's barrier, and encourage her suicidal and self hating thoughts. When Madoka, her best friend and savior from the witch, the first girl to ever show her genuine kindness and understand, dies in a fight, Homura makes a wish. She wishes to redo her meeting with Madoka, and to become strong enough to protect her protector. Sadly, Homura continuously fails at this. She's looped almost a hundred times [1] by the time the anime timeline begins, and has, in that time, been forced to do and see horrifying things, becoming traumatized over and over again. Madoka begging her to mercy kill her to avoid the fate of becoming a witch is what pushes Homura over the edge, taking her from being a girl desperate to save all of her friends, to focusing only on Madoka — her savior. This does not mean she desires that their other friends die. She tries to prevent Mami's death by trying to get her to avoid the fight with Charlotte, and shows distress when she realizes Mami has died [2]. She tries to warn them of future events, but isn't believed, and is accused of trying to cause infighting among the group. Over the tinelines, she starts to force her friends away, acting cold towards them, to try and distance herself from feeling sad when they die. She pledges herself wholly to saving Madoka, wanting to fulfill both her wish, and the promise she made to her all those tinelines ago. She gets frustrated when Madoka puts herself in danger and snaps. She calls her friends fools. This does not mean she does not care for them, or wishes them ill. She is trying to protect herself from the pain of seeing them pass, with her helpless to save all of them.

Another common complaint, from those who have watched Rebellion, is that Homura is ignoring Madoka's wishes, and ignoring her sacrifice. However, Homura believes that Madoka dislikes the outcome of her wish — that is, becoming the Law of Cycles and losing her family, friends, and proof of her existence — as it's something Madoka herself says. Homura, at the time, has no idea that the version of Madoka who said this, while the "real" Madoka, does not possess all of her memories. But Homura takes Madoka's words at face value, now believing that she has made a mistake by "letting" Madoka make a wish that leaves her so seemingly lonely and miserable, and believes she should have stopped Madoka, somehow [3]. She blames herself, not Madoka, for Madoka's choice, seeing it as her fault that Madoka is seemingly regrets becoming the Law of Cycles. Because of this belief, Homura decides she must "save" Madoka from this fate. When Madoka, now in LoC form, comes to retrieve Homura's soul gem to keep her from becoming a witch, Homura denies herself heaven. She cannot and will not go with Madoka, not when she believes Madoka's position causes her sadness and regret, and when Kyubey is a risk. She remakes the world using her love for Madoka, and does what she believes Madoka wants. Madoka had asked Homura to keep her from ever becoming a magical girl, and she thinks Madoka had said she all but regrets her wish. Homura remakes the world, leaving Madoka human, safe from the Incubators who may try to hurt or control her, and leaves Madoka and their friends together — with characters like Kyoko and Mami in better circumstances than their real lives.

Homura is selfish. That is true, and undeniable. However, all humans have moments of selfishness, and not all selfishness is inherently bad or wrong, same as not all selflessness is good. A person who puts themself first if they're going through a difficult time may be called selfish, but that does not make their actions bad. On the opposite end, spreading oneself so thin that they cannot care for themself may be called selfless, but that does not make what they are doing good. Homura does remake the world, which could be called selfish. But in doing so, she is selfless. She has the full ability to make the other girls do whatever she wants, but she does not. She erases some memories, yes, but does not exert full control over the others. If Homura wanted, she could use mind control to make them blindly love her. Instead, Homura's "selfish world" involves making Madoka human, something Madoka had previously asked for and something Homura believes she wants, has Bebe living with Mami so she isn't lonely, and has Kyoko and Sayaka live together, which negates Kyoko being homeless and alone. Where is Homura in all of this? Homura sets herself apart from her friends, and is shown to be miserable and still some form of witch, meaning she is still actively despairing. Her familiars run around taunting her and throwing things at her, she avoids the other girls, and shows no sign of genuine happiness. Homura does not think she deserves to be happy, as shown by her witch — a nutcracker made useless by having a broken jaw, endlessly marching towards her own execution, as she is jeered at the whole time [4]. Homura says she would rather die, forever alone and suicidal, in her labyrinth than risk Madoka's safety [5]. The remade world seems to be an extension of this. Madoka is safe and human, and no longer in danger from Incubators either issuing contracts, or trying to control her due to being the Law of Cycles. Homura is in a Hell of her own making, where everyone gets to be happy but her. If Homura just gives up control of the labyrinth/remade world, Madoka will be in danger again from Kyubey. She thinks Madoka will be miserable and lonely as the Law of Cycles, forced to fight forever without rest, a fate that even Mami finds worse than death [6]. Homura cannot allow that, and thus allows herself to be tortured in an ironic Hell, denying herself access to magical girl heaven by not allowing herself to he saved.

Another belief is that Homura's world is inherently unstable. If you watch the anime series, it is proven that Madoka's was also fragile and unstable. Madoka, despite being erased from all worlds and timelines, with no record of her existence [6] is remembered — and not just by Homura. Her brother remembers her (or can see her, somehow), and her mother feels some sort of nostalgia regarding her name [7]. If this was truly a wholly perfect and stable world, nobody should be able to remember Madoka whatsoever, but traces still remain. Homura's remade world, like Madoka's, also is not without flaws. Madoka seems to regain memories of the old world and her role as the LoC at times, but this is not a wholly different phenomenon from Homura being able to remember the way the world worked before Madoka's wish.

Homura is around fourteen [8] and traumatized. That is obvious to most fans, but not something usually factored in much with regards to criticism of her actions. She is a child. As she is so young, the pre-frontal cortex of her brain isn't fully developed. Per paradigmtreatment.com, "the prefrontal cortex performs reasoning, planning, judgment, and impulse control", and "without the fully development prefrontal cortex, a teen might make poor decisions and lack the inability to discern whether a situation is safe...teens tend to experiment with risky behavior and don’t fully recognize the consequences of their choices" [9]. This area of the brain does not fully develop until one is in their 20s, though this number is not exact [10]. Homura is a middle schooler, and has severe trauma to boot, making her even more prone to so-called irrational behavior, and a less developed pre-frontal cortex than most. Per Highland Springs Clinic, "Normally, the amygdala will sense a negative emotion, such as fear, and the prefrontal cortex will rationally react to this emotion. After trauma though, this rationality might be overridden and your prefrontal cortex will have a hard time regulating fear and other emotions...[this] can make a trauma survivor constantly fearful, especially when triggered by events and situations that remind them of their past trauma" [11]. Homura is a child with deep, unaddressed issues, and thus reacts even more poorly than others her age might. Why does Homura contract? Because she saw her best friend die, and wants to protect her. Why does Homura become so cold? Years and years of trauma, from seeing said deaths. Why does Homura do irrational things, for seemingly selfish reasons? Because she is a deeply traumatized child, who has never been able to deal with said trauma. Even a "mentally healthy" magical girl will meet one of two ends — death while young, or a fate-worse-than-death as am Eldritch horror, forever suffering in their own despair, unable to recognize any good times in their life, and cursing others. That alone is enough to cause one to act in extreme, uncharacteristic ways, but it is that, topped with all Homura has seen. She has watched her friends die. She has watched her best friend become a Witch so great she can destroy the planet. That friend later erases any and all evidence of her existence besides one single ribbon, leaving Homura questioning if Madoka was even real or just a dream, as shown in Wraith Arc. Then, when Homura finds out that Madoka is, in fact, real, Madoka tells her she is lonely as the LoC, a result of her wish, and Homura finds out Kyubey intends to try and control Madoka. None of this is something that promotes rationality, especially when the person reacting is a child. Trauma affects the way the brain grows and develops, and, per Arch Academy, "children who have experienced trauma have difficulty regulating cortisol levels, resulting in difficulty distinguishing between real and perceived danger" [13]. Homura is not just a child, or just traumatized, she's a traumatized child — one who has never received help or support, and is unable to get it.

Madoka does not hate Homura. She is ultimately forgiving and merciful to all magical girls, regardless of their actions. Goddess Madoka, in Magia Record, is even shown forgiving and accepting characters who are shown to be cruel murderers (even characters that have murdered Madoka herself) in her Magia animation [14]. She goes to reach for Homura's hands in Rebellion, despite knowing every single thing Homura did in every previous timeline, yet accepts and forgives her despite it — some actions she did being cold and cruel. Madoka is not malicious, and seems to understand the circumstances the girls were part of. She is never shown to reject any magical girls, regardless of how cruel or "evil" their actions. As Madoka (as the LoC) has a job to erase witches, and observe all timelines, Madoka with all memories intact would likely be horrified — but not because she is angry at Homura, or "hates" her. Despite her claims, Homucifer is still a witch. We see her labyrinth expand to cover the whole universe in Rebellion [15]. She still has familiars around [16] — a trait only found in Witches — and in the Only You Rebellion Guidebook, her earring is said to "whisper information gathered by the Witch's minions" [17] to Homura, confirming Homucifer is indeed some form of witch. Witches spread despair, but are also in despair themselves, and becoming one is considered worse than dying. Homura dooms herself to a miserable life as a Witch, cursing herself, to do what she thinks Madoka herself wants and asked for. If one takes a VA's answers as some level of canon, Aoi Yuki, the VA of Madoka, was asked (in character) to say something to transformed Homura (Homucifer). Her response was, "No matter what form you take, Homura-chan is Homura-chan. Falling in love with someone is wonderful, so don't call yourself the devil. I love you. (I think that's what Madoka says...!!!)" [17]. Madoka is not perfect, and neither is Homura, but Madoka would not see Homura suffer and relish in it, or find it deserved.

What makes a bad person, anyway? Homura seems to embody the "the road to Hell is paved with good intentions" saying, ending up with a "bad" outcome for herself, all because she did what she thought would benefit Madoka and her friends, and follow their wishes and desires. Homura is only "evil" in the same way most teenagers, especially mentally ill ones, may call themselves "evil". She is a traumatized child with no support network, content to have her friends happy while she stays miserable, even if that means her friends, and even Madoka herself, the literal center of Homura's universe, hate her for it in the end. She is not wholly selfish, but a young teenager desperately in need of therapy. She does not deserve damnation for genuinely doing what she thinks is best, and what Madoka would have wanted. Madoka would not hate her or scorn her or refuse to even attempt to understand her actions. To imply Homura deserves to be miserable for trying to do what is right, or that Madoka will hate or be angry with Homura, is to ignore the canon idea that Madoka herself brings as the Law of Cycles — no magical girl deserves to fall in despair and become a witch, and no magical girl is beyond redemption and being forgiven. That is what her character and wish are all about. Mercy and forgiveness of any and all magical girls, regardless of their actions. Madoka may not be happy, but I certainly doubt she would hate Homura or refuse to help her for unintentionally going against her desires. This is especially true if she discovers that Homura both improved the lives of their friends, and was acting out of genuine belief that she was doing what Madoka wanted. Homura's actions had not given her pause before, and I doubt they would again. If Homura would actually accept salvation and mercy is another story, but not one to be told today. Perhaps in the future, we can get more information, and then even Homura can be truly happy.

#pmmm #madoka magica #puella magi madoka magica #homura akemi #essays #meta #two hour essay speedrun + it's 3:30am so please show mercy on my out of date writing skills #it's been years since i was in ap lit #long post #very long post #suicide m

[empress-pug]

Do you take romantic killer (the anime) requests? if yes can you do general hijiri koganei headcannons?

Hijiri Kogane x reader is now entering the FLUFF ballroom…

ALSO IF YOU MEANT GENERAL HEADCANNONS PLATONICALLY PLS TELL ME AND ILL REDO IT!!!

These headcannons are completely random and he might be ooc sorry!

It’s super short too, disappointed in myself for that but I genuinely could not think of anything

Content warnings: none

Not proofread

I feel like he’s the type to spoil you, buying anything you eyes lay on for more than 1.67 seconds.

That cute accessory from your favorite show? Bought. A particular outfit you spoke about for a while? Oh look, a package appeared at your doorstep with the outfit inside!

In terms of dates, beautiful and expensive places- if that’s not your cup of tea then he’s down to go to the quaint coffee shop that opened up at the end of the block. (anywhere you want he will not complain as long as it makes you happy)

If you’re the talkative type then you’ve got yourself a great listener. He’lo listen to you, make sure no one interrupts you, and stares at you with such adoration in his eyes as you talk about something that crossed your mind.

Could you imagine getting sick and having him as your caretaker? It would be a learning experience for him and a rather chaotic time for you. Him wanting to tak if your himself, asking and searching up what to do, making your towel colder or hotter, homemade soup with the best ingredients. At first he’s be hesitant to be around you if it’s not to take care of you but he’ll soon cave in and give you cuddles (might make him sick but oh well) But he wont give you anything without any remarks about how dumb you have to be to get sick, like HeLLOO?? How dare you get sick smh..

Oh en geee imagine how your birthday would be with him!!! He’s bring you to a beautiful place, gifts laying on top of a small but obviously valuable table, the smell of roses and the cake being made by a highly sought out baker. And a cupcake made by him! Telling you how you’re lucky to have him, lucky to be blessed by his presence, lucky for him to be celebrating your birthday with you. You can shut him up with a kiss tho he’ll die on the inside might scoff or have a flush faced and quickly turn around

If you’re ever sad, listening and spewing words of comfort and kindness are not below him. He’d do it without hesitation if it meant seeing your pretty smile once more!

Hes romantic but not overly romantic, you’d probably have to squeeze it out of him. But trust me when I say when and if you squeeze it out of him you’ll be stuck with him. It’s him or him, no one else. I mean he did allow you to be with him, not a luxury many people find themselves bathing in.

He doesn’t have a preference in terms of cuddling, he’d try to be a big spoon but then you end up wooing him, then he ends up sloping you and that turns into a cycle. He’s needs his beauty sleep so try not to wake him up, he doesn’t wanna look like a mess in front of you, if you do he’ll only respond in sarcastic remarks

Two words: hand squeezes.

That’s it…

#x reader #fluff #fanfic #gender neutral #romantic killer #empress-pug #hijiri x reader #hijiri koganei #hijiri koganei x reader #gn #rk #anime #headcannons #general headcanons #༊*·˚Other #ೃ⁀➷ Shows/Movies

[average-drawer]

here. warning: springlock faliure aftermath, blood and 2 sad crayons. hope it sustains you...

The air felt wrong to his lungs, almost painful. His skin felt as though it was being pierced by knives.

The cotton sheets felt unnaturally hot, his duvet scratchy and uncomfortable.

He had to get out of there.

He ripped the blankets off, shivering so much he hardly noticed the stabbing pain all throughout his body.

How did I get home? Jack thought, unable to remember anything more recent than the show.

He stumbled towards the door and down the stairs, one hand gripping the rail so firm he could swear his blood pressure was cut off, and the other scratching his thigh anxiously.

A faint noise came from around the corner.

‘Hello?’ Jack rasped.

The noise cut off, followed promptly by heavy footsteps.

Jack felt something trickle down his leg.

Still dazed and confused by the whole situation, he wiped it off with his sleeve, and brought it to eye level.

‘Shit, ‘m I bleedin’?’ he mumbled.

The footsteps grew closer.

He looked down to see a whole trail of blood, coming al the way down the stairs, right to his feet.

He gripped on the handrail even harder, his vision fading.

The footsteps stopped, right in front of him.

A voice called out to him, through the darkness. He wished he could see who it was.

He fell, and the voice caught him.

He felt warm, familiar hands grab him, just as he passed out.

Dave carried him, oh so gently, over to the couch. He lay the man down, a cushion under his head.

Dave sat on the floor next to him, holding his hand, lightly circling round his palm.

He never knew he could feel so much at one time, and it scared him.

Jack’s eyes flickered open, his hand shaking slightly.

Dave stood, looking at the pitiful mess of a man that lay sprawled across the couch.

‘Who’s ‘at?’ Jack whispered.

‘It’s me, Dave. I-’

‘Dave. What’s gone on, don’t remember comin’ home…’ Jack rubbed his eyes and pulled himself up.

‘No, Jack, lie back down, please.’ Dave gently pushed him down, so that he lay on his back.

Jack coughed.

‘I got to redo your bandages. Just don’t move.’

Jack hadn’t even realised he had bandages on. They just blended in with the rest of the vast discomfort.

He lay there in silence for the half hour it took Dave to re-dress his wounds. It felt nice to rest his voice.

‘Sportsy?’ Dave looked up from the last bandage.

‘Dave. What happened?’

‘Springlocks. ‘spect you knew that.’

He had assumed as such, but hearing it said aloud only confirmed his fears. He shuddered.

Dave lifted his head, sitting under him.

Jack looked up to him. He’d never seen Dave look so distant.

‘Dave, how…’ he was almost afraid to ask. ‘How long ago did I-’

‘Three weeks. I thought you were gonna die, Sportsy.’

Jack had never heard Dave sound so genuinely upset.

He felt himself drift to sleep; he knew he was safe.

Dave looked down at the man asleep in his lap. He felt almost ill thinking about what had happened.

Nobody deserves that. Except Henry, I guess.

He was surprised he’d managed to hold himself together this long.

Every little twitch Jack made reminded him of the man he’d held, shaking, in a dark room. The rosy red of Jack’s cheeks made him think of the blood that had pooled around them, the blood that had remained on his hands long after he washed them clean.

How pitiful.

Jack had it worse, and he knew that. Yet he couldn’t help but shiver when he thought of the sleepless nights spent by Jack’s bed, staring at him, afraid to blink in case he ceased to breath.

He cared, maybe too much. He couldn’t help it.

omnomnomnomnom

After reading: hell yeah my fictional stomach is filled with porn fanfiction. However, my real stomach had a pancake and 3 fistfuls of goldfish two hours ago but I cannot get goldfish without alerting my presence

[tojikai]

it was the way i hoped for toji and then rubbed my hands cackling when my wish came true and then instantly started squealing and kicking my feet for me 🥹😈

i liked seeing gojo’s perspective and while i can see now what the mind process was i still felt like he’s so dense and egotistical. i felt a little bad but it lasted about 2 minutes and then said fuck it we ball not enough to root for him so he can choke 🥰🫶🏽

baby megs putting naohoemi (i know what i said in the first ask about her being nice to yui but i was trying to be positive lmao but i couldn’t do it after reading it a second time) in her place and toji dealing the finishing blow had me smiling like the grinch and me monologuing about giving that man the sloppiest toppiest guack guack 9000 at the house 😤🤣

when n**mi said we can all fix it together i said out loud “i think tf not you trick ass bitch” bc i’m just so tired of her lmao pls exit stage left and stop inserting yourself the martyr complex is irking me

also wanted to mention that toji having money and being a present dad is so heartwarming and i love that despite mamaguro there’s room in his heart for reader (fix you put me through it at the time lmao) and the sims are so cute 🥰 since i’m a woc (black) i already imagined yui to look like the sim except for my skin and hair texture so seeing it had me like kai, your mind ☺️ but also imagining braiding her hair and putting beads in them 🥹😭

me 🤝 kai = same brain

i am highkey rooting for toji bc despite maybe seeing him as ooc may be a thought for others some part of me likes to think that he could have had that in canonverse had things been different which is why the characterization feels right for me. he’s so sweet to reader but also nasty 🤪😂 and the kids get along too so i am heavily invested in that. also when it was mentioned reader wanted three kids she already has yui and if toji is endgame then megumi is added. would she want more kids even if she had one with toji? i also want to see megumi accidentally call reader mom (despite mothergate with “n***mi”) but at the same time have both megs and toji being shocked but liking the new dynamic since reader isn’t taking anyone’s spot or icing out others

now idk if you’re going to do an epilogue for sundered or a different piece set in the au (and honestly i’m just down for the ride either way) but the way you explore the family dynamics and reveal the psychological aspects just tickles my brain so i’d like to see yui’s thoughts and perspective and just her being mommy’s little angel menace to society and delivering the karma to both of them. whether its naomi and satoru and his mom being ripped a third buttcheck bc she’s over it or just her reading them all for filth bc she knows the truth

i think to make it easier for my thoughts on each chapter i will do separate ones with slight commentary that way i don’t spam your ask box lmao (meaning i will redo reviews on each chapter bc i genuinely love talking about the fics with you! you make it fun and also you don’t get annoyed when i’m constantly standing outside your askbox or when i’m cussing out the characters on main lmfao 😂💕

i also think that ill do it for the rest of the series i’ve read from you just bc i know you’re an author im comfortable with talking to and ive been around even before permanent mark despite that being the start of reaching out. i think it’ll be fun for me and maybe to you but honestly maybe its just bc i talk a lot lmao and that we both are down bad astronomically for toji. also off topic bc this was a review and turned into a platonic confession/appreciation post but i saw you are a leo and it made my heart feel full bc my mom is a leo too lmao

- paragraph/theory aka paratheory anon

that statement abt how you feel abt satoru is just the way i feel abt him whenever i write. i just start scolding him like im not the one making him say or do those things, it's funny when i think abt it now LMAO and toji being ooc JDKSLSL that's true😭 but for me, it's bc i headcanon him as being really good w kids and family stuff. his life in jjk's just ...not the right place to show that side of him and it makes me hurt for him so bad bc where is he gonna put that soft side now😭 i enjoy writing him like that, ngl. and yui's pov would be so interesting and cute😭 depending on how it'll end, it'd be fun to see what she thinks and how she acts abt it as she grows !! anwww omg yess im a leo, that made me feel warm, paratheory anon, thanks so much 🥺♥️ your asks are always great reads<33

#🍭—kaitalks #f: sundered

[imvriix]

Hi!I was the one who requested the Donald fic and I was wondering if I can have the same concept with Grey and his friends??thank you♡♡♡

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𝔄𝔫𝔤𝔢𝔩 𝔉𝔞𝔠𝔢

summary ;; — them with someone who is naturally sweet and kind, yet they don't know how to act due to their oblivious nature.

featuring + contains ;; — gray yeon, alex go, ben park, gerard jin, teddy jin x sweetheart/ selfless gn! reader, ( unestablished relationship ).

a/n : tumblr is so ass, ill be writing fics or whatever and when i wanna take a break and i press to put it in drafts and save, it just fucking dissapears. im literally redoing this because tumblr didnt put my work in my drafts. + because theres a lot of characters, ill be sticking to the overall relationship rather than full oneshots.

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— gray yeon

gray naturally appreciates polite people who mind their business, so its not surprising if he's fond of you.

i think he likes how real and true you are to yourself and others, your smiles always full of meaning and care instead of fear or disgust.

something else he'd like is how you're able to keep up with him, your mindsets click together perfectly.

all of this is foreign to him, so he doesn't know anything about what he's feeling for the longest time until big ben points it out and goes absolute matchmaker mode.

if he does eventually realise, i think he'd be a bit shy and avoid your gaze that little bit more out of worry he'd get lost in it.

gray can be seen as cold at times, even when he's just being normal, so when your able to talk to him normally and without thinking twice like normal friends should, he finds himself enjoying your company so much.

listening to the words and conversation starters spilling from your pretty lips, he forgets to keep his guard up. he even slips in a sarcastic comment or sly smirk of amusement every now and then.

he doesn't feel like he needs to overthink what to do or say as your conversations flow so easily.

whenever you guys are meant to have a group hangout or meet up or whatever, he ends up constantly searching for you and not relaxing his shoulders until he does. he starts staring without realising.

he can and will hog you to himself, he can't help but be a bit selfish.

it'd also take him an eternity to confess, telling himself ( and also a agitated ben ) that he's fine with the way things are at the moment.

yet you remain clueless.

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— alex go

hes such a sweetheart

i feel like he would like you the second the two of you met, i think he'd get flustered and overthink a lot around you, so he'd probably hide behind ben.

he'd also avoid being alone with you or talking to you pike his life depends on it, he can't handle actually having a conversation with you just yet.

he'd be worried about messing up or weirding you out by making things too awkward, especially because its extremely noticeable with how he looses his cool and avoids your eyes.

you'd end up forcing him to talk with you and he finds that it isn't as awkward as he thought he'd end up making it.

he actually enjoys it a lot and gets more comfortable, constantly thinking about what to talk to you about next and what to do with you.

one of the things he'd like most is how you see him for him, not as a mindless minion or fake.

i think he'd end up confessing but he'd just end up a stammering mess, but he does get his point across in one way or another through his jumble of words.

you dont even have to say much, just smile and give him a kiss and he'll be okay.

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— ben park

he'd think he made it so secret and so unknown but everyone and their mother knows that his feelings aren't only platonic.

its so obvious that it genuinely hurts, he seems to laugh more and become even louder somehow.

big bear hugs whenever you say something sweet or innocent, him giving you constant lectures on how to protect yourself — because we all know he's a gym freak —, and he's protective of you when it comes to anyone outside the friendgroup.

he's just worried you'll get roped into the union and delinquents, he can't afford to lose a friend because some power obsessed freaks couldn't mind their business.

of course, at first he wouldn't have noticed his feelings, and if he did he'd be in slight denial, " i just care about them. we have a mutual caring friendship. yeah, we just care for eachother. yeah. " he'd think, feeling smart.

but when he does sit down and thinks it out, acting like this is the hardest thing he'll ever have to think about in his life, totally concentrated and all, he just admits it to himself pretty easily.

and he makes it everyones business.

sits everyone down, — excluding you —acting all serious, " guys, i have an announcement. i like y/n. "

" wow, really? ", " never would've guessed. ", " oh god i didn't expect that. ", " ya think? " and other sarcastic comments are said.

he seems genuinely surprised everyone knew.

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— gerard jin

we all know gerards a pretty straightforward guy, so i think he'd be even more straightforward to himself.

he'd be the only one who was able to actually hide it pretty damn well, so if anyone in the group finds out, they're all actually surprised.

there isn't really a big reason he likes you, he just thinks your really cute so he kind of sticks to you.

free tarot sessions all the way

he's always worried about you, he thinks that someone may try and take advantage of you and your sweetness.

would play guitar for you and even has a few drafts/ secret songs he made about you.

he'll never show you them of course, but they're so beautiful.

he literally just lingers around you. he isnt very friendly with anyone in his class, which is why he visits yours a lot.

but anytime you look over your shoulder, he's just standing over you.

hell, you dont even have to look and you can just sense him looking over you.

personal bodyguard basically

sucker for your praise

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— teddy jin

SO STIFF

absolutely cannot keep up a conversation with you unless you give it some prodding.

hes kind of like alex in this sense.

he's so tense and awkward because he isn't used to anyone being kind to him without it just being fake and only for their own benefit.

gives you atleast one can of coke whenever you guys see eachother.

i think you would have bonded over sprite and co, he'd fall for you much more harder if you liked cats, especially the two he cared for.

you found it so cute for someone as stubborn and mischievous as teddy to be a diehard cat lover.

you guys basically adopted all the cats in the area together, feeding and caring for literally any cat you see.

can't handle you and cute cats at the same time

he really cant

you'd be like the first person he calls if co is sick, because hes lowkey panicking and running around everywhere in a frenzy since he has no clue about what to do

he recovers eventually and he repays you with coke

you ask for a kiss instead

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#gray yeon #ben park #teddy jin #gerard jin #alex go #weak hero x reader #weak hero x gender neutral reader #gray yeon x gn reader #ben park x gn reader #weak hero webtoon

[milfhandholder]

Bringing back Black Butler actor AU by writing a bunch of headcanons for it

Sebastian has a dog, yes. He loves it very much, a big fat bulldog that WILL run at you to show you love

The children do homeworks on set so an adult can help them LMAO (don't ask Will though he hated that shit)

Not Sieglinde though, she's homeschooled!! Sucks to sucks, it's not easy being rich 😩😩

Grell and Sebastian are childhood best friends. Sebastian's the one who scored her the role because he "works well with his bestie"

Grell: I genuinely thought I was just going to play a cute butler who's going to have this big gender identity revelation but turns out my best friend just thinks I'm a psychopath so that's nice to hear

Ron originally was a make-up staff who did stand-in for script readings but then the director was like "you're the perfect amount of British"

William genuinely adores Grell because she's been in the industry longer and also she's hot as hell

Madam plays extras after her death scene

Madam: I was just too hot to be alive </3

This is Lizzie's first role and for her great work, she was allowed to bring home 3 dresses of her liking

Had it been their way, Redcliff would've had more screentime and deeper relationships but ig ppl aren't ready for that

The one who breaks character the most is Ciel and the one who does it the least is surprisingly Finnian

Finnian is more known for darker and more serious depictions of teens so when he got casted, everyone was like "we're about to witness mental illness y'all"

Ran Mao is very talkative outside of her screen time. Girlie would infodump about her favorite thing that month to everyone

Mey Rin's a Chinese diaspora and so Lau takes her to 'reconnecting with your roots' trip at least twice a month

Ran Mao's a streamer and it's just her yelling "A FUCKING MONA 💀💀💀"

Lau is actually younger than Sebastian, Madam and Grell so when he first started, he called everyone with honorifics because this is his first non-chinese film and wow you white people really do go call everyone by their names even if they're older

Yes, this is an excuse for him to call Grell "Grell jiejie" and I just think that's cute and I love it. As a Chinese who can't speak Mandarin for shit, I want to call her jiejie LEAVE ME BE

Sieglinde has a very thick German accent that slips sometimes and whenever that happens, she and Ciel starts laughing

Sienglinde: it's not my fault you british have weird as hell accents

Ciel, a british: YOU TAKE THAT BACK

Lizzie brings all the young sapphic watchers bcs y'all,,,my girl is not straight at all and if she is, it's written in the most cursive shit ever

Sebastian on Grell's Instagram comments: SO TRUE QUEEN, MY WIFE, MY LOVE, PLEASE MARRY ME ❤

Grell replying back: lol no you're ugly /j

Grell is unfortunately a brunette irl rip to her roasting her own hair

The ones who are the least like their characters: Ciel (dude he's like 13), William (very sweet and soft-spoken, hates confrontation)

The ones who are literally their characters: Lau (he doesn't have a script, that's just him), Lizzie

Sebastian did actually accidentally stepped on Grell's face. He felt so bad that he kneeled to the floor and basically gave her an apology poem while she's just >:( that she has to redo her makeup

Mey Rin is blind as shit irl, she's just like me fr

Mey Rin: I wished I could see really far instead but no, I can't even see past my own nose

Ran Mao followed Lau's footsteps and calls (only) Grell "jiejie" because she likes her the best LMAO. The highest honor from Ran Mao is if she calls you with a Chinese honorofic, unless if you're Lau in which case she feels obligated to call him 'Lau gege'

Ciel is absolutely in awe with Sebastian's acting skills, he's all starry-eyed like "TEACH ME PLS"

Sebastian could only dance thanks to his theater kid days with Grell

I firmly believe that Sienglinde would love kpop and Hatsune Miku

Finnian has a RBF when he doesn't realize it, it scared Ciel shitless the first time

#kuroshitsuji #black butler #grell sutcliff #kuroshitsuji grell #sebastian michaelis #william t spears #kuroshitsuji madame red #madame red #our ciel #ciel phantomhive #elizabeth midford #finnian kuroshitsuji #lau kuroshitsuji #ran mao #black butler actor au

[clutchpowers]

Sooooo... i wanted to stick this little rambly thing at the bottom of the redraw but it would have made it look UGLY so im doing this separately... just wanna talk about the whole thing and What Not.

TLDR: its been a slash positive ride thats been worth it to try "something new" every year and my favorite piece out of all of them is the 9th. also for the curious heres the comparison of the 5th anni piece to the recent one (2018 -> 2023)

anyway. personal post time.

oh where to begin *rocks on my rocking chair* i guess it would be with the 5th anniversary piece...at the time it had been a long while since i did lineless art and i thought it would be cool to try it again for that one so i did by redrawing an old piece from 2014... that was the first "finished piece" i made of Them. i think i even made it into a wallpaper for myself lmao. anyway after i posted it i was like "aw man i should draw something every year until the 10th" but i thought yeah right. im going to forget next year like the idiot i am. but i Some How managed to do one every year... th worms got me... i honestly didnt think id make it all the way to the 10th but i did!! AND WITHOUT MISSING A DAY EXCEPT FOR THE 7TH WHERE I WAS A WEEK LATE???? UNREAL especially when fun fact! every year i had no idea what i wanted to do! all i knew for sure is that i wanted each piece to be out of my comfot zone to push me to do something a little different. unfortunately the subjects tm where always the same so it feels a little. samey. but these are my celebratory posts I GET TO ONLY POST ABOUT THE OTP SUPER BLORBOS OF ALL TIME

the 6th anniversary was a redraw of that one scene. you know the one. the helicopter one. fucking hate that scene btw it actually causes me psychic damage i cant watch with the audio or ill scream. but it is my favorite scene of mine despite all the horrors it causes <3 and i wanted to redraw it as if it was a cartoon... like i had taken screencaps from the lcu cartoon in my head. i still remember the backgrounds being such a pain in the ass. honestly id like to go back and redo this one one day too or do something similar to the concept because its a fun one that i always saw done growing up and i wanted to try it myself.

for the 7th anniversary you can see the turn.. no more humans... return to lego... i was getting a little more confident in drawing them in the lego form so i did another redraw this time with the ending!! honestly i still like this one and how it looks even with how late it was but i wanted to test my confidence and do a real True and Finished piece with COLORED LINES and EVERYTHING!!!!! im glad i ended up taking the turn because for the LONGEST TIME i wanted to try and draw them as lego so bad because all i did was draw them as humans and its funny because now its the exact opposite. glad this piece was kinda the solidification in my head that yeah okay im a bit better at drawing the stylized lego toy now i can keep drawing them like this without feeling like im going to want to delete this in 2 weeks.

the 8th anniversary one is so weird. somewhere toward the beginning of the year it got into my head that i wanted to do a comic of them but time/school would have gotten in the way so i ended up opting for a page. another redraw of the ending scene which honestly out of all of them this is my least favorite one and its solely because its all so off. i def could have formated it better so the background shot doesnt take up the entire fucking page but then again im not a comic guy and this was my first time so the layout was bound to look HORRID but this is something id like to come back to ive had the idea of making like a genuine short comic about them since FOREVER and now that im a bit more experienced (lying) i would like to make one day!!!! just gotta stop getting caught up in my scripts!! and going in circles!! Because im obviously not a writer and i keep getting first-hand embarrassment from these!! but ill get over it one day lol.

OH THE 9TH ANNIVERSARY PIECE MY BELOVED. ONE OF MY FAVORITE PIECES ACTUALLY i love this stupid thing so much you have no idea.i know its re-using lineless but i just loved the idea of what it would look like lineless AND IT CAME OUT SO PERFECT I LOVE IT SO MUCH obv it needs a few touch-ups so the main issues dont stand out to me but god. i love this piece so much. idk what came out of me to make this but its so good ill never get over it. and the little lego them as a cake topper ITS JUST SO CUTE I DONT HAVE MUCH TO SAY OTHER THAN I LOVE THIS SO MUCH SORRY

finally. the 10th anniversary piece. oh my god. okay. i need everyone to understand this. i had woken up with this fucking Unbearable pounding headache that was trying to kill me. my body the entire day wanted me to stop and lie down, but last night i was already done with a good chunk of it and all i had to do that day was finish some lines and the coloring?? i literally don't remember all i remember is my body actively trying to shut down and force me to stop and sleep which i took a nap? didnt help. so i said fuck it im finishing this. i was. an entire goddamn corpse arched over my laptop. i was so delirious the entire time its a fucking miracle it even came out as good as it did but honestly. i still hate how it fucking looks. like you can TELL when i gave up (the shading) and it sticks out like a sore fucking thumb to me and it pisses me off because i knew i could have done so much better if i wasnt being stricken down by gods hand and his every attempt to get me to rest. idk like im generally proud ot it, with this one i wanted to go out with a bang tm so i tried to draw every important and relevant character instead of ALL of them like I was originally planning LMAO but ah well. maybe one day when im faster at drawing. this one i defiantly wanna go back and touch up but i everytime i open the file i can see 40 more things wrong with it and it drives me nuts. so ill just have to wait for when im ready. i guess.

can i just say though. the improvement is crazy. it always catches me off guard because tbh i uh. dont like my own art. im getting better at not fucking hating it because i can pinpoint everything wrong with it but whenever i see the side by sides it always surprises me. i always dont think im improving but then i see it and its like wow i really am getting better! i still suck at 3000 things but im getting better! and its overall just a nice thing to see after having drawn them for as long as i have... the power of the worms is strong and has ruined my brain...... speaking of i know ive said a few times that i fucking hate certain pieces, not just LCU related ones but almost anything i post, but if you love them and are able to look at them with a twinkle in your eye then thank you. genuinely. i honestly love looking over the tags of people exploding and saying nice things. it warms my cold little heart and im glad there are people out there that genuinely love some of the things what i do! even if its just fanart and its just their blorbo. thank you for sticking around even tho all i do is draw my otp super blorbos :'^) this game means the world to me and im glad like more than 2 people wanna spread it around.

to wrap back around to the anniversary stuff and speaking of big love to the people out there THE FREAKING EPIC ZINE i was just a small thing but it came out amazing even for how small it was thank you to the contributors and thank you to everyone whos downloaded it!! its still getting the occasional and i love getting the notif in my email about it. i love that there are still people out there who wanna see it and all the hard work everyone put into it to celebrate the games 10th just thank you again i really does mean alot to me ALSO IF YOU HAVENT CHECKED IT OUT PLEASE DO IT IS 100% WORK YOUR TIME AND ITS DIGITAL WITH PRINT AT HOME STICKERS AND YOU CAN KEEP IT AND LOOK AT IT FOREVER

uh to end this off....would I like to do this again..... I mean I kinda am? by that i mean ill do the big numbers (15, 20, 25, 30, 40, etc) till the day i freaking die!!!! but yeah no countdown stuff ever again!!!!! sorry :^( it was super fun to do though!!!! and im glad i did it that piece is the conclusion to the whole thing but that doesnt mean ill stop drawing them. duh. theyre my characters now! but heres to many more anniversaries and to hopefully another game! or to just see them again in any other lego media! or even better... a mischaracterized cameo in ninjago!

#long ass post lmao congrats if you actually read it all and made it to the bottom :'^) #i typed this all out yesterday thats how i got it out so quick lol

[steven-cartoons]

URGENT FUNDRAISER: Please help me and my family get away from our abuser

As I'm sure some of you know, I've been trying to raise money to move away from my father and finally fix up my family home. My mom and I are the only people working in a house of five people (and four cats) and we can't afford to take care of everyone here and be able to move anytime soon. My father can't keep a job, he does no chores, and he consistently eats all the food in the house (this is on top of him being a raging bigot who breaks shit around the house and has put his hands on us many times) We HAVE to get out of here and soon.

My grandmother's home has plenty of room for all of us, but it's falling apart: there's mold all over the inside, several rooms have no drywall/flooring, the roof had damage that leaked water into the attic, our outdoor shed has completely collapsed, we need to replace our oven, refrigerator, and dishwasher, we need to completely redo the plumbing in both bathrooms, and we need to make several adjustments to the house to make it more accessible for my grandmother as she gets older and more sick.

I put pictures so you can kinda see how bad things are, but keep in mind that this is just the stuff that you can see. ⬇️

My granny has had five heart attacks in her life, and her heart is currently working on 25% (as stated by her doctor.) She also is a polio survivor, has fibromyalgia, and we believe going near deaf at a young age is worsening/causing her dementia. She is genuinely getting so sick and not being herself at all since my grandfather died, and I just wish I could be there for her and take care of her right now...

I haven't been able to work as much because I'm getting physically ill from the stress of living with my father and working full time and trying to support my entire family at 21 years old. I have daily migraines now, and I've developed an eye twitch. I wanted to go back to college in August, but at this rate I don't think I can. I don't know where else to turn to, and I would appreciate help more than any of you could ever know.

We need about $2000 to be able to move in, and at least $10k for the major construction. I don't expect to raise that much, but ANY amount helps. Seriously. Thank you so much for reading this and sharing!! 💖

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#my post #personal #please reblog #abusive parent #actuallyabused #ptsd #cptsd #c ptsd #trans #transgender #ftm #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtqia #trans man #trans male #trans guy #queer community #mutual aid #lgbt community #lgbt resources #so sorry for the spam tags i know its annoying </3 #i just really need people to see this and i cant afford to blaze it

[bonesandthebees]

ello bones hope youre doing good

just found even more cool songs thanks to you, how do you always have more???

also WE COULDVE HAD YOU DOING ASL??? aw man :( (/lh)

anyway, I just turned in my paper that ive been working on for the last few months (yay, finally, it ate like all of my free time and energy) and suddenly I have too much free time and not much too read or watch (I had saved so many fics I cant manage to read anymore)

any coming of age books (or fics) or movies recommendations? (I need me some honey and tangerines vibes yk? ive been listening to the playlist too much again. one day I think ill read that fic again, but today is not the day)

much love to go you all in the ask box, eli <3

I'm doing pretty good! went to a yoga class tonight and I'm seeing the tommyinnit live show tomorrow so it's shaping up to be a pretty great weekend!

I actually filmed a video to post here on language day and everything but I wanted to redo it so my face wasn't fully in frame but then I just didn't get around to it :( oh well next time

OOO congrats on turning in that paper!! that's a huge accomplishment, I hope you get a great grade on it. and yay for free time!

oh boy ok coming of age recs I can do this. I haven't read any coming of age books since I was a teenager though so keep in my my memory of these are all hazy

books:

the perks of being a wallflower by stephen chbosky - hallmarker of the coming of age genre, read this when I was 16 and cried, even if you've seen the movie I highly recommend the book

aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe by benjamin alire saenz - literally was one of my favorite books for so many years. I read it when I was 15 and became obsessed with it. I still look back on it so warmly it's just such a great book

it's kind of a funny story by ned vizzini - also read this one when I was like 16ish. I remembered enjoying it but not as much as the other two I've listed here. still very good though!

movies:

cha cha real smooth (2022) - actually one of my favorite coming of age films I've ever seen. it's a coming of age film about a guy in his early 20s instead of in his teens which is refreshing in its own. it hit particularly hard for me because I saw it when I was 22 and freshly graduated from college unsure what to do, the main character is 22 and freshly graduated from college unsure what to do. it's also a very unique setup and I really loved how they pulled it off

the edge of seventeen (2016) - this might be a controversial pick because the main character is actually pretty insufferable in this, but that's part of why I enjoyed it. the character is meant to be insufferable. she's a teenage girl dealing with the hell of being a teenage girl and she sucks! it's an intentional thing and it does it very well! I would say it still falls flat in some areas, but I'm mainly recommending it because it's so refreshing to have an mc genuinely be a shitty person

sing street (2016) - I count this as a coming of age movie but it's also kind of a music movie? it's incredibly fun no matter what. the songs are so catchy, the characters are all great, and the relationships are just all very well done

the kings of summer (2013) - genuinely why do I never hear anyone talk about this movie. I haven't seen it in so long but I remember it being incredibly funny with a great dose of summertime whimsy

hunt for the wilderpeople (2016) - tbh I never thought of this as a coming of age movie and it might be a bit different than most of the films on here but I was looking up lists of coming of age movies to try and remember which ones I've seen and I saw this one mentioned a few times. if you're a fan of taika waititi films, in my opinion this is his best one hands down. it's hilarious but also incredibly sweet and heartwarming at the same time

moonrise kingdom (2012) - very charming and storybook esque in the way all wes anderson films are, but with a really sweet story between two kids at its core. again, different from most of the ones on this list, but definitely an enjoyable one all the same

hope this list helps!

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aindcfhfbdhc i saw you do fnf fics!! i was wondering if you could do a garcello x a tired gender neutral reader?

𝜗୧ ,, garcello x gn!reader !!

꒰꒰ type ;; oneshot ,, ꒰꒰ pov ;; second person ,, ꒰꒰ cw ;; cigarettes, health issues ,, ꒰꒰ characters ;; garcello, gn!reader ,, ꒰꒰ fandom ;; fnf ,, ꒰꒰ note ;; life laugh love garcello (hes literally the top reason i put fnf on the list) also you didnt specify pov so i hope second is okay, if not re-request and ill redo it !! ,,

⌒ 𓈒 fanfic under the cut !! ꒱

ㅤYou were extremely drowsy, laying on the couch with Garcello. Your head was laid one one of his thighs as he stroked your hair, feeling yourself lazily blink as you stared at the TV in front of you. You didn't even exactly know what was on. Some comedy, maybe. You were too exhausted to remember or even tell.

ㅤYou felt the thigh under your head shift and you whined, looking up at him. He was looking right back down at you with his normal expression, however with just a tinge of guilt and concern.

ㅤ"…Thought you were asleep." He mumbled. You saw the cigarette pack in his hand, you knew he did this every night. He let you fall asleep, went to the alley, and smoked. Then he tended to get off on an errand or got completely distracted, and wasn't normally back by the time you woke up in the morning. You still pretended to be asleep, though. The small yet love-filled mumbles he whispered to you as he waited for you to wake up warmed your heart.

ㅤYou reached up, grabbed the pack, and placed it on the table next to you. You didn't want him leaving you in the night to smoke again. You stood up, albeit uncoordinated, and tugged him by the sleeve to the bedroom. Whether you were strong or weak didn't matter, he just let you tug him around with a quiet chuckle. It was adorable watching where you went and why with him.

ㅤYou pushed him onto the bed, turned off the lights, grabbed the blanket, and flopped ontop of him. "You're staying here tonight." You huffed. You were tired, exhausted. You probably forgot to turn off the TV in the living room-

ㅤ"…Hon, the TV in the living room is still on."

ㅤYou sighed, getting up and walking out of the room to turn that damned TV off. You just wanted to sleep and spend a genuine night with your love. You knew discussing how him leaving in the night hurt you, but that was a story for you when you didn't want to pass out from exhaustion.

ㅤYou laid next to him after locking the bedroom door, pushing yourself into his arms. "Tonight you're staying with me." You stated, not taking any questions. You didn't want to hear shit, you just wanted to wake up with him still asleep with you in his arms.

ㅤHe hesitated before shaking his head slightly with a smile, realizing there was no way out of this. Not like he was against it, but still.

ㅤYou were too sweet. He knew you were only doing this for his health. He didn't sleep as much as he should, even he accepted that. He just pulled you close as you drifted off into sleep.

ㅤ"…Rest well." He said, as his eyes fluttered shut and he fell asleep against you. ♡

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