#is it burnout?

[properantagonist]

This will sound idiotic, but I feel so indescribably and utterly unintelligent.

Likely nobody will read this, but I need to share this. I feel so stupid. I feel like I lack media literacy and general problem solving skills, even though I possessed an impressively high level of both as close as a few years ago.

For some reason, I feel like I've huffed 30 cubic meters of petrol fumes and my brain deteriorated. Maybe it's the past manias. Maybe I really have brain damage. I almost feel lobotomised?

It leaves me so terribly depressed, I strive to achieve, I strive to think and explore, and yet I can't. I feel powerless, useless, passive.

I struggle to put that feeling into words (likely because of my consequent idiocy), but I'm stuck in this absolute hell of intellectual inability and it makes me feel like a failure. I'm a failure of a human being. This October I'm starting a second university course and I don't think I can manage. I feel too stupid.

My writing seems worse than ever. I once hoped to become a professional writer, but nowadays I doubt I'm even cognitively fit for working a simple, routine, non-intellectual job. I'm slow, distracted, easily fatigued. My mind is empty. It hurts.

I just want to feel worthy. I want to feel like I understand. Understand anything meaningful. I feel like I'm too stupid for any truly cool people to be interested in knowing me. I've lost myself and I have no muscle strength left to go looking.

#is it burnout? #is it brain damage? #i have a plethora of neurological / mental issues and i dont want this to continue happening #am i just depressed? ive never had this happen when depressed #cognition #intelligence #depression #help #literacy #mental health #mental issues #neurodivergent #ND #nd struggles

[brightlotusmoon]

#heavy sigh #skipping a grade for english yet failing math #gifted kid burnout #twice exceptional

[pixiemage]

Please, for the love of god, please don’t be this person. No matter how long it’s been since an update, no matter how many unfinished stories are sitting on their account, no matter what - do not be this person.

Not only is it insanely rude, but you also do more damage than you think be being such a self-entitled ass about something someone created for free and for fun. “This author” can see what you say.

RIP decency indeed.

#Archive of our Own #Ao3 #Ao3 Comments #Writing #Fanfiction #Fanfic Writing #I wrote over 100k on that fic before burnout took hold #I poured my heart into what I did manage to finish #adhd’s a bitch that doesn’t always let me write what I want to write but I got that far #don’t make me feel ashamed because you didn’t get to see the ending

[thepeacefulgarden]

#rest #give yourself permission to rest #self care #self care is not selfish #self compassion #self respect #self love #work culture #grind culture #stop the glorification of busy #spoons #chronic illness #burnout #compassion fatigue #activism fatigue #no guilt #no shame

[neuroticboyfriend]

chronic fatigue from mental illness and neurodivergency isn't something you can just will your way out of. your nervous system is part of your body. your brain is an organ. the fatigue is real. you're not lazy. so be kinder to yourself. be gentler with your bodymind.

#softspoonie #chronic fatigue #fatigue #mental health #mental illness #chronic illness #chronically ill #mentally ill #neurodivergent #bodymind #depression #anxiety #autistic burnout #disability #disabled

[theadhdgoblin]

#adhd memes #actually autistic #goblin things #adhd #being autistic #enby things #adhdlife #adhd things #autistic burnout #adhd problems #adhd artist #actually adhd #adhd goblin

[tizzymcwizzy]

for anyone that doesn't know, i recently started school again! (that's why ive been so mia) so ill be posting class projects whenever i finish them,,, this was a figure drawing assignment :)

you can get a print of this here!

#along with moving and starting school again‚ i had a bunch of family and health stuff thrown my way at the start of this semester‚‚ #so im slowly catching up on work from this past month hsbdhdjf #my art #artists on tumblr #art #illustration #uhh i think that's all my original art tags #im really happy with how this piece turned out!!! :D #during critique someone mentioned how this felt like a representation of creative burnout and i was like omg. felt.

[jaynovz]

if yall ever want like serious advice from me about how to solve burnout as a creative it's like...

literally ignore it. stop pushing. go do something else, enjoy your life, fill it with other things, do what brings you joy in the moment if you can.

go to the gym, take a walk to touch grass and look at dogs and smell flowers, cook dinner, watch tv with your friends, talk about your feelings as needed with ppl you trust, take a drive and blast your music, do the chores you need to do, the job hunting slog you need to do, read books that aren't for research, stop cordoning off your brain for The Craft or The Draft or whatever the fuck

forget about the project, stop thinking about it for as long as it takes to be excited again.

fuckin rest, basically

#thoughts #writing stuff #personal #wish there was better advice than Stop Pushing and Rest and Ignore It #but sure haven't found any #and the time in between sucks a lot #jay prescribes a nice beverage four orgasms and a good movie with friends for your burnout #hope that helps #jay philosophies

[terracottakore]

the beginnings of a new corporation! 💌📬

#WE ARE SO BACKKKK im finally out of my burnout #hermitcraft #pearlescentmoon #tangotek #ethoslab #terracottaart

[pangur-and-grim]

it’s hard to regain your passion after a burn out. I read someone describe not as re-lighting the old torch, but as crafting a new torch to light, and that is what it feels like! it’s work!

#I feel silly since the burnout happened in 2020 #it’s been almost half a decade! get over it! work harder!

[titleknown]

REBLOG IF YOU'RE EXTREMELY BURNT OUT DESPITE ALSO FEELING LIKE YOU'VE DONE NOTHING WORTHWHILE AT ALL WITH YOUR LIFE!

#actuallyautistic #actuallyadhd #all i have to my name is some open source characters nobody cared about and bad art #burnout #autistic burnout

[gollancz]

The synopsis says: “It’s the hottest summer on record and London is dying. Prices are high, pay is low, and stressed commuters are packed on to London Underground trains again like the pandemic never happened. To add to the misery, the temperatures underground just keep climbing and climbing, the heat trapped in the clay with nowhere to go. 

“Five travellers on an unlucky tube carriage find themselves bound together one morning as witnesses to a single horrific event – an event they can’t quite seem to remember. They make an unlikely team: weary tube driver, a disillusioned civil servant, an ambitious city trader, an overwhelmed hotel worker and an unhoused young man just trying to get by – but now they must come together to confront what they have seen and stop it in its tracks. Because there’s something lurking in the stifling darkness and labyrinthine tunnels that run below London… something old, something vicious, and something very, very hungry.” 

I couldn't be more excited to be working with @jonnywaistcoat on his next two novels! This is just more of what he does best - pulling apart the very seams of society and giving me very specific new sleep paralysis demons, and somehow getting me to say thank you afterwards.

And if you're near London next month, why not pop along to Gollanczfest to hear him chat all things horror with Joe Hill and V. V. James? Tickets are still available:

#Jonathan Sims #Burnout #Book announcement #Monsters on the Underground #horror fiction #Horror authors

[ghostmistdraws]

Creative slump? No, no. Creative frenzy. Too many idea, not enough time, not enough energy. It's too much, I do nothing.

#art block #writers block #writing #writeblr #artblr #creative burnout #creative block #textposts #ghostsposts #artist life #writers life #writer memes #artist memes

[bioethicists]

it's actually terrifying how quickly the concept of self care (originally a radical concept rooted in the black panther party's efforts to support other black ppl living through racism) became another tool of self-management which is viewed as both a moral obligation + an individual responsibility. businesses + employers + other institutions now easily wield it as a progressive way to say "if you're upset about xyz, make yourself get over it". "we are going to treat you like shit + you need to learn how to cope with that or else you're doing something wrong"

i have seen job listings where "ability to practice self care" was listed as a requirement for employment. as a case worker, we were repeatedly drilled on "self-care" as a response to unconscionably high case loads, traumatizing experiences, dead end job obligations, + poor living conditions due to subpar pay/high stress. my clients would go to appointments regarding their evictions, food insecurity, active domestic violence situations, etc + receive tips on "self care" without any tangible community, legal, or structural support to follow.

everyone absolutely deserves to care for themselves + it is useful to circulate affirmations + advice on how to do this. this should happen within communities, through a sincere concern/love for one another, as a way of helping everyone live the best life possible while we work towards total liberation. it should not be a replacement for caring for one another!!! it should be one of many ways of caring for one another!!!

#they once made me go to a training about how to turn off your feelings before working with institutionalized clients #literally stating that empathy + emotions are what cause burnout when working in the mental health field #i wish i was making that up i really truly do #i probably still have screenshots lmao #anyway remember when i was institutionalized myself because i was too good at turning off all my feelings??? #cuz i do. #anti psychiatry

[theadhdgoblin]

#adhd memes #actually autistic #goblin things #adhd #being autistic #enby things #adhdlife #adhd things #autistic burnout #adhd problems #actually adhd #adhd goblin

[zebulontheplanet]

Hearing constantly about gifted autistic kids and people seeing it as THEE autistic trait has completely disregarded those who aren’t gifted and made a HUGE divide in the community. Seeing constantly “yeah autistic people are usually gifted” is so annoying because a VERY large chunk of autistic people, aren’t actually gifted and media has just put the gifted people at the front because they’re more palatable. The “autistic gifted kid burnout” has become more so a trend than anything and I’ve seen a lot of people assume they’re autistic because they are the “gifted kid burnout person” when that isn’t even a requirement for an autism diagnosis. You don’t have to be gifted to be autistic. You don’t have to be!!

Start putting the people who struggle more in the spotlight. Those with intellectual disabilities, those with learning disabilities, those with cognitive disabilities, those who are just generally stereotypically “dumb” and embrace it!

We need to have a very big discussion about this as a community and it needs to start today.

#zebrambles #autism #actually autism #actually autistic #learning disability #learning disabilities #intellectual disability #cognitive disability #gifted kid burnout #gifted kid #autistic #autistic things #Zebplanet