#in my anger journal

[randomfusilier]

#werewolf giving the bird #fuck you #rage #collectible card game #my photos #richard kane ferguson #action #ragabash #garou #challenge #taunt #frenzy #i thought I'd lost this card #but i found it today #apparently #i was using it #as a bookmark #in my anger journal #lol

[archer-antiope]

yeah i think if gorgug had told porter to fuck off immediately the mcat would’ve been signed, but also if porter had the “rage can be healthy” convo with gorgug straight up first day of junior year if not much, much sooner, gorgug would have had a much smoother path to success in barbarian AND artificer classes. and one of these makes more sense to happen because ONE IS AN ADULT TEACHER WHO SHOULD BE PRIMING HIS STUDENTS FOR SUCCESS AND THE OTHER IS A TEENAGER—

#text #d20 spoilers #look i see some of you all making points about porter #and i get it #but also gorgug is a CHILD #WHO IS RAISED IN GNOMISH COMMUNITY AND THEREFORE HAS A DIFFERENT SENSE OF RAGE FROM PORTER #AND THATS ALL OKAY!!!!! #and MOREOVER the ways people express their anger can all be different and that’s ALSO healthy #i keep a rant journal i crumple up the pages for and destroy!!!! #my coworker goes for really long runs!!!! #both are good ways of getting out anger!!!! #gorgug thistlespring #tbt

[ivyllamauwu]

Don’t mind me just picking up my Lancetris crumbs that I have now..

#4kota #just a poor orphan picking up bread crumbs of her favorite ship #so sad </3 #that little cock blocking bitch Guinevere is ruining my dream journal #she’s the reason why i have anger issues #mokushiroku no yonkishi #tristan liones #four knights of the apocalypse #anime and manga #tristan #lancelot #percival #gawain #arthur pendragon

[acrashedjournal]

I am full of anger

#i dont know how to journal about my feelings #journal #art journal #journalart #art #therapy art #myart #collage #anger

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

Pokémon Horizons Episode 24 spoilers under the cut!

HEY AMETHIO BESTIE WHAT DOES THAT MEAN . WHAT DOES THAT MEAN

#fluff binges !!! #GUESS WHO'S OFFICIALLY CAUGHT UP WITH HORIZONS AND GOT TO WATCH THE LATEST EP FROM YESTERDAY !!! 💥💥💥💥💥 #I have a bunch of posts to make about the previous eps because I enjoyed them a lot but first oh my g o d #adding an extra tag here before spoiler talk --------------------------> #I was still reeling from finding out that Hamber was Diana's old friend I like genuinely jumped from seeing that #butler jumpscare /lh #Hamber's essentially Gibeon's righthand at this rate and considering how Onyx and Sango were even scared of him that spells out bad news #NO BUT WHAT WAS UP WITH TERAPAGOS BEEFING WITH AMETHIO AT THE END I'M.................................................. #AMETHIO HAVING AN EVEN BIGGER ROLE IN THIS STORY ASIDE FROM HIS OWN PERSONAL VENDETTA?????????????????AMEN AMEN AMEN #it's so funny for the past few episodes I was thinking to myself “man I miss Amethio I miss my edgy son where is he :(” #AND HE NOT ONLY CAME BACK BUT POSSIBLY HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE PAST CONSIDERING TERAPAGOS' REACTION................... #my current theory is like - maybe Amethio's a descendant of someone who knew Lucius? #and maybe they're the reason why he's been missing all this time? because that was anger Hatenna was sensing I feel #and terapagos was acting so aggressively thinking that Amethio was that same person from before /insane /insane /insane #I thought that Liko could possibly be a descendant of Lucius as well but it seems like Diana only knew him through his journals- #-not by relations like I initially thought #OOOUGHGGHGNNGG I NEED MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #next friday come soon huhu #pokemon horizons #anipoke #pokeani #amethio #amethio pokemon

[cowboykeery]

the amount of peace ive had since restarting my tumblr and just overall sense of self has been so nice like i feel like a weight has been lifted off of me. yeah i still have moments of weakness and dark thoughts cloud my mind and i hope i dont jink this but idk i feel good right now

#bri texts #not having crazy ppl in my inbox has been life changing #and im journaling all my spirals and not posting it here which helps #idk learning basic shit like channeling all your sadness anxiety and anger into paper and not poor people on my dash to witness is 🙏🏻 #because what i feel in the moment isn’t how i’ll feel after ive calmed down you know #idk im rambling but yeah learning to chill tf out more 👌🏻

[alivegirlmari]

i love all the secrets the girls have with themselves and just one other person, especially when it's a ghost.

no one will ever know that shauna ate jackie's ear, that she ate jackie first, that jackie was hers - both briefly, before everyone else ate her, and then always, because now jackie lives on inside her, and in everything shauna does. how can ghostjackie not appear, even twenty-five years later on that bridge, when she's a part of shauna, just as much as her heart and lungs are? shauna consumes jackie, and jackie consumes shauna, and it all starts with the ear that exists between them.

lottie is the only one who saw the chunk missing on deadjackie's arm; i'm sure she had theories or concerns about it, but it's still a secret she immediately accepted as is, and then agreed to keep - locking the necklace around shauna's neck to confirm their silent covenant, that they're now linked together in this act of sorrow and love, and then the kindness she generally shows towards shauna's grieving process: you can trust me. you're not alone. (but it's not really just between lottie and shauna, either: it was jackie's flesh, so ghostjackie keeps yet another secret, even without knowing.)

misty is the only person who knows crystal's real name, and true demise. no one will ever believe that crystal accidentally fell, and even if they did, it doesn't matter: they weren’t up on that cliff anyways, which is fine, because it means kristen - her life, her death - belongs to misty alone. a part of misty belongs solely to kristen, too: the black box secret that misty will likely take to her grave now, just as kristen took it to hers. (obviously her family and theatre friends knew her real name, but she shared it with misty because she trusted her. and that moment, before the trust was broken, will always exist, suspended in air. they pinky-promised it.)

#choosing to believe shauna didn't write about the ear in her journals for my own peace of mind. bc i don't want jeff knowing that!! #it's not his business!!!! #lottieshauna is soo interesting to me esp the lottieshaunajackie layer and im soo excited for their fight <3 #the way lottie has her hands behind her back in that promo. like she's just taking it willingly #another thing she's doing for shauna! let me share this with you. let me take this on for you. i will accept your anger and violence. #i can't get into the intimacy of names rn either...or the intimacy of firsts: misty's first friend. her first love. her first 'kill'. etc. #i wonder if she refers to her as crystal or kristen in her head? #* #lottie #shauna #misty #jackie #crystal

[chaoticdesertdweller]

From hurt, from anguish, from suffering, there comes that burst of creativity. That fiery pen waving like a magic wand over the paper...and the words, they just flow...

#spilled thoughts #feeling creative #spilled ink #spilled words #poetry #journaling #writers block #life #mental health #words #my words #i wrote an entire poem this morning #it seems trivial #but this is a major breakthrough #chronic writers block #toxic mother #leave it to her to spark my anger and creativity #family matters

[makkie-is-screaming]

I’m so angry but I can’t do shit about it so I just end up hating everyone around me

#I have no way to express anger other than cutting and hating whoever made me angry #I hate that I can’t argue I hate that I can’t change my circumstances I hate that I don’t have a safe place #I hate that I don’t have a friend I can vent to I hate that I’m stuck in my house I hate that cutting is my only option #Most of all I fucking hate that my moms the one who took away all my options and I just have to act like it doesn’t bother me #can’t even have a fucking journal because she doesn’t respect my privacy and as dumb as it sounds #her reading my diary when I was a child was very traumatizing for me and now I hide everything and don’t feel safe having things #screaming

[cherubxkisses]

looking at pictures of all my cute friends and it’s like wow i really do have so much to appreciate in life i need to stop being a salty bitch 💘 love fr fr

#idk i wasn’t like this last yr #but i need to start therapy again and journaling and doing things for fun #so that i don’t let my anger consume me #i’m meant to be cute and happy #.txt

[canwehavehextonite]

i am HEALING as a person i am NOT running to tumblr dot com the second sm1 irritates me

#controlling my bpd lately also the amount that i do run to tumblr and start typing b4 i stop myself #like just start opening ur notes app girl. journal. heal. #practicing emotional regulation dont tell me im allowed to complain bc i know i am. #i just have bpd and need to stop running to tunblr dot com every time i feel a rush of anger / am triggered #if i jst started writing in my notes it wld help me process and regulate better #u hav no idea how often i truly open tumblr to complain bc i jst draft or delete tht shit its multiple times a day it needs 2 stop dkdkdjddh #talkin

[713-4th-ward-g]

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#fucking swear i hate my dad so much #I'll never forgive him for how he was when i was a child #and right when i was starting to see him as a decent dude #he goes and acts like a child #youre 54 years old and raising your voice at me when i did nothing wrong #his stupid ass was the one who cut the pvc pipe and he thinks me telling him how to properly fix it is me criticizing him #and i told him you want me to criticize you ? fine. why were you cutting below the water lines to the washer? #theres clearly an opening showing the pvc pipe and you were the one who cut there still knowing it was there so why did you do it ? #you want me to criticize ill fucking criticize #all he has to say while screaming at me like im the one who created the problem saying shut the fuck up an go to sleep i dont want you here #he gives a stupid bullshit fix for it talking about using glue 😮‍💨 like dude you need pvc primer and glue to seal it correctly not fucking #elmers glue and tape wtf i was giving him an actual real option to fix it and he cusses me out like im the one who cut the damn pipe #i tried writing in my journal but my hand keeps cramping up #i cant stand how much of a child he is #he has no emotional control he takes his anger out of my mom and i and i fucking hate having to be the one to back away and apologize #when its his fucking issue not mine he was the one raising his voice when all i did was give him sound advice to fixing the broken pvc pipe #and i get cussed at and screamed at being told im criticizing when all i did was offer a solution to his own fucking problem he made worse #on his own accord and now hes breaking shit and kicking doors and slamming them all the while cussing over something #that can be fixed its cool to be like fucking shit i fucked up and get that energy out but to fucking throw a temper tantrum and break stuff #is fucking ridiculous it fucking takes me back to my childhood and how fucking horrible he was to my sister and i.. #we walked on eggshells around him cause any little thing would make him erupt into anger and physical bouts... #lord forbid he has to do something around the house and he breaks something he will cuss and scream at us for no reason like we did it #but im in the one who has to apologize thats fucking bullshit #i really want to kill myself rn im so over the edge rn i just keep thinking of my mom and why i cant kill myself yet #not until she passes away i cant kill myself.. #i long for the day i die im so tired of living here

[biblically-accurate-soup]

exploding pancakes with my mind

#bpd tag #ya know. the anger and rage #writing in my journal but being angry about it #uriel posting

[aardvaark]

i’m back ‘home’ for the holidays so i’m almost certainly about to go through a horrific depressive episode! great! that’ll either mean that i’m on tumblr way way more, or way way less, idk yet lol.

#wren speaks #family is just… idk. l’enfer c’est les autres… but more like l’enfer c’est la famille. #i struggle with being around people at all. but especially my parents. i mean honestly i’m that way BECAUSE of my parents #i watched mommie dearest on the plane and i was like ‘yeah thats normal’ so make of that what you will #i was doing better for like a week or two and then it all came crashing down as this trip ‘home’ approached. #suicidal ideation is normal for me but it went from passive ideation to passive AND active and also more frequent #i mean i’m fine. i’m always fine. i always manage it and i do it alone. #but my point being. coming ‘home’ after the freedom and peace of living alone always hits me hard. #and i guess my meds and therapy are working cause i’m able to FEEL things (when i’m usually too dissociated from my emotions to feel at all) #but feeling things means feeling sadness and anger and the emotions built up from the trauma. #and even feeling happy is so bittersweet though i can’t find the right words to explain why… #um. anyway. #this isn’t relevant idk why i’m rambling on. guess i’ve been told to try journaling so maybe this is a little like that ha. #well i’m okay and i’ll eventually settle in it’s just hard at first. and i have therapy in a few days so it’s all good.

[cottonpuffmouse]

I have learned, God, that what I want comes at too high a cost. I have learned the fallacy of my wants. I am visionless and have been insisting my ideas should lead the path.

I relent!

You have won our game. You have punished this filthy loser.

Will you now not show us the grace and mercy we align with your name?

#journal #poetry journal #*screaming violently into a pillow* #I’ve become such a good capitalist even my anger booms and busts #done in the style of the end of Donald C #Donald Crowhurst’s Philosphy book

[what-is-this-bakwaas]

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#so i finally called myself on my own bullshit and let me heart out in my journal #* MY not me #myself out * #it was time i saw the truth about everything and stop making fucking excuses of someone’s character #never ever fucking again #he is what he is #and he’s a fucking garbage sewer fucking rat who take advantage of my kindness and feelings #took* #and again one last thing #fuck you Youssef #i wrote this with a lot of anger and didnt read my shit #soz