#im so like. disappointed in them

[kidfur]

ok that poast got me thinking so rq rant abt my sibling . in the tags bc i cant figure out how go add a readmore on the version of tumblr mobile i use

#wishy speaks #so like #my sibling is Pretty successful for someone their age #they rent a nice place in a town they enjoy living in and have a long term partner and a secure career #and their partner has an even more secure career #and they got all A's their entire time in school #not that it was necessarily easy for them but they still Did That #im really grateful my parents never held me to the same standard bc even tho they didnt know i was autistic they knew i was Different #and had a lot of trouble sometimes #but my sibling thinks that i can just. do a lot of the same stuff they do if i try? #they said to mom that they have issues like mine too and still do all these cool things wrt careers and school #and like. do you understand how different we are. #we are such wildly different people. even disregarding my disability. do you not see the miles between us #do you understand i have limitations you dont? that im not just a smaller lazier cringier version of you? #you are 5 years older than me #you have had 23 years to get to know me #and this is the conclusion you come to? #im so like. disappointed in them #its hard to talk to them without them trying to give me their company skillshare login or telling me to monetize one of my hobbies #especially website design. ugh. designing and coding a personal website gives me migraines. doing it for a client would make me explode #i cant fucking brush my teeth or shower without someone Telling Me To #what makes you think i can go back to college? get a job? take online classes? what the fuck makes you think that??? #when our own mother understands me better than you do i think thats a big sign you fucked up #its just so frustrating #i miss that period where they had just finished school and lived at home until they moved away for a job opportunity and we played games all #day together #they didn't pressure me into anything then bc i was just in high school still #but now that im out of school and a college dropout its like they think im just being lazy and underestimating myself #and yea its not like ive Tried getting a job #but when i can barely take care of myself its not like thats a high priority

[mademoisellegush]

Shoves this in the gortash tag.

#im so disappointed half the time :( #the body hair is like. a good contrast with his trying so so hard to be Just Like Them Pariars #smth smth the rough nature and where he came from still showing despite the gilded trappings

[maskofnova]

Hi chat, breaking the sonic chain to post a singular homestuck post because ive been thinking about moirail dynamics a lot. Don't follow me for homestuck though probably because this is the only one thats likely to break containment aside from maybe one other WIP in the future. Or do! I'm not your dad :]

#Homestuck #karkat vantas #kanaya maryam #moirails #this is like im pretty sure a briefly canon ship #if not just a canon ship in the longterm #its been a while #but i think them and the meowrails are two very sweet relationships #people should talk about the pale quadrants more #i know noone followed me for fucking homestuck so i probably wont post this again #so dont follow me for homestuck either lmao #you will be disappointed #im just really in my fee fees #moirailship and the intimate relationship of two people that is pure emotional intimacy #in a species thats hyper violent and aggressive #thats beautiful man #mogs art

[skitskatdacat63]

DTS S6E1 "Money Talks" - Fernando Alonso & Lance Stroll

#thought i might as well gif these #only thing in that ep worth gifing..... #cant say im not disappointed #but ill take my chances where i cna get them again #but was literally fighting in the trenches making these #gifing shows is just infinitely worse than gifing race stuff #especially since yknow this just came out today so i had to figure out how to clip it #so if its a bit choppy thats why ah #i love how fernando is such a manlet that i kinda had to crop lance out bcs i wanted to focus on nando LOL #like its so odd bcs he really doesnt look that much shorter than lance on stage in the first two #but in the last two hes literally tiny???? literally two apples tall?????? #anywyas dont know if ill gif anymore of this show. it annoys me too much to watch anymore and i dont know if theres anymore of my guys #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #lance stroll #strollonso #we do a little bit of f1

[xamaxenta]

@itsthefandommash aaaangel im so sorry this took me so long i was suckerpunched by the depression this past weekend and i was struggling with literally everything and all basic tasks and its been exhausting and disheartening but i enjoyed the small serotonins in drawing marcoace 🥺❤️ thank you for commissioning me and forcing me to draw two characters together it was rough i definitely need more practice but this is a start

#marcoace #marco x ace #xam doodies #xam commissions #i….may have totally skipped anatomy bc my brain is just wholly unwilling to focus and work #its something and i really want to do so much more #but yikes whatever this bout of depressonesspresso whatever bs fucked me so bad #a sketch is still a sketch and i should learn to love them #what a horrible time to get overwhelmed lol #marco the phoenix #portgas d ace #i like cried twice and then picked up my ipad and did my best #god knows i can do better but thats not rn and im disappointed i cant bring my A game to these comms rn #ajdnakdhdb im gonna shut up now im beinf cringee #ALSO THEY GOT YAOI HANDS

[deadlysoupy]

i'm feeling awful so here's a reminder to everyone and myself

so sad. so poetic. i fucking hate them give me more

#i think about them a lot like almost every day #the worms have settled #THEY MAKE ME CRYY #eweueuweuwueuw......... melting into a puddle...... #how they both disappoint each other and uplift immediately to make up for a mistake #how theyre each others worst sides #how they try to change each other intentionally and then realise they love for those things they try to change ab another #how theyre just fucking there. every step of the way. hnnnng #WHAT IS THERE TO FEAR WHEN YOU SAW EACH OTHERS WORST #sorry but the lyric 'tell me if you want me around' gets me w them #i wonder if tumblr will post this or shadowban me #is.. that what its called. i hope so im a loser #transformers #transformers idw #tf #tf idw #maccadam #macadam #starbee #starscream #bumblebee #mine

[arson-09]

tonights acotar thoughts are with the Illyrian women and how rhysand has utterly failed them despite his supposed efforts

Hes ‘allowed’ them to become warriors if they wish. But thats not even the bare minimum. from my memory he acknowledges that he doesnt enforce the wing clipping laws (smooth move) so that’s basically useless and as to be expected of a man, he misses the point of feminism and equality laws. WHERE are the laws and protections for women in marriages?? if the illyrian are so ‘brutal’ and ‘backwards’ the assumption can be made that divorce isn’t a thing unless the man requests it. No women requested divorces and probably no such thing as no fault divorces. As well as forced marriages (which also brings up the consent age) Adding on, what about abortions and other pre natal and natal laws and protections? again, assuming women arent allowed to have abortions or simply any bodily autonomy, where are those decrees rhysand? Im not even getting into the potential of LGBTQ+ illyrians and their rights (Logically there are LGBTQ+ illyrians but ofc sjm wouldn’t mention them)

He makes such a fuss about it being a womans choice (a hypocrite as we see in acosf) yet unless a woman is able too or wants to fight he doesnt seem to care. Which is also a major flaw of sjms writing, women only gain their independence if they can kick ass and fuck as they want. Which is of course valid but thats a very shallow way to view feminism and equality. The whole point is that a woman can choose, wether its to be a warrior or a stay at home mother, but theres nothing done for those women who want that lifestyle.

This has influenced me in my fic writing a lot to where a this topic has become a major focal point in my fic somewhat by accident. I think that logically there would be a rebellion from mostly illyrian women against rhysand, hes promised them so much yet has delivered so little.

#acotar #a court of thorns and roses #anti rhysand #anti night court #anti inner circle #im not anti feyre but im disappointed in her character #sjm #sjm critical #an acotar thought exercise if you will #In my fic i have it planned that a prominent female illyrian revolts against rhysand lol #She along with her mates (yes mates) leads a large group of illyrian men women and lgbtq+ out to the spring court with tams help #Shes such a fun character to develop along with her mates and if i can work with my adhd i will hopefully be able to write about them in my #fic i ran out of characters fuck you tumblr let me yap #its late so forgive me for any grammer errors or mistagging #rhysand #this is also a genuine criticism guys i know how yall rhysie fans like to tussel

[himejoshiangels]

duke and fear gas..NOBODY LOOK AT MME!! fuck a basic ass "He's afraid that his parents might never recover" u wnna know what has more canon evidence? he's fucking terrified that when they do recover they won't recognize him. What happens when they see their son who cut his cornrows, who has 3 new piercings and towers over them with all sorts of scars litering his body that he can't even begin to explain. Even worse what if they're disappointed in him, what if he isn't what they expected or wanted from their son at all? what if his mannerisms are unrecognizable, his speech patterns, his interests and so on. what if they'd rather cling to a version of him that no longer exists

being forced to watch them live happy fulfilling lives from behind a glass screen because he cant envision fitting between them after he's changed so much

#his fears are like exacerbated by the gas and his own like doubts that he keeps deep down but WHWE #bcs obviously his parents should they recover would not gaf they love their kid no matter what but its like all throughout we are robin #and BatS hes like 'oh man im glad my parents cant see me rn im disappointing them so bad' hell when hes falling 2 his death b 4 bruce saves #him his last words are 'im sorry mom' bcs he knows she wouldn’t like the fact that hes been putting himself in danger #HELL WORLD #the signal #duke thomas #thought bubbles #AND THAT THE FUCKING KIVKER #he hasnt changed hes always been stubborn and willful even when he was little #hes always been reckless and willing to face danger if it meant someone elses safety #hes always been caring and forgiving hes changed BUT HE HASNT #do u see the vision

[swamp-mirage]

I just saw a trailer for Velma and I gotta say, capitalism is truly the end of innovation. The ONLY reason that show has the Scooby gang is because they're recognizable. Every character is completely different than their original. If they made the exact same show without changing anything except the characters it wouldn't change a single thing about it. The connection to Scooby Doo starts and ends with the characters and even then they changed everything about them but their name and basic designs. They're using popular characters to gain viewers while shitting all over the characters themselves. I'm just so tired of every popular piece of media being perverted and twisted just because of brand recognition. MAKE NEW CHARACTERS!!! YOU ALREADY BASICALLY DID JUST CHANGE THEIR NAME AND CLOTHES AND NO ONE WOULD EVEN KNOW THEYRE FROM SCOOBY DOO BECAUSE THEIR NAME AND CLOTHES ARE THE ONLY THING THEY KEPT!

#its just so dumb #im disappointed in everyone involved with it #fred is a jerky jock #daphne is a preppy mean girl #also hes not shaggy #hes norville #i have a lot of feelings about this and none of them are positive #scooby doo #velma #velma dinkley #daphne blake #fred jones #norville rogers #scoobert doo #shaggy rogers #scoob #like they took the base characteristics of the group and got rid of all the stuff that made them good people #fred isnt kind amd helpful hes just a jock #daphne isnt smart and capable shes just a popular bully #shaggy isnt... well shaggy #his first line was #i hate drugs

[ganondoodle]

i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with- #-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!! #im sorry :((

[riverrunscold]

Since we're sharing youtube comments, I wanted to share this underrated one

#watcher #watcher entertainment #disappointed but not completely surprised #i haven't watched them in a hot minute and i think this situation made me realize why #all the content is too perfect now. maybe even slightly too long. i say this as someone who loves long videos #i watch retrospectives on shows ive never seen or actively dislike and love every moment of it #but sitting with the silenced of ghost files is just boring now. which i hate to say but it is #there hasn't been any really funny bits in a while either. and the jokes that they do on the set feel not super authentic #that's just me though #im worried they made a bad business decision and it's gonna hurt them. and the situation isn't super serious so i enjoy laughing about it #i really think i was into watcher for a hot minute but sometimes it feels like im slogging through a video just to get a glimmer of #what i used to love #which is super depressing xD

[itstokkii]

I've been thinking about how someone recently called the cold war "a war of edging" and its like. why is this still a sentiment across rusame spaces on tumblr. frankly I don't care if it was a joke because it's ill-intentioned at best and blatantly disrespectful at worst.

(here's the part where I emphasize that I'm not telling you not to ship rusame. i'm saying that BEFORE you make statements like this and gloss over the warcrimes of the us and russia at the time, think about the people who suffered at their hands at the very least, and write about them responsibly.)

families weren't forced apart and jejuans weren't massacred in korea for you to call it "a war of edging."

uzbek muslims weren't tortured and arbitrarily arrested for you to call it "a war of edging."

people in vietnam weren't killed by napalm and massacred regularly by us soldiers for you to call it that.

kindly shut up. i'm exhausted from having to regularly tell this fandom, especially the rusame shippers, that the cold war was in fact a real thing that happened between Imperialist 1 and Imperialist 2 and destroyed culture, families, and whole people from the global south and not something that solely exists in your spicy fanfics.

because you're so disconnected from the global south that you simply factor them out of your head in conversations about the cold war.

#hetalia #disk horse #im so frustrated #rusame #aph america #aph russia #hws america #hws russia #tagging these ships too so people can see them #grown adults talking about the cold war like this #ik hetalia is fiction but. you're literally talking abt history #have some respect for the people that died for your imperial blorbos to exist #i'm just so disappointed that I have to keep reminding people that the cold war was real and not a chapter from your rusame fanfics #amerus

[daftpatience]

man rodeoh hasnt added my not so good review and now im starting to wonder if theres some suspicious reason they dont have any reviews under 4 stars

#its an underwear brand i tried out awhile ago #they felt really cheap and thin and unstretchy when they arrived and within a year completely fell apart at the seams #like i ripped the waistband right off from just putting them on. #the croctches wore right out to nothing and im not even active! i hardly do anything! #and like maybe a year is too much to ask for clothing nowadays but idk i feel like they should last longer than that #i cant afford to replace all my underwear every year #also for tboy oriented underwear i was sorely disappointed that they didnt have pad functionality #idk man #rodeoh #maybe they just arent made for big fat guys idk #the inseam was awkwardly proportioned so it crumpled a lot under my belly but wasnt long enough to go over it #i tried to record a video of how easy it was to pull em apart but it just made me look really strong and also like the start of an OF #i need some validation that im not the only one that experienced this iim dying squirtle

[moeblob]

Thinking about my dumb OCs ever since I saw a video of two guys trying to demonstrate the kabedon and one of them could not stop laughing...

#my characters #right politely raising his hand to cuss at his buddies thats true friendship #he has to humor them at least a little and he also knows this is an actual challenge now #he has paul trying to help him and oh boy this is going to go the way right wants it to and no exceptions #paul does in fact act not disappoint and says karen can demonstrate then #because hes taking this very seriously despite right not taking it seriously while pretending to care #in rights defense he gets a date before paul gets a date with his crush and right just cusses at his crush #in fact he finds it really funny when the guy he likes cusses because its rare and deadpanned so he tries to #prompt a repetition because its really funny when he gets indulged #cause not many people indulge him so hes like thats my best friend now its wonderful look at him hes hilarious #and paul is like yes as funny as a brick wall im so happy for you

[melatien]

tiny yoichi (unwillingly) lures out soldiers by being his helplessness little self so his brother can strike

#bases are the most reliable way to find food afo found! #yoichi is crying bcuz he pitys them <3 #not because hes nervous #im gonna be honest i made this idea up on the spot when drawing this #pewdiepies new art video awakened something in me I NEEDED TO REMIND MYSELF I CAN STIL DRAW BANGERS TOO #i didnt disappoint myself!!!! competitiveness is my enemy and my bestie literally #anyways his right eye was an absolute horrendous nightmare to draw it was going so well until i did the hair then it ruined the eye #i actually thought yoichi was wearing shoes at this age but then i looked back at those chapters and realised yoichi was shoeless #WITH ONLY A BANDAGE ON HIS FOOT??!?!!?!? agony #can yoichi not make me wish he had something good in life for ONE SECOND #think of this as like how he responded to afo killing those people that (presumably) beat yoichi up beforehand #we dont know if hes crying because his brother is killing or if he was crying before being 'saved' #ill try do some fluff art soon ive been really interested in body horror related art lately so i wanted to play around!!! #i have a BUNCH of ideas written down ive yet to do #i just keep doing whatever i feel like #i am the master of ignoring the instructions and winging it #mha #my art #yoichi shigaraki #one for all #my hero academia #first ofa user #shigaraki yoichi #mha yoichi #tiny yoichi #tiny yoichi in his shabby little clothes #ive actually been dying to draw tiny yoichi again but KIDS ARE SO HARD TO DRAW!!!!! #i had an art moment though #HALLEJUHAH #art gods had my back fr

[spacedlexi]

going through the wiki transcripts and finding out clem and vi support each other even more than i already thought......... god.....

#the reassurances and support................... killing me........ #thought the 'this is marlons fault' option was gonna be mean to marlon but its clem reassuring vi that what happened wasnt her fault?? #and that vi couldnt have known marlon was lying to her?? #vi being kind and understanding about clem holding up tenn and tries to soften the tension between them #RAAAAAAHHH #it speaks #twdg #violentine #had to start a new save to see some of these choices ive never picked In Action and its great so far thank you wiki #having a real [GLASS HIM] moment right now about some of these like wow i did Not think that was what that option meant #new [GLASS HIM] moment: telling vi 'sorry to disappoint' is SARCASTIC??? 'no disappointment here im glad you came back :)' #and clem smiles and 'hah's about it 😭 theyre so cute new fave option there #'what about the others?' 'ohhh well theyre less excited about it' #end of the ep said vi was annoyed by the sarcastic greeting which is very interesting since they were both smiling about it #see what i mean i thought it was gonna be mean sarcastic but it comes off as playful sarcastic but its apparently mean sarcastic