#and had a lot of trouble sometimes

[kidfur]

ok that poast got me thinking so rq rant abt my sibling . in the tags bc i cant figure out how go add a readmore on the version of tumblr mobile i use

#wishy speaks #so like #my sibling is Pretty successful for someone their age #they rent a nice place in a town they enjoy living in and have a long term partner and a secure career #and their partner has an even more secure career #and they got all A's their entire time in school #not that it was necessarily easy for them but they still Did That #im really grateful my parents never held me to the same standard bc even tho they didnt know i was autistic they knew i was Different #and had a lot of trouble sometimes #but my sibling thinks that i can just. do a lot of the same stuff they do if i try? #they said to mom that they have issues like mine too and still do all these cool things wrt careers and school #and like. do you understand how different we are. #we are such wildly different people. even disregarding my disability. do you not see the miles between us #do you understand i have limitations you dont? that im not just a smaller lazier cringier version of you? #you are 5 years older than me #you have had 23 years to get to know me #and this is the conclusion you come to? #im so like. disappointed in them #its hard to talk to them without them trying to give me their company skillshare login or telling me to monetize one of my hobbies #especially website design. ugh. designing and coding a personal website gives me migraines. doing it for a client would make me explode #i cant fucking brush my teeth or shower without someone Telling Me To #what makes you think i can go back to college? get a job? take online classes? what the fuck makes you think that??? #when our own mother understands me better than you do i think thats a big sign you fucked up #its just so frustrating #i miss that period where they had just finished school and lived at home until they moved away for a job opportunity and we played games all #day together #they didn't pressure me into anything then bc i was just in high school still #but now that im out of school and a college dropout its like they think im just being lazy and underestimating myself #and yea its not like ive Tried getting a job #but when i can barely take care of myself its not like thats a high priority

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

different POV of this comic

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#ethan winters #karl heisenberg #wintersberg #resident evil #resident evil fanart #rebhfun #resident evil village #resident evil 8 #re8 #i dont think karl would ever be the kind of guy to outwardly verbally say “i love you” #not to say he DOESNT love ethan #he just has a lot of trouble saying those three words out loud lol #he shows his love in a different way but i think its hard sometimes #had a conversation with my friend and i think if ethan and karl were to get into a argument karl woul definetly not apologize #he would definetly feel bad and sulk a lot #but i dont think he would ever bring himself to say hes sorry #hes a little too arrogant and emotionally stunted to do that #sorry i like thinking about all the aspects of relationship dynamics #hed apologize by making ethan a robot that kills people who r mean to him IDK LOL

[fiendishartist2]

bffs forever !!!!

#i love drawing these 2 they're so much fun #silliest guys on earth!! #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #ritsu kageyama #shou suzuki #ritshou #implies ig. in my heart its true #my art #this one was fun to make although the actual sketch and composition kinda kicked my ass #and i had so much fun with the colours. every time i thought i was done i added one more overlay layer #this is one of my fave shou and ritsu's ngl #sometimes i struggle to draw shou despite being his number 1 fan but i feel like i got it here #and sometimes ritsu's face/face shape gives me trouble but it just came to me naturally here #i like this one a lot :) #this might be the cutest thing ive ever drawn ?

[canisalbus]

just a quick ask to tell u it makes me super happy seeing the detail u go into when pointing out stuff u like about other people's art of ur ocs :3 it's so rare to see but it's so so motivating!! <3

Thank you! I don't take any interest for my art for granted, and if someone goes through the trouble of drawing my characters for me, I feel like trying to write a proper response is the least I can do. For a visually oriented person, receiving gift/fan art is a huge deal, it means someone considered my goobers worth their time and effort, they've probably been thinking about them more than a little and found them inspiring in a way or another, and I find that terribly flattering. It's extremely fun and interesting to see other people's takes on them. And I've drawn stuff for people as well, I know how nice and rewarding it feels to receive a response that is longer than a word or two. Positive comments like that can linger in people's minds for a long time, at least for me they do.

#this comes with a big serious disadvantage though #it often takes me a long time to write that response #my social batteries are extremely small and a lot of the time by the time I go online I feel too worn out to engage with people properly #I'm autistic anxious and severely depressed my spoons are in short supply at the best of times #I've always had really hard time putting my thoughts into words in a way that I find satisfactory #so I keep putting off reblogging gift art #because most of the time my brain is too smushed to formulate that meaningful comment I want to give #maybe that sounds dumb and fake #but this is something I've struggled with for years and I feel extremely guilty for keeping people waiting like that #often weeks sometimes months even #and potentially making them feel underappreciated and unnoticed #I'm also genuinely very scatterbrained and unorganized and I miss and forget things I'm supposed to do all the time #not to mention that I tend to have trouble keeping track of my mentions and dms and asks I'm only one person #so if you've ever drawn something for me and I didn't/haven't responded yet #please know it's not personal it's entirely my fault I'm kind of a mess #and chances are I'm still very much attempting to get back to you #feel free to remind me if you feel like I might have not noticed your post I really don't mind at all it often helps me a lot #and please if you can don't delete the post even if it seems like I didn't see it #because again sometimes it takes me a long time to respond #thank you to everyone who has stayed endlessly patient with me though I appreciate it #sorry this spiraled into a list of apologies and excuses this is actually something that bothers me a lot #because it's largely a mental health thing but easily comes off as ungratefulness #I'm trying to work on that #answered #anonymous

[mars-ipan]

i do miss being a little kid and creating the most vividly fucked up stories with my toys that i could

#i would say it was one of my fav little girl things but i did it with my brother mostly #and he sometimes got more into it than me #it’s great we had stories of abuse kidnapping murder #i thought up a looooot of kidnapping stories. i think it was how i coped with the intrusive thoughts of break-ins i’d get lmao #but this isn’t abt my GAD this is about my creative bloodlust #what even was a sleepover if you and ur best friend weren’t roleplaying an evil torture dungeon with her lps toys #or pretending to be foxes in the wild and getting mauled by bears #<- i was not a warrior cats kid but was friends with them. we all liked foxes so we were usually foxes #honestly i think a lot of my artistic energy is spent trying to return to that level of raw creative energy and power #it was always either violent or everyone was having sex with each other #to the kid with internalized homophobia who would jokingly torment me with ‘lesbian’ barbies in daycare (which we later got in trouble for): #thanks for helping me make the connection that lesbians were just girls who liked girls (like my aunts #also really funny that we’re both gay now #hey friends and mutuals who wants to play barbies with me and have them cannibalize each other #girlish whimsy. for free. cmon it’ll be so much fun

[brittlebutch]

finally found a place to read With the Light online and i'm thrilled; if you haven't read this manga i do Legitimately recommend it

#N posts stuff #like don't get it wrong it Is Not a series about being autistic it Is a series about raising an autistic kid #but also don't be put off by that because it's legitimately a series that I feel Loves autistic people with its whole being #it's kind of a teaching manga so it showcases a lot of different opinions/characters/conflicts/etc. but the Framing is very consistent #in that the manga is Extremely of the opinion that autistic people are People who deserve to be Valued and Accepted As They Are #the onus for change is never put on autistic individuals the framing is basically Universal in the 'the World needs to change #to be more accepting' -- it's a very Social Model depiction of autism that ALSO never veers too far into the #'autism isn't even Really a disability' fallacy; it's very much a 'A lot of autistic people will need constant support in a variety of ways #throughout their lives but that isn't the roadblock preventing them from having their own lives; ableism in society is the roadblock' #the first two chapters are the hardest to get through bc they take place before Sachiko has any real understanding of autism and #so she's isolated and stressed out and the ignorance makes it difficult for her to care for Hikaru properly (there's also a lot of #other characters Blaming her for what's going on which goes unchallenged at this point though that changes later); but after she #understands what autism is she's Firmly in Hikaru's corner for the rest of the series - you can skip right to ch 3 without a problem #if you're not interested in reading about that initial conflict #there's still a Lot of conflict ofc but by then the chapters have some of my favorite moments so i don't want to advocate skipping #them; like Hikaru's daycare teacher explaining how Hikaru's difficulty speaking is the same as other kids' troubles with #things like jump-roping/etc.; and then a mother who has An Issue with Hikaru's presence in her daughter's class realizing the #depth of the problematic opinion bc Her mother (who had a stroke) faces similar ableism from her peers #i'm cutting this post off b4 the tags get Too long but if you're curious but still hesitant man. send me an ask and i will Happily #write an insanely long essay about how much i love this series; i have all the books i'm not excited about the online availability #for Me i'm excited bc i've been wanting to rec this manga for like almost a full decade and i can finally give you a link instead of #saying 'well. you can find used copies sometimes' lol

[oneiricazalea]

Happy 5th birthday to my dear OC, Sei ♥

#my art #illustration #original character #oc | seijaku #world | luxenvalice #sentimental rambling in the tags #my dearest girl!! light of my life!! the only reason i get out of bed sometimes!!!! #she was drawn earlier than Feb 14 2019 - but that is the date she was first posted to ToyHouse #and so that is the date she was probably truly solidified in my mind as an OC that was going to stay #Do you ever have an OC and don't realize how much of you - the creator - is in that OC? #realizing stupidly late that this is why it bothered me immensely when people took art involving her to repost #I still feel kinda gross posting personal art because of it but #that's why my watermark is a little more annoying now #Anyway it feels like a lifetime has passed from her starting off as a BNHA OC #Don't remember anymore why I made the conscious decision to watch the show when I always had and still have trouble starting/finishing medi #but while I don't keep up with it anymore - it did result in me creating her #first as a student character and then changing her immediately when I saw a certain villain loool #there was a lot more I was going to say down here but the internet has cut out #So for now I'll just end with... #thanks for your time if you read this 💕 #and I look forward to doing more with this character in Genshin and other fandoms #and ofc the collab story she is involved in 😌

[crumbleclub]

Another doodle for the Family Business AU.

Version with dead Will below the cut; ye asked and ye shall receive. (yo ho ho)

I can sense my past art teachers telling me to fill the space above William but consider: I don't feel like it. Pretend it's a stage play lmao

#the heights aren't that accurate but shh #william's crumpled pose was actually the easiest to draw #i had a lot of trouble with mike's #i like how it turned out tho #now if only i could do this in digital so i could color it #maybe i'll try importing it and seeing what i can do sometime. idk #cw gore #well. barely #dead body tw #corpse tw #fnaf #michael afton #cc afton #evan afton #elizabeth afton #william afton #mike's actual art

[imorphemi]

I would never turn down an opportunity to draw skyduo hehe

A little piece of fanart for late at night, when the stars don’t look quite right written by @lunarblazes! aw man i loved it so much, gosh that last battle was so cool

#my art #arts #pearlescentmoon #grian #mcyt #empires smp #i sketched out humanoid grian but i didnt really like the pose #ill probably pop it in hermbi instead sometime #anyways had a lot of trouble with the skirt #didnt have a good ref and dont have any long skirts myself lol #i am going to at least sketch out the hug later #luna i want the hug pls #i know his wing is broken but HUG #also is the jackal scar #i think its scar #otherhalf of one god best friend to another? #im assuming mumbo would be one of them? #gosh darnit i forgot to tag skyduo #sky duo #skyduo #idk #there #it wont be in with the organizational tags tho oh well #shining stars

[leafeonb]

sometimes i think about downloading skyrim or fnv to check them out but also i think it's better not to do that these games have effects on people

#was talking to a friend the other day and she had pirated skyrm but then the hd got corrupted and she lost her 100 hours save then #she got on a steam sale and it has 200 hours i was like WOW? a gamer... the gamer grind #but also i think it would be funny to check out but also those games are on first person right (?) i usually havw trouble with cameras like #that 😵‍💫 they make me dizzy thankfully outy wilds (calling it that) didnt make me dizzy after i changed the graphics a bit and played on #windowed mode 👍 hehe... big smile i want to actually play the game sometime it seems so cool!!!!!!! #i only started a bit to get used to the controls but hopefully when im free from a lot of assignments i would #i will* #when will they add editing tags on mobile... come on #lulu.txt #also i know skyrm is stupid

[uefb]

Sometimes the only thing that gets me through the day is knowing I can escape into writing Scamander brother repartee. (18k words from the current posted point in Head Under One Wing…)

#I love them your honor #newt Scamander #Theseus Scamander #Scamander brothers #autistic newt scamander #the italics are bc AAC basically #because I headcanon newts dad worked with a buddy to come up with an enchanted parchment system when newt was a kiddo #and was having trouble communicating traditionally & in certain social situations #I’m heavily projecting of course bc I just got in trouble when I wouldn’t talk in public or quit being able to speak #and I think I’d have had a lot less stress growing up if my mom had been like ‘it’s not illegal for you to sometimes talk another way’ #but anyway - the context of it for this scene outside me occasionally using fic for therapy is #that newts had a bit of a shutdown due to extreme emotional & physical stress and is having trouble verbally communicating #his elderly father came to visit him & brought him one of those charmed parchments from when he was like 7 #and Newt refused it at first and then gave in — and theseus has rolled w it as if nothing has happened #but this scene is a heart to heart between the two brothers #about tina #but I’ve spoiled enough abt the second half of this story so I’m going to shut the fck up now #damn it I wish I was done with chs #12/13 slash 14/15 #I have so many of the sequels already started but this boring ass fluff chapter is killing me #(not the *excerpt* chapter — the sweet newtina chapter I’m currently stuck on) #ok fluff isn’t boring but it’s also not my strength ok? #I relate to Newt for a reason #anywayyyyyyy #uefb rambles in the tags #my stuff #fic: with its head under one wing

[wacky-nameless-inventor-24]

“Got my back?” “Always.”

Little Gandra and Mads (Three and Eleven) from the royalty AU!

#Mads has had his hair dyed purple since he was like seven AND has been smirking the same for 30 years #someone help I’ve been thinking about these two too much and 🥺🥺🥺 #Now they have a sad story 🥺🥺🥺 #They had an older sister/younger brother dynamic growing up together #Until Gandra started doing what she had to do to survive in her environment and got flaky #Which hurt Mads a lot #Sometimes literally physically #She was the one who used to stand up for him and when she stopped #He had to resort to violence to get people to back off #Which got him in trouble #Mad ducktor #gandra dee #ducktales #ducktales 2017 #dt17 #duckverse #madfen royalty au #gyro gearloose #Wacky’s art

[itspileofgoodthings]

I am the first to point out that, of the two leads in P&P, Lizzy’s is the far deeper moral transformation and to say that Darcy’s character especially re: his flaws is wildly misunderstood and frequently painted out worse than he is out of fear of his particular kind of power. All of that said, I do love that Lizzy is just like “no, the way you treat me isn’t good enough and I will not simply accept it”

#and the fact that he agrees with her completely and does something about it #proves how fundamentally good he is and always has been #idk. I just love that she isn’t afraid of him #and that she DOESN’t ever sort of like make up a tragic story for him for his silence and reserve #she’s just like. what is that Man doing over there in the corner #if That Man liked me he would show it differently #that Man should treat people better in social situations #and like. she isn’t wholly wrong #she is wrong about a lot as regards him #but her mistakes (some part of them) is just common man refreshing and he sees the sense in them #and again. there is no fear #both Bingley and Georgianna are a little afraid of him #and Bingley needs to take responsibility for his own actions nonetheless #but he feels the force of the personality! and sometimes has trouble standing up to it! #Georgianna’s fear is much more awe/respect/little sister love #But I just #there is something about Lizzy where she’s just so unafraid of him #and so uninterested in being awed by him in a certain way #and it’s so good for him and his generous heart absolutely loves that #basically Darcy had just gotten used to being the coolest/smartest person in the room #and had grown complacent #(because he really isn’t fundamentally bad mannered. even before) #and there’s a lot of reasons all the stuff comes out of his mouth during the first proposal #and a lot of it is the expression of the internal war he’s been fighting #And tbh it’s both honest romantic and valid #and yet all of that said Lizzy is still like ‘and I have to hear you say this about my family why?’ #and her explosive anger towards him is rooted in so much that ISN’t fair #and (again) the deeper moral transformation is hers I fully believe that #but that part of Lizzy that’s just like ‘I am too cool and interesting for you to be speaking to me like this’ #‘I am just as cool and interesting as you and I am unafraid of you’ is so valid and so funny

[death-rebirth-senshi]

Oh embraced beast claws are fun, the beast meter seems to fill up way faster.

...which is bad if you're full of hubris.

I haven't really used beast blood pellets much because I don't care for the increased damage trade off, and also because I'm funny about consumables in general (the fact that bloodborne doesn't replenish your consumables from stock automatically doesn't help this) but having it on permanently with the beast claws has been pretty nice. Made really short work of Living Failures, Maria, and even Laurence (though I switched back to Ludwig's Blade for phase 2)

#me vs bloodborne #when I *have* used blood pellets it was of course with the blade of mercy and now I'm wondering how beast claw compares #blade of mercy is faster but the range is much shorter. But also blade of mercy is a lot about those thrusting dodge attacks #not just r1 spam #I have to play with the moveset more #in general this strength build has been a lot of fun and a very easy breezy ride. Mostly due to Ludwig's Sword. #previously I've had trouble getting it off the ground #it really is nice to do a physical build after an arcane one I'll tell you what #I love arcane builds and the damage can be really good when it's good. But sometimes the damage really isn't #When there isn't an elemental weakness to exploit. And the gem farming...

[timelesslords]

finally have more words in my "germanus part 2 (real)" doc than in my "germanus part 2 (whoopsies)" doc, we're making real progress people

#ive had to cut so much #so many darlings killed #but i finally figured out how I wanna structure this which was what was giving me the most trouble #so i think this will start to go a lot faster now #and hopefully a lot of the whoopsies can be reused #there's some good stuff in there #lexi writes sometimes

[felidaeng]

every other pmd game: some gay shit

super mystery dungeon:

#shadow talks #pmd #granted i haven't played supers story in a while (and won't for a very long time if ever again because i had so much trouble the last time) #but as far is i remember the hero is 1. a lot older than the partner (an adult? based on something they say at the beginning of the game) #2. subject to finding partner pretty annoying sometimes even though they're kind of forced to hang around them by their parents/school/heros #pity for them......... + the mew postgame........ you know