#im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better

[transmechanicus]

Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.

#my stuff #i feel soooo bad talking to my therapist about the same topics over multiple weeks #like i feel like they're sooo sick of it like damn can this bitch get Over It alreadyyyy #hi yes actually can we talk about the near catastrophic sense of betrayal and loss that has haunted my soul for over a month? #can we talk about how I overcompensate for other's possible feelings and emotions to desperately mask my terror at feeling out of control #can we talk about how even when I know ppl acted with logical reasons necessary for their situation it still hurt me? #and that this pain fills me up with so much anger and frustration that I'm powerless to put anywhere that won't hurt someone #so it just cooks me inside and makes me grind my teeth constantly for weeks #im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better #i just have to survive and wait until i forget about it and hope they don't decide to reach out and fuck it all up #cause i can see that happening #i'll finally be free of thinking about them and generally going about my day unbothered and they'll ask to get coffee or something #and I have no idea what I should do in that scenario. because I don't think we can be friends. #and you have not treated me with the compassion and warmth I treated you #i would want to say mean things. hurtful things. I would want to bite back for once. #and that's not me. that's not who I want to be. #i don't wanna see you. go away. don't talk to me if you're not going to make the pain go away.

[orcelito]

Having lost my cat, my uncle, my great grandmother, my grandma's best friend (& one of the people who helped raise me), AND my dad all within the span of 9 months,

I have little sympathy for people who use deaths as an excuse to be an asshole. I get it, it sucks. Get the fuck over it. Your grief is not an excuse to treat others like shit. What the fuck.

#speculation nation #this isnt anything personal. im just reacting to a post that kind of pissed me off. #to be fair i was never close with my great grandmother so im not particularly broken up about that one #but it's still yet another death in the family within such a short period of time. #my cat is on this list bc he was the first one and it majorly fucked me up. so yeah it deserves to be here. #the others. well. my grandma's best friend makes me sad but at least she was getting up in years #my uncle and dad though. especially my dad. yea those have fucked me up the most. #im never gonna be the same after experiencing all of this in such short succession. #it sucks in a major way. and things are still continuously tumultuous. #but you dont see me lording it over people and using it as an excuse to be an asshole. #maybe i make people uncomfortable with how casually i mention it. but like whatever. it's simply my truth. #that's still just like. me just talking about what ive been up to. that kind of thing. #idk acting like someone needs to be treated with the most tender of touches after experiencing a major death #to the point where you cant even tell them when theyre being a manipulative little asshole? #i dont fucking think so! #yeah okay all grief hits different but ive pulled myself up by the bootstraps and kept my head on straight #even after i experienced death after death after death after death after Fucking Death #whats your excuse? youre Sad? we all fucking are. thats just life. #it's horrible and awful and it sucks that we have to live with this but you CANT let that affect how you treat other people!!!!! #and here i am making my own post venting about it instead of replying to the aita post that sparked this #bc the person the post was about just made me so angry to hear about. #but i am... a reasonable adult who separates themselves from situations before reacting in anger... #and so im making a tumblr post to get the emotions out instead of getting emotional at random strangers lol #anyways i actually had a pretty good day today. but in the way of grief. the smallest things can trigger moods sometimes. #but i am letting the emotions flow... here they are... i have expressed them... and i shall now release them... amen... #negative/ #i guess lol. i sure did rant enough for it.

[autismvampyre]

this episode made me love kipperlilly

i think it is very important to remember that kipperlilly copperkettle is a child. she's 16 years old and being manipulated by an authority figure who she should've been able to trust

yes, she was angry and jealous and immature before allying with ankarna. but she was also a 14 year old girl with anger issues

as a person who has had anger issues my whole life and was very violent as a child, i fully feel for kipperlilly. i was literally the worst version of myself when i was 14. i was rude and mean and had shitty opinions and i hurt people. i was truly awful, like genuinely bigoted and just hateful. i'm still trying to forgive myself for some of the things i did because it wasn't fucking okay.

i got out of that headspace thanks to my friends, and i ended up losing a lot of them along the way, deservedly so. im 18 now, im better and still bettering myself, and i cannot in good conscience hate kipperlilly any more than i can hate my young self

she's a kid. she's an angry little girl who instead of getting the support and help she needed to be able to better herself(bc jawbone is not able to treat her like she deserves), she was tricked and presumably killed by jace stardiamond so that he could use her to resurrect a dead rage god. she has done truly terrible things but she is a child and isn't irredeemable.

i honestly didn't see myself in her before, because our expressions of rage are completely different(hers is more passive aggressive, im more loud and outright aggressive), but this episode made her on of my favorite npcs ever.

she's a kid, and she's wrong and immature and a total asshole who thinks she's so fucking righteous standing on her stupid fucking high horse claiming "fairness" and all that bullshit. she's so realistic and awful and i know that makes her worse to most people but to me it just makes me think of another shitty teenager who was just as bad(minus a few murders) and 100% convinced she was righteous and justified in all her horrible actions.

i love kipperlilly, and i have faith in her. if there was a chance for me there's a chance for her, and when that chance presents itself i hope she takes it

#kipperlilly copperkettle #dimension 20 fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fhjy #d20 fhjy #d20 spoilers #d20 fantasy high #nydias post #fantasy high #jace stardiamond #ankarna #the rat grinders #postig again bc it didn't show up in the tags

[diavolosbaby]

Hi! So, I saw your Teen!MC being comforted by Simeon post, and I really loved that. I've gone through abuse Luke that from my family my entire life, and quite frankly that post made me cry bc it was very well written🥹So, I was wondering if you could write something similar for more characters? If this makes you uncomfortable feel free to delete this btw😅

Sure :)

I'll do Luke, Barbatos, Satan, and Leviathan :)

Abuse Comfort

Characters: Luke, Barbatos, Satan, Leviathan

Genre: Angst,comfort

Format: headcanons, mini fic

Pronouns if used: they/them

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Luke

- When you tell him, he doesn't believe it. He would have never guessed someone as bright as you went through something so dark.

- actually starts to tear up, he's sad that you went through something so sad

- hugs your waist and nuzzles his head in your stomach, whining about how he's sorry

- actually says some things about your family, not so nice things but still very appropriate (he's still luke)

- he's mad and sad at your family, but the way you're comforting him and not the other way around makes him even more mad and sad at himself

"Waaaaaaaah! How could humans be so mean! Mean to someone like you too! Its not fair you didn't deserve that...sniff.... Theyre more demon-like than anything I've seen in the Devildom... Must be if they treat you so bad...im sorry MC...sniff"

Barbatos

- listens very closely, making eye contact with you or looking directly at you if you avoid his gaze

- very minimal touches while you explain, its meant to be a soft gesture of comfort. He hopes you get that

- when you're done he slides his gloved hand over your head smoothing down your hair

- he plants a kiss to your forehead and then leans his own against it, taking a breath before speaking with closed lids

- You can't tell whether he's angry or sad for you, he tries to hide it very well but you still saw his slightly furrowed brows and slight frown

"My dear MC, how anyone could treat you like that is beyond me. Please leave those memories behind you. Here in the Devildom, here with me... It will be better. I will be better. You will never receive such treatment again. Please believe me."

Satan

- he had his hand over yours before you even started, sensing the tension

- he squeezed your hand a bit, not enough to hurt you but enough for you to notice

- he was mad, angry, furious, that ANYONE could treat you like that, could be so heartless

- but he knew tight now you didn't need someone to protect you. What was done was done. Right now you needed comfort, and you trusted him with that -he gently wrapped his hands around your head and led you towards his chest, you didn't put up a fight

- played with your hair while he whispered sweet nothings to you, except these sweet nothings were sweet somethings, because they did mean something to the both of you

"That... Is terrible. So terrible. I don't... Understand how humans could do that to their own children. And we're the demons...i apologize MC. I'm... Sorry. You didn't deserve that, you were only a child... Their child and they treat you so horrid... It's despicable, truly.."

Leviathan

- paused his game when he saw you were serious

- gave you his full attention, his mouth slightly agape and eyes widened as his brows furrowed in worry as he listened

- took him a moment to take it all in but when he did all he felt at that moment was sorry for you.

- asks if he can hug you and when you say yes he hugs really tight, its awkward but you can feel his worry and determination to make you feel better

- not the best at comforting but will you for your sake

"What... Are you... For real...? Uh... C-can I hug you... MC...? Ok, alright. Uh.. Sorry. I just don't get it. Humans are so supposed to be, well, humane. Thats like the total opposite... Totally unfair to you MC I'm sorry...um..well, I hope my brothers and I can be a better family to you MC...i mean it, alright?"

Again sorry this took so long and hope you liked it :)

#obey me #obey me shall we date #omswd #obey me x reader #obey me headcanons #obey me shall we date x reader #obey me shall we date headcanons #omswd x reader #omswd headcanons #obey me angst #obey me comfort #obey me luke #obey me barbatos #obey me satan #obey me leviathan #obey me levi #leviathan #barbatos #leviathan x reader #barbatos x reader #luke x reader #satan x reader #obey me luke x reader #obey me satan x reader #obey me leviathan x reader #obey me barbatos x reader #obey me barbatos headcanons #barbatos headcanons #leviathan headcanons #satan headcanons

[floralembarrassment]

hiii !! idk why but im looking for something sad. Could you maybe write regulus accidentally hurting James feeling during an argument but realising what he said and apologise to James after. thank youuuu

have a nice day 🤗

Anon said let the fluff be gone! This was a great request even though it will hurt... you get what you ask for! with love

No Filter (1/1) (jegulus)

"James would just mind your own business for once! Not everyone wants or needs your help! Could you just stop pretending like you know anything at all about what I'm going through? You and your perfect little life!"

Regulus was fuming. He was angry and trying too hard to push down too many emotions. His filter was long gone, and he was doing what he did best when he was hurt and trying to run: he cut deep...

Regulus watched as James' face fell. His whole body sighing with defeat and pain. James thought Regulus was the only one who understand that even though his life was good, really good, he still struggled and wished he had a clearer reason for his own pain. And James would take a lot from Regulus, but this was just mean, intentional and hurtful. So, without saying anything James just turned around and walked away.

"Fuck," Regulus whispered to himself the second James was on the move. He had had a moment to breathe, to process what he said, to kick himself for being his parents son. He knew it was fair to James for him to treat him like a punching bag, let alone pull the deepest of his secrets up to use against him.

"James wait!" Regulus called.

James stopped. Before turning around he debated whether or not to keep walking. If Regulus meant it he would have let him go.

"What?" James said dejectedly. Always giving the chances. This wasn't a chance though, it was more of a test. Both Regulus and James knew it and both equally wanted Regulus to pass it.

"I - I" Regulus began. His hand outstretched and as James raised an eyebrow at him, Regulus dropped his hand. He held his gaze, "I'm sorry." Regulus said.

"For what?" James challenged. It was big enough for Regulus to apologize, but James needed to know he knew what he was apologizing for.

"I'm sorry for saying what I said. I know your life circumstances are not consistent with what you know, and what you have felt, and and I shouldn't have thrown that in your face. I was thinking but that's not an excuse, you don't deserves that. You were just trying to help." Regulus said. He was still his matter-of-fact self, but James knew he meant it.

"Apology accepted," James said.

Regulus took a tentative step closer, watching to see how James would react, which he ultimately welcomed Regulus in. He held him for a moment and kissed the side of Regulus curls, but then pulled away.

"I need a bit of space and I think you do too. I'm not mad at you, and I still accept your apology but I'm just a bit hurt so let's just each take a time out okay?" James said with a heavy heart.

Regulus just nodded, "okay."

"I love you, and I'll see you at breakfast yeah?" James said.

"Yeah okay, I'll see you in the morning," Regulus said. And he let James walk away this time, because he meant it and he knew they would both come back together tomorrow.

#did i know i had an asks box? no #but maybe this is a rough one #jegulus #sunseeker #starchaser #fanfic #lgbtq+ #please send asks and requests as your hearts desire #marauders #james x regulus #regulus black #james potter #marauders era #james fleamont potter #regulus arcturus black #marauders fandom #hurt/comfort

[outivv]

— toxic traits —

Synopsis: toxic traits I think they have

Warnings: itto? Manipulative. Ayato? Manipulative on purpose. Also very much not proofread (I’m sorry to anyone who read this before I came back and fixed my mistakes)

Game/ fandom: genshin impact

Characters: itto, shenhe, yun Jin, ayato, yelan, kuki shinobu, and Heizou

Pronouns for reader: gender neutral/ not mentioned

A/n: IM BACK AT IT AGAIN. Anyways quick disclaimer, this is just based off of my own options of characters and what I interpreted from them in quests/ events/ etc. if you do not agree with me… okay??? Just don’t be rude please an thank you! <3

— Itto —

Overly angry, and stubborn when mad. Itto is someone who’s not afraid of conflict, and who can get… passionate, and childish especially during a fight led by pure emotions. He sometimes catches himself, and apologizes profusely afterwards, but is that truly enough? After he just screamed at you… to be fair you did the same so… are you in the wrong? It sends you into a flurry of emotions and thoughts that you have to step away for a moment. He gets to scared you’re leaving him he practically begs you to stay. The clinginess, is a sharp contrast to the anger you saw on him before, it makes you… guilty. Maybe you are in the wrong… he always makes you feel like the bad guy even if he doesn’t mean to. He’s just so… unaware.

— Shenhe —

Love is something shenhe is unfamiliar with. Sure cloud retainer took care of her but it was never purely out of love. Shenhe isn’t even sure if she can love, with how powerful the red ropes are. She loves you… she thinks, but she looks at you like you’re a burden, like she wants to be rid of you. She treats you like any other person, not her partner, she doesn’t even seem to care. She wants to love you, she wants to give you all that you deserve, but she emotionally can’t. Even if she promises to.

— Yun Jin —

Hides your relationship to the extreme. She has to, it’s not that she wants to she loves you so much! But she literally has to or else her manager would kill her. Her manager told her to break up with you but yun Jin held her ground I’ll give her that. You can rarely been seen out in public with her, and if you are it’s strictly platonic. Even then some things cross the boundary of what you’re allowed to do. She tells you that she does love you, and that it’s just an act in public but you can’t help but feel… sad going out into public with her. Her acting is a little too good at times…

— Ayato —

Fakes his feelings, even towards you. He’s had to, I mean he’s a politician, he works with greedy, and manipulative people, and the only way to get ahead of them is to beat them at their own game. At least that’s what you want to believe, that he’s “had to be this way, to provide for him and his sister.” but in reality- maybe he was always like this. I mean, you can’t remember the last time you knew that his feelings were real.

— Yelan —

So secretive. Hides the simplest things from you, it’s like she doesn’t trust you. It’s not that, she just doesn’t trust anyone. You are no exception. You think that maybe you can earn her trust, so you do everything in your power to achieve that, to have her trust you. But nothing works. It’s like she just doesn’t want to, she doesn’t want to learn to trust, because she’s seen how people can betray one another. You are no exception.

— Kuki Shinobu —

So willing to help everyone and anyone. That wouldn’t be a bad thing on its own, but it’s when she comes home from a long day of work, and helping itto, that she doesn’t have the energy to spend on you most times. It hurts a bit that you’re one of her final concerns. She tries, she does, but she just… is so tired, and tries her best to take of herself, that she can’t put her attention on you sometimes. Mentally, and physically, that she just… can’t.

— Heizou —

He takes every chance to fool you. Most of it’s harmless pranks, but when his confidence gets to be a little too… much, he can take it a little far sometimes. He apologizes profusely when he realizes what he’s done, but even a billion sorry’s aren’t enough sometimes.

#genshin impact #genshin headcanons #genshin x reader #genshin x gender neutral reader #genshin angst #genshin itto #genshin ayato #genshin shenhe #genshin yun Jin #genshin yelan #genshin kuki shinobu #genshin heizou #itto #ayato #shenhe #yun Jin #yelan #kuki shinobu #Heizou #itto x reader #ayato x reader #shenhe x reader #yun jin x reader #yelan x reader #kuki shinobu x reader #heizou x reader #itto angst #ayato angst #shenhe angst #yun Jin angst

[akechi-stole-my-heart]

i saw ur post abt black star right after reading it and I'd love for u to elaborate lol my biggest problem w it was Akira disliking/not forgiving akechi... like i know it was written before royal and im not even THAT big of a shuake shipper but reading akira as anything other than in love with akechi is just. Wrong. my only other problem w it was how it treated prison like the only other option for akechi besides death, and anyway akechi would have chosen death regardless. It's crazy how both of those huge flaws were disproven in royal and how they're most likely the cause for fan misinterpretation today. still a good plot and i liked the other characterizations but like. the conclusion of akechi going to jail and akira supporting that above all is just so wrong

Oh yeah Akira's feelings toward Akechi were a huge reason why I had to dnf, easily one of the worst aspects by far. And it sucks because otherwise Akira's characterization was SO good. OP understood him but they did not understand Akechi and that extended to Akira, sadly.

And yeah, the jail thing is both baffling and Bad. Akechi does not need to go to jail. Can we please stop believing in punitive justice even when it makes no sense. Akechi doesn't even get what he deserves anyway because he doesn't go on trial for most of his crimes (like, you know, the murder) and then he gets off easy getting to join the shadow ops months into his sentence. After all that set up about him needing to get what he deserves/justice being served only for that to Very Much Not Happen. Because if Akechi DID get what he "deserved" under our justice system he'd get life in prison at best. It's hypocritical.

Possibly my biggest gripe other than the stupid insistence that Akechi go to jail is Akechi's characterization, though. It's alllll wrong. And like, to be fair, it was kind of impossible to know that it was wrong at the time because Royal hadn't come out yet. In black star Akechi is portrayed as absolutely, 100% unremorseful and gets angry at the idea of having to pay for his crimes. Which just. isn't. in character for him.

I kind of went into this with my recent post about Akechi and regrets, but there's another aspect this take on Akechi is completely missing. And that's Akechi and debts. He absolutely recognizes that what he did is wrong. He did it despite knowing it was wrong. But his reaction isn't going to be "how dare you suggest I turn myself in." It's going to be "I should be in jail already and I will do my best to repay my debts as far as I am able." Not in a guilty sort of way (at least outwardly), but a pragmatic one. There's a reason Akechi turns himself in for you, and it's not just about making Shido pay. It's about making things right, both to Joker and the world in general.

Akechi thinks of justice in extremely punitive terms. If you do wrong, you deserve to have wrongs done to you in turn. This applies to both others and himself. It's what leads him to his actions, and why he willingly sacrificed himself and then later turns himself in. It's why he hates the idea of being granted mercy in Maruki's reality. In his eyes, he doesn't deserve anything more than death and/or prison. He hurt people, and so now it's time for him to reap the consequences.

The author of black star has it completely backwards. Akechi's arc shouldn't be learning that he needs to face consequences. He wants to face consequences. He wants to die/go to jail because he thinks he's worthless and doesn't deserve anything better. That's his starting point of any post-canon arc. Giving him jail time is giving him exactly what he wants.

Personally, I think punitive justice as a concept is complete bullshit. I'm not gonna get into the nitty gritty of that here. But my point stands regardless--and whether you believe in punitive justice or not, objectively the more interesting direction to take an Akechi redemption is to force him to live life to the fullest. That is unironically the worst punishment you could give him. Force him to face the consequences of living when he thinks he should be dead, of going through the painful and difficult process of recovery, and being forced to interact with and reconcile with the people he hurt after acknowledging that hurt not pragmatically, but personally.

I don't want to read a story about Akechi learning to accept that he has to go to jail. it's stupid, out of character, and counter to my core values as a person. That's why I stopped reading black star. I want to see Akechi learning to live. To me, that is a far more in-character and interesting concept to explore.

#sera answers #anon #also you are extremely correct when you say akechi would have chosen death regardless lmao

[wallerina]

i cant help it i know its awful but i get so so so fucking angry whenever i see people who were being targeted but were ultimately never abused because people saw the warning signs and stopped it. or when people come from loving supportive families. or even when people WERE abused and then everyone was outraged and rallied to support them and get them justice. im like fuck you what makes you so much better than me thay you got that and i didnt. why did you get help and i didnt why. explain to me how thats fucking fair. how is that right. you think youre better than me? you think i deserved to have that happen to me and you didnt? i hope you fucking die you piece of shit i fucking hate you i hate everyone who was supported and loved and treated gently i try not to but i fucking hate all of them i hope they rot in fucking hell and suffer forever i hate them theyre like living breathing reminders of what happened to me and my inadequecy and all the things i wanted but never got and they deserve to die

#𖦹 #vent #cptsd vent #actually traumatized #actually abused #csa vent #abuse vent #ask to tag

[velvetandsweaters]

probably ignore this because i'm sure you dont care <3

hi tumblr im back because some weirdo from my school has my twitter and i don't want him seeing me being angry but i'm really angry because i think that my ex was literally the worst i'm very angry right now because i didn't fucking deserve to be having panic attacks all fucking summer over this fucking spork looking motherfucker all because it was just soooo hawd for him to not lie too and communicate with his girllllfwieeeend guyyyys he was just so scaweeeeeeed like NO???? fuck him??????? what is wrong with him??? all the fucking time i spent on him just for him to treat me like fucking nothing?? and whats worse is he seemed so good and perfect in the beginning but it was never okay i was always fucking anxious and i thought i was fucking crazy for having daily panic attacks in july and i bet he thought i was crazy too i bet i fucking suffocated the shit out of him with my obsessive love didnt i?? i bet thats his excuse huh?? he was just so scared of how attached to him i was is that it?? did you ever fucking consider thats how love works?? and did you ever fucking consider that i maybe just loved you enough that i stayed for two months while having nightly breakdowns and daily meltdowns over this man?? that wasnt fair to me i shouldve fucking left sooner dude I was so fucking deep in delusion i thought everything would be okay and i just had to suffer more but i couldnt talk to him because he would constantly leave me on read fucking constantly dude and whenever i finally did get a conversation going it would lead to nothing but me freaking out and getting some bullshit vague response from him. i relapsed six fucking times over the summer and i tried to kill myself twice. he doesnt know that. my friend says she thinks he really did love me and that he just fucked it up but i don't think he loved me, maybe he thought he did?? but i don't think you do that to someone you love i don't think anybody does that to someone they love. so end of story fuck him i hope he carries the knowledge of what he did and how he lost me for the rest of his fucking life

[brandnewhuman]

Hey pookie it’s ya boy @what-are-you-willing-to-do I wanted to do a mash up 😍 

I’m 5’11 275 pounds so I’m a big bitch 😍. I’ve got really curly hair that I wanna dye half blonde. (Fun fact I want a mustache 😭) and I’m an INTP with a shit ton of anger issues. I have depression, severe adhd, social anxiety, ied and I’m getting screened for autism. I’m usually really sweet with people I don’t know like sickly sweet but around people I’m close with I’m really funny and raunchy. I usually try to be really serious but end up goofing off because that’s who I am. BIG METAL HEAD. I’ll send you my fucking playlist bro like fr- I’d like to dress up 80s trade goth but usually just go simple with a metal t shirt and jeans. And uh yeah that’s the basics knock yourself out 😍

(If your still doing them of course-)

I paired you up with...

♡ Michael Myers ♡

(Rz version)

ONE OF MY FELLOW GREMLIN COMRADE HAS REQUESTED A MATCHUP? FROM MOI? LET'S FUCKING GOOOOO

This unit of a man is a big stronk boy at the whopping height of 6'8. Personally, my size kink wouldn't allow me a single day of peace with someone like him

I thought about giving you Bo but it didn't end up convincing me as much as our myers babygirl here. I did a quick search and this version of Michael is a isfp which are likely to get along with your mbti type

About the anger issues this can seem like out of character but this Michael is the calmest out of all three but he does have his fair share of anger. I feel like he would understand more deeply how does it feels and in some way knows how to and to not react when you're angry, and even how to help you to calm down. He's as always a man of few (he doesn't talks) words but he communicates so much through small actions. Like I genuinely think his love language is being there when you feel the most sad or bad, doing what he wish someone would've done to him when he was feeling like shit.

You being sweet with people you don't know it's probably what saved you from being killed. This man has never known an ounce of actual kindness besides from his mom so to find someone who treats him like he's an actual human being with emotions is a pretty big deal. He knew he was gonna stick around the moment he first laid his eyes on you. Appreciates the funny side too, you kind of make him feel more alive and energetic. He likes the fact you trust him and like him enough to be this relaxed around him and even if you can't see it bc the mask he smiles quite a lot when he's around you

SEND ME YOUR PLAYLIST I WANNA SEEEE. Have you seen this man? You can not tell me he's not a metal head too, maybe he tends to like more classic rock but he enjoys how hard and aggressive metal music is. He will definitely pester you into listen to music with him and occasionally will come back home after killing with posters of your favourites for you. He finds music as a way to bond with you and tries to make you listen to songs that have some sort of meaning for him so you can get to know him without the need to get all personal

Help this man to dress better cause all that height and that pretty face deserve pretty outfits. Would love things like band tees or band sweaters ecc he really just allows you to do with him what you will as long as you don't try any funny business by pulling off his mask.

BRO I HOPE YOU LIKE IT. IM SORRY ITS TOO SHORT BUT I'VE TRIED MY BEST

Song recommendation time!!

#slasher fandom #slasher community #slashers #slasher fanfiction #slasher x reader #slasher headcanons #horror movies #michael myers #rz michael myers x reader #rz michael myers #slasher #slasher matchups #rz halloween

[iguessitsjustme]

I’m worried about the next episode it was hard watching how names mother treated him and it did feel like she was using a em against him to fit her narrative that name needs to speak or he will just be lonely the preview for next week doesn’t even show name like the others and that worries me I feel just hope name doesn’t harm himself because with the pressure of his mother, em breaking his promise and also probably thinking em isn’t communicating much because he’s mute (thanks to his mother) im worried about his mental health it seem as if he has no one im also worried about what will happen once that month is over and em actually does take the time to contact name what if name doesn’t answer because he believes his mom? What if he just shuts out everyone? I can’t get all of these thoughts out of my head but ever since his friends left name has been one im worried about I just want him to be happy

Hello my dear anon. Sorry it's taken me a few days to respond I have not been here. But I have been thinking about Remember Me and specifically Name.

I am so worried about that boy. I'm not too worried that he's going to go down the road of self harm though. Thailand typically doesn't go down those darker roads in their BLs and Remember Me just doesn't seem like that kind of show. I am expecting a fair amount of pain on both Name and Em's side, but I'm also expecting healing from that pain eventually. I have a feeling the show will most likely go with Name closing himself off and shutting himself away from the world rather than self harm...well physical self harm.

And trust me, you are not the only person worried about Name not being in the preview. Not having any sort of indication where his story line is going to go after last week's episode has been haunting me. Especially since the last we saw of Name was him walking away from his mother. And I'm not even going to start on his mother cause you know that will get me going.

But I will talk about Em. While I'm angry at him for how he's handled everything with Name so far, I also recognize he's still learning and growing and as much as I love his relationship with Name and as much as I ship them, Em deserves time where he is not Name's sole supporter. Em is allowed to have a life outside of Name and that's fine. And once he's better at time management and he gets better at communicating with Name, he and Name will be happy. This is probably the first time those two have ever struggled with communication and it's not because Name is mute. Em just needs to do some growing and figuring out how to balance his school life with talking to Name long distance. It is going to HURT when Em has time again and he sees what's going on with Name. Or doesn't see because Name is secluding himself. It is going to hurt when Em comes back and Name isn't waiting for him because Name is different than he used to be. It's going to hurt when that difference is that Name used to not speak but he was never silent before. He was always there.

So yes, I am very worried about Name and I expect a couple of extremely painful episodes are coming our way. But I also expect these characters will get through the pain. They will talk and get through everything and communicate with each other. There is hope for all of them. There is hope for Name regardless on if he utters another word. There is hope for Em regardless of his exhaustion. There is even hope for Name's mother as long as she learns how to properly support her son. I suspect we're going to see her deal with the effects of the pressure she's put on Name (at least I hope) and she will need to do some growing and healing herself.

Remember Me is ultimately a show about communication. So even through the painful episodes, as long as everyone is still communicating, miscommunication or not, I believe it will turn out okay.

#remember me #remember me the series #remember me bl #thanks for the ask #i have a lot of remember me thoughts #i could probably write thousands upon thousands of words about just name and em #unfortunately i just don't have the energy #i also have a theory that name's mom forced em to leave the message with her instead of letting em talk to name #which i hope isn't correct because that's a terrifying thought #that she's isolating her son like that #idk though #i'm about to log off again for a while but if you want to keep talking about remember me i promise to respond the next time i'm here

[secretdiaryofjim]

The only thing I ever wanted you to be was happy, ideally with me.

You burned everything we had down and blamed me and accused me of things I never did and never was.

I am trying to heal from you.

You wanted to leave, so get your things and leave. It's been a year. Ask your rich sister to hire movers. Ask you boyfriend to help move your things. Get out of my life if youre leaving. Its been more than a year. I have nooney after all the legal fees and the cost of trying to defend myself AND divorce you. Take your things and leave me with the shambles of my life left. I can't heal from this gangrenous marriage while the limb is still attached. Take your poison and vitriol and go. Im the one who gets to be angry with you and this situation. Im the one it wasn't fair to. You impulsively cheated on your spouse who loved and cared for you no matter what, abused them and tried to turn them into some fictional monster. Just like that Mads Mickelson movie you liked so much.

If you aren't magically going to try to apologize and fix this then I need this over with. You already took a decade of my life and love. You abused me and isolated me so that I couldn't see how wrong you were. I deserve to be happy. I deserve love. I deserve someone who will treat me like I ever fucking mattered. You don't deserve anything from me, not effort, not money, not sympathy. And yet I still try. I still hold this door open. How much therapy do I have to do before I walk away.

[lowcosmic]

Cosmic! Im so sorry, really sorry about the bible that I gonna to say you, but I have to said it, just think its like free gossip or I dont know beocaouse if I dont take this whith a little humor I will end up crying again so Yep 😋

Do you remember ths I have a boyfriend? Well he is not my boyfriend anymore! :3 becouse the guy dint want to change. (Okay this is going to be long i guess and its not necesary to read it it)

Okay so as you I "repair" the thing whith him like one week ago, so the monday I come back to school and well since i already talked whith him I was guessing that he understands the thing that I say to him but I seems like no becouse that day he was acting the same way, he goes whith his friends and dosent even say like "hi how are you" no like he just go and ignore me again and well I was sad becouse we already talked about it, but since that day I have the idea of broke up whit him, the tuesday one of my friends that is also friends whit him advise him of that and tells him that he going to need to put limits to repair the things. But no he dosent change

Well to resume this all of the rest of the week he was whit the same actitude and today I broke whit him becouse I was really damaging me, my life has not been the best this moths and he wanst helping in fact he just make it worse, becouse actually my mental health is in a not really good state becouse of problems of my life, but the are been months that I dint feel to bad to dint even want to wake or do something, or just want to sleep and to fell so nervious generally about all the things that I have to try and distract my self whit everything just no enter to a bad state and have more problems, and well in this last week I wasnt felling secure around him, like I was so like I dont know, ¿scared of him? Of something like that becouse everytime that I see him It make wnat to cry and for my bad luck we go in the same bus and we actually live to close so we have to idt together and that was like the worse thing that happen in this week.

But well that's not the theme really, today I broke whith him in the recess and I fell bad becouse he dosent seem to care about it like when I broke whin him he just said me "I you fell rithg like that is okay, I supose you to say me that becouse someone told me" And the he just go like nothing, maybe a little bit angry but when I see him in the recess he seem like so happy whtih his friends like I was just something insignificant when I was trembling, about to cry, scared, nervous I wasnt felling good (and actually I cried but later like 15min later) and he was just like 😃, you know some hours ago I was over thinking again I was thinking what did he just do whit all the things o gifted to him becouse I scared that he throw him to the thrash or something like that when I put so much effort and that things literaly I make him a cake to his birthday beocaouse I want want to be happy in his birthday and now wacht me felling like the dumbest, stupid, girl in the world! :D I am feliing so bad beocaouse of him and he is just like nothing happen I just not fair :(

-🫧

that’s a walking red flag boyfriend right there. you’re amazing for breaking up with him! HE DOES NOT DESERVE YOU. a person like that who doesn’t even appreciate anything you do for him is a waste of time. and the fact that he didn’t care afterwards?

you deserve SO much better. and i know everyone else will agree that you do , because you’re such an awesome human being and you don’t deserve to be treated this way !!

i hope your mental health gets better , but just remember , we’re here to support you all the way !! 💕

#🌙 — — conversing . #🫧

[dakotafoxandtheobstacles]

12/30/23

As we approach new years eve i can't help but reflect. Allison i don't think you know the damage that you did that day. Like you cannot just chalk it up to you being a coward. What you did was so incredibly selfish and hurtful i don't think ill ever understand it. You lied straight to my face while we were together. And then you gave yourself an hour to draft a text talking about "its not you its me" when everything you said over the phone, and discord, and through text and when we were together was saying the exact opposite. I will never fucking understand why you did what you did and more so I don't understand how someone can fucking do that. I didn't even have the chance to process it because i was just so fucking hurt by it.

At 26.5 years old, I have been hurt in countless ways; for my academic hoes, my ACEs score is 5. I have been fucking abandoned and discarded like trash in more ways than i can count to the point where it no longer feels like a coincidence it just feels like this is what is meant to happen to me. Based on the patterns I am the variable that is not meant to be loved. I am simply a tool for others to use to figure out what they really want. And what they want is never me. I don't think it is ever going to be me. I think I am just going to keep getting left behind and dropped. Again and again and again.

Sam, Ally, Allison, Keith, Fred, Moms, Dad:

You have all hurt me in each unique way. I am so fucking angry at all of you. I am so angry because each of you have contributed to all the reasons and ways that I hate myself. Having what has happened to me over and over and over again leads me to believe that these situations and feelings will never stop happening to me. I feel like there must be something so wrong with me for things like this to keep happening. I really don't understand what I did wrong or what is inherently wrong with me. I don't get it.

I am trying so hard to get better but this time of year the guilt i feel for simply existing is fucking overwhelming. I feel so guilty for everything I have done or been involved in. I feel like all I do is poison everything I touch and that people should keep their distance from me because of that. I can't help but feel that in addition to being born wrong I guess I have had herpes for over a year now and every day i feel more disgusted with myself. Every person im attracted to im terrified to get too close to because I will tell them about the herpes and they will never want to touch me or have me touch them. And the ones that would like colin was looking for an exit strategy the whole time.

I think it might be impossible for people to love me. Allison made it clear she was incapable of it. Ally tried to twist me into something more appealing to her. Sam ruined me, without even warning me of the possibility and then ghosted me like the 6 months we were fucking weekly meant nothing at all. Colin, Peyton, Abby, Anna, and more who ive wiped from my memory all were just with me until they could be with someone they actually wanted to be with. Peyton didn't even bother to hide it from me.

And I am so angry at my parents for introducing all of these thoughts and behavioral patterns to me in the first place. What the fuck is wrong with yall. none of you should have been parents until you treated your own shit because now i have to pick up the pieces and foot tooth and nail to make sure i don't fucking kill myself. its not fucking fair i did not fucking ask for this and now i have to deal with it. i am so fucking mad. Why did u guys do that i don't get it. Jen always took better care of casey than she did me. she was never emotionally there for me especially when i needed her to be. bonny fucking groomed me and probably abused me. and my dad never wanted me in the first place.

really im just so fucking tired of feeling like i am going to be abandoned at any time because i dont deserve anything but myself.

and i'm supposed to try to heal while there is a fucking genocide being paid for with my tax dollars???? War criminals get free health care but I fucking dont????? fuck u fuck everyone its all a bunch of bullshit i fucking hate this world and my self so like what the fuck is left honestly.

[missgonnabealrightsomedayyy]

The Worst Night (Christmas Day)

Maybe it was really my fault, kasi ang arte ko. Kasi napaka arte ko.

We had fair share of fights simula nung umuwi ako last January but last night was different. I cant even close my eyes without seeing her angry face, her hand that wanted to hit or punch me.

How did it happen? Was it really my fault because I was so sensitive, and I took her jokes seriously? I told her before, I dont like when she do it, bakit nya palagi inuulit? I hope she can hear herself how she makes jokes out of something that is offensive to me lalo na di ko naman ginagawa. I was minding my own business, nanonood lang ako and she makes a joke about me na madaming nakakachat at nagagalit ako bec totoo? Am I not allowed to get mad sa jokes nya bec I feel offended. I reacted the way I would usually react, siguro nga maarte na kung maarte but I cant filter my emotions. I told her tigilan nya muna ko, pero hindi nya binigay kahit ilang minutes lang it would subside my inis. Pero pinilit nya pa rin gusto nya. Hanggang sa tumaas na ng tumaas inis ko sa kanya. If she just gave me kahit 10 minutes space it wouldnt lead to this. But the problem is pag gusto nya gusto nya, she dont listen to me. And the fact na may lagnat ako, all my emotions are piling up. She wont even take it in consideration.

I guess im really at fault bec I let my emotions get to me. Nakapag mura ako but it was only “Putang-in” hindi kumpleto at hindi directed sa kanya. I was so frustrated. And I think it really frustrates her kasi hinampas nya bibig ko. I would understand yung unang beses pero she did it multiple times na masakit, na namanhid na labi ko. I cried, kasi nasaktan ako physically. I was trying so hard na hindi umiyak sa inis sa kanya pero her hands are big and heavy, her slaps on my mouth hurt me.

I was already on top of my emotions, gusto ko ng umuwi. She was trying na suyuin ako and Idk bakit ayoko. Siguro kasi, im in this scenario na naman. Masasaktan ako, magsosorry sya and then okay na. Its a tiring cycle.

Alam ko may mga nasabi din ako, intentional or not, meant it or not but nothing hurts more than sa rebat nya palagi. Parang shes that kind of partner to me na pag may sinabi ako, she will get back to me that will hurt me x2. Na hindi sya mag papatalo sakin. She even said na masama na ugali ko, na lumalabas na ugali ko. I hope she can see that this attitude and emotion of mine comes out bec of her. That maybe, shes bringing out the worst in me.

Dati palagi sya nagagalit sakin for no reason, I dont fight back. I kept quite pero ngayon na nag rereact na ako at lumalaban na ko sa kanya biglang ang sama na ng ugali ko??? And nanunumbat na ako? Kilala ko sarili ko, marami din tao na mag jujustify na hindi ako ma pag sumbat. Sila ni mommy parehas ng sinabi sakin kaya hindi na yan mawawala sa isip ko.

And the worst happened…

Ramdam ko na mataas na lagnat ko. Nararamdam ko na sa isip at katawan ko. I keep crying, my emotions are keep on getting worse. Naghahalo halo na. But here she is, saying “iyak iyak ka pa” “napakaarte mo” “ayoko sa maarte jusko ka”. Then why pursue me? Bakit ako? We could have go on with our lives na wala connections sa isat isa simula noon, but she pursued me. And now she would treat me this way? On Christmas day?

She was angry. She wanted to punch me. I know if wala kami sa kanila, her hands will land on my face. Iintayin ko pa ba umabot don? She then started hitting herself. I stopped her and pull away. Bakit ganon, I was the one na dapat galit, pero it will always end up na sya ung mas galit at ako ung masama? Bakit ganun? She always have her ways of reversing things kapag nagaaway kami.

She even mumbled “mas okay pa si shei kesa sayo” her ex??? I have so many reason to argue at kontrahin yung sinabi nya pero siguro nga tama sya. There will always be someone out there who is better than me. Even her ex.

I never compared her to anyone kahit ano nangyayari samin. Kaya I know sa sarili ko I dont deserve those comparison lalo na sa ex nya. But Ill accept it, im not as innocent naman. Alam ko rin may kasalanan ako pero kung nakakasakit man ako mag salita minsan, wala na mas lalala sa mga pinipili nyang sabihin.

I hope she just hit me straight in my face kanina. So I will not have any reason to stay. So I will not have reason to still love her. I will leave in few hours, nag wewait lang ako ng araw She has a mouth as sharp as knife and maybe she will hit me someday, I will leave before we ruin each other. I will leave so we can save ourselves from each other. And this will be more in favor with her.

[no-ctrl]

Im sad. Maybe my period is coming. Maybe seasonal depression is kicking in. I am dead inside rn. I feel like I’m being laughed at from above whether it’s God or the Universe. I’m sorry to talk about both in vain but it genuinely feelings like a twisted joke. I literally had one of the worst spirals 2 nights ago. This is how it started. I unblocked Israel on Instagram then saw he was active a day before. Then I looked through his little bros page and he had posted a guitar cover of Ivy by Frank Ocean which is a song I have shown to Israel (not saying that’s why his bro is playing it but it reminded me of Israel) then I go onto his cousin’s insta and he posted a baby and I’m guessing it’s Israel’s baby brother and that was straw that broke the camels back(it’s me I’m the camel) it felt like an addiction. I looked at his threads, I looked at his tiktok and I felt so desperate I literally resort to making a Facebook. That was an all time low. I purposefully deleted my Facebook bc it was extremely unhealthy for me in terms of letting Israel go. As if making the Facebook wasn’t shameful enough, I reopened a wound the literally makes me sick to my stomach. That wound being facing Israel’s mom and how she was able to continue life and move forward while I felt left in the dust. I saw a picture of her while she was pregnant. It was a photo of her from July 2022. Israel hadn’t even been back yet at that time and there she was pregnant enjoying a family party. Then this weekend she was at her nieces baby shower. I hate her. I hate how much she has control over my feelings. I hate being so terrible. I hate hating her. I don’t want to think or feel anything towards her I want to forget her. But I can’t help but hate her for everything. I hate how she used me like if I was some emotional support dog for her addict son. She didn’t treat me like a person. She never considered me. I hate how Israel would get upset with me when I expressed my hurt towards her bc he would get defensive towards his mom (I don’t blame him) I hate how despite everything she did to him he still chose her over me. I hate that I even feel that way bc it sounds so irrational. I hate her. I hate how she gets to cause havoc and destroy everything yet continues to live life and having community within her family, she still has her son choosing her. I hate her. I hate seeing her happy while I’m miserable. It feels so tortuous. It feels like I have a wound and someone is just pouring salt and lime in tht wound and rubbing it in. Instead of being tortured by the thoughts of my brain I’m being tortured in all aspects. You think seeing her was the worst part? No it really wasn’t. Today when I was driving to my evening class after work tell me why he was right next to me at the spot light and he was just so eager to drive away he literally ended up crossing 2 yellow lights. It felt like a practical joke bc I was already in my feels these last few days. I literally couldn’t stop crying for 20 minutes. I felt like I was being laughed at. It felt like a cruel joke was being played on me. Haven’t I gone through enough? Haven’t I been putting my part? I haven’t broken no contact. I haven’t driven past his house. I give myself space to feel my emotions. I won’t lie this past weekend was a great sabotage to myself but it didn’t involve rekindling with him. So why universe why did you put me in that situation? I’m sorry being so angry and upset but isn’t this enough? I’m literally so tired. I want to be happy. I’m trying I swear but today felt so excessive. I know life is u fair but why me why now? I’m tired of being strong and holding it together. I just want to be looked after. I’m just so sad. Like I just want Israel but he doesn’t want me. He literally left me. His mom dropped him in Mexico many times when things got hard yet I’m the villain in this story. Im tired of this. Im tired of all the injustices I’m faced with. Im tired of this. I deserve to be happy I deserve an easy life. I deserve peace. I deserve to be loved.