#im not even sad anymore im just bored

[manofmanymons]

I know this sounds somewhat hypocritical as someone who loves Survive and Hollow Knight very very very much, one of the biggest things that puts me off from series is when there's too much death and/or general carnage. And it's not even that I'm sensitive to gore or can't handle some death.

It's that once everyone starts dying, I stop having fun! I'm not enjoying cool action scenes because everyone I liked is dead, but I'm not even properly sad about any of the deaths anymore because goddamn everyone else is fuckin dead am I supposed to be surprised now? You can only cram so many emotional scenes into a short period of story before I completely stop feeling anything at all.

The reason I like Survive anyways is because there's a truthful route where everyone lives, and even if there wasn't, there's still the moral route where most of them live. If it was JUST the wrathful route or JUST the harmony route I'd fuckin hate it! The fact that that would be a dreadfully short game notwithstanding, I'd be pretty pissed if I spent so much time gaining affinity with these characters and watching them bond with each other and the mc just for the game to end with half of them dead and the other half living in a post apocalyptic hellhole. As full games those routes are ass! But existing as they are as just extreme hypotheticals of what could have happened to these characters if just a few more things went wrong and they weren't as strong of a team, and we get to learn more about them by seeing how they act when pushed to the brink...yeah that is fun. It's like "well I know that this character is okay but it's cool seeing what COULD have but did not happen to them." And you know what despite Ryo literally being one of my favorite characters, I still would've loved Survive just fine without the truthful route because the moral route is a very good stand alone story of a bunch of kids who were met with tragedy but only became closer because of it and still managed to find a happy ending for themselves.

And Hollow Knight, well. For one it's largely helped by the fact that it is a video game and not a show, therefore the fact that it is just INCREDIBLY fun to play goes a long way in making me mentally insane about it. But it's not just that! From the very start of the game you KNOW you're playing through something sad. The sad doesn't sneak up on you, it's always there. Rather than playing through the downfall of a kingdom, you're exploring the ruins of a once-beautiful kingdom, learning what happened to it, meeting the inhabitants, befriending the last little glimmers of hope in this dying world, and fighting to save them. And yeah depending on the player's actions you lose a few of them along the way, but a) as I said some of them only die depending on what the player does, and b) I feel like enough of them have satisfying endings that I'm not too fixated on the ones that die. Ofc Quirrel being probably dead bums me out, and it sucks that you can't do anything for Myla, but hey, your homie Elderbug is fine, Cornifer is fine, you can save Cloth and even Zote if you'd like. Your Mantis buddies are still around. Brumm can be having a silly good time OR you might have a son now. Idk to me HK is finding hope and happiness amid despair rather than losing hope and falling into despair.

Unlike series that are like whee we're a fun action adventure--just kidding everyone is dead.

Oh well we started sad but if everyone works together then maybe there's hope that--psych they are all in fact still dead.

What a silly goofy show about kids having a fun--lmao you fell for that? Nah they're dead too.

Obviously other people are into that otherwise there wouldn't be so many popular series that do that but my god do I hate it literally every single time I have never once gone "you know what this story IS better now that none of my favs are in it and whoever's left has been doing nothing but fighting nonstop without an ounce of the playfulness or humor that originally drew me into this series."

#killing a few characters #even major ones #for the sake of setting the tone and upping the stakes is perfectly fine #even if the show did start out more lighthearted and this is the authors ways of indicating that A Shift is occurring that's fine #but idk the second a series turns into a blood bath and they're just killin fuckin anyone #im not even sad anymore im just bored #it's so boooooooooooriiiiiiiing

[cetoddle]

i miss bvndit so much

#honestly my general interest in kpop has been declining since they disbanded #i really couldn’t give two shits about 90% of new releases these days #im gonna sound like a cranky old hag but honestly kpop music is so boring now #like i feel like the vast majority of releases are just so bland they give nothing they are nothing to me #back in my day kpop music was fun #everything coming out now is just. idk it’s BORING ‼️ #go give us nothing … #i really only keep up with the few groups left that i like and every so often a good release will come out #but idk. it’s just not fun anymore #i really don’t even collect anymore .. #pretty much just twice cause fromis barely ever gets any music anymore #it’s kind of sad :( #anyways. i’m going to bed now #i feel like an old lady reminiscing over second and third gen #snow.txt

[kuiinncedes]

fngfdjngjdfkng

#bro fucking stupid like why did i just not look at applying to masters until now #i'm so dumb like ig it was bc i ws just like i'm not gonna do masters im just gonna try to get a job #which like how the fuck am i supposed to do that lmao but #now i dont think i can even apply for masters at my school at least #bc i need fucking letters of rec and the deadline is the 15th #and i Barely have 2 ppl i would ask for letter of rec idek if the second one counts lmfao if she's not at my school #jfc im so why do i have to think about the future :c i just wanna do glowstick club things that's why i haven't been thinkign abt this lmfa #yeah so now i dont think i can do masters here :c which also means i dont have that as a reason to hang around and stay in glowstick clublo #i could still do that but #ugh whatever im trying to write a fucking cover letter rn for a job i hate this already i've barely done anything lmfao #i dont super understand the job description which is maybe a sign i shouldnt apply lmfao but it's like #data science w my year and i feel like i meet some of the qualifications so #just gotta somehow bullshit another paragraph of this cover letter together #i also dont even know if i actualy wanna fucking do a data analyst job like #i kinda wanna work for like a non profit or smaller org kinda thing all this shit sounds hella boring that i keep seeing for bigger #companies lmao which im not saying would no be the case for smaller but #idk i jsigsdfhjlbgpidwurhgbipwdhgfudjshlk why did i start this so late LMAO #i had a job opening that i was gonna apply for that looked pretty good and i felt pretty qualified for just based on the listing #and the deadline was the 15th but it fucking disappeared the job isnt there anymore ig im so sad lmfao #as;lkfngbjifbgqipurgipqhrgfipuaf i hate this :DDDDDD #jeanne talks

[priestfrommidnightmass]

i need to get single friends again because i haven’t had someone i can talk to teenager style abt stupid shit in so long. all of my friends are either former single people that started dating someone and became the most boring people alive and are impossible to talk to now or people who have been in established relationships for a super long time and just have no idea what it’s like and do not understand at all and say shit like Don’t even worry you’ll find someone I promise!! or worst of all Being a relationship isn’t what it’s made up to be I promise…

#i miss having someone to TEENAGE GIRL OUT WITH!! #i have no friends like this anymore it’s kinda devastating </3 whatever #my only single bestie like. knows the guy im currently into and i’d rather die than tell her #because it’s EMBARRASSING. like that’s just the guy we know #i miss my old friends i could wild out with </3 too bad they’re the most boring bitches alive now #like it’s unreal #whatever i’m just sad rn. #i don’t even know what it is i want. #i just miss this type of friendship so bad… i miss when bitches UNDERSTOOD ME! #i want to be aliveated from the humiliation that is basic human emotions… life is unfair

[fishybehavior]

*wants to join community*

*joins a discord*

-> doesn't know how to make friends anymore . . .

#face in hands #i want to be a furry #but idk how to make friends anymore #rant #sorry im being sad on main #im just so fucking frustrated #cause i struggle with even talking to people #keeping a conversation going #i share to much #i forget to respond #i feel awkward to talk #im intruding #im being rude #my life is boring #and sad #and i end up not talking to people #and once again ive talked to much #fuck my life

[astrxealis]

damn i never thought i'd get into stardew valley this much but here we are !! makes perfect sense tho

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #heyy this adds to my roster of games that actually have Evidence #gotta play more soulsborne legitimately soon so i have more evidence of my range LMFAO ... #i love how my. taste in games is really broad tbh! i'm willing to try anything out but i do uhh am less inclined to the more popular ones? #unless i get into them by way of. personal. or without outside influence #but if there's a certain something that makes me dislike a media yeah ... i do end up more indifferent tho. ultimately #i think sdv is another huge example of how me and lune really go all in when getting into smth #like terraria. but we end up forgetting about it pretty soon after. oops! #it depends tbh on how bored we are? how much we have to do. so yeah #xiv was That for a very long time bcs we didn't really have anything else uhh insert hashtag xiv was there for us when nobody was #aaa so thankful to xiv fr. idk. i think about what it has done for me sometimes and i get really emotional! #also funny how things connect. i got back into tumblr bcs of jjk and then connected w others mostly thru gi. and then twt thru a friend i #met thru a school event wholy thru chance. who got me back into twt where i connected with others thru ff(xiv) #and i find it fascinating how people make friends irl! i think its easy for me to feel that way 1. its just who i am lol its in my nature #2. im more of a bystander so. yeah. ez for me to study people and people-watch. idm that much tbh #it's funny... hmm interesting? a bit sad too. wnvr i want to. Take A Step Further. i end up not caring anymore LMFAOOO but tbh it's really #nice in the long run! my outlook on life is pretty weird tbh like uhh... idk. hard to explain. complex #whenever i face a problem i'm. absolutely confident i'll get over it. and unfortunately i feel like that... sense of confidence is rather ra #rare*? idk. and the fact i've always known (always!) i'd love myself no matter what. even if sometimes i would be really insecure. i never #truly hated myself and i sincerely doubt i ever will. but the fact i often suceed and rise from my failures that sometimes they don't feel #like failures doesn't mean that uhh i'll end up facing my downfall through. naive confidence? i try to be self-aware and do my best for no #regrets and it's fascinating how my values in life are shaped by my past. not just me. everyone. damn. i think the formative years of a #person are so goddamn fascinating and also i'm still unsure what i want for college but it's already fucking march HELP #anyway wow. i dont want to be too harsh on myself if the What If bad scenario/s end up happening but i'll really try my best #my aunts on my dad side both got into up diliman and i'll be damned if i don't. i know i can do it. i just gotta put in a ton of effort. #okay rambles bye bye #also i've been staying up until 3/4 ever since break LMFAOOO SDV HAS RUINED ME dw i'll be good again next week lmfao

[disastercit]

idk what even happened with cc because i was so obsessed with it around summer 2019, i was screaming crying throwing up (not literally) every time an episode came out, staying up until 7 am reading dadvid fanfiction, buying merch, talking pretty much only about camp camp every day. once that was over i figured “aw babys first hyperfixation” but NO because that literally never happened again and i have been comparatively VERY normal about every show i watched afterwards

#i would get sad thinking about how i wasnt my camp camp oc it was probably unhealthy tbh #would the brainrot come back if another season dropped or was i just 14 and bored #literally wanted to go to a summer camp bc of the show but then several years passed and im not even an eligible age anymore lmao

[be-good-to-bugs]

having ocs is great until you have to organize them

#the bin #for a long time whenever i would draw i would just draw a body and then add stuff to it #and like never ever redraw ocs #so yiu would think they were throwaway designs but no. i get attached to almost every character i ever make unless they are like super #boring human losers #but now i actually wanna do stuff with the characters and its a pain cause i gotta go through and take pictures and document #most if them dont have nanes either :/ #so ive got over 200 character designs i need to go through scattered about. im probably gonna marge some if them and firget others #n a lot i think will just become fodder. just like a species or group since i did a lot where id draw diffrent ppl wearing the same clothes #some i think ill maybe archive also. ones that i still like as their own thing but arent my style anymore #tbh it makes me kinda sad how i have many hundreds of drawings ive made the past several years but i never posted them #just kinda sad to me. #anyway. this is such a pain in the ass and im not enjoying it. i enjoy organizing stuff bc tism but not when i have to decide subjective #stuff on what to do. i feel like this will be a long project but at the end id like to make some collage style pictures of them and post it #cause i think its a shame i have so many ocs that i never posted. i never even posted strawberry mold! who i drew right after roach #i think this will be helpful also in just having some stuff existing already that i can use for ibuprexulmethane #some of this stuff will only be good npc stuff for yume juso. #ill probably actually make a little game with rooms dedicated to each of them as a little test for making games #i think thatd be fun and cool to have. and i can add to it whenever i make new ones #tbh i think id enjoy sharing that too #nobody cares abt this lol. but i dont have anywhere else to talk abt it so :/

[totopopopo]

Oh my god I really am doing horribly

#i just really really want to be dead lol #like. im just. #like. objectively good things happened today like I got a job and. it didnt matter. it didnt even register #i feel like ive forgotten how to feel any emotion other then sadness #and it’s just. endless. and all encompassing. #and there’s no hope for the future #and even if I know objectively that’s wrong like. its not. there’s no hope for the future and the future isnt worth it #nothing is worth it #there’s nothing good under the sun #and I just want to not have to feel things anymore #because all I feel is hopeless and sad beyond belief #obligatory im fucking fine and I prommy I will stay alive but. Jesus. i dont WANT to #i dont WANT to be #i resent that I have to continue to live #whatever. #whatever #i dont want to fucking be here and i dont want to fucking be anywhere and there is no hope or goodness or happiness on earth #everything is boring everything is dull everything is off everything is. just fucking. #whatever dude #ask 2 taaaaag

[sugared-violets]

god, i'm so fucking lonely

#ive been too busy to be sad much lately but today everything hit me again #i just. dont have anybody #my coworkers are nice and all but theyre not really my friends #the one and only person who EVER acted like i was worth talking to. decided i wasnt worth anything anymore #im starting another new job this week but it wont be any different i know. i cant make friends i dont know how #im too awkward and unlikeable and talkative and boring and i try too hard and it NEVER works #i miss evan from school. he made friends with me on purpose and he was so sweet and genuine #i miss all my high school friends even though they didnt really like me. at least they would talk to me #i miss amber a lot and god i miss will so fucking much #its not fair #he was SO mean to me but he was all i had #vent post #god everything is so fucking hard all the time

[comradecowplant]

fuck it, being a "good person" is not worth being treated like this.

#maybe the ideological differences were a cause because she is being so mean to me now even when i tried capitulating... #it may be the principled thing to care for elders but i'm not going to be insulted every day. nope nah i'll take the going hell instead #the likely conclusion to my tumblr venting about this strange sad neighbor lady #'actions matter more than words' AGREE WHICH IS WHY I KEPT SHOWING UP & HELPING but the action of missing 1 alarm is the only action #that matters i guess! now im just unreliable lazy uneducated etc etc #well fine i'll be dumb & unreliable then! #OOFDA i dont have rant sagas like this very often anymore bc most people im interacting with are too boring to be upsetting lol #but ole M took me through it & idc anymore. im sure she'll tell my mom how evil i am 🙄 #this is why i work with pets. this is why i work AWAY from the island #whatever. she talks about moving if trump is elected & given that he will almost assuredly win she'll be gone by next year

[713-4th-ward-g]

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#barely heard a word from my friends and its been 2 months now #apart from ryan no one hit me up #ryan is such a real one but i cant bare speaking to em without feeling like im being a burden even when told #he's got his problems and im always okay hearing him out and talking him through it. its more of me not being able to speak about me. #even then some times im just sad for no reason and its just a huge low for no reason #i probably should get back on my anti depressants #i told myself i didnt want to rely on them to give me a semblance of a peaceful mind #but there are some times where i really am the worst person to myself #i still stand by not talking to Kahlil anymore cause i should have never forgave him for what he did #telling a friend struggling with depression to kill themselves will never be forgiven by me #it really showed me how evil the dude is #some times i feel okay not having friends and then there are times I want to talk about something- #and not feel like an annoyance or boring.. #my mind really is my worst enemy #it doesn't help that im so inconsistent

[little-miss-dilf-lover]

YEYYYT UR REQUESTS ARE OPENNN

pls bucky barnes w angry/jealous sex

btw so sad we are not matching profiles anymore aaaaa

I KNOW YAAY!!? love your brain sm omg!! im gonna do the same format as the moonboys one you sent in- just my thots and brainrot. thank you for requesting, hope you like it💌 and ah I know:( matching green was so cute but im on here all the time and get bored of my theme so quickly😭

JEALOUSY SEX W/ BUCKY.

bucky barnes x fem!reader

warnings. 18+ only!! pinv, creampie, little bit of manhandling but it’s very light - all kinda lovey dovey. mdni

I feel like with bucky, sex isn't hateful, nor is it bitter. I think it's something that is often passionate and slow, sometimes rough, but for the most part, it's very loving. so, I think anger sex is a no no. but jealousy sex??? a big yes yes

right, so.. im thinking that he is still coming to terms with having a voice and being in control of his own thoughts etc etc, and that makes him feel a little insecure sometimes?? he often feels like you deserve someone who is more open/ straightforward and in tune with things, someone who is also closer to your age

so so so, one night when you come over to his after work, you have a lingering smell of another man's cologne (not bucky's oops - just someone you shared an elevator ride with) and instead of him moping over it, he decides against it 

you'd be on his bed, you flat to the mattress, completely bare with bucky hovering atop, his thick cock gliding into you so SO so slowly. almost teasingly!! he'd have your hands held above your head, his left, metal arm securing them tightly, his other hand lovingly cupped around your cheek - keeping your face still, making you keep your eyes on him. his strokes would be very consuming! with his leisure thrusts you're able to feel EVERYTHING!! every vein on his cock, every twitch when his tip kisses at your cervix, every ridge when he brushes against your walls

he'd wind into you slowly, making you feel it all. every. single. millimetre. of. his. pretty. dick. he'd be very teasing with it, almost cooing at you when you make those pretty sounds he loves so much. he'd thumb over your cheek, eyes locked on yours, softly nodding down at you when your lips part and head falls back. he'd tell you how he's never felt a pussy as good as yours, and how no one can ever and will ever fuck you and love you and look after you as good as he does (he always gets a little ego boost when he fucks you, so woo, yay! go you) might I add, he whispers it against your lips, just saying. just him muttering praise in a hoarse, strained tone on your lips???? goodbye

he won't kiss you yet, just lips shadowing yours, swallowing your gentle whines and whimpers as he fucks into you - keeping that same slow, tedious pace. your legs would wrap around his middle tighter, keeping him glued to you as you reach your high. you'd tell him how he's the only man you want, the only person you want inside of you and that'll make him cum IMMEDIATELY!! just him being reassured and comforted??? makes him jizz on command

he'd fuck his cum into you, slowly and sloppily as you kiss. all very carnal and desperate!! lots of muffled whispers and heavy breaths as you both even out. ALSO!! he'd kiss your wrists if his metal arm made a mark, replacing the cold with warmth

gonna go cry now bc I want him so bad

#request #bucky barnes #bucky barnes smut #bucky x reader #bucky barnes x reader #bucky barnes x female reader #bucky x female reader #bucky smut #winter soldier #james bucky barnes #bucky x reader smut

[suguruplsr]

sugu w/ his cum bunny

જ⁀➴ more sugu n’ chubby r thots bc im stuck on him.. just like toru <3

,, suguru x chubby fem!reader , lots n’ lots of smut

divider: @/benkeibear

honestly, i think suguru loves his chubby girlfriend’s thighs. but not just her thighs, he really loves the sweet fat cunny between her legs.

it’s always so soaked for him, juices coating your folds as he pries your legs open with just one hand and arm, not minding your small complaints of being embarrassed or that he might feel some kind of way.. you never seemed to understand that he didn’t care, like nothing could put him off unless it was disturbing, plus, pussy was pussy, and he loves yours the most. always.

he loves fingering you, a lot. while he’s working in his office, he’ll have you sit on his lap, two thick fingers stuffing your cunt while he writes his papers. two fingers you can never get bored of. the first few times he started doing that, you tried to ignore the aching in your pussy, thinking he just needed something to do with his hand.

but instead, your phone found itself on the floor, your head laying dumbly in his neck as his curled his fingers in you, sometimes switching to one finger when your pussy clenches too tight around him. he’d ignore your small whines of not getting to orgasm. only to have you begging for him to stop just minutes later.

yet, he never completely acknowledges you, only giving small kisses by your ear or whispering for you to quiet down a bit. making you all sad n’ teary only to fuck you on his desk the second his alarm goes off for his break.

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“suguuu p-please, mngh, please let me c— fuuck~” suguru kisses your neck, pressing that sweet spot inside of you and making your legs shake. “c’mon, you can say it darling. almost there.” he chuckles, finally putting down the pen in his other hand, dragging it along your large thigh, adoring the rolls of your plump thighs as his fingers curled inside you.

“b-but y’r makin’ me.. i-i can’t sugu..” humiliating. your brain wasn’t cooperating with you, your words stumbling as you clutched his wrist tightly. you hear him make a small ‘tsk’ before clearing his desk, ignoring the clattering of objects falling and sitting you on it, spreading your legs before you can even react.

“so it’s my fault? suuure pretty girl. how about you give me a detailed reason while i eat this cunt. and i better hear every word clearly..heh..”

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sometimes, he fingers you to sleep. or he keeps you awake by fingering you. it’s just so cute, he hasn’t even fucked you yet, and you’re already in a cute haze? he even jokes about it, loving the way your eyes widen as you try to get away, only for him to wrap a hand around your thigh and pull you back with ease.

then he makes you feel bad, he’s been getting your cunny ready for him for hours, and now you’re gonna leave his cock leaky and red like that? so mean. but don’t worry, all of that flies out the window when he’s finally deep in your cunt. so tight even though he had three fingers pulling four orgasms out of you.

suguru always fucks you in doggy style when he knows he’s worked you up for the longest time. it’s so adorable how you pathetically try to pull away when he doesn’t stop after the first two rounds. he doesn’t even have to try to stop you, your pussy does it for him, clinging onto his cock so cutely as you hold onto the sheets.

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“fuck d’you think you’re goin’?” suguru scoffs, one hand gripping your plushy hips as you slump to the bed with a sob trying to get away from him. from his dick. “c-can’t take it anymore sugu..” you whine weakly, a scream nearly ripping from you as he slaps your ass, watching it ripple.

“so you runnin’ now? y’know how to speak sweet girl.” he smiles, rolling his hips and making your body shudder. “guess i gotta make you learn how to use that mouth..” you choke, crying out as he pulls you back, your eyes already starting to roll back the second he’s at the hilt, pushing you down with his chest into a prone bone position. “n-no need, m’sorry sugu! so sorrrry~” suguru kisses your forehead in response, a dark chuckle beside your ear,

“jus’ keep screamin’ for me pretty, look at you, already doing a good job..”

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suguru’s a pervert for sure. a hand always reaching down to palm your cunt as you two stand in the dressing room. he loves taking you to the mall, asking you to try on clothing he thinks would look good on you. especially those skirts. those damn skirts. it’s actually concerning how the skirt he picks out are the reasons why you get in trouble.

because it was so short, giving him glimpses of your pretty panties when you bend down to pick something you dropped. or because your beautiful thighs just stuck out to well, so fucking appetizing, the skirt digging into your skin comfortably and making the plump skin look so delicious.

yea, you definitely have weeks where you can’t wear anything short because there’s just so many hickies around your thighs, a nice decoration suguru thinks. waking up in the morning to see the sun peeking through the window, making your skin glow and the purplish marks look like ‘christmas lights.’ yes, he was drunk when he said that. he still stands by it.

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“pink looks good on you.” suguru smiles at sight of you walking into his office, a cute white button up with a pink miniskirt that did little to hide the blemishes around your thighs. you huff, obviously embarrassed by the concerned looks you got as you walked through the building. “suguru. our neighbor thought a damn animal did this.” you shake your head, placing his coffee and bag of lunch on the table.

“she’s not far off.” suguru chuckles, pulling you down for a small kiss and pulling you closer to the wood desk, his hands gripping your plushy thighs. “i mean.. last night we kinda were fucking like—“ “we’re at your job!” you cut him off with a gasp, matching his grin and slapping his shoulder. suguru rolls his eyes, looking at your thighs and licking his lips.

“i own this building. i can say what i want and do what i want. sooo.. give me a small snack, please baby?”

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[hyperfixationspam]

I AM VERY UPSET ABOUT ***** BUT I AM ALSO KINDA UPSET THAT THE THING I KINDA THOUGHT WAS GONNA HAPPEN TO **** ***** HAPPENED TOO

#I WAS LIKE HMMM I WONDER IF ******* MEANS **** ***** LOSES HIS BUT NO ITS PROBABLY NOT THAT WOULD BE BORING AND SAD #AND LIKE I ALREADY KNEW THE WRITERS DO ***** DIRTY BUT. LIKE THAT???? AT THIS POINT JUST KILL HER #OH WELL AT LEAST IM PREPARED SO I DONT CRY WHEN THE EP ACTUALLY COMES OUT #IM SO UPSET BRING HER BACK BRING HER BACK MY BABYGIRL AT LEAST GIVE HER A DIGNIFIED DEATH #BABY I WILL FIX YOU ILL TAKE CARE OF YOU I PROMISE ILL GET YOU OUT OF THERE #LISTEN I CAN EXCUSE MURDER AND BRAINWASHING BUT I DRAW THE LINE AT MISOGYNY #AND TBH RACISM TOO EVEN THO HES ALSO ******* BUT HES PLAYED BY ****** SO LIKE HIM BEING RACIST WAS INEVITABLE #BUT LIKE FROM A WRITING STANDPOINT THOSE WHITE ASS WRITERS HAVE NO RIGHT TO DO HER LIKE THAT #***** BABY I KNOW UR BUSY RN AND UR ABOUT TO FILM BUT CAN YOU PLEASE GET YOUR ASS OVER HERE AND FIX THIS SHIT #LIKE YEAH **** IS PROBLEMATIC BUT I THINK THIS IS GETTING WORSE #IS ******* EVEN HERE ANYMORE WHAT DID THEY DO TO HIM #ANYWAYS IM DOING GREAT HOW ARE YOU GUYS

[be-good-to-bugs]

fr why does my body always feel sick and my brain always feels horrible.

#the bin #im always bored and sad. always. unless im high. thats the only thing that helps #why does weed gotta be so damn expensive. and why does my only source of it have to be my weird ass sister #i wanna ask her to pick more up for me but she gets weird about it. whatever. i can wait another week i guess. #im so tired if feeling like garbage constantly. being alone constantly feels so awful. i just need to get through one more month of this #and then ill at least have people to talk to sometimes. im gonna probably put all my effort into meeting peopel after i move #because i cant do this anymore. #i hate feeling so alone all the time. i hate being so alone all the time. everything just sucks so much. im trying so hard to fill the void #with something but it doesnt matter. i feel slightly better for breif moment and then i feel miserable again #i dont understand whats so wrong with me. i dont know how to talk to people at all. online or offline. i dont know where to go at all #i feel like i cant navigate the world at all im so lost. i want to step out of my comfort zone but i dont even know how #i feel so much more willing to than i ever have but im so confused and lost. my comfort zone is so uncomfortable and i just want out #i ferl like i dug this he myself. i dont know if thats true. i know its not all my fault but it also truly truly is all my fault #everybody else seems to be doing just fine. even my one sibling who never leaves the house has lots of friends online #and the others all made friends just fine. something about me is broken. idk whats wrong and how to fix it. #i know i just need to step out and meet people but where do i even do that? what are other people doing that im not? #:/ ill figure it out. i hope soon.