#i'm in an emotional wreck because of this freaking movie

[thehouseofhouse101]

what she says: i'm fine

what she meant: i don't know why puss in boots the last wish is so good but it just is. the character development, the music, the animation--holy fuck THE ANIMATION. and also the freaking themes of mortality and death and found family choke me up so much. the moment puss literally saw life flashing before his eyes and getting into a panic attack and how perrito calmed him down teared me up. and the found family themes with goldi and the bears to puss, kitty, and perrito. i really want to watch this more often it is just a masterpiece of a movie and i am so torn up about it.

#puss in boots the last wish #puss in boots spoilers #puss in boots 2 #house talks shit #my review #kind of #i'm in an emotional wreck because of this freaking movie #please i beg of you watch it!!

[takerfoxx]

Okay.

I don't often gush about movies on this blog. Hell, I don't often go to the movies anymore. I just don't have the attention span for it. And I honestly was going to give this one a miss until someone who's opinion I trust was adamant that I needed to see this film right now on the biggest screen possible while I still had the chance. So, FOMO out won over, and I went to go see Godzilla Minus One in Imax.

...

Look, I've been a Godzilla fan practically all my life. My family used to rent those old english dubs of the films on VHS from Blockbuster in the early nineties. I grew up with these monsters. But I have to admit, I've never seen the original, nor have I seen Shin Godzilla. To me, Godzilla is about one thing and one thing only.

Fuck.

Yeah.

Gimme the big monsters just going HAM on each other. Rubber suits, CGI, I don't care! I want the big boys with beef to beef with a large side of cheese!

I guess that's why Godzilla 2014 ultimately left me feeling kind of cold while I absolutely loved KOTM despite how stupid a lot of it was. I just want my big monsters absolutely wrecking shit.

This was different. I knew it was going to be different. A remake of the original Godzilla, this time from the viewpoint of the common citizens still trying to get their lives together after WW2? I knew I was in for some heavy drama.

What I didn't expect was one of the most amazing theater experience I have ever had.

And I'm not just saying that because the movie is good, even though it is.

I'm not just saying that because the movie is great, even though it is.

I'm not just saying that because it's a goddamn masterpiece, even though it is.

I'm saying that because it's about as close to perfect of a film as you can get, and not just of a Godzilla movie, but just as a movie!

Like, it's a running joke that you can cut the human characters out of any Godzilla movie. Here, you could cut Godzilla out and still have a great movie. That's how good the human side of things was.

Like, you really grow attached to these people who have literally lost everything. You grow invested in their struggles, in their relationships, in their baggage, in their love for one another. You come to care about them and are genuinely happy as they eke out a new life after having their homes literally blown to bits. You just want to see them succeed and be happy together.

And that's when Godzilla shows up.

This movie is called Godzilla Minus One in reference to how post-war Japan was basically a Zero Society, left devastated by the conflict. And these people who literally were left with nothing suddenly find even that ripped away as an enormous monster just starts rampaging through the recovering cities.

And this time, Godzilla isn't an avenging hero. He's not a destructive anti-hero. He's not a fun mascot. He's not even a poor, suffering monster unaware of the destruction that he's wreaking. This Godzilla is goddamn menace, an outright monster that is absolutely terrifying. He wants to crush, kill, and destroy. This is Godzilla at his most actively malicious, and all you can do is gape up in horror with these people that you've come to care so much about, wondering how in the hell are they supposed to deal with this!

I won't give away how the day is eventually saved, only to say that it is a masterclass of character-driven suspense and emotion. You honestly come to root for the humans for once. You want to see them succeed, and are genuinely in fear for their lives. No exaggeration, I had my heart in my throat and tears in my eyes all throughout the climax. I don't cry during movies, and this movie made me sob like a baby. It was that good.

And it also had so much to say! Not only about Japan's collective trauma following the nuclear bombs or the other bombing raids like the original, but also about how the Japanese government dehumanized its own people during the war, treating them as expendable resources to fuel the war machine. The main character is a freaking kamikaze pilot who lost his nerve and abandoned his mission, and that plus another act of what he saw as cowardice haunts him throughout the movie, and while it realistically shows how such a person would be treated like a pariah by his former friends and neighbors, it is nothing but sympathetic toward him. He blames himself constantly, but the narrative never seems to.

And there's just this wonderful moment near the end, when it's clear that the government isn't coming to the rescue, so it's up to the common man to band together and find a solution, when a few men leave the mission for fear of their lives and that of their families, and are not condemned for it. And the scientist spearheading the whole thing gives this lovely little speech about how carelessly life has been treated during the war, from the kamikazes to the poorly maintained supply chains to how the common folk were left to fend for themselves, and he hopes to just once be able to secure a win that doesn't sacrifice any more lives. Wow.

I know it's probably too late for anyone else to see it, because I'm pretty sure it's theatrical run ends today. I just wanted to get this review off my chest, because wow, this was the best movie I've seen all year. What a goddamn masterpiece.

#godzilla minus one

[here2bbtstrash]

bts giving you aftercare - explicit

HAPPY COMEBACK EVE!!!! thought i'd share some OT7 aftercare headcanons since we're all about to get destroyed tonight 🥵🥵

these somehow got long af so.... enjoy? also i half-drafted this in my DMs to @rapline-heaux, and then @kiestrokes basically beta'd this bc i can't keep anything to myself 💀 love both of you beebs!!

🔞 explicit sexual content ahead, minors begone 🔞

knj: prepare for an entire therapy session is all i'm saying. he noticed exactly what parts of his degradation made your pussy throb and you are going to UNPACK that shit together. we all know this man is a freak tho so once the emotions are processed, he's immediately telling you what things he wants to try next time bc his list is never-ending. he wants to hear all about your fantasies too, and once you mention something one time he will remember it forever, and do whatever he can to make it happen for you

ksj: hope you're ready to be treated like ROYALTY. he definitely absolutely just wrecked your shit so, y'know, gotta restore the balance. the first step is to run you a hot bath with epsom salts to soak your sore muscles and already-blossoming bruises in. he leaves you to it, poking his head back in to let you know he made dinner. if he catches so much as a glimpse of unsteadiness in your legs when you step out of the tub and slip your robe on, he's carrying you downstairs bridal-style, ignoring any attempts you make to protest

myg: if there's one thing our otherwise tsundere boy is gonna do minutes after an orgasm, it's praise the SHIT out of you. as soon as he gets his breath back, his low voice is in your ear, telling you that you took his cock so well, and how fucking hot it is to watch your tits bounce while he rails you, and how much he loves having a perfect little slut like you. he knows how crazy his praise makes you (largely in part because it's so rare from him) and honestly 50% of the time this ends in you getting so turned on that you beg him to go down on you one more time #tonguetechnology

jhs: let's be real, this man won't even be able to sit down until he puts the bedroom back together. he'll probably even vacuum while he's already up and tidying, and you really don't mind watching him do it all since he is still fully naked. once he's satisfied with the state of things (and gets you a glass of water and a snack from the kitchen bc he's an acts of service KING) he's crawling into bed next to you where you'll stay for the rest of the night, cuddling and talking and laughing until your stomach hurts

pjm: clingy clingy clingyyyyyy cuddles. his mouth and hands are everywhere at once, to the point where it could nearly count as overstimulation, in the best way possible. he loves to trace over the marks he left behind on your skin, and when he's feeling particularly bratty, loves pressing down just a little on the largest ones until he coaxes a hiss and a whine out of you. then he finally relents and reaches for the lotion, massaging you until everything smells of lavender and nothing else in the world exists to you except his hands working into your body

kth: immediately goes to sleep sldkjflksdjf I'M SORRY. he puts on music or a movie or something but yeah that man is knocked tf OUT, hope ur good bb. but you can have a little next-morning shower sex, nice and slow because he knows you're sore and swollen, as a treat

jjk: pivots so fast you can't even believe it's the same guy who was just pulling your hair and fucking you like a whore. he literally becomes this emoji: 🥺🥺 and wants to rehash everything to make sure it was all okay for you. super nervous that he went too hard even though you always tell him you can take more. once you manage to convince him that you're fine, he grins from ear to ear as he recounts how many times he made you come

#bts imagine #bts headcanon #bts scenario #bts smut #bts x reader #MY SINCEREST APOLOGIES TO THE TAE STANS #i told B he would fall the fuck asleep as a joke and nothing else felt right hahahaha

[muertawrites]

Request !! Reader on her period so bf!eddie gives her cuddles and tries to help her period cramps :(

(i'm on the second day of my period and having a horrible time with it so i needed this request. my emotions are being real bitchy to me.)

i'm just gonna write these as headcanons bc anything more formal i've tried today has flopped spectacularly

idk about the rest of y'all but i'm an emotional wreck on my period. a couple days beforehand i am just mean, and bitter, and all i want to do is cry, and on top of that i get really sleepy and just want to eat everything in sight, especially if it's high in sugar.

so this is the woman that our poor man has to deal with every month

i actually feel like eddie would be kind of squeamish about periods? like the whole concept just kind of grosses him out (and justifiably, because it is a very gross thing to go through). this means he's very careful with you when you're on your period, not wanting to be too rough or too intimate with you because it's totally weird down there right now and he doesn't want to cross a line (which is fair because, if you're like me, you go from "i just want to be swaddled like an infant" to "if anybody touches me i'll rip out their kidneys" in a matter of seconds)

but he also knows the hormones are hard on you because your emotions are just ruthless. and he's really good at supporting you when things are tough. so in this respect, he knows exactly what to do.

when you get angry at him, he knows not to argue with you. he argued with you once when you lashed out at him because of your period, and you felt so bad about the fight afterward that you made him a mixtape and bought him a new grinder to apologize. he also felt really bad and once you talked through it, he was quick to pick up on what was actual frustration and what was your period talking. (you can tell he's fictional bc he's emotionally intuitive lmaoooooo)

when you break down crying at random, he holds you. doesn't matter what the reason, he'll just plop you into his lap and cuddle you until the tears stop. he's perfectly happy letting you use him as a body pillow when you need to.

when you get really insecure about your body, or your skin starts breaking out because of the hormones, he's you go-to hype man. he reminds you constantly that you're pretty, the prettiest person he's ever seen, even when you're in your pajamas feeling gross and wishing you could become one with your mattress. totally the type of boyfriend who would do sheet masks with you. that has to stay between you, though. can't let the hellfire guys think he's going soft even tho he's soft as candy floss for you and everyone knows it.

always down to get munchies. will actually get high so you can have the munchies together. you tell him that that's not technically very sympathetic, since he loves getting high, but he buys you whatever snacks you want from 7-eleven and doesn't expect or even ask you to share, so you let it slide. loves taking you to mcdonald's or sonic late at night for fries and milkshakes.

he's SO cautious when you're cramping. even if you ask him to hold you he'll be really gentle and light with his touches because he doesn't want to hurt you. won't touch your stomach or even too high up on your thighs. he will refill your hot water bottle for you, though, and will get you ibuprofen or tea or whatever you ask him for to help.

will watch whatever comfort movie / show you want with you. he does tease you when cheesy stuff makes you overly emotional and you cry, but only because it's just so cute.

if you're in the shower he usually likes to join you, but if he knows you're on your period, he gives you space. i have a headcanon that he can get a little freaked out by the sight / smell of blood, ESPECIALLY after the incident with the demobats, so that's part of the reason. he definitely has ptsd from it and blood can trigger him.

idk he's still a guy and periods are weird to him, but he's a good boyfriend nonetheless. he does his best and he loves you. what more could you really ask for?

#eddie munson #eddie asks #eddie munson headcanon #eddie munson drabble #eddie munson blurb #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x you

[hyungseos-cafe]

warnings: mentions of scabs

genre: the boyz 98 line as tattoo buddies

word count: 626

Juyeon- 

Super hyped the week before the tattoo, but loses his mind the day before and the day of. The week before he’d be like “Okay, so you know I’m getting vines that wrap around my forearm, right? The winding vines represent the trials and tribulations of life and the leaves represent what you learn from them. That’s deep, right? Or is it too deep?” Then the day before Juyeon calls you on the phone, breathing heavily “HOLY SHIT YOU NEED TO OPEN THE FRONT DOOR! I’M SLEEPING OVER I’M SO NERVOUS” 

Before the tattoo, he covers his arm in topical numbing cream while chugging a gallon of pineapple juice.

“Juyeon, you don’t need to drink all that juice for one tattoo”

“No, but you don’t get it, I'm getting a tattoo on my forearm! It’s painful!”

During the tattoo, this poor boy nearly gets kicked out of the shop from asking his artists so many questions, he needs to know everything about getting his tattoo and aftercare. What he doesn’t know is the scabbing and how freaking itchy it can get. 

Kevin- 

Have you seen how many tattoos he has? The day of the appointment, he’d show up with snacks, headphones and his finn plushy all ready to go! 

“Here, I packed you some extra snacks!” he almost yells in excitement while shoving said snacks into your arms. 

During the appointment, he’d be making friendly conversation with the artist, asking them about their tattoos and how they began their career because he was intrigued.  

Post tattoo Kevin is an absolute sweetheart and kind along with feeling the post high of getting fresh ink while alsohaving the looming thought of wanting another. 

“Here, make sure to keep your tattoo clean and wash it twice a day with non-scented soap! Oh and don’t go swimming with it and keep it out of the sun!” 

“Got it Kevin, thanks” 

Chanhee- 

Chanhee would be so calm and schedule an appointment for the two of you, asking the shop if bringing extra supplies was okay. By extra supplies, he means snacks, blankets if it gets cold and plushies for emotional support. 

He would ask the artist if it was okay for him to sit by you while they were working on you. He would hold your hand the entire time, sharing stories of the other boys, specifically that one time in a drunken rage, Changmin bit everyone.  

“Hey, look at me, it’s okay. You’re doing so well” 

He’d squeeze your hand reassuringly while looking into your eyes. 

After the tattoo, he’d treat you out to ice cream for sitting through the pain of getting a tattoo 

“Make sure to wash your tattoo okay! Remember to take off the bandage once the four hours is over okay? I’ll remind you” 

And yes, Chanhee texted and called to remind you to take off the bandage and wash the tattoo. 

Changmin- 

404 Error! Changmin not found. 

“Changmin, come on! You promised you’d get a tattoo with me!”

“I made no such promises”

“Fine, i’ll just go ask Kevin”

“Wait no! Fine I’ll go with you” 

Poor boy is a nervous wreck on the way to the shop and nearly shits himself during his session. So much so that the artist asks you to check on him, he was so pale, like dangerously pale and on the verge of tears. 

After the tattoo, he turns into a puppy and is all clingy, like the annoying type of clingy, not the cute clingy like the weird drunk friend clingy. 

“Let’s go home and watch movies, come on, doesn’t a movie sound good right now?” 

The next day, he challenges you and asks if you want another one, only for you to recall the tantrum he threw the day before.

#hyungseos-cafe #k-labels #matcha macchiato with oat milk and pudding #the boyz imagines #the boyz blubs #the boyz 98 line #the boyz juyeon #lee juyeon #the boyz kevin #kevin moon #the boyz new #choi chanhee #the boyz q #ji changmin

[thesugarclubs-blog]

The Nightmare - Bucky Barnes x OC

warnings: death, grief, descriptions of car wreck, soft smut, Minors DNI

word count: 5.8k

WP: https://www.wattpad.com/1273713486-the-nightmare-ruby

authors note: This one gets pretty heavy and dark, please please read the warnings! It's a rollercoaster of emotions 🖤

Masterlist

She’s alone in the kitchen, a knife clutched in her hand and blood on her shirt, but she doesn’t know where it came from or whose it is. Ruby can’t remember anything, all she can feel is her heart thumping violently against her ribcage, followed by the sound of her own blood roaring in her ears. 

“Ruuuubyyyy…” A strange, gravelly voice croaks. 

The sound seems to come from everywhere and nowhere. She turns around, her fingers gripping the knife as tightly as she can, until she feels like she might shatter it.

She hears a deep scraping sound coming from the hallway. Claw marks appear on the walls heading straight for her. Bits of drywall crumble and fall to the floor. Her heart leaps into her throat, pounding so hard that her ribs threaten to crack. Sweat begins to form on her hairline and her hands get so clammy that the pressure with which she’s holding the knife causes it to slip and clatter to the ground.

“Pick up the knife, Ruby,” the voice urges with a playful yet menacing giggle.

Her legs begin to tremble, and then, suddenly, her body is slammed against the wall by an unseen force.

“I SAID PICK IT UP!” 

She scrambles on her hands and knees and quickly retrieves the knife, feeling something looming over her. Icy dread fills her veins and she gets to her feet, ready to strike, but when she looks around, there’s nothing there.

Ruby blinks, and suddenly, she’s in the living room, still holding the knife. In front of her are four bodies under sheets that are covered in blood stains and claw marks. Above their heads is a macabre sign written in blood that reads HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUBY. Ruby screams. 

And then she woke up.

Ruby sat up in her bed like a lightning bolt screaming at the top of her lungs and she could feel her heart thumping against her chest. She looked around her room and saw the clock on her bedside read midnight, it was her birthday and she just had the same nightmare she had every year.

It's not real, it's not real, it's not real she whispered to herself as she wipes sweat from her forehead. 

Ruby listened carefully as she took deep calming breaths. No scary voices or scraping on the walls. She started shuffling the blankets around to untangle them from her formerly flailing limbs and hopefully return to sleep. 

Ruby was almost comfortable again when she heard the groan of the floorboards from the hallway beyond her door.

There was a pause, then a soft, “Ruby?” came through the closed door. 

She sighed, thinking about ignoring him, before replying, “Yeah, Bucky?” A beat of silence flooded the room as if he was contemplating an answer. 

“You okay?” Muffled from the other side of cold wood. 

Ruby sighed at the obvious worry in his voice. 

“I heard—you—“ his words stumbled as she climbed from the bed, her fingers grasped the door handle, turning and whipping it open, startling the still half asleep man in front of her. 

“You were screaming.” He finished.

His eyes widened, pulling him from his sleepy state, as he took in her dishevelled appearance. Her hair was tousled and her skin was pale. When her hand dropped away from the door he could see it shaking. 

“Talk to me Ruby,” he urged, stepping forwards a little. She tucked her hands together in a desperate attempt to make them stop and walked toward the unmade bed, sitting down on the edge of the mattress, "I'm fine, the movie freaked me out I guess." 

"I almost believe you," he light heartedly teased. The bed dipped beside her, his shoulder brushing against her as she pulled at the hem of her oversized shirt so it better covered her thighs. "I've watched you eat spaghetti during the fly, you weren't screaming because of Evil Dead." ''I had a nightmare, okay? Are you happy?” Ruby admitted with a sigh. Bucky's gaze softened as he shifted his position and moved closer to her. 

''Do you want to talk about it ?'' “Not really, it’s fine. I’ve had it before,” Ruby sighed. She turned her body to face him, hair falling over her eyes as she glanced down at her shaky hands. “It’s just, you know when you have a dream and it’s so vivid. Like, you can feel every sensation even once you wake up?” 

“Thought you didn’t wanna talk about it?” Bucky chuckled, tentatively tucking Ruby’s hair behind her ear. Ruby cleared her throat and moved further onto her bed, tucking her knees up to her chest, “I don’t. I was asking you a question.” 

Bucky nodded once, and shrugged, “Not really. I don’t remember my dreams at all.” He swiped a hand through his hair and sighed, “Sorry that’s, uh, not helpful I guess.” “It’s okay. I don’t think that you could help me anyway. It’s…” 

She sighed, not knowing if she should tell him about what she was thinking because she knew it was kind of silly, but lately, nothing seemed normal. Lights that went on and off in the middle of the night, people in the streets that appeared and disappeared out of nowhere. She felt like she was going crazy. 

“Let me try,” Bucky said, his blue eyes softening as he looked at her. Ruby met his gaze through her lashes and nipped at her nails as the possible outcomes of their conversation played out in her mind. The last thing she wanted was to spill this stupid story that's been going around in her family for generations and have him think that she was a weirdo. 

She let out a breath and whispered, "Ok, but I need you to promise that you'll hear me out first and please don't make fun of me." 

Bucky took one of her hands in his and gave it a soft squeeze. 

"Ruby, if something freaked you out this much the last thing I'm gonna do is make fun of you. I just wanna help you feel better however I can." His look made her feel more nervous than she already was, head tilting to the side and soft, warm eyes trying to calm her down. His other hand placed over her now clenched one, thumb drawing figure eights on the back of her hand.

He waited so patiently to let her thoughts turn into words, never there to judge. 

Like he never did. 

She took a deep breath and let her shoulders relax. “I don’t think my dreams are just dreams…the thing is…god what am I doing…” She whispered, more to herself. "Hey," Bucky urged. "It's okay. You don't have to talk about it if it's too hard."

Ruby felt like she was swallowing cotton. She'd never told anyone about this before, it's not like anyone would ever believe her. Ruby looked up at him with tears in her eyes as her chin trembled.

"No, I-- I want to. It's just... I'm afraid you'll think I'm crazy." “I would never think that” Bucky smiled 

“My family… is kind of obsessed, well not obsessed but convinced we have this curse. Like we are connected to the supernatural world.” Ruby said averting her eyes away from Bucky so she wouldn’t see his reaction and she held her breath. "It has always been there, but then a few weeks ago the dreams started again but worse," she continued as she picked at the edge of her frayed sleep shirt. "Really fucked up stuff." 

His fingers slid into hers and he gave them a squeeze. 

"That's not...that crazy," he replied softly. She glanced back at him, huffing a light laugh. “Dreams are only the half of it, Bucky. I’m seeing things when I’m awake that aren’t there but feel so real, I can feel random cold spots in places when it’s 90 degrees out and there’s no air, things move or disappear…” She anxiously watched as Bucky pressed his lips into a thin line almost wincing as she spoke.

 "See...crazy." Ruby muttered, pulling her fingers from his as she scooted further back into the headboard. "Just forget I said anything." He took a deep breath and shook his head before answering.

“Look, Ruby, if you say that this is happening to you then I believe you. I’d be a pretty shit friend if I didn’t eh?”

He gave her a half smile and she eventually met his eyes again. "Am I shit friend, Ruby?" he asked turning on the bed, the fabric of his cropped white football jersey riding up enough to show the bottom of his chest as he crawled toward her and rested against the headboard. He tucked his arm around her shoulder and pulled her in tightly to the curve of his body.

Ruby sighed, laying her head against his chest. She could hear the soft thud of his heart beat in her ear as she weighed her options about telling him everything. She looked up at him and swallowed her fear, "last week I watched Mr. Stark, the school janitor, mop the floors with blood. I don't know what's happening."

Bucky sighed, pressing a soft kiss to her hair and attempting to smooth the wild locks down with the palm of his hand. His skin felt warm, his body solid beneath her — comfort amongst the chaos of her mind. 

“Has anything happened to trigger this?” He asked and Ruby shrugged. 

“Even if it had, I don’t see how that would help get rid of it.” “Well sometimes knowing what triggers it, can help you stop it” he suggested, playing with the baby hairs on the back of her neck. 

Ruby closed her eyes, and tried to think of the days before. Everything had been normal, aside from the visions and her inability to get a good nights sleep. As she kept trying to remember, Ruby felt herself drifting again, until a loud screeching, like nails on a chalk board, caused her to shoot back up with a gasp. 

“Hey, hey I’m right here!” Bucky soothed. “What just happened?”

Ruby tried to tell him what she just saw, but as quickly as the vision came, it vanished again. 

“Ru?” he pulled her out of her thoughts. He hasn’t called her Ru in what feels like forever. 

“I- I don’t know. I just think I don’t want to be alone tonight….ca-can you stay, maybe? Here? With me?” She gulped.

“Of course.” He said, “I’ll stay as long as you want. I won’t leave you…ever.” he whispered the last part as she cuddled back into him.

"Thanks Buck." 

Bucky pulled the covers on top of her as they settled into the pillows. Ruby focused her thoughts on the rise and fall of Bucky's chest below her hand, trying to bring her breaths as close as she could to the soft rhythm of his. 

"I've got you birthday girl. You want us to keep talking? About that or anything else, or do you wanna try to sleep?" 

"Talking is good, I don't think I can sleep right now."

“Of course, I have all the time in the world,” he whispered as he grazed a thumb against the side of her face. 

It was comforting, making her sink down further into his chest with closed eyes. It made her feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside. It felt like by only focusing on that, it could help her erase every bugging thought in her mind for a while, to be in the present.

His lips met her hairline, they felt warm against her skin as she opened her eyes again. “Bucky…is there anything you’re afraid of?”

"I don't know," he hummed. 

She laughed and nuzzled into his chest. He placed one more kiss atop her head and she felt his warm arms wrap around her a little tighter.

"You don't know?" 

He shook his head and Ruby glanced up at him to see his gorgeous lips spreading out into a smile.

"You've gotta give me something better than that, Barnes," She teased. "I was all vulnerable with you."

His bright eyes misted and he sniffled, swallowing hard.

"Losing you." 

His voice was barely above a whisper.

Ruby’s heart melted at that. “I don’t know what I would do without you. You are my best friend in the whole world and you mean so much to me. It is just so easy to talk to you” she spoke curling herself even more into his arms.

Bucky's hands moved over her back, drawing small circles through the thin fabric. She inhaled his familiar smell, some cheap cologne he bought when the mall opened after Ruby said she thought it smelled nice. There's something else there, something new. Like motor oil. It's faint and just as soon as she figured out what it reminds her of, the scent disappears. 

"Hey, where'd you go there? Kinda staring off into space and weirding me out," Bucky murmured with a laugh.

“It’s nothing,” Ruby mutters, brow furrowing slightly as a shiver ran through her body. Bucky pulled her closer, and she shook the thought off, saying, “Bucky, tell me a story.”

She could feel him take a slow long deep breath as her head rose and fell with his chest. 

"A story huh?" He breathed.  "Lets see..."

She looked up at him, taking in the curve of his jaw and the cleft in his chin as he started to speak.

“Once upon a time…”

They both giggled but Bucky continued regardless, looking down on her with a soft gaze.

“…there was this amazing girl…”

"I don't want to hear the story about how you met Natasha, again." 

He shook his head, the longer strands of hair around his forehead falling slightly out of place as she crept her fingers under the warm fabric of his shirt. "There was a young boy, he watched this girl every single day. The girl was everything, she held the stars in her eyes," he touched her cheek bone with the pad of his thumb collecting a small tear that had escaped. "She was the first warm breeze after a long winter. Her laugh made you feel like you could fly and with her around you believed it without a doubt. She was brave and bold but she was always the first person to smile at you in the hallways at school. She was sunshine trapped in this little beautiful body, there was not a person in the world that made him feel the way she did."

"The boy sounds in love," she smiled.

"The boy was consumed by it," Bucky gave her a small, tender smile as his hand cupped her jaw. 

"where did she go?" Ruby's fingers traced the soft curve of his peck and Bucky's tongue ran along his bottom lip, "You said was. She was." she noted. 

 "She's just a little far away at the moment," Bucky inhaled slowly, "just a little out of reach."

"I hope she finds her way back. Maybe if you light up the path with all the light you have in your heart." The words that left Ruby's lips, barely a whisper. 

Bucky kissed her forehead, his lips touched her skin lightly.

Bucky smiled into her skin, and tightened his grip around her ever so slightly. "I think he's just sad it took this long for him to tell her.." He whispered back. 

Ruby turned her head up to look at him, locking her eyes with his. Was this story about her? Was this his way of telling her something? She bit her lip, and brought her hand up to cup his cheek, "Bucky..." 

"I should have told you every day since your last birthday..." A small smile tugged at his lips. "I love you, Ruby" 

She sucked in a shaky breath, and ran her thumb across her lips, "I love you too, Bucky" She stretched up, lightly pressing her lips to his, noting how cold they felt. 

Bucky's hand found its way into her hair, and pressed her deeper into the kiss. He pulled her body on top of his, that faint smell of oil and gas returning, but Ruby ignored it.

She straddled his lap as he opened his mouth to deepen the kiss. His hands found their way up her thighs. A soft moan escaped her as he moved his lips from hers, kissing her jaw down to her throat and sucking on that sweet spot she liked. It was right next to the tiny scar she got when she was drunk once. 

“Bucky, I-“ she was out of breath but stopped when she heard sirens coming from outside. 

“Don’t listen to them, Ru. Just listen to me. I’m right here,” he breathed and kissed her scar. “God, you are amazing. I’ve waited way too long for this.”

A breathy moan left her mouth as she tilted her head to give him more access, plump lips tracing her scar so gently. 

Goosebumps pricked along her skin when he ran his tongue along it, slightly cold. “ Then why didn’t you come earlier? “

His hands gripped her waist, travelling up to grab her shoulders as he pulled back. “ I tried…and when I thought the right time had come…”

He placed one hand over her heart, his light touch made it feel like she’d run into something solid, making her flinch as she jumped back slightly.

“ Ruby. “ He whispered as she opened her eyes, seeing a blood covered Bucky in front with widened eyes. 

Ruby gasped and pulled away from him, a strangled cry spilling from her lips. Her eyes instinctively slammed shut and she turned her head to the side as tears rushed down her face and her heart hammered against her ribs. It's not real, it's not real.

"Ruby?" Bucky whispered.

She felt his hands on her face as he gently grasped her chin and turned her head to face him. Ruby kept her eyes shut, her entire body frozen in fear. She was so sick of this, of these dreams invading every second of her life. Nothing about her was normal.

"Ruby, open your eyes for me, sweets. Please?"

"I can't."

She felt his lips, cool against her skin, as he kissed away the tears that continued to fall. 

"Yes you can. For me? I'll keep you safe, princess."

Slowly, they fluttered open and through a thick mass of tears, she saw him clear as day and completely fine. He smiled at her. Bucky seemed to know what she was thinking. Her scar began to throb a little, the dull pain radiating through her head and jaw. Bucky pressed his lips to it. His hands held on tightly to her, fingertips sinking into her waist.

"I've got you," he breathed as he kissed her scar.

A shiver ran down her spine, there was a sudden chill in her room. She looked to her window and saw that it was shut, but why was she cold all of a sudden? Taking a couple of deep breaths she turned back to Bucky. 

“I … don’t know what just happened… it seemed so real…” she whispered.

Bucky shushed her softly, rubbing his thumb across her trembling bottom lip. 

"I'm here with you now. That's all that matters." 

She nodded quickly as his hand snaked around her neck to pull her in for another kiss. This one is more frantic, their breaths coming out in shorter pants each time they pull apart. Ruby whimpered as he released her mouth, lips swollen and glistening with saliva. 

"I won't leave you again, I promise," he whispered as his hands tangled in her wavy hair.

The lights flickered as Ruby pressed her hands to his abs, sliding one under his crop top to feel his firm pecs, the other sliding past his waistband, stopping just above his dick. 

“I need you Bucky, please, say you need me too.”

A small gasp left his lips, he dipped his head into the crook of her neck, his breath felt cool against her skin. 

"I've always needed you Ruby." He whispered in an almost soft whine while her fingers danced along his hip bones. 

Ruby pulled back once more, tilting her head to look at him. He was beautiful, his hair was a mess and bright blue eyes looked up at her and suddenly she felt consumed by him.

Bucky helped her, removing his shirt as she freed him from the shorts and tossed them to the side, Ruby took in his naked form bathed in the moonlight and flicked her tongue across her lips. Outside, the wind howled, mimicking the bone chilling sounds of a woman screaming. She closed her eyes quickly again, battling against the horrors that raged within her mind. The world around them seemed to crash against the walls of her room, scratching to get out like a wild animal. Hungry for blood, chasing their happiness, desperate for death. 

"Ruby," Bucky whispered through the noise. "It's just you and me."

"Come on, princess. Show me what you want." Bucky's voice was hoarse and laced with desire. 

Trailing her fingers lightly over the valley of taut skin and a  faint dusting of chest hair, her finger stopped at the waistband of his boxers. 

"I want you. All of you. Always." Her voice broke as the branches of the trees outside scratched against her window in an eerily screeching sound.

Her hands traced down his abdomen, and over a large scar he had across his chest. She didn't remember that being there before. She shook her head slowly, throwing the thought away, as she leaned down and pressed her lips to his cold skin.  Ruby kissed her way down, paying attention to each hip bone as she wrapped her fingers around his cock. 

No more horrible thoughts. It was just her and Bucky. That's all she needed. Always. 

"Ruby.." Bucky whined, moving his hips against her hand. 

A smirk formed on her lips, as she moved her hand up and down slowly, "So needy." She whispered.

“Fuck.” He breathed as she spit on her hand and continued to move it up and down his cock.

He was lying back on her bed, his eyes closed. He seemed to enjoy every single second of it. His hands were placed in her hair, grabbing a fistful as he got closer and closer to his high. 

“Sweets,” he breathed, “I don’t want you to stop but - fuck - I’m close.” 

He pulled her head away from his cock and up to his face, kissing her passionately as he tried to get her out of her clothes.

She straddled him once again, his cock brushed against her clothed front making her whimper from the sensational feeling when she started to grind on it, feeling how soaked her panties became. 

His hands grabbed the hem of her shirt, tugging on it gently as he pulled back. “ Can we take this off? I want to see every part of your beauty. “

She bit her lip and she blushed from his words, nodding quickly. “ Please… “

He pulled it off in one go, admiring the sight in front of him. “No bra huh?” He smirked up at her, never breaking eye contact as his lips grazed over one of her nipples before sucking on it and flicking his tongue around it. 

She threw her head back with a soft moan. “Oh Bucky…feels so good…”

Bucky chuckled softly and bit down gently, causing her to whimper. His mouth travelled up the column of her throat and he nipped at her earlobe. As he breathed out, she heard the faint sound of glass shattering and when her eyes closed, she saw a bright white light. She tried to focus on the sound of his voice drowning out everything else.

"I love you, Ruby. I've always loved you."

Her hips continued to grind against him and she bit down on her bottom lip.

"I love you too. God, I need you."

He pulled back, his eyes so bright they almost looked like headlights in the dark. Her breath caught in her chest as she had the faintest feeling that she had seen something like this before. Again, she ignored it. It didn't matter now. All that mattered was him. 

Bucky smiled and hooked a finger in the waistband of her shorts. 

"Then let's get these off of you, shall we?"

Ruby rolled off his lap onto the bed, sliding back towards the headboard. Bucky followed close behind, his fingers catching in the fabric of her pajamas. The movement dragged her closer to him as he pulled the shorts down, tossing them to the side. 

"Jesus," Ruby moaned at the sight of him, the hard lines of his stomach and arms flexing as he moved toward her.

His forearms came up to cage Ruby in and he rubbed his nose against hers. 

"Just trying to help you out, sweetheart." 

He started slowly rocking his hips against her, sending electric shocks through her body that had her toes curling with each thrust. She was going to come before he was even inside of her. 

"Is that what you needed?" Bucky whispered breathlessly against her cheek. "Or should I give you more?" 

“I’ll beg if you want me to Bucky, just hurry up and fuck me,” Ruby moaned, lifting her hips, grinding desperately into him. 

“Jesus, okay baby, hang on,” Bucky muttered. “I gotcha Ru, I’ll take care of you.”

A blare of a car horn startled her, but Bucky didn’t seem to hear it, rolling the two of them so she was on top. “Why don’t you set the pace, maybe that’ll make you feel a little more comfortable.”

Ruby nodded her head, her chest heaving with pants as she tried to forget the noise. Bucky's hands gripped onto her hips helping her lift up slightly. She reached between them, grasping his cock and lining him up with her entrance. Ruby needed him and the more she sank onto him, it felt like a timer in her had started. 

Her mouth dropped slightly, feeling every inch of him as she settled onto him. "Feels so good," He groaned tilting his head back against her pillow. 

She began rolling her hips, slow at first before growing desperate as their moans began to fill the room. Whimpers and groans turned into quiet screeches and the sound of metal crunching. Ruby could feel that timer quickly ticking down and it only fueled her need for him.

Bucky's hands helped create a steady motion, rocking her back and forth, "I missed you." his head tilted back up as he admired every inch of her body.

Ruby leaned into his grip, arching her back as she rolled her hips forward in a needy attempt to feel him entirely. She slammed her eyes shut, willing herself to ignore the horrible images filling her mind of blood and twisted metal.

A bright light flashed in her eyes, as she heard Bucky moan from beneath her, the smell of burning and gasoline filling her senses. 

"Bucky…" She whined, opening her eyes and searching his features, as she reached for him, tangling her fingers in his, needing every bit of closeness she could get. He was right here, with her. Nothing bad was happening. It was a perfect moment. She repeated that to herself, as she rocked her hips, picking up her pace. 

"I'm right here, my love" He groaned, giving her hand a squeeze. "I've got you…" He cupped her cheek, and brought her lips down to meet his.

She squeezed his hand harder. She trusted the love of her life with her whole heart. Their heavy breathing mixed between them when she pulled back. 

“Never let me go.” She placed her forehead against his, blue eyes looking so deeply into hers. 

“Never.” He grunted with a final trust, warmth spread inside of her as he filled her up.

It made her let go, a tingling feeling shooting through her whole body and she collapsed onto him. Skin sticky against each other as they both tried to come down from their high.

She could feel electricity crackling through her nerve endings, making them explode as she shook on top of them. Bucky grabbed her chin gently and kissed her softly as he continued to move her hips. He wasn't finished.

"It's almost midnight, sugar."

Ruby looked at the clock, 11:51 p.m. and couldn't help but laugh. She couldn't believe this was happening. Ruby had adored him for so long, and she finally had him.

"It's not like you're going to turn into a pumpkin or something."

He chuckled softly. The smell of burning gasoline got stronger and she saw something dark and red gathering at his hairline like sweat. She blinked. It flickered in and out of her vision like television static. Ruby bit her lip. 

"Bucky--"

"Ruby, I'm--" 

He spilled into her with a groan and her mouth eclipsed his once more.

Ruby let out a whimper as he cupped her cheek, pressing soft kisses to her sweaty skin. 

"My sweet girl," he whispered. "Always my sweet girl." 

He rolled to her side with a groan, his fingers laying next to her thigh. The smell of smoke tickled Ruby's nose and throat, causing her to cough. Her eyebrows furrowed as she looked up at the ceiling. She felt cold suddenly, an unwelcome feeling tingling at her hands and feet. 

"Buck, something isn't right."

Bucky coughed, it sounding wet and heavy. She grabbed his hand, holding his freezing fingers tight. “Tell me another story, Bucky?”

He sighed heavily. “Once upon a time…there was the best girl in the world. She and her best pal were going driving one night, the night that shoulda been one of the best of their lives. It was her birthday see, and it was Halloween.”

Ruby lifted her head, looking at Bucky. His skin looked paler than before and his normally bright smile seemed weaker. 

His head rolled to the side, glancing at the clock. 11:54 "It was late like it is now..." His voice sounded strained as his head lulled back towards her. "The road was dark and the only light was from their headlights..." 

Tears stung her eyes as he spoke, "Bucky--" she whispered, a mournful feeling pitting in her stomach.

"Listen, we don't have time," he coughed again, blood dripping from the corner of his full lips.  "There was something in the road, you didn't have time. The car flipped. I think you're seeing me because of your family, I don't think I can stay..." he stopped, his mouth falling open as two large lines started to pull through his perfect flesh creating new horrific wounds that framed his blue eyes.

Ruby watched as everything around her melted away leaving her standing on a long dark highway; the only source of light was a set of flares and the flashing lights of a cop car. "Bucky?" She spun around, frantic, remembering, "Bucky!"

She ran toward the bright hot lights of the flares, stumbling over her own bare feet until she was standing in the wet grass of the ditch. "Ruby," Bucky's voice barked from behind her, standing mere feet from her covered in blood, "It wasn't your fault, remember that. It wasn't your fault."

"Bucky!" Ruby screeched, as a searing pain spread from the scar behind her ear across the rest of her head. She brought her hand up to her nose, and pulled it away, seeing the blood dripping from it. No. no. no this couldn't be happening. She heard the faint sound of tires squealing ring through her mind. 

The faint feeling of a hand brushing her cheek, brought tears from her eyes. "I love you Ruby... I'll never leave you..." He whispered in her ear. 

"No, no, no... This isn't real... this isn't happening… this is all a dream." She grasped her head in her hands and fell to her knees in the grass. "Bucky, help me! Please..." She screamed again.

Her pained cries surrounded her, tears streamed down her cheeks and her fingers dug into the skin of her chest. She wanted to rip out the aching pain in her heart.

This isn’t real.

“Y-you said…you wouldn’t let me go…” her voice quivered as she looked up at him, what was left of him.

He faded slowly right in front of her. She could almost see right through his sad,weak smile as he hunched down to meet her eyes. One cold hand reached up to cup her cheek. She closed her eyes, trying to remember how he felt when warm instead. 

“Look at me baby, I don’t have much time left…please.” He spoke right in front of her, but still he sounded so far away.

Shaking her head, she sobbed when she felt him place his forehead against hers, kissing her nose in the most tender way. “ I can’t…I don’t want to remember you like this. “

“Once upon a time there was a girl…” He said softly. 

She finally opened up her eyes, remembering when they laid in bed in each other's arms not long ago. He smiled down at her, the softest and sweetest smile that told her how much he loved and adored the woman in front of him.

Ruby shot up in her bed, her sweat covering the sheets as her alarm clock went off. She swung her arm at it, hurling it to the ground. It let out one final long, dying beep and then stopped. 

Sunlight was pouring in through the windows of her bedroom. As she looked around, she could still smell Bucky's cologne mixed with the faint scent of motor oil and copper. Ruby's hand clawed at her chest, her fingernails digging into her skin. 

Her eyes immediately went to the picture sitting on her nightstand. Her and Bucky at homecoming. He was kissing her cheek while she laughed. Both of them were the happiest they had ever been until that night changed everything. It was her fault. She should have never gotten in the car after drinking that much. He trusted her. 

Every birthday since then has been the same. Ruby reached over and grasped the photo.

"I'm sorry, Bucky."

Tears dripped onto the glass, distorting his face. Ruby quickly wiped them away, but there were so many falling that she couldn't keep up. She could still feel his lips on hers, and still feel his presence in the room. Ruby's eyes closed and her eyes filled with tears. 

She dropped the photo, put her head in her hands and began to weep, knowing that no matter what she did or how far she ran, her guilt would haunt her for the rest of her life.

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[servin-up-surveys]

survey #164

What books, if any, have made you cry? Johnny Got His Gun, Old Yeller, The Outsiders, The Notebook, A Walk to Remember, The Giver, The Hunger Games (you know the part), Of Mice and Men, and I KNOW there's even more, a lot that I surprisingly can't remember the names of; I cry very easily, and if you give me an emotional book, odds are super high at least a single tear is coming out.

How many times do you use a bath towel before washing it? Once.

What was your favorite thing to do as a little kid? Play video games.

Who was the last person to ask you out? Girt.

Could you call your best friend right now and tell them your biggest secret, and trust them to keep it? Oh I know I could.

Do you like watching music videos? Only Rammstein's haha, I really don't care about others'. Theirs are the only music videos I've ever cared about watching.

What kind of relationship do you have with the last person you kissed? We're in a serious, monogamous relationship together.

Do you have scars on your wrists? You can't see them anymore, no.

What is your least favorite color? A yellowish olive green.

What’re some movies you love that people wouldn’t expect you to like? Romance ones specifically, like Nicholas Sparks' book film adaptations, and Titanic. I genuinely love movies like those, when I'm in the right mood to get emotional lol.

Are you “in the closet” about anything? No.

Are you missing any teeth? Besides wisdom teeth, no.

What kind of sound or noise freaks you out the most and why do you think it scares you? Sirens really, really frighten me, especially the like, air raid or tornado sort of shit, but I find all of them anxiety-inducing just because of the associations with a siren going off. Also tires screeching on the road TERRIFIES me, because it usually comes before a car wreck.

Do you think makeup on guys is freaky or sexy? SEXY AS FUCK

Are you most comfortable with having short hair or long hair? Short, definitely.

Who was the last person you saw that you haven’t seen in a while? Miss Angela, my original best friend's mother, who works at the dentist I go to.

Are you a visual, audio, or kinesthetic learner? Very kinesthetic. Also visual, like especially for things like math, if you're just audibly explaining it to me, it's not gonna do shit, I need a combination of the other two.

What are your feelings towards glitter? It's obviously messy as hell, but I like it aesthetically.

Are the blankets that are on your bed now made by someone you know in real life? No, but that's such a cozy idea. My mom's been knitting a giant blanket since she was like LITERALLY 18-ish and I do hope she eventually finishes it before she passes away because I either want to keep it or have Ashley keep it for her kids to have, but seeing how she's been with Mom lately who knows if she'd even want it...

Would you ever have a child just to get someone to fall in love with you? lol that is NOT how that works, my guy, literally ever

Who in your phone has a heart after their name? Girt.

What do you think is creepy that society accepts as normal? Beauty pageants, specifically for young kids/basically babies.

What do you think is a good date other than dinner and a movie? My dream date is a picnic by a lake or something similar.

Are you biracial? No.

Which was the worst phase in your life? Late 2015 to the very beginning of 2017.

Does your ex’s new romantic interest know about the things you two did together? I don't even know who anyone is dating, if they are to begin with.

Do you ever tell your current significant other about the things that you did with an ex-partner? Literally only if it's relevant, like he asks a question or it's just a brief mention because it fits the conversation, but it's never in a wistful sort of way or anything.

Do you like holding hands or do you think it's stupid? I do, I don't think it's "stupid" at all.

What do you like about your birthday? I love getting to see family like my sisters and dad, and Girt of course comes over too. I also cut myself the most slack food-wise that day, I really do just have what I want that day; I'm just nicer to myself and let myself enjoy the day however I want to.

Do you like being home alone at night? No, that makes me uncomfortable; I can do it and have before, but I don't like it.

Has an ambulance ever come to your house? Not THIS current house, but the last one; that's how my mom got transported to the hospital and her cancer was discovered. She was as close to immobile as I have ever seen her, she was immensely not okay.

Whose pool did you last swim in? It was in our local hospital complex, the area where you do aquatic physical therapy.

What's the cutest thing someone's ever done for you? Oh idk, there's so much, both romantically and just as an aunt. I don't wanna pick a favorite.

How many people know about the last person you kissed? I don't know, it's not a secret and it's not new news either, we've been together a few months shy of two years.

How many different cars have you driven? Uhhhh... good question? Besides the car used in driver's ed classes, maybe like, two? It's possible it's actually only one, I can't even remember how long we've had the car we do now.

What door did you last open besides any on your house or car? Probably one in Girt's house?

Who is the person you have hurt the most? Ultimately, probably my mom. I suppose maybe Sara.

Who is the person that has hurt you the most? Jason, when it boils down to it. Sara has said things that hurt me more, way more than anything Jason ever said, HOWEVER I dealt with the severity of the loss of him astronomically worse and for a much longer period.

When you go to Mcdonald's, what drink do you usually get? Coke.

What’s the worst type of weather in your opinion? Hot and humid. It makes me want to fucking die.

Who last called you sexy? Girt, I'm sure. Not exactly something I hear from a non-significant other, lol.

Is it possible to "fall out of love?" I am completely and entirely confident that I myself have experienced this, so I know it is.

Have you ever had a crush on someone of the same gender? Yes, more than once.

Is your significant other of the same ethnicity as you? Uh, I thiiiiink he'd be considered biracial? His mother is your ordinary Caucasian, but his dad was Native American, however I don't really know if that's an independent ethnicity? Race? I get these words confused, ngl.

How cold does it have to be before you put on a sweater? If wind isn't a factor, it's gotta get to like, the low 50*Fs before I want one.

Kisses on the cheek or the neck? how much time we got LMAOOOOO

One word to describe your most recent ex? Overdramatic.

What’s the best food to have at a sleepover? OBVIOUSLY pizza.

Where was the very first kiss you had with the last person you kissed? My old house's living room.

As a kid, did you ever get in trouble for drawing on the wall? No, I definitely don't remember ever doing so.

Ever had to have someone help you walk before? Yes, after I fainted or when I’ve been very dizzy for whatever reason, but I think I most heavily did so when I tore a ligament in my ankle or something and could put a total of ZEEEEERO pressure on that foot, it took so long to heal and it was FUCKING miserable. I'd be fighting off crying even when I would lean on Mom, that pain was unreal.

Name 5 things you don’t believe in. Fate/destiny, things like tarot cards or fortune tellers/psychics of any sort, horoscopes, anti-vax inane bullshit, and soulmates.

In what circumstances do you feel most at peace? Mornings where Girt stayed the night before and he's still sleeping when I wake up and I still lay down with him and just listen to birds and stuff.

Have you ever worn a thumb ring? Yes, that's the finger I wore my friendship ring with Sara on, but I've since thrown it away.

Would you give someone a second chance if they physically hurt you? HELL fucking no

What are five things you inherited from your mom? Low metabolism, height, high cholesterol, skin tone and some freckling (primarily on my arms), and thick hair.

What are five things you inherited from your dad? I HATE how like him I have very little common sense/miss things that a lot of people generally see as very obvious, when my legs were fine I paced like he did (I won't at all be surprised if it's a habit I pick back up as my legs get stronger), I have an addictive personality, uh... I'm blanking after that.

Have you ever dated someone with longer hair than yours? Yeah, Sara's hair was much longer than mine.

Do you ever wonder what your ex or most recent “thing” is up to? I mean sure, I wonder, but I don't let myself check her socials ever. It's better that way.

What pets does your best friend have? He has one dog, a pit/shepherd mix named Charlie. I think technically he's his mom's, that's "Mom" to him, but Girt loves him to death and Charlie clearly loves him too.

Do you think somebody’s in love with you? Pretty sure yeah.

What type of tree is the most common where you live? Pine trees, by a fucking longshot. There are SO many pine trees.

Do you have anything planned for June so far? Yeah, my niece's birthday as well as her mom/my older sister's only a few days later. I don't know what we're doing for Ashley's, but I know Aubree's bday party is this month.

[TW: SELF-HARM] Do you know anyone who self-harms? I don't know about anymore, but I know plenty plenty plenty of people who have previously.

Who were you last in a car with and where did you go? My mom, we just rode to pick up our groceries from Wal-Mart.

Name the last three people you kissed and list one nice thing about each one. Girt is very loyal, Sara was a great creative, and Tyler, uh... he was generally sweet?

When was the last time you felt EXTREMELY depressed? Why is that? Extremely depressed, let's see... I'm not really sure, like sure I still deal with depression, but it's nothing like I shit I dealt with up until the start of 2017. "Extremely," for me and my experiences, means REALLY fucking severe, and I'm grateful I can't answer this confidently.

Who was the last person to kiss your forehead? Girt, I know he did this recently before he left and I was falling asleep.

#survey #surveys #random questions #personal questions

[softpadawan]

Liveblogging Jedi Fallen Order pt. 1

Is there any better way to open a movie than with Mongolian folk metal? The answer is no, there isn't 🤘

I'm really liking Cal's maternity poncho. Comfortable yet flattering. The galaxy definitely needs more Jedi babies, so I'm glad he's doing his part

I instantly like Prauf. Instantly like Cere. Instantly like Greez. Instantly like this entire thing.

JEDI FALLEN ORDER IS MY FAVORITE STAR WARS MOVIE

I like the jingle-jangle sound effects of all the shit Cal has hanging off of him. You'll always know where he is, like a cat wearing a bell

Mantis is a REALLY NICE ship. GD limo compared to the Ghost, and the Ghost is one of my favorite starships. Greez has good taste

My boy not only listens to metal but plays space guitar? I'm so in love with this guy it's starting to piss me off

Really gotta hand it to the actors and animators. The moment when Cal finds out Cere was a Jedi and the sheer amount of angst on his face and the emotion conveyed in that throaty "Do I know you?" is just... wow. Bravo.

I REALLY like Mantis's design. It's a nice looking ship inside and out

OHMYGOD IT'S A GIANT ONE-EYED DICK MAGGOT WITH LEGS KILL IT CAL KILL IT WITH FIRE

I'M ALMOST IN TEARS OVER BD-1 AND HIS BUSTED LITTLE LEG AND THE WAY HE JUST RUNS TO CAL AND HOPS INTO HIS ARMS GAWWWWD

🚨 PROTECT BD-1 AT ALL COSTS 🚨 also CONGRATULATIONS ON BECOMING A DROID DAD CAL. STAR WARS IS ALL ABOUT ACCIDENTAL FATHERHOOD

Cal just keeps a welding gun on his belt NBD askdfalsk get help I'm dying (You can take the boy out of the scrapyard but you'll never take the scrapyard out of the boy)

Including this shot for No Reason At All

(Sidenote: I'm pleased to report that half, if not the majority, of Rule 34 Cal Kestis art swings toward the Definitely Gay and Loving It)

I really like how they handled the flashbacks in this game and tied them in with Cal remembering his Jedi training and the player learning new skills, very cool

BD-1 running as fast as his little legs will go, I have never seen anything so cute

Also, I'm glad we get to see Cal being playful and smiling and laughing. He's been through Some Shit™ but he's still got hope, especially now that he's reconnecting with the Force again. I can't help but wonder if this might have happened to Kanan Jarrus (Caleb Dume) if he hadn't gone down the Scoundrel Path with Janus Kasmir and eventually become the [most likely] alcoholic wreck that Hera finds on Gorse. Cal spent 5 years in hiding before receiving the call (age 18 roughly). Kanan was in hiding for 8 years and didn't even really use the Force for another 6, when he met finally Ezra (at age 28). Though they're close to the same age, Cal has 10 years' experience on Kanan because he was "rescued" sooner. Really getting some strong feelings about these poor Purge-surviving Padawans

The score is excellent. Wow. This is a really impressive production.

Cal Kestis: Fannypack Handyman Toolbelt Dad. He's the male equivalent of those girls who have fuckin everything in their purses. Tissues? Yep. Breath mints? Got 'em. Combo lock picker/glass cutter/nail clippers? Here, sweetie. Hand sanitizer? Help yourself. He's got it all and can fix everything, even broken hearts

My boy is such a tatty little rat. Scuffed boots. Fraying trousers. Some kind of saddle for a vest. Poor kid doesn't even have two gloves. He's just getting by and making do on whatever he can scrounge (like my other boy, Ezra)

JUST SIT DOWN IN THE WATER, OKAY FINE YOU ANIMAL, SHEESH

WooHOO mud surfing--oh holy FUCK IT'S A GIANT 3-EYED CHERNOBYL TOAD, DON'T GET VORED CAL! FUUUUUCK THAT THING HAS TEETH! FASTER PUSSYCAT! KILL! KILL! What even IS it? It looks like a crocotoad or something you'd find in the Florida Everglades

Conclusion: I am Greez. I would totally freak out if someone brought a wet, oily dog into my nice clean house and it immediately jumped on my couch. And Cere's smirk at Cal's deadpan "Not really." LOLOL

New headcanon: Cal is a grungy plebe and the reason why Greez can't have nice things

Sometimes you just know when a character would be an awesome dad, and Cal strikes me as one of them *has already created the "Kanan Jarrus & Cal Kestis as Space Dads" tag on AO3*

"I'm just asking 'cause I was thinking of maybe making some food." GREEZ I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPRESS

"Cal, as long as you're alive, you will always have choice." CERE I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPRESS

Annnnd to Dathomir we go, a totally safe and not-creepy place where a certain former Sith Lord may or may not be decorating his cave with Mandalorian relics. Surewhynot

Greez: Buckle up, kiddies! We're going trick-or-treating!

To be continued in Part 2

#star wars #jedi fallen order #cal kestis #liveblogging #jfo #cut scenes #mpreg #kanan jarrus #caleb dume #ezra bridger #the last padawan #star wars rebels #bd-1 #greez dritus #cere junda #janus kasmir #space dads #slightly ns/fw

[onlyyyariii]

The Interview

Part 1

"Let's all give a warm welcome to Ms. Liana Summers!" Jimmy says announcing me as I make my way into the stage.

I wave and smile at the audience before taking my seat.

"Boy do we have a lot to talk about!"

I smile and nod, "Thank you for inviting me. I love your show."

"Well most people do," he laughs and I let out a small giggle, "lets start with the movie you just finished up. What was it again?"

"Oh, it was a movie called Unrequited Love. I played opposite KJ Apa. He was my characters love interest."

"Remind us what the movie was about."

"Of course, so my character her name is Daisy Smith and she's loved this boy James Porter for as long as she can remember. They're friends, super close friends but she's definitely in the friendzone. Having such strong feelings for one of her best friends puts her in a place of constant stress and jealousy. She'd never tell him how she felt because she didn't want to lose him completely. The day after James tell her," I pause looking at the audience, "about something, she starts feeling sick. Soon enough she's coughing out flower petals and feeling the effects of Hanahaki disease. Of course her parents get worried and take her to the hospital where they learn of the disease. The rest you guys are going to have to wait for."

"That sounds like such a fun role to play."

"For me it was! I love acting and when I got the call that the casting director thought I would be great for the part of course I went in and auditioned but I got cast for the part about 3 days after I auditioned. Apparently I was just what they were looking for. Then I fangirled over KJ for a little bit before actually meeting him and getting to know him. It took us three months to film the movie. KJ and I have gotten close. We FaceTime a lot and I know he's watching this so," I turn to look into the camera, "I'm watching you K man." I giggle and turn back towards Jimmy.

"You two seem very close."

"Yeah we are, it's nice to have a boy best friend again, ya know?"

"While we're on the subject, do you miss your old best friend, Grayson Dolan? A lot of people say that things got tense between you two after you and Ethan broke up."

I had to laugh, that's the only way to keep my emotions inside. That's the only way to keep myself from full out sobbing on live tv.

"Sometimes I miss them. We grew up together and they were always there for me. The thing about Ethan and I's relationship is complicated. When the three of us got popular on Vine and then YouTube, I was always shipped with them. Like the fans would want me to date Ethan or get married to Grayson. For being such close friends it didn't matter to us, we often made jokes about it. Little did anyone know Ethan and I had been dating since we were 17. I was open with the fans about the fact that I had a boyfriend. I never let them know who it was, just that he and I were together. After about three years of dating Ethan told the world that he had a girlfriend. A few months later we announced we were together. At this point we'd been together for almost four years."

"Wow that's a very long time to be dating someone. Especially when you're so young."

"Exactly. Everyone wanted us to be together until we actually came out and said we were together. At this point we were almost 21. On two previous occasions Ethan had asked me to marry him, only to take it back after a month of me wearing the ring. The second time he asked I said yes because I loved him. I truly did love him but I told him how much I wanted to marry him and have kids with him and he freaked out. I wanted kids young, I didn't want to have my first child at like 28. After he freaked out I told him we couldn't be together anymore. Not only did I compromise with him but I also pushed back what I wanted for the sake of our relationship. I couldn't keep hurting myself anymore. After we announced our break up everyone started shipping Grayson and I again. It made me think that I must've chosen the wrong twin. If I was with Grayson, we would've gotten married the first time he asked and I'd probably of had a baby by then."

"We've all heard about Grayson Dolan and his baby fever that he's had for a long time now. Do you ever see yourself getting together with him or?"

"No, I dated his twin brother. It would be too awkward. Um, after getting out of a long, serious relationship you need a break from love. A break from other people to maybe focus on yourself and see how you've grown. You need to teach yourself how to be independent again. That's exactly what I told myself I was doing when I packed up my stuff and left their house. I moved all the way to Paris. I lived there for about two years before coming back to the states."

"Had you spoken to Ethan or Grayson during those two years?"

"Grayson had messaged me quite a few times but I hadn't spoken to Ethan. I decided to pay them a visit when I moved back to LA. When I found out that Ethan was already married to another girl and she was pregnant..." I shake my head, the tears that had collected in my eyes finally falling, "I broke down. Grayson explained to me that a few days after I left Ethan had met up with Kristina Alice, who we'd know for about four years, and they hit it off and started dating. It was gut-wrenching. I had always thought he was my soulmate and to come home and find him married with a child on the way, it really hurt me. I decided to lose contact with both of the boys after that. I blocked them on social media and everything. Cut ties with their family, after I did that I realized that for the first time in my life... I was completely alone."

"How did you manage? What did you do to fix yourself?"

"I got really into my job and looking for acting opportunities. I bought myself a house and a dog. I went partying with Tana Mongeau. I really wrecked myself. Until one day I decided to get over it. Now I'm here. Happier than ever."

"Well we're all very proud of how far you've come and how you tackled your obstacles to come out the other side a better, healthier woman."

"Thank you Jimmy, I really appreciate that."

"Of course," he turns towards the camera, "stay tuned because after this we get to play some games with Liana and talk about her upcoming book, How to Love Me. Right after this break."

The camera pans towards me as I smile and wave. I do have a new boyfriend but... they don't need to know that yet.

*********

Tag list: @fangdolan @luxplsr @333dolans @blindedbythelightt @rhyrhy462

#grayson dolan #dolan twins #lianamariesummers #ethandolan #oc #oc story #kj apa #jimmy fallon #tana mongeau #movie stars #the interview

[starfire003]

So I saw avengersendgame again and boy came out not an emotional wreck I don't know if that means that I've processed all my grief about this movie or if it's the fact that I wasn't just hit with all my emotions all at once because I've already seen it before the fact of the matter is I enjoy this movie with the caveat but I enjoy this movie so hurry the f****** and get here on DVD and video because I want to see all the actually want to watch it with the director's commentary and hopefully they also include the actress commentary because I really want to hear Robert Downey jr. thoughts on the entire production and I cry again yay I said I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm using voice to text in Google right now and you'll probably see here earlier something out bleeped out because I said f****** I looked at it again I'm being sent it on my own f****** phone what the hell possibly be up freaking I'm confused

#Starfire rambles #Voice to text post #I legit got censored #This shit is wild #Omg I'm legit okay #Endgame rewatch

[bluboothalassophile]

omg! I'm a glutton for punishment, do you think you could write something based on these prompts? “Listen… You’re his/her best friend… and I completely fucked up– it’s over between us, but… please, punch me, or punish me, or do something to me because he/she just… cried. He/she wasn’t even angry, they were just so sad– Please, be angry at me, please. Give me what I deserve.” (1)

Hello,

First, your request is in 2 parts, to accommodate the ask you have dropped into my in box.

Second, glutton for punishment you may be, but angst drama lover I can be! I hope this suits your wants for part one!

Not a Freak, Just… Different

Jason supposed he was capable of a lot of shit. Fucking upeverything being high on the list as he sat there and sipped the beer andpondered how he had gotten here.

It wasn’t even his fault, it was Cass and Stephanie’s whojust couldn’t leave well enough alone. It would be nice if for a change that everyonewould stop fucking with him and Raven. They didn’t get it, they couldn’t getit, and in his rushed attempt to fix this misunderstanding between himself andhis idiotic family members he had pretty much destroyed his relationship withRaven.

Yeah, that was a real bitch of a problem.

And he hated himself as he sat there in the grimy bar in themiddle of Crime Alley and hoped that some thug had the guts to end his miserywith his underaged drinking. That’d just be a fucking fantastic change of pacefor him and the hell he was digging himself into. It’d just be nice to skip thepleasantries and plant himself six feet under, just to end this.

He’d even be willing to save on costs and use his ownfucking coffin from the first time around!

Just for the love of a merciful God somewhere; Put Him OutOf His Misery!

A heavy hand clasped his and he glanced over at Artemis asshe sat in the seat beside him. “You are not easy to find.”

“If I didn’t want to be found you’d never find me,” hepointed out and took another sip of his beer.

“You are…”

“A bastard, a fuck up, a royal pain in the ass; go ahead,say it, I’ve already been swearing at myself in every language I could thinkof,” he admitted.

“You’re Raven’s best friend.”

“And I completely fucked it up, royally this time,” headmitted. He was such a fuck up, and all this in his dire want of not wantingto fuck this all up.

“It does not mean it is shattered beyond repair,” Artemis insisted.

“No? I’m pretty sure I called her an ugly cow in lame manterms, and a freak of nature; two things I know she’s not, in the dire attemptto get my family to stop pushing her and me together!” he groaned. “I deserveto have the shit beaten out of me, I made her cry Arty. I fucking made her cry!”he rubbed the heels of his hands over his eyes as he tried not to scream infury at himself.

“She wasn’t angry,” Artemis said softly.

“No, because she was… God, she was sad, Arty. It waseverything her ex said about her and I just… I made it worse. She looked likeshe was about to cry.”

“Then go fix it!” Artemis snapped.

“HOW!?” he roared.

“Tell her the truth!” Artemis snapped.

“And what is that!? That I’m very much in love with the littlebird!? That I’d give my life before harming her, but hey, I hurt her in theworst way possible,” he muttered the last part miserably and sipped his beer ashe prayed to die. Death would be nice.

~~~*~*~*~~~

Raven buried her face in her pillow and tried desperatelynot to cry. She knew she was a freak, she had frequently been reminded byeveryone around her just how creepy and how freaky she was. She got it!

She was an ugly demon!

She was a freak of nature!

She was… she was shattered…

The sob tore from her chest then as she tried to smotherherself in the pillow sobbing. It’d just be nice if ONE person liked her howshe liked them! She’d love it if… if Jason liked her… like… like she liked him…

Azar she was pathetic, she sobbed into the pillow as shetried to will herself into a death by humiliation at even thinking she even hada shot at a guy as awesome as Jason.

Suddenly there was a gentle hand in her hair which had hercurling into the pillow.

“Go Away!” she snapped at Zatanna; her elder sister was sofucking perfect that she’d never have this humiliation.

“I’m not going anywhere Rae,” Zatanna said softly.

“Fuck Off!”

“No.”

“Why!? So you can rub this in! because you’re so bloodyperfect all the damn time! You get every guy you look at! Do you like this humiliationthat you get to rub into my face!?” Raven shouted in the pillow. There was astab of pain in Zatanna’s emotions, but Raven didn’t care. She wanted to go diefor ever being foolish enough to crush on her best friend.

“Okay, I take shitty sister aware of the century,” Zatannasighed.

“Just fuck off Zatanna!”

“No!”

“Go Away!”

“NO! Get it through your thick demon skull Raven, you’re mylittle sister who’s just had her first heartbreak, and it sucks to try to gothrough it alone,” Zatanna snapped.

“And you’ve had your heart broken so often?” Raven sneeredinto her pillow; some of her fury at Zatanna was probably lost with her refusalto look at her but Raven wasn’t falling for it.

“Yeah, I have, and by a guy, and it fucking SUCKED; and theguy wasn’t even doing it by accident like Jay was, he did it because he could. Jason’sa scared kid and he loves you Rae! As a friend, and as something more, even ablind man could see he’s head over heels in love with you,” Zatanna snapped.

“He called me an evil demon, and a freak,” she muttered andcried again, feeling the fresh pain of that.

“No, he said you were a demon and a bit freaky, but totally cool,Rae… he didn’t, he’s a nervous wreck,” Zatanna said.

“He meant it.”

“Yevio,” she muttered.

“Fuck off, Zatanna.”

“I’m getting ice cream and when I get back you’ll be inpajamas and ready for a night of shitty action movies I hate,” Zatanna snappedas she got off the bed.

Raven didn’t move as she cried harder; Jason had called her afreak.

#bluboothalassophile #fanfic #one shot #constantine dad au #jason todd #raven #zatanna zatara #artemis crock #jayrae #redrae #raex

[nobaracore]

ADI ADI ADI HII as you know my eams are over so. i watched jjk volume 0 on thursday and god ASDFGHJKLKHJG i'm screaming crying etc. because.!!! stfu yuuta. is my bae HE IS MY BAE and we are both channeling half dead core... sobs jjk vol 0 was so precious mainly baby yuuta but also !! GOJO THE MAD LAD THE MAD SON THE GAY ASS MF SDGFHGJHKLK falling in love with the most unhinged man that i have ever seen. i'm not even kidding literally look at suguru in the movie there are gifs but he is so fucking insane and my friends are out here simping and i'm like LLL because this guy is off his rocker but also #aro things but an. ee . way. the "atleast curse me at the very end" scene fuking obiliterated me and not in the good way it obiliterated me in the absolute way which means i'm going to be twirling my pen going insane kinda way (like i mean this seriously i watched the theatrical release and so in the cinema hall where it was all quiet for gojo i am just sitting here beside my friend who is sobbing while i am trying to hold in my chuckles because i can guarantee i look like an absolute maniac. i should write an apology because i straight up started almost laughing in the death scene srdfghjkl I CAN'T TAKE THEM SERIOUSLY IN MY DEFENCE)

but anyway i am soooo normal about volume 0 and yuuta and gojo parallels and satosugu. the fact i am going to write a fic now has no correlation whatsoever hahahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

omg!!!!!! ur so RGIHT yuuta is everything <3 MY WORLD LIGHT OF MY LIVE ETC. if smth happened 2 him i would not b sane. NAUR bc gojo is acually rhe most fucked up gay person i have ever met. like dude ur bf is a mass murder that is absolutely unhinged. SUGURU IS INSANE! i love him bc hes. well. bc hes suguru but also like. mans is absolutely deranged ??? sorry <3 AT LEAST CURSE ME AT THE END WAS ANIMATED. OBV WELL JJK 0 IS GOING 2 B THE DEATH OF ME I AM GOING 2 DIE. OHMYGODDD. REALLL OF U THO!!!!!! i wld b laughing too actually before i am an emotional wreck for suguru i am a gojo satoru is a freak agenda and at the SLIGHTEST inconvience that freak faces i am the # 1 enjoyer of it all. i miss him tho get him the fuck out of the prison realm i need 2 make fun of him <33 we r so sane and normal abt jjk 0 obv like. yes <3 AND OMG FIC?????? im listening😋

#this makes no sense. i j finished tvd i dont have any coherent thought in my mind unforuntaltely </3 #ask #aru tag

[sweatblvvdtears]

Okay , I admitting that I have emotional sensitivity overload issues but I will never betray people that I cared about for anything else . Shit I had tons of dreams that leads to nightmares and I am tired going through all of it . I shouldn't napping with hard thoughts and emotions still left within myself ... I encountering a person died in there which is my friend on this site , I met my old friend in there too but I don't even know why , walking to a lot of places by my own foot inside that fucking dreams . The most scariest thing ? Most of my dreams are the type will go real within few days or months . Most of them usually giving the signs . Warning signs . Sort of terrible that you never want to expect or faced . I realized that since I used to got involved into an accident irl here and I ignored that message inside that dream that I was encountering and it actually happened after that . In 3 to 4 days for it to happened . It linking with warning message . It's like a deja vu or something ? I did read that thing after got tons of warning message dreams because it turned into real after that . For real ? Like , haha , I didn't even want to believe but yes , it turned into real after that . Sometimes it just annoying . Like you never want to see it but you had to see it (?) Like why did you want to show me all of these . (?) I didn't even fucking know . I got so afraid sometimes if I seen someone died inside there . It's either makes me to not see that person or just lament because it's either between 2 reasons that will happened : 1. They will live longer because sometimes the signs of death inside dreams means they will survive and live longer than they expected with . 2. They will die . Not sure when but soon . I don't want to meet or talk or even look at them . Who wants to see the person that going to die soon and you actually can see it in the first place without telling them ? Without giving them any knowledge about it ? And I am afraid . I don't even like the warning signs inside my dreams . It's hurting .

I had to feel emotional intense in high way . Don't know . Usually I'm encountering it hard and in hurting . Sometimes I ended up in tears in there . Sometimes as fear . Or just sorrow or in curious . If only I can pull someone irl to inside mine and we can walk along inside there and facing what I am really am facing and see and hear and feeling inside there . You will learn to shut up and actually experiencing it in high way . To show that mine isn't the regular or normal type of dreams and you will suffer too just like I did . At least , a bit . I don't even want it . It just following me to anywhere . Linking to any parts in real life and my spiritual . 💔 I just want to have normal sleep and dreams . I don't want to see future like warning signs of dreams . Like able to see and realized it . It's not nice , it just dark . It's like having nightmares every weeks or days . Sometimes I walked in there by foots and places to places . Wrecked building . Rooms to room . Sometimes no lights inside there . It fucking irritating . It's just dark and scary even to me . Roaming . Sometimes got chased . It's not even nice feelings . It leaves me in hurt and scared motions .

Like scary nightmares inside those movies . Got trapped . But this thing is almost real . And you are all alone in there . Nobody is in there except nightmares and dark shits and weird like freak show or demons type of suffocating issues . And you are being chased . They are all following you all around like pest . I don't even know what kind of things that been following me behind me . It just invisible . I got goosebumps too irl whenever i'm all alone irl . No kidding . Like something is creeping behind you and it refused to say Hi or communicate . It just stubborn . It just there . I can't see it but I know it's there . I can sense and feel it . I don't like them . I have my own demons to take cared of . I don't even know nor even called them . I know what they are but I don't want to speak or face them . Enough with nightmares and dark things that I've seen or heard . I can hear the voices shits . I hate all of them . You don't want to know what am I hearing or meeting or feeling or what exactly am I sensing around me irl . It just weird . It's just annoying .

#p #.txt #tw #about #thought #irl #vent

[meowsaidmayaanime]

What I'm Watching May 2016

Hi! So this post will be consistently updated and feature only completed anime(ie non-simulcast anime, I have a list of simulcasts I am watching already provided). Whenever I update it I will add the date in the title, change the featured photo, and add the anime at the very top of the post~ So yeah, a good way to know what kind of things i'm currently doing.

Attack on Titan Addendum 5/31

So episode 10 actually surprised me, I did not think it would go in that direction. In fact, after that episode the anime got much less predictable, which is great. Don't get me wrong, there were still some moments that were very obvious, but I found myself not knowing what was gonna happen next very often. Especially toward the end, and oh man did it drag me further into the anime. It was great, I really really enjoyed it. And now I can enjoy Attack on Titan Abridged! (the real reason I wanted to watch this, haha)

5/29 Attack on Titan I did it, I finally did it. Its been huge in the anime world for 3 years now, I got tired of seeing it on my netflix and finally started watching Attack on Titan. I JUST finished episode 8, and every single event, aspect, backstory, everything I have successfully predicted. Now I will add that aside from the very first episode, I had no idea what was gonna happen next. I stayed away from spoilers like the plague on this one cause I knew I had to eventually watch it. Despite the fact that it is so far nothing new whatsoever, I'm really liking it so far. Like REALLY enjoying myself and the anime. I stayed away from it for so long because I didn't want to get caught up in the hype and be disappointed, I tell you I'm not disappointed. Though to be fair, I did wait three years after the initial hype and went into it expecting it to not live up to my expectations. I think that was the right decision. Well I still have 17 more episodes to go, and plenty of room for it to surprise (or not surprise) me.

oh and btw, MIKASA'S A BAMF! hot damn, I wish I was Eren, wait, no. I take that back, I do NOT want to be Eren, just in his position. waaaaait, no, no, not that either. Yeah no, I do not want to live in their world. yikes.

The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya 5/26

Ok so remember when I said I was watching the Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya? haha of course you do that was only yesterday. Well the episodes have a weird order and were not aired in chronological order (which means I didnt watch it chronologically, i'll make a post of this later) but also that there was a movie that followed the end of the second season and HOLY CRAP THE MOVIE MADE THE FREAKING ANIME. I was not expecting that at all.

The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya 5/25 I just started watching The Melancholoy of Haruhi Suzumiya. I started watching it a few years ago but dropped it for whatever reason (lost interest.) It's always been relatively highly ranked (an 8 out of 10 on My Anime List (which if you've been to the site you will know that very few anime get anywhere over 9 out of 10) for example the highest ranked anime is Gintama at 9.3 followed by FMA: Brotherhood at 9.26, even Spirited away is only an 8.9 so anything that's at least an 8 is pretty dang good), so I figured why not give it another chance? Especially since my Akibento for this month came with a lot of stuff from that anime, and I dont want it to go to waste(especially considering I didn't even want this months crate because I wasn't interested in the preview but was charged and sent it anyway despite the fact that I only signed up for a one time crate last month..... If anyone wants any of May's merch just let me know. I think I might be making a post about it soon. hmmmm....)

Strawberry Panic! 5/23

Right now I'm actually re-watching an anime I once watched back when I was in I think middle school, Strawberry Panic! An adorable tale of a girls finding love at their all girls boarding school. I have had this anime in my mind for years, constantly thinking about it but never remembering what on earth it was called, and barely remembering anything else about it for that matter! It's not a fantastic anime by any means, but it is adorable and rather down to earth. There are no super annoying characters or unrealistic situations and events, like what is common in so many school anime (especially the newer ones). That's why I like this so much, its 'soft' romance and school life. Ahhh, I'm so happy to be watching it again. In fact, I am watching episode 12 as I am writing this!!

Noragami 5/21

I just finished watching the second season of Noragami, Noragami Aragoto. While it was very good, the plot, the characters, the writing, it wasn't quite as wonderful as the first season. Aragoto has two story lines that follow one after another, where as the first season focused on one story line, which was just so emotional and exciting and I had such a hard tome pretending I wasn't watching it while work, hahaha..... Don't get me wrong though, this definitely is not an anime that suffered from the second season like some, in fact it provided a lot or origins, backstory, and important character development necessary for the third season!! Which should be on its way, especially considering the huge info drop at the end of Aragoto. If you've seen season one, Aragoto is definitely a must watch~

Tokyo Ghoul 5/16 TOP PICK FOR THIS MONTH

Only a few minutes before my 21st birthday I finished this series. Which means that I was an emotional wreck crying out 'he knew!!' while also being super excited to go out and buy my first drink; a Bloody Mary, approximately 17 minutes after officially being 21. Anyway, Tokyo Ghoul is so good. I loved it because it did not follow the path I expected it to, every event and conclusion ended up surprising me but in a good way! Without spoiling too much or going into a full review, the main character never became a 'Mary Sue' and the way it ended was not typical in the least. I have so many things to say but they all contain spoilers, anyway I'm glad I wasn't deterred from the anime because one of my friends said he didn't like the manga because of his assumption about the character. Dude, you were way off, I haven't read the manga, but the anime is so different and so amazing. 5 out of 5 would recommend!

#msma 2016 #msma monthly watch #anime #attack on titan #the disappearance of haruhi suzumiya #the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya #strawberry panic #moragami #tokyo ghoul