#i’m so tired in a spiritual physical mental way

[munamania]

i can’t do school anymore die die die die die die die die

#what if i dropped out what if this was the end of it all #i’m kicking screaming scratching biting my way through getting assignments in #getting pissed when it’s not my best work but physically spiritually mentally emotionally unable to put forth my ‘best’ work #i’m sleeping. all the time. i’m never not tired. i have no energy to do things i enjoy except i mostly do just doomscroll and then feel #guilty about the assignments i’m not doing. it would help if any of them felt important enough to me #but i simply don’t care #and so on all fronts i feel wildly apathetic lol! so that’s good <3 #abby talks

[so2uv]

why communicate when you can-

*fizzles out of existence*

#💭. mutters ! #// i’m so tired in every way imaginable #// physically mental spiritually etc. #// though i’m not religious so forgive me if that part offends

[strangesibyl]

I will really just choose to rot 8/10 times

#personal #don’t love it #feel vaguely powerless to stop it #know that’s not true and there’s simply doing or not doing #and I’m choosing not doing to my mental and physical detriment #but I’m so tired #like in a deep spiritual way that only seems to grow #the more I learn and see and do

[bestworstcase]

re: talk of Burn, do you have any idea why Yang's aura clearly broke when Neo struck her in V8 (right after activating Burn)? my theory is that perhaps activating her semblance does something like Tock's where it makes her aura manifest more solidly on her body (which is how it can make her hair light on fire) and therefore also, like Tock, means that her aura is more vulnerable. to me this would also explain why Yang would use it as a finisher at first; using it when she's already going to run out of aura makes it, in a sense, less dangerous because she's already gotten most of the other uses out of her aura that she can get.

would love to know if you think this is accurate, or what you actually think is going on with yang's semblance on a mechanical level (if you're interested in that anyway)

first, a general point about aura and aura breaking. the characters’ use of meters has led to a sort of popular fanon that aura works like hit points in a video game, where you have this many and taking damage reduces your HP by a certain number until you hit zero and then your aura breaks; (dark souls splash screen voice) YOU DIED.

i do not think it works that way.

from world of remnant:

aura is a manifestation of the soul, a life force that runs through every living creature on remnant—whether they are a meager shopkeep or a renowned knight. however, what sets true warriors apart from all others is their ability to amplify and control their aura.

aura is the power of one’s soul. it’s guided by emotion, self-knowledge, and spirituality. in its purest form, it becomes a semblance.

defensive aura is not a passive effect. we know this for a fact. in V5, oscar finds it physically exhausting to engage his aura in this way and ren tells him that’s normal—it requires intense concentration at first, then becomes second nature with practice. in V7, jaune’s aura-training demonstrates that recovery, regaining aura once it has been depleted, is a conscious action that can be improved through practice. this is because the “aura level” tracked by those meters is not a measurement of how much aura you have in the tank, as it were, but something like the density of the aura-field you’re pushing outward, or speed of flow, or something along those lines.

(the way i’m handling it in TDT is there’s a hard upper bound to how much aura you can hold in your skin, like a sponge not being able to absorb more water, and what auraleric gauges attempt to measure is % of maximum saturation because everyone’s aura will break around 5-10% saturation even though the amount of aura you have at 100% varies. anything you push out above that threshold is projected as transient bursts of energy and that’s where you start getting into offensive techniques.)

hazel’s phenomenal endurance is noted to derive from his rapid recovery, not the basal amount of aura he has. (he even just shrugs off being impaled.) i believe his semblance gives him an edge here, because it requires concentration to amplify one’s aura and hazel can’t be distracted by physical pain.

which brings me to aura-breaking. it doesn’t happen when the proverbial tank is empty. auras break when you can’t sustain the mental effort of generating enough aura; this might happen because the well you’re drawing from really has run dry (<- think this is what happened to nora with the high voltage door), but it might also be because you’re too tired, or you took a really painful or unexpected hit that shattered your focus, because you’re panicking or furious.

i think tock’s semblance is in the same ‘family’ as hazel’s and ironwood’s in that it puts her into a state of intense focus by blocking out anything that might shake her—with hers being far, far more potent than theirs but so potent she can’t maintain it for longer than sixty seconds, and possibly needs the ticking clock to ‘anchor’ her focus.

(fic stuff again, because tock’s alive in TDT for butterfly wing flaps reasons: sixty seconds is not a hard limit of her semblance; she can and on one occasion did go for much longer. to project an aura field you draw aura out of your reserve, which is the aura that naturally ‘pools’ around your soul; if that runs dry and you’re desperate enough, pushing hard enough, you can wring more aura out of your soul. blood from a stone. it hurts a lot, it will mess you up, and it can do permanent damage similar to what the aura transfer machines do to pietro. sixty seconds is how long it takes for tock’s semblance to drain her aura reserve, rounded down to allow for a margin of error.)

so. yang.

i think, mechanically, when the average person with aura training gets hit, their aura burns up to disperse most of that energy. (<- when they’re swatting gunfire away, the bullets bounce; the energy is reflected.)

but yang’s semblance absorbs energy—which is to say, if you had a ball throwing machine shoot a tennis ball at yang and someone else with equivalent training from the same distance, it would hit yang harder because her aura is less reflective; more of the ball’s kinetic energy flows into her body. then, like a battery, her aura converts that energy into some other form that can be stored.

sort of like dust, in fact. dust has a lot of potential energy, which is released when the material reacts with aura. given the literally explosive firepower yang gains from burn, i think that she’s storing this absorbed energy in the same form as occurs naturally in dust, which would put burn in the same ‘family’ as coco’s hype or arrastra’s equilibrium…

…and would also mean that this statement:

some prefer to use dust in its raw form: elegant, yet destructive. those who choose to wield dust in this state must possess a certain level of discipline to ensure that their resulting powers do not break free of their control.

is true of burn, too. and that tracks with who yang is and how she uses her semblance—even in V1-3, yang takes a more head-on approach to fights and tends to soak up more damage before exploding bigger vs her increasingly nimble and even acrobatic style post-beacon, but her control over those massive volcanic eruptions is immaculate.

the way burn works in general requires that yang be very, very in control of her aura at all times because she needs to balance between absorbing energy to charge up her semblance while reflecting enough to prevent injury, and this is one reason why i think yang is probably the best out of the cast when it comes to using aura. ren might have her beat on the more spiritual, extra-sensory perception side of things, but yang has to keep her focus while getting hit harder than anyone else Because Physics.

and that brings us to neo one-shotting yang’s aura. here is what happens: cinder is gloating from atop a pillar of fire while people scream and run in a panic all around them, and out of the corner of her eye, yang sees a glint of steel and realizes that neo is about to stab her unsuspecting baby sister in the back, she’s too far away, she can’t get there fast enough—burn is, in that moment, a reflex. instinct. she panics and hurls herself in between neo and ruby without even thinking about it because the only thing in her mind is GET TO RUBY NOW.

and that’s why her aura just shatters. it requires concentration—you practice until it becomes instinctive, until you don’t need to think about it, muscle memory. but it still takes focus. intention. yang has incredible self-control and thus incredible control of her aura, but everyone has limits, and hers are “holy fuck that guy stabbed blake” and “neo is going to kill ruby go go go.”

her semblance in itself doesn’t make her defense any weaker—but when she’s terrified enough for burn to activate reflexively like this, her aura will break if she gets hit because she’s freaking out.

[10yrsyart]

as some of you know, i’m chronically ill, and so my bed is my most frequented spot. it can be isolating at times and tiring, not being able to go places. and it can make me feel weak mentally when i’m weak physically. but that’s far from the truth. 

the Spiritual realm is always right there. when i pray and talk to the Lord, my prayers are heard immediately and go into effect (in whatever way they’re meant to). physical strength has nothing to do with spiritual strength, and in that sense, i can still be strong and leave an impact even lying in my bed. like 2 Corinthians 12:10 says, “For when I am weak, then i am strong.” 

i try to think of my bed as my soldier’s post; it’s simply my temporary station. as i lay there, i like to imagine i can see my ceiling opening up to the Heavenlies, where everyone is busy at work. 

“Stand your ground, putting on the Belt of Truth and the Body Armor of God’s Righteousness. For Shoes, put on the Peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. In addition to all of these, hold up the Shield of Faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. Put on Salvation as your Helmet, and take the Sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God.” -Ephesians 6:14-17

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[faerytreealtars]

🌞☁ “Wisdom from the Sun” ~ How to reach your Divine Self  ☁🌞

This PAC is a very exciting collaboration with the most wonderful and imaginative @punkpandapatrixk and they are going to reveal to you secret wisdom from the moon, specifically dealing with Inner-child work! So make sure to check out her PAC to get a full in-depth reading!

[The Moons Message to Your Inner-Child]

Now, my dear Saplings 🌱 I am so very excited to get into my reading with you all. The main focus is on how can you improve yourself in order to make progressive steps towards reaching a better you, or as I call it ‘Your higher/divine self’  obviously no one can be perfect and I am not asking or assuming one must be perfect to be closest to their higher self. No, one should always be Authentic. That is one of the key ‘ingredients’ to reaching a state where you are more aware of yourself and the world around you. Nonetheless I will get on with the pick-a-card, I hope you’re excited to choose your pile.

Trust your intuition, don’t overthink it and if you’re still struggling, close your eyes take a deep breath and let yourself be guided to an image.

I would love to hear if the message you received resonated with you, so don’t feel afraid to comment, for it makes me so happy to connect with you all! 💕  

Song: Giving into the love by Aurora

Faery-Tale: The Faeries - Words ~ “Remember Words have the power to change Lives”

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Pile 1

[Cards: The hermit, The high priestess, eight of swords, the chariot & three of wands]

Dear ones, to reach a divine state, closer to the brightness of the sun, I suggest following & trusting your intuition more, Have faith in yourself  & don't go looking for a second opinion when you know in the truth of your heart you've already made up your mind. I sense fast movement and travel to be a part of your divine path so I implore you, Don't be afraid to follow your wanderlust & make changes in your life. If something is not for you the world will reveal that to you but you must take a chance or else you will never know. While everyone faces challenges, no doubt you may come up against some too but I feel some changes are divinely guided to happen no matter what you do. In the journey to reach your divine self others may fall in step with you, welcome them warmly, and allow them to fill your cup just as you fill theirs in return.

Oracle: Healing

You should allow some patience for yourself. Physically, mentally and spiritually there is a lot going on. Allow the waves of life to ebb and flow as and when need be. Don't go chasing the retreating sea for you will accomplish nothing except wearing out your already tired soul. Healing takes time, allow it to pass & trust in the divine.

Pile 2

[Cards: Nine of Wands, Two of Wands, Queen of Chalices, Five of Wands & The Hermit ]

Dear ones, the sun tells me in order for you to reach your highest divine self you should continue to be light & free, and allow imagination to inspire your creativity. Don't forget to take breaks from the world & all its energies - you have a sensitive soul who feels strongly the emotions in the world so make sure to cleanse your self regularly & set healthy boundaries that are clear and direct. You are already very connected to your higher self so just keep up the great work! My only advice to you is; Remember that all emotions are necessary so when you are feeling down don’t force positivity onto yourself, allow your body to feel and release. Perhaps their is some activity you can do to channel the emotions in a healthy way? Like painting or writing? I’m sure the right one will appear in your mind when needed.

Oracle: Intuition + Protection

Your Intuition is strong & you may feel connected or called to use psychic gifts. Learn, acknowledge & strengthen these talents of yours, you don't have to use them for others if that makes you feel uncomfortable but mastery of them could really benefit your overall everyday and spiritual health.

Just a little note: I pull the oracle cards after I've written up the tarot and found it a nice synchronicity that protection was your top of the deck!

Pile 3

[Cards: six of chalices, Knave of Swords, Four of Wands, The Hermit, Death & The Knight of Chalices ]

My, My Pile 3 a lot of shifts are occurring as you journey towards your divine self, My whole tarot deck nearly jumped from hands it seemed every card had something to say!, Nonetheless I can see the sun is saying stay connected to that child-like energy of curiosity that lingers in your heart. Always wondering why and asking questions. Always striving to grow and learn new skills, acquire new knowledge & new friends. Allow a bit of stability into your life and don't fear settling down in some areas of your life. You also don't have to stick to staying the same, if your opinions change as you reflect and learn don't be afraid to express that & finally, don't forget to fill your cup, it's okay to indulge your heart and fantasies now and again! Just remember to ground yourself afterwards.

Oracle: Nourish

I am getting more practical advice this time ~ make sure you're eating healthy & filling your body with nutritious food and water, don't over-work your body, or follow toxic diet trends that promote harmful habits. It may be helpful for your mind if you engage in calming activities such as yoga, meditation, or even just a daily walk outside. I'm even hearing colouring books could provide peace after a hectic day.  

That’s all for now, Saplings! 🌱 I hope you enjoyed the reading and it resonated with your soul. Don’t stress too much about reaching your divine self, as long you put your best foot forward and live the day with as much kindness and light that you can muster depending on your energy levels I think you’re doing a great job!

Again, remember to check out @punkpandapatrixk side of the collab, she’s put so much energy into it for all of you so give it some love too! oh, and if you would like to see the actual cards I pulled they can be seen on my Instagram post, link up top for that!

Bye bye for now, sending gratitude and love to all!

-Fae🔮🧚🏻‍♀

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[jahayla-parker]

Bewitched Love : Peter Parker x Reader

Part 15

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Y/n squeezed Peter’s hand and nodded. When Peter wrapped his arm around her and nodded, she let her protective shield drop away. Y/n leaned her exhausted head on his shoulder as he shot a web across the destroyed building to pull them away from the gunshots.

Once his feet landed on the cemented roof, far away from the edges, Peter loosened his grip on y/n. He made sure her feet were softly set on the ground before he removed his hands. Peter’s eyes dashed around y/n’s body, using the light from the news projection screen on the nearby building to see her better. His eyes focused in on her leg, the dark blue stitches seemingly ready to burst from the tension.

Y/n lifted her shaky hands, her arms heavy from exhaustion, and held Peter’s face. “Peter, I’m so-" she began softly.

Peter shook his head. “You’re hurt,” he mumbled. “Like- really really hurt” Peter sighed, his eyes not leaving her leg. His tired mind searched for a way to help her without putting her at more risk by taking her to a hospital.

“Peter,” y/n whispered, tapping Peter’s right cheekbone with her fingertips. When his eyes slowly lifted to hers, she gave him a faint smile. “I promise, I’ll be fine,” she assured Peter, knowing what was going through his mind.

Peter seemed to hesitate for a moment but then pulled y/n into a bone-crushing hug. “You’re-you’re s-sure?” He whimpered, burying his face in her hair. Peter signed with relief when y/n resealed her leg and delicately explained her stitching spell would hold until this was over; unless injured again - but she thought to herself that that was a matter for later. He let himself break down in her arms.

Y/n guided Peter towards an old ventilation box, using the structure around it to brace her back as she sat and held Peter to her. She whispered comforting words to him, placing loving kisses on his face wherever he held on tighter to her. Y/n thought seeing May die was the worst emotional pain she’d experienced, but seeing Peter this way immediately topped it.

Y/n and Peter were huddled together on that roof for a while. The rain was pouring down on them, masking their tears and silencing their cries. The breeze would normally feel brutally cold on a rainy night like tonight. But, their immense grief turned them numb to any physical discomfort.

Y/n was playing with Peter’s soaking wet hair in silence, his head resting on her chest with his eyes closed and arms wrapped around her. She was beyond drained; physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and worryingly even cosmically. Y/n knew they both needed sleep. But, she also knew this wasn’t over yet.

As if the universe read y/n’s mind, the projection on the wall of the building across from the one they were on flashed brightly. The projection had merely been only static, seemingly having trouble coming through due to the weather (and possibly the electric sandstorm the multiversal men caused earlier). Yet, it was now up and running. Pictures of the destroyed apartment complex flared brutally at y/n and Peter.

Peter whimpered, sinking into y/n even more. Yet, he dared to keep his eyes on the news report. He ignored y/n’s attempts to turn his head from the painful sight. Peter watched tensely as a playback of the evidently recorded battle plays.

Y/n sighed and held Peter closer. “I can use a sp-" she attempted to offer, only for him to shake his head in defiance. Y/n sighed defeatedly as she watched Peter stare through the downpour of rain toward the screen. “It’s a simple spe-“ she elaborated.

Peter once again shook his head. “I,” he sighed, pursuing his lips tensely. “I need to hear this,” Peter told y/n. Having sensed her confusion, he took a deep breath. “I de-deserve to hear what he is saying”.

Y/n squinted harshly at Peter and shook her head silently. “Removere potestat-“ she whispered, fingers turning away from Peter’s body and towards the building’s projection.

“No,” Peter snapped. His eyes widened immediately at his response and then they softened dramatically. He frowned and held y/n tightly. “I’m -I’m so sorry” Peter apologized, “I didn’t. I didn’t mean to-". He could tell y/n was trying to explain he didn’t need to apologize but he continued. “I didn’t mean to snap, I’m truly sorry, apricitas,” Peter said, “but, please let me hear this”.

Y/n hesitantly agreed. She was not wanting to push Peter any further tonight. But she also didn’t think he needed to hear whatever that asshole J. Jonah Jameson had to say about tonight. Nonetheless, y/n complied with Peter’s request and resided to holding him closely as they tuned into the broadcast.

J. Jonah Jameson shook his head as he stared into the news camera. “Tragedy,” he tsked. “What else can I call it? What more needs to be said? The damage... The destruction... You saw it with your own eyes.” The man huffed loudly.

Y/n held Peter tightly. Tears were streaming down her cheeks, kept company by the matching ones rolling down Peter’s cheeks. She rested her lips on the top of his head as he sobbed quietly.

“When will people wake up, and realize that everywhere Spider-Man goes... chaos and calamity ensue.” J. Jonah Jameson said; twisting the metaphorical knife in Peter’s heart and mind tonight. “Everything Spider-Man touches comes to ruin. And we, the innocents, are left to pick up the pieces.” The news anchor gave the camera a dramatically morose look.

Peter felt his tears pick up their pace. While he knew y/n likely was aware he was crying, he was still grateful for the November showers that were blending his tears with the rainfall. Peter didn’t want y/n to realize what he just realized. He found himself agreeing with J. Jonah Jameson.

Peter could see the news anchor’s point, Spider-Man was to blame; he, Peter, was to blame. He was responsible for all of this. He was the reason why his friends couldn’t get into college. Peter was the reason the spell was ruined. He was the reason these villains had come to this universe.

Peter was responsible for choosing not to simply send them back as-is. It was his fault this wasn’t over long before true tragedy struck. He was the reason behind Happy’s condo and apartment complex being destroyed. Peter was to blame for y/n’s numerous injuries tonight. He was to blame for even having brought her into this mess.

And ultimately, Peter was the reason behind what happened to Aunt May. He was responsible for Norman having found her at the food kitchen. Peter was at fault for May having even been there tonight. It was his fault she was hurt.

Peter was the only one to blame for May’s death. Well, Peter and the Green Goblin. But, again, Peter was the reason the Green Goblin was here in the first place.

So, ultimately, Peter knew J. Jonah Jameson was right. Spider-Man was the reason May was killed. Peter was responsible for the last member of his family dying tonight.

J. Jonah Jameson’s face appeared on the screen once again. “J. Jonah Jameson, reporting. Good night. And God help us all.” The broadcast concluded, the projection turning off and leaving the grieving kids huddled together on the dark, wet, roof.

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[seaside-apothecary]

How I do dream divination

One way that I love to do divination is by analyzing my dreams! This can be very hard, because the first step is to remember your dreams. It’s a skill that takes a while to get the hang of, but once you do have it. It will help with opening a new door of divination experience to you.

What is dream divination?

First let’s go over what dream divination is and isn’t. Dream divination is exactly what it sounds and reads like. Doing divination with the dreams that you remember or that stick out to you. Dream divination is not divinating every dream. Sometimes you have dreams that are meant to be interpreted and sometimes you dream to just dream. The brain is weird and amazing at the same time, but not everything is spiritual and is just your brain just doing brain things.

Is dream divination safe? Is it beginner friendly?

Is it safe? Yes and no. Don’t worry you won’t get hurt physically. But, I believe that when we are sleeping we are at one of our most vulnerable states spiritually. It is to me like basically opening a door to let in the spirits you wish to communicate with, this could be deities, guides, angels, ancestors, etc. It only really becomes “unsafe” when you don’t close that door or have a bouncer by the door letting in who can enter and keeping out who can’t. What will happen if you don’t close that door or you don’t have a filter? In my experience is that some spirits or energies will enter my space and basically feed off me while I’m sleeping. I might get nightmares, or really weird, uncanny type dreams. And the next morning I’m more tired than I normally would be. But, nothing physical has ever happened to me. So, is it beginner safe? Yes, BUT ONLY if you know how to do basic protection.

Why do I do dream divination?

I personally love dream divination. It is something that not only works me spiritually, but mentally as well. When I am doing dream divination I am testing my memory as well as my interpretation skills. I am testing my knowledge on symbols, omens, and helping my memory improve while doing so. My spirit team which consists of my deities, guides, and spirits I work with on either the regular or have a huge impact on my practice seem to prefer communicating this way. They send me signs of lessons or messages they have for me, they will send dreams of offerings they want from me. My guides actually came to me in a dream, to answer some questions that I had for them. Aphrodite and a nature spirit both have sent me dreams of offerings and offerings rituals to tell me what they wanted.

How to do dream divination:

1. Set up some night time protections. This will not only help put a filter up for who can come talk to you, but it might also help you feel more relaxed and safe before bed. So win-win. This can be done with something basic like a crystal or little bag of protective herbs. I would also recommend using stones or herbs for divination, specifically for prophetic dreams, later to help encourage more dreams to get more practice. But, only after doing it a couple times on your own so you understand how you do dream divination.

2. Set an intention. Before, falling asleep I announce either in my head or out loud that I wish to communicate with (insert spirit) tonight in my dreams. And for them to send me signs that I will understand and recognize in my dream message. This will help whatever spirit you wish to communicate with to know you want to specifically talk to. I asked for signs that I will understand and recognize because it helped build my understanding on what to pay attention to in a dream.

3. Fall asleep, specifically REM sleep if possible. You get dreams at any point, but you get your most vivid dreams in REM sleep. But, do not worry. If you find if difficult to get into REM sleep or don’t have the most vivid dreams during REM sleep, you can still do dream divination. It can help if you know how to lucid dream, I’ve always been able to do it, but it took some time to actually get a good grip on the skill to use it to my advantage. This is not required, but might help. I’ve found that I’ve become more aware and remember more when I’m lucid dreaming. You might want to try learning that skill to try in combination with dream divination, just to see what it does for you. If you can’t do it or don’t want to, you don’t have to.

4. Figure out how your dream divination works. When you do dream divination, it is really important to be in tune with your intuition in some way. I actually find it very hard to be intuitive, so I understand if you have trouble with this. The best way to get into touch with your intuition is listening to your body. But, that’s another post for another day. When you have figured out you intuition process, apply that to your dream divination. I realized after years of doing it, mine is right when I wake up. You know the couple of seconds where you are the grumpiest person in the world if someone wakes you up too early? Yeah, that stage, is when I’m the most intuitive. When I woke up from meeting my guides I instantly thought “I just met my guides” when I had my offering dreams I thought “Aphrodite wants this”. I then felt myself reaching for my phone to write it down. I believe that whatever you remember from these dreams where you have a “this was a dream message or divination” is a message. Anything that sticks out in your memory, like the rest is murky but this one or these few parts is your message. From the smallest details to the biggest.

5. WRITE IT DOWN! This is the second most important step right behind protection. Write down your dreams. Trust me, you will not remember the details like you do 10 minutes from now or after your shower or after breakfast. Write it down immediately. Save yourself the headache.

6. Interpret. This is the fun part. From what you have written down, now is the time to pull out books, websites, other people‘s experiences. If you had a conversation with a cat look up what a cat’s significance in dreams are and what they mean in general and in other cultures, not to take their interpretation but it is always good to know, then think about the conversation. What were you talking about? How were you having the conversation? Were you interrupting the cat? Was the cat interrupting you? Think of questions like that and find the answers to them if you can.

Happy dreaming! ✨���🔮

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[cherrylightmoonlight]

I’m so tired of being mentally ill… I can’t get out of it no matter what, no matter how much I improve my life. My person,job,friends, living is so hard and I just want it to get better. I feel like it won’t.

I feel as though I wasted my teen years by going insane, and I’m trying to look for the bright side.

No matter how much my life gets better, I still feel the same on some level.

I try so hard to enjoy life now, but I don’t know how to flip the switch.

Nothing feels right. I want to relapse while also simultaneously wanting to improve but fighting the thought that it’s never going to get better, no matter how I improve my life.

My anxiety eats me alive in everyday activities at work and in meetings, I’m just supposed to push through, and I always do it’s just agonizingly impossible.

I hate all the standards we’re supposed to live up to as people.

Just because they assign value to things that are seemingly useless. Most of all, I hate that I care. Because I know how stupid it all is and I know how shallow people are at the end of the day.

I want to give up and wish it didn’t matter that I give up and wish people didn’t care as much as we do. I just want to leave.

Leave where I’ve been physically,spiritually,and emotionally. I want to build a whole new life that is completely desolate of the one I live now. It’s exhausting. I still would like to keep some friends and family along the way but leave pack up and live a life that matters. Get married. Have my own family chose to do what I want. I’m 25 and have had jobs that I’m thankful for but at the end of the day they have only brought me money. Money that almost doesn’t matter because of the economy I neeed to do more with my life. I want to do more. I want to live life and be free from all of it.

I just want out so bad!

[archester-creations]

Rated: G

Pairing: Optimus Prime & Woodrow Burns; Optimus/Woodrow

Word Count: ~1k

A/N: Day four of @heartsandsparksshipweek homesickness and history

It was a surprise to Woodrow when he ran into Optimus. Though he'd gotten the impression that Optimus moved around a lot, for one reason or another. He was excited. There were so many questions he had for Optimus that he just didn't have the time to ask when they met the first time. Nor did he think to ask for a way to contact him. If there is even a way to contact Optimus. The other bots probably have one, just like his family always has some form of way to contact him and vice versa. But could it translate to humans or would it be some mental link…?

"Optimus?" Woodrow called out and the big bot startled. "What are you doing out here?"

Optimus' helm turned to him carefully. "Chief Burns' brother," –"Woodrow," Woodrow said with a smile– "why are you out here?"

"I asked you that first," Woodrow chuckled. "I live here."

"You live out here?" Optimus asked, helm tilted to the side.

"Yep! For now at least. Can I sit with you?" Optimus gestured at the empty spot on the log next to him, so Woodrow walked over and sat down. This close to Optimus he could feel the bot's heat. Could hear him breathe (and wasn't that interesting?). Woodrow leaned to the side so he could look up at Optimus. Blue optics were already looking down at him. "So? What're you doing out here?"

Optimus sighed. It seemed a small thing, for a mighty bot. The action didn't even ruffle his hair. "Thinking."

Woodrow nodded. "Sometimes the best thinking can only be done in a remote forest in the middle of nowhere."

"Do you do it often?" Optimus asked.

"Sure!" Woodrow said. "Ever since Charlie and I were kids, though the forest wasn't so remote then."

They sat in silence, the two of them. The rest of the forest juxtaposed them in its movement. Birds called to one another, deers jumped over bushes and fallen logs; the smaller creatures scurried along the underbrush and the insects went about their daily rituals.

"What are you thinking about?" Woodrow asked.

"Home." Optimus looked up. He sounded tired. Not physically tired, but spiritually tired. Run down. Woodrow lifted his eyes to the skies as well. Some blue penetrated the leaf cover, and with it came the idea of the sun. "Cybertron."

Woodrow looked back over at Optimus. "Tell me about it."

"What do you wish to know?" Optimus looked down at him and Woodrow shrugged.

"Whatever, I'm not picky. Honestly, any information would be pretty cool to have."

"Very well," Optimus hummed. For a time, he went silent again, optics back on the tree tops.

"We don't have weather," Optimus eventually spoke without looking back down. "Not really. Nor do we have your seasons."

"Do you have plants? Forests?" Woodrow asked.

"We have something approximating your forests, yes," Optimus said. "Though ours are more crystalline than yours."

And Optimus continued to tell him about Cybertron, about the planets closest to it, about life, until the forest darkened around them. Not once did Optimus mention why he was on earth, or why he couldn't go back. (He didn't actually mention that, either. But Woodrow didn't think someone talked like that about a place unless they had no way to return.)

"It is getting dark," Optimus said. "Perhaps I can return you to wherever it is you are staying."

Woodrow smiled up at him. "Nah, I've gotten pretty good at navigating in places like this even with my eyes closed. Thanks for offering, though." Optimus inclined his helm. "Maybe you could find me again and tell me more about Cybertron instead?"

"... I don't think I would mind that," Optimus said and Woodrow cheered internally.

"Though I move around a lot," Woodrow said apologetically. He never had much of a plan when he moved, either. He just followed the adventure.

"Don't worry, I will return tomorrow with something for you so I can locate you. If that is what you wish," Optimus said.

"Yeah! That sounds perfect," Woodrow said.

"Until tomorrow, then, Woodrow Burns," Optimus said. Then, to someone else, "Ratchet, the ground bridge please."

A portal of swirling blues opened a few feet away from where they stood. Woodrow felt his eyes widen at it. Real alien tech. Optimus nodded at him, then stepped through. The next second both bot and portal were gone. He absolutely had to ask about this tomorrow.

#rescue bots #optimus prime #woodrow burns #maccadam #optimus prime x woodrow burns #fluff #bonding #preslash #heartsandsparksshipweek #writings

[muizeke83]

Sacred Ground…

Suddenly, science isn’t all anymore… and it shakes her foundation.

A little add-on to the episode:

I don’t know what happened, I can’t explain it, but I feel like the rug has been pulled from underneath my feet. Everything I believed in, that science was the answer… my answer to everything.

The science told me I was being crazy. Walking into that shrine was going to kill us, but it didn’t. I’m still here, Kes is back, and we are both as healthy as before.

Physically I feel fine. A little tired maybe; these past few days have taken a toll on my body. Nothing a good night’s rest and a hearty meal won’t fix.

Mentally tough, I feel… unstable. For the first time, I had to let go of everything I knew. I needed to trust the process. I needed to have faith, especially in myself. I sliver of doubt and –

Chakotay was ready to relieve me of duty. He had every right. This was so out of character for me, I wouldn’t have blamed him if he had. But he believed in me. He believed in the process.

That’s the difference between us, I guess. Although he has always fought the ways of his people, he has grown to respect spiritualism. His vision quests have brought him clarity and answers in his own trying times.

Chakotay understood I had to do this. And he let me. Despite the evidence, despite the odds.

I’m grateful, but very, very confused.

The hiss of the door startles me, and I find myself standing inside my quarters. I can’t remember how I got here; I was just in sickbay.

It’s quiet. I look out the view port at the unfamiliar stars rushing by, the hum of Voyager’s engines the only sound; A constant, a focal point.

And then my vision blurs. I can feel a tear leave the corner of my eye, trail its way down my cheek to the corner of my mouth; I can taste the saltiness. I try to draw in a breath, and a sob escapes me, the sound too harsh and foreign.

My chime rings and I quickly wipe away the wetness from my cheek. “Come in.”

I don’t turn around, I know it’s Chakotay.

“Kathryn, how are you feeling?”

I still don’t know how to answer that, so I settle for, “I’m fine.”

When his hand comes to rest on my shoulder, my body tenses and I hold my breath. I can’t with this man, I just can’t hide from him, not anymore. As if he knows by heart what I need, knows even before I do, he comes to stand close behind me, an open invitation.

I could have easily stayed where I was, the small gesture being enough, but in that moment, I needed more; I needed his stability and strength. Leaning into him, I reach up to cover his hand with mine, his thumb drawing little circles.

All the tension seems to flow away, my body relaxing against his strong chest. His other arm wraps around my waste, pulling me even closer and I realize he didn’t just come here to check up on me. I suddenly understand that what I did, what he let me do, had been a leap of faith for him too. The science had been that convincing.

“What if it hadn’t worked?”

“It did. There’s no point in questioning your actions now.”

“You… believed in me.”

“I was so scared, but yes, I believed in you.” I hear his voice break, his forehead coming to rest on our joint hands, his face turned into the crook of my neck.

His breath is hot on my skin yet gives me goosebumps. Standing there, wrapped up in his arms feels so good, and a sense of peace and belonging settles over me. My rock, my compass, my best friend. What would I do without him.

#st voy #captain kathryn janeway #st voyager #star trek voy #voy #janeway x chakotay #chakotay #commander chakotay #janeway and chakotay #sacred ground #i believe in you #believe in yourself

[maroonfairycherry]

I wish that transness wasn’t reduced to a “feeling” by white people

pre colonization 2spirit elders would help guide you to figure out your gender/ sexuality and your role in your community and what that meant to you, boundaries existed so that the nuances of gender diversity were always respected by the community , no-op was a lot more common back than because people knew themselves better, and If you didn’t have integrity and were just changing gender / gender roles for all the wrong reasons there was someone there to Correct you. NOT enable you.

NOW white trans people think that preferring the opposite white supremacist gender role is a good enough reason to IMPULSIVELY multilate your body and they often times regret it in the end and make a go-fund-mes guilting people into co-signing their self hatred and instead of doing anything to work on their psyche/personalit, they encourage others even more vulnerable than them to do the same; I’m so SICK of qu*er theory and toxic trans ideologies being so pervasive that they’ve now infiltrated indigenous spaces!!!!!! detransitioning shouldn’t be as common as it is but it’s the reality in a society that hyper fixates on “feelings” rather than honoring who you really are, it’s an obvious indicator of how people in western society habitually care more about how they’re PERCEIVED over unabashedly connecting with your souls truth, and it’s WHY transphobes now think they’re in the right for calling transness a mental illness, because mentally Ill white trans people make their own insecurities everyone else’s effing problem!!!! especially since the modern mainstream trans community is often ANTI no-op , constantly exclude , intersex and non-binary people and is habitually led by white/ toxic AMABS who choose to physically transition in some way BEFORE they mentally or spiritually transition and then accuse afabs of bigotry when we call them out on them taking shortcuts to womanhood without doing the real work of unlearning patriarchy and putting us in danger in the process , Which is SO stupid because no matter what they identify as, they still have sizism and patriarchy working in their favor even if they don’t subscribe to those ideologies they still benefit from it and no-op afabs like myself are always percieved as “privileged” when in reality we’re so not. Sizism is the root of sexism and white supremacy and even trans men who are afab, still are abused by those two systems. The trans rights movement being led by privileged non indigenous people was a mistake and I know we’re regressing because no one is ever allowed to accidentally misgender white trans people anymore without being publicly bullied , or even “canceled “ even though cis people of color are still habitually misgendered, by white trans people, because colonial gender roles was ALWAYS intended to exclude us. That’s why black and brown women can be women and non-binary at the same time! we’re already denied of womanhood for not being pale skinned which is often required to be granted feminity under white supremacy , and even skin color aside our natural attributes such as jawlines, and strong personalities are always read as masculine to y’all , because the (2) gender roles for white supremacy is decorated flesh-light with a womb to make aryan children, or big bodied soldier to enable bigotry. That’s it. It’s why cis people of color get genuine gender dysmorphia, because men of color while they can still be toxic aren’t supposed to be as repressed as they are! White patriarchy considered colors feminine, and things like colors and long hair are inherently non-binary to POC. MOC being so repressed is why they become abusive IE… women of color aren’t supposed to be abused as we are!!! This all not okay and I’m so tired of seeing the weakest links being fake woke and being enabled by everyone to publicly self victimize at the expense of us! I can’t stand it anymore! I hate q*eer theory so much for allowing this to happen, the insanity and the performative transitioning that I was almost peer pressured into just so I wouldn’t get accused of being transphobic in lgbt spaces is SO bad, that I’d rather be in the company of cis-straight people now days , who I’m not truly safe around , but I’d rather take my chances with potential old fashioned bigotry rather than whatever toxic , fake woke , neo-liberal , covert racist BS, y’all have going in the lgbt spaces now a days… I have not once ever felt genuinely safe in lgbt spaces , because for a community that claims care SOooo much , about “ progress” they’d rather PERFORM liberation than live it!

#I hate yall so much #woc #no-op #2spirit #transgender #lgbt #intersex

[in-christalone]

Hey girl! Ok so I NEED another opinion asap so I’ve been Christian for just over 2 years and granted; I slip up and need God every day and have A LOT to learn but someone who ended up becoming close to me and turned to Christianity about a year ago now started acting in a way that felt belittling or just emotionally hurtful especially when it comes to my faith and I am grateful to Jesus every single day. Sometimes life gets the better of me but this person would sometimes say that I don’t look like I’m having a good time in church simply because I wasn’t dancing around ~ I am shyyyy ~ but Jesus is helping me and if I point out that yes, sometimes I am tired and did not even want to come to church but I did cause of God an honouring him that just wasn’t good enough. Sometimes was pointing out I have all the problems that I’m not sharing and I need to go to God about it cause if I did have a relationship with Jesus I’d not have issues like that 🥲 I don’t know how else to describe this behaviour but this person often starts talking like a failure OR that I’m being judged of anyone else is being judged for anything that doesn’t seem to fit how they want us to be in church, sometimes I get so confused so I didn’t want to go to church because I dread this behaviour which I know is not a good thing on my behalf but one time I had not showered and I didn’t have time and I had a family thing in the afternoon. I let the friend know that I know it would have been nice, but I don’t think I can go today because I feel gross and didn’t have time to do anything but I will still spend time with God and the response I got was that I was being silly and who cares if I haven’t showered because Jesus will cleanse me….

Hey, its OKAY. I am also like that, some days I am so mentally, physically and spiritually drained that I wont even sing, I'll just stand while listening to everyone else sing. There's honestly no problem with this, your behavior isn't wrong, give yourself some grace. You're a human living in a world system that's ruled by satan. Yes, God is in control and even satan is under God's chains, but satans influence on us is sometimes overwhelming. THE IMPORTANT THING IS; you showed up to church, you obeyed Christ by not forsaking the gathering of the saints. (Let it be said that if youre sick, stay home ofc)

Church attendance doesn't require you to dance around or constantly have a smile on your face. Sometimes that's hard to do, I get it cause I'm the same way.

Next time this person bothers you, tell them to show you where the Bible say that dancing in church is a commandment, and then tell her that she shouldn't expect so much from people, and frankly to mind her business (unless your obviously in sin)

Hope it goes well for you!

[theinfinite1]

the eras of my life go as follows:

1. pre-memory (ages 0-4)

don’t really remember any of this but I’m led to believe I was a pretty joyful and curious child.

2. first dark age (5-12)

my first and longest dark age. a lot of this era is buried in my memory. it kinda starts with my parents’ separation and the introduction of my step-family. was v depressed, v lonely, v shy and awkward. this is when most of the physical and verbal abuse from my brother and cousin took place. lot of key character development. “emo phase”, if you will. got my first D in 6th grade. mental health declining throughout. climax is my attempted self-delete. and era ends with the beginning of 7th grade

3. first enlightenment era (12-16)

something clicked for me the summer before 7th grade. I think it had a lot to do w me finally getting good at call of duty and some of the YouTubers I’d watch back then inspiring me. I also started taking soccer more seriously and started to lose a lot of weight. my confidence started growing, I became more social, and by the start of 8th grade I felt on top of the world. This era goes from 7th grade up until my junior year of high school. there’s way too many important moments and details to include in this post but maybe some day I’ll make a whole post dedicated to each era. If not then when I die they can find my notebooks in which I outline them in further detail. The climax of this era would probably be getting my heart broken in the 10th grade (not my first but def worst till that point) and the transition period would be a trip to Hawaii during summer 2015 in which I began a relationship that would be the defining factor of the next era which is…

4. My second dark age (16-17)

perhaps my shortest era yet but also so jam packed it made 1 year feel like a lifetime. this era starts w a budding internet romance that would quickly turn into a hot but toxic roller coaster ride that lasted just under 12 months. some defining moments in this era include me smoking weed for the first time, losing my v-card, beginning my music journey, my high school friend group forming and falling apart, getting my license, making my first song, drama drama drama, and much much more. Climax of this era I would say is making my first song and it officially ends with the end of that roller coaster relationship during the summer of 2016

5. my second enlightenment era (17-20)

Probably my best era so far. It began with the end of that toxic relationship and kinda marks the beginning of my spiritual AND musical journey. I started my senior year and went vegan for 30 days with the help of my friend yesi. my senior year was all about growth, opening my 3rd eye, and having as much fun as possible. I threw 3 big ass parties at my house. started reading more and journaling everyday. Became obsessed with seeing signs from the universe. Took acid. Had some full circle moments. Went to Spain. Dropped my first mixtape. I also began college during this era. Joined a rap group. Threw my first concert. Joined Young Warriors. So so much. Honestly there’s way too much in this era. But the big thing would be meeting my twin flame and everything that came with that. There’s kinda multiple events that signify the end of this era. From September-December 2019, my nana eva passed away, my twin flame relationship ended, my nan passed away, and my first full length album released on all platforms. I kind of have 2 markers for the end of this era. 1 was my nans passing which was the same day DD&NM came out. And 2 was the album release party on Jan 3rd I think. Actually I think my nans passing + the album was like the climax and the release party was the official end of that era.

6. third dark age (20-23)

My third dark age. it’s like 2 am and I’m getting pretty tired so I don’t really feel like going into too much detail. basically, after all that happened at the end of 2019, I was super lost. when my nan died, so too did a part of me. Then what happens? Boom. The fucking pandemic. There is definitely a lot of growth during this era but I call it a dark age because it felt sort of like a cocoon. I made 3 albums during this era. Joined a new rap group. Fell in love again. Did therapy for a year. Stopped being vegetarian. Worked as a fry cook. Worked as a canvasser. Stopped smoking weed. Had a lot of falling outs. Made some new friends. Started to question and explore my sexuality and gender identity. Overall had to grow up a lot during this era. Again, this era maybe wasn’t as flamboyantly difficult as the previous dark age, but more like I was forced into a cocoon and had to really learn some hard lessons about myself. The climax of this era would be the falling out with my now ex-best friend and officially ends with the end of this relationship I was in. It was actually a really nice relationship. It was calm and comfortable. It didn’t end on bad terms. It maybe wasn’t as exciting or nail-biting as some of my other ones, but it was sweet and gentle and safe. It was also my longest so far. But yeah that breakup kinda marked the end of that era. And finallly

7. My third enlightenment era (23-?)

Where I currently find myself. I’m smarter and wiser than I ever have been. I have a rejuvenated sense of hunger and wonder. I’m excited to see all that this era brings. It’s already been so much fun and it’s only been a few months. I feel like all of my previous eras have been leading up to this one. This feels like it’s gonna be a good one. I can’t wait to experience it. Maybe I’ll come back to this post in a few years and tell you about it. A few things that have signified this era so far are: starting to play soccer consistently again (thanks to Luis from PB), meeting Sarahí, going out and meeting people like I used to, feeling a deep sense of self-love and gratitude, and beginning to eat healthy again. Also getting over my creative burn-out that I forgot to mention began towards the end of my previous era.

So yeah. Those are the eras of my life so far. Again, there is way too much to mention for each era in one single post. Maybe I’ll go in more depth for each one later. There’s so much context missing it really doesn’t do any of them justice. Also, idek if anyone will every read this or if anyone out there cares. This is more so for me anyways and like, I know all the context bc I was there so…. Whatevs. Okay. Bye <3333

[itsjustsun]

Hi

So it’s been a minute. I’ve been enjoying the time I have off I guess just spending more time w/ friends or trying to. This last month has been heavy and maybe honestly just the weather. Lol fr. You know I’ve been speaking with someone just sharing energy and bouncing ideas it’s been a beautiful experience. They asked me a question of how I felt about prayer and it re-centered me. You know I forgot to invest in myself spiritually and I just started praying again. And honestly god has come through for me to have the ability to ground myself while working through things. Our bodies goes through so much things because our senses never stop feeling or reading things so opportunities to just be still are gems in processes of processing the process. See the word play. The slowness kinda allows you to see what’s important.

So moments like this where I get to sip tea and just take the time to let it brew, moments like where I get to randomly play arcade games. Remembering childhood memories of how I fell in love with cinematography & horror movies. As a kid how my nana and I would bond is watch horror movies together. Little things like that I miss. She would let me play with dolls just tell me not to let my mother see. I guess when I go through the motions i hermit. It’s so much mind factors that makes me feel like I can’t live life sometimes. I shouldn’t be doing this because I’m not doing this or because pressures of dang maybe I should do enough, but the beauty of reassurance in all ways is that it reminds you you are. You know I’ve always been confident. The natural confidence I have attracted energies & situations that wanted to break that. I began struggling with things like body dysmorphia which lead to early seasons of depression, eating disorders and accumulated more abusive behaviors from lifestyles that I was exposed to. So shedding from those philosophies because things like that are more mental then translate to physical abuse. Whether it’s outwardly or self inflicted. I think it’s time for cycles like that to end and the phase I’m in right now is beating those cycles. Letting go of toxic addictions and replacing them with healthier ones. Working on letting go as well.

What I’m drinking is life everlasting flowers known in hoodoo medicine or geechee gulluh tradition(shoutout to A.N. Idk if she would want ppl to know we spoke about that. Sn something about me is I’m very very private. It’s just how I was raised so I like to respect others privacy) as an immune booster, kidney & liver flush. If you know one of the things I’ve been battling is newly kidney issues. I went through a lot a lot of stress within these past two years and sometimes it may not look like it my mind race too too much. Working out has helped y’all i workout sometimes 3x a dayZ So trying to figure out ways to improve that upon other things to assist the care I do get was finding out things like beet juice, nettle tea to help fix the battles with addiction(i.e. smoking. I like a blunt, but I shouldn’t abuse it. Like a glass of wine at the end of the day.) And others my doctor actually said my kidneys are functioning better. So that’s where my focus is. I wanna do better and stay in a state where we’re balanced. So it’s been working. Idk I just get tired of my story being told and if you notice nothing about it has changed. It’s frustrating and sometimes it sick that a lot of you have or try to mock my pain or experiences you weren’t there to be with me through.

Ig: @__itsjustsun

#me #blackboymagic #spiritual wellness #plantbased #holistic wellness

[thiscrimsonsoul]

What would actually happen to Wanda once she's "clean" of the DH, after Mantis forced Chthon to retreat? Would Kamar-Taj have like... a trial? Would they lock Wanda up? She has done damage, but not to the extreme levels she does in the DSMoM canon. I wonder what the consequences would be. It's so sad that she caused all that death and destruction but I do completely believe that she could actually have been stopped this way, with her brother and someone whose powers are similar to hers.

{out of paprikash} So... I’m not really sure, but this is a really interesting question. I think there are multiple possibilities, but it really depends on your interpretation of characters like Wanda, Stephen, Wong, and America (so if you write one of these muses, feel free to weigh in on the topic by replying to this post). I write Stephen and Wanda, so I can only guess as to what Wong or America would think, but I think if we go through these one by one, that might shed some light on were their heads are at, and therefore on what might happen from the end of DSMoM onward.

Wanda: My version of Wanda has hit rock bottom at the end of DSMoM. She just lost the boys again, it’s slowly sinking in that she’s done these terrible things and for nothing, and she fully expected to die with the collapse of the temple on Wundagore, only to wake up again. It’s like her entire life is this nightmare from which she can never awaken, and in which she can never find peace. She’s exhausted, physically and mentally. She’s soul-tired. And she’s going through magical withdrawal from having here connection to the Darkhold severed. She’s feeling... absolutely horrible right now, physically, spiritually, in every way.

Given that, my version of her is very surrendering in what she feels now. She knows she needs to answer for what she did, and she’s not expecting any kindness, forgiveness, or mercy from anyone, least of all Wong and America... and probably also Stephen. She’s willing to go to trial or be imprisoned because she’s that low, and she’s feeling like she’s a dangerous monster, like everything negative that’s been said about her over the years was right. Mental healh-wise, she’s not in a good place, and at least immediately after the end of DSMoM, she’s not overly willing to advocate for herself.

Stephen: My version of Stephen has some very conflicting feelings about Wanda. At first, with everything she did at Kamar-Taj, he was really freaking angry. And a little scared. He was also feeling very guilty because he felt like if he had noticed sooner that Wanda had gone down this rabbit hole, or if he had checked up on her after the whole Westview incident, none of this would have happened. But by the end of DSMoM, h’s much more sympathetic. He can see the pain written right on Wanda’s face. Pain, guilt, and that special kind of exhaustion that comes from grief and having your hear ripped right out. That combined with her apparent sacrifice to get rid of the Darkhold really has him wanting to help Wanda. It’s not that he forgives or forgets, but he understands.

And especially since he used the Darkhold himself and knows that its influence is still with him to some extent, and he knows that even though he only spend a short time with it, it’s compulsive influence and lure of power was immense, he understands how someone like Wanda, who has lost so much, would be easily and deeply affected by such an artifact. So he would be inclined to advocate for a rehabilitation option for Wanda instead of a trial or imprisonment or even execution. Her powers used for good and the benefits to the world far outweigh simply punishing her or locking her away. But also he wants better for Wanda, and he knows that really, no one can hold her if she doesn’t want to be held. That presents a logistical issue to imprisoning her. So why not try to rehabilitate her instead?

Wong: I don’t write Wong, so I may not interpret him correctly, but... my impression of him is that he is much too angry and hurt to forgive Wanda. Not for what happened to him, but all the good people who died defending Kamar-Taj and America. Mercy and forgiveness are not on his mind right now. That’s the emotional aspect, but as we know, Wong is very controlled with his emotions and errs on the side of laws and practicality. Because of that, I think that regardless of what he feels personally, whatever the punishment/price for what Wanda did is in whatever magical court of law they have at Kamar-Taj would be what he’d want to be carried out. Whether that means a trial or just deciding a punishment, something must be done. What Wanda did cannot go unpunished, and the victims cannot go unrecognized. There must be consequences. Otherwise they risk setting a frightening precedent for what is allowed in the magical community in the future.

As the Sorcerer Supreme, I think Wong would feel a great sense of responsibility to condemn what Wanda did as unacceptable in some way. I think he also would be unwilling to place any trust in what she says or does. However, like Stephen, he does recognize how powerful she is and that trying to keep her imprisoned may be impossible, even with all their best protection magicks. He... is unfortunately not above deciding that Wanda should be put down, for the safety of the general public and the integrity of the multiverse. He’s not quite to the point of ordering that just yet, but nothing is off the table.

Wong does understand that the Darkhold was influencing Wanda, absolutely. However, he also knows that there was some complicit thought and behavior on Wanda’s part that opened the door to her getting to this level. Early on, she could have reached out for help, and she didn't. And regardless of whether her behavior was within her control or not, having a being as powerful as Wanda be as mentally unstable and susceptible to corruption is dangerous for the entire multiverse whether she’s to blame or not. She could have been blameless completely, and the fact still remains that her ability to be corrupted so easily makes her a significant danger that might need to be eliminated to prevent greater disasters.

America: Again, I don’t write America, and I don’t pretend to be very good at getting inside her head, but I’ll try my best, heh. I think she would be a mix of terrified of and traumatized by Wanda, and angry and wanting her to be punished. She’s a teenager who was hunted down and almost killed multiple times. Granted, she is a strong, resilient girl who has had the resourcefulness, stamina, and intelligence to survive being flung all around the multiverse, so she’s not just going to curl up in a ball and cry. She’d want to see real action, real change. What are you (Stephen/Wong) going to do about Wanda? What will be done to her? About her? How are you going to ensure that she can’t ever do this kind of crap again? And I think she wouldn’t let it go. As loud, persistent, and even annoying as she has to be with the Powers That Be at Kamar-Taj, she’ll do it to get things done.

The only thing that scares and upsets America more than the prospect of Wanda someday coming after her again... is the idea that she’d go after someone else. Maybe an even younger and more vulnerable child this time. Or maybe someone else who will he hurt much worse than America was. For that reason, I think she’d want to know what those in power intend to do about Wanda, and she’d want some pretty hard and concrete answers and plans, and if she doesn't get them, she’ll call bullshit right to their faces and press them to do better.

I see America’s fear of Wanda and her outrage over what Wanda did to her and others as being real obstacles to her ever forgiving her that I’m not sure can be overcome. I think America would be perfectly happy never seeing or dealing with Wanda ever again.

Final thoughts: So that’s where everyone’s head is at, and I think that... it would matter whether Wong or Stephen got to Wanda first, or if they discussed it prior to finding her. I’m not sure if Stephen could convince Wong to try and rehabilitate Wanda, or where/how that might happen. I’ve written threads where Wanda turns herself in, where she’s been imprisoned willingly at Kamar-Taj, where she was sent somewhere other than Kamar-Taj to be rehabilitated, or where she had to go off the grid again because she didn’t want to be hunted down. So... anything is possible, really, and until we find out in future MCU projects what actually became of Wanda, we won’t know what repercussions, if any, her actions will result in or how other characters might pursue her. As much as I would like to see her rehabilitated, I doubt we will get that in any form. I think she is likely to stay a “villain,” at least for the near future. Without being able to recover from her losses and without a better handle on her power without flying off the deep end, I don’t see Wanda going back to heroism anytime soon. But I also don’t feel she should. She has a different story to tell and I think we should just see where it goes rather than trying to place labels on her or her life just yet.

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