#i’m just so tired.

[ihearnocomplaints]

I point you all to my ko-fi page once more -> link

my parents, enraged that I didn’t sort a massive mound of clothes yesterday (after doing the other chores they asked), essentially decided they are going to start charging me rent.

So this is just in preparation for that moment when they do start asking. I’m still trying to save up to move out. It’s not a huge deal yet (idk how much they’re going to charge) so there’s no pressure to donate.

I work a full time job so I can’t really give much in return. But I can take doodle requests upon proof of donation! I’ll doodle any DCA you want.

Thanks.

#Idk what to tag this #i’m just so tired. #i’m just tired of my parents putting so much pressure on me #like 1) I did the chores they asked of me #2) The only one i didn’t do was because it was literally an overwhelming amount of clothes. The entire fucking laundry room is filled to the #brim with clothes. Literally you cannot walk in there without strpping on some #that’s 6 people’s clothes. Not even most of mine because I actually do my own laundry. other than the ones that get mixed in with the others #and they wanted me sort them. by myself. #I’m autistic and a massiver germaphobe and they wanted me to sort their grimey fucking clothes. #And when I don’t do it? call me useless and lazy #and then i fel insane because maybe i am just lazy and i should do more because they let me live here for free #sometimes i feel in the wrong. maybe i am in the wrong. maybe i should just suck it up and deal with it instead of complaining #I don’t know. I’m scared. I’m so scared #I don’t have anything to fall back on. I don’t have my own car. I have nothing.

[asshatproductions]

One thing I hate about media criticism today is that anytime there’s a black woman on screen that is justifiably upset about something people are so quick to jump to the “she was reduced to the angry black woman stereotype” argument… as if black women aren’t allowed to feel anger??

#yeah this is about Kenobi #reva star wars #reva sevander #alison hargreeves #i can see people jumping to this conclusion about her too #wandavision #monica rambeau #i’m just so tired.

[unearthlydream]

it is becoming increasingly hard to fake positivity and happiness. and people are noticing and asking things and I just don’t know what to tell them.

#personal #like I’m only supposed to be sad online !!! brain get your shit together holy fuck !!!! #I just don’t have the energy to force conversation or feign happiness or even emotion in general at this point #I try to drown it out and fill the void with literally anything but nothing helps. nothing has helped for a while. #and so I’ll just keep sitting here. keep #procrastinating and keep being standoffish and keep making things worse for myself and suffering in silence bc what other choice is there #I can only ever articulate what I’m feeling through written word. I don’t know how to talk to people and the words don’t ever come #and even when writing things down I painstakingly review every line and rewrite and delete and rewrite until I have just…. nothing #I can’t make sense of it so how am I supposed to communicate anything to others so they can help? #and regardless they can’t help. my brain is fucking stupid and I can’t function and I’ve been lying to myself for so long #saying I’m capable and I can be successful and I can fit the mold and fake it until I make it through but I can’t. I can’t. #someone killed themselves by jumping off a dorm at my uni yesterday. it could be that easy. it could be so simple as a free fall. silence. #I’m just so tired.

[system-error404-notfound]

I’m at my breaking point again.

Everything keeps happening all at once. I’m so tired and stressed…nothing is going right anymore. It feels like every day something happens to add to the stress I’m under. I’m just…done. I don’t feel anything anymore. I don’t care about anything anymore. I’m done. I give up. You win, life. You beat me down so much that I can’t get up anymore. You win. I’m done.

#vent tw #I’m not…suicidal I don’t think #i just want it all to stop #what if I just stopped showing up to my job and replying to people online and interacting with the world #what if I just slept forever #I’m just so tired. #so fucking tired…

[urmumhaha]

I wish butch n femme balls existed. Not to b a fucking sap n a massive dyke but wow. Ugh even. Just wanna wear a gown n stilettos n have my honey greet me w a bouquet before we leave n we wear matching or complimentary jewelry n spend hours on my hair and makeup to impress. N then when we get there my honey will spin me around the room for a brief dance before grabbing something to drink, wine for me n whiskey for her, as we chat w other dykes n celebrate butchfemmeness. Or whatever

#thinkin thots #sorry everyone I’m tired n a lil high after work n feeling DRAB so we r imagining #n listen I know balls r just a flaunting wrath bourgeois thing #wealth #this is just a simple indulgence for the Eve #lesbian #i #femme lesbian #butch/femme #butch lesbian #womp womp

[sharkieboi]

guess who’s got covid. again.

#shhh sharkie #i’m just so tired. #the like literal bone deep exhaustion #i just want to sleep all day and not in the way i usually want to sleep all day #like i can’t do anything BUT sleep all day #lucked out that Sansa is on eggs rn so she’s got a job and doesn’t need me #ughhhhhh just put me in the morgue already #everything hurts i’m going back to sleep

[smeepi]

entering the new year and still i rot in bed weighed down by the sadness of the year prior

#diary #i don’t even know how to explain it #it’s just an overall sadness #i’m just so tired.

[neurodivergentmouse]

So is it “good things come to those that wait” or “get out there and take what you want” because they seem to get the same fucking results in my experience.

#I’m just so tired.

[canisonicscrewyou]

#if your regular sleep med of choice is Benadryl I’m afraid of you #Idek what my answer is though??? probably melatonin. it helps a lot when I need to fix my sleep schedule #sleep soundly <3333 #I also sometimes take ashwaganda if it’s not too expensive or is mixed w other stuff. and drink sleepy teas but not necessarily JUST tosleep #I was on olanzapine and that helped my sleep a lot (at the cost of eventually making me feel so so tired during the day) #anyways you must tell me

[leaff0dil]

The sleepers (+wings au)

#one piece #monkey d. luffy #sabo #portgas d ace #asl brothers #one piece sabo #one piece luffy #one piece ace #i was hesitant on posting this cuz of some parts of the drawing I wanted to change #but it’s late and i’m too tired so I just ball with it

[annoyinglibra]

#poll #nobody is going to see it bc my followers are so inactive here but I’m just curious 😔 #via the notes I’m learning that some schools had all three which is trippy to me #I should’ve included an option for all three 😔 #editing notes again: I know nobody will see the edit but I didn’t think to include ‘all three’ or ‘other’ because I was sick + tired let me #liveeee 😭

[the-phantom-peach]

Meeting the Light Dragon ✨🐉

[tagged as spoilers!]

#do you like the color of the sky #sorry long post #anyways #everyone’s talking about ‘the theme of totk is hands’ okay yeah but have you seen the eyes?? #this game is so good I’m biting my hands #I just wanted to get this one off my chest bc im tired it didn’t turn out the way I wanted but that’s okay #coloring was really fun though! #im sad now gotta draw happy stuff to cope #totk spoilers #the legend of zelda #legend of zelda #tloz #loz #tears of the kingdom #breath of the wild #totk #botw #Zelda #Nintendo #totk link #totk Zelda #totk light dragon #light dragon #totk zelink #zelink #tloz fanart #totk fanart #art #my art

[twinstxrs]

idk if this is accurate but i’ve felt like in previous seasons riz & gorgug have been one of the inter-bad kids dynamics we’ve seen the least of & this season has been so great in that aspect. gorgug having helped make some of riz’s magic gear. riz helping gorgug with his studies. the shared birthday party. gorgug’s gift to riz being something he himself made to protect riz. riz’s gift to gorgug being something he illegally grabbed to protect gorgug. gorgug who utilizes rage to put his body on the line for his friends & riz who will take deep levels of mental stress for his friends. even though it was within the context of a joke, riz calling gorgug an “absolute sweetie.” like yea they might not be in a band together or both part of a presidential campaign team or owlbears teammates, but they’d go to war for each other, because they’re best friends.

#riz gukgak #gorgug thistlespring #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #these kids are all so self-sacrificing but i do think riz gorgug are the most clear (& juxtaposed) self-sacrificers #riz will mentally tear himself to pieces and get lost in cases and take on ungodly levels of stress for those he loves #gorgug will use himself as a human shield. he will take hit after hit if it means his friends are okay. #and they’d both do the other thing too. riz would let himself get hit for gorgug. gorgug would pull all nighters & take stress for riz. #even if mechanically they can’t or it wouldn’t make sense. they would if they could. #also #the starstruck barry mechanic of being a guard is so gorgug. it’s soooo gorgug like that’s literally him #anyways love this tall green guy & this short green guy so much #especially because gorgug is tall & considered intimidating but protective in a deeply kind way #while riz is short & underestimated but protective in a deeply vicious way (affectionate) #i hope this makes sense but i think riz is primarily ‘i would kill for you’ & gorgug is primarily ‘i would die for you’ maybe #this does not mean gorgug would not kill for riz or riz would not die for gorgug. they both would. #but those are the primary ways their love manifests due to the nature of their strengths/personalities. To Me #idk this is all just me saying stuff when i should be sleeping 😭 #sorry if i missed a riz gorgug moment in the main post btw i’m tired

[itrulyhatethisworld]

i just wanna cut everyone off and rot away in my bed

#actually bpd #bpd culture is #bpd feels #bpd fp #bpd problems #bpd safe #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #depressing life #depressing shit #bpd #depressiv #sorry for being depressing #i’m bored #im bored #i just wanna sleep #i hate it so much #i hate it here #why am i like this #i hate this #i wanna die #i hate everything #i’m so lonely #i’m outraged #i’m going insane #i’m just a girl #i’m sad #i’m so sorry #i’m so tired #i’m sorry

[queen-breha-organa]

I want to talk a little bit about Hawai‘i, because I have been thinking a lot about my people, and our lives.

The year 2023 marks 130 years since the illegal overthrow of the Hawaiian Kingdom.

On January 17th 1893, American businessman used their connections and military influence to dethrone Queen Liliuokalani by threat of force.

This annexation still impacts my people 130 years later. It still hurts us, it still haunts us,

For the last 130 years my people have suffered under America’s cruelty and indifference.

Unsustainable Tourism haunts us, causing a cost of living crisis, which turns into a rise in poverty, which turns into a rise in individuals experiencing homelessness. This cost crisis disproportionately effects my people, Kānaka Maoli. We cannot even afford to live on our on land. Our ancestral home.

And in turn, tourism then provides the most jobs. This industry pushes us off our land and into poverty, and then it turns around and sells us back our culture as a walking joke.

Our very identity is turned into entertainment. Our very culture is turned into entertainment.

And many of my people have no choice but to sell their culture so they can eat, so they can survive.

We have been put in a never ending cycle of misery and cultural destruction.

In addition, Military Involvement on our islands causes repeated incidents of ecological violence, and land disputes. The military take claim to land that belongs to my people, and they spill chemicals over and over, and poison the water we drink.

My people are suffering. Our culture is suffering.

And everyday more tourists come. Everyday more land is taken to build hotels. Everyday more culture is stripped and bastardized. Everyday more land is taken for military use.

I’m so tired of living this way. I’m so tired of waking up and watching the slow and agonizing death of my people.

I want us to live. I want us to thrive.

I want my people to survive.

I want to survive.

So please read up on the current issues that face Kānaka Maoli. Please educate yourself on my people’s history and current affairs.

Speak up and speak out. Talk about unsustainable tourism, and speak up about how harmful a “vacation” to Hawai‘i can be. Talk about the overthrow of the Hawaiian Kingdom, and it’s injustice.

Hawai‘i is Hawaiians. Hawai‘i is our history. Hawai‘i is our home. Hawai‘i is the very blood that runs through our veins.

So please do not forget us, and please speak up with us.

Support Hawaiian Sovereignty. Restore Hawai‘i to Hawaiians.

Resources & Education:

#I’ve just got a lot on my mind #and I’m so tired #I’m so sick and tired #okay to reblog

[kait-bait8]

I will never stop thinking about the fact that the Hunger Games was canonically a drunk hypothetical. It wasn’t some great government scheme.

So many bad dystopian novels that have some crazy world building premise make it seem like some great creation from powerful minds. Some great construction. Think of City of Ember with its box or Divergent with its weird scientists(??) or The Selection with its bachelor premise, they are always “grandly designed.” Even in Catching Fire with the Quarter Quells the Games give off an air of grand planning.

But the hunger games were a HYPOTHETICAL. A crazy, extreme, what if. They were never supposed to exist. They were never supposed to be real.

Who wouldn’t drink themselves to death knowing they thought of the idea in the first place?

#it’s just SO good in ways I can’t articulate #I’m tired and words are hard #BUT IT WAS A DUMB DRUNK CONVERSATION #probably just angry ranting #but then real children killed and were killed by other real children #ugh it’s too much #the hunger games #thg #tbosas