#i was being paranoid

[bowandbrush]

I walked into Goodwill.

walked out with a pair of genuine Sai

#SO #I was with my mom shopping at goodwill #I’m basically there for emotional support #And #we mostly look at books and CDs #And I’m walking past a shelf #And I’m like #YOOOO #I run up to the sai sitting hooked on the shelf and eagerly picked them out #And to my even bigger surprise #These guys are HEFTY #AND REAL #And I start freaking out and stuttering trying to show my mother #I literally got so hyped that I started drooling #No joke #and my mom looks at me with huge metal things in my hands and is like #??? #and I start yapping #And I put them in the cart after infodumping about these things #And there’s an older couple standing close to me #Giving me a dirty look #I guess they were also looking at them #But they didn’t make any moves sooo #Like I got them first #But they FOLLOWED US #Kind of #i was being paranoid #But if looks could kill #I’d be dead #Also I hate eye contact and these folks out here like a Wild West film

[ikiprian]

Mr. Fenton is a competent teacher. Almost too competent.

If Mr. Daniel Fenton had any more than a BS (with a minor in education), Tim would’ve flagged his profile as a potential Rogue. That’s the way of most charismatic academics, at least in Gotham. (Got a PhD? Instant watchlist.) Instead, he’s Gotham Academy’s newest celebrity, as a young, passionate, out-of-towner substitute while the chemistry teacher’s on maternity leave.

Tim gets the hype. Fenton seems to genuinely love teaching, and is invested in the welfare of the student body. He hands out bananas during exam week, hosts a “study habits seminar” each month to coach effective learning strategies, and the third time Tim falls asleep in his class, he even pulls Tim aside to ask if he’s doing okay. With all the late work he accepts and the protein bars he sneaks Tim, he’s every teen vigilante’s dream teacher. He could’ve been Tim’s favorite.

In fact, Mr. Fenton was Tim’s favorite. Up until Tim walks into Mr. Fenton’s chemistry classroom for a forgotten textbook, an hour after the final bell.

On the board where tallied scores for today’s review game had been kept, “THE CHEMISTRY BEHIND DR. CRANE’S FEAR GAS: ANXIOGENICS, NERI’S, & YOU,” is now scrawled. A detailed diagram of the human endocrine system projects in front of a small crowd of adoring and attentive students.

Fenton is wrist-deep in the skull cavity of an anatomical model. A short tug, and out pops the brain.

It’s plastic. It’s fake.

Tim identifies the nearest emergency exit.

Fenton turns to the door, and in the dark classroom with the projector illuminating half his face, his eyes almost seem to flash red. “What’s up, Tim?” he asks. His friendly grin is too big for his face. “I didn’t know you wanted to join the Just Science League!”

[OR: Danny’s a science teacher at Tim’s school. Gotham’s a pretty wild place, even for someone who grew up a superhero in a ghost-infested town, so he takes it upon himself to start a club teaching kids how to manage themselves in the event of a crisis. These Gothamites are pretty hardy, but a little extra training never hurt anybody! And he suspects one of his students might be a teen vigilante, like he’d been, back in the day. As a senior super, it's Danny’s duty look out for him! Surely, this is the subtlest and most appropriate way to give the kid pointers.]

[Tim immediately assumes supervillain.]

#Danny can’t help being creepy it’s just the way he’s built!! #I like to think Lancer did these things for Danny when he was in HS #and now Danny's emulating Lancer :) #Passing it on! #Tim is paranoid but also like he is SO CLOSE to graduating so like. Does he even want to report this shit to Batman. What if the next chem #teacher's a jerk and Tim fails the class and he never gets his stupid diploma. Bruce already is insisting he finish out HS and maybe get #an ABA before he's allowed back into the company #and Jesus Christ does Tim hate school. He'll worry about Mr. Fenton's burgeoning army of Science Honor Society Rogues on his own time #dcxdp #dpxdc #prompt #tim drake #danny fenton #in case I write more of this let’s tag it uhhhhh #misunderstood mentor au #kipwrite

[sualne]

Old and new gifts.

(timeline)

#one piece #monkey d luffy #sir crocodile #dracule mihawk #crocodad au #my art #my comic #described in alt text #💪energy recovered💪 (ish) #first one is about how when trying to pass you give up things you love for fear of it being too feminine/masculine. eventually you become a #bit paranoid about it and ends up avoiding things even cis people would wear/do. and! eventuallier! you go back to it! n wear what you love #second is because i needed to show off that nickname for mihawk. fkssf i hope it works. also. dagger. a secret tool for later ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

[aquapede]

the voices in some god's head

#slay the princess #stp #the long quiet #voice of the hero #voice of the paranoid #voice of the smitten #voice of the stubborn #voice of the cold #<-tagging the fan favorites i dont have time for the rest of them get better soon #scribbles #id in alt text #ask 2 tag? #i wanted them to look more like the princess than people usually portray them #since they're implied to be the part of lq with the capacity to change (i.e being a remnant of her....) #dont deny them their feminine swag okay. my final message

[blushweddinggowns]

If Stranger Things Season 5 ends with Nancy and Steve having 6 kids in Hawkins and she gives up the journalism dreams for "true love" then the duffers will owe me 2.5 million in emotional damages.

#steve Harrington #nancy Wheeler #stranger things #am i paranoid or can we see this happening #i can see her big life lesson being “love” over amibiton and it makes me ill #we will see #i dont even like nancys character that much #but what a betrayal

[anemonet]

WINNERS POV LETS GOOOOOOOO!!!!

#they are soooooo paranoid #falsesymmetry #hermitcraft #bdubs #bdouble0 #shaking out of my seat false symmetary nation keeps winning #also bdbubs i guess contratz for being thr most untipped best loser ever #they are so deranged to me #babygirls #anyhow this was a rush job but like meh #also also heads up im not gonna be active this week bceause of the strike for palastine so uh yeah concider donating !!!! #otherwise anyhow song for today iissss en vän med en bil by håkan hellström!!! #they have not showered fo week

[solarmorrigan]

It’s impossible to sneak up on Steve

Like, actually impossible

Dude has eyes in the back of his head. It’s some kind of mom superpower. (Or maybe it’s just the hypervigilance. Whatever)

Eddie first notices because the kids try to sneak past him a couple of times and he always catches them

He even calls them out by name. And he’s always right

Every single time

He catches Henderson trying to get a snack before they’re about to eat (not that Henderson particularly cares he’s been caught; he eats his chips without remorse)

He catches Small Wheeler trying to smuggle an R-rated movie over the Buckley’s side of the counter while Steve’s back is turned (not that Buckley would’ve rented it to him)

He catches Red and Supergirl both sneaking junk food into the cart while they’re out grocery shopping (neither of them are repentant, and Steve rolls his eyes but does exactly nothing about it)

Eddie’s interest is piqued

The first time he tries sneaking up on Steve, Steve catches him before he gets within three feet

How

“You jingle when you walk, Eddie.”

Okay, yeah, that’s fair

Next time, Eddie takes off his wallet chain and all his jewelry

Steve still catches him before he gets close enough to reach out and touch

“Your shoes squeak.”

Eddie’s pretty sure they don’t, actually, but fine. The shoes are next to go

And Steve still fucking catches him. Eddie can hear the goddamn smile in his voice as he says “Hi, Eddie,” just as Eddie is reaching out to grab his waist

“I could smell your shampoo.”

He could smell Eddie’s shampoo?

His fucking shampoo??

Alright, no, actually, that’s kind of sweet. But Eddie can’t exactly stop using shampoo, because then Steve will probably just be able to smell his hair grease or something. Eddie has to get creative, but he makes sure he’s not downwind of the AC vent next time

Yet Steve is the one who manages to ambush Eddie while Eddie is ambushing Steve, turning around and pulling Eddie right into him before Eddie can pounce, kissing him hard and quick, asking if that’s what Eddie was going for when he pulls away

Half dazed, half aroused, entirely frustrated, Eddie demands to know how the fuck Steve caught him this time, and Steve shrugs

“It just... feels different, when there’s someone behind you. The air, maybe? I dunno.”

Is this man even human?

(Given the general state of... everything, Eddie feels this is a legitimate question)

But Eddie isn’t one to give up once he becomes fixated, so he bides his time

He waits

And he waits

And he waits, until it seems like Steve is engaged in something distracting enough that he’s not going to be paying attention to how the room behind him feels, or however the fuck that works, and takes his shot

AND HE SUCCEEDS

He has to promise never to do it again, because his ribs are now bruised from Steve’s very surprised elbow, and Steve is mad and handing him and ice pack and bitching at him at full volume, but y’know what?

Fucking worth it

#steddie #eddie munson #steve harrington #stranger things #eddiesteve #alright look yes eddie and steve formally met SPECIFICALLY by eddie getting the drop on steve #but arguably steve was already pretty well convinced someone was in the room with them and was the one checking hiding places #and then got distracted when everyone else thought he was being paranoid #so y'know what I stand by this #also I had the idea and I just thought it was funny so I wrote it #solar wrote #long post

[snekdood]

so uh

for 1. most people are gonna take advantage of black friday and wont see your specific niche tumblr post, I hate to say it

2. the us isnt running out of money for war any time soon, so...

3. this is just antisemitism???????? all we need is some (((echoes))) around the us and israel and then I'd have no reason to suspect otherwise from op...............

#why in tf do you think they care that much about getting your money rn and not before in any other war? #does it. mayhaps. have something to do w jewish people being involved now? #our tax dollars go to the govt regardless and has been for years and we already have an obscene amount of funding for military shit #preeetty sure they're not concerned about getting a couple hundred tumblr users money... #and also pretty sure one could only believe that if they're paranoid about jewish ppl................. #hard not to put two and two together and figure out op is prolly antisemitic and hopefully they just dont realize it #i say hopefully they dont realize it bc thats better than someone who knows and is pretending to be a leftist still. #if anything this pause happened bc its thanksgiving and biden doesnt wanna think about it over the holidays. thats p much it. #thats the only amount of conspiracy theory im willing to believe in this situation lmao. #but that ^ still assumes that biden has some sort of control over this that he really doesnt #and i dont think netanyahu cares that much about thanksgiving tbr... #it sounds more like to me that op is seeing this from a very american centric pov and assumes everyone celebrates thanksgiving #or cares enough about it to remember the dates.... i dont think this is as planned as op is making it out to be and any insinuation #that it IS planned sounds like conspiracy theory talk to me personally. i dont think biden is hittin netanyahu up and going #'hey thursday is thanksgiving and would be the perfect time to pause so we can (((get peoples money))) out of them #asiftheUSdoesnthaveplentyalready' like i just really dont think that convo is happening lmao.

[fondesmode]

Okay okay, Owl House officialy ends in like. Today. So heres a checklist of all the things i need to happen in the finale. For my emotionsl sake.

Belos fucking dies

Raine is okay

Collector keeps his powers but is chill

Luz gets to live where she wants n isnt depresso forcing herself into human realm

Its all goooood :)

At least 3 of these and ill be satisfied fbcfbcdg

#okay so like #i love the collector and he clearly isnt evil evil #thats what belos is for #but i want him to keep his powers cause the message it sends if he loses them is... iffy #cause if they end up treating him normal etc because hes forced into having no power #over his own choice? #feels much less of a character moment #if u know what i mean?? #even if the collector CHOOSES to be good without powers its just a weird situation #cause him being good WITH the gid powers show that people can change for the better etc etc #i think im just paranoid GBCFVXSCZ #either way i trust dana #im sure no matter what itll be a great finale :)) #this is just my prefference #owl house #toh #the owl house

[sarioh]

still cannot get over how much of a toxic sweat joel is. like if you watched his pov for mcc you would have no idea that his main schtick is that he's literally a builder on a fantasy roleplay server he is one of the most unnecessarily competitive players ive ever seen. the guy taught himself to speed bridge for tgttos and he occasionally does it on empires just to show off. he posted a clip on twitter of him playing tgttos on mcc island and the only words he says in the whole clip are "fuck off" four times. he camps the subreddit and viciously attacks anyone who places his team lower than top 5. someone so much as looks at him funny on stream in empires and he goes back to his base, grabs a chestplate and 5 golden apples, and hunts them down in complete silence until they're dead. you just know that man spends hours of his free time grinding competitive minecraft and for WHAT. to build a floating island???? to babysit his armor stand son????? NOBODY does it like him

#he is SOOOO insecure i love him so much #ive been watching mcc since mcc 2 and until about a year ago i only watched sweaty players #and then i started watching hermits and adjacent just to have a chill experience #and somehow joel is LESS chill than 90% of the players i used to watch who were ACTUAL sweats. like pvpers and stuff #IT NEVER STOPS BEING FUNNY TO ME #that being said ive watched almost all of joels mccs and seeing him go from an average to getting top 10 a few times has been awesome #ive been one of the joel A tier truthers since like mcc 15 and i was RIGHT #smallishbeans #whenever i maintag a joel post i get a little bit paranoid that hes gonna see the post . so if u see this joel #im proud of u. keep thotting it up in mcc. slay

[otrtbs]

guys things r going so well for me rn,, new job, new apartment, journal i’m trying 2 get published 2 approved my abstract yesterday (now the hard part but i stay optimistic w it),,,, now ,,, if only ,,,, i had a new girlfriend or smth to complete the vibes ,,,,

#like ……………. let’s keep these good vibes going ! #amiright #🧿🧿🧿 #<- sorry i got paranoid abt being too happy on the dash sorry

[shitty-kinda-doodles]

So that trailer, huh? And those memes from the storyboard artists? Yeah

I haven't drawn them in a long time so excuse the inconsistency and borrowing the adventure time style again

#jurassic world camp cretaceous #jurassic world chaos theory #god i hope darius is a paranoid little freak #also with darius deserving all the hugs in the world and ben now being giant i think its perfectly reasonable and logical #to come to the conclusion that ben should tenderly wrap him in his arms #jwcc #jwct #darius bowman #ben pincus

[poetrysmackdown]

hi hiii i wanted to say that your account is so refreshing to see, esp with the passion you have for the arts. as someone who's been meaning to read (and write) more poetry, do you have any recommendations? some classics that everyone and their mothers know? perhaps some underrated pieces that changed you? or even just authors you like, I'm very open to suggestions :]]

Hi! Thank you so much for this kind ask :) So exciting that you’re looking to delve deeper into reading and writing! I had to take a little time to answer this because my thoughts were all over the place lol.

For a review of notable/classic poems/poets, I honestly just recommend looking at lists online or, hell, just binging Wikipedia pages for different countries’ poetry if that’s something you’re into, just to get a sense of the chronology. I read one of those little Oxford Very Short Introductions on American Poetry and thought it was pretty good, but online is quicker if you’re just searching for poets or movements to hone in on. Poetry Foundation also has lots of resources, in addition to all the poems in their database. I guess my one big classic recommendation would have to be Emily Dickinson (<3), but really the best move is just to find a poet you already enjoy and then look around to see who their peers were/are, who they were inspired by, who they’ve maybe translated here and there, etc. and follow it down the line as far as you can.

For some personal recs, here are some collections I’ve really enjoyed over the past two years or so. Bolded favorites, and linking where select poems from the book have been published online. But also, if you want a preview of a couple poems from another of the books to see if they interest you, DM me and I can send them over! You can also feel free to pilfer through my poetry tag for more stuff lol

Autobiography of Death by Kim Hyesoon trans. Don Mee Choi

Conflict Resolution for Holy Beings by Joy Harjo

DMZ Colony by Don Mee Choi

Hardly War by Don Mee Choi

Whereas by Layli Long Soldier

Geography III by Elizabeth Bishop

Dictee by Theresa Hak Kyung Cha

Don’t Let Me Be Lonely: An American Lyric by Claudia Rankine

Mouth: Eats Color—Sagawa Chika Translations, Anti-Translations, & Originals by Sawako Nakayasu

The Selected Poems of Osip Mandelstam trans. W.S. Merwin and Clarence Brown

The Branch Will Not Break by James Wright

This Journey by James Wright

God’s Silence by Franz Wright

Duino Elegies by Rainer Maria Rilke (the translation I read was by Alfred Corn��I thought it was great, but idk if there are better ones out there!)

DMZ Colony, Hardly War, Dictee, Don’t Let Me Be Lonely, and partially Whereas are all book-length poems with some prose poetry and varying levels of weirdness/denseness/multilingualism—if you were to pick one to start with, I’d say do Don’t Let Me Be Lonely or Whereas. Mouth: Eats Color is some experimental translations of Japanese modernist poet Chika Sagawa, with other translations and some of Nakayasu’s original stuff mixed in—it's definitely a bit disorienting but ultimately I remember having such fun with it, as much fun as Nakayasu probably had making it. It’s a book that emphasizes co-creation and a spirit of play, and completely changed my attitude towards translation.

If you’re less interested in that kind of formal fuckery stuff though (I get it), can’t go wrong with the other books! Conflict Resolution for Holy Beings is the one I read most recently, and it’s great—Harjo also featured in Round 1! Franz Wright also featured, and God's Silence is the collection which "Night Walk" comes from. James Wright (father of Franz) is one of my favorite poets of all time, though his poetry isn’t perfect. Even so, I’m honestly surprised he’s not doing numbers on Tumblr—Mary Oliver was a big fan of his, even wrote her "Three Poems for James Wright" after his death.

I mentioned in another post that one of my favorite poets is Paul Celan, so I’ll also recommend him here. I read Memory Rose into Threshold Speech which is a translated collection of his earlier poems, but it’s quite long if you’re just getting to know him as a poet—fortunately, both Poetry Foundation and Poets.org have a ton of his poems in their collections. There’s also an article by Ilya Kaminsky about him titled “Of Strangeness That Wakes Us” (!!!!!) that’s a great place to start, and is honestly kind of my whole mission statement when I’m reading and writing poetry. Looking at the books I’ve recommended above, a lot of them share feelings of separateness or alienation—from others, from oneself, from one’s country, from language—that breed strange, private modes of expression. That tends to be what I’m drawn to personally, and that’s some of what Kaminsky talks about.

Sorry of the length of this—I hope it's useful as a jumping-off point! And if you or anyone ends up exploring any of these poets, let me know what you think! If folks wanna reply with recommendations themselves too that'd be great :)

#ask #not a poll #i originally was going to link to previews of the books directly on this post but for some reason I suddenly feel very paranoid about #copyright LMAO. ik this blog is already like copyright infringement central but I feel like I can at least make an argument for the polls #being fair use lol. in the way that i could not for the pdf previews I made. (i also have a full pdf of hardly war if anyone wants lol) #and i know it's not entirely rational bc this is tumblr and nobody looks on tumblr. but i'm not used to having this many followers lol so i #admittedly just getting anxious about silly things #but please please feel free to DM me! or send an ask off anon #discussion

[dyketubbo]

sunny also makes me insane bc like. little kids pick up on how others act around them so easily. and under all that bravado shes such an insecure kid and they want to come off as confident and only caring about money but they care so so much about having connections and of course they do. bc shes just a kid. she wants to come off as a cool kid who puts money and riches first but ultimately shes a daddys girl who just wants to be cared about

#something something little kids dont understand that what helps them the most is positive reassurance #so all kids like sunny are able to process is that being praised feels good #and being avoided feels bad (unless theyre taught that being feared is a good thing) #and so tubbo treating her like a little princess of course she loves him more than anyone else in the world #but then it makes it sting even more when she runs into situations like phil talking up em more than her #and tallulah being hesitant to befriend her #sunny doesnt have all the knowledge to understand that tallulahs paranoid/traumatized and sunnys just coming off- #-a bit strong #all she knows is tallulah doesnt seem to like her and phil seems to like empanada more #so of course thats going to sting. of course. and i feel her so much abt it. poor girl #mask mews #qsmp #sunny qsmp #sunnysideup qsmp

[zhongrin]

✼ー hello, my dear patrons.

i have an important announcement to make.

for my own mental health and reinforcing my boundaries, i will be implementing changes on how i interact in this blog. the general rules (shop etiquette) and taglist rules (membership) have been updated to reflect this.

to give a short summary of the changes, moving forward, i will fully cease interactions with minors or ageless blogs. the same goes for my taglist, which i have purged. more details can be found in the two links above. feel free to drop by my askbox if you need any clarifications.

i'm sorry to my mutuals / friends / followers, who are minors / uncomfortable in disclosing their age, but have been following the rules and respecting my boundaries. i'm truly sorry it had to come to this, but i have had enough. the nature of my content will stay the same but if these changes doesn't sit well with you, please feel free to unfollow or block.

lastly, if you have been following my rules, genuinely, thank you so, so much for respecting the human being behind the handle name 'zhongrin'. you are a blessing to humanity and i hope good things will come your way soon.

ps. i will be reblogging this post for about a week or so, just so people can see it.

#a psa from rin #i thought about it for the past few days and as of now i think this is the best choice i can make #i don't want to throw this blog away but also i don't want to keep being paranoid whenever i interact with someone #i know it's not a foolproof solution because you can definitely lie about your age but whatever #i will be using the block button even more liberally. especially if i think something is off #i'm just sick of being lied to atp #anyway #i hope you're having a good day and taking care of yourself!

[birdmitosis]

Okay, I was watching someone's VOD because I can't get enough Slay the Princess content and some people have gotten variations on routes I've never even seen before!!! I have somehow never seen the variation of The Razor where you start off with Hunted and Paranoid right away in Chapter 3, and I was not prepared for how funny Paranoid's unique dialogue lines are there.

If you choose to flirt with The Razor for your first option, while Hero and Hunted are like "I'd rather not":

(Paranoid pls) And if you choose The Look option:

(PARANOID PLS) (And I've definitely seen Hunted's line before but I always kinda forget how funny that is, too, when Hero is confused:

I think it's the matter-of-fact delivery of it, LOL) Also, after she kills you, the part with the Cheated is hilarious too because, like, usually to me it looks like he's mostly really talking to Broken, but:

And his line when Cheated suggests we start stacking Voices isn't as funny per se but I do want it as personal reference because it's interesting to me:

Final note: I am actually pretty sure that outside The Adversary's route when the Narrator flat-out admits to you that if you think something it becomes real, and The Apotheosis's route where IIRC he says something similar to you about giving her power, Paranoid is the only one of the Voices who independently lands on the concept without any leading:

(I've seen this line before, too, but I do really like that little detail.)

#i actually totally forgot about that line while writing chapter 2 despite seeing it and really liking it before #i might need to add in a small line of paranoid being like “i knew it!” LOL #slay the princess #slay the princess spoilers #the princess #the razor #voice of the paranoid #voice of the hunted #voice of the cheated #voice of the broken #i love the razor everything about her entire path is so good #one of my top favorite princesses for sure