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thenightfolknetwork · 4 months

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I didn't mean to. It was an accident. I swear I didn't know. I just...

The town I'm from is secluded, very secluded. Still using landlines and slow and spotty internet secluded. It's one of those towns hidden away by mountains and trees that take days to get in and out of. My point is that news is slow to get in, and about half is debated as rumor and "conspiracies against the common people."

I hope im saying this right. As i said, resources are limited, so please forgive any offense. The "People of the Night" are still thought to be myth here. If there are any um "Nightfolk" here, they haven't made themselves known. Not that I'd blame them, but it would have made this a lot easier, maybe prevented it even. I'm sorry I'm rambling, I'm still a bit shaken.

I thought I was just approachable. When someone's lost or needed help, they'd always find their way to me. No trouble at all, I enjoyed it. But it happened so often, My friends used to say that I "just had one of those faces."

It felt good to be needed. I'd ask how someone was. They'd vent to me what was going on, and I listened. If I could and they wanted it, I'd offer advice, but most just wanted to be heard.

But, a couple of weeks ago, I was walking with my best friend. We were just catching up, nothing serious. It was meant to be a joke, a reference to my tendency of "being one of those faces." I asked her if she had any dark secrets she wanted to share.

She did.

You'd thought I'd told her to do it at knifepoint. Her story came pouring out like an overpowered hose. When she finished, the look she gave me. I can't unsee it.

When it was over, i tried to thank her for trusting me with such sensitive information, but she told me to save it. I don't know how, but we both knew it was my fault.

She told my friend group what happened and now no one wants to speak to me. I tried to explain myself, but they refused to listen or trust what I had to say. Out of frustration, I asked one person why they were avoiding me, and they responded, "Because I always knew you were weird."

There was no denying that I... forced them to tell me that in some way, but it wasn't on purpose! But I must have proved something because now I can't leave my house because everyone is LOOKING at me.

I've been using a paper and pencil to get by as well as trying to learn BSL because im afraid to speak again. How many of those talks that I had were unvoluntary? How many people were forced to be honest and just pretended to be civil because they were scared of me?

I don't know if this is new or something that I'd always done. I'm alone here. The only reason I know as much as I do about the Creature Community is because I accidentally stumbled across your show on my radio.

I dont know who i am anymore. I miss singing and talking to people, but I'm terrified that I'll compel someone by accident. How do I get better? Where do I go from here?

Oh, reader. This must be a very frightening, upsetting time for you. I'm so glad you felt able to reach out to us here at the Nightfolk Network for support.

First of all, I hope you are able to see the difference between taking responsibility for your past actions, and making a martyr of yourself. You have been unthinkingly, unknowingly hurting people, and you do need to recognise that before you can try to make amends. But the harm you caused was entirely accidental. Please, be gentle with yourself.

In terms of practical steps forwards, I can reassure you: you are not alone in your powers, or in finding them difficult to control. Often powers of this kind make themselves known early in an individuals life, and you can imagine how difficult it can be to control the spoken wishes of a babbling toddler.

Nevertheless, many people in your situation go on to live perfectly ordinary lives with good control over their powers. And you have the advantage over a toddler, in that you are not only fully cognisant of the detrimental effects of such powers but also already able to find alternative ways to communicate.

Your first step is to contact your GP and arrange an appointment to discuss the matter. Write them a letter explaining the situation, and emphasising your need to conduct the appointment without speech. In a small, rural community like yours, it's very likely your GP will have little to no personal experience of such cases. But they will be able to refer you to an NHS specialist with whom you can explore possible treatment options.

In most cases, those options will be either medication, behavioural therapy, or more usually a combination of the two. I understand that there is a great deal of stigma around thauma-damping medication. Please, resist this pattern of thought.

Medication is nothing more or less than a tool we might use to help us live our lives. Taking medication does not indicate a lack of effort or will on your part in controlling your powers. It just makes a very difficult thing slightly easier.

However, NHS waiting lists for this type of treatment can be lengthy. In the meantime, I strongly recommend you reach out as best you can to your community. Writing a letter, text or email to your best friend would be a good start, explaining the situation as best you can and leaving the door open for her to rekindle the relationship if she feels able.

Unfortunately, there's nothing you can do to forcibly mend the relationship. You can only present yourself honestly and hope that, in time, you are able to find your way back to something like the friendship you shared before this.

In the meantime, try to connect with other people in the community if you can. The Internet can be a wonderful place to connect with others, and your local library may have information about support groups in the wider area.

Above all, reader, take heart. There is plenty to be hopeful about here. You are not doomed to a life of fearful silence, or of isolation and solitude. With a little work, and plenty of support from the people around you, I see no reason why you shouldn't enjoy a long and happy life full of genuine connection with the people around you.

#answered #the nightfolk network #monstrous agonies

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vikkirosko · 5 months

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Hi i made the req for Mage of Space x Jake reader and was wondering if i could have the same prompt but with John, Dave, Karkat, and Sollux? Love ur content

Headcanons Mage of Space

👓 John Egbert x Reader 🌪

From the first day of your acquaintance, you and John were able to find a common language. You were very empathetic in communication and quickly found a way to get along with John. He genuinely liked to communicate with you and he even came to visit you several times. These days have brought you closer together and allowed John to get to know you much better

John knew that you were always ready to listen to him if he needed it. You listened to him when he told you about his father and his worries, but only a few months later you showed him the emotions that you were hiding. You were much more sensitive than you seemed at first glance, and for the first time since you met John, he became the one who listened to your problems and not the other way around

When you started dating, you continued to keep a lot to yourself. You didn't want to burden such a bright person as John with your problems, so he took them on himself. He claimed that it was not a problem for him, smiling broadly and inwardly rejoicing that he could at least help you a little and make your life easier

John knew that you were a good, sincere person who was dear to him. He wanted you to feel better, realizing how much you took on yourself and that you also needed a person who was willing to listen to you and help you find a way out for your emotions

🕶 Dave Strider x Reader 💿

Your communication with Dave started thanks to Rose. It was she who introduced you and at first you both felt some awkwardness. Dave didn't know how to approach communication with you and you were bad at starting a conversation, but after several attempts you were able to get rid of the awkwardness and communicated openly, as far as possible for the two of you, who hid many emotions from others

You often shared with Dave what you planned to do in the coming day and quite often the next day you forgot about it. After a long time of your communication, Dave learned to notice when you could say something else, but remained silent. You didn't voice many things and often hid your emotions from others, but Dave was able to learn to find out what was really on your mind. You told him about what was bothering you and he always listened to you, giving you the opportunity to at least speak out if he could not help you in any way

When Dave started noticing that your emotional state began to deteriorate, he realized what was the reason for this. You've taken on too much. Because of this, your emotional resources were quickly running out. You always tried to help your friends, but you tried to keep your distance even with him, which is why Dave had to convince you that you didn't need to take everything on yourself and he was always ready to offer you his help

Dave knew he had few opportunities to help you, at least while you were communicating from a distance. But Dave hoped that soon you will be able to communicate in person, because then he will have more opportunities to really help you

♋️ Karkat Vantas x Reader ❤️

Your communication with Karkat didn't start quite smoothly. At first, you just talked, but when you became friends, he began to notice that sometimes you behaved like you were arrogant. This quickly exasperated him, but after a while he realized that you were sincerely trying to help and you had no intention of appearing arrogant. Karkat was surprised, but after a few minutes of reflection, he realized that perhaps he really did not quite understand your words correctly

Karkat often scolded you for often doing the work for others. You took a lot on yourself and kept others at a distance that others didn't notice, but not Karkat. He saw perfectly well that it was as if you had built a wall between yourself and others, and he was not going to let you continue to do so, seeing that the way you usually lived did not help you much

Karkat became the only one in front of whom you showed those emotions that you hid from others. Usually you were the one who listened to other people's problems, but Karkat took on some of your problems. He listened to you, supported you and helped you with advice when he knew exactly how to help you. He gave you that emotional return that you needed so much

Karkat intended to help you become more open to others. He knew that if you constantly rely only on yourself, you will only make yourself worse, and that's what he tried to convey to you, hoping that you will feel better at least a little

♊️ Sollux Captor x Reader 🐝

Sollux knew you as an extremely sensitive, sometimes hot-tempered person who was always ready to listen and help. That's how the others knew you, but Sollux, who knew you better than everyone else, knew that this was not all. You were the person who hid many of your thoughts from others and built a wall from others, not wanting to burden them with your problems

Even when you started dating, you didn't immediately open up to him. You didn't want to put your problems on his shoulders, but when you were able to open up to him, he saw another side of you. You gave yourself completely in your relationship and Sollux tried to make sure that you didn't regret it

Sollux saw how much you took on yourself and how often your confidence in your own rightness prevailed over a sound perception of the world. In this you were even similar. You were both responsible and preferred to stay away, but it was because of your similarity that he understood what you were experiencing and how hard it could be for you

You both tried to help each other feel better. Knowing what difficulties you could have, you tried to be close to each other and make it easier for both of you. You did a lot for each other, but neither you nor Sollux regretted it

#homestuck #homestuck x reader #homestuck headcanons #John Egbert #John Egbert x Reader #Dave Strider #Dave Strider x Reader #Karkat Vantas #Karkat Vantas x Reader #Sollux Captor #Sollux Captor x Reader

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phoenix-flamed · 3 months

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A certain someone and I were talking, and she brought up so many good points that I hadn't thought of -- so thank you for sharing your views with me on this subject! As always, if you read this and don't agree with my opinions, please don't worry; I won't be offended, and I would actually love to hear your views too!

As much as I hate to say it, at the end of the day, yeah -- Elwin wasn't a good ruler. He was a great man, with great intentions, and his plan for the future of Rosaria wasn't necessarily a bad plan!

It just wasn't practical in Valisthea's political climate at that time. I know I make way too many comparisons between his ambitions and the story of The Founder, but I'll do it one more time, because I really do believe that the parallel is there, even if it is just speculation on my part --

The reason why building what would become Rosaria from the ground up worked out at the time The Founder set in motion that process was because there was no war. There was no conflict. Following the aftermath of what became known as The Sins of Dzemekys, humanity was said to be living in fear. But The Founder grew tired of that life, and he left to find a nice little spot, where he began building a home for himself. More and more people saw what he was doing and joined in as time went on, and what had started as that one little shack eventually became a town, and this continued until what would eventually become The Grand Duchy of Rosaria came into existence.

In present-day Valisthea, and just in the continent of Storm alone, this wouldn't work, at least not nearly so easily. It would require, much like back with The Founder, unity and generational effort, but given the political climate of Storm...... You probably see where this is going.

Just look at how many times Rosaria was taken advantage of. This extends to before Elwin took the throne, yes -- but we'll focus on during his reign. Rosaria was part of alliances on two separate occasions; the first time was with Dhalmekia, who abandoned them on the battlefield to contend with Waloed's army on their own in the conflict for Kanver's independence. The second time was Sanbreque's betrayal of Rosaria under the orchestration of Anabella and Sylvestre, which was kicked off by The Night of Flames, and we all know what happened there. That took place while Rosaria was in an alliance with both Dhalmekia and Sanbreque, hence the Remembrance Ceremony a year before which was in commemoration of aforementioned alliance. You even have the fact that while the Kanver situation was going on, the Northern Territories decided to pay Rosaria a visit, which, fortunately, Elwin and his troops were able to push them back, and we have the story of how Elwin calmed the tribes of the north down and unified them so that they'd work together for the betterment of their people, at which time he took Jill to Rosalith with him.

If, theoretically, Elwin was trying to be a merciful ruler, which it does seem like it considering he strove for a peaceable solution to the Northern Territories situation rather than going there and destroying them or forcing them to submit to Rosarian rule, and the fact that when the flashback at the start of the game takes place, we find out from Elwin and Rodney during the throne room scene that Rosaria has been taking in refugees from the north who are fleeing the continued progression of the Blight, as well as offering the north resources to aid them. Unfortunately, because of this, Rosaria's own resources are being stretched thin, and even places like Rosalith are running out of space to take in more refugees.

In other words, Elwin tried to help their neighbors to the detriment of his own nation.

Okay, I kind of sort of got carried away with rambling and lost track of the original point. Uh. So yeah, in short, Elwin was a great man, with great, wonderful intentions! But we all know how the saying goes: the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

#Headcanons #I still really need to set up a separate tag for this sort of thing...#You can probably guess from her earlier post who inspired this ramble lol

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20dollarlolita · 2 years

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Just some post-con thoughts about new people in the lolita community.

Anime and comic conventions are a really cool environment, where wearing unique or unconventional clothing is more common than your everyday clothing.

People use this environment different ways. For many of us, it was the first time we saw or the first time we tried to wear lolita fashion. Lolita isn't cosplay, but an environment where no one is going to ask, "wow, what the fuck are you wearing?" is an environment that a lot of people use to try out lolita for the first time. And if you're at a convention, no matter how established you are in lolita, it's important to remember that for many people, this is their first time wearing lolita fashion or lolita-adjacent fashion.

I've said before and I will maintain that you should not offer concrit at a convention to someone you don't know. If you don't have something nice to say about their look, you shouldn't be saying anything about their look. A lot of people are there to have fun, try something new, and maybe see if they like this fashion. There's a lot of people in coords that they call lolita that don't even barely fit the definition.

And that's fine. It's really, completely fine.

I've once been told, "you need to ask yourself, am I acting like this person has wronged me, when in fact they are just simply wrong?" Is someone's bad lolita attempt actually harming you? Or is it just not a good example of lolita fashion?

Okay, "But they make me look bad when they--" Wow, okay, I'm sorry that your coord is so shoddy that someone else doing it badly sucks all the goodness out of your coord and makes you bad. Maybe you should make a better coord that doesn't start sucking just because someone's wearing that And Romeo replica. Maybe if you wore lolita better then you wouldn't feel threatened by someone in Milanoo.

I have no patience for that argument.

If someone is genuinely misrepresenting your art, yeah, say something. Shout out to my friend who organized an army of lolita-wearers to go up to one booth at Fanime and demand that they take the "lolita" tag off their panties that said "daddy" on them. That was quite epic. If your portrayal of lolita is actively harmful to the community that's one thing, But if someone just doesn't look 100% their best? Are they wronging you, or do you just think they're wrong?

If I was going to indulge that argument that someone's bad representation of lolita hurts you in the real world, for just a single sentence? Even if that's so, most people wearing coordinates at conventions never wear them anywhere else. So. You can't even say that they're making you look bad in the real world when you'll never see them in the real world. So maybe that argument doesn't really work anyway.

Ask yourself the effort test: Did this person put enough effort into this coordinate that they could have made a good one, if they'd been directed in the right way? Did someone work really hard on this look and just fucked it up because they didn't have a lolita mentor to steer their online fingers away from Diamond Honey's questionable things?

If they didn't, that's ALSO FINE. It's a con! People are there to have FUN! But if they did put in effort, pay attention to that. Maybe this is a person who did it wrong, and who just didn't know everything you know. Is it better for you to provide resources and help them try better next time, or to crap talk them so that they don't try next time?

If one bad coord impacts the community such to the point that it's okay to hate it just because it wasn't up to your standards, then what have you done for the community to make sure that people can achieve your standards? If a bad coord hurts you, tell me what you've done to help people not make bad coords. How have you shared the information of good coordinate-making with the newbie lolita community.

People get interested in the lolita rules and guidelines because they are interested in lolita. People stay interested in lolita because people offer them encouragement and include them. If you see someone in a bad coord and you say, "Wow, in three years, she's going to be so utterly embarrassed by that look," then don't shoot her down. Give her a chance to stay in the fashion for three years and be embarrassed about her past. Don't boot her out now.

To their face, behind their back, whatever; if you bring yourself up by bringing other people down, I have some amazing news for you, and that's that you don't have to be that way and life is a lot more fun when you aren't that way.

Or, if we want to bring back a classic:

it's okay to not like people's coords at the anime con it's okay but don't be a dick about it it's okay to not like coords, but don't be a dick about the coords you don't like.

#lolita newbie #20dollarlolita #convention lolita #long post

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blueskiesandstarrynights · 9 months

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ok, so I know you're not in this fandom, so I apologize in advance, but this au has taken over my brain and I haven't written a single word yet so-

Hopper-Byers Firestarter au. Hear me out.

Joyce and Hopper are a couple teens strapped for cash and are offered a chance to participate in an experiment for 200 bucks. They figure what's the harm, they've got a 50/50 shot of just getting an injection of distilled water, and if they do get the drug they'll probably be tripping balls for a few hours before they go about their merry lives. Right? Wrong! lol

There's something wrong. They're both given the drugs, but Joyce swears she saw one of the test subjects claw at his eyes, smearing his blood soaked hand on the chart above him. She swears she has a whole conversation with Jim, sharing everything and nothing all inside their heads.

They've both been given powers, and a few years later, they'll have been the only ones not dead or driven insane. He has minor telekinesis, and she's able to push people into doing or agreeing to what she wants.

Time passes and the two grow closer and a few years later there's a ring around their fingers and Joyce is pregnant with her first. The problem? They're being watched. They don't always know how or even particularly who, but the why is clear- the scientists want their lab rats back. So they plan in secret. Gather resources, vet doctors as safe, research locations, and slowly start selling furniture over the course of months. One day, they gather all their belongings in Jim's truck and set off. They spend months on the road, crashing everywhere they can and taking the long route while crossing at least 10 state lines to shake the government tail they've acquired. They're terrified they'll never shake them and Joyce will have to give birth on the road, but finally they arrive at their intended destination with no one following them- a tiny town in bumfuck Indiana where no one would think to find them.

They're still looking over their shoulder and checking for anyone else following them, or bugs planted in the house, but for the first time in years, they feel safe enough.

Years continue to pass and the two realize something about young Jonathan- he seems or have inherited some form of telepathy from them, meaning whatever fucked up drugs are in them that changed who they are can be passed down. They talk with him, making him feel safe and loved, while also warning him of what could happen if he wasn't careful.

Fast forward a bit and Jonathan's three now and Joyce is pregnant again, this time with twins. Hopper and Joyce are both overjoyed and terrified. Anything could happen and moving around is so much harder with three kids, two of them being newborns. They ramp up their paranoia and frequency of checks for government tails.

They think they're in the clear, but when Joyce gives birth in a hospital they checked multiple times, little Will is the only survivor of the two, the other twin tragically dies in childbirth 😔

Don't believe that? Neither do Joyce or Hopper. Publicly, they cry and grieve, but quietly, they dive into research to find out what really happened to their little girl.

Unfortunately, their efforts are put on hold as they realize Will has some kind of electrokinesis. which is a major problem for a baby. every time he was hungry or threw a temper tantrum, sparks would fly and he would short out anything from the lamp to the whole house if he wasn't careful.

years pass, and we pick up when Will is 12 and Jonathan is 15 in 1983. At this point, Hopper is convinced their unnamed girl really is dead, and Joyce's faith is starting to waver as well. They've spent many years following trails, having even taken the boys away one summer to trace a lead that led nowhere. There was one close call a few years ago where a couple suits tried to take Joyce while Hopper was at work, but she defended herself and by the time Hopper came home, he scared the shit out of the suit enough to leave them be and lie about how the mission went. What followed was an intense and heated debate, but they ultimately decided to stay in Hawkins.

What follows at this point is what I'm hoping to make as a combination of s1 of st and the plot of firestarter. They do find out el's alive and theirs which I cannot wait for because hell hath no fury if you've messed with Joyce Byers' kids. I also have this specific idea that Will and El are psychically linked, but I'm still trying to figure out the details of that. I'm still working out how I wanna do a lot of this, and I'm really sorry if the way I phrased some of this may come across as unappealing but this won't stop rotating in my head I'm obsessed and I haven't even finished the book. If you've made it this far and have any questions I'm more than happy to answer them considering I want to be able to expand this.

#st #asks #plankton #stranger things #firestarter au #<-temp tag for this #jim hopper #joyce byers #jonathan byers #will byers #el hopper

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multiplicity-positivity · 2 months

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Hello - it's John again, anon who asked about the blackout stuff

I had another question and an update

We did find the alter, and she is a new split, and is a trauma holder, I didn't know it at the time I had sent the ask but one of our abusers tried to contact us (went looking in our notesapp history and messages) which caused a switch & total blackout, we've had a few more since then since things have been stressful but she is trying to communicate, just harder with very bad aphantasia and dissociative barriers. Haven't had therapy in a few weeks and we're in quarantine this week, but have therapy again this upcoming Thursday so we will talk about it then but the therapist doesn't know the full extent of us being a system other than knowing that we are and that most likely was trauma that formed us,but we are gonna try to talk about it more, so you have any advice on bringing it up?

And onto my question before - is there dissociative disorders other than DID? We have a lot of alters (like 1000+) and most of them are fragments and some fully fleshed, but we all still tend to be somewhat similar, I think maybe it's a safety thing so it wouldn't be noticed, and I thought did always had very different alters, we tend to be more similar than not even though there are quite a few exceptions, but we have horrible memory sharing, I usually retain some level of "done something but idk what exactly" but we lose a LOT of memories and feel detached to ones that we do remember like they aren't "mine" per se just that "I" was there for it, in addition I never ever switch out I'm *always* here unless something very big happens that throws everything into disarray, it sort of makes me feel not valid because we don't have control over switching and I can't ever leave even if others can come in and out of the fronting area, I think/know that I do have a dissociative disorder of some kind because it is very impactful and impairing my symptoms, but I guess don't feel valid sometimes because I also like being a system sometimes other than the memory and dissociation

-john

Hey John, we’re probably getting to this too late to share advice for talking to your therapist - we hope that they were understanding and everything went well! We’re sorry if our absence here made it more difficult for you to talk to your therapist about what’s been going on in your system.

As for your second question, there are a few other dissociative disorders besides DID. There is OSDD (other specified dissociative disorder), P-DID (partial dissociative identity disorder) and DPDR (depersonalization/derealization disorder). However, it’s possible for systems with DID to have hundreds or thousands of alters, if not more! Systems with this many alters may have polyfragmented DID, although polyfragmentation has just as much to do with a system’s complex structure as much as having a high alter count.

We are not polyfragmented, so we can’t provide much in terms of advice or personal experience when it comes to understanding polyfragmentation. Any polyfragmented system who sees this is more than welcome to weigh in with experience, resources, or advice!

When it comes to not feeling valid, we’d like to offer some words of encouragement that might help y’all, if that’s okay.

First off, it’s very normal to not have control over switching, especially for systems who haven’t been able to make much progress either internally or through therapy! Our own system has been improving when it comes to managing switches, but we still don’t have full control over who fronts and when. Not being able to control switches doesn’t mean your system is invalid, and we can assure you, lots of systems out there function in that way!

Also, it’s not as rare as you might think for systems to have frontstuck members… even for many folks with dissociative disorders like DID. Our host is usually fronting to some extent (albeit often quite dissociated). And there are plenty other systems with frontstuck members too!

Finally, it’s okay to like being plural or part of a system, even if you have a dissociative disorder. Yes, it can often be impairing, difficult, painful, and overwhelming… but it can also be comforting, joyous, fun, or exciting! We have a complicated relationship with our plurality, but most of us love being a system and we wouldn’t trade our plurality for anything in the world! Having a mental illness or disorder doesn’t mean you have to be suffering all the time, and finding joy and happiness in our disorders can help make living with them so much easier!

Good luck out there, John. We hope things go well for you and your system in the future!

#long post #polyfragmentation #dissociative disorders #dissociative identity disorder #trauma

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kuekyuuq · 2 years

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Supergirl/Supercop Fandom/Canon Things

Today, let's talk about some (odd?) things, that appear in the SG/SC fandom/fanfics.

[This is gonna be another long post, lotsa images/gifs, and I own nothing. Please be fair, I am aware it is all just fiction and I am just having a good time myself here. I do not mean to offend, but to share my thoughts and to entertain. I also acknowledge the lore/canon can be contradicting, but I tried to present the most agreed upon consensus on the below.]

- Kara sweats (like a human) ..?

...dude, girl can catch on fire and not feel it. 😑

Outside of greenK or red sun exposure... she didn't even sweat from physical taxation when she stopped that space-freighter or fought Reign.

That's not to say she can't sweat... given the right kind of exhaustion >.>

- Kara needs a lot of calories ..?

In 1x18 Barry Allen (meta-human) said, he needs to eat for upkeep (“About 10,000 calories per day”). At which Winn replied: "Oh, yeah. You've definitely met the right girl." referring to Kara. And I think, that's where this misunderstanding comes from...

...Kara likes to eat. She does not need to eat. Kryptonians under a yellow sun can sustain their upkeep from the yellow sun radiation alone. Less fun, tho.

It's also where the idea for this came from, somehow:

The argument could be made, that like many/some of her other senses Kara's sense of taste is more enhanced (that or original Kryptonian cuisine tasted really bland, which may or not be related to the planet not having much diversity to offer in the years/decades/centuries(?) before its destruction). So, everything just tastes really good to her (except greens). That and she probably just burns her intake away (as her sun radiation based metabolism may be that much more energy rich, which makes me agree with Kara having a generally higher body temperature), so she wouldn't gain weight.

Note: it's not the sunlight but the sun's radiation. Which permeates and lingers and hence Kara doesn’t need direct sun-exposure, and won’t drain her energy on rainy days. This sort of metabolism is called "radiosynthesis". (An Earth equivalent would not be a plant, but a radiotrophic fungus, as found at the Chernobyl Nuclear Power Plant.)

- Red sun radiation (or the absence of a yellow sun) immediately makes Kara weak ..?

(CWSG depicted that one wrong or at least not quite right on several occasions - taking the consensus of some 80 years of Superman / Kryptonian lore into account, SGCW imo does not win this round) ...Kryptonians are rather often likened to batteries, in the way they absorb sunlight radiation to charge them. That is why Kara isn't powerless at night or underground. Various forms of Kryptonite disrupt this biochemical(?) procedure and either actively drain the Kryptonian's cell / cancel out the stored sun radiation or the counter-healing from the Kryptonite poisoning sap away the energy resources (sources are unclear on that). Red sunlight radiation offers merely a different / lower energy yield for Kryptonians. On a planet with a red sun (or in darkness, or any other yellow sunless environment) a Kryptonian's power would reduce slowly as they expend it. The longer they are subjected to a red sun and the more energy they exert, the more diminished their powers become until they completely lose all their abilities and benefits from yellow sun radiation.. This (slow, or forced through power exertion - e.g. solar flaring) drainage also means, that Kara would need a yellow sunlight radiation source to replenish herself after prolonged red sunlight exposure to regain her powers.

...tying this in with the point before, their red sun Rao did not radiate as much or lesser energy, hence Kryptonians on Krypton (additionally to sunbathing?) or prolonged other red sun location dwelling / yellow sun deprivation naturally need to eat.

On that note:

- RedKryptonite =/= red sunlight (lamps)

One makes for an uninhibited (easily pissed off) Kryptonian, two does not (re-)charge their cells for powers.

- Lena aimed greenK cannons at Kara in 5x08 ..?

While that may have been Kara's (and Alex's) perception, the "Counter Measures" had been programmed by Lex and automatically started up when “Kryptonian X-Ray Vision” was detected. When Eve asked Lena whether or not to deploy them, Lena (hesitantly) said yes to the "Ion Rays Cannon". When Kara basically shrugged those off, the cannons rearmed themselves with Kryptonite and Lena IMMEDIATELY ordered Eve to cancel them, to "Shut them down! Now!!".

Lena got mad when Eve couldn't overwrite the protocol and pushed Eve aside to do it herself and breathed a deep sigh of relief when she managed to disarm them, barely in time.

... ...trapping Kara with the Fortress' own (apparently pre-installed... we shall not kink-shame Kal!) greenK cage: Yes, that she did. But, realistically, how else was Lena, a mere human with a (very mislead) plan, to gain a headstart over a Kryptonian? While rude (and undeniably painful), the intensity apparently wasn't even set high enough to bring Kara down to her knees and there was a reasonable chance J'onn or someone else would rather sooner than later come and free Kara. (Let's not forget, the DEO used and had more plans to take down / contain a Kryptonian, and more than once Kara herself - the very pilot episode even! - and we forgave both J'onn and Alex.)

- Lena is afraid of heights ..?

Might be a misinterpretation... Or true. I can’t really tell... But was never actually canonically stated.

In 2x01 Lena tells her helicopter pilot “I hate flying, I know statistically it's the safest way to travel, but still”. Almost crashing less than a minute later may not have helped her aversion. She did not seem physically tense during take-off before that.

Later on she is shown to neither mind casually standing on her balconies (even after being thrown off one) nor being carried by Kara.

And let's not forget this leap of faith:

...I also share the growing suspicion that Lena's fear of "traveling through air" may either be limited to non-Kara flights or possibly even have been cured at some point...

((On a sadder note, it's reasonable to assume, that Lena's aversion to (plane) flying may be due to her 4-year old self being dragged onto a plane right after she lost her mother, when she was taken from NFL Ireland to the US and before she got dropped by a complete stranger (Lionel) into a cold unwelcoming household, hence she may have come to associate flying with fear, abandonment, loss of control and uncertainty. And in part to regain some of that control she later in life got herself a piloting license.))

Fun fact:

Kara being portrayed as physically stronger than Kal-El in CWSG is actually lore-related (and kinda sorta maybe -pseudo- scientific).

Across most of the lore, Krypton was much larger than Earth, therefore had far greater gravity. Kryptonians had evolved to withstand that. Even without powers, Kal's physiology/genetics would still make him stronger and more durable than any human. But, Kal was a baby and grew up on Earth. Kara was already a teenager, and her bones and muscle tissue (and her cardio-pulmanory system) developed stronger and more robust under that greater gravity, while Kal's most likely adapted to "only" withstand Earth's gravity (but then solar radiation, so he's still a Super) .

So, instead of it being the magic of "girl power", Kara having been old/matured enough to witness and remember her planet's destruction for once gave her a benefit...

It can also be argued, that Kara being at the verge of physical adolescence resulted in her body having had to "make due" with red sun radiation in its "informative" stages, and hence once on Earth, the yellow sun radiation affected her more (for the rest of her life).

Or the counterargument could be made, that this is false as Kal had more time on Earth, with his body developing subjected to yellow sun radiation, adapting more efficiently to it, that he should, in fact, be naturally stronger...

Still, Kryptonians do not necessarily have to be "heavier" than humans. If their cells have (evolved to have) a different structure, they could be stronger, more durable, more energy efficient and sturdier without being heavier (like 3D graphene materials, where an (artificial) particular geometric arrangement makes the (naturally) brittle material that much stronger, but with bio-matter/cells. Add more energy (solar radiation) and with that (electro-)magnetism into the mix and we may pseudo-science our way into explaining how Kryptonians become next to invulnerable on Earth.)

How Kara broke her arm from a mere fall that easily after she solar-flared is actually - dare I say - unrealistic... but, alas, CWSG.

...unless the CWSG writers went the route of this one older and weird explanation of why Kryptonians can fly, which basically says “Kryptonians have hollow bones, like birds. That’s why they can fly.” ... 😧...🤣(Yes, like that. No more, no wings or anything, just their bones are like birds’ and that’s why! ...like I said, the Super-lore is some 80 years old...)

All that said, yes, in AUs technically everything goes.

But, some things can actually be just as if not more fun, without ignoring canon or long standing lore... Maybe?

(Admittedly, the Superman and hence Kryptonian and Supergirl lore undergoes constant changes over the decades - mostly for the better, though, making more and more “scientific” sense. Yet, even within the run of CWSG there were some blatant contradictions. And... just, let's not talk about Crisis.)

I mean no harm and I also enjoy fics that chose a different take on the above mentioned. I hope, though, this helps one or the other and may even inspire some.

Feel free to ignore anything or everything, though. I am not your boss :P

Stay safe!

Kue out.

#supergirl #supercorp #fandom #fandom fun #fanfics #pseudo-science #comic books #DCSG #Kue doing Kue-things #long post #none of the pics or gifs are mine

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supernovasolace · 1 year

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Today feels rich with possibilities but also...bittersweet.

I came out to my brothers a few days ago. It's been a while since our last visit, and I'm seeing them for the youngest's birthday today. I'm still nervous about COVID but we are testing/masking, and I'm bringing my Aranet so I can make a case for opening some windows at least. It's so hard to go anywhere without worrying it'll be the place my luck runs out. But I am trying to balance my caution and make space for other important things too.

Anyways, my brothers aren't normally big texters (we mostly just share memes back and forth lol) but they both heart reacted to my message about my name/pronouns, so I'm taking that as a positive sign. They seem like they'll both be cool, but they're probably also concerned about what's going to happen with our parents. Which is fair.

We grew up in an abusive and controlling home, and it wasn't safe to show weakness or admit our struggles, let alone talk about them openly or without judgment. So while I was already being vulnerable in coming out, I took the opportunity to explicitly state this. I told them I was going to therapy, and invited them to talk to me if there's ever anything hard that they need to talk to someone about. I told them that unlike our parents, my love for them is unconditional and that nothing could change how I see them. I know they're probably not going to take me up on the offer anytime soon, but I hope they remember the seeds I've been planting when they need a confidant. It was a big step, but I am proud of myself for opening up. In order for things to change, someone always has to take the first leap of faith. This time it was just my turn, and I didn't flinch.

Sometimes I feel like I'm behind in life compared to my younger siblings. They both have careers, are in good health, have better relationships with our parents, and survived our upbringing more unscathed due to being AMAB. As the eldest, I always tried to protect them and take the brunt of things when our parents were at their worst, and for the most part I succeeded. My brothers got to have much more of a childhood than I ever did and I'm thankful for that. But they've still been through shit no one should go through. When they were little, I did what I could to draw attention off them. And they've seen me hide bruises that would have been theirs. We've been through shit together that would leave scars on anyone.

And then I think about all our extended family, most of whom also grew up in abusive environments. Many are so transparently haunted by their past and spend their whole lives avoiding uncomfortable conversations. Trauma has had a history in our family for generations, and I've watched so many of them hide it away, letting it fester until it whittled them away into hollow shells. And when I think of my extended family, I think maybe the best thing I can give my brothers is an example of what it looks like to fight your demons and win.

It's taken me 28 years to get myself into therapy, and I'm so fucking proud of myself for finally making it happen. I've been wanting to go for years, but I was scared I wouldn't be able to find a provider who would have broad enough competency to help me sort through everything I've been through. But the therapist I found is perfect for me in every way. They've been through many of the same struggles that I've been through, and we even have the same birthday. I feel safe with them, and weekly sessions have given me some structure and stability that I've really needed lately. It's hard for me to ask for help, and it's hard for me to trust that resources will remain available for me to depend on because I've lost them so many times. But I have been pushing against those fears because I know this will be good for me, and I told myself this time felt different.

That is, until I got an email last night that my therapist is suspending their services due to my insurer no longer approving them as a provider. They're appealing the decision, but there's no telling how long the process will take or if it'll be successful. And they can't see me in the meantime unless I can afford to self-pay (which I can't). There's a good chance I'll be losing my access to therapy through this provider permanently. And at this point, they're irreplaceable to me, so I don't know what to do.

I'm trying desperately to remain hopeful about it, but this sudden turn of events has given me whiplash and I'm feeling heartbroken over the possibility of losing my therapist. It's not their fault, and there's nothing anyone can do but wait for the appeal process. This has been very triggering for my medical trauma as well, as quite often I lose access to important treatments or providers due to bullshit, pointlessly cruel insurance bureaucracy. I really felt like this time was going to be different. I thought I was going to be able to depend on my therapist for support as I prepare to come out to my non-affirming parents. And if I'm honest with myself, I really really need to keep seeing them. I'm cautiously optimistic about seeing my brothers tonight, but I was excited to share about how it goes with my therapist on Thursday. Now I'm feeling more nervous because I know no matter how tonight goes, I won't be getting a session this week to process.

I'm having a hard time not feeling like the rug is being pulled out from under me yet again. Part of me feels silly for expecting any better, part of me is despondent and scared, and another part of me is absolutely furious about being trapped in a hell country with systems and policies like this. Above all else, it just feels deeply unfair. I've already survived so much, and even just a few weeks of sessions has been life-changing. I don't think that access to therapy is too much to ask for. And I shouldn't be spending my Saturday night crying because I might lose my best shot at healing when I've only just gotten started.

So I guess I'm putting all these messy feelings on here, because they have to go somewhere. And the one person I want to talk to about it can't see me. I hope this ends up being a speed bump rather than a road block, but only time will tell. I'll keep fighting regardless, but for now, I'm fucking bummed. And taking some time to hold space for that feels right. I think my therapist would agree, and I hope I get to talk with them about life again someday soon.

#musings #coming out #trauma recovery #therapy #at least since my appointment is canceled i will be able to accompany my partner to his vasectomy consultation this week #so that's something #trying to stay positive #medical trauma tw #inaccessibility tw #abuse tw

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primordialhazbin · 28 days

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HC: Relationship to Lucifer

While my AUs (especially the Seeking Solutions AU) has the monarchs relationship becoming strained due to her idealistic tendencies, Lilith will not speak ill of Lucifer to anyone in spite of their growing differences. This won't be explored too much in the Monarch Mystery & Mystery Solutions AUs because she was replaced early in Charlie's childhood, so the straining part was negligible at best, and an invitation to debate at worst. (It did set the tone for the impersonator's mishandling of the relationship. It was the perfect pretense for an upcoming separation.)

The love she has for him never once faded, but the exterminations and his dislike for sinners in comparison to her faith in them, drove enough of a wedge between them to make their relationship a difficult medium to navigate. I imagine their differences of opinion are also attributed to their respective senses of pride which blinded them to the fact that they had to work together against the problems in their kingdom. Rather than fighting each other's biases and trying to get the other to see their POV, they should've made room for the other's subjective view of reality first. This is something Lilith has struggled with when she was with Adam too. She didn't make room for him, and I suspect it was the same for him. (Hence the arguments)

It's possible they continued to share a room until their separation. (available only in my Seeking Solutions AU) I do think they tried to patch things up as many times as they could, but they didn't have enough internal resources to stay consistent in their peace.

I don't think there's a villain either of them could & should point towards in their relationship. I think they both owe it to themselves to learn to grow before they can offer that resource to the other person. There's also the aspect of entitlement that can happen in long term relationships where you might find yourself falling in the trap of expecting your other half to completely contain all that you are without introspection. It can happen that you have the false belief that you are already doing everything in your power to hold space for them, so the moment that gets challenged you might feel slighted by their waning loyalty to your inner world. A great degree of humbleness would be the antidote they need in their introspection, which might be hard to attain given how prideful they both are. I don't think it's impossible. But I do think it would be an act of true love if they get there.

The Choirs of Inspiration verse (my main & happy verse!) is the only verse in which they were mature enough to handle their differences with the needed space allocated to each other's worldview. Sure, they might have had their issues with it, but they managed to talk them out, maybe get the counseling they needed to make things work & were humble enough to keep it moving. It's them vs the problems, not one vs the other, which is the best possible course of action for their partnership to continue to thrive. Get'cha a relationship like theirs!

#ooc : the mortal #some thoughts....#ooc : headcanons

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semi-sketchy · 2 months

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What is Tara's relationship with the rest of the Paw Patrol cast like? Who does she get along with the least?

This is a good question!

I could brush it off with "she hates everyone" but I'll try and write something about each pup, minus my OCs since I've written about her relationships with them enough. We'll go in order for the heck of it.

Chase

Tara really only likes taking orders from Ryder and Chase's inexperience as a leader would cause her to disobey him. If she thinks there's a better way, she's just gonna do her own thing. Eventually as they get older, she'd trust his judgement more, but I see it being an issue on missions. Also Chase appears to be the one with the most health issues and Tara being blunt, would be one to frequently call him out any time he tried to work when sick. Aside from that, he's a good soccer buddy.

Marshall

Marshall being a klutz and making bad puns would get on her nerves, prompting plenty of eye-rolls. She enjoys a good joke, but puts emphasis on the "good" part. Though she does recognize how hard he's trying to be liked, so she doesn't go further than expressing mild annoyance.

Skye

Skye is small, coordinated and athletic, basically everything Tara isn't. Although, Skye loves making new friends and would be one to invite Tara to play often in the beginning. She's also one to show new things to Tara and teach her games. Skye's actually the one that got her into musicals. Although she doesn't really care for the heavy romance ones like Skye does, they still enjoy them together. While Tara isn't really into dancing like Skye, lacking the graceful coordination, she likes watching her perform.

Rocky

Obviously one of her closest friends. There have been cases where she's carried him across some shallow water, but not without a few remarks. It's helpful to have someone to talk to when everyone else goes swimming, but they also share quiet activities together. Tara loves falling asleep to him planting a tree. His hoarding resourcefulness comes in handy sometimes when she needs something and he, along with Byte, are the only ones she allows to help tinker with her equipment.

Rubble

I think she'd be good friends with Rubble. I imagine she'd rope him into late light snack heists, like that would be THEIR THING. But they also both like digging and I imagine Rubble would be quite reciprocal to her love of rocks. Plus, Rubble's really sporty, so he'd be a great soccer companion for her.

Zuma

Zuma's a chill guy, so the two of them would be chill. Zuma also is such a god at Pup Pup Boogie, he'd probably be the one to teach Tara the game and introduce her to corn dogs. They don't really share many activities because, being a water pup, Zuma likes water sports. She's try volleyball with him, though.

Everest

Everest is just so cheery all the time, Tara would mostly keep quiet and not comment around her since she's the exact opposite. Secretly, she wishes she was able to share Everest's optimism and skill in comforting others, like it just comes so naturally to Everest. Meanwhile, she's the one always grumbling and often can't offer much in terms of comfort. I imagine if a situation got really stressful, Tara would snap like "YOU AND YOUR SICKENING SWEETNESS. DON'T YOU EVER GET MAD?!" hello I Love Lucy line Though while Everest isn't her closest friend, it's nice to have someone who is as resistant to cold as she is and with how competitive Tara is, they can really get into snowboarding matches.

Tracker

Easily someone that gets on her nerves because she doesn't understand Spanish so she has no idea what he's saying half the time. Tracker would probably use this to joke with some of the other pups that understand Spanish while Tara stands on the side like "what are you two FUCKING TALKING ABOUT" At this point, it's like their thing.

Rex

This is the one she has the most strained relationship with. It's not because of him personally, after all him doing archeology (at least in my AU, sorry I don't subscribe to him being a dino zookeeper) means they'd be able to work together and share some common interests. What gets in the way is them eventually becoming in-laws. Actually I wrote some drabble about that.

Rex: “Hi, Terra...” Tara: “Oh, hello.” Rex: “...You, uhh… You’re looking good.” Tara: “You too. Um...how’s Pyro?” Rex: “He’s doing good. H-how’s Telsa?” Tara: “She’s still Telsa.” Rex: “Heh, yeah... Terra, you don’t have to avoid me, you know.” Tara: “Who says I’m avoiding you?!” Rex: “Well I mean, you’re all the way back here while everyone else is up front.” Tara: “I just have to some things to prepare on my rig.” Rex: “Like…?” Tara: “Look just because we’re ‘technically family’ doesn’t mean we’re close.” Rex: “Ouch. Do I make you that uncomfortable?” Tara: “...Not you, just the memories.”

Can you tell which one of these relations I put the most thought into

Granted, when he joins, they're still kids and I scribbled that as if they were already married, but it conveys the feelings the relationship started with. They'd eventually become decent co-workers, but Rex having ties to her family always keeps things a little awkward between them.

Wild

Unlike everyone else, she doesn't really get what the big deal is about this cat on a motorbike. He does some tricks, sure, but she doesn't really get the whole "celebrity" thing. Outside of that, she's fine with him. Not really a big automotive buff, but even she has to admit he does some cool moves.

Liberty

I think her and Liberty would get along. Liberty's kinda this back-alley spunky and I think they'd share a similar sense of humor and looking out for the little guys shtick. Liberty is probably someone she'd feel more comfortable being sarcastic with.

I can't comment on Al or the Cat Pack because I haven't seen any of their episodes.

Truthfully, while she's quite cold, she does care about everyone. They are her friends and eventually become her family. If someone did something to hurt one, they'd be on her shit list and she holds grudges.

#sorry this took so long but i honestly had not put this much thought into everything before #there's a lot of characters #ask #paw patrol oc #tara

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himynameistonya-blog · 1 year

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Today was a wild day that has brought a lot of perspective to me. And has also enforced I’m doing exactly what I’m meant to be doing.

I always believe that those who are meant to cross paths do. I also believe ALL humans are worthy of help and love.

Shortly After returning home there was a knock on the door. And a stranger with bags, pajama pants, and a face full of tears stood at the door.

Turns out their mom had once lived in the home I have now. And clearly they were out of contact with many family members. Others may see this as a red flag to close the door and turn away. But I think that’s disgusting. We are one, we are all human and deserve warmth, caring, love, and support.

I spoke with them for some time about their situation, sharing bits of my own personal traumas that were similar to their experiences, and encouraged them along a path of resources in our city.

The first shelter we contacted was at full capacity and we were redirected to another. There were impairments, and things were loopy for this person, but I know I handled it with grace and love ! - when typing a number for services into their phone they had extreme difficulty. I allowed them to try on their own to see their limit. Once I was aware of their limits I requested to help. “Oh man ! Dang technology it’s always a dink to work with ! Especially when it’s been out in the cold, would it be okay if I tried for you ?” Of course they said “Yes please !” We got the correct number in and dialed, we got them all set up with a room, and a cab to transport them there 🫶🏻 ((AND IM INCREDIBLY PROUD OF THEM FOR MAKING THE CALL THEMSELVES !))

This is a HUGE thing many DO NOT KNOW about homeless shelters here. IF YOU DO NOT REQUEST THE ROOM ON YOUR OWN BEHALF…. YOU WILL NOT BE A PRIORITY FOR A ROOM ! You MUST go 100% VOLUNTARILY WITHOUT someone doing it in your behalf.

They said they had anxieties on the phone. I told them BRO me TOO ! let’s do it together ! I walked them through what to say, and let them know if they needed anything I was right there to help ! And I did when requested of me 💕🫶🏻

And we did it … THEY DID IT !!! 💕🥰💕🥰💪🏻 they thanked me for getting them to make the call and told me it helped them having me there 🥰💪🏻

—- I wanna highlight something said, repetitively “I am so embarrassed”

From the time I opened the door to the time I walked them out. The words “I am so embarrassed” poured out from their vocal cords more times I’d care to admit ! OF COURSE I Would have NONE of that in my home. I told them. “bro, are you kidding me right now ? We are all human, we all have our lows there is nothing you should be embarrassed about, you’re human.”

Wearing pajamas ? Cool bro I am too ! (Real talk) they said “yeah but, you are at home I’m walking the streets” I said “I legit JUST got home from a meeting.. in which, I went in my pajamas ZERO SHAME HERE BRO ZERO !” They said “you went out like that ?” I’m like “fuck yeah I did, who cares ? Strangers I’ll never see again ohh nooo.. it’s comfy i was running late.. you get what you get.” “Okay but I’m crying all over my makeup is everywhere am I bleeding ? I’m bleeding” all with tears ! Like BRO !! I bleed too I’m bleeding right now ! I’m on my period we all bleed man again.. YOU ARE HUMAN. You’re crying ? Cool you have feelings and strong emotions that you need to let out, you don’t think I cry ? Snot bubbles puffy eyes I’m a mess man… LET IT OUT. YOU ARE HUMAN ! ((And I got a hug ! — please note this entry has no order - much like my life lmaaaaoo))

Why do humans forget so often that they are humans ? And shame one another for flaws and mistakes ? Gross. We are all messy ✌️⭐️

We talked more about what was going on with them and I offered the advice I give to many of my clients in similar situations. I think the most impressive thing I myself did was remember that I needed to ask permission for physical contact.

It’s so hard for me to not dive bomb and hug someone when they are crying or feeling hurt. All I want to do, is give them ALLLLL OF MY ENERGY AND LOVE !

They were standing in my porch and I asked “is it okay if I give you a hug ?”

And immediately their arms opened up and I SQUEEEZEDDD TIGHT !!

some people say no. And that’s okay. But I know hugs are healing and when I have the opportunity to hug someone, anyone. I will. It’s healing for BOTH people.

Anyways.

We spoke lots, we charged their phone, and gave them a musical magic oracle deck (an oracle deck I created based off of song lyrics that are motivational and bring people up from dark spots 💪🏻 each card includes Spotify codes to each song. ) cause they said how music is a coping tool that helps them feel better 💪🏻🫶🏻💪🏻 and I have a whack ton .. I friggin made them.. lol so I gave that ! And my phone number.

They got into the cab after giving me lots of hugs !!! 😍😍🥰😍 and a promise to keep in touch (it doesn’t always happen) off they went to continue their healing journey !

They told me I was very good at what I do.

They told me that they were so grateful it was me to open the door

They told me I helped them.

And that, makes my low quiet no money making days — WORTH IT.

I’m good at what I do

I’m a healer

I’ve been through sh!t.

So I know how to get out of sh!t

And I effin’ am gonna pull this city OUT OF THE DARKNESS

Fuck homelessness

FUCK ABUSE

💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻

Finally. I feel like I’m making change in my own back yard. Im on the right path ! 🥰😍🥰 I fucking did it bing bong !!!

I’m finally becoming the human I was meant to be here 🥰 a healer 🥰

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#Restaurant near me

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poohsources · 2 years

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there’s no question that photoshop is one of the biggest and probably most commonly used programs there is to make graphics. but unless you find a way to obtain it somehow, it’s not exactly cheap. there are some ways to get it for free but that’s not what i wanna talk about today. instead, i wanted to make this post to give some free alternatives you can use for your roleplay needs. i haven’t tried all of them myself ( because i do have a free photoshop license so i’ve been sticking with that for years now ) but i’ve done some research and decided to share this with all of you.

― PHOTOPEA

photopea is an online editor that’s actually strikingly similar to photoshop both in terms of looks / layout and features. of course it doesn’t offer all the things photoshop does but i’d say it gives you basically everything you need for your basic roleplay needs. you can import and export psds ( and other popular file formats ) and make icons and various graphics including gifs. now the great thing about photopea is that since it runs on a website, you don’t need to download any software and it is usable on all devices ― windows and mac, android and ios. it’s smooth and quick and ( if you know a bit about how graphic programs usually work ) pretty self explanatory.

PROS: no additional software needed / mobile friendly / can open and save psd files / easy to edit pictures / features various adjustment options and effects and filters and brushes / pretty much a ‘small photoshop’

CONS: ad banners can be annoying / no timeline feature ( that’s used for certain things, e.g. batch editing icons ) / you need a stable internet connection

― GIMP

again, gimp shares some features with photoshop although it can be quite overwhelming once you open the program for the first time just because it’s all very cluttered and it takes some time to get used to. it’s probably a good tool that lets you do lots of things but if i’m honest i never really got into it so i can’t say all that much about it. it doesn’t seem too bad though.

PROS: available on windows, mac, and linux / can open and save psd files ( although it may potentially corrupt files if you wanna open them in other programs again ) / features various filters and brushes / open source so there are lot of resources for plugins

CONS: ui outdated and cluttered / not exactly beginner friendly / uses a different color profile than photoshop so imported psds can look weird

― PIXLR

another web based program that works and looks similar to photopea but doesn’t offer as many features that you’d probably need for roleplay graphics. i’m still listing it here because it does seem to be a nice and easy editing program if you just wanna do some more or less simple things that don’t require tons of layers and blending and whatever.

PROS: no additional software needed / mobile friendly ( although the mobile version is different from the computer version ) / features various adjustment options and filters and brushes / you can open psds ( but they might look weird )

CONS: you need a stable internet connection / no masks and no grouping of layers and no timeline feature / some tools are slow / ad banners can be annoying

― PHOTO POS PRO

i can’t say much about this one because i wasn’t able to test it myself but from what i’ve gathered it seems to be a good photoshop alternative that offers a lot of different features. it also works with layers ( and is capable of using masks ) so that’s always a plus.

PROS: has different layouts for beginners and experts / offers tutorials / features various adjustment options and effects

CONS: only available on windows ( and mac if you use an emulator ) / export file size limits / can run slow at times

so that’s it. there are probably even more alternatives you can find with the help of a simple google search but these were the ones i could find that seem to work best when it comes to making graphics for your roleplay. if you ask me, photoshop is still the best options in my opinion ( probably because that’s what i’m most used to ) but i do understand not everyone is able to get it so i really hope this post will be useful for some of you. just try out what works best for you and as always, if you have any questions do not hesitate to ask. i’ll try to answer them as best as i can.

#pooh helps.#rp guide #rp tutorial #rp graphics #photoshop alternatives #rp help #rph #( honestly this was inspired by a message i got )#( hope it's gonna be of help to people )#type: guide

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thewildwaffle · 3 years

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Humans are Weird: Antibiotics

A story prompt from a user on a03. Apparently, this is my 50th short story, or at least the 50th installment of m humans are weird short stories. Hurray!

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Ni Andu watched a dried sickle leaf roll across the empty courtyard from her window. A deep sigh made her breath fog up the glass. The courtyard wasn't supposed to be empty. Especially not this time of year. The Gauru Ni Moon Festival usually brought visitors from around the world and across multiple star systems right about now. But the disease meant no bright banners were hung. No music echoed cheerily through around the corners and down the streets. There were no wafting scents of fresh fruits and fried breads.

It was amazing and terrifying that something so small that it couldn’t be seen had done all this. The Ni were a proud race, rich in culture, and until now, seemingly sturdy in constitution. Diseases had come and gone in the past, but in such small and freak cases that they were hardly given much attention. It was assumed that Ni immune systems were the best in the galaxy and many other races had even requested to study how they were so effective.

Those prideful memories felt hollow now as Ni Andu sighed and pulled herself away from the dreary sight outside. As a new and reluctant head of the house, she had more pressing things to deal with than moping in the past. Several members of her own family were still sick, two of her hatch mates had been very touch-and-go as of late. She slowly made her way to the cushions where they were sleeping to check on them. To her relief, she saw the soft blankets they were wrapped in rose and fell slowly. She stood there, watching them for a bit in the gathering darkness of their shared humble abode. Matki’s breathing sounded like gravel stuck in a child’s rolling skiffer.

“What are we going to do?” Andu’s wide nose scrunched up as she begged the silent house. “What am I supposed to do next?”

She wasn’t sure how long she stood there trying to think of everything and nothing all at once. It was a good while though and was only interrupted when a small light turned on in the meal room. Andu looked up at the light streaming out of the door’s archway. With a sigh, she gathered her strength to move again to see who was up. As she approached, she heard small claws scrabbling on the stonework floor and storage pods opening and closing.

Sure enough, when she peeked in, Andu could see little Piri shuffling through food storage pods that looked even less stocked than she thought they’d been. There were a few bottled foods, a few containers of ingredient-prepped soup containers, but certainly nothing immediately ready for consumption. Most easy and ready-to-eat foods had been eaten long ago or destroyed when they began to decay and grow dangerous molds. And to a small three-year-old Ni, that basically meant there was no food at all.

“Hey Piri, are you hungry?” Even though Andu had kept her voice quiet, little Piri still jumped and tucked his small thin tail like he was ashamed he’d been caught. Andu smiled comfortingly and stepped into the room to pick up one of the soup packs.

“It’s okay, you’re fine,” she patted him on the head softly, “I think it’s time for a meal too. I’m sure everyone else would agree once they wake up and smell the food.”

“There’s not much left,” Piri’s small voice was so sad and only made the words themselves feel sharper to Andu’s hearts. She tried to think of something she could say to make their situation seem less dire, but nothing came to mind. Instead, she scooped up Piri’s small form and waited until his thin arms latched securely around her scruff before she walked over to get a pot to cook in. She was going to have to add quite a bit of water to this if it was going to make enough to sustain everyone for a meal.

Cooking, even making something simple, helped ease Andu’s mind. There was a sense of normalcy in standing in front of a firebox and stirring a bubbling pot of soup. She tried to ignore how thin it was. Still, the smell made her feel warm and it must have wafted across the house as she could soon hear the tell-tale signs of her hatch mates waking up. She gathered bowls and filled each one. Lowering Piri back down, she handed the young Ni a bowl and carried the rest to the cushions where the rest of the family was slowly waking up.

They ate together slowly, trying to make the contents of their bowl last and talking quietly about anything they could to distract themselves from their situation. Matki was recalling a story from four lunar years ago when Andu had entered a fried bread pastry into a competition. Between Matki’s coughing and Andu interjecting to defend herself, the story kept getting interrupted! She’d worked on the recipe for her pastry for so long and was so proud of it, but the night before, something went wrong when she was making her entry. Whether it was nerves, exhaustion, oversight, or Jentala above forbid, sabotage, it went very wrong. From the way Matki described the judges’ reaction, one might have thought Andu had purposefully tried poisoning them! As everyone chuckled, Matki claimed he still had the video recording from the competition and pulled it out, much to Andu’s chagrin.

Andu pretended to be exasperated by the teasing, but really she was just glad everyone felt good enough to laugh again.

It took a while before she and the others noticed that Matki hadn’t pulled up the video. Instead, his eyes locked on the comm tablet screen.

“Matki?”

“Hey, did you find it?”

“Matki are you okay?”

Matki finally looked up, eyes still wide from whatever he’d been looking at. “They’re coming to help.”

Everyone shared a worried look. What?

“Who are you talking about? Who’s coming?” Andu broke the confused silence.

Matki tapped something on-screen with the pad of a finger and a holographic projection display rose up.

Everyone watched enraptured by the newscast. It was about humans. From halfway across the galaxy, they’d heard about the Ni’s plight and had come claiming they had a cure. They were offering aid and resources to run tests to make sure their medicine was safe and effective for Ni use and make alterations if needed. They were even claiming they’d help distribute the finalized cure the moment it was given the go-ahead. In the meantime, they were also sending ships of food and supplies.

Andu could feel the back of her throat tighten. Was this real? Did she dare hope? There’d been so many reports before about help being promised, well, not help to this extent, but help nonetheless. They’d ended up being just for show and were proven empty once those who offered realized how impossible the situation really was.

But humans? She’d heard they were tough. And stubborn. Maybe they were stubborn enough to see their promises through?

The embarrassing video of Andu’s failed pastry was long forgotten, the conversation instead jumped between wild rumors her family had overheard about humans and speculation about how long it would take for the humans to actually lend aid if they were really coming at all. Andu could see a shimmer in the eyes of her hatch mates as they spoke that she hadn’t seen in a while. Although she wished she could feel the same optimism, she could also see how quickly they were all tiring out. Although they’d slept most of the day, the disease was still taking its toll on them all.

Once the meager meal was finished, she stood to gather the now empty bowls. She noticed Piri quickly scrape a finger along the side of his bowl to snag any last morsel before she came along to collect it. ‘Jentala above,’ she prayed mentally, ‘if help truly is coming, send it along soon.”

With bellies no longer completely empty, everyone settled in, and soon the room was full of sleeping or near sleeping Ni.

Andu slept fitfully. She dreamed, but it was fractured and confusing. Even before the disease came, she had a hard time remembering her dreams once she woke up. It was near impossible now. She did remember a loud humming noise though. As she blinked her eyes and lifted her head, she realized the humming was still there. She rose and searched for the source. It almost sounded like… engines? But that, that had to be impossible - the quarantine…

She looked out the window. Dried sickle leaves were flying around wildly as a large shuttle slowly came in for a landing in the courtyard. Andu opened her mouth to call out to the rest of her family, but nothing would come. How were they still asleep with this racket? Apparently, it managed to wake up Piri, who nearly made Andu jump when he bumped into her side while trying to climb up for a better view out the window.

“What’s going on? Who’s outside?” Piri waited to ask until Andu had resettled herself after being startled.

“I’m not sure yet,” she answered as they both watched the shuttle’s doors slowly work through the unsealing process. Across the courtyard, she could see other Ni’s faces peeking out their windows. As far as she could tell, expressions seemed to range anywhere from fear to curiosity to… was that hope? Wait, had they seen the newscast last night? Did they think this was… there’s no way the humans could be here already, right?

They both watched intently as the doors finally opened and a ramp extended. Soon a line of creatures she’d only seen on screens filed down wearing yellow vests and hauling huge boxes in their arms or on carts they pulled behind them.

“It is the humans!” Piri yelled and jumped down from his perch. He ran to where everyone was stirring on the cushions, “Wake up! Wake up! The humans are here!”

Andu wasn’t sure if she should reprimand Piri for disturbing them, or if she should join in. Instead, she watched as the humans in the courtyard started setting up stations and continued hauling load after load filled with what must have been hexaheebs of food, clean water, and various supplies.

She turned to look back at her family who were trying to rise as fast as their weakened bodies would allow. Matki began coughing violently and had to rest against the wall. Andu went to help support him when a knock at the front door startled everyone. They all stared at the old chirrowood door, then around at each other. It had been so long since quarantine had started, they’d almost forgotten what a knock on the door sounded like.

After a pause, the knock came again, this time followed by a worried and drawn-out, “Hello?”

Once she was sure Matki was standing stable, Andu, being the least sick among everyone, walked to and slowly opened the door.

A human from the shuttle stood in the doorway. They were wearing a mask over their mouth and nose, but it was definitely a human! Their eyes closed slightly and creased in the corners as they nodded a greeting. “Hi, my name is Ali, I’m part of the relief team that’s been assigned to this district. We’ve got food and essentials to distribute and I just need to know how many are in this household and if anyone here is in critical condition.”

Andu blinked at the human for a moment as she took in what they’d said.

“We, uh, we have four adults and one child. There, there were more, but…” she couldn’t finish that sentence. From the look the human gave her, she didn’t need to finish it. Her sinuses stung as she fought to not cry. The first visitor in how long and here she was almost crying in the doorway?

“I'm so sorry for your loss,” the human’s head bowed and their shoulders dropped. “I wish we’d known and could have helped earlier. Is anyone here in need of immediate emergency care?”

At that point, Matki started coughing again. Andu and Ali looked back to see him sit back down until his coughing died down.

Andu sighed and turned back to the human. “None of us are great right now. Matki’s probably the worst out of all of us. He sounds bad, but he actually has started to stabilize in the past few days.”

Human Ali gave a short nod and started writing something on a tablet in his hands.

“Do you,” Andu’s voice trembled, “we heard a report last night about you. That you were coming. That you… do you…” she swallowed and fought back desperate tears, “do you really have a cure?”

The human’s eyes creased again. “We do.”

Andu didn’t need to turn around to know the effect this had on her family. She heard it. She felt it. This time, she didn’t fight back the tears.

“Right now,” Human Ali continued, “it’s in the final stages of approval for Ni use, we’re just waiting for the ‘go-ahead’ and we’ll help distribute it as soon as it arrives. Until then, I’ve got some food and supplies for you. I can help unload and unpack if you need?”

“That… that would be... thank you,” she wiped at her tears. “Thank you so much.”

Over the next few days, more shuttles came and went, bringing more supplies, food, tools, and just in general, a brighter outlook and mood to the entire neighborhood. The humans really were here to help, and they seemed happy to do so. Not only were they good with their promises of aid, but they also delivered on the cure they said they had. Ni were instructed on the drug’s use and administration directions thoroughly for both the tablet and liquid forms of the cure. The effects were quick, and from the reports on the newscast, overwhelmingly positive. The Ni were cured! The plague that had once threatened to wipe out their entire population was gone! Celebrations larger than even the Gauru Ni Moon Festival were planned, songs were written, stories shared and spread. It was wholly agreed by all that this was a historic time in Ni history that they all survived through, and all thanked Jentala above for sending the humans to help.

It went without saying that everyone wanted to know more about the cure itself. And that meant everyone, not just the Ni, but the rest of the galactic community who before, had written the Ni off as a lost cause because of the horrific disease. What was this miracle cure? What other things could it do? Where, by all that is bright and shining, did the humans get it, and could it be easily replicated?

The humans, for their part, were again as open and gracious with their information as they had been with their aid. It was an old medicine they’d discovered long ago on their planet. Considered to be the first “antibiotic,” it was widely used on Earth and had saved millions of lives since its discovery. It worked by interfering with bacteria cell walls and destroyed them by causing them to burst.

It was called

Penicillin.

“Amazing!” “Spectacular!” “So simple, yet so ingenious!” many in the galactic community praised. “How ever did you discover this amazing drug?”

The initial answer wasn’t too surprising, for humans at least: it was an accident.

Andu almost snorted as she read the report to the rest of her family. Granted, the end of the plague was the first time any of them had come in direct contact with humans, but they all had heard many of the stories about human escapades. Wild experiments that on paper seemed more like a drunken brainstorm party that ended up advancing rocket fuel technology by at least 8 lunar years. Crash-landings on category 3 death worlds and they ended up liking them so much they decided to set up colonies. Half of what they did seemed to be mistakes that just went right for them. Apparently, the miracle drug penicillin was included in those stories.

She looked up its history and manufacturing.

Andu felt claws dance down her back as she read more. It came… from mold? Mold?! She looked up from the tablet to the faces of her equally horrified hatch mates. It took them a moment to remember how to close their mouths.

"You mean like mold on old bread?" Piri broke the shocked silence.

Andu blinked and looked back at the report. Old bread? How many times had they not eaten bread fast enough in the warm humid seasons only to pick up a bul of bread and find mold growing on it. It was dangerous, it had to be carefully disposed of, it was… able to save lives?

She returned to the report. The more she read, the more comforted she became in the safety of the miracle antibiotic. That, and she couldn't argue with the results. Her family was around her, now loudly being altogether boisterous together as they "discussed" the humans and all the ways they played with death in order to save life.

Matki snatched the tablet from her claws, wanting to read the report for himself. As Andu was jostled by her now healthy, energetic family, she was just happy and eternally thankful that the humans were crazy enough to play with something as dangerous as fungus, and then kind enough to share what they discovered.

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Percy and Bad first times? I love these asks thank you!

I do not know why it took me approximately an eternity to write this but I finished it. I hope it will have been worth the wait. 😘

(Percy)

The moment Percy walked into your life you thought he was very much the egotistical rich kid. First impressions weren’t great as he concluded that wether or not you came from money or status, you rebelled against the social norms of high society. You two were polar opposites and anyone who said opposites attract; you were the proof against that claim for the longest time.

At the realisation you wouldn’t be leaving any time soon Percy tried to school you in manners for his sake correcting your behaviour and even words like you were some insolent child. You did not take this well and the argument that followed, unavoidable. Many things were said, some neither of you are proud of and you didn’t speak for days unless it were some snide remarks.

Then it came to a job to interact with high society people and you got to show Percy how wrong he was as you properly addressed the people, held your posture correctly and picked every word eloquently. Taken aback by your complete 180 in behaviour a conversation was in order. You got the pleasure telling Percy his ‘lessons’ had nothing to do with this and unlike some people you’d rather not be a pompous ass with a superiority complex like some people.

This lead Percy to dive into some research trying to find your name and family name, tapping into all resources at his disposal to figure you out telling himself you might be a threat if you were hiding things. He was not prepared to find out what happened with your family and faced you with the fact he found your past. The first one on one you had was Percy quite literally cornering you so you couldn’t avoid him. Admittedly not his proudest moment. You needed to talk so talk you did.

Telling Percy your story and trusting him with it might have been the first time you’ve told anyone since you left your home. In turn to set the record straight he told you what had happened with his own family. You came to the conclusion you’re not so different after all. A mutual understanding and trust formed between the two of you, though your arguments did not end with you disagreed on a matter. Rarely did you give the other the silent treatment and instead came to an agree-to-disagree conclusion if compromise was not an option. In time, they’d cease to be arguments all together and simply turn into conversations.

At this point you might even have considered yourselves friends. You found yourselves spending more time together. Percy was raised the so-mani-eth child extremely unlikely to be the heir of his family but with the tragedy that befell them, only he and his sister remained. You were raised to continue your family’s legacy but had lost everything. When Whitestone was returned to the surviving De Rolo’s you promised to give aide in any way you could.

Vox Machina, taken in a different direction you stayed behind with Cassandra. You took no titles or lands no matter how many times, Cassandra and the council offered them. In his time away from you and his home he came to realise he’d begun missing your company, the conversations and having to be the smart and semi-responsible one of the group. Not only that, you’ve been a rock in the current that’s his chaos and with you away he feels he’s more likely to fall to the temptations placed in front of him. Proof of that; the trip to the city of Dis.

When this realisation hits Percy he’ll take any opportunity to spend more time with you. He doesn’t inject himself into your daily life but any time there’s a reason for him to be present he’ll take it. Him coming clean about the contract and handing it to you for safekeeping trusting you that no matter the circumstance you’ll never give it to him, you absolutely go apeshit on him. How could he be so damn stupid. A deal with a devil? Really?! All the what ifs… It made you realise your anger and disappointment came from a place of affection.

You made Percy promise he’d tell you when he’s thinking of doing something stupid he’ll tell you before doing the thing. Before he leaves for another adventure or comes back from one you’ll go on a walk, have dinner or just relax somewhere. Sometimes you’ll talk, sometimes sit in silence, whatever you feel like in that moment. You’d begun holding hands, hugging or a kiss to the cheek before departure or upon return, tiny displays of affection.

You were informed Percy had died, but as Grog told you, he got better. Reasonably so you freaked out but you were also aware of the risk of the adventurer lifestyle, more accurately the lifestyle of someone with enemies like Percy. That didn’t mean you didn’t feel like your heart just shattered in that moment. You cared for Percy until he recovered. It’s the first time you truly saw Percy weak, not of mind wavering to a pact with an entity or the likes, but mentally done.

Percy first realised he might hold more than affections for you when you promised him that you’d always have one more thing for him to do. No matter how messed up the world looked, there’d always be a place for him with you. He’s not stupid enough to think this doesn’t come out of a deep affection of your own but he can’t be too sure it’s love either. It’s obvious you care for him, and maybe you do love him but are you in love with him? He’s not sure. Is he in love with you? He’s unsure. He knows he cares about you immensely and loves you just as much and that’s enough for him.

Percy is a man of impulse. This comes in especially handy when someone lacks courage to do something. He doesn’t approach you for your first ‘official’ date. It was just like any other outing you’d gone on or time you spent together except for the fact Percy asked you out, letting slip it was a date. If just asking you this was already so difficult he definitely would need a bottle of courage or two admitting his feelings out loud.

You’re clever enough and know how to read people enough that you weren’t oblivious to Percy’s recent changes in behaviour towards you. You were also clever enough to place them and, when courage fails you’re not one to beat around the bush. You called him out and half fearing you’d turn him down, he was proven the opposite when you pulled him in by the ascot and kissed him. Surprising but not unwanted.

Seeing no need in defining your relationship for others, you also didn’t ease the others into this development. Watching you kiss Percy passionately before he was off on another adventure leaving everyone around very surprised. So surprised they missed the mark on Keyleth’s transport via plants. Bombarded with questions about when or how this happened Percy didn’t want to indulge them with answers and instead spent more time with you.

Of course you had shared sleeping spaces before. You weren’t strangers to sharing a bed but you can comfortably say, it became much more comfortable after you first shared your bed together as lovers in the afterglow, waking up like a sweaty mess. Sharing baths after became the norm to freshen up and relax. The perfect excuse to spend more time together and have everyone else gagging after the look you’d share when asked why you missed breakfast… and lunch…

It took a long while before you first found yourselves able to exchange I love you’s but when danger came knocking at your door and you were thrown back into the fight for Tal’Dorei with Vox Machina’s allies it was now or never. Seeing things go south you got the pleasure of teaming up with a brass dragon to kick some undead ass.

“Before we both do something incredibly stupid I want you to know I love you.” Simple and efficient and to the point.

“I am tempted to hold these words for myself until after we’ve saved the world. Call it motivation to stay alive but since you made such an effort already. I love you too, dear.” Asshole. What did you expect. The feeling was mutual.

(Caduceus)

The first time you met Caduceus you’d killed someone in not too far out from Shady Creek. The down side, you killed someone important. They came after you, you protected yourself but then you had a body to deal with. You heard about the cursed place, and decided to just bury it there. You didn’t expect to find a dopey pink haired firbolg to be living at the heart of the place. He was surprisingly helpful in burying the body you brought to the point you were almost sure you’d be buried right next to your victim soon. Luckily for you you were proven wrong.

You couldn’t really return to Shady Creek and it’s not like you had much of a home there so you wandered the forests hunting and gathering for food and warmth at night avoiding the cursed places and dangers as much as you could. You couldn’t and returned to the safety of the Blooming Grove. So you made a deal, you’d stay with the firbolg, help him out at his graveyard, cemetery, whatever it is and he’d give you a place to sleep at night.

You resorted to staying inside the small temple sleeping on the floor but soon enough, Caduceus invited you to just take one of the beds in the house and stick around instead of leave at dawn to find food, removing some weeds, watering some plants, and return at dusk. No more wandering you fell into more domestic tasks solidifying your roommate life with the man. It had been a while since either of you were in (good) company so you appreciated anything that could talk and wasn’t trying to murder you.

In your time spent with Caduceus you heard bits and pieces about his family but what didn’t add up for you were the beds and belongings he didn’t touch or did so with care to keep them clean. When you got the courage to ask Caduceus told you the story of Clay, Stone and Dust and how his family left to save the Grove and perhaps even the Savalirwood as a whole. It felt odd to actually talk to someone about them that’s not him to himself. He appreciated your compassion, telling him that they’d come back home and with the stories he told you hope you’d get to meet them one day.

Caduceus’ expert prepping of meals left you wanting to be able to do the same. Of course he was happy to teach you and with his guidance you cooked your first meal. It wasn’t the best but definitely beat anything you could make on the road by yourself. The spices are to die for. You found yourself falling into the habit of cooking together; a nice way to end the day.

You were having a particularly tough day and ready to just curl up and let the world consume you, there was no hiding from your friendly firbolg roommate. He knew what’s up but gave you a chance to come to him. You didn’t so he came to you. He didn’t say anything, just sat next to you with a cup of tea, set another one in front of you and stayed quiet until you were ready to talk or get back to your business if you didn’t. He wasn’t going to pry in personal matters unless you asked him.

An encounter with a nasty creature you were unable to scare off and away had Caduceus pinned to the ground. With enough courage and some knowledge of physical combat you managed to get the creature off and injure it enough so it fled. Pulling Caduceus to his feet you were engulfed in a hug with a thank you. As is common knowledge Caduceus hugs are the best hugs you found yourself asking for more. Caduceus wasn’t at all opposed to keep this a thing as he’d always enjoyed hugs.

With the two of you growing closer, living together you decided to sit down and talk about what you had and where it was going as neither of you wanted to accidentally lead on the other or set expectations that could not be met. Neither of you were looking for romantic love or romance at all. Some might refer to you as bestest of friends or life partners but that didn’t really seem to fit. You’re just you and Caduceus is him and you liked hugging and spending time together, going through the motions of life and that’s all you needed.

When the Nein came along looking for help, Caduceus offered for you to stay behind, the Blooming Grove was just as much your home as it was his but you went along anyway. You’d never left the forest. Never travelled south either but many adventures found their way to you and you’d be spending them with you with Caduceus through all the ups and downs. The Nein got so used to your dynamic they never questioned it. It was just something that existed and was happening and quite frankly, one of the few normal things about you and the firbolg.

When the day came you found the Clay family you got to be there for Caduceus as he had for you. Meeting them for the first time they lived up to the stories you’d been told. The Clays were very happy to meet Caduceus’ friends but upon learning about your connection to him they were relieved he hadn’t been all alone for all those years they were gone and had some company. They offered you to come back with them but just like Caduceus, there was still some unfinished business and these people, the Mighty Nein still needed your help.

Then, when everything came to a close, you returned to the Blooming Grove and spent the rest of your days there living content. It had been your home and would continue to be your home. The Clays became your family and for the first time in forever you could see yourself content at home leaving with Caduceus to travel at times but always return to that little spot in the Savalirwood.

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