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bruabbasbellaragazza · 2 years

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That Damn Café [MM4F, MM4NB, MM4GNC]

synopsis: bruno and abbacchio punish you after a gang meeting.

mdni 18+: polyamory, established relationship,(slight) daddy kink, degredation (abba), praise (bruno), brat taming, use of nicknames (pretty, baby, princess, girl, slut, whore, & bitch), dry humping, choking, slight voyeurism, fingering, edging, love bites, breast play, spit play, slight masturbation, cum play, cum eating, (implied) breeding, dumbification, face fucking, dacryphilia, reverse cowgirl, double penetration, over stimulation, rough sex, (i hope that’s all the tags😭)

pairing: bruno x abbacchio x reader (afab, fem presenting, non-binary[usage of they/them pronouns])

note: this is my first piece pls be nice😭. also, i was very horny making this cuz i hadn’t engaged in hankey pankey for like a WEEK cuz i was w/ family🥲 apologies for the filth, i need to touch grass.

word count: 2.9k

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the bucci gang meetings have just been WAAAAY to long today. i mean the meetings are usually this long, but there’s something about today that just took everyone out. the day’s almost over but y’all are still at this damn café and your mind is playing tricks on you. nirancia’s starting to seem like a genius, fugo’s being less violent today, mista’s dead silent, and girono’s just asleep at this point.

but bruno and abbacchio? they start looking a little tew fine. they’re already gorgeous, but it’s something about you being tired and bored out of your mind that’s letting explicit thoughts enter your mind about your beloved boyfriends. until of course you decide tht this meeting can get a little *spiced up*

sitting in the chair between the two men, you start getting a little more clingy. starting with abbacchio, you “mindlessly” put your hand on his upper, inner thigh, and lay your head on his shoulder. this sudden touch made him perk up and look down at you. “you okay bella?” he said with adoring eyes. “yea, i’m just a little tired, that’s all.” you say snuggling even more into him, with your hand moving farther up his thigh.

you could hear him start to breathe a little harder the closer ur hand got to his clothed buldge. your head was also closer to his neck now, so you took that to your advantage and placed a little peck there. nothing too serious, but enough for him to fully grasp what you were trying to do.

his face started to turn a little red, as he makes a little cough to keep his composure as you start to palm him through his clothes. “oh so you want to act like a slut today huh?” he says under his breath making sure no one can hear. he puts a firm grasp on your wrist and looks at you with a glare as you give him a devious smirk in response. then his eyes shift and look at bruno to give him a signal.

you knew you were done for when he gave bruno that look. being that bruno was in the middle of speaking to everyone (who is barely paying attention at this point), he gives you a glare as he finishes his sentence. suddenly, to your surprise, he wraps up his lecture. you knew it was gonna be a long night if bruno ended a meeting early, so you pull away from abbacchio and try your best to put on your “good girl” attitude for the ride home. but you knew you were fucked no matter how hard you tried to hide what you just did.

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at the house

when the whole gang got back to the house, everyone disbursed into their rooms to relax for the rest of the day. you made your way quickly to your room making sure to avoid eye contact with bruno or abba and get out of their *possible* reach.

making it successfully to your room, 10 mins pass, then 20 pass so you think your in the clear until you get a text on your phone from bruno

“come into my room princess.”

the first word tht came to mind was ‘shit!’ but then your realized… “ain’t this kinda what i wanted anyways?” so accepting your fate, you respond and make your way upstairs to bruno’s room.

when you get to the door, you knock and bruno greets you at the door. “ciao mia bella principessa”, he says. “hi baby!” you say nervous as hell with a slight tone of precaution in your voice.

“so what was going on in the café today?” he asks. still trying to be oblivious, you go ahead and say that you were tired, which isn’t entirely false, then say you were just “resting on abba’s shoulder” while looking up with puppy eyes at the 6’1 man in front of you.

“you wanna tell him what else you were doing?”

you jump at abba’s deep voice behind you, because you knew you got caught. but you finally got what you wanted. you sandwiched between your gorgeous 6’1 capo boyfriend and your hunk 6’2 ex-cop boyfriend.

“but i didn’t do anything!” you snap back in a bratty tone.

all the sudden, abbacchio closes the door behind you, leans his back against it and pulls your back into him with his hands on both sides of your hips. “so not only are you a whore, your a liar too is that right bella” he says as he presses his hard buldge into your ass. “if you didn’t do anything, why am i hard right now hmm?”

you immediately get turned on feeling him behind you. “i don’t know? maybe i’m just that irresistible that you get off on just the sight of me. something you’re to scared to admit baby” you say smiling back at him in a bratty tone but are immediately snatched of your talking rights when abba places a rough hand around your throat and forces you to face bruno.

“oh mia dolce bella ragazza, if you wanted to be fucked so bad you should’ve just said so. now we have to punish you principessa” bruno says while he walks towards you caging you in with abba still behind you. he lifts up your chin like he’s going to kiss you but goes right past and brings his lips to abbacchio’s. while you turn you head to watch the sultry scene before you, you massage bruno’s cock and continue to roll your hips on abba, all three of you letting out little moans.

as bruno pulls away, a string of saliva connects the two’s lips and they both give you a dangerous look. bruno saw the desperation in your eyes and pulled your mouth into his. as you two are sloppily making out, abbacchio releases his hand off your throat and pulls up your skirt to reveal your sopping wet, black, lace panties. a set both bruno and abba enjoyed seeing you get ruined in.

“already a mess for us after all that teasing huh? what if i just-“, and in one motion, abba moves your panties to the side and sticks two digits in, immediately rubbing your sweet spot from the inside while abusing your neck with marks.

you moaned into bruno’s mouth and he used that as access to push his tongue into your mouth as he brought his hands up your back to undo your terrible excuse for a shirt(those head scarf shirts that you tie in the back!).

“hmmmm” they both hum in unison at the sight of your bare breasts out. your nipples hardened by the cold air. bruno wastes no time in massaging them with both hands as he violates your mouth.

in your head you already learned your lesson. you’re already reaching your peak by bruno and abba stimulating everything at once mixed with the lewd noises of abba’s fingers moving in and out of your wet cunt, arousal dripping on the floor and down your leg already and the pretty moans escaping both of them.

abbacchio feels your walls pulsate, letting him know your about to cum then- “bruno, stop” abbacchio says.

you snap back, breathless and drunk off of your two boyfriends already. you cant even say anything but your needy eyes do all the talking.

“you look so beautiful like this princess-” bruno says taking a step back to admire you. “but dirty sluts like you don’t deserve to cum until we say so” abba says as he takes his fingers out of you and shoves them down your throat, ordering you to suck his fingers clean.

Bruno then proceeds to walk over to the edge of his bed, still standing up he motions for you and abba to meet him. “get on your knees baby” he says. and you obliged looking up at him as he pets your head.

“since our pretty girl is being disrespectful today i think we should ruin that little throat of theirs so they can’t talk back. what do you think abbacchio?” he says still keeping eye contact with you and he grazes his thumb over your supple bottom lip.

“i agree. i think our pretty little bitch needs a punishment” abba replies looking down at you.

soon enough, you hear the click of both their belts and see their pants and briefs drop to their ankles along with the rest of their suits coming off and then pushing everything to the other side of the room.

not only were their bodies toned like greek gods, both your men were PACKING. Bruno on the longer side while abbacchio on the girthy side. nonetheless they both knew how to ruin you in more ways than one. bruno applies more pressure to your bottom lip, forcing your mouth to open up for him. he spits in your mouth “fuck you’re so pretty mama. can you swallow for me?” you don’t even hesitate and down his saliva with the quickness.

“look at the pretty little slut doing what their told” abbacchio says with his hands tangled in your hair, forcing you to look up at him. abbacchio spits but this time not for your mouth, it’s to add some slick for bruno’s cock while he pumps his length.

that scene had your mind going beserk. all you wanted to do now was make your two men feel good.

with the hand that’s in your hair, abbacchio aligns your mouth with bruno’s pink tip. you open your mouth slightly to try and tease bruno a little, but abba continues to push until the entire shaft isn’t even visible, making you choke. tears leave your ducts and bruno let’s out a moan from the warm sensation of you wrapped around him. “fuuuuck baby you feel so good” he moans and you hum while his length is inside you, stimulating him.

bruno and abba are enamored by how pretty you look beneath them like this. you stay still for a while until abba starts to bob your head back and forth on bruno’s cock, the sight making abbacchio’s member stiffen up even more. “why don’t you put those pretty hands to work baby?” abbacchio says while bruno is lost in pleasure.

hearing your side conversation, bruno takes it upon himself to slick up abbacchio for you. after he spits on his cock, you bring your hand up to pump abbacchio’s member.

“you’re so needy pumping us both at once. letting us use you like a dirty fucking sex toy. huh bella,” abbacchio moans out. just you doing this much is enough for them to want to reward you for being such a good girl for them and taking your punishment so well.

bruno uses his free hands to pull abbacchio into another kiss. this one is even better than before. you get to see your boyfriends moaning into each other’s mouths with each sloppy kiss as you pleasure them.

there’s so many noises going on. the lewd noises of your mouth taking bruno in and the wet noises of abbacchio’s precum being spread all over him. to the high pitched moans coming from all three of you. any outsider would be touching themselves just from the beautiful sounds you all are making.

this sight lasts a few more moments until bruno feels his release starting to come on. he pulls away from the kiss with abba and has both hands on the back of your head. bobbing ur head up and down, fast, using your mouth like a flesh light. “princepessa i’m gonna fucking cum down that slutty throat of yours and you’re gonna swallow every last drop. alright baby” he says as he’s charging into you back and forth. all you could do is let out a “mmmmm” in response and soon you feel his hot release coat your throat after a few more strokes.

in the meantime, abbacchio takes in this sight by pumping his own length since bruno took you over. watching his gorgeous slut of a partner take his pretty boyfriend in like that was enough to send him over the edge as he touched himself.

bruno released his length from your mouth “such a good bella ragazza” he moaned as he rubbed his cock all over you lips. bruno then brought you up to take in the taste of him on your tongue and it was blissful. when he finished tasting you, he finally sat down on the edge of the bed, taking off your skirt and lace panties, and placed you in his lap so that you could face abbacchio while also pinning your hands behind your back.

“mmm baby you thought your punishment was over? it’s daddy’s turn to fuck that abused throat now” abbacchio coos.

“t-too m-much” you whine barely able to speak.

“aww pretty baby’s so dickmatized, that they’re too dumb to form a sentence.” abbacchio says with a smirk and bruno lets out a little chuckle. “but since you’ve been taking your punishment so well, we just might reward you principessa, bruno says while layering kisses on your neck and collar bone.

still pumping himself, abbacchio gets closer to you and inserts himself into your mouth making your throat go through round two. like bruno, abbacchio abused your throat thrusting in and out till tears sent your mascara running down your face. this time tho abbacchio had an idea. when he felt like he was close he took himself out.

bruno let’s go of your hands behind your back and widens your legs so your feet are planted on the bed and your glistening pussy is on display. he then grabs ahold of your waist.

“instead of cumming in your throat i wanna cum on that slutty little pussy of yours.” abbacchio states as he pumps himself. he then aligns his cock with your pussy and rubs his dick up and down your folds. making you squirm in bruno’s hands. the sensation of abba’s tip brushing against your clit. almost made you go brain dead at that point. your creamy juices coating his cock as he moves up and down, moaning with every movement, until finally abba’s thick white substance spurts everywhere. on your stomach, breasts, and most importantly your pretty pussy. the cumin that didn’t land on your heat, was wiped off with your free hand which you then brought to your mouth, and licked clean all while keeping eye contact.

“you’re gonna drive me insane baby. i think our pretty little bitch deserves to be rewarded now dont’cha think capo?” he says rubbing his cum in.

“oh they definitely get to cum now” bruno says in your ear. he then uses one hand to make circles around your throbbing cunt. “but before you do, you have to beg for it mama” he says

“c-capo p-please i-i need y-you b-both to fill m-me up” you say with desperation in your hoarse throat.

“goddamn, you’re so perfect baby even with a hoarse throat” bruno coos behind you.

lifting you up by your waist, bruno coats his dick in yours and abba’s juices by rubbing against your folds for lube, aligns himself with your back door and seats you back down on his lap. the beautiful noises you let out make bruno shower you in kisses while abbacchio comes up and aligns himself with your front entrance. another lewd moan escapes your lips as you feel both your boyfriends inside of you at the same time. stretching your tight holes out.

you don’t even know words anymore, you can only make sounds as bruno and abbacchio move in and out of you in unison, hitting every sweet spot you could’ve had in mind. the pain mixed with pleasure was just the thing you wanted since the beginning of the day.

loud moans from you and your men filling up the room as you three all feel each other at once. the slapping noises of your ass hitting bruno’s lap and abbacchio slamming into you at the same time.

“looks like one little thing’s missing some attention” abba notices how pretty and lonely your clit looks and starts to rub circles with his thumb. this only intensified the feeling for you. this whole thing started off as punishment and ended up with your men making you cum the hardest you ever had. your juices started to mix with theirs, creamy rings forming around the base of both of their cocks. that pit in your stomach was getting bigger and bigger.

grunts, groans, and moans filling the air making you reach your release. “c-cumming p-please” you attempt to say.

“cum on us beautiful while we fill up ur holes”

“that’s right baby. your little pussy is so perfect”

“cum b-baby. c’mon” they say back and forth until all three at the same time make loud noises that fill up the room. everyone riding out their highs with each other.

finally everything’s calmed down. heavy breathing from the three of you fills the room as you all snap back to reality. you all are sprawled out on top of each other. cuddling and kissing each other until you all finally fall asleep from being tired. all because of that meeting at that damn café.

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royalwriteroftheuniverse · 1 year

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Baby gazing

Comments Welcome and reblogs welcome to not repost translate or publish anywhere 18+ just in case as always nothing but fluff chris being a dad if thts a warning

Part 2 here

I woke up suddenly. Not to a baby crying or a shrieking but rather me reaching out and finding a cold spot a very cold spot

"Chris?" I said softly maybe he was in the bathroom or I don't know. I sat up. Still confused. The ensuite was open slightly the light was on

"Chris?" I said into the opening I heard nothing opened the door fully and walked in. It was empty. So I turned the light off and closes the door. He would've heard me if he was in the walk in but if he was there instead of bed I'd murder him. Why I dont know. I blame hormones.

"Chris?" I hiss out the door. I didnt hear anything. And Sodger wasn't here because of the baby. The baby. Of course but the bed was very cold. I quietly walk to where the Nursery is, not too far from our room and the door is open and hes just standing there staring.

I wish I had my phone to take a few pictures. My phone. Ugh what am I in a bad horror movie I should always take my phone.

I walk up to him taking his hand

"Chris, honey what are you doing?"

"Watching her."

"She sleeping."

"I know she's so beautiful look at her so peaceful."

"She is isn’t she. And her hair. I think she has the cutest curls." I really wanted to play with them but now was not the time. If she woke up she'd want cuddles and to eat and my body heat or Chris for the rest of the night and mamas gotta sleep so does dada but his brain isn't receiving memos correctly

" I went to get water and I wanted to check on her."

"You got water from the bathroom."

He had turned and looked at me

"You left the light on. Not exactly the on the way back from the bathroom."

"I took a detor"

"I can tell," I wisper, "pretty far detour considering it's not in our room. Babe you have camera and monitors. Shes fine. Look I love her just like you but we need rest hon. Hes pouting and it's the cutest thing ever but its not making me change my mind and what let him stand here hours on end. Nope.

I get Chris to come back to bed and lay across his torso like dead weight because I know what will happen the ninute I fall a sleep and he chuckles.

"Is it so bad to want to watch my baby girl." He plays with my hair.

"I guess not but what if she does something so unbelievably cute or starts to climb and your miss it cause your tired?" I pout

"Or even more, trying to watch two of them you have less than nine months to figure it out." I smirk turning on my side

What?

"You heard me," I smirk. I play Chris like a fiddle. Hopefully he'll get some sleep, after all we're watching our friends baby for the weekend. But I have a feeling Chris won't figure it out for a bit. Hehehe

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nickblaine · 1 year

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season 4 script summaries

previous script summaries: season 3, season 2, season 1, seasons 1/2 cont’d also, check my tht scripts tag for gifs, excerpts, and more details

good news! there are no deleted Nick/Osblaine scenes in season 4. i’ll just be summarizing the subtext that is written into the script and comparing differences to the onscreen version.

before i begin:

• everything described here is from the official scripts that are archived at the Writers Guild in Los Angeles. • the scripts i read are final drafts. there is no “writing in the margins.” everything described here is from dialogue and script direction that was used on set during filming. (you can see an example of what these scripts look like in the 4x07/4x10 links below.) • the library has strict no copies/photos rules in place which is why i can only summarize what i read. • anything in italics is a direct quote for the sake of clarity. • feel free to ask questions and i’ll answer to the best of my ability. my private notes are pretty detailed, but if i need to do more research i may save the answer for a future library visit. • please do not share this post without my permission. thank you in advance for respecting my wishes.

4x01

In prison, Nick is very aware of the Guardian in the room and can’t speak openly because of it. He speaks in code to warn Lawrence that he’s going to be executed and thank him for helping June. This establishes a pattern of Commander Blaine using Gilead code to communicate, as seen in several future scenes.

4x02

When June sees Nick at the farm, she knows immediately that he is there to arrest her.

It’s implied that Nick asking where the Handmaids are is code to June so she knows they are okay. (This is confirmed in the next episode when he does it again.)

June spends a good minute considering shooting the Eyes in a blaze of glory and making this her last stand. Nick “jerks her attention away from the decision” by saying “don’t” and telling her that he’s trying to keep her alive.

The scene ends with June saying “fuck you” before the Eyes swarm her, but this line wasn’t in the final cut.

4x03

In the van, June is “stung by [Nick’s] betrayal.”

Nick can’t speak freely to June because he assumes there are eavesdroppers. He uses code to “pass along news” to her that Mrs. Keyes is safe and the Handmaids are still free. June finds this news a relief.

Nick asks where the Handmaids are and when June doesn’t give him an answer, he actually warns her in a low voice (uncoded) that she isn’t strong enough to take what the Eyes will dish out if she doesn’t turn them in. This wasn’t in the show.

When Nick quotes the bible to her - “June hears this for what it is -- an honest wish for the woman he loves.” But Lydia “breaks the connection.”

Moving onto the Nick and Lawrence scene... I want to be clear, Nick does not expect Hannah to be used against June. This is not present in the script at all. All he asks of Lawrence is to get June to talk before the Eyes kill her, with no expectation of how it’s done. He is only thinking of keeping her alive.

Also, throughout the Nick/Lawrence scene, Lawrence thinks about Eleanor a lot. “Some women just don’t want to be saved” was a direct reference to her. Lawrence compares Nick’s love for June to his love for Eleanor, and is struck by “the simplicity of [Nick’s] wish [to keep June alive.]” But he really believes Nick needs to just let her go, like he had to let go of Eleanor. This is why he refuses to help until Nick threatens him.

Speaking of, Nick’s veiled threats are what makes Lawrence decide to take him a little more seriously.

The scene where Hannah doesn’t recognize June was written to be much shorter than what we saw onscreen. Hannah was actually supposed to be muzzled, and just the sight of her crying through the muzzle is enough to shake June into giving up the Handmaids.

The meeting on the bridge was scripted a little differently than what we see onscreen. Lizzie's directing softened the scene quite a bit.

June is muzzled, and being transferred to the Birthmobile on foot when Nick joins her side, whispering apologies as he walks with her. She ignores him until he says Hannah is safe at home. June stops and starts breaking down crying. Nick reaches out and touches her shoulder, “letting his finger trace the skin of her neck.” June reacts by embracing him. The guards try to pull them apart, but Nick just gives them a look. “He’s a Commander,” so the guards stop and let her go. Nick removes her muzzle and she cries about Hannah being scared of her. There’s a line here that I love, I have to quote in full—

“NICK: She loves you.

June tries to believe this.

NICK: I love you.

This, June believes.”

June then realizes she may never see Nick again and kisses him goodbye. Very little script direction here, it’s simply described as “just one long moment.” Then the guards lead her away.

Also, it says in the script that Alma and Brianna are hit by the train because one of the Handmaids was shot and they both reached back to help her as she was falling, causing them to miss the opening before the train hit. Janine was just dissociating and humming songs to herself the whole time, not as upset as we see her onscreen.

4x04

I just want to note here that the script confirms Janine’s current age is 23. After she changes out of her Handmaid uniform, “she looks like the 23-year-old kid she is.”

4x05

June spends this whole episode irritated at Janine and Stephen’s relationship because she feels like she failed to protect Janine, which is part of a recurring theme of June feeling like a failure throughout this season. Janine has to remind June by the end of the episode that she doesn’t need saving, and June is only trying to do so to make herself feel better.

There is no scripted response to Lawrence’s “would your heart glow” line. So Nick’s laugh was entirely unscripted lol.

The script specifically refers to Lorraine and Reese (the Marthas) as Nick’s “black market contacts.” As we know from s1, Nick has always had a connection to Gilead’s black market.

When Lorraine goes off on Nick about June, she and Reese expect a scolding from him because it’s “a suicidal way for a Martha to talk to a member of the Eyes.” But Nick just apologizes on June’s behalf, surprising them both.

In the show Nick says “I care about her” but in the script it was: “She’s all I care about. In the world.”

The Marthas are “surprised by his vulnerability, but Lorraine stays icy.” Her scripted response was actually supposed to be: “Swipe left. You’re better off without her.”

Reese hangs back and offers help to Nick because, as she says to him, “I loved someone in Gilead once, too.”

In regards to the council meeting - if I’m understanding correctly (because the scripts are kind of vague and more focused on the soapy aspects of the political standoff in this episode) - Lawrence’s goal is to get sanctions lifted, but when the council turns him down he shifts his plan to get on the council himself so he can pursue his reformation goals unopposed. This is why he agreed to bombing the ceasefire that he proposed in the first place.

Not much is said about Nick’s reaction to ordering the bombing, besides the fact that it catches him off guard and he “looks shaken by his orders to bomb June.“

4x06

When Moira confronts June trying to abandon ship and tells her that Luke never gave up on her after all those years, there was a cut part of that line where Moira said: “[Luke’s] a good guy. And he handled it pretty well when you had a baby with another man.“

4x07

Click here to read the full script that is available to the public.

4x09

When Luke suggested they ask Nick for help with Hannah, there’s not too much script direction, but there are a few interesting lines. When she says Nick would do anything for her and Holly, Luke finds that “both hurtful and hopeful.”

June is floored that Luke “is encouraging a meeting with her former lover? It’s incredibly strange. And also enticing.” It also says she had “put her relationship with Nick behind her. Locked it away. Now Luke has opened the door again.”

When she agrees to meet with Nick, Luke is described as “pleased, yet uneasy.”

As June heads off to see Nick, she and Luke are both “on edge.”

There was actually a cut moment between them and Mark before she leaves. After Mark tells her his officers will be nearby, he gives her a panic button FOB to call them if she needs help. This makes Luke freak out a little. He tells June she’s not going unless it’s safe. She doesn’t like that and insists she can take care of herself. Mark explains that while he has used this location for meetings before, he “can’t vouch for the party involved” because - in Mark’s words - “[Nick] does have a history of violence and allegiance to Gilead.” But June shuts both men down with: “He’d never hurt me or Nichole. I vouch for him. Completely.”

Once June is in the car, she exhales. “There’s no facade to put on for Luke, now that she’s alone.” She looks back at Holly and says, “Okay, we’re off. Excited to see your Dad? Yeah?“ then she smiles at Holly and says “me too.”

When she finally sees Nick, “their eyes lock. They’re both tentative. Unsure. It’s amazing to be together again, yet it doesn’t feel real.”

Nick is described as “almost overcome, so happy and relieved to see June alive and healthy.”

When they move inside, Nick tries to help June with the stroller and he’s described as “awkward” lol.

As we see in the episode, June is moved by Nick’s folder of Hannah intel. After this, “her official mission has been accomplished. She can leave. She doesn’t want to.”

The kiss has very little direction, as usual it’s all Max and Lizzie’s chemistry that makes it so good. “They can’t resist. They kiss, with longing and passion.” Then they move apart “both knowing they shouldn’t go any further.”

Nick was supposed to hold Holly “with love and wonder” per the script, but they couldn’t because of Covid protocols. It does say Holly loves her doll, though.

Their goodbye was also much different in the script. June simply buckles Holly up in the car, tells Nick she can’t thank him enough, and “tries to keep it together.” Nick tells her “keep yourself safe, and be happy.” They share a final look before she gets in the car and leaves.

On the drive home, June is just described as “[getting] emotional, but keeps moving on.”

Nick is described as “stoic, but drained by the experience” before he puts his wedding ring on.

When June returns home, Luke is “relieved” that she returned to him. June collects herself and “she has so many more steps to take, but she’s trying her best to move forward.”

4x10

Click here to read the full script that is available to the public.

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bippot · 4 months

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Jake Martin thought here

He ironically quotes Fast and the furious movies “We’re family” line specifically but he doesn’t know it’s from tht movie

Ex.

Kevin: Great race today Jake!

Jake: Couldn’t do it without you guys, my family

Amir: isn’t that from Fast and the furious?

Jake: Fast and who now?

Summary: Jake has never watched the Fast and Furious films, so why can he quote them?

Additional Tags: Racing, Workplace, Fluff. Established Relationship, Comedy, Inspired by The Fast and the Furious

The Crew, Jake Martin Masterlist - here

As the end of the current Nascar season came to a close, the guys at Bobby Spencer Racing were elated. Jake had come 4th at the Phoenix Raceway, the final track that would decide how well he was going to do overall. Even Kev would have to admit now that he and Catherine had stopped wasting the team's time by fighting with each other at every chance they got, they were making some serious progress.

"5th! We got a top 5!" Kevin exclaimed, completely flabbergasted that they'd done so well. A year ago making the top 10 was a fuckin' pipe dream, but 5?

Getting a top 5, well, it was a god damned miracle.

Jake, as he always did, paid very little attention to all the cheering as he got out of the car and was zeroed in to find Y/N. She was around her somewhere, he knew that. His eyes scanned everything in his surroundings before landing on the woman he couldn't seem to stop thinking about, and who he was bounding towards with his arms open wide.

"You were so good, speed racer," she cooed, being engulfed in his arms. "I told you that you were going to ace it?" she continued once he leaned back to examine her face. He nodded distractedly, unable to tear his eyes away from hers or even gather the brainpower needed to form words.

He still needed to do press and interviews, and tell Chuck that he did a great job at making the car run, and complain to Kevin that he really should turn the microphone off if he was planning to eat a hot dog during the race, and ask someone to get him a bottle of water because his mouth felt like sandpaper, and did this mean that he was officially off Catherine's shit list? and how did Jessie do in her race?

Tenderly, she gave him a kiss on the cheek - just on the cheek for now - but it still made his knees go wobbly and caused butterflies to erupt in his stomach like it always did whenever she was sweet to him. "Go celebrate with your team, Jakey," she instructed gently, pulling back just a bit and nudging him towards the crowd of his coworkers - who'd become accustomed to Jake practically ignoring them whenever Y/N was around - so he'd begin to walk to where he was needed.

Whatever she'd heard about Jake Martin: The Womaniser had been forgotten about the moment she had met him. He was a flirt, yes, because it's nice to tell people what's on your mind. If he thought someone was pretty or cool or badass, his brain wouldn't be fast enough to stop his mouth saying the words out loud. At some point during his life, he realised that it was easier just to let the words flow and decided that it was better if he let his lack of filter live as it was. For anyone else that could've been a damning choice.

But, because Jake has sunshine coming out of his ass - Jessie often said that he was too stupid to have a mean bone in his body or be duplicitous in any way - it presented itself as Jake complimenting almost everyone he came across. He was one of those boys who appreciates a fine body regardless of the make. An old lady with dyed pink hair? He was telling her about how young he thought it made her look. Any guy that had an ounce of muscle, he was asking about his gym routine. Jake would always love to see kids with cartoon characters on their clothes and would make sure the little one knew that Nascar driver Jake Martin thought they were cool. And, for a while, the majority of people he came across in his life were pretty women that wanted to surround themselves with a pro athlete. Jake was more than happy to indulge them - he's just a man, after all - and that was how the man whoring rumours began to spread.

Yes, he was man whoring but he wasn't a player by any means. He was looking for temporary fun with a woman who was also looking for temporary fun, although it left him feeling a little hollow and used sometimes. Then along came Y/N. Temporary fun wasn't enough for him when Y/N arrived in his life. Not anymore.

At the time of meeting, Y/N had a boyfriend that wasn't Jake. She was a journalist who was commissioned to create the book 'The Trials and Tribulations of Catherine Spencer Racing - A New Age' (Catherine came up with the name) and had been hanging around the crew to get the inside scoop. The crew had their own Trent Crimm - The Independent, on their hands and was thrilled to have someone around to publicise their deeds. Obviously, once Jake heard that Y/N was off the market, he kept his flirting to a minimum. Yeah, he was bummed that the really hot chick who was nice to him at work couldn't be his, but hey, what are you going to do? Steal her away? No, no way! He knew the devastation that cheating can have - hell, he'd never forgive his father for exactly that reason - and Y/N didn't deserve that, even as an implication.

Three or so weeks into the job, they broke up. Jake couldn't say he was disappointed with that development. He waited an appropriate time - well, he waited twenty whole days and had planned to wait a whole month but he got far too impulsive one day - and just went for it. Originally, she said no. It's not professional to fuck one of the subjects of your story prior to the book the publication. That's a conflict of interest. And would seriously interfere with the integrity of her position. Once the book came out, however, that was a completely different story.

All she did was leave him a copy of her book - that was so fresh off the printers it may as well have been still warm - with a note that read 'Still up for that date?' and that was, what they call, history.

"Go, babe, you should go do your job," Y/N urged, barely hiding the smile on her face that came whenever he acted this dopey.

With another push, Y/N did manage to get Jake away from her. Only a little bit. Probably about two feet. He regained his balance and moved back towards her, smiling so goofily as his palms came up to her cheeks and his thumbs swiped against her cheekbone before he was kissing her like there was no tomorrow. She went to say something else but was silenced by another kiss. Then another, And another. Her arms wrapped around his shoulders, and her fingers tangled in his hair, curling her fist at the crown of his head.

Finally, she pulled back to rest her forehead against his, looking straight into his eyes as she whispered playfully, "Go before you get me in trouble."

"See you as soon as I'm done?" he asked hopefully. They both knew what the answer was going to be.

"Why don't you find out?" she suggested mischievously, enjoying the way he pouted for a fraction of a second before placing a gentle peck on the tip of her nose. Her face crinkled up in amusement and a giggle escaped her lips. She watched as Jake turned on the spot and jogged away in search of his coworkers, his hands stuffed in his pockets, and looked over his shoulder to give his girlfriend a wink just as he was going to turn the corner.

He did, in fact, find out that he would see her after all of his duties had been done. Kevin remarked that Jake seemed very excited - he's just got a really good race position so that was understandable but this was more than usual post driving hype that Jake felt - and had to tug him away by the sleeve so he didn't make a fool of himself aad say something wildly inappropriate on camera.

This shit was tiring! Driving and talking and being all professional takes a lot of energy, and by the time the couple were by each other's sides again, Jake was starting to feel sleepy. He managed to stay awake for an hour or so as the crew went out for celebratory drinks, but they called it quits as soon as his head slumped on Y/N's shoulder.

"You wanna go to bed, pretty baby?" she whispered softly to just him as everyone else around the table was engaged in their own conversations, stroking the soft curls that rested on the top of his head. This earned her a hum from him. "Okay, let's just say goodbye to Beth and Kevin and everyone, yeah?"

Sluggishly, he gave her a nod and allowed her to take the lead as they said their farewells to everyone. No matter how many pats on the back or loud congratulations he got, there was barely any energy left so all he could muster was a weak "Aw, yeah. Thanks, dude" and a floppy wave which everyone acknowledged with an understanding chuckle before letting the pair leave.

"You okay, hot wheels?" Y/N murmured as she led him through the crowd of people towards the exit of the bar, occasionally acknowledging people who were praising Jake for him so he didn't seem rude.

"I'm so tired, baby," he slurred.

"Our room isn't that far away."

She wasn't lying. Within 5 minutes, they were in their hotel's lift and Jake was pressing his nose in the crook of Y/N's neck to muffle the sound of constant yawning, his palm moving lazily along her forearm in a desperate attempt to not to fall asleep standing up. His eyelids started to flutter and close every few seconds; a deep sigh escaped from his lips as his head sank further into Y/N's shoulder.

"Just a few more steps, sweetie. Just a few more minutes and we're there," she reassured him quietly, running a hand gently down his chest and then wrapping her arm around his waist to pull him upright. The lift doors opened at the third floor and Y/N was dragging her boyfriend to their room.

Soon, it was comfortably quiet as Y/N helped Jake undress, chuckling at how soft he looked when he pouted and lifted his arms for her to take off his shirt. He flopped onto the bed as soon as he was in his underwear and waited until she crawled underneath the sheets and snuggled in to him like a cat, wrapping an arm around his waist and pulling him flush against her as she nestled her chin on his shoulder to watch whatever movie was available on the hotel tv/

Just before he drifted off, he repeated what he'd heard on the tv. "I don't have friends. I've got family," Jake mimicked, going so far as putting on a terrible Vin Diesel type voice that made Y/N laugh. She tried to keep the sound of her amusement to a minimum but couldn't help the shaking of her body.

The entire night was spent with Y/N stroking his hair as she watched a few of the Fast and Furious movies - she had no idea which ones and if she'd watched them in the right order - and soothed him whenever the sounds of the loud car chases started to wake him up. At some point, he even started repeating a few of the lines from the movie that he heard whenever he toed the line between awake and asleep. Parts of the script were subconsciously in his brain now, whether he knew it or not. He referenced it all the time. And he wouldn't find out that fact for a while.

Catherine had allowed him a few weeks off because the season was over and Jake spent as much of time glued to Y/N as possible. She'd begun to start doing her work on a Google Doc so she could use her phone instead of a clunky laptop just so her lap would be free for him to rest his head on.

"My new article is about that new Vin Diesel movie, you wanna come to the premiere with me, Jakey?"

"Yeah, love to."

"Thought you might," she said, leaning over to press a quick kiss to the end of his nose. "Apparently, Mr Diesel's head is supposed to be even shiner in person."

"Which one is Vin Diesel again?" he asked curiously.

There was a bunch of stuff that he said that left her bewildered - whenever he said something so wildly stupid, she was always left lovingly shocked that this doofus was somehow still alive and independent and functioning - but this was probably the most bewildered she'd ever been. Not only because Vin Diesel is a hugely popular actor that has been prevalent in pop culture for over two whole decades, but because he was in a franchise related to cars and racing, and Jake was all about that shit.

The Disney Cars franchise. Herbie. Speed Racer. Talladega Nights. Any Hot Wheels related stuff. That Dreamworks movie about the snail that's basically just Cars but with an anthropomorphic snail instead of a vehicle. Gran Turismo. Baby Driver. And the racing scene in the first Charlie's Angels movie (although she was sceptical if he liked that movie for the cars or how incredibly hot Drew Barrymore and Lucy Lu are). Each of these had a special place in Jake's heart.

"The Fast and Furious guy."

"Never seen it."

"Bald guy? Deep voice. He's always saying shit like 'Family...' and 'I live my life a quarter-mile at a time'."

Y/N blinked. Yet, it did make sense: if he saw those movies, he probably would talk about them every chance he got. No part of his face indicated that he had any idea what she was talking about.

"He's Groot in those Marvel films."

"Oh shit, I love Groot! Hell yeah! I didn't know that was a real guy!"

The most unflattering snort to ever snort came out of Y/N's nose as she laughed, trying desperately to stop herself before Jake thought she was laughing at him. She was. Although, she didn't mean it in a patronising 'haha, look at him, he's so stupid' kind of way, she adored Jake for being a himbo. Her eyes got all soft as she looked into his green eyes. He was smiling and watching her intently. "What's funny?" he asked shyly with a blush, rubbing his eye with the back of his hand.

"You. I love you."

His cheeks grew pinker, and Y/N swore she'd never seen anything so cute before. Yeah, he was ripped and classically handsome, but whenever he was all shy and bashful - something that rarely happened since confidence radiated out of him like a beacon - he looked positively angelic.

A small smirk crept its way across his lips. "So..." he began tentatively, his tone low yet suggestive, "You love me because I'm funny and I don't know this celebrity man?" That smile widened as Y/N rolled her eyes playfully.

"Yep."

"Good. Cause I love you too. Mostly for your boobs, though. They're nice to look at." He gave her an impish grin as he reached for the empty bowl on the coffee table. "And when you go get me another bowl of popcorn? My legs don't work anymore."

"Lazy boy," she teased, ruffling his hair as she did exactly as he asked.

When it was eventually time for Jake to get back to work, all of his coworkers were gathered for a meeting so Catherine could begin yapping on about what new sponsors she was trying to reach out to in front of what she assumed would be a captivated audience of her subordinates.

Kevin was rolling his eyes whenever her back was turned to him. Beth could see a reflection of herself in the back of Catherine's laptop and was trying to get one unruly curl back in its place. Chuck was busy eating a whole leg of BBQ chicken like he was King Henry VIII despite the fact it was 9.30 in the morning. Amir was trying to look as if he was paying attention but there was a bee buzzing around his head and he was allergic to their stings. Jessie and Jake were sitting down at the table and were poking and kicking each other at every chance they got. Nearing the end of Catherine's speech, Jessie managed to wobble the table enough to send Jake's water bottle flying off the table and directly at his dick.

"Oh my god," he groaned, clutching at his crotch and letting his forehead drop to the table. Everyone but Catherine had watched the collision and were all trying not to burst out in laughter.

"You okay, Jake?" Catherine asked. He regained his composure for a second before she added, "Did you want to say something?"

"Did I... Yeah, uh, yes I did," he said, surprising himself with the words coming out of his mouth. "I, uh, I wanted to say that... that it doesn’t matter whether we win by an inch or a mile, winning is winning and a top 5 was definitely a win. Let's do that again. Doing that again would be good."

They all looked at him with a sense of confusion for a minute. He'd strung together a fair competent inspirational sentiment. Weird. That had never happened before.

"We're family, you know? If we've got a problem, we deal with it together and... yeah, that's all a driver needs really."

Then, the penny dropped. "He's just saying lines from Fast and Furious!" Amir exclaimed, pointing an accusing finger at Jake like a drama queen.

"Oh, I didn't know that."

A groan went across the room because, in their minds, of course he would watch a movie like that. They would've bet so much money on the fact that he liked that franchise because duh. Fucking duh!

"You're telling me that you've never seen this very popular series of films that is literally car porn? I don't believe you," Kevin argued, raising an eyebrow sceptically at Jake who shrugged.

"I've never seen them!"

More and more arguments were raised between everyone. Jake had unexpectedly started a shit storm of his coworkers raising their many grievances with each other, and he hadn't really meant to. It was Jessie's favourite day ever - she's a messy bitch who lives for drama.

He got home that day and watched slumped down on the sofa, yelling out to Y/N who was somewhere in their apartment, "Babe, we're going to watch all the Fast and Furious' tonight."

Who would've guessed but he fucking loved em'.

#jake martin x reader #jake martin #the crew

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hwaitham · 1 month

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a little gift for coco (after seeing your love language tags):

. . . al haitham will not say this, not yet, but you realise it in his actions. slowly and doubtfully, but there’s just no other explanation. it must be it.

where your feelings are like the soft cushions, used to be unguarded, he now stands like an unbreakable shield of reason and peace — a stability much needed in your life.

whenever you stumble upon your own feet, he’s there with his arm, securing you from a clumsy fall. he pays no mind to it, doesn’t laugh at you, doesn’t comment on it . . . not anymore, not once you became someone so important to him. he secretly loves when you can rely on him.

“are you alright?” is all he asks, and your confirmation is all he needs. he would know immediately if there’s something else chewing on your mind.

his lips may be quiet or the source of rash comments to some . . . but the same lips press the subtlest kisses to your cheeks and your knuckles, promising that he’s with you and always will be.

whaaaaaat the heckles ! ! ! ! what is this ! ! ! . . gift for coco :C ? ? ! but ! whyyy :C :C ! ! ! i didnt do anything to warrant getting a gift . . . ໒꒰ ྀི ′̥̥̥ ᵔ ‵̥̥̥ ꒱ྀིა i just ! . . oh non - non . . beyond the contents of this drabble , it is the pure kindness of ur heart that makes mi tear up ! !

“ he now stands like an unbreakable shield of reason and peace — a stability much needed in your life. “ . . “ promising that he’s with you and always will be. “ these lines are so . . (⸝⸝o̴̶̷᷄ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝ ྀི) but u're right non - non ! i rllie do thimk when al haitham falls in love , he is in it w you for life . . . no do - overs , no going back on his word , he has thought through everything that needs to b thought through , all that's left is love . . . waaf if there is anyone u cn love without fear of abandonment , it is Him :<

im realising i havent properly thamked u for this gift ( you say it is a little gift . . i think it is a vrie big gift — as are any gifts tht come m way . . a gift so big that it fills the empty aching cavities in my heart :C ! ! makes me fall in love w him over n over again :C ! ! ) so . . . THANK YOUUU ! ! thanku thanku thamku a million times over thank you . . what da heckkkkk ! ! ! ! oh how i do wish u are forever safe n happie n laughing a lot . . just as the sweetest souls like yours deserve to be kept ♡♡ ! waaah thank you . . .

#im so sorry if i appeared pitiful in the love language post tags waaah i promise i rllie wasnt trying to be ! !#i jus T T waaaa . . . thamk u kind anonymous fwiend . . snifl . . . .#will you reveal urself to mi some day when u feel like it ?? :c #so i may know ur name ?? gift u a gift a thousand times greater ??? ♡#૮ ๑´ `๑ ྀིა ⌒ 𝓗𝓐𝓘𝓒𝓞 ⑅˚˖ ݁ ˓

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histriothing · 5 months

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um hi. ik there're a good handful of posts here tht are js ppl asking for help with symptoms they experience and whether it lines up w schizophrenia. weve been trying to figure out whether we have it or not lately. which ik strangers online cant exactly know for sure but i at least want to know whether we r on the right track.

we know for sure we experience psychosis (delusions, namely) and negative symptoms, esp avolition and asociality. others in the system thought we had szpd since they dont think we have [constant/intense] enough psychosis.

i dont rmember when we started experiencing psychosis. teen years i think. weve always been a bit paranoid. trauma didnt help w that lol. anyway. around a year n a half ago our delusions started to get a lot more noticeable and wed have to actively try to double book keep. talked to our psych about some of them and he gave us antipsychotics. we never took them. since we felt we could cope without them fine at the moment and we just didnt want to deal w potential side effects. we alr take so many pills it jst didnt seem worth it. we still have them in case it ever gets to a point where we think well need them tho.

where was i. u,m. right. we just dont know because we dont seem to have episodes the way ppl seem to describe them. we kind of have delusions that never rlly go away n just vary in intensity/noticeability at times. i lost it again. right. sometimes well have delusions that will pop in and never pop back up. or that go away and come back. most of the 'permanent' delusions tend to be identity/species based ones. i also get a lot in connection to parasites. i think i hallucinate more than the others too. at least. i have lots of times where it feels like bugs are crawling on/under/into my skin. ill also hear things. never anything big. if its voices then theyre never distinguishable. these hallucinations kinda come and go. i think. i dont remember. its hard to remember. i think thats all i can say for hallucinations. its difficult. to gauge. i dont know how im supposed to figure it out. i guess i could just talk to a medical professional. i stopped going to therapy early this year bcz it just felt like it wasnt helping. and i havent seen a psychiatrist since late last year. anyway.

i mentioned we have negative symptoms. theyre difficult to deal with. weve also been told we have flat affect. but idk how much that matters to mention here since our other disorders can cause relatively flat affect too. i dont remember the other negative symptoms. i know theres ones i didnt mention. but yea. i dont know if we have disorganized thinking. i dont think its common for us to experience it. but i know we do at times. i think one we tend to do is thought blocking. dont know about the others.

but if anyone has any, advice? i dont know if advice is the right word here. just. if anyone out there is able to lmk if these sound like they might be schizophrenia id appreciate it. or if we might just be psychotic in some other form. ik no one here can diagnose me. id just like some help. im just unsure whether we would have it bcz our symptoms seem really mild compared to what ive seen everyone say in these tags and such. thanks

#schizophrenia #schizo spectrum #schizospec #psychosis #schizoaffective #actually schizophrenic #actually schizospec #actually schizoaffective

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ask-jimmonday · 8 months

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pinned post!!

hello :) this is just a little askblog made for me to infodump about + draw blorbo from my brain over and over. i hope u enjoy <3

basic info:

his toyhouse page with The Lore (<- a little bit of a mess rn oops)

each ask will be answered in character with a little sketch ! if i stop answering for a while its likely due to burnout or wrist pain (or im just thinking a little too hard on How to answer lol)

i will not answer any explicit NSFW questions (small jokey stuff may come up though)

his backstory includes several triggering themes (listed at the start of his toyhouse page) that Will likely become relevant on this blog. they'll all be tagged per post and you're free to filter as you please

he's basically my Fandom Everyman if tht makes sense, he was made to be a background/npc type of character so i kinda just shove him into whatever fandom i like (main examples being psychonauts and bugsnax) you're welcome to ask him fandom-specific questions for the varying versions of him if you want :) or even just request different designs for him in whatever media u wanna see within reason lol i will absolutely ignore any nasty shit

not sure what else to put here. idk ill edit this as i need to go wild 🐟👍

owner of the blog / character is @snailcubezz btw hiii

#🐟 oocposting #psychonauts oc #bugsnax oc #jim monday #ask blog #oc ask blog #idk how else to tag this #tbh i don't expect this to really get anywhere #also i should add tht his toyhouse framing him as an exclusively PN oc is Outdated and i need to Fix That #ive just been sooo eepy lately

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thiswaycomessomethingwicked · 1 year

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If you're still doing the character opinion bingo - Eowyn?

I am *always* doing Character Opinion Bingo

Previously asked: Elrond, Gimli

Ok so.

I love Eowyn, obviously. I have eyes and a brain. Of course I love Eowyn.

However. My opinions on her story arc would be received by most of fandom as akin to hitting a wasps nest with a baseball bat due to:

a) my general dislike of Faramir. Guy can go suck an egg.

a pt II) my general dislike of fandom's tendency to jack off about how UWU Faramir is when he's just a bit of a wet blanket and a tit

b) my view that her ending is sad and sucks and she deserves better because

c) you can have healing and all that nice shit and still be a warrior and ride into battle and bop around on horseback annoying the living shit out of your brother who is now king by giving him 500 aneurisms

This is also why I only half-crossed out "I'm obsessed with their character arc" because I like it but also I'm mad about it because I wanted so much more for her and her ending. She becomes a fucking housewife in Gondor. This is Eowyn "so you're saying my role is in the house while men get glory then I can burn in it once the men don't need it anymore" daughter of Eomund, Shield-maiden of Rohan, child of the House of Eorl. She's not here for your cottagecore fantasies with wetblanket Faramir. (this includes you, too, tolkien)

A fandom thing that bugs me is that in the Eowyn tag I'm inevitably dumped into the part of fandom that has internalized western approach to information preservation and share Tolkien's belief that the Rohirrim, due to being an oral based culture, are somehow inferior to Gondor who are a writing based culture. I don't think they're conscious of this fact, but it's there and I dislike it. There's this occasional infantilization of Eowyn where people are like "oh it's so sweet Faramir will teach her how to read and write and all the nice CiViLiZeD things of Gondor and she'll idk I guess teach him something of her people's culture but only so they can write it down" and alksdjhgakghdkjlgdfgj

both are equal! both are equal!

also maybe rohan doesn't want to write down their stories! maybe they have reasons for that!

ok also, love that bit when Eowyn tells Aragorn "bitch if you say the word 'duty' to me I will not be held responsible for my actions".

'You are a stern lord and resolute,' she said; 'and thus do men win renown.' She paused. 'Lord,' she said, 'if you must go, then let me ride in your following. For I am weary of skulking in the hills, and wish to face peril and battle.'

'Your duty is with your people,' he [Aragorn] answered.

'Too often have I heard of duty,' she cried. 'But am I not of the House of Eorl, a shieldmaiden and not a dry-nurse? I have waited on faltering feet long enough. Since they falter no longer, it seems, may I not now spend my life as I will?'

'Few may do tht with honour,' he answered. 'But as for you, lady: did you not accept the charge to govern the people until their lord's return? If you had not been chosen, then some marshal or captain would have been set in the same place, and he could not ride away from his charge, were he weary of it or no.'

'Shall I always be chosen?' she said bitterly. 'Shall I always be left behind when the Riders depart, to mind the house while they win renown, and find food and beds when they return?'

'A time may come soon,' said he, 'when none will return. Then there will be need of valour without renown, for none shall remember the deeds that are done in the last defense of your homes. Yet the deeds will not be less valiant because they are unpraised.'

And she answered: 'All your words are but to say: you are a woman, and your part is in the house. But when the men have died in battle and honour, you have leave to be burned in the house, for the men will need it no more. But I am of the House of Eorl and not a serving-woman. I can ride and wield blade, and I do not fear either pain or death.'

'What do you fear, lady?' he asked.

'A cage,' she said. 'To stay behind bars, until use and old age accept them, and all chance of doing great deeds is gone beyond recall or desire.'

then they talk about the paths of the dead. There's no bit where he’s like “I don’t see a cage in your future” like in the move.

And aside from Aragorn's valid point of "you took this charge on you to rule Edoras in your uncle's sted you can't, exactly, just uh...abandon that" - I just love their entire exchange in this scene. It's so much more complicated and nuanced than what the movies show and also far more true to the world Tolkien was creating.

It also continues to highlight how Grima and Eowyn are foils for each other - aside from the subversion of gender norms (Eowyn is obvious in this, Grima's subversion is more subtle in the book), they both have strong desires and a sense of what they are owed and they go about getting it in ways that run contrary to their culture: oathbreaking.

Grima oathbroke when he took up with Saruman, obviously. Eowyn oathbroke when she left her post as Edoras' ruler and guardian - which she swore to the king she would maintain. They both did it to gain things they wanted. Eowyn just, you know, has morals and a spine. Grima has neither.

I just. Love Eowyn. And want more for her than was given in the books, or even in fandom.

I also love Dernhelm and wish we saw hell of a lot more of him. More screen and page time for Eowyn-Dernhelm and Dernhelm-Eowyn! We deserve it!

#I will say I'll ship Eowyn and Grima but only if they're both trans because Eowyn is a king - we all know this #and Grima is a wee bitch of a queen - this is also fact #eowyn is a king who just wants to be a marshal of the mark #Grima is a queen who wants to be king #it's all very messy and I love it #mess! mess! mess!#lotr #ask #reply #lord of the rings #ask meme #also I know I know I know people are going to be like: she saw so much in war all she wanted to do was heal people after #she was able to move past her anger and resentment and blah blah blah #boring #don't care #want more for her than to be the housewife who heals ppl because she's a lady and that's what ladies do

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sunnydice · 9 months

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i would love if you expanded on your vent post sometime because i don't quite understand what you're saying when equating experiencing racism with black and white discourse surrounding c!wilbur either being completely bad and completely good and how people react to that. but it genuinely seems like an important topic to speak on if you ever feel like fully doing so

OK first of all :] ilike how this ask is phrased thank you for bein so niceys abt it. i will do my best to convey this as well as i can imstill pretty frazzled but ido wanna talk about it 👍

specifically i am talking abt the ppl who absolve him of everything or declaw him constantly. like again i do think cwil is a good dude he Is one of my faves. he is just kinda tunnel vision and selfish and in that persuit has done a lotta not great stuff tht gets deliberately ignored or pushed aside, but also the ppl v obsessed w making him some evil malicious one note abuser are like. weird ableist assholes lmao it can be two (✌️) bad things. but im not talking abt Them rn my point is uhm. ok so

i think the way cwilbur uhh ccwilbur that whole bursona thing is has a coat of Whiteness that intersects with things yk? have you heard the term white fave. it's stuff like that. and it especially shines when you compare it to like..how many swaths of ppl treat cquackity in Relation to him, or how many sootbur or oc type body hcs will turn one half of a ship into like..a emotionless brown man accessory to whoever they decided is the dainty pale one. or how ccwil gets truthed so much as "blahblahblah" instead of supporting openly queer or neurodivergent or female creators because it needs to be in a digestible palatable way it needs to be in the vehicle of a guy they are already willing to consume. does that make sense

like look at this ->

in this example uhh,,,ok to use tntduo specifically, yes cquackity Is violent and promiscuous he Is mean and snippy and scowls that's all true and canonical. but you just have to be a little aware of how you interact with things and how it comes across, especially if it's used as a vehicle for a white character. like...if you flanderize quackity and change his motives so he's just an accessory who's whole world revolves around wilbur, if he's turned into an abuser that the ever gentle wonderful poor wifey wilbur is so gracious to continue tolerating, if he's turned into like a sexual object for wilbur to be bossed around by at the cost of like. things tht are literally canonically triggering and awful fr cq. yyr like. racist llmao. and these things are Common as hell they are very common i block and block tags and i still cant get away from it.

white characters and ccs being treated with a different brush that poc characters and ccs is just v v v common and awful and well it sucks out here 👍 i do feel like the way he is talked abt can be loaded with it

#huri.txt #discourse #anon #idk man i hope this makes sense #and again i LIKE CWILBUR CCWIL IS AN OK GUY YOU CAN SHIP WHATEVER YOU WANT FOREVER WHO CARES #i just dont think its unreasonable to be upset abt this stuff or wish ppl would be more aware and conscious of this kinda thing

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kirie-mitsuru · 1 year

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First of all, I love Luo Binghe with every fiber of my being and I just want him loved so thoroughly that he can't, not even for a second, doubt that he is loved.

Which is why I need to know if Shen Qingqiu is explicitly banned by the system to tell anything to LBH? I read through the novel twice, but I don't remember this being a thing. I am too emotionally damaged by how traumatized my pure LBH is by everything SQQ did to him and them not talking about everything that happened between them at all even until the very end. Unless they did and I missed it??

By things, I mean:

1. Why LBH has to go through the Abyss

2. Why SQQ assumes LBH is the cause of everything going wrong to SQQ during Jin Lan arc

3. Why SQQ keeps rejecting LBH presence even after knowing tht LBH loves him as a lover

4. Why LBH lost all trust in SQQ after the many lies and rejection LBH went through

5. Why SQQ restrains his affection even when they are already a couple

6. Why SQQ still lets the rest of the sect and the human realm people bad mouth LBH despite knowing how wrong they are abt LBH

(Warning: The rest is just my word vomit on my frustration over their nonexistent communication and why I feel they need it, so don't read the rest if it bothers you! Read the tags before you read the rest at least.)

I love BingQiu only because I can't see LBH truly happy w anyone else and I know tht SQQ actually loves all of LBH, the good and the bad, throughout the novel. It's just his denial and so called God's POV blinding him from seeing LBH as himself instead of what SQQ expects from LBH.

It happened, I get it. Teen angst (from both of them, SQQ is in his early 20ies too), realization, character growth and all that, but it does not change the fact that probs ard 90% of LBH trauma is caused by SQQ.

Like being put, going through, and surviving this universe ver of Hell (which I think Shang QingHua glazed through w convenient time skip in PIDW?) because of and for SQQ. Watching the love of his life die in his arms for him and because of him (even though LBH is equally clueless on what even happened during Jinlan arc until he tortures the truth out of the Old Palace master)(and multiple times too). Believing that he is being hated and feared by the love of his life because of his genetics or gender, which he have 0 say on and painful coz no one else seems to care about gender for couples in the novel besides SQQ so how else would LBH translate tht as nothing but an excuse for SQQ to reject him.

Oh, of course, not forgetting Xin Mo, the mind corrupting OP sword that constantly tries to take control of LBH's mind, which SQQ was looking forward to for LBH to acquire to be OP despite knowing what it does to its user.

(Personally, the scene where LBH secretly watch SQQ, who just ordered him to go away, laugh and say nothing as everyone bad mouth LBH before agreeing to stay for these people after treating LBH like a shameful secret that he don't want anyone to know was the most painful betrayal SQQ had done. Because, at this point, SQQ knows LBH loves him and has been pursing him all these time instead of wishing SQQ harm, yet he never even try to clarify this to his sect siblings, laughing instead when they insult LBH. This scene hurts me so much because how can SQQ eff up so quickly after acknowledging that he had broke LBH's heart so so many times into thousands of pieces just a few minutes before. Does the realization mean nothing at all to SQQ? I hate SQQ a little bit here even tho I know he didn't mean anything and is just too lazy too correct these many ppl and hates confrontation. At least he knew he eff-ed up when he knew LBH was listening)

I get why SQQ does the thing he did which he does w the underlying intention of 'helping' LBH get all the good things he deserve (nevermind that SQQ's definition of best is never what LBH wants for himself) (a painfully perfect example of the path to hell is paved with good intentions), but LBH doesn't know and he deserve to know if only to help him overcome or minimize his trauma.

I'm also sad that the main reason SQQ misunderstood LBH so much and expects the worst out of LBH is not even because of what LBH did. It's mainly the result of him reading abt Luo Bingge, punishment from the system, and his own cowardice to stop denying the truth. The only part LBH eff up is the blood parasite torture in the water jail thing, his blackening to the point 'lets end the world so there is only me and shizun' (which technically is due to the myriad of trauma caused by SQQ) and the last dub con scene which technically is orchestrated by the system due to SQQ's choice... why don't SQQ even expect it tho, all of his choices via the system prompts always led to him seducing LBH or in compromising situation w LBH and its the deluxe scene smtg...

... Yet the ending is just SQQ declaring he will always go wherever LBH go from now on (which he broke soon after coz LBH has to go to the demon realm and SQQ stays in the sect in the extras, which led to Luo Bingge showing up). Also, the extra just shows LBH acting pitiful to get affection and attention from SQQ (which is sad that he needs to be like this to get affection from SQQ, especially when internally SQQ 100% wants to pamper and love LBH already), their abrupt and private marriage.

Please, if I miss any scene they actually talk about their issues, do enlighten me.

(If there is any fanfic of them actually communicating w SQQ acknowledging his mistakes outloud and comforting LBH, or of SQQ 100% spoiling LBH, or going balistic when LBH is hurt, or dead LBH -especially considering tht his halo means near 100% his death caused by some form of suicide- which leaves crazy SQQ suffering and regreting everything he did to LBH, tell me too! I may or may not love yandere-for-LBH SQQ hehe. .)

#bingqiu #character study #scum villian self saving system #scum villain #luo binghe #I am Luo Binghe biased sorry not sorry #i am dumping my depression caused by loving Luo Binghe too much #word vomit #fanfic rec needed #svsss #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #lbh #sqq #svsss fic prompt #fic prompt #i am just traumatized by how SQQ good intention ruins LBH's life #even his self sacrifice is just another way to torture LBH

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