#i really don't know what this is

[hairmetal666]

He hates Steve Harrington, everything about him. His stupid, upbeat pop music. His tall fucking hair. His annoyingly bright clothes. His bullshit German luxury car.

Eddie hates that Steve's a good guy. Hates that he carried Eddie's broken and dying body out of hell. Hates that the kids love him how they do. Hates that he and Robin Buckley are the kind of best friends who might as well be siblings. Hates the way that Jonathan is back and Nancy is happy, and Steve has no resentment about any of it. Hates that he'll never, for as long as he lives, forget about six kids and a Winnebago.

And he hates, more than anything of all, the way he's always finding himself in Steve's bed. The way he falls apart when Steve is deep inside, the way he begs for more, pleads for Steve to wreck him. The way Steve treats him so good that it makes him sob.

Eddie hates himself for not being able to stop. For wanting Steve so much that sometimes he feels it as a visceral ache in the back of his molars. He hates himself for how little fight his dumb traitor heart puts into not being astronomically down bad in love with the guy immediately.

And none of this is supposed to flow from his brain to his tongue to out of his mouth, but Steve fucks him so good and slow--gives him the most mind-blowing orgasm of his life--that it all just slips out of the safe confines of his mind.

"I fucking hate you," he says. Or pants, more like, he's all flushed and sweaty and covered in come, not yet settled back to himself.

"W-what?" Steve stutters. He's standing at the edge of the bed, damp towel clenched in his fist.

True, full consciousness strikes then and he doesn't know what else to say. Steve's big eyes are wide and sad, and Eddie's brain is screaming at him to fix it, and isn't that just another thing that he hates?

"Steve. Like. Fucking look at yourself, man." He waves his hand up Harrington's perfect body. "You're the most beautiful fucking thing in the universe. And you--you embody like every fucking thing I'm supposed to hate with your money and your athletic ability, and your whole goddamn clean-cut All-American boy next door bullshit. And I--I keep ending up here when everything in me says to run away, that this--you--are too good to be fucking true."

And Steve, he's pinching the bridge of his nose, looking more than anything like he's trying not to burst into tears and this--this cannot be borne.

"I love you so fucking much." His voice cracks and he reaches out to circle his fingers around Steve's wrist, the one holding the towel. "I love you so much and I don't deserve even a second of it. Not a minute. Because you're Steve Harrington, you're--"

Steve presses his hand (he hates the the wide palms and long fingers, how they're perfect, how they hold him and comfort him and wring out pleasure again and again like it's nothing, like Steve's hands were made for making Eddie come) over Eddie's mouth. "Shut-up, Munson," he says.

"I fucking hate you too." There's ease in the way he says it, a lightness in his eyes. "I hate that you don't use conditioner. I hate that your van makes that turkey gobble sound every time you turn a corner, and you refuse to let me look at it. I hate how loud you play your music, how it makes my fucking skin shake. I hate when you forget to take the damn chains off your jeans when you put them in the wash."

Steve climbs into bed, straddling him, towel long forgotten. "You know what else I fucking hate, Eddie?" He leans down, ghosting his lips against the tip of Eddie's nose, skimming his mouth. "I hate that I've never loved anyone like I love you. I hate that I almost fucking lost you. I hate that we can't spend every minute in this goddamn bed, so I can memorize every inch of your skin, every sound you make, every single way I tear you apart, and all of the things that put you back together. I love you, Ed. Every fucking terrible part."

#steddie #steve x eddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #ficlet #angst #but not really though? #hate sex #but only kind of? #idiots in love #smut #i really don't know what this is #it just kind of happened #i thought of Eddie listing things he hated about Steve and it all poured out #this is very i hate the way i don't hate you not even close not even a little bit not even at all #it wasn't an intentional 10 things homage

[jjkspinterest]

I keep seeing people talk about Yuuji time traveling to the Heian Era and couldn't stop thinking about it, so have whatever this is

Yuuji, who's been repeatedly traumatized by and absolutely hates Sukuna, unknowingly time traveling to the Heian Era and immediately sees Sukuna, so he goes and harasses Sukuna thinking he's at fault for whatever's happening

Sukuna, suddenly being harassed by a random child littered with scars and wearing the weirdest clothing he's ever seen, very confused... and intrigued: *staring very hard at Yuuji* ...interesting

Yuuji, stopping short because he's only ever been called boring or annoying by Sukuna: Huh!?

(And then they live happily ever after)

#sukuita #itadori yuuji #sukuna #ryomen sukuna #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #I really don't know what this is

[shyestofhearts]

Jason: Damian, are you okay?

Damian, pausing his computer game and turning around: What?

Jason: There's a knife in your shoulder

Damian: Yea. It was a gift, so just leave it

#shitpost #i really don't know what this is #it just came to me in my sleep deprived state #damian wayne #jason todd #dc comics #batfam #batfamily

[weewoobrainrot]

every morning rooster tries to cook hangman breakfast. rooster isn't exactly the best cook and his cooking is hit or miss. most of the time the scrambled eggs don't work out, he ends up burning them, but he tries every morning nonetheless. when this happens, however, he doesn't tell hangman that he cooks and hangman thinks rooster only cooks every now and then. hangman doesn't know that he tries every morning until he gets up earlier than usual one morning and sees rooster throwing out the burnt eggs, mumbling something to himself while grabbing bread to make some toast. he gets up the next day to see bradley failing again. he gets it on the third day, but burns them again on the fourth. hangman doesn't have the heart to tell him he knows, so he just rooster continue, because the smile on his face when he doesn't burn the eggs is one of his favourite things in the world

#i really don't know what this is #like #idek if it makes sense #but it exists now #top gun #top gun maverick #bradley rooster bradshaw #jake hangman seresin #hangster #sereshaw #hangman x rooster

[why-are-all-the-users-taken]

random oneshot abt someone seeing Jason's last name :p

"ID? " the cashier asked, as she slid the bottle of wine across the scanner (wtf is it called).

Jason silently cursed the others for making him buy the wine, of all things.

None the less, Jason slid his ID across the desk.

"Jason grace?" She asked.

"Yes,thats me ma'am."

"Any chance you're related to the late actress Berly(is that how u spell it?) Grace? She was a fine woman."

Jason forced himself not to freeze at the mention of his mother. Instead he calmly said, "Her son's name was Jackson Grace,and he died at the age of three. "

The cashier nodded slowly and Jason really wished he could get out of the small shop.

"Well uh my friends are waiting out side, so..." He said, well more like asked.

"Oh!" She exclaimed."of course!"

Jason put enough money to pay for the drink on the desk before mumbling a quick, "thank you. " and grabbing his ID and the wine.

#I really don't know what this is #Jason grace #Gonna do another oneshot abt him after this :D #Hoo

[krekee]

If ur doing requests, can I have a drawing of Lin with a tall masc gf oc?

Have no idea how to make ocs but here you go! (Also had to google what 'oc' means bc english isn't my first language 🫢)

My only guess she prob works in united forces so they met somewhere at work. Anything else? If only i knew...

P.s. let me know if you wanted something specific bc im still not sure how i feel about this 😭

#lin beifong #oc #legend of korra #i really don't know what this is #pls #wait #only now realizing that i just made bumi in woman form #damn #ask

[spikybanana]

@wolfstarmicrofic - prompt: gunpowder - tw: unhealthy relationship. vaguely. can be considered both canon and part of the figure skaters au

Sirius had this way of staring at Remus. Gazing with a look so intense Remus used to think Sirius might have been gearing up to punch him in the face. Sure, he had no reason to, but why’d he look at Remus like that?

That was before Sirius kissed him. 

At which point, something in him unstoppered and Remus dived headfirst down the hundred-feet waterfall. He was soaring, breathless, he’d never known anything like it all his life.

But only too late did he realise the brake was going to hurt. He should have known better than to fall, really, given what he was, who he was. He should have listened to the crown jewel of a cycle of insecurity and cowardice, and stayed away. He should have learnt to tell the difference between the look before a fist or a kiss, then he wouldn’t be caught in this constant torture of guessing, second guessing Sirius’ every move, every intention. So really, the shallow pool at the foot of the waterfall was entirely his own. Who else was there to blame?

And when disaster struck, Remus wished he believed there was more to blame Sirius for. But even though Sirius had been the one to light the match, he’d been the weapon of destruction. He’d been the gunpowder.

#my writing #wolfstar microfic #wolfstar #microfic #tw: unhealthy relationship #remus lupin #sirius black #the prank #figure skaters au #I really don't know what this is #in my defence I wrote this on no sleep #i hope this made sense #let me know #or not up to you obviously #okay i might look through this when I'm more conscious #sorry r.e. irresponsible posting?

[koma-time]

Johnny Don't Leave Me + Lawrusso

The LaRusso's are a well-known mafia family, and Johnny Lawrence just broke Daniel LaRusso's heart.

#this is crack #very much not taken seriously #i really don't know what this is #i heard the song and was like dark!daniel au!! #and then i couldn't think about anything past that #also #i couldn't for the life of me find a good HD version of that music video ralph was in #but all the clips of billy in 'how i met your mother' were in 4 freaking k #so if you noticed the very obvious quality difference in their clips #no you didn't #please #daniel larusso #johnny lawrence #lawrusso #dark!au #t.edit

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Expertise can't help you here.

#dungeon meshi #kabru #laios touden #falin touden #Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have! #I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play. #I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks. #Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere. #Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios. #The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*. #This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those. #Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human. #Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her. #She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist. #The damsel was the dragon all along! #...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.

[shopcat]

the baby has one parent's little face marking thing and the other's coat because they're a little horse family the world is a beautiful place

#☆ #might become really obsessed with horses i'm not sure yet #maybe specifically mustangs and other feral horses... They intrigue me deeply #update i've been informed the thing is called a blaze but i just described it instead in the alt text bc i think clarity matters more than #erm. specificity?? #also sorry if i don't know what colour the horses are. someone tell me if u like i like this stuff #🐯 #domestic horse (equus ferus caballus) #equid #juvenile #top

[herd-reject-arts]

So I'm leaving work and something darts in front of me, maybe 10ft away, too fast for me to see what it is. Peek around the tree blocking my path and I see this

Just like... a whole ass hawk. Dude's gotta be about 1.5ft tall. Massive fucking bird. And it's just staring me straight in my soul like this, even as I try to move ahead. It didn't budge. And there's only this path back to my car unless I want to walk on a busy highway. So I have the option of Death By Raptor or Death By Truck.

So I walk in the poison ivy filled patch off the sidewalk. Guy still isn't moving. Still staring me directly in the eyes. And I do this thing when animals are behaving strangely where I'll talk to them, so I'm just like, "Hey, man. I don't know you. You don't know me. This feels really threatening. I'm just trying to get to my car, dude. Can I get some space please? You're a big fucking bird. I see those claws. You could kill me right now, but I'd appreciate if you didn't, ok?"

It didn't move until I was about 2ft away. Again: I'm as far from it as I can be without walking into the street. It clearly wasn't going to budge. I walk past, thing flies up (silent, btw. Scary) and lands on a brick wall a little further ahead

Anyway. Weird guy. Nearly shit my pants when I noticed a bird big enough to carry off a fully grown cat was just... there, staring me in the face, unwilling to move away from me, a human, something it should see as a threat. I watched behind me the whole rest of the way to my car, just in case this bird decided to help me shed this mortal coil. 10/10 experience. Super cool guy.

#not vc sorry #bird #birds #aves #raptor #hawk #red shouldered hawk #i think. might be wrong on that id #accipitriformes #birds of prey #honestly a really cool guy so close up #I'm happy i wasn't attacked. i would not want to fight a guy that big. #talons on this bird were huge. big scary. #I've never heard of large predatory birds just landing in front of people like that so i don't know what gives #it didn't catch any food or anything. just landed near me then stared me down. #I don't know a lot about bird behavior so i tried to not look back at it but still. #it also didn't look injured. seemed like a healthy bird #if anyone has any idea why this thing would act the way it did I'd love to know

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

#mental health #mental health support #positivity #if anybody has ideas of their own definitely include them! #i just think being stuck with this feeling that you don't have autonomy and that you ultimately aren't an equal person or a person at all.. #...in comparison to other people can be a really troubling and dangerous place to be in... #...and that isn't the person's fault for feeling that way. they didn't pluck those thoughts out of thin air... #...like i have felt that exact way all my LIFE because i have been abused for. probably 2/3s of my life... #...only within these past few years have i even FELT alive. frankly it's going to take a while to repair what i have been left with... #...so i know the feeling and i want to help others feel even a LITTLE bit alive. you deserve it... #...you deserve to take in a deep breath before slowly realizing 'oh my gd this is what it feels like to be alive' and SMILE about it #i want that for you even if it is brief. even if it is small. even if it is a whisper. i want you to feel alive #unironically getting rid of the idea of 'guilty pleasures' has made my life SO much better

[coolerdracula]

saying “visual style" because, for example, if you would swap your current wardrobe for an identical, ethically made counterpart, there would be no visible change

#bearer of the curse #polls #I said a lot bc I don't wear a lot of what I enjoy due to sensory stuff and also like ... ethical considerations #btw I made this post bc I really don't like how some people think that people 'dress boring' simply bc theyre boring #like. fashion is not as accessible as it should be! to most people! #so i wanted to see how people felt #also fat people I love you I know a massive part of this inaccessibility is fatphobia in the fashion industry

[arabian-batboy]

Don’t play with me now, this better be for real-

#they FINALLY made the right choice #logic wins #although I really hope this isn't him here #and its just a random guy from the Earth Kingdom #because I'm not feeling this design #he looks like a background character in that Metal clan #Zaofu? #or one of Kuvira's goons #but I'm willing to overlook it as long as they don't make him a basic stereotypical Earth-bending Muscle-head #if you watched the show you would know what I'm talking about #Avatar #LOK #ATLA

[egophiliac]

was gonna wait 'til I'd done all the poms, but it's been a day, so have Vil with a Salazzle 🍎

#art #twisted wonderland #poketwst #what are they plotting? you don't want to know. #sigh. once again the whole 'i don't wanna do more than two each' thing is coming back to bite me. #salazzle was the immediate obvious one and then there were like two or three others i was really torn between #(milotic is the other obvious-seeming choice but there were others i felt fit more in different ways and...yeah) #then i remembered i don't actually have to draw more than one pokemon so here we are #with the ✨QUEENS✨ #(me drawing salazzle's weird little feethands: heheheheh)

[akantorrr]

#wow akans is back to drawing ultrakill stuff? impossible! #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #gabv1el #digital art #v1 #akans art #I actually really really really love how this one turned out #starting off 2024 with a banger (at least for me) #absolutely inspired by that other coahuilaceratops piece I did the other day- on my alt #tarot card or church stained glass; I don't know what this is but it's becoming my comfort art style #drawing/doodling like this is therapeutic for me istg xD just straight lines and circles and dots :>