#i just want to be alone forever

[bwbawa]

why is it so mentally draining to have social relationships

#i just want to be alone forever #with my kitties and close family #even if they are tiring too #undiagnosed autism #self diagnosed autism #am i autistic? #social isolation

[moonshadow-thoughts]

Do you ever feel like you miss out on life, because you are not able to socialize the way most people do?

#I just want a relationship #and friends #and have people to share my life with #lonely #alone #introverted #my thoughts #thoughts #introvert #autistic #autism #actually autistic #lgbtq #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #forever alone #missing out #missing out on life #life #isolated #no friends

[heartorbit]

so when's the wxs phantom of the opera set

#project sekai #pjsk #prsk #emu otori #tsukasa tenma #nene kusanagi #rui kamishiro #ruis hair continues to piss me off forever. and ever #Yes i stole their phantom outfits from the revue gacha game. Whos gonna stop me. I WAS SO MAD THAT PHANTOM NANA IS AN OBSOLETE CARD OK #the discerning revsta + pjsekai fan can see i gave emu nanas outfit and rui michirus. Becaude i am crazy. Edel de/light was crazy. #polysho #proseka #why are there so many fuckfign tags. Why so tagging. -the tumbler #Ok sorry #Watch me go insane. Phantom is such a fucking rui role inknow ok i know i know. thats why i gave it to him. but also. I have emu disease #INSTEAD OF THE BRAINTHEREIS EMUUUUUU!!!!!! #Trying to figure out if i should render these and how sucked. cause the first one was drawn on paper and scanned . i shoildve just left itA #Its ifne idekc. I did another emu phantom drawing but i dont feel like posting it alone so ill have to draw more of this. bye #i dont even like the phantom. and i want to kill andrew llyoyid webber with a hammer. And so should you

[linkvcr]

doodles of martyr by @gemglyph while i was rereading it for the billionth time

#oh martyr... [blows up forever and ever and ever] #linked universe #lu sky #lu martyr #my art #man. this damn FIC #AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH #one of those things where you simply cannot stop thinking abt it #is anyone else insane. hello. [< alone in an empty room] HELLO #i just want him to be okay 😭😭😭 i love him so bad

[ryllen]

x

#HH i WAS just THINKING of drawing yuu visiting his place with a dress after attending the college event with everyone with usual suit get up #and maybe just did a little dance together and have him laughs at the fact she is dressed but actually barefoot; but then ... BUT THEN H #twisted wonderland #twst #sebek zigvolt #twst yuu #twst mc #fanart #i was thinking maybe this is set up by lilia again #but then i want trey senpai sincere *but goofy* compliment on the dress; maybe he helped to pick the dress #anyway that dress is so delicate and beautiful #that website has a lot of good green dresses #he actually suited up tidy just some while ago but he started dismantling himself when he got to be alone out of sadness & frustration #because of what he heard #maybe it was even an official announcement #details detai ls #one can only call her yumimi in several occasions -- or maybe forever if u get to that point of relationship with her #she prefer to be only known as yuu because she thinks the mimi in her name is too cutesy for her #i said this on tags on another post already but just for new people who are looking if u are reading this right now hello #i just wanted to draw yumimi in beautiful dress that was all #it's funny if i just imagine jade elbowing on trey and delivering better compliment for yumimi because jade knows the situation needs it #does it look more like cabbage roll #eeh

[cherrytraveller]

WIP: gonna do a Good Future line up, starting with their 20s and then aiming the peepawification beam at them.

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#rottmnt #rottmnt raph #future raph #tmnt #hamato raphael #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #travellerdraws #clip studio paint #digital sketch #fanart #already sketched the twins poses but i REALLY wanted to start with raph first #finally mikey isnt all alone anymore #also i promise mikey is now average human sized even if he looks tiny next to raph #bc raph is just obnoxiously huge #mini godzilla raph you will forever be my champion

[forestgreenlesbian]

youre not allowed to b a freak loser loner anymore or at least youre not allowed to mention it lol. even like five years ago you could talk about being awkward and socially weird around meeting new people but now if you do that eveeryones like "ok edgelord you are deliberately cutting yourself off from community why are you so obsessed with being alone. you all need to go outside and make real friends you are too online." which like yes obviously but why is eveyrone acting like the only two options are you either a) have a load of friends or b) you don't want them??? it is so weird. to be seen trying & failing has become so taboo that people assume if you're alone it's because you want to be and youre trying to be cool & aloof or else you see things like small talk or reaching out to people as "emotional labour" and choose not to do them. like i am not fucking choosing not to do them i literally try to do them every day and find it very hard and then you tell me i can't even joke about that struggle or being a lonely friendless loser to maybe for one second make light of the bottomless pit of disconnect + loneliness i experience every day without someone blaming me for not putting myself out there. idk

#as i'm typing this i'mrealising maybe this is an autism problem. like to feel completely separated from the social world by this pane of #thick glass your whole life and then to hear people say it's a you problem that you need to fix if you don't want to be alone forever #idk just that post going around about small talk 'i have social anxiety' 'then suck it up and learn how to interact with people!' like?? #arent we trying to do that already??? i'm sorry that being percieved as a social reject freak my whole life might have negatively affected #my ability to reach out to people? it just feels mean spirited lol. idk. anyway

[chase-ing-shadows]

AU where Atreus gets stuck as a bear and him and Sindri have to go on a brother bear style adventure to make him human again.

also open to the idea that this happens after Ragnarok and this is the story of how Atreus and Sindri reconnect

#god of war sindri #sindri #god of war atreus #god of war #god of war ragnarok #i like the idea that this happens after Ragnarok alot #sindri is so consumed by grief and wants everyone to leave him the hell alone but this godamn bear keeps following him #and of course the godamn bear is actually Atreus #Hasn't he done enough already?? #but he so clearly needs help and Sindri can't fight off a bear that just refuses to let up #they make a deal that if he helps atreus become human again then he will leave him alone forever #obvs they end up making a fantastic tag team #freya tells them they have to travel to a high mountain and preform a spell in order to change him back #one adventure and some begrudging bonding/healing later and they get to the mountain #wacky bear shenanigans included #the spell docent work though #because Atreus is stuck this way because of his guilt #the spell only breaks when Sindri tells him that he's got to let go of his guilt #he finally listens to his brother's last words #godamnit i wish i could write coz this could be such a cool fanfic

[mozzaremi]

[essycogany]

Fun question for Sonamy Fans!

Why do you personally ship, like, or appreciate Sonamy? What got you into Sonamy? What’s your favorite moment between the two?

I’ll start.

One reason I ship them is because of how subtle they are about their platonic romance. I also think pink and blue looks nice together in general.

A bunch of amazing fan art, comic dubs, and fan animations got me into the ship. But once I started seeing the signs myself in official art, shows, games, etc it was ALL over for me.

I have too many moments I LOVE between the hedgies, but I will say this one moment from IDW had me squealing.

IT’S JUST SO ADORABLE!!! 💖💙 😭

If you’d like to read more here’s my overall thoughts about them as a whole.

Love to see what you have to say!

#sonic the hedgehog #amy rose #sonamy #sonic prime #sonic boom #sonic idw #they’re so cute #I just love these two together and wanna make sure I’m not alone in this lol #SONAMY FOREVER #The more this ship is recognized in offical media the more I appreciate it. #maybe I used this as an excuse to show off this panel but the artist did a great job and I wanted it to be appreciated #fun questions

[necessarymeanstoanend]

this was actually so fun to draw

inspired by @ourownbelovedbohemians

here he is in the white void of doom because i actually prefer how it looks this way.

#i told myself ‘just a quick three hour doodle- nothing too serious. it is just a meme after all’ #16 hours later (and 30min… i wish i was joking) #i wish i could say it was the background that took forever but that only took like…7hrs??? i think. anyway the sketch alone took me 3 #i wanted to make sure i got the pose right #i’ll probably end up drawing him as a silly little templar again just bc it’s too perfect #like minds #murderous intent #nigel colbie #fanart #drawing #like minds 2006 #murderous intent movie #nigel colbie fanart #like minds fanart #art #digital art #tom sturridge #the sandman

[camembri]

every time I see people talking about post-canon one piece and about how the strawhats all go their separate ways it makes me want to start climbing walls and gnawing on the plaster!!!! what do you Mean the found family is going to split up... what do you mean they don't sail together forever... how else are they supposed to satisfy that itch under their skin... who else is meant to understand them... who else has seen their most agonizing moments and their best victories...

#to me they sail together forever okay #they go on a tour to visit everyone and kaya comes to apprentice under chopper #they're known to kidnap former friends and take them on adventures #the world is so big i refuse to believe that its only gonna take a year or so to travel by boat #maybe Sanji finds the all blue and stays there for a year and comes back #nami wants to map the whole world right. they've only gone to like twenty islands thus far #i can totally see robin staying on to travel for her archaeology #franky will follow his ship (and robin) #cant really picture brook leaving either after being alone for so long #obviously zoro isn't really location sensitive #i just think they all have this restless itch under their skin for the next several decades that only adventure can scratch #one piece #one piece nami #cat burglar nami #vinsmoke sanji #black leg sanji #roronoa zoro #usopp #franky one piece #nico robin #tony tony chopper #straw hat pirates #monkey d. luffy #brook one piece

[yashley]

"She's so charmin', y'know! She's just so--"

#critical role #imogearne #imogen x fearne #ygifs #IMOGEN GETTIN LOST FOR A SECOND IN FEARNE'S GAYZE AND SHE STARTS STAMMERING Iiiiiiii #fearne making imogen blush but imogen JUMPS on the FIRST distraction from that is SOOO good 2 me it's like ooook #she literally literally immediately is like ANYWAY and it's SO good y'all just had a moment and you literally are like UH SO WHATD YOU SAY #I just want to chew on it I just want to study it I just want to take out a mortgage with it and really have holiday card memories with it #you have a 6ft faun you keep reminding everyone is hot leaning towards you teasing you to choose between her and you what - don't lose it?ok #being able to fluster even stressed out imogen like that power trip alone I hope she starts to chase that feeling #the FOREVER GONDOLA RIDES is what I'll title the fic of fearne constantly flirting with imogen just to try to fluster her #and imogen's just like I don't think I should be alone with fearne and everyone's like all right makes sense #and she’s beetred cos she wanted them to ASK WHY so she could try to have a dialogue about Thinking? Fearne is Flirting #but she's like that with everyone!!!!! and they all are like yeah that's true and imogen just is like . of course ! ! ! and they squint #like you knew this why do you seem disappointed all of a sudden and imogen vax-es out of the room #it's NOT that she LIKES her LIKE THAT it's NOTHIN I'm watching it cos it's like this is happening while also not happening pretty gay

[zeb-z]

Cellbit who holds his shit together, pieces together the clues, and solves the issue while walking on a tightrope, where if he cannot correct for the mistakes made, the fallout would be catastrophic. He cannot fail to solve the case, he cannot fail to cure his friends, it isn’t an option in how desperate the situation has gotten.

He’s relied upon by everyone as the leader of the order, shoulders heavy with the burden. He is intense when he needs to be, gentle when a soft touch is required, and keeps his head when the situation is so intense the others are speechless.

He gets through Forevers stubbornness, reassures Pac in his sorrow and indecisiveness. It’s a fucked up scene and he handles it well because he has no other choice.

He doesn’t cry until it’s all over. Just for a second, when the moment is over, and he can take a breath of air. And even then he leads the rest of them through clean up. He makes sure Pac gets home, gets Forever to a proper place to rest, ensures the rest of the group is okay after what they just witnessed.

Then the moment he leaves the others, he finds another critical clue that he can’t just ignore or put to the back burner.

Another mystery, another crisis, another billion clues he’ll have to organize and follow up on and solve, because he’s the investigation guy, the leader of the order, and the island is counting on him. The kids are counting on him. He doesn’t get a chance to truly breathe. To fully sit down and let himself crumble, let someone, anyone, else be the strong foundation, because if he can’t solve this, who will?

Even with his family returning to him, it’s no wonder he feels so alone. Out of the frying pan and into the fire, I guess.

#I just. the moment he could take a breath and his voice started cracking. god #bad and Phil were instrumental in this ofc but there is no world they would have gotten any sort of cure without cellbit #he was key because he was relied on. bad and Phil and Pac and even forever played their parts (esp pac my fucking god) but #I dunno. everyone comes to him with the latest mystery and it’s what he’d prefer at the end of the day because he can trust in himself to #do his best. he trusts in his abilities as much as he naturally wants to know the unknown. but still #there’s definitely some part of his affinity with the entity of knowledge too. knowledge at a cost whatever he must pay #what’s a little self destruction and misery in the face of discovery? the satisfaction of a puzzle solved and saving the day? #he’s chosen the entity of knowledge as much as it’s chosen him. to know things is to be alone #i just. when the day comes where he can’t solve the problem and save the day. what then? what then? #and isn’t that a kick in the pants. please god everyone help him with this because he deserves something secure to fall back on #he’s just so. leader man cannot crumble because he cannot afford to. god give him a break please. 167 injured 82 dead #mcyt #qsmp #q!cellbit #Cellbit #qsmp meta #z speaks

[cheapbourbon]

Hunters Knight : alabado sea

#Jake Lockley #Moon Knight #Khonshu #hunters knight #bird dad #talk about doing these out of order 🤣☠️ #this one would be number one. start here #here is how Jake is able to be Jake and Moon Knight and off in Luxor with Badr without Steven and Marc barking up his ass 🤣 #Bird dad saves Jake from a fait worse then death #to die alone and unknown and unloved. 🥺 #unpopular opinion but Marc and Steven will forever be on my shit list for leaving him in the sarcophagus. #poor baby I just want to hug and love him #at least he has a chance at a happy life now #serving his god and doing good and dating a sexy doctor 😌👌🏻

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 749: The last Straight Road*

(NdT.: same pun Kinaka always makes with his name and the word for straight road)

Pag 1

1: I....

3: Imaizumi-san!!

4: Go- good work!!

Good work!!

You were taking a long time for this lap

Pag 2

1: Yes, teh, I got a fl-fl-flat- my bike!!

Yessir!!

2: It's the tire!!

4: Only tires can get a flat

Ah- damn, yes, that's right

Right!!

6: I thought something like this might have happened, so I brought these

Replacement tubes, tire levers, and a pump. Use them

Pag 3

2: This is unusual!! I never thought Imaizumi-san was the attentive type – is it just for us!?

Yeah!! I thought first and second years were just not important to him....

3: You don't want to use the,?

We'll use them, thank you so much!!

4: You saved us, teh....!!

That's true

6: Ah, uhm... but..... Imaizumi-san

Earlier you said that

7: Sugimoto-san won't come”, what did you mean?

Pag 4

1: He retired

Pag 5

1: He's still displayed on the board, but

3: There's still time until midnight

If Sugimoto-kun....

4: Please leave the possibility open in case Sugimoto-kun wants to come back!!

5: Onoda insisted

6: Re... tired.....

Sugi..... moto-san....

Pag 6

1: He used up all his stamina and mental strength in his fight against Danchiku, and he was defeated

2: You didn't notice because you've been on the course the whole time

4: Ah... actually, when it got dark, Sugimoto-san and Danchiku-san passed us various times... teh

Huh!? That? So at that time-!?

5: You have no time to talk about unimportant things

As soon as you're done with the repairs, run, first years

6: Soon

Pag 7

1: Waa, ye-yes, teh, thank you for the tools

Yeah, there's still 40km

2: If we join our strengths....

Don't cooperate

5: Teh!?

7: From now on, you can't allow yourselves to run like friends

8: Huh....

Our “buddies” stickers.....!?

You have to fight

Pag 8

1: And win the last spot to be an Inter High member!!

Pag 9

1: Fa.... ight....

2: Against.... Kinaka-kun

3: Against.... Rokudai

4: 35km left!!

Gooo!! Kinakaa, Rokudaii!!

Do your best...!!

5: I feel like they'll be able to run the 1000km!!

Amazing!

Ah, but there was no distance between them just now?

Pag 10

1: Fight....

2: The spot as a regular in the two-times national champion, Sohoku....

3: I can't take it by just being friendly....!!

4: And also

5: There's Sugimoto-san's wish!!

Pag 11

1: Wa- wait, please, Imaizumi-san

But.... if in this training camp the condition to become the sixth regular was to finish the 1000km first....

2: Then why did Sugimoto-san and Danchiku-san race!?

4: I came here to give you a message from Sugimoto

5: I think, I think it's necessary, you know

Sohoku is a team that connect and support each other

6: Just like during our first year, you, Naruko, and Onoda, connected your wishes and aimed for the goal

7: And last year Kaburagi ran with Aoyagi-san and carried the team until the mountains on the third day

8: So I think we need it

9: Our third year Inter High members

Pag 12

1: Definitely need a “first year”!!

3: Even if he knew he was making his own situation worse, he thought about the best shape for the team would be

4: He accepted it, and fought

Pag 13

1: For the fifth place

3: Among the first years, those two are left, I look forward to see what they do!!

That's too much food

4: Danchiku probably understood it, too

That's why he fought with all his strength

6: Now you two have to run with the weight of those expectations on your back!!

7: Fight, against your opponent and against yourself!! Use all your strength

Pag 14

1: And pull to yourself that last jersey!!

2: Straaa-

Pag 15

1: Straight roaaad!!

2: - traight!!

3: …. ngh

Ugh.....

4: Kinaka-kun.....

5: Don't cry, Rokudai!!

Pag 16

1: What are you doing, oi!! I'll leave you behind like this!! I'll tear you off!!

If you give up, then it's lucky for me!!

2: My goal has always been the Inter High jersey!!

To get back at those senpai who made fun of me!!

3: To show it to the Onii-san who taught me how to ride bikes!!

So, for that....

6: So I'm telling you not to cry!!

Pag 17

1: But, Kinaka-kun....

It's that your “Straitgh road”, wasn't fast at all....!!

4: You knee? It's your knee, right?

Since when? Since a while ago?

5: Since when we were at about 800km

Pag 18

1: It's a race, Rokudai

2: You should have told me, teh

I didn't notice, teh!!

3: I'm such an incapable former manager, teh....

4: Since when I lost to you in the first years' race

6: I've been thinking that I would definitely not lose the next time we race

7: Even though the truth is that I don't really care about that anymore

So, once again...

Pag 19

1: It's a race, Rokudai!!

3: Let's do it, Rokudai!!

I can't, teh

4: Race me, pedal!!

I don't want to, teh....

5: Fight me!!

I won't pedal, teh

Pag 20

1: Because, if I fight you now, Kinaka-kun, I'll end up winning, teh

Pag 22

1: With that kindness of yours, support our senpai during the Inter High

#yowamushi pedal #yowamushi pedal translations #yowapeda #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal manga #yowamushi pedal spoilers #ride 749 #the tags arent enough for the essay i want and need to write about this chapter #most painful chapter but also one of the best chapter of the whole manga imho #IVE BEEN CRYING SINCE YESTRDAY WTF WATANABE HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO MY BABIES #YOU NEED TO PAY FOR MY THERAPY NOW #kinaka and roku's relationship is probably the most wholesome in the whole manga i love them so much #and this chap HURT SO BAD OH MY GOD #kinakaaaaa you're so strong for this ;A; the way he didnt want to tell roku about his knee bc he knew that roku would break #the way he even tried to provoke him to push him to race!! and he says he didnt want to lose against him again! but!! #He actually doesnt care about that anymore!!! hes just doing this for rokudai!!! #And rokuuuu!!! baby boy ;A; hes the purest boy ever!!! He didnt want to win like this against kinaka he didnt want to leave him behind ;A; #leave me alone im gonna cry forever ;A; (no actually dont leave me alone keep me company in my suffering plz) #page 21 is forever ingraved in my soul #even tho imaizumi told them not to cooperate in the end they did support each other until the last moment ;A; #(on a lighter not im happy that we finally have a reason for the race btwn sugimoto and danchiku - they both knew the team needed a first #year* so only one of them could be on the team)