#what’s a little self destruction and misery in the face of discovery? the satisfaction of a puzzle solved and saving the day?

[zeb-z]

Cellbit who holds his shit together, pieces together the clues, and solves the issue while walking on a tightrope, where if he cannot correct for the mistakes made, the fallout would be catastrophic. He cannot fail to solve the case, he cannot fail to cure his friends, it isn’t an option in how desperate the situation has gotten.

He’s relied upon by everyone as the leader of the order, shoulders heavy with the burden. He is intense when he needs to be, gentle when a soft touch is required, and keeps his head when the situation is so intense the others are speechless.

He gets through Forevers stubbornness, reassures Pac in his sorrow and indecisiveness. It’s a fucked up scene and he handles it well because he has no other choice.

He doesn’t cry until it’s all over. Just for a second, when the moment is over, and he can take a breath of air. And even then he leads the rest of them through clean up. He makes sure Pac gets home, gets Forever to a proper place to rest, ensures the rest of the group is okay after what they just witnessed.

Then the moment he leaves the others, he finds another critical clue that he can’t just ignore or put to the back burner.

Another mystery, another crisis, another billion clues he’ll have to organize and follow up on and solve, because he’s the investigation guy, the leader of the order, and the island is counting on him. The kids are counting on him. He doesn’t get a chance to truly breathe. To fully sit down and let himself crumble, let someone, anyone, else be the strong foundation, because if he can’t solve this, who will?

Even with his family returning to him, it’s no wonder he feels so alone. Out of the frying pan and into the fire, I guess.

#I just. the moment he could take a breath and his voice started cracking. god #bad and Phil were instrumental in this ofc but there is no world they would have gotten any sort of cure without cellbit #he was key because he was relied on. bad and Phil and Pac and even forever played their parts (esp pac my fucking god) but #I dunno. everyone comes to him with the latest mystery and it’s what he’d prefer at the end of the day because he can trust in himself to #do his best. he trusts in his abilities as much as he naturally wants to know the unknown. but still #there’s definitely some part of his affinity with the entity of knowledge too. knowledge at a cost whatever he must pay #what’s a little self destruction and misery in the face of discovery? the satisfaction of a puzzle solved and saving the day? #he’s chosen the entity of knowledge as much as it’s chosen him. to know things is to be alone #i just. when the day comes where he can’t solve the problem and save the day. what then? what then? #and isn’t that a kick in the pants. please god everyone help him with this because he deserves something secure to fall back on #he’s just so. leader man cannot crumble because he cannot afford to. god give him a break please. 167 injured 82 dead #mcyt #qsmp #q!cellbit #Cellbit #qsmp meta #z speaks