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#i do not like anyone touching my things - even my mom doesnt enter my room when im not present LMFAO and knocks when i am
knifenymph · 3 years
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when i get back to costa rica..... i promise to take sexy pictures with my machetes.......... and not sexy like male gaze sexy i mean sexy like i assume y'all know what i mean and what my vibe is HHAHA and anyways any picture with a machete in it is sexy so its not hard
#op#chatter#I AM SO EXCITED FOR THEM#oh my god so before i left i hid my machetes in my lil cabin space#not super well hidden but i doubted anyone would be in my space like that so ...#and later marlon made a joke and said that he found them and was planning to use them for dumb marlon stuff LMFAO#and i was like . Marlon. I am very calm about a lot of things. You know this.#But touching my things? My Machetes Especially? Ab So Lutely NOT.#LMFAOOOOOO#and he got the memo real quick LMFAOAOAOOO do not TOUCH my machetes#i am very very borderline territorial when it comes to my things#i dont have many knickknacks or possessions but i am very particular abt the ones i do#i do not like anyone touching my things - even my mom doesnt enter my room when im not present LMFAO and knocks when i am#i am very very chill abt near all else lol but .......... thats a hard no without permission#one time one of the girls in the program was like .. Jasmine.. i have.. a Question for u..#and i was like ... Yes ?#and she goes.. could i .. pretty please so possibly .. maybe .. use your guitar? i PROMISE I KNOW GUITAR SAFETY AND etc etc etc LMFAOOO#and it was only because shes queer and masc and we kinda would flirt that i said yes ....#and then later another girl was like .. yea wow i was amazed that she even asked - i thought that was 100% off limits LMFAO#i forgot that when we stated boundaries at the beginning of the program i told ppl not to touch my stuff and not to even ask bc id probably#shoutout to past jasmine for layin down the LAW!#but so when marlon made that joke i was like ..... Ah .... you do not know Proper Jasmine Etiquette ......... LMFAO
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thepeakygurl · 3 years
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i was wondering if u can make a Michael x reader where her family was murdered by peaky blinders enemies and She Is taken under Thomas wings, where he teaches hownto fight and shoot and defend herself. One day She meets Michael and they secretly fall in love with each other. The thing Is he is the only One Who doesnt sees only her beauty and shyness but also the iron underneath. Thank you very much!
A/N: Not really sure how I feel about this one. The idea was really inspiring, but somehow I feel I failed to bring the best out of it. If you think so too, please don’t hesitate to tell me so, I will try my best and write it again.✨
Bonnie and Clyde
Michael Gray x Fem!Reader
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Living with the Polly Shelby was easier than you expected, surviving those nightmares you had every night ever since your family passed although, that wasn’t easy at all. Every time you would wake up in the middle of the night out of a bad dream, Polly would wake up as well ready to turn on a kettle and make some tea for the both of you. She was a tough woman with a good heart, you always knew that. Part of yourself wished you could be more like her, more like a Shelby, as that would have meant for you to be able to live with your sadness and make something important out of it, perhaps a revenge. Ever since Thomas learned about your sleeping problems, he would come more often to Pol’s house and teach you how to hand a gun “Just a safe escape” he would say. He wasn’t trying to turn you into one of them, he would have never attempted to so something so ignoble and betray your family’s trust.
He felt guilty, every time he would see you he would always look at you with guilt ridden eyes. The least he could do, was to try and make your life now less heavier.
It was a warm morning that day, so you decided to go outside and practice what Tommy had taught you so far. With your gun in your hand, you walked far from them home making sure that Pol wouldn’t hear you, she wasn’t fond if the idea of you handing guns and even more practicing their use. The sky was limpid blue and you almost felt sad for yourself. Instead of learning how to kill someone, you should have had a book in your hand, sitting under a tree and enjoy the beautiful day that was ahead of you. However, life happened and that you can’t control.
When you finally found a far spot behind the house with loads of trees there to hide you, you finally stopped and held the gun again towards one of them tree. It was the was first time you tried to attempt shooting without tommy. Your breath cut short as soon as you realise what you were about to do. You tried to picture those bloody men that took everything away from you, in the hope you would be finally able to cast them out of your mind. But you couldn’t, you couldn’t imagine anyone instead of the damn tree in front of you and that made you so brought you a type of anger that you never felt before.
“You are handling it wrongly” you heard a raspy voice behind say. You immediately turn pointing the gun towards them, your hand was now shaking and you mentally cursed yourself for showing such weakness. However, when you realise that it was Michael you relaxed “Easy now Y/N” he said while raising his hands to surrender, he smiled at you and slowly walked towards you.
“I could have killed you, you foul” you said and took a deep breath, letting you arm now resting at the side of your hip, the gun pointing to the ground.
“Yeah, I’m not sure you could have done it” he choked a laugh. His eyes were bright as ever, you could tell he was in a good mood. But he couldn’t say the same thing about you. Your natural beauty that would usually leave him astonished, was now covered in a cloud of desperation. When he was close enough, he took you by your shoulders and made you turn towards the tree once again. His hand slowly caressed your arm down till he was able to touch your hand. Now, your breath was heavier for something far more deadly than a silly gun. You felt his breath shattering on your skin as he pull himself closer to your ear “You have to use all that anger, you don’t kill people when you are happy, that would make you mad and you are not” he honeyed out.
“I’m not sure I want to kill someone” you said breathy whisper, your free arm was now holding your waste, trying to hold yourself up. Having him this closer to you was affecting you in a way that you would have never imagined. You always recognised his charm and now that you had the chance to meet him almost everyday, you certainly couldn’t fake indifference towards him.
“Then why are you here, holding a gun huh?” He asked, laying a hand on your hip and holding you tight towards his chest before putting his finger on yours and pushing on the trigger. The shot so strident and strangled. Your body by then was too concerned on Michael’s acting to concentrate in the art of shooting and a consequence you tilted back towards him. “See? Is not that hard.” He smirked while forcing himself to take few steps back from you.
An action that made you put up a disappointed face and that almost made him laugh “I know how to shoot, I said that I don’t know if I want to shoot, there’s a difference there Gray.”
He hold a sigh which he eventually realised “You are far more capable and intelligent to hide behind this facade of good girl” he said attentively looking at you, as if he was in fact trying to look underneath the surface. Such a steady gaze that you instantly felt your cheeks burning.
“You don’t even know me”
“I think I know you enough to say that you want to end those men as they ended your mom and dad” he harshly said. He wasn’t wrong, but the audacity he had to spit those words out, you barely even knew the guy. How could he be so careless with his words? But I guess you would have learned to get used to it.
“So what if I want to? I’m not like them, I’m not like you. I’m not a Shelby.” You said with the same harsh tone, but contrary to your reaction, he threw back his head and let out an humourless laugh.
“Neither am I sunshine.” His hand were now in his pockets while he was walking once again closer to you, he took one of the hands out just to slightly caress your cheek with his knuckles. A smile so fiercely amused on his face and the look of someone that was up to anything but no good “I will teach you.” He said.
And that he did. For weeks now he taught you how to kill in cold blood and slowly, almost imperceptibly, you started to crave that feeling he was talking about. The urge of feeling the soul of a human being living their body as you watched them sink into darkness. You desperately wanted to see those men die with your own doing and hands. When the day finally came, Michael went with you into the cave of those darned men, but he didn’t do anything. He watched as you pulled your gun and kill every single one of them, most of them still young boys not much older than you. And suddenly all that rage that devoured you for months, all that spite and anger, they turned into satisfaction and hunger for more. You specifically remembered one of them. You were hiding in your mom’s closet when those men entered the house, your dad saw them coming from the window and asked you and your mom to hide. She didn’t, she taught that perhaps showing herself wouldn’t arouse suspicion about the presence of anyone else in the room. You remember holding your breath as the man pulled the trigger and your parents falling down, dying as nothing much but like animal for slaughter. You remembered his face and now that he was lying on the ground, his eyes widely open and his filthy blood coming out of his mouth, you couldn’t help yourself but smile. You had to look them all in their lifeless eyes, that was the key to your sweet dreams.
Michael approached you, smiling proudly at you “I told you.” He said “That facade of good girl was wasted on you.” He looked at your dress, soaked into those men blood. Far more courageous than a Shelby he thought. And that’s when he slid a hand on the back on your neck, pulling your closer enough to him to kiss you. His lips angrily eating yours in a kiss that was nothing but pure passion, the kind of passion that drives you out of your mind. It wasn’t the first time. In those months he didn’t just teach you how to properly shoot a gun, he also taught how to use your body and how to please it. And you wanted to learn more and more.
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tomdiddlyumptious · 4 years
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A.R| Just cry Already
Summary: did arvin take you on a date- oop.
Warning: slight sexual tension, just a little tense, NOT SEXUAL- terrible flirt, and of course unedited
A/n: smack my ass like a drumb ✌️😌- YALL I SINCERELY APOLOGIZE ABOUT BEING LATE- IM HAVING A FEW PROBLEMS AND I HAVE TO RE WRITE THE SHIT I RIGHT BECAUSE IT SEEMS RUSHED!
Chapters -> one ✨ two 🤠 three ✨ four 🤠 five
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Arvin isnt a stalker, he just wanted to know where you live, turns out just across the woods. Lenora called him ‘freakin crazy’ while his grandmother called him ‘in love’. He wants to sneak you out so he does, he grabs his coat and nicer pants, he cleaned himself up, brushed his hair back with some water and brushrd his teeth.
“She is gonna love you man” he says to himself in the mirror, after checking himself out. He grabbed his keys and headed out.
You on the other hnd were right awake, thinking about the preacher and how disrespectful he was. “God he just seems-“ you cut yourself off, you were honestly having the second hand embarrassment, how it is to be in his place.
“Im not falling in fucking love, hes a white boy god dammit” you murmured, the room dark and the door closed while you placed your hands under your ear, closing your eyes.
Until you heard a light knock.
You jumped as you looked out your window, a hat appearing as hands start to open the window, you quickly got up and grabbed your heel. You grabbed the foot of it and held the heel up.
“Oh shit- how hard can it be to open a damn window?” You hear youre guessing a man groan, you walk up to the window and see white hands, your first instinct is to pierce it but you soon realize who it is.
“Shit arvin you scared me! I almost put a whole in your hand!” You whisper yelled as you put down the heel softly to not wake anyone up. You grab his hands and let him inside, softly planting his feet on the ground and looking at you with his chocolate brown eyes that the moon shone on.
“Hey” he let out a chuckle as he looked at you. “My dad is gonna kill me and you, what do you want arvin?” You ask seriously, placing your hands on your hips and honestly missing your bed.
“I-uh wanted to take you on a date- as i said theres a drive through and a movie is playing” “is this your ticket to makeout with me?” “I mean no- but that would be nice” you sigh, then you hear wood creak. “Shit! In the closet- NOW” you whisper yell, pushing him to the closet and closing it, throwing yourself on the bed and under the sheets.
Your door opens as your eyes are wide open, your father entering. “Why are you up? And why is your window open?” “Its hot and my head hurts a bit” “not sneakin boys in here are ya?” He switches on the light looking around in your room. “Now why would i do that, dad?” You let out a giggle. “I dont know, i hope you know your my little girl and your never leaving, ever” he lets out rather harshly. Arvin crinkled his eyebrows and mentally added notes about your father, now understanding what you meant earlier.
You gulp and nod, not wanting to answer. He smiles and turns off the light, closing your door all the way shut before stepping off. Sooner or later the closet door opened with a smiling arvin.
“Get changed! We gotta go!” He whisper yells, you smack your lips and sigh in defeat before getting up and walking over to your closet. “Well you gotta get out!” You say, he raises an eyebrow in confusion “of my closet?” He lets out an ‘ohh’ before standing up and dusting his pants off.
You take out some of your brothers jeans, a tank top and some 2 inch black heels. “Arent women not aloud to wear pants?” “So you arent a feminist?” Arvin lets out a ‘pffft’ “of course i am, Especially for you” “oh shut up and let me change” it became awkward of course as you had to hide yourself from arvin.
Of course you didnt have a bra on, so when you took off your night gown your breats slapped on your stomach, arvin just leaning against the window seal with his arm as he watchs you without hesitation “you are such a creep, i can feel you staring at me” you comment. He only giggles as he watches your back move, your glowing back move to put your black tank top on.
You turn to him and meet his eyes “turn around arvin” “why?” “So i can take off i pants?” “O-oh yeah” you give a smile while he turns around, dropping your pants still facing him you grab the jeans and slide them on.
Arvin really wanted to see you, he knows you arent shapped like these others, he wants to touch and admire you everywhere, every flaw would be his favorite part, he just needed his fingers on you. “You almsot done-“ “look?” You ask, he immediately turns around and meets your dressed body, well you didnt button your pants all the way, he smiled as he looked at you up and down “gorgeous” he licks his lips. “Havent took me on the first date” you remind him making him roll his eyes silently.
You both sat in the car, music distantly playing as he had his hand on your thigh, looking at you for some moments while you looked straight ahead. He looked again and you caught him “what?” You giggle, making him smile and blush “your like, really beautiful- i hope you believe me” you bite your lip and shrug “i dont know just yet”.
He bought you the famous pineapple upside down cake and some Bees Knees, as you guys pulled up in the drive through. “Scary movie, classic move arvin” you rolled your eyes. He only laughed as he continued to look for a spot “do like them?” “Yeah i do, which one is this?” “Only the famous Nosferatu” “cool” he chuckled as he parked his Chevrolet Bel Air in one of the best spots.
“I hope you dont think your getting me tonight” you look at him while he sios his drink, he only shrugs “you dont know” he winks. You smirk but turn away from him as you turn on the radio to the right channel, hearing the movie you grabbed a fork and took a bite out of the pineapple-cake.
About an hour in he tried his best to flirt with you. “Hey y/n” he said, you turned to him as he picked up the same fork you had and took a bite, sexually. You sucked in your lower lip to keep you from laughing as he continued to eat it and make eye contact with you. And then he wasn’t expecting it, you started cackling.
He didn’t understand why as he made sure to lick the fork clean. You were out of breath as he rolled his eyes and clenched his jaw. “I-im so-sorry” you only started to laugh harder “b-but that! I cant-“ “whatever” “dont get mad at me, im sorry” you sucked in your laughs and patted his shoulder, giving a playful frown as he looked back at you with his lips tucked to the side.
“Im not mad, no need to apologize hun” “oh we’re doing pet names?” “I mean, yeah” “alright sweetcheeks” you said as he smacked his lips and couldnt fight the urge smile.
He turned off the radio and turned to you, you had your heels off showing your pretty piggies that arvin laughed at, he looked up at you and seen you smiling at him. “What?” He asks, his cheeks slowly heating up. “Youre beautiful arvin” you complement as his cheeks become scarlet. “Your too sweet” he says back, biting his lip to stop himself from grinning more “well tell me about yourself, will ya?”
“What do you wanna know?” You ask as you lean back, your lower lip popping out over your top. “Your favorite color, movie something like that?” “Well, i like F/C my favorite movie is F/M my favorite food is F/F and i love rainy and cloudy days” “how come?” “My little brother, and because they are relaxing” you sigh and give a small smile.
“Well i like red, i dont really have a favorite movie? I love my grandmas cooking so i also dont have one, but i like sunny days- even though we rarely get those” he chuckles, you place your hand on top of his “how nice” you grin.
“I-i feel so embarrassed- about in church- god” he groans. “Dont be arvin- i dont care and nobdy else does- well i dont mean it like that but you know-“ “yeah” he sighs, relaxing a bit as his legs slightly open, his elbow on the ontop of the closed window as he rested his head on his cheek.
You felt happy but sad, you dont want him to feel that way at all, nobody deserves it, not even the racists deserve it. “Look let go of it, it was a moment and you are moving on” “you say that like it was a week ago” “oh well, arvin”
“So you snuck out last night?” Cloudy asks again for clarification, you look at him annoyed but nodded. He chukcled as he shuck his head “ what?!” You ask, slapping his arm as you guys walked down to the lake for a bit.
“Dad is gonna fucking kill you, do you even like this boy?” “We went in one date! And it was nice, we actually have an emotional connection” “how much?” He asks looking at you. “We talked the whole movie through” “i swear if he-“ “calm the hell down cloudy” you giggle, he only rolls his eyes as he huffs.
“I hope you know no one is gonna be happy” “well I guess im thankful for you” you wrap your arm around his arms, holding his shoulder in your hand and rubbing it some as he chukles. “How was school by the way?” You ask suddenly, he only shrugs as he looks at his moving feet “talk to me cloud”. “I seen lenora around and stuff” “did you talk to her?” “No” you sigh as you shake your head in disappointment.
“Well get out of your comfort zone- do something” you raise your eyebrow at him, slightly annoyed. “And who are you to tell me what to do?” He says, cocking the same eyebrow. “I am your sister, your older sister- the one who-“ “changed my diapers” cloudy mocks, already knowing what you were gonna say.
“Exactly, although we might not be able to do a whole lot of things that doesnt mean we cant bend the rules just a bit, right?” You give him a small smile as he chuckles “you are the exact opposite of dad” “i know- thats why you love me so much” you giggle as you take your hand from his shoulder and start walking normally side by side.
“Hey y/n?” Cloudy asked after a few minutes of silence, he looked at you as you hummed and told him to continue,” you know how you promise me and mom that youre gonna take us out of here?” You looked at him and nodded.
“Do you ever rethink it? Or even think about leaving us?” He hesitated. “Well- i dont pray, i dont work, and i barely help anyone. So sometimes i do think about it- think about if we do get stuck here, if we dont leave and if we are gonna stay miserable” “so yes?” You nod and poke your lower lip out.
“But when you saved lenora- do you think that god seen that as a good sign for you?- like arvin is a good sign?” He asks curiously, you only shrug and bite the side of your lip. “Are you telling me your believing in god now cloud?” You ask him. “I mean- he did make this earth right?”
You stop dead in your tracks and he follows turning to you as you put your hands on his shoulders and gives them a squeeze, making cloudy groan but pay attention. “Look here- i dont care that you belive in god- but what you wont do is put faith in that god damn preacher, ya hear?” You say sternly.
You were never really serious when you talked with cloud, you had no reason to be hard or hate him. Hes your younger brother after all right? But he knew when you gave him those talks he needed to agree, he always puts faith in you and believes what you say because your really all he has.
Dad is manipulative- whatever mom said to him was because dad told her to. When you were young you barely listened so he kinda gave up on you, so when cloudy was born you took him under your wing because you utterly refused for him to be brain washed by the asshole of a dad. Why did your mother even get with your dad? Because she was desperate and vulnerable.
She killed her brother, on purpose. Your uncle is sick- was sick. He tried to touch your mom also- to all the black folks she was the prettiest girl in the small town- and your father took advantage of it. Your mother was always a free woman and doesnt like to be trapped, but as she got older she grew tired and just gave up- just listened- it meant less work for her anyway.
He nodded “yes ma’am”. You give him a weak smile as you find yourself next to the river already. You heard giggles and the water waves as pictures flashed, then a strong punch. You silently slapped your brother as you told him to get down, both crouching knowing you had to get out of there.
“I want you to go the car cloud” you whisper at him, crawling ahead and turning to the bushes, slightly getting a view of the people- of course white people.
“Im not leaving you y/n-“
Shots fired.
“Get your dumbass to to the fuckin car NOW!” You whisper yell, cloud stunned but quickly taking the keys from you and running to the car. You start crawling more and see an old man, well mid-30s with a camera around his neck and a women fixing herself- and of course a dead man bare naked with bloody coming from between his legs.
You sat there, shaking, your hand making its way up to cover your mouth, your eyes widening with shock as they started to take care of it.
Now you knew better then to report it because it only meant bad for you, but what happend- what you just saw is absolutley horrible. You only froze and continued to watch almost forgetting about cloudy, you look back at the parked cars and back at the couple your guessing- but they’ve disappeared.
You took your chance now to run back to the car, lifting your pink dress and running in those combat boots. You saw cloudy basically mesmerized- paying no attention as he just looked ahead- the keys already in and the car started as you just drove away.
Taggie! @jeyramarie
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queenangst · 4 years
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A Collection of Fic Prompts
These are all genfic/non-romantic fic ideas that I (and some of my friends) came up with in a game where I write a summary for a fake fic title. Some titles have multiple summaries. You can view my tag ‘fake fic asks’ to view the original asks. 
My blanket permissions for prompts apply: Please credit and link me on Tumblr (@queenangst)/on AO3 (achievingelysium). If possible, link to this post/original post. Feel free to use these as prompts or inspiration for any creative work such as fic or art, and feel free to adjust or adapt them to your liking. I’d love to see them!
Please reblog if you like these!
I may end up using some of these in the future (marked with * if you’re interested), but all of the prompts are free for you to use if you’re interested. 
Below the cut is a categorized list of the summaries, by characters/themes, including: 
All Might, Izuku, OFA, and AFO
Midoriya Hisashi/Dad for One
Shimura Nana
Quirklessness
Aizawa, Present Mic, and Shirakumo
Teachers
Dekusquad
Izuku & Bakugou
Izuku
Bakugou
Todoroki Family/Dabi
Eri
Class 1-A
Misc.
All Might, Izuku, OFA, and AFO 
Once Upon a Time
Quirk reversal canon rewrite AU. All Might is a hero with a mysterious Quirk: one that can take and give away Quirks at will. With this Quirk and multiple Quirks given willingly, All Might defeats villains easily. When he meets the strong-willed Midoriya Izuku, he offers Izuku a Quirk and a chance to be a hero.
One for All has been searching for a successor—and his brother’s Quirk, All for One—and finds one in the volatile Shimura Tenko, now Shigaraki. Combined with the power of Decay, Shigaraki’s new Quirk can level mountains and destroy cities.
Izuku has always wanted to be a hero. With a new Quirk and a new enemy, he can be.
Shatter the Sun
All Might walks into a fight he doesn’t expect to come back from. Fueled by rage and grief, he ignores every warning Nighteye has given him and takes down the villain who killed his predecessor… All for One.
All Might limps out of a fight he hadn’t expected to come back from. He defeated his enemy, but it comes with a cost.
And then he wakes up again on the same day, All for One still waiting for him. Each time All Might defeats him. Each time the day restarts. Again and again. All Might had been prepared to fight All for One for the rest of his life, but this is something entirely different.
i’ve been found (but i’m still lost in the morning)
When Toshinori passes on the torch to his successor, he only wishes Nana were there to see it. When Izuku begins dreaming of the past wielders, he begins to feel the weight of the legacy he carries on.
All for One may be gone, but in the wake of his defeat, both Izuku and Toshinori struggle to find their place in heroism and at home.
Cross the Delta
All Might takes Izuku on a road trip in America, and their relationship deepens from mentor and student to father and son.
if only you'd listened
When Izuku complains of headaches and strange dreams, Toshinori doesn’t think much of it beyond offering what comfort he can and painkillers. After all, it’s exam season, and his students are stressed; the common room is loaded with energy drinks and textbooks alike. Izuku also confides he thinks there’s something wrong with his Quirk, but having unlocked two more, Toshinori is under the belief Izuku is simply adjusting.
Then Izuku starts sleepwalking, sometimes with One for All. And there’s the time he almost doesn’t wake up at all, and when he finally wakes up he doesn’t seem like he has control of himself.
Because the closer Izuku has been getting to One for All, a connection has been forming with its other half—with Toshinori’s greatest enemy, All for One.
kiss your fist and touch the sky
After his retirement, All Might is no longer the hero he used to be. But Class 1-A still seems to think so, and quietly All Might begins to learn how to save people in smaller ways.
lead me down the styx
OFA!AU. When Nana dies, a piece of her remains within One for All—just as the other holders have before her. Every time a holder comes close to death, they see their predecessors.
All Might sees his mentor again in dreams a few times, but he thinks they’re just that: dreams. The first time Izuku sees the ghosts of One for All, he’s just nearly broken himself beyond repair. The next time is when he takes a hit meant for someone else. After the next Izuku realizes there’s a pattern, that the ghosts he sees out of the corner of his eye are real and getting stronger, and there’s something they want to tell him.
I Have No Plans to Die Today
Alternating POV. Half is All Might desperately trying to hold on to the remains of OFA as he fights AFO because after all these years he finally has things to live for again. Half is Bakugou trying to escape his captors, not knowing if anyone’s going to rescue him, equally desperate to fulfill his dream of becoming a Hero (from @happi-tree​).
Your Heart In Your Hands
In a world where every year on the day you first meet you see a vision of you and your soulmate’s future together, Izuku and All Might meet under a bridge—and Izuku begins to see a future where he can be a hero.
Bonus notes from my tags: #pl bkdk soulmates bk was scared of the future #tho the future vision is limited i think so bkdk doesnt see anything after ua until after dk meets am #bc that future wasnt quite set in stone
The Aftermath
All Might wakes up in a hospital alone. He has lost his stomach, though perhaps more painfully, his most trusted advisor and sidekick. He has nothing, and no one. And his time with One for All dwindles.
But he keeps going—and meets one Midoriya Izuku.
A story told backwards in six parts, from loving Izuku to meeting him to those lonely years before.
Once Upon a Time
Fantasy AU. The Tale of Two Brothers is known throughout the kingdom, a myth passed down through the generations to explain why Magicks exist. No one expects the story itself to be true, least of all a young Magickless boy on the run from his tormentors. But now? Well, now, Midoriya Izuku knows differently (from @happi-tree​). 
Midoriya Hisashi/Dad for One
But That Was So Long Ago*
Time can’t erase an absence, a person who was never there. Ten years after Midoriya Hisashi goes overseas for business, he re-enters Izuku’s life—not just as a father, but as a vigilante, chasing a lead for a villain with connections to the League. Working with Hellhound, who can manipulate fire and smoke, Izuku begins to notice his new ally’s strange similarities to the father he’s constantly arguing with at home.
You know what family means to me, Hisashi? Resentment
Midoriya Hisashi drags his son Izuku on a short surprise trip to America, where Izuku is separated from his friends as Hisashi teaches him about his business. Izuku is left miserable and angry about the life Hisashi is trying to force him into. What’s meant to be family bonding and their already fragile relationship quickly falls apart, and all Izuku wants is to go home.
Eternal Slumber
In his second year, Izuku and All for One begin to share dreams. Izuku’s afraid All for One is both the person he thought and not, and they seem to share more similarities than Izuku expected.
A Dad For One fic.
In the Flesh*
Right after Izuku enters U.A., Midoriya Hisashi abruptly returns from business overseas, taking an interest in his son’s new Quirk and committing himself to his family again after years apart. Izuku feels uncomfortable with the stranger he calls “Dad,” but stays quiet seeing how happy his mom is when he’s home.
Yet as the school year progresses, Hisashi’s story seems to have different holes. Research into his dad’s business leaves Izuku with dead, outdated links; any questions Izuku asks about work go unanswered; and still Hisashi presses Izuku about his Quirk, driving a wedge between them.
Hisashi’s Quirk is fire breathing—but Izuku accidentally discovers he has a levitation Quirk, too, and more after that. A breakthrough in research connects Hisashi to the address of an old, run-down bar. And a story Izuku’s mentor All Might tells him, of a villain who can take other people’s Quirks, leads Izuku home again, to one Midoriya Hisashi.
Shimura Nana
Oddity Amidst Time
Shigaraki travels back in time and meets his grandmother, Shimura Nana.
Remembrance
Nana’s legacy is a line of death that becomes before her and goes on after her. But what if things were different?
When Nana fights All for One, she wins. Still, the danger of All for One’s lasting influence remains, so Nana makes the decision to leave her son alone as she continues to fight villains and train Toshinori into the Symbol of Peace he wants to be.
Kotaro is the only regret Nana’s ever had. She spends her days wondering what might have been until she meets two siblings who share her smile—and her last name.
if i die young
At the end of his life, Gran Torino gets a chance to travel back in time to when Nana still lived, and the two of them have a conversation about life and loss.
Quirklessness
Out of the Fire
Izuku reflects on how many micro aggressions he dealt with as a quirkless person that evaporated with OFA (from @wildinkling​).
You get used to things, even if sometimes you shouldn't
All Might has carried One for All for a lifetime, and he’s nearly forgotten what it was like to be Quirkless, much less understanding how different Quirklessness is treated in society today. After Izuku confides about what his childhood was like and now navigating life after being a pro hero, All Might begins to spend more time looking for ways to help Quirkless youth feel less alone, fighting a villain of a different kind.
Do Not Go Gentle*
When pro hero—and Eri’s big brother—Deku saves her and sustains life-threatening injuries, Eri does the only thing she can think of. In desperation, she pushes her power and rewinds him, leaving Deku not only young but Quirkless again.
For Years I Have
Midoriya Inko, and coming to terms with a not-Quirkless son, her love and fears for him, and the mistakes she’s made.
Battles are First Lost in the Mind
At fourteen, Midoriya Izuku gives up on his dream of being a hero. He puts away his notebooks and resigns himself to a quiet, Quirkless life.
Four years later and as a new graduate from U.A., Kacchan swallows his pride, apologizes, and asks Izuku for help taking down the villain Shigaraki, hoping Izuku’s analytical skills can turn the tide.
Izuku isn’t sure, but in the end agrees; and four years after giving up he’s presented with his dreams in reach and an entire former class telling him he can be a hero.
changing the subject again and bite your tongue (until it bleeds)*
Midoriya Izuku never talks about being Quirkless, or about Quirklessness. No one would understand it. No one wants to try. The topic rarely comes up, until a new semester begins and there’s talk of a new, Quirkless student in Gen Ed looking to transfer into the Hero Course.
Then Quirklessness is all anyone wants to talk about. Now something Izuku can’t avoid, he struggles to deal with his own past, the piece of his trust he hasn’t extended to his friends, and a look into a life that might have been his.
Aizawa, Present Mic, and Shirakumo
when there’s blood in my ears, i’ll hold you closer
Present Mic had always had a rough time controlling his quirk. The day he finds out about Oboro, he slips. Aizawa is always there to comfort him (from @tolerantbean​).
It’s getting hard to breathe under here with you, my dearest nemesis
The villain Present Mic has a Quirk that could level buildings and cause a lot of destruction. The hero Eraserhead is one of the few people, if not the only person, who can stop him.
At the end of the day, Hizashi and Shouta are best friends, carefully tending to each other’s wounds and never speaking of either heroes or villains. Until a bigger problem forces them to work together.
an empty mirror only shows what's left inside*
Time loop AU. A few days after Shirakumo’s death, Shouta wakes up to find his best friend is alive again. Time has reset—and now Shouta finds himself racing to save Shirakumo this time.
It doesn’t work. Days pass. And the loop starts again.
A mystery forms in the pieces of a strange doctor, a missing body, and discrepancies in the local newspaper. As Shouta fails again and again to save Shirakumo, he must try to figure out why he’s caught in a time loop… and what seems to be happening to Shirakumo after his death.
Come Around (Your Song is Calling)
Hizashi has always known that he and his best friend Shouta are soulmates. It’s why they work. It’s why Hizashi can see the glittering thread that ties them together when no one else can, and in the deep silence when he touches it he hears music.
Shouta goes missing. The bond goes silent. But Hizashi refuses to give up on his friend—not now, and not ever.
shades of blue*
After graduating, Aizawa Shouta isn’t where he wants to be. His decision to go underground is a lot different than most of his peers, and with everyone busy planning debuts and looking for agencies, Shouta feels isolated. The reminder that Oboro doesn’t get to be a hero follows him, yet at the same time the Hero Commission sends Shouta somewhere his Quirk and his youth will be useful—to help infiltrate and take down an illegal Quirk fighting ring.
Unable to confide in Hizashi about the mission or his struggles, Shouta continues to work alone, distance straining his relationships. Pitted against kids only a few years younger than him, each of whom begins to remind Shouta of Oboro, and fighting to keep his head above water, Shouta must keep his secrets close to him or lose it all.
they’ll think of me kindly
It’s easier to think of society in black in white, in heroes and villains. But Aizawa Shouta doesn’t do easy, and Kurogiri—Shirakumo Oboro—certainly isn’t making things any better. In a bid for information and to return Kurogiri to the person he once was, the investigation team brings in a specialist with a Quirk that allows for two people to be temporarily joined mind-to-mind. To experience each other’s thoughts, emotions, and memories with the danger of losing themselves.
Shouta’s scared if he goes in he won’t come back, but he’s also desperate to reconnect with the friend he’s convinced is still in there. Kurogiri consents to the connection. And after deliberation, Shouta does, too.
Together, they’re not just hero and villain, but somewhere in between as Shouta looks for the memories that have been hidden from Kurogiri and relives a few of his own.
Teachers
to die like a martyr (is no way to live)
All Might is beginning to learn to live again, redefining a path of self-destruction after retirement and meeting Midoriya, when he sees his co-worker and friend Aizawa heading down the same lonely path he was on. Reaching out, All Might and Aizawa form a friendship and struggle together so they may continue to teach their students, and to live as people and not just heroes.
Dekusquad
holding you up (while the world crashes down)
Five times Izuku comforted his friends, and one time they comforted him.
Izuku & Bakugou/Platonic BKDK
Do No Harm
Bakugou goes missing when he’s seven. Years later, Izuku still believes he’s alive and out there.
He is—as a Nomu that falters when Izuku recognizes him and calls him “Kacchan.”
for you know my demons, and i know yours*
Izuku and Katsuki parted ways after a mission gone south a long time ago and their relationship soured, but that doesn’t mean that they’re not still drift compatible. A Pacific Rim AU.
let’s start with the past in front
Pro heroes Ground Zero and Deku are sent back in time to when they weren’t the friends they are now, forced to deal with conversations they never had, their younger selves’ broken relationship, while looking for a way home.
Memories of the Dead
Midoriya Izuku’s funeral is held in the summer. They bury an empty casket and look around at all the faces who have outlived him.
Katsuki goes. There’s a lot of reasons he attends Deku’s funeral—for Auntie Inko, for All Might, for Deku himself. Katsuki was the last to see him alive. They’d shared breakfast the same day Deku disappeared.
But Katsuki doesn’t go to Deku’s funeral because he’s dead. Katsuki goes with the hope and gut feeling that he’s alive.
Izuku
Your Claws Rend Flesh
Midoriya Izuku has never been allowed to stay out past sundown. He always comes home early to his mother, the only person who he won’t hurt when he transforms into a monstrous beast.
His new Quirk and U.A. complicate things, to say the least.
Bonus notes: There’s a reason why Inko is so protective of her son, and resistant to him being a hero.
can you hear me?
Izuku, a few years after his pro hero debut, lands himself an injury that keeps from work for a while. Seeing Izuku unsure of what to do, the Wild, Wild Pussycats invite him to spend summer on their property in the woods to recover and recuperate; and, of course, as an excuse for Kouta to see his hero.
He’s happy to slow down, spending time learning to take care of himself, and to enjoy the woods. As he gets his strength back, he hikes often with Kouta, until one day they’re separated when a storm hits. With only a set of walkie talkies connecting them, the two struggle to find each other and shelter, before anything worse happens.
5% luck, 20% skill
Principal Nezu takes on Izuku as a student.
Bakugou
Out of the Fire 
Bakugou as Gordon Ramsey... (from @aizawa-wears-crocs​). 
Snap
Katsuki is hit with a Quirk that dulls physical and emotional feelings. At first it seems fairly harmless to his friends, until he gets hurt and his reaction is much different than anyone expects.  
lead me down the road less traveled
When he’s young, Bakugou Katsuki decides what he wants to be when he grows up: a villain.
And Katsuki always gets what he wants.
Todoroki Family
the dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
There’s a ghost haunting the Todoroki mansion. Rumors say it drove Todoroki Rei insane. Shouto has never seen it himself, has only heard footsteps in the hallway sometimes, but one day he discovers the stories are true—and the ghost is someone he knows, his own brother.
The Fire Within You
Scared of the Quirk he’s inherited from his father, Midoriya Izuku runs away from home after a terrible accident. And though the police and his mother search desperately for Izuku, someone else has found him first - an older, scrappy boy whose Quirk is similar to his own. Dabi takes Izuku under his wing, and their meeting lights a fire that may never have started otherwise.
violets are blue | blood is red
Todoroki Rei has been receiving flowers from her husband. At least, that’s what Shouto believes until she goes missing. The key he has to find her is the blue flowers on her windowsill and a tenuous connection to a villain: Dabi, whose motives remain unclear yet who seems to have a particular grudge against the number one hero.
Arsonist's Lullaby
Here is one secret few people know about the Todoroki family: Todoroki Natsuo is Quirkless. He had no power over fire nor ice, and his father never speaks of his Quirkless son—or his dead one.
Studying health and welfare, Natsuo keeps his head down and his anger simmering. He’s no hero like Shouto. Without a Quirk and with too much resentment, Natsuo has never considered the life of heroics or anything related to it—that is, until a strange encounter where bleeding, dangerous villain Dabi asks Natsuo for his help.
Natsuo doesn’t know why he helps Dabi, nor does he understand why Dabi doesn’t seem to want to hurt him. But one encounter with the villain turns into more, until Natsuo realizes one day he understands Dabi better than his own father Endeavor. He doesn’t get why Dabi cares so much or why he feels safe around him. When Dabi offers to help Natsuo leave his life behind, Natsuo is faced with a choice… and his own family.
When the Glitter Fades
When Todoroki Shouto is hit by a mysterious Quirk, he drops, unconscious. Though his friends worry, there seem to be no visible effects. No damage. Nothing wrong.
But as the days pass, Todoroki just… doesn’t wake up. He’s caught in a neverending dream that shows him his own deep desires—his family, whole again and happy. And he doesn’t want to leave.
Digging Dreams Out of the Fire
Moments of recovery between Todoroki Rei and her son Shouto.
Eri
when there’s blood in my ears, i’ll hold you closer*
Even after Overhaul’s defeat, there are still villains looking for more Quirk-erasing bullets, and for the girl they come from. When Eri is nearly kidnapped, Aizawa makes the difficult decision to take Eri temporarily into hiding with him. But their safe houses aren’t as safe as they’re supposed to be either, and Aizawa begins to suspect that the Hero Commission has reasons to want Eri, too.
take your medicine
Aizawa Eri did not like doctors. This was a fact. Eri had also never received proper vaccinations in her very short life. Luckily, her big brothers Mirio and Deku are there to hold her hand, even as she begins to spiral in the waiting room (from @happi-tree​).
Other Characters of Class 1-A
Now You Don’t
Traitor!Hagakure AU. Class 1-A deals with their friend Hagakure’s mysterious disappearance, sharing their favorite stories of her and hoping for her safety as the search parties continue to come back empty-handed. Meanwhile, Tooru contemplates if going to the League was the correct decision - or if her new Sensei only sees her as another tool (from @happi-tree​).  
My Grand Plan
Hagakure Toru is surprised in her second year when she’s approached by a support and hero management firm that promises they will make people pay attention to her, but soon she accepts the offer to work together. But soon Toru realizes the firm’s support gear, plans, and inviting environment seems to cover something suspicious. And when they ask Toru for more information about her classmates and school, she begins to wonder if the support is for heroes or for villains.
visual (invisible)
Toru’s internship is drawing to an end, and though she’s grateful for the experience, she’s glad to be heading back to normal with classes and lunch with her friends without looking over her shoulder all the time. Not that anyone sees her, anyway, if she doesn’t want them to.
On her last day, she takes a bullet to the shoulder, and that’s when things fall apart.
They can see her. Toru’s friends, her classmates, her teachers: they can see her. It’s Toru’s childhood dream come true, all her prayers to the distant stars in the dark of night, her birthday wishes. No more going unnoticed. No more being invisible. No more of people looking right through her.
But it comes at the cost of her Quirk. Lost, unsure of her next steps, Toru has to figure out what it means to finally be seen when she’s been invisible her entire life, and what it means when she can no longer hide anything to anyone—or to herself.
balloons can’t make you fly
Five times Uraraka solved her problems by making them float, and one time she didn’t need her Quirk for it.
Don't ever tame your demons, but always keep them on a leash
When the Hero Commission gets involved with concerns about Hitoshi entering U.A.’s hero course due to his “villainous” Quirk, Hitoshi suddenly drops out of U.A. entirely, leaving his friends and teachers concerned about where he’s gone.
If the Hero Commission is law, Hitoshi makes the decision to defy it, taking a more direct approach to chasing his dreams: vigilantism.
Do you trust yourself?
Yaoyorozu Momo is supposed to be perfect. She is a recommended student, has a powerful Quirk, and comes from a family with a history of heroics.
But for all of her expectations, Momo knows she has one weakness: a crippling lack of confidence. But Momo’s friends and mentors are happy to teach Momo to trust herself.
A Momo-centric fic that spans her years at U.A. and her first steps as a hero.
Ignorance is Bliss*
Maybe Kyoka shouldn’t have been listening to Midoriya and All Might’s conversation, but she was curious. She ends up hearing more than she should—but not quite enough to get the full story.
Struggling to come to terms with “All Might’s legacy” and a connection to the villain who destroyed Kamino, All for One, Kyoka asks her classmate Todoroki for help unraveling a secret. The two form an unlikely team and friendship as they begin looking for the truth: about All for One, All Might, Midoriya, and the ties that bind them together.
Fear the Anger of a Kind Soul
There’s a bit of an unspoken rule in the dorms. Don’t mess with Uraraka.
Mineta tries. The story starts with him trying to sneak into her room, and ends with an expulsion, a few holes in the ceiling, and a social media post gone viral.
Dissociation Potion
Todoroki, in a spur of bad-decision making, makes a drink he found browsing social media.
It’s not pretty.
A Siren's Call
AU—Jirou Kyoka is an up-and-coming singer, known better as JACK!, pursuing her dreams in music after graduating. Her fast track through school and constant work leaves her lonely. Though she won’t admit it, she’s on the path to burnout; even as her fanbase grows, Jirou feels like no one really listens to her.
After performing at a Hero Gala, there are suddenly more eyes on her than usual, including villains. When she’s attacked, pro hero Creati saves her, and they become friends. Creati, or Yaoyorozu Momo, introduces Kyoka to more pro heroes; suddenly Kyoka has friends her age who like her music but more importantly like her.
Not everyone approves of Kyoka’s new friends, especially not her manager. Rumors start on social media. And a dangerous accident almost threatens to tear Kyoka’s friendships apart, but she’s determined not to lose the people she’s come to care for.
dancing with the devil in the pale moonlight
One by one, students at U.A. disappear overnight. No one knows where they’ve gone, or what happened.
Tension grows as parents panic, investigation turns up nothing, and the teachers search desperately for their students. That is, until Aizawa discovers a calling card left behind, half-hidden, on which is carefully written: Let’s dance.
What’s revealed is a Quirk trafficking ring—targeting powerful Quirks, with no better to choose from than the most prestigious hero school in Japan.
Cross the Delta
Asui Tsuyu knows even at the young age of seven that her froglike features make her an oddity amongst her peers. She tries to let their jeers and taunts slough off her like water, but they seep under her skin instead. A Hero with a Mutant Quirk helps her to see differently. Asui Tsuyu will become a Hero, oddity or not (from @happi-tree​). 
Miscellaneous
Revenge of the Roses
A non-deadly Hanahaki fic in which characters try to get each other to fall in love without falling in love back.
They’ve got a deadline: exams, when Hanahaki will get them out of it. They’ve got dates planned.
And, well, it doesn’t seem to be working. (Either the characters stay as friends and end up doing really nice things for each other, or they’re both falling in love. Oops.)
Run If You Can
Tensei’s hero career is— well, it’s over. There’s no wheeling around the fact, but that’s okay; he knows Tenya will be a great hero following in his footsteps and carrying the legacy of Ingenium.
It’s just that some days Tensei wheels down the hospital halls and realizes he’s become of the people that needs the saving, not the hero anymore. It’s just that some days he gets a call from the office or a bouquet of flowers and feels worse for the well wishes, not better. It’s just that some days he remembers it’s all over, and he’s one of the tragedies.
He doesn’t regret Stain. He doesn’t regret standing up to him, or lying in the street bleeding out knowing he might have saved someone else. But he doesn’t know what to do now.
There’s no running when you can’t run anymore.
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~Perfect Birthday~
Au: Kaishi
Part: twelve
Theme: Fluff? Comedy? Who knows lol
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(These 2 are going on an adventure)
"Buttercream? No that wont do. Vanilla with a touch of banana or Strawberry? Shoot! What about...hmmm...." You focused on the ingredients so hard that you were developing a light headache. Meanwhile, your husband sat across from you at the kitchen table, scrolling through his laptop for themes and present ideas. "Y/N, just settle on chocolate and call it a day." Kai announced while his eyes hovered on a Circus theme. He shuddered lightly at the thought of animals being involved. 'Absolutely not' he thought to himself. You sighed and put the ingredients list down. "I cant settle on Chocolate. I'm worried that someone might have an allergy to it. I'm also so worried about the vegan adults that might be here. What about the picky eaters too? Kai, I feel like I'm going insane right now." You gripped the sides of the chair you sat on. He peeked up at you and notices your incoming distress. He sighed and stood up to move behind you. He softly gripped each of your shoulders and began to give you an impromptu massage. "Stop worrying so much about it so much, Angel. Just do chocolate cake since its the brat's favorite flavor. We can go with a vegan cupcake option that should be safe for the people with chocolate allergies as well. As for the others, there will be other food and even beverage options. You're working so hard for people I dont even care about. This is all for my son and no one else but him. His happiness is my only concern."
You sighed and reached up to place a hand on your husband before turning to smile sweetly at him. "Kai, you're being sweet today." You teased him and he scoffed. "Anyway, I know you only want to focus on Kaishi but having other kids here for the first time, other than Ishida, is like his dream come true. It took me a lot of time to get on the parents good sides. It took a lot of time for them to want to bring other kids around Kaishi because if the yakuza affiliations. Had it not been for the fact that you've began working into charity for the city, I dont think anyone would've given us a chance. Bow we have parent friends, and now Kaishi has a chance for an amazing birthday this year. Let's not mess this up, okay? That means NO EXCESSIVE GERMAPHOBIA, and NO ANTISOCIAL BEHAVIOR okay?" You drilled it home at the end. He sighed in annoyance. "Ugh fine. I'll try to conversate with the other scum as if they never insulted the yakuza before. You had better be lucky I appreciate you and Kaishi at this point or this wouldn't be happening." Kai complained before pulling his medical mask down and kissing you lightly on your lips. "You two are being icky again. I'm going to tell Grandpa on you guys." Kaishi's voice brought you two back to reality. "Oh hush, and mind your business." Kai said as he ruffled his son's short hair playfully. Kaishi giggled and swatted the gloved hand away. He took a seat at the kitchen table next to Kai's laptop and peeked over to see what was on the screen. While you went to fix him some oatmeal, his father bolted to the seat and slapped the laptop closed. "No peeking. Havent you any manners?" Kai fussed lightly while Kaishi smiled. "Its okay daddy, I already know you two are planning my birthday for tomorrow." The boy said proudly. "That may be so, but it doesnt mean we cant at least surprise you with the decorations and food." Kai explained. You placed breakfast in front of Kaishi and sat down with your boys. Pops had just entered the kitchen at this point. "Family breakfast? Dont mind if I do." He smiled and took a seat next to you. "Grandpa, what will you give me for my birthday?" Kaishi asked excitedly. Kai flicked his cheek. "Dont be rude brat, respect your elders." He scolded him as Pops laughed. "Oh calm down, Chisaki my boy. My grandson is very calm at this age compared to how you used to act." Pops said with a smirk as you laughed and Kai blushed lightly with embarrassment. "Anyway, my Grandchild your gift will have to remain a surprise until tomorrow." Pops winked and Kaishi groaned. "Aw man. Well, mom/dad? What will you get me?" He turned to look at you in anticipation. You put a finger to your chin to think for a second. Then you snapped and made an 'Ah-Ha' expression. "I'm going to get you a fancy suit! Maybe I'll get some toys too. Just maybe, you'll have to wait and see." You teased him and he smiled. "Daddy, what about you?" He looked at Kai for an answer. "Just like Pops said, it will be a surprise. However, I'll take the time now to ask you what you want as a gift from all of us. It'll serve separately from the gifts we'll get you so dont worry." Kai watched his son expectantly as Kaishi searched his little mind. Seconds later he piped up excitedly:
"SMOOGLY!!!" He shouted happily and raised his arms dramatically in the air. You and Pops laughed while Kai tilted his head in confusion. "Smoo-what? Are you well? Are you speaking in tongues???" Kaishi giggled at his father's confusion. You turned towards Kai to explain. "Kai, Smoogly is a character from Kaishi's favorite show. He's this giant lollipop that dances and sings. Yknow, kids love that stuff." Kai stared at you for a second before nodding. Then he turned his attention back to Kaishi eating breakfast finally. "Alright then, you want Smoogly then that's what you'll get." After breakfast, Kaishi went to call Ishida on the phone. You monitored in awe, gushing as your baby talked to his little crush over the phone. The two were fast friends, and she was the first/only child in the class to accept and support Kaishi to the fullest degree. Meanwhile, Pops went to the backyard to water the flowers and feed the Koi in the pond. Kai headed out to the car to call Kurono/pick him up. "Chrono, I know I've given you the off day but I need a favor." Kai spoke on the car wireless phone while he drove. "Yeah man, what's up?" Hari answered from the other side. He was currently face deep in a 3rd bag of chips as he reclined on his sofa. "The brat's birthday is tomorrow and it's his first big one with other parents and children expected to be there. He wants some actor there to perform or something. Some thing called Smogie or Smothly or something like that."
"OHHHHH!!!! You're talking about Smoogly!" Hari shouted excitedly, his voice boomed over the car speakers. "Yeah whatever that mess is. Anyway, help me track him down and I'll give you tomorrow off to repay you from today. You can also have some leftover cake." Kai offered him. "Bet!" Kurono answered shortly before hanging up and getting ready. In moments Kai was at his door to retrieve him. The two men drove around for a bit while Kurono did some searching online. Lucky for him, it wasn't that hard to find Smoogly's booking information. "Found it, Kai. It says here that we can email and make a down payment, or call the home offices for a response in about...14 days." Kai almost slammed on the breaks. "14 days??? No that's not possible for a booking that could be denied. My Kaishi's birthday is tomorrow. We need to get this Smoogly there as soon as possible." He felt a bit of panic set in. Kai would never forgive himself if he couldn't get his son's biggest wish for his birthday. "Hey man chill. We'll just go to his office and speak to him directly. I mean, we've got a little pull when it comes to money. Also, we're yakuza so..."
"I know what you're thinking Chrono, and the answer is no. We cant push too many buttons or we'll end up leaving the gray area in which we operate in. I cant afford to get arrested on Kaishi's birthday." Hari rolled his eyes and shook his head. "Whatever man. Just take a left onto the main freeway and we should reach the exit in like 30 minutes. After that, we just follow the main road for 4 more minutes, take a right at the stop light, and turn off the Broadway drive. Smoogly's office should be right between a steak restaurant and a car dealership." Hari explained the directions. Kai nodded and the two were on their way. Once they made it to the offices, they took a number and sat in the waiting room. The wait wasnt uncomfortable to Kai...it was the old man across from them that kept coughing that made him uncomfortable. He felt hives pop up on his arms. Luckily the two were called before he went insane! Only minutes later they were standing before a chubby man smoking a cigarette behind a desk. He had dark hair, and was balding right in the middle of his head. His skin was just a step away from being super pale (no doubt because he had the costume on a lot) His noticable feature was the large mole on his cheek. He was clearly a foreigner from some city somewhere, thanks to his accent.
(!!!Reader, think about Carl from Aqua Teen Hunger Force!!!)
"Alright, what can I do for you two men? Wait a minute, you two are the tax guys right?"
"Uhhh, no. No we're here to inquire about an opening to hire you? The pay will of course be-"
"Yeah yeah yeah. Pay doubled blah blah. I've heard this a million times before. I get bastards like you that come in here every single day asking to pay extra just so I can come to your event. The moms are even worse since they also think they're entitled to my services." The chubby man interrupted Kai. "Please. It's my son's birthday. You see, this birthday is special because he's never had-"
"Pshhh...yeah buster, you're kid is special. Just like everyone else that's come in here before you to say the same thing. Bottom line is that I ain't doing it. If you want my services than file through email or take it up with the front desk. Deposits non-refundable if you get denied. Have a nice day." He put out the cigarette and picked up a rather inappropriate nude magazine. Kai looked at Chrono and sighed as if to say Hari can take over. Hari smiled darkly and went to approach the desk. The chubby man hadn't looked up from the magazine as he spoke. "Look man, I said piss off. What, you didnt get the picture the first time or-" he immediately froze and turned his attention to Hari when he heard the click of the gun. When he turned, he was staring down the glock.
Hari spoke up darkly. "Hey buddy, I'm a changed man but that doesn't mean shit is sweet. I've killed a dozen people before and I'm not afraid to go to prison. Either you do my nephews birthday party tomorrow, or we wear your face on a memorial T-Shirt. Fuck is it gonna be? Eh???" The man gulped and shakily reached his finger out to the voice machine on his desk. "Deborah cancel all my appointments tomorrow, I've got a birthday to go do." Hari and Kai smiled when they heard the voice reply 'Right away, sir.' They bid the man goodbye and left the office. The next day, Kaishi rushed to the backyard after taking a quick shower and getting ready. It was decorated beautifully with bounce houses, a splash area, party games, an extensive food/present table, swings, slides, etc. Most importantly, the parents actually showed up with their kids. Kaishi almost cried tears of happiness when he finally had friends to play with. Meanwhile, you and Pops chatted with the other parents until Smoogly arrived to perform. The kids absolutely loved every bit! Every once in a while, the Lollipop turned to look at Kurono standing in the corner, smirking menacingly and daring him to slip up just once. Smoogly quickly turned around and kept performing. At the end of his shift, he was paid extra just as Kai promised, and Kaishi got to take a picture with him. Finally it came time for presents. Kaishi was happy to receive so many gifts, but he was more eager to get his gifts from you, Kai, and Pops (even Hari got him a secret gift at the last minute). Kaishi smiled at the wooden box Pops had given him. When he opened it, it revealed a small pin on a soft cushion. It was shiny and brand new. It was the symbol of the Hassaikai, the infamous flower design. "My grandson, when your father was younger I had given him this very same gift. Please be sure to take good care of it." He gently placed a hand on Kaishi's head. The boy nodded excitedly and passed the box for you to hold while he opened up the remaining gifts. It was a surprise jacket from you to him. It was just a smaller version of Kai's jacket! Plus that suit you promised, and a few other Smoogly themed toys as well. From Hari, he recieved a new helmet for his new bike. Finally from Kai he received a matching mask. With the suit and the jacket, he was the matching embodiment of his very on father (aside from inheriting some of your skin tone depending on your color, my dear reader).
This was truly the perfect birthday.
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astraastro · 5 years
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Comfort from a Best Friend
Summary: Sometimes mother's aren't always right, but it takes getting comfort from a Best friend to realize this... (Bad summary)
Trigger warning: slight manipulation, anxiety attack or panic attack, crying, self deprecating, tears, unedited, please let me know if i missed anything...
"you have to stop with this anxiety thing! Along with being lazy and blaming it on your depression. It's ruining everyone's lives and it made me lose my job! Just get over it!"
Those words rang through his ears as he walked to school. It's been three days since his mother said that, but it still hurt.
Ever since he was young he's been a "shy" boy, but now he knew that he just had anxiety his whole life. Mental illness wasn't really common with his family besides bipolar. That was it.
So now that he's been diagnosed two years ago and barely getting the treatment, he thought they would at least help him with it.
He dreamed of the day his mother could help him with his anxiety attacks, or maybe his father could protect him, heck maybe even his sister comforting him.
But.
All they ever did was tell him they don't know how to help him.
"That's fine," he tells himself, "they don't know anything about anxiety or depression so it's only fair that they don't know..."
So why did it hurt him? Why was it so hard for him to accept that his anxiety and depression are a nuisance and he really should get over it.
Hell, it's his fault his mom lost her job because she had to call in three times because he had anxiety attacks. She even said it was his fault because mother's are always right, right?
_
He wiped his eyes as he entered his school. He never talked to anyone besides his three friends. Except, he's a senior and his friends are sophomores (although one of them is thinking about skipping grades). He rarely sees them, and the only one he sees daily is Patton in between his 5th and 6th period.
Just a brief second he sees Patton, but those few seconds changes his day from a depressing one to a happy one. Or just a decent day.
Patton is the only person he's ever talked to about his mental health. Patton understands because he also has depression and some anxiety.
He wishes his mom was as open and accepting as him. Well it isn't his fault his parents are divorced and his sister lives in another state with two kids. Actually it is his fault...
Wait, is it?
His parents say it isn't but always make a comment on how if he didn't do what he did then they wouldn't be divorced.
Was it his fault?
"stop that," he mumbled under his breath, seizing the thoughts.
'just be normal for once and don't think anxious thoughts,' he thought to himself.
He was almost to his first period class, there was still 20 minutes before school started, but he likes getting here early.
Right when he was about to sit down he felt his phone vibrates. Instinctively he checked his phone out of habit because what if his family had an emergency and he had to- STOP!
He shook his head and sat down at his seat and checked his phone. It was a notification from Facebook, he only had the app to keep in touch with his extended family.
He saw his sister post something, of course he was worried and opened the app. As it loaded he couldn't help but worry about her. His sister just had his new baby niece, so shes going through some stress right now.
When the post loaded he saw that she posted how she was feeling the postpartum depression and how she feels she isn't fit for a mother. He was going to comment on it but saw his extended family supporting her. Good, he didn't want to say the wrong thing so it's best not to-
He saw it...
His mother tagged his sister in a post saying "baby you will get through this depression, you are strong and i believe in you. I understand what your going through and you'll get through this, you can defeat this depression and get through. Remember mama loves yo..." He didn't bother reading the rest.
'Wait she understands depression?' he thought to himself as he felt his heart rate picking up. 'she knows how to comfort my sister but doesn't comfort me? Am I bad- No stop it Virgil, your sister is going through stuff far worse then you and- but!-'
His mind was racing at this point and he desperately tried to calm his breathing. He didn't want to call his mom again to pick him up.
He felt lost, school didn't begin yet and his teacher left the classroom. He felt the walls closing in, he wished someone could help hi-
"Patton!" He whispered loudly as he fumbled with his phone and opened up messenging.
"Patton, I need you, please answer" he sent with shaking hands.
He prayed to any god or whatever is out there that Patton answers. He heard a ding and looked at his phone.
"I'll be right there kiddo, I'm almost there"
Virgil put his phone down as he brought his legs up and wrapped his arms around it. He soon heard some footsteps and before he would comprehend to see if it was his teacher or another student, he saw Patton.
Patton looked around the room and saw Virgil curled up in a ball. He ran towards him and slowly starting counting his breathing while holding him ,with consent first, as he calmed down.
Virgil leaned into Patton as his breathing calmed. He always loved Patton's hugs because they were just so nice and comforting.
"thank you..." Virgil mumbled as he felt Patton tighten his grip around him.
"anytime virge..."
They sat like that for a little while longer before Patton got up and held his hand out for Virgil to grab. He took him to the boys room and made sure no one was in it before locking the door.
Patron soon grabbed a paper towel, wet it, and cleaned Virgil's face with it.
Virgil allowed him to do this, he always trusted Pat.
'why cant my mom do this?' he thought to himself as he leaned into Patton's touches.
_
When Patton was done he threw away the paper towel and hugged Virgil again.
"there we go, nice and clean" he smiles as he felt Virgil wrap his arms around him.
Virgil nodded but still felt tears build up as he tried to blink away the tears. Patton felt him shake and squeezed him for comfort.
"you don't have to tell me what happened, you can just cry here and i wont judge. Promise." Patton said.
And right after he said that Virgil broke down. He cried and sobbed, but it was very quiet. Virgil learned to quietened his cries because at night whenever he did cry he was too scared of waking his parents. He taught himself not to cry out loud, but it broke Patton's heart that he had to in the first place.
"my mom-" Virgil hiccuped and he held Patton tighter.
"my mom said that... Said that my anxiety and depression are a nuisance to everyone's life and...and that-" he was crying to hard to finish a complete sentence.
Patton felt his own fears starting to come down. He's only ever seen Virgil cry like this once, and that was during his grandma's funeral.
"she said it's my fault she lost her job and...and...she-she..."
"shh it's okay honey," Patton tried calming him down a bit as he listened to him speak.
"she said she doesnt-doesnt know how to comf-f-fort me yet she-she-e comforts my sister and it hurt knowing...knowing she doesn't care -and i..." He couldn't finish that sentence because the thought of it hurt.
Patton was devastated and furious at Virgil's mom. He held Virgil protectively and starting calming Virgil down.
"honey, your mom is wrong..." Virgil's head shot up at that statement.
He shook his head, "no she can't be wrong, she's always been right, she knows what she's saying, she...she..."
Patton shook his head, "Virgil as much as I love your mom, what she is doing is not right. And just because she's your mother doesn't always mean she's right..."
Virgil felt numb, his whole life he was taught that mother's was always right. That whatever came out there mouth was the truth.
No, he can't...she wouldn't...
Virgil just stayed as he was, feeling the tears run down his cheeks.
Patton felt his heartbreak as he saw his best friend comprehend the most agonizing truth. He couldn't take it anymore and grabbed Virgil's cheeks with both hands and made him look at him.
"Virgil, she is wrong, you are a strong young man who I am proud of. You are strong from going through these inner demons and I will do everything in my power to show you so. I can see who you are Virgil, the real you, and I'm not going anywhere because I love you virge. You are like a sibling to me and I couldn't ever wish for any other best friend..."
Virgil was shocked and smiled. He would have cried if he wasn't already crying.
"thank you, Pat..."
Patton shook his head, "no thank you for letting me into your life..."
Virgil hugged Patton and vise versa. They both stayed in each other's arms not even caring about the bell ringing.
Later on they'll go to Patton's house and talk more. Later on they'll get some ice cream and invite Romans and Logan. Later on Virgil will cry some more as he talks about everything to Logan and Roman as well. Later on he will get helped. Later on he will accept the fact that his mother wasn't always right...
But
Right now they were here and now in each other's warmth. They were in there safe haven away from all the negative. And Virgil could live with it. Hes strong, he'll get through it.
Fin
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what the parents dont understand:bipolar
one minute i feel okay.
the next 60 seconds i feel myself going again
almost like myself running from myself, but its uncontrollable
only i dont want to run.
i try holding in and pushing the next episode from popping up.
i try distracting. i try writing. i try coping. i try talking. i try reaching out.
reaching out.
reaching out becomes impossible when my dad gets mad at me for not wanting to contribute in the house.
reaching out becomes impossible when my mom tells me to go take a walk on the treadmill, or get up and do something.
reaching out becomes impossible when my own therapist says they are panic attacks.
reaching out becomes impossible when they dont understand it. i call whats going on in my fucked up brain, IT.
i try describing IT.
IT is terrifying.
one minute im okay. the next i feel IT coming up. i dont want IT to come up. i try describing IT as bipolar because bipolar 2 is the only thing that relates the most to IT.
december 30th, early morning was the first time i had an episode. the episode of everything being a constant GO GO GO GO JUST FUCKING GO. mind racing. not being able to control my thoughts, or the pace of them, because god, they were going over 1,000 miles per hour. and thats not over exaggerated. i touched a food, and i felt strange. so strange it made me feel trapped. somehow trapped. the next minute, after going and going and going, i look up, and everything is not connected. i call that disassociating. i get confused. i look at the time and time has gone way to goddamn fast. i dont feel like im in my body, because my body would be able to feel normally, and control myself. control my pace. i felt like the definition of insane. the best way could ever describe it is “fucking crazy” the next thing i knew, i whipped up a huge breakfast which i hadn’t done in months, possibly years. and i say years because the only time i ever made a breakfast like that was when i had sleepovers. specifically a sleepover with lauren.
i had to be alone. i couldnt control having anyone around me. or anyone adjusting what i was doing. that would just be goddamn overwhelming. and if anyone would come and control what was going on.. i would destroy. then that feeling came up. destroy. destroy. destroy. destroy everything. i felt like peeling my skin off, tear down everything in my room. rip out my hair. anything.
i felt disconnected. everything has dissociated.
IT had crawled into my skin and made a nest. a nest that you put an ember in and blow until a great big fire arises. only i did not blow that ember.
restlessness came about.
episodes continued. january 7, 8th, 14th, 15th, 16th, 17th, 20th, 21st, 22nd, 23rd, 24th, and then i stopped documenting it in my journal. it became too much. they continued 27th, 30th. february 1st and 2nd.
i dont know how to describe IT, because i dont even know how to describe IT.
IT has intense ups and downs. they usually happen in a span of minutes or can take an hour. maybe hours.
i feel okay. then i feel sad. then i feel angry, then i feel crazy happy, then i feel optomistic, then i get sad again. then i dont only feel trapped, but i get trapped. i get trapped in these episodes.
i cant control them.
i cant breathe through it.
lately ive been angry. more like rageful. and i have no reason to be. its not me. i promise its not. it is the fucking “IT” which i believe is bipolar.
i feel insane. i feel i dont know whats going on with me, because i cant control anything. i cant stop my racing thoughts. i cant control my impulses. i cant control when the episodes come. i cannot control IT.
my body sensations sometimes give me a detector of when they start. sometimes my mind too.
i start getting itchy. i feel heaviness in my chest. i start doing something, then i look up and im disconnected. the time has gone by so fast, and thats because of the go go go.
i sometimes, and sometimes meaning ever since this all started, spend HOURS doing my makeup. i spend HOURS watching tv. i spend HOURS looking on what to buy online. i spend HOURS in my restless thoughts.
i fight with my friends and ruin relationships.
i reminisce on my trauma.
i spend way to much money. way too much money that my dad doesnt want me to spend. i know i shouldnt, and he works his ass off to make that money, but once i go, i go. i cant think. i cant manage my impulses.
i go back and forth on making a decision of relapsing.
i think too much about drugs, which build up the cravings.
i think too much on someone who broke my heart.
i think too much about how im feeling.
IT leaves me thinking that my mind is so fucked up, that i should fuck up my body. fuck it up with hard drugs. it leaves me thinking that if i match how i am mentally, i should physically. not for attention or pity, but to really become what i am. the cravings are there. and are there loud and scary.
“IT” has episodes that pop out of nowhere. i cant control any of it and thats the worst part. i dont know when they will come.
IT is not only crazy episodes. and restlessness. IT causes me to feel glued to where i am, and i dont want to move or get up. im scared to. i get tired emotionally. so tired emotionally, i physically get tired. so tired i feel like i cant fucking walk. “contribute” is a word my dad uses. well i cant contribute around the house. i isolate and cant get out. i isolate from the people i love most. and i want to isolate but i do
i want to stop feeling this way. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. and i dont fucking want it.
thats where the suicidal thoughts come in.
i dont want to live this rollercoaster.
doctor, any fucking doctor. calm my mind. calm these thoughts. slow them down. slow down my body. slow IT down. IT is too goddamn much.
dont say this is a panic attack. this is far, far, far from a panic attack. this is another realm i have entered into.
i know panic attacks very very well. this is more than far from one.
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dailysarina · 5 years
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The Sarina Project
Ok so I gotta put a little A/N at the start of this one beacuse I realized I have to make a litttttllllleee change to this story. Soz. Annyywaaayyyy... I’ve decided to change the POV from first person to third person, which I know is probably SUPER annoying for you but I promise this chapter would work better if it was not just from Karina’s POV. So I hope y’all are ready for some ~e p i c~ punk!Sarah thoughts ^-^
The Sarina Project
Chapter 18: I Hate My Freinds
“Are you sure your ready to do this?” Emily viciously inquired of DJ, who just happened to be sitting next to her. (A/N: Remember, Karina is NOT narrating this she is NOT HERE hehe ^-^)
“Are you kidding??? I’m literally James Bond,” DJ said, popping the p. “I’ve snuck into like 15 classrooms already this year.”
“OMG ME TOO!” Emily said back in response to DJ.
“Ya exactly we snuck into those classrooms together,” DJ unimpressedly said. They both laughed at Emily’s forgetfulness.
“Haha,” she laughed, giggling.
“Ok lets go,” DJ said, immediately jumping into a James Bond somersault and kicking the door to the classroom. Emily crept in behind him, her greenish, hazelish, slightly brown speckled balls of sight gazing over the cold, lifeless, OPPRESSIVE, torture seats... aka... DESKS. (A/N: hahahahhahaha I hate school sum1 halp plz 😭😂)
“There’s no one in here,” Emily said after about ten minutes observations.
“Wow it’s not like I can see the exact same classroom,” DJ sarcastically quipped back at her in such a tone that only DJ could recreate.
“Just get to the desk,” Emily said, deciding to suddenly use her gymnastics skills to backflip across the room and onto the teacher’s desk.
“Wow I, definitely good enough for the olympics if I can do that,” Emily said, obviously very very proud of her recent accomplishments. Ever since she was two days and fifteen hours and 32 minutes old, she had wanted to be an Olympic gymnast. Gymnastics was her LAIFE!! (A/N: Chipotle is laiiifffeee heh XD). DJ rolled his brown orbs he used for seeing almost every day back into his head at Emily’s showyoffiness and walked over to the same teachers desk Emily was standing on.
“I saw Mrs. Bersbedasukeon put the paper with our group project partners on the third drawer from the bottom on the right said,” DJ told Emily, DABBING and pointing toward the correct drawer. Emily pulled open the drawer and grabbed the single piece of paper sitting on there. A piece of paper that could change the life of ALL THE NAMES ON IT. This paper would be the most sacred thing Emily would touch in a long time.
“This piece of paper is so precious,” Emily hugged the paper to her chest while violently popping her p’s.
“Just switch the names!!!!,!!!!!!!” DJ annoyingly said, banging on the desk to gain Emily’s attention back. Emily nodded and started whiting out a few names on the paper with... WHITE OUT; which she had conveniently stashed in her coat pocket and had just pulled out for this specific reason.
(A/N: okiiii idk how to describe this next part because it always plays like a movie in my head... if that makes sense... IDK. But anyway I’m gonna write this next part like a script so it’s easier for y’all to understand. Remember dailysarina cares about her followers!!! ;))
Emily: *quickly runs white out over a few ^convenient^ names*
DJ: *rewrites the new group partners aS THEY SHOULD BE*
“Good. That’s good,” Emily said as DJ forged the teachers’ handwriting. Then the super sneaky spy duo (A/N: “Nice use of alliteration” -Mr. Scoggins, my English teacher haha jk I would DIE if he read this lol xD) left the classroom until the next day.
THE NEXT DAY............,,....
I enter through the doorway to my art class, brushing my newly dyed pink hair out of my eyes and adjusting my lilac colored flower crown. ‘I wonder if Sarah will notice my hair?’ I wonder. Wait. WHY DID I THINK THAT?? Ugh this is so annoying. Sarah is literally the scariest person I’ve ever seen and yet I am CONSTANTLY worried about what she thinks of me. What is up with that?? It probably just because I’m a weird person, and that’s what weird people do. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
“Ew your hair looks like a fairy threw up on it,” Sarah quipped at me the second I walked in the room, without even making eye contact. What the heck?!??,.! Why is she so MEAN? “You also look like that girl from LazyTown.” OH THAT’S IT.
“Yeah, well... you look like Susie from DELTARUNE!” I screamed back at her, crossing my arms in satisfaction. I can’t believe I actually stood up to her! She didn’t get mad and punch me in the face like I thought she would. She didn’t even yell another insult back at me. She just smiled a bit, and went back to drawing a skull and cross bones on her ripped jeans with eyeliner. I skip over to a giggling Emily and DJ, who were sitting at the table next to Sarah, and sit down, fluffing the skirt of my light pinkish salmon dress as I sit.
“What are you laughing about?” I say to my freinds, who seem to be cackling about something I don’t know about. Are they laughing at me?? I wouldn’t be surprised if they were, considering all my old friends at my old school started bullying me for being weird. UGH! WHy is being weird so hard in high school??
“Nooooiittththhhhhiiiiinnnnnnngggggggg............” the blonde haired girl and the brown eyed boy said in complete unison. Ok, that was creepy, I’m just going to ignore that.
“I will now read out the partners I’ve assigned for this art project y’all will be working on,” our teacher, Mrs. Bersbedasukeon yelled at us. I really hope I get a good partner that doesn’t make fun of my pink hair. And I rreeeeaaallllly hope I don’t get Sarah. ANYONE BUT SARAH.
“The first pair will be Karina and Sarah.”
...
...
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
“Ummm, can I please- but I am cut off by the rudest teacher to ever exist. She just goes on giving out partners like I don’t have a problem with mine. HOW RUDE IS THAT
“Ugghhhhhhh now our project is gonna be covered in rainbows and glitter and pink flowers, gross.” Sarah said, banding her head on the table. I feel like I’m about to cRY. THIS IS GONNA BE H O R R I B L E. why does all the horrible stuff always have to happen to me? My life sucks,
“Well have fun with you Project, you guys,” Emily quips sarcastically, popping the p, but I did NOT think it was funny. She gets to work with DJ, and that’s NOT FAIR. why can’t THEY work with Sarah???” At least they sort of l i k e her.
This is probably all their fault.
I hate them sooooooo much. :( 😭
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WHOOOAAAAAAAA CLIFFHANGERRRRRRRR!!! xD. Soz that this chapter was a little confusing but a lot of stuff that needed to happen so the story can finally pick up (I can’t believe I’ve written 18 chapters!!!) I honestly think this is the best thing I’ve ever written, but REMEMBER. I have NEVER written anything before this is my FIRST time trying fanfic and I really don’t want anyone to judge me. Don’t be r00d LOLOLOLOL.
On a different note........ my mom is FINALLY taking our family to Chicago and I’m literally going to be spending all week hunting for my two favorite people EEEEEEEEEE. I’m hoping to see them at least 7 times, maybe more? I mean I know what kind of places they like to eat at and where they hang out with people (don’t ask me how I know I’ll never tell hehehehe) so it shouldn’t be too hard to find them. By the end of the week they’re gonna LOVE ME! xD xD Anywayyyyy because of that I probably won’t be writing another chapter next week, but I will still be posting d a n k memes about our children! Dailysarina is signing off now hehe. Peace!!! ✌️
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Daughters (A Stranger Things Drabble)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Fandom: Stranger Things Words: 1855
One of my few non-terato related stories, about a year and a half old. This is a stand alone fic about Hopper showing Eleven the birth certificate from Dr. Owens and explaining what it means. Hopper opens up about his lost daughter, Sara. Feedback is appreciated.
Eleven sat on the couch covered in a thick blanket, watching a particularly old western that made very little sense to her, when she heard the special knock on the door.
Without taking her eyes off of the T.V., she reached out mentally and snapped open the four slide locks and the deadbolt with little effort. She heard Hopper enter the cabin, tap his boots against the door frame, and shut the door, though she didn’t turn to look at him. He had gone on his off-day without telling her why, and that, in her experience, was never a good thing. She was a little apprehensive to learn what exactly he’d been up to while he was away.
He stepped around the couch to turn the T.V. off and then sat down beside her, laying two envelopes on the coffee table. One was slim and white, and the second was big, brown, and overflowing.
“What’s that?” Eleven asked, nodding her head at them.
He didn’t answer right away. He sat hunched forward with his elbows on his knees, rubbing his mustache with his right hand, looking down at the brown envelope.
“I went to see Dr. Owens today,” Hopper mumbled from behind his hand.
Eleven’s heart rate accelerated in alarm.
“Bad man,” Eleven said in a nervous whisper.
“Nah, he ain’t all bad,” Hopper said. “He had something for me. Well, it’s for both of us, actually.” He reached for the white envelope and handed it to her. She took it gingerly.
Opening it, she pulled out a blue paper with writing she didn’t understand. “‘Cert…certificate of birth?’ What does that mean?”
“It’s a paper the parents get when a baby is born. Then when that baby gets old enough, they keep it. It’s proof.”
“Proof of what?”
“Life. Existence.” Hopper turned to her. “It shows who your parents are, where you came from.“ He pointed. “It’s also got a social security number.”
“What’s that for?”
“In American, you have to have a social security number to do just about anything. Go to school, get a job, etc. That number is your whole life.”
She frowned at the digits on the page, then the ones on her arm. “Another number.”
“Yeah,” Hopper laughed. “We all got ‘em, kid. I guess most of us are lucky that it’s not our name, too.” He jerked his chin at the paper. “Keep reading.”
“‘This certifies that in the state of Indiana, Jane Hop…’” She looked up at him. “Hopper?”
He nodded solemnly.
“‘Was born in Hawkins, child of Teresa Ives, Mother, and James Hopper… Father.” She looked back at him and lowered the paper, though still clutched it in her fingers. “I don’t understand. What does this mean?”
“Means it’s official,” Hopper said. “We’re family. You’re kinda stuck with me now. Sorry ‘bout that.”
She shook her head, but didn’t say anything. She was feeling a lot of things she hadn’t experienced before and couldn’t properly name, and was having difficulty sorting through them. She stared hard at the paper for a few minutes. Hopper watched her quietly; he seemed to be giving her space to process all this and room to react. Perhaps preparing for a storm, if she wasn’t happy about the arrangement.
After a few minutes, she folded the paper again and gave it back, which he placed on the table next to the large brown envelope.
“What is that?” She asked.
Again, he didn’t answer immediately, and when he did, it was with a very heavy sigh.
“Well... since we’re family now, I figured I should introduce you two.”
He reached into the brown envelope and pulling out everything that was inside it. There were drawings, old elementary work sheets, coloring pages, but most of it was pictures. Sifting through, he extracted a photograph of a small, blonde-haired, blue-eyed child, wearing a frilly blue dress, smiling widely. Her curly hair was pulled up into two pigtails with aqua blue bands.
“Is that Sara?” Eleven asked tentatively.
Hopper nodded. “This was her first grade class photo. Just a month or two before everything went to shit.” He found another photo, in this one, Hopper was sitting with Sara and a blonde haired, blue-eyed woman who strongly resembled Sara. Hopper was clean-shaven in the picture, and they were all smiling.
Eleven pointed to the woman.
“That’s Diane,” Hopper said. “We were married. Then Sara died. Then we weren’t married anymore.”
“Why?”
“My fault mostly,” Hopper said, staring at the picture. “She wanted to move on, try and get her life back, but I couldn’t let go. I started drinkin’, lost my job because I stopped showing up, all kinds of things that she quite understandably didn’t want to deal with. I wouldn’t have wanted to deal with me, either.”
“Where is she?”
“Philadelphia. She got remarried a few years ago, had herself a new little baby boy. She’s doing good. She’s happy.”
He reached into the pile of papers and drew out another certificate, like the one Hopper got from Owens, but from a different state. The name on the top line was “Sara.”
“She’d be your sister,” He said, staring at the type font as though he couldn’t see anything else. “She’d have loved a sister.”
The emotions that had been swirling in Eleven’s body had settled, and of the remaining ones, the most prominent was sorrow. “What was she like?”
Hopper’s chin shook, and she thought he might not be able to talk about it, but he said, “She was so smart. Smarter than me. Got it from her mom, I guess. She’s so interested in science and space and all that stuff.” He plucked at the aqua blue bracelet around his wrist. A tear fell from his eye and disappeared into his beard.
“She was gonna grow up to be a paleontologist and also an astronaut doctor. Not an astronaut that was also a doctor, a doctor that only treated astronauts.“ He smiled. “She was gonna have thirty kids, but she wasn’t gonna get married cause boys were gross. She was going to do so many things.” More tears fell, and he wiped his nose on his sleeve. “She never got the chance to do anything.”
Emotions can be infectious, especially when the person exhibiting them was so stoic and self-contained ordinarily. Eleven could feel tears on her own cheeks as Hopper spoke.
“Her birthday was April 17th,” He said. “She would have been seven if she had made it that long. She nearly made it.” The tears were falling freely now. He didn’t even attempt to wipe them away. Eleven wondered if he had ever said these things to anyone. She knew vaguely that most people in town didn’t even know he had had a daughter.
“A few months after, I came home and Diane was packing up Sara’s room. Just pulling down everything and stuffing it into boxes. I asked what she was doing… and she said she was donating it. That she couldn’t stand looking at it all every day. And I got so… angry. It was like she was just throwing her away and I couldn’t believe she could do that. I over-did it a little; I yelled a lot, started throwing things. That’s when she kicked me out for the last time. That,” He pointed to the pile. “Was all I managed to save. That’s all that’s left of Sara.
“Well,” He said, “That and this.” He pulled the bracelet off of his wrist and toyed with it a little. ”She used to wear these stretchy blue hair bands, like, every day. She had all kinds of different bows and hair things she could’ve worn, but she always wanted these.
“One day, while she was on chemo, she pulled them out so she could take a bath, and all her hair came with them. After that, she couldn’t wear them anymore. I was going to throw them away, but she made them into a little bracelet and had me wear it. She said she wanted to save them for when her hair grew back.”
His face crumpled. Holding the little blue bracelet in both hands, he pressed it against his forehead and wept.
Eleven pulled herself up to her knees and hugged Hopper around the shoulders, crying into his neck. They stayed that way for some time.
When Eleven drew back, inexplicably, the blue bracelet was now circling her wrist. She looked at Hopper questioningly as she reached to pull it off.
He stopped her. “No, you should have it,” He said. “She’d want you to have it. I want you to have it, too. We’re family now.”
She smiled and her lip quivered. She nodded and looked at the bracelet. A tenuous connection to a sister she’d never meet. She looked at the two certificated on the table.
“Sara was your daughter,” Eleven said slowly, carefully. “Does this mean that I am, too?”
“Yeah,” He said, regaining composure. “That’s exactly what that paper means. You’re my daughter. I’m your dad. Officially.”
“Just officially?” Eleven said.
Hopper shook his head. “No, not just officially. If you want, it could be for real.”
“For real,” Eleven repeated. “Not like Papa.”
“No, not like Papa,” Hopper said seriously. “I know he wanted you to call him that, but was there ever a time when he called you his daughter? Treated you like a dad is supposed to?”
Eleven shook her head emphatically.
“No, because he doesn’t even know what it means. I doubt he’s ever really loved anything. Certainly not you.” Hopper looked down at the two certificates. “I loved Sara. And I love you, too, kid.”
Eleven had never once in her entire life heard those words. The swirl of emotions was back, but this time, the most out-standing one was joy. Incapable of speech, all she could do was smile and cry.
Hopper reached out an arm and Eleven hugged him around the middle, resting her head on his chest. He squeezed her tight with both arms and planted a peck on the top of her head. After some time had passed, they let go of each other, but she took his hand and held it. They both needed the comfort of touch right then.
Eleven dared to picked up a drawing and asked Hopper what it meant. He told her it was supposed to be a dog-velociraptor, laughing. It went on like this for several hours: Eleven would choose something from the pile, and Hopper would explain what it was; tell little, loving stories about Sara’s brief life, and then he would put it back into the envelope.
When they had gone through the entirety of the pictures and papers, all that was left were the two certificates sitting side by side on the table. The only thing they had in common was the line, “James Hopper: Father.” He folded them and put them both in the brown envelope and sealed it. This wasn’t just old memories anymore. It was proof, just like Hopper had said. The love of a man for his daughters.
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onlyjihoons · 7 years
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demon!jihoon
a/n; very much inspired by jihoon's demonic lenses he wore here?? and this prompt!i would also like to thank @hwinkinghwi for the demonic(?) moodboard hehe,,,happy early halloween!
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jihoon is one of the most cunning demons
he would actually use his ungodly looks to his advantage to get his way
almost everything his goddamn face will make people give in/compromise
sometimes he uses his evil to help kids out
like, he sees a kid being bullied at a playground or something, he would give retribution by shoving sand down the bully's shirt??
(i have no idea how demons work so please spare me)
but other than that jihoon is pretty cynical
when he disguises himself as a mortal, he looks normal, until you look at his eyes,,,
theyre a light blue
they arent even contacts, like theyre just his eye colour
people just believe his lie that those are prescription contacts LOL
jihoon is being notorious for the senior who uses his looks to get through anything and everything
but not his grades lmao
so he's two years older than the kids taking their college entrance exam
basically he just wasted 2 years of his life in school
but he just wants to live off fellow demon!seongwoo,, so he just, doesnt study and goes to school
but seongwoo found out about it,, and made sure jihoon spends his legit last year in high school or jihoon would be ugly in his next life LOL
you're a senior in high school, trying to make the best out of your dying grades
you do know jihoon, but avoid communication as you're an angel
like legit,, angel
you were an angel thanks to your mother, who was involved in the heaven
and she wanted you to live a sin-free life as much as possible
ok now back to avoiding jihoon
why avoid communication?
for a simple reason;
you had a crush on him
and the rule of thumb your mother bestowed upon you was
"you can date anyone but demons"
and you were well aware jihoon was a demon, as your halo(which was invisible to the eyes of mortals) were blinking whenever jihoon would be near you
and you just didnt like the idea of dating a handsome asshole
fun fact: jihoon used to be an angel until he was involved in the 101, which made him evil
you knew jihoon relatively well due to the fact he used to be an angel
he was your childhood friend
always protecting you and looking out for you
your crush on him developed even before he became a demon, and didnt falter even when he wasnt a angel
but the both of you grew distant as your mother would warn you not to play with fire
you were taking a media studies elective as a subject and there was a coursework you had to do
which involved acting w a partner of the opposite gender
and to your luck, jihoon was the only student in the class who took media studies
not knowing anything between the both of you, your teacher assigned the both of you as partners LOL
to make things worse, the story was
romeo and juliet
how ironic lmaoooo
meaning, you had to kiss jihoon
or rather, jihoon had to kiss you
because your teacher chose the last scene, which had the least lines, for the both of you to "ensure your distinctions"
and the both of you just had to bite the bullet and take it because you'd want to graduate from school quickly and attempt to wash the sins of kissing jihoon away by doing more good things in college
while jihoon just wanted to get this thing done and over with
you told your mom about it, she was okay with it, but she still warned you not to fall for jihoon
though, your dad is a demonxangel
its a given that you and jihoon had to stay after school to run through the script
and every time you and jihoon renact the last scene, your breath hitches in your throat and you hiccup
or on days where you just burst out laughing and accidentally spit on jihoon
he actually wasnt that mad about it because 1. he knew how hard it was to keep one's composure in a kiss scene WITH THEIR CRUSH
2. he just thought you were cute
despite jihoon not kissing you for practices
which you were thankful for or else you cant sleep at night
until,,, the day of the assesment
everything went fairly smoothly, and the dreaded kiss of life was very soon approaching you
you thought jihoon wouldnt kiss you like he did in practices
bitch you thought
he kissed you on the lips and you were trying your best not to shoot your eyes open in shock
and of course,, the kiss of life received a standing ovation from the teachers who were really impressed
because most students dont actually kiss lmao
so you had to drag jihoon aside after yhe assesment and he had that stupid smile on his face
"cant you see i like you???"
you were stunned and also happy
but you had to keep your promis to your mom
"im sorry jihoon, i cant be your girlfriend"
boy he was shocked because he was never rejected
"why?"
"because," you bit your lip, contemplating wheter to tell jihoon
"because??"
"angels and demons cant be together," was all you said before leaving jihoon hanging
you and jihoon never talked until,,, halloween
which, you decided to go as yourself to your friend's halloween party at universal studios
you wore a plain white dress,, and wore a halo headband
pretty basic and simple but you really didnt care and just tried to dress nicely
apparently her parents rented the whole theme park for a private party lol
your friend was asking why you didnt bring jihoon along as your "plus one"
and you just shrugged,
"shit happened and we arent really talking anymore"
she got the hint immediately and stopped mentioning jihoon
meanwhile, jihoon was also dressed as himself
his hair was dyed a lighter blonde and wore a v neck black button up w ripped jeans,,,,,, and wore a choker on his neck too
basically all-black and looking good as heck
when he arrived every girl turned their heads and were shookt
like he barely needed to do anything to look THAT good
"a demon" was what he replied,, but he was laughing inside as people dont know his real identity
he was just enjoying the atmosphere of halloween where people dressed up and didnt care if their make up was shit,, its halloween anyway
he was just chilling and walking around w fellow demon!baejin when he saw someone carrying a girl in a white dress,,,
and that girl in a white dress seemed too familiar...
that when it clicked and he had to abandon baejin to save you
when he stopped the figure holding you, he ripped off its mask and revealed someone he wouldnt expect
lai guanlin
"guanlin, what are you doing?"
"i..i can explain--"
"explain what? drugging y/n and bringing her somewhere to hurt her?!" 
at this point jihoon was really really angry, his irises turned red
"who made you do this?”
“i can’t tell you--”
“im severing all ties with you if you dont tell me.”
“okay okay! seongwoo-hyung made me do it,, he just wanted to mess with you. nothing poisonous was fed to y/n! i swear!”
jihoon could only sigh and roll his eyes, as he motioned guanlin to come closer to him
and when he did, he twisted guanlin’s ear, making the younger groan in pain,,, while still holding onto you LOL
“help seongwoo-hyung again and not only your ears would be red,” jihoon snapped, as guanlin helped to load you on jihoon’s back
jihoon was contemplating where to bring you to,,, in this state where you were fast asleep
he decided to bring you back to your home
of course, with you on his back was pretty crazy
people were staring at him, thinking that he got a girl drunk lmao
but some people were noticing how cute he was and he’d just blush and try to hide his face??
meanwhile you were still sleeping, and jihoon made your head lean on his shoulder
and it was quite a scene bc a literal angel leaning on a literal demon’s shoulders??? p sadistic but cute at the same time
he knew the exact route to your house because it was almost like muscle memory,, he always came over to your house during the weekends when the both of you were childhood friends
when jihoon knocked on the door he was pretty nervous to how your mom would react
“y/n youre--jihoon?”
“sorry you have to see this, but y/n got drugged by someone... i saw her and i had to save her”
“ah, i see...” your mom was weirdly happy that no one but jihoon saved you??
“her room is the last bedroom to the right...” your mom pointed, “i think you should stay over, it’s quite late.”
“but i don’t have any clothes...” jihoon smiled nervously 
tbh how is he not tired after holding you for so long;)
“its fine! daniel has some clothes he cant wear anymore, you can use those.”
casually slips in olderbrother!daniel
jihoon was reminded of the times where your mom would take care of him p well, he was so touched that her heart didnt change over the years despite being a demon himself
“thank you mrs y/l/n, please rest early too!”
thats when your mom muttered something about him calling her mom
“excuse me?”
“yeah i will sleep soon, when daniel comes home.”
as jihoon entered your room, it was clean, and like a typical teenage girl’s room, with fairy lights and wall decorated with polariod pictures
after he settled you on your bed, he looked around your room and spotted a picture of the both of you amidst all the polariods
it was the both of you during your freshman year,, he took you to smoothie king because you were having a bad day
he smiled, but then sighed at the thought that your mother didnt allow you to date demons
but she was liking him so much she wanted yall to get married right there
all he could do was kiss your forehead and ruffle your hair
when he was about to leave he felt something tugging on his arm
“don’t go...” 
you were sleeptalking lmao
jihoon hence slept at the side on your bed, while holding your hand
the next morning, you woke up to a weight on your hand, and you saw a blonde head 
you were surprised so you screamed
and you woke jihoon in the process
“w-what”
“what are you doing here?”
“well...” jihoon scratched his head sheepishly 
“...”
“what-- y/n! i know im a demon but no, i would never do that”
“then?! what are you doing here, in my room, in your...outfit”
“because you told me to stay??” jihoon raised his eyebrows
shit he heard that, you cursed internally
“but thank you for saving me.” you blushed
“that’s it?” jihoon smirked, “no thank you kiss?”
“what?why?”
“because you are mine.”
shit i cringed so hard but smth jihoon would say tbh
“but my mom--”
he then interrupted your words with a kiss, which worked
“i can bet you my life saving that she is peeping at us right now,” jihoon whispered
and yes she was, peeking at the both of you and you could see her punching the air in victory
dating demon!jihoon is just like dating a huge fluffball
and takes revenges on your behalf if anyone dares to hurt/offend you
but sometimes hes hella r u d e 
like randomly flipping his hair and winking
and whenever he trips,,
“i think i fell for you”
like p l e a s e  s t o p
still has the innocence in him despite being a demon
like lighting up in front of candy
and buying you stuff in a non-evil way
your mother openly supports your relationship with jihoon
like 
“yes yall my son in law is jihoon,, isnt he handsome??”
and you had to shut her up everytime she starts talking about jihoon
sometimes you wonder if she forgot that youre her child and not jihoon
overall, a relationship most wouldn’t expect but still ship together
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gayregis · 4 years
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OK first episode reactions
OHHH that was THE KIKIMORE............... im glad we get to see the fight because i mean. i would want some money for doing that crazy shit too. also you noticed how he killed the deer because he was probably starving. 
the moment of hesitation before he enters the tavern......... OK... [jaskier or yennefer voice] dont you just wanna stroke his gross dirty white hair
wait the uhhhh... “tavern scene” occurs in the witcher right, so i dont have to be scared bc this is the lesser evil, right, right, maybe not, idk what theyre switching around
the fucking cease of noise as geralt walks in.... the MOOD
cavill is like way too fine to be playing geralt rn i mean this shot where he says point me to the aldermans house is really showing off his profile. i feel sympathetic for this pretty pretty man
oh im regretting not rereading the lesser evil right now. i cant remember WHAT the fuck happens in that story. he goes to stregobor first though right??? right? he meets with the alderman and the dude’s like nah you cant get shit for that kikimore head, but maybe this wizard will give ya smth
my lesbianisms thinking renfri is pretty VS my morality knowing what shes like VS my witcher fan knowing what the hell happens in this story.... fight
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO MAKE RENFRI SO PRETTY!!!!!!! shes SO pretty and cute..... yall are making me like her fuck you fuck you SO hard.
the voice acting is sending me kind of... this is actually a good geralt voice imo if you dont mind me saying that. i still prefer polish tw3 dub but this is actually better than fuckin delvin mallory in the audiobooks. no disrespect, peter kenny, you did dandelion and yennefer and the hansa well, but geralt..... hm....
okay jk actually i need more geralt lines in order to develop my thoughts on his voice. ill wait until edge of the world where he SHOULD be more talkative
are we really going to stregobor’s fucking tower where a naked woman illusion waits on him and he offers to give geralt a go at this basically fuck doll illusion
“where are you from, geralt?” “rivia.” SURE.... YOU LIAR...... liar .... just WAIT until baptism of fire oooohhh just you wait
also this girl marilka is so sweet, also makes me think because milva said she was called that by some. but thats why she changed her name to milva
“because girls cant be witchers right” OK you reminded me 50% of ciri but now youre literally just proto-ciri
oh.... no foolery with the magic door knocker?
YEP I WAS RIGHT WE GOT NAKED LADIES!
wow this exactly what i pictured the inside of stregobor’s tower to be like lmaooo
WHY DOESNT GERALT KNOW STREGOBOR???????
oh its so weird to see ciri like. like old at cintra you know what im saying . like im like wait wait how is she alive if geralt hasnt been there as ravix yet. not BAD just weird for me
“speak normally” this reminds me of in bounds of reason dandelions like should i give the account in verse or in prose and then he starts speaking with the most flowery prose and geralts like PROSE prose please
“if you had been alive during falkas rebellion” please dont mention falka already we’re moving too fast soon enough leo fucking bonhart will be at our heels!
“and she possesses the power to destroy us all” “i dont believe anyone has that power.” WAIT UNTIL YOU MEET YOUR DAUGHTER DUDE LOL
wow he’s really full body dressed in black leather. huh . and people say hes heterosexual fml
okay i thought them calling the girls “girl” was kinda tender in the series but now its even more tender when heard aloud.
eist is like really present here and i like him enough its just that calanthe was like way more important than him in the series though right
“it needs to rhyme” and “pretty ballads hide bastard truths” so are we really just stealing every clever word that jaskier can say before he even comes into it
LOL CIRI LESBIAN LIKE WE DIDNT EVEN HAVE TO GET TO ANY OF THE OTHER BOOKS..... she said BEGONE HET!
OH I LOVE HOW THEY CONTEXTUALIZE IT SO WE KNOW THIS SHIT IS TAKING PLACE IN THE PAST..... WOW GERALT IS OLD AS HELL LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO  calanthe was like 14 then right so LOLLLL GERALTS OLD AND TIRED lol
me: is a regis fan / also me: GERALT IS A SHITTY OLD BITCH LMAOO
uh oh spaghettios! its nilfgaard and one of their fun funky officers, son of ceallach! i havent seen him yet but im terrified anyways!
okay see this is how you do a  PROPER adaptation. calanthe in the books committed suicide so she wouldnt be r*ped right as she sat in a stupid castle but this calanthe is on the fucking battlefield. this is why we stan middle aged women
eist: [dies] me: AAAAAA cahir: [is there Waiting] (i think its him maybe) me: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
ah fuck ah fuck fuck
ciri: why [is nilfgaard attacking] ? calanthe knowing DAMN WELL stupid fucking duny is her dad: uhHHhhHhH idk lol
“you will rule this land someday” nope again! [thinks about lady of the lake] nope and nope!
ciri’s “are you dying?” to calanthe on her deathbed is the new “was he human” yennefer asking if regis (as a giant fucking bat) was human
i love how looongggg these episodes areee omgg
but also i always thought of the fall of cintra as something you know like. it happened in two shakes, cahir kinda just took ciri up by her underarms (like longcat) and left
OHHHH THEY IMPROVED THIS SCENE SO MUCH I WAS HOPING WE’D GET THIS OMG OMG BUT INSTEAD OF TELLING SOME YOUNG GIRL WHICH HAD WEIRD KINDA GROSS CHEMISTRY WITH HIM ROAVCH GETS TO HEAR IT!!! THIS IS HOW YOU DO AN ADAPTATION YAYY
renfri: who were you talking to? geralt: .. my horse.......... all of the fans: [dialing 1-800-TROUBADOUR immediately]
ugh i really thought they were gonna adapt the sex between renfri and geralt out. ugh ugh . too much heterosexuality
WHOA. HOLD THE FUCK UP. HOLD> HE FUCK UP. CALANTHE ADVISED CIRI TO TAKE MERCY. THATS LITERALLY FORESHADOWING FOR WHEN SHE CHOOSES NOT TO SLAY CAHIR AT THANEDD. WOW. WHAT THE FUCK WOW. WOW’
ciri you are gonna regret stalling so hard when mr. ceallach marches in. just saying. RUN.
CAHIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRRR I ALMOST SCREAMED AND TORE MY STITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
uh.... ok...................... hm not what happened in the books.... where ciri is shot off in the midst of battle and crawls up next to a dead man and acts dead ........ lol cahir is even more evil now how is this possible i didnt think he could get MORE evil
[cahir voice] he deflected the arrow with his sword! ive never seen anything like it!
also have i said already that the cinematography is amazing. like the room where calanthe was on her deathbed.... that renfri dream was pretty cool too... just a lot of things are very pleasing to the eye
due to a injury in the carotid artery blood would be gushing everywhere. also is she prophecizing ciri? stop this there are already so many women in the witcher universe that give prophecy. theres like the girl in baptism of fire, ciri, everyone in ciri’s bloodline, and now renfri?
LOOOOLLLL THE HORSE
cahir: nice, GG guys, im gonna go get that cool promotion now, this will be epic, my mom will be SO proud of me-- ciri: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA cahir: OH FUUUUCKKK
well that’s MUCH MORE of a report to file with your superior officers! “yeah so the girl fucking opened up a hole in the earth” instead of “ahh idk i fell asleep and when i woke up she wasnt there :/” .... cahir really is not getting that promotion now, huh
okay yall can say whatever you want about cavill as geralt but when he said “do not touch her” and moved his mouth like that? oh geraltisms.
this is a really nice episode i like how it just went into the action i wasnt convinced at first but ah this is quite nice. i like how it has JUST geralt and ciri in it and later yennefer will come in as her mom. renfri prophecizing was actually pretty ok, at first i thought i wouldnt like the change, but it makes it easier to digest for television. i like how they really emphasize that geralt is hated to all hell, and that ciri is powerful yet still babie. this is a good portrayal of both of them in these stages of their lives you know what im saying. also is cahir gonna chase ciri now for those Good Boy Black Rider points? bc there were shots of him in a forest. ah well whatever lets move to the next episode
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I challenge you to answer ALL the unusual asks. (If not just answer the ones you want to)
(thanks) 
1) Spotifiy, Soundcloud, or Pandora? 
Spotifiy
2) Is your room messy or clean? 
Messy. very. very. messy. 
3) What color are your eyes? 
blue/green.  
4) Do you like your name? why?
Not really. I got bullied for it in third and fourth grade about it, so Ive kinda disliked it since, but at least its not generic. 
5) What is your realationship status? 
in a relationship. 
6) Describe your personality in 3 words or less. 
Really fucking annoying. 
7) What color hair do you have? 
Blonde, but Im thinking of dying it. 
8) What kind of car do you drive? color? 
I cant drive, but my mom car is a green 2000 Toyota Camry 
10) How would you describe your style? 
All over the place and completely random. 
11) Favorite Social Media Account? 
Probabaly my Facebook, cause thats where I talk to most of my family. 
12) What size is your bed? 
Twin, I think. 
13) Any sibblings? 
I have two half sisters and two half brothers on my fathers side, and a twin brother. 
14) If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be, and why? 
Mars cause I want to go to Pigfarts  Probabaly like the Oregon coast. cause I like cold weather and the West Coast
15) favorite Snapchat filter? 
I dont use Snapchat, soooo. 
16) Favortie makeup brand(s) 
I dont wear a lot of make up, but I do like e.l.f. 
17) How many times do you shower in a week? 
On a good week, 5-6, on a bad week, 2-3. 
18) Favorite Tv show? 
Rick and Morty, or NCIS 
19) Shoe size? 
 sometimes I wear a 5, others a six or seven, it varies depending on the style of shoe… 
20) How tall are you? 
5′1″ 
21) Sandals or Sneakers? 
Sneakers
22) Do you go to the gym? 
Nope. 
23) Describe your dream date.
probably just like, picnic by a lake or at a park. 
24) How much money do you have in your wallet right now? 
I dont have a wallet, but I have a jar of pocket money with $83
25) what color socks are you wearing? 
Im not wearing socks but earlier I was wear black socks. 
26) How many pillows do you sleep with? 
I only have one for my head, but I have 12 pillows on my bed. 
27) Do you have a job? what do you do? 
does being annoying and sad count as a job? 
28) How many friends do you have? 
12, but only half are close friends. 
29) What is the worst thing youve ever done? 
In third grade I gave a kid a black eye…
30) whats your favorite candle scent? 
Spring Rain. 
31) 3 favorite boy names?
Max, Alex, Jake. 
32) 3 favorite girl names? 
Raine, Sage, Autum. 
33) Favortie actor? 
Lenardo DeCaprio 
34) Favorite Actress? 
Emma Watson 
35) Who is your celebrity crush
Dont have one. 
36) Favorite Movie? 
Rent 
37) Do you read a lot? what is your favorite book? 
I’ve actually been trying to read more, I love Sparrow Road, If I stay, and Shadow. 
38) Money or brains? 
Brains, teach a man to fish.
39) Do you have a nickname? 
Moxie Clean, Moxanne, Molly Molly Moxen Free, Marshmallow, mo, mox. 
40) How many times have you been to the hospital? 
Once, when I was five, when I cracked my forhead open I Have a Scar I am Harry Potter
41) top ten favorite songs? 
Thats What You Get~Paramore,Thnks Fr Th Mmrs~ Fall Out Boy, Misery Business~Paramore, Whatsername~Green Day, It Ends Tonight~All American Rejects, Be my Escape~Relent K, 21st Century Breakdown~Green Day, Always~Blink-182, Ignorance~Paramore, A Drop in the Ocean~ Ron Pope. 
42) Do you take any medications daily? 
Zyrtec, and Asprins. 
43) What is your skin type? 
No clue, kinda dry I guess? 
44) What is your biggest fear? 
Probably abandonment having no one care about/like me. or being a disapointment. 
45) How many kids do you want? 
probably just one. three max. 
46) What is your go to hairstyle? 
I just leave my hair down. 
47) what type of house do you live in? 
I live in an apartment, that is super tiny, and hasnt been updated since the ealy 90′s… 
48) Who is your role model? 
the woman my mother works for. and my Grandmother. 
49) what is the last complement you recived? 
one of my friends told me he liked my rant about depression. 
50) What is the last text you sent? 
‘bro, did you die?!?’ 
51) How old were you when you ofund out Santa wasnt real? 
I was 5, I still put out cookies, but now they’re for my Grandmother and Grandfather. 
52) What is your dream car? 
I dont know yet, maybe just a Pale Green VW bug, or something that costs less. 
53) Opinion on smoking? 
I dont like smokers Ive been bullied my entire life cause all my clothes smell like cigerette smoke, but I dont really get to voice my thoughts cause most of my family smokes. But I have no plans to when Im old enough. 
54) Do you go to college? 
No. And I wont be anytime in the next five years or so.
55) What is your dream job? 
Chemist/Nurse/Author, or something that does good and pays well. 
56) Would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? 
Rural Areas. Its nice to see all the stars so clearly. 
57) Do you take the shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? 
should I not? 
58) Do you have freckles? 
No, but my mother says that I did when I was younger. 
59) Do you smile for photos? 
Sometimes. 
60) How many pictures do you have on your phone? 
I dont have a phone so….
61) Have you ever peed in the wood? 
nope. 
62) Do you still watch cartoons? 
yeah. 
63) do you perfer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? 
 I cant afford to eat out. (just for the record, Micky D’s) 
64)Favorite dipping suace? 
ranch. 
65) What do you wear to bed? 
it depends, it I dont feel like changing I’ll sleep in what Im wearing, otherwise, just sweats and a tee shirt. 
66) have you ever won a spelling bee? 
Ive never even entered cause in third grade, my teacher told me not to bother trying cause my spelling was too bad, so I havent entered since. 
67) What are your Hobbies? 
Is eating a hobby? I like to read, draw, write, and sit around being sad. and kazoooo
68) Can you draw? 
Not well. 
69) do you play an insturment? 
Clarinet, Guitar, and piano. 
70) what is the last concert you saw? 
a band concert, that I was in. 
71) tea or coffee? 
Both. 
72) Starbucks or Dunkin? 
that depends on the day, what planets where seen last night, what color socks Im wearing, when the next full moon is, and weather or not I have money. 
73) Do you want to get married? 
Maybe. 
74) what is your crushes first and last initial? 
M.D. 
75) Are you going to change your last name when you get married? 
maybe. 
76) what color looks best on you? 
teal maybe? I honestly have no clue. 
77) do you miss anyone right now? 
My friends from school, and old nieghboirs. 
78) Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? 
normally, I would sleep with my door closed, by my brother broke the hinge, so now it can only be open 
79) Do you believe in ghosts? 
yeah. 
80) what is your biggest pet peeve? 
 people who only care about others and never help themselves, people who act entitled when they arent, and people use terms they dont know the deffinition of. 
81) Last person you called? 
@geez-man, in like, June
82) favorite Ice Cream flavor? 
mint or coffee. 
83) Regular oreos, or golden oreos? 
regular. 
84) Chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? 
both. yes. all of the above. 
85) What shirt are you wearing? 
its a leopard with the David Bowie lighting blot on its face. 
86) what is your phone background? 
*doesnt have phone* 
87) Are you outgoing or shy? 
A bit of both, it depends who Im with, 
88) do you like it when people play with your hair? 
sometimes, depends who it is. I have trust issuses with people who touch my hair, cause in fifth grade a girl told to whole school I had lice, even though I didnt. 
89) do you like your neighboirs? 
I dont know my nieghboirs that well, cause most poeple are only here a couple months and then they leave, so really Im indifferent. 
90) Do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? 
in the mornings. 
91) have you ever been high? 
nope. 
92) have you ever been drunk? 
nope. 
93) Last thing you ate? 
A chicken sandwhich with pesto, chedder and pita chips. 
94) Favorite lyrics right now? 
“why do we like to hurt so much?”~thats what you get, Paramore; 
“The walls start breathing My mind’s un-weaving Maybe it’s best you leave me alone”~It ends tonight, All American Rejects;
“Well there’s a million other girls who do it just like you Looking as innocent as possible to get to who They want and what they like, it’s easy if you do it right”~Misery Business, Paramore. 
“If I could find you now things would get better We could leave this town and run forever” Ocean Avenue, Yellowcard.
“Where’s your gavel? Your jury? What’s my offense this time? You’re not a judge but if you’re gonna judge me Well sentence me to another life.”Ignorance, Paramore
“Don’t wanna hear your sad songs I don’t wanna feel your pain When you swear it’s all my fault Cause you know we’re not the same”~Ignorance, Paramore. 
95) Summer or Winter? 
Winter. 
96) Day or Night? 
night. 
97) Dark, milk or white chocolate? 
Milk chocolate. but if you offer me white or dark chocolate, I wont refuse. 
98) Favorite Month? 
August. 
99) What is your Zodiac sign? 
Scorpio
100) Who was the last person you cried in front of? 
I dont cry when Im with other people. 
(I probabaly mispelled 50% of this. Im sorry.) 
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I Need to Say This About Dean’s Speech to Mary
I was beyond floored with 12x22 Who We Are. My tears started early and didnt let up til the next episode. However I need to speak about Dean’s speech to Mary as a Sam girl. I love Dean, and with the first “I hate you” my heart started tearing. When Dean started on blaming Mary for his life, some people felt it was irresponsible for him to blame it all on her, and even immature that he hasnt gotten past it yet. I don’t. I know he has had all this on his mind his whole life and still had to have it churning around in there even when he was thrilled she was back. He had every right to tell her what he did and painful or not, Im happy he got it off his chest, yes it was harsh, and I could feel how bad it stung for Mary but, it needed to be said and heard.  What stands out to me most though, is that even though he stated that it wasnt fair that all the responsibility for taking care of Sam was on him, he had to be both a father and mother to him, that he admitted he couldn’t do it, and then I thought he would go on about what it did to him, which he would be totally right in doing, instead, he went on what it did to Sam. He broke down and spoke for Sam! Sam lost a girl he loves, got possessed by Lucifer, tortured in Hell, and lost his soul!! Now consider this for a minute, Dean had every opportunity to tell her what it did to HIM. How because she let Azazel in, he ended up selling his soul for Sam, was tortured in Hell, broke the first seal of the Apocolypse, lost Sam for a year and a half, lost a little family he loved, died and made a deal to get Sam’s soul back, eventually became a demon and a violent killer before having a hand in bringing the darkness into the world... He COULD have but he didnt. He hurt for Sam, and also, he didnt mention how Sam got addicted to demon blood or Ruby, or didnt look for him in Purgatory, or anything he had considered Sam’s failures. He only told her about Sam’s pain! He hated her for Sam’s pain, not his own, and this is extremely important! To me it is anyway. Im not the average Sam girl that blames Dean for everything, and lets Sam get off scott free of everything. Not at all. I love both their qualities, dislike their flaws, but I accept them and still love them.  Dean’s life time of pain, was coming from Sam’s life time of pain and this hurt my soul as well as replenished it. Dean may talk sometimes like its all about him, but now I know, for him, it’s really all about Sam.  Now, some of you might be bitter that he spoke for Sam and Sam wasnt (or hasnt yet) given a voice about the pain their mother’s deal caused him. Why give it to Dean to say? I got my answer at the end of the episode. It was a tense moment there, when Mary said “But Im scared... about Sam. What if he can’t forgive me?” and Sam entered the room “Mom-” I thought , omg whats he gonna say? is it gonna be “what did you do?” ‘or after what hes been through, just this episode, and including his life, is he going to lay into her too? No.... he  was so loving and forgiving “You dont have to be scared of me”  I am literally in tears as I write this because it was fucking perfect!! Dean told her about Sam’s pain because Sam isnt going to, or doesnt want to.  Sam is so patient, loving and forgiving, all he wants to do is love and be loved back. He doesnt want to fight over the past and things no one can change, he just wants to love his family and thats all. Dean knows this, and he knew Mom needed to know his pain. So as Sam inevitably forgives her, she will appreciate what he’s willing to forgive her for, and what an incredible person he is.  I would have accepted Sam 100% laying into her and sometimes I get frustrated when he doesnt tell (or get to tell) people how theyve hurt him, but this power he has to forgive the biggest wrongs just amazes me. All of you who think he’s a selfish, inconsiderate wimp, can just .... nevermind, I wont go there. Not worth it. but the same goes for you all who think Dean thinks it’s all about him too. I actually had a Spiritual breakthrough over this so this next section is going to get Biblical, so if any of you are offended by such things, I will write it below the cut 
Hello everyone who kept reading, I hope you appreciate my theological thoughts on this. Consider this situation with me in a Biblical/Salvation style  Dean/God, Sam/Jesus Mary/you and I. Please remember this is an analogy, not that I think Sam and Dean are Jesus and God :P God calls us out on what we do wrong, lets you know the damage you’ve done and hates you for it, not so much for himself, but for what Jesus had to go through to save you, but he loves you, you’re his child and he cant help it. Now that you know the damage youve caused, and the pain inflicted on Jesus, maybe you dont feel like you can face him, because maybe he cant forgive you. But Jesus says “You dont have to be scared of me” and they both love and forgive you because you accept the forgiveness and love them back. Also consider how this scene might have been different if Mary didnt care that she hurt Sam, or didnt feel guilty because she didnt know Sam, or if she just kept saying “its not my fault”...  Im sorry to anyone who found that boring, but those of you that were touched by the thought, I hope that consider it, and it makes you smile. I dont expect others to get from this show what I do, but I really enjoy the inspiration it gives me :)
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