#i been crying lol

[whatyadrawin]

Sorry for so many delays in my fics and art, I have really been going through it.

I'll be back to my sort of regular schedule soon.

#what ya thinkin #mental health #schooling #mental breakdown #i been crying lol

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[appleslightning]

do you remember when we were eleven? let’s go back to that. i’ll throw remembralls into the sky and you can try to catch them.

#harry potter #illustration #drarry #harry james potter #fic art #harry x draco #draco malfoy #dmhp #hpdm #mine #running on air #everyone's been so nice i want to cry #gonna be spamming all my art so my blog isnt empty lol

[whaliiwatching]

list of adults who are great with kids

unfortunately i cant actually make a meme better than the movie

#spider man: across the spider verse #miguel o'hara #miles morales #peter b parker #mayday parker #peni parker #hobie brown #spider punk #spider noir #ft a little spider goddess #under the readmore is just a different version of the miguel and miles onion headline lol #im actually pretty proud of how these turned out #peni looks cute miguel looks techy peter b looks kind of on model even #i wouldve drawn miguel with the ‘dont cry endless possibilities’ bit but he was NOT that nice about it hahaaa #i know in my heart of hearts peter noir would not have been brainwashed like peter b #sorry peter b you’re just such an easy punching bag 😔😔 #couldn’t find a meme for jess bc. she’s actually responsible lol #but she will get one if i can find one

[thresholdbb]

what's the threshold theory

There was a post about how Tom is the only crew member who isn't really affected by the Borg, and there's a theory that he has so much luck because he saw the past and the future when he crossed the transwarp threshold. He saw the past and the future, all of time and space. There's some subconscious part of him that remembers that experience. In fact, Tom refused to play a part in Chakotay indulging Annorax's temporal incursions, probably because a part of him knew nothing good could come of it.

If we extend that same theory to Janeway, some of her wild luck with time travel and other crack plans starts to make sense. She doesn't verbally hate time travel until after the events of Threshold, since it happens in Time and Again without complaint. Janeway has an uncanny knack for time travel, as evidenced every time she deals with it. She hates time travel, but it might be because part of her knows exactly how to manipulate the timeline. She manages to avoid the "inevitable" temporal explosion in Future's End, saving both Voyager and Braxton. She resets the entire timeline in Year of Hell, and no one else followed her reasoning. She pulled it off flawlessly. In Relativity, she senses the incidents are all related, despite it being just one reading that connects them. By the time she's involved, she has a temporal incursion factor of .0036 and a time travel protocol named after her, even if that may just be Braxton's personal grudge. Then there's Endgame, where she intentionally changes the timeline. Up until this point, she has been dragged into time travel, but for the first time, she jumps in on purpose. How does Admiral Janeway know how to get them home sooner in a way that completely avoids the Temporal Integrity Commission? It's because she has seen all of time, and part of her knows exactly what needs to happen so she can get Voyager home and do it in a way that becomes baked into the prime timeline. Maybe she doesn't consciously remember what happened during her transformation, but the experience lives in her mind somewhere, guiding her decisions.

#every day is threshold day #tldr threshold cemented the time travel shenanigans #we're not counting her disparagement of time travel in relativity i know it's technically before threshold #but they've messed with the timeline so much that her past timeline is also changed. #Time travel is funny because the past is the future the future is the past #so while relativity comes before threshold in the prime timeline her timeline has also been changed in a way that it wasn't before threshol #we could chalk it up to a writing oversight but this is more interesting #not to mention her uncanny luck with the Borg which I think ties in as well #it's part of why her instinct is so strong #also the bio neural gel packs but that's a different theory #listen she's amazing with or without having seen all of time and space but she has seen all of time and that must have affected her somehow #those little salamander babies also have all of the cosmos in their mind #tried to explain as concisely as possible but it is part of my overarching theory #she doesn't second guess herself nearly as much following their jaunt into transwarp #I have more but I'm trying to be brief cause it's written up partially in my drafts somewhere and i have some things i need to do today lol #meta #Star Trek voyager #Kathryn janeway #threshold day #did you expect me thresholdbb to not have a serious threshold theory? #listen I can make anything nonsense and turn anything into a serious theory I was known for this kinda bs in grad school #I wrote a 25 page paper on NOTHING once #I wrote a paper about how corn fields were super gay and it made my professor cry I can spin the bullshit it is one of my skills

[clowningaroundmars]

page full o' hobies 🎸

top pose inspired by @spectra-bear

process pics under da cut ↓

#mine #spiderverse #across the spiderverse #hobie brown #spider punk #well YEEHAW im finally finished with this #after 3 trips to the craft and dollar store to buy stuff i needed #this page is FINALLY done good lord #its been... 3 weeks? since i 1st started this? #needless to say im sick of looking at this thing #im simultaneously kinda scared to post this bc im not 100% happy with it #but at the same time im like… so ready to just post this thang and be DONE with it #never lookin at this again jfc im sick of it #i love hobie dont get me wrong and i love drawing his face #but geeze louise #me doodling this while crying: hobie hates consistency hobie hates consistency hobie hates consistency hobie hATES CONSISTENCY 😭😭😭 #thats my excuse for not really uhhh getting his face down 100% #also god yeah i didnt get his skin nearly as dark as i wanted cuz uhhhh #ya boi was workin with shitty dollar store crayons #im ngl i kinda.... miss my alcohol markers :/ but whatever ig i did what i could lol

[svnnnne]

let’s go back to our true reality

#myart #persona 5 royal #persona 5 #akeshu #shuake #ren amamiya #akirakurusu #goro akechi #this is my first 2/2 and no one told me 2/1 was also um 2/2 but great art guys i have been crying a lot lol

[hexitca-art]

Messy doodle of Nero lol Just some pose practice and also to do quick sketches rather than spend two hours on some piece (which yea good practice also but I wanna do quick fun sketches also ToT)

Downloaded some new brushes/patterns for CSP so I've been playing around with those~ and also playing with light/dark values (mostly so it's not just a empty sketch) so fun~

Reference under read more:

#my art #devil may cry #dmc nero #DMC #dmc5 nero #fandom related #sketches #digital sketch #nero's been my muse lately lol I love him he's so fun to draw

[stargirl230]

Special delivery!

Birthday card i made for a friend that i ended up really liking :)

(no reposts; reblogs appreciated)

#my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #fanart #ghibli #studio ghibli #kiki's delivery service #ghibli art #doodle #im sensing a correlation between art productivity and how many exams i have #(im taking a stats class this semester lol) #you know ive never actually watched kikis delivery service #which is criminal #but one of these days ill get around to it #oh speaking of movies i watched the corpse bride for the first time yesterday! #it was surprisingly good?? it caught me by surprise #i also voted for the first time :D #and wrestled with the colors on that gomens piece ive been working on for the billionth time hahaha #(i cry)

[welcometogrouchland]

(ID in alt) I literally said I was gonna post this month's ago and then never had the wherewithal to describe it and so I didn't Lmao (said with pain). But since I'm thinking of opening my commissions I figured I should remind ppl that I. Yknow. Can draw.

Lots of Steph here (I had major art block making all of these and my brain worms for her kept me going) + some sprinkles of stephcass for Cass nation to enjoy!

#dc comics #dc #stephanie brown #cassandra cain #jason todd #(yes for the teddy bear. it counts) #batgirl #batgirls #mine #< keep forgetting to tag my art as that I'm terrible 😭 #ANYHOW I'm slowly getting back into drawing again after my last ipad got nuked (cant think abt that or ill cry) and i finished uni #oh yeah j finished my first year of uni btw. i went to an Olivia Rodrigo concert like a week or 2 ago. I've been busy lol #but yeah it's looking like I've got a fun summer of bottom feeding ahead of me now that I've officially been told i got passed over for that #-comic job i applied for. lol. lmao even #it's fine honestly it was a pretty daunting prospect i just have to find a way to fill the time by myself now #I've plenty of comics to read so that's nice. got wayyy into mark waids DD run recently (mostly for Chris Samnee's art) #so that's been fun! i have my empowered omnibus (embarrassing and kept under my bed <3) i have TT year 1 i have huntress and WW #uhhh i got flash 1 minute war. lots of good stuff! #so hopefully i don't go. completely feral from lack of stimulation #also hopefully commissions will be a thing i can do #godddd there's many mkre things i want to draw. i got too enamoured w my own bad theory and now I've drawn tim!bats #but unfortunately now i only want to draw tim!bats being laughed at my the batfamily bc seriously tim?? really?? #< it's literally probably not going to happen but I've invested myself in this terrible future for some reason #imagine damian trying to robin for tim!bats for 1 (one) night and the next morning he doesn't say anything he just moves to bludhaven #he can't take this shit #oh so many ideas... #ANYWAY. ues. finally art. now if you like it. consider commissioning me (in 2 to 3 business weeks <3) #(no pressure)

[fernsproutxx]

How tf do you make this rotting corpse in the ruined yellow bunny fur suit look good?? Like he looks like he would gently hold me??? And Michael?? he looks like he’d give me cuddles???? I love your art and I love the rotting corpse men

ahhh tysm! qwq

me too likes rotting men yes yes heheh

here, have these!

#inbox #bipolar-sad-and-ready-to-cry #my art #fnaf #springtrap #michael afton #it’s been a really long time since i’ve drawn michael damn #he would never wear a crop top btw #i only did it for the lols #i also should finish my comic augh #springtrap would definitely hold you like a long cat #yknow #because he’s tall as fuck lmao

[defectiveferalfreak]

i rediscovered @nicktoonsunite and @choraa ‘s art like wowie did they inspire me to dip my toes into NUverse??

also i cant believe Dib and Zim basically waltzed into NU:GoD, like WHATS UP B*TCHS WE  GONNA HELP WHETHER U WANT IT OR NOT like can u believe that lol

#nicktoons unite #nicktoons unite globs of doom #nicktoons unite GoD #i find it ironic its called NU GoD #invader zim #dib membrane #iz zim #iz dib #ive been sitting on the doodles ideas since end of AUGUST. basically so long that i started to hate them lol #i have a lot of thoghts about nicktoons!Dib&Zim but almost no concentration to draw much of it #because helooo fandom interest change like autumn leaves #but i fell in love with possible nicktoons universe with those two assholes in it so they WILL live rent free in my head #so many details of this doodles that i want to talk about but im afraid to start rambling #so im just gonna sit and hope someone notices those little things #throwing this nicktoons!IZAU into the void so i could stop obsessivly staring at unfinished doodles. also gonna go cry over nicktoonsunite a #and choraa awesome OG4 art like those are fucking goals #and lack of fics for nicktoons adventures ;( like i wish someone was brave enough to write some cool NU advnetures <;( #danny phantom #fairly oddparents #the adventures of jimmy neutron: boy genius #spongebob squarepants #if someone asks me about this au i probably wont have much to say because its all very vague but i will most likely go feral lol #i wish i could finish my iz star wars au doodles ;( theyve been in my files since summer haha

[villa-kulla]

So in the end, Breaking Bad was about loving life at the expense of the people around you, and Better Call Saul is about loving the people around you at the expense of your life. 

god.

#better call saul #breaking bad #bcs spoilers #that is not even a spoiler it has been the theme tHE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME #IT'S ABOUT LOVE IT'S ALWAYS BEEN ABOUT LOVE GODDDDDDDD #wow just wow #beautifully done #crying again lmao wOW #speechless #but it was literally everything i wanted. #anyways #i'm a wreck lol #shares

[kitamars]

hello. um. sorry for disappearing for like two months. imagine me getting hit with a truck called “The Worst Creative Block In Your Life” and getting thrown headfirst into the gintama rabbit hole. it’s quite cozy down here. i think i need help.

anyways, have a bunch of accumulated doodles plus this terrifying kagura as apology tehe :3

#well tbh the trigun fandom kinda burned me out as well #i couldn’t really keep up so i just. didn’t lol #kinda hated drawing for a bit after that but gintama’s been really good for me in that way #while i still really really wanna draw for it and i have a ton of doodles for it #i don’t really feel the need to keep up in a sense #i can just enjoy it at my own pace #(at my own pace being binging like 10 episodes a day) #but hey i need to at least try and take it easy before college yk #but now im horrifically attached to the entire cast and will cry if this so called comedy series even becomes a hint emotional #so you know #the usual #thanks for sticking around regardless! #i know i kinda flip flop a bunch between interests #but im glad to know you guys still wanna stick with me through them all #ily <3 #sakata gintoki #kagura #shimura shinpachi #yorozuya #gintama #ok bye

[coladaminx]

HORI IS SAVING THE BEST FOR LAST AND I'M SHAKING IN MY BOOTS! KACCHAN WASN'T GROUPED WITH IZUKU'S FRIENDS AND THAT IS INTENTIONAL!! HE'S ON ANOTHER LEVEL BRUH!

#bkdk #dkbk #bakudeku #dekukatsu #dekubaku #kacchan #izuku midoriya #deku #mha analysis #bakugou katsuki #katsudeku #ktdk #decchan #dkkt #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #bkdk canon #I DON'T THINK YALL HEARD ME! #IF HE WAS INVOLVED IN THIS CHAPTER #HE WOULD HAVE BEEN FRIENDZONED #AND THINK ABOUT IT EVERYONE EVEN Ochaco was included! #THIS IS THE GREATEST SETUP IM FINNA CRY AGAIN! #phew thanks for reading :3 i'm feeling great lol

[twilexi]

I'm at the acceptance stage

#wwdits #nandermo #what we do in the shadows #I've been crying for the second day #I don't see them as just friends lol