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gwynrielendgame · 3 years

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Gwyn x Nesta

This is not as edited as my other fics but I was just too excited to post. I would like to comment that I pretty much think every character is bisexual unless stated otherwise lol. I also recognize this piece could come off problematic (ppl thinking this is fetishization) I personally don’t think it is, but I welcome constructive criticism. I am bisexual and a SA survivor so I felt comfortable writing about those topics considering I have personal experience with both.

Thank you for the idea: @mercurianbisous @genya-berdara

“Hey Nes.”

Nesta jumped from her spot on the couch, closing her book as she did so. A small smile graced her face as she realized Gwyn was standing at the entry of the House of Wind library.

“Hey Gwyn, you scared the shit out of me.” Nesta chuckled as she put her book away. She patted the spot next to her, beckoning for Gwyn to join her. Gwyn knew she looked awkward standing there, twisting her fingers. Gwyn hesitantly took the spot.

“I have a favor to ask.” Gwyn managed to spit out. She needed to start somewhere and knew that Nesta would never judge her for what she was about to ask. She might turn her down, but she would never laugh.

Nesta simply raised a singular eyebrow at Gwyn. She leant back on the couch and flourished her hand as if to tell Gwyn to continue.

“I am only asking you because I know you are not interested in women, which is precisely why I cannot ask Emerie-“

“You are interested in Emerie?” Nesta asked nonchalantly. Gwyn felt relief at the lack of judgement, but annoyed at the interruption. She needed to get this out now or she never would.

“No. Listen to everything before you answer.” Nesta gave a shrug which Gwyn took as her agreement.

“I want to practice kissing, but there are no males that I trust enough to ask and I cannot ask females from the library. I figure if I practice enough it will not be so anxiety inducing for me. With everything that happened to me, I think it might be easier to start kissing females and work my way up to males. I think once I can kiss a male then I will know my trauma does not have that power over me and this is my really convoluted way of asking you to kiss me.” She snapped her mouth shut the second she finished rambling. She searched Nesta’s face for any emotion that might give away how she feels about the matter.

“ I did not think you fancied women.” Nesta said plainly.

“I suppose I have not paid much attention to any romance. But I would say I value the person over body parts.” Gwyn shrugged but her face was bright red from embarrassment.

“Okay, lay one on me.”

She gave a startled look to her friend, who was handling this much better than Gwyn was. The ease with which she accepted this made Gwyn inherently suspicious.

“Do you fancy women?” She looked at Nesta through narrowed eyes.

“Not particularly. But I love you Gwyn, and Cass won’t mind especially if it is to help you.” A very rare, coveted soft look blessed Nesta’s face. Gwyn found herself wanting to cry. She had not felt this type of companionship in years.

“I do not want you to feel obligated as my friend. I understand if you want to say no.”

“Do I appear as someone that feels obligated often?” Nesta asked with raised eyebrows. It made Gwyn giggle a little. Nesta grabbed Gwyn’s hand, forcing her to look at Nesta.

“Lay one on me, love.” Nesta’s face was beautiful as she smiled. It made Gwyn start to feel a little nervous. They were really doing this.

“I am going to start with my eyes open. It is easier to remind myself who I am kissing.”

“Okay.” Again, a soft smile graced her face as she used a soft voice. Normally Gwyn hated pity, but she appreciated Nesta being sensitive to the situation.

Even though her heart was beating out of her chest, she set her hands on Nesta’s shoulders and focused in on her lips. They were a standard set of lips. Medium sized, and smooth. Gwyn took one last deep breathe and shoved her lips against Nesta’s. They both could admit the kiss was awkward at best. Gwyn would take awkward over horrific any day though. She kept her eyes wide open while Nesta’s were closed. One may not even call it a kiss, really just two pairs of lips not touching. Neither of them moved a muscle. Gwyn realized it was because Nesta was letting Gwyn have complete control over the situation and that made her smile through the kiss. Once Gwyn was certain that no unwanted memories were waiting to overwhelm her, she puckered her lips and actually kissed her before pulling away.

“How was that?” Nesta asked.

“Terrifying.” Gwyn said with a grin. “Let’s try again.” She gave a sheepish look after a moments thought. “If that is fine with you?”

Nesta rolled her eyes before closing them and comically puckering her lips. Gwyn once again giggled before going in for a second kiss. Once again she started with her eyes open, but once her heart calmed down and she stopped worrying about the past, she closed her eyes. There was something comforting about kissing Nesta, it was not attraction or chemistry. Perhaps, love though. An intimate expression of platonic love that squeezed at Gwyn’s heart. It was easy to ignore the past when the scent of Nesta and books were so overwhelmingly comforting to Gwyn. When the feel of Nesta’s hands were so familiar. Or when her even breathes were so recognizable. Gwyn knew there was not a safer spot in the world than right by Nesta’s side. Gwyn decided to be bold and flick Nesta’s bottom lip with the tip of her tongue. It caused Nesta to squeak and open her eyes for a second before settling back into the kiss. Slowly, they both started deepening the kiss. A swipe of a tongue here, a turn of the head there. It was a nice kiss, mostly exploratory. Simply, Gwyn discovering her boundaries, deciding what might be too much. Gwyn lifted her hands to grip Nesta’s face, so that the kiss might be less awkward. Nesta kept her hands in her lap which Gwyn was grateful for.

The doors to the library burst open with an exuberant Cassian. Gwyn all but threw herself against the opposite side of the couch.

“Nes, I was thinking for tonight-“ he stopped abruptly at the sight he just walked in on. Gwyn thought his brain might be malfunctioning from system overload based on the expression on his face.

Gwyn suddenly felt very guilty. This must have looked much worse than it actually was to him. Gwyn briefly glanced at Nesta. While Gwyn was stiffly sitting on the sofa, Nesta was nonchalantly leaning against the arm of the chair from her spot. A small smirk rested on her lips. Cassian’s head had been comically bouncing back and forth from Nesta and Gwyn before resting on the latter.

“Are you trying to steal my mate?” He was trying to muffle a laugh and failing. Gwyn hid her face behind her hands as it flamed a brighter red.

“This is not what it looks like!” Gwyn muttered into her hands. Cassian sauntered right over to the couch and plopped himself between the girls.

“Do explain.” He nudged Gwyn with a smile on his face. She was glad he was not angry, but the last thing she wanted to do was explain. She looked to Nesta for help who ended up sighing very loudly.

“I was helping Gwyn with some intimacy problems.” Was all she gave as a response. Cassian dropped the smile and looked at Nesta with such a serious look that Gwyn wondered if she misinterpreted Cassian’s emotions. Maybe he was mad after all.

“Is Gwyn a better kisser than me?” He said it so seriously that all Gwyn could do was groan. Nesta giggled, which did not happen often, so Gwyn knew Nes was highly amused by the situation while Gwyn was mortified.

“Gwyn is the best kisser.” Nesta said earnestly.

Gwyn rolled her eyes as that as she continued to try and press herself as far into the couch as she possibly could. Cassian’s wings were still almost touching her and all she wanted was to disappear from this mortifying situation forever.

“Damn, now I want one. What do I have to do to get a Gwyn kiss?”

The teasing was too much for Gwyn to bare.

“Stooooop.” Gwyn whined as the mated couple tried to mask their laughter.

“Please, Gwyn?” He even puckered his lips at her. She knew he was joking, but she wanted it to stop and knew exactly how to get him to stop. Besides, this is the next level up on the intimacy scale for Gwyn with Cassian being a male and all. She quickly pressed her lips against his and pulled away just as fast.

A second later she realized how impulsive it was. She began forming an apology to both of them when she noticed they were both smiling genuinely. Gwyn rested her hands on her burning cheeks and looked away.

“I agree, Nes. She is the best.” Cassian replied as he threw both arms around the females shoulders.

“You two are the worst.” Gwyn whined as she realized they had teamed up against her to get her to kiss Cassian.

“I think this is means for celebration Gwyn.” Nesta ignored her complaints and continued smiling. “You kissed two people today and one was a male. Big accomplishments.” Gwyn huffed but could not stop the small smile that spread her lips.

“That is good.” Gwyn relented. Secretly she was glad that neither of them were upset.

“Before you know it, you will have made out with the entire night court inner circle.” Cassian joked. “I bet you could even manage to steal a kiss from Azriel’s shadows.”

“Well, they do like me.”

“Everyone likes you Gwyn. You are awesome.” Nesta held Cassian’s hand as they all sat on the couch.

Gwyn felt a punch to a stomach as she looked at their hands. It was longing, she discovered. She wanted to sit on a couch holding someone’s hand. She wanted to be so comfortable with a person that every move they made was in sync like Nes and Cass seemed. She sighed. One day she would get her happily ever after. There really was no rush.

#nesta acheron #gwyneth berdara #cassian #acosf #acotar

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realcube · 3 years

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OH AND ALSO IF YOU DONT MIND, I was wondering if I could request Kuroo, Tsukishima, Bakugo, Jirou and Oikawa and how they would react to see their s/o simping for a genshin impact character. IDK I JUST THINK THAT IT WOULD BE FUNNY TO READ THEIR REACTIONS OR WHAT THEY WOULD SAY.

Anyways thanks cube-chan~! Feel free to ignore! Have a nice day and don't forget to take care of yourself!

-🍦

i thought this would be fun so here we are <33 this was def fun to write- it was kinda just an excuse for me to gush in some respects :’) tho this req is so cute! thank you so much, 🍦! it was nice to just write something just for lols! without taking it too seriously yk

tw: mentions of seizures, mentions of violence & cursing

TETRURŌ KUROO

♡ he is fine with it bc he makes jokes about how hot random ppl in movies are, so it’s only fair

♡ in fact, he hardly even reacts to the fact you are gushing about how hot lisa is bc he’s already got his hands on the controller/keyboard and trying to defeat a hilichurl camp with absolutely no knowledge of the fighting mechanics

♡ “yeah, she does have a pretty nice voic-- oh! did you see that? i pressed this button and she absolutely destroyed those guys! i am god at this game.”

♡ even if you tried to get a reaction out of him, he’d just play dumb and continue gushing about how awesome the other characters are too

♡ “yeah, she’s got a nice figure, but this other girl’s base attack figures are lookin’ much nicer!” he chuckled, evidently figuring out how to switch character as he was now fighting as xiao

♡ (you didn’t have the heart to correct him about xiao’s gender)

♡ at some point he even pushed you out of your own chair and just started playing for himself

♡ and his narration is just so adorable that you let him

♡ so yeah, you simping is now the reason why kuroo is now AR33 in genshin

KEI TSUKISHIMA

♡ ok so i have a lot to say

♡ FIRST OF ALL, tsukki played genshin before it was cool B) (whatever that means....)

♡ in fact he recommended it to you but you brushed him off, but then yamaguchi recommended it to you and you downloaded it instantly

♡ tsukki is a semi-casual player

♡ like he plays enough that he is undeniably a fan and he keeps up-to-date with the instagram and the lore and all that

♡ but he is not a big enough fan that he’d spend actual irl money on the game

♡ or maybe he would but not like.. the big bucks.. just a humble amount

♡ anyway!! he’s played it for a while so he is like AR34897629849 or whatever but he never like.. brags about it.. surprisingly

♡ his love language is helping you with domains and (playfully) calling you trash <33

♡ so one day you convinced him to help you with the geo hypostasis (while on a call) and you were complaining about how you were unable to pull zhongli (if you are reading this and you have pulled zhongli.... use your imagination) so you had to use a different geo character

♡ and tsukishima is one of those mfs that just pulls like.... every five star they want?? like first or second try?? without considering or counting pity?? he just does it.... he just pulls five stars like it is nothing....

♡ so ofc the lucky guy has zhongli!!

♡ he switched to zhongli and your angry simping ensued

♡ “oh lord!! don’t worry, zhongli! i will save your handsome self from the clutches of the wretched dino-nerd!! just hang on.” you tried to stifle your laughter but failed miserably

♡ “first of all, i find it funny how zhongli is handsome yet i am your boyfriend. secondly, if i am a wretched dino-nerd, what does that make you?”

♡ “zhongli’s step stool.”

♡ he ended the call.

♡ needless to say, he never played as zhongli with you ever again-

♡ (though he did still help you defeat the geo hypostasis <3)

KATSUKI BAKUGO

♡ mf thought kaeya was a real person 😭

♡ he was ready to fight and everything lol

♡ like all you did was make an off-hand comment about how ppl with eyepatches are kinda hot and he kept on prying until you sheepishly told him you were talking about kaeya

♡ ofc he asked who kaeya was and you explained, except he only half-listened (since he was mostly deafened by rage) so he didn’t catch on when you mentioned kaeya only existed in a video game

♡ “yeah? well if this ‘kaeya’ dude thinks he is so cool, tell him he can come fight me one-on-one! we’ll see how his shitty ice quirk holds against my explosions!”

♡ you smiled, clasping your hands together with delight as you thought he was talking about fighting alongside your kaeya, as earlier you were talking about wanting to build him, “really? i didn’t know you played genshin! i’m free later today if that works.”

♡ “huh?”

♡ with that simple expression of confusion, the realisation came crashing down on you that bakugo was trying to fight —who he thought was — a real person called kaeya with an ice quirk and an eyepatch

♡ you quickly put an end to his assumption by explaining (again) that kaeya was simply one of your favourite characters from a video game

♡ (you didn’t mention anything about being a simp bc knowing bakugo he might just beat tf out of your monitor)

♡ bakugo visibly relaxed but claimed that he was still mad bc you ‘got him excited’ and he was ‘ready to beat the hell out of that guy’

♡ and you blame him for not being able to focus for the next whole week of school bc all you could think about was who would win in a fight between kaeya and bakugo, and eventually that expanded to your boyfriend vs any genshin character you could think of

♡ it was hard to guess who would win but you did come to the conclusion that bakugo would undoubtedly get his shit rocked by xiao

KYOKA JIROU

♡ so confused but supports you 1000%

♡ like even tho she is your gf

♡ also!! i hc that she hasn’t played genshin but she is def a gamer

♡ so when you explain to her your struggles of not having enough primos to pull for kazuha, by the way you explained it to her, mixed with her limited knowledge of the game itself, she was under the impression that genshin was like a dating sim sorta game lmao

♡ and she thought primogems were the currency you use to buy things to get closer to your character-of-choice

♡ like mystic messenger?? idk i’ve never played it

♡ but yeah!! essentially your simping resulted in her thinking that genshin is a romance game :’)

♡ and she’s played her fair share of dating simulators so she offered to help you obtain more primos

♡ and there is literally nothing more priceless than the look on her face when she realised genshin isn’t actually a lovey-dovey romance game and she actually was getting the shit beat out of her by mitachurls

♡ like she was having such a hard time accepting it that even after you helped her kill all the enemies at the camp, she asked if they were potential love interests :’)

♡ anyway! she tried to help you get primos the best she could but there honestly wasn’t much she could do so instead she figured that she’d supply moral support instead <33

TŌRU OIKAWA

♡ he teased you for it at first </3

♡ which was so rude of him 😤 you trusted him enough to tell him that you thought childe was kinda fit and now he makes fun of you for liking gingers!!

♡ one time he even brought it up in front of his volleyball team- it was so embarrassing :’)

♡ you were simply just existed, standing by the door to the gym, peacefully waiting for oikawa to come out so you could walk home with him

♡ eventually the whole team comes filtering out the gym and they all hang around behind oikawa as he stops in front of you, and before you even got a chance to question it, tōru blurted out, “(y/n), i told them that you have a thing for gingers and now they want to see the guy you are such a simp for~”

♡ he is so evil.

♡ ofc you didn’t show them and instead you simply snapped back at him, “shut up, tōru. how about, instead, you can tell us all about your ‘thing’ for iwaizumi.”

♡ “don’t bring iwa into this.” he hissed, grabbing your arm and dragging you away from the team before you were able to walk away yourself

♡ once you got home, instead of talking to your rude boyfriend, you played genshin and ignored his messages <3

♡ until you got one that was like ‘i downloaded the stupid game to see what u r so crazy abt :/ better be good’

♡ you were going to reply with a simply middle finger emoji until you noticed the message that followed

♡ it was a picture of diluc with the caption, ‘🥵🥵🥵 k i get it now’

♡ *cue joint simping*

♡ ofc you rung him up and you both squealed and gushed about your favourite characters for god knows how long <33

♡ and you both have that sort of relationship where you can both be dead silent on the phone, doing your own thing, and still not hang up bc you just enjoy each other’s presense

♡ hence!! you end up flooding each other’s dms with fanfics, art, edits, cosplays, news etc of the other’s fav characters and it mostly happens while you are both on call with each other but sometimes your phone will just vibrate in class and you’ll look down to see a new notification from oikawa

♡ ‘i saw this and it reminded me of you <33′ captioned over the most seizure-endusing edit of your fav character

♡ now you are just both simps together :)) but oikawa decided to keep it a secret from the team bc he didn’t want to be teased :/

♡ however, that landed him in a tricky situation when hanamaki asked why he was so tired and matsukawa playfully inquired, “up all night with (y/n)?” and oikawa replied with yes

♡ bc..techinically he was up all night with you.. playing video games and reading fanfic to each other in stupid voices

#oikawa x you #bakugo x you #kuroo x reader #jirou x y/n #tsukishima scenarios #notenoughcube

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avenger-hawk · 3 years

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Why do you like Kakasasu?

I waited to reply to this because I wanted to be sure it wasn’t a troll and it wasn’t a drama starting attempt (like this or this, gems found in the sasuke/KS tag) since it’s a subject I am very interested in.

I replied to Kakashi/Sasuke related asks, shippy or not shippy, here, here and here. More about them here, here and here. Put yourself comfortable cause this is gonna be long. Not putting it under a readmore cause I remember ppl complaining they coulnd’t open it on mobile phones (?). Also, moralists who are lurking: don’t interact, get out of my blog. Youll be blocked on sight.

When I started reading N*ruto I was into Bleach a lot, and the fact that the characters were a little older and looked older made me not get into Nar that much at first, because they looked like kiddies lol. I didn’t care about Nar as a character and his initial rivalry with Sas was cute but not enough to get me interested. Only when Kakashi got closer to Sasuke I started being veery interested in the story and in the characters. What I found intriguing was that Kakashi was older and an authority figure, but also someone to look up and who helped his students, BUT at the same time he wasn’t exactly a father-like figure or a big brother-like figure, because he had his dark side, that back then wasn’t well flashed out but that nevertheless showed a closed-off person who kept everything inside, not letting others get too close to him.

(then I started liking N*rusasu mostly because there were so many cool doujinshi especially Emi10/Rankai and Engawaken, while KS doujinshi were so meh, kinda in old yaoi style like Loveless, with tiny Sas who looked even younger hahaha, not my thing)

As those who know my blog and/or my writing know already, I am not interested in healthy, cute, positive dynamics in fiction. I might enjoy them, I might be happy when there are such moments, but I can’t like a whole relationship/dynamic/story only like this because I like to explore complicated ones in fiction.Because fiction is very useful for this, it makes you explore dark, taboo things, without affecting reality (no matter what idiots say), it’s cathartic, it’s a way to do, see, experience things without doing anything.

Back to topic tho, I found their initial dynamic very intriguing. A broken, traumatized yet extremely driven Sasuke, acting as confident and strong as he can, but showing his trauma in various occasions, otherwise being mostly aloof, lost in his own thoughts, and a differently broken Kakashi, acting chill but at the same time always ready to act when needed, yet always kinda distracted, aloof, lost in his owh thoughts (and later we’ll know he took Obito’s mannerisms because he was a stickler to rules). The way Kakashi takes a special interest for Sasuke, clearly the most driven, the best of the team, with whom he holds back much less (when he trains them, like when in the beginning, during the bell test, he fights with Sas and seeing that he almost took it, he overpowers him) while he is different with the others (Nar will have Jiraiya later). The way he protects Sasuke during the chuunin exams, while he’s in the hospital and Kabuto is trying to kill him.

Mostly, the controversial moments...like I said I live for these kind of things. where he both protects and threatens him...like when he does that seal to Sasuke, for his curse mark, and he tells him that if that curse mark takes over he’ll kill him. Or when he ties Sasuke up so he won’t join Orochimaru.

Before someone says bs like *you’re not Sas fan if you like that scene* (I know there are many like this and I want all of them out of my blog btw) uh, it’s not how it works guys. You can support a character and still be intrigued by scenes where said character is tied up/in a forcibly submitted position and so on. Guess what, some of those scenes are made for fanservice even (and Sas has many of these, so if you don’t see the appeal/refuse to admit that there is appeal, it’s you who have a problem). So even tho I disagree with Kakashi not wanting to listen to Sasuke’s reasons for revenge (and later supporting SHikamaru’s, I replied to this in one of the asks I linked) I do find that scene interesting...I mean Sasuke tied up in a very suggestive way and yet defying him and threatening to kill his loved ones and Kakashi opening up in a very weird way vaguely replying that he lost those ppl already? It shows a lot about them, their personalities, everything.

I am sticking to part 1 because there are more meaningful interactions between them, I wished there were more in part 2 but kishi shifted Kakashi’s ‘interest’ to Nar, making him one of Nar’s followers...even so, the intractions they had were very interesting. Their fight after Sasuke fights Danzo is one of my fave moments in the whole story tbh, much more than the later confrontation with Nar. Kakashi for the first time has an inner only, yet strong, emotional reaction, having to fight and supposedly kill his former student who became a rogue with a death sentence on his head...he realizes this is how Hiruzen felt against Orochimaru. It’s a strong realization from someone like him who was always so closed off and aloof that he totally lacked empathy.

On the other hand Sasuke is in a different mindset. He’s sort of high for having succeeded in eliminating the one who made Itachi suffer so much, he’s thinking about killing the elders and destroy the village, so he’s basically lost in the recent past of Danzo’s death and in the future plans he’s making, he’s not in the present moment almost...but he has to fight anyway, and it’s a cool fight, also because he’s weakened already and Kakashi is strong...and then he gets blind, totally, and it’s an amazingly intriguing moment, the kind of controversial stuff I’m interested in, because that’s when he could be totally overpowered by Kakashi, if the story didn’t have other priorities (putting Nar in the center of attention with their confrontation).

Their later moments, like during the war, are meh cause the interest shifted already completely, but their moments in jail (anime only ofc) and their Shinden interactions (only through messages) are interesting to me. Very much so, because they show power dynamics very well, with Kakashi as THE authority and Sasuke as the one submitted. In jail it’s even more evident with him looking down at the younger tied up and blindfolded...like, wow. It’s like fanfiction material (in fact I wrote one (ff.net/a03) and there was the coolest fanart inspired by it! here..there were more but this came on my dash today so).

You mentioned power dynamics...their dynamics are all power dynamics because Kakashi was never at Sasuke’s same level and he never acted like he was, and when Sasuke was stronger, during the war, they basically didn’t interact, and when the war was over and Sasuke was brainwashed and tamed into submission the power dynamic remained the same.

The difference imo between them and other power dynamics based pairings is that they are closer than what could be defined rare pairings such as Obito (they had a very interesting one tho, if only it was developed), Madara (the story was already developed in a pro Konoha-anti Uchiha way but it would have been so cool to have the 2 Uchiha interact more), or other older and stronger characters, so the dynamic could be written in a cool way in a fanfiction but in canon Kakashi created it already. So, while I can imagine something like Shisui/Sasuke, Obisasu or more, in my head, and I can come up with some AU or canon divergent/canon behind the screen (like when Sas stayed with Obito after the transplant), Kakashi and Sasuke had canon interactions that showed power dynamics already.

(Then there is Itasasu, which is a huge power dynamic based relationship, that also had amazingly strong feelings though, and those who know me know that for me Itachi will always be Sasuke’s most loved person, and that he was the same for Itachi. So ofc imo IS is a much stronger bond compared to KS but still. Also I remember in the beginning how many fics I read where Itachi was abusive to Sas and Kakashi stepped in lol. And it’s not a mystery that even though I think the IS bond is the strongest I find other pairings and character dynamics very interesting, so much that I like to explore them even more than IS, which, imo, is almost a given fact so I don’t always feel the need to explore it)

Another thing I find intriguing is that Kakashi always saw Sas at his ‘worst’...in Konoha’s terms I mean. When he wanted revenge in pt 1, after he killed Danzo and he was weak and so desperate and hysterical that they thought he got crazy, when he was jailed. It’s a big power he has, to be able to see someone like this.

Tbh it’s a pity that there were no post war moments (B*ruto shit doesn’t count) where they interact ‘normally’ cause I would have liked to see them, both as normal interactions where they get closer again, now that Sas is older, where they train and they get physical (and Kakashi has a lot of repressed anger, jealousy and possessiveness to let out on the one who betrayed his sensei and went to another...not my opinion but it could be Kakashi’s pov) because I think power dynamic would come up a lot, even from apparently cute moments.

I’ll end this super long essay hoping that you didn’t fall asleep lol, and adding that Kakasasu was the first Nar pairing I shipped, which it speaks a lot about why I get so irritated when someone mentions it negatively.

#kakasasu #unfollow me or block me if this bothers you #even tho I want to be the one blocking you guys who have something to say against this #vivalarevolution #vivalarevolution: bonds

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ratherbefangirling · 2 years

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The amount of brain writing takes sometimes. Like I don't know but either I'm like high on ideas or like it's radio static. And then there are times when I have the want for the idea to write itself which I've realised means I should read it.

Rant ahead.

I got books as a mystery box set and some of them were so bad that I was put off like it's almost a pity that fanfic writers do a better job for free. Like the level of racism and toxicity.

This one book went like it was a dystopian world where women were created for sex and 10x more than eligible men so the boys can have their choice and raised to be domestic and shit. And it was an over all shitty book but the sentence that triggered me was when the author wrote asian (maybe even African I'm not sure about African but Asian was def there) features disappeared because ppl didn't find that attractive. Like what a joke.

Also I did a bts ship game which was/ is nice but like its exhausting and then like two people deactivated their accounts and I felt sad I couldn't write their ships before they did and I really wanted to write for them. And I just loved reading people's descriptions it warmed me and just it was great. And then even after it's closed some people sent in stuff and I wanted to write but I have like a lot going on life wise not to be ungrateful like it leaves me exhausted emotionally sometimes I literally have an alarm to remind me to eat my friends know now they used to think someone was calling even joke about at times.. ..and then writing seems like a job uh it's bad. Even though I adore writing. And to the people I'm making wait I can't tell you how sorry I am but I don't want to do stuff half hearted.

Also like growing up is hard sometimes.. I just want someone to take decisions for me.. I want Namjoon to my Jungkook teach me stuff, praise, hugs, guide me etc. Like literally I'm the happiest when I don't have to make any decisions. It's something I'm trying to unlearn but we will see. Like I can't choose a bias even. While that's not the worst thing but still to me It reflects my inability to make a choice.

I have a lot of thoughts and strong opinions on literally everything like it's almost a defence mechanism so that I don't have to rechose a side or something. Most are well thought out.

Even BTS like please don't hate me but because in my world things I don't know about don't exist. I was into Kdramas then and had literally made two more people watch because of me so it was not due to any hate. I was wary of the immersive fan culture I had seen in dramas. Plus I didn't like liking the celebrity culture I was always a book fan even if they had movies I wasn't huge on the actors. So BTS was like one of the firsts for me.

But what is meant for you finds you. My friend was into BTS told me they were cool and said you could like anyone except JK.

Even for a long while fanfiction I was wary about they are real people and it didn't feel right.

I'm almost surprised at my growth the me of five years ago would be proud of me. She might not understand but I know she will be proud. That gives me strength and I wait for the five years later me and wish her all the best.

#rant #personal rant

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morkofday · 3 years

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thank you once again @yibobibo for tagging me ♥ even if, like I said, this is pure torture. I have so many sons that I’ve given up on counting them sigh but here goes.

favourite male fictional characters.

I took it that this meant ten so am going with that (tho am not gonna try and put them into order). am also sticking to all the characters I loved this year. and gonna ramble and add gifs so cutting it here.

1. Liu Sang

The Lost Tomb Reboot/Reunion: The Sound of The Providence

I have so much love for this boy it’s not even healthy. it’s a bit funny tho bc once I started tltr, I didn’t really like him and almost forgot about him as the first season ended. he just felt so annoying and bitter in what I saw him, even if I did get that he had a Tragic BackstoryTM (I felt for him but well. tltr really made him hard to like at first). but then they brought him back in the second season with his sad puppy eyes and inability to handle his thoughts on wu xie and being all touch-starved and pitiful and whatnot and baam, I had the adoption papers ready. he’s wonderful and so strong and so smart and amazing. and liu chang as his actor has been wonderful (and he’s so pretty my god, have you seen him??)

2. Shen Wei

Guardian

never did I expect to just. fall into this hole after a year? I remember what a mess I was when I first watched guardian over a year ago, right after finishing the untamed. I was in shambles even as I knew how it would end. and now I’ve done this all again while also reading the novel and. my love for shen wei, especially bc it’s zhu yilong acting as shen wei? astronomical. I want to write poetry about him and his stupid responsibilities that he chooses to carry silently and his devotion to zhao yunlan and his love for his ppl and his didi and. I hope that one day I manage to write weilan bc I have this one idea and you can come pry it from my cold, dead fingers if it doesn’t get out there (am also super happy about the edit I made bc my god does he deserve at least that)

3. Cloud Strife

Final Fantasy VII

ok so stepping into the video games territory now. I was waiting for the remake like crazy and it was everything to me once the quarantine hit during spring. the game is so beautiful and I felt like I looked at this gorgeous boy once and was ready to give him my heart (tbh am quite sure he owned my heart before I even learned to know him). he is tragic in so many ways (I’ve only scratched the surface of all of his pain I know) and I wish I could just. hug him a lot. he is kind and cares very deeply even if he hates to show it and I love it how remake showed him also just being a human disaster (some of his scenes are just. peak comedy). I would kill for his smile (I have already cried for it a dozen)

4. Geralt of Rivia

The Witcher (The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt)

if there’s one grumpy, brickwall of a man I love, it’s geralt. I affectionately call him “papa wolf” while playing witcher 3 and his voice in it does things to me (I am just so fond of him ok, begone you dirty fuckers). I got introduced to him through the books and adored him in them bc he is so prickly and sarcastic and still so full of love even if he will never admit to it. he is the father figure I wish I could have in real life. (and yes, I’ve seen the tv series (or at least a couple of the first episodes) and it looks stunning but. this is my version of geralt and that’s the hill I will die on)

5. Xiaoge

Zhang Qiling, Daomu Biji (The Lost Tomb 2)

(wow finding a gif for him was a pain, apparently I gotta learn how to gif or?) ah, my dear boy who I’ve ended up just calling xiaoge bc he seems to prefer it over his real name/title/whatever zhang qiling really is. I got introduced to him through tltr where we really didn’t get to know that much about him bc he was just... there. huang junjie was absolutely stunning tho and his soft smiles made me super fond, but only in the lost tomb 2 did I really fall in love with xiaoge as a character. I was surprised tbh bc I didn’t expect it to be this drama? I had so many doubts about the cast in tlt2 but they all delivered! and I think cheng yi’s xiaoge is now my favorite bc he somehow captured that softness and the pain of him? (and we do not talk about that buxun storyline tyvm) tho now that ultimate note is on the way, I gotta say that xiao yuliang does a wonderful job as xiaoge too!

6. Wu Xie

Daomu Biji (Ultimate Note)

(sorry we have to go with a pingxie gif now but maybe it’s only fitting) tbh it’s hard to choose my favorite version of wu xie. I think all of the actors for him have done amazing job showing wu xie in different parts of his life (all of them are very distinct but still feel like the same person) but currently zheng shunxi takes the lead. I really wanted to put the reboot version of him here (bc I love that mature, relaxed and somehow very soft version of him and the angst is phenomenal and the thoughts he has about death... yeah) but I already have zhu yilong’s face here once so :’D wu xie is just one of those characters you cannot not like. he is so strong, so kind, so stubborn, so wonderfully stupid sometimes and in need of careful protection. I also adore it how smart he is and I could listen to him spew history facts for 10 hours straight (even if it was in a tomb full of blood zombies) ♥

7. Jiang Cheng

Jiang Wanyin, The Untamed

my darling boy! my beautiful angry grape! I love him beyond words. I love him in all of his raging, misunderstood, stupid, sassy, constipated, abused, tragic, bitter, big hearted glory. I could write novels about him (and I did and am still writing oh boy) and his love for ppl and his inability to show that love and his loneliness and his issues. I could also write another novel for all of his outfits etc. bc damn, what a fashion king. he is just so great. he owns my soul. he deserves happiness and in this essay I will

8. Isana Yashiro

Adolf K. Weismann, K Project

I rewatched k project this spring bc a) it’s one of my favorite animes ever (it just looks stunning with all the colors) and b) I love yashiro to bits. I remember falling in love with him when I first watched k project many years ago bc he was just so kind and bright. this time though, I ended up seeing another side of him and my god did I cry. he is... so sweet. he cares for others so deeply and is ready to sacrifice so much for them and his love for his two clansmen... yeah. I think I finally saw the tragedy of him too, all the pain and loneliness and insecurity he decides to hide behind his smile and obnoxious personality. he reminded me a lot of myself and watching him made my heart bleed in a good way

9. Qi Tiezui

Ba Ye, The Mystic Nine

(wow am going to riot for the lack of all the gifs hhh) yes, we’re continuing with the dmbj universe that sucked me in big time this year. the drama of the mystic nine wasn’t probably that earth shattering for me as it somehow got boring more than once but I did love ba ye to bits. he was just... so nice? I got it that he was somehow this “comedic relief” in the drama with all of his funny scenes and ridiculous mannerisms but I could see the brilliance of him. he is warm and smart and kind of a romantic too and he cares for all of his friends so deeply? it was also sweet how protective of him his two zhangs were (does that run in the family? the tendency to imprint into one smart but disastrous man and keep him safe? maybe) and I really hope I knew more about him bc he seemed to have a lot of knowledge and a lot of impact to ppl’s lives (I yelled when they mentioned him in ultimate note, I miss him ;;)

10. Dorian Pavus

Dragon Age Inquisition

(yes I’ve been replaying DA:I this year, this counts!) another darling boy! my lovely sass master son! I have so much love for him and his story in DA:I. he is my favorite companion (and his romance is my favorite too, probably obvious in the way am currently romancing him for the third time) and he has given me a lot of strength. the way he stands up against his father, how he’s ready to reform his homeland instead of walking away, how he’s so caring for those he sees struggling... it’s very warming and I feel like I’m safe with him. it feels a bit silly to say that but he really is that comfort character I will seek out when I just want to know am doing fine :’) (and I am so excited to see him again in DA4! probably?)

+ 11. Li Cu

Tomb of the Sea

yes I cheated a bit (with my own rules lol) to fit li cu here. I didn’t really expect to like him or tomb of the sea as much as I did once I started it? I’ve seen leo wu elsewhere before this (battle through the heavens, nirvana in fire) and his face always makes me think about a sad puppy so maybe I just grew fond over li cu instantly bc he was... so hurt? the first episode really slaps you in the face with all of it, showing him being abused, wounded, kidnapped, tortured, used and then just very, very scared and broken. he continues being that throughout the whole drama and I feel like tomb of the sea (or sand sea or sha hai idk) is the darkest and angstiest story in the dmbj universe. I know it deserves to be bc this is a dark time for wu xie but... my darling li cu. I wish him only happiness ;; he was so strong and smart and wonderful in this and it was just so amazing to watch him grow and find his own place in the world just bc he did something himself (even when he got dragged into all of this bc of wu xie) also I support the wu xie adopts li cu -agenda

Honorary mentions:

Zhang Rishan, Xie Yuchen and Hei Xiazi from DMBJ universe. The Twin Jades of Gusu and Ouyang Zizhen from The Untamed. The Iron Bull and Fenris from Dragon Age games. Thane Krios, Kaidan Alenko and Jaal from Mass Effect games. The whole lot of Assassin’s Creed protagonists (especially Ezio Auditore and Shay Cormac). Adam Parrish and Ronan Lynch from The Raven Cycle. Neil Josten from All For The Game. Eduon and March from The Smoke Thieves. Qiling from L.O.R.D. Critical World. Luo Fei from Detective L (played by Bai Yu).

well, with this I can really see that I have a thing for those who are tragic :’D I have a thing for grumpy, prickly and antisocial guys or those who hide their pain behind a smile. maybe it’s bc I am somehow both, even if I can’t show my anger or be mean to others and even if I feel like my smile never sticks either. I just find kinship in all of the characters who are on this list. and I feel like I aspire to be as strong and as kind and as loving despite all the pain I’ve been put through.

thank you, this was so much fun! and sorry I made this so long and so complicated ^^’ but well, there are just way too many male characters I love haha

at the end I want to tag @i-am-just-a-kiddo @ashenwren @kholran @tiesanjiao @lan-xichens @aheartfullofjolllly @manhasetardis and @lzswy ♥ feel free to do this in your own way or not at all! and thank you if you managed to read through my rambling :’D

#tag game #wow this was something #i've been waiting for one #bc there is so much love in me #and this year i've discovered so many #new characters to just gush over #about me #random #edit: added a few characters #and tagged some more ppl sorry #also mobile tumblr wouldnt let me edit so lol

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babycracker · 3 years

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Echoes 👀👀👀👀 I’m so excited!!

I know I’m supposed to pick one but I am also eyeing the jordam nsfw because 💚

haha i can tell you abt both, that’s ok! under the cut though coz i included snippets and it got long

so i have up to chapter 16 of echoes planned out in my head, not that you’d know it because it’s taking me so long to update it 🙄 at this stage it looks like 16 will be the last one, by then a first kiss will have happened (👀) and erlking will be dealt with. i have plans to write 2 more chaptered fics for jordam, the second one will focus on them sorting out their relationship, their difficulties in keeping it from rebecca ppl for a while and the conflict that it causes for adam. towards the end of the second one, something is gonna happen, which is what the third one will focus on. i don’t wanna give everything away though lol. buuut, have a snippet from the next chapter! (i think i’ve shared a bit of this in a wip wednesday or smth before so if you’ve alr read it, disregard)

"You-" Adam snaps, his face contorting into a furious scowl as his mind draws a blank.

"Me what?" she fires back defiantly, holding his icy gaze, her hands balled into fists at her sides.

"-are insufferable," he finally finishes.

"Fine," she throws her hands into the air suddenly and moves to walk past him, deliberately hitting his bicep with her shoulder on the way.

"I won't make you suffer me anymore. I quit," she grumbles under her breath, but he hears her and his arm shoots out to grab hers and he pulls her back closer to him, a little more roughly than he'd meant to.

"You what?" he asks, his eyes piercing into hers unforgivingly.

"I. Quit."

"You cannot."

"Try and stop me."

His grip on her arm tightens as she tries to walk away from him again, and she glares down at his hand before arching an eyebrow at him.

"You cannot," he repeats. His stomach tightens up with worry. No, not worry. Fear. His eyes widen slightly at the epiphany. He is afraid to lose her. He's afraid of the part of her that he still feels within himself being the only part he gets. He's afraid of the possibility of never being able to look at her again or be near to her again, never being able to watch her laughing with Felix again.

His face twists into a frown. He is just as afraid of what the fear might mean as he is of the fear itself. He is afraid of how remarkably easy it has been for Jordan to ignite those feelings within him, after no other has succeeded in… well, he can't even remember how long. She's still glaring at him, though her expression has softened, as though she can sense the battle raging inside of him. It irritates him even further, the way this woman pities him.

and as for the jordam nsfw, at the end of echoes jordan and adam were supposed to sleep together, but it kind of felt a bit rushed because, adam smh. so that’s not happening anymore, and instead their first time is gonna be a oneshot that i’ll post shortly after echoes is done, before the second fic goes up. i would’ve just left it out but i feel like it’s gonna be a significant moment in their relationship, ALSO i started writing that bloody scene when i started echoes because i was so paranoid that i wasn’t gonna be able to write adam smut properly. again, because adam. so i already have a fair bit of it done and i didn’t wanna waste it. here’s a snippet from that too! i think some of this has been shared before as well, so again if you’ve alr read it, just ignore it.

Usually Adam feels that time drags. One of the disadvantages of immortality he supposes is the fact that no matter how much time passes, it never feels as though he's getting anywhere. The hours blur into days, weeks, years and so on until his entire life sometimes just feels like one long, very long drawn out day.

That is, until he met Jordan. She's distorted his perception of time so that he feels as though he's known her his entire life, but at the same time whenever he looks at her it feels like it's still the beginning and he can't believe it's been close to two years.

He still feels a part of himself falling for her all over again when she smiles at him, still feels that same jolt of electricity that almost makes him giddy whenever she touches him.

He finds himself often thinking back to when he first met her. Before that, even. When she shot him outside of the abandoned factory. He forces himself to recall the smallest details of their earliest interactions, afraid that if he doesn't replay them often enough they'll eventually fade away like so much of his past already has.

He doesn't want them reduced to something that he takes for granted as though its always been here for him. He doesn't want their beginnings blurring into the background with the rest of his memories, he wants to remember all of it. He knows that one day those memories and the ones they've yet to make will be all he has left of her, and he'll cling to them desperately, fight for them viciously if he has to. Whatever it takes to keep them where he can easily recall his life with her.

wip smorgasbord

#ask kat #ask games

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lloftvlly · 4 years

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something i never really talk about but felt like ranting about right now.

hi, i’m may, i stan fictional villains, and i have a shitty autoimmune disease.

i don’t make a big deal of it because i don’t think it’s defining who i am but i won’t pretend it’s not a huge part of my life.

just a little backstory. my disease started to kick in in my teens. it started very slowly and snuck up on me. the first time i noticed something was off, was when my right knee started hurting. back then i didn’t think of it as much though, just maybe i was getting hurt at the concert i was at a a few days prior (it was good charlotte, my friend is a huge fan and dragged me to their live it wasn’t bad but lol). it started to bother me when the pain in the knee didn’t go away after i kept applying some cooling gels and whatnot and my knee kept swelling up. my cousin, who’s a doctor got me some cortisone cream too and it helped a bit but you can’t use this for long. so as soon as i quit using it the pain was back just as bad, if not worse.

i started seeing doctors and they were just confused. i got my knee punctured and liquids drained by doctor 5 times. (long-ass needle goes under your kneecap and liquid gets pulled out) this procedure hurts like shit but it always gave me a little relief for a few days. but after that it still got progressively worse. it started to also affect my left knee and my right wrist and eventually my lower back. and at this point i was taking a lot of pain meds to at least be able to have pain-free days. in the mornings i couldn’t get out of bed, i couldn’t walk. i had to always take pain meds in bed, wait until they kick in, then force myself to get out of bed and try to walk. always stiff, always having to keep my legs moving if i don’t want them to turn stiff like rocks again... my knees were too weak to keep me on my legs for long so whenever i was in situations i had to stand a lot, i would threaten them cos i would have to find something to lean on and that wasn’t always an option. shitty fucking situation.

i kept seeing doctors who were not sure what it was. idk how many times i left a doctor office and then had a mental breakdown, crying cos no one could tell me what’s wrong and i just wanted it to be taken care of. like lit felt like i was left so alone with my pain and no one did anything to help me with it. i even felt like i wasn’t taken serious enough. one doctor even made some comments that it might all just be in my brain. because i am also diagnosed with GAD and clinical depression he was like “this could be part of that.” such bullshit. sometimes doctors don’t take you serious for having mental illnesses is what i learned from that.

anyway, things were looking up a little after that.

about 7 years into living with pain i was finally getting a diagnosis. all this time it had been psoriasis arthritis, an autoimmune illness that attacks my joints. the reason why it took doctors this long is because this condition rarely ever comes without the skin condition psoriasis. i didn’t show it on my skin, and even my blood tests seemed to not show the results doctors needed to diagnose it. the only reason doctors did find out, was because i had googled my symptoms a lot and i brought up the idea to my doctor that this would be it. plus my grandpa and my aunt have the same disease and it’s something genetic. honestly without me telling the docs i think i have psa i think i wouldn’t have a diagnosis even now.

idk what changed on the day i got my diagnosis and why it suddenly showed in my blood tests also. but i was relieved to say the least, knowing what was rly going on with my body. but the thing is, i lived 7 years undiagnosed with it and now have to live with the consequences of that time: these being, i was always walking cautiously because of the pain in my knees, it ended up in me now having a crooked walk, i can’t stretch out my legs completely anymore, neither bend them completely. it’s now just something i have to live with, that i won’t prolly never walk normally again. i’ve ruined my posture thru that, and now have chronic back pains caused by it and i get lots of migraines that result from the back (idk how it works i aint a doctor)

now i am on strong medication called mtx, it’s kind of a med that many ppl are critical of, because of its strong side effects and it not being rly good to the body. i have my blood checked all 6 weeks cos i gotta make sure they don’t slowly kill me lol. but for me this med is rly saving my life like holy shit. i do physical rehab in a program whenever i can, i stayed there for weeks before and it was kind of nice. the issue with my medication, however, is that i have to pause them whenever i even have as much as a small cold. since they suppress my immune system or whatever, i can’t take them when i am sick or i won’t ever have a immune system to get me back to becoming healthy again or some sciency shit idk lol.

either way that brings me to now. i had a fever not long ago and had to pause my meds again. mtx stays in the body for like 2 weeks or so, if you pause any longer than that, your body is set back to the state it was before you started therapy on this medication and mtx takes up to ten weeks to even take effect. meaning, when i pause it, i am set back to before i started the medication and have to wait at least 6 weeks for them to kick back in and make the pain slowly go away again. now, currently i am in one of those in between times before the meds work again. i am in quite a lot of pain, i can barely get out of bed. not only do both my knees rly hurt but so does my back. and i am like /: well that sucks.

it’s hard to focus when you’re in pain. as i am right now. i try really hard to focus on anything other than that but no matter what i do, my mind’s always going back to the pains in my back and knees, my wrists feel surprisingly fine and thank fuck cos i need them to write lol. point being, my focus is gone. i wanna write, i wanna create, i wanna draw but it’s rly hard man. i feel whiny and like overly dramatic... nothing should keep me from writing, realistically. look, i mean, i just typed out this wholeass essay. i honestly think i am blocking myself. i’m like ‘woe is me.. i have some pain’ and somehow almost use this as an excuse, i guess, to be a lazy pos.

someone gotta tell me “stop being a bitch and get to work” so if you read this and if you would lol. just don’t pls, for the lov of king shiggy , don’t feel bad for me or say anything to pity me. that’s not what i want /at all/. i’m a badass for living with this pain, lemme feel like one at least lol. if you can sympathize that’s nice but i didn’t write this to make anyone feel bad for me i promise. i don’t feel bad for myself either, i honestly think i am lucky in many ways that i get to live in a country with free health care, get to work from home, get to be a lazy pos when i am in this type of situation without having to worry about anything rly.

i’m also writing this rant to kind of push myself. get out of this stupid slump DO SOMETHING.

anyway, that’s all.

also: if anyone got stories to share about their own experiences and they want me to hear it, please do. ithink we all have things we struggle with.

#personal #shut up may

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seasaltmemories · 4 years

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haru, ann, makoto, yusuke, and ryuji?

All are under the Cut:

Haru

How I feel about this character:

I like her! While I do agree that the fact she is recruited right when things kick into gear is kinda frustrating, I think she has a lot of great little moments that are overlooked, she is charming and cute

All the people I ship romantically with this character:

I am up for anything, but nothing stuck out in the game itself

My non-romantic OTP for this character:

Her friendship with Morgana and the entire Beauty Thief stuff is great

My unpopular opinion about this character:

I’m actually glad that her recruitment was nonstandard, it shook up the usual ‘oh person who is not supposed to be there wander in the Metaverse and turns out there is a persona user” while it doesn’t last for long, there are questions of if she could be Black Mask, and in general it makes it feel like the world doesn’t just revolve around what Joker sees on screen, the fact she is closer to other ppl than Joker (at least at first) is interesting

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

A conversation with Akechi about the whole father murder thing would be great, I know she is a pretty private person, and if it happened it would likely be without Joker, but the fact she still tries to be polite to him while being upfront about not forgiving him is an interesting dynamic

my OTP:

None

my cross over ship:

Um how about she and Rinea from FE Echoes hook up?

a headcanon fact:

She definitely becomes an old rich cat lady living her best life, partner or no

Ann

How I feel about this character:

I love her! I think her presence after her arc is understated but a great part of the team, I just think she is a fun character I like to watch

All the people I ship romantically with this character:

Shiho, I might also be down for a quick, low stakes hook-up with Yusuke

My non-romantic OTP for this character:

Her and Joker’s confidant is really nice

My unpopular opinion about this character:

I like her confidant, like yeah the model stuff isn’t the deepest but it only gets brought up a few times and we still have the rest of it being her kinda having to deal with the guilt of not being there for a friend even though things were kinda out of her control

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

I guess I wish her relationship with her body and sexuality was made a little more clear, the writing around that is an example of the game both wanting to appeal to fantasies and real life issues, from what i gathered she was fine with being sexy when she was the one who chose to do it, so it would have been nice if more of the fan-service stuff had her kinda initiating stuff

my OTP:

Her and Shiho

my cross over ship:

I could see her and Hilda von Goneril being fun

a headcanon fact:

I don’t think she continues staying a model for long, and over time kinda takes an unofficial mother figure role of looking out for newbies to make sure they aren’t being exploiting and using her influence to get creeps from getting more jobs

Makoto

How I feel about this character:

A fave, I think the game does a great job of balancing out her unlikable moments with being able to understand where she is coming from, and that tension in general made me like her all the more once I started coming around to her

All the people I ship romantically with this character:

Joker

My non-romantic OTP for this character:

Her and Sae were a great pair of sisters

My unpopular opinion about this character:

Again I also really liked her confidant, like Ann I think the Eiko stuff was very minor in the long run, and considering her strong sense of justice it made sense for hers to take place through an active investigation of sorts rather than her having a pity party for herself and spilling her past

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

My bias might be showing again but I am curious about her relationship with Akechi, I doubt they were close but it feels realistic that she would know he was basically Sae’s intern, and while I doubt they interacted much one on one outside that one scene where he calls her nothing but a goody two shoes, I wouldn’t mind exploring it more

my OTP:

Joker

my cross over ship:

Hmm her and Utena Tenjou would be a great mix of “high intellect low wisdom” and beating up gross dudes

a headcanon fact:

I think she never loses her rebellious streak and ends up in like advocacy work against government corruption

Yusuke

How I feel about this character:

He’s nice, I do like his interesting relationship with Madarame, and think it has some of the most nuance in the game

All the people I ship romantically with this character:

Nothing really serious besides like I said that low-stakes hook-up with Ann

My non-romantic OTP for this character:

As I mentioned while not a good relationship, I still think his connection with Madarame is his most interesting

My unpopular opinion about this character:

Maybe my own sheltered weirdo art kid is showing, but he really isn’t as out-there as ppl claim, I was expecting a hammy off the walls character from what fandom showed, but if anything his is really quiet, withdrawn and again most of his eccentricities is just him having been really sheltered his whole life and having to adjust to living on his own, like in the grand scheme of things, buying lobsters just to draw them is something I could see ppl in my life doing and maybe joking about for two or three days before being completely forgotten

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

I think he is the phantom thief that fades into the background the most, and I wish he had a bit more relevancy for the rest of the game, which is harder to do bc he isn’t the most social or touchy-feely outside of art, I wish I got a great sense of camaraderie at least from his reasons for sticking around besides “friends” feels very weak

my OTP:

Not really any

my cross over ship:

I could see something between him and Namine being sweet

a headcanon fact:

I don’t know the exact flavor, but I think he is misdiagnosed neurodivergant and likely never really figures it out except maybe by the time he is middle age and has a stable life bc he and others around him write off the symptoms as the result of his weird upbringing and artsy nature

Ryuji

How I feel about this character:

He’s a character I don’t I could stand if he was real, but the game writing and framing does make me like him and his friendship with Joker comes off as very genuine

All the people I ship romantically with this character:

I am up for anything, but nothing stuck out in the game itself

My non-romantic OTP for this character:

Again him and Joker

My unpopular opinion about this character:

Lol I feel like I pissed off a lot of ppl by saying I couldn’t stand him if he was real, but really he is like the eptimone of teenage rage, like he has good reasons to be angry but he doesn’t really know how to cope with it in the right ways, like no offense but walking up to somebody and just asking “hey are you being abused” isn’t all that helpful to a victim and other little things that in a less power-fantasy narrative could go really wrong, I don’t think presenting those flaws is bad, and I don’t think he is a bad character, but as someone who has also had to carefully manage my anger, it hits me in a very “remembers bad memory and cringes way”

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

Look I know teenagers can be horny and I am not against ever showing that, but i guess as a grown woman I could have done without all the “lets score some babes” talk

my OTP:

None

my cross over ship:

Doug from Rune Factory 4 could probably vibe with him but i think they’d both cool each other down

a headcanon fact:

Probably also when he is older, things are stable, and he finds a therapist he doesn’t feel patronized by, he does end up finding the experience meaningful

#merryfortune #thanks for the ask!!#seasalt talks #phantom thieves #persona 5 #haru okumura #ann takamaki #makoto niijima #yusuke kitagawa #ryuji sakamoto

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laughing-with-god · 5 years

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BTS as Yandere (Based on their Venus and Mars Signs)

(We don’t know BTS’s exact birthtime and location so the placements are just general predictions and not precise. Astrology is something I think reveals a lot about a person but I am in no way saying that all the members are like this)

Seokjin-

Venus in Capricorn.

Takes a long time for it to develop yandere habits/mindset. But once he gets there, there is no turning back.

Probably fell for you bc he can see a future with you. He’s very strategic and attracted to accomplished individuals so your career, work ethic or lifestyle probably drew his attention. You had to impress him in some way.

Fan of older partners. it’s okay if you’re younger but you still have to be mature. Childish behavior really pisses him off.

Capricorn is about control, once he has you he wants to be in charge of the smallest things about you. Your diet, what products you use, what shows you watch, the music you listen to and the friends you spend time with.

Public image is very important to him, so he will not deal with any disobedience esp if you guys are out in public. Wants the world to think you two are the perfect couple.

Not that romantic, but very traditional. Obsessed with planning for the future with you. Looks at houses, talks about the schools nearby for your future kids. While a venus in Pisces might write poetry for you and get you flowers, venus in Capricorn would ask to sign up for a joint bank account. That’s romance to them.

Venus in Capricorn apparently like bigger butts, thighs and even duskier complexion. Tall partners too.

Venus in Capricorn likes to take their time. Even though he’s yandere, he still wants to progress slowly with you to savor the buildup and think about the story he will tell his kids about how he got with their mother. No kisses on the first few dates, probably took months for you guys to fuck.

Mars in Cancer

very protective of you.

He will have a family with you. That’s not up for discussion.

Although his venus in cap makes him attracted to ambitious women, his mars in cancer makes it so that after being together for a while, he would ask you to be a stay at home sweetheart while he works and provides for you.

loves being depended on. His cap and cancer both agree on this.

Very lenient on punishment. His cap will try to set harsh ground rules, but if you were to break them, just give him some teary eyes and he would fold completely. he tends to settle on lectures instead of physical punishment.

“Darling, it’s never to early to start shaping our future. We need to figure out what private school to send our kids to and that would dictate where we live next.”

Yoongi-

Venus in Aries.

While other members would despise a partner who fights back all the time and gets mouthy, Yoongi would adore it.

The sassier and more outspoken you are, the more Yoongi loves you.

One of the few members to not mind if you are independent, in fact it turns him on to know how capable you are on your own.

He likes tension and fighting, bc it keeps the spark alive and he thinks you’re the sexiest when you are fiery and livid.

Likes the chase. Will def play your game. If you give into him too easily, he’ll loose interest very fast,

Tends to like more tomboyish partners, laidback and straighforward. Don’t be too sensitive or feminine, it will only anger him.

Likes for the relationship to move fast. Will fuck you on the fist date if you let him. He doesn’t understand the concept of waiting when you set his heart on fire like it’s nothing.

Do. Not. Undermine. Him.

If you say something, esp about his masculinity, he will flip shit and prob go out to kill some ppl just to prove that he is no bitch. aries are sensitive to their assertiveness being tested. Very competitive as well.

Quick tempered at times, but not the type to hold a grudge.

Any competitors for your affection will be dealt with. utmost violence as well.

Not the type to take you out for dinner and a movie every time you guys go out on dates, wants to have exciting dates with you.

Enjoys the company of younger partners, a youthful energy is needed to keep up with him.

Mars in Cancer.

protective as hell.

He will be violent, but never at you. The type to hurt people around you rather than you. Just enough to get his point across.

“Thanks to your bitchy behavior, (friend) can expect a broken arm tomorrow. Hope you’re happy.”

possessive over you.

Needs to be told you love him. Just for reassurance.

A family would be nice, but he would be happy with just one kid or some pets.

Your guys’ shared home is sacred to him. People can’t just come over.

“Doll face, I’m bored. Let’s fight. We can have hot makeup sex afterwards.”

Namjoon-

Venus in Scorpio.

Shit.

Run bitch.

High key, venus in Scorpio is one of the most yandere placements to exist.

Obsession is his middle name.

The moment he met you, he knew he had to have you. His mindset is almost scary.

He could barely know you but he already is experiencing a need to consume your entire mind, soul and body like no other.

The deepest desire which taints his mind until he cannot think of anything else.

Convinced you two are soulmates.

Attracted to partners that are sexy, mysterious, able to enchant him whilst barely trying. Darker and more sensual clothes are preferred on his lovers. For girls, something very womanly and grown. For a guy, something manly and appealing to your form.

Possessive. An unquenchable thirst to dominate his lover. He loves the idea of completely taking over someone so magnetizing.

You have to be very intelligent, he needs stimulating conversation. You can’t just be sexy without a brain.

really likes your scent. Not the perfume you wear or the shampoo you use, but your actual natural scent. Might sniff your used clothes to get it. Doesn’t mind if you haven’t showered in a couple days. (weird but I read this somewhere and I can totally see it so hop off)

Doesn’t take things slow. why should he when he knows that you two are going to end up together either way? would fucking marry you after knowing you for two months.

Not above mind games in order to get you to stay.

Very romantic, but some of the things he says raises red flags.

“I would kill for you, (Y/n).”

Mars in Cancer.

This only enhances some of his venus in scorpio.

VERY protective. VERY possessive.

Way more likely to end up with a younger partner, this would also aid his venus in scorpio’s need to dominate and consume his partner.

Unlike the other mars in cancers, I think he would physically punish you at times. (more sexually themed punishments though) never enough to actually seriously harm you. A light spanking here and there that feeds his need to be the dominant one.

very smart with getting rid of people in your life. It happens over time and they would always be labelled missing.

Wants to be the only person you need, will provide for you too. Idk if he would want a fam bc venus in scorpio is very tunnel vision and kids may fuck with that.

“We’re soulmates baby. Don't kid yourself. No one on this god green earth will understand you or care for you as much as I do.”

Hoseok-

Venus in Pisces.

Attracted to softer and sweeter partners. He wants to be slapped into a dreamy state when he sees you.

Very romantic. Poems, songs, flowers, chocolates, five-star dining ect.

eager to please you in any way. Type to leave his house at 4 am and hit up your place to deliver ice cream just bc you ran out.

very emotional with you. Your phone could die and you can’t answer his text, therefore 30 minutes later Hoseok would be sobbing and begging at your doorstep to not leave him.

Very self-pitying. Hard to explain but have you ever been mad at someone and instead of defending themselves, they just kinda say stuff like; “You’re right. I’m the worst kind of person. I should just die already.”

He’s like that whenever you’re mad at him. He likes to play the guilt card a lot.

Enjoys smaller lovers, or petite people. Likes feeling bigger than his partner. (don't come for me guys, I literally just read this and it kinda made sense to me. Pisces are depicted as more elfish figures so he probably finds it attractive.)

Cuddling is so vital to him. it’s as if he charges himself up or something because he can literally experience withdrawls.

Loves it if you’re really sweet and charitable. also if you are into arts or occult themes, Hoseok would be so intrigued and want to learn from you

Works himself into obsessive fantasies, Pisces love escapism and he tends to day dream about you 24/7.

Least likely among the members to be violent to you or anyone else for that matter.

He would hurt himself before anyone else. He likes acting very depressed or gloomy (in extreme cases, getting himself bruised and bloody) in order to get your affection and worry.

Mars In Aquarius.

Still stands true that he wouldn’t hurt other people. He’s very logical despite being yandere and he knows that you’re not sleeping with the waiter who lingered too long.

Aquarius is very logical, so he could be very calculating with his emotional manipulating. Like tell you his dad just got diagnosed with cancer and induldge in your cuddles and coddling, but little did you know his dad has had it for years.

Punishment is very aloof. You just loose privilages.

Least likely to have an age preference out of the members.

Into some really kinky or odd/taboo things in the bedroom. At the very least, he’s very willing to experiment.

“Sugarplum~! Aren’t you so sad for me right now? Please, give me cuddles. Those always make me feel better.”

Jimin-

Venus in Scorpio

Very desperate to know every little thing he can about you.

You haunt his mind even if it was just a brief encounter that you had with him.

also wants to consume your very mind, body and soul.

Attracted to sexy over cute. Curves, dark and sensual clothes, alluring mannerisms and husky voice. He wants to be magnetized by you, unable to forget you even if he tried.

Obsessive, mind consuming, passionate love for you which depths kind of terrify you.

loyal and dedicated. Your enemies are his enemies now. (This includes anyone who happened to give you a less than warm glance).

Sex is very important to a venus in scorpio, he feels like it’s the only way to properly express his love through mind-numbing pleasure he can give to you.

He moves fast once he’s with you. he doesn’t want to go through the fluffy bullshit of waiting so long to kiss, fuck or move in together when he’s 100% convinced you are his soulmate.

Jealous. No one should be able to look at you the way he does. He’ll loose it.

Wants to control you. it’s the end-game.

Doesn’t mind if you are younger or older but he will be the one in charge.

A partner who has the appearance of dominance but will be very submissive to him is what he craves.

Likes marking his territory. Leaves bruises, hickies or makes you wear couple clothes, his clothes or a necklace or something to make him feel the thrill of ownership.

will write his name on you if you let him. Just a permanent markered ‘Park Jimin’ on your forearm or something.

But he would be so happy if you did the same to him as well.

You belong to him just as much as he belongs to you.

Mars in Scorpio.

Protective, possessive. you know the drill.

Punishments with you are sexual.

Power play with him in charge is also a big factor in your sex life.

Can and will murder anyone he deems a threat.

Even your family and friends have to keep their distance.

“Jagi, my name is beginning to fade off your arm. Let’s touch it up, yeah?”

Taehyung-

Venus in Aquarius.

Attracted to someone very different and unique.

It can be your looks, your ethnicity, personality, career or interests but for whatever reason; you stood out.

Big age gaps are seen here. Doesn’t matter if you are younger or older but chances are, it’s by ALOT.

Doesn’t follow dating normalities. Couldn't give less of a shit about dating or courting. if he wants you, he is going to get you.

Turned on by taboo relationships and sex. Like if it’s forbidden for you two to be together, it’ll only spur him on more.

Teacher/student, boss/worker, affairs, age gaps. Anything society might look at with an eyebrow raise.

Very kinky in the sheets, wants to try everything at least once.

Aquarius is very cold and aloof sometimes, so Tae wouldn’t get jealous. He has mastered the mask of indifference. If someone tries talking to you in effort to get with you, Tae would just laugh bc it’s almost funny how they thought they had a chance with you.

You must be very interesting intellectually, he wants a partner he can learn from.

His yandere habits come out when you try to block him out from your life, or try to lessen his control over you.

He craves authority over you, this is only added to bc his mars is in Capricorn.

Wants to make small changes about you, then eventually big ones.

Like it’s really subtle too, he’ll say something like “Oh, I really like that style, you should wear it more.” And then a month later, he’s in control of your wardrobe.

His methods are very sly. He doesn’t threaten you or make a big show of putting you into submission, he much rather just plant a seed in your mind and wait for nature to take it’s coarse.

Loves surprising you and playing games. Will stop talking to you for like a week and then theres a knock on your door and damn, he sent you Gucci.

Doesn’t want you to be able to figure him out. Always thinking of the next unpredictable thing he could do to keep you one your toes.

Mars in Capricorn.

After the push and pull game is over and he has put you into a submissive state for him, he wants to begin a more traditional life. House, kids, you became a stay at home lover.

Just bc he becomes a family man doesn’t mean that the freaky sex has to stop.

Possessive of you and your future kids.

The type to teach his future kids on yandere and how they should make sure ‘mommy never tries to leave daddy’.

Punishments are physical, and very harsh. He’s all about that discipline and will not be talked down when he thinks you broke one of his rules.

“Why is it wrong for me to make choices for you? I know what best after all. Have I ever failed you? Even when people told me to break up with you because our relationship wasn’t cookie-cutter.”

Jungkook

Venus in Libra.

The opposite of Yoongi. He wants someone who is very feminie and ‘girly.’

Dresses, pastel colors, nice perfume, charming, docile manners and sweet sounding voice.

Wants very bad to prove himself to you. Virgos and Libras are people pleasers so the fact that his sun and venus are these two signs just tells me that he desperately will try to get you to like him.

Will change his style, his hair, his voice whatever he has to do to get you to pay him attention.

Very romantic. Thinks you deserve the best so that will always reflect in the dates he takes you on or the gifts he gives you.

Libra is ruled by venus so love is something that he simply cannot live without. He fantasizes about marriage and furture plans with you.

Will call you ‘wifey’ if you let him.

He adores you.

Worships the ground you walk on.

Which is why his yandere tendencies will have to walk around your desires.

Like you tell him to stop looking through your bedroom windows at night, he can’t bring himself to do it anymore bc that would be going against you directly.

BUT you didn’t say he couldn’t install cameras.

King of loopholes.

Like a mechivous kid who loves his mom and doesn’t want to get scolded, but he still wants to sneak in some cookies from the jar.

He isn’t the punisher of the relationship, YOU are.

If he does something that angers you, just don’t talk to him for literally an hour or so and he’d go crazy.

the fear of losing you is too great.

Another one who really enjoys your scent. It’s like crack to him.

Prone to stealing a small thing froom you, like a scarf or a blanket that has your scent on it.

If you were to be away from him for a while, he would just steal your perfume and spray it on his hoodie so he could feel like you were hugging him.

Might even buy your perfume for himself.....

Mars in Scorpio.

Very protective of you and cannot handle the possibility of anyone being with you the way he is.

He will get very brutal with anyone he considers a threat, no one is safe. You can literally walk an old man across the street and Jungkook would still think the fucker was trying to cup a feel.

very sexual, switches between being dominant and submissive. It’s mainly focused on pleasing you bc of libra and virgo but mars is the planet of sex and with that in scorpio means he can be a dom.

Jungkook is (and I say this with all my heart) a switch with sub preference.

Wants to know you like no one else ever has. You know how the members with scorpio venus are so intense? Jungkook has that side to him too.

….it’s just hidden behind the sweeter venus libra.

“Princess, please stop ignoring me. You’re my goddess, I can’t handle not being acknowledged by you. Just tell me what to do to make it better.”

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yaboylevi · 4 years

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What about this chapter did you not like? love your art btw ❤️

Thanks!

Sorry for the wait, I wanted to read the official chapter and wait for a bit to see if my feelings changed (spoiler: they didn't).

It would be way faster to list the few things I enjoyed but alas.

VERY negative opinions under the cut. Seriously, if you liked the chapter, don't read this, I don't want to spoil your fun or upset you. I didn't bother to write this in a respectful tone, it's not an analysis, it's just me venting. That being said, if you guys read this ignoring my warning and get upset, it'll be your fault and responsibility, yeah.

The Annie's father stuff was okay, though I hope it's gonna be explained why he was the only one in Liberio running against the flow of the screaming crowd.

Then we get Reiner being pathetic once again, I am so tired of this. What's his purpose in the story aside from killing people, being a nuisance and or dead weight to others and feeling sorry for himself? I would've appreciated if he had had some introspection on how his rushed plan was partially the cause for Porco's death and Falco's transformation (and all the other deaths bc Zeke would've never screamed in Shiganshina if Reiner hadn't pushed for another attack there). But anyway if he'd had introspection, it would've been about self-pity and NEVER growth because he seems unable to have that, so I would've disliked it anyway.

If I wasn't already rolling my eyes this hard at Reiner, then I would've started at Gabi. She's all over the place and I guess it's understandable since she is a kid and also deeply shocked and in pain. I understand it. But I don't like how Isayama made her go from despair, to murder instinct, to calm and collected in 2 pages. It's just ???? Then we have the Eren parallel and I groaned out loud. Whatever its meaning is. It's just forced.

One of the things I hated this chapter for and that I'm becoming so annoyed at in general lately, is that EVERYTHING parallels something that has already happened, and I don't understand if Isayama thinks he's being smart or if it has some deeper meaning like "oh see, history repeats itself!! wow!! a concept that is not being repeated ad nauseam in the series, not at all!! /s". I don't need it to be shoved into my face.

Idk. Also Reiner, of course, being safe in a house amongst titan territory...of...course...

Then the 104th scene. Ugh. Jean's delusion is so annoying. One moment he's rational, the other is like "muuuuu ereh is doing this for us!!! we couldn't do anything!!!", then he's rational again. Maybe if they had paid attention to Eren, and didn't only take into consideration stupid ideas that would've never worked for 4 years, maaaybe yeah, this wouldn't be happening. Who knows. I'm just tired of the 104th whining about their situation. I understand where they're coming from, their feelings, etc, I understand it's a crazy and emotional situation and all, but we already have SO MANY CHAPTERS about it, it's time to move on at least with the plot. It's just so pathetic and annoying. It makes me angry how he's basically trying to avoid responsibility or rationalize genocide like all the Eren goat stans in the fandom. I hate this mentality so much. "if they disappear, so will all the hatred! Do we really have to stop him?" JESUS CHRIST JEAN..............yikes

And then of course they (and Isayama) had to ruin chapter 108.

Then Jean also had the guts to say they should kill a kid so they can revive a commander, just bc he's too scared to take the reins of the situation. Again, I understand the struggle, it's the same as Hange afterall, it's just very, very ugly how he didn't even waver. Connie's been acting irrational, and he's been swept up by his anger for a while now, so I understand his development. Plus I find it more relatable to wanting to make a big sacrifice for someone you love, rather than someone you (think you) need. But Jean???? wtf. He doesn't even think back on the sin he was willing to commit, he isn't ashamed.

Armin as well doesn't even care that it's a kid they're talking about, he's only strategizing. And here's another annoying point: he's able to make these calculations now but when it comes to Eren his brain freezes and he becomes a delusional kid. Where were his brains when he had to think up of ways to negotiate with the world? Anyway, I get it, it's because Eren's his childhood friend and family. I am just so tired of seeing this again and again, and again. We've been stuck on this for over a year... Nothing has changed, they're just dejectedly going back and forth on their opinions and feelings. Really goes to show that Eren was the real heart of their group...

Connie flying away from the battlefield, effectively splitting again the povs we need to follow is...big yikes.

Parallel to Trost, parallel to Serumbowl. Yeah wow so interesting.

Nile dying so quick like that was also underwhelming. And it was unnecessarily cruel, imo, that as a titan he tried to kill children when as a person he was so sweet with kids (except with Eren, of course...).

The Gabi-Sasha parallel left me a bit confused. On the one hand, I don't like the killer being paralleled to the murdered. But on the other hand, I understand why that is [/inserts meta that i don't care about writing]. The Kaya-Gabi moments were also cute + Nicolo's little speech was nice, though a bit awkward, imo. I bitterly laughed at Gabi finally admitting that she mindlessly killed people just to be praised. At least she can better herself from now on! If only her cousin could take his self-pity and do something to change himself with it, but no, he just wants to change others or run away (and this is why i don't like reiner anymore).

Shadis saving these ungrateful kids was pretty cool.

I felt bad for Yelena, I want to see more of her (and maybe Mikasa+Louise), but instead, we have Jean vs Floch angst and I'm already sleeping, because I care so little about both of them.

Isayama painting Jean as a cool leader is just embarrassing when moments before he was pathetically whining and trying to kill a child (to which there was no setup, especially comparing it to the setup for Connie's plot thread. The last we saw of Jean with a kid was him wondering if he hesitated in killing the Cart because of Falco 15 chapters ago...and that was a compelling doubt but I guess he hadn't hesitated at the time, after all lol). The pages dedicated to the killing of the titans were boring, occupying space for nothing imo. Glossing over them would've sufficed, there could've just been the Pixis stuff, and it would've been fine. Which, btw, made me laugh a little in retrospect, because Armin is once again involved in the death of a Commander. Oh well.

I also didn't like that mini-flashback with Eren&Pixis. I guess Isayama wants to ruin every single nice moment Eren had with other people, because Eren is soooo so so bad now uwu, for no good reason, and it's only his fault right? people were nice to him and look at how he repaid them uwu. Big yikes for me.

I expected more from that Louise panel because it made me go [EYES EMOJI], but I guess I'll have to wait.

It's also unbelievable that NO ONE IN THE WHOLE STORY has thought of stopping Floch, when last time they arrested him, so technically why would they even leave him running around NOW? It's beyond me. Do they have a brain?

As for the basement conversation with Gabi, I hope that "I won't give up on Falco" panel + Armin looking at Gabi thoughtfully will start a "We can't give up on Eren" mindset for the 104th, but I doubt it's gonna be handled in a non-pathetic way, considering how's been done as of late.

Gabi screaming to talk to Eren was also very embarrassing from a reader pov (well, my pov). Because she was RIGHT THERE when EMA talked last time, and she should know that would most likely not work (I guess she's talking out of desperation but still...ppl be like "yeah!! they should talk to ErEn!1 why didn't they think of it!?!?!" and I mean it's probably gonna come down to that if the final audio is of any indication...I just find the presentation of this concept awkward and forced).

I really disliked most of Gabi's part, even though she's a character I have learned to enjoy. I guess what shined through in this chapter is exactly what I don't like about how Isayama uses Gabi's character: it seems like she's just there as a fast-paced mini representation of the story themes, so she's just an instrument to the story. Sometimes I feel like she's a real character, sometimes I feel she's just a tool for the story and the themes.

Armin's reaction to hearing about Annie is...I don't know. aruani has been one of my first ships and I used to be obsessed, but this is just awkward and forced, just like the previous aruani scene that made me angry at Armin. I don't even understand if Armin's shocked, scared or happy. All of these don't make sense to me, because I have no clue what he even expects from her.

Annie's release from the crystal happened in an unexpected way which i appreciated, though I would've liked it more if she had decided to get out on her own. But it depends on if she was stuck in there or if she was still willingly escaping from reality. If she was stuck, I will love this a lot more, because basically Eren set her free.

Also, Eren's radio podcast was longer I guess ("Eren said he would undo all the hardening"), and I wonder why we couldn't hear it all. Sigh.

In general, the "theme thread" of the chapter (adults & kids) felt really pushed in our face. I appreciate when things are a bit more subtle, this just came off as...boring, because every scene made me go "well, of fucking course this scene would end like this...". The only tense moment was the Connie part, let's be real.

And yeah, my perception may be also partially because I am so tired of no Eren pov and "eren is the evil, evil villain" rhetoric, so maybe I will appreciate this chapter more once we get his pov at the end of the story (bc i have no illusions left that this won't happen anytime before the finishing line). For now, I'm just frustrated because I didn't care about ANY of the things that went down in this chapter. Like, okay, let's move on, ffs.

Everything felt forced and contrived, like, Isayama must know that nobody cares about this stuff that much and everyone would prefer to see literally anything else amongst Eren, Historia, Levi&Hange, the Colossals. Hell, imagine if this chapter didn't have Annie at the end. That was the only thing that made this chapter barely worth the read for me. I hope the next one will at least follow Connie and Annie, if I can't get any of the other things that interest me.

#salt and character hate I'm so sorry hhhh #don't read if you get v upset @ ppl's opinions #and if you enjoyed the chapter #really #if you liked the chapter don't read this #if you read this and come cry in my ask box or replies I'll block you #if you read this and feel the need to rant on your blog (or your discord chat lol) about me you're just a loser bc I warned you #dl #shingeki asks #Anonymous

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sunflowerkiszka · 5 years

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Heyyy, from the dialogue prompts can I request 12, 14, & 32 with Jake please?? Thanks🙃

may this be love -jake kiszka imagine

dialogue prompts 12, 14, & 32 w jake

"Play with my hair, you know, like when u do the thing."

"I think you're just in love with me."

"Dance with me."

pairing: jake x reader

A/N IMPORTANT A/N: pls read this whole thing i am begging but PLAY MAY THIS BE LOVE BY THE JIMI HENDRIX EXPERIENCE WHILE READING THIS (when the song actually starts in the story...plz... there will be another A/N when it's time lmao it's the ultimate experience and u will love it hopefully) I LOVE THAT SONG IDK IF U DO OR WILL BUT IT'S SO GOOD & CUTE

and then if u want queue "I Don't Live Today" after "May This Be Love" for the full affect of the story if u want it, i did it and if ur lucky like me the singing in the story will line up with the song as it plays, obviously it just depends on ur reading pace, but ik that some ppl can't focus on reading with another distraction like that,,,, anyways im totally rambling so let's get on w it

---for those who don't have apple music or spotify or a way to run it in the background, i couldn't figure out how to add the songs to this post it was probably a copyright thing but i tried im sry

BUT PLS PLAY IT WHILE READING THIS WHEN THE SONG STARTS IN THE STORY IF U DON'T UR GOING TO JAIL

and ik jake stans jimi so

as he should

genre: FLUFF

word count: around 1.3k

summary: jake had a long day and missed you a lot so when he comes home he just wants to b w u and u guys dance and it's cute as fuck

warnings: FLUFFY AS SHIT

❁

As you pad to your bedroom with a trail of water drops behind you from your shower, you hear keys in jingle in the front door. Jake's home.

You plop onto your bed with a sigh and hear his footsteps coming up the stairs. When he walks through the door he looks exhausted.

"Hey..." you say and turn to him, but he just drops his keys on the dresser and sits next to you on the bed, pulling your torso down with him which makes you giggle.

His head weighs down on your chest and you wrap your arms around his neck. "Long day?" you ask him softly.

He only nods, but you understand. He lives a really fast paced and hectic life: constantly on the road doing shows and interviews, being stopped on the streets wherever he goes, and writing and recording meanwhile trying to keep up with his personal life. It's a lot, but you understand and he's just happy that he has you to keep him on his toes and support him through it all.

"Y/N," he mumbles and you hum in response. "Can you play with my hair, you know, like when you do the thing."

Whenever he gets super clingy it's usually because he's had a rough day and he misses you during all of him. Sometimes when his head was on your chest you'd hold it and brush the hair away from his face with your free hand, then lightly detangle it with your fingers. So you did just that.

After a while you start to get cold considering you're still in just your towel. You assume Jake is sleeping, but when you try to move from under him, he grabs your waist and you laugh, "Jake, I have to get dressed."

He sighs before rolling off of you, but doesn't fully let you go until you're out of his reach. As you look through the drawers you hear him get out of the bed so you turn to see what he's doing. He walks over to the record player next to you on the dresser.

The record you had been playing before you got in the shower was Are You Experienced and Jake smiles when he sees. He carefully moves the arm to cue a song from it. He usually insists on playing vinyls all the way through from the beginning, but he didn't this time.

"Wow," you tease.

The corners of his mouth curl up and his eyes widen a little, "I know."

((A/N: *PLAY THE SONG NOW PLS LMAO*))

As it spins you hear the beginning notes of May This Be Love and you throw your head back while your eyes roll back. You hadn't played this yet today. "I could cry," you say dramatically, but you're kind of serious.

He smiles and reaches his hand out, "Dance with me."

"Jake," you giggle, looking down at your towel still wrapped you.

"Come on," he takes your hand and you try to press your lips together, but your smile won't allow it.

He pulls you to him before resting his hands on the small of your back. You can't stop smiling as he sways you side to side.

"What kind of dancing is this?" you laugh.

"Is this what you want from me?" he asks while starting to spin you around. Your wet hair almost hits his face, but he dodges it and the two of you laugh.

"See, who needs clothes?" he asks, thinking he's proved some sort of point and you roll your eyes.

"Me. You're lucky I'm even doing this right now," you joke. You really wouldn't rather be doing anything else.

"Oh, I know," he laughs.

"Yeah, I don't even like you that much," you say while shaking your head, which contradicts with the wide smile you've had on your face the whole time, "This is a pity dance."

"You're really bad at pretending that you don't like me...I think you're just in love with me," he says with a smug smile while looking you in the eyes and letting his arms hang over your shoulders. You just shake your head and when you look back at him he's still looking at you. "Cause I'm in love with you," he continues.

You cover your face with one hand while the other is around his neck, "Stop," you giggle.

He brings your hand down and chuckles, "What?"

He had told you he loved you before several times, but it was just different whenever he said he was in love with you. It has an entirely different meaning. You always tried to cover the flustered expression or the goofy smile that would spread across your face whenever he'd say it, but he wanted to look at you.

"I have nothing to lose, long as I have you," he starts to sing while pointing a finger in your face, but can't take himself seriously and neither can you. You try to bite it, but he quickly pulls it away before you can.

You put your arms back around his neck, throw your head back, and close your eyes before continuing to sway to the music. "Waterfall, don't ever change your ways, fall with me for a million days, oh, my waterfall," you lightly hum to yourself.

This song reminds you of Jake and makes you emotional everytime. Whenever he's away for a long time and you listen to it, it's still sweet, but really sad to be honest. But right now, with him standing in your arms and reminding you of his love for you, it's the best feeling.

You start to laugh to yourself lightly when you realize your eyes were watering and a couple of tears were threatening to pour out at any moment, which they eventually did. Vulnerability and intimacy wasn't really your thing, but you'd been working on it and getting better. With Jake it was so comfortable and natural; almost scary with how well you two worked together.

"Not to be extra soft or anything...but I love you. And I'm in love with you so.. you were right about something for once," you smile.

Now it's his turn to cover his face. He puts the back of his hand over his eyes and all you could focus on was his wide smile. You laugh at him and poke his cheek to tease him.

You stand on the tips of your toes to place a kiss on the corner of his smile which he didn't expect considering his eyes were covered and his smile widens, if that's even possible.

You uncover his face and intertwine your fingers with his before leaning in again. As the outro intensifies he cups your face in his hands and brings your faces together.

The kiss is soft and sweet and when your smiles get too wide to continue you pull away momentarily only to be pulled back in. His hand finds your waist and he dips you down like you two are in an eighties movie.

You giggle against his lips and he finally pulls away once the song is over.

"You're crazy," you say as you walk back towards the dresser and the next song begins. Your cheeks start to tense up and hurt from the constant smiling. It didn't matter how either of you two were feeling before you saw each other, you'd always end up smiling.

He walks back over to you and as much as you love him, you really want to get dressed, finally.

Instead of stopping you again, he stands behind you and plants a kiss in your neck, "Thank you for that dance."

Even though it may seem stupid and small, you know it cheered him up and he's in a much better mood. He places his chin on your shoulder wraps his arms around your torso, and you place a hand on his cheek. "I wouldn't want to be doing anything else," you admit.

He smiles and kisses your cheek, or rather shoves his face into you, causing you to giggle before he makes his way back to the bed. As you continue to sift through your clothes you find a pair of his joggers in your drawer and you throw them at him in hopes that he'll change into them and get more comfortable.

You guys decided to order pizza for dinner and spent the rest of the night watching stupid movies and laughing together.

It didn't matter what you guys were doing together, but it always involved lots of laughter and smiles.

And you wouldn't rather be doing it with anyone else.

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quick a/n: i know i added "you wouldn't rather be____ anything/anyone else" things but i was using repetition which is a technique for emphasis but i hope i don't just sound like a dummy who can't come up with anything else fff

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volgotha · 4 years

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I’ve been asked a lot lately why I seem like such a bitchy shut-in. My dude.

When I was 6 years old, I couldn’t write a word properly in my cursive learning book, so my mom took a big butcher’s knife out from a drawer, waved it in front of my face and said “Yknow Jana, some parents go crazy and actually cut their kids”. She gave me an eating disorder and body dysmorphia by constantly telling me how fat and hedious I was, even forced me to take pills called “fat assassin” when I was 15. They were untested, unregulated. And finally, when i was 18 and started dating for the first time and wound up with a shitty person, when i dumped him she got all up in my face abt how he was “finally turning me into the mature young woman she always wanted me to be”. She didn’t care about my saftey at all. My father has 0 patience whatsoever, and hit me over the stupidest, pettiest things. He used to scream at the top of his lungs right in my face from 2 inches away from me. Growing up, he’s oogle women right in front of me, and once when I wanted to tell him something about womens rights, he told me “hey, don’t talk to me about your “women’s lib” okay?”. When i told him I was raped, he had no reaction, like the severity of the situation never truely got through to him, leaving me feeling extremely alone and isolated in 2015. He apologized for a lot of that, but an apology doesn’t magically wipe away years and years of trauma.

When I was 12 I became best friend with someone named Charles, only for him to let his new best friend break up with me for him. When he returned in my life in 2006, he’d invite himself over to dinner 4 out of 5 nightgs a week to escape his abusive home situation knowing I’d fight my parents to let him come. There were times he was over where he spoke to my mom more than to me. Once he called me aliability when i was trying to find a job. He ditched me for the second time in 2008, and when my mom died in 2011, he didn’t even bother to come pay his respects. He essentially used me and my family and then discarded us like used toilet paper.

When I was very young, we’d have family get togethers at a family friend;’s house on New Year’s, where my cousins would ditch me in the basemet to go play video games with the family friend’s son. I wasn’t allowed up there bc as a girl, I’d probably break the expensive consoles--even though I had them at my house too. When I confronted my cousins about that, one of them shouted at me, “hey that was a long time ago, get over it”, until my death glare made him buckle and apologize and I explained to him how we have no relationship, no closeness today because we never spent time bonding as children. Then there’s what happened to me at the Dawson clubspaces. My mom;s death was weaponized against me when I was accused of using her illness as an excuse to get away with being a bitch, I was ghosted, pushed to suicide and those events lead to me meeting my rapist, and when I told them all what they had helped do to me they turn around and viciously hate me instead of feeling the slightest bit of remorse. I’m not even a person to them anymore. You wanna know why I’m a bitchy shut in and I barely have any friends? Because people my whole life have been shitty to me, and I’ll be fucking damned if I ever give anybody an in to do -any- of this shit to me again. I’m in therapy for it, but that doesn’t change how I feel about people and it probably never will. It’s a miracle I have as many people on facebook as I do, it really is. That happy time I had at Dawson, from 06 to 09, those were legitimately the best years of my life, and because of the bullshit that came after them, they’re gone now. I don’t know what to do with my life going forward, except to sink into my work. I desperately want friends like back then again, but I’m 32, where the fuck am I ever going to meet ppl again? I work from home lmfao in the social department, I’m absolutely fucked.

Maybe I’d have more friends if the people in my life weren’t clueless and dismissive and actually understood what I’ve had to live through. Maybe then I’d feel like I can make a genuine human connection with someone but so far everyone I know other than my partner, they don’t. They just don’t. Not even my own family gets it. I don’t rly have a relationship with them bc of that. I’m not nearly as depressed as before, and I’m finding joy in my life again, but like??? Don’t come at me with this ridiculously shitty mindset of “omg you’re such a bitchy shut in” like i don’t have GOOD reasons to be. :/ You don’t know what I’m fighting, please back tf off--and if you fucking come at me with “omg stop throwing yourself a pity party”, humanity really has no room for douchebags like you, please light yourself on fire.

#Rose Rants

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