#i also want to cry because my brain can't enjoy two shows at the same time without making an au

[jelsah27]

imposter syndrome talked ab just some forewarning

In History Class

MC: *walks into class with a small smile on their face*

Deuce: Good morning, MC. You seem happy today.

Ace: Yeah what's got you all smiley?

MC: Well, Kalim and Jamil were at my dorm the other day. Kalim really wanted to know about foods from my world and Jamil tagged along for obvious reasons. At on point Kalim wanted to look at my room and he found my snap-out-of-it post-it notes on the wall.

Deuce: Snap-out-of-it post-it notes?

MC: Oh, yeah they help remind me that a lot of the problems I think I have aren't really as problematic as I think. Like "Every personality is a creation of experiences that make you you." or "My friends like me because I am me". You see a while ago I figured out that I have a bit of Imposter Syndrome.

Ace: A bit of what?

MC: Well, it's pretty much I feel like I'm not the person everyone thinks I am. I'm not the gifted child everyone remembers or the smart person everyone seems to think I am. That if I can't hurry up and live up to everyone's expectations that they'll figure out I'm not as great a person they think I am and be disappointed and angry that all I am is an empty shell of who they believed I was and leave. Some times it will also come in the form of believing that my friends only want to be around me out of pity or that if I don't like what they like or want to do the same things as them then they will leave, even if they've reassured me they love me. I think the worst thoughts I ever got from it was when I started to believe that my personality was fake and that I didn't know why I was so different than the kid everyone liked. I started to believe that I had faked my personality from different shows, books, or even people to even have one.

MC: Honestly I didn't even realize it was imposter syndrome till someone else pointed it out to me after telling them this. I genuinely had no clue I was so disgusted with myself till I was talking with them about it and they pointed out that none of what I was saying was true, that everybody knew who I was and loved me as I am. I think I cried when they told me that.

Deuce: Prefect... I had no idea...

MC: It's alright, I've been learning to get better at combating it. Anyway, Kalim asked me about it and I basically told him and Jamil what I just told you. He then asked me what I'm doing to overcome it. So I told him about the main things that have helped. Reminding myself constantly that I am not fake or hiding who I am from people I love and who love me. Whenever I feel negative thoughts try to take over, think about one positive thing that I have done or something someone had said they love about me for every dark thought. If it gets to bad though, go to someone I trust and ask them flat out about those thoughts, it helps a lot. And twice a week I make a post-it or journal about one or two small things. Maybe a compliment someone gave me, or a task I completed. So every day or so since they've-

Jamil: *walks into the room* Prefect, here. I must get to class before Kalim catches something on fire I mean gets into trouble. Have a good day.*hands MC a small note and leaves the classroom*

MC: *smiling contently* It say 'Thank you for helping Kalim study yesterday great sevens know he needed it and your smile is unique'

Deuce: *getting out paper* If it helps you, I'll gladly join in.

Little bit of a rant u can skip I hope you enjoyed the post <3 Y'all I'm sorry I didn't mean to trauma dump but I really like the idea. But the story is true and I did cry (and it was in a restaurant) when my sis told me I was wrong and she knew who I really and she loves me. That our friends won't leave because all humans have opinions and we are allowed to clash. And that my personality isn't fake, that everyone's personality is what they've created themselves and that people add and take away from themselves all the time and work on parts of themselves they don't like to become better. That my brain was just being dark when there was many lights around me, waiting to be recognized. If any of y'all read this its just one side of imposter syndrome, there are a few versions and many levels of severity. I genuinely think you are awesome and perfectly imperfect the way you are!

Anywho thanks for reading!

#twst mc #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #disney twst #twst imagines #disney twisted wonderland #ace trappola #deuce spade #kalim x reader #twst kalim #kalim al asim #twst jamil #jamil viper #imposter syndrome #jamil x reader #twst duece #deuce x reader

[assortedvillainvault]

It's a bit of a random question, but I'm simply curious, how did you start falling in love with the Horned King/what's your origin story with him? Only if you want to share it of course^^ Feel free to also just generally gush or ramble about him!

(also btw I think it's awesome that we share him as an f/o now, I think subconsciously I already knew for a while that I'd fall for him eventually, it was just a matter of time he's just too gorgeous💕)

Ok this ask has given me the warm fuzzies for several weeks so thank you and I guess I should probably answer this now huh -

(also every time someone else pops up who f/o's him I'm Absolutely Delighted and am so glad I helped facilitate your decent into lich simpery)

I'll do IRL and self insert shenanigans, so IRL first:

- the first time I watched the black cauldron I'd be ...about 8 or 9?

- one thing you sincerely must understand about me is that I am, unapologetically, unequivocally, unexpectedly....a weenie.

- much as I adore the spooky and the strange, any film that veers into remotely scary territory, or horror in general, that shit scars me down to the cellular level.

- Power to everyone who can disengage/absorb that stuff healthily because I sure as fuck don't and doubt I ever will. Anyway.

- mum buys me the black cauldron and thinks nothing of it. It's Disney, right?

- anyway yeah uh suffice to say boy golly gee I'd never seen *that* many skeletons animated before. Think my little brother started crying at some point.

- but honestly, something about the films mad dichotomy of attempted cutesy fantasy with grim dark backdrop and off kilter humour enamoured me. And I found myself wanting *more* of the dark parts of the film.

- (still early the full cauldron born scenes were cut. So goddamn salty)

- the Horned King became a lynchpin of fascination, something about his eerie voice, his apathetic yet menacing mannerisms and his degraded appearance really drew me in. Esp his summoning and death scenes.

- I think I started drawing skeletons soon after and they're still the easiest thing for me to draw.

- over decade later when I was depressed as all fuck, I rewatched the film and found myself only really enjoying his scenes, in part because he was the only relatable villain to me at the time. (Eternally tired, quietly dramatic, quick to anger and dismissal. A smorgasbord of things to distract myself from feeling like I was actively decomposing too at the time. Brains are wild.)

- now I like to imagine quietly helping him get to a better place same as I've managed to do :) who needs therapy when you have imaginary lich time.

As for self insert funky times:

- rather than imagining myself in the dark ages, mostly because despite living in the UK my knowledge of that time period is just awful, I imagine a modern setting

- crucially tho the events of the film still happened exactly as shown.

- in this setting my s/I has moved to Wales and accidentally rediscovered the -broken- cauldron, and the remains of the castle. Time itself rusted the old thing and it cracked, letting HK's disheveled soul slip free.

- my S/I is an amateur ecologist, with interest in geology and paleontology and history. (So just me. Straight up me. I can't even pretend here) Once she figures out she's effectively haunted, HK's presence is akin to a field day.

- will she attempt to resurrect him properly? Eh who knows. Maybe. I'm a real fucking sucker for ghosts, esp partial possession or soul bonds.

- magic exists still in this setting, it's just mostly forgotten and thus dismissed. Of course my s/I has latent magic because of course, and I love the idea of HK teaching her as a pseudo bonding activity.

- love just watching HK be bamboozled and overwhelmed by the modern world too. Show this lich a toaster someone-

- very low stakes very chill, just two lonely fools trying to rebuild their 'lives' together. Probably the most weirdly cottage core of my selfships if I'm honest. With more dead things.

So yeah that's pretty much it! Thanks again for the lovely ask, and feel free to tag me in anything lich related 🥰

#thalassa responds #disney villains #the horned king #selfshipping shenanigans #not my first f/o but probably my most consistent!

[here2bbtstrash]

bts on the bachelorette

i really tried to relax for 5 minutes today with some dumb reality TV and then my brain wouldn't shut up. have you ever wondered what bangtan's elimination order would be on a season of the bachelorette???? well wonder no more my friends...

(this started as a headcanon and then morphed into kind of a drabble? tbh i don't even know what's happening here. just enjoy it lmao 😂)

the first one sent home is yoongi - yes, i think my sweet baby boy would get sent home night one. this breaks my heart but i just see him being too reserved, too closed off, not jumping to make a first impression and getting lost in the shuffle. he would ABSOLUTELY be one of those first-eliminated guys who gets a whole legion of fans tho, and they campaign HARD to get his pale ass on paradise 😂 

next to go is seokjin - he would get kept around just long enough to be a villain lmaoooo. the one guy who drives all the others crazy because he’s cocky as fuck about his looks and is NOT here to make friends. i could see jk telling on him to bachelorette and there being a whole dramatic confrontation where she rips the rose out of his hands and says “get the fuck out of here”. he absolutely makes and sells worldwide handsome merch after.

the next one out is jimin - and he's definitely the dude who gets by on sex appeal alone LMAO. the one where bachelorette is like ‘i’m just not sure i have the same connection with jimin’ and then he takes his shirt off and she’s like ‘……i’m sorry can you repeat the question’. they have at least two steamy makeout sessions before she finally has to send him packing tho, good for her 🥰 

the first heartbreaking elimination is hoseok - my love, my angel, hobi is totally gonna end up in the friend zone on a show like this. he’s so caring and subtly sexy but i could see him being more of a support system for bachelorette and the person who brings her the inside scoop on what’s going on in the house. they’d both cry when she eliminates him but he’d be so sweet and understanding and go out of his way to make sure she smiles before he walks out. truly only wants the best for her.

then, the shocking elimination that's teased for weeks: jungkook - when i tell you twitter EXPLODES. you’ll see headlines about this one on the motherfucking NEWS in the morning. doe-eyed, tattooed, sexy shy badboy jk eliminated?!?!??! has the bitch lost her MIND????? but bachelorette just can’t get over the fact that he’s so young, and she’s afraid he’s not ready to make such a serious commitment.

there’s a ton of push-pull where she feels like jk doesn’t “fight for her” enough because he is more reserved, but then he’ll do something competitive and it’s just enough to keep her hooked on him a little longer, until this episode where she finally has to let him go. he definitely has an extended crying montage on the way out/in the car where he says some stuff about how he’d never been in love like this before. omg ouch let’s move on i’m hurt.

WHICH LEAVES THE FINAL TWO!!!!! and bachelorette is so torn!!! 😩

taehyung is gorgeous, romantic, and sensual (insert clip from a date of him feeding her chocolate covered strawberries). he’s an old soul, passionate, but has an extremely dry sense of humor that bachelorette falls HARD for. she loves that they can laugh together, and he isn’t afraid to look stupid or try something new (insert clip of them doing that indoor skydiving thing on a date). and he’s also not afraid to tell her exactly what he wants- marriage, kids, a life with her by his side.

but sometimes he can be hard to read. he’s honestly so good looking it makes her a little insecure, and she just has this nagging feeling like he isn’t quite letting her all the way in....but she can't tell if that's just her own fear about finding a love this intense.

namjoon is intelligent, supportive, and so goddamn sexy (insert clip from a group date competition of him doing pull-ups). bachelorette feels comfortable with him in a way she doesn’t quite have words for. sometimes she swears it feels like she’s met him before in another lifetime, and this is just a reunion. (insert clip from a picnic date where she rests her head in joon’s lap as he reads to her). he’s so well-spoken and such a deep thinker, and the world falls head over heels for the conversations they’re able to have about love, loyalty, identity, emotions.

but she’s not sure she feels the same passion and fire with him that she does with taehyung. namjoon admits outright that he doesn’t know what he wants in life, is unsure about marriage or kids, and when he gets too in his head and insecure about the competition, he can shut her out without meaning to.

~

we watch with bated breath as bachelorette takes her place at the gorgeous vista decorated for her proposal. everyone who’s seen the show before knows that whoever steps out of the limo first is the one she’s chosen to send home.

hearts shatter nationwide when joon ducks his head to exit the car.

bachelorette stops him before he can even go into his speech, laughs a little to herself: “I know if I let you start talking it’s going to change my mind, so let me go first.” explains that she’s just too scared of his indecisiveness. she’s prone to overthinking herself, so she needs someone who is going to offer stability, someone who is ready and knows what he wants. joon takes it like the gentleman he is, one dimple popping in a sad half-smile, and she presses up on her tiptoes to give him a hug.

which just leaves taehyung. he steps out of the car with a deep exhale, and you can see even from afar that his hands are shaking as he makes his way to bachelorette, mouth dropping open slightly at how gorgeous she looks.

the proposal is like something out of a movie, a long, perfect speech delivered in tae’s shaky baritone as a breeze ruffles through his hair and toys with the hem of bachelorette's dress. he winds back through their time together accompanied by an edited montage, and finally ends with the truth: he knew as soon as he laid eyes on her that this was meant to be, and that she was the one. the music swells as he drops to a knee and pulls out a big-ass diamond ring, and they’re both crying by the time she says yes.

~then, after the show wraps:

namjoon, fan fave that he is, appears in a suit on the reunion show to gladly accept the title of the next bachelor. expect LOTS of gratuitous clips of him in the gym during his intro package ooooof 🥵

the vast majority of our faves end up going to paradise- yoongi fucks literally every girl there LMAO, jungkook goes for one week but is too nervous to talk to anyone and just chats with the bartender and drinks fruity cocktails until he gets sent home. jimin and hobi have an epic summer bromance and end up choosing each other over any of the women.

and then, i mean, if we're being realistic... tae cheats on bachelorette 3 months into their engagement and they call the whole thing off 💀

#bts imagine #bts headcanon #bts scenario #bts x reader #I'M GONNA ACTUALLY WATCH MY SHOW NOW DAMN

[lexi-the-demon-69]

Nah what in tarnations goin on with the anti-LicoPom shippers these days

Personally I don’t ship those two, but I wouldn’t call myself an anti-LicoPom person. my personal hcs of the two just wouldn’t make the ship work, but ya don’t see me lunging at somebody full speed right at the jugular because they ship the two

Who in their right mind comes after someone bc they ship two adult characters? (that aren’t related to each other, mind you) (Side note: Going by the idea that Licorice is in his 20s and Pomegranate is in her 30s, why would an age gap be wrong, if they are both adults? My parents are literally 11 years apart💀)

I dont think either characters are absolute saints. They’re cookies of darkness, for crying out loud! Of course they’re not gonna be amazing people,,, or cookies?

Like if that one anon wanted to discuss why they disagreed with a ship, sure whatever, but when it turns to name-calling and pointing fingies? That immediately ruins the argument.

Anyway point of what im yapping on about is that people who ship stuff gotta be less passive-aggressive towards others when they disagree with other people’s ships/opinions. Like we’re all apart of the same fandom, can’t we all just get along and set different opinions aside? Or is there something I’m just not getting?

One thing I will never understand is ship discourse. My brain has too many debuffs lmao

Hope you have a nice day, your blog and art look very nice! 😄💕

I honestly have to agree! Coming after and attacking me for liking a ship, instead of having a nice conversation with me, is stupid. Hell, I've had a better conversation with a ChocoMilk shipper and I hate that ship. (You know who you are and thanks for explaining your side of the story!) I am more than willing to have someone explain why they don't ship the things I do, as long as they're nice and civil about it. But, if you're gonna call me names and attack me as a person, then I'm going to pull your pants down and spank you with my opinions on why you're wrong.

One thing I forgot to mention is this: Pomegranate showing interest in Dark Enchantress doesn't mean LicoPom can't work. Besides, Pome x Dark Enchantress is more disgusting than LicoPom because that genuinely seems toxic and illegal.

Pome x Dark Enchantress is a toxic ship because there's obviously a power imbalance and you cannot tell me that Dark Enchantress wouldn't manipulate or ab*se Pome in that relationship if she did something wrong. Pome is a devoted follower of Dark Enchantress and, just like all of the other members (except Dark Choco) holds her in such high regard that they will do ANYTHING for her. Just goes to show how fucking hypocritical that anon is and how dumb Antis can be sometimes.

I have unfortunately dealt with antis before (if you've known me since my Henry Stickmin days, then you'll know.) and the best way to deal with them is to spank them with their own argument and block them.

I honestly don't get ship discourse either bro. None of this is real. It's a fictional relationship where I can project myself onto a character who will more than likely think I'm a weirdo.

Also, glad you like my art! I hope you enjoy your stay!

[yahargulian]

HELLOOOO I HAVE WRITING ASKS FOR YOU

6, 8, 13 (drop the music recs!!!), 29, 39 (begging you to tell the people about the blast furnace. if you want!!), 43, 57

ahem i would also like to take this chance to announce that kim is an AMAZING writer (and an amazing person full stop) and everyone should keep your eyes peeled for their fics in the future because whoooy boy their current serennedy wips and ideas are SOOOO GOOD and i’m not even really in the fandom??? but i live for every snippet i’m sent???

hehe please enjoy 💓💓

AAAAA Jamie holy shit.. Bestie you're gonna make me blush aaaa 👉👈

Whenever I do actually get these fics finished and published, everyone go thank Jamie for all his hype and support and for being my fandom screaming buddy adkjhga AND ALSO if you happen to watch a funky little show called KinnPorsche you should go read their fics like! Right the fuck now! And also keep an eye out for new ones in the future because I have also seen snippets of Jamie's wips and ideas and WOWIE is that fandom in for a treat or two. Or several hehe

6. What’s the last line you wrote?

"Unpleasant didn’t quite cut it." Which is from the same extract I answered with here, and is the last line I've written from any of my wips at the moment... But, I'm also gonna give you the last line I've written from the other fic I'm currently working on. As a treat! "Krauser had changed right there beside Leon, and he had never even noticed." I really am just making Leon go through it in two very different ways at the moment ahdgjkhag

8. Post an out-of-context spoiler from a wip.

"And maybe it had fulfilled the purpose for which it was designed, no longer held a practical use to him. But, as he breathed in, he felt its weight soft against his chest. And for a moment he couldn't exhale. A soft warmth bled in his chest; from his lungs, from his heart, from the weight of metal over both. Held. Like a promise. "No," he breathed, finally. Then, surely, "no, nothing." Not all purposes were practical, after all."

13. Do you listen to music while you write?  If yes, what have you been listening to recently?

I do! But I'm really really awkward about it aghkdgjdakg it depends on the vibe really! Usually music with lyrics distracts me (my brain starts focusing on the lyrics oops) so unless I'm listening to a specific song or songs on loop, I usually listen to video game soundtracks There are some scenes and stuff that call for a specific kind of vibe - or just silence as a last resort if I can't find anything to listen to - but lately I've been listening to boss battle music, of all things. This playlist, to be exact This is my hype music! My 'Getting Shit Done' playlist. I used to listen to a lot of this while doing uni assignments, and have been known to listen to it to do even mundane shit. Like laundry

29. What’s something about your writing that you’re proud of?

People have told me before that my fics have made them cry, and like. Nothing makes me happier honestly. Again with the emotion think, is anything I've written has ever made someone feel something it's the best thing that could possibly happen. So the fact that something I've written has apparently made people feel something so much that they've cried? Hell yeah I'm proud of that!!

39. What’s your most self-indulgent wip?

Okay no you're right, the blast furnace fic is pretty self indulgent so I will mention it. Basically, Leon and Luis fuck in the blast furnace, right after the fight against the two Gigantes. And this came about because I realised that this would be one of the best times for them to kiss in the main plot (literally like in an action movie) and also that nobody had written them fucking in the blast furnace yet? And once I realised that I realised how obvious it was to get them to fuck in there - and now here I am. So it's very self indulgent because I wanna see it ahdjkahkjgd but also now that I've started it I'm on a mission to make it as visceral an experience as possible! It's gonna be fucking great I'm really excited for it Honestly tho, most if not all of what I write or try to write is self-indulgent in some way. Hell, the key fic I'm working on is super self-indulgent just because it's basically me working through all my feelings about this damn lab key! And what it means and symbolises and what if what if what if. Everything I write is written because I wanna see it and explore it and experience it! It's all self-indulgence babey!

43. Is there a trope or idea that you’d really like to write but haven’t yet?

Answered here but long story short, yes! But hopefully I'll get to them soon hehe I also looked over the 4,000 word pollen wip again after typing my reply to this question and. Yeah. I've definitely gotta finish that one someday my god I forgot how strong the brainworms had got when I started that one ahdgjkahgkd

57. How conscious are you about including symbolism or foreshadowing in your fics?

Foreshadowing maybe, tho I'm not sure how much I'd say I'm conscious of it rather than.. Because I know where I'm going I try to build up to that. So I guess that would be a yes? Ahsdjhjgkj In terms of symbolism, maybe not as much as I should be? The aforementioned key fic is possibly an exception here because, well. It's literally about the fucking lab key. It's about the symbolism. But generally I'm not conscious about including it - and now this is making me wonder if I do? And if I do, how the fuck and when? Someone please tell me, Jamie please tell me aghdjdahgds

#thank u bestie AAAAAA #screaming crying throwing up #fr everyone go read his fics right the fuck now if u like kpts #this is not a request this is a demand ahgjkdhgkjds #answered #xhangkyuns

[leatherbookmark]

hmmmm i'm on ep 5 so far, but i can def see why some people didn't really like the season that much

(gomens spoilers, obviously)

it was... i think i have the same problem w/ it as with kinnporsche, namely that in theory it has all the good bits, but in practice, it just doesn't land. the pacing is kind of all over the place, some events are given way too much screentime, and overall the show is 6 episodes long but i often felt it was drawn out. like the nazi zombies. haha funny, but... what for, exactly? it felt like a bunch of loose ideas tied together with a string and a prayer.

we're also getting lots of flashbacks, and they're fun and nice to look at i guess, and you can't say that two beings older than the world should only be shown in present times now, but iiiii sort of feel that way anyway? it might be because i watched without subs or earphones so there were some parts i didn't exactly understand, but for example, what was the job story for? what was the edinburgh story for? they didn't feel like natural elements of the story but rather something that someone Came Up With To Connect The Dots And Fill The Gaps, and i don't really like when stories feel like they've been Written, you feel me?

and also. relationships. i just don't... really... feel... much... again, the Has Been Written problem. based on what i've seen, i thought ziracro, nina/maggie and gabriel jim/beelzebub moments would be peppered throughout all the episodes, that i'd see them gradually getting closer to their romantic conclusions, but apparently jimzebub is an episode 6 surprise, and the rest is just... there. nina and maggie have zero chemistry, there's nothing, really, in their interactions, and i've already seen metas about how it's to show that you can't make people love each other, and i mean, yes, correct, maybe it will appear so in the final episode, but so far it just looks like they didn't think it through. why is maggie crushing on nina? what does nina think about maggie, or her girlfriend, and if she's so controlling then why doesn't she just break up? sure, sure, "it's not easy to leave a controlling partner" but i don't want to Assume/Know that's the case, i want to see it! we could've had the girlfriend appearing in person, so that we could see how loving and caring she is, and then... oops, yeah, too loving and too caring, that's too much! but we'd have seen how happy nina was with her, and that it's not just a case of "she's just bad, dump her ass". now nina has been dumped instead, and i think i'm supposed to feel something about it? i'm not quite sure, but i don't. it just happened.

ziracro is similar in that yyeah, crowley's worried about aziraphale's safety, threatens jimbriel and it's very cool, but again, it doesn't land! their current times interactions are too scattered. if two guys who've lived for thousands of years are supposed to be figuring themselves out romantically now, then we should be seeing more of them in this now! continuing from where we left off in s1, having it acknowledged nice and thick so i could get my teeth into it properly! but instead i feel like i barely got a taste. if episode six is supposed to feature the kiss and crowley "preparing to confess his feelings to aziraphale", thanks wikipedia, i should be feeling it's a natural conclusion of the events! and i don't. i often need time to process what really happened in a show, or a rewatch, so maybe my brain's just overwhelmed rn, but what exactly did happen over the course of those 5 episodes that has crowley wanting to confess? too much side dishes, not enough of a substantial main dish, is what i'm saying.

and again maybe there's something wrong with me and not the show, maybe i've lost the ability to engage in new shows emotionally! (though i'm out there crying about atz fanfiction, so i don't know) but like. i can see the fanservice, i can enjoy it, i would've said it was fun -- not revolutionary, but then i don't think the show wanted to be revolutionary -- but it's also frustrating, in that i am cheap and yet it doesn't work on me. idk, man.

#shrimp thoughts

[taegularities]

Hello lovely Rid 💕💕

I just had a revelation and since you're talking about crushes I thought I'd share.

But first, I completely understand where you were coming from with your post about dating yesterday. Because meeting people is scary!! And the whole process of getting to know them, and wondering what they think of you and where you stand is so long and scary too. Not to mention the thoughts of just waiting for a bad thing to happen since we've all been disappointed by potential partners before. All of that is so natural and almost like a defense mechanism I feel like. I literally think about how I would like to be in a relationship and then I try to actually actively imagine myself in a relationship and it makes me cringe lmaooo. Like how does that make sense???

But if you do truly enjoy the presence of your work crush I think you should bask in it!! I mean, at least it's something to make work a little more bearable, right? But I mean, this is coming from a person who becomes incredibly embarrassed when they have a crush, so I understand your anxiety.

Now as for my revelation lmao. I saw this tiktok the other day saying that the bodily signs that we have when we're afraid, like heart beating fast and sweaty palms etc, are quite similar to the ones we have when we're attracted to someone and how our brain confuses the two sometimes and I just now thought... remember that really pretty guy from my class? Well, the first time we actually met and talked was while we were waiting to go into an exam lmaooo and I was for sure nervous and afraid. I just thought it was funny because when I first saw that tiktok I thought that that can't really happen that often and then I realised lol. I mean it's not exactly the same, since I had seen him and thought he was pretty many times before that but yeah. Most of our bigger hangouts have been during and right after exams 😭

Now that I've rambled on as usual, I just hope you know that what you're feeling is completely valid. Feelings and people are hard and I guess all we can do is just try to trust our gut and remember that we all deserve someone who's right for us and treats us right too, and that we have all the time to find them. If we even want to of course!

Love you Rid 💞💞💞

ivi 🥺 thank you for all this... i think being scared of a bad thing to happen is literally the exact issue i have. like, im terrified of someone showing their best side to me, just to hurt me later, and oh god i am sooo anxious about possible red flags. it makes me appreciate the way im living rn and im so content with it... but i realised that it's not necessarily bc life's so good rn, but because im so scared of it getting worse and it's so stupid!! like one day ill have to open up. i mean i didn't notice how afraid i was of feelings until now, it's sick.

yeah, you're so right though. im not even going to try anything with my coworker, im just glad i have a friend in him who genuinely cares. but also your revelation, i think i saw that somewhere too!! not a tiktok, but i did read once that fear and love evoke the same physical reactions, like it's so true bc i remember how sick i felt the first time i fell in love deeply lol. i guess there's some fear in liking someone. a lot can happen and a lot does not happen, and like, sirens go off in our brains and we are on high alert and think and rethink about what do or say.. so yeah, pretty accurate :') we have all the time for sure, so ill try not to panic and cry too much and just let things flow 🥺 thank you, ivi.. i really hope you've been well and i love you a lot 🤍

#i got your other ask too #and i teared up a lil #i will answer it with a whole commentary but i hope you know how much it means to me that you care so much #and that you sent these and gave me comfort with them!! i rlly rlly adore you 🤍 #notes for rid 🌹 #ivi <3

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🧸KENNY CHARACTER ANALYSIS

Hello! It's me again! But this time, instead of a review, we're going to be going through a character analysis!

Before we start, however, please note that even if I am on the team, I am writing this with the view of a fan still. Nothing here should be pointed at and went "oh that must be canon!" because I don't know. I haven't asked Bon about it. These are just my theories!

AND! This will solely be focused on the comic itself instead of taking stuff from the games. I am too confused on the game's lore to really have a say on it with anything in this analysis. If there is some shit that is already answered in the lore, shush. I'm not focusing on that.

⚠ Also be warned that this does contain spoilers for the comic alongside discussion of death and other heavy topics.

If you want to read the comic for yourself and then come back to this, here is the link for it!

Enjoy!

Kenny is such an interesting character to me that I can't wait to see development for as the story continues.

He starts off as this emotionally broken kid who had WITNESSED A MURDER when he was a lot younger and can't tell anyone. That entire scene still makes me wonder why William left him in the first place. Did William know that Kenny would never actually tell anyone because he was too terrified? That would make sense, but at the same time, William is seen to be this murderer that kills when the time is right. Wouldn't that time be right? No one else was around and C&C had already been killed before he noticed another kid there. To me, there has to be more of a reason for why he even left Kenny alive. Then again, we can't push aside the other interpretation that this could just be a part of Kenny's nightmare. Dreams can create false memories and considering this is something that has stuck with Kenny from a young age, I wouldn't be surprised if he was never spotted, but his nightmares are possible outcomes if he was. Him seeing death firsthand and his brain going to what would happen if he was in their shoes.

Either way though, Kenny gets out of it badly traumatized after seeing an animatronic kill two people! Yet he can't tell anyone and has to go on, obviously still affected greatly by it which leads people to think he's just scared of the animatronics themselves for a reason he can't even give. In Chapter 7, the ghost rules are stated a bit more from C&C where they state that "we think those people [people who are "crazy" or not mentally stable] might be more disconnected with the living world, so they can kinda see into the "spirit world" or something." This shows that alongside the fact that he is already traumatized from the murder, he also has to see the haunting versions of the ones he possibly saw die. Does he realize that it's even them though or is he just scared of how they look? If the two stay around Fredbear's a lot, I wouldn't be surprised if Kenny pieced it together. Being as young as he is, I don't think he would brush it off as a hallucination either. He would think they're real and haunting him and he would be right with one of those! I'd imagine that alongside the fact that he can apparently see ghosts(?) or at least messed up versions of them messes him up really badly. Not only does he see the ones he saw get murdered, but he is also practically locked in a room with one of them (Michael). While it isn't entirely confirmed if he can even see Michael there, from the other scenes, I believe it's safe to guess that Kenny saw a distorted/messed up version of Michael appear in the room and sit next to him.

The scene between Kenny and Michael always stood out to me. They both are just two poor kids who have a lot going on in their lives/in their minds at the moment. I would say that while Michael went there to cry purposefully, he doesn't feel as trapped, but I also believe that's far from the truth. Similar to Kenny, Michael wouldn't be there if he didn't have to be. Both could be enjoying life as any other kid, but they are both trapped. In different contexts, but they have that thing in common here. Kenny must feel so helpless and scared during this time too because unlike the time with C&C, he can't run even if he wanted to. All he can do is tremble on the ground and cry while a ghost sits down next to him. This interaction also makes me wonder whether or not Kenny is able to hear the ghosts as well during this time. How far do the ghost rules work in regards to being mentally unstable and seeing them? Does it just stop at the visual aspect or could they even interact with them if they tried to? I doubt C&C would have tried at any point and Sammy's situation with the plush is something for a whole other analysis cause that also leads a lot more questions. But Michael actually sits there and talks. Tells him that he won't hurt him. When reading this, I just hoped that Kenny could hear Michael because him attempting reassuring Kenny is so sweet, yet so sad to me. It obviously doesn't reassure Kenny enough to calm him down and the fact that he only whimpers and sobs in response really shows that he is terrified.

His "death" scene with Sammy is also something that really pulled at my heartstrings and still does now. Kenny expressing his exhaustion from trying to hold on for so long and Sammy wanting to find a solution for him to be at peace. In Chapter 4, Sammy states that the world is unfair! None of them deserved to be murdered, but it still happened. That line makes me wonder how many times that has been repeating in his head for so long. Especially considering the fact that he has been at this for 11 years! He definitely couldn't have started off with this murderous plan in mind, he must have been beaten down by the cruel world. Those thoughts must have festered so much in his brain. And it is no different here. In Chapter 6, he is very keen on going to help Kenny out after hearing what happened in the past regarding him and C&C. His main goal was to help him! Be the best friend Kenny has ever had! But he is yet again shown the fact that life is incredibly unfair. There could have been a light at the end of the tunnel if they made it through the bullying together, no matter how bad it was since Kenny still had his friend group! Even if his life was miserable with the bullying, hallucinations, and trauma, he still had his friends there for him and checking up on him. He had a glimmer of happiness and hope that both him and Sammy were holding onto. He could learn to grow and eventually reach out for help when he got older! But that never happened. Instead, life was unfair. The bite happened. That light was snuffed out on his own birthday.

Now, Kenny is just a kid! Older than Sammy, but mentally, not really. Sammy had experienced a lot more. Kenny's quick notion that it would be better to just give up instead of holding on is understandable for a child to take. Thought isn't being put into the consequences of letting go. It's not being put into what he could possibly miss out on in his future. If anything, he just wants to be at rest instead of being in pain. He just wants to sleep. Sammy knows that isn't possible, however. If he does let go, all he'll do is just join the group of ghosts waiting to be free from the cruel life. Yet, Sammy chooses to let Kenny let go. A topic of discussion that I believe should be thought of more is whether this was the right choice or not. I personally am conflicted about it, but I can see where Sammy stands. It's possible that Sammy does not believe in the improvement of the bullies even after what happened. Maybe he worries that if Kenny keeps holding on, that cruel life will just cause more pain to him in the end and it wouldn't have been worth it. Sammy has been beaten down over and over again with this life. Kenny never deserved this and he knows that! So the best thing he can do is offer to be by his side. Give out the offering that everything is going to be okay, Kenny just has to trust him. And Kenny does! They can move on together. But was it the right choice to make?

When Kenny died, he practically lost everything. He no longer can feel fear or sadness or any sort of emotion. This, of course, would have been no different if he chose to stay alive. An empty shell of what he once was, wandering. However, his character is still incredibly interesting to me. In Chapter 9, we see his first outburst when he sees Withered Foxy. Instead of an expression of fear towards the animatronic that his brother's mask was, he is filled with rage. These expressions of anger are some of the only moments we see him actually express any emotion. I'm pretty sure that is because he can't feel anything else, but why is it just anger? Is it because he is a vengeful spirit? That also brings the question of why he is still around. In Chapter 2, Sammy states how ghosts that are murdered will be stuck on Earth "until they find the one who murdered them." However, what if it was an accidental death? Brian didn't mean to harm Kenny and even the bite didn't entirely kill him either. He chose to let go on his own, yet he still remains as a ghost on Earth. So what is keeping him around? Definitely the rage, but towards what exactly? It could be towards his brother as stated with the first outburst, but what kind of resolution would he need to come to for that to be able to move on? Even if he didn't intent to do it, does the incident still make him the murderer in this situation that Kenny needs to go after? Or is it something bigger than just that? I personally am conflicted regarding this topic, but it is good to note that it could be the latter as well. In Chapter 10, another outburst happens, albeit it's more subtle than his yelling. He takes the grand reopening poster on the pole and tears it apart. From the other parts of the series so far, it doesn't look like he really interacts with his surrounding much, but this was one of the times where he did and it was out of anger. Maybe the deep seated anger is more towards the company in general rather than his own brother.

Regardless, with either one, what would Kenny need to do to be set free? How could someone who doesn't normally feel much aside from anger be at rest at last? I don't fucking know! I just can't wait to see his character explored more later on in the series. if anyone wants me to do this for another character, please let me know because this was so much fun to make LMAO.

#children rekindled #cr #c:r #children: rekindled #kenny #c:r!kenny #fnaf #fnaf au #fnaf comic #five nights at freddy's #character analysis

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Can I give my unfiltered opinion on Till The World Ends?

Yes, because who the fuck is going to tell me I can't (Spoilers)

WARNING: I kinda popped off a little here and there, I do not mean harm... I promise. I just really enjoy putting my thoughts on paper sometimes. <3

I would like to start off with a bit of a disclaimer, I am skipping through like 70% of this show because after watching ep 1 I kinda already lost it but I would like to share my opinion anyway. I in no way am trying to make fun of the show or the actors or anything like that. I am just stating my findings that are based on legit nothing other than my opinion on like the few scenes I have fully watched.

In general

The concept/storyline is actually really cool, I think it's a very interesting idea, and was excited to see how this was going to go.

The biggest issue I have with this show is the acting and I ain't here to shit on actors at all but... Can I just say what I want to say? Golf (Best)... Honey... This ain't it... (Idk if he has roles in other shows that do work better for him..) But to be very honest... Art is carrying this show atm.

I legit would get on my knees and bow down in a worshipping manner to translators. Their work is legit so, so important and they are all literal angels. BUT the translation of this show is so insanely distracting, the mistakes are hard to overlook and often cause some massive confusion for me personally. Again, translators deserve some hella praise but... I tried to ignore it, I really did.

My boy Art cannot catch a break with the crying

What the FUCK is up with the insane amount of awkward/unnecessary dialogue?

And now for something yall DEFINITELY DID NOT ASK FOR, an analysis of the eps that also hold my very unfiltered opinion

Ep 1

The prison scene...

They then talk about food for like 1 minute straight AND THEN HE LITERALLY GOES

AGAIN? -

The rest of ep 1 was fine but my lord that scene took forever and mostly repeated the same thing 3 times.

Ep 2

Not bad, not great.

Ep 3

That opening scene was ehm... a bit ?????

You aight miss thang? - She continued to lay there until like the end of the ep as well... I'm: Concerned.

The comfort talk... Sir mr Golf needs a little lesson on how to comfort people because basically Art is saying: Listen mate, I woke up in your house, you basically kidnapped me, let's forget about the fact that you were the one that knocked me the fuck out in the first place for a minute... But okay. Can you please look at this entire ordeal from my perspective for a HOT SECOND? I just wanna go home mate, I wanna go find my family..

Golf: omg no don't cry bby boy, I'm just worried about u.

??

AND then the scene in the bed was so insanely long and the topics jumped from one thing to another and ??

Ep 4

The breakfast scene felt oddly out of character for the character of Golf, idk how to explain this one to yall sorry.

I am glad AIDS is being talked about.

Ep 5

Gus is cute

2 entire seconds later:

Is this like their thing as brothers? They talk to each other but neither of them listens and then they just... repeat the same question? pls do tell me if that is the actual clue here because, I'm lost.

THEY MADE HIM SING? Bro pls no.

Ep 6

Are you... ???? ARE YOU TWO FOR FUCKING REAL? (sorry this just really got to me..)

Just this, no further comments HAHAHHA

That marriage thing was cute af

Ep 7

THEY DID NOT HAVE TO DO THE DOG LIKE THAT.

Ep 8

This ep holds my favorite meme from this show EVER

BRO SAME HAHAHAHAH - that is a MOOD I have absolutely no idea what was happening throughout the conversation. I know it might be a very interesting, deep and heavy topic I'm pea brain.

NC scene was good

#Till the world ends #Till the world ends the series #thai bl #VERY LONG POST! #I'M SORRY IF THESE ARE LIKE SOME SALTY SALT OPINIONS IM #TRYING #BUT I JUST EHM #YEA

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Thanks for the tag @lelephantsnail 💕

Favorite Color: peacock blue/midnight blue

Currently Reading: The Black Swan by Naseem Taleb. This is so unlike anything I’ve read. loving it so far. Padmarag by Rokeya Sakhawat Hossain. I hope I finish them.

Last Song: Dil Se Re by Rahman, Anupama and Anuradha. and Fanaa (Rahman, Tanvi, Sunitha). His concert reawakened my love for this song (actually all of his music, I had forgotten how much I loved it).

Last Series: I finished a Little Women rewatch (in love) and finally started Spy x Family. I love it! it's already starting to deliver the found family, I'm gonna be obsessed. Also watching Gaus electronics on the side. It’s pure chaos and zero brain cells in sight. I didn’t expect to enjoy it as much as I did.

Last Movie: Nope. I need to rewatch this masterpiece.

Currently working on: just my portfolio. messing this one up big time if I dont stop procrastinating

share 10 different favourite characters from ten different pieces of media in no particular order, then tag 10 people: I'm doing 11 because I can't pick one from little women. I'm also quoting them (not necessarily their best lines, just the ones that come to my mind first) bc why not💕

1. Oh In-Joo (Little Women):

"Where do souls live? I always wanted a home where my soul could live." I can’t stop thinking about her characterization and development. They managed to keep Meg’s tenderness from the novel but added so much more. and they fit all of that with a surreal plot and significant commentary on capitalism and poverty. I love that they weaved in so much (and did it well).

2. Oh In-Kyung (Little Women):

"They're so fresh. They're fresh to the point that it's almost sexy". Fresh produce is…weirdly sexy. She gets it. Therefore, she is my favourite. Her layers make her feel so real, a part of the reason why I’m so obsessed w this show. Modern adaptations of classics are hard to get right, and I feel like this one treads those lines well. it is fresh (a full genre shift) but still manages to keep the essence.

3. Black (Not Me):

"Power is corrupting. Ideas are what have the power to transform society" My plot device of a man🥹🥹 Certainly deserved better. I could watch him wreck shit for days.

4. Dazai (Bungo Stray Dogs):

"No one can fully grasp another person's deepest emotions. It's impossible. Only you can understand what you're feeling. But generally speaking, I can tell you this. Most people tend to cry when their father dies." Can’t help but hate him. Can’t help but project onto him. He has fucked up a lot. and he will continue to do so. It is entertaining to watch, but sometimes he deserves a slap across the face (or several idk). Other times, a hug.

5. Wang (180 Degrees Longitude Passes Through Us):

"I will break free. Time is on my side, so I've decided to leave. But leaving doesn't mean I lost." I’m so proud of him. In a story where people struggled to change, he proved that it was still possible. His sheer will to gain something out of the heartbreaking experience he had, and to keep going despite being so lonely, so unheard. But also, the maturity to know which fights to pick. There’s so much to learn from him.

6. Togawa (Old Fashion Cupcake):

"I'm seducing you. I've been trying to seduce you, with everything I have. Although you never had a clue. I know...being seduced by someone of the same sex, isn't considered common sense for most people. Especially from a subordinate. But unfortunately, it's common sense to me. So I've been seducing you. I've been meaning to tell you this whole time, but I was afraid. I was scared of saying something that wasn't normal to you. But doing this...and telling you in such a horrible way... I'm so sorry. I like you. I like you so much, I could die." I couldn't have justified picking anything else.

7. Ink (Bad Buddy):

"It's so gainful" The icon that she is. gmm, get your ass up and give us a milklove GL 2023.

8. Anya (Spy x Family):

"Father is a tsundere." I've only had her for two episodes but if anything happened to her I would kill everyone in this room and then myself.

9. Fleabag (Fleabag):

"I don’t know what to do with it. With all the love I have for her. I don't know where to put it now." I will always treasure fleabag.

10. Baek Hee-Sung (Flower of Evil):

"We’ve only known each other for 14 years. So of course, you’d be clueless of my intentions." Thinking about him leaves an ache in my chest. Mr. I've-never-felt-an-emotion really broke down on the streets after reuniting with his 4 yo daughter and then got called out by her for it. "Daddy, don't cry like before if you miss me, okay? You're a grown-up". So,, misunderstood.

11. Han Ju-Won (Beyond Evil):

"I'll be a monster and dive into hell. That is my way of atoning" He's on this list bc I miss his ass and this show.

Special mention to Choi Doil and Great Aunt (Little Women) bc they haven't left my mind. and Nozue (babe, togawa was only here bc of that iconic confession, i love you just as much) and Miw from 3 will be free💕 This was so much fun, thanks for tagging me @lelephantsnail <33 Also, I’m so happy to see that you’ve watched 180 degrees, and wanted to shred it to bits with analysis because that show absolutely deserves it. so much to dig into and have your heart wrecked. Feel free to yell at me about it any time.

Have a great day!💕

#i set myself up w this quote thing🤡 #took me longer than it should have bc horrible decision-making but what else is new #this was fun #to all the characters i didnt include: always in my heart i swear #i havent tagged anyone but if anyone is interested please go ahead #i’d love to see <3 #tag game

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tlou 1x01

blinking and seeing shots from the video game at times, uncanny as hell (for joel and marlene especially).

Prologue

Incredibly rude of them to give us so much time with Sarah. When I first played the game, I have to admit the prologue didn't move me much. I'd already osmosised it and wanted to get to the next level.

But here? IDK if it was seeing a normal day for her, that I'm older, or that it was live-action, but this gutted me ;_; A+ acting all around

A particularly devastating change from the game is Joel crying for Tommy to help him while Tommy does nothing, because Tommy for once is the pragmatic sibling - he knows his niece is dying and that there is nothing he can do but watch

The way runners move is creepy in the best way, like they're marionettes being pulled along by the fungus in their brains and the body is barely keeping up

They faked out us game-players with the lack of a T-bone crash!! And while we're still confused, boom, here's a fucking plane.

The opening sequence is pretty. Wonder if the fungi growth will change as the season progresses if so, how. I'd love for a map of the journey.

I'm neutral on the shift from 2013 to 2003 but I did enjoy spotting all the pointers to it: Tommy as a Gulf War veteran, the Bush photo in the classroom, Joel's phone, and Sarah asking if the virus is from terrorists

Joel

"This has been construction corner with Joel Miller." I have never thought about Joel's pre-outbreak job in that context before

The only improvement I'd ever want to the original video game would be Joel providing construction commentary during gameplay, that'd be fantastic and educational ok

"If you tell me to look for the light I'll break your fucking jaw" <3 this is that grumpy guy who only looks out for him and his, no notes, same with the way he Does Not Care At All about anyone other than Tommy and Sarah during the outbreak scene, bye Denise, by random family, etc.

LMAO he sent Ellie right into that wall honestly surprised she didn't get more hurt from it. also loved the entire thing with the knife

I saw comments that Joel is softer here than in the games and I don't know if I quite agree. Any changes on that spectrum have more to do with the medium of live-action television versus the medium of shooter video games. Like, Joel killing thirty guys in a city feels very different in the latter than the former, but Joel in either canon is a very brutal dude. But more on that later.

Unlike at this point in the game, he seems to have been in recent contact with Tommy, even if he's accused Marlene of turning Tommy against him. Looking forward to seeing learning what exactly their last communication was about, especially since Joel going after Tommy shifts his motivation

Tommy in the show is also very much the younger brother in a way that's not as emphasized in the games. Joel jokes Tommy's dependent on him, and Tommy is used to his brother bailing him out of jail

Ellie

So, so good

The vulnerability with which she reacts to the mere mention of Riley's name versus the bravado with which she attacks Joel versus the mixture of both when she asks Marlene why she can't go home

“are you my fucking mom or something” / “do I look like your mom?” / “no” cracked up the entire theater at the screening I went to LOL, I love this kid

The fireflies locking her up and Marlene explaining to her the implications makes a lot of sense as an unseen prelude to the game's events

Perhaps am pre-emptively daydreaming about a Part II adaptation with her already

That final scene

The focus is not on the reveal of Ellie's infection/immunity (as much as poor Tess is freaking the fuck out about it) but on the brutality that Joel is capable of

Much like the end of the season, I suspect

And obviously Joel's reaction here has little to do with Ellie directly. She's cargo. Dude is just straight up triggered.

Even more intriguing to me than Joel's outsized attack is Ellie's reaction to it

In the game, Joel and Tess efficiently dispatch two soldiers after Ellie stabs one, and Ellie is freaked out by it, saying she thought they'd hold up the soldiers, not kill them

Here, on the other hand, Ellie's eyes frickin light up at Joel wailing on that FEDRA guard, she even shifts around to the side for a better look.

Earlier, she asked what Joel was capable of. She's neither horrified nor panicked by the answer, only transfixed.

I don't hate it as a change (the FEDRA school situation is defined vaguely enough that there's wide range of the answers for what kind of violence Ellie's observed imo, just that she's never killed anyone herself) so I'm curious to see if this is a throughline

Especially in contrast to Sarah's horror at Joel taking down the zombie in the prologue

Future Episodes

Joel and Tess discuss Bill and Frank. Looks like someone's alive! Am terrified of what the outcome is going to be for them though, given the Depeche Mode song playing at the end and their fates in the game

#tlou #tlou reviews #...obviously video game spoilers be here bc i cannot disentangle the two sufficiently #the last of us #jaggedwolf rambles #mine

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I have wips I want to work on why are the only things in my brain pasupare × mmj headcanons I can't do this rn

*does it anyway*

They work together for a project shortly after mmj girlies start gaining traction again maybe after their live in hopeful stage

Living in roughly the same region I have no doubt that mmj was at least aware of pasupare's existence and aya especially has been tracking mmj's social media at least like cmon kiritani haruka and momoi airi and hinomori shizuku in one group together and theyve gone indie like that's a big deal

Minori and aya are huge fans of each others groups this is actually canon they told me so

They are both completely starstruck. Minori cannot believe she gets to work with such a cute and amazing and wonderful idol band and aya is losing her mind because that is THE kiritani haruka and THE hinomori shizuku and THE momoi airi

Airi and chisato pulling the strings as group leaders because the actual group leaders are too busy fangirling and crying over each other

Airi loves idols too so shes also going a lil bit crazy and stupid but she is soooo much better at keeping it together

Even though airi despised how she was reduced to a variety show host as an industry idol, she still enjoys watching variety shows and watches pasupare's show every single week. She absolutely adores them and loves their work on the show.

I have it on good enough reasoning within the Craft Egg/Colorful Palette rhythm game universe that both games canon occur somewhat simultaneously meaning that shizu, airi, aya, chisa, hina and maya are the same grade and so are eve, haru, and mino OR the proseka canon starts the year before BEFORE bandori's meaning that the mmj girlies are all one year ahead

If haruka and chisato are the same age, you KNOW there is some industry-induced fucked up rivalry shit going on. Haruka is a household name and chisato has been in the limelight since she could talk they have definitely met before and never understood why they couldn't be friends

So imagine their surprise when minori and aya become absolute besties and they try to set chisato and haruka up to become friends as well

And it works. Even though chisato is still being gripped by the entertainment industry first-hand, haruka quitting took enough pressure off of the two of them and they can be much more chill now

I would do anything to see a how a conversation between maya and shizuku are you kidding? maya tries to talk about something tech related and shizuku is like "Yes, I, too, know much about technology for example I only broke my phone two times last week trying to turn up the volume" and maya doesn't know where to go from there

Hina: Wow, minori-chan, you really did girlboss your way into a y/n fic that's SOOO interesting and also a little bit fucked up but in a totally boppin' way ya know? ahahaa

I feel like I should mention this:

Image is a screenshot from vocaloid wiki page for Mechanical Clown: "Karakuri Pierrot...reflects on depression after a breakup or rejection."

No actually I don't think I want to talk about this one rn I'm not looking to cry

Eve and shizuku both have roots in modeling but were made into idols from almost nothing but that. this isn't a headcanon but there's something to be said here and I think about it a lot

Shizuku and aya click so well. They exist on each other's wavelengths to the detriment of literally everyone else. Aya and her cute, light blue-haired girl best friends who can't read a map for shit

Pasupare covering ice drop or worldwide wander........

MMJ covering wakuwaku meets trip or mo ichido luminous..................

Maybe my brain will let me go back to writing now

(please add on if you have any thoughts)

#featuring my aya and shizuku bias ❤✌ #thinking about a mmj luminous once more made me want to cry a little bit #project sekai #bandori #more more jump #pastel*palettes #nonchalantly #hhw × wxs is fun and all but I am BEGGING you to also please consider the idol crossover

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Do you consider Criston’s and Rhaenyra’s love scene dub-con or something along those lines? I’m rewatching the series and got a bit uncomfortable while watching it, but tbh I felt pretty weird about it when the episode first came out. Not sure if it was because there were two other dub-con - or in Alicent’s case rape - scenes in that same sequence.

Might be controversial, but I do think it toes the line but falls more towards "consensual" than "dubious", if I'm honest. I also wanna be clear, I am not an expert on assault or rape culture or anything like that whatsoever, this is just my take on that scene. Nor is the view I'm offering here my overall view on sexual engagement in general, just how it reads when looking at the context of the show and the world and the actions of the scene in and of itself, that's it.

The key element here is, I think, desire and capability of saying no. What makes Alicent's scene so hard to watch and very clearly marital rape (unless you have brain worms) is that you can tell that this is not something she wants to do in the slightest, and that she does not have the ability to refuse it. She very clearly can't say "yeah it's late and I've been taking care of a baby and you just woke me up for this, no thanks", because she tries to start that excuse and the person who summoned her on Viserys's behalf ain't having it. Alicent's relationship to Viserys has been shown on screen to be something she was pushed into, and the negative scenes involving it (her discomfort during the carriage ride in ep 3, him being dismissive of her with Daemon, her face when Rhaenyra makes the "imprisoned in a castle" comment) far outpace any positives, like her enjoying hearing him talk about Valyria. This isn't a situation Alicent wants and it's not a situation she can even try to back out of it.

That is very, very strongly contrasted with Criston and Rhaenyra. First things first, we know that Rhaenyra and Criston like each other, Rhaenyra's had an interest in him since episode 1 and we've seen their relationship build through episode 3 and episode 4. We know they like each other, not only because both are good looking but that they also like each other as people, and have a connection, and throughout the actual love scene in and of itself it's pretty clear that they do both desire each other and are being sexually fulfilled during their encounter. This is something that they both want to do, Criston included, this is something that he does engage in relatively willingly, so that's the desire portion. When it comes to capability of saying no, Criston can. I haven't rewatched that scene in a wee bit, but from what I remember I think after she kisses him he says something along the lines of "no" or "I can't" or something along those lines. Rhaenyra ignores that, which ain't great, nowadays we know that if someone gives you a verbal refusal you need to take a step back rather than keep pressing on or trying to ignore it, but I think that's the end of Criston's refusal. And Criston does have the space to say no, he can in fact take a step back and say that his Kingsguard vows are too important, regardless of what he feels, and he can't risk them. I know people have said that he can't refuse because then she could cause problems for him, but crying false allegations because she's been refused would be wildly out of character not just for the Rhaenyra we know but for the Rhaenyra Criston knows as well, so that doesn't seem to be a concern that he would logically have. Rhaenyra might pout if refused, she might be a bit cold to Criston, which again, nowadays we know that sulking because you're denied sex is a bad move, but that's nowhere near the same loss as being executed. And, just as a brief note, I think Criston's still largely in plate armor at the time before he decides he's all in and down for some hanky panky, and Rhaenyra as played by Milly looks like she's less than 100 pounds soaking wet, he could theoretically have ultimately walked away from the encounter and there wasn't much she would have been able to do about it.

I don't think criticisms of the scene and elements that due point to a dubiousness in the consent are without merit. There is still a power differential given Rhaenyra's royal status, and as I said, he does at one point try to pull away before giving in, and Rhaenyra does ignore that. But to me, the scene reads less as "Criston resisting because he doesn't want to have sex with her at all and then gets forced into it", moreso that "Criston is hesitant due to the treason stuff but he really wants to, and ultimately gives in to his baser impulses". The issues in Rhaenyra's treatment of him come afterwards, in episode 5, in not understanding where he's coming from when he wants to rectify his "sin" and in not understanding that this is a big deal for him, that the consequences would be dire for him, and not seeing that her wanting to continue on an affair (in her mind a best of both worlds situation because she does like him a lot and want to have sex with him and doesn't want to abandon their relationship) is insulting not just to his religion but to him as a person. And of course there's the fact that this scene isn't really even about Criston and Rhaenyra as a couple or their thoughts on having sex, it's to set the scene for the eventual falling out between Rhaenyra and Alicent and to further develop Rhaenyra as someone who is playful and willful but also naive and who chafes at the confines of her gender, who wants to be able to behave like a man, especially like a man she trusts and strongly relates to, but can't and has to learn that through her scene with Alicent and her scene with Viserys and the end of the episode when she's given moon tea.

Ultimately, I think that "dubiously consensual" might be the right word for it, but that the dubiousness is incredibly light since, given circumstances and ability to refuse and prior existing relationship and ultimate desire between two parties, it seems pretty clear that, while nervous about consequences, Criston did indeed want to have sex and was a willing participant.

#personal #answered #anonymous #i think it's hard to try and parse stuff out like this because this world operates on a very different set of rules than our own #it's kind of like when modern day people try to assign specific lgbt labels to historical figures #the rules of how society operates and how people are socialized to think and act is very different from our own #and humanity as a species is kinda bad at seeing things from other people's points of view #that's why there are ten million children's books about learning to do that #that's why the phrase 'never judge a man until you've walked a mile in his shoes' even exists #so trying to judge things as murky as sex and impaired consent and 'absence of no doesn't equal yes' and etc #through our modern day lens while applying it to a world that is operating on a rulebook analogous to the dark ages #is really difficult and doesn't often work #but i tried my best #also feel free anyone to let me know if you need stuff tagged on this #cuz these are some sensitive topics

[rinphoria]

omgg ive heard a lot about criminal minds, especially about Spencer (??). it seems like a really good show and i actually might give it a go too soon. i can only watch one show at a time because my brain can't process two shows at a time, but ive nearly finished the mentalist so i might try that next !!

icl, my friend thinks im a complete weirdo, but i don't like waffles or pancakes. they're not very appealing to me and i would never choose them when eating out. i quite like potato waffles though, they're beautiful !! i remember as a child my mum used to buy the smiley face shaped ones and id secretly take them out of the packet and try to eat them raw ,, i have no idea why 😭😭 i used to think i was the baddest bitch ever.

yk with the internship, i have no idea what to expect, but at the same time im excited for all the doors it opens. the company is basically a research and consultancy agency that works with big corporate clients like McDonald's and also with the public. they do research and then present their findings to the clients to try and help them become better brands and whatnot. i don't really care about the consultancy part, but i can't wait for the research aspect. im trying to go into psychology for university, and me having experience in research will hopefully (i pray that it does) give me a leg up into the research world and work placements while im an undergrad.

OMGGG I HOPE YOU HAVE THE BEST MONTH EVER BEFORE YOU MOVE BACKK !! YOU DESERVE ALL THE REST AND THE HAPPINESS AND IM PRAYING ITS AN EASY MOVE BACK !! i honestly applaud you, idk how you do it. i go camping for 2 days and im literally crying and throwing up because i miss my mum. i literally stayed up until 3am to phone her and tell her i wanted to go home 😭 you're so strong kai and i'm so so proud of you. hopefully moving back is easy and peaceful for you !! also i have so many kdramas to watch, and shows in general, but im so so slow at getting round to watching them 😫 i hope you manage to do everything youve been planning on doing within the next month !!

reconnecting with old friends makes me feel so fuzzy and warm on the inside. something about finding eachother again makes me feel like the friendship was just meant to be and that's why you both found eachother. im so so happy for you and please, feel free to let me know how the amusement park goes (only if you're comfortable with sharing of course). i love hearing about other people's days and experiences, i feel like im living vicariously through them lmaooo

IVE JUST REALISED IVE SENT A REALLY LONG ASK AND I AM SO SORRY ,, I GET SO CARRIED AWAY AND I END UP WAFFLING ABOUT THE MOST RANDOMEST THING please feel free to ignore this btw, its actually so long wtff I'm sorry about that 😭😭 anyways, thank you for sharing your day with me and i hope you have millions of more amazing days to come <33

noooo i would never ignore you!!

i def recommend criminal minds if you have space on your watch list! (it’s pretty long lol) and yes spencer is a fan fav, i really like hime but that’s bc i find intelligence attractive haha. OMG I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOURE TALKING ABOUT i haven’t had those in so long 😭😭 bad bitches ate the little smiley potatoes 😌 your internship sounds like it’ll be really interesting! i did a lot of research for my major last semester and it gave me such a headache but i also learned a ton so it really does sound like a great opportunity. i hope you learn a lot and are able to enjoy it :)

i always hate the move back to school, it can be rough lol but thank you so much!! i totally get what you mean about getting homesick, my school is two hours away from home and on the first day of my freshman year my parents had been gone for maybe three hours and i ended up calling my dad and crying on the phone bc i missed them 💀 and to think i was considering doing school out of state lol i would not have survived

ahh yeah, i was really shocked to see him again since he transferred in middle school but turns out he goes to college where we grew up. it’s been really nice catching up with him :) and i would be more than happy to tell you about the little outing bc i too love living vicariously through others haha

AHHH LIJA ILY 🫶🏽🫶🏽 thank you for indulging me, you’re a sweetheart :))

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[scotchiegirl]

Quantum Leap! Staring Jared Padalecki as Dr. Sam Winchester, and Richard Speight Jr. as Admiral Gabriel Starling.

#spn #supernatural #quantum leap #sam winchester #gabriel supernatural #sam beckett #al calavicci #au #quantum leap au #supernatural au #i just really love this okay you guys? #like i can't stop thinking of how perfect this is and I want to cry because i love it so much #i also want to cry because my brain can't enjoy two shows at the same time without making an au #none of the og gifs are mine #only the editing

[hyunjilicious]

A/n: I'm low-key terrified because I never wrote anything like this before... 🥺 so I hope it doesn't suck? Thanks for the request @hommoturttle I hope its ok!

Summary: just sex. And breeding kink. SMUT 1.6K

Warnings: smut, some dirty talk, the tiniest bit of degradation, breeding kink obvi and some possessive Bucky. 18+ please!! (also idk about you but this gif does ✨things✨ to me - like.. Mr Barnes, stick whatever you want wherever you wantksksksk ok I'm done 🥲)

It would happen after a mission that you went on without him. No matter how used he is to going away and putting himself in danger, his brain refuses to accept that that's your job too. He gets crazy worried, sweats through most of the nights that you're not there to sleep on his chest, snaps at everyone that tells him to calm down, and counts the days until you're back. He's usually able to stand the distance, but not in these scenarios. He always ends up missing you like you've been gone for months, but the way the night you're back unfolds, makes up for everything.

No amount of cuddling, sweet nothings or showers together could possibly make up for the time away like the frantic rounds of sex you always go through as soon as you get back do. And it's always the same, he's on top of you, hovering above your body as his eyes never leave your frame. He wants to see every detail, every inch of your face, every feature that he loves so much. 

It starts crazy and it ends even more so. Foreplay is long forgotten, everything you get is him throwing you on the bed and ripping every piece of clothing that stands in his way. And it's more than enough, the pure need and hunger in his manic blue eyes, has the power to drive you insane in record time.

You're a squirming, wet and needy mess by the time he has you naked on his bed, hands clawing up to him. "Come on, Bucky, I need you"

And it drives him up the walls too. He hates the belt that slows him down, and his shirts never make it out intact. 

Biting down hard on his lower lip as his need gets the best of him, Bucky's breathing passes the threshold of obscene, his buffed chest heaving as he can't help himself.

"Come here, doll" he finally rasps, his voice low and grave as his jeans fall to the floor.

In a moment, he's on top of you, his legs lodged in between yours. Every touch is amplified by the wait and the feeling of his rough hands on your waist is mind-blowing. You squirm under his touch, trying to wiggle your way closer to him.

"Missed me too, huh?" Bucky grins proudly, gently but sternly grabbing your chin. His thumb rubs along your jawline, his teeth showing as he can't hide his enthusiasm.

"Yes-" you breathe out, melting under his touch. "Missed you so much, Buck."

"Need me?" he keeps teasing, lowering himself so that his lips reach the side of your neck. At first, it's his hot breath that you allow yourself to get drunk on, but when his teeth lewdly sink into your skin, you yelp, your thighs involuntarily closing around his hips.

And you can tell he takes pride in the responses he gets from you. You're sure he feels the goosebumps up your arms, or the way your rib cage shakes with every breath you take. But he keeps going, his greedy hands exploring your naked body, taking your breasts into his palms as he keeps on sucking claim marks into your neck.

"Fuck, Bucky-" you moan, back arching. His lips and his fingers are already too much for you to take, but when the tip of his cock brushes against your thigh, you're all but done. 

"Tell me you need me, doll" he hums, pushing himself up on his left arm. The mattress dips under the weight of his metal hand, and as you look between your bodies, your eyes land on the way he's eagerly fisting his cock in his right hand. You're caged in his hold, and it's the only thing you want.

"You're all I need, Bucky" you cry, your hands softly roaming up his chest. His hair had fallen around his face, framing his features and offering them the required amount of shadow needed to accentuate his carnal desire. Bottom lip wet and lodged between his teeth, he watches you closely, waiting for more.

"Bucky, please-" you continue, uselessly shaking your hips from side to side. "I'm already so wet, I'm such a mess for you sometimes. Just use me, do whatever you want with me, I just need to feel you, Bucky. Deep inside me, please"

He shakes his head in disbelief, hints of bitter laughter escaping his lips. "Such a needy, little thing" he muttered to himself.

With your mind clouded and busy enjoying the build-up, when the tip of his cock connectes to your folds, your eyes snap wide. Your reaction brings a proud grin to Bucky’s lips, but this is just the beginning.

Giving you no time to adjust whatsoever, he slams himself into you, bottoming out as you feel your breath cut short. "Fuck, fuck-" you pant, wrapping your arms around his shoulders in a pathetic attempt to ground yourself.

"Be good for me, doll, ok?" Bucky groans against your ear. His body is right on top of yours, fully rocking you against the mattress with every deep and powerful thrust of his hips. "You need to take all of me"

You can feel him up into your chest, your pleasure materializing in the form of tears, coating your eyes for just a short second before running down your temples. 

"Buck-" you cry.

"I'm gonna fill you up, baby" he grunts, holding onto your shoulders as he shoves himself deeper. "Deep inside your belly, yeah? Gonna feel me for days"

And you're not that close yet, your brain isn't yet drowning in hormones, so you can think straight, you can form a decent answer - but you refuse to. You just squeeze your eyes shut and grit your teeth, sucking the pleasure his cock forced into your body. Every vein is palpable, your walls closing in around him as if his size isn't already a tad bit more than you'd normally find comfortable. But you love it, he's there, as close as he can get, consuming himself right there with you.

"Fuck-" Bucky grunts, his metal fingers wrapping around the roots of your hair. It's unwashed - a weeks worth of sweat embedded into its fibers but he doesn't care. He only sees you. "I missed you so fucking bad, doll-"

"I'm here, baby-" you coo, your words shaky and barely audible.

You don't know if he heard you, or if he even processed your sentence, he's too caught up.

"You're mine - you're here with me, only mine-" he adds, fervently sucking away at the skin of your neck. "My baby, my angel, mine-" he grunts, emphasising his last word with the help of a ravaging thrust that shakes you to your core.

You cry out, his name burning your throat as you feel him ripping your insides apart.

"Bucky- Buck- I-"

"So sweet-" he cuts you off, moving his head to the other side of your neck. "And only fucking mine. Say it-" he demands.

"I'm-" you gasp, "I'm yours, only yours"

"All mine"

You faintly nod along, vision blurry as you start to lose yourself.

"Say it!" Bucky adds.

"I'm all yours"

"Say it again"

"I'm... all- all yours, Bucky" you manage to mutter before a pleasure filled whine erupts from your throat. "I'm getting close… Bucky, I can't-"

"Easy now-" he moans, slowing down his pace. He comes face to face with you, his damp lips sloppily pressing against yours. He's still balls deep inside your cunt, making the gentle movement of his hips almost unbearable.

Eventually, he slowly tilts your head to the side, burying his face into your hair as he whispers against your ear, "I'm gonna pump you full, yeah? Gonna fill this sweet cunt with my cum, and you, like the good little slut you are, are not gonna let any of it go waste, right?"

"Yeah…"

"Gonna use that pretty cunt of yours to milk my cock dry, yeah?"

You whimper and nodd, frantically trying to get him to pick up his pace. But he isn't having it. When he finally pulls out at that agonisingly slow pace, he captures your lips into another kiss as he slams himself back in.

"Come on, Bucky, fill me up" you cried, involuntarily pulling breaking the kiss, "I wanna feel you inside me"

"Oh, you're gonna feel me inside you alright" he taunted, repeating his movements and pulling all the way out before forcing himself all the way back in. "A little bit of me inside you-" he growls and thrusts again, deeper and harder, "Growing inside you-"

"Holy- fuck!" you screamed, throwing your head back.

"Mine forever, doll-" Bucky grunts, both of you dangerously close the edge, "Yeah?"

"Mhm-" you hum, whiny and all teary eyed with your lips gathered between your teeth.

And then you're all but done - legs tightly wrapped around his middle - every muscle of your body clenching uncontrollably as a spiral of pleasure engulfs your body. And Bucky isn't far behind, your name being the only thing on his lips as he shoots his load deep inside your pussy - careless and irregular, a few last thrusts until he crashes down on top of you.

Although out of breath, as the last waves of your orgasm propagate along your body, you still cling to him. Bucky's face is hidden against your shoulder as he struggles to come down from his high, none of you willing to move even an inch.

"I'm never pulling out" he jokes, and it takes all the energy you have left inside your body to chuckle along.

"Wouldn't ask you to" you laugh, "But you're crushing me so-"

With a grunt, but still with impeccable ease, Bucky wraps his arms around your middle and spins the two of you around, until he's laying on his back with you against his chest. 

"There-" he shrugs placing a kiss on the top of your head, "Problem solved"

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