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multimetaverse · 5 years

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Andi Mack 3x14 & 3x15 Reviews

Hammer Time and Unloading Zone were two good eps that were somewhat marred by filler. Let’s dig in!

Positives:

It’s good to teach kids early that there’s no ethical consumption under capitalism.

I’ll give them credit for not bearding TJ and for having him explicitly say that that he and Kira are not together. Also really drove home how petty and manipulative Kira is.

The Tyrus scenes were brief but not as angsty as I thought. It’s very clear they’re pushing the bounds of subtext and showing that Cyrus has a crush on TJ and wants to make that known but of course we can’t start moving into text until after the cut episode. I think this is the ep that probably clues in the casual audience that Cyrus does in fact like TJ as more than a friend though knowledge that they’re being set up to be a couple won’t come until Something to Talk A-Boot (unless they happen to see the promo with the Bench scene).

They’ve clearly set up Buffy as Cyrus’ crush confidante, making sure all talk of TJ is kept away from Andi and Jonah which is sad but unsurprising. It wouldn’t shock me if Andi and Jonah don’t explicitly know about Cyrus’ crush until after the bench scene itself. Great to see Buffy being so encouraging although she can’t explicitly say anything yet.

I wonder if that whole ‘’brings out his eyes’’ bit will come back during or after the bench scene. TJ is wearing a green shirt at the party that would bring out his eyes. Maybe that will be a Disney approved gay version of the typical straight guy calling his love interest pretty.

Those were some great Muffy scenes. I know there were some worries on tumblr about their chemistry after 3x13 but those should be put to rest now I think.

Extremely easy to see the Muffy arc ending in a kiss in the finale.

Bringing Garren back was a very wise decision on the writers part. That ‘’ I want to cross the finish line’’ with you line was a great little nod to them being endgame. And that piggyback ride Marty gave Buffy was sweet.

Really good subtle message sent by the camp out that it should be totally normal for a straight guy to have sleepovers with his gay friend.

Andi’s line about Jonah maybe not being capable of more emotional connection than his usual 6 emojis is damning but I also wonder if it’s set up for him to subvert that when he sings You Girl.

A sad reminder about Amber’s awful home life. It’s clear she’s seeking the love and attention she’s not getting at home from her parents but Jonah is really not the solution.

In 3x15 we get some foreshadowing for Buffy’s later foot injury

Nice to see Jonah participating in the protest and I always enjoy when they lean into Jonah being kind of dumb.

We still managed to get an Alpaca cameo after all. Also confirms that the original 3x18 at Snuck Farm was indeed planned as the original wedding.

The don’t hurt yourself lines Cyrus and Jonah had were very funny.

Cyrus referenced the Tunguska event most likely

Lauren Tom knocked it out of the park with her emotional scenes in both eps. i wish we had seen more of this Celia in S3 instead of wacky grandma

Liked Officer Penn’s Clint Eastwood impression. And interesting that they used a white male cop as a bad guy.

Celia’s snow globe was a lovely gift. According to Disney PR, it was inspired by Terri’s snow globe collection and Lilan and Trent didn’t know what was inside the box until they opened it.

Liked the Game of Thrones reference (at least the Andi Mack finale can’t be worse than that show’s)

Loved the music in the cold open, it was the same they used for scene transitions in 3x07.

I try not to pass judgment on the show because the whole Ham situation is so awful and unprecedented but that convo about him going to India really skated close to dark humour especially when Celia said ‘’don’t worry you’ll see him again’’.

Negatives:

Notice how they kept Kira making TJ feel bad about his crush out of the previously on and instead focused on her disliking Cyrus because he’s Buffy’s friend. I do think Kira gets called out for that by TJ during the finale but it’s clear for now that they’re trying to pass this off as her hating Buffy and liking TJ and wanting him for herself.

They had Luke and Raquel for a day but filmed quite a bit less than their typical maximum. TJ himself only got 2:45 minutes of screentime, including being in the background, which is a little less than his usual 3 minutes.

Which isn’t a surprise, TJ’s screen time operates by a different math than other recurring characters. It’s the same pattern in both S2 and S3, he can be in 9 aired eps max and only 3 eps after the 13th ep of the season. Luckily in S3 Disney only ordered 21 eps so instead of only 3 TJ eps spread out over 12 eps we got 3 spread out over 8 until the FBI knocked that down to 7.

It’s not a question of budget, they had a much higher per ep budget in S3, nor was it scheduling since Luke had no other projects and they were able to work around Garren’s GH filming schedule right through the finale and re-shoots nor was there a 9 ep limit on recurring characters as Emily was in 11 of the original 21 this season.

Not to mention they’ve been drastically cutting TJ’s screentime with Cyrus. Luckily they do probably have to give him a bit more than 3 minutes in Something to Talk A-Boot and hopefully gets more than 3 in the finale.

The Cyrus and Jonah plot was sweet but pure filler. I never expected Cyrus to talk to Jonah about his feelings or anything related to his sexuality but was there nothing else they could even briefly touch on? Jonah’s anxiety? Cyrus’ anxiety? Jonah’s family problems? It’s not like Terri didn’t know the show was going to end just 7 eps later in otl so why waste this time? It’s most likely the last significant solo time those two have and they should have used it more wisely.

Vivian turned out to be completely useless. Seems like they cut some of her lines but I really don’t get her purpose.

The clothing protest was rushed and the ending was very unsatisfying. It hurt the plot that we never actually saw anyone connected to the company.

Celia and Bex didn’t really patch up either and I’m guessing things weren’t truly fixed until Bex agreed to put the wedding back on in 3x17 in otl.

Amber is in love with Jonah? This is what they’re dedicating so much screen time to in these final eps?

They really ruined the swings for nothing. At least we get nice scenes in Something to Talk A-Boot and the finale

Kira really is something. She’s trying to get a a guy she knows is gay to date her which is insane

I was expecting there to be very little in this final TJ ep before the original wedding in part because of Terri’s instagram post back in November right after Josh revealed the endgame had changed and right before they shot the original 3x18 where she screenshotted a tweet that said Andi Mack fans should stop accusing the show of queer baiting or blaming Disney censorship in regards to Cyrus’ story line. Writers let their work speak for them and that Terri posted that was a sign that the criticism hit to close to home.

The show is not queer baiting and 3x11 was an all time great but to pretend there hasn’t been long running censorship from Disney is a straight up lie and excluding 3x11 there’s really been very little. I’m sure she had planned for the bench scene for a while but she couldn’t have known that she’d get it approved until it was time to write the finale. Disney seemed committed to some sort of Tyrus endgame but it very easily could have been just them standing together smiling at the end in which case this whole mess of a plot would have been for nothing. She was reckless but got very lucky that Disney didn’t screw her over. I hope whoever ends up making the next Disney show with a gay story line will know not to bite off more than they can chew.

Looking Ahead:

Things are in some ways simpler and in some ways messier for Tyrus. TJ seems to have accepted Kira as a friend but is refusing to use her as a beard and still wants to hang with Cyrus. Cyrus thinks TJ is straight but has seemingly forgiven him for costume day so that conflict is swept under the rug. Either Kira does a complete 180 off screen and apologizes in her 45 seconds of speaking time in the finale or she’s just there so Cyrus can be sad and TJ tells her off and then goes to speak to Cyrus without her getting any real development or redemption. Either way it’s going to be wild going from closeted TJ to TJ having a boyfriend and being out to at least several people all in like 3-4 minutes of screentime.

She really is only looking at something like 30-45 seconds of speaking time in the finale and not all that much more of background time if she’s lucky as Raquel was only on set for one day and it was the same day all the other main and recurring kids were also filming and she was only 14 at the time which means she can be on set a little less than most of the other kids. And her insta story shows that it was just her and Luke in the school room and after she finished class she was just hanging on set until they wrapped for the day.

If she’s not getting a redemption arc than most likely they’ll follow up with what Buffy said and she’ll say something mean about Cyrus that will cause TJ to drop his willful blindness and tell her off or she gets tired of waiting and tries to demand that TJ dates her and he tells her off. Either way Cyrus would likely see them and mistake it for them having a moment.

This does mean that TJ doesn’t need to redeem himself so much in Something to Talk A-Boot at the theatre or the game. That TJ is even at those events and hanging with Cyrus over at least two days in universe means he’s either not hanging with Kira or he still is but is less vulnerable to her manipulation.

So the prop garbage was for community service after all. Wild

They really went there with the stereotypes about Asian people. I think great things can come of this plot and I’m excited to see Andi’s art plot line take off.

Now we know why Jonah says ‘’why can’t it just be fun? Why does it have to be love?’’ There’s almost no chance this Amber in love with Jonah story won’t be a trainwreck but hopefully it’s an entertaining one. I really don’t know if there’s anything they can do for Amber’s home life. Her parents divorcing would probably help in the long term but it would be a very depressing ending to her arc.

Really does seem to be no set up for Jandi but we’ll see how long they can keep their lead girl completely romance free. Lilan and Asher have both talked about Jonah and Andi being settled and Disney has been hyping up Jandi moments and of course Jonah sings You Girl so something is going to happen. With the new promos suggesting Andi might be moving away in the finale, probably for her art, I wonder if they have an ending where they’re not officially together but they know they like each other and that the universe will always guide them back to one another or some hippy crap like that.

Presumably Bowie still wants to get married. Wonder how they’ll get the wedding back on track without Ham’s help.

Mack chat kids hate Kira but no mention of Tyrus which is no surprise. On the plus side this means we get Luke guest starring for either Something to Talk A-Boot or the finale and it seems that Josh was a finale guest so they will have to talk about Tyrus even if only briefly.

I’ll talk more about the new promos tomorrow but I’m so glad that they’re teasing the bench scene.

Only 5 more weeks left!

#Andi Mack #Tyrus #TJ Kippen #Cyrus Goodman #Muffy #Buffy Driscoll #Marty from the party #Jonah Beck #amber #Jamber #Bexie #Bex Mack #Bowie Quinn #Celia Mack #Kira #Andi Mack Reviews #Andi Mack Meta #Andi Mack Season 3

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shipme · 6 years

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Dating Chanyeol would include

A/N: This idea was requested by @luna208 a while ago, but I finally found the time to type it on my computer! -Admin Whiger

Meeting him

you were running down the streets, being ultra-late for an appointment and then you received a call: you searched for your phone, getting distracted and BAM, you smashed into someone

not being able to see in front of you after the shock (probably should have eaten this morning)

Chanyeol completely put-off by the accident: what was he supposed to do?

realizing that you aren’t getting off the ground, even after he tries to call out to you, so he dials the ambulance number

you whimper and he’s immediately all around you, asking you questions Are you okay Miss? Can you hear me? Do you see everything? Can you count my fingers? you’re still in a sort of fog so half of the questions don’t register and the other half just makes your head spin

Chanyeol waiting for the ambulance to come, and being taken in with you as he doesn’t want to let you alone

you feel better soon after, but Chanyeol doesn’t let you go without having you entering your contact in his phone as he still worries

Being friends

he actually really checks up on you, and you’re baffled he remembered you exist? You just expected him to have done this by accident?

you just basically answer by asking him how he feels as well

and surprisingly, it doesn’t feel that awkward: he even offers you to meet you at a café so you can get to know him

you can’t decline such an offer (or well, you could but I can’t because I’m addicted to coffee so just play along with me) and that’s how you find yourself in a place you don’t know, ready to meet a stranger

you arrive right on time. But he doesn’t. You’re starting to worry because “hey he might have left me on my own because we all know such gentlemen don’t exist and this was really shady anyway”, and then you receive a message informing you he was running late at work but he didn’t forget you

you just play some games on your phone while waiting, declining the time someone comes and ask if you want to drink because there’s no way he comes and sees you casually sipping on a drink as you got tired of waiting

you’re really immersed in that game when there’s a loud clank as someone settles drink in front of you and plank himself on the chair just in front of you

you ease into a smile as you recognize the boy who saved you -aka Chanyeol

you say hi to him, thank him for the drink, and immediately start sipping on it because you suddenly feel very shy

Chanyeol breaks the silence by asking you if you enjoy what you drink with a worried tone and you both start randomly speaking about your favorite drinks and it just derivates from there

the thing that put an end to the convo was your phone ringing because your appointment had been rescheduled and you could have your interview in fifteen minutes, and it’s at the other end of the city

so you immediately start smiling wide and then it just turns down because there is NO WAY you make it on time

Then, Chanyeol asks what is wrong, and when you expose the problem, he asks you if you’d want him to drive you there? and you’re like, is he even real?

being overly stressed during the whole ride because Chanyeol just seems to speed too much and you haven’t got the right clothes on so you won’t look professional enough… And Chanyeol just put on some music to get you to destress

Next, the collaboration between EXO Chanyeol and Punch

BAM, TALKING ABOUT STRESS?

Trying to discreetly double-check Chanyeol because now, you’re sure you have seen his face somewhere but apparently, being discreet isn’t part of your outlet

Shy Chanyeol who doesn’t really know what to say and tries to escape your attention so you don’t say anything because you’re not gonna force him

so it surprises you when he clears his voice a bit and explains to you that yes, he is THAT Chanyeol

silence

SILENCE  and then you just shrug with a “ah okay, nice to know” and you focus back on being a total anxiety wreck

And then, Chanyeol decides that now that you know, he can distract you by raping. Which works pretty well.

“We’ve arrived” and you just stay frozen on the spot before slowly moving with the invitation of Chanyeol

You’re in the elevator when your phones ring New Message from Chanyeol: You’ve got that power! which makes you laugh, followed by a “keep in touch”

it takes a whole week but you learn that you have been selected for the job!!!!! and you text your family, your best friend, AND Chanyeol

and he tells you that it’s the special occasion to go to a bar and share some drinks

but you’re really surprised when you arrive at the destination he indicated and you find yourself surrounded with A LOT MORE PEOPLE than Chanyeol

sticking to Chanyeol’s side because you’re not sure how to interact with everyone (they just seem so impressive and anyway, you can’t seem to remember all the names)

dying inside when you finally go out only to be invited to a karaoke and you know you can’t refuse so you go along with it but you just feel bad

still, you spend a very good moment (you end up singing Likey with Sehun, and it’s a real sight to see)

Starting dating

everyone in the group already accepted you because you’ve been seeing them a lot as you were close to Chanyeol and he likes to bring you around

they probably called you when they couldn’t find Chanyeol because that meant that he was hanging out with you and it was quicker than checking up on all his locations

you two had your infamous movie nights each week, which included the both of you lying down on the sofa, half-asleep, with Chanyeol playing with your hair

but you only were friends: you even invited some of the guys to tag along sometimes but soon denied all access to Chen and Sehun, they would be teasing you all night. Then, you also banished Baekhyun because he'll be whining that you were gonna be the end of ChanBaek and it would break the heart of millions (his first)

sometimes wondering if you want to be more than a friend with Chanyeol, but being afraid to lose all contact because of this

and Chanyeol is also worrying (don’t tell me he isn’t a worrywart), and he’ll probably talk about his feelings to Suho and the SM because he doesn’t want to make a faux-pas and realise that even if he musters up the course to ask you out, there’s a probably you two won’t be allowed to date

on one of your usual movie nights, you go to his place but there isn’t any light on (he gave you a key) and you’re panicking? Because you can’t find him, he hasn’t left a message behind, and he isn’t picking up his phone?

Contacting is members only to know that he still is at the headquarters

so you wait it out by wandering aimlessly in his house, where you find his computer turned on with some new songs displayed

and really, who could blame you when you click on those tracks and get lost in Chanyeol’s voice before focusing on the lyrics and then you feel strangely sad because he just talks about his feelings for someone and even if you haven’t confesses, you’re quite mad that he hasn’t talked to you about that person

when Chanyeol enters his house and he hears that music playing, he knows that he’s screwed because well, you just heard what he created to ask you out so there’s no way he can pass it off as it’s just very friendly

when he opens the door, he is met with a frown “HoW cOmE yOu HaVeN’t ToLd Me YoU hAvE fEeLiNgS fOr SoMeOnE?” and then, he stares at you before a smile paints on his lips and he chuckles

and you’re like “DiD yOu JuSt ChUcKlE aT mY fAcE PARK CHANYEOL” and that’s when he closes the gap between you two and kisses you

there’s a beat of awkwardness and you don’t even react to the kiss at first because you’re caught off guard

so, instead of that, you take a hold of him and lock him in your arms so he knows you didn’t intend to reject him

Being a couple

First, Sehun had to redistribute all the money the boys had bet on you

on daily basis, it hadn’t really changed anyway

except the teasing: you didn’t know you could want to hit someone as much as that before being confronted to some (CHEN) EXO members

sometimes having the impression that Baekhyun came along with the Chanyeol’s package “Hey, I decided to buy those Disney tickets but Baekhyun was being me and I know he was alone on that day soooo…” #thirdwheeling

Chanyeol teasing you with his height and you being pouty because even when you tip-toes, you can’t kiss him (so you found that new idea of kicking his gently in his knees so that he bent down and was the ideal height)

sometimes, you’ll jokingly complain to Baekhyun about the fact that Chanyeol is too much of a hassle because of his height and then, when Chanyeol finds out, you’re in for one hell of a night (I DON’T WRITE SMUT so I leave that part up for your imagination, but just remember that this person also have Zootopia’s bedsheets)

being the kind of couple to have very meaningful souvenirs together, and always having matching sets of jewelry because you prefer to be discreet about it

fighting is absolutely awful for the both of you: it happens sometimes, for petty reasons and that leaves you two infuriated with each other: Chanyeol probably leaves before doing something he could regret, and you leave the place because you want to take a breath

then, you don’t talk for a few days and it’s either you or him that goes back to the other because you just feel very saddened that you aren’t talking anymore, and the both of you will apologize

when in huge fights, you two will probably come to the other to expose his point of view calmly because sadly, all problems cannot be escaped

after 3 years of dating (and rough experiences), you finally decide to live together: this can be stressing but there is nothing that can compare to going to sleep encircled in Chanyeol’s arms

Chanyeol is very supportive of you (you also return the gesture, and you always cheer him up and give him your full appreciation) and you’re really a supportive couple

he writes a song dedicated to you and sings it for the first time during a concert on the day of your anniversary and you just starts weeping and all the EXO-L are trying to comfort you, and everyone just cheers for you two because everyone can see the love flowing

you realize later on that fancies had been taken and you both get real shy overtime you come upon one, Chanyeol blushes and you bury yourself in his arms but this is probably one of your favorite souvenirs

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thestormyrainbow · 7 years

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Who’s home?

The Weekend of a lifetime, that my friends and I planned for a while. okay long story turned short; my grandma asks me to watch her dog and house because she was going out of state for the weekend. Of course, I said yes, 1 because ill had the house to myself and 2 i am getting paid. So my grandma and cousin left to Florida Friday morning. What made the situation better was my friends parents were going out of town to. That meant no curfew for ANYONE. We decided we are going to act up. Friday we went to Disneyland of course and it was more fun the usually this time. And we got on that new ride Guardians of the galaxy ride. Which made me almost pee on myself . On to the next day “THE BIG DAY” Tyler had work Saturday morning that’s didn't stop us . Alexis and I went to the store with this girl and bought two cases of Smirnoff , a bottle of Stella Rosa , pineapple Cîroc , and a big bottle of Malibu. Mind you it is only 3 girls that are drinking all that . So we got all that and brought it to my grandmas house. Around 7 is when the party began , we 1st order the pizza so we wanted to eat before we started drinking. we started we just the Smirnoff, something light before the hardcore stuff. The scene was Pandora music blasting , bottle on the table , and we were playing monopoly and laughing having a good time. The pizza finally came then we ate. After that we went hard well me and Alexis did. Tyler started tripping after two bottle of Smirnoff (beginner). Me and Alexis went ham on the drinks . The rest of the night was kind of a blur. I know we all went to Alexis car around 2 in morning to smoke. she parked far from my grandma’s house because parking is a bitch here . But it is a safe neighbor so it was no problem expect tonight. Okay so we all had on pajama pants and stuff. We thought it would be funny to dance in the middle of the street . And that is what we did and suddenly, this guy pull up in a car. About 4 dudes in one car .

The convo went like this:

The driver guy says to us “What yall doing outside this late at night you know it get crazy out here” We are looking like he is the only crazy thing here. The city of Lakewood is the suburbs filled with old retired people.

I just said “That’s exactly why we are going into the house”

guy: Ya’ll trying turn up , I can go get a bottle

my friend Alexis; No we cool

guy; I got some weed

me; nah we good thank you tho

guy; yall just gon go in yall house and be bored

Alexis; i guess we gon be bored then

Then they drove off thankfully. and we ran into the house. Tyler was already by the house. as I got my keys out my pockets we seen a homeless guy pop up out of nowhere . Which was random and scared us. We went in the house . And Tyler was just really freaking out. Those guys really scared her because she isn't use to random guys hitting on her like that . And she thought something bad was going to happen to us. I wasn't scared because if u do something bad in Lakewood that is your ass. The Lakewood police doesn't play around. And my grandma lives about 4 minutes away from the police station.

So we got back in the house and continue to drink . And Tyler started randomly crying she was drink asf. She can not handle liquor like Alexis and I. And when i sit here and think about it she only 19 she never drunk before and she is a diabetic. That was just a all-around crappy situation . But we eventually all went to sleep at around 4 in the morning. Tyler went to seep before me and Alexis . For a moment, we thought we would have to call her mom because her eyes were rolling back and stuff. Which scared the shit out of us. Like I legit will not drink with Tyler until she is like 25. 4 hours later Alexis realize she had to work in a hour , luckily she had her work shirt in her car. Then Tyler just woke up and left. and Alexis left the alcohol she was supposed to take home. I was like no big if she picks it up before Monday. And my mom picked me up to go to a BBQ. I had already cleaned my grandmas house and I throw a bunch of my clothes over the drinks. I left my grandmas house and went to a BBQ. After the BBQ Tyler , Alexis and I hung out around 9 .They dropped me off at my grandmas , and Alexis was about to get her alcohol. And as i get out the car i see a light form inside my grandmas. My heart started beating out my chest. Because it was midnight and idk what to think. I literally just ran to the door unlocked it and went straight to the back room where I put the drink. Before i made it to the backroom my grandma niece who lives with her was there. But I go in the room to see the clothes off the stuff. And i didn't say anything . I just asked where my grandma was. and she said still in Florida. today is monday and she still hasn't said anything about it and i haven't received any text so i guess im in the clear.

#labor day weekend #lit asf #litty #2k17 #the weekend #my friends #turnt up #music #drink #time of my life #fun city #grandmas house #BBQ #caught #lowkey #we are good

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buckygirl-fanfiction · 7 years

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Sparks Chapter 6

Pairing: Bucky(POV) X Reader(POV)

Word Count: 2.2K

Summary: After Bucky’s night terror episode he is ashamed and avoids y/n. y/n, not liking to be ignored, makes Bucky talk things out with her. Bucky and y/n go for a walk through the park and get bubble tea and climb a tree in the middle of the night and have deep convos. They get closer as friends.

A/N: This is a story about two people building a great friendship and then slowly falling in love. y/n is a strong, independent, and smart scientist. She meets Bucky when she wakes him up from cryo sleep and they become friends. This is going to have all the angst / best friends falling in love / fluff / drama / & eventual smut ;) that I can possibly fit in it. This fic is going to be looong! So far my document is like 66 pages. So editing is hard If you catch any grammatical or formatting errors let me know.

September 18, 2015

y/n’s POV

“Well i’m taking a stand. It’s been three weeks with no sign of Maddox and you’re monitoring both our places. He’s not going to show,” I say to the group sitting around the table.

“Yeah as much as I love Wanda for letting us stay in her apartment. I didn’t sign up for this job to be locked in a tower. Literally.” Cho says next to me.

“That’s not a good Idea. We don’t know whether he will show up again or what Hydra’s plan is,” Steve says but before he continues I cut him off as politely as I can.

“We can’t just stop living our entire lives because of a security threat,” I say. I’ve been stuck in this tower for 3 whole weeks with Cho living out of Wanda’s apartment and as much as I love Wanda and work and everyone here I need my own space.

“You’re more than just a high risk target facing a security threat. You are the security threat,” Tony says.

“What?” Cho says narrowing her eyes at him from across the table.

“We can’t let Hydra get their hands on an individual as high level as the two of you. Because…. For lack of a better metaphor that would be like handing a folder of classified information right to the enemy.”

“We are not folders of classified information that you can keep locked up in your file cabinet,” I say to Tony wide eyed. Is he serious! What does he think is going to happen? That we are going to get taken hostage and spill our guts to hydra? Because clearly he thinks we can’t handle ourselves. Before I really go off on him Nat interrupts me.

“Alright,” Nat says, “they are employees not investments. You’re already monitoring their apartments with live security. We probably spooked him. They don’t need to stay locked up in here.” Finally someone who is sane I think looking at Nat.

“On your head be it,” Tony says, “any updates he asks looking at one of the chief security officers also joining us around the table.” There are never any updates just information we already guessed be confirmed. Nothing new. And I do have to admit that scares me a little. But, I can’t spend my entire life scared so I just push back the fear and decide to walk on.

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Bucky’s POV

It’s friday night and just as i’m about to call it a day and retire back to my apartment, my phone dings. I pull it out of my back pocket and the screen lights up to a text from y/n. It reads: ‘wanna get some boba?’ I swipe her message to reply and text back: ‘what?’ And she texts back at lightening speed: ‘bubble tea.’ I reply: ‘now?’ To which she answers: ‘Yeah I’m just leaving the lab right now. Meet me downstairs?’ I text back: ‘okay’ and grab my leather jacket making my way down to the elevator. Ever since our sleeping incident 3 weeks ago, i’m ashamed to say, i’ve been avoiding her. She has been living out of Wanda’s apartment and i’ve seen her around plenty of times and she hasn’t been treating me any differently. If anyones has changed here it’s me. Some part of me is ashamed, I guess. Maybe some part of me is scared to confront certain new feelings that have been brewing deep, deep down.

I step out of the elevator to the main floor and walk towards the lobby. I see y/n waiting for me outside the main glass doors and walk towards her. It’s nice out but the evening has a nice chill. It’s 9pm and the sun has set and the city’s nightlife is in full swing, especially considering it’s a friday night. She hears the door open and turns towards me and smiles.

“Hey,” she says. “Can’t believe you’ve lived here for over 3 months and never tried bubble tea.”

“I don’t really go out much,” I say back. I usually stick to work or hang out with Steve.

“The place is like a couple blocks up,” she says starting to walk down the street and I follow.

“So you’re moving back home?” I ask her.

“Yeah, well moved already. I brought my stuff back during my lunch break.” She turns to me, “any objections? Lately everyone seems to be objecting.”

“No, I think you're smart enough to watch out for yourself,” I say and to this she responds with a huge smile.

“Thank you, now if you could convince the testosterone squad of that fact.” She says. We get to the bubble tea place and get our drinks. “Wanna walk through the park?” she asks.

“Yeah, sure” I reply following her outside the store.

y/n’s POV

We walk through the park with our bubble teas in hand. It’s a dark night but the city lights illuminate the streets. We follow the first path we see into the park and walk amongst the twisted trees and down the winding path. The cool breeze chill against my face. It’s still warm for mid September but there’s a slight chill. The trees are still green but soon the leaves will be brown and it’s going to be cold and miserable again. “I like the fall,” I say. “It’s not too cold yet and it’s not blistering hot and the trees turn red.”

“I like the summer,” he replies. “Its freeing.”

“You’ve been avoiding me,” I say. Hey this is a good time as any to bring it up. He’s been avoiding me for the entire three weeks I was at Wanda’s. Every time i’d see him around the tower and strike up a conversation, his replies would be short and dry and he’d make some excuse up to leave. Usually he’d text me and ask me if i’d wanted to go running like we usually do. But he hasn’t done that either. So clearly he’s avoiding me and I wanted to know why. I’m guessing it’s because of our awkward bed situation that happened. But come on I thought he was a mature adult. We shared a bed and slept on completely opposite sides for god sakes. He had a nightmare, obviously he has PTSD, it’s understandable. Does he think I don’t understand? There is completely zero reason for him to be acting childish like this. Of the 3 or so months i’ve known him I had not once gotten the vibe that he was childish. He was quiet yes, but childish enough to ignore me for three whole weeks no. I didn’t think he was the type. But then again men are men, I thought to myself. So i’ve decided to talk to him. We are pretty close friends. We spend a decent amount of time together and go on runs almost every day. So, I have the right to know if I should keep investing time in our friendship; or if i’m just wasting time.

“I’m not avoiding you,” he says, “I’ve just been busy.”

“No Bucky, you’ve been ignoring me. I know the difference. We are all busy you don’t think I understand that. We are both adults with whole lives and full time jobs. So, I get when my friends are just going through a busy spell at work. But, you’ve been blatantly going out of your way to avoid me for three whole weeks. So whats up? I think I deserve to know.” I blurt out at him. “Or I don’t. Fair enough you’re entitled to your personal stuff and if you need space just let me know and i’ll give you your space. I’d understand. Just don’t cut people out of your life because you’re too childish or afraid to confront issues.” I say. I think I got everything out. Said everything I needed to say. I hope I didn’t come off as a crazy person. But I care about my friends, sue me. Also I think I have a right to know why someone is ignoring me. That’s what friends do they address the issue, confront the problem, and then move the fuck on.

Bucky’s POV

“You’re right,” I say taken a little aback by her directness. She called me childish. I can’t help but smile and she raises an eyebrow at me.

“What?” she says looking at the grin on my face.

“You just called me childish,” I say trying to hold back my laughter. I don’t know why that amuses me so much but it does. It’s been a long time since someone has called me childish.

“That’s the only thing you got out of my entire speech.” She rolls her eyes and says, “There’s clearly something bothering you. Do you plan on letting me know what it is? Or do you want space?”

“I don’t know, i’m just not a open person, and when you saw me like that in a very vulnerable and open situation,” I say referring to the nightmare episode i’d had “it made me feel weird.”

“Weird?” she questions.

“You’re right I can’t just go on avoiding you forever. I miss our morning runs. So yeah I have been a little embarrassed to confront the situation.” I reply.

y/n’s POV

“Is that all?” I say looking at him. He was embarrassed so he decided to ignore me for three weeks. Typical men. I think to myself.

“Yes that’s all,” he says still suppressing the urge to laugh.

“Well you have nothing to be embarrassed about. If you want to talk about it i’m here,” I say looking at him with an earnest expression. “So, we’re cool now?” I ask.

“We’re cool,” he replies.

I raise my free hand make a fist, raising it towards him. He looks down at my fist and raises an eyebrow. “Bump the fist Barnes,” I say. He raises his fist to mines and we fist bump and I laugh. I take another sip of my tea through the straw and spot a huge oak tree. “Come on,” I say stepping off the paved path onto the soft grass and running towards the tree.

“Where are you going?” he says slowly following behind me. “Let’s climb it,” I say pointing at the tree. “I’ve never actually climbed a tree. Always wanted to though.”

“You’ve never climbed a tree?” he says to me surprised. I put my bag and tea down by the base of the trunk and with my hands on my hips I look up at the huge tree. It’s got a lot of thick branches perfect for hanging off of. I mentally plot my best climbing strategy. Meanwhile Bucky, the show off that he is, just jumps up and hooks his hands on a branch and pulls himself up and sits his with his legs hanging down.

“Show off,” I say to him and begin to carefully position my leg on the trunk. I pull myself up to the trunk he is sitting on and carefully sit down with my legs on either side. “Tadah!” I say. He stands up carefully balancing himself up on the thick branch and pulling himself up to the next highest branch. “Hey,” I say. My competitiveness kicks in. I try to the do same but I don’t have as much upper body strength as him and fail miserably. But hell if i’m going to ask for help. I can do this myself so I look around the branches and make a game plan. He watches me intently as I slowly try to use the smaller branches to aid me in my climb. Before I can do it myself Bucky’s metal arm reaches down and grabs my forearm. Pulling me up like I weighed nothing. “I could have done that myself you know,” I say looking at him.

“I know,” he says. We can’t be no more than 20 feet off the ground and we are surrounded by green leaves and thick brown branches and bright emerald moss. He is sitting on the branch next to me swinging his legs. My legs are on either side of the thick branch and I look down at the grass below us. “What if we fall he says,” when the branch gently shakes because of our combined weight.

“Then we break a bone,” I say looking through the leaves at the city lights beyond. “I’ve never broken a bone either.”

“Trust me you don’t want to,” he says.

“Huh, the idea of everyone signing my cast always sounded fun.”

Bucky’s POV

We are sitting on a tree talking about the most mundane and innocent things. Like breaking a bone and how far planets are how big stars are. That’s why I like spending time with her so much she always does the ordinarily unordinary. The small things that everyone wants to do but never thinks to actually do. She makes me feel ordinary and that’s important for someone like me. It keeps me grounded. It’s 10 o’clock at night and i’m up a tree with a weirdest person i’ve met since i’d woken up. “You’re so weird,” I say.

“Weird is great,” she replies.

“Weird is great,” I repeat.

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spicedchaicoquette · 4 years

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TPB

As I lay under TPB, I am trying so hard to get in the mood. He is already inside of me. I keep going through different scenarios in my head, trying to find the one that will excite me while he is fucking me. It’s not that I am not attracted to him, but after being together 9 years sometimes you need some excitement. I reach up to feel his muscular arms, it’s my favorite part of his body. I start to rub my clit with my other hand. He can sense I am having trouble. “What are you thinking about?”

“I don’t know?”

I hide most of my sexual desires from him. Sex is not the safest topic with him. We have come so far in our sex life, but unfortunately there is too much baggage and I choose not to let him see that side of me. “Look at me.” He says. “I want you to think about another man touching you.” I try to envision it. I close my eyes.

“He is fucking you while I watch.”

I feel anxious, but I also feel excited.

“His dick inside your pussy, then I come up to you and put my cock in your mouth.”

I start to move my hips with his. I am imagining a stranger inside of me. I rub my clit faster. I stop so I can flip over and he can fuck me from behind. I reach back down and run my fingers up my slit making my clit moist. I start rubbing circular motions over it again.

“Keep talking to me.”

“I want to watch you get fucked for awhile, then I want to fuck you in the ass. While his cock is in your cunt.”

He slides a finger in my ass while he is fucking me. I am still imagining having another cock inside of me. I feel the pressure rising. I rub my clit faster as he pumps in and out in a rhythmic movement. His cock is rock hard.

“Yeah, you like being fucked by someone else?”

I start to cum.

“Cum with me.... please... cum with me.”

He uses his finger tips to lightly trace along my back bone. The waves of pleasure extend longer. He knows I have a sensitive spot on my back that intensifies my orgasm. I feel my pussy tighten around his dick. I am lost in a fantasy of another man. He starts to fuck me harder and I feel his cock start to throb as his warm cum fills me.

TPB and I were together for 10 years, married for 5. When we first got together we had crazy sex. In parks, cars, on pool tables. I didn’t even want to date him when I met him, I just wanted to fuck. It took 6 months for him to convince me to go on an actual date. That one date was all it took, and I stuck around. Unfortunately We had a toilsome marriage. I have never had someone love me the way he did. His family name has a reputation, they love hard, so hard it’s suffocating. Their love is forceful, and intoxicating, but for as much as they love they cause just as much pain and destruction. It’s much like Newton’s third law, for ever action there is an equal and opposite reaction. After many years of emotional abuse, and cheating, and finding out he was bi, we tried so hard to make our marriage work. Therapy. medication (he was diagnosed with impulse control disorder, depression, ADHD, anxiety, and as possibly borderline), more therapy. weed. Fuck I forgave him over and over for things I should have just left him for instead. I felt like I was running out of options. I felt like the only way to try to save my marriage was to have an open relationship. But secretly deep down, I desired it too.

I had outgrown (or at least I thought) my promiscuous college years. I was a mom now, I felt insecure with my body, convinced no one desired me. Even through all our troubles I had stayed faithful to TPB I didn’t even toy with the idea of being with other men. He had never been satisfied with me, and I thought maybe if I gave him the option to freely sleep with other people, I could somehow still get the love I desired from him with out the pressure of feeling like I wasn’t good enough. It took much convincing on his part for me to finally agree. At first I didn’t think I would want to sleep with other people, I would just let him do whatever he wanted, but he wanted me to have “fun” too. We decided we would look for another couple who wanted the same type of things. He and I sat down and came up with a list of rules for each other. 1) always tell the other person what is going on, if the other person is uncomfortable we stop. 2)never meet with someone else unless the other person is aware 3) we will stop all contact with other people if the other person wishes it to be over.... it felt like some weird contract, but this contract helped keep me sane. These rules turned it from chaos into something I could process. He set up a few online accounts posting pictures of us and little bios about how we were a couple looking for another couple. I was so nervous. We started getting replies almost immediately. I was astonished. There was this growing sensation in me that made me feel like I was in college again. I was excited. Everyday I wanted to know who was messaging us, who wanted us, were there people who thought I was attractive? TPB sifted through lots of convos and people until we met K and Z. TPB and K started talking and immediately hit it off. K and her husband Z were new to the swinging life much like us and were also looking to maybe find a couple to meet up with. One day I came home from work and TPB gives me a phone # “this is Z’s #, K and I thought you two should maybe get to know each other and then if we all agree we can meet up. You should text him. “ My head is spinning. What do I say? What if he doesn’t like me? I don’t know how to talk to other men. Fuck it’s been years since I have been with someone else. I send the first text ...

“Hey it’s TPB’s wife, how are you?” Fuck I sound lame.

He texts me back. “Hey good, you?”

Holy fuck ok I can do this ... umm what do I say? I don’t t even know him .... ok um “good so I guess we are supposed to get to know each other haha” ....

“yeah I guess so...”

ok this isn’t going well. I start to get nervous, I already want to back out. I turn to TPB, “I don’t think I can do this. I have no clue what I am doing, wtf do I say to him?”

“Just be yourself, you get so worried about what people think about you. You are such a fun person, and you’re attractive I know he will like you, just talk to him like you would talk to me. Or send him a dirty photo... just don’t over think it.”

.... a dirty photo ? I haven’t sent a dirty photo in ages ... I am starting to panic. I feel sick. I text back “so tell me about yourself” Z gives me a plain description about himself. He is in the military, no kids, likes guns and cars ....and sends me a photo. He is cute. Tall, a little skinny, he is younger than me. He is 22 I am 28. I am so nervous to send a photo back, I am a bigger bodied woman. I know not everyone likes bigger women. But I quickly put on some make up, push my boobs up in my bra and snap a quick photo back to him. I am waiting for a reply .... I don’t hear from him ...... I keep waiting and nothing..... alright he isn’t into me I knew this would happen. At least I tried. So much for that.

I wake up the next morning and see I have a text from Z “😍 😍 sorry I fell asleep, you are Gorgeous.”

I feel invigorated. I am tingling. What am I doing? A common theme in my life. We keep texting all day, talking about random things. I think he is nervous too, he hasn’t even broached the topic of sex at all. I finally get brazen... “what turns you on?” He texts me back and starts telling me his likes and dislikes, nothing out of the ordinary. He asks me the same question. I return with vanilla answers about muscular arms and doggie style sex. I decide it’s time to attempt a nude photo. After many position changes, room changes, angles, hair up, hair down and about 100 photos later I settle on one. All of this is is causing a sensation to build in my thighs. Am I really sending a nude photo to some guy I don’t know? I can’t wait for his reply. It’s been years since I have felt this way. He texts back “you are so sexy, I can’t wait to fuck you.” I run to TPB and tell him everything. I feel like I am doing something wrong, but it feels so right. I feel guilty. I tell him that I sent a nude photo, and that Z thinks I am sexy. “ you are getting excited aren’t you?” Yes, yes I am, but I mask some of my excitement because I don’t want to upset TPB. We used to have many run ins with jealousy. Especially over men. Or maybe just one man in particular. It’s been years since he has been in the picture. But it still makes me nervous to show my feelings. So I decide to not tell him everything. TPB kisses me. I don’t waste any time and push my hand down his pants and start stroking him. We head to the bedroom. He is close behind me and I don’t even get all my clothes off before he is inside of me. I push my ass into him. I match his rhythm and start tilting my hips so I can get him deeper. I grab my vibrator and push it against my clit. I haven’t wanted to fuck this badly in so long. I Push against him harder. His hard cock is tantalizing. Yes, fuck I am already going to cum. I rock against him. Harder. Harder. Harder. My lips start to contract around him. He cums with me. I catch my breath and tell him I think we should all meet. I am ready. He texts K and they start to plan out how and what will happen...

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Here’s the deal-I (17M) took this one chick who I’ve always found cute and known for a while (17F) out for a casual first date. Before this we were acquaintances, we sat across from each other in physics, and once quarantine started we talked once a week or so. Read how the date went for more context about how I should approach her now.We got burritos at this lowkey Mexican place I love and at one point she was joking about that she got a letter from the national guard but can’t do a pushup. Dinner went fine but after that is when it gets awkward. I think it’s worth noting that I have aspergers and I‘m not so suave with 1 on 1 interactions. Before writing any of this off as pity, also note that my aspergers is mild enough to where people usually perceive me as normal, just a bit idiosyncratic. Also note this girl has always been reserved and it’s relatively hard to tell what she’s feeling or what to say at times.There’s a sports complex with a turf stadium by the Mexican restaurant, so I took her there and said that we’re gonna get her first pushup on the 50 yard line. I know if this was someone I’ve met just recently this would have been a dicey move, but since I know we share the same sarcastic and ironic sense of humor I figured it was ok. There’s always people using the turf stadium so I took her to a soccer pitch next to it, the sun was setting, and it was a pretty scene. There was a kickball sitting on the grass on the way to the pitch, and I started playing soccer with it, and we were kicking it back and forth on the way to the pitch.Awkward moment #1: A Karen starts shouting us down and we realized that was her and her kids ball. I kick it back to her and my date starts walking away bc the situation was so awkward. I catch up with her and she starts mentioning how embarrassing that was and I had to play it off like “it’s over and done with, we’re never gonna see her again, we didn’t know it was hers,” and shit like that.We go to midfield on the pitch and we try to get her first pushup, have a laugh about it, and she starts challenging me to some moves like cartwheels, and since I used to wrestle and we had to do shit like that, I actually was able to pull them off.Awkward moment #2: were sitting at midfield watching the sunset, I start showcasing my interest, amp up the physical touch a bit, and she’s initially receptive- but I’m craning my neck in the position we’re in, pull away, and she goes a bit cold, and I’m borderline shitting my pants at this point wondering if I fucked up.It gets to be twilight, we’re laying down watching the stars slowly come out, we start having a deep convo about the meaning of life and shit, which is a huge green flag in my book- I love it when a girl can talk about deep and heavy topics and have intelligent opinions on them. I go into hold her hand, she was cold at first but warmed up to it.Awkward moment #3: she starts complaining about mosquitoes eating her alive, and honestly, she was right- I was getting bit up too. She suggests we “outrun them” which was totally a hint that she wants to dip out of here. We dip and she’s walking a bit farther away from me than she was at any point. I damn near thought it was over.Once we get back to my car, I suggest we go get ice cream. This, imo, saved the date and brought it up from failure to a coin toss. We get ice cream to go, and we dip and park my car across the street. Here we get some more good convo in and at one point I ramp up the flirting, and it ends up in us kissing for a bit, but didn’t end up in us making out. This happened twice. I get it’s the first date and she’s kinda reserved, but I’m not exactly sure what to make of it. It wasn’t awkward either- she was playing with my hair and was receptive to physical touch. I take her home after about an hour and I got a goodnight kiss that she actually initiated.It’s been a solid day after the date. I’ve read online text her the next day, other sources say wait 2-3 days. She hasn’t hit me up at all, but since she’s naturally reserved, I figure I need to take a bit more initiative. I know you don’t want to look too available either because that’s clingy and unattractive. Is it literally as simple as being like “I had a good time, when are you free again?” Do I wait for her to hit me up? Do I start a bit of small talk and then weave it in after a couple snaps? Based on how the date went, do I even follow up at all? via /r/dating_advice

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hellotvv · 7 years

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5 Days

Damn, been hanging out with her 5 days straight.

Friday - woke up early at like 9 am to head over to her place, then we got ready to head to SF. Got to SF around 2 PM, tried boba guys for first time. I thought it was whatever lol. Idk the boba is chewy and good, but I think places like 7 Leaves/Almond Haus/other SoCal boba places are prob better. Afterwards, we watched The Flash together at her place and I got to put my arm around her during it haha. She played the piano for fun, since she hasn’t played in a while. Then, I think we got dinner at some place called Night Market, which is like chinese streetfood. They had a projector that shows kinda like streetfood stands and the streets idk. The food was pretty good actually~ Got a pork bun, skewers, and some chicken :) Then at night, we went to Armnhmr together. She brought along a friend named Jose, and he was pretty chill. We drank and pregamed in the car (she drove), and then went inside around 10ish. We danced for a bit, then went to the bar to order some drinks which were stupidly expensive... Like I’ve been to night clubs before with bars, but damn this one was insanely expensive. Michelle met some of her friends at the event too, while we were getting drinks. Then we went back inside and Lione was playing. He was pretty good actually! Was grinding on Michelle during the dance haha. There’s some other tiny details that went on during the event, but it’s whatever like weird white dude that got us free water. After the event, when we got back to Michelle’s car her back window broke :( it got broken into by some random person. At first, we didn’t think anything was stolen. It was kinda surprising tho, since I had my external battery there, her friend has some expensive vape, and etc. But nothing was taken?? We called the police and tried to file a report, but apparently they can’t do anything unless we have a suspect lol... In a bit, it turns out Jose’s backpack got stolen, but thankfully there wasn’t any money or anything in it. We called the police again, telling them something was stolen, and they said they might send someone. After waiting over an hour and a half in the cold, they never came. So Jose was like forget about it, let’s just go. So we ended up leaving and going back to Michelle’s place. I felt sooo fking bad for both Jose and Michelle... Like damn :( idk I hate it when bad things happen to ppl that I know. Afterwards, I uhh did not think it would be a good idea to ask if I could sleep in her bed with her LOL...

Saturday - was a much better day! It was fun. Uhh woke up, etc etc. Michelle got her uncle to pick up her car. I think we went to the bank, so she could get money for the window to get fixed. Then we met up with her friend Chelsea? If I remember her name correctly. She was really nice. We shot for fun at some place with pretty stairs and a nice view. I didn’t get very good shots tho imo, since it was too sunny when I wanted it to not be sunny, but too dark (blue hour) by the time we got down :( oh well... Stopped by target afterwards so Michelle could buy like snacks to bring back to SB, got boba, and then dropped Chelsea off. Then we got dinner at some hot pot place I think called Tasty pot or idr completely. They have a location in San Diego, I know that. Not sure if in LA or SoCal tho. She said it’s better than boiling point, but I think I like boiling point a bit more haha. Afterwards, we kinda chilled at her place. We watched American Horror stories, I kinda put my arm around her and etc during it. I think we watched during the day actually and she played the guitar a bit, while we sang some old throwback songs. Uhh, but yeah, I remember looking through each other tumblrs a bit for fun to see what we reblogged at the start of tumblr days. Thankfully, she didn’t look too much at my tumblr, otherwise she’d see sad boi or too lovey dovey posts at certain points in time lolol. Idk, not trying to seem soft here. But yeah, at night just went to sleep, she was up late tho cleaning and packing stuff.

Sunday - hmhm, we went to get breakfast at some yummy breakfast place. It’s like a crepe place, but they have other stuff and savory crepes. The area was really nice actually and had a bunch of good food places that I’d love to try :O We also took pictures around for fun. Then it was time to head back to her place, she packed up, and then we picked up 2 ride share ppl to go back to SB. One was cool, she apparently knew my friend Jessica! She also listens to a shit ton of hip hop and likes Logic like me. So I had a nice convo with her. Then afterwards, it got kinda silent, and I just talked to Michelle. Went on some uhh certain topics like making out and etc. We picked up Chloe somewhat towards the end of the ride, since we were passing by SLO and she was there! Did some Escape planning as well. Not too sure as of rn, if we’re 100% going together. But if we do the plan would be to go to escape together, she can stay at my place, pumpkin patch + oc adventure together, and I’d show her a bunch of cool food places that she’s never tried. After dropping me off, she sent me a text wondering if I had fun at SF and sorry that she couldn’t show me around more, since she was too stressed from her window being smashed. Then she asked to watch The Flash together on like Friday or something, but I’m unfortunately busy Friday :(( going home for weekend.

Monday - somewhat fun day. Bryan bailed on our dinner plans. So I invited Michelle to the dinner plans with Brent, Henry, Kristy, Jessica, and me at Lama Dog. It was fun, she met my friends Brent and Henry for the first time. She thinks they’re funny. I like to hype up my friends to each other before they meet, so I told Brent about Michelle before he met her, so he think she’s cool. Then they kinda got along when they did talk haha. We all got drinks at Lama Dog, except Michelle since she had to study later. But I shared with her some of my drink, which was kinda ehhh. Food was good tho~ Pork belly quesadilla was bomb!! Afterwards, we planned to play drinking games at my place, but had to drop off Michelle. After we got to my place, I snapped the drinks and etc, she’s liike tfti. I’m like lmao we invited u, come through. Then she ended up driving to my apartment and actually coming through + playing the drinking game while kinda studying haha. It was fun, the uh drinking card game let us know more about each other, she got to know more about my friends from it, and yee. There were a couple cards that kinda got some flirting going on. I put my arm around her and she was chill with it. She gave me the most likely to have sex in public card lol... I couldn’t deny that I have done so, and she was a curious girl on wheree and etc haha. Also I changed my name on her contacts to add a heart, and she changed her contacts to add emojis too to make it fair. I offered to drive her the next day, since she brought a diff car to SB and it doesn’t have her parking permit. So I ended up waking up early in the morning just for her, to pick her up, and drop her off at school/walk her to class. I mean, I had class at the same time, but I had to wake up extra early to quickly shower to not look super bad + change + pick her up and etc haha. But yeah, that was Tuesday morning. Afterwards, I don’t think anything else happened.

Wednesday - she canceled on our plans on Thursday rip, prob from frat stuff. Unfortunately, won’t be able to hang out with her for the rest of the week, since I’m going home. I wonder if she’ll miss me ;o Regardless, I’m gonna have a great time going home. Gonna go to an EP launch event in LA on Friday with Jenn, gonna drink with her too! Then gonna go to a photography event on Saturday that’ll have my ex-Kristy, Jenn + Cat, this photographer friend from SD, and maybe I’ll make new friends too at the meetup! I don’t think I’ll get very good pics from the meetup tho, since the location is too green lol... I hate green in photos. Then after the meetup, my cousin Khoa is turning 21. So I’ll be at his birthday party and hopefully it’ll be littyyy. :] Then on Sunday, maybe I’ll be able to hang out with my friend Erika. But fk, I have to get back to SB at a reasonable time, since I have a midterm for my math class on Monday lol... Anyways, those are my current weekend plans

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scorpioslut-blog1 · 7 years

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Colonizing the Colonizer

Now’s a real exciting time to be alive. I had too much leisure time last week, following a grotesque week of three midterms, a paper, and a presentation, so naturally I partied for four consecutive days. Wednesday was a Jewish blur spent at AEPI (Jewish frat), made out with MANY MANY people (all either girl kisses or gay boy kisses), and at the end (pretty blacked) I felt the need to make out with an actual straight male so I pointed at the closest male and asked “Are you straight?” Upon affirmation I proceeded to make contact, so I guess 1/5 straight male ain’t too bad for the night. Anyway, next night--ended up at DKE for the first time with Leah, Briana, and Rocky, and after a long night of mocking the aggressively white population that surrounded us, drinking progressively more and more heavily, we eventually went outside (me for a smoke, everyone else to leave and send it to Fiji--eyeroll) but apparently had lost Leah. So we all went upstairs to find the bitch, and before you know it, we’re up in some room (after a lot of mixed and straight Vitali drinks and shots) socializing. I started talking to some guy I met in the bathroom with Rocky while Briana was finessed by some other dude, and apparently the dude I was talking to was in Berkeley Republicans (according to Rocky--I have no recollection of this statement). What I DID retain was him saying he was fine with gay people but didn’t like the ones that “make it their entire identity”, and DEFINITELY something creepy about Trump. He didn’t vote last November, but still complicit. And god--I really hope he isn’t a real Republican. Anyway, he’s a brother at DKE, and eventually, Rocky went downstairs to wait--actually that’s not true in retrospect--I ditched him to go upstairs with the Republican (his name was Ethan). And before you know it, we’re in his room hooking up while Blonde plays in the background. But apparently a lot happened in between. As for Rocky, he was kicked out by brothers whilst taking a bong rip, which he was very bitter about (he drunkenly texted me “I am the burdened queer man of color” HAHAHHA). That’s an entire ordeal on its own. As for me, we had originally left to find the roof of DKE. Well, not find it, since he knew where it was, but anyway, we went up there and split a stoke (cigarette, in laymen’s terms), flirting and possibly making out (ok, probably making out). Next thing I know, we’re in his room, door locked, dim neon lights on cuz it’s a party, hooking up while Frank Ocean’s most recent masterpiece plays in the background, specifically Nikes. Minus the whole Republican thing, it was a really nice and pleasant experience. I was REALLY horny, just the right level of drunk, and literally in his bed half naked ready to get some dick. And then he says he doesn’t fuck girls the first time he meets them??? Bitch what??? He said a few weird things that night so maybe he’s just weird. Like he kept compulsively lying about his age and increasing it. Because from what I gather he’s a 21 year old transfer student/senior now, but he kept raising the age even tho this fact had already been established. Like, “actually I’m 24... 27.... 34...” WHAT THE FUCK? Like he’s definitely still in college he’s a fucking brother there. Shit was weird. Anyway, he’s saying how he wants to see me again blah blah, between intense making out since we literally just kept making out nonstop whilst he did other stuff to my body, and I got the Snap and digits and all that good stuff. Eventually, we get up and leave the room since I’m like, ok, time to go home. He then goes to the bathroom and I figure he was just looking for an excuse to run out on me so I go to the door, and when I look back, he’s there with me. He actually walks me out, waits with me for the Uber, and we were literally still making out as my Uber arrived. He was a REALLY good kisser. Anyway, all of that really doesn’t add up because the next day (we had agreed to link up on Game Day at whatever frat we ended up at) he was at the same frat as me but I was too sober to go finesse, and by the time I was drunk enough, he said he was back at DKE. So he either had another girl home and left early (but that doesn’t make any sense?) or passed out/called it a day. I don’t know. And I haven’t talked to him since. But why would he go through all that effort and be a nice guy just to blow me off? Like literally all I want is to drunk fuck him. IT’S NOT THAT DEEP?

Anyway, that was most of my shenanigans, with more random fratnanigans for the rest of Friday, and Saturday was spent quite nicely (mostly). We got Ship’s tapestry and spent the day sitting in the grass at CKC with Rocky (who had graciously forgiven me for Thursday’s headassery), Rocky’s friend visiting from Davis, Ship, Mich, and Leah. It was just nice and chill. That night though, we went out with EVERYONE (whole Bool jawn squad), and I just was not feelin it at all. I was just on my sad boiz shit, emo as hell, in the empty smoker’s corner of every party. I was sick of everything, and honestly not drunk enough. So that night sucked. And Ship kept making out with me then I had to walk her home then I had to come back and mom everyone else’s asses. Sunday, at least, was a quite amazing and fun day. We all went to Dolores Park in San Francisco (except Ship who was hungover as fuck) and besides a certain someone being an annoying nuisance, it was one of the best days yet. It was beautiful outside, Dolores was beautiful, I was with amazing friends, we were high, listening to great music, taking pics and vids, vibing. Really amazing time. I won’t even go over the little annoyances.

Anyway, I’ve been talking to this dude on Tinder who’s this total Mac Demarco LA sk8er boi--like, hardcore skater boi--AND he’s Hispanic. It’s really a vibe, especially to get away from the horrors of the Republican DKE Brother Incident, and he seemed really dope till he said he’s pledging Pi Lam. Like he would be PERFECT except for that smh. He’s HARDCORE skater boi, too. Great cute lil skater boi insta, and ANOTHER insta dedicated to him and the squads’ skater boi vids. Great music taste, great look, and his avi is Che Guevara so also woke. Ugh, WHY must he be a Pi Lam pledge?!? And it gets worse--there’s this guy in Pi Lam named Joseph who I met during welcome week (he just sort of introduced himself and said he recognized me from some group message--I had no idea who he was but I played along since he’s sorta cute). Anyway, really sweet guy, hella tall, at least half black, Malcolm X glasses, a vibe in general, but not a fuckboi so I only hit him up of course when I’m drunk, late at night. So I did that Saturday night at like 3 am after a badddd night, pretty sober but just bored and wanting to hang out. I didn’t expect a reply but I was like fuck it it’s worth a shot. And the next day he replies saying he would’ve if he were awake, and then I explained that while that seemed like a drunken booty call it wasn’t, and he replied saying he woulda been down either way. Great guy that I keep in my back pocket. ANYWAY, he’s the fucking PLEDGE BROTHER of Daddy Che Skater Boi. Soooo... the plot thickens. I wanna finesse Chris (skater boi’s real name), but despite the fact that I linked him on Insta and he’s been liking the pix of this weekend’s bullshit, he hasn’t moved our pretty successful convo outta the Tinder messages to more appropriate spaces like Snapchat and iMessage. Will keep you updated.

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Boyfriend #3: D.R. #2 Mature Love

Not even sure where to start. His name was Darryl. When I started talking to him I was at a very tender stage in my life. I didn’t believe in love, relationships, and my motto was “niggas ain’t shit”( they aint tho). I’ve known Darryl through the same church circle. Years ago he was talking to a friend of mine. I didn’t have any attraction to him before. Matter fact I wasn’t interested in dating chocolate brothers, he changed that.

It all started with my fresh ass leaving a comment under one of his ig pic. After Raph I was just tryna connect with someone to have a good summer. Have some margaritas, go out on dates, and just enjoy the summer. Boy did I get more than I bargained for! After I left a comment under his pic asking when were we having margaritas he responded with “ are you serious" in my fb inbox and I gave him my number.

Our first convo lasted over 2 hours. That was the first time I had talked to a guy for that length of time in over 3 years. I didn’t even know people talked so long on the phone anymore. We both enjoyed the convo and that’s where it all begin. Unbeknownst to me I didn’t know he had a girlfriend. That’s where I fucked up! Mind you the girl was on his ig and I never thought to look(dumb move). However, few weeks went by and the convo was getting sweeter by the minute. I’m not sure how it came about but I asked if he was in a relationship he said he has been casually dating someone for 2 years. That should have been a red flag but I brushed it off. We spoke everyday for 30days before we finally had brunch. He’s the reason why I love brunch.

Our first meeting was something that I've never experienced before. We just connected on a level that only people who have known eachother for years would connect. For me it was magical. It had been over 3 years since I actually felt connected with someone and it wasn’t sexual. I set him up(I got some tricks). After brunch we walked to Prospect Park and sat on a bench and talked for hours. He layed on my lap. I played with his beard or lack there of. We ended the day and got on the train since we lived two stops away from eachother. I had a great time and I knew he did too. When we parted he didn’t even hug me( I should have taken notes). I knew that he would hurt me. He had the power. I was vulnerable. I was powerless. I was caught. I texted him and I told him that I couldn’t talk to him anymore( I was in my feelings ). I knew what would happen plus he had a girlfriend. I didn’t want to be a sidechick for the 3rd time. I ran for the hills but he caught me. He didn’t let me run. I never stopped talking to him.

That summer(2013) was magical for me. One of the best summers I’d ever had. It was like something out of a movie. We spent every minute on the phone. We spent days in the park. My days were filled with him. All this time he was still in a relationship. I was his sidechick. I didn’t want to be but I rather that than nothing at all. I know that’s sad but that’s how I felt. He was everything I wanted. He was perfect for me but it was wrong and karma would remind me of that later. I never connected with anyone like how I connected with him. I believe it was spiritual. Like my being knew him before I knew him. I loved him before it manifested in me. We both were vulnerable that summer.

He finally broke up with his girlfriend and I became his girlfriend in Oct 2013. I was elated. I felt I had a partner that fit me perfectly in all areas of my life. Also, he knew my body better than anyone ever! I had married myself to this man in my head already. I was gonna have his kids and we were gonna live happily ever after but karma was like nope!

He cheated on me more times than I could probably count. He cheated on me worst than David. Although, he broke up with the girl he never stop talking to her, seeing her, or fucking her. I found out and still stayed. I guess you can say I’m a resilient lover. We battled it out and tried to put the pieces of trust back together, but our relationship was damaged. My bestfriend had betrayed me. It was all downhill from there. He never stopped talking to her and I got tired of fighting for him.

We broke up on 3.7.2017. I know it’s very recent. It’s still fresh and I still feel hurt. The relationship was becoming toxic and I hated going through his phone, questioning him, or assuming he was cheating on me. We were both tired and called it quits. Funny thing is he still talks to her even till this day! So basically I was fighting a losing battle.

After we broke up just like the others I felt like he didn’t give a fuck. Once again I asked myself how could someone who said they love you not want to work things out? How could they lack remorse? How could they act like you never existed? How?! This is a running theme in my break ups. Somehow I is always left broken than the guys. Still calling, texting, and tryna see them but they could care less about me.

Darryl helped mature my idea of love. Now I know what I want from a partner. I learned that love is not all you need. I learned that loving someone isn’t easy. Love is hard. Love comes with challenges and will test you. Only the strongest will survive. He restored my faith in love. He was magical and so was that summer.

This break up hasn’t been easy emotionally. I’m mad at myself. I should have known better than to fall for someone who was in a relationship, but as they say the heart wants what the heart wants. I needed that summer. I needed him at that time. Next time I’ll be logical. Darryl was the closes thing I had to a forever love, but forever has come to an end.

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