#good memories never die

[noname-404s-blog]

#memories #good memories #good memories never die #happy memories #sad memories #brokenheart #my soul was broken #heartbroken #heartbreak #tw depressing stuff #depressing shit #depressing quotes #and heartbreak image #sadcore #depressing life #sad thoughts #im crying #sad quotes #same sadness different day #sadness #sad life #sad stories #i'm sad #sad #sadnnes #sadnecessary #sadcholy #you broke my fucking heart #you broke my trust #how i feel

[xx-sketchy-xx]

him

I need more Fanart of him (btw I just wanted to draw cursed dally lol)

Also he slays as a girl lol

#wakfu dally #Percedal of Sadlygrove #Dally wakfu #wakfu #wakfu fanart #ankama #Iop #wakfu iop #I swear if his powers are gone for good #Idk if I’ll be happy or not #And it’d be weird if his child suddenly was the new god #Cause then like.. they’d have the same memories #Also I’ve always wanted Goultards curse to be permanently taken away #But would if it was like a pass it on thing #Haha funny #ANOTHER THING #Im also incredible angry how quickly Dally grew old in the time circle #It was ridiculously fast and I choose to ignore it #The boi will never die.. or he would have two times ago #I did appreciate and approve of his fear though #He truly loves and fears for all his children and family #He had a bigger character development then Sokka (TLA) #Bro I can’t #I’m not simping him #I simply love his relationships and personality #It’s a rare connection with a character (for me)

[vigilskeep]

i need to wynnepost. somebody has to

#its crazy how people will assume she is all the tropes she subverts and then ignore her #also how sympathy for circle mages’ indoctrination only lasts until they get old i guess and then fuck them #because its not as if they were ever a terrified child who’d never had anything better than a single templar’s mildest kindness and any kind #of home even if it was the tower #so an orphan kid who had no memory of anything but scurrying between farmsteads and hiding in barns #didnt want to leave. what a shock. you guys dont get the place comfort has in keeping circle mages complicit #so it’s violent and terrible and you never have privacy and your children get murdered and you’re always watched and hated #its also a warm bed and community and a chance to succeed #do you honestly think every kid from fucking THEDAS knows theres anything better out there #that doesnt make the circle good. it makes it horrific that they prey on vulnerable kids to teach them the world hates them #and only the circle is ‘safe’ #i just think there should be some sympathy for those kids and what they grow up into #its easy for the player to walk in and say their character would hate the circle and never have listened to the templars #its easy for say an amell or even a surana with a family back home to not fear what they left behind #wynne genuinely thinks without the circle mages would all be murdered and she’ll fight and die protecting her fellow mages #from the right of annulment #yes its a flaw that she goes on to teach others the circle must be tolerated and that is precisely how the circle is perpetuated ove #over generations #but its amazing to me to just act like its her fault #well. this is more tags than i expected it to be

[sharkdays]

"That despite having experienced inhuman suffering, she has nonetheless been able to gain the strength to face life."

#collei #genshin impact #gi #erm. hi #something not pokemon related for once? shocker i know #anywas this was a collei piece i did a while ago that i never finished #been having Emotions abt her recently and i wanted to share even if it's a little messy... #anyways. she makes me insane. #also yes the flowers have meanings it was Intentional. however my drawing skills for nature and memory are both not all there so. #take it as you will #anyways collei i love you girl... #shes a physical manifestation of death and rebirth she's resurrection do YOU SEE MY VISION #also i miss you short haired collei but her hairstyle rn is cute too... #my collei design in my head has changed so much lmao. i tried making her a little more matching to how she is in my head now #thinking abt her growth and learning as a form of defiance. reclaiming her life.... #she refused to die!!!!! and now she's hurting but alive!!! im gonna pass out dont look at me. #i am not nearly as good as putting my thoughts into words as some other collei enthusiasts so Just Trust Me #shark's scribbles

[last-flight-of-fancy]

made myself emotional thinking about how smart sora actually is and how little credit he gets for it just because he struggles with stuff like math

#ITS RELATABLE OK #you can't math and everyone immidietly goes 'lol ur dumb' #'haha he counts on his fingers' yeah so do i. you gonna call me dumb too? #because i've heard it before and you're wrong. i'm unlearning that shit and i'm not dumb. i'm smart as hell actually #thirty years of thinking i was stupid i think i've earned the right to say 'nah yknow what. they were wrong. i'm not.' #the prioritizing of mathematical smarts over every other kind drives me nuts tbh #artistic intelligence? emotional intelligence? kinetic learners? there's so much more than just math #sora is SO GOOD at a lot of things!! #he's incredibly intuitive and emotionally intelligent #and he is probably a legit genius in terms of like... learning things on the fly #never gonna get over him learning lingering wills moves after fighting him (presumably) once #he learns to fly the gummiship- and probably would have done fine that first time if donald hadn't taken offence #(it also should be noted that i don't think sora's ever *wrong* in his numbers*. it just takes him a while to get there) #(* except six hearts but uh. there's probably more going on there. like memory loss. again) #stop talking to yourself flight #kingdom hearts #'he can't keep up with the plot' bitch WE as the audience can barely keep up with the plot and we have the benifit of seeing all of it #do remember that sora is running on about a third of the information we have at any given time #anyway sora isn't dumb he just has adhd and that's the hill i'm gonna die on

[angellurgy]

:]

#AAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCKFUCKFUCK #CONDTANT UNENDING SILENT SCREAMING #NO WORDS BUT FORCED TO UNDERSTAND STILL UNESCAPABLE I CANT I CANT I CANT #ill never be anything ill never be anything ill never be anything at all to any of you #too fucking tired to go out of the house for so long no way to stop being tired its all wearing down on me like a fucking curse. too much #CANT CANT CANT take 10 more days of this waiting itll just go back to normal after #TRIED TO LIVE BUT WHAT IS THE POINT WHAT IS THERE EVEN FOR ME NO LOVE NO CARE NO IMPORTANCE NO PLACE #FADING MEMORY REMNANTS OF MY SOUL DRIPPING OUT OF MY HEAD LIKE A GUTTER. NO ONE WILL REMEMBER. EVEN I CANT. #AAAAAAAAAAA rotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrot wish i just had a fucking dad to hold me wish i had a brother to show me the loving care noone will #please. llease. please. nothing left nothing left everyone wants me less with every single post but icant stop #cooped up inside. tumblrs knly good when you have a life outside of it. i cant fight it tho bc of this fucking EXHAUSTION #caused by the emotional pain and exclusion. eternal loop. let me.out #NOT LIKE IT MATTERS TO ANYONE BUT THE FEW WHO CANT HELP. THE FEW WHO CANT MAKE MY SITUATION BETTER. I JUST WANT A GROUP. #I KNOW COMMUNITY ISNT REAL BUT I FUCKING WANT SOMETHING. PLEASE #LET ME OUT. GIVE ME LIFE. INSTEAD OF THIS CONSTANT FUCKING VOID GROWING BLACK MOLD ON THE CREVICES OF MY SKULL #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa nothing is giving me life right now i want sometbing i cant create anything i dont wanna die but i have no choice #FIGHT THROUGH THE TIREDNESS WALK INTO THE FOREST IN THE NIGHT AND ROT. #SLIT MY WRISTS EVEN THOUGH IT WONT DO SHIT. LAY ON A BLANKET AND LET THE COLD TAKE ME #WOULDNT BE THE FIRST TIME IVE BEEN CLOSE TO IT. LEAST I CAN GO ALL THE WAY. GOD WHY DO I TRY. I WANT TO TRY. I HAVE NOTHING TO TRY FOR. #NO OTHER CHOICE.

[fuzzydreamin]

Companions (likely/rough) Ages

As of the start of the game, in 2287. From oldest to youngest.

⚙ Codsworth: ~212 ⚕ Curie: 210 (canon) ♥ Nick: ~100 (canon) ☸ Longfellow: 60's 🕶 Deacon: Late 40's ♞ Danse: Late 30's ☠ Gage: Mid to late 30's ☣ Hancock: Early to mid 30's ☀ Preston: Late 20's ☘ Cait: 27 (canon) ✉ Piper: Early to mid 20's ⨁ MacCready: 22 (canon) ☾ X6-88: ~10-15 ⌨ Ada: ~5-10 ☢ Strong: ~5-10 𓃡 Dogmeat: Immeasurable eldritch being. Unaging and undying creature of the beyond.

These are my estimations based on their own dialogue, things others might've said about them, and various bits of lore linked to their lives.

#fallout #fallout 4 #fallout 4 companions #I'm not counting human Nicks lifespan with Nicks - Danse is the only one who gets false memory age added to his number #bcuz thats easier than making up a number for how long he was with the Institute before he got out (no info/lore to trace there) #otherwise its just based on actual time theyve all existed (some guesses are just based on how they talk and act) #Dogmeats is just fun and because good boys dont die never #fuzzy.post

[dontforgetoctober3rd]

Itachi Uchiha’s relationship with Sasuke was not that of a normal, caring older brother but straight up parentification. It’s obvious Mikoto and Fugaku *constantly* left baby Sasuke in his care leading up to the nine tales attack, as evidenced by Itachi’s ability to get 3 (4?) month old Sasuke to stop crying and Itachi wearing a sling to carry Sasuke (you only do that if you would carry a baby for long periods of time). In this essay, I will

#itachi uchiha #Sasuke uchiha #uchiha clan #naruto #is this me projecting my own trauma onto one of my blorbos? #yes 100% #but Itachi WAS parentified! I will DIE on this fucking hill #like hello why do you think Sasuke was so heartbroken #his primary caregiver seemingly betrayed him and said he never cared #imagine your MOM or DAD saying that to you #also how many montages of Sasukebeing sad over good memories of itachi did we get #versus how many with his *actual* mom and dad #like can you name me ONE good memory Sasuke has with Fugaku #and no the fireball jutsu moment doesn’t count #now name some memories with Mikoto #yep #like even when they are older at 11 and 7 Itachi is STILL being charged with his care #he is cooking him up a meal and it comes out great meaning he does this a lot #hell even in the tsukuyomi OVA special Itachi cooks for him! he’s still being a goddamn mom in an ILLUSION for Pete’s sake #none of that microwave chicken nugget type crap either but actual meals that require a good deal of prep time #so I think you can understand that I am not pulling this parentified theory out of my ass #when Itachi fades away he isn’t saying goodbye to his little brother #he’s saying goodbye to his baby 😭💔💔💔💔💔💔

[a-world-in-grey]

Life Debts and why Nyx's is a Big Deal

@secret-engima because I've been thinking on this and have Feelings.

Y'all can find SE's original post on Debt Braids here, but a short recap:

Debt is taken very seriously in Galahd. If you owe a debt, it's expected that you pay it off as soon as you can - via goods, services, etc. Very large debts between families can be settled through marriage, but as it requires both potential newly weds to be completely willing (Galahdians don't do divorce, you're married until one of you die), that sort of arrangement is rare.

A Life Debt is declared when a Galahdian believes they owe a debt they cannot repay, usually because the debt is so large, so personal, that a value of the debt cannot be given. In such a scenario, the Galahdian will declare a Life Debt and weave a Debt braid into their hair. A Life Debt is declared on that Galahdian's life. Only they can pay it, and once they die, the debt is fulfilled.

Now, this is where we get to just how serious declaring a Life Debt is. A Galahdian who declares a Debt is declaring that they owe this one person so much, that said person essentially now holds their loyalty over even the Galahdian's own clan and Chief. That loyalty stays until the Galahdian dies. If the person holding the debt dies, the debt passes on to their heir. When the heir dies, the debt does not pass on to anyone else, but even then, the Galahdian is not free from the Debt. Instead, they are free to choose how they will fulfill the debt until they die.

Because Life Debts are such a serious thing, no one can demand a Life Debt as payment. It is only ever voluntary.

So now we get to Nyx's Debt to Regis.

(I won't go into why Nyx declared a Debt - canonically we know Regis once saved Nyx's life, but exact details are for everyone's personal headcanons.)

On the surface, it's not that big of a deal. Oh, it's significant. It's a major commitment Nyx can never take back, but it's not really a problem.

Three things make Nyx's declared Debt significant, even by Galahdian standards. 1) The holder of his Debt is the Mainlander King. 2) Nyx is a Clan Chief. 3) Nyx is the absolute Last of his clan. Any single one of these wouldn't be remarkable, but together they turn what would be a significant but standard Debt into a nightmare.

Regis being an Outsider would normally not be an issue. Oh, there are Galahdians that sneer in private over Nyx declaring a Debt to an Outsider, because they believe Galahdians don't owe Outsiders jack shit. (Is it xenophobic? Yes, but Galahdians have a strong insider-outsider mindset and there will always be extremists in any culture.) But they keep their opinions to themselves because commenting on someone's declared Debt is just asking for a broken nose. Even Regis being a king wouldn't be anything other than an unusual detail (because just what happened that caused Nyx to owe a king a Debt?). The biggest thing about Regis being an Outsider is that to fulfill the debt, Nyx pretty much has to leave Galahd for Insomnia until the king and his heir die or one of them gives Nyx explicit permission/orders to return to Galahd. Which sucks, but that's what Debts mean. Regis - and later Noctis - will hold Nyx's first loyalty until Nyx dies.

Nyx being a Clan Chief is where things start getting sticky. A Chief's first duty must be to their clan. Chiefs, as a rule, do not declare Life Debts. They can't, not when they're first loyalty has to be to the clan, instead of a single person outside the Clan. In the very rare cases a Chief feels they must declare a Debt, they step down from their position as Chief. At least, they should. There's no clan law stating someone with a Life Debt cannot be Clan Chief, but a Chief in such a position will either neglect their clan or their Debt. Neither is something Galahdians regard favorably. There's never been a case where a Chief has refused to step down after declaring a Debt, so none of the Clans have ever had to decide what to do, but it's likely it would not end well.

Nyx being the very Last of his clan means that there aren't any other Ulrics he has a duty of care to as Chief. He is the only one affected by his declaration of Debt, so him remaining Chief Ulric isn't actually a problem. Where him being the Last becomes the final nail in the coffin is if anyone ever joins Clan Ulric. Because unless the Clans somehow find an Ulric that escaped the Burning, Nyx can't step down as Chief.

Nyx's first commitment must be to Regis. Then to Noctis. Not to his people. Not to his friends or any personal relationships. Not to rebuilding Clan Ulric. Any spouse/children/clansmen would always come second unless Regis/Noctis allowed it.

(Do I think Regis and Noctis would allow it, if Nyx asked? Yes. In a heartbeat. But Nyx would have to ask. Might even have to explain, and as a whole, Galahdians tend to be... reluctant, to explain their culture to Outsiders.)

I don't think Nyx really thought about the long term consequences of his Debt, when he made it. He might have, and could have decided that the situation was such that he was honor-bound to declare a Debt regardless. But Nyx has a reputation for not really thinking before he leaps into action, and depending on when Nyx declared his Debt? If it was after the Burning, after Nyx lost literally everyone, he probably wouldn't have been thinking clearly even if he had taken the time to think the decision over. And that's assuming he would have realized the implications in the first place - if Nyx wasn't raised to be Chief, it's very probable he wouldn't have.

Every other Clan Chief would have caught the implications. They would have known, from the moment they saw Nyx's braid, that the Last Ulric would never return to Galahd (not when the likelihood of Nyx outliving a boy 12 years his junior was slim to none). That the Last Ulric would likely remain the Last, condemning the Ulric Clan to die with him.

#ffxv #worldbuilding #galahd culture #galahd #Nyx Ulric #braids #working on my various Sola aus and realizing what it means for Nyx to declare that Debt #in most aus is doesn't end up being a problem because either Regis dies and Nyx transfers the Debt to Sola as his chosen queen #or Nyx never bonds as Sola's Sword before either of them die and is never confronted with that particular crisis #but in Sunshine-verse *Selena is still alive* and *still a child* for about four years after the Burning #...oh I work with that I can *definitely* work with that #then there's the Memories-verse when Nyx finally meets Sola again after Sola's supposed death (and actually *knows* it's Sola) #and he's smacked in the face with the realization that he can't stay with Sola because Sola doesn't want to return to Insomnia #and Sola has very good reasons for not wanting to go back but Nyx *has* to go back *because he declared a Debt* #and that Debt will go to Noctis on Regis' death because Sola is still 'dead' and Sola (now going by Rhea) doesn't want to be Sola anymore #so Nyx can't tell Regis or Noctis about Rhea because they'd want Sola to come back but Rhea *can't* be Sola #can't be the daughter and sister she was before she fell down Taelpar Crag #before Taelpar Crag it could have worked - Sola's first loyalty will always be to Noctis so she would have understood and accepted #Nyx being unable to give her his first loyalty even as her Sword (which is how it works in the fusion with SE's Blood of my Blood-verse) #(and in the fusion with SE's Nox-verse though Sola does ensure that Nox is aware of Nyx's situation when the two are courting) #it's unlikely I'll ever have Regis or pre-Crystal Noctis learn that Nyx declared a Debt or what it really means

[clits-and-clips]

Someone just fkn kill me pls

#id rather die than live with these memories and never get to experience them again #why am i not good enough #why am i so shit #why cant i ever do the right thi g #why cant it be enough that im trying and i was trying #why why why why why why why ehy #i need to go to therapy but i ha e to wait 2 weeks #im scared of what ill do #i dont want to sh #to SH #tw i guess #but it hurts so fucking much #i feel a little better then im reminded of him snd yhe fact ill never be with him again #its almost harder with him in my life #idkidkidk #pls just block me if im annoying with this #i just cant vent the same shit to my parents over and over #but i need to keep getting it out of my system #i just dont understand #why im not enough #why i have to fuck up every single friendship or relationship ive ever had #why am i so angry #why am i emotional all the time #what is WRONG with me #txt

[thedoctorsaysimwrong]

closeted homosexual meets rangingly open omnisexual. dies the following day. more at ten.

#ooc #( i have not slept shhhhh ) #( will probably form more coherent thoughts on real jack's blog later but ) #( this ) #( kills me ) #( good bye ) #( jack is so djashjkdhkashfkasjf during the whole episode ) #( it's not that he's always in control of the situation ) #( but he's never so much out of it as he is in that episode ) #( he could have lost himself there ) #( from guilt. camaraderie. attraction. you name it ) #( if tosh wasn't there to bring his ass back home ) #( stealing a name isn't the same when you hold hands with the man it belongs to ) #( he tried to force more life into real jack for his last hours alive ) #( force him to make him more memories so he would die with less regret ) #( and at first he missed cause he didn't see how ragingly homo the man was ) #( then did a 180 ) #( i don't know how much was his own jack selfishness and how much was his guilt forcing him to give the man something before he died ) #( but yea ) #( why are my almost intelligent thoughts always in tags ) #( who the fuck reads that far in ) #( love u i hope you have a great day )

[sepulchritude]

I got The Thief as a birthday gift from my little brother!!! I know you really like it so I’m excited to read it

Congrats and happy belated birthday!! I hope your reading is going well :D

#this has been in my inbox for a while but luckily it’s real I Love These Books hours and tht jogged my memory #The Thief is SO good and i guarantee it only gets better #there are parts of this series (the last book in particular) that HAUNT me #‘then come out! and know you’ll never die of a fall unless the god himself drops you’ #screams #ask #typeoneninja #the queen’s thief #sepulchritudinous

[eggmeralda]

when I was 19 in 2019 I got these Vibes about 2023, it wouldn't be good or bad it would just be a Significant year

2020 was so bad that 2021 could only be better, it started good and then I got paranoid that 2022 was gonna be bad in comparison, so I mentally prepared myself for 2022 months in advance

then by the summer 2021 suddenly became worse than all of 2020 combined, but it improved by about september

bc of the mentally preparing myself months before, 2022 was amazing, but bc it started so good I got the feeling that it wouldn't end well

the last 4 months were pretty bad, and then came 2023

I got many different vibes for it over the past 4 years, but one of the main things was that there'd been a pattern going since 2015

2015: extremely good

2016: extremely bad

2017: average

2018: pretty decent

2019: extremely good

2020: extremely bad

2021: average

2022: pretty decent

so 2023 was expected to be really good? but also it had to get up from 2022's bad ending so the goodness was gradual

my brain is prepared for a good last 4 months to compare to 2022's bad last 4 months

but also following the pattern, 2024 should be extremely bad, and once I've got the thought in my head that a year will be bad, there's no going back. which would explain the extremely bad year following an extremely good year

2015 and 2019 were unreal, which meant 2016 and 2020 would've looked bad in comparison no matter what, so they just completely gave up and decided to be awful

but anyway it's 'getting paranoid about next year' season, also I can never escape the patterns of time etc etc

#in 5 days it's the 10th anniversary of the beginning of my memory and dates obsession. which is fun #oh time thoughts why must you run my life #why must you keep constant surveillance on my thoughts and if i think the wrong thing then something disastrous will happen #fun fun times 👍 #also like *19yo thoughts voice* ''something very bad will happen in 2020'' #*19yo thoughts voice* ''2023 will be a significant year'' and then me paranoidly thinking what could be That significant that i'm getting #info about it now? oh my god someone's gonna die #and then by 2023 someone died #bc i reblogged that post saying 'reblog to get good news in late march' #which meant i left the thoughts unsupervised by late march bc i thought i was protected by that post #then my friend and his toxic girlfriend had a massive fight and i was like 'oh my god they're gonna break up this must be the good news' #then they stayed together and my sister's friend died instead #as if the time patterns were reminding me never to let my thoughts relax like that again #i need to always remember every memory and make sure i don't accidentally control the future again #i know realistically i don't control the future and i didn't cause my sister's friend to die and i didn't cause the pandemic #and i know my brain is very irrational #but still #this happens way too much and idk i just don't want something really bad to happen in 2024 #hopefully it'll do a weird swapover like with 2017/18 #bc before that odd number years were good and even number years were bad starting in 2014 #or like odd number years would start bad but end good and the even number years would be the other way round #but 2017 stayed neutral throughout and then 2018 started bad ended good #then until 2021 the pattern was swapped #2021 was weird bc it started and ended good but was horrendous in the middle #no other year has ever done that #so yeah 2024 could do something weird and swap with another year idk #but i'll have to see #ramble

[orcelito]

Lately, I've been learning to not take things for granted. I've been taking videos of my cats a bit more. Got a video today of me feeding June Bug and Tally, including bits of their meows

I deeply regret not having any record of the sound of Cassy's meow. I'm trying to make up for it with my girls, though.

#speculation nation #animal death ment/ #i do have a video of me feeding Sammy. so i have at least one sample of his meow. #i just... never expected Cassy to die so young. not even 2 years old... #this summer has taught me not to take anything for granted #& that someone can go from a pillar in your life to dead in 6 weeks. #ive been awfully paranoid about everyone i care about dying. including my cats. #nothing is guaranteed. your cat can die with as little as an hour of warning. #you can see your uncle one day and then he's dead the next. #you said goodbye but you didnt know it was the last time. #and i keep thinking about whether each goodbye is my last one. every single goodbye could be the last one. #after 5 deaths in 5 years i just really do not have a good relationship with permanence. #or rather. trust in permanence. i do not trust it. because it's clear that it does not exist. #but it'd be nice if i could look at my cats without wondering which one's gonna be next. #trying to enjoy my time with them to the fullest. appreciate them while theyre here. #and not think about how id need a new memorial shelf for their ashes bc my current one is full. #.....ok maybe i am still a lil fucked up about it all. can u blame me tho. shit's been rough lmaot #negative/ #yea. this accidentally turned into a vent. whoops.

[battywitch]

Ffs

#i keep crying every time i remember green day has a new album out in January & a tour next year that has 3 stops that are a 4-6 hours drive #I've never been to a concert (I've been to one show at a bar and it was right before cage the elephant got big) #green day is one of my all time favorite bands that I've loved for more than 20 years #just finding out last month that they had a new album coming soon made me cry lmao #but then i saw tour stops and that some stops they're with one of my partner's fave bands? i hate my life #i know. first world problems or whatever. but i would very much like to die having made at least a few good and fun memories to look back on

[laptoparmageddon]

Still haven't been paid by IHSS. You know, the people I've been working for since September. Guess I'll never afford anything ever again and just die.

#Im far too tired to do any other work #I've never realized it until i looked at my time sheets but i work over 40 hours a week #not a cent has been paid to me #And its not like i can get another job in my condition.... im lucky to have one at all #even one that pays minimum wage #and yet. here i am. tired unmotivated and poor #with not even enough energy to even cook a cup noodle #let alone work on commissions #or do anything fun or productive #im so tired... #im not even living for anything #i just cant die #ive tried #im not even good at that #im not even good enough to properly monetize my work #only just barely enough but never enough to do much of anything #why did i even bother? #its not like i can do that anymore anyway. im so tired... #my memory is getting worse by he day #nothing is fun anymore #i have no life goals because my one dream is dead #none of my work is paying off #none