#It’s a rare connection with a character (for me)

[kursedmayo]

I HATEEEE it when people say Falin and Laois are EXACTLY THE SAME. NO THEY ARE NOT, WHAT.

LISTEN TO ME.

Falin is soft spoken. Shes the type to get spoken over. Her presence is faint and she's hyper conscious of other people's emotions and very much empathetic- up to the point that she would retract herself to make room for other people and generally more than self-sacrificial, her first thought is to rush into danger without considering it- unlike her brother who will at least analyze the situation first. This is why people like her so much, it's because she knows how to temper herself. She's wouldn't come off as intrusive, she doesn't dump people information about something unless they show her interest first. She's weird, but she stays out of people's business. That's Falin.

Laois is different. He doesn't mask- or at least, he rarely does, and he's a lot less aware of people's true emotions because he spent his childhood ostrasized and unable to connect with other people. This is why he's too much, he's overcompensating from everything he went through. Now that he's a bit safer from petty bullies and has some friends, he lets himself blurts things out and generally rarely considers how other people would perceive his words before he says or does things, because that's how we went through his entire life. This is why he accidently says offensive things without meaning to. From what I can tell from the Manga, he still wants to befriend people while not being able to understand them as much as monsters, so unlike Falin he's more likely to overstep people's boundaries and speaking over them while attempting to get closer- something which can bother people because they get trapped in a conversation where they don't want to be in, like Toshiro/Shuro.

(I also think this is why he was in such disbelief when Kabru said he was interested in Laois and wants to know him, because usually it's always the other way around.)

People like Falin more not just because she's a girl but because she's empathetic, calm and knows how to handle people despite being odd, so she comes off as charming. People don't like Laois because he's more hyper- especially if he likes you and is taking about his interests, PLUS he's not just odd he very obviously acts and says freaky shit, so it's easier to dislike or be annoyed with him.

Disclaimer, I don't dislike him, he's a wonderful character with relatable issues and to be honest, he kinda reminds me heavily of a friend of mine actually, but as someone who relates more to Falin I HATE the fact that the story spends so much time building up what Falin is like only for people to say that "SHES BASICALLY A CARBON COPY OF LAOIS!!!".

It kinda reeks of accidental misogynistic fandom behavior because tell me why you are unable to seperate a woman from her familial relationship and similarities with a man instead of awknowledging her as her own person even though the fucking story built up Falin's characterization over the chapters as someone who is CLEARLY different although similar to her brother.

GOD. I'M SO TIRED.

#text #kursed rambles #dungeon meshi #falin touden #laois touden #shuro dunmeshi

[elegyofthemoon]

i think the scariest thing of getting friends into stuff i like is when they connect the dots on why i like a character and they go 'oh. so you just have the same taste in character. always.'

like.....yes but dont look at me.

#avil speaks #im waiting for when my friend connects the dots but also im scared LMAO #its rare for me to get outliers i think...... #this isnt about any specific characters #but my friend did choke me the other day when he was like #'wait..... ur new guy has the same vibes as ur other fave guy' #oKAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭 SHUT UP OK 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #tuesday does this to me all the time so it scares me whenever we overlap in interests and she just Clocks me #sighsssss #anyways if you see me around within the hour hit me with a bat i need to go lay down (genuinely) #headache Bad

[the-darklings]

Hello, I love your fics and I've noticed that a lot of your stories despite being reader fics are very character driven. Not just for the og characters but for the OC themselves.

It's done so well that I wanted to ask if you have any steps for writing such enticing character driven stories or does it just come naturally?

It comes naturally, and stems from the fact that, at my core, I'm an absolute character-driven story writer and reader.

I can put up with okay writing and a mediocre plot, but you have to have good characters for me. It's a deal breaker. I always joke that my favourite thing to do when I write is simply have two characters sit and talk - that's it. If the characters are interesting and compelling, it doesn't matter if they're not doing anything "exciting" it will still be engaging to read about.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that plot, prose, and world-building are not just as important - they are! - but for me, characters are key. And that's because, for me, at least, stories are for people by people. Therefore, characters will always be the thing people remember. Think about your favourite stories for a moment - no matter what the medium is - what comes to mind first? I would bet 9/10 times it's the characters. If I say Star Wars, chances are that even if you've never seen a scrap of those films/shows etc, you still know Darth Vader. You know Luke Skywalker. You know Batman. You know the Joker. That's because we identify with people, aka the characters. They're the reason we love storytelling. The best stories in the world are so popular because they have characters that outlive or/and outshine their own canon.

I guess for that reason, it's always funny to me when I see people get snobby about people's OCs, especially canon/OC ships. And even more so, x reader fics. As if they're somehow "lesser". But take a second to remember something important: every single character you love is someone else's OC that's been given a wider audience. That's all.

#basically to anyone fearing they're being cringe or their original voice doesn't matter: don't listen. #it absolutely does. #i just love people!!! and i love characters!!! i especially love really grey and morally corrupt characters!!! #i love it when characters are messy and irrational #when they frustrate me and compel me #i like it when there's friction and overlap with people #i love it when characters make me question myself. #and i know a lot of people aren't like that #they care for plot/writing more etc. #but for me every character is a piece that can/should be utalised #think about why side characters are often so popular #it's because we want to know more. because we - as readers/viewers - project ourselves onto them #that's also why books tend to be better than movies usually. because it takes a rare talent to translate intimate thoughts onto screen #visual mediums are limiting!!! as someone who works with visual storytelling let me tell you: #prose is a gift because you can create such a bond and connection with readers. with prose you get to burrow into character's brain #with prose you are letting readers in on characters' most intimate feelings/hopes/fears/frustrations aka things WE feel and relate to #asks

[jabberwockprince]

since we're all having fun talking about theories and headcanons before the game drops. one thing that i do want for missing link, that is mostly wishful thinking on my part, is a reveal for kairi being a descendant of the player

this is based on their parallels of being shooting stars later found washed up on a beach from the new missing link trailer, plus that one moment from KH1 where kairi's grandma tells her about the age of the fairytales and nothing else lmfao

and i want that so badly because. it would be so fucking ironic and poetic to have kairi be a direct descendant of the one person that raised and cared so much for xehanort. the player, whose memories of ephemer and skuld and chirithy and everyone else influenced xehanort into starting his whole ass spiral and descent into darkness

only for her (and sora) to be the ones to get xehanort to stop in the end. ending a cycle of sorts. for her to be haunted by the memory of xehanort, the same way xehanort was "haunted" by the memory of the player's past life

PLUS. i want it to SPECIFICALLY recontextualize kairi's inheritance of the keyblade from BBS. because kairi's reason to wield a keyblade being nothing more than an "accident" feels like such a disservice to her AND aqua??

if they could recontextualize xehanort into whole new depths in dark road, i dont see why they couldn't reframe that moment as kairi reclaiming a dormant power, her own heritage that her bloodline forgot for centuries, since knowledge about keyblades and wielders began to fade out over time to the point where people who KNEW about them thought they were evil. makes sense that as the age of fairytales is left FORGOTTEN, no one can remember how to summon a keyblade, let alone the knowledge to create one from someone's heart. but having a strong heart (one of the requisites for bequeathing ceremonies) and being in direct contact with a keyblade, could just. help jog the memory a bit

and show that yeah. kairi deserves to wield a keyblade because she has a strong heart, and because this was her heritage that was taken away from her when the worlds began to drift away from each other and so on. not because of an accident

everytime chance, fate and destiny are brought up in the saga to explain why something. happened the way it did. it carries so much weight and so many events that led to That Point. but kairi's inheritance as of right now was just. yeah, an accident. no ceremony at all AND I JUST THINK SHE DESERVES RLLY COOL THINGS OKAY

#khml #DONT GET ME WRONG. THE THEORY AND HC ABOUT #RIKI BEING THE ONE COMING FROM A PRESTIGIOUS BLOODLINE OF POWERFUL WIELDERS #IS ALSO SUPER GOOD #BUT I THINK KAIRI DESERVES SMTH TOO OTHER THAN THE WRITING USING HER JUST TO ELEVATE SORA #their dynamics mean so much to me #some fucking guy named sora and his very cool anime protagonist best friends who actually think HES the coolest protagonist in the world #kairi being stubborn refusing to let go of sora. the same way the player is stubborn in refusing to let their friends die #to the point where they both can just cheat at death many times thanks to their connections with other people #since MOST ppl who came back to life in the saga. they do it by cheating time. or sheer force of will. but rarely thru. friendship and love #looks at luxu. some even refuse to die. kinda wild #YES im delusional #look at me in the fucking eyes right now #sora as a character who keeps being shattered. due to the pressure of his role. things he never asked for and keep happening to him #riki as a character who bends and breaks over and over. as punishment and rebellion. because he doesnt know where he fits in all of this #kairi as a character who keeps vanishing. who continues to have the places and people she loves taken away. and she keeps being left behind

[heraldofcrow]

I saw your ff7 vs bb meme and now I am curious

who do you like more, Bloody crow or Sephiroth? 🤣

mother of god, if that ain’t the question of the year. um.

I’ll choose the best answer and just say Eileen the Crow because she wins and most likely wouldn’t try to kill me if she was real, so there, I’m free. Yipeeee!!!

Ok fineeeee—a specific answer just for you:

Bloody Crow wins by default because Soulsborne is just my “home” fandom forever. Besides LOTR ofc. But that fandom is too big and old for me to feel like I could find a secure space, so Soulsborne it is and has been for years. I just live here, and Crow is the only Soulsborne character besides Lady Maria, Eileen, and Ciaran that I really, really went to work for in terms of developing a backstory and complicated personality for. He is more like an original character at this point for me specifically, and so very precious. My crow boi <3

Sephiroth is weird because he feels like a character I have been looking for or “knew” for years, but it doesn’t make sense lol. I grew up surrounded by friends that loved FF7 and I never got it…I guess?

In fact, I actually didn’t like it sjdhshs. I admittedly judged by appearance, but I was like, “The characters all look like these bizarre supermodel action figures with oversized weapons!!”

Meanwhile, my hypocritical ass with Soulsborne:

“It’s peak game design.”

But I really did not like Final Fantasy or FF7. I would see Sephiroth around, specifically the shot of him surrounded by flames from Advent Children, and just think, “There’s that fucking guy again” and I ignored him. I didn’t figure out until later that the reason he pissed me off so much is because I knew, I just absolutely knew, that if I gave him my attention for longer than five seconds, he would probably take over my life. Help.

I was terrified. I even remember seeing some of the Remake trailers a few years back and actually hearing some of his lines for the first time, and I kid you not, I felt the slightest pull of, “Wait…” and then IMMEDIATELY went, “Nope, fuck you” in my head and walked away 💀

My reaction to him was always incredibly visceral, so naturally, one night I was having a chill discussion with my friend ABOUT BLOODY CROW from Bloodborne and somehow we ended up making a Sephiroth comparison of course, and then it happened.

I was like, “Oh hahaha yeah Sephiroth, that guy. Let me watch some clips to remember what he’s all about again, hahahaa.”

Hours passed and I didn’t sleep that night, like at all. I watched every available canonical cutscene video compilation of Sephiroth on the internet and read every bit of information I could find and immediately started playing the FF7 games and reading fan-fiction and listening to One-Winged Angel for entire days on repeat and talking with people on tumblr and twitter and researching for seven days without sleep until I emerged to burn down a small village and AAAAA—so yeah.

I was freaking out, like literally trying to tell myself to stop as I just kept falling down the rabbit hole. I was so mad. It took over 20 years but I finally caved and here we are. I’m not okay. This character actually makes me insane, and believe it or not, it’s not even simping. I’m aroace as hell and pretty impervious. He just gives me brain severe damage for weirdly personal reasons. Lmao.

I’m honestly shocked with my level of self-control because I want to write essays on the character but I just stay pretty quiet.

So anyway, I guess I just like characters with silver hair :)))

Much love, anon <3

#god i’m so tired #sorry anon gfdhyjus #it was a simple question but i am bursting at the seams here #see i am writing Crow myself so he is just forever special but i rarely have had an actually developed character affect me so specifically #i don’t…get to have this very often?? I guess?? like characters other people have written that i actually have a personal connection to?? #it’s either that or i’m just reliving my 10 year old self’s obsession with vader/anakin skywalker again because i loved villains as a kid #who knows #anyway i’m normal #lol #asks #anonymous #bloody crow of cainhurst #sephiroth #ff7 vs bloodborne #fandom stuff

[lost-technology]

Okay, I'm officially weirded out. I've encountered two people recently - and one whose art I really like, who don't have my main blog blocked and don't have my Trigun sideblog blocked but have all of my other sideblogs blocked? (I have taken to the practice, before I bother reblogging something from someone, of going to the replies and going down the list of which blogs can reply to an OP or reblog. If I see any of them faded out, I know that specific blog is blocked). My best guess is that I annoyed them in another fandom and they decided to block all of the blogs they knew I had connected from one fandom blog or another, including, apparently, my very barely-used original art and writing blogs. Considering I do not recognise the names of either of them outside of Trigun fandom, I don't think they are anyone I've personally had any beef with in the past, although they might be friends of friends of people I had beef with? Or perhaps they just really, really didn't like a ship or a character preference of mine. I am assuming that, simply because one of my past fandoms had CHARACTER!OPINIONS! and subsequent ship-wars and there were a LOT of people who would just block you outright if you happened to like one certain character or another certain character. (I thought it was ridiculous, but oh well). Seems like a dumb reason to block my seldom posted to original art blogs, though.

#to be fair over in one of my fandoms some character-stanning factions would harass others #and those of us who liked both most-controversial characters were rare for a moment #and even then I was sort of in a faction for a while... #but when I was no longer in it for infighting reasons... #there was a reason why I named my sideblog as though I was escaping a cult #but maybe someone saw my header artwork and what my blog was about #and was all “one of...THOSE” and proceeded to block everything they knew connected to me #I am just really confused as to what I did to offend in such a set way #but I am guessing it has something to do with the weird angry factioning in one of my other fandoms #because that fandom was INSANE #I'm glad I'm not much interested in it anymore

[monstrsball]

aight i'll bite. who rooms with who in your setters sitcom au

thank you.

akaashi and suga live together!! kenma lives in their building and also he spends more time in their apartment than his own (he hates his roommates). tbh this goes for all of them. kageyama goes to a different college than the rest of them and he lives on campus in the athlete dorms. oikawa and atsumu live in the athlete dorms on their campus. and just to clarify, oikawa and atsumu are not roommates. (but oh my god could you imagine)

and ykw i'll expand outside the "main" six for fun. shirabu and yahaba are roommates. yes, this is as disastrous as you'd expect. semi lives in an apartment with the other stz third years (tendou, ushijima, reon, yamagata). kogane lives with goshiki.

#setters sitcom au #???? sure why not i'll give it a tag #i have this weird thing where i feel like i can't talk abt things unless someone gives me 'permission' which is why i rarely expand on #my ideas nowadays fjdklfjds so i appreciate it when people encourage me #uhhh im thinking kogane and kageyama go to the same college actually. they're on the volleyball team. #and then oikawa and atsumu are on the same team and yes this causes problems #i am brainstorming the various ways to connect other non-setter characters too!!! #side characters in the lives of the setters yk. #anyway. AGAIN. thank you for asking #sorry if i forgot any other setters... these are just the ones i'm super familiar with

[timeisacephalopod]

I absolutely hate when people accuse me of like writing myself into story (similar to Mary sue claims) because something I wrote about or a subject or some other aspect I chose is similar to or (according to my accusers) ripped straight from my life. Like the saying is "write what you know" for one, for two a "friend" I had acting like giving a character a job I had was some sort of self insert shit is dumb when every job I've ever had is somewhat unusual and a conversation starter in real life so- shocker- sticking it into a story makes a good story.

Writers having experience with something or a similar life experience to their characters doesn't mean we're writing about ourselves. I had a therapist mistake a robot story about a dad who's kid dies getting turned into a robot despite her father's distinctly anti robot politics as a reverse of my dad dying as a kid. It was actually meant as an exploration of the ownership father's feel over their daughters and the way death makes us insanely selfish to the point of ignoring any and all potential wishes for the person we lost. Bringing people back from the dead for nothing but your own self soothing is selfish and cruel, but no because my dad died as a kid this was a Trauma Reversal of that situation and like no lol. The character may have been similar to my father (who was wildly abusive but extremely charismatic, but those traits describe everyone from sports players to fuckin Ronnie Regan so it's Not That Deep) but that does not mean that is who I was writing about. He was not I was just fuckin writing a story with themes that, frankly, were more reflective of my relationship to feminism than my relationship to my father.

Anyway if you think a writer had ripped their own story off consider: maybe you're the one who is projecting because like even if that was true zero people bag on (white) men who do this, I know this because a teacher I had in film school straight up said that show he wrote about inter office law politics was about his life as a lawyer and immediately I was like "if I ever said that about something I wrote whatever story that was would be mocked to death" and I'm sure I'm not the only one in a minority group that feels that way. I can't even write Super Basic Kinda Connected to my life shit without being accused of writing about myself let alone a full blown show I'm happy to say was Me Inspired.

#winters ramblings #this accusation drives me NUTS because the implications are always clear. if i wrote it about me its cheap and bad and not worth writing #so thanks for implying THAT sarah when all i did was give a character a job i had because WORKING IN A MOVIE THEATER IS INTERESTING #and the character was a teenager i think MOST teens would WANT a job thats as kinda cool as a theater that was owned by another character #and it was a nepotism hire too so yeah sarah im sure thats SO MUCH like how i got hired at a CHAIN THEATER #like Jesus Christ the connection was BARELY surface and im accused of sriting about myself #like you know what maybe i am and maybe im fucking interesting would that be some fucking crime?? #like seriously if this was 100% what i was doing WHAT would the problem be? because LOTS of men do this #but we'd only ever bitch if that man threw in an importance to his blackness or disability or maybe a Special Relationship #otherwise men writing about themselves in story is so normal they just admit it off the cuff. because its not a fuckin crime OR 'bad' #its rarely if ever what im actually doing but if i was i dont know why that would need to be piinted out to me like an accusation #what are you accusing me of and is it YOUR problem or is a problem of my story because my story can be ripped 100% #from my life word for word moment by moment and that wouldnt make the story bad so what the fuck are you accusing me of??

[primoredial-jade]

i haven’t been playing or keeping up with genshin for over 9+ months now, but with the recent lore drops pertaining to childe and his vision, i’m suddenly interested in playing again 🤔 or at the very least, just reading into his role in the fontaine story quest 🤣🤣🤣🤣

#talks * ੈ♡‧₊ #long time no seeeee #hope everyone has been doing wonderfully <3 #it also really pains me to say but i think sumeru sucked the happiness i got out from playing genshin #i didn’t really feel as if i connected to the characters very much #all the discourse surrounding controversial topics with hoyoverse and lack of cultural diversity really turned me off i won’t lie #also artifact farming is just absolute hell on earth #also…. i love my girl characters. way more than the guy characters even #and i feel like the ladies of genshin outside of the archons/right hand (miko jean) rarely get meaningful character development/stories #there is one thing i miss dearly and that is my lovely moots on here #who i feel like have been collateral in all this mess with me and my love hate relationship with hoyoverse #miss u guys all so much!!! #and thank u for continuing to read my works all this time 🥹 i just hit 800 followers!!!!! that’s insane <3

[diseasedcube]

i could...theoretically afford the akudrive stage play bluray

#but there's OBSTACLES preventing my purchase of such a desirably rare item #one is the lack of ability to buy things off amazon (take my debit card you fucking scoundrels) #two would be that it would obliterate what little savings i have despite it being on sale rn #three is that I don't own a bluray player... #or more particularly. i don't own a bluray reader than can connect to a computer (so i can rip and share it) #and those cost AT LEAST $30 without shipping (?) so even if i bought the disc it would be worthless #also idk if it has subtitles (even japanese subtitles would be okay) #because if it doesn't...is it really worth the cost and trouble #just for a play i can't even understand a word of #and i just want the cutthroat stuff which i- idk i've actually seen a decent chunk of #at least his main scenes....and he's kind of a side character in the anime itself so why would he show up more in the play #i've seen people on twitter bragging about buying the bluray for this and i'm cringing like #RIP THE GODDAMN THING AND UPLOAD IT TO NYAASI I BEG OF YOU I'LL LITERALLY PAY YOU #omg wait wait i should fidn those posts again and offer to pay them to rip it for me :)))))) #akudama drive #rave ramblees

[computerpeople]

HE GETS IT

#hahaha this is making me think about hopw technically most of my alters are #in a way inspired by or down right a fictive of a mituna au #all of them in some way or another #bc i rp'd so many different versions and aus and bloodswaps of him that all of them latched on to at least one #i was running 15 mituna blogs at one point #txt #i get him i understand #brain damaged characters are so rare and its like i understand. i get it. i get you #we are tbi brothers and we will always be connected in our mutual stupid fucking disability

[lynslegion]

I think I finally understand the immense rage and disappointment I've seen expressed by quite a lot of wlw in regards to canon pairings in media. I'm not even sure how to put into words the way I feel right now but I'm unhappy with myself for how much I'm letting this affect me. I should be better than this but I just feel so...upset.

#and believe me i am by absolutely no means disparaging pairings between men and women #this isnt some bi/pan/heterophobic nonsense i promise you #its just when a pairing feels so utterly forced and toxic it perturbs me to an extreme degree #just let them be friends im fucking begging you theres no need to cram an unbuilt relationship with zero leadup in there #especially when theres other characters that synergize so much better with them #and believe me i would have zero issue with this if it just made fucking sense for them to be together #but its out of nowhere and completely unbelievable #just...write better relationships for fuck sake #or dont put any in at all if youre incapable of writing a natural feeling satisfying relationship #id much rather have no romance at all than something that feels so deeply wrong like this #im not gonna tag what this is about because i dont want to subject shippers that like the pairing im talking about to such negativity #i bear no ill will towards those who like it i just desperately needed to get these feelings out to calm down a bit #genuinely ripped a character from me that i felt a connection to which is so difficult with my situation #its rare to find characters that i can relate to so when theyre marred by what i consider to be a complete narrative failing its painful #i just wish i could go back and stop myself from becoming attached to them so i didnt feel so strongly about this #im sorry for ranting in the tags so much #personal

[valleyfae]

are you literally my soulmate because it terrifies me how similar we are and our taste because fuck sebastian truly has a jeremy irons vibe and i NEED him to recreate that picture i need him to play the calm and collected yet jealous and protective and possessive older man i need him to play a dark threatening twisted father figure i need him to do more pretty coquettish movies to fulfill my thirst because i'm starving so much he truly has the old hollywood star vibes and i'm so sad because i need him to do more movies with that aesthetic 💔😞 it doesn't make it better that sebastian loves that era too i need dad to indulge us!!

i love your pinterest boards they're so pretty and organized oh my god

so sorry for sending u ten million asks

I just know you wouldn’t judge me for theoretically wanting ‘more recent’ Jeremy </3

I have spent so much fucking time on Pinterest it’s concerning… those are just two sections on my films board

Send me a million I love them!!! It makes me feel like I answer my ask and not just ignore my requests that I tell myself I’ll write

#fran's mail #it’s the hand rolled cigarettes #both him an jeremy are not afraid to do play certain characters despite what others say #sebs on his way to the four decades of amazing films and having an oscar emmy and tony #i just know seb will accomplish so much #even more than he already has #i need seb in a damage type movie 😂😐 #seb who has an affair with his sons fiance #the man who knows what he’s doing is wrong and crosses the line but he’s so infatuated and follows his heart #bro… dead ringers #i would flip out holy shit #FUCKINSGAINA REVERSAL OF FORTUNE #the best jeremy movie #the intricacy and brilliance of the way they preform immoral characters is fascinating and incredible #i never really connected that #how similar they are and the roles they play #they are what i wish more actors were #their talent is so rare and not just surface level #i think my love for the way jeremy acts subconsciously drew me towards sebastian #sebastian might be modernized jeremy #don’t ask why I’ve watched all of his movies… #i had no friends when i moved to the states so i spent middle and high school distracting myself with dark novels and films #a lot of those films and novels recommended by my teacher #like mine #my #mine #myyyy #i don’t wanna talk about it

[lesbianstarlightglimmer]

me: so i’ve been playing around with my iPad and learning to draw on procreate

mom: oh cool what have you been drawing?

me: oh just a character from that show i like the owl house

her: oh is it the witch one?

me: that. does not narrow it down at all. theyre all witches except one...

her: the mean looking one? the one that looks more like a classic witch

me: ???? Are you talking about hunter??? red eyes?

her: yeah that one isn’t he your favorite?

me: ????

#meows #i mean he is ofc but like. how did she even know that??? i never talk about the owl house around my family #bc 1. this is the same mother who refused to let me watch the grimm adventures of billy and mandy bc of the grim reaper #and was also hesitant for me to dress as a classic witch once when i was in elementary school #2. it has lgbt stuff in there so i rarely bring it up so if my mom somehow finds something on msn about like lumity kiss or raine #shed hopefully forget that was the show i watched #am i that predictable that she can glance at a character on a show i like and go ''yeah thats their favorite''??????? #and i explained to her that he isnt even technically a witch but a grimwalker so its like #it also makes me...a bit scared what else they can just ''find out'' about me at a glance #i was worried for a bit that my f*thers ipad had somehow gained access to my gmail account thats connected to my #fun stuff like social media and whatnot and theyre both very against social media and since ik i also have emails about gay shit #i was like shit what if theyve found out im gay/nonbinary?? but it turns out somehow it was just making it to where if my f*ther #sent an email it would say it was from me when it wasnt. #anyways. my moms a wizard ig

[majormeilani]

people will hear "your characters are tools that help you tell a story" and take that to mean "oh so i should make this character a plot device and nothing more"

#personally i hate the concept of characters existing solely for the sake of being a plot device 😞 #i rarely (if ever) see it executed well or in a way that makes me happy #and characters who are just plot devices i have trouble connecting with he #them or even LIKING them sometimes

[impossible-rat-babies]

making a timeline for eyrie and it really is like you hit 50 and you’re life just took a downhill turn there huh

#it might have been earlier I dunno! #their dad died and they ended up on their own #and were taking on apprentices by 75 and had their first child #me handing my oc trauma liek you would be a terrible parent. you would be the best parent #listen eyrie isn’t lacking in the having had a supportive and caring family #they were well loved and knew it. they just ended up in a position #one they knew they would end up living where they ended up incredibly lonely #and that messed them up quite a bit. they’ve got some issues having been lonely for so long #issues they don’t address. impulses they rarely act on bc they’re ashamed of their loneliness #it’s why they didn’t talk to thancred about how they slept together for a long time #their secretiveness is merely forgetfulness. them forgetting they can talk about themselves #and/or it’s them realizing they’re forgetting and continuing to push that under the rug #oc: eyrie kisne #they mean so much to me even though they are so messed up #they would care for a child to a degree of unhealthiness they cannot trust themselves with #they know it and it’s why they’re so hesitant to connect w their daughters #they weren’t part of their lives so what connects them besides blood? #they’re so worried. they wouldn’t call one of their daughters their daughter bc they don’t like how it would change things #it would change nothing but they fear that change #you know after Pollux there’s something that tickles my fancy about incorrectly self aware characters #the worst judges of their own character #edit; they had other reasons for not talking to thancred about sleeping together the one time #it was an impulsive choice and one of those feelings of this is a one time affair sorta thing #they weren’t a stranger to that and neither was thancred #they probably slept together several times but you know