#you know after Pollux there’s something that tickles my fancy about incorrectly self aware characters

[impossible-rat-babies]

making a timeline for eyrie and it really is like you hit 50 and you’re life just took a downhill turn there huh

#it might have been earlier I dunno! #their dad died and they ended up on their own #and were taking on apprentices by 75 and had their first child #me handing my oc trauma liek you would be a terrible parent. you would be the best parent #listen eyrie isn’t lacking in the having had a supportive and caring family #they were well loved and knew it. they just ended up in a position #one they knew they would end up living where they ended up incredibly lonely #and that messed them up quite a bit. they’ve got some issues having been lonely for so long #issues they don’t address. impulses they rarely act on bc they’re ashamed of their loneliness #it’s why they didn’t talk to thancred about how they slept together for a long time #their secretiveness is merely forgetfulness. them forgetting they can talk about themselves #and/or it’s them realizing they’re forgetting and continuing to push that under the rug #oc: eyrie kisne #they mean so much to me even though they are so messed up #they would care for a child to a degree of unhealthiness they cannot trust themselves with #they know it and it’s why they’re so hesitant to connect w their daughters #they weren’t part of their lives so what connects them besides blood? #they’re so worried. they wouldn’t call one of their daughters their daughter bc they don’t like how it would change things #it would change nothing but they fear that change #you know after Pollux there’s something that tickles my fancy about incorrectly self aware characters #the worst judges of their own character #edit; they had other reasons for not talking to thancred about sleeping together the one time #it was an impulsive choice and one of those feelings of this is a one time affair sorta thing #they weren’t a stranger to that and neither was thancred #they probably slept together several times but you know