#feels like im 15 again

[princemick]

anyway, uh, hoping I feel uh yk, semi alive/ok by Thursday so I can do the race week stuff

#i honestly dont even feel a sprinkle of enthousiasm for f1 rn #idk why #feels very no more hyperfixation but that wud b weird bc I've never in my life lost a fixation this suddenly #i just idk think its the depressive spiral I'm on #bc nothing not even painting makes me enthousiastic rn #only the sims and thats more bc it makes the timr go by fast #anyway it sucks #i feel shit #haven't been this just #bland like neutral nothing in years n its exausting #i just wanna sleep n play the sims n if that isnt THE biggest show of me not doing okay idk what is #dont feel motivation to dress nice. be nice. be social. make things. feeling nothing #just wanna sleep and waste away time #feels like im 15 again #v fun #my mom went 'oh no we heard that before' when I went down to finally make food and said I'd been playing the sims #n i was like 'its just been two days' n she just looked like .... #anyway yea #I'm fine #ill b fine #I'm on my period i hope n think that's just it

[azaleasdaylight]

Suzanne collins is a certified GENIUS because by making most of the book about the PUBLICITY of the rebellion and not the fight itself, she was telling us that wars are won by who persuades more- who controls the narrative .

#the hunger games #suzanne collins #mockingjay supremacy #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #young adult #in my hunger games era #feeling like im 15 again reading these books #hunger games deserved an oscar nomination #everlark #suzanne collins is a genius #hunger games is a classic

[rileyclaw]

ohhh hh you two wanna fight an oversized goop slug in the woods so bad....

#what if we held hands and got jumped by belos bc we remind him of caleb and the witch #[[gets mobbed by 16 thousand people]] #ANYWAYS . i LOVE hunters new hair and his dorky comfy sweater. i have a sweater exactly like it actually #and i do wear it a lot so this is great for my gender ! #willow park #hunter toh #huntlow #the owl house #toh spoilers #toh season 3 #it feels so good to use those tags again holy shit #my art #how am i supposed to be normal until october 15?? a month from now?? i feel sick NOW with anticipation #i have no idea what willows fit really is supposed to look like so im going with this until canon proves me otherwise !! #same with their shoes im like convinced theyre actually wearing canvas sneakers but i think boots are cooler

[shibuiking]

#40k #orikan the diviner #trazyn the infinite #orizyn #adeptus mechanicus #my self insert magos id been wanting to do for a while ahah #so i can keep an eye on mu-15 in universe B) #also fun to translate my usual very fleshy undead sona to smth mechanical #orikan and trazyn r funny for sooooo many reasons but the one i can stop thinking abt is how it Feels like a usual tsundere thing bt #trazyn is both suave and The Rizzler or whatever whilst also being like 'damn who dropped a mountain on orikan' (he did) #damnnn who let that genestealer loose... #why are you both so fucking complicated #then again it might just be his amazing commitment to the bit #sry i keep posting a ton of tags w the 40k stuff i just have shit to say. im loving it so much #the idea of trazyn enjoying ribbing orikan soooo much that Yes hes a little in love but also doesnt want to change how they act @ each other #coz its so fun and stupid and hes actually having fun (an emotion thought totally lost) #holding my head in my hands

[thefrogdalorian]

The Mandalorian - Chapter 17: The Apostate

#GUESS WHO CAN GIF NOW WOO #i love when the mandalorian is just shots panning up din djarin's hulking form... cinema #din djarin #the mandalorian #pedro pascal #mando #mandalorian edit #din djarin edit #din djarin gif #the mandalorian gif #star wars #star wars gifs #din #MY GIFS #!! #feel like im 15 again ngl #ugh the way he moves his hands like tat IM FERALLSGK WOOF #din edits

[firstofficerkittycat]

[sexting u] ur 1960s kirk spock internalised homophobia analysis wouldnt make it 5 seconds on twitter

#spirk #shitposting #kind of problematic of u to think the scene where kirk hits spock for talking about his feelings is meaningful :/ it shouldnt exist :/ #ok but tgis made me remember my fav this is problematic post on here in the golden age it was fuckig #''fuck camp camp it made me so uncomfortable when max yelled at the little hitler boy and gave him a panic attack im nauseous rn'' #post of all fucking time i think of her often #tragically it wasnt a popular post i just found it on someones blog and it had like 3 notes so i will never find it again💔 #but ots out there.......somewhere #but also like im glad it didnt get popular cus they were prolly like 15 and would be embarassed about it now #still a national treasure.......apple of my eye.......hitler panic attack post

[ilynpilled]

why must everything that the text clearly states atp be misconstrued like i really dont get it he has plenty of flaws in that relationship but we, and cersei, know that he was ready to kill robert for just the disrespect of the cheating if cersei said the word. he doesnt concern himself with the personal consequences, he is reckless, detached from a lot of things, and can close his eyes at the future if he doesn’t want to acknowledge it. also the concern over the “shame” and ned type judgement feels so overestimated to me atp. he never regrets aerys, he is mad at how he is perceived (but again, notably doesnt try to rectify it by telling the truth for a lot of complex reasons), but he would never take it back. if he believes its the right thing to do, and is not overdosing on copium trying to juggle vows he cares about, he will do it, reputation be damned. though he has selfish concerns regarding being viewed as good, the internal matters so much more than the external: see weirwood dream: who actually shows up? what makes the fire go out? “it was not him. it was never him”, see the trebuchet fiasco, see the choice in adwd. why shouldnt we take cersei at face value when she implies that if jaime knew about the physical abuse he would have killed him? he loves and cares about cersei to an insane degree, even if he can be selfish toxic and unhealthy too. i really find it very very difficult to imagine that he wouldnt have killed him based on almost every single part of his characterization.

#ik its better to reply than to do this but i dont use my twitter for fandom and i keep seeing this general sentiment over and over again #like it makes him so inconsistent and nonsensical #i don’t understand this whole jaime was never there for cersei prehandloss he was at her disposal for almost everything he would have maimed #a child just bc she asked like what??? #u think that wouldnt have shamed him?? #he gave up almost everything for her at 15 #and im gonna be real if u r frustrated by jaime burning the letter being framed as this grand triumphant redemptive choice #by people #which i get i dont think its framed like that either #its just as unfair to treat it as the opposite #it is the end of a certain delusion #which is why the joanna dream is the focal point #and #he can divorce himself he has no obligation to die to try save her atp #and remain her sword #i dont see him as the literal devil for that sorry #i feel like some of u feel the need to misconstrue his character to make some of these choices out to be as bad as possible

[invisible-brandy]

rewatched phil's video this morning again and the first story got me thinking again about how teenage me was convinced that everyone in the lgbtq community believed that dating people who are still (partially or not) closeted was a bad thing and if you're closeted you will need to out yourself for the relationship. which filled me with insane amounts of dread at times, obviously.

and now phil's coming out in college mention? idk i love them both so much. i love that phil did that for him. they are both so devoted to each other ("that's the plan") and are ready to give into each other and support each other ugh no that's it im getting genuinely emotional over them

#regardless of whether the anon was alluding to dnp with that story #i remember being like 15 and feeling so bad about being in the closet thinking ill never be able to have a partner of the same gender #bc i thought i would never be brave enough to come out to my family #and then discovering that im trans and feeling this all over again but worse #oof oversharing in the tags #dnp #dan and phil #phan #hdgh.txt

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[thewinchestah]

back to using tumblr the way god intended:

having a meltdown of a liveblogging session with the unhinged silly cringey fangirling levels to a 2013 superwholock high

i suddenly feel alive again. My lizard brain is satisfied. I’m barking at the tv. I’m fine. I’m happy. Nothing bad has ever happened to me.

#living like I don’t know that the plot from this show is gonna wreck me for WEEKS #I KNOW SOMETHING REALLY BAD IS COOKING BUT #IM JUST #HAPPPPPOYYYYYYY #I FEEL 14-15 AGAIN #LIFE IS GOOD #Arr%mbaran nembmmeymymu qyaeti meu deumus do ceu deixaxwucitmr #hazbin hotel

[phoebeejeebies]

I’m gonna be strange in ur askbox …

Pheobe and Melody thoughts!! uh mm m

pheobe knows that she’ll never see Melody again. At least not for a while.

But she’ll talk to her. Even if she can’t hear her.

“Uh.. if you can hear me in the fabric of the universe, I miss you.”

And she’ll ramble on and on about what’s going on in her life. Maybe she’ll cry a little. Maybe she’ll cry a LOT.

can melody hear her from the other side? Maybe . Pheobe hopes she can.

Melody can hear her and listens to every word. Melody memorizes all of what Pheobe says. Melody will memorize what Pheobe says beat for beat and play the melody (get it?) in her head over and over again when she misses that damn ghostbuster.

Melody wishes she stayed, sometimes.

Melody wishes she didn’t let go, sometimes.

It gnaws at her spirit - it gnaws at the peace she feels in passing on.

But Pheobe is reminded of Melody’s weaving into the fabric of the universe when it’s the perfect temperature outside, when she gets a rush of adrenaline, when nights are quiet and she can work in peace.

Melody sprinkles little things into the world, just for her Pheobe.

The stars shine a little brighter and maybe for a little bit , Pheobe feels whole again.

you make me sick. thank you for sharing. im ill. (all /pos) UUGHAAHNFGG you GET IT. PHOEBE AND MELODY are THEEEE doomed yuri. the way that this relationship will irreparably affect her for the rest of her life. moving on is hard enough, but knowing that you were in love with a GHOST GIRL and you see her in EVERYTHING you do. phoebe takes doomed yuri and ramps it up a little 😭😭😭

i read something that was similar recently. i forgot where. but phoebe would talk about her feelings when she things no one is listening but secretly hope melody is listening. it helps her move on, even if she knows logically melody is gone. but is she really? she's in everything. she was everything. tells her about her day, about her family. how things get better, get easier, get worse sometimes. healing has never been a linear process after all :')

and then on the other side, melody :''') manifesting good things for phoebe. partially because of the tiny tugging guilt melody has for her lack of honesty - because phoebe had grown on her. she goes out of her way to just make the world a little bit lighter, a little bit kinder, more beautiful. phoebe grows a fondness for the moon, for the stars in the sky. for the warm evenings and cloudy mornings, for the busy-ness of new york city.

phoebe makes an effort to go to melody's diner routinely. she becomes a regular. she just misses her. so much.

(i accidentally KEPT rambling in the tags. i didnt mean to T_T)

#and i dont blame her #some of my most soulcrushing relationships happened when i was 15-16 and even as an adult i carry that with me now #it gets easier because you learn to move on #but she's not quite there yet #she's still learning to love and learn how to be alive #melody helps her learn to feel alive again #honestly phoebe probably falls into a state of depression after frozen empire #the guilt from her feelings overcoming her rational and accidentally almost causing the end of the world #and then knowing she's been used by a girl she Really Liked #and then feeling surrounded by this girl. all the time. im sure sometimes she doesnt even feel like she deserves to be a ghostbuster #her family help #podcast helps #but i think ray helps the most and tells her about stories the ghostbusters used to do #and she learns about her grandpa who also did silly things sometimes #and she will be okay :') she will learn #things will get easier - better even #phoebe and melody #ghostbusters #ghostbusting #ghostbusters frozen empire #phoebe spengler #melody ghostbusters #mangobango #checkmatch #phelody

[princemonday]

what are your guys thoughts on batboys ages?

#in my head...dick is 30 jay is 23 tim is maybe 19/20 and damian is 14 #this is my case.. #dick was 18 when he became nightwing. giving maybe a year of leeway before jay became robin at 12 that would make them 7 years apart #jay died at 15 so again giving like...idk 2/3 years between his death and tim becoming robin at 14 that makes them 3 years apart at most #then damian is canonically 14 #so dick is 30 jay is 23 tim is 19/20 and damian is 14 #im aware that newer canon puts jay and dick a lot closer to 3/4 years apart so dick would be alot younger #but i choose to go off of jason becoming robin at 12 so i can imagine the gen z vs millenial convos between dick and the others #bruce would be around 45 for me...somedays more like 50 #which would make him about 24 when he adopted dick #so....idk #feel free to argue with me #batfam #batfamily #batboys #bruce wayne #batman #dc #nightwing #dick grayson #robin #red hood #jason todd #red robin #tim drake #damian wayne #dc comics #...💌 #...🦇

[crossedwiress]

when i open my eyes, i hope to see your face

#here's a moodboard ig #i literally made this in 15 mins pls be kind #also i feel like ive used this calum pic before but idc im using it again #bc neck <33 jaw <33 bead necklace <333 #cake #my moodboard #e*creations #calum #luke

[mwagneto]

thinking abt 10 and 14

#please immliterally going to die #characters of all time. same guy but not the same guy. they're even gay #AND ONLY 3 WEEKS TIL I SEE 15 OH MY GOFFDIDJDFIFJDJFJDNFNDN #HDHHDFUDHFUDJJFJDDJ #dude we are so fucking BACKKKKK #it's so hard coz i rly liked 13s era too at the time but in retrospect i get why ppl dont #but it feels like I'm betraying her when im like ughh so glad dr who is good again #coz i love herrr...but im so glad dr who is good again. #WHILE GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #doctor who #10th doctor #14th doctor #dw text #yes it's 3.15 in the morning leave me alone. araf and i had like a 3 hr meltdown abt 10 and 14 we're going thru a lot

[corfisers]

i really need to finish this one day

#one of my fave ideas but i keep getting stuck or starting over. third time's the charm hopefully #anyways. posting it as an excuse to rant because i'm losing my mind over this rn for no reason #incoherent but i just need to Talk or my brain won't shut up #you ever think about how fucked up it is that aoi feels guilty over what happened. i do. i think about her a lot #he can't even look at me. we aren't even blood related but he still had to go to jail because of me. i still love him #in reality none of it is her fault. it shouldn't be about doumeki in the first place. baby girl you were 15 when it happened. #you can say that yashiro is cruel in his dismissiveness (on the surface) of doumeki's trauma but you can see where he's coming from #you got a glimpse of what your sister was going through? of what i went through? and now you're sooo guilty over it? and who does it help? #doumeki's so focused on his own feelings that he ignored aoi when they were living together. “saves” her by pure chance #proceeds to focus on his guilt and ignore her again. if yashiro didn't get involved she'd be sitting in the rain for god knows how long #yet she still loves and to some degree idolizes him #yashiro and aoi both saying that doumeki isn't the type of person to be a yakuza too. doumeki's good doumeki's better than that #and then ch 24 happens. where yashiro says that he's going to throw up and doumeki's response is “i probably won't stop even if you do” #“guess i am like my father after all” and yashiro still goes “you're not. you're pure and im the problem” #(touches doumeki's face. rare gentle gesture. he's gentle afterwards too before leaving. man.) #he's not cruel enough to repeat what he said in the earlier conversation and he doesn't actually believe it anyway #but i wish yashiro was cruel there. it shouldn't have been about doumeki and his feelings. again. #something about yashiro throwing a knife at another person and it flying back at him huh #for all the talk about how doumeki supposedly romanticizes yashiro it really is the other way around. always has been #which is a whole other conversation but yeah. everything about aoi and yashiro in relation to doumeki makes me so fucking sad #but this is also what i mean when i say that aoi doesn't haunt the narrative per se but still has this weird presence? #she's in the parallels. she's in the brief but important mentions. she's in the “your sister was lucky she had you”. #wips tag

[milkbreadtoast]

twsb is rly easy to read tbh... if anyones intimidated abt reading it bc theyre bc not used to reading novels rest assured... its engaging & fun but also written in like a v easy to follow way imo? like theres a lot of dialogue + paragraph breaks after almost every sentence, no walls of text here

#read twsb its funnn #😚😚 #im still rereading early twsb and i feel insane i feel insane i feel insane i feel insane i feel insane I FEEL INSANE AAAAAAAAAAAA #twsb liveblog #update: GOT TO CH 20 AGAIN AND CRYING MY EYES OUT #OUGUGHFHFHFHH CH 15 AND CH 20..... #edit: got to 21 #im so normal and sane i'm like the sanest and most mentally stable twsb fan #absolutely do not feel like eating rocks and using lava as shampoo