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sleepless

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Shortparis in Shanghai 18.04.24 cr: 荒橙玉色

#photography #shortparis

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me defending trans men online: we’re actually oppressed for being women

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the problem with recommending saezuru (which i don't do anyway, but let's pretend i do) is that i feel like you have to see the car crash first to not take some things at face value

#i know you can say it about anything really but still #like. yeah read saezuru if you're curious. then read it again #doumeki saying “it's not rape if the victim doesn't hate it” is a loaded statement but you can take it at face value the first time #because it's somewhat innocuous in the context of the scene when he says it. not in the context of Everything though. it's things like that #idk i keep thinking about a mutual saying how maybe doumeki and yashiro were doomed from the start. maybe they were #at least as far as the first arc goes when you know how it ends you can see all the signs on a reread and it really does feel inevitable #but you might ignore some signs at first either because you're inclined to romanticize things a bit or don't know where to look yet #i'm so so normal about it can you tell #saezuru tag

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mr. "aren't we all a little bi" nanahara

#my man really went from “woah... gay people...wild...” to “i guess straight people exist huh” in a span of 10 years #saezuru tag

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"it's just a question and all you have to do is answer" loses its exonerating force when you understand that one of the many tools used by institutions of power is epistemic extortion. it's just a question, but who is time and time again asked the same question and who is spared the trouble? who has explanations and disavowals demanded of them on the daily and whose innocence is assumed from the start? all we have to do is answer and you'll let it go? no, we've learnt better: it isn't about our answers but your license to ask the questions ceaselessly, directing scrutiny our way in a collective project to seek out our sins. it doesn't actually matter what we say—you'll be back here tomorrow demanding more words, more reasoning and defense. and because what you demand is perfection, which does not exist anywhere on this world, you will find a trivial fault if you press for long enough. so why answer at all? such a silly, silly, unrelentingly violent game.

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being obsessed w a piece of media is so scary. what if my mutuals see how insane i go about it and think oh i gotta check out what this is about and then think it sucks and kill me with rocks. what if they hate my favorite characters

#if a mutual read saezuru and came out of it hating yashiro i'd be the one doing the killing with rocks. and i won't even feel remorse. #text

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Photography: “A Palestinian demonstrator sews a Palestinian Liberation Organization flag before a protest during the first Intifada”, February, 1988. Photography: Patrick Robert

#photography #palestine

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if you would like trans women to stop being suspicious of your intentions as a tme person you should probably take the very important step of not making it about you LOL like it actually really is not about you as an individual at all. part of having friends that are marginalized in ways you aren't - something that needs to be accepted to even get to this point - is listening to them discuss violence/oppression/control enacted on them by people in a group you belong to and accepting that they aren't fucking attacking you personally. how do you think people will come to trust you if you've positioned yourself to assume they look down on you specifically?

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saying this as a trans man, i feel like at least half of this so called "fear of masculinity" in queer spaces other trans mascs talk about is just them no longer being treated like women

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free my girl she did all that but you people are only focusing on the actions that affected your male blorbo because his hurt feelings are more important to you than trying to understand her

#yes this is about yakuza yaoi i'm sorry #most of yashiro's unarguably shitty actions are in early chapters but we sure love to talk about the conversation in the car don't we #but also angela oh my god angela. the misogyny magnet. i love you robot woman i'm so sorry about the fandom #honestly there's a woman in any media that would fit this i just rotate the same two in my mind forever and always #benvey tag

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i was re-watching ‘maya angelou: still i rise’ & lost my mind & heart during this reading of ‘the mask’ so i decided to record + upload for anyone who would also like to be brought to tears. 

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can't write trans yashiro meta without writing down the bisexuality meta first, can't write the bisexuality meta without bringing up transgender reading. oh the misery

#future me problem im not writing anything rn #the bi stuff would be much shorter and ill start with that either way #but the two topics are inseparable to me #even though one i consider canon and the other is just subtext that's there For Some Reason #i guess it's just like. gender take makes it make more sense #add a few more layers as to why it doesn't quite work out with women #on top of existing canon ones that revolve around trauma and coping mechanisms #tldr yashiro should hook up with a dom lady i think it would clear things up a bit #alas we're neck deep in traditional gender roles and shit #the only somewhat gnc woman is aoi and she's outside of the system #also like. considering all the parallels between her and yashiro #the fact that she gets to have more comfortable gender expression #while yashiro is stuck with the dress code and all the other bullshit #the fact that he grew out his hair a tiny bit and then the moment he goes out with his hair down #it's like. “you don't look like a yakuza. you shouldn't show up with your hair like that in front of others” #doumeki im going to bite your dick off #where was i? right thr subtext. that's just there. in abundance

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male characters can be "female-coded" for ambiguous suffering but god forbid you start actually headcanoning them as trans women

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miss my roommate sometimes because i crave opening cans, getting stuff from high places and carrying bags from a grocery store for her

#born to serve women forced to be a mentally ill recluse #benvey tag

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transmisogyny is a system of fear. you realize that right. you realize why it 100% makes sense for ppl to b more willing to suggest that ppl might b queer in literally any other way right. like it’s not good or right but it’s a system of fear and there’s no need to pretend it isn’t. there are many things worth doing despite the cost and being a beautiful transsexual is one of them. laugh in the face of death until you lose all your breath, live forever after in my heart.

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#sorry for boobs on main i'm just thinking about this again #like. all This and the fact that his interaction with doumeki at tsunakawa's doesn't get him going. neither does thinking back on it later #doumeki undressing and kissing him has no effect too (was enough in the past) but then the thought of doumeki with a woman is what does it? #and that damn kiss in the elevator too when there's a random lady present #AUGH killing and biting and chewing on all the subtext that's just There it's there it's right there if you want to take it #i don't know Why it's there because i know for sure it's not where the story is going but fuck man #do you want doumeki with a woman or do you want to be the woman with doumeki #to have a body that doesn't make you feel sick the moment someone shows some gentleness and kindness #sorry. normal now. #nsft #nudity #idk boobs okay? #saezuru tag