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pullecenella · 1 year

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wow i finally made an appointment to get new contacts after months of wearing old prescriptions & having blurry vision bc of it. a victory for this anxious adult 😅

#eventually i will go to the doctor #baby steps I guess

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greencarnation · 6 months

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eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him

#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds #but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve #when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was #but ok listen #its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him #episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun #episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind #and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people #episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing #all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror #like obviously we know why but amy didnt #this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry #and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate #you would make a good dalek ect ect ect #anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go #i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great #doctor who #eleven #amy #eleventh doctor #matt smith #dr who #dw #i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him #eleven was careening completely out of control #how long til doctor means warrior indeed?#mine

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zephyrchama · 4 days

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Water Wrinkles

Seven demon brothers sat solemnly in a circle around you. You did your best to ignore them. It wasn't often that you got to spend time at the human world villa, and you were intent on soaking up as much sun as you could before returning to the Devildom.

You reclined your beach chair back, crossing your arms under your still-wet hair. It was a gorgeous day. Perfect for being at the pool.

Leviathan let out a muffled sob. As the demon with the highest affinity for water, he blamed himself.

"Let us take you to a hospital," Satan insisted for the tenth time.

"They're going to laugh us out of the ER," you nonchalantly repeated.

Satan lowered his eyes and muttered, "I couldn't find any traces of a curse in the water... So how...?"

Asmodeus had his head in his hands, unresponsive. Sometimes his fingers curled around the ends of his hair. You briefly glanced over to make sure he didn't pull his hair out - that would be grounds for a real emergency.

"I can't bear to watch. Lucifer, do somethin'," Mammon whined. He was fidgeting all over the place and winced whenever he looked at your feet.

The oldest glared at you. You knew it was out of concern, but his fears were unfounded. Even Lucifer refused to listen to reason when he thought you were in danger.

"Actually, yeah. Lucifer, can you pass me a towel?" you asked. It was embarrassing having seven shirtless demons intensely staring at you. If they wouldn't let you go back in the water, maybe covering up would make you feel less self-conscious.

Lucifer didn't move. It was Beelzebub who plucked a spare towel off his younger twin and handed it to you with a shaking arm. He looked like a wet puppy, having been the one who first discovered your "condition" and swept you out of the pool.

Belphegor hadn't gone in the water that day. He only hogged the plush towels because of how comfortable they were and, following Beelzebub's lead, dumped them all onto your chair. Now he sat, wide awake. He was anxiously squeezing a loose chunk of concrete but at some point, without realizing, it got crushed to powder in his hand.

You had more than enough towels now.

"In half an hour you're going to forget this all even happened," you said to reassure the worry warts.

"In half an hour, you might be gone!" Mammon snapped back.

"You're going to be a wrinkled mess of skin and bones," Asmodeus weeped quietly.

Leviathan pressed his hands over his ears. Though, with nothing to cover his eyes he was forced to look at your wrinkled hands again. Based on the noises he was making, you'd think someone was torturing him.

"As I've said!" you reiterated. "All humans get wrinkly in water. Look, now that I'm drying off it's going back to normal."

Beelzebub grabbed your ankle, raising it for the brothers to observe at eye level. "I don't see a difference."

You didn't expect the sudden manhandling and slunk several inches down the lounge chair while the demons stared at your foot. Kicking and twisting your leg was futile. You modestly crossed your free leg.

"I think it's getting worse," Satan said.

"We need to take action," Lucifer decided.

Asmodeus was actively quivering now. Belphegor and Leviathan had crept behind you and started picking at your wrinkly fingers. You tried to swat them away to no avail.

"Give me 25 minutes! Literally! Probably even less, this will go away on its own! I just need to dry off."

"We need a solution now," Mammon asserted. The cogs in his brain were turning. "We need fire."

You tried to sit up, to jump up and stop Mammon before he burned the whole villa down in an attempt to dry you off, but Beelzebub had not let go and you stumbled. You grazed your knee on the concrete and winced.

A second round of panic overcame the demon brothers. Beelzebub let go, Lucifer picked you up, and Belphegor wrapped your knee with every available towel he could lay his hands on. Asmodeus and Leviathan were crying on each other's shoulders. Mammon came running back, oblivious to the second disaster that just occurred, with a flaming stick in his hand that Satan tried to keep at bay. If you got burnt on top of everything else, they'd probably go insane and destroy the human world.

In the midst of the chaos you caught a glimpse of your hand. It was practically dry. You couldn't even see the wrinkles anymore. You angrily wiggled in Lucifer's grasp as various hands fussed over you.

"Stay!!" you shouted over the clamor.

The brothers went tumbling to the ground, save for Lucifer who fought to stay rooted in place. You could finally hear yourself think again. There was primarily one thought on your mind.

"I just want to go swimming."

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puppetmaster13u · 1 day

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Prompt 326

“So erm, how are we going to explain… this…?” Sam motioned around at the entirety of them with a clawed hand, an unimpressed expression on her maw.

“I mean, we could just, not do so?” Danny sounded a tiny bit uncertain about that, own claws tapping against his legs from where he sat. “I mean, Tucker seems happy enough-”

“Okay, I didn’t come here to be called out like this-”

#DCxDP #DPxDC #Prompts #Halfa Trio #Therianthrope Trio #What were-creature are they? Wonderful Question #On the bright side no one is going to expect them as ghosts #Wulf (staring at them): Tiny Baby Friends :0 #This is not a good time for a small team of heroes to start investigating the town #”I mean- they’ll assume we’re hiding the fact we’re werefolk not ghosts right??”#Hazmat Au #Or close enough hence why their identities aren’t immediately sussed out #Storm Core Tucker #Life Core Sam #Space Core Danny #Y’know what it’d be hilarious if their outfits eventually shift into things like plague doctor or medieval beekeeper #Y’know things where the mask becomes the face lol

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nipuni · 8 months

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AAHHH I just finished watching Doctor Who S2 and the following special and I'm obsessed 😭 I wish I had watched this show sooner, it's wonderful!! we are loving it and we are going to watch it all 🥰

#personal #Our plan is to catch up so we can watch the new special coming out soon...eventually because it looks amazing #it's going to take us a while since we watch it during meals but we will get there!!#We skipped S1 and started from S2 tho so now I don't know if we should go back to watch S1 before we continue? 😫 I blame David's charm #I'm so in love with the doctor!!! character of all time #rotating him in my mind permanently from now on #I'm buying merch as we speak oh they got me bad with this one #DW report

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puppyeared · 2 months

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adhd is when you shoot for the moon but you forgot the rocket fuel and by the time you realize it everyones already on the moon and then you panic and crash into the sun and it explodes

#my meds stopped working and i didnt know thats something that can fucking happen apparently???#like i knew eventually my body can get used to medicine that the effect kind of dulls but for some reason this time around i thought #that my body just decided to become lazier since the meds were already working anyway. cuz thats the thing as soon as smth is made #easier for me even if its the thing thats supposed to make the disability less disabling i get too relaxed and end up fucking up anyway #so i assumed my fucking cells worked the same way LMAO. they still technically work like i can feel my energy spike when it kicks in #but everything else like focus and memory went down and i thought oh so its just a me problem then. my habits are getting worse #even though ive been doing everything the same like setting reminders checking my schedule. hell ive been setting MORE reminders #to make up for the memory thing and i didnt even realize i just knew i had to compensate since it feels like my memory is getting #worse again. and i only figured this out bc my brother showed me an icecreamsandwich video with him talking about the EXACT FUCKING #THING IM GOING THRU WORD FOR WORD #i have to bring this up with my doctor next week so maybe i have to take different meds. i wonder if this will be a recurring thing #i guess one thing that hasnt changed is that im still slow as hell and stuff only comes to me 5 hours after the fact #its 6 in the morning and i only JUST realized that the word froyo is probably short for frozen yogurt #yapping #adhd

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edwardshundredyearoldspunk · 25 days

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what if I told you fifteen is actually suicidal? what if I told you his little speech about having felt everything and having experienced everything is the main source of his trauma? what it I told you he feels lost, aimless, thinks he has no purpose? what if I told you he's fucking bored with life? what it I told you he is almost definitely going to start engaging in impulsive thrill seeking behavior just to feel something? and what if I told you that, just like how rose was there to pull nine back from his anger, ruby is there to pull fifteen back from his apathy just by being so alive?

#doctor who #doctor who spoilers #our boy is struggling okay #he's riding that toxic positivity train #but it's not going to work for long #btw I don't think this means he didn't actually heal from all the trauma his previous regenerations had #he wasn't lying in the giggle when he said he was fine #it's just that y'know once you process all that trauma #it's kind of hard not to think ''without that what am i left with?''#you kind of have to build up an entire new worldview #and fifteen is trying so hard to do that by acting like he's fine #but eventually it'll catch up to him I promise you

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xenocorner · 1 year

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I bring yall more white haired Stephen from my ironstrange AU

I had this one gathering dust in my wips since January. I didn't go into as much detail with the clothes rendering as I originally wanted to, but I honestly just wanted to see it done already xd

In this AU Stephen's initial journey and appearance is very similar to the MCU's, but... He goes through some extra shit later on. Because of course he does :]

Maybe I'll share more of this AU in later posts :D

#Oh and he is married to Tony Stark in this AU #Because of course he is #But they go through some shit as well #Because I adore angst <3 #They have an eventual happy ending tho #Keyword: eventual #doctor strange #doctor strange fanart #ironstrange #dr strange #marvel #marvel fanart #digital art #digital drawing #illustration

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buildoblivionthenwewilltalk · 5 months

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i’m sorry but no tardis crew quite lives up to the ‘peter pan and the lost boys’ allegations like team five

#doctor who #the way he’s floating through space and time with a ship full of strays #all orphans or exiles and stowaways #all of them running after someone who didn’t grow up #who shed his last face for something younger and lighter #boyish and bright #but everyone has to leave eventually #both Nyssa and turlough quite literally have to ‘grow up’ - duty calls them to a place where they take responsibility on their own #Tegan realises that life with the doctor is too much - she needs both feet on the ground and one day in front of the other #a life where she is safe #and Adric???? well … he never gets the chance :(#but the doctor has no darlings to go home to #he keeps on running until his curiosity catches up #nearly gets his next stray killed #so he chooses to ‘die’#what an awfully big adventure #I’m not sure that’s quite all of it or all quite right #but i am thinking …. thoughts #this might turn into something hmmmmmm #all doctors have a Peter and Wendy thing going on to some extent #but fivey just …. yes #fifth doctor #5th doctor #Classic who #meta #note here I don’t see regeneration as death as such #just change #five doesnt quite grow up onto six #but boy does he change #I am an 8/charley/never land enjoyer can you tell 😅

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the-land-of-dreams · 11 months

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IVE DONE IT. IVE FINALLY DONE IT. IVE FINALLY DONE MY BRIGHT REWRITE

May I introduce you all to Dr. Clover "Charm" McCoy!! The reason for all the different amulet designs is that Clo's 963 changes form depending on what part of the body it's put on, and is just the main charm while not on the body :-3

(also btw Clover is transfem non-binary and uses she/they pronouns, just fyi)

more info on her version of 963:

if you guys have any questions about her feel free to send me an ask about it! im genuinely really proud of them and am super excited to use them in future projects >:-D

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anarchypumpkincowboy · 18 days

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Oh man y’all the fucking combat medic bot killing off someone that’s not able to continue fighting immediately is definitely something

Like the way it just writes him off, and is directly responsible for his death, for him being disabled for a bit is pretty reminiscent of how the us government at least treats our soldiers/vets. And it being what I’m assuming is ai, thus being completely unfeeling but able to mimic it in the wrong way, and just the powers that be that programmed it to eliminate disabled soldiers without care of their families that rely on them or their ability to eventually recover from their injuries

(Speaking from experience as an american with veteran family members who’re now permanently disabled/dying from shit like agent orange idk how the Brits treat their veterans)

#boom doctor who #doctor who #doctor who spoilers #ai is genuinely going to eventually destroy us like I fully believe that #and it’ll be our own faults for using it and progressing it’s training especially in military matters

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natjennie · 1 month

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my mom got out of some scary chest surgery a little bit ago and we've just been updated that everything's good, she's breathing on her own, no intubation or respirator or oxygen or anything so that's really good. we're not 100% out of the woods but it's looking good. my family needed a fucking win.

#i was about to fully say our last name #maybe dont do that on the internet jennie #but the [redacted] family really needed something to go well.#we had to catch a break eventually. so this is really good.#im trying not to get my hopes too far up we haven't heard from the doctor or anything about the surgery itself #but it was a likelihood with her health that she was gonna need oxygen for the rest of her life #so the fact that right out of surgery she could breathe on her own is incredibly good. we're all really relieved.#i hope she's gonna feel a lot better soon

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deeznuttelasandwiches · 1 month

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I don't really have time to finish this 😭

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laugtherhyena · 3 months

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Akira and girlfriend/childhood friend that she bothers constantly (in a loving playful manner, of course)

#you see. Beni is like a cat in the sense that she'll hiss and scratch people when shown affection/hj #you get what i mean #and being a Kizuna spawn Akira tends to show physical affection to the people she likes quite often #tho generally not in a flirty way. she's just hugging and spinning people around and resting her arm/head on their shoulders #what the hell is personal space #anyways #glasses girl is Benitsuru or Beni for short (Akira calls her Clover)#she's not a fankid per say? at least not in the same vein as Akira #she's Kanata's younger sister. as she's stated to have a younger sister an an older bother that are Hikaru's bio kids #she's an year and a half older than Akira and works in the Kisaragi foundation as a doctor's assistant #so she works with he dad there #I'll elaborate on her soon but for now you should know these two are essentially low energy and high energy couple #they met because Kizuna would bring Akira to Ando for check-up when she was kid and Beni was usually around him #so Akira would go talk to her even tho Beni wasn't very interested at first. sorta just saw her like “that kid that talks to her sometimes”#Beni is like. Ew people type introvert but she warmed up to her eventually #dra #danganronpa another #oc #fankid #Akira Tomori Hatano #benitsuru ando #hyena scribbles

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pastafossa · 10 months

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Ok. TRT business and a question, cause I need feedback from readers at this point.

First: the final chapter of the Raven What If fic should be posted this week, I'm about done editing it. The bigger, much more important question: So I have a potential chapter for tomorrow. I've been worrying and fretting over posting it, not because I think it's bad, but because it's short by TRT standards, currently around 2k words, and it both frustrates me and makes me feel weirdly guilty at the thought of dropping what's so much less than my usual. I'm used to being able to write longer chapters, being able to squeeze everything I want into them, and I have a literal outline of this goddamn chapter that has this good stuff in it and I know what needs to be written. I can see it right there. The movie is playing in my head just fine. But the truth of it is, my writing is slow at the moment thanks to post-covid brain fog. I'm checking in with my doctor, I've started taking specific supplements (which I'm hoping to see results from in the next few weeks), I'm clawing my way back bit by bit, but I continue to write slowly, mostly because I either can't focus or I have to stop every few sentences to struggle with a word I can't remember. It's incredibly frustrating. The thing is though, at least I *am* writing, which gives me hope. But this is where you - the readers - come in. Because right now we have two possible paths for updates going forward for a bit. Option 1: Longer gaps between our usual chapters. If we go this road, it'll take longer but as I chip away, I'll eventually have the full planned chapter, which I'd post. This would be a chapter closer to what we've had most weeks for the past oh god like 2 years. At current speed I'd drop it in a few weeks, and then hopefully the next one would come a little faster, until eventually we're back to our usual. So basically, you'd get your big chunks when the updates do come, and the same natural endpoints and arcs as before. Drawback is obviously the time between updates, so you won't be fed as often (though I'd try to find things in my editing folder to clean up and drop, like the Raven fic).

Option 2: Shorter chapters but more regular updates. If we go this road, we'd be back to weekly updates of our adventures with Matt and Jane. There'd just be less than usual for a bit and then, hopefully as I improve, you'll see the word count begin to climb back up. So in this case, you'd be getting a weekly dose of TRT, the usual fluff and angst and action, but the catch is less overall to read (likely individual scenes rather than multiples), and potentially sudden endpoints/more cliffhangers as I 'end' at what was outlined as a scene change.

Which way I go will mostly depend on ya'll tbh. I think I can make either work, since I've managed to start writing a little again and I really, really am hoping the supplements help. But since this'll potentially alter the update schedule we've had for years, I wanted to see which you'd prefer.

So, Option One - longer gaps but long chapters - or Option Two - shorter chapters weekly. Which would you prefer?

#the red thread #i have been so gd frustrated. like it doesn't help my meds and other illnesses ALREADY cause brain fog #now i have this shit #where i can literally see in my head what needs to happen but words no go for long time #and i've gotten so used to long TRT chapters that i've been fighting the guilt over the idea of shorter chapters #so i figured i'd check in because if ya'll are actually fine with that then i'd feel better about it #alternatively i just keep plucking away and eventually drop the full length chapter #i feel like the feedback for whichever way we go will help me settle and not feel bad about longer gaps/shorter chapters #in the meantime i'm doing what i can. following doctor's orders and taking my supplements #along with writing in little chunks and editing to see if that can help me retrain whatever's been fucked up basically #so. option 1 or option 2?

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nothinggold13 · 3 months

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Two so far:

“but YOU’RE the doctor!” “Oh, I don’t look like him.”

*reads his old diary*

*plays recorder*

*steps in a puddle*

*jumps over a boulder*

*wears a tall, lumpy hat*

*murders some daleks*

*that grin. you know the one*

I support him in all his endeavours. 💛

#classic who #doctor who #the second doctor #patrick troughton #the entirety of his first season as is available on Tubi is animated #so idk if there’s live action differences that exist somewhere out there in unfinished serials?#’cause I’m just going off the reconstructions available to me rn #but my GOODNESS he has been an EXPERIENCE so far #btw for people reading all my thoughts. You should know that Tubi ONLY includes complete serials #so episodes that survived the rest of their serials being lost just… aren’t there. So I know I’m missing things that technically exist #and again I know eventually I’ll need to delve into the audio recordings! but for now I’m doing one medium at a time 😅#ANYWAY. can’t wait to meet live action Two. 😂 but animated Two is delighting me.

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